#...ok there is one and only one exception to that.

[poofmagictrick]

Thoughts on TADC episode 5

ITS FINALLY HERE. This episode was genuinely soooo worth the wait!! Before the episode drop, I've been theorizing and commenting on what this episode will lead to. So glad to see that goose's writing exceeded my expectations, she did a great job developing mainly jax and ragatha this episode. On that note, THEIR DYNAMIC IS STARTING TO REVEAL ITSELF AND I WAS SO HAPPY WATCHING IT UNFOLD AND DEVELOP THROUGHOUT THE EPISODE AAA

In the episode, Jax seems to warm up to Pomni throughout the whole episode which a lot of people including myself were spot on about that. Jax starts to chill around Pomni and make jokes, not being the usual mean jerk everyone thinks of him as.

Although that adventure was shorter compared to the other adventures cramped together, it stands out so much in terms of character moments for Jax and Ragatha. When Ragatha whispers "not anymore," and the way jax looks at her like she had the audacity to talk.

I theorise that next episode they'll possibly explain what happened to Jax's friend. Not sure if during the intermission time, the door Jax stops at of an ex circus member was possibly his close friends but I can't wait until we get told more about that!!

Anyways, another scene that stood out to me was the bar scene (fooled us all into thinking it was a mafia adventure lol). Where Jax ACTUALLY apologises to Pomni of all members for what he did today. Pomni is taken aback by this similarly to episode 4, the Spudsy's adventure, where it was the 1st time we see them talk 1on1. (Can I just mention I'm so glad we get to see more of Zooble too tho?!? They're able to do something that they once enjoyed in their past life too!). Now the highlight and I'm sure everyone and their mother will be talking about this is the massive lore drop of each of the circus members past lives before being transported to the circus! Except for Kinger and Gangle who we've known have mentioned briefly about what they've done. But I mainly wanna focus on Ragatha's past life and how it ties into her general behavior.

Ok bear with me here cuz I'm gonna ramble endlessly about it lol. So Ragatha mentions having grown up in a financially stable family who owned livestock (which could be a huge farm that's well known which may be why they're fairly well-off). The moment she started to talk about her mother who verbally abused her and guilt tripped her back then, her body starts to tense up. God knows what kind of abuse besides verbal did her mother do to her as it's shown she clearly didn't enjoy remembering it all and even the other circus members including who jax looked really concerned for her.

I related to her so much in this scene because of this, when you grow up with a parent who guilt tripped, verbally abused you, one of the many ways you would cope is to vow to never be like that and be nothing like what your parents were before. So you try to be the opposite of them. While there is nothing wrong with wanting to be diff and prevent yourself from becoming just like your parents, but being nice may not always make you genuine to other people. It's just like what Jax and Gangle have mentioned about Ragatha that she tries too hard to hard and when you tell people they're loved and what not it loses its meaning. When you keep saying these things to people its hard to tell if they're being genuine.

They're probably the only ones to have been the most aware of this coping mechanism that Ragatha uses as a way to cope with the trauma of her verbally abusive mother. Ragatha doesn't know how to connect with the other circus members, so to do that she tries to be nice by helping them, encouraging and many other things. It's kinda like she's almost giving them so much of her love she's afraid they'll stop talking to her the moment she stops being all nice and loving to them. In fact, later in the softball adventure when Ragatha gets to sit together with pomni and have the 3rd (?) heart to heart talk scene in thsi entire episode, Pomni tells her "It's ok to let out your negative emotions sometimes and we all kinda have to be a jerk sometimes."

But Ragatha doesn't want to be like that because it likely just makes her be reminded of her mother back in her past life.

People like Ragatha who tend to be nice to everyone ends up being extremely lonely despite that. But it's kinda sad because ultimately she just wants someone to be close with and connect with someone. She tried with Gangle, possibly Zooble, Jax even though she hates him, Kinger and now Pomni. One could probably say Pomni is aware that Ragatha is tryna warm up to her and get her to be her friend but the way Ragatha and Pomni interact is pretty distant. While Jax the whole epsiode laughs with Pomni and even opens up with her.

I'm gonna credit @zoshizick for this point they made where they theorise Jax and Ragatha will be fighting for Pomni like a toy they want so badly. Not in a romantic sense, but both R&J are incredibly lonely people and just want someone to talk to. That's when the new girl (Pomni) comes into the picture and they both are so desperate to win her attention. For instance in the bar scene when Jax grabs Pomni and says obnoxiously "WOW, the first steps of a budding friendship. Right Ragatha." As if to purposefully annoy her and of course she looks at him like she's about to explode.

I wanna add on and say that Jax and Ragatha know that they hate each other but don't want to admit that they are both two sides of the same coin. It makes their character all the more deeper and complex cuz really who would they both fight for to be their friend? Zooble? She's distant with everybody except for Gangle but they're both already friends so nope. Gangle? She gets bullied by Jax and doesn't like him and she's kinda friends with Ragatha? but she's with her likely because rags defends Gangle from Jax. Kinger? Jax isn't that close with Kinger and just thinks of him as weird and Ragatha is fine with him but wouldn't seem like someone she would open up to like Kinger doesn't remember what they were even talking about 1 second ago unless in darkness. That leaves Pomni, the neutral person in the whole circus who hasn't made any connections yet. I think the next episode will raise the stakes with R&J's cold war of winning Pomni's friendship. While Ragatha does hates Jax, I don't think Jax really hates Ragatha all that much just probs want her to be herself more. Possibly even wanting to get to know her cuz they're not as lonely as they realise they are, just that they refuse to talk it out is all.

I think that's all I gotta say and amazing work from the team, animators and other people who worked on the episode!! I hope ya'll can understand by endless rambling about all of this as I was super hyped about the episode and the day it dropped although a day late to the party haha. Gosh my hands are in pain from typing this long.

[oh-no-its-bird]

Actually so attached to the mental image of team ro Tenzo, Shisui and Itachi trailing after team captain Kakashi like a trio of lost ducks.

Tbf, it's mostly Tenzo and Itachi projecting the lost duck energy, but Shisui also delights in being there. So it's like,

Itachi and Tenzo: Genuinely trailing behind Kakashi like lost puppies.

Shisui: Trailing behind Itachi and Tenzo projecting the same aura but mostly because he thinks this is the funniest thing ever

Kakashi: Denying to his dying breath that these guys are wet eyed ducklings trailing behind him like he's their mother (except Shisui, who he will occasionally acknowledge the behavior of only because he KNOWS Shisui is doing it to fuck with him. However he knows the other two are serious about it and will thus refuse to admit this is his reality ever.)

I think when they hang out or train out of masks together, it's in secluded or private places (probably in compliance with whatever ANBU privacy/subtlety rules have to exist about what context teams can hang out together under) So very few people have the proper context of seeing them all together. Especially bc, during this time, Kakashi is in that 16-18 year old doom spiral. He's starting to ease out of the depression, but his title of Friend Killer Kakashi still follows him, and he works overtime to avoid people and crowds.

So anyways that means no one really knows ab his little entourage, which means funny realization moments when people DO see them in public together.

(Someone remind me later to do a '5 times someone realized Kakashi had become a teen mother + 1 time Kakashi realized himself' fic later, that'd be so fucking funny)

The only one to be fully aware of Kakashi's little ducklings is Gai, who's been lucky enough to spot them all together more than once (mostly bc he's one of the only people Kakashi will willingly exist around for more than 10 minutes at a time when out of uniform) Otherwise, there's a handful of people who know of team Ro's attitude towards KKS (separately) Like Genma (subject to Shisui and Tenzo) and Kurenai (subject to Itachi)

"Kakashi," Kurenai asked. "Why are you hanging out with a toddler?"

Kakashi cocked his head. "I don't know. Itachi, why am I hanging out with a toddler?"

"Mother asked you to give me advice on working with my elder teammates." Itachi responded without missing a beat, and Kakashi nodded in approval.

"There you have it."

In general, I think Kakashi is probably spotted with Tenzo the most out of anyone on the team. He's like, basically his handler once he's out of ROOT, very invested in his personhood and general existence for several (political and personal) reasons, and has taken to trying to teach him how to be a real boy and whatnot now that he's in the real world. They're also close in age, and unlike Shisui (who's also close in age), Tenzo is very quiet and genuine in his respect for Kakashi. So Kakashi can genuinely just enjoy existing near Tenzo in silence without worry.

Tenzo is probably the lowkey favorite, which Itachi and Shisui are NOT bitter about, they promise.

(Shisui is actually p ok w that, he thinks Tenzo deserves it after all the shit he's been through and is happy for the clear comfort Kakashi brings to his life.

Itachi refuses to admit he's jealous ever, but years later when he is an actual, literal terrorist who hasn't seen his teammates in years, when he sees Tenzo again, he will hit him extra hard w a genjutsu special with a vague sense of satisfaction and the specific thoughts of, 'being captains favorite won't save you now, will it.')

Anyways the entire point of this post was that I want someone (possibly Genma) to refer to the members of team ro as "Kakashi's ducklings" because it'd would be funny to me personally.

That's it, end of post. Thank u for ur time.

[darqx]

And if time's elimination then we got nothing to lose

Some more BP/non-RAD asks!

I HAD TO CUT THIS POST SHORT BECAUSE IT EXCEEDED 30 SCREENSHOTS/IMAGES

Oh I love food related questions they're just so fun to consider haha. I've done something like this with other desserts but not ice cream, so here are some either "signature" or "vibe" flavours:

Izm: Mint Choc Chip (invigorating/refreshing, somewhat confusing)

.D: Fresh Strawberry (tart with an underlying sweetness)

Zeke: Butter Pecan (warm and "homey")

Wei Ren: Lychee (subtle and smart; rounded in many notes)

Marcus: Vanilla (simple and unobtrusive. Easily fits with anything)

Rire: Lavender Earl Grey, OR Black Sesame (considered mature/sophisticated flavour profiles. Also one contains tea so...)

Eid: Mango coconut (natural sweetness)

Desmond: Rainbow (looks crazy and like it contains 15 different chemicals)

Caleb: Matcha (polarising. Also I'm one of those people that can only taste the bitterness in green tea and get no other flavour nuance so there's that |D)

Isla: Chocolate (either double or dark for the richer profile - comforting and popular)

Grimshaw: Cherry Amaretto (sharp, tangy and lightly bitter/boozy)

Oh they don't create portals; the power gives them the ability to traverse naturally existing ones. It is a rare "randomly generated" cross-demon species power (ie any individual demon could be born with it), with the exception of soul-stealer species like Rire's who are 100% always born with it.

That doesn't mean they all inherently know how to use it though and like any skill it needs to be learnt, which in itself is pretty dangerous and few undertake it on purpose. Rire got kind of scary good at navigating the Gates which is an open secret in the Nether.

Oh thank you! 🥰 Simply put, the core friend group is .D, Izm, Zeke, Ren and Marcus who start off as strangers to found family. Antagonists include Rire and Caleb and a few others that crop up.

Eid, Mu and Grimshaw are in a different plotline that technically runs at the same time. But it would be a different "book" to the main BP story and something I'm considering drawing after the "end" of the main story. Which is terrible because i'm already theorising about it now |D

You'll just have to read it when it comes out to find out hmm!

DHJGBDHJGBDHG OK I HAD TO TAKE THIS ONE OUT OF MY INBOX COS IT WAS FRICKING HILARIOUS XD

I'll just use the main BP characs for this one!

.D: Thaumiel lol do you see what i did there

Izm: Keter

Zeke: Euclid

Wei Ren: Euclid (or Archon)

Marcus: Euclid (Safe) Listen if you applied the box test with Marcus he's not getting out on his own but he will have everyone else breaking him out.

Rire: Keter

Was sorely tempted to make Rire an Apollyon but by himself he's not dangerous enough to be in that category so I'm being realistic here lol.

And here's a nicer one lol

My listening of Gorillaz songs was limited to very specific songs / time period so these are from the ones i'm familiar with XD

.D: Dirty Harry

Izm: Feel Good Inc. / Demon Days

Zeke: 19-2000 (radio remix)

Wei Ren: Clint Eastwood

Marcus: On Melancholy Hill

Rire: DARE

I would love to make another game but it would be vastly different to a VN lol. In fact i did have an idea for a random one ages ago that i might do one day 🤔 in like the yr 3000 maybe

HH is not lost media, they're just one shot comics mostly about the HH version interactions/relationships/a mood so there's technically no storyline to them XD "Technically" because if you noticed some "common points" in some of the one shots it pointed to a storyline forming in the bg but i never actually developed it for people to read properly lol.

As for BP, well...

🎉 I FINALLY STARTED ACTUALLY DRAWING IT LMAO HALLELUJAH FINALLY. Haven't posted them anywhere yet though. Creating a bit of a buffer first ~

Thanks! ^^ The demon and human cultures in BP are pretty separated from each other, so the demons in the Nether don't/cant (though some might bring back ideas) whereas the demons that live on/can visit Earth do. Also yes there are some elements of our world in there, though maybe slightly diff like how in anime you can find WcDonalds lol.

Yes...and no lol. I will explain what i mean by this at some point in the story but it's not actually important to the story tbh.

Skipping this question because it can't be answered in the context of BP due to (1) XD Also BROOO you'll just have to read the comic whenever it comes out to see what happens XDD

I've been good thanks! Though i feel like i have been losing track of time a lot more recently, like where the heck are all these days going?! I blink and it's been a month. I'm pretty sure i've said this exact same thing word for word somewhere else 😩 help

Aw Anon, I hope this can also make you smile! :D

Context: set in the villain dad!AU i have with some friends XD Grimshaw is texting Cortez (friend's charac) who is the melodramatic father of Eid's bestie Mu (other friend's charac). Cortez does not like Grimshaw and they are always low key fighting with each other, but Grimshaw gets along well with the rest of Cortez's family much to the latter's chagrin.

I mean, wouldnt this just be them in like their school uniforms? XD

I look like this but less cute lol

You may but please remember to credit me for them :) Also i think it goes without saying that you can't like...make adoptables or whatever out of them.

[thedumbbrunette]

TADC EPISODE 5 THOUGHTS AND SPOILERS!!! pt. 1

"Candy Hearts and Paper Flowers" - The Raggedy Ann and Andy reference is from Caine this time??

HOLY RENDERING

Caine has a Beesona

Caine is getting angrier

Hearing Jax reference having a Mom is so weird

Jax acting like a animal count: 1 (Poacher's Paradise)

On Kinger's brief it says "NOTE: NO FUNNY BUSINESS! DON'T EMBARRASS THE PRESIDENT OF THIS GREAT NATION! >:(" This is really interesting to me because it's already flattering(?) to Pomni that Jax thought a "position of power suited her" but the fact that he gave everyone briefs EXCEPT Pomni that said not to embarrass her. It's solid proof how much Jax wants Pomni to enjoy the adventure. (Probably cuz he doesn't want her to abstract like the Frog guy) You could also say that Jax is being mean by not giving Pomni a brief but I think it just proves that he wants to be the only one allowed to mess with her.

There are 3 books on the shelf in the White House that just have names on them, "Holly", "Effie" and "Frank".. a little interesting...

On the desk behind Pomni's in the Oval Office, there is a picture of Jax in a tie and hat, a picture of Ragatha made of... cardboard? and a picture of an abstracted circus member (i feel like thats definitely the frog again if this is from Jax's mind

"HI! I"M A NEW ZEALAND EXTREMIST"

God, bubble looks so good in this one

Gaslight District art in the Anime classroom

"C/G x P" on the blocks behind Gangle

More Jax trying to be Pomni's bff

Ragatha figurine reference

Jax doesn't feel like he's acting anymore (Stargazing scene)

"Why are you always pretending everything's always fine? If you tell someone they're loved and appreciated everyday it just- kinda loses all meaning." I think its really interesting that Jax says this as if he's speaking to Rags even though he isn't. He's clearly thought through what he wants to say to her. I think this quote also shows that he isn't sick of Ragatha, he's just sick of her fake constantly cheery persona. He wants to feel appreciated by her, he just feels like she never means it when she says it. (Also, I don't think there's some dark evil Ragatha whose entire persona is fake, I do think she is naturally cheery and friendly, but she pushes herself to be like that all the time and Jax sees through it and is sick of it)

"ALSO SHE'S DUMB AND SHE LOOKS WEIRD" is obv Jax trying to cover up his genuine thinking about it - back to the persona.

"EXPLAIN TO DADDY BUBBLE"

"you should through a FUCKING beach party"

Words cannot explain how much I love the intermission- its like the dancing fruits on steroroids

OK in the intermission- at some point, Pomni, Jax, Gangle, Ragatha, and Kinger are lined up and Pomni and Jax have bowling balls above their head which subsequently squish them. Gangle and Ragatha have cakes that fall on them, and Kinger also has a bowling ball. I have very little clue what this means. My only idea is that it represents that only something really strong could take out Jax or Pomni, while Ragatha and Gangle are more fragile and could get taken out by something way less heavy. I don't know if this will parallel end-of-series events or if it even matters at all. Also Kinger isn't crushed by the ball, but rather taken out by a rook, showing that perhaps he's the mentally strongest (even though he's crazy, he's survived the longest), however, something out of left field could affect him big time. All this being said - where is zooble?

Jax running (away from his past?) but stopping at Ribbit's door- yikes. There are abstraction eyes all around and I think its fair to say that Jax played some role in his abstraction.

Jax saying "ah a youtuber" was like earth shattering because I asssumed this was like 90's-00's, but does help us paint a timeline, and so we know that Jax joined recently enough for Urban Exploration to be a youtube thing

"Hiding somethinggggg-" "You'd know all about that, wouldn't you?' God I love Zooble, but yeah more confirmation that he's hiding something

Jax referencing Breaking Bad and Ragatha not getting it also helps establish a timeline- we know Jax joined 2008 or later, but the fact that Ragatha doesn't get it means she was either there before that or has 0 pop culture knowledge

Ragatha talking about her life even though no one asked- she tries to be there for everyone but no one cares about her

Ragatha says she did real estate, but if she joined around the same time Jax might have (2008), thats when the Great Recession was going on, so not a great time to be a real estate agent, this could have caused her to leave her job and end up at the circus.

Also, Jax's sad face when Rags talks about her abusive mother- realizing that that might be the reason she feels she needs to be perfect all the time.

OK im gonna post a part two, thank you for reading this far! i'd love to know your thoughts!

[dee-writes-anime]

Hi! I love ur writing if u can't already tell😭 Can you do a dadzawa one where he misses his daughters middle school graduation ceremony? Like he can tell she was super excited when she first mentioned it to him but tries to play it off the day after he misses it, trying to tell him she's ok when she's very obviously not😭

He saw a villain on his way there but didn't realize just how strong he was and ends up missing it. Uncle Mic goes tho and he's sort of blowing up his phone the whole time, but he ends up having to drive her home since aizawa never comes.

Please and thank you! 🧡

You Didn't Miss Much

FEATURING Shouta Aizawa x Reader (PLATONIC)

SUMMARY you just graduated from middle school, you can hear the caws of Uncle Mic in the crowd, but... your dad isn't there.

CONTENT WARNINGS aizawa being a shitty dad, disapointment, uncle mic is trying his best, a damn erasure charm, and a middle school (wince) graduation

AUTHORS NOTE That little erasure charm now lives in my head forever.

The worst part wasn’t even that he didn’t show up. It was that I kept waiting.

Every time the big gym doors opened, I looked up. Every time a parent came in late, I sat a little straighter in my folding chair, fingers squeezing the edge of my program so hard it got crinkled. My eyes hurt from trying not to cry. My cheeks ached from smiling too much.

My name got called. I walked across the stage. I smiled at the teachers and the audience and Uncle Mic who had his phone camera up and both his arms in the air like he was cheering at a concert.

And I still looked for him in the crowd.

I still kept hoping.

I still wanted him to be there—to see me, to say I looked nice, to ruffle my hair or give me that small half-smile he does when he’s proud but too tired to say it out loud.

But the seat next to Uncle Mic stayed empty.

Even when all the clapping was over.

Even when we were walking out into the hallway with all the other families and their balloons and flowers and hugs.

Even when the sky was turning pink and gold and everything smelled like summer and sweat and cafeteria cupcakes.

Even when it was just me and Uncle Mic.

Even then—I still waited.

The car ride home with Uncle Mic is quiet at first, like neither of us knows how to start peeling off the Band-Aid. My dress itches, the cheap fabric clinging to the back of my thighs where sweat stuck it down during the endless ceremony, and my curls have gone limp from the heat. I keep tugging at the sleeves of my little white cardigan, trying not to cry.

Not because he didn’t show up.

Because I really thought he would.

I twist the charm bracelet on my wrist—silver, clinking softly, a gift from Uncle Mic before the ceremony started. One of the little pendants is shaped like an eraser. I think he meant it to be funny. I almost laughed.

Instead, I stared at the empty seat next to him.

Instead, I watched everyone else’s parents stand, clap, take pictures, and wave.

I don’t ask where he is. I already know.

Uncle Mic's phone kept buzzing in his hand the whole time. He would look down, eyes darting over the screen with the kind of tight frown he only gets when he’s really worried. He tried to play it off, kept clapping extra hard and snapping photos with one hand. But I saw. I heard the words villain sighting and on his way when he leaned over to whisper to the teacher helping organize everything.

And when it was all over… he drove me home.

Just like that.

No “Hey, your dad’s meeting us,” no “Let’s wait a little longer.”

Just silence. A quiet car. A soft "I'm proud of you, kid."

And then later, before I got out, “You were incredible,” his voice tried really hard to sound upbeat. “You walked like a total pro! I swear, you had the best posture outta everyone in that row. Way better than that Natsuki kid who kept chewing gum like a cow.”

I smiled, small. “Thanks, Uncle Mic.”

“I mean it,” he said. “Proud of you. Real proud.”

“…Thanks.”

It’s not his fault.

It’s not anyone’s fault, really.

Except maybe mine—for still hoping.

When the door creaks open the next morning, I’m sitting at the kitchen table pretending to eat cereal I never poured milk into. The front lock clicks and the sound of boots on hardwood makes my shoulders flinch before I can help it. I keep my eyes glued to the half-soggy cereal as I hear the low grunt of exhaustion.

He’s home.

Aizawa—Dad—drags himself into the kitchen like a man two seconds from collapsing. There’s blood crusted in the crook of his elbow, a tear in the side of his capture weapon, and dark rings under his eyes deeper than usual. His whole body is a stitched-together sigh.

He pauses in the doorway when he sees me.

“…Hey,” he says.

I glance up. Force a smile. “Hey.”

He doesn’t move at first. Just stands there, trying to read me. His eyes flick down to my clothes—still wearing the white cardigan over pajamas—and then to the photos Uncle Mic left on the table. He picks one up. I watch his fingers tremble just slightly.

“You looked nice,” he says after a beat.

I shrug one shoulder. “Thanks.”

He swallows. “I meant to—”

“I know.”

Another smile. Another lie.

I shove a spoonful of dry cereal into my mouth. It scratches on the way down. Silence hangs like mist, thick and clinging. He finally pulls out the chair across from me and sits. His posture is more slumped than usual. I think he knows he shouldn’t talk yet.

But then he does.

“I didn’t think the villain would put up a fight like that,” he mutters, voice hoarse. “Figured I could handle it, be there on time.”

“It’s okay.”

“It’s not.”

I meet his eyes for real then. And he looks so tired. Like he didn’t sleep. Like he didn’t breathe until now. There’s something breaking behind his eyes—guilt, or grief, or maybe just that kind of deep regret he never says out loud.

“I saw your messages,” he says, voice barely above a whisper. “Heard Hizashi’s voicemails. I wanted to call. I just—”

“You were saving people.”

“I was missing you.”

My throat tightens. I push my cereal bowl away. He watches the gesture, eyes narrowing a bit like he knows I’m about to shut down. I always do. Always have.

“It’s not a big deal,” I say, standing up. “I mean… you’ll be at my high school graduation, right?”

He flinches.

I wince.

I didn’t mean to say it like that.

I wrap my arms around myself, tugging the sleeves of my cardigan down over my wrists again. It’s silent for another long second, and then—

“Come here.”

His voice is quiet. Almost unsure.

I hesitate. And then walk over anyway.

He pulls me into a hug. Slow. Gentle. Not the usual half-hearted one-armed thing he does when he’s tired. This one is full, wrapped all the way around me, arms pressing tight like if he lets go, I’ll vanish.

“You’re allowed to be mad at me,” he says into my hair.

I nod against his shoulder. “I know.”

“You’re allowed to be hurt.”

“I’m not.”

“You are.”

His voice breaks a little. And mine breaks right with it.

“I waited the whole time,” I whisper. “Even after everyone left. I kept thinking… any second now… you'd come around the corner or call my name or—”

“I know.”

“I didn’t want to walk off that stage alone.”

“You didn’t,” he murmurs. “Hizashi was there.”

“But he’s not you.”

He swallows again. I feel it. The way his breath hitches. The way his hand presses the back of my head just a little tighter, cradling it. Like he’s scared I’ll fall apart completely.

“I’ll never be able to take it back,” he says. “But I’ll spend the rest of my life making sure you never feel that way again.”

My fingers twist into the fabric of his shirt. I nod against him.

“I just wanted you to be proud.”

He pulls back to look at me. His hand finds my chin, thumb brushing the corner of my eye where I didn’t even realize I’d been crying.

“I’m proud of you every single day,” he says. “Even the days I don’t say it. Especially the days I should’ve.”

I laugh a little—wet and wobbly.

“…Even when I spill cereal and cry about it?”

He exhales something like a laugh, something like a sob. “Especially then.”

[iron-sides]

ok ive seen a couple team predictions for s7 and i want to do one too except some of these definitely aren't happening i just think they could be fun ^_^ (under a cut bc i yap)

ROZAMROSEFLAME!!!!! zamrose is my number one team priority this season i need them to team so bad... Please...... 🙏 if only so oz and i can finally reach our full joint-crashout potential 🙏

also zams said she wants to team with ro and I LOVE YOU SOLARFLARE!!!! so theyre here also..... i believe in rozamroseflame.....

okay leaf sold me on pangi-derap-mapicc 😭 cringeduo teamup is basically my best-case scenario for minimizing how much derap i personally am exposed to however i would end up watching this team if mape was there . the thing is i do think mapicc would (hopefully) be more likely compared to zam to call derap on at least some of his shit and i do think it would be interesting to see a derap-mapicc teamup after deraps who Thing about mapicc in season 6......

hear me out. i love quickdrop duo. i love whatever mane & woogie have going on. bacon is The hater and imo woogie has the haters soul also. idk pentar thatt well BUT i heard in s5 he made a point of making sure to jump more than jumper after she betrayed the void ponies and thats such a petty hater move he also contains both much whimsey and much haterism i think. i could take or leave him on this team specifically tho tbh. i could also take or leave spep on this team honestly bc again idk him well but from what ive seen speps capable of great whimsey and great vindictiveness (see: his iou) and thats exacehat i was going for here

listen. i have see VERY little of s5. but between jumpers abyss betrayal and pentars smp civ 1 and pentar going out of his way to get more jumps than jumpers i think this could be SO fun . or a lot of drama mostly a lot of drama and i LOVE drama 😭

awesome squidswag couple and evil intimidating wemmbu. squiddo & her boyfriend & her ex boss that she doesnt rlly like. iirc they made up in s6 but i still think this could be fun & they could do extraordinary evil which would be!! super fun!! :D alternatively:

jumper and her wife and her wife's boyfriend.... need i say more?

okay i was talking before s6 even ended about how fun this team could be and i stand by it tbh. squidzamrose..... zam wants to do an evil arc iirc, and squiddos down for evil but uses Very different methods compared to zam which i think would be an interesting tension. ALSO i think sticking hannah this team would be beautiful bc shes a very moral player and would end up in the very princezamish position of being caught between her loyalty to her team and her loyalty to her morals. and tbh i think shed choose her team which would be CRAZY for zam to see amd i think that would be fun ^_^ this is like 1/3rd of the zamrose s7 team appeal to me in every variation you see on this post, but i think its the most emphasized here bc of the tension between squiddos evil methods of hacking and exploits and zams evil which still refuses both of those

listen. zams said she doesnt want to team w mape in s7 BUT shes ALSO said mapicc would probably want to team with her..... i love devotions i love zamrose i love hanmape this would be very beautiful for me personally. hannah might be stuck third wheeling a little bit but as devotions strongest warrior idk if she would mind that much 😭 i also think mapicc would add a different Interesting Layer to my aforementioned Zamrose Tension because hes super down to be evil and he has just as much of a loyalty thing as hannah. so then you have in mapicc the trait that zam has that hannah doesnt (ability to be evil) And the trait that hannah has that zam doesnt (ability to put morals aside for the sake of loyalty to the team). idk i think it would be interesting ^_^

anyway. last but not least:

i just want hannah to have chungi teammates idk it would be fun. i want her to Have to get mean bc she needs to get hearts for her team who are always loosing them. i want her to have two to four chungus teammates i dont care a tonnn who but i love crashouts i loved hannah & jepexx in the finale and i just think squiddo and spoke are fun idk theres no hard-and-fast logic here. i just think if i cant have zamrose teammates idk like for hannahs team to be both Fairly Big and worse than her at pvp just to put her in an awkward position where shed be forced By her loyalty to her team to grow in her evil skills. i really want a hannah preying on the weak arc and i think hannah preying on the weak to protect her team who are weak would be awesome !!

[nishipostitz]

how they fell for you

notes before we go: i wrote this at like 1-4 am so pls be nice :3 hopefully you guys enjoy!! 4.5k words.

tw! atsumu might be a creep. mentions of food and kind of unhealthy eating and living habits (not major). and kind of rushed stories.

atsumu

so i had this idea that this is him, and i cant see anyone else acting like this, except from a select few. 

he was driving around in his car and waiting at a stop light while absentmindedly staring around waiting for it to turn green. he just so happened to turn and look at the crowd walking past his car, and he laid his eyes on you. someone so beautiful. you were laughing with your friend while walking and turned away to wipe away your tears of joy. then– you made very short eye contact with atsumu. his heart stopped and his eyes were sucked into your own – however it only lasted 0.0001 seconds because you just turned towards him (and he’s delusional) – and his trance was interrupted by cars behind him honking at him to go. atsumu knew he had to find you and find a way to ask you out on a date. 

he knew his very actions were concerning and stalker-ish, but he just had to get to know you. so he followed you and your friend with his car. it’s not like you and your friend weren’t aware. hell yeah you were both aware. not only was a car following you in “incognito” mode, but it was an expensive car – a ferrari SF90 stradale to be exact. you both didn’t know what to do other than confront the creep. at least it’s a rich creep? he noticed your halt in movement and took that as a welcome signal. so he parked and ducked his head to exit his car. your friend and you were ready to square up if anything. your arms were crossed and your friend was already elbow deep in her bag holding onto her labubu (she’s just a girl). “yk what, he’s kinda fine. take one for the team” your friend whispered lowly at you. “is it bad i wouldn’t oppose of that idea?” you replied. 

but alas the jokes and whispers came to an end when atsumu slowly started getting closer. 

atsumu walked up with artificial confidence (shocker) because this is his first time; creeping on someone, yearning, and going up to someone for the first time because he was interested in them. his steps towards you got shorter, his stride had a stutter, and when he finally reached within 5 feet of you, he tripped on his own feet and tried to play it off cool. “hah, sorry. name’s atsumu and i was just drivin’ by” you and your friend gave each other a look. “ik it’s abrupt and all, and i’m glad you guys stopped. although i dint think i was that obvious” he nervously chuckles and rubs his neck. “i have never done that before, and i would not condone this any other time and– ok i’m gettin’ off track. lemme restart. hello ladies, name’s atsumu, and would you give me the pleasure in knowin’ yur names?”

you exchanged names and atsumu smiles on the inside. replaying your name in his head at least a couple hundred times before you interrupt “and what do you want with us?” cocking your eyebrow and trying to seem tough. cute. atsumu thinks. “well, i saw ya at a light a couple blocks away and i just couldn’t stop thinkin’ of ya”. you blushed and your friend’s danger radar is fluctuating. is this a good guy or just a creep? “you couldn’t stop thinking of me? am i supposed to be flattered?” he’s taken aback. he probably did sound creepy but he doesn’t know how to make the situation better. “listen, ‘m sorry if it sounds like ‘m jus’ some creep from the streets” “mmh hmm” “but i swear. ‘s all good intentions. i jus’ wanted to ask you on a date is all. if you would allow me the pleasure, that is” his voice lowers while nearing his sentence. you didn’t know if you should enjoy and agree since this is still a stranger – hot one at that – but it’s all spinning to quick for you. “here” he hands you a card, “this has my contact info, for if yer interested” you take his card while eyeing him. “mmh ok, thanks” you reply, a bit drier than you wanted to. awkward silence bubbles up after a few seconds and he takes that as a sign to leave. “u-uh well-” he trips on his feet “i’ll leave ya ladies to yurselves! stay safe yall” and he jogs away awkwardly. 

once his back is turned and his car is away, your friend nudges you with her elbow. “so? are you gonna accept the offer?” you ponder on the thought. “wellll, he is pretty fine, and he’s rich” your friend nods. “however his wealth can be fake, like renting the car-” “so you want to see him again” “no i didn’t necessarily say that. but it wouldn’t be too bad. from that, he seems harmless” your friend agrees again. “well maybe you should give the guy a chance. he gave you his card so the ball is in your court”. she has a point. he wasn’t like the other sheep-brained sleaze from your campus who would try to add their number on your phone. “yeah i guess i’ll give him the chance. but you’re coming with me, but in real incognito” your friend agrees. “we’ll show him how incognito is really done.” so now fast forward. atsumu’s loser behavior is told at every gathering. your engagement party, wedding (vows), baby shower, your kid’s first birthday, anywhere where it can be mentioned, it’s talked about. is atsumu embarrassed? yeah. would he do what he did again? in a heart beat. because if he hadn’t mustered up the courage on that day, he wouldn’t have met you. and a future without you in it, is not the future he wishes to live in. 

akaashi

you were loaded. stupidly rich. your family would joke how you have a bottomless wallet. true. however, it’s also because your wallet is always getting filled up really quick as if it’s nothing. the only downside is that you don’t have as much free time as you’d wish you did (too busy girl bossing out there). you loved to enjoy good food, and loved to try new foods. however trying new food from different restaurants can be time consuming, and you’re not always in the mood to cook new dishes, nor have the time to. your best option was to hire a private chef. 

you find an agency that has a bunch of chef’s on deck and go through their profiles. you had just finished filling out your form and profile with your needs and interests, hoping someone was compatible for you. ironic, you don’t have time for much, especially dating, but the way you’re scrolling through the different chef options made you think this was cooking tinder. you halted mid-scroll when a certain profile caught your attention. keiji akaashi. 6 years experience of private chef cooking, 9 years cooking overall, has a large variety of dishes from different cultures and countries, and many great reviews. sure, his profile was stacked with positive reviews and impressive states. however, like you said. this is like cooking tinder. his profile picture was taken professionally and knew how to highlight his best angles and features. since the agency was pretty popular, each customer had to put in their first through fifth choice of chefs they wanted. akaashi definitely being your number one choice. you needed to see if his face could live up to the hype he was receiving, or if they were all reviews he bought from bots. 

after a long day of work, you were finally able to lay on your couch. kicking off your house slippers and tugging the throw blanket over your figure. you needed screentime, but not the work kind. but out of habit, you checked your emails first. an email from 8 hours ago caught your attention. congratulations! we will be sending over your chef today, welcome to our program and please leave a review. “huh, that’s quick. but they didn’t tell me-” like out of some horror movie, your doorbell rang. you walk up and checked your camera. the sight in front of you made you open the door quicker. “i see someone is hungry” were the first words keiji spoke to you. you invited him into your house and even offered house slippers. everyone gets these, and these are his forever. he thanks you and follows you into your home. a home well built will floor to ceiling windows, minimalist decor, and a way too empty kitchen. he almost drops his bag in awe and horror. a kitchen that is so empty but is so clean. a kitchen with not even a coffee maker or air fryer in sight. 

so now your once peaceful evening supposed to be spent on the couch rotting, turned into store hopping, trying to find the perfect kitchen appliances that keiji swore were essential. when it was time for checkout, you offered to pay but keiji pushed your card away. “please, let me. this is y housewarming gift to you” your eyes widen in shock. “what did you say? housewarming? i’ve lived there for 3 years”. he imagines his jaw dropping to his ankles, but they didn’t. “you’re joking. 3 years but no air fryer in sight? who are you?” you giggle. “well once you’ve become engrossed in work for basically 24/7, cooking is not the best option. so i often settle for takeout or just find somewhere and dine” “do you not have leftovers?” “i do” “so how do you reheat it?” “in the microwave?” keiji’s eyes are almost blown out. “you mean if you were to eat fried chicken and have leftovers, you’d microwave it. leaving it to be soggy, instead of airfrying it and having crispy leftovers?” “woah ok! maybe it’s sacrilegious of me i apologize. but i really can’t help it. work just takes up so much of my time, unwillingly” he tries to sympathize since he is at work right now technically, and he will be for however long you want him to stay. “ok, well hopefully now that i’m here, you can enjoy your food at it’s peak and come to appreciate these fine appliances. you almost made me walk out the door when i saw your kitchen” you stare up at him and cocked your brow. “and what made you stay?” he slightly blushed and hoped you didn’t see. he couldn’t flirt with you on his first day, so he swallowed his words and said “because your kitchen is the cleanest i’ve seen from all the other clients, so it’d be a waste if i didn’t spend time there” you nodded in agreement. “yeah, can’t really get it dirty if i don’t use it. go all out, the kitchen is yours.” 

day 5 of being your private chef. you really weren’t kidding. all you do is sleep, breathe, and work. maybe sometimes free time gets rotated into your schedule, but he’s only seen it once, and that was his first day with you. from the form that you had filled out, you were open to trying new cuisine and you loved to try different things, yet didn’t have the time to. keiji made it his mission to bring different foods from different cultures to your table without you having to go to different restaurants and “waste away” time waiting for the food, eating, and driving back home. you were so grateful for keiji. he always tried so hard to make the best meals for you and even encouraged you to take your time and enjoy your food because your work can always be continued later. he was starting to feel like a househusband. because fast forward a few weeks, not only was he cooking for you, he was lounging on the couch and even cleaning your almost empty home. he almost seemed like a live-in nanny for an old kid that can’t keep a healthy lifestyle. so you decided to just push a little harder and find a way to treat keiji back. 

so now you’re on a plane together, first class, and booked to travel for at least 4 weeks together. honestly keiji was just worried he lost his job when you told him to pack up. not expecting to be driven to the airport with you and boarding a plane. “is this a work trip you are going on?” you turned to face him. “hmm, take out work and replace ‘your’ with ‘we’, because this is a vacation, and a treat for you keiji”. keiji blushes but is grateful for the dim and blurry airplane lights. “what do you mean? don’t you have work?” he asks worriedly. you giggle slightly and tell him the reason why you were overworking yourself so much the past couple weeks. it was to make up for the work that you would skip out on for 4 weeks. his eyebrows lift so high they could touch the cabins. “4 weeks? is that really you? or are you an imposter?” he whisper yells. you smile again lean closer to his ear and whisper “well, let’s just say i ran away from my responsibilities” and you lean back. your hot breath on his ear sent chills down his neck, because you were so close to him, and he could smell your scent (boi he aint a dog tf). 

you let him research all the countries you’ll be visiting, and even let him pick the restaurants. thought little did he know you also booked reservations for some high end restaurants a few weeks prior. the enjoyed the trip and wrote notes on almost every dish he consumed, claiming that he needs to keep these to make for you in the future in case you have a craving. your heart fluttered with the mention of his plan. he didn’t have to do all of that, and this was supposed to be a break from work. however, you were able to understand his work ethic and appreciated his efforts. every day, every meal, you were both met with extraordinary flavors and tastes that couldn’t be replicated anywhere else. you cheered him up though and told him his cooking comes very close to the original, and with his first hand experience and taste with all these different foods, his cooking will be even better for you, and for his future clients. the mention of future clients has him sitting straight up. 

“what, you’re tired of me already?” he half-heartedly jokes. “well aren’t you tired of me? seeing me only working. shoot, you’re even doing some light cleaning for my home too. it’s like you’re babysitting me” “well it isn’t much of a bother. not like you have much stuff in your home” “still, your job is just to cook, but you did all that you didn’t have to. so it’s understandable if you wanted to quit.” keiji was stunned. he didn’t know you thought that deep into things. he appreciated your thoughtfulness and reassured you. “please, you think i’d do this for anyone else? out of my 6 years of being a private chef, i’ve only ever cooked for someone. never touched anything else that wasn’t related to cooking. i’d say you’re special” you blushed. “yeah, i probably already knew that” you teased back and winked at him. he smiled softly at you. “if i may-” he askefd for permission before reaching for your hand across the table. “i know we were strictly in a professional relationship. you’re my boss, and i’m your employee-” “what boss just brings their employee on a 4 week trip across the world? let me do the honors for you-” “comical how we’re both eager for this conversation. but i think i just have to say it first. do you want to be more? may i be your boyfriend” you blushed and tried to pull your hand away from his grasp but failed. you looked down at your lap to hide your blush but failed. he nudged you for an answer, and you gave in. agreeing to his question with a shy nod “i would love that”. 

safe to say, your trip got better from there. travelling and on vacation not with just your private chef, but he is not your boyfriend. being able to travel the world with someone you had so close to in such a short amount of time. someone who mutually respected you and knew your boundaries. he would definitely still be your private chef, but not in a professional setting. just, yours. and definitely no new clients for him, just you. 

kuroo

bruh you can’t tell me this mf was not in those random weird ass clubs. like. you CAN'T. 

you were in a bowling club. actually, you’ve been in it ever since you were able to walk. your parents wanted to develop you into a professional at something, and also wanted less college bills to pay. so here you were. club bowling, getting lessons, coaches, and joining different teams to gain experience. on your club team, there was this nerd, and he just wouldn’t shut up about his fixations. for as long as you’ve known him, math and chemistry are things he just can’t get over. makes you want to stuff your bowling ball down his throat (it’ll prob fit, big mouth for big yapper). aside from being a yapper, he was a pretty nice guy. kuroo loved spending his time doing the nerdiest things and he was bordering the typical cs major stereotype (he wasn’t in cs). growing up, your school’s bowling team wasn’t mentioned a lot, and a lot of people would joke about it. bowling was basically a hidden club at your school and you quite liked it that way.

unlike everyone else from your school team, kuroo actually took bowling seriously. he would write up calculations and go through different balls to choose the right weight for himself. in fact, after day 2 of being on the team, he already finished calculating all he needed and bought himself a custom ball. at first, you scoffed at the fact when he boasted about his ball to everyone. but you can’t judge since you also have your own custom ball and all the gear one would need to bowl. you didn’t have any friends on the bowling team either since all your friends did other activities, so you were mainly isolated during practice and matches. you were intimidating to say the least, not only were you cracked at bowling but you just had this aura that told everyone on the team to not approach you and distract you. however, that didn’t stop your team from supporting you at each match. whenever you got multiple strikes in a row they would cheer you on and congratulate you for another win. 

kuroo

was interested. your calculations were better than his and he just has to know how you do it! he started approaching you and lingering around you. you didn’t mind the company since he didn’t distract you much. but whenever he asked for your calculations, you just gave him a look of confusion and disgust. yeah calculations weren’t in your book, just a whole lotta exp. he would not stop following you around. asking for your coaches, your lifestyle, how many hours you sleep, how you do calculations so quickly. but you turned down his questions every time. “sorry uh-” “kuroo” “yeah, kuroo. there isn’t anything in particular that i do. i’ve just been playing for a really long time” you tried to give him a smile but it came out uneasy. he nodded in understanding and left you alone for a while. 

a couple days later, he showed up at your outside bowling club and you were shocked. he somehow registered for lessons, and it just had to be the same as yours. he greeted you and tried explaining how he worked so hard to find a good coach to receive lessons from. “you sure you just didn’t want to follow me around?” you teased. “actually, you’re right! where else would i learn? maybe i’ll be like you one day” he replied with a wink. you blushed slightly. you nodded and walked away to do your own thing. 

seeing each other outside of school has become a routine that you’ve gotten used to. lucky him, he improved and got quite good very quickly– he was very proud of his progress. always jumping and skipping over to you to tell you about his newly achieved skill, and telling you he’s learning how to calculate his plays even quicker. you tried your best to congratulate and hype him up as well, but his energy was hard to match. slowly you both got closer and started interacting outside of bowling and talking about other subjects that weren’t bowling related (shocker). it has become a routine that you both grew accustomed to; attend classes, go to club, then go to lessons right after, and maybe a hangout after that. all of that and repeat, you probably saw kuroo the most out of all your friends. he is a friend. right? he has to be. but sometimes the question bubbles in your mind. you guys have started to share more moments together, with mutual teasing, and some blushes here and there. but it was nothing more than that. 

kuroo actually didn’t even know there was a bowling club. but he knew you were in a club! you shared a single class together, but whenever it ended, you would rush to somewhere. he was curious, so he followed you. he was just curious. nothing more. right? kuroo entered the bowling alley as nonchalantly as he could to see what you did after classes. when he saw you play, his mind filled up with admiration. your level of playing and your elegance when playing roped him in. so he decided to find the coach for the team and sign himself up. nothing more! he just wants to join this club and get closer to you and learn more about you! 

so how did he find out your lessons coach? he’s always watching you and paying attention to you. he saw your gear and saw the logos and brands. he went home to research with coaches in his areas are sponsored by those brands and nailed it down to one organization. so he signed himself up to surprise you. you weren’t exactly strangers anymore, but this can bring you closer!

out of habit, since you guys hung out after your lessons, he would offer to drive you home. his excuse was “logging around all that heavy gear around on public transportation can’t be safe! you could get robbed, or you’d be in danger if someone were to chase after you!” so you just accepted so he wouldn’t come up with more narratives. “we both know i’m never leaving my gear behind, they can take me but leave my gear be” “and that’s exactly the reason i have to bring you home. can’t have my partner be kidnapped” you blushed at what he said. surely he just meant bowling partner, nothing romantic. “oh shut it. but thanks for the ride anyway. it might become a habit” “who said i’d mind that?” he smiled with his eyes closed while facing you. your eyes widened slightly and you blushed once more so you turned away. “focus on the road or we’re both going down” ordering him to pay attention to the road. 

once you arrived to your place, you opened the door and grabbed your gear. “lemme bring this up for ya” he said while jumping out his car. “wow such a gentleman. i’d usually save this for a boyfriend or something” you teased him. “well who said i can’t be?” he teased back. “boy sit down” you rolled your eyes and kept walking. he was holding your gear and following you up the stairs to your place. “hey i wouldn’t be opposed to coupling up with you” he said in a sing-song tone. “please never say that again” you said in disgust and he let out a laugh. you finally entered your home and invited him in to chill for a bit since there was still some time left before the day ended. “what, then maybe i should rephrase the question?” he asked again. you were confused. was he joking with you? why bring this up? “what do you mean?” “well, we’ve kinda been hitting it off lately and i know you know there’s some spark. we weren’t purely platonic or anything” he had a point. you were basically stuck to the hip and you’re now always associated with each other to other people. “i guess you have a point. but i kinda need you to be more specific” you egg him on to speak what he really means so there won’t be any misunderstanding. 

“can i be your boyfriend?”

you blinked. and blinked. and turned to look at your clock. then back to kuroo. then you blinked. you didn’t actually think he would ask that question, and you thought he was just teasing you the whole time. but with your long pause he started feeling dejected. “so it’s a no” he looked away and got up from his spot on your floor. “no answer doesn’t mean no” you said quietly. looking away as you said it. he looks down at you from where he stood. a blush crept up on his cheeks, then he bent down to your level. “then what is your answer then?” he teased you. even now, he still had the audacity to tease you. “maybe i should’ve said no straight up” turning your head to face him. he gave you puppy eyes as a response. “but maybe i’ll say yes just this time, and see how it is.” kuroo smiles. “well, babeee. what shall we do now?” you cringed at the pet name but chose to ignore it for now. “let’s start by talking about your bowling skills and your weird habit of calculating” he was offended. “am not weird. you’re freaky for not calculating” kuroo retorts, “all i hear are excuses from someone who still can’t beat me” “oh we’ll see about that. just you watch, babee.” you cringed again, but this time more openly. so you light slapped his shoulder. “hey! i’m showing my affection!” “well show it some other way. grossssss.” it’s safe to say that kuroo was your first and last boyfriend. and the same goes for him. 

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[jeniffercheckwannabeme]

🎀 and 🪞! (Kiss and tell game)

Kiss and tell an ask game for girlbloggers

 💌 🎀 build your ideal lover from the soul outward (personality, looks, style, love language...) then tell us your dream date.

hmmm ok so people have called me high maintenance and high standards but I really can't be blamed I just have ideals ok🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ !!!!

IRL, i've only really talked to (not dated!!! im not going to date someone i don't adore completely) 2 guys and they both were smart, fit (if you know what i mean (gif of freaky sonic) )and also lived suppper far away... like the first one was going away to college, and the second was was from my cousin's school in australia. My dating life is literally completely minimal because i'm focusing on myself till i get away from here (so i can bag some international huzzz (freaky sonic gif again))

Butttt ideall

personality I love love love nerdy guys!!! like pleaseee talk to me about your interests and random facts about physics!!! I dont mean the videogame anime nerds btw. like actual academic nerds

aLSO if he's smiley and happy its like a plus plus plus!! I love funny guys. i love guys that don't take anything, except their future, too seriously.

I also loveeee guys who are more reserved and sweet. I'm a person who doesn't enjoy too many people and I would love if we could just stay at home most of the time.

I lov love love lov guys who care. about anything. animals, friends, their family. whatever it is. guys who actually gaf about peoples feelings aka emotionally intelligent guys. LOVE!!!

I love protective guys. like yes walk on the car-y side of the street!! yes call me to see if i got home safe!! yes yell at the guys who catcall me!!! I loveee it

looks hmm I LOVE big boys. like i don't mean fat. like muscular big. huge. like a bicep the size of my head. like 9 feet tall. (exaggerating) but Christian bale in batman. hmmm i could just eat him uppp.... Idk i love guys wayy bigger than me.

face??? serving. like i don't have specifics. But handsome. boyish when he laughs and manly otherwise.

i also loveee dark hair. brown eyes. Blue eyes just isn't it. im sorry gang

style suits. suits. suits. Or like business causals. NO SHORTS omg i can't!!!! guys who dress like toddlers are sooo not my type. like genuinly. I love button up shirts. kind of like bruce wayne too.

love language gift giving. totally not for personal gain. Yess buy my dresses and diamonds!!!!!!!!!

Physical touch..... need i explain.

dream date A nice dress, nice shoes. he picks me up!!! with flowers!!! nice restaurant, just us. then we go home and binge watch star wars!!!

💌��� describe your vanity (it can be your dream vanity).

Hmmm my current vanity has lot's of drawers and those 3 mirror sets attached. it's completely made of wood but It doesn't really suit my room.

ideally, I would have a french vanity. like those baby blue ones with fancy mirrors. Maybe when I go to college (fingers crossed)!!!

[nero-vanderwolf]

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TY FOR THE TAG LOU <3

favorite color(s): any shade of blue, teal, seafoam green, and my all time favorite is #2ae8c2 !

currently reading: ummmm nothing really... so ig ill just say that ive been playing Stardew Valley finally!! :D I've had it for a while but I only just got into it so yayyy

last song: Time To Make History from the Persona 4 soundtrack!!

last film: i've been rewatching One Piece so much... i gotta get that franky stimulation in me... I've been watching dressrosa because that fight with Señor Pink? GAWWDDDD....

sweet/salty/sour: everything except sour tbh...

tea of coffee: WATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

working on: hmm... crafting lore for one of my One Piece OCs. her name is Lark and shes a shipwright!!! shes very tall and ferret-like :P

ok time to tag some people (no pressure!!)

@beantothemax @throne-anguis @osvaldvvanstein @cater-the-diamond @justagingerwithredhair @crabknight @selfdiagnosedeyemotif

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*grabs mic and clears throat* Thank you so much @jintaka-hane and @igiulss for tagging me! I love these things and I love you girls! ❤️

Favorite Colors: Black, purple, and red. I was a bit of a goth teen, and my favorite colors never really got to change 😎

Currently Reading: SMUT! *snort* I used to care a lot about what I read, trying to stick to 'good literature' and the classics and all, but I'm now at a stage of my life where I stoped giving a f*ck and now I read what the hell I feel like. Judgment be damned. So I'm going through the ACOTAR series, devouring them like a madwoman. I have Edgar Allan Poe's short stories giving me the stink eye from my nightstand, and I might use him as a palate cleanser after!

Last Song: Oh, I've been cranking the Imperfect soundtrack I created on Spotify to get me in the mood for the next chapter, and the last one that played was, curiously enough, Imperfect by Stone Sour. I can't get enough of Corey Taylor, that man is a God!

Last Film: I barely watch any TV. I read and write in my spare time, so the last movie I saw was in the movie theatre and I took my son, so we got to see the live action of Lilo & Stitch! I enjoyed it a lot! 🥰

Sweet/Salty/Sour: All of them???? I mean... I can't choose! I have a very sweet tooth, but I love sour things... and salty snacks? UGH! Why are you doing this to me??? Gun to the head: sweet!

Tea or Coffee: Coffee. 100% coffee. Expressos, please. Or how we call it here in Portugal: bica. Actually was discussing this with Giuls just yesterday. I need at least 4 of them on a daily basis. 😍

Working On: Too many things at the same time, actually 😆 I'm working on Imperfect, Kid's Meet-Cute and I'm also throwing a few paragraphs for chapter 2 of All of Yourself, as well as trying to plan and write a very challenging longfic for my main account with ships like: SaNami, LawBin, Ace&Vivi and ZoTash.

I'm going to tag *checks to see who hasn't been tagged yet* @physics-of-one-piece @laidenbreecatchall @isabeauwolf and anyone else who wants to jump in on the fun wagon!

[wolfertinger]

Posts he deleted about his past "harassment" (people holding him accountable). The lynching art is something time and time again I've explained nobody supported except for motherfuckers like Antoons and Stonetoss-type people (Antoons is the one who commissioned the art). Those are incedents that happened when he was 17, about to go onto 18 (the lynching art was for his birthday). I talk a bit about the lynching art in the end of this post. This post also talks about Kung-Fu Revvy (his racism I mention in the next paragraph).

He claims nobody came to his defense. That is also a lie. Nobody came to his defense FOR HIS RACISM (seperated from people being racist to HIM), but defended him FROM racists. He was 19 at this time when he decided to be racist.

I agree that he might've made mistakes, but he keeps making posts claiming that it was all due to harassment. He never apologized without deflection or talking about how much of a victim he is. TAKE SOME ACCOUNTABILITY FOR ONCE. How does someone being racist to you cause you to be racist to a completely different race?

So many people tried to help Salem. Even after his KiwiFarms was made, I vaguely remember people giving him tips to get them off his back. I AM NOT VICTIM BLAMING. I'm stating the facts that people TRIED TO HELP before most of his mistakes were posted there. That's another way people have tried.

People have also tried to help him just by being there when he posted about his suicidal thoughts. People have tried to help him by being there. This is still a current thing that happens. His replies are full of people trying to help him.

He uses "delusionally" as an insult here, despite claiming he suffers from genuine delusions.

Wis also pops in in the second screenshot to comment on it all, despite her not being there for anything that happened to Salem on Twitter.

I am asking out of genuine curiosity. Why is it so hard for him to apologize without making a whole post about his abuse? Is it because people will think he's a bad person because he isn't "perfect"? He's the equivalent to white people apologising for anti-black racism by saying they were raised to be racist by their family, as if thats an excuse for current behavior. Using any opportunity to make themselves look so hurt and small so that their actions aren't judged as hard.

he genuinely is incapable of apologizing, or even bringing up his past actions, without immediately mentioning an excuse. he is obsessed with making excuses for himself, as to why his shitty actions and behaviors should be ok, things he would rightfully be upset for if done to him. he has changed the kung fu revvy story, several times now. same with his delusions of being assaulted, that he attempted to continue to lie about, while actively discrediting a real assault victim. he only cares about himself. he is not capable of considering others, or if he is, he does not act like it.

[painfully-painful-pain]

Poorly written lengthy Review of The Sims 2 Castaway for Nokia Phones.

Alternate title: I played The Sims Castaway for Mobile so you don't have to. Also I'm too scared to record my voice for a video.

I played another Sims Nokia game because I don't know what to do with my life 💙 so what better way to celebrate finishing another sims game than to force this post on peoples feeds. The game's exhausting and I'm pretty much done with it internally. This time it will be A LOT longer and have a bit more depth to it as I wrote everything while I played it (instead of writing it after I did) so. This will be an EVEN LONGER review than the sims DJ one. I hope you brought.... Good eyes.

Doubt anyone's gonna read this but I'm putting this out there if anyone ever comes across my account or something idk.

The Gameplay

This game is actually touch! Meaning you don't really need your Nokia phones' buttons. Sure you need the ok button sometimes but other than that it's pretty much like a modern phone game! Just smaller in size lol. You tap where your sim needs to walk over and press the stuff you want to collect. If it's a grabbable object, a hand appears as your cursor, if it has a chance to kill you (quicksand, beehives and poisonous berries) a skull head appears. Though death in this game isn't that easy (except quicksand as that one's 100% instant and way too easy to achieve, but you never have to do anything in there so idk why it's even an option)

There's the usual Castaway needs. Those are easy to manage here and I don't see a problem with them at all. Especially not if you always take stuff everywhere like I did.

There's multiple minigames and only one requires your OK button and I hate that game.

The Minigames

Not the best things ever. They're pretty tedious at times. ESPECIALLY the surfing one I fucking hate it. Stupid piece of- but they're ok.

Fishing:

really simple. But your stick moves on its own and the fish do too. You have to tap the screen on the correct moment to get them. You can get 5x fish max per spawn point.

Dancing:

you flick your screen to the direction that's given. It's really easy. Probably my favorite one because of it.

Surfing:

you have to balance out the green marks so it gets to the other side. Sometimes a shark (that looks more like an orca) comes through so you have to hit the ok button too. I hate it. (I deleted 3 paragraphs of rant for this)

Cup: (idk the name of this)

exactly how it looks. Really simple too. It's not fast either. You get prizes to romance every sim. The Orangutan asks you for a brush and it's never explained why he wants it or why he's even gifting it to you so you gift it back in the first place. He makes me question everything.

Hit the marked bongo: (Idk the name of this one either.)

Really simple too. Really easy. Really forgettable. Last minigame to be unlocked. Has ties to mark and is hosted by the monkeys.

The Story

The story begins with the usual that can be found in other iterations of Castaway too: People go on a boat for who knows why, storm arises and throws all of you into the water and on a deserted island yada yada yada. And then you wake up. But this time you can only play as either a man or a woman. You don't create your crew as you do on the PS2/Wii version. The crew actually has preset characters in this. And you unlock them per area.

After you wake up on the bay, your sim is required to do the tutorial level like picking up all the vines and getting bananas and coconuts from palm trees. But the game changes once you feel sleepy because you set up a bed in the camp area instead of the beach. And that's when you are directed to find your first crewmate, Sandi. She's INCREDIBLY fast at setting up the tent because apparently she already built a huge ass house when you were on the jungle. FOR 2 SIM MINUTES.

The characters give you tedious tasks all the time because, just as newlow said in the PSP game, everyone apparently only gets rid of their problems once YOU show up. You can unlock more areas without the tasks but later you reach a stop so you'll have to do those to get all of them and escape this mad house of an island.

The next area you unlock is the waterfall. Your friend Leyla put up her hut on it and, honestly, good for her. She is the only sim to have a shower next to her. Nobody ever uses it except you and you can only shower ONCE a day. And it looks incredibly goofy. It's just this image btw.

Layla is also the one that makes clothes for your sim. And from what I've seen is the only one of these guys to sleep during the late morning. All the sims sleep at night but she sleeps in the late mornings too.

The next area you unlock, the beach, has the character called Jeff. He's a surfer dude. You can tell by the way he talks to you and what he talks about. He's weird. I don't like his Minigame but his area has a lot of resources for some reason like driftwood for objectcrafting. I also don't like Jeff himself.

After that, Jeff's area is a dead end. So you'll have to go back to camp to find the other path. Jeff gifts you his axe he used for his surfboard if you give him stuff and then you can cut down the overgrown jungle. Sounds great in theory but. Once you get the axe, EVERYTHING IS ALREADY DONE! so there's no animation for it. Sims 4 level animations

On the next area, the jungle, you find Higgins the Orangutan. he can talk but this is never ever addressed for some reason. I am so conflicted about him. Anyways he builds your objects and your houses. Don't ask because I don't have answers. You can kinda skip him and walk straight into the cave.

There you meet Crazy Joe. A shipwrecked guy that's been there for 20 years apparently. Which is.... Odd as he looks pretty young to me. Anyways he's hungry and wants fish stew. ONLY fish stew. This pissed me off because fuck you?? just eat anything so I can advance and go home... He says "I will advance with you if you give me fish stew" BUT HE NEVER COMES WITH YOU!! he stays in his God damn cave and never leaves. He just gives you stupid tasks to do...

At this point you cannot go to the last 2 areas as you do need to fulfill some quests like the fish stew. Also the next area is apparently too dark so you need to get a Torch from Leyla because God forbid you do anything yourself.

She... wants to dance if you want her torch. These people and they're stupid standards I swear. 😭

Also to get a Fish stew you need Pineapples, Cucumbers and Fish. Disgusting. Sandi makes it for you. But you need a garden from the Orangutan then help Sandi get her seeds back from Jeff because???? and wait until you have all the ingredients. People can't do shit can they???

After you get a Torch you can skip hungry Carl for awhile. He doesn't die from hunger sadly. You can go to the last 2 areas without doing a quest. Only the cliffs are important because that's where the last character, Mike, lives.

One thing I didn't mention is that everyone thinks you didn't make it.... Which is such an asshole move???? Like? "Oh you're still alive." Like wow you're SUCH great friends.

i accidentally called my sim Kaw don't @ me

Anyways this is too long. One thing leads to another and the last mission is then given by Mike. He needs to complete his research on llamas back home in the city. So he orders you to get Leyla, Jeff and The Orangutan Higgins to build parts of a float so he can build that together. Then after doing that they want to throw a farewell party and the nightmare FINALLY ends.

this game exhausted me. It's a survival story but everyone already survived. They just waited for you to... Idk what they would've done IF you died but who cares. Also idk if the others came on the float too??? It's just you and Mike back home. Like where's Leyla?? Or Sandi?? Probably out of frame but still weird.

The Characters:

Talking about them because they have a bit more tied to them here than The Sims DJ. ALSO they are probably the closest thing to GBA sims lol. ALSO: everyone has seen all of these guys at least once. Because this game features all the cover sims as actual characters. Which is weird. Because why are they on the Wii and DS covers if they don't appear in it 😭

You:

There's not a lot to say about you. I believe the canon gender in this game is to play as the female character as she's also the one that is on the front cover and promo material of the game. The guy just feels like an afterthought 🤧 I believe his PNGs are actually Beta test screenshots of The Sims 2. also you're pretty much everyone's doormat to home. And I hate you.

Sandi:

i kinda forgot she was even at the bay. And that was 2 minutes after I met her lol. Her first mission is for you to find specific fish and coconuts so she can cook some weird coconutcrust snapper or whatever the fuck. Jeff steals her seeds. And I'm too done with this game I swear.

Leyla:

Honestly I kinda headcanon'd her to be Neo Flange(Foundry Urb)s sister while I was playing it. I just want more ties between the sims games like they used to have. Also adding her disappearance to Neos desperation "Sister shipwrecked on a deserted island and nobody knows where she is" yk? And also because she is a fashion stylist and is skilled in crafts, has dark hair, glasses and- these sims don't have an actual last name so I can make them anyone I want them to be. I'll turn her into an unofficial foundry Urb you can't stop me.

Rambling aside she has the dancing Minigame tied to her. When the story demands you to get an item from her, like the torch, she actually won't take your resources... she is really adamant to battle you in a dance session. Which is just flicking your screen in a certain direction. It's not even fast.

Romancing is possible in this game. I tried with her but you have to win some weird prize from the fuck ass orangutan and I don't want to do that

Jeff:

I hate his minigame. Also he's kinda like Dudley Landgraab. Only as a surfer. He steals Sandi's seeds and won't give them back to her. So you have to clear his minigame so that he does. He's kind of a jerk.

Higgins The Orangutan:

i want this Orangutan dead.

THE MONKEY:

They just host the Minigame 24/7. They don't sleep. They don't do shit.

Crazy Carl:

he was kinda boring... Like the concept sounds so cool. A guy that could never escape! For 20 years. But that only shows how stupid this guy is. Because you manage to escape after 6 days.

He's even more pathetic because once you get to the ghost of the pirate to get his treasure.... he just tells you it's somewhere here and it's literally right in front of the ghost I'm crying 😭 20 years for nothing

Mike:

so cool. Yet so undercooked. I wish he had something else to work with. Doesn't help that he's the last character you meet on the island. Like I said he should've had more to him. The Kayleigh Wintercrest of The Sims 2 Castaway.

Mike had his glasses stolen from the monkeys hosting the "bongos" minigame so you have to play it to get them back. But Mike's sprite never wears his glasses.

Fun fact: Mike DOES wear his glasses in ONE render for The Sims Castaway:

he carries the whole poster ngl

For some reason the poster ALSO shows an unknown character climbing up the tree. I don't know who that is but she's there.

Captain Busto:

He is not important at all

Its also weird he appears in the relationship panel. He doesn't do shit and you never see this portrait outside of it.

????????:

He's just a prop to talk with. No relationship gains or anything

Woohoo!!!

I nearly lost my shit when I saw this. After the party you can gift people something they want. And then after that you can romance and marry them. You can also be gay with them! But that woohoo Cutscene is.... Out of this world.

Conclusion/ TL;DR

That was The Sims Castaway for Nokia. I doubt anyone is ever reading this so... One of the games ever. Anyways:

Leyla and Mike carried this game for me

I'm not ever touching this game again

I need sleep

First Castaway game I actually finished

This game features every Castaway Cover sim

I kinda recommend it for you to try it out. It's a mediocre game.

Bye

[astronomical-bagel]

[kitcat-italica]

Ok but Crowley is so GENTLE here

They're both probably shell shocked by how upside-down their world has turned in the last 24hrs. The world was going to end, then it didn't. Aziraphale discorporated, told Heaven to fuck itself, possessed a human for the first time, then got his old body back (and is it even his old body??? Or did Adam give him one that looks like his old body?). Crowley's car burned to a crisp. He discorporated Hastur in the process. They both told Gabriel and Beelzebub to fuck off. They defied Satan himself to his face.

In all that chaos, how easy it is for Aziraphale to go right back to his bookshop, his one familiar comfort he could always retreat to, his sanctuary when the world is too much. Except...he can't. Because that's gone too.

So Crowley, so so gently, reminds him that it burned down. And Aziraphale is adrift and shellshocked again.

Only for Crowley to offer a lifeline back, not just for a place to stay for the night. But for a Side to stay on, that will treat him much more kindly than his former Side ever did.

Even if it's their last night of existence, they will end it with kindness for each other. It makes me emotional 😭

GOOD OMENS "The Very Last Day Of The Rest Of Their Lives"

[temeyes]

soap and his hair

[arolloyd]

Ykw scratch that tlnm and the Lego movie DOES take place in the same universe after all... I feel like most ppl don't really talk about this too much because tlnm is usually associated w Ninjago rather than the lego movieverse

[antlergrave]

i didn't see him in the teaser but if officer callahan dies, i die