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Work has kept me busy and also exhausted. I still love it and I have now come to learn how much im appreciated but recently how i am supported and cared for by these people that has watched me grow up and how much i have changed, sometimes not for the better. Animals are my natural therapy for me and not only is it being with the horses but looking after the dogs. Be kind to one another. 😍 #mentalhealth #mentallhealthisimportant #mentallllealthisimportant #mentalhealthawareness #ADD #adhdawareness #PTSD #physicalhealth #ponies #depression #domesticviolencelawareness #dontchangeforanyone #anxiety #instahorses #bipolardisorder #happyplace #happiness #HEADSTOGETHER #MIND #mindfullness https://www.instagram.com/p/ByPowOelY_l/?igshid=uqfapx1u7022

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Second time round we were both intune. This is my happy place. My job keeps me going. It keeps my mind in a good place as i dont have time to think. Im kept busy looking after the dogs and horses. Its what I call a natural therapy. I can definately feel the change in my moods when im not working. Be kind to one another. @twiglet64 #mentalhealth #mentallhealthisimportant #mentalhealthawareness #notalome #PTSD #ADD #anxiety #depression #bipolardisorder #adhdawareness #domesticviolencelawareness #dontchangeforanyone #happyplace #pastisthepast #freedom #strength #strongmind #selfworth #selfcare #selfesteem #kindness #fightthegoodfight #fightdepression #behappy #helpisoutthere #instahorses #jumping #horseridingclub #happyplace https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx612e9lMP8/?igshid=1fnverek4tib2

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Sorry ive been at bit MIA. Work has kept me busy and the exhaustion has caused me a lot of anxiety and down moods. I find with my work i really try my hardest to do the best i can. It really makes me feel bad if i make a mistake or if im not on my A game. The physical side of my job causes me a lot of tiredness and i find this does affect my moods. I love my job whatever mood im in. Ive been having problems in other parts of my life that has caused me alot of confusion and a lot of upset which isnt helped by my impulsivity. Im still on an upward path but i still wish people would understand that it still is baby steps and im trying my hardest to be a better person. Be kind to one another 😍 #mentalhealth #mentallhealthisimportant #mentalhealthawareness #family #alone #lonely #helpisoutthere #youarenotalone #selfworth #selfcare #selflove#working #impulsive #betruetoyourself  #carefree #happy #recovery #strength #family #ADD #PTSD  #alonetime #happyplace #selfharm #suicide #suicideawareness #INeedHelp https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxaso7LFaIX/?igshid=1cq0tuyzrkxjs

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Spent almost.24/7 down the stables this week and have loved every minutw. Getting up early and being productive with my day has been a massive step forward. Had a surprise visit from my parents and managed to fit in a driving lesson. Mood has been high. The sunshine has helped in a big way. Also working outside in direct sunlight equals lors of sunburnt 😐��� #mentalhealth #mentallhealthisimportant #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthsupport #domesticabuse #domesticviolencelawareness  #isolation #manipulation #family #alone #lonely #helpisoutthere #youarenotalone #selfworth #selfcare #selflove #destroyed #worthless #recovery #strength#instahorses #beatpiece #family #carriagedriving #stables #bradbourneriding #sunshine #lessonslearnedinlife #cuddles #happyplace #realisation https://www.instagram.com/katieharper89/p/BwiGmd4F6zp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17bd87z1mlky4

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Just watched this programme. Brought back lots of triggers and memories for me. It made me so angry but i can totally relate to it. It makes me mad because I totally get why she keeps going back. When you are that broken down, isolated , manipulated and controlled you dont see anyway out because that is all you know. I went back time and time again because I knew nothing else. I got told I was beautiful and I went back because I thought about all the good times rather than the abuse. Now I do and I wish I had the strength back then to walk away but I was so trapped and my self esteem destroyed. The feeling of having your abusers hands on you, now makes me sick to the stomach. The only time you are happy is when they are because you know that the scared feeling can be temporarily stopped. The lies you tell your family about the bruises, the self harm and the erratic behaviour and how you defend your abuser makes me feel so ashamed. What I realised is that you need to give the responsibilty back to your abuser. Its not your fault. I was a victim but not anymore. I am a survivor and proud of myself. Police intervention was the catalyst that helped me walk away. Be kind to one another #mentalhealth #mentallhealthisimportant #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthsupport #domesticabuse #domesticviolenceawareness #bebrave #angermanagement #violence #controlled #isolation #manipulation #family #alone #lonely #helpisoutthere #youarenotalone #selfworth #selfcare #selflove #destroyed #police #intervention #worthless #recovery #strength https://www.instagram.com/katieharper89/p/Bv1xgP3lWf4/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=v1jspv0ue3uv

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#throwbackpictures 2year old Katie. All innocent and catching flies in my mouth 😂 #chikdhoof #brother#mother #daughter #support #mentalhealth #mentallllealthisimportant #mentalhealthsupport #love #family #familytime #cancerresearchg with #happymothersday #mothersday #mother #daughter #support #mentalhealth #grandmother #guardianangel #restinpeace #missyousomuch #mentallllealthisimportant #mentalhealthsupport #love #family #familytime #cancerresearch #babyphotos #suicideawareness #substanceabuse #beyourself #past https://www.instagram.com/katieharper89/p/Bvwk5TaneoF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=111890ohrzyp8

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Today I went to work and halfway to the train station, I realised I hadnt taken my medication. It was to late for me to go back home so I thought I would wing it. I have been on medication for a long time and very strong medication. I am very good at taking it and I never realised how badly I would react to missing taking it. I was totally disorientated, felt sick, was sweating alot, my energy dipped in a big way, I couldnt concentrate or focus on tasks like I usually would and had pins and needles and spasms all day. I hate this. I now know how the medication keeps me on a level and how if I dont take it, it really does affect me. I wish I didnt have to rely on this medication but I decided that I might try and wean myself off and use exercise instead. Im also not ashamed or afraid to say that I take medication. I will do whatever I can to improve my mental health and if that means, for the time being, that I need to take medication, then that is what I will do. Im still figuring things out now, even after a year of extensive therapy and treatment. Be kind to one another. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #mentalhealthsupport #depression #anxiety #ADD #PTSD #domesticviolenceawareness #adhd #inattentiveadhd #breakthestigma #medication #withdrawal #sideeffects #intahorses #horses #stables #MIND #HEADSTOGETHER #CALM #charities #carriagedriving #ponies #sucideawareness #suicideprevention #exercisemotivation #naturaltherapy https://www.instagram.com/katieharper89/p/BvKkJPfl83s/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gu3ct3r84byu

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STOP CYBER BULLYING!! I was bullied throughout my early years. I also got into a relationship.with a guy that ended up abusing me in all ways. I have had facebooks created about.as i chose to walk away from a toxic relationship and that was the only way he still try to have some control over me. I am lucky that i had friends that not only made me aware of this but also reported it. I have been bullied online and it really does affect a person. When you are low you begin to believe things that people say just to have control over you. For them its sad and embarrasing. I dont want to be around it. Cyber bullying should be illegal. We should have more awareness about the impact it can have a persons mental state. Dont be afraid to tell someone. Cyber bullying is not okay. Its cowardly and disgusting.Spread the word and save lives. Be kind to one another. #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #bekindtoyourself #rockchoir #frickerschoir #singing #support # cyberbully #illegal #badmood #goodmood #mindfullness https://www.instagram.com/katieharper89/p/Bu68SL-lQG9/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s1nvss44wbii

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Thats right. When your boys behave for a change and come when asked 😍😘👌 #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #bekindtoyourself https://www.instagram.com/katieharper89/p/Bul5ZmEl755/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=lz06o7ny7rcr

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I came across this quote and the imagery i personally got from it took my breath away. No one should have to live in fear. No one should be shut away from what the world has to offer them. No one should have someone scare you so much that they are in control all of your decisions. We all have our wings and we all deserve to fly. Be kind to one another.. #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #bekindtoyourself #breakthestigma #selfcare #selflove #longbob  #longhair #shorthair #imissmylonghair https://www.instagram.com/katieharper89/p/Bt1e7aiFuuZ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15b7t1xcdnwk4

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I never thought a year ago when i was so low and felt i had no place or purpose, to now being where i am now doing what im doing just makes me so proud. For me it took rock bottom eventually after to living with trauma i could never have got over on my own. Im singing again, im.working again. I still get confused, indecisive and question myself, but i genuinly feel that im around people that want to and can help support me. Im hard work but im also one of a kind. Be kind to one another #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #singing #rockchoir #motivationalquotes https://www.instagram.com/p/BtrdS_1lVpG/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=uk8ke9zwebc7

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Horses, dogs and an open plain. What more could I ask for .... Be kind to one another #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #bekindtoyourself #breakthestigma #selfcare #selflove #devon #themoors https://www.instagram.com/p/BtoLYS_F4SO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=885kissoxwj

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Since starting work at the stables and joining Rock Choir I feel like that confident, outgoing girl that turned into a scared, vulnerable and worthless woman is finally growing and coming back. Having a diagnosis has helped, but doing things I love and being surrounded by wonderful, supportive and non judgemental people has really brought me out of my shell again. I want to do more singing, I want to get more involved with things at the stables and more than anything I want to keep this happy feeling alive. It has taken hard work, but it was work i was willing to put in to find myself again. Just know, anyone who is at that rock bottom, sometimes you need to be there to get better. You need to be at your worsed to be born again. I definantley was. Be kind to one another. #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #bekindtoyourself #breakthestigma #selfcare #selflove #rockchoir #singing #harmonies #findingmyself https://www.instagram.com/p/Btl1wGclg4j/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=56ds5yzf9ki0

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Ever since I started working at the stables and now joining a choir, it has brought me out of my bad place and out of my shell again. To go from being such a confident and outgoing girl to a scared, vulnerable.and worthless woman was so disheartening for me, I never thought there could be a way out but I now see there is and alway was . That, aswell as having a diagnosis, i have so much more direction and happiness in my life. So many lovely and supportive people now surround me. I wish I had done this sooner but with mental health you have to do it at your own pace and take everyday as it comes. Im finally getting there and doing things that make me happy and bring out the best in me. Im hoping that my posts can now continue to be positive and happy. Be kind to on another #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #bekindtoyourself #breakthestigma #selfcare #selflove #rockchoir #choir #singing #harmonies #newfriends #newfamily https://www.instagram.com/p/Btl1wGclg4j/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7bhzcrl29tg3

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This is all i need right. A cuddle from this beauty and look at that smile. Do things that make you happy. If you are stuck at home you're more likely to feel sad especially with the weather so dreary. Get your rain coat on, dig out thoses wellies. A little rain wont hurt you but the fresh air and a good walk can do wonders when you want to clear your head. Be kind to one another #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthisimportant #depression #anxiety #bpd #bipolardisorder #adhd #inattentiveadhd #domesticviolenceawareness #suicideawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #freshstart2019 #freshair #walking #exercise #exercisemotivation #stables #motivation #bekindtoyourself #breakthestigma #selfcare #selflove https://www.instagram.com/p/BteK0SElt1H/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=la5pwd5r5wmy

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Turning 30 in 2 days. Where have all the years gone. They have certainly challenged me. Im hoping this year will be the change i need. I love my job, i have started singing again and although there are still some obstacles to overcome i now have people that can help me. Be kind to one another. #mentalhealth #mentallllealthisimportant #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhelpawareness #youarenotalone #seekhelp #livehappy #depression #anxiety #bpd #inattentiveadhd #bipolardisorder #happinessisachoice #survivor #charites #headstogether #positivity #freshstart #hairstyle #2019 #relationships #love #family #domesticviolenceawareness #horseriding #instahorses #carriagedriving #stables #turning30 #birthday #stables https://www.instagram.com/p/BtJ0UuhH4K5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1clefipoo4h6d

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Back when performing was my life. Making people smile by singing to them made me feel so fulfilled and happy. Ive now joined a Rock Choir in my area and im beginning to have those feelings again 😍 #mentalhealth #mentallllealthisimportant #mentalhealthsupport #mentalhelpawareness #youarenotalone #seekhelp #livehappy #depression #anxiety #bpd #inattentiveadhd #bipolardisorder #happinessisachoice #survivor #charites #headstogether #positivity #freshstart #hairstyle #2019 #relationships #love #family #domesticviolenceawareness #singing #song #performing #stage #happy #fulfillment https://www.instagram.com/p/BtD-1nAH5wL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1720t0rgi9vng