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‘Adoette is home’

Taken on my Nikon D3300 <3

If I could change my name, I would change it to Adoette-It’s such a beautiful name! It translates to ‘large tree’, I’ve always felt the most at peace when surrounded by trees so it just seems fitting :)

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‘The key to a good apple’

Taken on my Nikon D3300 <3

This song really sums up the vibes of this image

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‘Your connection is unstable’ okay??! So am I, now play the fucking cat video

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This song is gay <3

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I have fallen off the boat

It’s jetting off so fast

It’s being swallowed by the falling sun

There’s no sign of land

I can swim that great

My arms won’t coordinate

But I’ll swim, I’ll swim until my bones cave in

I don’t know why but

I have this weird instinct to survive

I kind of want to die,

But something inside wants to fight

So I’ll listen,

I’ll bite my tongue and kick on

And start the long and dreary fight to find the boat and peace again

[from ‘Thinking too much and too little all at once’ by me (mushroommushiebrain)]

I wrote this back in march, I felt like the world was running away with me and I had no control over where it would take me. I felt stranded.

I was working in an office and I wrote this on a post-it note. I felt so out of place being the youngest person working there but I knew it was temporary and I just had to keep going for a few more months. It was hard to keep going sometimes but it has been worth it, I think I’m finally catching up to the boat now.

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I spent too long in the darkroom today now and now my brain is not functioning properly, I am not living the fun fresh and funky life that I so desire. Yesterday i attempted to be one with nature and very much succeeded. All the little foresty bugs and mushroom-dwellers decided I was a good place to host a party. They had a great time- I did not. The day before that I brutally murdered an apple that was so kindly given to me by my lecturer and I was going to give it to my girlfriend (who has covid) before I mutilated it but these things happen. This week has been an absolute chaos train and the rest of it will probably be even worse. I can’t wait.

Anyway, idk why this is so far down. I’m not very good at navigating this app. Thanks for reading- I think I need to eat or sleep.

Maybe both actually

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Why is Cornwall so gay

The sky is gay

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The sky is homosexual

(Taken by my girlfriend)

The sky is gay

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I don’t feel present in my body.

I’m the ghost of my former self; watching, crying as this body ruins their hard work.

They beg to be let out but the body can’t hear.

It is simply a robot, doing what it was programmed to do and rarely deviating.

Occasionally, I’ll pick up a pen and all of myself will spill onto the page.

The robot then continues on as normal, as if nothing happened, as if this version of myself doesn’t exist.

They are only allowed to exist in the form of artful pictures and words.

But this is better than not existing at all.

[from ‘Thinking too much and too little all at once by me (mushroommushiebrain)]

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‘Gods playing chemistry,

I’ve lost my serenity,

just tipping the balance between happiness and ‘kill me’.

Satans taken my brain,

Taking me away again,

To my little bubble where I was in 2010.’

Chorus from a song I wrote last year called ‘Potato waffles are the best form of potato and you can’t convince me otherwise’.

I wrote this when I was going through a bad bought of depression and was struggling to function as a human being generally. I wanted to believe that this was the work of a higher power and I wasn’t just broken.

The last time I remembered being truly happy at this time was when I was a kid, hence the reference to 2010.

I might post the whole song, or even record it one day. For now, I’ll just post little bits here and there :)

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We’re also not in any way sleep-deprived or deleterious- that’s not us, we are not them

Me and @deathcomets are the coolest bitches on this planet- sorry everyone :/

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We’re stuck on a train rn and we’re the coolest people here, it’s so hard being us :,(

Me and @deathcomets are the coolest bitches on this planet- sorry everyone :/

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Me and @deathcomets are the coolest bitches on this planet- sorry everyone :/

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The sky is gay AGAIN

The sky is gay

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The sky is gay pt2

The sky is gay

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I can’t post what’s in my drafts cause I’d be kicked off the app for being too amazingly talented and cool

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A poem for my girlfriend <3

Don’t be scared,

Lay your thoughts to rest with me, here, on this page.

I don’t care if your handwriting looks scruffy, the permanent acknowledgment of your presence on my paper will remind me everything is okay.

Take the stage and dance with your pen, I have left space for you below my love <3