#“thats a bold statement of you” AND PROUD

[kidrunaway]

I'm thinking about Simon and Markus very hard. How they hold each other so gracefully. How they took their time to trust one another. How Simon listens to Markus and cares about what he wants to do in his own way. How they stare at each other like "I want you but I can't have you." How Simon was so desperate to live but gave his life away to Markus and confessed his love in such a subtle way. How Markus looks so content around him. How Markus is the first one to pull him to a hug after Simon nods giving him approval, and how Markus concern shows on his face. How worried he is about Simon. The list goes on.

[aroaceascension]

ALRIGHT SO BOATSWAIN'S CALL HAS JUST GAVE ME THE CREEPS, BECAUSE I FELT LIKE PETER LUKAS, WHO THE STATEMENT GIVER WAS LIKE: I immediately clocked Peter Lukas because he was the one of the only white guys.

and that gave me the creeps, of how Peter Lukas could just be taking people away from their culture. But here, a DM I sent to a friend, red bold if what I added in afterward while putting my thoughts together :

WAIT HOLD THE FUCK UP, im on boatswain's call and peter is described as the only white guy in the ship ... oh my fucking god, does he, like take people away from their cultures because the statement giver has explicitly stated that? well there could also be like, you know other people who are traveling but still

one of the mates, who introduces himself as Tadeas Dahl has warm brown skin, and since the statement giver said that hey: most people who aren't native english speakers don't talk that much.and Tadeas Dahl speaks many languages and the one who is giving orders

what the fuck, this episode is actually making me uncomfortable of just, the lonely being quiet and how, I expect knocking on wood being a important thing and the statement giver says: it's unatrually quiet. and thats a superstition thats prominent because of european influence that spread to South America to a lot of people but still, knocking on wood is important to south america but there’s no noise. There’s no warding off evil, maybe because they knew they can’t wars it off WAIT OH THATS SUCH A MINDFUCK. me growing up in Peru and then hearing this statement as I now live in America for a couple of years is such: wow

Like L Sean but damned. Also wow statement giver but wow, also the info either the show or maybe the statement giver doesn’t know shit but Brazil doesn’t speak mostly Spanish, it speaks mostly Portuguese and also location off but yeah. The crew being loud after Sean died is such a mind fuck but hey: I’m proud of them. They banded together against a white man except the white man that is their captain who can’t make a profit/j. But Peter Lukas’s business man skills are in the negative, Elias is really using him, like I’m actually so happy because HE IS SUCH A OLD MONEY. THANK YOU ELIAS FOR USING HIM. Elias is twitchy, I want to curb stomp his ass

Jonny Sims, YOU BITCH. I KNOW YOU DIDNT INTENDED THIS, I KNOW I AM THE ONE WHO IS MAKING MYSELF AFRAID BECAUSE THE BRAZIL INFORMATION IS SO WRONG BUT FUCK WHY IS THIS EPISODE FUCKING ME UP

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[pikapikapikaachuu]

TRAIN TO BUSAN

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"Well it's finally, finally time to make up your mind

Hope you're ready, who knows what could happen in the night?"

(Itzy in. the.morning)

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"Resume " it read in bold.

You made a hand written resume. Do show what your worth of.

Proffesional summary, education, skills, work history it had.

" I figured you'd not need my personal details since you already have my phone and well you wouldn't be interested in volunteering so..."

"Full Time Doctor uh. " chan said rasing his eye brows at you. It would be a lie to say that the thought of you joining the gang didn't pass chan however he was worried if you were willing to.

You nodded.

"You know why we don't have a doctor?"

"No. But now you would. Thats what matters."

"Because we don't want unnecessary members. It's risky."

Your nervousness started increasing. But you didn't want to back out now.

"But what if someone gets severely injured? Isn't it common here?"

You said slamming your hands at his desk.

"The mafias these days don't intimidate people nowadays as the times are hard"

You rolled your eyes at how annoying the situation was turning into.

"yeah right. Your not the one who had a near to death experience because of anesthesia over dose."

You reminded him.

"You call it near death experience I call it vibe check from god and you're having it frequently". A voice said from behind you. You turned around to see the handsome man you now recognise as Lee know. You're eyes followed him around as he made his way besides chan. Still smiling in a flirtous way as he was still proud of his statement.

“That's ridiculous "you laughed.

After few awkward seconds you sighed releasing the breath you didn't know you were holding. And bent forward to turn the page over to point at the certain secret points you didn't want to do.

" Secret agent? "

You nodded looking away. Because as you knew from the movies it would be dangerous. Fun but dangerous.

"We already have those" Lee know said with a defending tone.

"Well everyone isnt gay. You ll need a female one too" you narrowed your eyes at him.

"Hey you..." Lee know started speaking in a low voice when chan interrupted him.

"cook too?" he asked reading the resume further.

"I- "

"Good for me then. " Lee know cut you while speaking.

"Y/N I ll discuss with the rest of the members and tell you are final decision. Thank you. "

"yeah okay"

You replied and walked out as fast as you could.

Skz pov

"You shouldn't have been this harsh."

"well we can't just straight up trust her and include her in the gang that's what our mafia rule is you have to pay the price for your actions."

"however if her actions are justified for our good we'll give her a prize"

"right of course"

A knock is heard and Changbin enters.

And chan immediately asks his opinion on the new found girl in the skz premises.

"it's too soon to judge but what's this"

He takes the resume from chan and looks through it

"wow I didn't expect this. She's willing too"

"right but which task to give her to prove herself with trust and skills?"

"I have the perfect one hyung. I actually came to talk to you guys about it."

" The nct boys are throwing a party this is the perfect opportunity to break in"

All the three boys smiled at each other knowingly. "Let's get ready then" announced chan to which both of them walked out while chan texted the group to gather around.

~~~~~

You come out the bathroom while drying your hair body covered with a robe. Your eyes still on the window as you make your way to the bed when you stop in your steps. You see a black blurry bag from the corner of your eye and whip your head in that direction. It was left on the rank near to the door.

" Did someone come? When? "

You pulled the bag and turned it upside down instantly causing the contents inside fall out making clicking sounds.

A black dress slips down from the rank making a bundle at your feet. You bend over to pick it up and feel the expensive material in between your fingers. The clicking sound came from the black gem jewellery set now fallen on the glass rank. Shining more brightly due to its own reflection in the glass. You rush to stand in front of the mirror holding the dress as close as you can to yourself imagining how good you ll look.

Did jeongin give this?

You lay the dress on your bed carefully not to wrinkle it. Moving your hand throughly in the inside of the bag to see if you've missed anything and you were right when you feel a card and you pull it out.

"Wear this instead. Come out at 5 :)"

Chan?

You immediately recall the conversation you shared early the same day. It was him.

"But isn't this for like a party? A dinner date?" you blush at the thought but heaviness quickly takes over your heart. How dangerous was going on a date with the mafia boss was? Should you confront him about it. But were you in that position. " He wouldn't do anything bad right. I mean I've known him enough in college. He never liked me either. But he's a mafia now."

You were in a tough dilemma but you ended up deciding to go with the flow. Because the moment you stepped in this house well not willing but you knew your in danger. The silly thing being that the one who brought you in danger were the ones who could save you too.

"let's just get ready first yeah"

With dress hugging your curves exactly you step out of the room taking deep breaths and praying everything ll turn out well.

But will it?

𝗦𝘆𝗻𝗼𝗽𝗼𝘀𝗶𝘀: All you wanted was a vacation even if it was for a few days. When you get a leave from the hospital you think lucks on your side but what happens when life has other plans for you which includes jumping in the sea and get taken away by 8 good looking guys- of a MAFIA GANG all in just a night ?

A/N: the entire plot is ready but I just can't write it.😵🤕it's really frustrating but I ll try to update twice a week now😤thanks for reading goldies 💕 Also the pairing isn't fixed yet so recommend your choice okay?

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[hanii-rose]

hiii...ok so your headcanons are amazing and ily. could i request headcanons on garou with a s/o with thick thighs. i'm super insecure of my thighs because i don't have a thigh gap and it's super embarrassing

My headcanons are amazing? You love me? I-

Here you go baby( ˘ ³˘)♥

Also, no need to be embarrassed. I also don't have thigh gaps which really helps when I feel like crushing the heads of my enemies between my thighs...

We strong ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ

And so is the sexual tension in dis fic lol

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Garou With An S/O Who Has Thick Thighs

If you think having thick thighs in this relationship is a drawback then you are absolutely correct.

When I say it's a drawback, I don't mean it's ugly or unwanted, no no no.

I mean Garou will drive you mad for a chance to put his head on your lap, all day, everyday!

And when I say he wants to put his head on your lap, I mean he wants to bury his face in the soft, supple flesh of your thighs.

Just let him live there, c'mon!

You can bet your non-existant thigh gaps that he's kissing and biting you there, very harshly might I add.

He's always telling you, "Gah, it's so soft!" or "Fuck, I want this here!"

If you're just sitting on the couch and he's stealing meat from your fridge, he'll notice what you're wearing and if it's even slightly exposed above the knee, he's there. Like, HE. IS. THERE.

Meat long forgotten, your thighs are his new meal lol.

Let's say you're just coming out of the shower, towel wrapped securely around your gorgeous frame. He's pouncing on you, specifically getting handsy with your thighs and calves.

He likes natural looks so cellulite doesn't bother him. In fact, he's poking and caressing them fairly often.

If you're talking bad about yourself then he's slamming that shit down and showing you how much he loves you. Like really showing you...

If you wear something like thigh-highs, gurl- He'll be taking them off with his teeth, thank you.

★★★

You sit curled up on your window seat, the soft light of the sun shimmering in through the transparent glass of your window. Your hair fell daintily around your shoulders, arms resting on folded knees, novel in hand, dressed in nothing but a loose shirt and a pair of sheer white, lace-wrapped thigh high socks. Oh, the serenity that's surrounding you right now, indescribable.

Your boyfriend concentrated on doing push-ups outside in your backyard. You could see him from the corner of your eye behind you, pushing himself up and down, an extraordinary array of large rocks or maybe...boulders on his back....?

You tore your eyes away from the worn, coffee stained pages of your vintage fantasy novel, intrigued in the way he worked on himself. Taut muscles contracting and loosening, glistening beads of sweat slowly gliding down his bare, shaped biceps. Hair tussled and messier than usual, a few rebel strands falling onto his forehead from his otherwise proud-spiky style. His face, dark, focused and handsome... oh my

Whenever Garou worked out, he really worked out.

Nothing could distract him from his daily routine of exercising, flexing and unintentional teasing. He was hell bent on being fit and able. He used to be the infamous Hero Hunter ya'know! He has to be sharp and ready at all times.

Can't be caught off guard like that one time while delivering boxes. That dude had no chill, throwing darts at him like that...

You bit your lip in admiration of his movements, your thighs coming together, unable to contain your excitement for a touch from him. He noticed you shyly peeking from the other side of your bay window and he silently beckoned you over, tilting his head to gesture for you to come around.

You gave a little nod to his beckoning, placing your book neatly on the tall bookshelf next to you and dusting yourself off, readying yourself to see him.

When Garou had come to visit you this morning you had been wearing one of his trousers, knowing him, if he saw even a tiny section of your thighs, the man would go absolutely feral. But since he had went outside for a 3 hour work out earlier, you decided pants were too overrated for you and you easily discarded them, got comfortable and started reading.

Garou was very serious about his workouts. He would never stop, not for anything...

Except maybe you. And thats when you had a stroke of genius. He was teasing you all this time, flexing and sweating. Time for a little payback.

>>

You peeked around the doorframe that led to your backyard where Garou stayed, exercising.

"Well, aren't you working hard?"

You slyly spoke, smile coy.

Garou grunted in response and you sighed, slowly walking around to him, hips deliciously swaying, shirt hiked up above your thighs and socks visibly tight around your ample flesh.

You stood bold in front of his head as he pushed himself up. His eyes widening at your apparel. What are you doing?

You licked your lips teasingly, and lowered yourself down onto the grass, knees folded, sitting upright.

Garou stopped momentarily, craning his neck for a kiss and you gladly obliged, leaning in and leaving a chaste kiss on his lips.

"Finally took...my advice, huh...?"

He said in between breaths.

"Who... needs pants...right? Heh..."

He lowered down slowly and you copied, your head resting on your arms on the ground, fingers playing with the little blades of grass, butt in the air

"Mmm, it just feels so good outside."

He grunted, agreeing.

Your eyes trailed up to his face and you cast him an innocent smile.

You slowly raised yourself up in front of him, pushing up your hair and sitting straight, knees folded in a 'W' position.

"What...are you...tryna' do?'

He breathed out.

"Hm? Nothing, I just wanted to come outside and spend time with you..."

You responded in the sweetest tone.

Oh please. He knows what game you're playin'.

Comin' out in nothin' but a shirt and socks? Sweetie, ya' can't take him for a fool...

He ain't stoppin' for you.

"Funny... you've never been... into fitness that...much..."

He slowly spoke.

"Oh, well I just wanted to be closer to you. Is that such a crime?"

He snorted. You wanted to be closer to him? Why not just lay down under him and wrap your gorgeous legs around him then? Let him feel the plumpness.

"Don't you want to be with me too? Why don't you stop what you're doing and come here."

Your innocent voice matched with your sultry expression did a number on him. He bit his lip, trying to resist the temptation.

You outstretched your arms, fingers opening and closing, waiting for a hug.

"Nice try, I ain't stoppin' love."

You chuckled and got into position.

"Not even for this?"

You unfolded your knees, sitting so close in front of his face, that every time he'd go down for a push, his cheek or chin would brush against your thigh.

Tantalising,tempting...

You leaned back on your elbows, your hair now spilling onto the grassy mat under you.

Garou licked his lips, golden eyes flicking up to look into your innocently coy ones.

He lowered himself down once, his chin lightly coming into contact with the lace of your frilly socks.

Raising himself up, he looked at you with irritation, behind that expression lingered want.

Going back down again, your knee bent slightly inwards and gently touched his cheek. He took a whiff.

C I T R U S

Delicious.

Coming back up, he balanced his whole body weight on one arm, an impressive feat with all of those massive rocks on his back.

"𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕀 𝕔𝕒𝕟'𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕝𝕖 𝕞𝕪𝕤𝕖𝕝𝕗 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕤𝕠𝕗𝕥 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝕝𝕖𝕘𝕤 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕞𝕖."

You slyly laughed, his statement so shamelessly flattering.

"Yes, I do know that, Garou..."

His movements stopped momentarily as his free hand softly caressed the exposed part of your thigh, between the hem of your shirt and the frills of your socks.

"𝕊𝕠 𝕤𝕠𝕗𝕥..."

"Hmm, do you like it like this?"

He chuckled, raspy and short of breath.

"𝕀 𝕒𝕕𝕠𝕣𝕖 𝕚𝕥."

He was struggling, it was obvious. He wasn't trying to hide it anyway. He couldn't if he wanted to.

Dammit, yer' too good!

And in 3 2 1...

The rocks start slipping off of his back, landing on the ground with hard, muffled thuds. Oh, you've really done it now...

Garou sits up, stretching. He grips both of your calves hard and pulls, bringing you onto his thighs, holding you in place.

No squirmin', just sit still...

"Do you have any idea what you've done...?"

You wrap your arms around his neck, holding his face close to yours.

"What if I do?"

His lips came mere centimetres from yours and he whispered roguishly.

"You've made me drop my rocks..."

Silence overtook you until you burst out laughing. What does that even mean?!?!

"Wha... Garou haha, what are you even saying?"

He growled menacingly. How dare you? First you tease him into being distracted and now you make fun of him?

Ohhh, yer' in for a good one...

"Listen here sweetie, we're gonna head on inside, and I'm goin' to finish you, do ya' hear me?"

You nodded, obligingly.

"Yes, sweetie ♡"

He stood up tall, carrying you by the strong grip he had on your plump thighs.

"So beautiful. I'm gonna bite em'..."

You giggled softly, and held onto him tightly.

You knew what was coming next, craving it. And you'll give it to him too.

Ah, there we go...

Garou's setting you down onto your window seat again and looking softly into your eyes.

"Are ya' ready? We're gonna go for a long time today."

You shyly nodded, confirming.

He sat himself down on the ground near your legs, getting into the correct position. His head coming down to rest upon your thighs, your frilly socks tickling his face, breathing calm.

And then, he's baring his teeth, biting and sucking on your ample skin. He's pulling your thigh-highs down inch by inch, kissing.

"Oh, Garou!"

He's smirking victoriously.

"Let's begin, shall we?"

It's safe to assume he got a different kind of workout that day. The one where he's goin' up and down on you nonstop, if you know what I mean (ಠ ͜ʖ ಠ)

[nightswithkookmin]

Hii, me again. 😅

Jungkook made a three syllable poem with "min yoongi" name. At the last name of "Gi" He made yoonmin. Is he try to expose that yoonmin is a thing/ or real??

Ahjumma.... why are you being like this?

What did I do to deserve this ghettory?😟 It's too early in the year to be this ghetto uno.

Don't be like that😒

You are asking me, Goldy- GOLDY of all shippers, if I think JEON JUNGKOOK is confirming his boyfriend of seven years and counting is in a relationship with another member within the same group...

Doing what exactly in that relationship??

Is JK cockholding? What's going on.

KWENCHANAYO?!

You think BTS will survive two members dating the same guy in the same group???

Never mind that it's Jeon Jungkook and Park freaking Jimin- Mr I'm greedy and Mr I don't share my friends.

Like make it make sense to me please😭

After everything we've been said on my blogs for months now, you still asking me this??

You are bold, I'll give you that.

Now tell me slowly and in coherent words why I shouldn't pull your hair and give you three quick punches to your throat- ninja style👀

Someone get her before I snap their neck💀

For the last time-

NEITHER 🤺OF🤺JIKOOK🤺 IS 🤺 WAS🤺 HAS🤺 HAD🤺 PURPORTS TO HAVE🤺 WOULD HAVE HAD🤺 COULD HAD HAD🤺 HAD HAD HAD🤺IS HAVING 🤺 ANY 🤺ROMANTIC🤺 FEELINGS🤺WHATSOEVER 🤺 DESIRE🤺CRAVING🤺 WET DREAMS🤺 YEARNING🤺 PASSION🤺ATTRACTION🤺 AMOROUS 🤺INTENT🤺TOWARDS🤺 ANY🤺🤺MEMBER🤺 IN🤺 BTS🤺BESIDES🤺 EACH🤺 OTHER🤺

GET🤺 OUT 🤺OF🤺 YOUR🤺 IMAGINATION🤺

If you are new to the shipping community I suggest you familiarize yourself with every ships dynamics or at least Jikooks- if multishipping isn't exactly your thing.

Jikook's entire dynamics is founded on JK teasing JM to death. It's their thing.

He's said he enjoys teasing Jimin because he loves Jimin's reaction to when he's being teased. In fact, the entire group have said same about Jimin.

Did you see JM's reaction to when JK called out the Yoonmin comment in the dynamite reaction VLive?

Did you see RMs reaction too?

He is trying Jimin with these Yoonmin jokes. He's gonna get stabbed. Lmho.

Jimin reacts strongly to when JK in particular teases him with ships, Yoonmin more recently. Yet he didn't seem to mind when V did it.

V used to be the biggest Yoonminer on the planet rooting for and encouraging certain interactions between Yoonmin. Lmho.

Jimin himself perpetuates Yoonmin as a ship.

It would be an insult on his intelligence for anyone to assume he didn't know exactly why people ship two people together or what interactions and moments is considered a moment in shipping sphere.

Statements like, why can't Suga hyung look me in the eye, why does he say I'm irreplaceable to him, insinuates something and he knows this.

Once upon a time, JK couldn't look you in the eyes too. Still can't sometimes.

Jimin has a presence and he has a hold on these men and he knows it.

He goes out of his way to create the impression he and Suga have a very close bond and dynamic- I'm sold on it. Lol.

'5 Jms? As expected. You'll fall in love with them' not sure if JM said the last bit in the BE.TS Vlive, yall check for me.

It's crazy then that he turns around to react the way he does when JK teases him with his ship with Suga.

It seems to me, Jimin knows the intent and energy behind such seemingly harmless jokes- JK can be petty and passive aggressive with these things. You'd think he is joking but deep down he would be pouting and throwing tantrums behind cams🤧

It's Jimin apologizing and looking like his spirit left his body as he sat on the edge of JK's bed in the new Jersey VLive for me.

He needs to free Jimin.

Talk of things I'm getting too old for- Let's talk about why he posted his version of the bridge in disease online🤧

Not to say he shouldn't have posted it. I support that he did wholeheartedly. Deadass found his groove since he started unbuttoning the front of his shirts in 2020.

He's reclaiming the spotlight, putting himself at the forefront unlike before where he'd resigned himself to a supportive role watching his hyungs be at the center of things.

Now he's been talking about that he wants have sexy dance performances like Jimin, write rap melodies for RM, share his own music, try on a solo career one day- we get it. You found yourself Mr I'm independent asserting myself yall better fuxk off but chilee not at the expense of Jimin! 🤺

I mean it's a broad spotlight and they both can share it but damn is someone changing drastically. Not sure if I should be proud or terrified.

It's great and amazing and I'm really truly happy with where he's at mentally and physically since 2020- it's a great sign, don't get me wrong. Significant improvement. His becoming is long over due but he didn't have to grab the spotlight from Jimin like that.

Jk vs JM isn't something I'm a fan of.

It's a shame it didn't work out? What do you mean JK. I'm sorry but Jimin's version is amazing too!😟

What the actual hell JK😭

Back it up. This is not how to Jikook🤺

On guard sir🤺 on guard🤺

Dude did Jimin dirty🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧

I need a refund😭😭😭😭

Here I was waiting for y'all to get on your Jikook agenda and post that first Jikook selca of the year and you are there shipping Jimin with your bandmate and thiefing his shine. Who taught you that?!😥

Y'all are competitive but y'all don't compete with eachother's shine! JIKOOK 101😭😭😭

You share it😥

Show me where in the books this new development falls under. Show me

You winging it and it's unconstitutional😟

I rebuke it in Jesus name!

Someone beam me up.

You got these 13 year olds coming in my DMs telling me you are not supportive of your man's career.

I don't have time for this shit.

SOMEONE BEAM ME UP! Kirk!

If you've watched their Be behind video, and you've seen Jin talk about how RM complained to him when Tae chose Suga's version over his version you'd know where JK is coming from or where I think he is coming from having JMs version chosen over his.

Watch their Be self interview on yt too.

He said there's a melody he worked on for RM and when Jhope thought he got snubbed he recommended he release it instead- to quench his artistic drive perhaps.

That is why he released this song. He did it for himself. Like he said, he won't put out a song unless he was confident about it.

Suga have said time and again how the music and melodies they create never go to waste because they can repurpose it like he did with Telepathy I think.

Even JK explained he was reserving the melody he made for RM for a future group song.

He could have repurposed this or something.

When Jin talked about V vs JM's Christmas song and kept repeating how much he preferred Jimin's song to Tae's because Jimin"s was bright and upbeat, he made sure to clarify he wasn't implying Tae's song was bad. He was just indicating preference.

I won't lie, I was happy he preferred my bias's song but it made my VMin heart ache a little.

V and JM made very different songs, they shouldn't be compared to eachother in that way.

I don't like competitions. And I don't like when two artists are pit against eachother- which is exactly what these two versions of the bridge is doing out here.

I will literally die if in an interview JM is asked about his part and JK isn't. I can't do this😭

Those saying JM's is better make me sick, and those saying JK's is better make me nauseous. They both great. Point blank purr.

What's even more heartbreaking is hearing how excited he really was to share that bit with Army. Dude's eyes was glistening and everything. His bunny smile! 😥

Thats what makes this very hard for me.

The JJK in me is overjoyed and excited that he is doing things that make him really happy. I'm proud of him.

But the PJM in me just😕

I even feel more guilty that I prefer JM's version this time around😭😭😭😭

I feel like I'm betraying JK🤧

I was so happy seeing JM recieve all the love and attention I know he deserves.

Then here comes his boyfriend

'Hold up what about me!' Lol.

Imagine if RM releases the version of Blue and grey he made for Tae and it turns out we prefer that to the version Tae chose💀

Imagine that.

This has been a recurring theme throughout late 2020 to date. Jk's been choosing authenticity and self interests and passions over anything else and I couldn't be more happy for him.

Like we discussed, he's been learning to compromise too lately, which is great.

But honey this is a red flag. Deadass.

To me anyways😏

I've been a strong advocate for a certain level of independence and detachment in Jikook's dynamics because they lowkey exhibited codependency tendencies in their dynamics which is great for us shippers but not so great in the long run for their relationship or them as individuals .

Maybe I'm thinking out loud and prematurely here. I mean we are only beginning to have intimate access to their raw unscripted selves.

I don't think it's not that much of a big deal. RM and JM have equally shared their own versions of fake love on the internet but it is an interesting development in their dynamic to me.

I remember how happy JM was about his version of fake love, and it remains to date one of my favorite beats even though he was just spewing nonsense on that track. Lol.

He was so excited when he shared it with JK and Jin. He said when he showed it to JK the first time, JK said he loved it very much- how loving and supportive is that!

More of this please. Thank you.

PMS is a bitch y'all🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

Has me in my feels about this.

I'm pretty sure JM is the one that even encouraged him to share his part in the first place. Won't put it past him.

'Ya Jungkook, release your version too'

'Army will love it'

'Right but I don't want it to seem like- Goldy is crazy you know'

'Goldy who now?'

'What about the thirteen year old fans-'

'Aht aht aht Who cares about them.'

Lmho.

I mentioned a few times on here how I felt JM seemed to have been demanding 'space' and a little bit of breathing room in their dynamic which was causing a little bit of tension here and there middle 2019 through to March last year and it all sounds like drama and speculation but...

May be if I told y'all I am a witch and my analysis of their relationship is based on mediums, phantom whisperers, empathetic readings or tarot cards y'all will leave me alone?🤥

Y'all don't seem to have a problem with the witches and empaths who be doing the same shit I do out here😒

Like we are all 'reading' these mens!

There's nothing wrong with 'psychoanalytically' evaluating a ship you know? Chilee.

Imma call myself a witch if it will get y'all off my back😹😹😹😹

I mentioned JK equally embarking on his own journey to assert himself within the group and within the relationship due to this?

But damn I did not see this one coming.

This is a red flag for me. And no, it doesn't mean they are broken up or having issues in their relationship.

Jk's TMI indicates they still been spending a lot of time together.

This is just a sign there's too much independence in their dynamic now- if you know what I mean.

Relationships flourish based on how attached we are to people- too much attachment is a problem, too little attachment is equally bad.

Jikook have always had a problem with over attachment in their dynamics in my opinion, to the point it was lowkey unhealthy- the jealousy, not being able to 'act professionally' within a group and work environment, having problems with being separated however briefly, constantly wanting to be where the other is etc.

Less attachment isnt necessarily a bad thing either. It means less of all the 'toxic' aspects of their relationship that over attachment brings but too much of that too can trigger anxiousness and insecurity and resentment.

Especially if one of them hates change. Cough Jimin.

With that comes all the wild aspects of love such as possessiveness, jealousy and I know JM doesn't do too well in that department...

In my opinion, I see JM as having a problem when JK breathes down his neck emotionally speaking, and at the same time he has a problem when he is too emotionally distant.

All this is interesting to me.

Who do I need to talk to to give me more of Jikook interactions individually or jointly?

I want to see more of their interactions beyond the overly staged, dramatized fanservice and official content.

Spending a lot of time around eachother and eating each other's ramen- pun intended, does not reflect on how intimate you are.

Intimacy requires depth and depth requires attachment.

How you treat eachother's needs and goals, dreams and desires is equally indicative of the intimacy in your relationship.

That has always been one distinctive quality of Jikook's ship.

And so I wonder the thought process that went into this decision. I know JM wouldn't object to JK sharing things like these or doing things that make him happy even if it has the potential to impact his own shine in any way.

Jikook don't compete against eachother.

I keep saying this.

Remember when I said I found it sus that JK was lying there staring at JM with his hands in between his legs?

Did yall see what the run editors said when JM and JK went up against each in the pool?

'Jikook don't play by the rules'

Jimin had to push JK in the water to end whatever ancient sex ritual foreplay rooted in kamasutra they had going on. Bless him.

And in so doing, he lost to JK.

Whenever they go up against eachother, one of them intentionally lose even though they are both very competitive.

Isn't that why JK said he'd rather 5 Jms so he can watch them compete against eachother?

When JK first made that post, I felt it was out of pettiness or a move to 'humble' JM.

I thought of when he'd posted that photo of himself with a hickey after JM had 'dated' him during the JinMinKook live.

I rolled my eyes and asked, 'what yall gays up to this time?' Why you out here humbling your man?

Anywho chilee we will never know.

At ease.

Signed,

GOLDY

[softxhariana]

34+35 live stream

description: ariana’s live stream before debut of 34+35 remix music video.

word count: 2.22k

A/N: little piece based off this live stream that ariana did in the countdown to her releasing the 34+35 remix music video with doja and megan. obvs not included every question but just a few fun bits and harry mentions for you x

also disclaimer, this is NOT real, if u don't wanna read about these two then don't, i’m not tryna act like they’re together it is fiction.

❤ anywayz hope u enjoy luvs xox

❖   "HELLO EVERYONE! thank u for coming to this premier,” ariana smiled sweetly at the camera, as the video cut to a shot of her for the beginning of the countdown.

“we had so much fun making this 34+35 remix video for you, and uhh, we hope you love it.” she continued, playing with her hair. no matter how long she did this for she swore she would never cease to get slightly nervous in these situations. where it was her alone, in front of a camera. but her fans made her feel at ease, and she felt she owed them something, as she hadn’t done many quarantine interviews like other celebs have.

“i thought i would come celebrate and join the countdown with you guys. which is something that I've never done before, but i’m very happy to be here and i was very excited to get some questions from you all...” she held up the sheets of twitter questions she had received, “um that i’m gonna be answering while i’m here so, i cant wait to celebrate this together and countdown and answer some of your questions!” she finished with a smile.

and it was genuine. a real smile that her fans were thrilled to see.

ariana was genuinely so happy and content with her life right now. with her family, her music, her friends, harry. harry her FIANCE!! might she add.

everything just felt perfect, and after all the shit the last couple years had thrown her way, she appreciated the break.

 she got her love back, she was making music that she fully loved, and put her whole soul into, and she had fans who had stuck with her and supported her through some of the darkest times in her life, that were now able to experience her happiness and personal growth with her. so truly, little things like this, felt like the least she could do for them.

“ohh this is a good one because its 34 35 related” she tucked her hair behind her ears, “@noirgrande said ‘ummm its just i wanna the end of 34+35 is it awww shit or nooo shit, i just wanna sing the song right”

“umm it is indeed no shit” she confirmed, smiling matter of factly at the camera before reciting the closing line of the song.

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“@arianalocks1223 said ‘will we get to see the track list before the songs release?’” she paused for a second to process - which turned into a few more seconds, she was a bit slow today. she had told harry with full sincerity that she thought it was because she was getting old but he had just cracked up at her absurd statement, and told her that if that was the case he’d still think she was a milf

“you will!” she nodded with certainty, “indeed. ummm... i can tell you them now” she blurted, oops.

“i suppose thats not like... is that against the rules? can i do that?” she turned, to question scooter who was supervising off camera, not wanting to get her label mad at her for releasing too much information, something she has a tendency to do. 

after getting the nod of reassurance from him she turned back to the camera, “so out of ‘POV’, you go into, um, an interlude called ‘someone like u’. after that is a song called ‘test drive’, after that is the 34/35 remix with doja and meg” she smiles lightly, “and after that is a song called ‘worst behaviour’, and after worst behaviour is... a song called ‘main thing’...” she finishes, a shy smirk forming on her face, dimples appearing, “so that’s the tracks.” 

continuing with the countdown, ariana felt her heart warm at the love her fans were giving her and this album. she loved interacting with them and making them happy and proud of her so knowing she had done just that, was an amazing feeling.

“umm hesbloodsline... @hesbloodsline ... i’m really fond of this question because its really to the point, ‘where's the pig and where the fuck is harry?’” she smiled, holding in a laugh.

“piggy’s here, she's great, she's really doing so well and life is really good for her right now, she's really thriving and doing her thing” she ranted, a hint of sarcasm in her voice, “um, i make her big salads everyday that she likes, she's doing really great. she asked me to stop posting her as much because she's actually really offended by a lot of your jokes that you make on twitter, she asked me to have a word with you guys” she continued to joke, well aware that she probably found herself more funny than anyone else did right now.

“she doesn't like the jokes about being eaten, they really hurt her, umm yeh, and she asked me to convey that... no she’s great...” she finally decided to answer, “and harry, is on set today, so um, yeh thats where he is... but don't worry i will tell him to keep you in the loop, i’ve got you” 

ariana unconsciously let a small smile take over her glossed lips when talking about harry. he had been so excited about this new project and seeing him passionate and happy about anything he’s doing, always made her happiest.

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“nicole! @nastyctrl. nicole said ‘who helped come up with the concept for the positions music video, love u sm ari’ love you so much to, i love you so much more” she paused, she loved this story,

“um this is actually a really funny story, dave and i had been going back and forth on several different concepts, and i couldn't, like... marry one... i couldn't really, like, really commit to one, i wasn't 100% sold. and it was missing a certain element of empowerment. and i kept, you know, trying to think of things that would make it more impactful cause i wasn't loving what we had...”

“anddd then me and harry were on this huge hike, and he just turned to me and was like, ‘what if you were the president?’ which was like, not at all fitting cause i was dying and complaining the whole time. but i was like,” she tried to imitate a shocked face through her smile and laughed 

“and when i called dave he was like ‘oh... kay, ill call you guys back’ and had the whole production team redo everything, and i had mimi pull completely different outfits and we completely started over cause that idea was what i was, craving and missing. and i was like, wow, thats so perfect” she smiled, shrugging her shoulders, “so yeh, honorary directing credit to harry styles, if you liked that”

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“this is from @borderlinevinyl, who said ‘how much of the album was recorded at your little home studio?’ ummm..” she sang, looking off camera in thought, everything in quarantine had honestly just blurred into one so she was struggling to remember what exactly she recorded where,

“um... a lot of it was... i think i did parts of everything here and parts of things at tommy's i know i did, um, the final chorus ad-libs for positions at home” she began listing in her head, “i know i did all of off the table at home... i know i did the final chorus of my hair at home because we- i-” oops. she had to control the laugh threatening to leave her lips at the lack of subtlety in her correction

“-i got out of the shower and he was like ‘oh your whistles are really here right now’, and i was like y’know what... yeahh they are aren’t they” she laughed as she squinted her eyes and recited that part of the conversation, even trying to imitate his deeper accent.

she had been singing in the shower - as she always did - and harry joining her never seemed to stop her from belting out any whitney or old one direction classic she wanted to. he would even join in sometimes and they'd end up with their own mini concert, dancing around naked, shampoo and conditioner bottles in hand singing their hearts out to everything from high school musical to nicki minaj to fleetwood mac.

while it felt like too bold of statement to make as she truly revelled in and enjoyed everything they did together, showering with him was truly one of her favourite’s. whether it was steamy shower sex that had all glass surfaces in the room fogging up or letting loose and dancing and singing under the pouring water, every moment felt so intimate and sacred. it truly made her feel like they were they only people in the world. 

of course he would claim she was out singing him every time she whistled and would jokingly try to replicate the note but he was truly just in awe off the sounds that came from her mouth (in all senses of the word;)

"-and so i opened ‘my hair’ and just randomly did that” she continued, “um what else did i do here, i did the a lot of the backgrounds and ad-libs for 34+35 here, um, obvious was done at home, a lot of six-thirty was done at home”

caught in her own thoughts she only realised she had probably been droning on for too long when she caught scooters eye across the room and with a blush she shook her head as if to clear it, “this is an annoying answer, everything was kind of all over the place but i did a lot, a lot, a lot of the vocals for the album at the house" she finally finished the long answer, moving on quickly as she realised she didn't have long until the premiere and she wanted to answer as many of the questions as possible.

“ok, second last question from hannah, ever- @everdxystxless, im sorry i don't know how to pronounce that” she laughs looking up at the camera with wide eyes, not sure how exactly how she was supposed to go about pronouncing the username, 

“im sorry, um, but anyway she say’s ‘ari baby, how do you feel about harry getting to do a movie with florence pugh, we know your a big fan of hers, ps. i love you so much!’ well hannah, i love you too” she replies, as she thinks back to when harry first introduced the two, after she had gotten over the initial fangirling, the pair became amazing friends. florence struck ariana as such a genuine, loving person and they shared the same dry sense of humour. plus ariana might of been just a little obsessed with her accent - not that she would ever admit that and scare the girl off.

“and... um, yeah, it literally, made me beyond happy, i was fully like, fangirling when i met her the first time” she laughs as she plays with her hair, “she honestly, probably was like, ‘who the fuck is this girl? what is she doing?’”ariana imitated, a faux scared/weirded out look on her face, playing the part of a mildly pissed off florence - which she luckily had never been on the receiving end of, “im sure i was being the opposite of subtle about it but, no, she really truly is the sweetest, kindest, most beautiful, talented human being” she emphasises, the thought of any news outlets of fan’s trying to spin a ‘jealousy’ story about this making her internally role her eyes,

“midsommar is, like, one of my all time favourite movies, and she's amazing in it, and harry’s like so fucking lucky its crazy. so yeah, thats insane”

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"...so yeah... thank you so much! this was so much fun!” ariana exclaimed as she wrapped up the Q&A, smiling wide at the camera, she knew her fans were going to love the music video and she couldn't wait for them to watch it, plus interacting with them in this way always made her happy.

“i love you guys, i miss you” she reminded, “i am so appreciative of everything you've done for this album, for these singles, for this music. i hope that, um, that this makes you super happy, i hope it makes you smile...we had so much fun shooting it and um, the girls are so fantastic, so i hope you love this and i hope you love the deluxe!” 

ariana didn't know how many more ways she could say thank you and express her gratitude but she still had over a minute and a half so she’d have to come up with something, even if it meant she’d sound like a broken record

“i am so thankful for everything and for the love that you've shown this music i cant even begin to articulate it properly so, thank you! i appreciate it so much” she breathed out all in one, “but anyway, the video should be starting soon, so... i hope you like it, don't refresh! it’ll be here soon... i promise... just don't refresh” she urged dramatically, she was really dragging this out, “but yeh” she got out through laughs “the video should be starting anytime now, i love you guys” she blew a kiss to the camera before moving as close to the lens as possible “byee”.

🖤 there u go!! i hope you liked it, and any feedback would always always be welcomed and so so appreciated pls and thanku x 

[anythingandeverything1d]

Eye Contact

Harry’s POV:

“Hey!” The crowd goes crazy, everyone is screaming and the adrenaline is pumping through his veins. He finally walks out and people scream even louder, probably because of the Gucci suit. It’s a classic really, white and sparkly, the pants held up by suspenders. What a look, a statement, the only thing acceptable for a Harry Styles concert. “Golden, Golden, Golden”  Harry grabbed the mic stand and began singing, his eyes closing briefly while feeling the song. “As I open my eyes, hold it, focus, hoping” he opens his eyes and looks into the crowd with a smile. It always amazed him how many people support him and his music, how much they lifted him up, even on a bad day. He just wished he could stop and look at every single one of them while thanking them for everything they've done the past 10 years. “I know you were too bright for me, I’m hopeless, broken, so you wait for me in the sky, browns my skin just right.” He scanned the front row, looking at all the faces, mainly of girls of course, but there are always some outlying men screaming along with them and making Harry proud. He keep looking around while finishing up Golden, and his eyes caught on a girl. She’s pretty, no she's gorgeous, like the kind of gorgeous that makes you want to stop what you're doing and give her the entire world to make her happy. She finally looks up, her eyes locking on his for a brief moment. Harry smile and she looked down at her feet. Girls never look away. They never go back on a chance to have my attention. 

He finished the song and thanked everyone for coming, his eyes still scanning the row for the girl. She was sitting somewhere on the left side.....second or third row.....ah there she was. He felt like he was able to breathe again when he was looking into her eyes, something that never happened with a girl before. The next song was watermelon sugar, a fan favorite and one of Harry’s favorites as well, however all he could do was watch the girl “Tastes like strawberries, on a summer evening” where was she again, ah yep there. Something about her was exactly what he wanted. She was dancing along with her friends, moving to the music and having a good time. Her smile was one that could weaken him in the knees, and leave him begging for more. “And it sounds just like a song. I want more berries and that summer feeling, its so wonderful and warm.” Finally her eyes connect with Harry’s and she smiles, leaving Harry gripping the mic stand and nearly forgetting the chorus. “Watermelon sugar high, watermelon sugar high, watermelon sugar high, watermelon sugar high, watermelon sugar.”  Harry finished up the song and interacted more with the band and the audience, his eyes always straying to the left side looking for the girl, where she always remained...until the last song

Harry had finished singing Fine Line, he was impressed with himself. He had made it two whole songs without looking over at the girl. He was trying to keep himself focused on finishing strong and interacting with other fans. When the song ended, he gave in, his eyes wandering left and looking for her. Left side, second row, behind the girl with the blue hair.... but she was gone. The band ran off stage and Harry waved walking off after them. His heart was pounding, he felt out of focus. “You okay bro?” Mitch asked concerned.

“The girl-”

“The one you've been flirting with all night?”

“Yeah-wait. I have not been flirting.”

“Harry you've literally looked at her the entire time.”

“Well yeah but-”

“You guys ready for the encore?” Adam came running in.

“Yeah.” Mitch clapped you on the back as you were walking toward the stage. “Hate to tell ya but that's called flirting Styles.”

Harry just blushed and looked away. It was not flirting...it was just taking an interest in fans... He wandered back out on stage as Sign of the Times began. His eyes as they had the entire time, wandered to the girl. She had returned to her seat with a smile, singing along with him to the words. He winked and she grinned, looking down while her cheeks flooded with red. Harry wasnt going to let anyone catch him flirting though, while finishing the encore he looked away. His eyes not returning to that left side, not looking for her or anything. “Thank you all so much for coming. You are incredible and I love you all so much.” He finished the concert, running off stage and stripping down to change clothes. He hurriedly washed his face, thanked the band, and everyone backstage and then hurried back on stage. He was hoping to find the girl but the seats were empty. He ran back off and ran his fingers through his hair anxiously. 

“Mitch. I need your help.”

“Whats up?”

“I need you to help me find that girl, the one in the second row you said I was flirting with.”

“Harry haven't they cleared the stadium already?”

“Yeah but - but I need to find her. There was something. When you know you know right? Well, I know. I know I need to meet her.”

“Harry-” “No Mitch, you know what nevermind. I don't need help. I’ll do it myself.” “Whoa, Harry calm down brother.” Adam had walked in and was witnessing the scene. Harry took a deep breath and took a step towards the door. “You are just distracting me. You want her for yourselves is that it? You just don't want me with her because you want her?”

“What the-” Adam began.

“Fuck off Adam.” Harry walked past, bumping his shoulder into Adam’s. I’ll just find her myself. Harry wandered backstage until he found the exit. He walked out the side of the building and around to the front where he found himself face to face with all of his hands. They all screamed and ran forward and Harry stepped back, scanning the crowd for her, but there was no hope. He ran backstage and pounded on the door. The fans were approaching and Harry couldn't even get in to warn security. He banged on the door again and it opened. He ran inside, and straight into the girl.

Your POV:

You had been making eye contact with Harry throughout the whole concert. It had given you butterflies, the feeling that there was something more. When security came and grabbed you, you were instantly nervous, asking a million questions about what was going on, if you were in trouble, could you call your mom... Instead he had not answered anything and just left you in an empty dressing room. You were not about to stay there though and wait for security to come back and bust you for whatever you had done. You ran out the door and backstage. You had made it to what you thought was the exit, but someone was pounding on the other side to get in...you  opened the door and someone immediately slammed into you. You were knocked to the ground, your head hitting the wall behind you. “Ow” you mumbled holding your head. The person looked up and your heart stopped. There stood the tall, lean, and sweaty body of Harry Styles. He looked at you, his eyes staring at yours. His eyes were a green color, but a bold green, the kind of green you could get lost in.. “uh..” you mumbled trying to think of what to say.

“It's you..”

“What?”

“Its you. The girl from my concert. The girl in the second row” you looked at him confused but he just smiled. Harry snapped back into it, the fact you were on the ground finally clicked and he grabbed your hand pulling you to your feet. “I’m so sorry..I didnt expect someone to be there, especially not you.” he was rambling and you smiled. It was cute. “Ah, I’m getting ahead of myself..I’m sorry for hitting you with the door. Hows your head?”

“I think I’ll live...”

“Well that's a relief. He sat on the floor next to you and grinned. “I’m Harry.” He held out his hand and you grabbed it shaking it slowly.

“(y/n).”

“(y/n)....thats a beautiful name. Its a pleasure to meet you.”

“Back at you.” Harry grinned at you, his dimples perking up in the corner of his mouth. 

“So am I in trouble or?” “What?”

“Security grabbed me and brought me back here...Am I in trouble?”

“Trouble?” he laughed and you smiled, it was a cute laugh. “What did you do?”

“Oh you mean aside from stealing a few shirts, bringing a gun, and planning your assassination all while making eye contact with you during the show?”

“Wow, okay (y/n) clearly security needed to grab you. Cant have any of that here, except the eye contact, I quite enjoyed that tonight..” You smiled as he teased you. “No actually security was my doing...I was really hoping for a chance to get to know you a little.”

“Oh.”

Harrys face fell.. “Uh if that's okay, if not I can make sure you get back to your friends or wherever youre staying?”

You smiled and nodded. “I’d like that.”

Relief flooded his face and he smiled. “Okay good.” You bit your lip, this was turning out well for someone who originally didn't want to go to the concert. Harry leaned in, you followed suit, his lips lightly touching yours. Butterflies flew through your body and you leaned back pulling your lips from his. Wait until your boyfriend found out you kissed Harry Styles, he was going to be impressed and pissed all at the same time.

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I got this request and honestly I’m not sure how I feel about it. Might change, might delete we shall see

[sporadic-writer]

Welcome to the Neighborhood pt. 2

Note: ok so I know that not all of the boys, meaning both twins, live with the others. And I know my update schedule sucks but I go in a block and funk. Sorry guys. I just want you to read something I would read and truly enjoy. Also, I think I may make this a Haz fic bc ones about hin deserves more love and notes.

No one really reads these but I also think I'll write this for Harrison bc when Tom posted the pic of Nadia, it shattered the illusion in my head lol and it feels weird to a certain extent to write when he is most likely dating her. Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy for him and he doesn't know I exist, but it feels odd idk. So im pausing on Tom stuff atm lol. Harrison is single as far as publicly that ik so thats that 😅

Pairing: Harrison x Reader (most likely)

Warnings: mentions of weed, alcohol, and swearing. I enjoy all these things responsibly and ik im not the only one. As always stop reading if you dont like something.

Part 1 here initial teaser here (got around 100 notes soo 😎 check that out)

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“Alrighty boys. That’s enough about me, tell me about yourselves. I only know this one from the big screen and that 2 of you are brothers.” You gestured to Tom as you spoke about him. “And from basic eavesdropping I gather you are all very close.” 

Tom smiled, “Actually I’m a brother to the twins, older obviously.” It was fun having a celeb lounging in your hot tub, drinking a beer with you. “But yeah I am an actor, Spider-Man as you probably know. Harrison’s an actor too!”

“Oh my god you are! I watched Catch-22 on Hulu! Comedy my ass..! I balled my eyes out several times.” He had the nerve to laugh in response. “Don’t laugh! That shit got intense quick. Then the shot where you all are swimming? Killed me. I don't know how I didn't notice you. Sorry!”

“Did you at least like it?” He smiled and asked hopefully. When you nodded yes he beamed! “Well then that’s all that matters. I will say an American accent is hard.”

You brought your beer up to your lips. “Yeah because your guys’ accent is so easy. You make fun of how different areas in America have different accents but it’s the same here!” They nodded in agreement at your words. You leaned your head back a tad and enjoyed the warm water. “Southern accents have different twangs bepending on the area, I have family that lives closer to New England, that's something all in its own. Just like here. You got London, Wales, some place called Essex and other places more north of here. It's not just the US." You reached over for your joint to finish it amongst the bubbles. "Now for real. Tell me about yourselves. Harrison you start I guess."

"Why me?"

"Shorter wikipedia page." You smirk as you re-lit your herb. The guys laughed and made 'ooh' noises to tease. "I'm kidding! Relax a touch. I just picked your name because you are right in front of me."

"Well I've known this lot since we were all kids. Tom and I went to school together and we have been stuck with each other since. I was his personal assistant for a while too." You listened as he spoke. Sweat was building up on his face from the hot tub. It added a nice shine to his, and everyone's faces. In order to avoid makeup running everywhere you sat up as you listened to him. You watched his eyes watch your movements as you took a hit and slowly exhaled. Almost like he was relaxing from watching someone relax from getting high without actually doing so. He kept going and you realized you zoned out a tad. "And then I wanted to do more than just model so I did more auditions and Catch-22 became my biggest so far."

You nodded, noting you heard and were listening. "That's cool and all but tell me like favorite song, movie, animal! Hahaha it isn't everyday famous people are in my hot tub. I'm going to savor this first encounter!" He smiled and answered your sort of questions. You offered the joint around before it finished. Tom passed, Tuwaine and Harrison took quick hits though. "But yeah that is me. Now someone else go so I don't have the spot light on me anymore." He looked at you as he said that and handed you the last bit. You winked in thanks, and to flirt lightly. (Shoot your shot right?) "Same questions to you love."

You responded your favorite song, movie, and color to him. "Yeah I like a bit of everything. But funny movies are my favorite. Obviously I like Marvel too Tom don't worry. Same goes for music but my preference ranges from new pop to older rock. I grew up on 80s alternative pop stuff." You smiled at him and he beamed in pride at the brand he represented. "Ok Sam you now."

Sam starts talking about his life and Harrison goes to grab more drinks. At this point the sun as almost finished setting and you tell the blonde how to turn the deck lights on. Soon the rows of edison bulbs flick on and a lovely mood is set. The glow isn't too bright and adds a nice light to your summer tanned skin. What you don't know is that the gentlemen appreciated the glow as well. However, they are too polite to say anything too bold after just meeting you.

If you could read minds or be sober enough to detect a certain lack of subtlety you would pick up on how the single men checked you out as you got out of the tub to get rid of the roach. Polite of course, 20 something men are going to appreciate a beautiful American girl right in front of them.

And if they could read your mind they would hear how you were taking in Tom and Harrison's jaw lines and toned muscles. How you appreciated Tuwaine's smile and height. Then add the twin's curls and freckles to the list and they'd think you were picking them like boys from a catalogue. Despite the slight oggling on your part, your eyes always wandered back to the blonde hair blue eyed boy the most. He seemed a little more laid back then Tom. Probably just because one was working more than the other, but that was just initial vibes you got. Regardless of vain appearance choices and vibe preference, all these boys were wonderful and you were just lucky enough your uncle's hot tub fit them all nicely.

Tuwaine smiled cheekily and spoke up. "Alright, we all have fresh drinks and proper buzzes. Let's make it fun and play a game. So Y/N, you went to college in the states, give us a classic drinking game and show us what you got."

"Ha! I don't know what you're looking for but I assume never have I ever is universal? You can't play kings or flip cup in a hit tub. Hold up 5 fingers, put them down if you've done said thing, drink as well."

"No fingers, just play till we are right pissed." Harry grinned and everyone else went along with it. "I will start. Never have I ever- wait this a normal game or sexy version?"

You said you didn't care and Tom said what the hell, so he continued. "Never have I ever gotten walked in on during a scandelous activity." Tom and Harrison both drank and groaned saying they have both walked in on each other at some point in life. Tuwaine continued.

"Never have I ever fooled around while someone else is in the room." There was a pause and no one drank. But then you rose your beer to your lips and they all looked at you in a manner of surprise and demand for explination.

Shrugging you said, "Old drunken hookup in school. We didn't know his roommate was in his top bunk asleep until it was too late. The mistake we made was keeping on going when we thought we heard him, because we did..."

"Wow Y/N. Learning a lot about the neighbor girl right away!"

"Shut up this game was your idea!" You laughed as you spoke in response to his teasing. "But whatever it's my turn now anyway. Never have I ever sent a dirty text to the wrong person." That got all but Harrison and you felt proud for getting them. "Alright so you are either morons or were in a rush to send that sext."

Tom defended himself saying her name was Sam and it was instant regret the second he realized.

Sam glared at him and said, "Yeah no one enjoyed that bro. I'm still shaken up about it."

"Get over yourself it was like 5 years ago! And you accidentally sent your friend Jake one, so pot, kettle, hi both black."

"It was detailed!"

You just sat there amused taking this all in. "I am so glad this happened tonight." You said more to yourself than them.

"Darling if this ends up in the tabloids we will never speak again." They were teasing with the threat. "But come on this is good let's keep going. Never have I ever done it in a car." You, Sam, and Tuwaine all drank and giggled.

The game continued on and another round of drinks were had. You learned Tuwaine had said the wrong name in bed. Also, that both Harry and Harrison have fooled around during family functions. In return they learned that you've hooked up in a college classroom and in a restaurant bathroom. That ended up getting you and your former boyfriend kicked out of the establishment. Towards the final round all were getting sleepier but still in a good mood.

"Never have I ever had sex high." Harrison challenged the group. No one drank. "Wait really? Thought I'd get you with that. Finish your beer and all." He looked at you as he spoke.

"Nope. Just never happened now that I've thought about it. Huh. You'd think right? But nope. Not that I'm opposed." You ended your statement by glancing his way while finishing your beer anyway. Harrison just watched the way your neck moved as you tilted your head back. "Ok boys this was fun but I am gettin tired."

Tom nodded. "Same here. Thank you for having us darling, it was fun!" The others spoke in agreement and you smiled at them saying they were welcomed back anytime. They offered to help clean but you grabbed the remaining bottles and told them you were good. After final goodbyes, you told them to not he strangers, you were all in your respective homes.

You went to bed pretty quick. Next door, at their place Tom, Harrison, and Sam lingered to get some water before bed. "She was really cool." Sam said while sipping water.

Harrison hummed in agreement. "Yeah I think so too. Very chill and all that."

Sam smirked and playfully said, "You just think she's fit mate." There was a pause.

"Well she is." It was Tom who said that and the others looked at him in playful shock. "What I'm not blind! She is! She's isn't some shy girl freaking out over us. She's cheeky and just seems normal about us living next to her. More Harrison's type though I'd say."

Sam laughed. "Yeah he always liked the classic American 'girl next door' type. Just a bonus she is actually American this time." They paused for Harrison to negate their statements but he just sipped his water and looked at them with a glint in his eyes. "Told you." Sam said as he took a sip. "She is better than half the models either of you bring back. Nuerons fire and she can keep a conversation. Not that all models are like that! But come on you went out with some stereotypes." Neither could disagree. Sometimes you just want to have a date with the beautiful face. Long term needs substance though, and both Tom and Harrison thought you had it all.

"We need to invite her over tomorrow, and any time she's free." Groundwork was to be established and Harrison was determined to get to know you more.

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Abb/y has something to s/ay

Let me premise this by reminding everyone that Abby -like Trump-doesn’t “get” comedy. They literally do not understand jokes, punchlines, or humor. So a satirical show about the Hollywood song writers falls flat. Her time away did nothing to sway her conspiratorial aspirations or her misogynistic hatred of Mia. She watched Royalties not once, but twice... not to enjoy Darren’s creativity and performance, not to support the celebrity she stans, and not even to crack up at the humor, no she watched twice because she was looking for confirmation bias. She wanted to document all of the ways Darren wrote his CrissColfer truth into Pierce’s life and she obsessively listened to all of the diss-tracks he wrote to attack his wife.  

Let me also premise this by saying I loved the show. I thought it was funny and the songs are so damn catchy.  The lyrics are quintessential Darren- funny, very clever, and raunchy.  

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R/oyalties, the Tale of Two Shows with a Heaping Side of Meta

ajw720. So I just finished watching R/oyalties for the second time, this time solely focused on the meta.  Look, we all know, the show is not good, it was not well written and the short format didn’t help as there was no option to develop character or plot.  But D knew it would not be good, he apologized for it back in January 2019.  And I think the effort he put into acting was the effort it deserved. Ok.

But his songs were genius.  As were the videos, hence why i call it the tale of two shows.  It truly was like watching content made by completely different people. I concur with MH, D is “intensely talented.”  And the part of this show he poured his blood, sweat, and tears into, the songs, are evident of this.

But this is a post about that Heaping Side of Meta. I think D, knowing that that show would not be made in the manner he envisioned, instead used it as a vehicle to make some bold statements and parallels with his career and public life.  Shall we begin?  And please, unlike the perfect song, this is not a perfect post and after the second round of watching i canceled my Quibi subscription and never plan to look back, so please feel free to add. I know some of these have been pointed out but I thought it was valuable to have one post.

One idea to inpsire the song?  A tiny FROG on a dime.

D’s shirt 1st seen in Episode 2: “It is hard to soar like an Eagle when you are surrounded by turkeys”

And of course “Call me Goldilocks bitch”  Remind you of something?

How about the entirety of Episode 3 when we are told that an artist is completely the product of the team.  That no matter what the artists expresses they want, it doesn’t matter because the Label/manager/publicist/on camera agent/legal will always have a say. And how it will play in America or the Foreign market are key metrics of how the product is produced and presented.  I love the line of the songwriter that tells P/ierce and S/ara to “get out while they are young.”  Or the line by one of her team “we don’t want something different, we want something the same that is different.”  And in the end P&S simply took one of KK old songs and reworked it, making something different that is not different and her team loved it.  

And of course, the line that was an utter slap in the face to the most over praised “director” of an indie band video ever when D reminds her of the real director in his life, the man set to direct major motion pictures, “you know who would be perfect to direct? C/hris.  C/hris would shatter this.”

Not much in Episode 4, but the gorilla suit in my opinion was mocking of a certain MMR video where we watched Swiller and a banana in a song about a gorilla.  Images I never need to see in my head again.

Episode 5, a gem, I am still so fucking proud of D and how he mocked her throughout the entirety of the episode.  New lines I love of that amazing song he wrote about her (in addition to those i posted previously here) “Some people say I’m a  genius, which comes from the greek word for Latin, and other people will say, alright in fact i’m a fuckin’s genius” “I’m not saying I’m a god, but I’m not saying I’m not a god.”  Mocking at its finest made all that much better by the band’s name “Switchback Jacket” that D describes as “butt rock emo” that is performed by a band that doesn’t actually sing, they are just the public image.  He literally told us that what we see is an image created for the public and that it is completely fake.  And he used his beard to make this statement. Just brilliant.  I cannot praise him enough for this, stealing her moment in the sun and making her look like an utter fool, telling us just how narcissistic she is.

Also some wonderful lines from that episode that are beyond telling:

“Power, it felt good to remind Kevin that I hold power over him. You always want to be the one with power”

“p/ierce wouldn’t know where to take a shit if I didn’t tell him.”

“she is like my wife except we don’t have sex and we are friends.”

“alright boss, I am ready to record that song, but where should i take a shit?”

“You will do anything to succeed.”

Episode 8 starring “Poly Amorous and the Unicorn Guild” an episode used to shine a light on how absurd it is that people believe D&PBB lived with platonic roomie B/enny for something like 4 years.  3 grown ass adults, all of whom have money to spare lived together in a relatively small house for four years.  It is pure comedy that anyone would believe that this is normal.  But hey these are the same people that explained away the infamous arm around her while at an awards show with D looking on:

And the cherry on top of this episode, the inclusion of C/huck (for some background, see my post here).

I really like the one bit of dialogue between P&S, where D pretty much tells us once again that M will use anyone to get what she wants:

“Did it ever occur to you that maybe just maybe, I don’t like where we are now? There were a lot of really great things about the way things were.  Things that are worth preserving.  Not that you just take and use and through out.”

Episode 9 had some really impactful lines:

“you think i wouldn’t steal for my career? You think I wouldn’t lie?  I would do anything.”

The Neils being the nameless individuals, nothing more than a number, who are the ones who actually create the product.  And then the song, some of the translations are D telling you how he feels, because sometimes i think in terms of his public image he is just a Neil trying to escape the cage that has been built around him:

“I dream about getting away, I have been locked up in this cage wishing i could make my escape. I hate that I need you.”

And finally Episode 10, where we learn the Neils get no credit and no royalties. This reminds me of a script C wrote that never saw the light of day but suddenly the next season of AHS had the same theme as his script.

And that is all i got, if you have more please add. I think the fact that D took what he knew would be a mediocre project and projected his voice and story throughout it was pretty genius and a smart way to utilize this vehicle, that was clearly payout for so many that have used him for years and to shine a bright light on the truth.

elicc  The “perfect song”’s performer is called Bailey Rouge, a clear link to TLOS.

He is a genius.

ajw720   @elicc damn, that was on my list and I forgot. And we all know who Red is inspired by, so seems fitting Bailey Rouge would get the perfect song.

ajw720. Just adding one more I thought about putting in my original post but admittedly think it’s a stretch. But maybe not? Just adding here for fun.

When Theo tells P to bottle up all his romantic feelings I couldn’t help but think of a certain chapter in a book

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Oy Vei! Abby didn’t use her time away getting any therapy or perspective.  She hasn’t learned any lessons. I have no doubt she’s been reading just as much as she did before and she’s speaking to Cassie, Flowers et al all day. It’s really sad. It’s sad that she can’t see how silly she sounds, what an asshole her version of Darren is. If she could restrain herself even a little bit it might come off less unhinged because turning every single moment of Royalties into some crisscolfer wet dream reeks of desperation. 

Abby hates Royalties. In last week’s “Dear D” she had the audacity to say 

....Fans that are beyond devoted and mainly because of the way you have treated fans with respect and a level of caring that far surpasses the majority of public figures.  And while I am not enjoying the show itself, the music shows how diverse you are as a writer and how you can virtually write for anyone or any genre. The songs are fantastic.  Memorable.  And really fun.  

She knows the the Langs wrote the show and Darren wrote the songs but what she can’t seem to comprehend is that Darren IS Royalties. Everything in the show is Darren’s.  

Staying in the closet would be less painful than trying to express oneself through a short-form satirical comedy.  Can you imagine trying to express your devastation and pain through Kick Your Shoes off or Break It In? 

“I’m the king of the hard fuck....pile drive the bed like a young buck...if you like feathery shit thats pretty cool but I don’t need that...people say I fuck too soft, saying that I can’t please a woman” 

BTW Abby- “call me goldilocks bitch” isn’t a reference to TLOS it’s a reference to Goldilocks and Three Bears because because he fucks perfect, not too soft, not too hard. It’s much more believable that he is referring to a random nursery rhyme than it is to believe he is referring to a children’s book his lover/husband/boyfriend wrote 8 years ago. You might love the book but Chris has moved on and written new things. 

Darren wrote funny lyrics. I loved Kick Your Shoes Off because it’s written by a man whose watched his wife and female friends wear painful shoes for the same of fashion even though its painful as fuck.   

“Yeah, I’m a bad bitch so don’t be mad bitch. I turned the room into a catwalk like a sad bitch. I can’t feel my toes in these stilettos. when I walk out my roomate says you’ll regret those....Beauty is pain but oh I look amazing.  You won’t hear me complaining but oh my instep (inside?) is screaming...kick your shoes off (kick em off) ooooooo I do what I want..(Kick em off) ooooo Hey I can’t walk in these, blisters start to bleed now both my feet are swollen. Kick your shoes off (Kick em off).....It’s like i feel so good when my shoes are on, but like i also feel sooooo good when they are off” 

Abby’s convinced I am So Much Better Than You is straight up about Mia because Mia is in the video. She listened to it on repeat the day after it came out. In her “Letter to D” last week she said 

Especially after you made an effort to mock her for the entirety of Tuesday when her episode aired (and for the record I am still really, really proud of what you did with that episode and how you handled the roll out, that is the fighter I admire and that inspires me.  I listened to I am so much better than you on repeat on my drive home from work yesterday).   

Good Lord  The lyrics are as silly as all the other songs: “My mirror wants to bone me (but it can’t because it’s a mirror)” How did Abby miss the obvious TLOS mirror/ Halloween costume reference here?  

“You keep doing push ups while I get buff eating mac and cheese (with overpriced lobster and truffles because I’m worth it)”  

“Some people say I’m a genius (which comes from the greek work for latin) Some other people will say yeah I’m right I’m a fucking genius (I’m not saying I’m a god but I’m not saying I’m not a god). 

“And even when you sneeze, God blesses me, he blesses me. And even when you sneeze, god blesses me, he blesses me, he blesses me”

“I’m am so much better than you at everything”. 

She believes Darren would be- and stay- married to a women that he publicly ridicules and attacks. I don’t get why she thinks that is something admirable . 

She thinks Also You is referring to Ben living with them.  Where to start with this one? She says

“Episode 8 starring “Poly Amorous and the Unicorn Guild” an episode used to shine a light on how absurd it is that people believe D&PBB lived with platonic roomie B/enny for something like 4 years.  3 grown ass adults, all of whom have money to spare lived together in a relatively small house for four years.  It is pure comedy that anyone would believe that this is normal.  But hey these are the same people that explained away the infamous arm around her while at an awards show with D looking on”

I’m gobsmacked.  Also You is about Polyamory. She doesn’t even understand her own theories if she thinks that is the message Darren wants to share about Mia and Ben.  In no world would someone try to proclaim their wife was cheating on them with a live-in houseguest by writing an episode called Poly Amorous and the Unicorn Guild.  Also, someone needs to explain cuckholding to her because her theories about Ben and Mia make Darren a cuck.  

OMG I just realized that Darren is a cuck and Royalties proves it.  He hired Kether to be his costar in Royalties,...Kether is in You’re the Worst as Lindsay.  Lindsay cuckholds her husband. Bam! mic drop.   

Why isn’t Perfect Song about Mia, you know, if we are playing confirmation bias “No one is as good as you because you're my perfect song” 

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okay im gonna go black out and write some bullshit about my Thoughts on Literary Analysis and Character Writing bc i love writing and i love trying to figure out what works and what doesn’t. i am an unfortunate fan of fire emblem, so the real joke is on me, but let’s do this anyway. using a lot of bold as always! it makes me feel special.

Why is Leonie such a divisive character? 

as per usual, here is my disclaimer that it’s okay to like Leonie. it’s also okay to dislike her, as long as you’re not being a massive dick about it. lord knows people are rude to me about lorenz and i didn’t ask for their opinions. if you like leonie, i am not out to get you, i’m not going to tell you that you shouldn’t, i’m not even mad at you. Neat! you like a character i don’t! and that’s just fine. i honestly don’t care! go have fun! 

so let’s talk. theres a TL;DR at the end so be ready.

i’ll make no bones about it: i’m in the camp that dislikes her. i don’t have the energy to hate her as i do for faye, but leonie is pretty obnoxious as a character and it’s an uphill battle to like her. i’ve played VW like three times since i’m a self professed GD stan so i’ve dealt with her a lot, read most of her supports, and seen her as a character in actual cutscenes and stuff.

the short answer: making a character obsessed with another one and having that be most of their personality is really annoying. 

the long answer: let’s start on that now! these are my personal thoughts and analysis, so you’re free to disagree with me if you think i’m falling short.

one statement i will make right away is that i’m not offended by leonie being mean to the player. a lot of people who stan leonie like to argue that people dislike her because she’s one of the few characters who doesn’t kiss byleth’s ass immediately. that’s fine. that doesn’t bother me. after all, seteth and hapi are mean to byleth at first too, and those two are far more beloved… in fact, it’s funny that they’re mean to byleth. i would also argue that my favorite lord claude is not buddy buddy with byleth at first either, but if these popular opinion threads have proven anything to me, people love taking claude’s lying ass at face value. that’s besides the point—it’s okay that leonie isn’t immediately friendly to byleth. that is not an objective character flaw. characters need something to conflict over in the narrative, and not being instantly friendly to a player insert is not a problem in the slightest.

the major flaw in leonie’s character, imo, is that the writers decided it was a brilliant idea to make her obsessed with a man who barely seems to acknowledge her. this is an extremely unfortunate reoccurring character trope in fire emblem. notable other victims that more modern fe fans may recognize are faye and cordelia, faye being the worst offender. luckily, leonie isn’t as bad as faye. but it really is irritating that leonie, along with these other women, seem entirely driven by men who cannot acknowledge them. within three houses, you have similar traits in male characters as well: cyril is another notable offender, and to a lesser extent, dedue’s fixation on dimitri. now, we do see jeralt talking to leonie at the very least, and he does speak about her at least once in my memory, and positively at that. so it’s not as pathetic as the likes of faye. 

outside of that, leonie cannot stop fucking reminding everyone she comes across: she loves captain jeralt. she’s his only apprentice. and you, dear player, who is his child, are not good enough, because you don’t love him as much as she does. practically all her convos with byleth are about how they don’t love jeralt enough, save for a slight turn around in the A support where she talks about her promise to protect byleth in jeralt’s place. to be honest, i usually ditch her in any run i’m forced to take her (hello sylvain, the superior idiot redhead cavalier) so this promise is just cute.

the arrogance in this attitude is insensitive at best, and as seen in her B support with byleth, potentially malicious and self centered at worst. 

let’s not beat around the bush. the main point of contention for leonie is her B support with byleth, which is locked to jeralt’s death. you cannot get this support until jeralt has kicked it. and if you’re on GD, chances are you have gotten enough support points with leonie to get it immediately upon his death. the man’s grave is still fresh. what does she have the gall to say to her beloved mentor’s child?

“I've spent my whole life working to become a great mercenary like your father. There were so many times when I wanted to ask his advice, but I couldn't. I just had to make do. That's how I've made it this far. Just hard work, all on my own. But then you come along... And it's like you don't appreciate Captain Jeralt at all, or how lucky you were to have him around your whole life! Ugh! It still really bothers me! You might be his kid, but I'm still his best apprentice! Got it?!”

YIKES.

no matter how you dice it, saying that to someone whos father just died? NOT GOOD. it doesn’t matter what her reasoning is. a lot of people argue that this is realistic, that she’s acting out of grief. maybe so. however, if the game wants me to like her, they’re failing, no matter how realistic her reaction is. if this was supposed to be seen as a moment of weakness, that would be one thing, but it’s clear leonie never learns anything from this. she never gets better. she spends the rest of her life constantly centered on jeralt, and sees byleth as a competitor and obstacle to his affections, even after he’s dead. 

i don’t want to entirely make this about byleth, because let’s be real, byleth is only one of her many supports. but it is the most easily noticeable, and the least charitable to her character. 

also fun fact i did a basic search for jeralt in her supports and thats 37 times hes mentioned lmao this isn’t even accounting for her non support dialogue! which is still a lot! 

so a decent chunk of her supports still involve her talking about how great jeralt is as if the man is jesus. her better supports don’t involve him at all. i don’t have easy access to a lot of her dialogue by chapter, but quite a bit of her regular dialogue references jeralt too, be it by name or title, and a good chunk of her endings, especially her solo one, have her just taking up his title and job and drinking habits. it’s supposed to be seen as cute.

this woman is in her 20s at the beginning of the game. she’s my age. this kind of behavior is worrying. 

so you’re thinking “tell, you’ve spent a LOT of time talking about how leonie won’t shut the fuck up about jeralt. what about the rest of her character? unlike faye, she actually has one!” right you are! i will concede that. leonie does have things going on for her outside of her constant screeching about jeralt! what are they?

we see that her personality has her as a hard worker and frugal person because she’s grown up in a life that has less than many of her peers. she’s rational and rather keen, capable of assessing her opponents correctly and outsmarting them. she likes to help others. her supports with claude are fairly interesting as they talk about their own perspectives on the world to each other in a friendly manner. she talks to bernadetta and praises her skill in craft and manages to befriend her. in fact, all her supports where she doesn’t mention jeralt at all are pretty good. she can be headstrong and sometimes quick to jump to conclusions, but leonie isn’t one to be too beholden to preset ideas and shows a capability to learn and change.

wait, this sounds like a pretty well rounded and likeable character i’m describing! what happened here? this kind of portrayal is almost contradictory to the side of her that only thinks of jeralt. 

a lot of people who like leonie like her for these aspects. at first, i had thought her to be interesting, since she’s the poorest student in the entire school, here on money raised by her entire village, which must have been extremely difficult for them to do. she doesn’t understand how nobles can be so frivolous, and butts heads with the likes of hilda, who has been raised in luxury her whole life and she clashes even harder with lorenz, who is obsessed with nobility. in a way, leonie is the slap from reality that many of the rich students from garreg mach need. and she also serves an important function in the dynamic of the deer—she’s a bit of a hapless straight man to all their bullshit. they always need one of those! in the lions, that role falls to ingrid, while edelgard plays that to her own house. 

so yes, there is merit in leonie’s character. there’s a lot to like about her here. however, in my opinion, it’s not enough to make up for the incredibly abrasive aspects of her fixation on jeralt. it really just comes back to that—that someone decided that it would be a fantastic character trait to have her never stop thinking about a man, and flaunt this to the man’s child. constantly. almost all her dialogue directed at byleth is about jeralt. post skip, a lot more of her lines become about jeralt and making him proud. it’s like she thinks that he’s her dad. she’s a grown ass woman! leonie is one of the older students! she is an adult by the time the game starts! an adult with some actual worldly experience, unlike her peers! what went wrong? why is she like this? why did they make her so fucking annoying when it comes to jeralt?

so yes, that’s what i think is the major flaw of her character. a flaw that is not easily overcome. cyril is a largely derided character for similar reasons. another simple control+f tells me that rhea is mentioned in cyril’s supports 59 times so uh, woo! he has leonie beat there.

worst of all this is a flaw that narratively, she does not overcome. she never grows and gets better from it. she never changes her single minded determination to impress jeralt, even long after he’s dead. a good chunk of her endings have her taking up his business and acting just like him, taking his title too. somehow lorenz is the more likeable character, and lorenz starts off as a much worse person than her! he starts as a stinky incel classist and somehow, especially over the course of verdant wind, manages to learn and grow and change into a much better person, while leonie remains stagnant in who she is. her own peers outdo her in almost every aspect, in that they appear to be capable of growing up while leonie, already an adult, never seems to show any signs of maturing over the course of the game. we see ignatz turn from a meek nerd to someone who’s willing to do what it takes to protect what he cares about. marianne grows from suicidal and depressed to finding the will to live because it means she’ll be able to spend more time with things she enjoys and people she loves. lorenz goes from snobbish and distant over his complex about nobility to being one of the kindest members of the deer, willing to go against his father for the greater good. even hilda matures! hilda starts the game lazy and unambitious, trying to avoid work, saying she’d never risk her life for her friends, to fighting against some of the strongest forces in the continent and ESPECIALLY on CF we see her refusing to abandon claude in his time of need, no matter how bad it gets, even if it costs her life. what does leonie do? leonie seems to forever be stuck in the mindset that she has to impress jeralt, no matter how far she goes.

this is incredibly nitpicky, i’ll admit, this isn’t really part of the character analysis, but i find she under performs as a unit too. she may have ungodly speed and no weaknesses in her skills, but damage output wise she’s easily outdone in house by the other canon paladin of lorenz and his wonky statline, and out of house sylvain has basically the same ability as her, the same color hair, and a crest + relic that make him way more effective. the man has bulk, too. so, that’s a small ding to leonie as well. i had the same problem with sully in awakening. for all the talk about how these women are just as good as the men, they appear to under perform quite a bit.

and i’m gonna talk real quick in a basic list format of arguments i’ve seen for people defending leonie, since i’m running out of like, a coherent way to talk about some of this stuff.

-She’s realistic.

maybe so, but the game intends for me to find her as likeable and sympathetic, as it is for all recruitable characters. her reactions to byleth and sometimes others may be realistic, but don’t paint a charitable image of her. again, the moment in her B support with byleth is so bad, it makes her seem like she’s acting towards them with cruel intent. while i don’t care about byleth’s feelings since byleth isn’t a real person, what it does is it paints leonie as malicious, no matter what her intent was or how realistic it is. yes, she’s in grief, she’s lost someone important to her, but in what context is telling someone who just lost their dad that they didn’t love him enough supposed to garner anything but hatred? even if she apologizes for it in their A support, that means she basically took years to do so and still seems to think of byleth as an obstacle to her being like jeralt.

although as i have said before, the rest of her personality is fine. i find her non jeralt stuff is much more well written. she’s a down to earth person amidst a sea of lunatics. that’s not a problem.

-People don’t like her because she’s mean to Byleth. 

this is probably true in some regards although i can’t say for certain. because byleth is a player insert and some might take it personally, but otherwise i find this isn’t much of a good universal claim since there’s more to the disdain to that. personally, i think it’s hilarious when video game characters are mean to me, but that’s just My Opinion, so no, i’m really not offended by leonie being mean to me. other characters are also mean to byleth, and that leads into the next point...

-Other characters act similarly towards Byleth and they’re popular.

one, look at those stupid unpopular opinions threads on twitter. they’re not as loved as you think. two, a lot of the characters who are listed for these things are often the likes of seteth and felix, and let’s talk about the context of their actions there. seteth is indeed mean to byleth at first, but his intent is wildly different from leonie’s—he’s suspicious, and rightfully so, of this mercenary who came out of nowhere and rhea is suddenly showing a lot of interest in and is giving a position of power to. seteth is not acting out of malintent or jealousy, he’s acting out of concern for the students and his daughter as well as rhea. because his core intent is “protect everyone around me” it comes off as far more palatable and dare i say, endearing. this is vastly different than “i’m jealous towards byleth because i love their dad and hate that they’re getting attention i can’t.” with a character like felix, this is outright incorrect—felix is not necessarily more rude to byleth more than he would be anyone else. felix is angry with the faerghus four in particular, but everyone else gets the same level of vague disrespect from him otherwise, so his behavior is not centralized to byleth. again, i don’t care about byleth’s feelings. there is also cyril, who is similarly obsessed with rhea, and is just as irritating as leonie for it, if not worse because he gets an extra layer of being a poc character obsessed with a white one who saved him. 

tl;dr: context and intent matters. a lot. i know this is a ton to ask of the fe fandom to consider taking things beyond face value, but please consider the context of characters actions and their intent behind them.

-People who don’t like Leonie are misogynistic.

i won’t discount that there are bad actors who are likely extra critical of leonie because she’s a female character. it could be and has been argued that the reasons that characters like edelgard and ingrid are so controversial is because they are female. but not everyone who raises criticisms is strictly doing so in bad faith. most people i’ve seen criticizing leonie do it for the same reasons i am, which is that she’s an abrasive character. these traits would not be any better on a male character and in some regards could be worse. so for this one, it’s better to take it as a case by case situation, and pay attention to how people are talking. those doing so for less savory reasons often let it slip eventually, somehow. i’ve been avoiding using the word “bitch” in this entire thing for this exact reason.

-Her non-Byleth supports are good.

this is highly subjective imo and comes down to what you personally like in a character. i do like some of her non byleth supports, but she still has an unfortunate habit of bringing up jeralt in non byleth supports, so the only ones that are truly good are the ones where she doesn’t talk about him at all. even then, some like her one with marianne can do the same accidental portrayal of her seeming like a pretty unpleasant person. this isn’t saying that leonie can’t be flawed or short tempered, after all i adore felix and he’s got Some Fuckin Issues, but her portrayal as a kind and bright person clashes with how she’s portrayed surrounding byleth and jeralt. far too much. i like her supports with claude, i like her line with bernadetta, and her seteth one is good too, but i’d also argue that as a personality she doesn’t bring much to the table. she’s a perfectly serviceable character when she’s not dealing with byleth, but i personally fail to see more appeal to her. she isn’t particularly enrapturing like some of the others, and unlike someone like ingrid who has a similar role in BL, doesn’t have the shared history and integration with the deer that grants ingrid a unique perspective on her peers. although again, this is highly subjective, so it’s tough to argue about this. i’ll grant that yes, the writing that doesn’t surround jeralt is WAY better and almost makes leonie a redeemable character.

-Other characters are worse.

very true! i’ll cite faye again as the bottom line for “this is how abysmal this character could be” and in feth itself there is, as stated many times before, cyril. however it doesn’t mean that leonie is better by association. and i also often see people citing seteth as an example over the rudeness to the player too, but once again that’s about context and intent. hapi is a lesser example, due to a similar mistrusting nature, and there’s quite a bit of the cast who are cold and rude because that’s just who they are. now, thank fucking god that leonie actually talks about things that aren’t jeralt. like, seriously, i’d die. she still talks about him too much, but i really should go through all of faye’s dialogue to do a proper count. 

so now you’re probably thinking—if you even got this far—“gee tell, you sure do like running your fuckin mouth, eh? so what’s the point of all this?” let’s wrap it up. 

the TL;DR:

what this all boils down to is that leonie’s got a serious problem in her writing where her entire life revolves around a man, and the way it’s dealt with isn’t particularly great. she doesn’t have a dynamic character arc like some others that redeem them from their problems, and the personality she has outside of her relationship to jeralt and byleth often clashes with the one she has with them, particularly centering on byleth. when dealing with byleth, the image it paints of her is extremely negative, and not one easily shaken—again, the B support moment is just THAT BAD. that is the most cited moment for why people hate her. it just seems like for all the flaws she has, they are not compensated for or grown out of like other characters in the game do for theirs.

theres also that tweet about how we put more thought into these characters than intsys does, so. yeah. definitely doing that right now. thanks, intsys, you did it again.

i will also point to the argument that we should hold the writers accountable, not the fictional characters who aren’t real and don’t have feelings. i don’t think leonie needs to be held accountable for her bullshit. i just wish the writers could have treated her better.

this is personally why i find leonie so difficult, and hopefully if you didn’t understand why people don’t like leonie, this can help enlighten you. i’m willing to hear people out if they have something to say, and as always, if you are a leonie stan, please go enjoy yourself, have fun, and don’t let me ruin your parade. i just enjoy trying to figure things out and talking a lot along the way! so that’s all, here’s hoping that in the future they do better, and remember that GD is the best house okay bye take this picture of me typing up this whole ass thing

[ksjsflower]

16th of July - Jungkook X Reader

part 1

genre: humor, college!au, jungkook! fuckboy au, future smut and angst

words:idk dude

It was at times like this that you wondered whether the whole universe that we live in is just a tiny fraction of something way more powerful. Could it be destiny? If there even was such a thing, you were almost certain it had struck you when you had least expected it to. Thursday, 16th of July, 2016. The day you knew you would remember your whole life and all of your next lives.

The 16th of July 2016, Thursday. You were 19, just graduated from highschool, ready to start college. Oh, were you in for a ride. During your high school years, all you ever thought about was how fun college and moving in with your best friend, Nana, would be. Nana was actually more like a sister to you. You guys met way back when you were 5 at a playground. It was at the moment she stepped on your sand castle and started crying and apologizing you knew you two were gonna become friends.

However, moving in - not so fun actually. Both of you had a mess at home, and of course, your mothers were worried sick about you two 'becoming independent and growing up so fast'. The first day you two arrived at your dorm was chaotic. People were running aroung, bumping into each other like there's no tomorrow, everyone was all up in their business. Until.

'Dude, the guy with curly hair and a leather jacket by the lockers has been staring at you for about 2 minutes now.' Nana whispered to you while you were trying to balance your books for the classes you both got today.

'Uh, what? Where and who and why?' you crinkled your nose when a certainly heavy book pressed your pinky. 'I could use some help over here, stop looking around for boys, its the first day for fuck's sake..' you rolled your eyes.

'Alright, FIRST of all, - she was getting ready for another one of her rants - 'it's kinda hard not to notice when there's quiete a few people over here if you didnt already realize that, that his eyes out of all the people he can look at, only look at you. For t w o minutes. Even three now, cause' I just checked and he is still looking, only now he has a smirk on his face probably because your hair is a mess from holding 20 books and I am talking to you about him not so subtly cause now hes looking at me haha-''

You were so confused as to why she was rambling to you while looking behind you as if something was approaching. Nevertheless, you didnt think much of it. You just thought it was another one of Nana's silly actions, until you felt a hand on your shoulder the same moment Nana abruptly shut her mouth.

You slowly started turning around not expecting the smell that came from behind you to be strong cologne. You hated cologne, so it left you wondering for a second why you actually enjoyed inhaling this particular one.

But when you actually did turn around surprising yourself when you didnt drop any of the books you were holding, you were met with a face of a boy. A rather good looking boy. Man, probably the best looking boy you have seen in the last 10 years. When your pair of eyes met his doe like pair, you were left speechless. Thank God you werent the one who was going to start the talking because as soon as you opened your mouth you were cut off by his own voice.

'Are you guys new here? I saw you going around looking all confused and shit so if you need any help, you can ask me, I dont bite,' - he mused in a rather interesting tone,you couldnt decipher if he was being flirty or if his tone was usually sensual like that. - 'Yeah, I'm sure thats why you were looking,' Nana jumped in very awkwardly and as to prove her point, she added an unpleasant laugh at the end of her statement which made you want to face palm yourself right in front of his face.

'Yes, of course. Now why else would I be looking? I am a well mannered man.' He gave a smile so charming you were sure you would have flown to another dimension right then and there if it werent for all the books you were holding.

He must've noticed your lack of response which is why he took half of the books you were holding to himself. 'There you go.. saw you struggling for a little while. Also, I couldnt help but notice your little friend over her talking about me? Or am I possibly wrong?'

You finally spoke up and mentally congratuated yourself for not stuttering. 'Uh, yeaahh.. you're probably seeing things, we were just trying to find the right classes and stuff..'

'Seeing things? Damn, didnt have to word it like that, makes me feel undesirable,' he gave a breathy laugh while faking being hurt by putting his hands on his chest.

'Oh, I am sure that it does' you answered sarcastically. Cmon, this guy looked like sex on a stick. Feeling undesirable? Certainly not his case.

'See, you get me. I was not mistaken when I thought I felt a connection to you the moment I saw you across the hall,' he gave you a cheeky grin which left you rolling your eyes at the back of your head so hard you were sure they were gonna stay there.

'A connection? Please. And here I was thinking that this was a fuckboy free college.' You sighed dramatically which left Nana bringing her fist to her lips to stiffle her laughs.

He did look a bit taken aback by your response, but nevertheless managed to cover it up with a smirk in a span of 0.02 seconds. 'Arent you a fiery one, huh?' He smiled yet again in his seemingly natural flirty self.

'You havent seen anything yet.'

'Oh, so you're implying that we are going to have more talks in the future?' He smiled at you but his eyes were rather daring.

'You wish. Keep dreaming boy. Theres only one first impression and youve ruined it, so we aint talking any time soon.' - Nana once again let out a wheeze, only this time it was loud and you shut your eyes tightly wanting the ground to open and swallow you.

'Its alright, it doesnt have to be anytime soon, I can wait if its you who Im gonna talk to.' His comment left your cheeks tainted a light shade of pink, but you couldnt let your resolve crumble infront of him. Who did he think he was all confident trying to seduce you without even knowing your name?

'Nah, Im good. You didnt really understand what I meant. We aint talking anytime soon is supposed to mean that we are never talking after this again, kapeesh?' you were stating to get tired but you wanted to continue bickering with the unknown boy for some reason.

'Baby, dont underestimate me. Never is a strong word. - plus.. if we aint gonna talk thats okay we dont have to talk, we can always do other things.' he winked at you after throwing the innuendo right at your face. You scrunched your nose at the pet name but chose to ignore it.

'That was extremely pervy of you saying that to someone you have quiete literally just met. - you paused to flick your hair behind your shoulder. 'you should congratuate yourself, ive never started hating someone as soon as I did with you, you are the first one to accomplish that , you should feel proud, man.'

'I can be a lot of firsts to you, you know. I feel honored to be honest.' he announced proudly for some reason.

'Bold of you to assume you would be my first. Dont underestimate me, baby.' you threw back repeating his exact same words.

Nana was getting ready for the good part when suddenly you cut her fun short. 'Nana, lets go.' you grabbed your books from his hands harshly with one hand and pulled your best friend with the other free hand.

As you two were walking away you ignored Nana's whispers of protest when suddenly a voice was heard from behind you two.

'I'm Jungkook, by the way!' he yelled over a few people passing by.

You stayed quiet and opted for giving him the finger while he was still facing your back. Jungkook did not know why that action pulled the biggest toothy smile on his face, but was certainly glad you didnt get to see it.

'Well... at least he was cute?' Nana added while you two already walked away.

'Yeah. Cute.' you answered emphasizing both words as to let her know you thought he was everything except cute.

Well, college was going to be a lot of fun.

[insufferable-git]

Tag thingy:

I got tagged by @staganddragon WHO IS MY ABSOLUTE FAV SERIOUSLY GO CHECK OUT HER BLOG I LOVE HER SHE JUST HIT 1K!!!! IM SO PROUD OF HER????

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

UHHHHHHHHHH EVERYONE I THOUGHT TO TAG ALREADY GOT TAGGED IN THIS SO IF YOU WANT ME TO GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER GO AHEAD AND SAY THAT I TAGGED YOU! I would love to get to know you all!

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7" or taller (I think I’m 5’7” exactly???)

I wear glasses

I have at least one tattoo

I have at least one piercing (ears count right?)

I have blonde hair (it’s getting darker as I get older tho :( )

I have brown eyes

I have short hair (sort of??? It’s a ton shorter than it used to be)

My abs are at least somewhat defined

I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY:

I love meeting new people (I LOVE MEETING NEW PEOPLE BUT IM A BIT SHY PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TALK TO ME!!!)

People tell me that Im funny (occasionally)

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

I enjoy physical challenges

I enjoy mental challenges

Im playfully rude with people I know well

I started saying things ironically and now I can’t stop saying it. (I say Rip and Lmao a lot)

ABILITY:

I can sing well (sort of? Could be better. Eh I might start taking lessons to get better)

I can play instruments (yup! I play the ukulele and violin! I’m also attempting to teach myself piano(I’m bad at it still tho))

I can do over 30 push-ups without stopping

Im a fast runner

I can draw (I like to think I can)

I have a good memory

Im good at doing math in my head (fairly good, could be better!)

I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports (lol I play golf)

Im on a sports team at my school or somewhere else (I used to be on the girls golf team at my highschool but now I’m in college soooo)

Im in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else (I USED TO BE- hopefully I can join a local orchestra soon!)

I have learned a new song in the past week

I work out at least once a week (no but I really should)

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing (but for some reason I don’t write enough???)

Fandoms are my #1 passion (one of my #1 passions, there’s lots)

I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been at an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year (yup lmao)

I have beaten a video game in one day (I. LOVE. Video. Games)

I have visited another country (yup! I’ve been to japan! I would love to see Europe though!)

I have been to several of my favourite bands concerts (I’ve only gone to a few concerts in my life!)

RELATIONSHIPS:

Im in a relationship

I have a crush on a celebrity

I have a crush on someone I know

I have been in at least 3 relationships (only 3 to be exact lol)

I have never been in a relationship

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year

I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a best friend

I live close to my school (I live on my universities campus if that counts lmao)

My parents are still together

I have at least one sibling (yup! I have a twin sister!)

I live in the United States

There is snow right now where I live

I have hung out with a friend in the past month

I have a smartphone

I have at least 50 CDs (between my family we have way more than 50... we all share most of the CDs so I guess it counts???)

I share my room with someone (at college I do, but I’m going to be moving back home in like a week so I’ll be back to having my own room again!)

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced (aw HELL YEAH)

I have had a teacher with a last name thats hard to pronounce

I have dyed my hair

Im listening to one song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the last week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today

I know what I want to do with my life (lol NOPE)

I speak at least 2 languages

(I GOT TAGGED ON MY MAIN BLOG TOO SO IM SORRY IF YOU SEE THIS POST TWICE)

[waitinginthedarke]

The Hammock

Summary: Your adventures with Jay Park and a Hammock

‘Babe? Are you home?’ 

You’d been waiting for that voice all day. 

Ever since you’d woken up that morning to see that he wasn’t laid next to you in bed, having already got up, had a shower, and left for work, you’d been craving the sound of his scratchy, tenor pitch tone. When you’d rolled over to grab your phone from the dresser and checked it for messages, you’d found his usual morning greeting staring back at you; a selfie sent on snow, of him with puffed cheeks and widened eyes, today appearing to be a human peach, which was a great improvement on the day before when he’d scared you with a terrifying clown filter.

But after a day of hectic schedules and meetings that didn’t interest you in the slightest, yet demanded your presence, the sound of him kicking off his shoes and slipping into his monster foot slippers, humming as he drops his bag beside the entry way before making his way to raid the fridge, has you smiling happily as you’re pulled out of the reaches of sleep just as it was about to catch up to you.

‘I’m in the usual place.’ you call out tiredly, stretching your eyes wide to try and keep yourself awake as you feel yourself sinking into the cushion filled hammock Jay had set up in his snug a few months before. He’d used the excuse that you were ‘always falling asleep on him when he was trying to show you his music’ in order to construct the cozy, delightfully warm hanging, saying it was easier to just climb into it with you than to carry you back to bed after he’d finished his work. But more often than not, you’d found yourself making your way sleepily to the hammock in his snug instead of your own bedroom after a long day, enjoying how it felt like sleeping on clouds, and how, because he spent so much time there, the room smelt more like him than your actual bedroom, the scent comforting you as you’d fallen asleep.

‘Hammock?...again?’ 

His voice appearing in the doorway makes you realize you’d almost fallen asleep again, and you scrunch your eyes in playful irritation as you hear him chuckle at you, the sounds of crunching and chewing speeding up the time it takes for you to open your eyes as your stomach growls eagerly for food.

‘What are you eating?’ you mumble.

‘Yah! Where’s the ‘my handsome boyfriend, i’m so happy you’re finally home! How has your day been? I’ve missed you all day’-’

You raise an eyebrow at him mocking you, waiting for him to finish and smirking when you catch his eye, causing him to trail off with a sheepish smirk, before pushing himself off of the door frame and walking over to you.

‘Hey!’ you whine, when he suddenly drops himself into the hammock with you, making it swing wildly for a moment and causing you to squeal quietly in your surprise, until you fall into him in your quest to find out what chips he had, the two of you chuckling and laughing as you continue to wobble and shuffle, until you’d come to lie beside him, both at an awkward angle, but finally comfortable as he slips his arm around your shoulders.

‘Ahh man! You didn’t even pick up a good flavour.’ you whine when you catch sight of the chip packet label and you smell the bag, wrinkling your nose in distaste, but snatching a chip from the packet anyway and shoving it into your mouth before he could steal it back from you, giggling when you catch sight of the scowl he sends your way.

‘Hey! If you’re going to complain at my choice of food, you can always go and get your own! No-one’s stopping you!’ he argues, smirking smugly to himself, and because he’d teased you so much you’re quick to shove the packet into his face, laughing wickedly at his look of surprise, before scrambling to get out of the hammock when he turns his narrowed eyes on you.

You squeal and cry out playfully when he grabs your hips, batting at his hands as you try to get away, and finding yourself getting twisted in the fabric of the hammock when you think you’d made it to safety, dropping unceremoniously to the floor as your feet fail to make contact with a stable surface and groaning when your knees crash dully to the hard ground.

When you hear his proud chuckle the urge to smack him rises quickly within you. But its just as you go to voice your complaint that he’s suddenly rolling out of the hammock towards you, dropping down beside you on the floor, and turning his head to look at you with a smug smile, his lips pulling back from his gums as his black hair flops in tousled mess above him.

‘Jagi...im horny.’

Its the bold way in which he makes his statement that causes you to scoff, the sound getting cut off when not even a second later he’d moved quickly to hover over you, his thump of his knees either side of your hips, and his hands either side of your head surprising you a little, yet also causing adrenaline to flood your veins in the most pleasant way as you stare up into his eyes that were full of excitement.

‘I’m serious, Jagi...lets fool around...’

The smirk he flashes you before he presses his lips to yours was the first breaking point for you; Jay knowing the look always had you weak kneed for him. 

But its when he smooths his hands down your torso, his fingers stretching over your body languidly until his palms spread against your hips, and the heels of his hands slowly stroke toward your core, that you know you’re not going to be ending that night without him getting what he wanted...

Not that you minded in the slightest.

‘Not the floor though, its too uncomfortable,’ you murmur around the kiss, experiencing an inner turmoil as you grab at his shoulders to pull him closer, whilst also wanting to move somewhere else so that you could really enjoy him, his hot breaths huffing from his nose across your face making tingles riot between your legs.

‘Sure thing, babe.’ he whispers, suddenly wrapping your legs around his waist, and you immediately get the hint, locking your thighs tightly around him as he picks you up, struggling to keep you close enough to not break the kiss, but you make sure to knot your arms around his neck so that you could continue crashing your lips to his, feeling the craving for him that usually awoke when he suggested sex rise within you rapidly, and the ferocity in your actions instantly increases as your nails sink into the skin of his shoulders.

‘mmmfph, no...I need you now.’ he huffs as soon as he takes a step in the direction of the door and he cottons onto your need for him, his comment confusing you as you go to argue that the bed would be the best place, before he’s suddenly letting go of you, and you yelp as you drop down, expecting to hit the floor, but instead finding yourself dropping into the soft...comfortable confines...

...of the hammock.

‘We cant do it here.’ you argue immediately, making to try and get back up despite your semi-folded position in the hammock making it almost impossible, but you’re stopped anyway as soon as you look up to see him removing his tshirt, his bronze skin glowing back at you as soon as its uncovered and captivating you with its beauty.

‘Why not? You love the hammock...and its got to have more than one use right?’ he grins devilishly, leaning back over you, straddling the hammock as he reconnects your lips, and despite knowing it wasn’t going to turn out well, you find your argument being dragged away as his tongue sweeps it out of your mouth.

‘Fuck. Its real bad, baby. I need to fuck you...now.’ he pants, his hands already having roamed under your tshirt to find your breasts, and you breathe harshly as his mouth moves to your neck and he roles and tweaks your nipples between his fingers, grip tightening and pulling with the more needy he got for you, and you keen quietly into his mouth, the sound enticing him enough to have his hips rocking forcefully into yours despite the barrier of your clothes.

‘Damnit, why are we still dressed.’ he mutters, retracting his hands from you momentarily, which leaves you to whine in frustration, but after a second of him hopping off of the hammock to strip himself down, he almost instantly turns back to you and pulls you so that you were laid sideways, eyes flashing with mischief as his fingers immediately curl in the waist band of your lounge shorts. 

‘I need you so bad, Jay.’

They were the words that always got him moving faster, tempting the devil in him which couldn’t help but roar excitedly at the offering before him, and so in less time than should be imaginable, you’re stripped of your clothes, and are left butt-naked on the hammock in front of him, just as he leans over you once more.

‘Damn, im so lucky you’re mine. ...You’re so fucking hot...beautiful...delicious...’ he whispers raggedly between kisses that slowly trail from your mouth to one of your breasts, the feeling of his teeth teasing your nipple causing you to gasp, but its not until you feel his fingers suddenly drift through your moist folds that were aching readily for him, that you moan needily into the quiet of the room which before had only been disturbed by your heavy panting.

‘Fuck...thats my favourite sound.’ he growls against your breast, the feeling causing your whole body to tremble in want as your hands clasp desperately at his neck and shoulders, the words to beg him to go further on the tip of your tongue, but not managing to leave you as you get lost in the sensation of his mouth suckling almost harshly at your nipple, and his fingers sliding from the tantalizing patterns they’d been tracing around your clit, to sink into you knuckle deep.

‘Fuuuuck...’ you moan, the word getting cut off as the air gets caught in your throat at the unbelievably delicious feeling of being able to tighten around him, although even coupled with the way he moves his mouth from your breast to bite possessively at a patch of skin just below your jaw as he begins to curl the digits within you, you already knew you wanted...you needed...more of him.

‘Do you know how jealous the other guys got when they met you for the first time and saw how hot you were?’ he pants against your neck between kisses, beginning to thrust his digits in and out of you as you spread your thighs as wide as you could for him, the hammock beginning to swing the tiniest bit in time with his movements and causing his breath to skim over your skin as he leans up a little to look down at you as he goes on, eyes pitch black with lust.

‘They’re always going on about how hot they think you’d look during sex, but i only ever laugh at them, because they have no idea....’ he states, his free hand now groping your breast obscenely as you writhe at his touch, pulling his head down to you desperately so that you could crash your mouth against his, sloppily kissing him and biting his lip in the process, which ends up exciting him even more than he already was, and causing him to withdraw his fingers from you just as you felt the stirrings of your high ignite within you.

‘No-Jay-’ you go to protest, just before you open your eyes where you’d shut them in your deliriousness, to see him stroking himself as he looks down at you devilishly, eyes raking your body till his gaze comes to a stop on your core.

‘You’ve had your fun baby girl...now let me have mine.’ he growls, glancing up at you darkly, before positioning himself correctly, and using the hammock to slowly slide himself into you, the sigh of fullness you let out sounding obscene in your ears, but its quickly swallowed by his own as it echoes around the room.

‘Fuck. ...how do you always feel like fucking heaven?!’ he moans, curling over you momentarily, his hands resting on the wall above you as he appears to get lost in the feel of you wrapped tightly around him, and you cant help but clench yourself teasingly as you watch his face through your light-headed happiness, smirking when his eyes snap open to look down at you and see the way you were teasing him.

‘If you weren’t so damn adorable I’d fuck you into next week.’ he mutters, as his hips rock quickly in repayment for your teasing, dragging a moan of want from you at the friction it brought, before his own smirk has you pulling his head back down to you so that you could lock your mouths together, your legs wrapping around his waist, and your heels digging into his back encouraging him to begin moving...

...and thats when you realized the true worth of the hammock.

Each rock of his hips is followed by a gentle swing of the hanging, which allows him to easily speed up the pace, the rhythm being tricky to get right at first, but after a few moments of you whining when he pulls away from the kiss to get his stance right, and a few practice thrusts, you’re tumbling into another realm of ecstasy as your grip pulses on him, desperately trying to hold onto him whilst you float away on a cloud of lust.

‘Ooh fUck, babe...you gotta warn me before-’

Your loud moan of his name cuts off any complaint he was about to make as you clench around him, your walls spasming happily as you pant harshly with the orgasm that rushes over you, causing stars to crowd your vision, and air to struggle its way into your lungs, your nails sinking into his shoulders desperately seeking purchase to stop you from getting taken away on the tide of your high.

‘I could-n’t...I its-’ you try to explain the overwhelming high of your orgasm, tripping over the words as he continues to thrust aggressively into you, the hammock beginning to rock wildly with his movements, until you feel your first high rush into the next and you accidentally whine so harshly at the sensation that the sound slips into a scream as you feel his shoulders bunch under your touch and his hips snap purposefully against yours as he begins to spill into you, the hand that had moved to hold your thigh being painfully tight, but not being able to filter in through the sounds of groans of satisfaction and pants seeking air desperately to rake into your overwhelmed lungs. Your chest continues to heave with the effort of coming down from your high, and your vision is so blurred that you barely see the way he slides out of you, instinctively responding to the feel of his lips suddenly on yours as he leans down to connect your mouths in a lazy kiss, before suddenly the hammock is once again swinging wildly as he collapses down into it next to you.

You smile languidly as he throws a leg over yours, the feel of the moisture beginning to coat in between your thighs making you feel slightly grim, but you’re too tired to move right then, even though you knew he’d be pissed if you ended up staining the hammock- although technically, it was his fault anyway.

‘I’ve achieved the dream;....do a whole day of hard work, and then come home to have sex with a beautiful, hot-as-fuck girl that is yours...’ he mutters sleepily next to your ear, his words making you snicker as you tiredly shuffle slightly so that you could turn onto your side, allowing him to curl around you, and his arm snaking around your waist as he sighs happily and presses a kiss into your shoulder has the all too familiar butterflies that he conjured in you battering at your insides.

‘I love you, Babe.’ he murmurs quietly, fingers drawing small circles against your skin, and you cant help happily laying your arm over his and interlinking your fingers as you murmur those same three words back at him, both of your minds thinking the same thing as you finally slip into the clutches of sleep.

You couldn’t wait to use the Hammock again.

THE END

[10velies]

more edits along with some headcanons/backstory for high school vie bc its almost 2am and i dont want to do my lab report lol

i headcanon the following about mcl thats relevant for the blocks of text ahead:

it takes place in france

the dolphin necklace you get episode 9 after completing it with nath is actually from him and he bought it at the dollar store for vie as a sort of beach memento + to apologize for amber being amber

vie/candy started university in 2015 and its currently 2018 in university life

vie attended high school between 2011 and 2015, and attended sweet amoris between 2013 and 2015

she started dating nath in 2014

2013: he-he-he-hello kitty 

its based on episode 5′s date outfit for nath--ep 5 was released in 2011-2012 which isn’t too far off from 2013 and man. 2013 was a time for me at least in terms of fashion choices. 

vie was really going for the “bad girl” vibe and... just didn’t know how to pull it off. its kinda hard to be gangsta with a 3 euro weekly allowance. and im not sure how french high schoolers dressed back in the day, but vie grew up in canada so her initial fashion choices are influenced by that. 

aesthetics include: chunky necklaces, worn out silly bands from canada around her wrists, more converse, graphic tanks from hmv and hot topic, bell bottom jeans when her mom yells at her for the skirt + tight combo

2014: preppy and pretty

how i imagine vie dressing for the rest of 2013, all of 2014 and a bit of 2015. not based on any date outfit but once she was like... super into nath, she started ditching the reject bad girl look and slowly went into a softer, prep look. 100% honesty here, it was really to impress nath at first but she began to like the lighter colours a lot and boi blazers became a staple item in her closet.

refined it after dating nath; she was still in this transitional period in finding herself and nath really helped with it

aesthetics include: b l a z e r s, anything iridescent/holo/glitter/funky looking, super basic tops, bottoms and dresses, but really nice statement pieces for accessories

2015: business gal ready 2 take on the world

anddddd how i see her dressing for the rest of 2015 til like graduation

vie LOVES blazers and she’s definitely matured into a person she’s proud of + is a lot more confident in herself. this is based on nath’s date outfit for episode 38!! she’s still a fan of eye-catching pieces but gone are the days of shiny = best and opts for bold colour pieces. patrick’s course really taught her about colour matching

she started wearing heels bc she feels slightlyyyy insecure about her height but hey it adds to the look

overall like,,,, super happy with her style and herself this is the final high school vie glowup

aesthetics: blazers again!, mom jeans, pencil heels and booties, cute and discreet hair pins, small gold jewelry, high-waisted skirts, flowery and/or silk blouses

somethings never change though, like wearing her golden earrings, the tied up bun, the necklace nath gave her, and the flower watch from her dad. i’ll prob get into her university life fashion but its probably going to be all cotton tops, shorts or sweats, sneakers, and cardigans atm. she really dresses for comfort now and her previous edit is like the most she “casually” dresses up nowadays.

while making this, it kind of occurred to me that her change in fashion corresponds with nath’s: having a force image, trying a new image, finding the best fitting image, which is probably why vie really started liking nath after his first outfit change: she could relate, and saw right through him. that was first time she really saw nath as someone besides the perfect prez.

[swampgallows]

i dont really understand the mentality behind “aces aren’t lgbt... oh i meant cishet aces” like... they’re still aces... if a cis bi person is in a het relationship do they also cease to be bi/lgbt? it just seems like a way of shitting on ace people by couching it in privilege politics

if you dont think aces are lgbt then just say so. but picking and choosing which aces are lgbt “enough” is just a roundabout way of excluding them while trying to save face in terms of intersectionality

asexuality presents a lot of struggles and obstacles that are present regardless of your partner’s gender or your preferences so i dont really see where gender comes in regarding the validity of the asexual experience

although this is an apparently controversial statement, one that has actually caused others to sever their relationship to me, i have endured a lot of the same treatment from both my het and gay partners because i am asexual, and i think it’s a little ignorant to assume the issues to which an ace person would reach out to the lgbt community disappear on the basis of their partner’s gender. i face these issues because i am asexual, because of MY orientation, not my partner’s.

because i can assure you, lying there unable to reciprocate the attention and feelings of my different-gender partner never made them nod “oh yeah, you’re basically straight”. they screamed and cried and asked what was wrong with me, or what was wrong with them. they called me frigid and a bitch and suggested i must have been abused. my doctors referred me to therapy, prescribed me birth control to adjust my hormones without even testing them, and later ran several blood tests hoping to find something wrong with my thyroid. one doctor was bold enough to suggest i needed to learn about my body and use sex toys, that “prince charming isn’t going to come along and fix you��.

and my same-gender partners treated our relationship like it wasn’t real, or “enough”, or as important, if i couldn’t be sexual. “we’re basically just best friends.” no, i am in love with you. but a lot of ace terminology like QPs or zucchinis or even the idea of demi- anything gets trashed on this site, yet it is maintained that love isn’t about sex, that being gay isn’t about what you do behind closed doors, that gay love is not inherently sexual love, and of course it isn’t. yet me holding hands with my same-gender partner, stroking her hair as she falls asleep, is somehow a lesser love if i am asexual. that my love for her isnt real, or is laughable, if i call her my kewpie or zuke instead of my wife or girlfriend, if my love for her doesnt exist in a strictly romantic or sexual sense. “you mean best friends?” i dont know, i generally dont kiss my best friends good night or rest my head on their shoulder with my arms around them or attend all of their family gatherings or spoon naked with them. when i expressed a desire to do these things with a different-gender partner, he deemed them romantic and, since i wasn’t his girlfriend, refused them. but he loved me, and i loved him, and we maintained a long-term relationship of several years, going as far as actually having sex, so i considered him a QP (he liked to pick and choose according to his comforts where the boundaries of exclusivity lied in our relationship, but thats a pity party for another day). but if i have these desires toward another woman, somehow it’s not “enough”, not romantic “enough”, “you’re just best friends” like i dunno dude...

people really like to shit on asexuals but they also love to hide it behind protection of ‘real lgbt’. and it doesnt help that a lot of people claiming to be asexual on this site (whether setting bait or being genuine) say a lot of fucked up homophobic and even racist shit which adds fuel to their fire. 

i just want to be asexual and proud. but i feel like itll be a long uphill battle before i get there.