So i'm an Artist
I pain't, i write poetry, i'm writing a book right now...
and a thing that my ED does is just give me ideas on how to do my art and i've never been satisfied with my art when i was in recovery
Mia is like a Muse at this point and I can't without her
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The urge to just duct tape my legs under my jeans so it looks like I have a thigh gap.
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me at school literally every day
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I hate the person I am now.
I have like no personality. My only hobbies/passions/obsessions are just ALL ed related (cooking, baking, counting cals, making meal plans, nutrition books/videos) and fitness (gym, cardio, walking).
And it's not like I can even talk ab any of this to ppl irl bc I don't want ppl to get suspicious of me. So I'm afraid I just come off as... Bland. I am such a shell of a person.
Like. Who would I be if I didn't have food/weight on my mind 24/7???? What could I use that energy for?? I think about the person I used to be. I used to read loads and watch movies/shows and be in fandoms and do sports and now I am just like waiting for the day I get skinny to live again.
I hate who I've become. Moreso, I hate who I haven't become. I'm not me. And I don't even have anything to show for it. I'm not skinny yet.
Anyways, that's why I've been so inactive recently. I am so exhausted of living like this stuck in such a loop. But I don't know how to get out.
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i want to be so skinny I don't look like a pig when I eat
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why does everything have a million calories in it 😃…
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GUYS I'M 50 HOURS INTO A FAST AND MY MOM SAID I LOOK PALE!
it was literally one of my insecurities that i'm not pale enough
KEEPING THIS UP TO SEE HOW MUCH I ALSO LOOSE!
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I want people to look at me and know I have a problem.
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You know you’re mentally ill when the t h I n s p o is Tim Burton characters
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