#“no i’m not afraid to disappear

[sickbromeo]

I Know the End by phoebe bridgers was ghost written by micheal wheeler himself

[girl-afraid1]

how do i live without cutting myself

[nefertiti-fooling-fellow]

LISTEN LISTEN, I know we’re all sad and disappointed at Mal’s reunion. BUT we need to talk about how this man did whatever he could to keep the memory of MC close to him when they were gone.

Lord Wesley of RIVERBEND????? Mal claiming to be from MC’s hometown?? People died, I am people.

Him telling stories about MC to his kids????????

Building the orphanage when MC disappeared because he needed a purpose?? And the one he picks is the one he wanted to achieve, WITH MC. (for my fellow Mal-romancers out there)

I know we were all expected a big, dramatic reunion, but I honestly think this one was pretty good too. I think the emotions we were hoping for was THERE, it was just subtler.

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

guys i’m flying out of the country tomorrow for the first time in almost 20 years and i’m lowkey freaking out a lil alskfhfdsgkjdhg

[cryingwclves]

hc + 💔 for a headcanon about a sad experience

what mostly gets him is when he thinks about his dad and the loneliness that he must have felt because people didn't understand him. to finley, he was the kind of dad that would do anything for anyone but no one would ever do so in return. they get sad thinking about the fact that they can now understand the isolation in believing things that other's don't. being ridiculed to a grand audience is an inherited thing.

[psychcpomps]

( dev patel, thirty-one, cis-man, he/him ) ☼ i know it’s a small town, but i run into HARIJ ‘HARI’ VASAV every time i go to THE STARDROP SALOON. it’s like they practically live there and not PELICAN TOWN for SIX MONTHS. it must be because they’re STUBBORN and GUARDED. come to think of it, that’s probably why they’re an MONSTER SLAYER too. but i did hear they want to FIND OUT WHO THEY ARE AGAIN, and sometimes they like to BOX. rumor has it they also like BOXING GLOVES, but dislike MOUTH GUARDS. what do you think? 

full name — harij vasav nickname(s) — hari name meaning — harij: the horizon. vasav: lord indra age — thirty-one date of birth — august 1st place of birth — stardew valley star sign — leo sun, aries moon, scorpio rising current location — stardew valley gender — cis-male ( allegedly ) pronouns — he/him sexual orientation — bisexual until proven gay religion — hindu / it’s complicated occupation — monster slayer  education level — medical school drop out  family — munjal vasav ( father ), kalyani vasav ( mother ), hayva vasav ( sister ), irshaan vasav ( brother ) finances — getting by  spoken languages — english, gujarati

inspos will come later heavy inspo from creed tho

tw: dsyfunctional family, brother struggles with mh issues, so does hari but it's very light in mentioning, mentions of violence in terms of boxing etc

when your dad is a world renowned neurosurgeon it’s a hard pedestal to fall from, especially if you feel like you haven’t been able to measure up. 

hari grew up as a shadow, at least, that’s what his dad called him when he would go to work with his father because him and his mother were fighting again and they couldn’t find child care. it seemed insane that a couple years later they would inevitably get back together again and have another child, and then one more. then,his father would have three shadows. 

where hayva was the golden child, and irshaan the forgotten black sheep, it left hari in a weird place in the family. the eldest son, but never the star. he’d parent his siblings, even if it felt like hayva had everything under control. she was, in many ways, a carbon copy of their father. 

where his dad was tough, his mother was warmth. they didn’t see each other very much considering most of his time was in his father’s house. they had moved out of the valley when hari was seven, but would visit sometimes since both parents had family still living there. 

hari lived his life constantly trying to catch the wave of adrenaline he felt whenever anyone would pick on him at the playground, by the time that hari was ten he learned how to use his fists instead of words. people weren’t always kind to irshaan who didn’t do well in school, and was shy, and hari was the protector and would do anything for his family. 

it seemed that the streak of doing anything for irshaan would follow them into their adulthood. by age seventeen irshaan had cut himself off from the family, aside from hari and was constantly on the move to wherever he found his happiness next. it made hari worry for him. 

when hari was fifteen he took up boxing as a way to let the anger out, his father and mother never understood why he was so angry all the time and he didn’t know how to tell them that it was the pressure that they put on him, plus the fact that he hardly saw either of them. their parents might have loved hari and his siblings but it sometimes felt like that love could only extend to what kind of glory they could show their friends and family. 

things would change about a year after hari’s first year of college. his dad’s hands started shaking, and it was a slow decline by then. hayva went into action, while irshaan ran away from the family, and hari? well, he started skipping classes to go to underground boxing leagues, he’d come home with a black eye and his mother didn’t understand where her boys went. 

once upon a time hari’s father had dreams of his eldest son taking over his practice, but hari couldn’t really do it anymore. the rest would fall on hayva who was already in school to take over for her father. she’d be written about in papers, often reminiscing on how much the medical field missed their dad but the legacy would continue with or without hari. 

hari doesn’t talk to his family much, but keeps in contact with irshaan who had previously been hiding out in stardew valley. their family has all but moved out aside from the small little house that they all lived in once, before his father’s fame kicked off, when things were much simpler. 

hari doesn’t really know where irshaan is right now, but he keeps in contact when he can. as for hari? he still boxes, but he damaged his hand in a bad fight and it hasn’t been the same since. he supposes that he and his dad have a few things in common now. 

he decided to take up monster slaying about six months ago.

some other things:

it's giving what do you do when you never lived up to what you were meant to do

its giving eldest boy that was also a parent to his siblings but not a very good one

he's very Sad but also just kind of like 'well fuck it this might as well as happen'

still boxes, but you know its not the same, he's in pain and refuses to get the help that he needs

probably gives lessons ??? idk in boxing / self defense / how to defend yourself

does odd jobs all around town for extra cash, probably picks up a few shifts here and there where he can

[chamomile-g-tea]

[inflicts my ocs with my mental illness] Jules/button has OCD !! good luck little bastard

[havntngs]

@nightreststarters

the music is blaring but he's just grateful that he was able to find a place that was just for the moment devoid of many people. he knew that he couldn't escape it, but he was able to find a couple of moments of peace from the crowd of people. he had never been good at most social interaction, or... people. he runs a hand through his hair leaning back against the wall, his legs are pulled up to his chest savouring the bit of shade that he could find as his free hand circles around the bottle of alcohol sitting next to him. he takes one of the joints tucked behind his ear and sticks it between his lips and lights it with his lighter before closing his eyes, head hitting the back of the wall. "i'm coveting this shaded spot but if you angle your body just right i'm sure you could feel the hint of the breeze,"

[innocentartery]

sorry this topic grates me a lot but imagine calling the most explicitly liberal character of all time a leftist or a republican 💀

[girl-afraid1]

i lwk miss the feeling of my arms hurting

[thecorpseinthisbed]

crying while saying goodbye to my husband (my facial hair) who is about to be sent to the trenches (im starting birth control) to fight for our country (my cyst-ridden ovaries)

[cryptidsdad]

I went driving with my mom (we did the whole circling the parking lot thing) & I was freaking out the entire time

[sherbetyy]

uhhhhh btw if i randomly disappear from this site forever/deactivate my account out of nowhere and don’t respond to messages, don’t think i’m dead (unless i am but i highly doubt that). it’s hard to explain but yeah it might happen eventually. unfortunately.

[cryingwclves]

open ! where: pub near broadcasting house !

sometimes they think what would happen if they grew up in the same vein as their brother. perhaps they would have a decent career, one that could get them a better place in london to live in, a place where they didn't have to worry about the underbelly of london and all of the corrupt people and politicians that wanted finley's head on a spike. it's hard to imagine how his brother goes to sleep at night. it must be nice, they think, in the end. finley is his father's child, the way that they take after him. believer in the things that people dared not to believe in. accused of being wrong so many times, but little do people know, even a broken clock is right twice a day. finley blythe wasn't an idiot, he had the degrees, and did well in school, they were just different. which made them dangerous. he had gone on the bbc, knowing that their name would be dragged through the mud, but they held their ground, laid the facts, and if the world didn't want to believe them? well, that was on them. finley would have the last laugh and say, i told you so. maeve's mum had their daughter for the night, and frankly, finley was going to get drunk, and if he was lucky, maybe he wouldn't go home alone. but mainly, he wanted a drink. a strong one. once he sits down at the bar, his head peers over to see what the person next to them is drinking and points at it and says, "i'll have that."

[secretlifeforfun]

i need the raven cycle show to be a thing so people on tik tok can make edits to i know the end by phoebe bridgers cause they will destroy me in a good way