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EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS

🌙 EMERGENCY COMMISSIONS OPEN 🌙

Hi everyone, this is Chase, Kayleigh’s boyfriend. I’m reaching out for help. Kayleigh has had to leave her job due to her disabilities, and we’re currently waiting for her disability approval to come through. Unfortunately, the process is slow, and we’re struggling to cover our expenses in the meantime.

To help keep us afloat, we’ve significantly reduced Kayleigh’s commission prices. Every single dollar helps us get through the next few months. If you’ve ever considered getting a commission, now is the perfect time—your support means the world to us

🔹 IMPORTANT COMMISSION INFO 🔹

✨ All art pieces will come with a full timelapse video proving authenticity of creation.

✨ All payments will be upfront and are negotiable.

✨ Payments will be made through PayPal. You’ll receive the payment details via email after we finalize your commission.

✨ There will be 2–3 commission slots per month to make sure Kayleigh doesn’t get overwhelmed. Only 1 music slot is available each month.

✨ Turnaround time:

• Up to 2 weeks for drawing commissions

• Up to 1 month for music commissions

✨ Please send all references to the email address provided once we finalize your request.

🚫 No NSFW commissions will be accepted.

Kayleigh reserves the right to decline any commission for any reason.

💜 Thank you so much for your support, signal boosts, and kindness during this time. Every share or commission helps us keep going. 💜

Let me know if you’d like to grab a slot or have any questions! 🌸

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DECEMBER OFF

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I’ll start drafting up a post about the chosen subject!

Note: We won’t go into deep detail about our system, we may share tips and tricks our trauma informed therapist (who treats DID) shared with us! Maybe they can help others!

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Help me move out of my abusive household ❤️

Hello, we have made this post across all of our safe social media accounts. We will be 18 next year and we desperately want to move out as soon as possible. We have a job but its minimum wage and in the current economic climate that's not enough to support yourself.

We will be taking art commisions. If you have any money you can spare please consider commissioning a piece of art from us. Thank you ❤️

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‘But that’s not accurate to [source]’

Well yes, I am a fictive but in case you failed to realise, my source character doesn’t actually exist.

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010: DREADFUL THOUGHTS

I don’t know how to ask for help. It feels pointless or like I’ll say the wrong thing. Most of the time I just go quiet instead. I don’t expect anyone to fix it. Just tired of holding it in. -anon

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TW: RELIGIOUS CONTENT

TW: RELIGIOUS CONTENT

009: FOR I AM TAINTED (TW RELIGIOUS CONTENT)

Some religious stuff… I sometimes feel the urge around certain holidays to go to church. Parts of me when we pass a church beg to go back. I do not know why. Every time I go back to church, I dissociate deeply. It doesn’t feel good or right. Maybe one day I will know why.

Credits: Clip studio paint for church assets

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Yeah…. Came back one time to similar things. :/

We should really emphasize the fact that alters can be ANYONE and believe in ANYTHING because we have an alter refusing to show themselves but everytime someone fronts after they did, our entire feed is filled with looksmaxxing posts antivax posts and posts advocating for the consumption of raw meat and milk. WHO ARE YOU.

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Hello!!!!

We wanted to share all the alter icons we drew for our parts! They’re all drawn by a mix of alters, we try to keep the same style but sometimes it’s hard. I hope you like them!

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Just wanted to say that I really love all of your art. It means a lot to us because OSDD/DID can already be such an isolating and intense experience, and your art "puts to words" so much of how we feel, too.

I am so so thankful my art was able to reach you all. It means the world to me. I won’t ever stop making these. As long as I am here, I will continue to share my experiences through art ❤️

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008: FRAGMENTED SELVES

This was a vent piece I made after therapy, that includes the host (me) in the center around all my other parts. I refer to my alters as parts, as they all are apart of one whole. A whole that didn’t get to experience much time being together as a unified identity. Some days, I am endearing towards my headmates, but other times I hold much resentment or anger.

“If I was normal, how would my life be now? Would it be different?”

I often find myself asking this in my head…

-Kayleigh

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Note: We won’t go into deep detail about our system, we may share tips and tricks our trauma informed therapist (who treats DID) shared with us! Maybe they can help others!

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007: SHIFTING SELVES

TW// DISTURBING IMAGERY

sometimes, I do not know who I am, if I am human or not, if this vessel is my own or someone else’s. It bothers me to a degree, but other times it’s so numb that nothing matters.

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Hello!!!

Just a kind reminder that we do not tolerate any hate, fakeclaiming, or anything that can be seen as hurtful on our page!

This is a safe space for us to post our thoughts.

We are not looking for arguments or anything like that here!

Remember, you are all loved, you are all valid and your experiences are valid as well as your emotions ❤️‍🩹

-Kayleigh

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006: OUT OF REACH

Sometimes, when we get close to the truth in counseling or therapy, an overwhelming feeling of needing to be silent washes over us like heavy ocean waves. They crush us, and our throat closes up… We desperately want to speak, but are unable to even find the words.

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Sys culture is "wow! I finally got an actual diagnosis! Sure, people will still doubt me, but at least I'll be able to combat my imposter syndrome!" And then suddenly my thoughts switch to "Ah damnit, I must have accidentally tricked both myself and my therapist into thinking I have DID." I will never win. -🧭🗺 (ts sign off might be taken idk)

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A systems interpretation of this song.

For some inexplicable reason, this song in particular resonates deeply with us. Despite its lyrics being about a man grappling with the powerlessness of love, we never quite understood why.

Music has a unique beauty because each person has a different interpretation of its meaning. From the perspective of a system, here’s my take on this song.

“I was just guessing at numbers and figures, pulling the puzzles apart.”

That line. That’s what I do all the time—trying to make sense of everything. Why we are the way we are. Why certain memories are missing. Why certain feelings hit out of nowhere. I dig and analyze like a “scientist”, but all I ever get are fragments; shards of something too big to name. And sometimes I wonder if trying to “solve” it just makes the pain worse.

“Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be this hard.”

No one prepared me for how heavy this would feel. Realizing we’re not just one person, but one person fragmented into many parts. Realizing some of us are hurting so badly, and others are still stuck in loops, trying to protect us.

“I’m going back to the start.”

I keep wishing we could go back. Before the trauma. Before the splitting. Before we had to become so many just to survive. But the truth is… there is no going back. There’s only moving forward together. Still, I ache for it. For some kind of restart where I could do it all differently. Be better. Be safe. Keep them safe.

In my interpretation, which is based on a system perspective, I believe the song conveys a sense of conversation—between different parts of the system. It’s a conversation between the host and the protectors, between us and the little ones, and between the guilt, grief, and hope that perhaps, one day, we’ll find peace and well-being.

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An alter drew themselves recently and I wanted to share it. (With their permission ofccc)