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fmk-polls · 10 months

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Ask box is open and I am taking poll suggestions

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droppingartintotheinfinite · 1 month

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when the dysphoria hits amirite

#squared sprites must get insane dysphoria like can you imagine #and for davepeta especially they’re getting the triple whammy of having components who are different species /and/ different genders #and there’s also just a random fucking bird in there #forever pissed that hussie immediately killed them off instead of picking their brain apart a little #like it leaves more room for headcanon but they deserved so much better they’re so interesting #art #sketch #digital art #fanart #homestuck #davepetasprite^2 #davepeta #phase 57

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iconsumethesoulsofthedamned · 7 months

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Me when I get voice dysphoria and am scared my voice is too high pitched and feminine but the part I can sing best in les’mis is javerts-

#like ok noted #my voice is actually rather deep #it’s so funny #watch me struggle to sing Marius’s bits in one day more #but I kill stars every time #it’s my passion #he is my passion #les mis #les miserables #javert #personal #trans #trans ftm #voice dysphoria

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megumi-fm · 6 months

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11/18 days of habit

and... I got my period. it's been a weird day overall but I really tried my best 😩✊😔 hopefully tomorrow is better

🍶 ~ 3L of water and I'm still dehydrated 📵 ~ 2.5 hrs + 4hrs of being on a call with my besties 🌙 ~ 7 hours // 7:30am wake

💻 did some work ig 👟 tried a new choreo! // it was pretty easy to learn but it's gonna take a while to perfect, especially if I'm attempting to recreate the dance gods themselves

yeah. that's it for today, hoping the pain subsides by tomorrow ✌ gnight besties!

#did i spend more than an hour moving around despite the debilitating cramps? yes. did it kill me? also yes #but for me movement helps with the dysphoria so yeah i'll tolerate the pain #studyspo #queued #18dayht #studyblr

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revenancy · 5 days

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don't mind me, just casually ruining my life in episodes of mania

#a lot of stuff has happened over the last summer #it's hard to explain #but basically i have one year to save as much money as i can so if i need to leave this relationship #(again)#i have resources #i HAD resources but then i came back #lost everything #but honestly i have a year to decide if i'm going to disappear or not #and i'm also realizing i am way more trans than i thought i was #my body dysphoria is fucking killing me

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yardsards · 10 months

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transgender dysphoria blues is one of those albums where halfway through you slowly lose the ability to sing along to it and just start bellowing wordlessly because even screaming along to the lyrics can't get all the feelings the music is giving you out of your system

#eliot posts #i like listening to it in the car on the long drive home from my parents' house #it's on long stretches of barren highway so no one can hear me scream #also bc i need catharsis after seeing my parents #i strongly recommend this album if you haven't heard it yet #but like trigger warning for... basically fucking everything under the sun #heavy emphasis on themes of transphobia and self harm and death but other stuff too #like dysphoria death suicide exploitation sex #prolly more im forgetting #but god. it's so fucking good and cathartic for me i am insane over it #it's a very good punk rock album w lyrical themes that kill me dead in a good way

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chaoticgouda · 2 years

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#nonbinary #(saved this bc the first tweet op posted felt mean and made me uncomfortable)#but I still wanted to vent about this because what is restraint and boundaries online amirite #so here we go again:#I feel uncomfortable being called my irl name everywhere except at work and I feel like that’s bc the worksona i crafted #is so irontight that I’m fine being a Lady there but it low-key rankles me anywhere else #idk if that’s a gender thing or just a case of apathy and extreme alienation from myself though #I’d rather die than ever talk to my co-workers about other pronouns or anything though bc the gossip would spread throughout work within-#the hour. and it’s not like people would be really awkward about it (I hope) because I think I’m generally liked by my coworkers. but I’d #hate to be pitied or misunderstood. and it’s not like i have dysphoria or anything so I don’t personally feel justified in calling myself #trans. I’m just alienated from womanhood. but that could also be because i don’t have an interest in most socially-expected ‘woman things’#and bc I’m not mentally well or het. and that inherently separates you from the expected Girl Experience.#this is really rambly and nonsensical okay I guess if I really thought about it I’d love to be called Krill by everyone because it has less #baggage and feels more like me. but i’m not necessarily upset at being called my RL name. I don’t have dysphoria I just have mild ick.#like I’d prefer being considered a They and not being expected to be any gender at all. but it doesn’t kill me inside y’know #it’s fine.#if you read through this weird personal ramble then thanks ig?

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aroacesigma · 4 months

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what is it about working on my assessment that has me spiralling into every single bad thought about every bad thing in my life

#ramblings #my life is genuinely not worth living and nothing is ever going to get better and why do i even try at this point #what am i doing this all for #like who the fuck am i kidding. im not going to get a good life after school #im going to rot in this useless fucking body because ive got zero balls to do anything about this fucking gender dysphoria #and then im probably going to kill myself or just go through the rest of my life completely depressed if i dont have the guts for that #so literally why am i trying why do i care about all this #like who gives a flying fuck about getting good grades im literally never going to be happy #this isnt going to make me happy its just stressing me out more i should just stop fucking caring #nothings ever going to get better anyway #vent

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seeveekat · 4 months

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#vent #im literally at the point where i think the best way to to deal with my dysphoria is to just kill myself #because I'll never be able to transition #its just a fact and really im tired a pretending there's hope #and its not just the costs or the fact i keep getting barred by medical racism and Medical fatphobia #but also the fact that that if i do transition I'll basically be homeless #and also more and more i realize that i also dont feel safe in alot of transmasc/transmen/general trans spaces #since so many of them that i come across still uphold bioessntialism and european beauty standards #and pust such an emphasis on passing and “passing the right way”#like I'll literally never be like them

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sherlock-is-ace · 1 year

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#argentina saw trump and went ''yeah we want one of those!''...#this absolutely insane man might become president and fully ruin the country (more than it already is)#which is never fun but even worse when you're queer...#today i'm glad i'm living with dysphoria every day but haven't started T #because as sad and absolutely awful as what i'm about to say is...#i can pretend to be a cis woman for safety...#which is a HORRIBLE thing to say or do #but i don't have to put myself out there trying to get hrt or anything like that #or legally change my name and gender mark while looking like i look... that might get me killed or something #bare in mind everything i'm saying A. hasn't happened yet #and B. is being said by someone with an anxiety disorder who can't see hope right now... so take it with a grain of salt #i'm just scared and i don't like the state of the world right now...#and we were somewhat safe in some aspects here and we're so close to losing them now #i'm scared and hate it here but i'm also broke and can't leave so...#we are where we are where we are i guess #angel talks #personal #sorry for the politics... i'm not going to start posting politics #the point of my blog is to escape the hell that is the real world... but i needed to vent and also you know me i love screaming at the void

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kulvefaggoth · 6 months

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"girl" who wasn't posted a single image of herself for months: why is no one ever interested in me? :c

#to be fair people were barely interested in me when they saw me anyway #it's just that the dysphoria is hitting stratospheric levels now and i'm not really recognizing myself in this body #i need to start hrt yesterday but it will still be a few months until i can get a first appointment on the public system 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#just one more teeny tiny way being poor is making me wanna kill myself

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dar1ing-d0ve · 6 months

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ive literally haven't had a consistent period in years why am i NOW starting to get them monthly 😭 like pls I was happy having a uterus that didn't work why must you betray me like this body

#ana bllog #ana trigger #tw ana diary #ed not ed sheeran #ana rant #is it obvious im not happy with the period weight im gaining #my cravings are going wild rn #not to mention the gender dysphoria is killing me #like pls what happened to my high amounts of testosterone #body i already hate you why must you make me hate you more

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be-gay-do-crime-ahaha · 7 months

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Holy fucking shit the dysphoria is dysphoria-ing right now. I feel physically nauseous oh my fucking god. I’m gonna fucking kill someone maybe myself rn I’m gonna lose my shit holy hell.

Doesn’t help that I’ve been incredibly overstimulated the past few days every sound is like a fucking cheese grater in my ears oh my god.

#dysphoria #gender dysphoria #sensory processing disorder #tw emetophobia #for the nausea mention #idk if that’s needed or not #but yeah I’m about to tear off my fucking skin and jump off a building I am losing my fucking mind #it’s so over #lmao my brain is fucked i genuinely wanna off myself over this shit #and my mother keeps refusing to even entertain the idea of getting my name changed on the school role #even though all my teachers and friends call me Alex and that’s what I’ve been going by for a few years now #and it would make things significantly easier for everyone because it would fix my email name as well #so that’s not helping #and she was talking about my period and being all “it’s okay all WOMEN get these ❤️ you’re just becoming a beautiful woman #and now she keep being rude to my sister because she uses men’s deodorant (because it works better) and doesn’t really wear dresses #(because she finds them annoying and inconvenient)#and is being all “hurr durr you’re copying your SISTER stop being so masculine”#like fucking hell #shit talking me and harassing my sister all at once #man I want to fucking kill myself im so done with this shit #and I’m so overdue on school work and I feel so overwhelmed and stressed this fucking sucks #and I know the school work and stuff is fully my fault for forgetting and slacking off but I can’t bring myself to do them because the #stress of fucking up and just how much of it I have to do is pushing me to my damn limit #I can’t even bring myself to start on my film and media assignment that’s a week overdue because I’m so fucking stressed just thinking about #it and I’m so overwhelmed I can’t fucking do this. I just can’t. and I know I’m at fault for procrastinating and being too lazy and stressed #to bring myself to start working on it #and things are just gonna get more and more difficult #so yeah. rant over I guess. sorry guys #did not mean to rant in the tags this much dysphoria is just killing me and so is general stress #tw suicidal thoughts

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nightfallsystem · 9 months

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"what if you regret it" my god i literally dotn care. if i do something and regret it its my fault and i just learn from the experience. but identifying as male has made me so happy and being called a girl ruins my day if not entire week

if i choose to transition after looking at all the side effects, things that can go wrong, etc. then thats kind of my fault anyway

and the transition regret rate is like 1%

#''but youre too young!!'' IVE TRIED TO KILL MYSELF SO MANY TIMES. i HAVE SCARRING ALL OVER ME. IM PRETTY FUCKING SURE THIS WILL HELP #i have literally cut open my chest because of dysphoria dont pretend you know more than me about what im feeling #IF MY MOTHER GETS IN THE WAY OF ME .#or if she abuses me .#i am just SICK OF HER #tw self harm #tw vent

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mx-paint · 1 year

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Never get tired of blocking fascists but claiming that trans genocide is good because it stops gay genocide isn't the serve you think it is

#actual gay men will tell you that your transphobia influences their own transphobia #anyways. claiming that trans kids having dysphoria and attempting to get help for it is mutilation #and comparing doctors to nazis #is WILD #transphobia tw #genocide tw #nazi tw #idiot tw #like ik theyre only a pond in a ocean but seeing so many people agree is what influences hate #claiming that doctors are a regime bc they attempt to give kids help is leading you to the right and closer to the nazis you compare us to #and saying the left is a disease bc you dont like that adults And children is what gets us to where we are now #bc the radfems are leaning more right everyday and ik you hate the people youre claiming to care about by saying its for our own good #but trying to make it less obvious by claiming its 'for the disabled children' is obviously working or else their wouldnt be so many #in agreement #i worry for the state of the world if they think that kids killing themselves is better than them going on hormone blockers #just for the chance they might be cis #like. you and the anti trans doctors your supporting #are making it more and more obvious you never interracted with any of the groups your claiming to want to 'help'#and the fact they always have the 'im SUPER RELIGIOUS YOULL NEVER MEET SOMEONE CLOSER TO GOD THAN ME' in their bios. yeah.

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callixton · 10 months

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what if i got into make up

#i want to look pretty. tbh #(he WILL have dysphoria if he tries)#not in a like. glam make up way in an artsy way yknow #idk i’m also going through a weird moment of would i be more attractive if i hadn’t transitioned. but i also would’ve wanted to kill myself #so the answer is no #i still need my hair to grow out SO BAD but that’s separate i just do not vibe with this length at all #ted talks

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