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You know your characters are 3-dimensional when you have "dramatic bitch", "actual fucking psychopath"and "filthy fucking rich" as sidenotes in their character profiles 👍

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No because why do I have a simultaneous heart attack and panic attack??

I will never be able to understand how seeing something so small can be so utterly devastating and can give me like actual. physical. pain. Like a world is ending and you feel hollow for something you've lost that you don't know what it is but it's a piece of you and it's gone. and now there's a hole in your chest like a slice of some weird, metaphorical fucking swiss cheese

that sick feeling when you can actually feel the pain in your chest from hearing something or seeing something that really breaks your heart

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Sometimes I'm scrolling through Pinterest or Tumblr or whatever and I find just. A quote. Or a thought. And it makes me have a feeling that's like nostalgia. Like the gold lining the clouds on the drive to school. That eats me and makes me almost cry.

And then I keep scrolling and I forget what I just felt. I forget until I have a nap. Or a coffee with my mom on our deck. Or I'm writing a poem in a sunny spot by the window. And then I remember.

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Me: Why can't I ever draw when I need to draw but I always draw when I need to be doing literally ANYTHING ELSE

Also Me: *continues to make pretty pictures with my new markers* forgive me mother for I am weak

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“don’t ever beg for a friendship or relationship with anyone. if you don’t receive the same effort you give… lose that contact”

— Unknown

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I hate how there's so many songs and stories about romantic breakups and that being depressed and hung-up over a romantic breakup is socially acceptable, but when you're suddenly ghosted by your best friend of several years or they tell you they don't need you anymore, you're expected to just get over it??!?!!! Like hello, my soul and heart have been stomped to pieces by the one person I thought would see me throughout all the phases of my life! And I'm just supposed to say "who needs their validation anyway" and that they weren't a good person anyway because look at what they just did to you??? Hell, I'm lucky I still function without breaking down every hour nowadays- let me feel sad and alone and see people going through the same stuff online or in media so that I know it's not the end. I hate feeling invalid and stupid for this.

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One of the hardest parts of writing gay anything is that they (often) use the same pronouns. Balancing names and pronouns so that I'm not overusing either of them is maybe THE hardest part of writing for me, because if you use 'he' too many times in a row you'll lose track of who's doing what, but too many names is repetitive and awkward to read!

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No more enemies to lovers tropes- I want only problematic, I-found-this-dude-traumatized-and-in-the-dumpster found family from this point on

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Mark my words, if I see ONE MORE post about best friend Halloween costumes, I will put my cat in a tutu and walk her around my neighborhood October 31st while I am also wearing a tutu