#AND SHE JUST WANTS TO LEAVE BUT SHE DOESNT KNOW WHO SHE WILL BE WHEN SHE FINALLY ESCAPES
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lmaowhatt · 3 days ago
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MEET. . . FEISTY!LATINA!READER
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˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . has tan skin with rounded features, big brown eyes, and wavy hair that reaches the small of her back. wears gold jewelry 24/7. from chunky bracelets to dainty rings to necklaces with a delicate chain with pendants ranging in sizes, you will always catch her with at least one piece of each on.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . is obsessed with clothing. has a plethora of many different forms of jeans, 'gap' hoodies, different blouses, and even traditional clothing, all which she is very proud to own but will never hesitate to let you borrow whatever you want.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . doesnt give a damn about what someone thinks of her, and shows it by how she carries herself. walks into a room like she owns it—hips swaying, head high, gold earrings shimmering.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . stays true to her roots, doesnt let herself lose it or her spanish, and still celebrates every tradition like her family used to when she was younger, even involving rafe into them whenever she wants.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . whether it be a simple bracelet added to kiaras collection, or a sticker of the flag of her country on jjs lighter, she often leaves small trinkets in anyones' room to represent her heritage—sometimes to remind them of her, sometimes just because feels the need to.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . doesn’t let anyone—pogue, kook, or even a touron—mess with her friends, and isn’t afraid to tell them off in her native tongue when they do. grew up hearing “no te dejes” and took it to heart.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . always smells like coconut, vanilla, baby perfume, or her abuelita’s favorite perfume—people will always say they can smell her before they see her, and they love it.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . gives the best advice about anything, but will never sugarcoat it when it matters—if you’re being dumb, she’ll tell you straight up, but she’ll still comfort you after.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . often listens to artists from her country and sings along to those songs in the car without a care in then world. knows every lyric to reggaeton, salsa, and early 2000s r&b—her energy alone will be enough to have you sing along with her.
˗ˏˋ ❥・✎ feisty!latina!reader who. . . knows the control she has over certain people and defenitely uses it to her advantage.
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↓ FEISTY!LATINA!READER WORKS HERE ↓
a/n: anyone: finish your smau!!! me: new reader! (?) (dont hate me🙁)
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pettrichore · 1 day ago
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tam amber is burdock everdeen's maternal grandfather
now hear me out. all speculation of course but it has bugged me on who burdock's covey connection was and there's really only one that make sense.
lets start with the facts:
burdock is lenore dove's cousin
burdock's covey connection is on his mother's side. specifically a "distant" cousin
alright now lets go through the covey to decide who this person could be
maude iory - nope! that's lenore dove's mother
lucy gray - lmaoo yeah no lucy gray is long gone and the would have been no child to leave behind
clerk carmine - too young and too gay. besides he has one daughter and that's lenore dove
billy taupe - long gone before he had a kid
barb azure - possibly. i think the ages probably wouldn't match up super well but the biggest issue i take with this is that she is last seen with a girlfriend and i rather not think she ended up with a man
tam amber - i feel like this is the best guess.
in defense of my choice
tam amber would be around 66 during sotr. perfect grandfather age of a 15 year old
tam amber has given burdock the most gifts from what i can tell. he made him those metal tipped arrows and likely made/taught him to make a LOT of other things (tam amber is actually the one to make most things for the covey. he's seen making fishing poles, fixing the tv, and more)
finally, tam amber's name poem/ballad tells us this in a way!!
the ballad
tam amber's name song is Tam Lin
tam lin is a scottish ballad
i am going to summarize a lot but i encourage you to read/listen to the ballad yourself. i am mainly referencing the meta version from this site wow!! a site dedicated to just this ballad!!
also fun fact: tam lin has an anonymous/unknown author AND tam amber was found by the covey as a baby when he was left on the side of the road
okay so there is warning of entering Caterhaugh (a woods and farm in scottland) for fear of tam lin specifically stating that he takes objects of value (including the virginity) of young women (esp blonde ones - thought there about the town folk)
we meet our real main protagonist, janet who is sewing or decorating and wishes for flowers and wants to go to the woods for this
she travels to caterhaugh and picks some roses (hmmmn) when tam lin appears and tells janet off, basically being like "who said you could come in here and pluck flowers and be in MY woods without MY permission??"
and janet ofc is NOT having that and says that she owns the wood or is the heir to it
and tam lin Likes that "And what they did next I couldn't say, The leaves were all around"
janet comes back pregnant, she says that a fairie was the father and then leaves
tam lin asks about the kid and what she's going to do with it
janet demands to know if he's fae or human
tam lin says yeah i'm human but i was capture by the fae. and every 7 years they make sacrifices to hell (hmm... hunger games and the tributes) and he's scared he'll be one of them soon
so on halloween janet rescues him from the fae and he warns her that they will transform him into a bunch of beasts to try and scare her but it's still him under it all
okay so what does that mean??
now not ALL the covey poems are like 100% accurate to their story from what i can tell so take this with a grain of salt BUT most of them are very symbolic of their lives or kind of follow a similar story in some way or another (this is also why i think it's even more obvious that maude ivory is lenore dove's mother)
but okay so what i take from this and how i connect it to burdock is
tam amber fell in love with a girl who came into the woods (or at least meadow) to pick flowers or enjoy freedom or find something or really anything doesnt matter but she's in his territory. they probably did have a bit of a cheeky back and forth about it being "his woods" or "his meadow" or whatever
maybe she was from the town?? but this doesn't matter much in the grand scheme of thing BUT would be interesting and a parallel with burdock and asterid
this mystery girl gets pregnant, she runs from home (which would make even more sense if she's from town) and gets pregnant and they have a kid
which i believe that kid is burdock's mother
okay that's all! if you got this far with me, thank you so much for reading. let me know your thoughts. also i dont think the idea of barb azure being bi is horrible i just think i found more reason for it to be tam amber. also sure she could have adopted but i think there's a point that's made about burdock having the voice of the covey and the ear of one too and i think it would just make more sense that way tbh
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throwupgirl · 12 hours ago
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castiel is a 7 on the kinsey scale possibly the gayest to ever do it. yes even when he has kissed women and had sex with one before. even though those things did happen the show itself chose to make it so that castiel can only be put in a sexual or romantic situation with a woman under the most insane circumstances possible. lets go down the list.
1) meg. he was still new to earth/had been away from earth for over a year and forgot how to be normal and he had just watched porn for the first time by mistake because there was already a porn tape in the dvd/vhs player. later that day meg grabs and kisses him to distract him from the fact that shes stealing his angel blade. he frantically makes out with her because he is dumbly copying the thing he just found out about (porn) and is internally going oh i know this one! and later when dean makes a joke about letting cas "have an hour with meg" cas is genuinely confused and says why would i want that.
2) daphne. his wife who i feel the need to remind everyone was only made possible because he nearly died and then fully lost his memory and wandered out of a river out of it and happened to be found by the most insane cultish christian woman in the universe who strongarmed mr. born amnesiac yesterday into a sexless marriage who he completely leaves forever the second dean shows up at his doorstep. he abandoned her not knowing who dean even was AND while "being able to sense that dean kills a lot of people." he ran away with a serial killer for NO reason
3. april. oh boy. what if you were an all powerful being who suddenly lost all your powers and were stuck homeless on the street with no idea how to cope with having a human body and someone offers you food and then invites you inside and starts flirting with you and you need somewhere to stay and you go yeah ok i guess ill finally lose my virginity after millions of years. and then you do and its like fine and you ask at the end uh did i do that right. and she goes yeah. and then you wake up the next morning and it turns out shes an assassin your family has sent to kill you and she was lying the whole time and so now you feel really violated but before you can even process that she stabs you to death and then you wake up to feeling your face being cradled by your boy best friend.
4. nora barely counts BUT she is the closest they ever got to for real suggesting cas might be attracted to a woman. he wasnt. but they ever so slightly leaned toward it without taking a single step forward. she compliments him and says hes her best employee and then vaguely asks him on a date and he says sure and is happy because he is homeless and living in the back room of the gas n sip and feels appreciated for once after dean kicked him out + gets a rush from being so good at Tasks. and also we dont get any details for how cas got this job so its very possible he feels in debt to her for hiring him out of pity if thats what happened (assumption but like. i know castiel doesnt have a resume and gave the worst job interview this talent show has ever seen). it turns out she just wanted him to babysit and all cas got out of this was the spark of realizing he likes to hold babies so he could orchestrate how to best babytrap dean
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the-s1lly-corner · 8 hours ago
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Kissing the female toons
My ear hurts, like the inside. Ouchie oooooooo owie owie owie anyways how yall liking the blot update
Notes: gn toon reader, can be either pre or post game, short and sweet, written on computer
CWs: none
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BRIGHTNEY
she doesnt like pda all that much so kisses are only going to be shared when its just the two of you alone from everyone else- its not a shame thing its a privacy thing
brightney... actually isnt that much of a kisser honestly, shes more likely to hold your hand or give you a compliment- perhaps a gift. kissing simply isnt her thing it seems
but when she does kiss you she tends to aim for your forehead!
her light has a tendency to brighten when you smooch her
CONNIE
she 100% is going to be invisible and jumpscare you with a peck on your cheek every now and then... she doesnt do it all the time but she does it enough that youve caught on to the feeling of being watched when youre "alone"
also doesnt like kissing around others, they dont need to be in her business! but... shes not going to shut you down if you try to give her some quick loving in passing
she likes being kissed on the cheekbone- cheeks in general are nice but sometimes aiming higher hits different
FLUTTER
she has no mouth she cant give you kiss kiss :(
she does sometimes bump where it would be against you to make up for it- its nice but its not the same... and like her brother she highly doubts you want to try something with her proboscis
also has that soft felt fuzz on her body! sometimes it tickles when you learn in to kiss her head
GIGI
another "kissing doesnt really do much for them" toon, she just doesnt really get the appeal. like cool youre swapping spit- gross! yuck! she knows she has a tendency to take things but she has standards!
she thinks its funny you get flustered and red when she decides to surprise you with one... maybe kissing isnt so bad if youre going to be like this...
you never quite know when shes going to give you one or where. one day it could be a fast near non existent kiss on your cheek. another day it could be her tugging your shirt and kissing you quick before pretending like nothing happened
POPPY
shes like yatta but a lot less intense- shes not going to tackle you to give you a kiss but shes definitely going to speed up her walk just to give you some loving- and she doesnt care who sees! is it wrong to kiss your partner? no!
sometimes she tastes like pop though... youve really got to have a talk with her about how much soda she drinks, its worrying...
shes not easy to pop- if she were she wouldnt be here- but you try to be as careful with her as you can be even if she insists you can hold her face
SCRAPS
doesnt like kissing in front of others, she likes having her privacy- this goes for all pda thats not handholding honestly, she never much cared for showing off physical affection in front of others. she doesnt need to prove her love for you to everyone else- you already know she loves you
kissing her is a little weird anyway since shes... you know... a paper craft... paper and water usually dont really get along all that much and suuuuuuuuuuuuuure you dont actually have enough spit, but sometimes you leave a little wet spot and its awkward and she has to wait for it to dry before going out because people are going to ask and-
her hands are more forgiving since they're... not paper
TISHA
simple quick kisses are good enough for her... she doesnt like kissing you too often for two reasons- and neither are your fault! so please dont feel bad!
its like... sometimes if you do something too much sometimes it feels it can take away from the importance. thats how she sees it- she still does her best to make you feel loved but thats like... how she thinks. shes trying to work on it though! also sometimes she thinks too hard on the spit aspect. doesnt like it. yucky.
likes cheek kisses, though. giving and receiving!
TEAGAN
kiss her on the back of her hand and youre going to have a very happy teacup- bonus points if you do it as a greeting when you join them on one of their tea parties!
teagan likes kissing you on the cheek when you do something for her- youre too sweet and shes gotta let you know she appreciates your efforts!
definitely laughs softly into her boa if you never quite get used to her loving and get flustered.. its endearing!
YATTA
definitely has bitten you on accident on more than one occasion- she doesnt mean to hurt you... and honestly the bites themselves arent that bad, just some irritation but gooooooood she still feels bad.. funnily enough she will try to kiss it better
smells like candy and paper mache. a weird combination- if youre being honest she almost smells too sweet. like straight sugar and syrup... sometimes it can be hard to tough through the scent
not at all afraid to kiss you in the company of others. has sprinted towards you full speed to give you some loving while there were other toons nearby- nearly knocked you off your feet
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spacedlexi · 1 year ago
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"sounds nice... having a partner"
#the walking dead game#twdg#violentine#clementine twdg#violet twdg#MAANN when clem says this in s3 JUST WAIT BBY#people who say clemvi has no basis like ep2 isnt just them working as a team for 2 and a half hours regardless of player choice#like be fr#clem telling louis that violet patching up the back wall is ok because she needed something to keep herself busy. married behavior#vi asking clem to help check in on everyone while she deals with the wall. their shared smile when she comes back outside :)#and then they sit in the leadership spot together overlooking the yard and everything theyve planned together coming to fruition :)#sorry i just think their romance set up in eps 1 and 2 is obvious as FUCK and im tired of (Some) people pretending it isnt#'i havent seen her warm up to someone in a long time' brody literally tells clem that vi seems to like her after its been 24 hours#after shes been a block of ice for a whole year. and clem just melted those walls down immediately while they fought walkers together#violet is so devoted to clem post ep1 its embarrassing for her#'i saw she had you pinned and i- shit i got So crazy...' sorry if you dont think shes in love with clem idk what to tell you#'i'll tear that boat apart before we leave without you' i know you would girlie!!!#the animators went CRAAZAYAYAYAY the way they look at each other... their little smiles at each other....even before the belltower#the way clem looks at her while they dance.... the way she puts her head down on her shoulder so contentedly....#and then she keeps her head on violets shoulder as she pulls away so clems chin gets dragged with it like she doesnt want to let go#'so you never forget that night' 'i never will' they are DISGUSTINGLY in love with each other it makes me physically ill#its 2024 and im still hearing 'i just didnt see it :/'. lazerbeams you#spaced art 2024
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instantpansies · 7 months ago
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CLARISSA
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NEW BLORBO UNLOCKED
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sunlitlemonade · 16 days ago
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i want to write jason & natalia but head so scattered.....
#its not anything grand really#just a fic of them sitting & chatting on a rooftop. there's a breeze carrying a faint spray of rainwater after a thunderstorm has died down#they're watching the moon#natalia tucks one of jays curls behind his ear & cups his face & tells him she missed him#tells him shes glad he is alive#& jay can do nothing but blink back tears because when has anyone ever said that?#that theyre glad hes back? [except talia ofc]#he gets to hide his face in someone's neck like he's fifteen again & can be held#he gets to be loved again#fuuuuck dude talia mention just gave me the vision of writing jason introducing talia & natalia#im not sayin theyre besties but the three of them could definitely go out for some fancy dining & exchange notes on wine & how fucking#stupid bruce is 💗#truly believe they wouldnt want to discuss bruce at first but when they do natalia helps talia take that final step of letting her misplace#affection for him go. SAID AS A BRUTALIA SHIPPER BTW#idk i just think them being bittersweet divorcees is The Flavour but talia loves fiercely & deeply & will def need a hot second to truly le#go of the idea of being with him. shes extremely logical & ruthless ofc & will NAWT gaf abt some guy who doesnt treat her right#i KNOW but you must understand. they were deeply fond of each other. bruce however has the problem of wanting to fuck gotham fr#whereas talia is normal to an extent. so. yea she does take her time & looking at all the shit that jason went thru at his hands + nat's#support would be the last straw methinks. i don't think theyre capable of hating each other fully ever but.#she finally lets go.#wait where was i. JASON NATALIA & TALIA TRIO. RIGHT. ugh guysssss what do i doooo#i have a zine fic to complete but also that jay leaves the bats wip is haunting me + That One dick & jay fic that has me by the throat#& now this.#theres several other wips ofc but these are in the forefront of my mind.#feel like i should give up on all of these & resort to being an aftg girlie exclusively. i have had jean & neil thoughts for YEARS#the vindication i felt when the new trilogy explored their dynamic??? ethereal. unmatchedddd.#or i should just. stop writing 🙂‍↕️#can't be haunted by visions you don't even plan on bringing to fruition thumbs up emoji. thats a good plan#veering off into intrusive thoughts territory lolololololol
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mcytegg · 3 months ago
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"thank you for everything, ro. i wish we got to work together."
"oh same, but y'know, some things just don't work out."
i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics i hate drastics
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screechingfromthevoid · 8 months ago
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The cape wrapping was too much for me I have to leave
#silver sending stones#cr spoilers#cr 3 e 108#orym of the air ashari#dorian storm#he probably watched the loom and was like “this is what i signed up for. forever.”#dorym#i do not know how to feel#because this came at the end of such a harsh moment from orym?#he killed fearnes dad which will eat him alive for the rest of his life#he just yelled at everyone because theyre still not understanding that the gods leaving is not going to leave exandria as it was.#he is literally so spent.#hes so tired#and so guilty#(oh i have to update my list of things orym blames hinself for)#and as hes yelling. as hes pleading with his friends to see the calamity that will happen if the gods are gone.#he floats over to dorian.#arguably his biggest opposition#and when hes done. when hes tired himself out. he leans on dorian.#he leans on dorian probably with no expectations of reciprocation. he just. needs dorian in that moment.#and dorian. who has been fighting to get rid of the gods since they took opal and killed hia brother. who wants them gone more than anything#wraps orym in his cloak. a protective wing around him. a warm. same place for him to lean. to rest. even running his hands through his hair.#they have been fighting since dorian came back. theyve been on the opposite sides of each discussion. each argument. and yet#orym still finds comfort in dorian. and dorians still affectionate towards orym.#id like to believe they slept in the same bed that night. after weeks of... finding reasons not to.#theyre clean and newly dry and slightly cold and maybe Orym finds a bed and curls up alone because fearne isnt there. but she hasnt been#for a while. and he doesnt take up the whole bed. he cant. but he doesnt expect someone to join him.#and then when the lights are off and the crickets are chirping and the faint screaming of a new bush to lull him to sleep. his door opens.#he doesnt get up because he knows hes safe in the manor. despite how scary it is. hes fearnes friend and has a deal with nana.#so he doesnt move. he feels cool. soft skin on his back and arms wrapping around him. to protect him. to comfort him
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lesbiansanemi · 4 months ago
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no ☺️ it just carries over to her. and I’m like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz it’s her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and I’m just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. I’m actually sick I’m actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly ☺️ perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and I’m just like. she doesn’t have a job she still hasn’t paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars I’m fucking owed#and it’s like does this actually affect anything? no. I didn’t budget with that money cuz I didn’t actively have it and that’s not smart but#like…. 900 dollars….. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also it’s just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and that’s again if she somehow doesn’t get#her ass evicted cuz she’s not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didn’t check that cuz she technically already lived there I’m just so. I’m so tired and I’m so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? I’m done.#I’m so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and that’s that. it’ll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I can’t do it anymore man I’m sick of it I’m sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and it’s not even about the money atp#but I’m just. I’m so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and I’m tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and it’s safer that way and I’ll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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isa-ah · 11 months ago
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crick is a few years older than isaiah... what if he had very faint i was a little boy memories of isaiahs mom before she died oxo
#thinking sooo hard about it#really a blind leading the blind moment#they get along well honestly. crick enables isaiahs sadboy side where he just wants to mope about bad stuff in his life#and isaiah enables crick to actually get it out of his system because hes very active (destructive) about negative expression#isaiah isnt a crier hes a breaker. crick is a sogggggggggy drinker who just cries all day abt it#so theyre very cathartic left to their own devices#i think crick being like thank god my mom drove my dad off. hed probably be like your dad if he was still around#and isaiah goes i wish my mom was around to do that... and getting soggy about not having ever gotten to know her#so crick dredges up the faintst foggiest memories of knowing her before she died and isaiahs RAPT just RAPT#and it makes crick cry bc hes SUCH a mamas boy the idea of losting cathy like that makes him blubber#so they just blubber about it together#thats their whole dynamic LOL#its why they only ever let themselves be alone 1ce and they went on a wholeass sadboy road trip about it#then did NOT stay in touch after#bc its not. a very healthy friendship all things considered#its really great when hunter first leaves tho bc crick is the ONLY person who gets it. what isaiahs feeling#bc he and hunter werent together but he LOOOOVED him and crick had the same thing happen w d.alex when he left for college#and never ever came back. ever. he left for good the moment he got a foot out#ofc that comes around to isaiah and hunter absolutely end up together and crick and d.alex Do Not. dave never felt that way abt him so#but its for the best#cricks husband is VERY good for him. gideon is no nonsense and doesnt have time for moping#he whips crick into shape as his lil househusband instead LOL
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vaguehotels · 1 year ago
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SICK. "right person, wrong time."
#SICK SICK SICK SICK SICK.#my HANDS are shaking.#what the fuck.#lolaa.txt#sorry 4 freakoutposting . nobody can know about this so i have nowhere else to say it all.#WHO SAYS THAT TO SOMEONE.#RIGHT PERSON WRONG TIME. WHY IS IT WRONG TIME.#WHY AM I RIGHT PERSON.#IM RIGHT PERSON.#WHAT. WHAT#HE TALKED ABOUT ME TO HIS FRIENDS. AND HES SO TOTALLY HONEST#I WAS FULLY LAYING ON HIS CHEST AND HE SAYS 'ok i do have to turn on the ac . ' AND SORT OF HALF LAUGHED SMILED AT ME#HE WAS BLUSHING .#HE KISSED ME.#AND IT WAS MESSY AND AWKWARD AND VERY SIDEWAYS BUT HE KISSED ME#AGAIN AND AGAIN. AND HE KEPT SMILING.#AND HE DIDNT WANT ME TO LEAVE BUT HE DIDNT WANT ME TO BE IN TROUBLE#i was 2 hours late getting home. AUHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHHHHGHIGHSEOIFHSEFOUESHFESJKKMNN#FUCKKK. I HAVE TO SEE HIM TOMORROW. IN A SCHOOL SETTING.#AND I CANT TELL ANY OF MY FRIENDS?????????#only one person knows and i swore her to secrecy because she wanted us to get together really bad.#FUCK but like . we cant. we cant do it right person WRONG TIME#but also can we just go back to being friends. do i really want to forget? it was so comfy.#FUCK.#FUCKKKKKK . AND CAM.#cam is so so sweet. light of my life cam. talented and artistic and handsome cam.#but. cam doesnt watch movies. or make mixtapes. or kiss me in the front seat of their car because our noses touched when we laughed#AGAIN SORRY. NORMAL. i need to tell my parents about the movie (tradition that they hear all about it) and NOT bring any of this up#i will be dodging the allegations the whole time. NOT EVERYONE GETS SOMEONE PREGNANT IN HIGH SCHOOL FATHER.#so there is that.
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hearthomelesbian · 4 months ago
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society if everyone kept their fucking cats in their own houses and yards like is expected for every other fucking animal
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arundolyn · 8 months ago
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ohhhh my fucking god nobody needs to like know any of this medical tmi but it is literally 11 pm and if im kept up one minute longer when i just laid down trying to go to sleep by my mother YELLING REPEATEDLY that she needs to pee. im going to actually go insane. she got a catheter in. Yesterday. it is working. she won't listen to anyone when they tell her that this is the case. help me jesus. im sure if a nurse comes to check on her tomorrow they'll probably get the same response. my brain will simply explode
#crow.txt#the absolute levels of stress im under could create diamonds out of free floating carbon atoms my fucking god#can i have. Literally just one day of peace. just one!! fuck!!!!#at least now i have SOME validation from everyone else of shit that mom has honestly kinda always done#be absolutely furious and bitchy usually for no good goddamn reason and then immediately turn it off to look good in front of someone else#i had a feeling mom coming home was gonna be utterly miserable sooner rather than later#i literally cannot leave my room without her yelling for dad bc she thinks im him i guess. she has gotten him up like 4 times now#what the fuck do you want any of us to doooooooooooo. according to dad shes also just been really fucking hateful today#including to her SISTER who has been facilitating literally everything medically for her for the last month plus#like on one hand i know its hard and frustrating etc etc absolutely. on the other. what the fuck are you yelling at any of us for!#whatd we do! not a damn thing for the most part! holy shit im exhausted#and then im sure she will have the audacity to wonder why i dont really want to interact with her much rn#its very apparent she doesnt really understand whats going on or how much of anything works at this point including hospice care#but i truly cannot help you when your knee jerk response is to yell and be abusive. like. dads not been great either#bc hes also one to bitch and moan and yell abt shit. but like. so is mom. more than usual#and ill actually be damned if i let her treat me like that honestly ever again. like idk for once i can just#walk away from this behavior with zero consequences. i dont have to take it anymore. im not free but at least im fuckin closer than i was#guess my aunt wasnt kidding when she said her being coherent and rational last week might be the calm before the storm
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hampterguts · 2 days ago
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do all gender care specialists fucking suck in relation to gender care or is it just mine
#like literally i know more than her and shes still insistant on misinfo and theres so much she didnt warn me about#some of it i knew but good lird thankfully i have a friend who took t for a while#and im still pissed that she brought up how sad she was abt her trans kid no longer going to wear the wedding dress she saved#nor provide children for her. fuck you. fuck off#you dont fucking SAY that to someone day 1 of gender care introduction.#shes pretty and i like her fashion sense but i think i. mad at her forever for these things#didnt warn me about BLOOD CLOTS but warned me about acne. fuck off.#when i asked about risk of ovarian cancer being possibly linked to taking T she dodged the question and provided nothingburger info#'ive heard theres a possible risk in getting ovarian cancer when taking testosterone. do u know anything about that?'#'well actually the cancer doesnt form specifically in the ovaries so theyre going to start calling it something else-' ...like..... ok.....#AND THE WHOLE 'NO U HAAAVE TO TAKE T FOREVER OR YOULL LOSE EVERYTHING AND GO BACK TO SQUARE 1'#WRONG. objectively WRONG. i already dont trust ur info and other doctors and PPL WHOVE TAKEN T say otherwise!!!!!!!#srry im. im worried abt. like.#im gonna have to. tell her im stopping bc im at a point where im soo fucking satisfied. and im bracing for whatever the hell she might say#sure itd be nice to get some facial hair but im happy with where im at!!! i literally told her i dont want to fully transition.#and yet everyone in the med field is like and ur goal is to increase ur t and fully transition! and im. 🙃#like guys im just a dyke. whos kinda a man. in the same way lacroix is fruits#if my voice stays im happy. thats all i want.#and voice was claimed to be a permanent change via other doctors.#we'll see.#I'll wait a handful more days to see if it wavers or leaves#dummy posts
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abimee · 1 year ago
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ruyan is literally so beautiful that i get ill looking at her
#a lot of my time as a person who cant recognize himself to the point that if you start asking about myself im going to lie to you#is that i really like to engage with media that asks you to be present in the text by creating an outside being who simply has#some similarities to me#like the concepts i know i have. but make them their own unique person#so ruyan is really fun in that if i was a well adjusted person she would probably be a self insert and not her own person#but instead by the grace of god and my own mental problems she exists and is a full person that i practically see as a friend#like when i like a character so much that they become a comfort to me (emil) my brain engages in relationship interpretation to that#chartacter. emil is my daughter who i feel paternal sentiments to despite me being a human person and her being code in a video game#for ruyan she is like a friend where i want to go to her wedding and see her kids and hear about her life#i may have made her but i watch her as if i just met her'#recognizing this thing i have going on has helped me immensely be comfortable with myself#ruyan is a friend to me a sister tock is my daughter who i feel a real world father-daughter dynamic towards#i feel the need to nourish her and entertain her and put her to bed and let her know i love her#and you dont have to think this is normal because if you by now havent harbored some sort of#This Guy is Weird sentiment towards me youre either like me or VERY kind#but i know that i have parts of me that are weird. i am 23 years old bringing toys to the beach#but i dont chase validation so much as i just enjoy when its given to me#but i dont need validation because i cant even form my own self to need validation for#im learning about myself like im wiping down an old mirror. that doesnt need validation because im seeing it for the first time#im having my understanding moment here and you are free to leave the room and leave me to my mirrow
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