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I'm so sleepy :(

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I'm so fucking tired. Work is so evil

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Hey brain, maybe don't give me dreams where my loved ones hate me. Or make me jerk so stuff gets tossed on the floor

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Having joint issues is so homophobic

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I got another massive bill on top of my current troubles. I'm... Really fucked rn. Gods I hate this.

If y'all are able and want to help, I have a kofi: https://ko-fi.com/sunbeam_catt

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Urgent comms

Hello! I'm so sorry that I have to make this post. I'm currently in a very tight and not good financial situation.

My paychecks aren't enough to cover my hrt and much is eaten up for transportation. Furthermore, I'm struggling to afford my safe foods. The college semester is starting and I'm really under prepared.

I'm selling poetry and prose for whatever you'd like

Deals:

-> $15, 2 stanza poems (3x)

-> $15, half page of prose

-> $15, half page letter

-> $20, full page letter

-> $25, full page prose

Story offers are currently unavailable right now for a faster turn around time

Other info:

-> Turn around time will vary as I'm disabled!

-> Poems will be done fastest

-> Payment will be in $USD

-> Payment will be through my kofi or cashapp

-> my carrd for more info

-> my toyhouse for another format

-> my portfolio

Thank you so much. If you can't give, that's okay. Please repost me

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Hello writing and creator friends!

It's with a heavy heart to say that The Coral Reef, a large commissions server I was part of, had been raided sometime last night/early morning.

It's with a happier heart to share that it's being rebuilt! I'm also now staff there!!

Click here to join us :D

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I'm only halfway through my shift. I'm so tired. I want to go home

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All these fucking customers need to go home. There's no goddamn reason to be fucking flocking to a store like this

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Working is really getting in the way of me doing comms and playing Minecraft

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my biggest piece of advice for newly out trans people is to remember your first time presenting in your ideal gender may not go perfectly. you may think you know what kind of presentation you want and find it doesn't turn out how you imagined, or think it looks unflattering on you. but you have to remember you're esentially doing puberty 2, all your cis peers have had SO much longer to cultivate their style. have you ever seen how preteens dress themselves? its experimental and goofy. it comes with bad makeup and unfitting mismatched clothes and straightener fried hair. 90% of the style choices people make at 13 are things they would laugh at 10 years later. nobody nails it the first time. but you'll get there eventually. don't give up on yourself.

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Why is work SO FUCKING LOUD

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As a social work major and someone who was a troubled kid growing up through some shit: this post absolutely cooks. The field needs people with our experiences and insights

what's up with writers makign their troublemaker characters grow up to be cops instead of like. social workers

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I have to go to work and form intelligent thoughts :(

I'm so tired, I'll form intelligent thoughts later

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Hey! If you're looking for someone to support this disability pride month, I encourage you to help my friend.

Pluto is 18 and disabled. He's recently been cut off from financial support and his current job isn't enough to reach stability. It'd mean a lot if you all could help him out

Click here for his gofundme

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In August of 2024 I was without electricity, phone, and internet connection because huge storms with lightning, rain, and winds. We even have floods, the roof is full of holes so it rain inside every year as well floods, but now with the state of the weather things are much worst.  We had never have winds like that here. At this rate, in 4 years we will have tornadoes, a thing we have never ever have here (edit: may 25th 2025 we had our first tornado in the south of the country, we are fucked). Nor our lands, infrastructures, and culture are prepared for this. Many haven't recovered from this nor any of past natural disasters.

Then spring and summer came, and bc all the destruction of our nature and the draught territories the little forests that are left of our native trees and plants caught fire with the pines throughout different regions a number of times.

Companies and its countries are stealing our water for mining, for avocados, strawberries and other native fruts and veggies that I can't buy to eat bc are sent to other countries, planting non-native pines to cut down and sell the wood to the world and have dried up the land, causing more and more fires, more and more deaths every year. On 13 February alone, there were forest fires in six municipalities in one region and 14 fires were burning. The emergency has left more than 20,800 hectares burned by the flames, as well as 44 victims and 28 houses destroyed in those days alone. There have been fires every week for months. The last few weeks it is almost every day somewhere in the country.

The goverment can't fix the country bc we still live under the dictatorship constitution and its politicians and families, and the president has being constantly attacked by the pro dictatorship groups from our country and others, fake news, terror campaings, etc, even the ensurance company group, the one that has Principal (AFP Cuprum), Metlife (AFP Provida), and Prudential (AFP Habitat) threatened my president this month because he and our chambers proposed and made slight improvements to the system because private companies of ensurance and pensions (that are from USA of course) have millions getting sick, disabled or dying because they can't afford medical care nor anything.

This threat was issued by David Chavern, president and CEO of the American Council of Life Insurers in the form of a letter to the extent that it was made known to the public. I can't ignore that one of the groups that also has their ensurance company here is UnitedHealthcare that owns Banmédica, another criminal company. Yeah, UHG, the one that had its CEO executed by The Adjuster. Yes, all USA insurance companies in my country are affected by this little change made to try to help my people to stay alive and have a little more of money that still will not make us live with dignity and out of poverty. So, yeah, is easy to say that UHG is more than angry with my country and back then the 1973 coup has made, among other things, to install this evil ensurance system and this companies.

Even in the cities there are fires. This past week I saw 2 fires in just 3 days, with houses on fire just a couple of blocks away from me. Now it has began autumn and, if I take as reference past years, it will not be like it used to be, but just like a winter part 1 now. Is already getting cold in the night and early morning making my articulations hurt, while in the day the heat makes me tired and weak, causing fires.

Last year people helped me, was awesome, but sadly it wasn't enough. I cleaned by hand the black mold from the walls of the storage room where I live and painted a bit with the little anti mold paint I found in an old tin that was left in a closet. Looks better and smells better and made me happy, but the walls are still broken, one of the walls is still not a wall, and the people of the place is still horrible and abusive. I'm still unemployed even when I tried to sell my art works, get a job, sell second hand clothes, find remote work, and even sent a cultural project to the Ministry of Culture to try to get funding and thus have a wage. Nothing worked. I got rejected in all and honestly I can no longer work because of my disability.

My health is getting even worst. Chronic pain, chronic illnesses and long covid are worse and make me more and more disabled with each passing semester. Eating is hard bc gluten free and dairy free food is terribly expensive (I have celiac disease and lactose intolerance) so I keep being hungry every day, i haven't eaten a piece of bread in months, I cant even make my own bc the gas and electricity is expensive as well the flour that I can use. Being autistic and having c-PTSD as well depression and fibromyalgia doesn't help and the violence never ends.

As far as I'm concerned, I've been on my own all my life, my only support is my couple that also helps me as a caregiver sometimes, is the only family I have. We don't live together bc poverty, we can only be thogeter for a little time each year bc non of us has a job (we are both university graduates and are teachers), their roof rains down and floods their house, the food sold in the poorer area is in bad state and in their house quickly grows black mold and we have to eat it. Also has to take care of an abusive old mother that is poisoning him with black mold (that already gives them health problems like allergy, migraine and gut issues, and the father has already died), the neighbours are violent, and I make that the bills are bigger and more.

My couple fears that we end up in the streets, homeless. I fear that they died or that when the dictatorship is installed once again here the neighbours are gonna snitch on us just bc we belive in democracy and my couple is a teacher. Already members of a cult showed up 2 days ago only in this house. In the last big dictatorship people were taken from their houses and jobs (specially students, univeritaries, teachers and culture workers, for example) and some never returned. Others were tortured so much that they died or ended up disabled and traumatized for life.

If u want to help me to fix things, buy food, meds, pay the bills, and being warm this winter please check

my PayPal or MACH

and make a donation, even $1 helps. If u can't donate, please reblog bc thats the only way to make this post circulate thus receiving help.

I don't even want to be in my country bc we will have a dictatorship soon, but I have nowhere else to go nor money to migrate. I need $10.537 dollars or € 9.760,95 euros aprox to pay all the documents, the bank money I need to have to prove I deserve to migrate, the tickets, rent money I have to show, and all that. I have been really thinking in live somewhere else, but no money and countries are having even more restrictions to countries like mine and people like us than before.  Also the anti migration and other hate groups and gangs. There is a safe place?

I currently (date 14 April 2025) have $260 dollars donated (coz I spent some in food and meds this past months). We no longer able to pay for our meds and gas for cooking nor warm the place, I'm eating less bc we can't pay for food (I can't buy bread, flour, noodles, etc bc the gluten free lactose free products are really expensive, specially for us). My couple has been a year and a half without a job and there is no sight of one in the next months. Is winter and in the first rain that lasted a few minutes the place again had leaks. You can check the old post here and see a Meet the blogger here.

I thought that it was necessary to make an actualization and a using comprehensible single post, so that's why I made this.

Edit: Three pinochetist agents and a direct nazi descendant (both 3 belive in the nazi values) are running for president in the next presidential election this 2026 and one of them is gonna win. Please, we need to migrate so help me to not die with my couple. This is no longer only asking money to eat, this now is to not be tortured and disappeared. I have less than a year to find a country to migrate and leave. We can speak and read english even if not perfectly. If you know a country that allow political refugees and put less trouble to migrants, please comment.

Edit 2: the ppl with which I live are trying to involving me in their crimes so please help me to leave faster.

Edit 3: my mother in law I think is gonna make us end up on the streets or lie about us bc we are not letting her be abusive and I fear she try to frame us as abusers just bc she is emotionally abusive and can't deal with the fact that we say No and we told her she has to give basic human respect. I think she is lying to extended family as always and put herself as victim and try to damage us more, specially against my couple bc she has always treat them bad. This hell never ends

Help is welcomed, I am still here trying hard, I don't want to die.

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I'm so tired, I'll form intelligent thoughts later