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ENTIRE OST COVER: South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut [Part One!] 🏔️

The entire “South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut” soundtrack, covered by yours truly [Part One].

I hope you enjoy; I worked pretty hard on this. Stay tuned for Part Two! 🏔️

Track List & Time Stamps:

0:00 Mountain Town

4:12 Uncle Fucka

5:15 It’s Easy, Mkay

7:09 Hell Isn’t Good

8:27 Blame Canada

9:58 Kyle’s Mom’s a Bitch

11:24 Up There

‘South Park’ belongs to Trey Parker & Matt Stone

Instrumentals used by ‪@SouthParkMusic‬ and ‪@SouthParkInstrumentals‬

#southpark #southparkfandom #cover #ost #fullost #sp #music #partone

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La Vilaine Telle Que J’Apparais - LIVE PERFORMANCE (x2)

French Interprétation of « The Villain I Appear to Be » by Connor Spiotto and Molly Pease. Written and performed by Rosain « Rain » Quivan 🌹

Hey all!

At a talent show for French pride / spirit week, I was able to perform my French interpretation of the wonderful « The Villain I Appear to Be » live… twice!

Left ear is my first performance of « La Vilaine Telle Que J’Apparaise », and right ear is my second performance. Spliced together to hear the best of both 💃🏻 I’m so incredibly grateful to all who made this possible - thank you all, it is one of the highlights of my week! :)

Some notes:

- The audio syncs up after the second note of singing (artistic direction, I suppose 😂 or just me not counting beats)

- Audio cuts out on right ear during the long instrumental break but comes back after a beat and a half (technical issue)

- No video, I would but… privacy. But it would explain some of the screaming in some parts due to the choreography, lol.

Special thanks to:

- Stella and Joseph, for recording me and for being amazing presenters

- My family, for inspiring me and helping me find confidence

- My friends, for their support (and for making this week special and bearable!! ILY ALL <3)

- The wonderful audience who made this so fun to do!

- The tech team and council for making this possible.

- You, for listening!!

Single Version

Here is an isolated version with lyrics of « La Vilaine Telle Que J’Apparais » that I made separately for a project, in case you ever want to sing it in French, too! :

https://www.bandlab.com/post/1ee4022e-5a01-f011-90c9-00224848fea7

Lyrics:

Parfois quand je

Veux s’enfuir et me cacher,

Quand il n’y a personne à mon côté

Et j’ai perdu toute ma fierté…

Je remets dans la passée,

Et je me laisse aller—

Rien à faire sauf essayer de sauter et continuer…

Que je vais faire sans plus tarder!

Je sais pour toi je ne semble pas très forte,

Mais si tu pense m’attraper, et bien, toi, t’aurais tort.

Alors, allez-y, go, quand ce n’est pas trop tard!

[INSTRUMENTAL]

Mais pas pour long!

Je cours plus vite comme le vent.

Je n’arrête pas, juste comme l’avant—

Même si j’ai p’t-être croisé la ligne

Pas d’temps de perdre sur toi!

Je sais que j’y vais lentement,

Non, je continuerai

Même si tu pense que je suis dans la mauvaise!

Savoir que:

Même si parfois je sais pas c’que je fais,

Je ne pas regretter, et je n’arrêterais jamais.

Et je sais que d’autres gens resteront à leurs plans,

Mais si tu la laisse à moi, je ferais n’importe quoi!

Donc!

Je connaît ma raison d’être ici;

Mon attente pour toi est fini!

Même si tu ne vois pas

Le bon dedans moi;

Je n’ai pas le temps de dire pourquoi

Je fais les choses que je fais,

Mais si t’enquête, là, tu saurait:

Que j’en suis pas la vilaine telle que j’apparais…

[INSTRUMENTAL]

[CHANGEMENT DE CLÉ]

Continuer,

Non, je n’arrêterais pas!

Jusqu’à j’suis dans une cellule et je vie ‘vec des rats.

Et tu peux continuer de courir après moi,

Mais tu ne pourrais jamais m’attraper!

[INSTRUMENTAL]

Je sais que tu

Pense que j’suis folle,

Mais, si tu lis ces paroles,

Tu saurais pourquoi:

J’ai fait tout ça!

[INSTRUMENTAL]

{Fin.}

Credits:

- Connor Spiotto and Molly Pease https://youtu.be/CZkZRzqYHrw?si=bBAtaom7yg0U1K0E

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Wow!

Let's see: Stan is emotionally complex, Kyle is morally complex, Cartman is mentally complex and Kenny has a complex type of maturity... (Butters is a weird mix of the first three, mostly mentally and emotionally)

stan is emotionally complex in the sense that he’s just…extremely sensitive and empathetic. stan fits the ‘empath’ type pretty well; he’s not much of a fighter (unless it’s in regards to something he really values), he’s deeply empathetic towards animals, etc. but what’s kind of…unsettling, not about stan himself, but in regards to others, is that I see people often calling stan “weak” or a “pussy”, etc. because of how hard he takes break-ups, easily gets his feelings hurt, etc. both in the show, and fanon.

see, for the longest time, I too tended to view stan as the “sensitive” one of the group, but honestly, if you think about it, stan’s emotions aren’t even…that…over-reactive. they’re actually pretty normal and healthy (up until season 15, when he literally falls into a depression).

the unsettling thing about this, is actually the way kyle handles stan’s emotional highs and lows, because earlier on into the show, and even later on (“you’re getting old”/“assburgers”), kyle’s cold disregard for his hurt feelings and depressive mood swings, are actually eerily…detached and cruel. stan’s feelings are not invalid. I actually find his reactions to be the healthiest, of the group, even if he’s mentally plagued.

now, kyle…okay, so, here’s why I love kyle so much as a character: he’s self-righteous and holier-than-thou, with a superiority complex, as he leads himself on into the belief that he is morally sound member of the group…and yet, he’s one of the most insensitive and occasionally sociopathic characters on the entire show.

this is actually one of the reasons I take issue with the stan/kyle pairing — though kyle consistently tries to prove himself to be a sincere and generous character, he shows blatant disregard towards stan’s feelings. stan can’t handle visiting kenny in the hospital, as he’s terrified to watch someone he cares about on their death bed. he’s eight-years-old, at this point. there is nothing selfish about that. and yet, kyle calls him “selfish”, for it (“kenny dies” s5). stan is broken-up about being dumped by wendy. kyle calls him a “pussy”, and spends time with the other kids, instead (“raisins” s8). stan is depressed, his entire world perception is off, and his parents are getting divorced. kyle ditches him, and when wendy asks for help with stan, he literally tells her “his negativity is poison to him” (YGO/AB s15).

this is why I dislike a lot of the fan-content regarding kyle — people tend to erase these scenarios, as frequently as they’ve occured, and play kyle up as some…morally sound, genius boy…and a victim, when in reality, kyle often lacks the very most basics, of not just empathy, but sympathy.

kyle most often does good things, but not because he wants to do good things, he wants the recognition. in “toilet paper” (s7), kyle acts all high and mighty, and toilet-papering their art teacher’s house plagues his mind…but the moment he hears he can receive a “better offer”, he doesn’t give a shit. kyle doesn’t care about stan’s anti-bullying video, or butters’ “kissing” business, until stan starts getting positive attention and butters starts pulling in real money. then, suddenly, he thinks he has the moral high-ground.

“ginger cow” (s17) is such a good episode for this…it’s the perfect example of the classic kyle and cartman dynamic; the thing is, they’re both bad, in different ways: cartman is wrong in the sense, that he’s just looking for another new way to get under kyle’s skin. kyle is wrong, because his obsession with image and status (“I’m like gandhi!”), overrides his sincerity. I mean, even stan calls kyle out for his holier-than-thou uppity bullshit, in this episode. it’s ridiculous. kyle’s ego, will always outweigh his actual sympathy and moral values — this is the same reason why cartman can so easily manipulate him, into doing things kyle would otherwise consider morally corrupt. “crack baby athletic association” (s15), is such a good episode for this. kyle is furious upon discovering their organization, until cartman strokes his ego, and mentions money, too. then, “moral compass, kyle broflovski”, is suddenly all ears. kyle can be such a fucking egomaniac, and I feel like so often, people throw that part of him aside.

one thing, I would like to add: the highest form of irony, on behalf of kyle’s character, is the fact that while he lacks sympathy for stan, he can go all out for cartman, in that same regard. it’s actually…kinda hilarious, how the ONE person, that this conceited, fake-woke douchebag can show any real form of sincere empathetic feelings towards, is his “arch-nemesis”, eric fucking cartman.

cartman’s mental complexity, stems from…so many different places, I mean, I’m really not even sure where to start on this one. I could do any entire college thesis on cartman, and it would probably still be missing a whole lot of content. I’ll just try to remain as simplified as I possibly can:

what makes cartman such a highly ironic character, is that he’s the teetering on downright dangerous combination of being both overly-exposed and incredibly naïve. the perfect example of this, being his attitude in regards to love and sex.

cartman has an incredibly warped view on both. canonically, it’s been proven that he views it as an act of violence, rather than something loving, though he knows it’s often paralleled to a romantic setting. some select examples of this:

finding a kissing couple in the park, and accusing the man of “raping” her (ofc, this could just be cartman purposely looking for drama, too, but it’s a good point) (“The Coon”…s13, I believe)

his instant reaction to seeing tweek and craig preparing for a fight (s19), is to excitedly shout “they’re about to have sex!”

kyle having to explain to cartman, that your dad “fucking” your mother, is not a tragic backstory…parents have sex lovingly, to have children, etc. (TFBW)

upon finding out that sheila “cheated” on gerald with a UPS man, cartman insists that liane purchase a better security system, because he’s afraid she’ll be “raped” (“insecurity” s16)

I think cartman struggles with the concept of romantic sex, likely because he was exposed at such a young age. this aspect of his personality comes up in other context too; his racism typically presents itself in the form of sincerely blissful ignorance (i.e. “passion of the jew”, where both he AND kyle are manipulated by a misleading film, to the extent where cartman’s casual antisemitism manifests into true disillusioned hatred). another good example (and a good example of actual character development on cartman’s part, as twisted as it is) is cartman’s fixation on token and nichole, and wanting to set them up because they’re both black. he’s racist and ignorant, but he’s simultaneously incredibly naïve.

I’ve mentioned something like this before in another post, but cartman and butters are probably the two most repressed characters of the main five, which likely accounts for a lot of toxic masculinity. the difference being ofc, that butters is repressed by his environment, and cartman is typically more repressed by himself.

TXC is such a great example, of what is most likely, his repressed homosexual side, revealing itself. cartman is so, deeply in denial of so many aspects of his life. it’s actually really sad. there are many parts of him, that actually suggest sincere vulnerability. cartman is actually incredibly sensitive — he’s just, predominantly only sensitive to himself. but he does appear to possess a great deal of shame, in any buried “gay” parts within himself, as well as the side of him that loves stuffed animals, and tea parties, maybe even journalling and other typically “girly” or childish activities and interests. he’s self-hatred and self-sabotage, personified.

it’s also notable, that one of cartman’s biggest fears, is revealing self-sincerity. in “le petit tourette”, when he starts accidentally spilling secrets, he’s instantly thrown into a state of vulnerability and as a result, desperation and panic. this is likely due to:

liane’s lack of sincere affection and support towards him, when he’s upset (typically presented in earlier seasons)

embarrassment stemming from being used to getting rejected (in all aspects of life)

the only person who has actually given cartman a sincere amount of conscious affection, and a shoulder to cry on, is kyle, which indefinitely plays into their dynamic. just a note, I wanted to finish on, not planning on elaborating. this is intended to be singular character analysis.

now, kenny: kenny is, in a way…both a parallel of, and simultaneously the opposite of cartman. kenny’s overexposure comes in a different form, but while cartman’s has translated into trauma and a desperate need to grip onto parts of early childhood, in perhaps, a pathetic attempt to maintain more naïvety, kenny’s trauma, has translated into maturity.

people who have suffered traumatic events such as death, abusive, assault, etc. (kenny’s being domestic violence between his parents and literal death), typically tend to either have a warped world view (cartman), or an adapted perspective (kenny). what I mean by this, is that kenny has seen the very worst, the world has to offer, and from that it translated into compassion and a protective side of himself.

this is most likely why kenny has such high empathy. he doesn’t trivialize other people’s issues like kyle does. he doesn’t project and repress like cartman does. his traumatic experiences have translated into positive traits (not that it would ever justify any of his suffering). best examples of kenny’s compassionate attitude; the way he treats butters in “going native” (s16), and ofc, the way he looks out for karen and puts her happiness and safety before his own needs and wants (several episodes, see The Coon episodes, “the poor kid” (s15 finale), and s19).

ofc, this is all pretty funny, in comparison to the other side of kenny’s “maturity” in earlier seasons, which like cartman, reveals itself in sexual over-exposure (although it’s hinted that this is because of his fathers’ porno-mags, rather than cartman who has actual firsthand experience). two sides of a coin, I guess.

I wish I could say more about kenny, I really, really do, but unfortunately I’m scrapping the bottom of the barrel for content with him.

I don’t even put this much effort into homework, unfortunately, but if you made it to the end of this essay, congrats, and as usual: there are just my own, personal thoughts and interpretations.

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Tribute in the works… 🎻

Dedicated to TwoSet Violin - Brett Yang and Eddy Chen - for the love of classical music that they instilled in me for years. 🌸

Progress updates in the coming weeks!

In the meanwhile, please check them out on YouTube, alongside my inspired Spotify playlist « B²TSM [TwoSetViolin]: A Classical Legacy 🎻🎻 »!

https://youtube.com/@twosetviolin?si=yZLK2rCyqwN1yV9D

With love,

Rosain Quivan 🌹

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Simply beautiful 💫

HAPPY NEWYEAR!!!! :D

(here it is chopped up, tumblr DESTROYS my quality)

STARTING 2025 WITH TF2 ART!!! :D I actually wanted to make an artwork for smissmass but then comic 7 came out and had to change plans.. so NEWYEAR IT IS!

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“The Dreidel Song” South Park - CLEAN COVER! (+ Lyrics)

HAPPY (LATE) HANUKKAH!!! 🕎 🎶

To celebrate, I present you with my CLEAN COVER of “The Dreidel Song”, sung by the Broflovskis from South Park! Now you can sing this song with your family, friends and even employers for a good time and a great raise ❤️ No need to worry about Cartman at all (his V-chip is still in…) 😉

This came to me out of a spark of inspiration when getting into the South Park fandom this holiday season (26 years too late, I know… shhh), and after 6 days of singing, editing, binge-watching and fangirling, I created this accomplishment of a project! Honestly, this is probably my best video & singing work so far and I’m so glad to be able to share my love for this community and fandom through this insanely catchy song! 🎧

I hope you enjoy, and have a Happy New Year 2025! 🎊 🙌 🥳

***

Credits:

Animation: South Park animation crew @southparkdigital @paramountpictures

Backing track: Lauren Janssen on Musescore

Vocals, editing & concept: Rosain Quivan 🌹

Rosain Quivan SP Avatar: SP Maker Online

Dedicated to Trey Parker and Matt Stone for bringing joy to fans for a quarter of a century and beyond! 💫

Find me here for more SP bonanza!

BandLab: RosainBLA

YouTube: RosainQuivan

Twitter (X): RosainXA

Ao3: RosainAO3

See my LinkTree for more (rosainlta)!

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“South Park’s biggest fujoshi <3”

[Made while watching South Park Season 5 at 1AM … shamelessly laughing my butt off watching Cartman cook parent-filled curry 😂💀]

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“Cartoon Crazy! 📺”

Original Artwork by Rosain Quivan

Christmas 2024 ☃️

Notes:

What a crazy year it has been, huh?

It’s been a wild ride and honestly it’s been one of the most rewarding years I’ve had in terms of fandom love and community interaction! From Team Fortress 2, to Fandroid, to Aggretsuko (not shown here but for those who know me personally, you know 😉 ), to now my blooming interest in South Park, Family Guy and The Simpsons - it’s been truly outstanding.

I can’t state just happy I am to be a part of all these amazing communities and to have met such kind, talented and diverse friends along the way, and I’m looking forward to more in 2025!! ❤️

Happy Final TF2 Comic Release (FINALLLLYYYY!! 🥳🥳 Post maybe soon? :3)

…and have a Happy New Year!

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Pretty interesting, saving this for later.

I've always struggled to explain and justify this subject, and I'm happy to hear other people's theories.

While I don't agree with all the points, since I enjoy comic-and-game narrative consistency (for example, I believe that the mercs and their opposite-colour counterparts have their own separate families, as you can see the difference in Scout's in Meet the Spy and in A Cold Day in Hell, where you see his parents (Spy and his ma) as either RED or BLU), I think this is a pretty good basis for any logical explanation for it.

... which, realistically, Valve will probably never make themselves, LOL.

I might develop my own theory for this in the future, and I appreciate this analysis (as well as the fabulous artwork!), so I will use this as inspiration when the time comes.

Also inspo: Lil' Pootis lore, since we lovin' the kooky RED Medic and the absolute deadpan BLU Medic dynamic reality.

Anyway, until then, have a dancing Pyro for your troubles! And remember:

That's just a THEORY!

A GAME THEO-

-alright, I'm not MatPat. I'll hush up now. :-)

Another take on the TF2 Clone Theory:

Continuation to this.

When I was talking to people about the clone theory, they were always asking me about who were originals and who were clones. I didn't understand why that matters; they're all same people with the same memories of their pre-service past, right?

What I didn't understand is that people had entirely different take on how clones are made than I do. I've never even thought about the fetus tubes until someone specifically pointed out that scene in Emesis Blue... (I also didn't know cloning was a real life thing?? Not just sci-fi trope??)

So yeah I've always thought cloning was instant because it would also explain how respawn works. Classic "resurrection" either isn't the thing (lame) or just takes too much time to commit. However, the super cool very scientific respawn machine will use your remains + storage bio supply to quickly rebuild a new body (as it was at the assigning day) and put your consciousness into that body so you feel like you're living nonstop.

(at least that's the theory)

Also, to answer these questions:

They do remember their connections, their past and their memories. Memories of the past are the same.

Their families were not cloned, they aren't involved in this business in any way. They don't know.

However, to keep this secret from the mercs... Of course if both of the clones will speak to their families they will soon spot some weird things and inconsistencies (talking about things that seemed to never happen). Not even talking about visiting family on holidays, that's an obvious no-no.

So... First of all, a big deal is to make REDs and BLUs lives and experiences here as similar (ideally identical) as possible.

And second: I think their connection to the world is just very limited/prohibited. The telephone connection is entirely controlled by the Administration (Sniper has to drive far away to sneak talk to his parents). Letters are monitored, censored and withhold if necessary (or copied if they are FROM the family). No going home until the contract is due (many years??) etc...

Which contradicts comics in s lot of ways but you know what? I don't even care. Comics are an unreliable narrator anyways. I mean uh... I uh. I'll talk about it some other time.

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"Do you miss the time when you used to do no harm?"

Old habits.

Merc behaviour is based on a nice little comment @up-in-flames-writing left on one of my comics :)

Rambling and more silly drawings below.

Loosely based on the Solemn Vow's public blurb:

Art lovers will cherish the bust of Hippocrates, commemorating a time when the Medic still thought doing no harm was a good idea.

I am absolutely convinced that Medic carries dextrose drops with him. German pharmacies throw these after you when you buy anything at all. I went to check if this one specific brand I know of had been around since the 60s and 70s and yes, it was.

Small acts of kindness I can see Medic doing is giving everyone one of these if they are tired. I'm talking about Engineer mostly.

Or they snack on them when solving practical problems together, like during the teleporter bread tumor incident.

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“Alone in the Line of Fire” 💜

Team Fortress 2 ‘Miss Pauling’

(Original AI Song by Rosain Quivan)

~ Keep reading for cover, lyrics and details! ~

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Cover:

Description:

"Alone in the Line of Fire"

Original AI Team Fortress 2 “Miss Pauling” Song by Rosain Quivan

Lyrics, concept & editing by Rosain Quivan

Music, vocals & art from Suno AI (suno.com)

Team Fortress 2 and ‘Miss Pauling’ by VALVE Studio

After scrolling through some amazing Tumblr posts, I got ultra-inspired and decided to write a song from the POV of the TF2 GOAT 🐐 Miss Pauling 💜 In dedication to my favourite girl boss out there.

Unfortunately, I was lacking ideas for what to do for the instrumental, so I decided to give the good ol’ Suno AI a whirl, not expecting anything too good… but getting the most amazing bad*ss AI work instead! At least, in my medical Medic main opinion. 😜

So, I wanted to share it with you all. I hope you enjoy this little fiery experiment of mine! 😉

Alternative title: “Music to complete your contract to 🗣️🔥”

(P.S. In case you didn’t know, it’s confirmed that Miss P. canonically plays piano and drives a moped! So I tried incorporating some of these elements here :b)

Lyrics:

~ *~ * ~ * ~

I move in silence, shadows fall…

Every step, I’ve seen it all.

Papers stacked like dominoes,

One wrong move, and down they go.

I keep my head up, I’ve got the plan!

I’m the right-hand woman, the weight’s in my hands.

But beneath the calm, the polished seams,

I’m hiding secrets and broken dreams…

~ * ~

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! I carry it alone.

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! With a heart made of stone…

Through danger and disguise, I walk a fragile line,

Balancing the darkness with a grace that’s borderline.

Oh…

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! More than they believe…

I drive that moped fast as hell,

But there’s more beneath my sleeves…

~ * ~

Classified files, late-night calls,

Dodging bullets, breaking laws.

Wiping out the trails they all leave,

The blood, the dust, the webs they weave.

Behind the curtain, I’m the queen,

In this chessboard world, I’m rarely seen.

But when no one’s there, I play my song,

Let these notes remind me where I belong.

~ * ~

I'm Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! I carry it alone.

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! With a heart made of stone…

Through danger and disguise, I walk a fragile line,

Balancing the darkness with a grace that’s borderline.

Oh…

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! More than they believe…

I drive that moped fast as hell,

But there’s more beneath my sleeves…

~ * ~

I’m more than just the ink and pen,

I’ve fought through fire, and back again.

A smile that hides a thousand scars,

A fighter beneath these burning stars.

But oh, the silence weighs me down,

When no one's near, I can’t make a sound.

My fingers trace the ivories,

Longing for some melodies…

~ * ~

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! I carry it alone.

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! With a heart made of stone…

Through danger and disguise, I walk a fragile line,

Balancing the darkness with a grace that’s borderline.

Oh…

I’m Miss Pauling! I’m Miss Pauling! More than they believe…

I drive that moped fast as hell,

But there’s more beneath my sleeves…

~ * ~

I play my song when no one’s near,

But even I can’t shed these tears.

In the silence, I’ll remain…

Carrying the weight, hiding the pain.

* ~ * ~ *

Dedicated to Edd Gould (2012) and G.W.L.

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Wowza! I can feel the fantastic fortress fantasy just oozing off of this and I love it ❤️

Well, for no actual reason, tf2 × Alice in Wonderland AU!!

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I know I don’t usually post non-TF2 related content here, but… this lil’ robot and his songs have inspired me for over 8 years, and I wouldn’t be doing what I am passionate with and love without him. So, voilà ! Thanks for the memories~

Created by RQ2gwl. ♥️🎶

“Fandom Access Memory (FAM) - A Tribute Song to Fandroid!”

Fandom Access Memory (FAM) - Lyrics

[Fandroid! MUSIC Intro ("Tribute song")] ["Crazy lady!" from Fandroid! GAME video: "FANDROID funny moments"]

We built this world

You showed me how

The gaming fun, the music loud

It's me, Fandroid! (and Melody!)

Throughout the streams and ROBLOX vids (ooh~)

The fandom songs and cover gigs (ooh~) We'd laugh (Tattletail: "Hee-hee-hee!")

And sing (Twirling Girl: "Ooh-ooh-ooh...")

If someone said eight years from now,

l'd be long gone

l'd lock them under ADHOC / QUALIA grounds

'Cuz they're all wrong!

We'd sing melodies

In eternal harmony

Or so, I thought.

(Time Keeps Ticking (Griffinilla) - "Time keeps ticking away...)

And then one day, word spread about

A post was made, his truth came out (Twirling Girl: "It's so sad..")

Woah, woah

Oh, no

It was over, you cast no doubt

Our world was gone, I tried to shout

But nothing came out...

Our systems just kept shutting down

Wired all wrong

I wasn't programmed to know how

To move on

Our forever

Has turned into never, and so

What now?

Oh, oh

(Portal 2: "Ahh~")

Then I remembered the key

Encrypted with our last dreams

Stored inside this Fandom Access Memory

(FAM) [RAM, Fandroid, fandoms, family]

I won't forget you, my friends

"Goodbye world..."

If someone said eight years from now,

We'd be long gone

l'd call them a crazy lady! ("You're crazy, lady!")

'Cuz they're all wrong, since

The memories,

The melodies,

Will forever live on!

Within you,

Within me,

We'll keep singing this song!

Our world will

Keep turning

Even if we must say so long!

So, thank you

For everything

Thank you

Thank you

For everything

Thank you,

My friends,

For everything.

For everything.

—-

Dedicated to G.W.L and Edd Gould for making my dreams come true ❤️

#fandroid #music #song #remix #tribute #art #fandom #fandroidfam

Thank you to @jkittymeow for the current voice of Melody, inspiration and for delivering the news.

And my friend who originally helped mix this song. I didn’t use the copy with your changes here for anonymity issues, but your help was very appreciated.

“Fandroid!” franchise belongs to Griffinilla: https://m.youtube.com/@Griffinilla ; https://www.youtube.com/@fandroidgame

Clip used from this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27wRNFudAJU

Original song “Who Knew?” by P!nk: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJWIbIe0N90

Instrumental used: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3t0HDled6NA

Thank you for everything.

Art & music by RQ2.

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Wunderbar! ❤️👏

Ma petite chou-fleur

Original by Robert McGinnis

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Oh yeah, we’re back baby! 🥳🎉

ATTENTION TF2 FANS.. COMIC 7 IS REAL AND THEY’RE ACTUALLY WORKING ON IT !!! WE ARE SO BACK.

Original post from Twitter here

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Spontaneous

Image from 'Expiration Date' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLlLQ3LmZWU * * *

Author's Note:

Upon searching for some inspiration when I was feeling down, I found this short piece of writing I made back in July of 2023, a year ago.

It isn't perfect, and it depicts a Scout who is perfectly capable of reading and writing (how uncanonical! Gah! Shame on you, past self). Yet, I feel like the message in it was something I... just needed to hear, especially now, when I feel as if I'm stuck in this creative rut of comparison and demotivation.

This little thing just spoke it perfectly and offered me a bit of happiness that makes me feel that, just maybe, not all is lost. I don't know how or why I wrote it, maybe for the same reasons I feel today, but I am really glad I did, and I wanted to share it with you.

I hope this little vignette helps and speaks to you as it has for me.

Happy reading.

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Scout just needed to start.

He needed to start sometime, otherwise, when would he ever?

He closed his eyes, sighing. His fingers traced the contours of every key with hesitant eagerness, as if he were trying to mentally prepare for a big event. But he knew that this wasn't the case, and he knew that the longer he waited there trying to find the "ultimate source" of inspiration, the longer he would be left in the future doing nothing. He knew that if he let this moment of dutiful obligation to himself pass, he would just procrastinate once more in the future, and he would forever regret not having taken the chance while he still had it. So, here he was. In front of the screen, keyboard beneath his hands, and his eyes weary with sleep deprivation and sheer will.

He suppressed the urge to compare himself to his past work, or to other authors, or to use lazy methods such as paying someone else to do it for him, and just do it. He also suppressed his urges to reread every paragraph and word and just go with the flow, just as he did on the battlefield. No turning back, just live in the moment.

Spontaneous.

Yes, spontaneous. Scout was good at that, he did it practically every day. Making witty jokes with the boys? Spontaneous. Bashing mercenaries' brains out as fast as a speeding bullet? Spontaneous. Confessing to Miss Pauling? Well... that one, not so much.

But God, why was it so hard when it came to writing?

Scout felt helpless against what he was feeling, and he hated it. He hated it with every nerve of his body. But when his nerves felt as if they were going numb, and that his heart was rising out of his throat, the hate he felt was soon overpowered by... whatever this... this thing was. Was it his perfectionism? His inner feelings of inadequacy and self-criticality? His fear of things ending up like they always were in the end whenever he started a writing endeavor such as this: abandoned, left in the dust with all the other unfinished projects. All the other ones that were once filled with sparks of inspiration, then left to die out in the chilling breeze of procrastination, perfection and comparison.

Scout didn't want this one to end up like them.

He couldn't afford to lose something as precious as this. He had made a promise to himself to keep this one, no matter how long or outdated it may become in the future: he knew that he wanted this one to survive. Why? He didn't quite know why. Besides, it was like every other one that he ever had before. It all started off with that high of happiness and creativity, then sloped downwards into a spiral of neglect. But there was something different about this one that wasn't like the rest.

Perhaps it was his own inner improvements that he had made in his personal life that made him tougher than he was before. Maybe it was even just because he had found a character within it that he could personally relate to, at least to the physical and mindset extent.

But he just knew that when he made that promise to himself, he would keep it.

And he would let it burn on until the world was ablaze.

Scout smiled as he saw what he typed down in his conundrum. A way of catharsis or self-soothing, perhaps.

573 words? Not bad for a first shot.

Scout knew that it wasn't as much as he had initially hoped for, but he knew inside that in order to get anywhere, especially if he wanted to keep his ever-sacred promise to himself, he needed to congratulate himself for it.

Be proud of the milestones you hit, no matter how small or insignificant they may seem. And break those high standards you set to yourself; you have nothing to prove to anyone except yourself. And if you can prove to yourself that you are, in fact, capable of writing something, even if it is only half a thousand, it should be a clear sign that not all is hopeless and that it is never too late to achieve these goals you set for yourself.

And that they are not impossible... if you have FAITH.

Scout smiled and shut off the computer. He had a long day ahead on the battlefield, but he knew that he'd be off a little better knowing that he had something to look forward to when the day was done.

Mission complete.

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This is sick!!! 🤘 🖤 💀 (unironic ‘💀’ emoji)

i gothified them