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[pineconegal]

How healing writing is!! How much I felt like I was breathing again when I started journaling! How much I realised the reason for my chronic inability to enjoy the things that I used to love! It's because I haven't done them in peace when I wanted to, the way I wanted to. Without insistent, judging eyes above my head as I did it, waiting for the signs of my enjoyment and ready to scold me if I wasn't smiling enough. How sweet freedom is!

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Can we stop guilt-tripping sensitive people over just being themselves and feeling emotions??? Not everyone is so heartless and suppresses any slight sign of caring or just being sad. Let people feel, let them cry, let them mourn, let them laugh as much as they want. It's not illegal, it doesn't hurt anyone to just let. them. feel.

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I put the "emo" in ✨️emotional✨️

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I find myself drawn to anyhow mentally ill or unhappy people. Men, actually. I feel like in a relationship, my job is to make him feel better no matter how that leaves me.

I feel like my job is to destroy myself for his sake. So he can use me to get attention, affection, understanding, and whatever he feels that he lacks. Even if all I get in return is just to talk with him.

It's not because I liked a boy this much. I guess I'm just that lonely and worthless, so I have to gain any worth by being of service.

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sensitive girl canon events ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ🐇་༘࿐

being the last person left when everyone splits into pairs

having so many dreams and goals as a girl and losing them as you grow up

THAT first relationship

discovering ASMR

giving up new hobbies if you're not instantly good at them

having intense online friendships as a preteen

maladaptive daydreaming

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Reblog this if you're a crybaby, sensitive over everything, anxious, depressed, clingy, look prettiest after you've just cried, traumatised, and yearning for love and affection. ♡

[pineconegal]

Not me thinking to just kms after any minor inconvenience. But with my mental disorders they are not really minor. And also not being loved by your only close family member is not a minor inconvenience.

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Something came over me and suddenly I'd made this :3

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I really tried living in reality and being a full-time adult, even in my head and all, but it only comes to that I'm getting more and more depressed again. I've struggled with maladaptive daydreaming due to the amount of abuse and ptsd I struggle with, but I don't think it's worked well for me. I think I'll come back to just living in my head.

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reblog if people r allowed to send u asks as if theyre ur friend. wanna tell me how ur day went? do it!!! ask me for advice? sure! ask a personal question? go right on ahead!

[pineconegal]

parental abuse is so disarming. I thought we were having a good time? why are you screaming??? and now you're crying??? how am I supposed to react to make you happy

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Gosh I'm so glad I came back to tumblr. It's so great! It's niche, customisable, girl-friendly, cute and I feel so understood in here!! Shout out to all the jirais and other mentally ill girlies who post and leave notes on my posts. You're doing a better job at this than my friends and family.

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omgosh sorry I'm so needy and want cuddles all the time. It's not my fault I've been neglected by my family. Is that so bad I want love and affection?

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Lord, give me strength so I don't kill myself. I'm. On. Edge. Today.

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Guys, my christian girlies and boys, I have a piece of advice about "the prayer". If you're not sure whether they are the one for you, your future husband or a wife, and you decide to pray the prayer and you receive some kind of a sign as an answer and you're not sure if that a "no" from our Father, it is a no.

If you feel like you need to ask for permission from God and its not a clear "yes", don't ask for another sign. If they'd be for you, you'd already feel it and see it.