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USING MY TUMBLR POWERS

if anyone knows the author of this fic, can someone lmk who? I have a comment to share w them >:O

https://archiveofourown.org/works/24146719

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Saw this one going around with JayVik and I felt like the lesbians deserved it too

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Poison + Fairy type

And my shape is a ferret mixed with "something something fucked like idk a coral or a sponge"

Honestly? I fuck with this LMAO

pokèmonize yourself!!!!

spin this wheel to see your pokemon type

spin this one to see how you'll look like

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for the gimme a character, what abt vanoss?

It's been a hot while since I made that reblog, so this was a (very nice) surprise, happy to answer nonetheless.

Not sure if Vanoss could be categorized as a "character", i.e. excluding his online "persona", but hey, I got thoughts anyway!

Sorry if this post is funky+huge, I'm pretty private/shy when I talk about my own thoughts and opinions verses hearing other folks out.

How I feel about Vanoss: Love him, hate him, he's a funny owl that can throw you off if you aren't familiar with his (recent) humor. As a viewer that can sometimes be the target of a joke or bit, I laugh at them as much as I do give an eye squint at (depending on & neutrally speaking). If I had to be honest about my immediate thoughts, Vanoss kinda comes off as a camera man that quips up from behind but is far from boring when he does. I like Vanoss because in my eyes, he is someone that enjoys a game or its moments with friends without having to commentate "just for the sake of"TM. That, and I find his kind of humor and commentary similar to mine sometimes, my favorite example is his, "Everybody remain calm. Go to your happy place."

https://youtube.com/clip/Ugkxb_vUyLW7Uw5NXzrOvmHhKcBoq62Ep_PB?si=clkl_UI5kfmiFzWG

It's kinda obscure, as in, even my own little brother, who's watched all his videos back to front, will raise eyebrows at me even if it's recent. (On) top of making these idiolects Vanoss will do that I'll repeat on end, which can either infect my brother too or just remain an echo for a few weeks. Clearly, I'm a parrot counterpart to Vanoss, just training to take over his channel when he mysteriously dies (/j).

Shippings with Vanoss: I actually don't, mainly because a) I hold a huge Persona vs IRL mindset when it comes to shipping IRL folks, had it since sweet 2015, so it's definitely affect my perspective on it. And b) I don't know too many shippings with Vanoss (and I was on Wattpad and Quotev reading books on these guys back then, which says a lot.) that did stand out to me, minus the more popular H2OVanoss pairing. So, hey, if anyone seeing this posted some obscure Vanoss x pairing on those sites, chances are I definitely read it though. I may not ship the folks you write about, but I'd be damned if the prompt or potential went to waste in my eyes, I hear "hear me outs" for a reason. So, I get it, really get it, and I'll 400% read or look at art (especially when it COOKS), I just don't PERSONALLY ship anyone in the group. One guarantee is that I'll feen over any lovely art piece I see. It is a curse to love art and to not be normal about liking it. Am everyone's #1 supporter (AS LONG AS IT IS HEALTHY AND NOT CONTROVERSIAL OR WACKAWACKOS)

Friendship Duo pairings with Vanoss: That being said about my pervious point, with this one for me is H2O Delirious, Terroriser, Lui Calibre, and an odd one, BigJigglyPanda. With Delirious, he knows how to go along with a joke, or at the very least, knows with Vanoss something will be amidst with Elmer's glue and C4 wires covering their hands by the end of it. Him and Vanoss's dynamic is strong, and it's made proven when the other has a plan and egging the other to follow. At most, they're always looking for the other to be around and I think that really means a lot when you're given the opportunity to be with someone in a room full of others. The same -or similiar- thing can be said with Terroriser, I think the key difference is that Terroriser is easier to piss off/reactive compared to Delirious, when they're being messed with Vanoss. Another thing is their shared sense of humor and planning. When it's Delirious and Vanoss you could expect something annoying and inconvenient at most, the exact opposite of those two is straight Nuclear Destruction (/hj). Do NOT put these two in a room with explosives in game, they will rig it perfectly for the moment someone takes 4, specifically 4, steps into the room and desecrate the person in question. These two don't compare in light to Lui and Vanoss, my favorite duo pair for horror games. Vanoss is so terrified yet Lui is insanely collected (as one can be in a horror setting [seriously, go watch the "Dude I'm Not Scared" series]), but is enthusiastic enough to play with Vanoss. I think it works out, because (I think, take this as you will) I remember Terroriser saying something how he'd definitely get mad at Vanoss if he were to play a horror game with him. Either way, there's a sort of patience you gotta have, regardless if you play with a horror game with anyone in specific, and Lui being the main man to be there for Vanoss is great. I think which does point back to the more collected side of Lui when playing (excluding semi-jumpscares/jumpscares). Vanoss is Just Like Me FR TM, we would definitely not be scared but have our assigned guardian friend to be scared with if we got a horror game we want to play. For BigJigglyPanda, it's a more simple one, or at least, not as mouthy to talk about, maybe that's just me. But, I think you can very much tell how appreciated his presence is, not just by Vanoss himself, but basically the whole group. Panda makes plenty of crude jokes, but I think his delivery is what makes them great to me, on top of his own laugh, which gets its own fit of giggles out of the others, including Vanoss! I don't think there's ever much of a point where Vanoss didn't get a laugh by the Panda Man, minus if Vanoss was distracted or busy elsewhere. Maybe it's just me projecting, don't care, need more Panda Man (/lh).

My unpopular opinion on Vanoss: I think that Vanoss is an interesting kind of artist that I don't see too many folks talk about, but more specifically, the way he thinks. It's more because of my own empathy in how he wants to go about things from an angle he uniquely envisions. Maybe certain bits that need retakes, references that others don't get whether they're popular or not, expressing for more creative liberty and distaste when he is limited to be appropriate for a general audience (Alpha Betas), and, if I overthink it too hard, perfectionism. He has a vision, he wants the vision to work, but it's HARD to convey that to someone in a way that makes sense with either a limited vocabulary that can't describe it or isn't just, That FeelingTM. I think it's why (as I'm writing at this time), we haven't gotten a new album or single from his music persona, Rynx, is that he cares that it is good, but that it represents him, what his vision is, his art piece and craft that's uniquely his alone. (I'd say his thing of music videos is a semi-idea of that embodiment). If Vanoss ever became a director, I would not be surprised is all I'm saying, boy's got some creative juices in him and I get a decent impression of the mindset he has, or the vibe of, probably.

One thing I wish would happen with Vanoss: RYNX NEW SONG DROP PLEASEEEEE. Vanoss/Rynx is the only artist that I have ever listened to completely and actually actively want to hear more of than just passively like some other artists I follow. I have been patiently waiting for the last 4 years, going onto 2025 with no new music ;-;

Seriously, I genuinely enjoy the music he made, that's the only thing I want out of anything Vanoss might do. I don't doubt that he might post something soon... Maybe??? I don't know, I don't get my hopes up too much, all my Hollow Knight: Silksong homies would know the feeling, and I can't remember the last time he posted on his Instagram (on his personal acc) stories with him just stringing out his own tunes. I have repeated his songs so many times that he's gotten to my top 5 for three years on spotify, the man has a chokehold on me 😭

Closing thoughts: Not much besides he's been a childhood staple for me, I wouldn't change that part of my life if I was given the opportunity to. I love Vanoss and his gang, they've built some pieces of my humor and are the few youtubers from 2016 that keep me engaged with their videos. I know I ain't gonna stop watching them for a longgggg time that's for sure lol

Thank you for your ask! It was fun responding to this, though it's taken me a few days to properly format my thoughts into words. It was refreshing to type all this out, going from mobile to 'puter because all the fancy stuff (literally colors) would mold over the way my breakdown is built, definitely out of my own norm in a good way.

(UPDATE: so. uh. When I initially "finished" this response, it was two days, maybe? before Vanoss's music update post on his twitter account LMAOAO. My jaw physically dropped when I saw the post [courtesy of beepbananabus, because I do not have a twitt]. I wanted to get back to finish this response [I had a couple prompts WIP after I typed closing], got distracted as all good humans do, and remembered like a war flashback and am here now. Sorry for the wait, hope this was worth some of it at most, but I'm grateful nonetheless to have had this ask in my inbox and respond to! :})

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bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

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Reblogging because I was in the middle of rethinking this (it is comedy gold btw)

also its so funny seeing everyone post these post-canon AU's, especially when theres some komahina baby involved bc they're all so deep and well thought out and scientific where as my personal AU for how Komahina have a baby after canon is that the baby (carried in a blanket by a stork) literally drops from the sky and lands in Komaeda's arms one day when he's on a walk with Kazuichi

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El calabozo cuando está meshi o algo así

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I need Laios dungeon meshi to be real so I can fuck him

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One thing that has made me probably happiest about Dungeon Meshi (and this might sound weird but hear me out) is hearing that fans find Laios and Senshi attractive.

I'm AMAB enby, but in more than a few ways I still present somewhat masc, but that kinda bothers me. I always feel like I'm a little too big, too hairy, not femme or androgynous enough. And of course in anime, attractive characters tend to be very skinny, almost androgynous themselves a lot of the time. But hearing people almost universally agree that the those two in DunMesh, who's body types I identify with a lot more, are not just fine but SEXY, has actually helped me better love my own body a little more and reassure me that there are people out there who might actually find me attractive.

Sorry for the rant, just something I've been thinking about and how nice it's been to get that reassurance. Ryoko Kui really got that dog in her for character designs and body shapes/types ♥️

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GIVE ME A CHARACTER;

and I’ll break their ass down:

How I feel about this character

All the people I ship romantically with this character

My non-romantic OTP for this character

My unpopular opinion about this character

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

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love all the cute dungeon meshi pride art but chilchuck would not be caught dead wearing any sort of pride merch. you think that man is going to give out any personal information? for free?????

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Huh

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Marcille: so what’s for d-

Laios, already grabbing the nearest monster:

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Pros of hyperfixiation:

Happy!

Art ideas

Life is good

Cons of hyperfixiation:

I am going to blow up

All my art is of the same guy

If I don't think about this 24/7 I get violent

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Computer, how to format fics here.

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How does drawing some 80s clothes on the boys (Evan & Jon) sound :}? However comma anytime I think if 80s clothes I ALWAYS think of the cheesy workout outfits XD take that as you will

ok ok ok for this prompt, i saw 80s and i first thought of rollerskating, then i saw the workout outfit thing, and i was like... well... there's no limit established to these doodles :)

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CW/TW: Depression, I am safe, just wanted to vent in some way. It’s just heavy. Let’s put it at that. Large post, sorry.

I think the weirdest thing about being on a new thing of meds (bupropion) was how it made me realize how HEAVY my brain was. The moment I took it, my thoughts weren’t loud anymore. I could just, think normally and not feel so overwhelmed by the weight, the feeling, the delirium it, sort of, caused me. I felt so, damn, relieved.

Unfortunately, for a medication that targets both depression and (supposed) ADHD, it didn’t help that I was aware of how depleted I was of motivation. The thoughts stopped yes, but it didn’t get rid of the empty pit in my stomach. I still felt, lost in a way, the anxiety was GONE but what was left was just, a depressed man.

I have basically been doing bad in college minus the two classes I did try to accomplish (before I took bupropion), but I don’t think my GPA will be pretty for a while. I felt disappointed that I was in a chokehold. I still think I am some days. I feel so disappointed because up until middle school, everything clicked, worked, made sense. Mid 8th grade broke me somehow, and I never recovered since. I just gave up, still did decent but it was a mix of fear and anxiety that could only push me until high school came. College, being older now, made me realize how, screwed my brain was, even when I didn’t see it full. All I knew was the mental pain and how heavy it was on me.

Despite how numbing it is to see my bad grades for college, it’s somehow also made me feel so happy. That I don’t have to try to be perfect and that I could, fail, in some way. It’s not good of course not, it’s money time and everything and the cherry on top being wasted, but I just, feel kinda happy because of the ability to have a second chance, in a way. That I could recover and get back on my feet, even if it would hypothetically take another thing of resources. I’ll get back up, somehow.

I think in short, I’m starting to see how much I built to be a perfectionist and how it destroyed me mentally, even when all I had were grand ideas, failing them made me feel broken. How EXTREMELY low motivated I am now because of the depression. …I’d like to think that I’m trying. Even if it’s small things, like drawing. I’m finding it again. I wish I could go back and hug myself for a night. But, we haven’t built time machines yet and I still need a few more years under my belt of college to start tinkering with time and space continuums, haha

I still use some copes, doom scrolling, watching the good old Mr. Owl Man (Vanoss), consuming more media of my favorite fandoms. I, at least, know that the medication has started to help in some way.

One day, I want to be able to draw my feelings out. The experiences and capture the emotion, the sort of out of body experience that took most of my life for 10 years and show how outer I’ve felt for in it. I’m in my head less now, even if I’m still using some bad habits,

The quiet never felt right for me, I was always afraid of it. I couldn’t hear it, until now. It’s more homey than I thought and I’m starting to let it sink into me, make it home again. I always talked outloud at night to ignore the smothering paranoia. These days I don’t have to fill that house with smoke and perfumes now. My senses thank me for airing them out, haha