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Absolutely excited for this one! The first one was sooo good, I cannot wait to start this one!

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I wish my Xbox would record voices, but no matter what I do, it will not record them. But right after, we all died laughing. “Well you said to my right. Right to my death” Anyways! I'm always looking to team up with people, I don't bite. Might be a little stab happy though 🤣 Can catch some fun edits of my gameplay on my TikTok tho!

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Omg this book! I cannot get enough of it. I've already read it once, but I just had to have a physical copy of it to read again. I'm more of a dark romance reader, but romantasy has started to get me. Specifically this one! An Alice in wonderland kind of deal, but its about the queen of hearts when she was younger, and just ugghh. I absolutely love it!

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@_scrappy_67 on TikTok

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Something I enjoy doing since I can't work anymore and have wayyy too much free time on my hands. So I game. A LOT. I play a shit ton of Call of Duty. Whether its with my friends (yes I usually carry the team. Only two of them put me on a run for my money. The other 4-5 usually are below me. Aka the brothers and their dad are who I play with) Or I play warzone with my fiance sometimes, if not I'm running with squad fills and random people, tho I've made some freinds when I do squad fill. I had 2 guys who were friends on my one fill and we ran like 10 games together. I have so many clips, so I make little “edits” and started posting them on tiktok. I'm sure they're more entertaining than the actual clips themselves. But I'm hoping my account will start to grow 🙏

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Finally a day to myself 🙏 no worries of what were gonna have to find for food, no worries if we have enough water, no worries of wonderin when the power will come back on. So no extra stress and needing to stress dose just to make sure I don't go into a crisis again, cause let me tell ya, that ain't fun. Especially with the hospital near me, they Thu k I'm delusional 😭 like I'm diagnosed, I'm medicated, I'm not delusional, I promise 🤣. Also means I can do a little cleaning then bust down on some video games! See if “the boys” are on (aka my two friends who happen to be brothers, and the rest of their brothers. There's like 6 of them I think) and see if they want me to carry them on COD again (yes I carry them almost every time. Only one of them is actually really good at the game and can outdo me) or if we're going easy with something like GTA. (my other friend group usually isn't on or on their new pcs. And I don't have a pc set up yet, so no mine craft or Ark survival). Just ready for this nice, chill day for myself

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I think these last few days have given me a year's worth of a camping fix, I ain't gonna lie. We finally got power back after 97 and a half hours after we had our official count 😅. This week drained me, I ain't gonna lie. All our food was a loss and I'm not sure how we're going to restock anything in our freezers and fridge. There's one store in town doing 15% tomorrow for people, but everyone in town had power back Tuesday and we know they're going to be the ones to buy everything before anyone who needs it can get anything. It's not like the power company sent vouchers to everyone who was out for more than 24 hours so there's no way of them knowing who needs the food or not. We just went shopping before all of this for stuff, most of our meat was fresh from a butcher that my dad had given us while we were struggling for a while after my fiance was wrongfully fired from a place he was working. And I just spent the last hour and a half, possibly two hours taking everything out of the freezers and fridge and scrubbing them down. Everything just feel like a cluster fuck at the moment.

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Just a mini rant/life update I guess:

First, the state is on fire, massive storms that knocked out so much electricity, and then we're on fire again? We're on hour 60 of no power at my house and it's so crazy. Our state hasn't seen such bad weather/power outages in a very long time. We have crews from multiple different states out here helping to get everyone back up and going. Personally, it wouldn't be so bad for us if we could use our water, but we can't. We're on a well and we need electricity to run our water. We've officially lost 2 freezers full of food now too, and we don't have the resources or funds to even restock everything we worked so hard to get to have stock. Our power company isn't even doing what the other one is. The other company is partnered up with a store out in town so their customers can get free water and ice if they need it. I doubt they'll even put leniency on people's bills after this, knowing everyone's money will be going to restock the food that they lost. I have so much support and gratitude for all the teams out here working to restore everything and fix so much stuff that was destroyed. And for the people helping others out with charging stations, showers, giving out food, letting people get water. There are even people offering to store food for others so they don't lose it. Farms are willing to take in baby animals for the time being so they don't die because they don't have enough warmth or water. Our state isn't equipped for such extreme weather, because we simply do not get weather this bad. And everyone said “Well you should have been prepared for the storm” No one knew how bad it was going to be! You cannot blame people for “not being prepared”. Not everyone has the funds to just go out and buy a generator! Were fortunate enough I have family right down the road that can use their water and let us get some, and have a way to charge phones, and in exchange we go into town and get stuff for them and us. We have family in other towns checking in on us. Were also fortunate that our house and vehicles weren't damaged in the storm. We had winds hitting 87mph! And the rain, it just won't stop right now, but it's not a bad thing. We aren't flooding and it's helping to keep the fires that have been going on. The state is also lucky that it's nowhere near as affected as states that were hit by the hurricanes. But no one here has had to deal with such a “disaster” before. It is considered a natural disaster for what happened here. I just hope the linemen and tree service companies here can finish as soon as they can so they can get back to their families. I'm so thankful for them working around the clock to get everything fixed, I truly am. And I hope we, and everyone else get power back soon! Just stick together and help when and where you can and everything will be okay. And here's to hoping we're able to restock as soon as we can, knowing the stores are going to be sold out of everything fast once everyone has power again

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A few new pieces that I recently posted on my shop 🫶

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Some of the bracelets I’ve done. A few are examples for custom orders, others are premade and listed for sale. All on my Etsy!

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It's my 8 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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This is just gonna be one big rant about medical stuff and chronic illnesses (may have trigger warnings for some people)

The last four months have been such a whirl wind and did a complete 180. When I tell ya it really was the definition of the whole “new year, new me” shit, it really is. I went from being almost 100% healthy asides from asthma and clinical depression, to coming to terms with having something that will never go away and is something I had never even heard about before? Going from my yearly check ups with my normal doctors to seeing them every 1 to 3 months along with blood work every 1 to 3 months. I spent 2 weeks in the hospital, went through so many tests from an MRI to having an upper scope done and was under anesthesia two times. I was so sick when I went in my body couldn’t even regulate its own blood sugar levels so I was running fluids, glucose, magnesium and potassium almost the whole time I was there. I was so out of it and the doctors I saw barely told me anything. I didn’t even know what was happening until the day I was released to go home. I still barely understand the extent of it all. Going from taking allergy meds here and there to daily meds, multiple times a day, having to check my own sugar and blood pressure multiple times a day. Medication adjustments. And having to basically fight the insurance company the last few months to have the “emergency shot” I’m supposed to have in case I can’t take my medication in pill form so I can administer it to myself through a needle, which I have absolutely no clue how to do that to begin with. And apparently the fact my pharmacy (after the whole ordeal of trying to get the insurance company to approve it) only gives the syringes needed in packs of 100?! (Not easy to store like you’d think since they’re in packs of ten within the box). Also the fact that insurance won’t cover a medical id bracelet unless you have fancy insurance and have what they call a “cash fund”? I can’t even work anymore so I have state insurance and medical id jewelry isn’t cheap and I have small wrists so the bracelets don’t even fit me to begin with? (I’ve resorted to making my own attachments for it and I won’t lie, I’m trying to sell some along with regular bracelets but apparently it’s not as easy as people make it seem). Half the time I don’t even feel like a person. Constantly in pain, most the time I’m nauseous, I can barely function enough to take care of the animals and take care of my house, there’s days I can’t even do something as simple as shower. There’s almost no support (or atleast that I can find) to help me out and there’s only one support group with other people who have the same thing (Reddit came in clutch on that one) and it’s all touch and go. You’re going based off of other people’s experiences since it’s something apparently a lot of people don’t know a lot about? And the stuff I find online are so basic and just describe what addisons is. Also the fact of how I got it? I’ve been told it’s genetic but no one in my family was ever diagnosed with it or had symptoms that align with it to make me or anyone in my family think they could’ve possibly had it. And right now I’m dealing with symptoms that felt like when I got really sick and lost so much weight (I weighed like 85 pounds when they finally took me seriously and admitted me) and I’m pretty sure it’s because they dropped my dosages? Because I felt great on a higher dosage and could still function pretty normally. Oh also the fact they think I have a hyperactive thyroid too and checking that on my next labs next week. I’ve never thought I’d have my blood taken so much in my life from 1-2 times a day for two weeks in the hospital and now it’s also every 1 to 3 months. They make me do labs the weekend before every endocrinologist appointment I have (sometimes I have to do double labs. One set for my endocrinologist and one set for my family doctor). Everything just feels so hectic and all over the place anymore. And people in my family just assume I’m healthy and can do everything like I used to when I can’t. My body has new limits to it that I’m still figuring out since even that is touch and go sometimes.

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Unusual for me, but some personal art about coping with chronic illness.

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This is probably so cheesy, but I thought I might as well make one. And started simple with one of my favorite anime characters. I really wanna make more too 😅

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