thinking about childhood best friends to lovers jason. who spent hours in the school library with you, laughing and whispering over textbooks. who took you to prom, because you didnโt have a date and definitely not because he was in love with you. who let you drive his car when you got your license. who refused to let you take the bus as soon as he could drive.
jason, who only applied to colleges you also applied to, so that he wouldnโt have to go to school without you. who convinced bruce to let him have an apartment off-campus, so you could stay with him. who made sure he was in all the same classes as you. who made sure you were never out alone after dark. who helped you study for all of your exams. who took care of you when the flu was going around campus.
jason, who never lets you move out. who reads to you when you get home from a long day at work, your head in his lap. who washes your makeup off for you when youโre too tired. who cooks for you every night and makes sure you have coffee ready when you get up every morning.
jason, who finally asks you out over breakfast one morning. who takes you on dates every friday night. who never misses an anniversary or birthday, who takes you out every valentineโs day. who never shuts up about how lucky he is to have you to anyone who will listen.
- ๐ (apologies for how long this is, iโm sick and have been thinking extensively)
NO ANON BC I HAVE BEEN DAYDREAMING ABOUT THIS ALL DAY
but I've been angsting it.
Because you pick colleges together, but he never gets to go. He lets you drive in his $200,000 car that you were always scared of scratching, but he would reassure you and say he'd fix any damage. That same car was left unused for years. He takes you to prom and you keep the flowers, but you end up leaving the dead flowers at his grave. You would look at two-bedroom apartments together and now you're moving into a single bedroom apartment in the building you always wanted to live in together. He used to write you notes in class which would almost get you caught. Now you wished you saved those notes. The books he used to read to you, you now can't hear quotes from, lest you start crying. He used to help you study for everything and now you swear you don't know how to study alone.
Jason was with you practically every second of every day. What are you supposed to do without him. It's not that there's just a hole in your life. The center of your universe is gone.
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this has probably been coined before but i canโt find the coining post. mind coining / making an alternative flag for transASPD?
โโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโTRANS ASPD
โโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโWhen one identifies as having Antisocial Personality Disorder .
โโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโFor whatever specified / unspeficied reasons .
โโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโTransAbled . TransMental . TransPD . Ect Ect .
โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโIf already coined consider as an alt . Req by @ccalharriss .
โโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโNo DNI . Just be nice / civil about it . Free for anyone .
โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโAs a CisASPD , I love seeing TransASPD cause like -
โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโโ โโโ โโโโwoah people wanna be that ? makes me happy :^)
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Providing more context to my post from yesterday;
If you donโt fully support people in con-abusive relationships and donโt allow THEM to deal with THEIR relationship in the way that THEY BOTH HAVE SAID THAT THEY WISH TO, get off my page full stop.
If you disregard what people ACTUALLY INVOLVED in con-abusive relationships have said about their own situations and how theyโd like them to be handled, get off my page, full stop.
If yโall are getting so worked up about ONE con-abuse relationship on my dash, over a callout post that BOTH PEOPLE INVOLVED have said shows only one, falsely-painted side of the story, youโre extremely lucky I havenโt posted about my relationship with my lovely girlfriend on my main.
Yโall are so annoying. Leave those kids alone.
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so. you wanna start making ug subs (underground subliminals)? let the ex ug sub maker explain some stuff
disclaimer: this is only how to make! this doc is a great starting point for the other things like manifesting and what not
firstly: get your materials
the main thing you need is something to read affirmations. using a tts software is what most, if not all submakers use. i use the software balabolka, which lets you change the pitch, speed, and volume of the text, but free tts and ttsmp3 are websites you can also use, though they do come with usage and character limits, which is a pain if you plan on doing longer and more detailed subs. you can also read out your own affirmations too instead, which might work better depending on what you believe.
the next thing you need is some audio. youtube to mp3 and YtMp3 (beware of viruses) are two of which i used if you have something off youtube you wanna use. i recommend asmr (for those of you that like it) of any type; rain is a common audio choice, but i see slime asmr, clicking asmr, you name it, used too. music is also a good choice, but ive heard that music with lyrics can mess with your subconscious, but all that's limiting you is your own beliefs. also, a critique ive heard on music is that it can get repetitive and you might not want to listen to it over and over if you plan on reusing a subliminal (but then again so can any audio, so who's to say?)
the final thing you need is something to mix the two together. a software like capcut can work, but so can a software like audacity.
optional: something to make the sub into a video with. wanna incorporate your transition goals / desired results as images into your sub? good choice. you can use capcut for that, as thats what ive used.
secondly: writing affs (affirmations)
so now youve got yourself prepared, now comes the main attraction of subliminals: the affirmations. make sure to visualize what you want for the best affs, as it helps with making sure you got everything down and dont accidentally leave out an aff or two you made this whole subliminal around.
now, you can use the law of assumption or law of attraction, but i focus on law of assumption-type affs, as that's what works best for me. here are some base affirmations:
"i have [blank]"
"i have always had [blank]"
"i know i have [blank]"
short and straight to the point affs like this are what ive found to work best personally. dont be afraid to go all out with these, either: your subconscious knows what you want. its very smart. be as detailed as you want.
make as many affs as you see fit, as its your reality you're affirming.
thirdly: mixing the affs + audio
go into the software i assume you have gotten by now and throw those two little mp3s (your affs and audio) into it.
you're gonna wanna make your affs quiet, or at least quieter than the audio, but not mute. the plan with this is that your conscious hears the audio, but your subconscious hears the affirmations and takes it as truth. your conscious is none the wiser. you should set the affs' audio to be just enough to where you yourself can't hear them.
speeding up the affs is a common thing people do (but it might make the affs easier to hear so make sure to relisten to make sure that doesnt happen), but its not an absolute need.
extra: layering affs
layering is putting affirmation audio over another affirmation audio. it can be the same affs, either more sped up, slowed down, or even reversed, or an entirely new set of affs. this can be used to kill two birds with one stone so to speak depending on how you use it, or can make your subliminals stronger / more effective.
extra: bundling subliminals / bundles
bundles are subliminals that combine two subliminals into one mp3. while this might sound like layering, and while it is similar, its taking two completed affs / subs and putting them together (hence bundle) into one mp3. an example would be subliminal x and subliminal y are both about topic z, so they could be bundled into subliminal xy and be "z bundle" (i really hope that made sense)
extra: booster subliminals
booster subliminals (or, "boosters") are made to enhance, speed up, or overall help your results come quicker. this can be achieved by just simply writing affs like "all of my desired results are here already" and bundling / layering it with other subliminal audios (make sure to make as quiet as the affs!!)
extra: formulas
formulas are ways of writing affirmations. some formulas work wonders, and become staples of some sub makers creative process, and because of this, a lot of submakers are protective of it. you can make your own formulas, too, so test out the waters to see which style of affs help you the most!!
extra: angel numbers
angel numbers are the same number that repeats in succession, typically in threes and fours. an example would be 111, 333, 888, 9999, and so on. angel numbers are seen as signs from the universe that your results are coming true as a whole, but each set has their own meanings. you can also choose to assign a certain angel number to assure you of your results, to make sure youre not running into coincidences.
extra: frequencies
certain frequencies can help you attract certain energies. 432Hz can attract happiness, which very helpful when affirming, as happiness helps results come faster, in my experience.
anyways, this has been arsyn's official tutorial on sub making!! remember, you can manifest anything you want. keep believing. stay safe
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just thought about sitting beside a sleeping diluc. the rare times he's lying down before you, you take it as an opportunity to lull him to sleep. so you run your finger on the apples of his cheeks before you cup the side of his face. and when you give him a chaste kiss on his forehead?
he smiles.
his eyes are still closed, because he doesn't want to disturb his own peace. he doesn't want to disturb the moment. so you press more and more and more kisses on his face until he chuckles at you, sleepy eyes so lovestruck that it makes you want to give him affection forever.
he takes your hand that's been cupping his face, presses his lips on the inside of your wrist, and brings you down to cuddle with him. it's so rare to have a happy, peaceful, infatuated diluc. so he tucks you under his chin in the hopes of staying that way forever.
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