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"I fear to love you too much and lose you and suffer, and I also fear to not love you and miss a love chance and regret it. I live with you an unbalance state since I knew you, my life going perfectly, except my heart which is a mess. I always fear the endings, for I am used to lose anything I love, so please tell me: How can I love you without pain? And how can I not love you with regret?

أخاف أن أحبك جدا فأفقدك ثم أتألم، و أخاف أيضا أن لا أحبك فتضيع فرصة الحب فأندم، أعيش معك حالة لا توازن منذ أن عرفتك، حياتي تسير بإنتظام، ما عدا قلبي فإنه تسوده الفوضى. لكني أخشى النهايات دوما، فأنا قد اعتدت دائما أن أفقد أي شيء أحبه. أرجوك أخبرني : كيف "أحبك بلا ألم؟ وكيف لا أحبك بلا ندم؟

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They call me the listener

A listener is what I always am.

Even my tears and cries

remain silent and unheard.

I wish my tears spoke,

I wish they spilled the words

my mouth never dared to say.

I wish my tears knew how to scream,

Instead of simply running down my cheeks

like salty streams.

I've never been the ink-

screaming and pouring out the words

left buried inside me.

I've always been the paper,

soaking every drop of what others write,

Carrying the weight of their words down.

The listener is what Ill always be.

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apologies are pointless to me now. change your ways or get the fuck outta my way.

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But I can't help the feeling

I could blow through the ceiling

If I just turn and run

And it wears me out

It wears me out

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still healing from things i don't speak about, i just take it day by day

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Life update: ho hee nahi rahi

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cant believe it's 31st january already. whats next, the rest of the year? i think the fuck not.

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apologies to anyone who ever thought i was cool and reached out to me only to discover i am just a weird little hermit who can't carry on a conversation to save my life

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isn't sleeping supposed to cure the tired sleepy? and yet

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– Virginia Woolf, from a Letter to Violet Dickinson written c. January 1909

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When Imran Khan said: sukoon sirf qabr mein hai

When Zauq said: mar kar bhi chein na paya toh kidhar jayenge

When Jaun Elia said: wo jo marney par tula hai usney jee kar bhi toh dekha hoga

when Fayyaz Hashmi said: na tum aaye na chein aaya na maut aayi

and when my heart longed for the lost feeling of peace. I wished: “na hum hotey na dil hota na dil azariyan hotin ”

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تم فرشتہ تھی میرے لئیے، تمہیں انسان نہیں بننا چاہیے تھا!

Tum farishta thi meray liye, tumhay insan nahi ban'na chahiye tha!

• Daam // Umera Ahmed

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Judaai Apni Be Roodaad Si Thi

Ke Main Roya Na Tha Or Phir Hasaa Naeen

~Jaun Elia

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Pal dau pal ko, ik mehfil mein milay thay, gayi bahaar Idhar udhar ki suni sunayi baatein kee do chaar Unhon nay shayad dekha bhi tha meri taraf, ik baar

pathar ki zubaan - Fehmida Riaz

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Hell Yeah

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We’re only halfway through January and I’ve already been in so many situations

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Girls who read books are wife material <3