#(nosy anon game)

[springonmytraptillicomeback]

7 + 8 !!!

7: Have tattoos?

Nope

8: Want any tattoos?

I honestly really really want spring lock scar tattoos… :,)

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[zorosdimples]

Childhood career choice?

hi sweet violet!!!

38: my childhood career choice

in kindergarten i was obsessed with the idea of being a painter—i had a specific (stereotypical) vision in my mind that i would constantly draw: myself with long, flowing hair, a beret perched atop my head, a paintbrush and paint palette in hand, standing in front of an easel with a large canvas. by the time i got to first grade, i wanted to be a marine biologist, and i held onto that dream for several years. i was obsessed with dolphins and nurse sharks in particular! dolphins are still some of my favorite animals 😌

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[lmskitty]

For the nosy anon game : 1, 15, 21, 39....

Thank you for the ask!

1. Age - 31!

15. Favourite movie - there's so many to choose from but I'm gonna go with Everything Everywhere All At Once. It made me SOB.

21. What I love most about myself? - kindness. People told me to be meaner when I was younger and I'm glad I didn't. There's nothing wrong with hoping for the best for people and if they make you regret that it shows more on them for hurting you not on you for choosing to care for them. I've been through some horrible stuff and I think it's made me care more rather than bottle up and I think that's a good thing.

39. My favourite ice cream flavour - mint choc chip or Phish Food Ben and Jerry's!

[r0ttingsystem]

18, 33, 41, for the game

18: Most traumatic experience

Oh god too many to pick from- uhh but I think being abused to then point of forgetting everything about ourselves (including our age to an extent) takes the cake

33: What words make me feel the best about myself

Tbh don't know how to answer this

41: Where I want to be right now

With my son, preferably giving him a hug

[triassictriserratops]

17. someone you miss

In response to this ask game:

There are two people I miss with my whole heart.

My late fiance, who was my best friend and my partner in every way. Who made me smile and laugh like nothing and nobody else in my life. The first person on this entire earth that put me first. That cared about my joy and happiness as equally as their own. Who showed me what it was to love and BE LOVED selflessly. I could talk about them for hours, they were truly the kindest person on this earth and the world will never know just how much it lost when they died.

The second person is me. A part of me died right along with them that day. And After nearly 5 years of recovery and fighting to WANT to live - I'm only starting to get pieces of her back. And even then, she'll never be the same. I'll never be the same. And I hope I'll love the person i'm healing into, but god i REALLY loved the person i was. I fought hard to be her. I was so proud of her in every way.

But when you live your life one day (some days, one minute) at a time, there isn't room for the dreams and the goals you had before.

I was an athlete. I ran races and was training for my first marathon at Disney World. (I was specifically training for the Dopey Challenge) I was two weeks away from the trip when they died.

The DAY after they died, I received notice that I had qualified as a USA competitor in the Spartan Trifecta Championship in Greece.

I stopped running, i stopped living, I stopped dreaming. And it's taken a long, long time but I'm FINALLY starting to see bits of myself again. Bits of HER again. (That's a big part of what doing lyra and pole dancing means to me, and why i've started posting those videos and sharing that journey!)

[nightmaretherabbit]

11: Best friend?

I have a lot of best friends!! At least I think they're my best friends. Here's the people that come to mind

@pyro-thon @firecurls-27 @zibiscusloon @hey-imma-fangirl @oleander-witch @springonmytraptillicomeback @chaos-ace @purplemang0z @two-vampires-kissing @/marshmallow-biscuit-blog @its-actually-ash

@zenitsufanwhoissilly and my girlfriend!! There's others but I don't know if they consider me a friend or best friend so yeah:>

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[rubeslovesthesmiths]

0, 32, 33 (for the nosy anons thing)

I'm 5'4 (if I round up)

Words that hurt me the most: you hurt me, I hate you, who would wanna be ur friend, you're a narcissistic bitch, we aren't best friends I just made you think that, you'll never make friends, you'll never get a best friend, everyone hates you, it's all your fault, you aren't enough for me, I just liked you as a joke, you're undeserving of love, go die, you can't draw or sing or act and all your passions will end in failure, you got a b+, you're a failure

Words that make me feel the bezt: you're one of my closest friends, we're best friends and it's okay that you asked it we were, *insert a compliment on my singing voice*, this is what you remind me of, I love you, it'll be okay, I wanna help you, I care about you, I git this cause it reminded me of you

[coldmori]

Nosy Anon Things:

Sunny & Omori & Hero & Kel 23

Everyone 27

🎻:

...

we used to get along.. but the recital came and then she.. left..?

..

i don't understand why she left.. or where she went..

maybe i wasn't good enough...

🔪:

perfect.

🍳:

kel's always been my motivation to keep going, I don't think I would've made it without his help.

i've been striving to be more like kel, since he's always so happy all the time and he's a lot more fit than me

🏀:

..

I thought that him leaving would mean ma and pa would pay more attention to me, but even when sally wasn't around they just.. didn't care?

I never had much skill in school, and though they congratulated me on my sports achievements it never sounded as excited as when hero did something science-y or math-y

I love hero, but it's hard to live up to him..

I missed him when he said he was leaving but now that I know my parents don't care about me, even after he leaves, I just wish he'd come back even more

at least he was someone to play mario kart with

!

haha

sorry.. rambling

hero is great!

🎻:

don't... like anyone...

...

i dont dream about kissing anyone.. or cuddling anyone.. or hugging him.. or telling him i love him.. or borrowing his sweater.. or us living together.. mmm..

🏀:

I don't really like anyone, but I would say that my type is...

uhh..

well..

i talk a lot so i'd like someone who was more like a listener, yeah?

and i think dark hair is nice...

like.. black hair..

and like, I guess like..

y'know kinda shorter, and-

I-I guess like very- very black aesthetic, like,

m-my, like, whole thing is very- i like bright colors and i think it would be fun if-if someome was just my opposite, y'know? opposites attract?

so like short and dark colors and a listener.. and short hair cause i have longer hair, for a boy.. and

..

and pale..

and..

..

uh..

🎀:

description: my girlfriend

🌱:

haha..

this is just a ploy to get me to reveal my crush!

i-it's not gunna work! that secret is safe with me!

... haha.. secret... yeah..

🍳:

please stop reminding me of her..

🧺:

hehe

you already know the answer silly!

[angst-is-love-angst-is-life]

0, 7, 8, 15, 21, 38, and 43 for the nosy asks?

Thanks! Nosy ask game

0: Height: 5’7

7: Have tattoos?: Nope. Want them though (and plan to. When I have more money lmao)

8: Want any tattoos?: Yup! Ao3 symbol atm and maybe a lightning bolt for Flash. We shall see

15: Favorite movie: Ummmmmmm *sweats nervously in Doesn’t Really Watch Movies Much Anymore* Probably Captain America Winter Soldier. I fucking adore that movie

21: What I love most about myself: My passion for the things I love. I love that I’m incapable of being Normal about things; it makes me happy :D

38: My childhood career choice: *whistles* I had. A Lot. But most notable are Paleontologist (dinosaur kid things) and spy (lol yeah)

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately: *laughs in asexual* but Hailee Steinfeld

[sportsthoughts]

Sorry if I missed this lore drop previously, but how'd you get into the Pens? I love your gifs and positivity that you bring to the lb!

Buckle up anon. I thought about one line answering this but I enjoy the phrase 'lore drop' so much I think you deserve the deep dive. It'll take a while to get to the pens but you asked for lore so...

I have been sportsthoughts on tumblr since 2015 ish - maybe slightly earlier - and this has always been a sportsblr/sports rpf-y type blog in various iterations.

This blog was originally used for liveblogging UK Premier League and La Liga football matches. I have always been a huge football fan (my childhood team is Arsenal - north London forever ❤️ etc etc) and when I moved away to university at 18 none of my new friends were into sports and I really missed watching games with my family.

Finding other likeminded fans online who were also watching games and liveblogging them was such a beautiful experience and I have amazing memories of 2015-2018ish when I was a very active football blog, spent a lot of the time in the Arsenal/FC Barcelona communities here and had some beautiful trips to Barca.

I do have a sideblog where I still dabble in that space but in truth I very rarely liveblog football anymore because nowadays it's returned to being something I watch with friends and family so I'm not on my phone during games.

Here's where the pens come in - sort of. I've scrolled back through my AO3 bookmarks and can see in 2015 I also got into sports RPF for the first time. There are some incredible football RPF fics out there (let me know if you'd like some recs!). Somehow - probably through raiding people's bookmarks - in early 2015 I ended up reading a Sid/Geno fic called And Never Been Kissed and I was absolutely hooked. At the time of reading this I had:

1. Never watched a game of hockey in my life (side note, I don't think I can understate how little hockey coverage there is in the UK. Even the most ardent sports fan would probably not be able to name a single NHL player or team. Not even Sid! Not even Gretzky!)

2. I had no idea, nor any desire to look up who these people actually were. It was just like reading really well written original fiction.

For the next 7 years I thoroughly enjoyed hockey RPF and created (in my mind) entire personalities and appearances for Sid and Geno, along with all the other 'characters I came across regularly in hockey fic. Sid, I got pretty close to the mark. Geno, not so much. One day I will try and find some reference pictures for what I thought they looked like because it’s quite hilarious. When I re-read fics I love from during that time I laugh because I remember my Sid and Geno and how different they were from reality.

So, hockey was sort of in my life from 2015 but exclusively in the form of fics. I would scroll through the actual hockey bits of works because I didn’t understand the rules and why every single fic was an AU where professional sports people were allowed to fight each other mid game.

At this point I’d left university, and because I no longer liveblogged football games, I found I really missed sports fandom. Another sport I grew up watching and loving was Formula 1 so when lockdown hit in March 2020 I started liveblogging F1 races to pass the time (and still do sometimes - now over on @vroomlive). I loved/still love F1blr, but it didn't quite fill my fandom itch because:

1. We joke about it, but F1 is a deeply unserious sport run by a dire organisation (Liberty Media). They change the rules every week and it's managed badly to the point of being comical. There have been a few major cock ups over the years (including the 2021 championship literally being taken away from the rightful winner and given to someone else. To put this in hockey terms: imagine a completely valid goal being overruled in the last 5 minutes of the Stanley Cup final and then the ref deciding to give the other team a 5 on 3 powerplay Just Because) all of this is quite disheartening for long term fans - and has resulted in quite a fractured and angsty fandom.

2. There are only about 20 F1 races a year - so it's just not a sport that's on regularly. I love sports, and I want to watch sports all the time - so a sport that only gave me content every third weekend or so just wasn't really enough for me.

At this point, when I was feeling rather sports fandom bankrupt, the wonderful work of Sid/Geno writers and the influence of the tumblr dashboard converged. I worked this out by scouring my AO3 bookmarks - in April 2021 I read a Sid/Geno fic called Game Plan that I fell head over heels for. I’m still not quite sure what about this fic grasped me so deeply but I started reading a lot more hockey RPF.

Around the same time an F1 blog I followed started posting about Mat Barzal All. The. Time. I had no interest in this man and did not know he was a hockey player but over the course of about a year I became vaguely exposed to hockey content on Tumblr through that blog, and at some point in early 2022, saw Sid on my dash for the first time. I don’t remember the exact post but I remember seeing the name, doing a double take and thinking oh Shit! That’s Sidney Crosby from fanfiction! I was flabbergasted because in my mind Sid was in his early 20s tops, so seeing this early thirties, bearded, fat bottomed man on my dash and realising that that was Sid was such a shock. 

My hockey lurker era lasted from mid 2022 to early 2023 and I spent a lot of time, um, lurking. That sounds so creepy. I suppose I had never thought about actively joining a fandom before because my fandom engagement (one direction > football > f1) had all happened really organically so actually choosing to join a space as an adult was quite an interesting process.

By summer of 2023 my husband’s job changed again meaning he works away from home most weeknights and suddenly my late nights were extremely free because I’d hang out with friends and then go home at 10/11 to an empty house which I hated. I really found myself wanting to make fandom friends and have an at home hobby I could do late at night before going to bed so taking on a sport that happened 12am-2am (timezones!) seemed like a good fit. 

Alongside this on a totally separate track was my longstanding interest in fandom - most of my professional work/research is pretty standard psychotherapy stuff but I’ve done a little bit of work over the last few years looking at sex therapy (not as sexy as it sounds) and I have a real interest in the role that fandom and especially shipping/fic plays in shaping and expressing sexuality. It’s a bit of a back burner research topic for now but I suppose over the years researching fic and expressions of sexuality via fandom and shipping has just made me fall in love with fandom itself a little bit.

Plus having lurked around the edges of hockeyblr for a while I was just like, yeah, I really want in on this, this seems like an awesome community. The reason why I chose the pens was pretty straightforward - I felt like I knew Sid and Geno and after exploring the real life hockey, I, like most of us, was quite struck by who Sid is as a person and was just completely enchanted. Another side note - hilariously, when my husband first saw a picture of Sid last year he immediately said “Oh, he looks like me!” - do with that information what you wish. 

I really eagerly awaited the start of the 2023 season and without sounding too soppy, had already fallen in love with you guys before I ever watched a live hockey game. Every fandom has its difficult corners (pensblr included!) but I can honestly say - especially after the chaos of spending my teenage years knee deep in 1D fandom and my early and mid twenties in various parts of sportsblr - being part of this space has been the most lovely, fun, friendly, lighthearted, positive and beautiful fandom experience I’ve ever had. I feel like it’s the goldilocks zone of all the previous fandoms I’ve been in and I love it.

So yeah! That is the extremely long winded answer to your question, anon. I hope this is the ‘lore drop’ you were looking for lol

TLDR: I stumbled my way through sportsblr until I accidentally ended up here and I’m never leaving.

[fishwithtitz]

Nosey anon!

7, 43, 44 😜

Thank you, anon! You're the tits.

7: Have tattoos?

I have a full color peacock feather on the top of my foot. I have plans for a dahlia piece and a greco/roman portrait.

43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately

Shit, just one? Because I immediately had flashes of Popia in the military jacket, Terzo with the spats, and Noah Sebastian. Or my fiance when he calls me 'good girl'

44: A random fact about anything Opossums have cloacas.

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[0m0-0m0]

Why do you seem so apathetic?

Why are you so nosy?

If you keep asking the wrong questions, you might be met with some ū̴͖n̶̥̭̾̀ẁ̵̻̰̦͊̿a̸̞̮̽ň̶̨̳ͅt̷̎̈͜͠e̷̝̯͖̒̐̄d̵̥͒ answers.

[zorosdimples]

25 and 33 for thee ask game <3

romy omy omyyy <333

25: my idea of a perfect date

answered this one right here <3

33: what words make me feel the best about myself

ohhhh i hate questions like this; they’re so hard for me to answer! um… if we’re talking compliments-wise—what sorts of things that make my heart sing—they’re pretty simple: intelligent, creative, funny, kind, talented, beautiful (i am not immune to appearance based compliments)… words like that make me feel good about myself!

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[sashi-ya]

nosy anon #16

16: I’ll love you if… you buy me a ticket to japan ✈ haha jk, i already love you for taking the time to ask me :3 💚

[triassictriserratops]

Being nosy :) 12, 16 and/or 43?

In response to this ask game: I'll give you all three! (Also, sorry, apparently i'm just not capable of giving short answers. It's either a lore drop or it's nothing - i have no in-between. Feel free to just read the tl;dr's! 12: Relationship status (TL;DR - In a relationship) After my fiance died in December of 2019, I was adamant that I wouldn't rush into moving on. I refused to allow myself to trauma bond with anyone, or to fall into anything less than the loving and gentle relationship I had before. It wasn't worth it to me to be with someone just because I was in pain and wanted comfort. And let me tell you, grieving during that first year of COVID was lonely beyond anything else. Being locked down with no community, no family, no support during the worst time of my life almost drove me to the brink several times. I did meet someone about a year after my partner's passing. And this person was wonderful in every way. Would have been a wonderful potential partner. They matched my energy, we got along so well. Honestly, in many ways they were my ideal partner. But, after a few weeks of just dating, I had to admit to myself, and to them, that I just wasn't ready. At that point in time I wasn't planning any tomorrows. Life was a day-to-day thing for me. And I just couldn't invite someone else into that. I didn't want to make another person my reason to WANT to live. I had to find that on my own. I wanted to find my own reason - outside of anyone else. Just within me. And, depressingly, if I did lose that mental health battle - i didn't want to cause anyone else the grief I'd experienced of losing a partner to suicide. I didn't want to continue a chain of pain like that. So I told this person that I wasn't ready and they were sad, but they ultimately understood. We're still really great friends to this day. After cut to 3 1/2 years later. 4 1/2 years since my fiance's passing. 4 1/2 years of hardcore therapy for PTSD, CPTSD, depression, grief, etc. Years of trying to find my reason. Trying to either reignite old or light new dreams and goals. 4 1/2 years of learning to laugh again, learning to dream again. Learning to love again. Learning to WANT again. I felt ready. I did all of the dating app stuff. (And lemme tell you, i took that shit seriously not at ALL.) And I met someone who saw my absurd humor and matched my ante. We've now been together for about 5 months. His name is Boyfriend™ and he is an absolutely kind man who treats me with the utmost care, respect, and consideration. He's willing to sit and listen to my broken pieces. He wants to be a part of this life in which I smile and laugh again. Who makes me my favorite soup when i'm sick and drives out of his way to deliver it. (Soup that hasn't been made for me since I was a little girl.) He understands that I come with and oversized semi full of baggage, but he's willing to respectfully support me while I continue to rebuild myself. I have a cheerleader in my successes and a partner in my hardships. I have no doubt in my heart that this is someone my previous partner might have handpicked from the universe.

16: I’ll love you if (TL;DR - you gotta make me laugh, spreadsheets, and small acts of selfless consideration) You gotta commit to the bit. And I mean REALLY commit to the bit. My late fiance wrote a RESUME and PRINTED IT OUT to hand out to my FRIENDS. They APPLIED to date me. Wore a suit and everything.

My current partner handwrote me personal letters and mailed them while he was abroad in Europe this summer, like he was a soldier away at war. He is currently watching all of Crazy Ex Girlfriend and is willingly submitting to an exam (with essay questions) by @vasilissadragomir once he's done. (he's on season 4 now) I once dated someone who wrote a 3 page essay about why George Washington was a fuckboi. with citations. in mla format. (including one fake citation that led to a website she MADE just to back up her claims. EVERYTHING was clickable and led to something else, including fake websites for the fake researchers. If you commit to the bit, I'll commit to you. Also? Spreadsheets. Spreadsheets are my love language. I'm a lady in the streets but a pivot freak in the spreadsheets. My late partner and I kept spreadsheets for EVERYTHING. We tracked all of the races I was running, which ones they were running with me, my training plan, how they would support me before/during/after each race. We kept a spreadsheet of grad school applications, due dates, requirements, etc, with working date plans and co-working time scheduled in, so I could support them by body doubling. We tracked all of the movies and shows we watched/were watching/wanted to watch. We tracked all of the activities, conventions, and trips we wanted to plan - we rated them after they were completed, kept itineraries, changed itineraries when something more fun popped up. We kept a spreadsheet called Dates & Dragons with a constantly randomized list of date activity/restaurant choices. Whenever we couldn't decide what we wanted to do, we'd roll a 20 sided die. Whatever it landed on - that's what we'd do. They even made a spreadsheet of all of the things they'd liked about me when we started dating and awarded each item points. Created a point system whereby I could trade said points in for baked goods.

Like I said. Commit to the bit. 💚🦕 Our life and goals together are still in those spreadsheets and I hold them dear to me forever. Finally, small acts of considerate affection. My late fiance used to wake up every day and make the bed with me. They didn't believe in making beds, said it didn't make sense - you were just going to mess it up again anyways. But they knew that it mattered to me. They knew that to me, it was important to come home to a neatly made bed. It made me feel good and feel a sense of peace to lay down on a neatly made bed. So they did it. I never once asked. They just always, always did. They'd bring my little rocks, or my favorite treats, or a sticker or pencil - anything if they thought i'd like it. They'd stop what they were doing in the middle of the day just to tell me that I was loved and they just had to make sure I knew it. They learned to say my name. In Spanish. Correctly. They wrote a list of everything I loved and everything I didn't. A list of my favorite colors, authors, musicians. A list of my clothing sizes and my general preferences. All so they could pull ideas from that list whenever they just felt like doing something nice for me. Love is a verb. And it's not always a loud verb. Sometimes it's as quiet as making a bed. Love is a verb and they're the ones who taught me that. (sidenote, Boyfriend™ is an absolute wonder at small acts of considerate affection. 12/10 at pebbling. 💚I'd accept nothing less.) 43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately This one is a twofer, i literally can't choose between them. Korra and Asami. Those two could spit on me and I'd thank them.

[nightmaretherabbit]

36, 38, 44

36: Where I would like to live

Uhm idk. Wherever my girlfriend wants to go I'll go with her. <3

38: My childhood career choice

When I was 2 or 3 I said I wanted to be a Paleontologist

44: A random fact about anything

Did you know a group of bunnies is called a fluffle?

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