#BUT AGHHH IM BAD AT UNDERSTAND THINGS

[minty-bubblegum]

for the ask game: 7, 20, 23, and 30?

7. Song stuck in your head?

Technically, I have answered this question, but here's another song I really like that gets stuck in my head easily :3

20. Are you a gamer? What was the last game you played?

I guess I do consider myself as one? The last game I've played was.. *awkwardly stares off into space...*

23. Share a bit of philosophy?

*clears throat*

You deserve that little trinket. Delectable treats are destined to come to you in the future.

*falls off stage*

30. What is your favorite way to create?

...

This has left my mind to quite a few interpretations. The one it likes the most is I like creating spontaneously! It gives restriction yet so much freedom. Random can absolutely have its regrets, it happens often, but it adds a little flare to it. I especially get burnt out easily, so doing the moment I feel is best for my ideas!

As for the other way I thought of this, I like creating in the way I feel in the mood for :3

[chronically-enthusiastic]

Hi!!! Okay so, my OC is called Emrys (means immortal) and they use they/fern pronouns.

Imagine the ancient greek mythology, Emrys lives in that kind of universe, but a little different. Emrys is a child of Pan and fern, or someone born at the same time as them, is destined to be a great god. Everyone thinks it’s going to be Emrys and expect great things of fern. When Emrys is born a satyr everyone is disappointed, but there is still hope because maybe fern will have a really great power. Emrys shows no signs of such power though, and at the age where they are supposed to (100 years old, which is about 16 in this world) the only thing fern can do is grow plants

The olympians tell Pan he can’t live at the mountain anymore (which he could’ve until now because of Emrys) and they throw Emrys off the Olympus.

Emrys is severely traumatised after this and cries while walking around. When an old man finds fern, they are screaming that they will take fern back. They still believe that after all

It takes a lot of time for fern to trust the man and come to terms with the fact that they can’t go back to the Olympus. Life is starting to look up again!

(Planned stuff below)

After that Emrys finds someone that they trust deeply and even falls in love with. But they have their own issues and after a fight they scream at Emrys that they understand why fern was thrown off the Olympus and that they want Emrys to leave. So they do. They break down and it is very, very bad. Then they get back up, but are changed. Suddenly fern’s head is quiet. “Fine, I’ll be your villain.”

Emrys turns all the hurt into anger and lashes out. They hurt a lot of people and later, fern would hear their screams in fern’s dreams.

I haven’t decided yet how (this is where I stopped thinking about Emrys so much) but I want to find a way to make Emrys see what fern has done and regret it oh so much. They’ll never be the same again but maybe, just maybe they could live again.

AND THATS THE STORY AAAA FERN MAKES ME GO INSANE!!! I have a whole Pinterest board with quotes for their villain arc: https://pin.it/2wYXalj

If you have any questions please ask!!! I love fern so much

growing plants is an awesome skill!!!! Aghsjsj how dare they treat them like that....... My heart is now breaking for fern.

Aghhh i know you said that they would go on a villain arc but JAKAKSKKA IT STILL HURTS!!!!!!!! I just wanna hug fern now.... But im pleased theyll eventually see the wrong in ferns ways.

What is Emrys's favourite food? What made them lash out in the first place?!?

EEEEEEE I AM NOW ALSO OBSESSED WITH EMRYS ABSKAJKASKKSNDMSKNA PLEASE TELL ME MORE

[homielander]

(rape tw) im so annoyed that they made homelander a rapist because it just seems so shock value at this point. now i'm not allowed to like a complex character even to cope because he's crossed such a moral horizon. i say this as a victim of sa, the weird fascination and oversaturation of rape in media and tv is almost gratuitous, an easy way to entice fear and disgust in the viewer while simultaneously being something people fetishize and exploit. trauma should not be used like that. pain should not be used like that, especially pain in the nature of sa. it doesn't fit in homelander's arc or just the person he is that he would rape anyone, but sometimes i feel bad for thinking that way. i wish the writers took a more delicate care of how they handled these characters and themes, because now you can't erase it, only amend it :(

i'm right there with you! the way rape and sa are used in media is almost always so flippant and careless (and often purely for shock value :/ ). i honestly feel that if your story does include rape or sa, it should be something that carries significant weight and resonates throughout the narrative.

and weirdly, the boys has the perfect setup to accomplish this, considering that along with a-train running through robin, homelander and becca's encounter is the inciting event of the show. but the whole plot line was just so badly mishandled, it's astounding. there's the obvious problem that any analysis of homelander that goes beyond "evil man do evil things" will point to the fact that this was out-of-character for him. it's equally horrible that the writers squandered any opportunity they had to make becca her own character. (i HATED her season 1 flashbacks that presented her as nothing but the object of billy's affections. i stupidly believed season 2 would fix this once she was revealed to be alive, only for her to be wasted in all 8 episodes. seriously, i laughed in 2.08 when the boys fell in love with becca two seconds after meeting her because it seemed like such a lazy, last-ditch attempt to get us to appreciate her right before she died. it was literally one of the most egregious examples of "tell, not show" i've witnessed in recent memory.) i even read that kripke and the writers deliberately framed the s1 plotline to be ambiguous, so that viewers would question whether becca was raped... which is awful for all sorts of reasons. 

and i apologize in advance for this tangent, but -- i absolutely DESPISED the way they referenced starlight's sa in season 3. it seriously seems like one of the writers had just learned the term "mouth rape" and wanted to squeeze it into every conversation possible. i understand people can be extremely crude and disrespectful while referencing something of this nature in real life, but i think they had three different people use this exact phrasing in multiple eps. it felt super inauthentic and i'm seriously questioning what happened in the writers room this season because if you compare these conversations to starlight speaking up about her sa in s1... there's a world of difference. (i also have a lot of thoughts about how they've been playing out the gimmick of the deep/sea creatures but that's for another post)

i also completely understand what you mean about feeling bad for even questioning whether this is in-character for homelander -- i've wondered that too. in real life, the line of thinking that "this person can't be a rapist because it doesn't fit with my view of them" is insensitive and naïve, because we don't ever know the whole of a person. crucially, this is where fictional characters are different, because we do know them -- in the sense that the character is the sum of what is presented to us on page or on screen.

homelander is still my favourite character, mostly because i subscribe to the idea that you can take what you like from canon and leave the rest. but aghhh it's incredibly frustrating because it would have been so easy to not do it this way and come out with an even better story as a result.

[mattslolita]

UPDATE BOUT THE BOY!!!

OKAY SO I LEFT U ON A CLIFFHANGER AN I FEEL BAD LMFAOOOO BUT BASICALLY HERES THE REST!

after all our friends left we went back upstairs an he was looking at me and i went "hm?" and he said "why didnt u do the dare?" and laughed 😊😊 and i went "i could say the same thing to u bout the other day" then he laughed again and said "i said in front of everyone" WHAT?????????????? LIKE ACTUALLY WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK?? BROOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! he kept looking at my lips 🫦AGHHH!!!! then he moved a piece of my hair (wattpad ass move, hes defo been reading) ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD............

YOU GUESSED IT! HE KISSED ME OMGGGGGGGGGGGG IM CRYING BC I DONT BELIEVE THIS IS REAL LIKE WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKKK?????????

he said he loved me (LIKE ACTUALLY THIS TIME 🤗🫢)

i feel crazy like im going actually mental 🤣🤣🤣🤣

butttt todays the party and my friend said "hes gonna ask u out properly today 100%. if he doesnt then block him and ill take care of the rest" WOOOOOOO!!!!!!

omg im leaving in like an hour to go get ready so ill update u either really late at night or first thing tmrw morning 😋

ILYSMMM ❤️❤️❤️

OH MY GOHAW OH M GOSHSH OH MY FUCKING GOSH OH MY GAWDDDDDD HE FUCKING DIDI IT

HE FUCKING DID ITTTTTTTTT

I REPEAT HE FUCKING KISSED YOU OH MY GAWDDDDD !!!! NO U DONT UNDERSTAND I SQUEALED SO LOUDLY JUT NOW OMMGMGM🥹😭 IM SOSOSOSO HAPPY FOR YOU BABY !!!!!!!!!!

ILOVEYOUUUUU LMK ABOUT THE PARTY TOO !!!!

[caruliaa]

okay very ironic since it is soooo far later for u and u are awake JSBSJS which omg so valid but i hope u get some good sleep tn still dearest HSBSJSJ but omg i dont even have to be up very early tmrw but. i also slept in insanely late today JABSJSJ so i think if my body is trying to get thattt much sleep then thats a sign i should sleep as sooon as possible LOLLLL so yeah i want to say before i do that!!!!! holy shittttt vcing today was sooooosososooooooo much fun like aghhh the livholden ep we watched was so good and it was sooo fun to watch stuff with you in general and it was sososoo fun to chat and laugh and hear abt stuff from u and share stuff w you like!!! just always allll thee time spending time with you is sosososoooo lovely and wonderful and amazinggg and like just being your friend in general is like thee best most amazing incredible wonderful thing and you are the most wonderful compassionate caring understanding friend jules !!!!!!!! and i just feel sososososoo lucky to know you not only bcuz of all the insanely many ways that you make my life so much better and warmer but also just because i feel lucky to know a person as lovely and good as youuu flappy and!!!! i really really do want you to know that you mean the world to me and i care smmm abt you and i love you soooooo muchhhhhhhh (hugs youu for a while if u like!! 💕💕💕💕‼️‼️‼️🫶🏻🫶🏻💕💕‼️‼️‼️💕🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻‼️‼️‼️💕💕‼️🫶🏻‼️💕)

yayeah SFGDFGS i did actually send u a gn ask but at the exact time u send me one which yk is a !! bad sign for how late im staying up DFHFDHDF but ya i tihnk got like some goodish sleep in but i did get up at like 1:30 soo yk not thee best DFHDFGDF but yayeah i hope u got lots of good rest too my dearest and ough omg ur so so sweet ;; i hope you know that i really had sm fun vcing too like watching liv and maddie and boy meets world together and just getting to like vc and chat and spend time together rly was soso fun an nice and lovely i think :3 !!! so im soso glad that it was the same for you my love and that i can be such a good friend to you my dearest and and be like caring and understanding and compassionate and stuff to you becuase you really are do just deserve it soso very much and i really do just want to soso very much becuase you are just !!! so os wonderful and amazing and special and dear to me and i hope you know that you really are the same to me and such a wonderful kind caring thoughtful frein who makes me feel so loved and cared for and safe with you and just knowing someone as wonderful brings me sm joy and light and warmth and happiness and i hope you know that you really do just mean everything to me and i love you too so so very very much *hugs you back soso close soso much* 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[baekhvuns]

NOOOOOOOOO PLEASE RELEASE THAT WIP 😭 now that you've mentioned he's not an asshole it's just Y/N being kinda meh about him, I wanna seeeeeee I wanna reeeeeaaaad. So is there some sort of misunderstanding happening?

Ugh, that's so annoying, I understand wanting to keep some stuff for yourself but sometimes it's just SHARING IS CARING BITCH 🔫 I order a lot of albums and I usually sell them or give them away, I hate selling tbh I prefer trading, especially if I have duplicate PCs, I actually traded whole albums for some photocards, lmao.

Yes I keep all my photocards in protective sleeves and in binders, it's also important to take extra care while sending them to people. Some fans just don't pack them well 🥴 after all those are just pieces of paper, they get damaged easily. I help with GO's sometimes but they're such a hassle...

Ah I get not wanting to be repetitive especially because since some people might get mad at others copying their work, though many stories lack originality anyways so it's usually hard to prove. But omg that upcoming series you linked?! I've missed it, but I hope it's gonna come out soon. 😭😭😭 also you do not have to convince me to re-join Shinestarism ok, this is my home this is how I live 🤡

Mafia Hwa Y/N was really that bitch, wiueishsuwvdhjwbshs. Aw, you're so cute, the way you described the Hongjoong fic. Movie? Tell me the title if it's okay with you? I always wonder how many of the stories people write are truly self-indulgent and something they'd like to experience.

Shit that villain reader one is so important to me bestie, you do NOT realise 😭😭😭😭 I almost forgot why would you bring it up??? To take revenge? I need more bad Y/N's can't be just the guys doing the questionable stuff you know and I love villains or rather antagonists with purpose.

Aghhh a Touch of Frost I love that one a lot!

Let me continue in another message, because I have things to say 💀 - DV 💖

HI THIS IS SO EXCITING FBFB

NOOOOOOOOO PLEASE RELEASE THAT WIP 😭 now that you've mentioned he's not an asshole it's just Y/N being kinda meh about him, I wanna seeeeeee I wanna reeeeeaaaad. So is there some sort of misunderstanding happening?

BFWMDBWKDHWK they, just immense amount of tension bc hwa is pinning but miss yn wants it to be a professional relationship DESPTE them being in the similar friend group…he just, 😶😶 IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE THIS BC UT WONT MAKE SENSE IF U DONT READ IT FULLY THRU FBENFBEN

Ugh, that's so annoying, I understand wanting to keep some stuff for yourself but sometimes it's just SHARING IS CARING BITCH 🔫 I order a lot of albums and I usually sell them or give them away, I hate selling tbh I prefer trading, especially if I have duplicate PCs, I actually traded whole albums for some photocards, lmao.

YEAH !!! FBWNDHSJ SOME PPL R JUST REALLY PETTY OVER IT ANF FOR WHAT 😭😭😭 omg do u trade that’s so cool, u must have like all those washi tapes and decorative stuff to trade and all omg

Yes I keep all my photocards in protective sleeves and in binders, it's also important to take extra care while sending them to people. Some fans just don't pack them well 🥴 after all those are just pieces of paper, they get damaged easily. I help with GO's sometimes but they're such a hassle...

THATS SO TRUE i traded once, i put them in a very neat card and taped them to a small cardboard and bubble wrapped it and i just received it in a small box with nOTHING tho im half they weren’t damaged fbdbdb OMF U DO GO’S TOO??? that’s so cool i can imagine the hassle but how’s that process?? bc ik some ppl want specific pc’s so do u just take their desired ones out from a different album and put them in?? what do u do if u see a polaroid, do u tell them or u just…yk…finders keepers

Ah I get not wanting to be repetitive especially because since some people might get mad at others copying their work, though many stories lack originality anyways so it's usually hard to prove. But omg that upcoming series you linked?! I've missed it, but I hope it's gonna come out soon. 😭😭😭 also you do not have to convince me to re-join Shinestarism ok, this is my home this is how I live 🤡

yEAHH !!!! there’s so many concepts repeated that u rly have to add ur own scenes to it so u can change ur but there still will be similarities between works,,,, i was quite excited abt writing a series again but after seeing that nO FBSNDBS also bc it’s so much work 😭😭,,,, YES ME TOO THE SERIES SOUNDS SO PROMISING LOVE IT FBFB,,, LMFAOOOO FBWNDHSJ IT WAS MY EXCUSE TO OFFER FIC RECS

Mafia Hwa Y/N was really that bitch, wiueishsuwvdhjwbshs. Aw, you're so cute, the way you described the Hongjoong fic. Movie? Tell me the title if it's okay with you? I always wonder how many of the stories people write are truly self-indulgent and something they'd like to experience.

SHE RLY WASSS I LOVED HER FBWNBDEK omg omg this is a self indulged storey absolutely im gonna ramble about this fic rn,, pls don’t mind me

jab we met ( jab means ‘when’ we met ) : adityah, a heartbroken tycoon on the verge of committing suicide, aimlessly boards a train. he meets geet, a high-spirited girl who plans to elope with her lover, and finds himself pulled into her crazy life.

bestie, bestie this movie is the definition of love. he’s an introvert, she’s an extrovert. it all happens on a train, she drags him when he doesn’t want to go and gets him in trouble. makes him re-experience love by asking him to burn his exe’s photo— she threatens him to take her to her home bc “you’re the reason i lost my luggage!” “did i ask you to follow me?!?” yeah. he’s so in love, so so in love. “why are you playing with your life?” “because it’s my favourite game, life!” “you need a psychiatrist!” she makes him experience childishness + the dialogues bestie ugh 😩😩 there’s a song where he hallucinates and sees her everywhere, dancing in the rain and him being a complete love struck idiot. she’s wild, talks nonsense her motto is “i’m my favourite person!” 105/10 i rec this movie so much bc it’s my favourite, ive watched this 20+ times ever since it came out in 2007. here’s the trailer (captions r included) i have the fattest crush on the main lead.

here’s a little scene i personally subbed to show to one of my friends and it’s literally one of my favourites !!!!! it’s, when u watch it and if u ever do,,, you’ll see how that man loves quietly and chooses to keep it go himself bc he doesn’t wanna bother her with it 😭😭😭 ANOTHER SELF INDULGENT IVE WRITTEN IS THE SAN FIC !!! it’s also based on this movie omg if u ever watch it, you wont ever, ever find a movie like this, it’s like an emotion <3

yeh jawani hai deewani ( this youth is crazy ) : a young medical student falls in love with a man who plans to travel the world and never settle down, or get married.

so. this is everyone’s travel dreams into one masterpiece of a movie together. this movie NEVER GETS OLD ISTG,, imagine going on a trip with total strangers and ur 3 friends from high school, one loves to show her bravery, other is a complete fuck boy who has nothing but his dreams, and the last who’s places bets on sports matches. a trip where u runaway from gangsters on a cart + singing 90’s music + make sex jokes + indian weddings that r better than white ones + friendship deep thoughts + travel log and yearn to travel and explore + fall in love and then follow ur dreams until it comes to a stop. & u meet at a wedding, classic nerdy girl x fuckboy prompt !!! “you have such a killer smile, if i had a heart it would’ve fell for you.” remembering everything and the drama + THE SONGS THE SONGS R >>>>> ridiculously amazing chemistry, there isn’t a movie like this and there will never be (also what my san fic is based on !!) 107/10 + here’s the trailer !! pls skip to 48 seconds that’s when it starts dbdb i don’t have a subbed video i did for this but here’s an edit

questions for you !!! what’s a movie you’ve watched that you would self indulge yourself in ???

Shit that villain reader one is so important to me bestie, you do NOT realise 😭😭😭😭 I almost forgot why would you bring it up??? To take revenge? I need more bad Y/N's can't be just the guys doing the questionable stuff you know and I love villains or rather antagonists with purpose.

BDQMBDWMHDWK ME TOO BESTIE ITS SO IMPORTANT 😭😭😭 FBWNDH TO TAKE REVENGE FOR THAT LANYARD 🔫🔫🔫😭😭 miss yn in it will be full of magic and hwa can’t help but be interested in yn even if he’s gonna get married to someone or be so interested in the tea she offers him everytime he comes but never answers his questions ☺️☺️☺️☺️

Aghhh a Touch of Frost I love that one a lot! Let me continue in another message, because I have things to say 💀 - DV 💖

LOVE IT SMMM 😭😭😭😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 i will answer that separately bc this got too long fbfbf

[agirldying]

I know this is so stupid, and really isnt that bad but I need to vent because Im so upset over it and your account is the first thing that popped into my head. Thank you for what you do and maybe this can provide like a bit of comic relief I guess??? idk So okay, my best friend has allowed like all of our friend group to use her families Disney Plus account for about a year now, and in the beginning she asked us to only use her profile. Because I have cptsd and am terrified of upsetting ppl/breaking the rules, I did exactly what she said. But then, one day (around last christmas) I saw one of her new friends (who I don't know, she moved away from our hometown) had added her own profile to the account... and honestly I was a little jealous bc I was like?? Shouldnt she have to follow the rules too??? and I didnt want to be a burden so I didnt say anything, I just kept using my best friends profile. But slowly over time a few of her other friends started making their own profiles too, until around last week or so I saw a profile called "Guest" got added... so finally I was like, Im just going to text my bsf and ask her if I should use Guest, or if I could make my own account. and she told me I could make my own account!! Honestly I was really excited bc sharing hers made me so paranoid she was judging what I was watching.... and like I picked out my icon and was just happy and vibing. BUT THEN, a couple of days ago her brother decided she "was inviting too many friends" to the disney plus account and changed the password... and honestly it really hurt me feelings :( (I know its stupid) but Ive known her and her brother for a literal decade, and I feel like he was fine with everyone else having their own profiles until I added mine. Like I know it probably isnt personal, and it was just a coincidence it was my profile that was the catalyst... but I cant help but feeling like I did something wrong, or I was too much and ruined it for everyone else..................... And like, I talked with my bsf and she gave me the new password no problem, but her brother deleted all of the non-family members profiles so she again told me to just use her profile. Everything is fine ig, but it just feels like a stupid metaphor for my abuse and how I hid away for so long, and once I did finally muster enough courage to come out I was immediately slapped down.... ugh, and then I feel like being this upset over Disney plus is just so fucking embarassing agggggsadhsjakdhsakjhd

aghhh thank you again for doing what you do, I know I'll be alright so pls don't worry (I have resources and support) but I really just needed to get this out <3 I hope you have a nice day <3

Hi anon,

I don't think this was your fault. Especially considering how you said you tried to avoid creating your own account and then used a guest account once it was created, I think you pretty much stayed under the radar and it was more the fault of everyone else who ended up using the account than you.

I can definitely understand how your cptsd played into this, but I don't think you ended up doing anything wrong.

Hope you're doing alright!

[apenapaperandadoofus]

RFA BEACH TRIP PLEASE🌊☀️🌴🐚🌺🐬🐠🦀

YESYESYES (I tried something a little different today, so I hope you enjoy it!)

RFA BEACH TRIP!

Jumin had recently bought this island, that was famous because of their cats. Yes. Cat island. And so because Jumin is such a sweetheart he got everyone some plane tickets so they would head out for the island the next day!

At first, everyone except Saeyoung and V weren’t really up to the idea. But then, when you got so excited and said that it would be so fun to have a beach trip, they changed their minds pretty quickly!

And so, all of you woke up at about 4am, Jumin sent some cars to pick you all up and soon you were all in his private jet. V and Jumin were listening to some classical music and drinking some wine, Yoosung at first was looking around everywhere, since he had never been on a private jet before, but a few minutes later he fell asleep on his seat, next to Zen, who was complaining loudly to Jumin, about how waking up at this hour was stupid, and that he only agreed to go because you were going.

Jaehee was watching some of Zen´s DVD in the background, Saeyoung was loudly singing to some music (you joined him lmao) which made Saeran groan and put on his headphones at full volume, trying to ignore his way too energetic twin.

You smiled as you looked at everyone in the RFA. This would be so exciting!

After you all checked in in the hotel -the fanciest hotel you had ever been in- you all changed into your swimsuits and decided to meet up in a bit.

You all set up on the fancy beach, Jumin and V sitting on some chairs under a really big umbrella, meanwhile Jaehee was wearing a hat and walking around the beach, looking at Zen, who was teasing Yoosung into getting in the water. Saeyoung was building some sand cats, yes, sand cats and Saeran was standing awkwardly on the side, not really knowing what to do.

This was going to be awesome!

Zen:

After traumatizing Yoosung for a bit, Zen called you over to get into the ocean with him. You smiled and grabbed his hand, as the both of you walked along the water, happily chatting. “I have to admit, even though I can’t stand that jerk, this beach trip was pretty nice. We haven’t all gone out like this in a while.” He said, while looking at all the RFA members, a big smile in his face. But then he turned around and pulled you closer to him, running his hands up your sides. “Although it is making me a bit jealous that they all got to see you in your swimwear like this. You look amazing.” A seductive smirk appeared on his face and Zen kissed you, and you both stood there, holding each other.

Until a big fucking wave got you guys and everyone laughed at the both of you. “THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR BEING ALL LOVEY DOVEY!” Yoosung yelled, and Zen glared at him. Apart from that the beach trip was awesome, and you enjoyed spending time with Zen!

Yoosung:

So, he wasn’t really a big fan of the ocean, but he liked the swimming pool! Yoosung and you had a swimming contest! And you ended up winning by a lot lmao. Afterwards you both made your way around the beach resort, admiring how fancy everything was.

Until you got lost. Yeah that wasn't good at all.

You both walked along for hours trying to find everyone else. And you didn’t succeed. At one point it had become night, and you were both back at the beach, holding each other’s hands. “I’m sorry Y/N. If I had just stayed with everyone we wouldn’t be in this predicament.” You shook your head and caressed Yoosung’s cheek. “It’s alright Yoosung. I had fun, to be honest! I love spending time with you.”

As Yoosung became red in the face, you saw a bright light and a loud bang followed right after. Fireworks!!! The two of you screamed happily and ran over to get a better view, and Yoosung wrapped his arm around you, giving you a forehead kiss.

It was absolutely adorable, and even though Saeyoung later teased the crap out of you two, you really enjoyed it!

Jaehee:

“Y/N? Are you alright? Why are you so red in the face, oh! Don’t tell me you have a fever! Let me check!”

You blushed even more as Jaehee placed the back of her hand in your forehead, and you nervously chuckled, gently pulling it away. “Uh. It’s alright Jaehee. I-I just got distracted for a bit haha, anyway! Look at those seashells!” You quickly made your way to the shore, trying to hide your flushed face. When you saw Jaehee in a very cute two piece swimsuit you felt as if you were about to die. How could she look so freaking hot yet adorable at the same time?! You were just speechless.

Jaehee slowly followed you and helped you picking up shells. You both laughed as Seven tackled Yoosung in the water, while Zen was screaming loudly at the both of them for getting his beautiful face wet!

Soon enough you and Jaehee had picked up enough shells, and you placed them in a little bucket. Then, Jaehee grabbed your hand and led you to the water, where you were both looking at the beautiful sunset. Everything was perfect.

Until you felt a splash of water hit your face. You dramatically gasped as Jaehee giggled, and splashed some more water in your face. Before you knew it, it had become a water battle between the two of you, and you enjoyed it greatly! Jaehee kept running around and giggling the whole time, even when you grabbed her by the waist and carried her up, spinning her around.

When you came home from the beach, you both took the seashells and made them into a frame, and you put your favorite picture of the two of you together.

She really enjoyed spending the whole time with you, and she would love to do it again!

Jumin:

When you came to the beach, you made your way to Jumin and sat beside him, while talking to him and V, who had a huge smile on his face.

“Thank you for the trip, Jumin. It’s been a while since all of us travelled like this, together. I never thought we’d go out again ever since Rika passed away. But now, thanks yo Y/N, we’re able to do this again.” You blushed and shyly smiled at V.

Jumin didn’t really like to go and swim in the ocean, but you two decided to build some sand castles, since apparently he had never done that before. It all started as an innocent competition, until Jumin literally started making blueprints and measured everything so his sandcastle could be perfect!

And it was :D

Afterwards, you both went to your room and you changed into some clothes that Jumin had bought you. He escorted you to a really fancy restaurant in the place, and he got seats near a balcony so you could look at the sea while you ate. It was absolutely beautiful, the wind rustling his hair a bit, and everytime he looked at you and smiled, god, was he trying to kill you?

At one point Jumin grabbed your hand and kissed it, looking at you with eyes full of love. 

¨Thanks to you we're able to go out like this now...you've done so much for us, and you don't understand how lucky I feel to be here with you, right now. I love you, Y/N.¨

You both had an amazing dinner, and after the trip Jumin would sometimes take some days off so you could go there again.

Saeyoung:

He was so thrilled to go to the beach with you and his brother!

Honestly, he had never felt so happy in his life!

Then you saw that there was a place where you could rent surfing boards! And holy crap you both had never ran so fast to a place before.

The two of you tried (and failed miserably) to surf. Saeyoung had actually gotten the hang of it pretty quickly, but you kept getting distracted!

He just looked so handsome with his hair all wet, and pulled back a bit so it wouldn’t get in his way. And when he surfed he looked so fucking good.

At one point you bit your lip, and when Saeyoung saw the way you were looking at him he led you to a nearby bathroom.

After the both of you and back, and played some pranks on Yoosung, you decided to go and....LOOK FOR THE CATS! That was honestly one of the only reasons why he agreed to wake up that early and everything!

You both made your way around the little town that was near Jumin’s resort, and you soon found cats everywhere. They were so fucking cute holy shit.

The rest of the trip you took a bunch of pictures, sometimes with the cats and sometimes with Saeran (who was acting as if he didn’t want to be here but he was having a hella good time.)

One night Saeyoung led you to the roof of the resort and kissed you.

¨I love you so much Y/N. Thank you for everything.¨

When you come back Saeyoung promised you that you will go on trips more often now, and he just can’t help but smile remembering the good things that happened.

Bonus:

“How many times did we tell you to NOT DO IT?!” Zen screamed.

“This is not how I thought I’d spend my time. I’m leaving to see how Elizabeth the third is doing.”

“No you don’t, you jerk! You have to stay here with the rest of us.”

“Lololol Yoosung I never thought you’d actually do it!”

“Luciel this is partially your fault too, you were the one who urged him to do it, so you’re to blame too. If you hadn’t thrown your food it wouldn’t have been this bad.” Jaehee glared at Luciel, and he quickly hid behind you.

“AGHHHH Y/N SAVE ME!! That gaze almost turned me to stone, brrr so scary!”

“It’s your fault you idiot. You should’ve realized by now that Yoosung is dumb enough to fall for those stupid tricks of yours. Besides you didn’t even tried to help him, you made things worse!”

“Aghhh! Not you too Saeran! My own brother!! Everyone is against me right now, hey V, help meeee!!!”

“Well Luciel....if you hadn’t even dared him to jump in there, we wouldn’t be here right now...so I’m afraid I’m going to have to agree with Jaehee on this one.” V laughed nervously.

“SEVEN I SWEAR IM NEVER FORGIVING YOU FOR THIS!” Yoosung yelled.

You may be wondering, what the hell happened?

Seven did.

Let me explain.

You were all eating lunch, when Seven dared Yoosung to go and jump into this little pond (that was made because of some rocks) to grab some crabs. It was going fine, until a whole bunch of them decided to go against Yoosung, and they started pinching him everywhere, so Yoosung quickly got out and started screaming.

Zen was about to help him, when Seven threw his sandwich at Yoosung while yelling YEET and NATURAL SELECTION DO YOUR THING, making some seagulls who were passing by, go and attack Yoosung.

Then Yoosung fell in a sand hole that you and Seven had made before near the shore, it was really deep, and when the crabs and seagull were finally off him, a fucking little octopus appeared and decided to latch onto Yoosung’s head.

Seven just laughed while Zen and Jaehee tried to get the octopus off, Jumin was sighing like a disappointed parent, and Saeran was actually smirking.

Meanwhile V had tried to go and help, but he went to the wrong place because...well he can’t see, so he was touching a palm tree while yelling for Yoosung.

And that’s how Yoosung became traumatized for life!

But it was honestly so funny lmao

Later when you’re all in the restaurant Seven orders some octopus on purpose to traumatize Yoosung even more.

And that’s why, kids, you should never go and pick up crabs because Seven dared you to.

[cheerfulimp]

Cursed....characters

ok no I wont wait days...and I will talk about characters, I’m not gonna compare it with the book I haven’t read. Just what I saw

Arthur 

I didn’t like the Arthur at all....like at all...I’m not judging him being in a band, he was abounded kid, and stuff, didn’t know what to do blalal...but come on like he STOLE the Sword, and then after Nimue went after him and demanded the Sword back...he was like “hey nothing really mattered, just a sword sis chill,  why are you talking with me like that and stuff..pff...why are so rude to me, why why”...aagghhh...and after, through the series, I can’t explain it, aghhh I hope there will be a NEAT character development for him...I really hope...how do they even fell in love?

Green Knight aka Gawain

Boi my boi....such a perfect character, again I hope to see his character development. Because heeere what I didn’t liked at all. He told us a story about his close friend being killed in front of him blalal, and it was tough yet the right decision, to let him die. AND THEN we have windmill scene, where another yet fairy is tortured in front of him, they demand him to come and fight, BUT hey oh my lovely Gawain whom I really love, this time you’re not alone, it’s not only about your life, there were kids, and honestly you didn’t even know that fairy, so the reaction you gave was really stupid. Yeah Yeah we all can agree that that fairy life really mattered, plus he remembered his friend’s death etc., but come on we all know  he saw/witnessed/went through that same things after many times. And sure that stupid behavior of this only was written in order for ARTHUR to kill himself that poor fairy, so Gawain would not kill his own-kind, though he knew it was the only logical move. Come on people, we saw/ read plenty of movies/books with similar situations.

Nimue

I love the actress. Her character is not set well yet. She was not really practicing with her powers during her childhood, neither she can really fight. Idk we need more I hope we will get more. I’m not talking about her sometimes crazy behavior under the RING’s influence , sorry SWORD’s...this LOTR RING and CURSED SWORD have SAME ENERGY honestly =D However I must say something. The scene where Dof died, let’s be honest she didn’t even really tried helping, like “man i’m so tired after all that and stuff, i might not be helpful blala...sorryy my best friend since childhood...welp he’s dead sorryyyy” and immediately when the other viking dude announced that now they with  Red Spear are allies, she immediately had that smile on her face, like good good thanks!! Sure in that time of trouble it’s good to have someone on your side, But I mean let’s be honest she didn’t even tried hard enough to save that man. And we all remember that on the other hand she really tried  hard to save dead Gawain. Double standards? like IDk who is this man so nope im tired, GAWAIN my childhood ( i feel he was a crush) i will try to undead you. Remember Vinny? yeah had that vibes

Merlin 

How can you hate Floki?Sure Floki killed Edelstein, but it was in the past. And his Flokiness was coming out in Merlin. Nah really good character....we need more of him agaaain to understand him, well ok not understand  rather than  justify his actions. True there’s a lot went between him fairy people and human (not mentioning shadows, creatures and other dimensions ) during his loooong lifetime. Man can have depression and anxiety. IDK we saw lot’s of characters that live long life and vie life differently idk idk. He tried at least saving his own daughter, that is a start I guess, and now his powers are back, who know what craziness awaits us.  ALSO NOW he has no connection with humans, neither with shadows, and fairies, he is all by himself. This can lead to something interesting? morality? He will train Morgana? who knows? he still have fairy fire or smth .I was not going to talk about him honestly. I love Floki

MORGANA 

Before knowing who is she. I hated her, cause for no reason she slapped Nimue..like dude wtf she just woke up she don’t know where is she, who are you and who was that future bitch little nun sitting in front of her. WHY SLAP?? ANd then we found out her love towards Fairies, and i loved her. then we heard her version of letter she said her fav part, that was “ damn i feel we gonna see it in the future”. Plus How did she killed  the Widow?? spider? sword? Graphics  were weirdish. And with all due respect, you left the “one you really loved that hard” in the monastery, and then “I will do shady things to return to you..more like dead version of you”. We all know this is not her but the spider, and Morgana is supposedly  smart, why is she not considering that option? blinded by pain and love? naah...this is ridicules, but heey she is not fully doing shady things so far she returned to Nimue, idk how becoming a Widow on the way...maybe this is some king of time paradox type things...anywaay let’s seee...SHE IS THE MORGANA PEOPLE>>>SHE MUST BE BAD ASSISH

Percival=PERFECTION nothing to add. He’s gonna be trained by best out of bests!!!

Weeping Monk? Lancelot!! He did nothing wrong! And in this fandom we love him!

When I first saw him, I was like ok ok i know your backstory. Definitely fairy raised killing machine. For a little brief moment in the very beginning i though he might be Mordred (first two episodes), but then we had Gawain, so i was like “ okaay I see some epic Lancelot revel coming soon”, cause the whole squad is here already.You can’t have Arthur, Gawain, Morgana,Nimue,Perci,Merlin, but magically bring Lance in the end or somewhere in the middle of seasons. Have you noticed that “Weeping Monk fighting against Trinity Guards had the SAME energy of Ben Solo fighting  agains Knights of Ren” ?I will go down with this character...perfection...

Red Spear 

Is she Guinevere ? Maybe i forgot some knight with a spear..Sir Balin? he was not part of round....but idk this book i haven’t read, so why not he was one of the Savagest one...I ship my/this theory

[boywivlove]

| Lutz | 01 

Chapters | 02

Pairing: Past Hoseok x Reader | Eventual Jimin x Reader

Genre: Figure skating AU | Slight angst | Fluff

Words: 1K +

Summary : After your last performance at the Junior world championships leaves you with a broken leg, your longtime boyfriend and team mate Jung Hoseok decides to partner with someone else and sign with a new agency  for the next competition, leaving you behind with the remains of a severed relationship. 2 years go by and your leg has long since healed, but a nasty blow to your confidence has put you off the idea of return to the competition circuit after being left behind. But when a chance meeting with an old friend catches you by surprise, you find yourself with a new partner. And after working hard you end right back where everything went wrong. But this time your going to show just far you’ve come.

Warnings : Mentions of broken bones and injury | some strong language |

Authors Note: Heyyyy SO Im still here haha, Ive been so busy with work and getting ready for christmas Ive not had time to write, but hopefully people are still here and want to read my skater AU hahah >W<

Its funny how things can change so quickly. You feel like everything just fits together, like a jigsaw portraying the image of your perfect life. You never really think about the perfection shattering like a mirror and you, being left to pick up the pieces of your once perfect reflection. Some things are just not meant to last forever I guess.

It was currently autumn time in your small little town, the leaves had long since shifted from lush greens into the beautiful hues of orange and red, like fire lining the cobbled streets. The chill in the air calling for thick winter wear and stalls of delicious hot foods perfect for this kind of weather. Yet as you walk the busy street, your once beloved time of year now only brought you broken memories and an ache in your bones you couldn’t seem to shift. 

You readjusted your messenger bag as you opened the door to the small coffee shop, the bell chiming as you felt the warmth kiss your frostbitten cheeks. It had been two years to the day when your dreams were ripped away from you. It was in this very cafe that you remember every detail of that night, every word he spoke to try and make you see his point of view, as if to soften the blow of his abandonment. Who was he trying to kid? His name was Jung Hoseok, Jhope in the figure skating circles. Yes, THAT Jung Hoseok. Lovable bad boy Pro skater Jung. god. damn. Hoseok. It was such a bad break up, if you could call it a break up. More like complete abandonment in your opinion. Who the hell abandons their girlfriend and skating partner for competition? Him thats who. 

It all happened at the junior world championships. You and Hoseok had been partners for 10 years, ever since you could balance on your skates. and for 5 years you had been a couple going strong. All the training you put in had led up to that moment, the moment to prove yourselves and be scouted out by the mass of agencies that had attended in hopes of snatching some new blood. It was finally your turn and you both breezed through the routine, the toe loops? no sweat. the Salchows were child’s play for you both. But then came the triple lutz. You had practices this particular move almost a hundred times and every time you were near perfect. But that one particular moment. The one time you needed to be flawless, lady luck decided fortune was not in the cards for you. You lost footing mid air and Boom. One broken femur and a trip to the hospital later you felt your ego bruised and your chances of being talent scouted shot.

It was two months later into your recovery Hoseok had asked you to meet at the cafe you sat in now, four booths over in fact. You had arrived a little late due to your injury inconvenience. He had ordered your favourite hot drink, peppermint hot chocolate and asked how you were. You didn’t think nothing of it but he had been distant since the accident. It wasn’t anything you felt you had to worry about, you were confined to the house the majority of your time after being released from the hospital so it was natural to you you hadn’t seen him in weeks. It was only when he cleared his throat and bit his lip you knew something was on his mind, it was a habit he had since he was a kid. Time seemed to slow down in that moment as your world caved in from under you.

“hey listen,, this is a little hard for me to say…”

“oh? is everything alright? I know we haven't been able to practice in a while but once im all healed-”

“no no its,,, look Y/N ill be straight with you.”

“ o- ok?”

“Y/N,, I want to go somewhere with my figure skating. and with you off the ice for the foreseeable,,,, I dont think I can go anywhere.”

“ oh… uh- so,, are you saying you want to go solo?”

“Not quite,,, aghhh listen, after your accident I realised were on different levels in our skating, this just proves it. This competition should have been easy for us and you go and break your leg for fucks sake,”

“oh like it was my intention to make an idiot of myself out there? How can you blame me for that?! Hoseok if you just wait we can work, I can work on my routines. i ca-”

“Y/N I cant say thins any other way but, I got a call from the S.F.S.A and they want me in their program. They’ve partnered me with a great skater and she-”

“Wait… you've already signed with them,,, and got a new partner. Hoseok I cant… I cant believe you. We always said we skate together or not at all. and you know how much I wanted us to get into S.F.S.A TOGETHER? Its like you dont care about anything we worked towards… and just because I broke my leg? … I just. I cant believe you.”

“come on Y/N dont be like this. This is a big opportunity for me. The Seoul Figure Skating Association in a BIG deal. I thought you’d understand. Your my girlfriend why are you being like this”

“Im HURT Hobi!? The slightest inconvenience and you throw me away? ,,,”

The silence was deafening as the two of you sat in that booth, The lighting overhead made Hobis blonde tips look almost white, and your eyes shimmer with unshed tears. It was as if the Hobi you knew, the man you’d loved since childhood had disappeared the moment he sat down. After all the hard work and effort you had put in, both in your teamwork and relationship, was it all for nothing. 

“I dont think this is gonna work between us anymore… Things, things change. People change and, I want this Y/N. I cant wait for you anymore.”

Those few sentences broke your heart. With nothing else to say to him you stood up, your crutches steadying you as you said nothing, what could you say to someone who just threw away everything you had together for a chance at bettering his career,,, a career you both put so much effort into. A career he was perusing with someone new. Hoseok stood with you when you struggled to adjust your bag around your head, he looked as though he wanted to help you, but the angry tears threatening to spill out of your reddening eyes was enough to tell him not to. As you made your way to the entrance you looked back at him, his face was masked in an almost pained expression, his cheeks were starting to pinken and his jaw was shaking slightly as thought he was about to cry. You left the shop before you could hear him saying its for the best. if that was what he thought then he can leave you. You were just thrown to the kerb and in that moment. your perfect world had shattered. your reflection left broken into pieces on the floor.

So, two years later and here you sit, in the same cafe, looking over to the booth your whole life came crashing down. Your leg had healed well, and you took back to the ice almost instantly to train yourself up again, but after the pain of losing your partner on and off the ice, you just couldn’t find the confidence you once had. It was as if your competitive lust for figure sating had left you with Hobi. It was after your loss of confidence your mental health took an even bigger hit, you felt yourself declining from the world and the people around you as you just got by day to day. You felt you could heal from what happened physically, but not mentally. But all grey clouds have a silver lining, days went by, the sun came up, and you eventually felt like yourself again. It took a lot, but it was the lack of self confidence in yourself that led you to your current occupation, your local ice rink had an opening for the overseeing the beginners lessons for ages 5-10, as much as you wished you could get back to being the skater you once were, the kids have grown on you. Your days that were filled with dull moping around the now very single woman’s apartment was now filled with tiny rosy cheeked little faces eager to learn. and everyday you felt yourself becoming more and more like yourself. And its this part of your life when you meet someone who turns it all around for you.

[intersexcharacteroftheday]

Hey!! :) How do I write an intersex character? I'm a pansexual cis female trying to Write(!) And one of my characters is a female born with male genitalia. I want to make sure I only have positive truths about the community, but I also want this character to be a powerful person who has a sexual side, but because they're a full grown human not bc they're smutty. Aghhh please help I'm over thinking it and I block myself ! :/ Any advice would be amazing please and thanks and love

1.) I have to assume that you are also dyadic/perisex (means not intersex) since you are coming to this blog for intersex character writing tips (which is… technically not the scope of the blog!). I don’t know why you’ve mentioned being a pansexual cis woman when that has…. also nothing to do with writing an intersex character!

2.) That is a quite frankly terrible way to phrase it. Saying “a female born with male genitalia” is very easily read as transmisogynistic. Nothing about how you have phrased that strikes me that you know anything about being intersex, and that you are also not sensitive to the trans community either. I think I would work on how you understand the trans and intersex communities (and how they interlap and are also separate) before writing your character, because although you don’t seem malicious a lot of your language is…. Problematic. 

3.) My suggestion is that you please educate yourself first on being trans and intersex, the language, the communities, etc and the like before attempting this. As an individual that is actually both trans and intersex I can say if I read anything phrased how you have in this message, although well meaning, it would terribly put me off due to the underlining intersexism/cissexism in this ask. 

4.) Being intersex is.. not just about genitalia. I would really suggest you look into that before attempting anything, because a big problem that I have found is the hyper focus dyadic people pay to our genitalia. You must figure out if what you’re writing is fetishistic or not. Oftentimes most of the works I see conflate being intersex with a terrible misunderstanding of what h*rmaphroditism is. Don’t use that word, and don’t conflate being intersex with genitalia. 

5.) I understand that you want your character to be a sexual adult expressing her sexuality. And that is good. Just once again, avoid fetishizing your own character… 

Anyways this is getting long and since this is not the point of the blog and I’ve never billed myself a “how to write intersex characters pro” and am simply a trans and intersex person who wanted a cotd for intersex characters, I’m going to give you a few links. Please really think about what you know and watch your language, because no one can tell you how to write “The Intersex Character” because that in and off itself would be grossly reductionist to our entire community. 

Since I have literally no idea what you even know I’m going to very briefly link to a few things, and if any of our followers have the energy and the inclination to reply with anything else that would be helpful, they’re more than welcome to. 

http://www.isna.org/

http://actuallyintersex.tumblr.com/post/102145833259/im-sorry-if-this-is-bad-to-ask-but-why-is-dyadic

http://vergess.tumblr.com/post/143808164510/intersex-vocabulary

http://downwithcisfandom.tumblr.com/post/138242081932/vergess-vergess-if-anyone-tells-you-that-there

[chocosvt]

as someone who writes in 2nd person a lot do u have any advice on how not to keep using ‘you’ all the time? it’s suuuuper tricky not to aghhh... thanks in advance!

i think the same concepts can be applied in both 2nd and 3rd person since either way there will appear to be repetition using “you/she/he”. but i do understand where youre coming from and how continuously using the word can be an uncomfortable exercise for your mouth :-( im rly picky abt minuscule details like tht and i cant stand when words are closely repeated in a sentence just bc it disrupts the flow. therefore im always formulating ways to rearrange words.

hmmmmm. i guess i can say to simply the word the sentence differently! if you’re always starting off the sentence with, “you said/exclaimed/sighed” ect, then assess the scene as a whole and see where you can take out words. here, ill try to make an example and hopefully it wont suck:

“Don’t be late,” You said.

“I promise I won’t be,” He replied, smiling brightly.

“Thank God for that.” The words left your mouth in a relieved sigh.

im not entirely sure how much rearranging this included but hopefully you get the gist! it’s always good to describe the character’s mannerisms every once in awhile and it does take away from using “you” too frequently. though i wouldnt abuse the detailing factor bc it can be overbearing. even in regular paragraph structure, when you’re feeling as though you’ve used “your” too much, just try rearranging the pauses between sentences until it seems to flow a lot smoother and there’s no grit between the words. so another exp, (btw SORRY FOR GOING INTO SO MUCH DEPTH OKAY ERJNFEJG HOPEFULLY THIS IS SOMEWHAT HELPFUL)

bad example:you tucked your strands of loose hair behind your ear.

better, flow-y example:you tucked the loose strands of hair behind your ear’s cusp.

U SEE WHAT I MEAN WITH THE FLOW THING, overall it sounds much better and the pronunciation is like.,,;;; all fresh n clean!! ive also noticed tht the “yuh” sound at the beginning of “you” and “your” is sort of guttural and begins at the back of the mouth, so it’s not the most pleasant thing to hear inside your head whilst you’re trying to read! just play around with rewording your sentences! i can assure tht the more you continue to read and write, the more you’ll develop an ear for those things and be able to correct them! anywho, im sorry if you werent expecting a long ass essay ass answer but yea…. *sweating*

[oury-boros]

can't stop thinking abt how super pissed off that one performance of mack the knife is at ppl who steal from marks & spencers. like seriously dude, that's your direct lead in to cops? chill out

(note: I don't think the list of people Mack is begging mercy from is meant to be in ascending order of evilness. but the way the music is intensifying as he's singing REALLY gives the impression that aside from cops, shoplifting girls are at the top of his shit list. like, ok, so it's tramps -> dealers -> pimps -> disposal men -> pocket pickers -> girls who give the world a glimpse of inviting tights and lurid snickers (rly had a paint an image on that one huh mack) -> needle boys -> drug dispensers -> kids who (??? tbh I'm writing this from memory cause i can't find the recording I'm talking about) -> GIRLS WHO STEAL FROM MARKS & SPENCERS. then the cops get their own section where mack kinda resets but with more tension at the beginning and goes back up until he is SCREAMING at the police and DAMN i can make fun of mack and his over the top hypocrisy all day every day but i canNOT fault the music in this show, this shit HITS, genuinely makes me like mack for like, three whole minutes. mack said acab but clearly didn't mean it considering his bff is a cop and he relies pretty heavily on the police protecting him up until they can't at which point he condemns them. did I mention he's a hypocrite?)

also this post has no discernible point anymore aside from the general topic of Macheath Begs for All Men's Forgiveness so can we PLEASE talk about

I won't cast judgement on your morals

That's not the way I want to be

I'm sick and tired of picking quarrels

I'll pardon you, you pardon me

Let heaven smash your fucking faces

Slash you and let the blood run free

And break you in a thousand places

I've pardoned you, you pardon me

Like??? Mack. My dude.

also actually let's abandon this song too because thIS WHOLE VERSION IS EXCELLENT

Ok so I'm talking abt the production from the 90s (I seriously CANNOT find the one I mean), which seems to place 3p in the modern era, but I've only ever heard the cast recording, so it's easy to forget that until suddenly mack is screaming in your ear abt crooked cops with:

Mercedes

Mobile phones

Trendy jackets

And I LOVE it

A few of the songs get things either more faithfully translated than the 60s version or add some stuff on?? Like idk if the original 3p featured abortion in tango ballad but shit does the 90s knock shop tango make that experience visceral, not to mention the pauses in the song where mack is doing the street vendor "hey come get our products" thing but, y'know, pimping out his then-(maybe?)-wife (btw I have no clue what her name is. Jenny? Is it jenny? There's a jenny but I don't know if tango is that jenny, but I have heard one version where he called her jenny)

ALSO ALSO ALSO I guess ballad of dependency (or sexual dependency or w/e but tbh the first time I saw it live, it was just "dependency" and mrs. peachum was drinking heavily throughout which rly added to the irony and the theme of rich & poor ppl having the same sins and the only difference is that the rich get away with it and honestly that themes a lot more clear in the beggar's opera bc that was john gays whole point whereas brecht was doing his usual anti-capitalism thing, and I honestly get super conflicted on this bc I prefer gay's storyline but he's clearly also just emerged from all the way up the royalty's butt and that's only bc he didn't get the position he wanted, and they're fundamentally different stories anyway bc gay's Captain Macheath is a poor thief literally WORKING FOR mr peachum and his crimes are stealing, gambling, having sex with multiple women, and having multiple wives (over time) whereas brecht's Mack the Knife is still a thief but the syndicate is his and he's become rich off it and thus his crimes are much worse: murder, rape, cannibalism (tho i don't remember if cpt mack is innocent of that and also tbh i remember a lot less abt gay's version in general bc hot take but the songs in 3p are better), etc, so ultimately which story you prefer is probably gonna be based on whether you want Macheath to be an immoral but lovable jerk who's just a pawn, or an immoral murderer & rapist who has connections in high places WHICH BTW IS ACTUALLY THE ROLE PEACHUM FILLS (PARTIALLY, AND JUST THAT LAST PART) IN BEGGARS, LIKE, LITERALLY "TIGER BROWN" IS FROM THE CHARACTER "LOCKIT" WHO IS PEACHUM'S CONTACT INSTEAD OF MACK'S AND AGHHH TOO MANY TOPICS) takes place later in this version than the one I saw? Bc there's a verse abt the moment one of the prostitutes turned mack in and it's like

The fog recedes

He starts to understand

There's thirty bits of silver in her hand

He's almost glad that she's been paid

LIKE??? I know I said earlier that Macheath Begs for All Men's Forgiveness was the only time I like mack in the show, and that's true, but this moment??? made me feel a little BAD for him

o shit that also reminds me of the bit in the 60s version (can you tell im mainly talking abt translations but don't know the names of the translators WHOOPS) of solomon song

Forgotten all that he had won

He trusted us and was undone

His melting heart put him on the spot

I was thinking about reforming

Guess not

and the "melting heart" thing is probably actually his lust or w/e but "HE TRUSTED US AND WAS UNDONE" FUCK DUDE!! THATS THE KIND OF LYRIC THAT MAKES A RICH DICK BRIEFLY LOOK LIKE A HUMAN PERSON

anyway the moral of this post is that im still reeling from the revelation that brecht didn't want to write an adaptation of the beggars opera, but his other ideas were shot down and his wife was working on translating it so it was on his mind.