interesting observation i just made about my aromanticism….
when cuddling with someone, something in theory i am totally comfortable with, it’s the Absence of any kind of ‘excitement’ that means, for me, that i ‘have feelings’ for someone - by that, i more mean platonic, (non-sexual) sensual attraction and feelings.
for example, when i cuddle someone and my heart is beating out of its chest… something people would say is nerves because you like someone, or something alone the lines of that, for me… that’s just pure nerves and anxiety. it’s because i’m cuddling someone i’m not totally okay with being affectionate with, or built up to that at all.
meanwhile, if i am completely calm… i’m not thinking about anything else, my heart rate is calm, i’m not worried about my breathing or my positioning… i’m comfortable. this is someone i am more than happy to be in this position with because i have the feelings and attraction towards them that make me desire such an act….
does that make sense??? idk. it sounds ridiculous. it also kind of fucks me up because there is ONE person in this world who has made me feel calm and safe and comfortable in such a situation and they are…. i just don’t really know if they would commit to me the same way i would to them…! so. yeah…!
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tumblr feels like its rly winding down .... even just compared to this time last yr it seems a lot emptier. many OG ppl have left because of all the changes but none of the new users stuck around either, since most of them only joined out of kneejerk reactionary response to twitter shit. so now staff is scrambling to accelerationism whats left of the site into an unrecognizable web3.0 homunculus of itself bcus of pressure from shareholders..i imagine financially its in pretty dire straights as they seem to feel they have nothing to lose by constantly pissing off the remaining dwindling userbase. & i mean, the people who r still here well we're basicLly a captive audience at this point anyway, due to lack of options.. for me i feel like im just kinda coming to acceptance that my online life is reaching its natural end & overall im fine with that bcus ive watched the decay for so long now i been somewhat prepared. but i will always miss how fun, hopeful, carefree, the internet used to b,....
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I had a bit of time to boot a game today, and said 'to hell with it, we ball' and my choice was Bleak Faith Forsaken. It's a souslike (not my first genre choice by far), and the controls are... Unique, at least they feel that way to me now, but none of those reasons are why I have been thinking about trying this game for a looooooong time.
The Art Direction is.
and it's S u p e r b right away.
Also the goddamn SOUNDTRACK HOLY SHIT
this is what the tutorial boss sound like.
anyway maybe look up Bleak Faith Forsaken. It is rough in places for sure, but this feels like a diamond in the rough in terms of vibe, art and music.
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idk man like… I’m not surprised, and disappointed is a strong word, but I’m kinda raising my eyebrows at how we’ve gotten more than halfway through s6 titles and have absolutely nothing that we didn’t know already
like sure, arc 2 is clearly the “Callum and Rayla” arc because you can see starting from s4 that episode titles 90% reference whichever plot thread is centered on them when there’s usually a minimum of three plotlines going at once like no wonder no one takes the Sunfire arc seriously, by the episode titles you wouldn’t even know its going on
obviously not every episode can be an Infantis Sanguine, but looking back at s1-s3 there’s a healthy number of episodes where what’s going on with Callum and Rayla is actually the B-plot, with the title reflecting another plot thread in a way that would spark a lot of speculation presented out of context, and we’re just not getting that here
so yeah fully half the episode titles for s6 being woooOOOooo Callum and Rayla are going to/at the Starscraper is getting kinda… yes, we KNOW, them approaching the starscraper was literally the first glimpse of s6 we got
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Yknow if were talking about rarepairs/crackships….how about Sammy/Grant? Listen hear me out- i think I started shipping them a few years ago back during the og fandom days, but since my interest in bendy has been reignited, so has my interest in this ship lol. And im ngl, have you ever noticed how similar Grant’s office is to Sammy’s Sanctuary? They both play that same whispering effect when you enter them, they both have an ink pipe in them, they both have a bendy item in them (sammys bendy plushie and grants bendy clock), both have writing on the wall…
Even just beyond that, its implied they died the same way too, from drinking ink? And how they both seem to put the blame on others for joeys mistreatment (sammys whole “useless sheep” bit in that newspaper and grants “STOP THE WASTERS!!” bit on his office walls). and even though theres like, BARELY ANY GRANT CONTENT IN CANON, he does have a minor connection to the ink demon, as one of the flashbacks in chapter 1 is of the ink demon on level S near his office, and although this probably doesnt mean anything, the fact that the first time we see sammys cult is when we open the door to the archives via a handle we had to get from grants office specifically….👀
Plus just the miscellaneous stuff like grants va being a musician, one whose song was specially placed in sammys office- idk, *marge voice* I just think they’re neat! :)
THATS AN INTERESTING ONE… I’ve seen it around a fair bit lately but it feels recent??
Before I dive in, I do wanna address the ink-drinking – I’m a little biased, since I tend to headcanon the ink-drinking as unique to Sammy, but I feel like Grant also drinking ink is not something that’s implied so much as a headcanon that got popular? We can pretty easily accept that Grant transformed at SOME point, and the shared whispers imply that they were both under some inky influence, but that doesn’t tell us that ink-drinking was to blame. The note in BatDR about Grant looking ill could certainly be used for an ink-drinking headcanon, too, but as far as Evidence I think all it tells us for sure is that Grant was Very Stressed. [also trying to merge BatDR Grant and BatIM Grant into one entity seems messier the longer I think about it but I CANT GET DISTRACTED BY THAT NOW, THATS FOR ANOTHER POST]
ANYWAY, all the little things about this one having a valve in that one’s office and this one being voiced by a guy who did a song that’s in the other one’s office are neat but ultimately I feel like that stuff isn’t want sells a ship, for me – the biggest thing is a compelling dynamic between the characters.
There’s so much between these two that complicates them –
-- good money and hiring his own people were Sammy’s two big asks when he took the Music Director job, so he could easily be a source of financial strain and seen as one of the “wasters” Grant is so frustrated with, and it’s also not hard to imagine Sammy blaming Grant as one of the useless sheep who can’t do his job right once paychecks start coming in late. Add to that Grant being described as having no creativity at all in the Employee’s Handbook, and trying to imagine what he would relate to in Sammy “my special interest is music” Lawrence. Though I don’t know, that one could be fun. Does Grant like music despite not “getting” it? Can Sammy and Grant relate to each other through the intersection of music and math? Or does Grant just conceptualise music as a kind of math, which Joey thinks is boring but Sammy knows is not far off, and Sammy with his partially jazz background is INTRIGUING to Grant because what he’s making sounds good but isn’t following the rules…? IDK, Grant and Sammy learning to understand each other through understanding each other’s work is a neat thought.
On the surface they’re both frustrated men who want things to be under control and are frustrated with Joey’s spontaneity, but while Grant is having a meltdown over WHAT WILL JOEY SAY?, Sammy is screaming about pleasing a god rather than a man and certain that he’s found the one who will Set Them Free. Grant’s characterisation could be taken in a lot of directions, but it’s not hard to imagine him as the phobic to Sammy’s counterphobic.
Which is INTERESTING, because you get a dynamic that seems to work, as Sammy gives the impression of a leader who can offer certainty and something to depend on – and you CAN depend on him – but he’s actually a follower at heart who desperately needs someone to answer to, someone to believe in, and I don’t know if Grant can be that someone. Sammy and Grant BOTH want to be the one behind the scenes with someone else in the spotlight. On the other hand… we know Grant’s massaging numbers and fudging things and illegally hiding assets. It wouldn’t be hard to characterise him with a bit of ruthlessness as well, someone who’s not afraid to break the rules when he feels he has to; while Sammy seems frustrated, overstimulated, and perpetually at odds with a system he doesn’t fit in, Grant is willing to learn the system well enough to bend the rules to his advantage and know how to get away with it.
If you go with this take, you get a pair that could be dangerously effective but also dangerously fragile. I don’t think they would challenge or change each other so much as just reinforce each other’s ruthless caution – as long as they’re in cahoots, they’d be loyal to each other and value no principle above each others’ well-being. But the instant either of them mistrusts the other, they’d combust.
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