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sciderman · 2 months
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Sci ngl i assumed you were a cis gay dude back when i was obsessively reading your spiderpool stuff as a teenager. I’m a gay trans man and your comics always felt like a warm hug, truly my comfort doom scrolling — so it’s kinda nice to find out we’re more similar than id thought
bless you anon!! it's a pleasure having you, and i'm so, so glad my comics can be a cozy comfort for you!! kissing you so sweetly
you know, it's kind of funny, i've had an overwhelming response of people who've said they've just assumed i was male by the vibes i radiate and i'm not entirely sure what it means. i'm know you all mean it very reaffirmingly but it leaves me with a lot of questions. like, questions that i want to do further research into.
is there a masculine dialect? like how there are regional dialects? is that a thing? i kind of want to study this now. can you tell someone's gender by the way they talk like you can tell where they're from? that is so cool if it's true. how do you type like a man. what should i look for? i don't know if i've ever assumed someone's gender by the way they type. i just look at their bio and it usually says. and i kind of don't think about it when i type. i type like me. but – i think maybe i pick up the way that i talk from the media i consume (comic books) which is kind of overpoweringly male. overpoweringly populated by male characters, and written by men, y'know.
i think the way i type here on @sciderman is probably softer and more femme than the way i write on the ask-blog. on the blog when i'm answering things as Mod i kind of intentionally mimic the tone-of-voice that marvel editors use. that's an intentional choice. so - when you read what i write here it's closer to my real voice, but over on ask-spiderpool i'm putting on an act. i try to sound like a marvel editor. i call you all True Believers! it's all a persona. i think one of the things that's my strength in writing is falling into voices - i think i could be an excellent ghostwriter, if i needed to be. so very crafty at mimicry.
as a kid i always, always always would mimic the characters i liked from the movies we watched whenever i came out of the cinema. i remember doing that all the time. and it was always boys. (except frenchie from grease. she was my one female gender icon. god everyone hated me for that one. i loved doing the voice. wanted to be her so bad. wanted the pink hair. everything.)
you know,, even now The Very First thing anyone asks me when they meet me is where my accent is from, because nobody believes i'm native to london. it happened today (twice). the way i talk is a little weird. my response,, off the bat,, it's because i watched too many cartoons growing up. so,, i guess maybe i idolised too many masculine role models, and probably didn't have enough female role models. i liked the boy movies better than the girl ones. i spent more time with my dad than i did with my mom. my mom wasn't a good role model. dad says that's probably why i didn't want to be a woman. i didn't have a good role model. (sorry mom). (he's right). all kinds of variables here. i kind of want to do research into it. also i should talk to a therapist.
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peaceteaa11 · 2 years
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okay here’s a quick idea for a smut blog i guess??
(it’s brief so !!)
imagine:
you and eddie have known eachother since you were little blah blah blah right, you became bestfriends in middle school and haven’t looked back, one day y/n needed help with self exploration (if you will 😭), eddie and y/n are both high af in the moment y/n asked eddie to help her??
girl i don’t know this is just a really stupid idea that took me like 4 minutes to think of. anyways i am inlove with your writing style.
WOWISDJ WAIT one more thing.
can we talk about how HOT eddie’s rings are..
lord the chokehold rings have on me 🤭.. god it makes me absolutely feral
okay okay bye!!
Okay! I’m so sorry this took me so long I’ve been like having to work a job and do stuff. Which obviously is not what I wanna be doing. All I wanna do is write fanfic all day but the universe says no no no you need money ;-; super lame.
Also you’re so sweet! I love writing so that means a lot to me, darling x
ALSO also Eddie’s ringgssssssssss ughhhhhhhh feral is the correct word to use. Like rabid beast breaking free from the gates of hell type of feral. Truly sinful.
Peace and Love, Babes.
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Hey, Eddie?
Pairing: Eddie Munson x Reader
Rating: 18+... you little crotch goblins not of age shall keep scrolling. Ya hear? I don't wanna hear no back talk. Come back when you're old enough to be reading this. Seriously, go enjoy your childhood bro. Go touch some grass.
Warnings: SMUT SMUT SMUT. You saw the request. Babes. Let's not act surprised. Fingering happens, along with lots of smooching, but I figure the fingering is more important to warn about. Some light cursing. Lots of praise. (Cause I'm a whore for praising)
Summary: Exactly what the prompt says, darling. You have Eddie have been friends since you were younger. And now... you need some help. And Eddie loves to be of service.
A/N: I am so sorry. but also... no I'm not. so enjoy this. Also, this took me so long, I have been so busy. I promise more content is coming soon but literally so much has been happening. Also, boys do be messing ya girl's heart sometimes ngl. So, from now on we're gonna stick to fictional men and fictional men only. I ONLY PROOFREAD ONCE! THERE WILL BE MISTAKES! I'm sorry. But I believe there are enough context clues for when mistakes arise.
Word Count: 3.5k
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Eddie and you have been the closest of friends since you met in middle school after you punched a young Jason Carver square in the jaw for calling Eddie stupid. Ever since then Eddie has followed you around like a puppy, big brown eyes always on you. If you were honest with yourself, at first, Eddie following you day and night was annoying. You liked to be alone. It was calm and quiet, but Eddie, he never shut up. After a few weeks, you came to love his constant chatter. You became fascinated by his fast-paced mind and creative touch to life. Ever since then you never grew tired of him and he never got enough of you, whether you could believe it or not. You two became attached at the hip and you both liked it that way.
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“Do you think Chrissy and Jason will have kids one day or just little demons?” Eddie giggles to himself mostly but stares across his room at you.
You turn over onto your stomach from your relaxed position on Eddie's bed. You look over the edge, down to the floor where Eddie is sitting, propped against his wall.
“Hm. Chrissy’s pretty nice. Fifty/Fifty I think.” You hum as Eddie passes the joint to you with a smirk. He puffs smoke in your direction and chuckles.
“Mmm. I don’t know. I think Jason’s evil douchey douchebag genes will take over.”
“It’s a possibility.” You suck in a long drag, holding the smoke in your lungs, soaking up the intoxicating burn.
“Do you think Steve will go bald? I bet Steve has a weird shaped head. Like an almond. Or cashew. Not quite sure which but definitely a nut of some sort. Can you imagine Steve bald?!” Eddie chuckles as you pass the joint over when Eddie does small grabby hands. You laugh letting the smoke escape from your lungs, rushing out into the warm air of Eddie’s room.
“Eddie, please. Steve bald is the most scarring thing I’ve ever had to imagine. You’re killing me.” Eddie giggles to himself and you can’t help but join. Both of you not too sure as to why you are laughing. Your eyes meet his and your stomach tightens like it has for the past two years every time you’ve looked at Eddie. You’ve gotten used to the feeling of pining after Eddie so usually it was easy to ignore but tonight your mind is clouded. “So… how did things go with Jenna?” You poke a bit trying to gauge how his date a few days ago went.
“Don’t get me started, love.” He laughs softly.
“You get laid?” The words topple from your lips before you can think. Instantly as the words hit your ears you mentally scold yourself. God, could you be more obvious?
“Nah.” He shakes his head and pushes his hair from his face. He gestures for you to take the blunt but you shake your head softly. He nods and takes another hit. “My right hand has been my best friend for a while now. I can’t remember the last time I got laid. Probably junior year. After that one gig. But maybe not.” He chuckles casually but your stomach churns. “How bout you darling? Getting any action?” He stares at you intensely. His eyes dark and questioning.
“Eddie. You already know that I haven’t. I’ve never even…” you let your words trail off. Thanking the gods that your brain caught up to your words before they left your tongue.
“Even what?” He smiles softly. Sitting up a bit straighter.
“Don’t act dumb.”
“I am dumb. Just say it.” He tilts his head confused. “We’re best friends, y/n. Just tell me. You know I’m not one to judge. Ya know glass rocks and houses.”
“Glass house and stones.” You laugh.
“Yea yea.” He waves his hand back and forth dismissing your correction.
“I… well. You know I haven’t had sex yet Eddie.” You whisper and he nods slowly.
“Yea. I know. I’m just making sure nothing's changed.” His face twitches a bit like he’s nervous. “Your right hand also been keeping you company?” He smirks playfully as a blush, whether from the high or his brazen confidence, you couldn’t tell, sets in on your cheeks. All you knew is your face was very very hot.
“No!” You giggle pushing yourself up so that your sitting on your knees looking down at Eddie as his face drops.
“Wait! What?! How have we never talked about this?! You’ve never masturbated before?” He springs to his knees and shuffles over to the edge of the bed. He looks up at you and his eyes are filled with amazement.
“What? Of course I have, idiot!” You push Eddie’s forehead and he chuckles bouncing right back.
“Okay… now I’m really confused.”
“Eddie. Can we just drop this?”
“Nooooo tell me!” He whines like a child grabbing your hand in his. He gently kisses your knuckles and smiles. “Please?”
“I- just promise you won’t… like… think I’m weird.” Your words cause his face to drop into a serious face.
“Look at who you’re talking to, babe.”
You nod slowly. “It’s just. I’ve never really… enjoyed? I just never really found pleasure in… touching? I- this is so stupid. I just I’ve never really…” your voice softens as Eddie crawls onto the bed in front of you. He grabs your chin and lifts your gaze to his.
“You’ve never had an orgasm?” He asks soft and sweet.
You nod your head, confirming his question.
“Oh. That’s. Oh.” Eddie releases a breathy chuckle.
“Yea…” you try to look back down at your lap but Eddie holds your chin up. His gaze locked on yours.
“You sure?” He squints down at you. You roll your eyes so hard it’s a wonder they didn’t get stuck in your head.
“Eddie… I think I would know if I’ve-“
“Okay okay yea. You would.” He sighs and his hand falls from your chin into your lap. “That sucks…” he whispers and looks down at his hand in your lap. You nod slowly and silence falls over the two of you. Your high still buzzing through you making you hyperaware of Eddie’s warmth near your body.
“Hey, Eddie?” You whisper softly your voice shaking. God. This is going to be either the best or worse decision you ever make.
“Hm?” He lifts his head and looks into your eyes causing you to second guess what you’re about to say. “Y/n?” He chuckles nervously in your silence.
“You’ve… touched girls before.” You whisper. Your words causing Eddie to tense up. “Can you…”
“Woah Woah. You have no idea what you’re saying right now.” He grabs your knees and looks down at you like he is about to scold you.
"Oh. So you haven't touched girls before then?" You tease him trying to lighten the mood between you two. He smirks down at you gripping your knees tighter.
"Hey now, that's not what I said." He chuckles. "You're too high to be saying all this."
"You're just as high as I am." You poke his chest and he shakes his head lightly.
"No. I am way more tolerant than you, my love. I am nowhere near as high. I mean. I'm pretty gone, but with what you're saying... you're really gone."
"No. No. I'm not. Really!" You giggle and Eddie shakes his head.
"You are! Y/n you're my best friend I know when you're lying. Idiot." He chuckles and kisses your forehead. As he's pulling away you reach up and grab his face and pull it down to yours. You listen as Eddie's breath catches in his throat as his hands slip off your knees and his body sort of slips into yours. “What- what are you-"
"Eddie, help me. Please, I want to. I want you to help me." Your voice is soft as your breath hits his lips. He shivers a bit and grabs your waist. He pushes himself up a bit straight but keeps his head level with yours.
"Please. Please don't do this to me." He sighs softly, closing his eyes. Your heart starts to beat faster in your chest, a part of you thinks it's just an effect of your high but another part knows that it's Eddie.
"Do what?" You ask softly and nudge your nose against his.
"You... you don't understand how often I think about you. I can't do this. I can't. It-"
"I think about you too. Like all the time." You giggle but Eddie shakes his head.
"No. You don't understand I don't about you like I'm supposed to. As my best friend. I think about you-"
"Like this..." You whisper and lean into Eddie. Pressing your lips to his. He groans and leans into you but quickly pulls away.
“No no no. Don’t do that. We can’t.” He shoves your shoulder just a bit but you scooch near him once more.
“Eddie, just this once? Please? As a favor to a friend?” You bat your lashes at him and he groans.
“Friends don’t do this.”
“Then we can reassess afterwards. Right now I just really really want your hands on my body.” You whimper and is eyes widen. You watch as his eyes scan your figure.
“Come here.” He grabs you under your arms and quickly readjusts the two of you on his bed. His back against the wall and your back against his chest. “Reassess after?” He checks with you again and sighs softly into your ear.
“Mhm. I already know what I want though." You smile out into Eddie's room wishing you could see his face.
“I think I do too. But I can’t think about it all right now.” He grunts pulling you closer and lifting your shirt up over your head.
You sigh as his warm fingers contrasting with the cool metal of his rings glides down your chest and your stomach. You shutter and push your head back against his shoulder.
“Eddie…” You whimper in his arms. Falling apart at just the idea of his fingers dancing their way further down your torso.
“I haven’t even done anything yet. Save your breath.” He places a small peck on your neck, testing the waters. When you shiver beneath his lips and move your hands to grip his thighs he smirks. "So, you enjoyed that, yeah?" He slides his hand further down your body causing you to push against his form behind you. He grunts a bit and places a few more kisses on your neck.
His hands roam your hips a bit, his fingers slipping under the waistband of your sweats every once and a while. You inhale a deep breath trying to slow your mind down, but everything is on overdrive and you can still feel the buzz of your high in your chest. Eddie's thumbs dip below the band of your pants on either side and you hear him inhale sharply.
"Can I?" He whispers through his teeth, nervous, maybe as nervous as you are.
"Yes." You whisper and lean your head back onto the front of Eddie's shoulder while he lifts your hips up and helps you to shimmy out of your sweats. He groans as your hips collide with his haphazardly.
"Careful." He chuckles and tries to push your hips a little further from his but you whine.
"I like you be against you. You're so warm and comfy." Your words a mumbled yet floaty which is a show of your high, but still. You are sure that this is something you want and have wanted for years now.
"Warm and comfy?" He chuckles and pulls your hips back into his, the bulge in his pants pressing against your lower back. "You're so beautiful, my love." He hums into your ear and shrugs his shoulder a bit, signaling for you to move your head. You lift your head and as soon as you do his lips are attached to the gentle skin of your neck.
He lets out soft hums, almost like a buzzing near your ear. You almost don't even notice his fingers working the waistband of your underwear. You gasp as his fingers hook around the sides and pull the thin cloth down your legs. Eagerly, you help by maneuvering your legs.
Eddie nibbles at your neck as he flings your underwear somewhere in his room. His nibbles and kisses on your neck get hungrier and sloppier as his hands find your knees. He grips your legs and slowly spreads them apart, hooking them around his extended legs to keep them spread.
The air of Eddie's room hits your sensitive skin and you shiver. Eddie pulls his lips away from your neck and grunts, his hips rutting up into you involuntarily. You feel the slick between your hips intensify at his actions.
Eddie's hands slide down your thighs and find your hips. His thumbs rub small circles into your skin. It's agonizing for him to be so close, yet so far away.
"You sure you want, uh, my help?" He hums.
"Mhm. Yes. For educational purposes." You joke and he can't help but laugh. His chuckles rumbling from behind you, his chest buzzing, sending shivers throughout your body.
"Right." He presses a warm open-mouthed tongue to your neck. Sucking at your skin as he pulls away. You whine, skin tingling from his touch. "Educational. You better pay attention, ya know, so that you'll be able to learn for when I'm not around to help." His voice is deep and you can practically hear the lust in his voice. Dry and sultry as his fingers grip at your waist, painfully tight.
"Eddie..." You beg, pushing your hips back into his on purpose. He whimpers from behind you and his breath catches in his throat. You smirk to yourself until you feel his warm fingers pressing lightly over your mound. You shutter.
"Ready?" He questions genuinely. All you can manage to release is a soft moan and eager nod.
Your hands have been the only explorers of your body and all they did was fumble about. Unsure. Unknowing of what made you feel good, nothing ever felt right when you did it. You felt shame in your own touch. Afraid of how to please yourself, how could you know your own body so little? What was the difference between your touch and Eddie's, besides the obvious?
Maybe it was the approach, the view. Where your fingers felt shame, Eddie's feel beautiful curves and folds. Where your fingers fumbled, his glide eager to please you.
Eddie gently slips a finger into your folds. He hums to himself and slowly pulls his finger from you. You whimper at the loss of his touch. "Woah, you're really wet." He chuckles. A warm blush of embarrassment cloaks your face. "Don't be shy, darling." He nudges his nose against your cheek and sighs lightly as his finger dips back in. You whimper as his finger quickly finds your clit. He hums proudly. "There it is." He rubs slow circles over the sensitive bud with his index finger and grips your waist with his other hand to keep you from bucking your hips. "Pay attention, now." He chuckles. You whine pushing your head back into his shoulder once again.
"Eddie, I- I..."
"Shhhhh. I'm teaching. Don't interrupt." A cocky chuckle slips from his lips as he slides his middle finger between your folds as well. He lays a soft kiss on your neck and your whole body tingles. Buzzing from your high but mainly from the feeling of Eddie's fingers gently rubbing your clit. His cool rings send chills down your skin as they cause contrasting feelings from his fingers. "Right here. This is where you want to spend the most time and attention. Mkay?" He groans halfway through his explanation, his hips rutting against your bare back. You whimper, your hips fighting against his left hand for movement. "Oh shit... when you... when you make those sounds it's hard to focus on-" You let out another soft moan, "Fuck." He groans into your neck, grinding against you as his fingers encircle your clit faster.
Your back arches, chest raising leaving his behind and you hear his huff. You feel his left hand rubbing soft circles on your hip encouraging you. Heat builds up in your lower torso, like a million knots tying, one after the other, tension building up. You grip his thighs, nails digging into his skin so harshly that there is no doubt that marks will be left. Not that he will mind.
"Okay. Um, now tell me if it hurts or if you don't like it okay?" You hear Eddie's voice from behind you as your back falls back into his chest. More tension is building in your core. All your sense overloaded from the high of both a building climax and Eddie's voice.
"Mmm. Eddie, please." You know what comes next and you are dying for him to show you all the right twists and turns to take. To show you how he sees your body, to show you how you should see and feel your body.
"Okay." He huff nervously but you can hear the tint of excitement that he is trying to push down. Suddenly, Eddie's two fingers slip inside you causing your jaw to fall slack. Your breath hitches in your chest. "Oh... wow... you like that, my love?" You not feverishly one hand flying up to grab the back of Eddie's neck, wanting him to be as close to you as possible. You grip at the hair sitting at the nap of his neck that is sweaty from arousal traveling through his body. He moans loudly into your ear as you tug him down into your neck. He huff and starts to lay sloppy kiss all over your skin. Your shoulder and neck are sure to be covered in his marks once you have finished.
His fingers begin to push in and out of you causing jolts of pleasure to rush through your body. His thumb quickly finds your clit again he rubs quick but deliberate circle over it. Your back arches again but this time Eddie does nothing to stop you. He continues to push his finger in and out of you, his rings hitting the rim of your opening every time. Never failing to send that cooling shock through your pleasure.
"Eddie!" You whine loudly as he quickens his pace. Pressing harder onto your clit. Energy buzzing through every blood cell in your body.
"Come on, darling. That's it." He kisses your cheek gently as you hold his neck tightly. Keeping his face next to yours. His scent wafting around you, his hair tickling your chin. "You're so beautiful. Your body is the most amazing thing that could ever walk this planet. Cum for me, please. Show me how beautiful you sound.
His voice in your ear combined with all the stimulation of your clit cause all the knots that had been recently tied to come undone. Your back arches away from his chest but your head digs into his shoulder. Your body trembling in his grasp. He continues to finger you as you ride out the high. All the sensations that the books and movies have talked about you, you felt.
After a few more moments of shivers and aftershocks, your body sinks back into his chest. Eddie pulls you up, readjusting you in his arms. He pulls you against his chest and kisses your neck softly. "You are perfect, my love. That was... you are so beautiful." He whispers against your cheek. You snuggle back into him, pulling his head down again but this time you turn your head and your lips meet his. Its soft and gentle. He whines into your mouth and chases when you pull away, exhausted from your first climax.
A comfortable silence befalls the two of you. "So, how was my teaching? Did you take notes?" He hums and lays more kisses on your neck, not worrying about what may come next.
"Mmmm. S'was good. But, I forgot my notebook. So I'll need more lessons." His lips pause against your neck and pulls away. His neck straightens out and he tilts your head straight back for you to look up at him. You grin at his surprised face.
"Yeah? You want that?" He questions nervously.
"Yes. And a date would be nice too. Maybe to Starcourt?" You hum happily, hazy and high.
"Yes. That would be nice. Then I can give you lessons after this date." He chuckles and presses a sweet kiss to your lips.
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That do be all folks. Again sorry for any mistakes but here it is. I’m exhausted from work so I hope this makes sense. Peace and Love, Babes x
taglist - @wannabeyousobad @luvmybbies @ruinedbythehobbit @and-claudia @iwillbiteabitch @llodinsonll
Almost forgot to tag my lovely babes x
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starsunderwaterr · 2 years
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Peeling Up the Lies (Pearl x reader)
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This is my first tumblr post so tbh I don’t really know what I’m doing but we’re gonna go with it! 
Here’s a Pearl x reader I thought of when I was eating yesterday!
also im ngl the insults i used against pearl made me giggle im so sorry pearl please don’t kill me i love you 😭
All characters involved are 18+
Minors DNI
words: 1058
warnings: none
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Pearl stared at the laptop with a sigh, scrolling through all of the comments on the group’s new music video. Despite the positive remarks, the same type of comments continued to flow in each time. 
“Haha, egghead”
“Next to Marina she looks like trash”
“MC Onion”
They used to make her blood boil, but now they just made her tired. She had to keep putting up the front that it didn’t bother her though, because she was Pearl, enough said. Marina had confronted her about it countless times before, but Pearl always brushed it off, saying she didn’t care. 
And usually it didn’t, but today, for some reason, it was. 
She continued to scroll, the comments lighting up her face in the dark room. It was an addiction, looking through the mean things they said. Pearl ignored all of the positive remarks, not even seeing them anymore. She was in too deep. 
She didn’t even notice when her partner walked in, instead feeding into the hatred.  Originally, your plans were to hang out with your spunky girlfriend that day, but when she wouldn’t answer your texts or calls, you decided to go looking for her. 
“Pearl…?” You asked from the doorway of the office, trying to catch her attention with a quick wave. When she didn’t answer, not even with a glance or a grunt, you knew something was off. 
You walked over to her desk, still trying to see if she would notice you. I mean, you were right there.
“Heyy…?” You sang, waving your hand in front of her face again. For a quick second, you glanced at the screen, noticing a comment. 
“Pearl ruins Off the Hook, it should just be Marina”
 Pearl finally seemed to break out of her dejected daze, slamming the laptop shut and looking at you. She raised a rather defensive brow, but her eyes that were glazed over told a different story. “(Y/N)? Why are you snooping on me? When did you even come in?”
“I wasn’t snooping on you. I’ve been calling you for the past thirty minutes, but you didn’t answer my calls or texts. I tried calling for you from the door a few minutes ago, but you didn’t answer. Wanted to make sure you were okay.” You added a small smile to try and ease the tension. 
Pearl’s gaze on you lingered a little longer before she looked down at the closed laptop. “Well, I’m fine, so you don’t need to worry.” 
You scoffed, rolling your eyes. “Really? You think I didn’t see?” You sighed, pulling up a seat next to her in a nearby beanbag. 
“Pearl, I know you’re lying when you say that what people say about you doesn’t bother you.”
Pearl looked down in her lap, staying silent. In all the time of being one of her closest friends (next to Marina, and I mean, you’re literally her partner), you had seldom gotten her to open up. 
“It doesn’t.” She spat, hardening her gaze at you. 
“Really?” You asked, taking the laptop out of her lap. “Then why couldn’t you pull your eyes away?” You glared, challenging her back. It was a little game you two liked to play. 
Pearl glared harder, finally letting go with a huff. She never let herself lose. She looked back at her lap, her brows furrowed as she shook her head in gentle disbelief. 
“I’m so much more than what those people say. I know I am. They’re just jealous that I’ve come so far.” You were happy to hear all of this, but it didn’t shake the fact that the more she spoke, the more her eyes glistened. 
But, you simply listened, not bothering to interrupt her as she went on. She was finally looking at you, too, not at her lap.
“They make fun of the way I look when they’re too insecure to go out themselves! Always saying stuff about my forehead and my style. And…and…” Whatever she was about to say was something that hit home, hard, as she began to get choked up and tripped on her words. 
Your brows furrowed in concern, and you took her hand in support. “Hey, it’s okay. You don’t have to say it.” 
At this, Pearl whimpered, bursting into a quiet cry. Instinctively, you hugged her, feeling her face nuzzle into the crook of your neck. You placed your hand on the back of her head, feeling your heart break as she sobbed into your shoulder. 
After a few moments, you felt her wrap her arms around your torso in accordance, nestling into your side. You remained silent, waiting for her to speak.
“It usually doesn’t bother me, but sometimes, it does. It makes me feel really insignificant when they say I should just be gone.” She muttered the last bit, nuzzling further into you. You nodded, a deep frown on your face. “Of course it would. You are absolutely in no way insignificant. I don’t know where I’d be without you.” You smiled, rubbing her cheekbone as she looked up with glossy eyes. 
As your smile faded, you grimaced. “You can’t keep up that front forever, you know. It’s okay to be upset about it. It doesn’t make you weak, Pearlie. You’re as tough as nails, MC Princess!” With a little smirk, you gave her shoulder a feather-light punch. 
At the use of her trusty nickname, her eyes shined. A small smile made its way to her face, and she nodded, wiping her eyes. “You’re right, (N/N). I’m not weak, I’m only the best rapper in all of Inkopolis and I co-created the sickest band ever!” She cheered, throwing her arms up happily. 
You couldn’t help but smile, even laughing a little bit. “That’s right, Pearlie!” You cheered with her, smiling down at her. To your surprise, she tackled you in another hug, wrapping her arms tightly around you. 
Hesitating, but finally settling upon it, you reciprocated, resting your head on top of hers. “Thanks again, (N/N). It means a lot to have you in my life.” A blush creeped along your cheeks, grinning sheepishly. 
“Thanks, Pearlie. Anytime. You know I’d do anything for you.” You expressed honestly. At this, Pearl grinned, but it was that grin. “Anything, you say…?” 
Your happiness instantly dropped, and your eyes widened. “Oh cod…” You muttered before being swarmed by a tiny love-rage machine. (Rage Against the Machine, anyone??) As you died, you were swarmed by kisses, laughter, and tight hugs. 
Man, what a heavenly way to die. 
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Reagan Ridley X Neglected! Child! Reader Oneshot
Ok so y'all know that Reagan x neglected child reader headcanons I made, right ? I couldn't help but feel an urge to also make a oneshot about it.
This will follow a similar scenario as the headcanons one so I advise you read that first (not required to understand where I'm going with this plot though.)
Enough blabbering, it's showtime !
Trigger warning : This one-shot will contain mentions of neglect, mental abuse and nearly fainting. If any of these things make you uncomfortable, please scroll past this post. You have been warned.
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3rd person POV
In the middle of an alleyway you desperately searched for some kind of food, but alas anything you found was either disgusting or simply not enough to fulfill your hunger. With a sigh you leaned against the nearby wall as you swore you could feel your vision get blurry. All you could do now was close your eyes and pray someone will come by to help you. Not like that will happen though... Right ?
Reagan's POV
As I drove back home, I spotted out of the corner of my eye a kid. At first I didn't pay much attention but I soon noticed something very wrong with them. The kid looked skinny, TOO skinny to be exact. They also looked to be nearly fading into unconciousness.
I thought about what I should do, I couldn't just leave them ! That'd be heartless of me ! But I have quite a busy job so... I'm not sure about taking them in.
..Ah what the hell.
"Hey ! Need a place ?" I shouted at the kid, they turned around and their tired expression turned into one of happiness.
"Y-yes please !" The kid shouted back at me as they instantly got into my car in the back seat, I instantly drove back to my home.
Small timeskip
After putting on my regular clothes and giving the kid some food, I figured it was time to ask them about what was going on and why they were all alone in an alleyway.
"So kid, I got some questions for you. If you're comfortable answering them of course." I gently said.
"O-of course ! Ask me anything, it's the least I could do to repay you." The kid replied.
"Ok good, so, why were you alone in an alley ?" I asked, the kid's mood seemed to dip a little.
"I- I ran away from home." The kid revealed to me, I grit my teeth a bit before speaking up again.
"Why did you run away ? Did something happen between you and your family ?"
"My p-parents never cared for me, they always either i-ignored me completely or they would constantly insult me. Telling me I'm w-worthless and stuff like that." The kid answered.
I wasted no time and instantly hugged them, I knew the pain of having unloving parents, a shitty childhood...
There was something in me, telling me to take care of this kid. I- I needed to ! I wasn't gonna let them potentially be taken by another scumbag family !
"You're staying with me !" I declared to the kid as I ended the hug, they seemed surprised.
"H-huh ?" Was all they muttered.
"You're gonna be staying with me, I'll be adopting you. You won't have to go back to that shit- terrible family of yours."
Tears of I presume joy, ran down the kid's eyes as they once again wrapped their arms around me for a hug. Was what I doing here the best decision ? Probably not... but I made this choice, and I was gonna be sure to be the best mother I could to this kid.
I had so much fun writing this ngl.
Reagan I feel would be that type of mom who tries her best, she's not the greatest but she does try to make her kid(s) happy.
Alright, that's all for now.
Sayonora~.
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title: second chances (chapter five)
ship: goldenlight (luz x hunter)
notes: takes place sometime after ‘reaching out’ but before ‘hollow mind.’ (set in my standard canon-divergent AU where everything’s the same except no L*mity)
other chapters: chapter one chapter two  chapter three  chapter four
The next day, it seemed that Hunter’s lunch break had rarely coincided with a reasonable hour for lunchtime, because Luz sent him a photo of what she was eating that day. (It appeared to be a mud grub sandwich, which she didn’t look especially thrilled about eating.) He sent back a photo of his cafeteria food. She responded with some emoji.
Luzura_Warrior:
... 🤢🤢🤢
Rulerzreachf4n:
what do those even mean
Luzura_Warrior:
whatdo you mean? theyre sick faces
Luzura_Warrior:
can't you tell? they're green
Rulerzreachf4n:
why does green mean they're sick?
Rulerzreachf4n:
the only thing I think of that turns you colors when you're sick is the rainbow fever but that's all the colors
Luzura_Warrior:
no it. it's metaphorical, not literal.although. rainbow fever sounds kinda fun ngl
Rulerzreachf4n:
it's not, trust me. you spend most of your time violently expelling fluids from both ends
Rulerzreachf4n:
the fluids are also rainbow colored
Luzura_Warrior:
okay, yeah, nevermind, I don't wanna catch that.
Rulerzreachf4n:
yeah.
Rulerzreachf4n:
what's this one mean by the way? 🥺 I see it sometimes
Luzura_Warrior:
that's supposed to be puppydog eyes, you know, when you're begging somebody for something
Luzura_Warrior:
pleeeeease hunter come visit me sometime so we can make pancakes 🥺🥺
Luzura_Warrior:
like that!
Rulerzreachf4n:
oh
Luzura_Warrior:
I promise my real puppydog eyes are way more effective then the emoji, though
Hunter began to type a reply out, feeling unsure of what exactly to say, but another message came through before he could finish.
Luzura_Warrior:
any other emojis you want me to translate?
Ah. All right. That subject was a little easier to deal with. He scrolled through the list of little faces.
Rulerzreachf4n:
what about this? 😑
Luzura_Warrior:
uhh . . . hm. I dunno I never use that one, I guess it's like ... dead?
Luzura_Warrior:
oh wait, I think I've seen some people use it to mean annoyed. like really fed up with something.
Rulerzreachf4n:
ok. I guess that makes sense.
Rulerzreachf4n:
what about this one? 😤
Luzura_Warrior:
that one's like 'determined.' stubborn.
Luzura_Warrior:
oh but it also can mean really angry. depends on the situation.
Rulerzreachf4n:
oh, I was way off, I thought it was maybe a sneeze?
Luzura_Warrior:
lolol no this is the sneeze emoji 🤧
Rulerzreachf4n:
... 🤔
Luzura_Warrior:
that's for when you're thinking
Rulerzreachf4n:
... 🧐
Luzura_Warrior:
that's for when you're thinking but you're also FANCY
Rulerzreachf4n:
okay there are WAY too many of these
Luzura_Warrior:
lol, don't worry, you'll learn them eventually
Rulerzreachf4n:
I'm not so sure. I feel like this is an entire language.
Rulerzreachf4n:
and like what even is this one??? 🥴
Luzura_Warrior:
I...have no idea actually. I never understood that one.
Luzura_Warrior:
I guess it's . . . uhhh . . .
Luzura_Warrior:
god I don't have a clue. let's invent a new emotion for it
Rulerzreachf4n:
what
Luzura_Warrior:
hey hunter, just finished my lunch and I'm feeling so snorflimppet 🥴
Luzura_Warrior:
you know TFW you're hella gasterplastecked 🥴
Rulerzreachf4n:
no.
Rulerzreachf4n:
stop.
Luzura_Warrior:
yknow we should teach you about memes too if you're gonna be on penstagram
Rulerzreachf4n:
oh, yeah. willow and gus have shown me a few of those. I think I saved one. hold on . . .
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Luzura_Warrior:
I . . .
Luzura_Warrior:
I've become a MEME??
Rulerzreachf4n:
is that . . . bad?
Rulerzreachf4n:
I thought it was a good thing
Luzura_Warrior:
it's . . .uhh well I don't know if I'd call it good or bad, really, it's just . . .
Luzura_Warrior:
hmm, honestly I'm not sure how to feel about it. guess I feel 🥴🥴
Rulerzreachf4n:
well if you don't like it, I can delete it
Luzura_Warrior:
nah, it's fine, no need
Luzura_Warrior:
tbh it's kinda neat.
Luzura_Warrior:
so the meme you have saved to your scroll was the one that had me in it . . . interesting 😏
What was that one? They hadn't discussed that emoji yet. This texting thing was stressful sometimes.
Rulerzreachf4n:
I saved it because it was about flyer derby
Rulerzreachf4n:
it just happened to have you in it
Luzura_Warrior:
mmm ok. if you say so.
Luzura_Warrior:
oh hey, before I forget, you wanna help me start a new meme on penstagram?
Rulerzreachf4n:
how?
Luzura_Warrior:
it's easy! just choose a basic format first . . .
Luzura_Warrior:
like, say, mmm, the old bait-n-switch . . .
Luzura_Warrior:
choose a video . . .
Luzura_Warrior:
and voila!
A link popped up. Hunter followed it to see it led to Luz's Penstagram page, to her newest public post. 
You know, it’s not often that I’m impressed by speeches, but the statements that one of the Coven’s top officials has recently released are really worth checking out. Find it here:
It was a link that led away from Penstagram. When Hunter clicked on it, it brought him to the video of Kikimora falling flat on her face and then wriggling around to dance music. Hunter had already seen this video many, many times, but he laughed again anyway.
Rulerzreachf4n:
ok, if that’s how you make a meme, then I’m a fan
Luzura_Warrior:
great! so all you need to do is post something on your penstagram that claims you’re linking a particular thing . . . but link to this video instead
Rulerzreachf4n:
that’s honestly kind of childish
He paused on his Penstagram page, thinking about it.
Rulerzreachf4n:
…but, she acts very childish anyway, so turnabout’s fair play
Luzura_Warrior:
haha, there ya go.
 Late afternoon, Hunter was in the middle of his usual patrol through Bonesborough, keeping an eye out for troublemakers or any civil unrest. It was a very slow day, though, and hardly anyone was around. He’d gone out to one of the massive demonic appendanges that existed in the town (this one was called ‘Dead Hand’ because it was unusually still compared to the other, twitchier hands). There had been a minor complaint lodged that somebody was trying to paint graffiti on the huge, scaly hand. When he got there, though, he found it was just a couple of kids that looked hardly older than toddlers, and they didn’t even know how to operate a spray paint can. He chased the kids away and then was left standing there in the silent streets of Bonesborough, sighing. Sometimes he felt like most of the duties he did for the Coven was just busywork.
Pulling out his scroll, he logged onto Penstagram and scrolled idly. Luz had ‘shared’ his Kikimora meme post and so it had a fair number of ‘likes’ and a few replies. This kept him amused for a few minutes, but eventually he grew bored. 
His scroll buzzed with a new message.
Luzura_Warrior:
look at themmmmm 😍
A picture was included, and it had King curled up on the couch, with the Owl Lady’s palisman snuggled into his fur, both fast asleep.
Rulerzreachf4n:
nice
Rulerzreachf4n:
this is what I’m doing
He pointed the scroll at the Dead Hand and took a photo to send to Luz.
Luzura_Warrior:
on patrol? cool, I’ve never actually gotten that close to that thing before
Luzura_Warrior:
eda, uh, told me they grab people sometimes, so I’m a little careful
Rulerzreachf4n:
they can sometimes but only when they’re cranky. dead hand doesn’t though, it’s very docile.
Luzura_Warrior:
huh. good to know!
Luzura_Warrior:
hey, I have a question, how come you never send any selfies? I don’t think I’ve seen a single one from you yet
Luzura_Warrior:
you even changed your pfp, it used to be you and now it’s flapjack. 
Luzura_Warrior:
obviously I ADORE flapjack but, well. I dunno, I guess I’m just curious if there’s a reason
Luzura_Warrior:
sorry if that’s prying too much
He thought about when he first made his Penstagram account and all the time he spent trying to get a photo to use for his profile. He probably spent over an hour doing it, only to later decide it looked awful anyway and took it down.
Rulerzreachf4n:
not sure if there’s really a reason
Rulerzreachf4n:
I just don’t feel the desire to, I guess.
Rulerzreachf4n:
I..don’t really like how I look.
Luzura_Warrior:
wait, really? 
He hesitated as he read her message, but she didn’t seem to be teasing him. He decided to take a chance and tell her the truth.
Rulerzreachf4n:
yeah. that’s part of why I like my mask. better to cover it up when people would rather not see it anyway, you know?
He waited as the dots on the scroll indicated Luz was typing.
Luzura_Warrior:
okay, so, I guess it kind of makes sense you wouldn’t realize this, since you probably don’t talk to a lot of people. 
He frowned, confused.
Rulerzreachf4n:
realize what?
Luzura_Warrior:
that you’re actually really cute
He froze, his heart leaping at the blunt reply. Staring at the message in shock, he tried to make sense of it. What? She really thought-- she--
Wait, no. That couldn’t be right. His skepticism returning fast, he typed,
Rulerzreachf4n:
that’s not a nice thing to joke about
At the same moment he’d entered that text,  Luz entered one as well;
Luzura_Warrior:
I mean, objectively speaking. you know?
He narrowed his eyes, confused. She quickly followed up with more texts.
Luzura_Warrior:
what? I wouldn’t joke about that. I’m serious.
Luzura_Warrior:
did somebody tell you that you weren’t?
Luzura_Warrior:
because that’s wrong, you’re definitely. yknow, teenage heartthrob material. 
Luzura_Warrior:
honestly I’m surprised you don’t know this? when I first met you, you were so confident, it seemed like you were all ,’i’m sexy and I know it’
Luzura_Warrior:
uh I, mean, you know. like. objectively! haha.
In an intensely short amount of time Hunter felt like his head was going to possibly explode, the phrase ‘teenage heartthrob’ on repeat in his mind. Flustered, he tried to type out a reply.
Rulerzreachf4n:
you’re really serious? I. but. 
This didn’t make sense. But it really did seem like she was being sincere.
Luzura_Warrior:
ok, you gotta tell me who told you all this BS about how you look, because they’re not only a jerk, theyre apparently blind
Starting to feel a bit warm, he confessed,
Rulerzreachf4n:
nobody really told me that, I just. it’s what I’ve always kinda thought.
Luzura_Warrior:
oh.
Rulerzreachf4n:
but. now that I have your perspective, I. 
He struggled to figure out how to reply.
Rulerzreachf4n:
well it’s.
Rulerzreachf4n:
 good to know
Luzura_Warrior:
okay well great glad i could clarify that!
Luzura_Warrior:
annnnyway
Luzura_Warrior:
anythgig  ecxiti ng ever happen onyour patrols???
Hunter glanced up as he caught motion out of the corner of his eye. It turned out to be a Coven scout, carrying a spear, also out on patrol. Not really a surprise; it seemed the only people out today were Coven members.
The scout waved as he approached. 
“Hello, sir! Run into any problems today?”
Ah, it was Steve. There were a great many coven scouts in their ranks, and Hunter admittedly didn’t recognize them all by name, but he recognized Steve. He had a rather decent . . . well, “friendship” was not the word. He had a rather decent acquaintanceship with him. It mostly consisted of Steve sitting next to him sometimes during lunch and rambling about whatever random things were rattling about in his head, while Steve in turn would listen to Hunter rant about Kikimora. It hadn’t ever gone beyond that, but still, it made Hunter feel slightly more at ease to be around a semi-familiar face. Well. A semi-familiar voice. He’d never actually seen any of the scouts maskless. 
“Nah. Just told a couple of kids to go home before their mothers worry about them. Truly a test of my skills and training, I know, but somehow I prevailed.”
Steve laughed. It was strangely nice to have another person actually laugh at his snarky comments.
“Hey, at least it wasn’t one of those days where we had to clear out a sligguth infestation, right? I’d relish a little boredom in comparison.”
Hunter frowned.
“I guess so.”
The coven scout leaned casually against the Dead Hand’s wrist as he began to ramble idly.
“This job’s not quite what I expected, I’ll tell you that, but it does give me a lot of time to think, you know? It’s kind of nice on these slow days when nobody’s around to bother me and I can just do my own thing.”
Hunter raised a brow, even though his face was covered by his mask.
“You mean goof off?”
Steve chuckled again.
“I know I’m not the only one, weren’t you just looking at your scroll?”
Hunter jolted a little, even though he still had the scroll in his hand and it wasn’t a surprise the scout had seen. Accepting that he’d been caught out, he lifted the scroll back up and glanced at it. He answered wryly,
“As far as you’re concerned I was just monitoring social media for any potential rabblerousers.”
The scout nodded.
“Of course, sir.”
Hunter looked at his scroll thoughtfully for a few moments, considering the human he’d just been conversing with. He was struck with a sudden impulse. It was pretty out of character for him, but there was something about the human that seemed to make him do strange things. And in the moment, he didn’t really care.
“Hey, um, Steve? You wanna help me take, uh . . . a ‘selfie’?”
He handed his scroll to Steve. The scout shrugged.
“Sure. Although I don’t think it’s technically a selfie unless you take it yourself.”
Hunter hopped on his artificial staff and quickly flew up to the top of Dead Hand.
“All right, well whatever it’s called.”
He landed on the open palm of the giant hand and set his staff down. After a moment of hesitation, he reached up and pulled his Golden Guard mask off.
From below, Steve was pointing the scroll at him, fiddling with settings.
“Hmm, why don’t you try something a little more dynamic, sir?”
Hesitantly, he asked, 
“Dynamic?” 
“Yeah! Pose or something.”
He thought about that a moment, his mind casting back to when he’d first met Luz on the airship. Oh. Sure, he could do that.
He got down and sprawled casually on his side, leaning his chin into a palm, propping it up with an elbow. He held his mask in his other hand loosely against his waist and fixed the scroll with a steady gaze.
“Oh, that’s perfect, sir! Hold that. Hmm, the angle is a bit weird down here. Maybe if I backed up a little. . .”
Hunter had a better idea. He grabbed his staff and sent it down to the ground.
“Here, just ride that.”
“Oh, that’s genius, sir.”
Steve seemed unperturbed about this taking a little work, and he rode the staff up around Hunter’s hight and carefully adjusted his position.
“All right, good, now smile for the camera?”
Ugh, this felt kinda weird. He really did hate pictures. But he was determined to do it.
All right, just imagine it was Luz floating there. She wanted a selfie, he’d give her one.
He quirked his brow a little and slipped into a cheeky grin, gazing intensely into the scroll as if she was right there in front of him. He heard the scroll snap a few pictures.
“Wow, you’re a natural, sir. I feel like this would make a great recruitment poster! The old one is a little plain, you know?”
Hunter stood back up and shook his head as Steve returned the scroll to him.
“Nah, this is only for friends.”
He sat down on the hand, his feet dangling off the edge as he fiddled with his scroll. Steve landed and sat down beside him, humming,
“Of course, you need to keep the mystery of the original poster. People respect and fear the mask.”
Hunter nodded.
“Exactly.”
He hesitated as he looked at his picture. Did it look stupid? Should he actually send it, or maybe retake it? Was it too weird? Too . . . much? Maybe he should–
Oh, screw it.
He sent the photo to Luz before he could question it any further and chicken out. After that was a tense wait, but it didn’t last for very long.
Luzura_Warrior:
ohmygod 
Luzura_Warrior:
asafdjh;lgfju
Luzura_Warrior:
what have I done, I never should have told you the truth 
It was unclear what exactly that meant, but Hunter had hoped it was positive. He answered cautiously. 
Rulerzreachf4n:
you said you wanted a selfie
Luzura_Warrior:
hahaha I did, it’s true
Luzura_Warrior:
but boy, you REALLY delivered 
Rulerzreachf4n:
is that a good thing?
Luzura_Warrior:
yeah uhh 
Luzura_Warrior:
definitely a good thing.
Luzura_Warrior:
it 
Luzura_Warrior:
it’s really good, haha.
He started to type out a reply, but she followed up with more texts before he could.
Luzura_Warrior:
jeez, that look you’re giving is smokin’
Luzura_Warrior:
do you practice that in the mirror or
Luzura_Warrior:
hey wait, who took the picture?
Rulerzreachf4n:
thats not important
Luzura_Warrior:
you actually enlisted somebody’s help to take this for me?
Luzura_Warrior:
I feel so special :3 Rulerzreachf4n:
yeah, yeah, just don’t show it to anyone else alright
Luzura_Warrior:
whuh wait
Luzura_Warrior:
this really was just for me??
Luzura_Warrior:
 so i really AM special :3c
Growing uncomfortable with how perceptive Luz was being, he tried to derail.
Rulerzreachf4n:
I don’t know what that emoji means
Luzura_Warrior:
oh sorry. it’s like…. a kittycat smile? there isn’t really a good official emoji for it.
Rulerzreachf4n:
a cat smile?
He wasn’t sure how a cat could smile and what the heck that would even indicate.
Luzura_Warrior:
yeah it’s like . . .
Luzura_Warrior:
hold on a sec
Luzura_Warrior:
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Luzura_Warrior:
like that!
Hunter studied the picture, which you’d think would help clarify things, but really all it did was confuse the issue even further.
Rulerzreachf4n:
what exactly is that look supposed to mean though
Luzura_Warrior:
:3c hehehehehe
Rulerzreachf4n:
luz that doesnt help
“So does your friend like the picture?”
Hunter jumped in surprise, having entirely forgotten that Steve was even sitting there.
“Uhh.”
His scroll buzzed and spammed him with indecipherable emoji.
Luzura_Warrior:
😏😏 😼😼🦦🦦😈😇
“. . . I think so? Yeah.”
 The rest of patrol was just as stunningly uneventful, so Hunter spent the rest of it walking his route and talking with Steve. Honestly, it wasn’t so terrible a way to finish out the afternoon, which mostly was just letting Steve ramble on about his little brother and his newfound interest in Illusion magic. When Hunter returned to the castle, he had some very boring tasks that included taking stock of some new supplies (again, he found himself wondering if Belos just assigned him duties as mere busywork, but it wasn’t his place to question things). It took him several hours to complete and then he had a cold, unpleasant dinner at the cafeteria, but for some reason, none of it fazed him much, and he spent the whole time humming to himself, a little smile on his face.
When the evening came and he was finally free to return to his room, he gratefully collapsed onto his bed and stuck his face into the nearest book. It was a pleasant diversion for about an hour, and then his scroll buzzed. Eagerly, he grabbed it and found that it was Luz asking if he could help her with a few questions on her Beast Keeping homework. He agreed to help. 
What had started out as just a few questions quickly grew into a much larger discussion.
Luzura_Warrior:
I just am having a hard time because I had no idea there were so many kinds of dragons
Luzura_Warrior:
in the human realm I only really heard of the basic ones
Luzura_Warrior:
not all these weird wingless dragons and the legless dragons and the dragons with only two legs and all that
Rulerzreachf4n:
well they’re not really dragons. 
Luzura_Warrior:
what?? what do you mean.
Rulerzreachf4n:
the common ancestor species is a wyrm, which eventually evolved into lindwyrms and loongs over time. the ones living at higher elevations developed into drakes. and then potentially dragons arose from the drakes. 
Rulerzreachf4n:
they’re all in the wyrm family, though, a dragon is just a kind of wyrm
Luzura_Warrior:
seriously? I thought a wyrm was just . . . a legless and wingless dragon?
Rulerzreachf4n:
no, it’s the other way around. a dragon is a wyrm with legs and wings. 
Luzura_Warrior:
man, this is weird. so what exactly is a wyrm then? 
Rulerzreachf4n:
well, wyrms branch off from the sea serpents because of their scales, regenerative abilities and pyrorespiration. sea serpents of course belonging to the larger family of serpents, which in turn of course branch off from the true worms
Luzura_Warrior:
hold on, slow down a little. not sure if I’m getting you because it seems like you’re saying that . . . dragons evolved from snakes and that snakes evolved from worms?
Rulerzreachf4n:
snakes are a smaller sub-family of serpents, really
Rulerzreachf4n:
but your statement is mostly correct, yeah.
Luzura_Warrior:
snakes evolved from worms??
Rulerzreachf4n:
yeah? didn’t they cover this already?
Rulerzreachf4n:
everything evolved from worms, they’re nature’s ideal form
Luzura_Warrior:
buhhuhuwhaaa? 
Rulerzreachf4n:
you haven’t covered the Great Ancestral Worm yet??
Luzura_Warrior:
um, well. I kind of haven’t had one of the pre-reqs for this class. I begged the teacher to let me take it anyway . . . 
Luzura_Warrior:
but please, I gotta know about anything called ‘the Great Ancestral Worm,’ because this is getting wild
Rulerzreachf4n:
okay, well. 
Rulerzreachf4n:
in the beginning, when the Titan first fell, the first creature to immerge from the decomposing muck was a worm
Rulerzreachf4n:
the Great Ancestral Worm, from which all beasts sprang. the ratworms, the trash slugs, the giraffes, the sea serpents, all that
Rulerzreachf4n:
and from the beasts, branched off the bug demons and the bipedal demons
Rulerzreachf4n:
many bug demons still retaining body forms quite close to the original ancestral worms, but developing sentience alongside the bipedal demons
Rulerzreachf4n:
bipedal demons of course ended up quite distant from the ancestral design, and needed to compensate for it, develop bile sacs for their own magic
Luzura_Warrior:
okay hold on 
Luzura_Warrior:
so you’re saying EVERYTHING is based off worms
Luzura_Warrior:
what about, uhh. echo mice?
Rulerzreachf4n:
they evolved from the ratworms.
Luzura_Warrior:
okay, how about the selkiedomuses.
Rulerzreachf4n:
sea serpents that developed fins and blubber.
Luzura_Warrior:
what about birds??
Rulerzreachf4n:
they came from the wyverns and feathered serpents.
Luzura_Warrior:
there’s feathered serpents too?? oh god
Luzura_Warrior:
this is getting a little overwhelming
Rulerzreachf4n:
let’s just focus on wyrms for now. you said you only needed to know the basic groups for now, right?
Luzura_Warrior:
yeah. yeah, ok.
Rulerzreachf4n:
So we have the Wyrms, and then the Lindwyrms which evolved front limbs to help a little with traction, but still move with a serpentine body motion. And next are the Loongs, with four limbs which can walk awkwardly on land but who mostly prefer to swim or fly. 
Luzura_Warrior:
wait. fly? I thought Loongs don’t have wings?
Rulerzreachf4n:
that’s correct, they don’t.
Luzura_Warrior:
asdgrsrjyyj
Luzura_Warrior:
THEN HOW
Rulerzreachf4n:
they fly via magic. loong’s magic is fairly potent, they also have some control over weather and can shapeshift.
Luzura_Warrior:
oh, right, magic is a thing. haha . . .
Rulerzreachf4n:
next are the drakes
Luzura_Warrior:
those are the wingless dragons! right? they first found them at the knee
Rulerzreachf4n:
well, ‘wingless dragons’ is... not very descriptive. 
Rulerzreachf4n:
but yes, the drakes evolved at higher elevations and had stockier bodies, sturdier limbs that made for good walking and climbing, and stronger fire breath.
Luzura_Warrior:
can THEY magically fly?
Rulerzreachf4n:
that’s a good question! no, the drakes lost the ability to fly, as well as their shapeshifting and weather control
Luzura_Warrior:
okay, gotcha
Rulerzreachf4n:
then we have the dragons, which fly with the help of their leathery wings. and then wyverns
Luzura_Warrior:
hold on a sec one time I heard Hooty say HE’S A WORM
Luzura_Warrior:
does that mean hooty’s a bug demon???
Rulerzreachf4n:
uh… do you mean your house demon?
Luzura_Warrior:
yeah!
Rulerzreachf4n:
yes, house demons are a type of parasitic worm. 
Luzura_Warrior:
holy crap this makes so much sense now. now that I think about it, he was saying something one time about an ancestral worm
Rulerzreachf4n:
uh yeah so, anyway
Luzura_Warrior:
wait did you say PARASITIC??
Luzura_Warrior:
he’s a parasite???
Rulerzreachf4n:
yes, house demons parasitize living houses 
Luzura_Warrior:
I thought hooty WAS the house!!! that’s not his body??
Rulerzreachf4n:
it’s technically not. once a house demon attaches to a house, they gain some control and nerve sensation, but it’s technically their host.
Luzura_Warrior:
oh my god. this is blowing my mind
Rulerzreachf4n:
ok, I think we’re getting a bit off track here
Luzura_Warrior:
right, sorry, sorry
Luzura_Warrior:
back to dragons. I mean, wyrms, back to wyrms and not house worms. I’m listening.
Hunter did his best to get Luz back on track and explain the basic wyrm families, as well as the two competing theories on whether drakes evolved into dragons, or ampitheres evolved into wyverns and then some wyverns developed into dragons. Although Luz was a bit distractable at times and prone to chit-chat, she was also very enthusiastic and seemed genuinely interested in the subject. She also seemed to pick up the information fairly quickly. When they’d finished, she thanked him profusely and said she was going to spend another hour studying to make sure it was solidified in her head for tomorrow’s quiz. He bid her a goodnight and returned to his reading.
He continued to read until it grew very late, at an hour when his mind was very fuzzy and his thoughts were disjointed. He browsed Pentsagram a little, very amused to find Darius had shared his Kikimora meme, and it seemed to be spreading rapidly. He giggled at that for a bit and then his thoughts started to turn slowly along the memories of his day, over the discussions he’d had with Luz. There was a very pleasant feeling that flickered through him as he pondered things, like the bright little embers that popped off a crackling fire. 
When his scroll buzzed, he sleepily picked it up and checked it.
Luzura_Warrior:
hunteeerrrrrr
Luzura_Warrior:
I’m booorrreddddd
He chuckled outloud and typed a response.
Rulerzreachf4n:
thought you were studying
Luzura_Warrior:
yeah it got boring
Luzura_Warrior:
whatre you doin?
Rulerzreachf4n:
well I WAS reading peacefully
Luzura_Warrior:
awhjyyhd why are you even still up it’s like almost 2am
Rulerzreachf4n:
why are YOU still up
Luzura_Warrior:
that’s evading the question, I asked u first
Rulerzreachf4n:
im always up this late
Rulerzreachf4n:
it’s the only time to myself i really get, so. thats why.
Luzura_Warrior:
that makes sense.
Rulerzreachf4n:
k so now you
Luzura_Warrior:
well I was just cramming for the quiz
Luzura_Warrior:
I am bad at time management, I admit it
Luzura_Warrior:
but I’m in bed now like a good girl, I swear
Luzura_Warrior:
see look
A picture popped up, showing a dimmed bedroom. Hunter squinted at it. Luz seemed to be on the floor, sitting inside a strange fabric . . . cocoon? 
Rulerzreachf4n:
what. the heck is that, that’s not a bed.
Luzura_Warrior:
it’s a sleeping bag. 
Rulerzreachf4n:
that doesn’t seem very comfortable.
Luzura_Warrior:
no, it’s okay! it’s not so bad. not as good as a bed, I admit, but eda didn’t have any spare mattresses, so I’ve just been using this.
Rulerzreachf4n:
huh. she should get you a bed.
Luzura_Warrior:
well moneys not exactly pouring in right now
Luzura_Warrior:
I know you probably have a nice fancy bed at the castle but not everyone can be so luxurious, ya know
Hunter frowned, considering his bed and his room.
Rulerzreachf4n:
actually my bed’s really not fancy
Rulerzreachf4n:
or my room. belos gave me quarters that are the same size and furnishings as any other scout
Rulerzreachf4n:
said that i shouldn’t grow soft or complacent
Luzura_Warrior:
oh
Luzura_Warrior:
whoa I didn’t realize that.
Luzura_Warrior:
ok now I’m curious. whats it look like?
Luzura_Warrior:
send me a picture?? 😃
Hunter aimed his scroll, trying to get a shot, then grumbled because it didn’t look like much from his angle. He got out of bed and snapped a photo so she could actually see things.
Luzura_Warrior:
oooh okay, it’s not so bad. seems cozy. that pillowcase looks pretty ratty tho lol
Luzura_Warrior:
oh my god wait, you have a PLUSHIE?? I see that lil head poking out there!
Hunter quickly re-checked the photo, and to his horror, you could in fact see the hot pink head of his goofy little frog plushie sticking out behind a pillow.
Rulerzreachf4n:
please pretend you didnt see that
Luzura_Warrior:
no way, oh my god hunter this is adorable. I love this. you like plushies too!! I wanna get a better look, send me a pic! 😃
Rulerzreachf4n:
no way you’ll just make fun of me
Luzura_Warrior:
no I won’t!! I swear. pleeeeease?? 
Luzura_Warrior:
do you actually sleep with it too? aaaaa thatd be so CUTE
Hunter grunted, dropping back down onto his bed with a defeated sigh. There was no way she was gonna drop this, he knew her well enough by now for that. Gruhhh.
He reached over and pulled the plushie out from behind the pillow. Wrapping an arm around it, he hugged it tight against his chest and aimed the scroll at himself, sticking his tongue out and snapping a photo. 
When he sent it, Luz nearly combusted.
Luzura_Warrior:
saftrrerghewyhrw
Luzura_Warrior:
aaaaaaa  hutner!!!!
Luzura_Warrior:
SO CUTE
Luzura_Warrior:
you giant dork i LOVE it
Luzura_Warrior:
look at youuuu aaaaa!! 😍
Rulerzreachf4n:
you show that to anybody and I will hunt you down
Luzura_Warrior:
hehehehehee
Luzura_Warrior:
hunt me down. cos you’re hunter
Rulerzreachf4n:
yes. you don’t want  that, trust me
Luzura_Warrior:
heeehee, but maybe I do 😉
Hunter’s thoughts halted, stalling at Luz’s text as he struggled to form a coherent response. Fortunately, Luz just continued to ramble.
Luzura_Warrior:
ughh I should get to sleep 
Luzura_Warrior:
i have a really busy day tomorrow
Luzura_Warrior:
all these quizzes and exams at once, I swear the teachers do it on purpose
He had to focus to type out a reply that sounded normal.
Rulerzreachf4n:
yeah, I should sleep too
Luzura_Warrior:
ok you might not hear from me tomorrow until real late, i got a lot going on
Luzura_Warrior:
but i’ll say bye for now!
Rulerzreachf4n:
okay
Luzura_Warrior:
so gnnnighty night for now, my goldie dork boy~~ 😘
Luzura_Warrior:
talk to you later 💖💗💜
Rulerzreachf4n:
bye
Hunter stared dumbly at the scroll for a while after she’d logged off, his fuzzy sleepy thoughts rolling about in his mind like a tangled ball of yarn. Letting the scroll drop down onto his bed, he fell asleep before even bothering to get changed for the night.
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same non as the one prior!,listen I love hearing people ramble about the things and characters they like it nice to see someone go off about their favorite characters so yes im serious please go on n release the rot!!
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damn y'all 😭 HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YOU REALLY WANT THIS SO BAD y'all gonna regret this horribly
Brainrot under the cut because this WILL be a long boi
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Ok first off, I do have some thoughts listed down here already, but we'll have the screaming version of them here.
so now, let's pull up a pic of Azul's full sprite, bless be to alchemivich for this
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I guess let's start from the top then work our way downwards~ (just how I like to do it ;) bricked)
SO let's talk about Azul's glasses, as they're a hot topic now
We've always known Azul with his rectangular frames. I myself have always wanted to see him in round frames, but now that we have them, well,,, time for an explanation WHEEZE.
So when you choose your glasses, you have to take into consideration how well they complement your face. Lots of places will tell you to consider the shape of your face, how long or short it is, even the width of your face and the nose bridge, etc. There's a reason why Azul's usual glasses really work on him—there are several factors, but the one I will talk about is his face shape, which seems to be on the softer and rounder side.
Rectangular/square frames work well with rounder face shapes because of contrast. Rounder frames will further emphasize the roundness of the face, which well if that's the effect you want, then hell yeah go for it. But it can also feel a little off, especially if you aim to balance out your looks.
Azul's round frames emphasize this roundness. But the thing is, the specific thing they emphasize is not his jawline or anything but his forehead LJADLKSJKSLSFJ like, it really doesn't help that he pushed back his bangs inside his hat because there's more skin showing aka there's more of that bald feel.
Am I saying that the glasses don't fit him then?
... not at all. HONESTLY IN FACT, THEY FIT HIM 🤡 it gives Azul this old timey wizard vibe, especially paired with the rest of his outfit. And idk, he always had a knack for those types of glasses that have the chain, like it really just fits his character. They're on the more mature side.
Onto his hat, one of Azul's voiced lines has him saying that he pushed his bangs back because the hat itself is so fancy and very elaborate. And you know what? THAT IS SMART OF HIM 😩 because true, his bangs would add a little too much to the visual aspect. The hat itself is so nice though. I always imagined him having a similar hat to that along with a feather, so seeing this coming to life really satisfied me so much 🥺 It's one of the many things I've asked for. I didn't expect the coral design in front, though! That one, I find pretty neat.
ngl though lowkey hoping for a groovy where he doesn't have the hat though 😳 and we get a view of that SLICKED BACK HAIR— bricked
no like . seriously though, imagine we get something like THIS wonderful gorgeous godly sight right here??? for a groovy??? Yana Toboso, I am currently demanding right now.
Anyway, let's move o—
. hold on.
what is this I see?
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... let's get a different image just to be sure
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. . . . . .
SO WE HAVE TWO THINGS TO DISCUSS HERE
Number 1. That nautilus shell.
It is about TIME that they gave Azul that nautilus shell necklace that is not in his overblot form AND ALSO LIKE, LOOK AT HOW FANCY IT IS!!!!!!! IT'S SO 😭 it's so pretty like,,, uhuhuhuhu after 2+ years of waiting, I finally got this
Number 2. We all know what it is. :)
look at that. look at that fucking s H E ER RRR R R R 🧍 I was peacefully scrolling through Twitter when I saw that crop + a JP user's caption about how they're like IT'S SHEER???? AND NOW I'M LIKE HO FUCK IT'S SHEER?????????? AZUL ASHENGROTTO, THE MAN WHO COVERS UP EVEN HIS NECK, HAS HIS NECK AREA PARTIALLY VISIBLE???????????? I finally know how victorian men feel when they see a woman's ankle.
And I get why the tweels' favorite food are octopus dishes. 🧍 We'll leave it at that .
Sleeves design! Honestly, I find it interesting how the fashion designers in-universe thought that Azul really fit the NRC robes to the point that they thought oh we should make his outfit similar to the robes. And boom, here we see sleeves and gold decor that is as intricate as the robes but still a little different. Honestly, seeing the entire outfit in general reminds me of one of Robe Azul's lines: "These ceremonial robes do wonders as something akin to a business card. Just wearing these off campus will gather admiring glances." (taken from @/mysteryshoptls) It's such a nice nod to that line 🥺 and I'll be honest, the art for Robe Azul isn't one of my favorites, so to see him in this outfit and as an SSR is so rewarding because like #DESERVED
onto the . whatever you call this, the collar?
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There's a point where you gotta wonder how Azul really feels about this outfit in general. Like, he was already disturbed that Rollo knew him and where he came from, he was also disturbed that they knew about his eyesight. But that collar design, that resembles the suckers on his tentacle arms, I don't think you can just brush it off as "oh they're meant to be bubbles underwater". It's not a bad design, it's just how does Azul really feel about the outfit with its under the sea motif and even this kind of pattern? 😂 Is he trying to hide the discomfort about this out of politeness? Or is he so private about this kind of insecurity that he dares not voice it out unlike the way he's clear about his discomfort about how they know about his eyesight?
wow ok we got serious there. Don't worry, though...
We're just getting to the exciting part
So of course Azul would have a belt on his outfit. He needs that cinched waist after all 😩 ughhh I have a special weakness for slim waists because the way a slim waist feels in my arms is so , ,,,, ,,, u uu uu u you get this deep primal urge to protect the person you're holding that holding any other waist just cannot give you. at least, that's just my brain being coocoo wwwwwwww
Something even nicer is that the belt adds so much more to the silhouette that the overall outfit gives. It's cinched at the waist,, but then it flairs out with the TAILCOATS
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OH MAMAS THOSE TAILCOATS ARE GOING TO BE THE ABSOLUTE D E A T H OF ME
I mentioned it already. I always loved tailcoats. They give that classy and authoritative aura. AND LOOK AT AZUL MF ASHENGROTTO WITH SIX OF THEM
They also look like they're made of a really really good material. Like, just look at the card art. That material looks so nice and sturdy.
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AND THE WAY THAT THE FRONT AREA OF HIS TOP ENDS LIKE THAT, LIKE ,, ,,,, , HUHU HUU HUH UHU you know I always always wanted to wear an outfit like that ever since I was a kid? Ends short at the front but there's a trail or a tailcoat at the back, and it's BLACK TOO like u u u uuuuu uu just seeing that on Azul makes me so oughohouohodfoghodf it's everything I wanted and it's really like Disney saw my childhood imagination uwehhhh waddafak !!!!
and ughh hh h ok can we like . talk about the ribbons too and tailcoats and how they just accentuate his legs so fucking well
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Like come ON MAN
whoever drew Azul's live2D was thinking with their dicks because why the FUCK did they decide "hoho what if we draw the ribbons in front such that it creates the illusion of Azul's legs being slimmer and then flaring out at the bottom aND THUS MAKING HIS LEGS LOOK EVEN MORE APPEALING TO LOOK AT" LIKE COME ON,,,, THEY WERE DEFINITELY ON SOMETHING WHEN THEY WERE DRAWING THOSE RIBBONS LIKE . THAT . AND THE GOLD TRIM AT THE END DOESN'T HELP AT ALL LIKE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
please like . those pants . those pants look so nice like hello I like those pants. I want to steal those pants. I want to eat those pants.
but most importantly, I hate hate hate the way that those pants make Azul's legs so so so s os os os os oso soo so ooo so 🤡
. ok speaking of legs, we can establish that the tailcoats + ribbons resemble Azul's 8 tentacles underwater (he really isn't getting a break from being his octopus self wwwwww). But I want to talk about the design in the tailcoats themselves??? Like, it's so delicate and really pretty 🥺 it's not like the design on the collar, but it looks more floral ish. It sort of gives the same hypnotic feel as the Fibonacci sequence or even the golden ratio in some way. It's so delicate and pretty and just huh uh u hu hu
Lastly, shoes , ,, ,, shoes. Those are nice shoes. I love that he has heels. . . WAIT HEELS I JSUT REALIZED HE IS WALKING IN HEELS HELP NKFJNKJDNSNSDNFS HOLD ON HE HASN'T BEEN COMPLANING ABOUT THE HEELS ???? HE'S ACTUALLY BALANCING ON THOSE HEELS?????? HE'S DOING OK IN THE HEELS?????? ok granted though, they are wedged heels, but like, even wedged heels are hard to balance on if you aren't accustomed to heels (flashbacks to the first time I had to wear heels when I was 12 yrs old and wobbling on my own feet when the heels were 1-inch high and wedged).
last but not the least, you can watch the Midnight Masquerade here. At the Goofy part starting 13:27, the dancers' costume vaguely reminded me of Azul's silhouette that his outfit gives him. Makes me wonder how much Twst team took inspiration from this performance honestly.
SO ANYWAY UH GOODNIGHT I'M HAPPY WITH THIS EVENT FOR GIVING US GOOD GOOD SHIT ABOUT AZUL 🤡
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Hi Seher-senpai,
I take it you study Japanese at university?
Feel like sharing what it's like?
I only took a course back when I was a uni student at a uni of applied science. Since then, I've been dabbling in self-studying but that is kind of hard to keep up at times... I'd like to get back into "proper" studying, so I would like to ask whether you have some tips?
Anyways, thanks for your blog, I just found it and scrolled a little through it. Always cool to meet other JP learners 😊
Sending some good vibes from Bavaria
-Bee
Sorry that it took me some time to get back to you. Life is busy at the moment, oh and servus aus Österreich! :)
I take it you study Japanese at university?
I do! I am a Japanese studies major, so they come in the bundle haha
Feel like sharing what it's like?
Sure thing! Beforehand, I have two types (?) of Japanese classes, Japanische Theorie (Theoretical Japanese), which is held in German, and Japanische Praxis (Practical Japanese), which is entirely in Japanese
The pace can sometimes be a bit too fast for me, sometimes we would do an entire chapter in one lesson.... But overall, I enjoy most parts of my classes!
In Theory, we learn about grammar passively and you could also say about how to translate Japanese into German and it's also profs way to check if we understood the grammar. The exams of the class kill me though. In a semester we have two kanji and two translation exams and I don't know which one is worse lmao The first two few years we only worked with textbooks (we used Bunka Shokyu Nihongo 1+2 and now we use the Advanced Tobira) but now, I am in my last year, we moved on to different types of texts like song lyrics, essays and learn more about slang, spoken Japanese and that sort. I am grateful for that because Tobira can be quite dry at times. It’s definitely my favourite out of the two simply because the prof makes it a heap of fun with his random, while educational, rambles or anecdotes.
Praxis we should learn how to apply the grammar studied in Theory, so we do a lot of grammar exercises (complete the sentences mostly). It certainly helped with building a strong foundation, but I do wish we would… actually use the language in class more ya know. The only “speaking” we do is by reading sentences out loud and I am not sure about my peers, but it certainly doesn’t help me learn how to speak Japanese. We are not learning Japanese to be able to communicate but simply for class where we cover topics you will most likely never have a conversation about. At least I know I will never talk about robots. But I have the feeling that is an issue with most language classes...
I'd like to get back into "proper" studying, so I would like to ask whether you have some tips?
Good question. I had to think about it a bit ngl and I hope some things will be useful to you in a way.
Build discipline while you still have a lot of motivation. The first one or two weeks use apps like Duolingo or Lingodeer simply to build the habit of daily learning. Even better if you can set a specific time every day. For example, every day after dinner it is Anki/Memrise/Lingodeer/etc. o’clock. You HAVE to do a bit every day - even if it's just for 3 minutes. If you teach your brain that sometimes you can skip, then it will try to find excuses to skip another day and soon you will slip.
Have different activities for different levels of energy/attention. This kind of latches on to the previous point. Have core activities you do every day for the sake of progress and on days where you are more motivated and alert, do something that requires more effort and have a set of relaxing activities for your low days to keep your TL floating around in your head.
consistency > efficiency. The best method is not the most optimized one or what someone says is more efficient but the one you actually enjoy and stick to. This also goes when you choose media to consume, read/watch what you enjoy. Keep a healthy mix though: Each medium has it's own speaking style. You won't learn everyday Japanese if you only watch dramas or anime, so include a variety like drama, anime, podcasts, Youtube videos, news etc.
Choose a resource for grammar, vocab etc. and stick with it until the end unless you really don't like it. This video (~12min) by Robin McPherson goes more into depth of the 'Paradox of Choice' and what it means for language learners in this day and age and how you can counter choice paralysis. Japanese is a popular language. Therefore there are many resources out there and it’s easy to start doubting our decision. You see the next shiny thing and want to try that out and often we don’t even think twice about purchasing another textbook because you have heard something good about it. I highly recommend the video!
I can also recommend you this video by Livakivi on how to learn Japanese but it's a general guide. His videos are great! The most important part though is having fun with the language though. Best of luck!
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guys.... guys............ GUYS HELP WAIT I JUST WAS SCROLLING THRU A BUNCH OF MY TAGS AND I COULDT TELL IF A FANART WAS CASSUNZEL OR REYLO AND I JUST REALIZED THEY'RE A LITTLE BIT TINY BIT KINDA SIMILAR let's pretend school is fun and do a compare and contrast but I am a terrible writer ok so anyway let's go
At a first glance, Cassunzel and Reylo would seem to have nothing in common. One is gay, non-canon, and from a spin-off of a movie made for little girls, while the other is from a movie series whose former primary audience was men and little boys. Former bcs the sequel trilogy is for the girls and the gays I am claiming it
At a SECOND glance, you would see there are actually some similarities. I don't even know where to start bruh.
Source material: Rapunzel is based on a fairytale. I'm pretty sure George Lucas once described Star Wars as a fairytale too (google says yes). What a co-winky-dink?!?!?
The characters:
Guess who! A person who was isolated since childhood not by their own or their parents own choices but because of powers that they were born with due to super old stuff like powers or magical whatever. Their caretaker did not really care about them. They became friends with a little cute thing that doesn't speak english. They have freckles. They're the happier character while also being deeply traumatized. They were brought away from their situation by a dude who was running away from something.
Guess who! A dark-haired angsty type with an evil figure in their lineage. They were affected very badly by the abandonment from their same gender parent. They were taught to be a fighter for protection of people. They are manipulated by a really old evil person who disguises themself. They fight with a sword.
”Okay, plenty of characters are similar. Can you talk in specifics? Plus, what about the character dynamics?"
OK YES BUT FIRST AESTHETICS WHICH IS SHORT BCS ADMITTEDLY THEY AREN'T THAAAT SIMILAR IN THAT WAY
So Kylo in the beginning of the story is red and black as his main colors but he is evil in the beginning. Then, for his very short time being not a baddie, his color is blue!!!
This is literally the exact same and opposite of Cassandra at the same time. Cassandra starts red (ok she wears blue first but that's not rlly her main outfit ) when she is not evil and then becomes blue when she's evil.
"Um, what about when she's green?"
Well you can say that Ben was green when he was being taught by Luke he was in green light that time 💀 so there, exact opposite!
For Rapunzel and Rey, technically they both have brown hair and Rey's lightsaber is yellow. Rey wears beige and blue-ish grey. Blue is basically purple. Also, her outfit has long strips of fabric which you may be able to compare to long hair.
Now, to the promised, Character Dynamics and suspicious similarities, but stay tuned after this for one last secret category of comparisons.
So obviously both of their ships fit into 'Grumpy x Sunshine' and also ngl they're both a little toxic but in different ways. Both pairs physically fight each other.
Kylo gets his face sliced by Rey and has that for a while until she heals it near the end while making him not DIE. Cassandra gets her hand withered and it is not confirmed if it was healed or not but probably it was when Rapunzel was also making her not DIE.
Both of the ships talk as kind of friends at a time while the bad side is still being bad.
THEY BOTH SEE EACH OTHER MAGICALLY WHEN THEY ARE IN COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PLACES AND NO ONE ELSE CAN SEE/HEAR THEM only happens once for cassunzel but STILL!!
Then, they stop acting as friends at all for bit when one closes a door on the other in some way. The difference here is that Rey just closed a door on a force bond while Cassandra actually left Rapunzel to die...
One of them dies and the other holds them while on the floor and brings them back to life using that super old power. The difference is that Ben saves Rey while Rapunzel saves Cassandra and they are the opposite characters in the situation. But, at least at some point it was the angsty ones being dead.
Also, despite their endings being different, each 'grumpy' does basically sacrifice themself for their sunshine partially to make up for their past mistakes/evil-doing and partially bcs THEY LOVE THEMMMM.
Then, the angsty one leaves. The difference is Benny boo fucking dies and Cassandra just goes to find her 'destiny' whatever that means. Though, both of the things have themes of 'destiny' in them, so...
there's totally more similarities so tell me any you think of.
Now to the secret category: Fandom Perception
There was a fandom for both of them early on and they were both easily shippable with scenes that can be seen as having tension or just somehow shippy . Reylo mostly the former and Cassunzel mostly the latter. my fave is "what you do when no one's looking is your business" They also both have some frequently quoted/well-liked shippy moments in their books.
They both have some people in the fandom who dislike or even hate them because there's another ship with a nicer dude that the sunshine character can be with which is deemed healthier.
Both are sometimes claimed to be siblings.
This is so specific. What the fuck.
Oh, there are haters on the villain character who say they are a bad villain and are worse than another villain and then just make fun of them for no reason. The difference is with Cassandra they are just slightly correct while with Kylo they are not really at all because that's just his character and the haters are dudes who love senseless violence... btw both of these characters are my children so I do not condone hating on either of them.
I've never seen people call Rapunzel a Mary Sue BUT I have heard of people who blame Rapunzel for every bad thing which I guess you could say that's slightly similar if you really wanted to idk.
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there's other similarities I think and even between just different parts of the stories but I've already been writing this post for like 2 hours so if you somehow read all this and you think of anything then totally comment it or say it in a reblog or even message it to me cuz I just want to hear it
anyway if you DID read all this then SHEESH GET A LIFE I mean thank you!! 😄🙏
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i think anon is referring to rebound congestion — basically for certain types of nasal sprays, if you use them too much, more than you need to, your body gets used to it and a bit reliant/dependent on it, so your nose can get stuffy when you stop using it. Not that you get addicted in a psychological sense but I can see why anon maybe was thinking along those lines in terms of dependence/tolerance. Not anything super serious really but 🥲🥲 can be inconvenient. Anyway this has slightly derailed the conversation —- get well soon to all those feeling under the weather and take care! @magdasabs i’m not sure if you find these weird mundane topics too boring but at least it’s not the trolls lol. Ngl it’s kinda amusing when you’ll have an active back and forth with an annoying troll (not the amusing part) but in-between there’ll just be this peaceful ongoing conversation thread with a completely opposite tone going on about food or the weather lmao
oh alright, that could be it. I've never had issues personally but other than the day or two I can't breathe I don't use nasal sprays so I don't think my body is developing any kind of response like that 😂
I don't find mundane topics boring (as long as it doesn't get too much, like with everything), it's kind of fun to learn weird little facts and exchange advice lol but I agree overall it must be kind of funny to scroll through my blog and see a bunch of different convos with different tones at the same time
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Sounds interesting and damn you can draw so well?? Its so cute! I would love to read it 🐍 I think you could really enjoy this book series: Thieves like Us from Steve Cole, its about a 17yo hacker that gets recruited into a gang of teenage thieves all with their own unique talents! Kinda like CHERUB (kid spies) but inverted.
Thank you! And that sounds like a good book series ngl.
Here’s chapter one:
Pages: 3.1
Words: 1,080 Words
A young girl no younger then 11 sat on the edge of a fountain humming as she played with her handmade doll.
It looked worn out, but she didn't care. To her, that doll meant more than anything to her. She laughed as she held up the doll leaning back a bit.
Suddenly, she felt something grabbing the back of her blouse. Before she could even scream whatever was inside that water had quickly dragged her inside of the fountain making her drop the doll.
"C'mon pass it!" A boy shouted before getting passed a basketball. Two other boys were blocking his way so he couldn't shoot the ball in the hop.
When he threw it high enough the ball had hit the rim and rolled over to the forest near the basketball court. "Damn it!" One of the boys shouted with a sigh.
"Hey Jaxin, can you get the ball for us?" One of the kids there asked. "Sure." Jaxin said and jogged over to where the ball was.
He bent over and grabbed it, but when he stood up straight a hand grabbed him by the shirt and pulled him into the shadows where he dropped the ball and disappeared.
When the two appeared, they looked really confused. The little girl looked over at Jaxin who was rubbing his head since he landed pretty hard.
"Um, excuse me, but what is this place?" The little girl asked. "I don't know, I do know that I was grabbed by some random hand and ended up here." Jaxin said.
"A hand had pulled me into a fountain, and I also ended up here." She muttered. Their attention was then drawn onto a small cottage, not too far from where they were.
It was simple yet welcoming. "A cottage?" Jaxin mumbled to himself as a confused expression appeared on his face. "That place is giving off weird vibes..." The little girl said as she took a step back. When she took another step back her eyes widened as her head snapped to look behind her. Under them was just darkness, no signs of land underneath them. She quickly scrambled away from the edge.
"I think...we're trapped!" She screeched as tears pricked the corner of her eyes, fear engulfing her. "Don't go close to the edge, we don't know how far and long the drop is." Jaxin warned her. "I don't think this is a good idea, but maybe we can see if there's someone home and see if they can help us?" She asked looking over at Jaxin.
"Alright but be careful." Jaxin said to her as they made their way to the cottage. Jaxin knocked on the door and waited for a response. No response. He knocked again but this time made sure to say something. "Hello? Is anyone home?" He asked. The door opened and revealed a weak looking old lady holding some type of scroll in her hand.
"Oh, hello there." She said, her voice weak yet comforting. "Hello, miss. We were wondering if there's a way to leave this place." Jaxin said to her as she fixed the glasses on her face, but her eyes were closed which was odd.
"Hmm, well, how about you two come in and have something to eat. You both look scared to death!" She said laughing as she walked back inside. Jaxin looked over at the little girl who looked back at him before they both entered.
"Come come, sit please." She said motioning to the two chairs. The two sat down in silence before Jaxin decided to speak up. "Can you answer my question please?" Jaxin asked as the old lady started preparing something. She kept quiet and didn't say a thing.
"Somethings wrong." The little girl whispered to Jaxin. He nodded his head agreeing, since the time they've opened this door, the old lady was giving this weird faint vibe. It wasn't really there, but it was there. Jaxin stood up and went over to the old lady who was cutting carrots in pure silence.
"Are you alright?" Jaxin asked as he placed a hand on her shoulder. She stopped cutting the carrots and slowly looked at Jaxin. Her eyes weren't closed anymore, they were pitch black like the night sky.
Jaxin quickly removed his hand and stumbled backwards, fear present on his face. "H-Her eyes!" The little girl screamed. Her mouth slowly opened into one of a smile, but it kept getting wider and wider to the point of dislocation.
"W-What the hell?!" Jaxin shouted as he knocked into the coffee table. The old lady turned around and in hand was a basket filled to the brim with knives of all kinds. She grabbed one of the knifes and lunged towards Jaxin ready to slash his neck.
Everything looked as if it was moving in slow motion till the little girl came running towards the "old lady" and stabbed her in the back with the knife that was on the cutting board.
"What a naughty little girl-" The old lady said as she turned her head and looked at the little girl whose face was filled with fear. The "old lady" soon bleeds out fast since the little girl had hit something vital. Her body dropped to the ground after a few seconds. "Thank you." Jaxin said with a sigh.
The little girl nodded and looked over at the basket of knifes before seeing a glimpse of some kind of paper sticking out. "Huh, what's this?" She mumbled and picked up the basket. "Careful, you can hurt yourself." Jaxin said as he took the basket away from her.
"I think there's a paper inside the basket." She said and moved over to Jaxin to look inside. Jaxin carefully moved the knifes around to get to the paper. Once he moved the knives around, he saw there was a scroll inside.
"What's a scroll doing inside of a knife basket?" He mumbled and pulled it out laying it on the table for both him and the little girl to see. "Congratulations! You've beaten the first level. Good luck with the next level, or not." Jaxin read aloud. "Wait, is this some kind of sick and twisted game?" He asked with wide eyes.
"I think so..." The little girl said, her voice shaky. A black hole had quickly appeared under them sucking them in instantly before they could even react. 
Level I: Completed.
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avid-idiot · 2 years
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CW: Pro-volleyball player!Atsumu x reader (fem pet name like 'my girl' used), nothing else too major except possible mistakes and my sickly simping...
To say that people were freaking out was an understatement.
Shared onto his story was your most recent post, coupled with a pair of red hearts that Atsumu had added alongside. However, it wasn't your photo that had people gasping. It was the shiny, silver band that could be seen as you innocently tucked your hair behind your ear that shocked everyone, especially since it was only your first appearance on his page.
Soon enough, his phone began to buzz non-stop. Notifications about people responding to his story, and a few less than friendly messages from his PR manager gave him enough reason to toss his phone to the side and turn towards you.
You, the love of his life and suspected soon-to-be spouse, who was standing in the kitchen sipping your cup of tea and scrolling through your notifications, no doubt seeing what his fans have to say about the not-so-new person in his life.
User6969_420 commented on your post: Uhm...who are you and why are you marrying my husband?
Atsumu_me4Life commented on your post: Ngl, kinda feel betrayed but you're pretty so I'll let it slide...
3 missed calls from PR Prissy <3. 'Please call me when you get this, it's important.'
"I thought ya didn't care about what others thought of ya," he said behind you. Looping his arms around your middle, he rested his chin on your shoulder, acting as a blanket of warmth that partially distracted you from your screen.
"I don't. Doesn't mean I can't still read about it though. It's crazy how the one day I decide to wear a ring everyone thinks I'm married." You look up to see Atsumu grinning at you. He has that glint in his eyes that tells you he's up to no good.
"Well...maybe you could be. Just for a little, at least."
"What are you up to, Miya?"
"Don't call me that. That's not ma name," he whined. "And I'm not up to anything, I'm just trying to enjoy my honeymoon with ma so-called wife while I still can. Besides, it could be good practise for when do get married."
"When?" You think you feel your heart do a flip in your chest. For the past year, you guys had never mentioned anything as concrete as marriage so you can't help the warmth that spreads through your face. "You trying to marry me or something?"
By now, you've turned to face him completely, resting your hands on his chest and surely enough...you can feel it thumping against your hand.
"Depends. Ya willing to?" The shake in his voice catches even him off guard but you seem to ignore it when you pull him down enough to press your foreheads together.
Tempted to give in, you glance back at the three missed calls from his manager. Amusing as it was teasing him, you think the poor man is busy enough trying to diffuse your guys' mess.
"As fun as that sounds, we can't do that, Tsumu. Prissy'd kill us if we did that."
A long groan is pulled from him before he extracts himself from your arms, reaching for his phone with one last hopeful glance towards you.
"Now, Miya," you warned, crossing your arms.
Typing away at his screen, you were quickly made aware of an addition to The.Better.Twin's story, tapping on it to see what he wrote.
'A little confusion, guys. Not married yet so you may still have a chance ;)' You rolled your eyes at that. 'She does have nearly a year on you guys so you may want to catch up before I actually put a ring on her...' You chuckled, that time.
"So, good enough to get Prissy off our backs?"
"For now, yes. But I think you should call him back just in case," you say as you make your way towards him.
He opens his arms and suddenly you're engulfed in his warmth, nuzzling yourself into his chest. Really, you were trying to hide your goofy smile that appeared when you viewed his story, but his heart was hammering hard enough to make you look up at him, confused and slightly worried.
"You alright, Tsum?"
"Yea, don't worry 'bout me," responded Atsumu with a small grin. The mischief had disappeared from his eyes, but he still looked as if he was in his own head.
What you didn't know was that he was thinking of the very moment where the rushed little story highlight he made on his page wouldn't have to be a silly allusion to his plans, but a proper start to his time with his One And Only Wifey <3
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A/n: Apparently Atsumu is here to stay so here it is... The first fluffy piece of my blog :)
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Kinktober Masterlist
This contains: fem reader, mutual pinning, unestablished relationship (roommates), orgasm denial, edging, cheesy plot, even cheesier porn title, squirting, oral (fem receiving), quick mention of porn, mentions of cunt/pussy/bitch
A/N: This is super cheesy and everything Eren says is straight out of a bad porno. Like even my writing is straight out of a bad script in a good way I promise. But I had fun writing it so hopefully you have a good time reading it. it’s a little rushed ngl so it’s partially unedited
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“Sup tiny dick”
“Hey sugar tits”
“Really? sugar tits?” he shrugged, continuing to scroll on his phone. “Anyways I came to ask what you want to eat.” Tossing the takeout menu in his general direction.
“Decide while I get my laptop to order. I’m paying.”
He gives an obnoxiously loud hum as he scans through the menu, accompanied by tongue clicks. His head swayed to the awful tune he tried to create.
“God, do you ever shut up?!”
His humming became louder and gained rhythm, switching to an easier song to hum. Leaving the living room, you dig into your sheets trying to find your laptop. Throwing them everywhere. Your room quickly became a child’s dream and a parent's worst nightmare. Choosing to check other parts of your room; you hear him speak. Well or at least try, only to hear a muffled series of words. Not quite making out what he said through the walls.
“what!”
More muffles.
“I swear I’m going to kill him one day” Whispering curses as you rush to find your laptop.
Finally finding it under some laundry you asked again.
“what?”
“I said, what do you think about sharing this!”
He gave you an exaggerated wide eye look as he pointed to the menu with the corner of his phone.
Agreeing that it would be cheaper and it was a meal you liked, you flopped down next to him, moving and getting comfortable. Apparently comfortable to him meant an arm draped over you and his head resting on your shoulder, watching intently as you typed your password.
“HA! I knew your password was just passw-“
His victory celebration was cut short by wails of pleasure. The screen displayed a girl laying on her couch; fluttering cunt stuffed by what he presumed were her boyfriend's fingers. The agonizingly slow pace made her mewl. His hushed voice asking if she felt good. He took a quick glance at the title before you slammed it shut.
Fucking my pretty roommate
Eren never took you as the type of person to watch porn. Especially the cheesy plot kind. Your whole body tensed under him, feeling every muscle tighten and freeze. His silence makes you nervous. What could he possibly be thinking about?
Fucking you right here and now. That’s it. That’s all that he could think about. Pushing you onto the couch and pounding into you until all you can do is scream his name. And with that a plan formulated.
“Is this what you want me to do to you? I bet you think about me when you watch these. So dirty…”
His breath sets your skin on fire. The familiar twang of arousal seeped between your legs just thinking about it.
But he was right. His name always ended up leaving your lips as your hands worked your pussy. Images of him fresh out of the shower, long hair tousled as he dried it. Sweatpants so low you could see the start of his brown colored trail. Sweaty shirts sticking to all the right muscles when he came back from his work outs. You couldn’t help imagining what he would do to you late at night.
He really wasn’t doing any better. Holding back every time you walked out in a plain tank top, no bra, thinking he was in his room. Your nipples poking out the sheer fabric. Or when you bend over as you do your split chores around the house, pretty ass peeking out your shorts. Quickly retreating to his room to fuck his fist wishing it was your hand instead.
Fuck it.
Lifting his chin from your shoulder you gave him a chaste kiss, thumb tracing the outline on his jaw. Testing the waters first, making sure everything you did was ok. He dove right back in. Cupping your cheek and pulling your neck to deepen the kiss, his fingers lightly scratching your nape.
Pulling away after what felt like forever, his eyes scanned your face. Fixated on the way your chest heaved and your swollen lips shined. Shifting down he latched into your neck, mumbling about how pretty you always look.
He continued down your body. Kissing and nipping your chest, paying extra attention to the swell of your breast that peeked out of your shirt. Your back arched off the couch, he took the opportunity to slip off your bottoms leaving you exposed. Swiping a finger over your covered slit he groaned at your wetness. Bringing his finger up to taste you.
“You did offer to pay for dinner. Lucky for you, what I want is free.”
“You are such a dork.” As hard as you tried to sound unaffected your voice still came out shaky. Every nibble and kiss he left made you squirm even more.
Chuckling he moved onto the floor. Looking up at you through lidded eyes.
Propping your legs up on the coffee table he settled between your legs. Breath fanning over your half clothed cunt. Giving you one last kiss to your inner thigh he lost his small amount of self control.
Lapping at your cunt he found your hardened clit and sucked hard. Your legs snapped shut around his head, mewling at the sudden pleasure. He thought about holding you down but he wasn’t going to lie to himself and say he didn’t dream about this. Eating you out through your soaked panties, his spit and your wetness mixed together. His desperate hands explored your body, grabbing and squeezing at any plush fat he could.
Burying his face deeper into your inviting cunt when you screamed his name. His hips rutted desperately into nothing trying to calm his own ache. Shuffling closer his hips met the coach, rutting like a bitch in heat. Groaning into your pussy the vibrations made you keen.
Your words became labored and your cunt fluttered insistently. You were close and he could feel it.
“Wait no what are you doing? please m’s close”
“i want you to really enjoy when i finally make you scream my name” He placed a teasing kiss below your belly button.
Minutes passing, he works you up and brings you right back down again. Never giving you that oh so sweet release you crave. Panties and shirts long discarded by now.
“Please! Eren baby!”
“Aww look at you even calling me baby. Almost makes me want to let you cum”
“Yes!”
“almost” His voice dripped with wicked playfulness.
He soothes you with soft kitten licks that only make you clench more. Now having access to your budded exposed nipples he could tease you even more.
Completely leaving your neglected cunt he chose to mark up your pretty plush thighs. Small whimpers caused my harsh bites to your sensitive area. So close to where you actually needed him.
After a while of making you beg he decides he’s had his fun. Diving right back in he continued with no mercy. Pleasuring you like a mad man. Using all the tricks he learned. Remembering what made you whine and using it to his advantage, So needy, he thought with a smile.
Finally pushing you to release he takes you higher and higher until a stream of pure ecstasy coats his face. Screaming his name, your thighs snap shut once again. A chorus of his name and thank you’s fill his ears.
His face plastered with a playful smirk, chin dripping in your release and pretty freckles covered in your cum. “Do you ever shut up?” His tone mocking your previous words.
Tags: @waka-chan-out @tanzaniiite 💕
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haik-choo · 4 years
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waking up next to the karasuno second & third years
request: the waking up next to the first years hcs was the purest most adorable thing i’ve ever read 🥺🥺🥺could u do one with the second or third years too?
a/n: thank you so much for loving the first one i did! i’m sorry i haven’t been as active, i go in and out of a creative mindset and this quarantine isn’t really pushing me to stay creative. i just sleep most of the time LOL. here it is! :)
[WAKING UP NEXT TO THE KARASUNO SECOND AND THIRD YEARS] 
-nishinoya, tanaka, daichi, sugawara, asahi
nishinoya yuu.
waking up next to nishinoya yuu isn’t filled with excitement or him jumping off the walls, like you might expect it to be. i feel like the first ten minutesof waking up for him are really slow, like he’s just barely opening his eyes and looking at the ceiling.
for some reason i really feel like he wakes up before you. he goes to bed at like two am, but wakes up at eight am to practice or go on a little jog. 
but every time he wakes up, the first thing he looks at is you. your peaceful state, your slow-rising chest, the little breaths leaving your slightly parted lips. noya is a really emotional person, and I can bet you real money that he gets real giddy seeing you next to him.
you don’t usually sleep in his arms because he’s a wild sleeper and probably starfishes, so when he wakes up his limbs are sprawled out, some on you, some hanging off the bed. and he just barely turns his head at there you are in your morning glory. 
his heart literally swells five sizes bigger. he’ll shift over to be next to you and move your hair out of your face or just mess with the hair at the top of your head, basking in the love you cause him to feel.
after a few minutes of doing that, he’ll let out a big ol’ sigh and wrap his arms around you, squeezing tight to wake you up.
“mmm,,,,noya, what are you doing,,,” “i’m just feeling grateful :)” 
and you look up at him, and there’s a feeling of security that fills you. he may not be the biggest or strongest, but the light in his eyes and the warmth in his arms that he wraps around you make you feel safe. 
not to mention that his hair is down and sticking out everywhere. it’s a cute picture that only you’ll ever see
you return his gesture and wrap your arms around him, thinking about different ways to make him stay in bed instead of going out for a jog.
basically; the morning is filled with hugs and soft smiles, knowing looks and arms that evoke the feeling of being safe and being loved. his hair is wild, and his hands are tugging at your own strands. 
tanaka ryuunosuke.
you two almost always wake up in the same position, his arms spread out, your head resting on one of them, one of his legs propped up like a tent and the other flat on the bed, you curled up against his side. since he’s a touch-starved individual, he finds any excuse for you two to be as close as possible every second of every day. 
you both actually wake up a few minutes apart, whoever wakes up first is a coin toss. and when you wake up first, you get to see his face void of the tension is usually has, his mouth is a little open with small snores coming out, his fingers twitching every few seconds
tanaka’s body reacts before he does, so even if you try to get up, his arms just holds onto you and keep you attached to his side. he swears he doesn’t do it on purpose, and that his body just needs you :’) 
on days when he wakes up before you he stays as still as stone. no joke, he’s so afraid of waking you up and experiencing your wrath that he just. freezes
but as he’s frozen, he takes the time to just stare. no smile on his face, he just stares, drinking in your sleeping form. he occasionally takes a change and slowly turns, stretching out his arm for his phone on the side table. when he can reach it, you can bet he has 200+ new photos of your sleeping and he makes them his screen savers
the second he sees your stir awake lightly, he pounces on you an covers your face in little kithes and saves your lips for last. sometimes he’ll wait until you open your eyes and look at him, pouting like “where’s my real kisses :(” before he gives you a big boy smooch
you giggle and caress his chest with your hand, happy that he wakes you up like a queen everyday. trust me, he’s happy he gets to be the guy whose face you see first thing in the morning
he usually scrolls through his phone for like an hour before getting out of bed, and you just sit there and watch tik toks with him. you two my wake up at roughly the same time, but you get out of bed before him to make some morning smoothies (he totally asks for a protein shake AGAGA) 
basically; your mornings get started at the same time, and he loves to make sure you’re up by pelting you with kisses that you love. you scroll through tik tok while being smushed next to his chest before you get up to make breakfast. 
daichi sawamura.
not gonna lie, when he wakes up he spend like a minute or two in bed at MOST, he hates just staying in bed because he feels like he could so much more productive than lie around and do nothing. you, on the other hand, wouldn’t mind staying in bed for the entire day. 
so here’s the way it usually goes: he wakes up a minute before his alarm (7:00am) and just quickly sighs before reaching over you and turning it off so it doesn’t wake you up. then he kisses your forehead (his breath smells bad, so he’s not going to kiss your lips) before getting up and washing up. he gets ready to go on a jog, and he kisses your shoulder before he sets out on his journey.
but every once in a while, there’s something wonderful that happens. he doesn’t feel like working out. he wakes up at the same time, but he just doesn’t feel like doing anything. on those days, he completely indulges in your warmth.
he doesn’t care if he wakes you up and hoists you up so you’re completely laying on his body. of course you wake up, but you already know what’s going to happen, so you just softly groan. “so you don’t feel like getting up and decide to wake me up? really?” “yes, really” “...you’re lucky i love you” “im the luckiest man alive” 
you two actually talk during mornings like those, you love pressing an ear against his chest and hearing the vibrations his voice causes. it’s like calming background noise to you. 
“are,,,you even listening. we’ve got a lot to do today” “i’ve been ignoring everything after you said ‘getting up’“ “...of course you have”
you haveto convince him to stay even longer in bed, because he really hates staying in bed, like he just wants to make “eggs or fucking toast or an OMLETTE PLEASE I JUST WANT TO DO SOMETHING”
in order to persuade him to stay for a little longer, you usually just kiss him. normally he hates morning breath, but when it’s you kissing him so tenderly he can make an exception or two
ngl it usually leads to making out or morning sex, like i said he needs to do SOMETHING 
basically; you wake up like a married couple. normally he gets up right away, but every once in a while he;ll decide to spend some extra time with the love of his life, and that time is usually spent kissing and...doing other things ;) 
sugawara koushi.
instead of you waking up in his arms, he wakes up in your arms. like his face is pressed against your chest and your arms is haphazardly resting over his shoulder. his arms are undoubtedly around your waist, his lags entangled with yours
every morning, without fail, he wakes up first and somehow slip out of your position and into the bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth before making two cups of coffee and coming back into the bedroom, setting them on the nightstand, and crawling back into bed with you
usually he sits up in bed and moves you to rest your head in his lap so he can reach over to sip at his drink. his hands comb through your hair and he trifles through his emails just incase some parent messages him about something
sometimes he’ll stop scrolling at look down at you, feeling happy and 100% sure that he has the greatest life; first he wakes up in your arms, spends time with you, spends time with kids, and them spends more time with you 
the school he teaches at starts at like twelve pm, so he likes to take his time waking up so he’s as happy as possible. and spending a lot of time with you is key to that.
can only wait for so long before he pokes your side until you wake up. the entire time he’s like “please wake up” “i’ve got work in like four hours! let’s do something!” “i’ll make breakfast if you give me sufficient payment ;)” 
literally the second you wake up he props you up and you look drunk as hell when you first wake up but he still thinks you’re beautiful <3 cute rat 
he rests your head on his shoulder and kisses you until you’re fully awake, you don’t always kiss back but that’s because you’re not fully there  and you’re just,,, “is there a bird pecking at me? what the hell - oh, it’s koushi” 
“can’t you wake me up like a normal person?” “no, i like kissing you awake. isn’t that cute? :)” “not when you kiss like a bird.” “so you have,,,,chosen death?”
when he’s feeling extra happy he has no issue putting you on his lap, facing him. he wraps your arms around him before doing the same to you and burying his face in your neck and humming a soft tune. he’s just such a calming presence that sometimes you fall back asleep in his lap :’)
basically; it’s a cute and happy morning as he rests you on his lap and peppers your lips with kisses to wake you up. playful banter is included, and so it coffee breath.  
asahi azumane.
he would love to wake up to you pressed to his side, but he gets hot really easily, so he cant hold you to sleep. he totally hugs a small pillow to sleep and you can old press up against his back, which he doesn’t mind. 
he’s the type to wake up at ten am naturally, and every morning he yawns and stretches out his arms, rolling back a little before yelping at the feeling of you getting quietly crushed beneath him
when he realizes that it’s just you, his heart beat stabilizes and he turns over, flipping the sheets off of him to he doesn’t overheat, and grabs you hands, lacing his fingers through with yours
you’ve been dating for a while, so he’s completely comfortable doing skinship with you. he’s not embarrassed at how much he loves you. he likes to gently caress your face with his hands, his thumbs brushing over your cheekbones and sometimes across your bottom lip
no lie, waking up with asahi is the softest thing ever. he gives you one single kiss on your cheek, letting it linger for a few seconds before pulling away to see your eyes cracked open
by this time he’s lightly hovering over you, and he just lets out a slightly bashful smiles and leans down, his forehead pressing against yours
you think that you must’ve saved a cat orphanage in your past life in order to get he delicious treat of waking up with asahi’s face in front of yours everyday 
“good morning to you, too, azumane” “morning :)” “did you have that weird dream again?” “the one where hinata grows to be eight foot three and dunks me in a basketball hoop and leaves me up there and becomes the ace?” “yeah” “yes. yes i did.thanks for reminding me.” 
sometimes asks for extra cuddles before getting up to take a shower, and when you say yes he just :):):) and envelops you in his warm embrace and rubs his beard goatee thing on your forehead as you grovel in pain because it’s in that in-between phase where it’s scratchy and long 
sometimesasksyoutoshowertogetherbutyouusuallyhavetodecipheritbecausehe’sallblushyandit’ssocuteyoucoulddie
honestly struggles to get up in the morning because he really loves just laying and existing with you, his mind not focused or worried about anything but the way your chest rises slightly out of sync with his, and sometimes he imagines your chest heaving beneath his,,,,but hat’s astory for antoher time
basically; waking up with him is like a fairy tale. his gently lips and even gentler arms wake you up like a queen, and he makes sure that you feel the same way he does. sometimes there’s extra cuddles, sometimes there’s some showering together. 
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↬ PAIRINGS: kenma x f!reader (side aka rebound mention) miya atsumu x f!reader
↬ WARNINGS: a whole lotta angst, breakup, it’s an online relationship, kenma is cold and hurts ur feelings
↬ SUMMARY: your relationship with kenma really had felt like the last one. He was it, turns out he didn’t have similar feelings.
↬ A/N: alright loves!! This isn’t proofread at all it’s 2 in the morning I’ll edit when I wake up, butttt Thanks to my lovely ex girlfriend you are now being graced with this steaming pile of trash. (Lovely was not meant sarcastically at all she is in fact very lovely.) Ngl almost, if not all of this story is about my relationship with my ex gf. This is how I cope people. → It’s taken me awhile to actually be able to right something that’s why things kinda stopped. Tbh after she broke up with me it’s been very hard for me to write so hopefully this helps! And I hope you enjoy!! I would also just like to say if it feels a lil weird it’s cause these are things I’ve actually written in my notes I tweaked it a little to fit the story but it’s straight from the source 😩
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You sighed as you opened your notes app. Your eyes scanning over all of the little facts and quirks he had told you about himself. All the stuff you’d wanted to remember. The stuff that had seemed so important to you before. Now it was meaningless, almost like facts about a stranger. Almost as if you hadn’t spent four months learning about and growing with eachother.
You scrolled down a little bit right under, how his favorite marvel character is Spider-Man and you chewed on your lip. Your fingers hovering above the keyboard on your phone. You looked over the facts again. The things he dislikes and the stuff he adores, the things he likes to collect to the way he feels passionately about a certain topic. You begin to type.
Friday June 25th 2022 12:22 Am
I cried again tonight, because I still love you. It’s been a month and six days since we broke up. It feels like there’s a hole in my chest. You seem to be doing fine though, so I’m happy for you! This is the second time since we’ve broken up that I’ve felt actual physical emotional pain in my chest. Remember when I told you how bad it hurt after we broke up? Remember how you didn’t even ask if I was ok? Didn’t even bother to answer. Do you remember that? I remember. I’ve thought about it every day since. I remember it being so bad I genuinely thought I was having a heart attack. Wasn’t until I’d called tetsu crying that he’d told me it was just emotional and I should probably try to relax.
I read through our old messages. I’ve never wanted something back so bad. Never wanted to beg anyone to stay till now. I wish you loved me like I love you. I wish I hadn’t grown so attached, wish I hadn’t fallen so deeply into love with you. I wish it wasn’t my fault that we broke up. I wish I wasn’t so fucking scared. I wish I was fearless. Wish I could rise into love bravely. I wish I was brave when it came to you. I keep telling myself it was me. It was me not you. You didn’t love me anymore. You don’t love me anymore and you’re just too nice to say that. So you told me in the only way I could handle. Except you hadn’t used the words you should have. You got bored. We both know it’s true. You were bored of it, and I don’t blame you. I know we’ll never talk again, and part of me is so glad. Another part of me forces myself to read through all our messages though. I wish I could just tell you one last time. I love you.
You sighed saving it before closing out of it. Tears you hadn’t known were falling finally became known to you as they streamed down your cheeks. Your eyes puffy as you wet your lips, the salt of them coating your tongue. You were bitter and so were your tears. I briefly wondered what he was doing right now. Probably playing a video game. You knew his schedule all to well by now. Probably testing out a new game for his stream.
A new set of fresh tears fell as you remembered how you used to call him right before he went on. Being lulled to sleep by his occasionally curses and the clicking oh his controller or his keyboard.
You never expected things to end this way. You really thought he was the last one. Yes it had only been four months, but the way he made you feel. The way that it had felt. It had felt final, and you’d been friends before you even started dating.
You sniffle moving yourself to the kitchen to poor yourself a glass of water as you remembered how nervous you were when you first texted him. You had acumulated quite the crush on him back in high school. As Inarazaki’s manager you were required to go to the games, and even after your team lost you had stuck around. Watched him play and cheered him on. Two weeks later you had begun to text, as friends of course. It wasn’t until four months ago that you’d gotten together.
Your anniversary was only two days prior to your break up. You both had never been one to even care about that stuff. You had agreed early on in the relationship that we wouldn’t do anything due to the distance, and the business of our schedules. You were never one for remembering things like anniversaries anyways.
He really did feel like the one. Sometimes you just know. Sometimes you can just feel it. Like, you know that feeling you get when you know something is off or you know for sure something is about to happen even without being told it’s going to. That’s what it felt like to be with kozume kenma.
You thought you knew, you thought this time, this time its for real. You thought it was finally safe to say, that he was the one. You both had even admitted to looking for each others initials in those stupid soulmate tik tok videos.
You were finally in a mature relationship with someone you could talk about anything to. You had gotten so caught up in it, that you didn’t even see the end creeping up on you.
You’d finally gained the courage to text him again. Unfortunately it was in a drunken daze. Your hands shaking as you fumbled with your phone typing things you’d come to regret in the morning. You’d sent him a series of texts telling him how much you missed him, how you didn’t understand how he was so okay. You had been a wreck that night. One of your friends puking in her toilet as you cried. You were happy of course that he was doing so well, but you’d been a wreck for so long and he hadn’t even changed. You told him you wished you could be okay.
When you’d awoken the next morning hair knotted in a complete mess and wiping drool from your chin your heart had sunk even lower. His response was cold. You knew that kenma could be cold. You knew that it was just who he was, but this particular text had felt so unfeeling and unfamiliar, it was as if he hadn’t even sent it himself. He had only ever talked like this to you once and that was when you first became friends all those years ago.
Kozume ❤️
Hey, it’s okay. And yeah you see what I choose to put up. I could be better. But I choose to stay optimistic and busy. Sorry that things are this way.
You had never seen so many periods in a text before. He only used grammar like that when he was peeved, and maybe you were wrong, maybe he’d done that on purpose, but it had hurt so bad. It had caused an ache so deep in your chest that you weren’t sure if you’d ever even dated him at all.
Yeah.
It was the only thing you could bring yourself to respond back with. How were you supposed to respond to that? You’d stared at it for so long and after you’d sent it you wished you had said more. Wished you would’ve said something more insightful than a simple, heartbroken, “yeah.”
Not too long later there was another ping and you held your breath. His name briefly appearing across your screen.
Yeah. I could be better. But I hope you do well soon. I’m sorry that I can’t really do much to help out
And of course you did the only thing you could do. Deflect. Pretend like you hadn’t said what you’d said not even fourteen hours ago.
No it’s fine. I’m fine. You don’t have to apologize. I’m sorry that you could be doing better.
He left you on seen. You knew you sounded like an asshole. At least to you, you felt like an asshole. Why couldn’t you have come up with something else. Why couldn’t you tell him the truth. Tell him how you felt. Tell him that you didn’t think you should be broken up anymore. That the month long cruel joke was over and you were ready to spend your nights falling asleep to him playing video games again. You didn’t though, and you never would. You’re not brave enough, too prideful to even try.
You swallowed down the bile rising in your throat as you realized even if you did beg him. Begged him to take you back. Tell him that you still love him. You were too late, and you just couldn’t be selfish when it comes to him. He is over you and it was so plainly obvious. You know that deep down. Know that he’s moved on, and it kills you inside. So you did the only thing you could do. Try and put it into words.
So as you lay in bed the warm body you let occupy your space sound asleep beside you, his toned blonde hair tousled slightly and you sighed. Finally away from the shenanigans of your friends you took a deep breath before you closed your eyes.
You opened up your notes app again and scrolled past the last entry. You swallowed again as you blinked the tears out of your eyes. Your thumbs beginning to move before you even gave them permission.
Wednesday June 30th 2022 1:39 Am
Here I am again. Stuck. Stuck in the same place I’ve been for so long. You know, I write so beautifully when I’m broken. I’m most of my best work is written when I’m being torn apart. But I just, I can’t seem to find the words. I can’t seem to put it into a document and turn out little story into a different story to cope. Can’t seem to write it out. Can’t seem to move on.
I hovered over the unfollow button on your page today, to keep myself from scrolling through your things again. To keep myself from getting hurt. So I don’t have to be reminded. I want to delete it. Delete where we officially met. On a chat through my screen. I wanna wipe the messages clean. And I’ve tried. Oh how I’ve tried. But I can’t.
I want to delete our conversations. The hours long talks we had, but then, what happens afterwards? What keeps the memories alive. I’d never been so in love with someone before. I’ve never actually…. Been in love before. I thought I’d been in love, but it didn’t feel like that, and losing them never hurt like this. Losing someone has never hurt this bad before.
I’ve never felt the emptiness you left so deep in my very being with anyone I’ve ever met before. I can’t seem to pull myself together. And it’s pathetic I know. It’s pathetic that I’m still here. In the same place I was a month ago. It’s about to be two months we’ve haven’t been together. I’m hurting. Hurting so bad. It’s painful to look at you.
I haven’t deleted the photos even though I probably should. They’re still tucked away in an album in my camera roll labeled “us <3” the one one I made specially just for you. The way I’d been so excited when I was finally ready to tell my friends. I even have this stupid notes folder from when we were dating where I wrote all the little things about you that I never wanted to forget. I find you so endearing. Everything you do. I just couldn’t help but right it down to keep it safe so it never leaves my mind. So that I never forget. But now, forgetting is all I want to do.
I never thought there’d be a time in my life where I was more emotionally stunted that I normally. So stunted I can’t even put this, our split up, into words. Make it something entertaining for somebody else to read. Write a book about it. My publicist keeps asking when the sequel for my book will be done. I don’t know if it’ll ever be finished. I can’t do the one thing I’ve always been good at. I’m crying as I write this.
And I wish it would just end here in this little notes app. Wish the love would die in here. I always think I’m over you and then I see you again, and nowadays your everywhere. A very big hit and I’m happy for you and your success, but seeing you makes my heart squeeze in my chest.
I think I’m over you until I play that stupid fucking game that causes me to scream at my phone, or my laptop in frustration, but I just can’t seem to delete it because I know it’s something that you love. That show we used to talk about. I know you know which one, I can’t seem to watch it without thinking of what was. You’ve ruined it forever cause now it only reminds me of you. I know you’ll never see this, but I like to imagine you can. That my time for closure has somehow come.
When you told me you were sorry that things were this way, it was a real slap in the face. It stopped my false hope. My wishing. It all came to a halt. I’m glad. Glad that you’re happier. That you’re better without me. But god, now I’m so fucked up and I can’t even talk to you.
You were the only person I had left. The only one who understood me. And now you’re gone. You took a part of me with you that night. A part that I’ll never get back. I should’ve known that you would leave. I’ve never been able to get someone to stay for longer than three to four months.
I thought I could let my guard down though. I thought we were in the clear. I’d thought finally. Finally someone is gonna stay. I thought you were my person. I still think that to this day. I thought we were gonna make it. And now I’m with this guy I don’t even like. He’s not you, he doesn’t act like you. He doesn’t like video games like you do.
He doesn’t talk to me like you do. Like you did. But you know how it ended I don’t need to put it here. Unfortunately I’ll always love you even if you don’t love me. This is so scattered, I’m sorry I couldn’t make you happy.
With that you closed the app and put down your phone. Plugging in it and as it dinged miya atsumu rolled over in his sleep. He reached for you his hands wrapping around your waist to tug you against his strong body.
His gravely voice whispering through sleep, “mmm finally decided to come to bed?” You hum moving an arm under on of his to wrap around his thin waist. “Mhm, thought you might need the company.” You began to draw little shapes and letters against his back as he chuckled, “oh yea? How thoughtful of you princess.”
Suddenly it was quiet and your closed eyes opened to his wide brown ones, his eyebrows furrowing .
“Did you just spell kozume on my back?”
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Healing
Prompts: So I’ve recently binged all your SS fics practically and I know you SWAMPED in prompts, but if this sounds like something you could enjoy creating I’d love to request a promt as well:
Set in your SS Butterfly Project, could we maybe get Virgil reacting to all the sides (specifically L and Ro) learning to heal, and bouncing between helping sooth everyone’s anxiety over all the changes? I’d just love under appreciated Virgil helping in the moments in between the healing process if that makes any sense…
I appreciate the he*l out of you regardless if you take this prompt or not; and you deserve all the kindness the world has to offer you. ❤️ - mylgbtbabies
I would take any fic where somethigns off and virgil knows it. Someone: Im sure its fine!! Virgil: Idk man Im anxiety my spooder sense be tingly. - anon
If you're taking requests for Sanders Sides uwu can I ask for something Virgil-centric? I just love the emo boy - anon
ahh yes the babes
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Warnings: ngl this one's pretty much fluff
Pairings: DLAMP, LAMP, DLAMPR, that found family
Word Count: 3538
Healing: To restore to health or soundness; cure.
Healing: To ease or relieve (emotional distress).
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Healing isn’t a linear process.
It’s messy, it’s hard, and no one should expect it to be anything otherwise. Humans are complicated, more often than not brains are absolute garbage, and trying to navigate everything on your own is difficult. Really difficult.
So is learning how to ask for help.
Virgil sighs and leans back against the couch as Roman continues to type on his laptop. He risks a glance up at Princey to see his brow furrowed slightly in concentration. Every so often he’ll quirk his eyebrow in the way that means he just made a hilarious typo and has to go back. Virgil hides a smile as he turns his attention back to his phone. Can’t intrude too much on the process, that’s not how it works. He glances up to make sure no one’s coming down the stairs and shifts his weight again.
“Are you alright?”
There’s Roman, taking care of everyone else first. “I’m good, Princey, just trying not to fuck up my spine.”
“…do you want to come sit up here with me? I won’t mind.”
Virgil cranes his neck back, letting a slow and lazy smile come across his face. “Nah, ‘m good right here. You just make with the typey typey, okay?”
Roman smiles too, victory achieved. “Okay.”
“That’s my Princey.”
Virgil isn’t humble enough to not feel the little rush of pride at seeing a quick flush spread to Roman’s ears as he turns his attention back to his laptop. Suppressing a chuckle, he starts mindlessly scrolling again, getting sucked back into whatever’s contaminating his dash this time. What’s this about a k-drama…?
“Oh! There you are!”
Patton might not notice the way Roman startles, but Virgil does. He looks up and quickly shakes his head as Patton comes the rest of the way down the stairs.
“It’s work hours, Pat.”
“Oh, I thought—“ Virgil gives him a look that he knows Patton understands as Roman is setting the rules here, and he nods quickly— “well don’t mind me, I’m just getting a drink.”
Roman relaxes slightly as Patton bustles in and out of the kitchen, then a little more as Virgil reaches up to squeeze his hand.
“Thank you,” comes the quiet mumble.
“I gotcha, Princey. Work hours are your thing, I’m happy to help.”
Sure enough, a few minutes later, when Logan comes down the stairs carrying his computer, he takes one look at them in the living room before his mouth drops open slightly.
“Is it…work hours?”
“Mhm,” Virgil says, letting his head loll back, “you wanna join?”
“May I? I can be quiet as well.”
Virgil looks up at Roman. Roman glances up, smile softening when he sees it’s Logan, and gently pats the sofa next to him. Logan smiles too and yeah, okay, Virgil’s fine with his edge lord image fading slightly if it means he gets to be fond at watching these two nerds be gentle with each other.
The two of them start to type on their laptops, Logan’s constant murmurs of what he’s working on an amusing contrast to Roman’s silent yet expressive face. Virgil keeps the barrier there, warding off Janus and Remus when they try and drag the others into the dramatics—if anyone, especially Janus, tries to deny that he’s as much a part of it as Remus is, do not under any circumstances believe them—to keep the nerds safe.
After a while, when Virgil re-emerges from whatever deep dive he’s gone on this time—and yeah, he might be looking to pirate that k-drama, maybe—he realizes there’s no more typing. He looks up, a little concerned, only to be incredibly glad no one else is around to see him melt at the sight on the couch.
Roman’s laptop lies partially closed on his lap, the screen just touching the tops of his knuckles. His head and shoulders are angled toward Logan and his eyes are closed. Logan’s glasses are slipping slightly off his face, his head on Roman’s shoulder, eyes closed, lips parted slightly as his hair falls back into his face. His laptop has been set on the coffee table, somewhere safe.
Virgil shakes his head, standing and carefully taking Roman’s laptop from him. He saves whatever’s on it and sets it next to Logan’s. Then he takes the blanket from the back of the couch and carefully drapes it over the two of them. He slides Logan’s glasses from his face and undoes the top button of Princey’s collar. Can’t do for them to have a red mark, after all. And he sits back down to keep watch.
Sometimes, when they’re doing better, they ask for more. Roman comes to him sometimes and asks, very very quietly, but he does ask, for Virgil to come sit with him by his room. Virgil happily takes up residence in the warm spot in the hallway next to Roman’s room, right where the big windows are, soaking in the warmth from outside as Roman closes the door gently behind himself.
Something that everyone had to learn pretty quick once Logan and Roman started reaching out was that both of them are extremely private people. On the surface, it might seem like they’re different—and if they’re being honest, they certainly thought they were very different—but they aren’t. Not really. Roman hides behind being too much, Logan hides behind not being anything. Whether or not anyone actually knows them without any of the facades is up for debate.
Except each other. They…they…know each other.
Virgil would be lying if he said he isn’t a little jealous of how close the two of them have become. There are soft smiles they only have for each other now, little brushes of their hands against each other’s as a constant way of saying ‘I’m here, I see you, are you alright?’ And sometimes it’s Virgil’s job to sit outside one of their rooms as they try and hold each other steady.
Their company feels better than their solitude and it’s up to them to decide where that line is.
Today, Virgil’s just keeping an eye on Roman. Fielding off anyone who comes to knock on his door, glaring away the more persistent ones who don’t seem to understand that Roman needs his space right now, kindly fuck off. Logan comes around the corner and immediately understands and he sees them murmur quietly to each other when it’s time for dinner.
When he watches Logan, it’s a little harder. Because poor Logan is so used to pushing himself to the side to be able to make decisions, to help do things, that Virgil has to remind everyone involved that no, Logan’s enforced a boundary that means he doesn’t want to be disturbed right now, he’s allowed to do that, let’s leave him be for now. Left brain boys have to stick together.
But the others, to a certain extent, are easy. They care about Roman and Logan as much as Virgil does, and if it’s to help them, they’ll do whatever they have to. Protecting them from themselves…that’s another story.
Logan is too fucking good at pretending he’s fine. He’s too good at pretending he doesn’t have emotions, that he doesn’t care what’s going on unless it’s the absolute most illogical thing that’s happening. So, sometimes he has to work a little harder to get Logan to admit it.
“L,” he mutters as the others continue to argue, “check-in.”
“I’m fine.”
Janus shoots him a look as he continues to argue. Virgil tugs gently on Logan’s sleeve.
“No one’s gonna be mad if you say you aren’t, bud.”
Logan shakes his head firmly, eyes still trained on the way Patton and Janus are insisting that they’re the one right.
“Hey,” Virgil says softly, making them take a step back, “I need you to look at me, L.”
“What is the purpose of this?”
“You’re seizing up again.” Logan looks down at his hands, sees the way they’re shaking as Virgil gently runs a finger over the back of one of them. “It’s okay, bud, you’re gonna be fine, you just have to let yourself not be for a moment, okay?”
Logan risks a glance at the others but they haven’t noticed anything. Well, that’s not entirely accurate. Judging by the way Janus is being more dramatic than normal and Roman has turned so his back is facing them, they’ve noticed something’s wrong and are purposefully not noticing anything else.
“Logan,” Virgil calls, “do you need a minute?”
Logan’s mouth opens, closes, then he nods sharply.
“Okay, thank you, I’m really proud of you for saying that. Can I sink you out?”
Another sharp nod.
Virgil sets his hand gently on Logan’s elbow and sinks them out, right outside Logan’s room. He nods to the door.
“Do you need to be alone for a moment? Or do you need me with you?”
Logan looks at the door. His hands shake again. Virgil sees them twitch toward his legs. Then he looks at Virgil and oh, okay, no, Virgil’s definitely coming inside.
“Come on,” he says, guiding hand still on Logan’s shoulder, “just through here, okay? I’m gonna get you a glass of water.”
Logan looks small, Virgil decides he doesn’t like that. He presses a glass of water gently into Logan’s hands, watches as he drinks the whole thing without complaint, and then carefully sets one of Logan’s fluffier pillows into his lap for Logan to hang onto.
“Do you want to sit here for a moment?”
Logan nods, then buries his face in the pillow and breathes. Virgil closes his eyes and starts to breathe too, keeping it slow and steady as he breathes in, then out, then in, then out. When Logan’s breathing starts to hitch, he opens his eyes and scoots a little closer, wordlessly offering a shoulder. Logan takes it after a moment, his face still buried in the pillow even as his head comes to rest on Virgil’s shoulder.
“Let it out, bud,” Virgil murmurs into the crown of Logan’s head, “don’t try and keep any of that shit in you. It’s just me.”
Watching Logan cry isn’t fun. He doesn’t recommend it. But it’s much, much better than the alternative.
“Hey,” he calls again, a fresh glass of water in his hand, “drink, bud, it’ll help.”
Logan drinks, a little slower this time, as Virgil settles back on the bed, one leg folded under him.
“Do you want to talk about it? Or do you want me to distract you?”
Logan shakes his head. “I…do not think distraction would be helpful.”
“Okay. Do you want me to give you the logical reason why this is fine, or the emotional one where I tell you how much we care?”
Logan sniffles.
“Both it is, then.” Virgil scoots closer, ready if Logan needs to lean against him again. “Despite the fact that your role is Logic, no one expects you to be entirely logical. You are a person, you have feelings and emotions, and they are as much a part of you as Logic is. Trying to deny that isn’t logical, nor productive. The reason you are who you are is equally due to both of those things.”
He softens his voice as Logan leans toward him again, smiling at how shamelessly Logan is asking to be comforted.
“And that’s why we care about you,” he mumbles, ignoring the heat rushing to his own face, “because you’re you. You’re…prissy and stuck-up and a know-it-all and it’s perfect, L. You’re our braincell and you’re fucking ours. You’re—you’re not going anywhere.”
Logan’s arms still grip the pillow tightly even as his head nudges its way under Virgil’s chin. Virgil smiles and lets him, only realizing he’s absentmindedly nuzzling Logan’s hair after a minute.
The others will be fine. Logan just needs a moment to check out.
Roman, on the other hand, fucking sucks at letting himself ask.
And yeah, Virgil’s not too proud to admit he still feels sick at how much he’s fucked that up for him. But he’ll be damned if he doesn’t try and fix that now.
Princey’s gig as Creativity isn’t misplaced; Virgil’s equal parts impressed and dismayed at how well Roman’s managed to get himself what he needs without directly asking for it, be it a favor, a piece of feedback, or a conversation.
The one thing he can’t do that with is touch.
Roman needs physical contact like he needs water. He may run hotter than a goddamn furnace but he somehow manages to look cold. Watching him sit himself apart from everyone else hurts now, especially when Janus comes and confesses that he can hear how much Roman tries to insist that he doesn’t need affection from the others.
So, they built a system. Some with Roman’s knowledge, some without. Roman goes to them for comfort when he needs it, but sometimes, when he really needs it, it’s up to them to figure out just how much.
Remus knows his job when it comes to this. His brother is Roman and you don’t get to be a Dark Side without Janus as a dramatic caveat. He’s well-versed in blackmailing self-sacrificing idiots into taking care of themselves.
Remus finds Roman when Roman’s sitting alone, off to the side, staring out into the expanse of the Imagination. He sits down, brushes their shoulders together, and frowns when Roman apologizes and shifts further away.
That’s the first indication.
He suggests they go bother Patton, or sneak out to the field and practice cliff jumping. If Roman’s alright, he’ll roll his eyes and propose an alternative, or agree and they’ll scamper off. But instead, he smiles softly and says no thank-you, politely inviting Remus to stay if he likes, but he’d rather not move.
That’s the second indication.
The third one comes when Remus carefully—really carefully—prods at Roman to see how obvious Roman’s dazed state is. He’s barely there.
Time for reinforcements.
Who gets called depends on who’s around. Since Remus is usually the first one in the chain—although that responsibility does get bounced around—everyone else’s schedules make absolute consistency difficult.
Today, it’s Janus.
He sits on Roman’s other side, pressing their shoulders together. If he’s alright, he’ll lean into him, or at the very least, tolerate it. His presence is strong, enough to coax down his shields and that’ll be the end of it. But today, he scoots away from him too, another apology on his lips.
They exchange a look over Roman’s head.
No one banters quite like Remus and Janus, and sometimes that’s all it takes to pull him out of his head. Sometimes it’s an offer to go flounce around an abandoned castle, and there’s a small smile on his face as they leave.
Not today.
As a last resort, Janus reaches out and gently calls to him.
“My prince, are you alright?”
Sometimes it’s enough.
Not today.
“Alright,” Remus declares, getting up and clapping his hands, “time to pull out the big guns.”
Sometimes he’ll get up and walk with them, sometimes he won’t. He has carried him through the Mindscape before, but it was only once. And that was when he couldn’t actually move and they’d had a murmured conversation where he gave him permission to.
Today he gets up and follows them, confused as to what’s going on. They march him straight to a door and Remus knocks on it.
“Roman’s upset,” he says as soon as the door opens.
Virgil smiles and steps aside, letting him come in. Sometimes it’s a waiting game, sometimes Remus pushes him inside. But today, Roman bows his head and walks inside, letting Virgil close the door behind him.
Sometimes it’s a protest. Sometimes it’s a: ‘this really isn’t necessary,’ or a ‘do we have to do this?’ When that happens he indulges Roman, meets every quip with one of his own until he can knock Roman off-balance with well-placed sincerity and use his distraction to steer him to the bed.
Sometimes it’s an apology. It’s an: ‘I’m sure you’ve got other things to do, I can just go,’ and he shakes his head, tells Roman he’s more than happy to spend time with him. That no, he’s not being rude, that he all but asked for Roman to come. When that happens, he normally clams up, stays quiet, until he relents and gathers Roman up into a cuddle by the door.
Sometimes it’s silence. It’s a bowed head, curled up like a frightened animal, braced for punishment. It’s the moments where the gap between Light and Dark feels uncrossable. It’s the moments where the anger is disappointment, where the frustration is indifference, until he speaks first and murmurs that no, Roman’s not in trouble, he’s not here to lecture him, he’s hurt and he wants to help, as he takes Roman into his arms.
Every time it’s a fight.
It’s knowing that he can’t win because of course, he can’t win but this isn’t something he’s supposed to win but he can’t show weakness but he won’t have a choice because it’s the slow, patient kill that speaks of nothing but kindness and care but Virgil has enough to worry about and he doesn’t get to dump all of his problems on Virgil but he knows he wouldn’t do this if he didn’t care but he cares about everyone and Roman isn’t special but he knows that doesn’t matter and he needs this but it makes him want to rip all of his skin off and start over but then he’d get blood on his carpet and that wouldn’t be very polite either—
Virgil guides him to the couch with a hand on his back, sitting him down and bringing two cups of tea to the table. He cups Roman’s hand around one to gauge how warm it is and if his fingers grow too red, he sets it aside. He sits next to him and carefully reaches out.
Here she is, sitting right next to him, and yet he’s almost nowhere to be found.
He needs to relearn how to ask for comfort, for reassurance, for what he needs, but the wait hurts them both.
I’m trying, I’m trying, I promise, I’m sorry—
It’s alright, I’m right here, just ask, that’s all.
When he finally reaches out, Virgil snaps and bundles Roman into his arms. He tucks Roman up against his chest, letting him wind his arms as tightly as he needs to, guiding one leg, then the other, over his. Roman lets out a little whine as he tucks his face into the crook of his neck. He cards his fingers through Roman's hair and smiles as the poor prince melts into his arms.
The familiar protective instinct swells up and Virgil finds himself wanting very much to wrap him up in his hoodie and keep him safe from the universe.
He keeps his breathing even, hoping his heart doesn’t begin to race from the need to protect the Roman. This is for Roman, this is what he needs, to chase away the worries of the world and be safe.
Sometimes they fall asleep like that. Sometimes Roman needs to cry and he hushes him tenderly. Sometimes he seems convinced that if either of them lets go they’ll fly apart.
It doesn’t matter.
If he feels the safest with Virgil’s arms around him, his head on his chest, his heartbeat in his ear, the world could be on fire and he would not leave his side.
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koutarousangel · 3 years
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 faking it
includes : bokuto kōtarō, oikawa tōru, tsukishima kei
prompt : faking cramps / an injury just to see how they react
genre : fluuuuuuff
warnings : menstrual cramps mentioned
a/n : k i saw this tiktok of this girl pranking her boyfriend with cramps and he’s super sweet with it all and i just teared up at it and it hasn’t left my brain ngl.
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— whenever you were actually in pain, his primary instinct was always to make sure to make you feel as comfortable as possible in the situation that you were in.
— you wanted to play this little prank on him to see how quickly he’d react more than anything.
— kōtarō texted you as soon as he got out of training, telling you that he’d be coming home soon, and you purposefully didn’t reply to the text, just so you would make him worry more.
— in fact, as soon as he set foot in the house, he made a direct beeline to the bedroom, where you’d positioned yourself on the bed, covers pulled up to cover your whole body including your face, silently praying that you wouldn’t crumble and ruin the prank.
— “angel?” you could almost hear the pout in his voice as he spoke, but instead of replying, you let out a groan and shifted under the covers, bringing the performance home by slipping in a little whimper as well.
— you felt the covers being gently tugged down and you allowed it, looking up at your incredibly concerned boyfriend, “are you in pain? do you need anything?” he questioned, his voice softer than usual, “i can run you a bath or get you a heating pad? i can give you one of my sweaters to help you feel warmer ...”
— while he was listing the options, kōtarō had managed to find your hand and was rubbing soothing circles on your knuckles.
— you swore your heart melted at the concern written all over his face and you simply couldn’t keep the prank going because you just couldn’t keep worrying him without feeling even guiltier than you already did.
— as soon as you sat up in bed and looked at him guiltily, the worry on his face shifted into confusion, “i’m not really in pain kō, i was just pranking you.”
— the man let out a small huff of relief before he tackled you back down onto the bed, making you giggle as he nuzzled his face into your neck, “good, i don’t like seeing you in pain, even if it was a prank.”
— safe to say that his reaction to take care of you was somewhat instant.
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— you knew that tōru was dramatic over the smallest of things, and when it came to you, the drama increased tenfold. that, in turn, meant that you loved to mess with him just to get a rise out of him. 
— which was why you were in the kitchen, mentally rubbing your hands together and waiting for the opportune moment.
— as soon as you heard him open the bathroom door, the faint whistles floating through the hallway, you slammed the one of the kitchen cabinet doors and let out a short cry, resting your back against the counter and cradling your hand close to your chest, feigning pain.
— contrary to his usual calm footsteps, these were slightly rushed - not enough to make you think that he was going to knock over everything that stood in his way, but enough to make you worry that he would end up injuring himself.
— “sweetheart, what happened?” his question was instant, right out the gate as soon as he appeared in the kitchen doorway, almost letting out a sigh of relief to see that you were still standing and that it wasn’t what his mind had imagined it was ... which in retrospect had him thinking that he would need to take you to the emergency room.
— you explain what happened in a fake-pained voice, making sure to punctuate your words with a sob here and there. 
— this had tōru cooing softly, before he turned on his heel and hurried away, leaving you more than confused. had he caught on to the prank? was he just messing with you?
— just as more questioned popped up into your mind, your loving boyfriend re-appeared in the doorway, his eyes swimming with worry as he gently lifted you onto the kitchen counter and opened the first aid kit that he’d gotten from the bathroom.
— “give me your hand...” the concern in his voice made you feel ten times worse as you held out your un-injured hand to him, which in turn made him raise an eyebrow and flip over softly to inspect every inch, “maybe you bruised the bone, there should be a sort of soothing cream for that-”
— you let out a giggle at how adorable he was and how calm he was keeping himself, “baby i didn’t hurt myself, i’m just messing with you.”
— and that’s where the drama began. oikawa huffed and turned away from you, crossing his arms over his chest, more giggles erupted from you as you reached over and managed to slip your arms around his shoulders, pulling him to you and pressing a small kiss to his shoulder.
— “i’m glad i always have you to take care of me,” and as soon as you rested your chin on his shoulder and looked at him with a smile, you could feel the betrayal melt away, even though the pout still remained on his lips.
— “that was mean and i don’t like it when you’re mean,” he grumbled, before pressing a kiss to your forearm and squeezing your shin softly, glad that you weren’t actually hurt.
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— cool, calm and collected is how you would basically describe your boyfriend in any type of crisis. he just assesses the situation and sees how to go about it without making too big of a fuss.
— doing anything over the top wouldn’t really fluster him all that much, but you still wanted to mess with him without actually doing anything annoying.
— as soon as you saw him sitting in bed mindlessly scrolling through his phone, an idea came to you and you instantly got to work.
— your footsteps turned a bit sluggish as you walked to the bed, making sure to press one of your hands against your stomach to emphasise that you were in ‘pain’, knowing that even though your boyfriend was focused on whatever was going on on his phone, he was perceptive and picked up on the smallest of things.
— you crawled into bed next to him, shuffling under the covers to press your body against his before letting out a small whimper to catch his attention.
— instantly, kei’s hand came down from behind his head and he placed it on top of your head, gently beginning to rub at your scalp, knowing that it would soothe you and even though you weren’t really in pain, the action instantly softened you up and you almost forgot what you were doing.
— almost.
— another whimper slipped past your lips and you nuzzled your face into your boyfriend’s chest, murmuring an ‘it hurts’.
— at first he only hummed, continuing the motions of his fingers against your head, but as soon as he didn’t hear the sigh of relief you usually let out whenever he did it, the sound of kei’s phone being placed on the bedside table was audible.
— “did you take medication?” you shook your head and he sighed softly, “well, that would help for starters,” he chuckled softly before moving his hand from your hand to the small of your back, knowing that period pains usually also caused back pains, “you should drink some water, i can make you some food and then i’ll run you a warm bath if you want.”
— you swore your heart grew ten sizes at your boyfriend’s considerate words, eyes softening as you look up at him, “i love you,” you murmured up at him.
— this made confusion come to his face, before he nodded softly, “i love you too but ...” and in his perceptive nature, he realised what’d happened the moment he didn’t see the pained look on your face anymore, before he scoffed and shook his head a little, “i don’t like you making me think that you’re in pain, but we can still do all the stuff i suggested.”
— even though he seldom showed it, your boyfriend was a big softie, especially when it came to you and your wellbeing.
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