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truthful disclosure

my ex told me I’m probably a loner and it’s truthful disclosure he’s known me long enough to understand my love is wild and damned he’s lived with me long enough to experience my frequent and volatile mood swings he’s been a victim of my madness and insecurities and calls me out on my emotional instability and while I do take his assessment of me with a grain of salt I think being alone is my new default because inviting anyone into my chaos would probably cause me and them more emotional damage

4/28/22

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Happy Poetry Month! Napowrimo-Day 28

Careless It be like that

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poesía: reina

escribí este poema en abril del 2023. siempre fui una reina mi empoderamiento no fue un proceso fácil-tuve que deshacerme de la nociónque alguien me complementaria, me salvaríatuve que enfrentar mis fuertes miedos e inseguridadesy tuve que llenarme con un gran amor a mi mismaque siempre reservaba para otras personasy aunque a veces me quería rendir-nunca pareseguí adelante con un fuego dentro…

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Happy Poetry Month! Napowrimo-Day 27

I’m down bad crying in my bed The truth will make things awkward

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authentic

You’ve never worn a mask for me and I love you for it I used to yearn that you’d change for me to fit my absurd idea of who I wanted you to be -consistent and attentive -stable and calm but that’s not who you are and I’m finally okay that you’re not those things you bring other things to the table Laughter, pleasure, excitement, authenticity and I treasure those things now more than ever Because with you I’m never bored Because with you I can be myself

4/27/22

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poetry: headache

I wrote this poem in April of 2022. does a scorpion sting when fighting back? -Taylor Swift I overthink, I overthink and I overthinkand my head hurts from so much anxietySociety puts so much pressure on meto be nice, to be prettyto be kind, to be smartthe stress is tearing me apartbut slowly I start to breatheand the pressure starts to decreaseI change the narrativeAnd stop with listening to my…

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right amount of enough

It’s funny and ironic how the one I used to escape the one I’ve blocked, the one I hated the one I’ve talked shit about is still here after almost 4 years I’m not sure if it’s love or just a long story of lust but there’s something about him There’s something about us that feels the right amount of enough

4/26/22

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Happy Poetry Month! Napowrimo-Day 26

🥹🥹🎉 Emily appreciates her employees

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poesía: pino

escribí este poema en abril del 2023. mi tío Genaro y yo con el árbol de Pino ,atras esta el paisaje de Oxapampa abrazo el árbol de pino para absorber su energíay para darle mis angustias y tristezay rezo por todos que dejaron mi vidaporque sin esas leccionesno sería la maravilla que soy hoy dia

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Happy Poetry Month! Napowrimo-Day 25

It was a down day 🥹💔 Facts

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revenge story

the blood stained floorboards told a story of love gone awry and revenge taken it told a story of a woman who wanted it all at any cost and paid the price with her life it told a story of a man scorned beyond belief and killed the woman he loved it told a story of a love triangle ending in murder

4/25/22

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poetry: reminder

I wrote this poem in April of 2022. from Charmin to alarmin in seconds- Noah Kahan Dear future heartbroken me,Sometimes it won’t be you or even himSometimes things don’t work outIt’s nothing to be obsessed aboutSometimes love isn’t enoughIt doesn’t mean you’re not enoughSometimes things end abruptlyand it’s not the end of your storyand sometimes you learn from itAnd most of the timeit will…

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own my breaths

I own my breaths 

and count them for a while

as a way to calm down

as a way to meditate

I own my breaths 

and count them

as part of my therapy

4/24/22

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Happy Poetry Month! Napowrimo-Day 24

First line inspired by Taylor Swift Me with my oldest son in August of 1998

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poetry: unnerving

I wrote this poem in april of 2023. from short hikes in Athens in 2021 to treacherous 5 mile hikes in Oxapampa in April 2023-it’s all unnerving I put my insecurities and fears on display for the world to seeit’s a most arduous task-it’s not for the weakat first I thought it was crazyit was me trying to get attentionit was me seeking validationand while it may have been these thingsit was also…

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pins and needles

I was on pins and needles waiting on your response wondering what would happen now that I showed you who I really was I wondered if the love you claimed would be enough and for 4 miserable days I was on pins and needles only to find myself discarded from your life

4/23/22

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Happy Poetry Month! Napowrimo-Day 23

🥹🥹🥹🫶 Me with my hero 🥹🫶