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#Benefits of Moving to Apartment
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Are you contemplating the decision of whether to move into an apartment or a house in Mumbai? Well, you're not alone. With the urban landscape evolving rapidly, the choice between a residential apartment and a house has become a significant consideration for many. PCPL’s delve into the advantages of opting for an apartment over a house in the vibrant city of Mumbai.
1. Affordability and Cost-Effectiveness
One of the most compelling reasons to choose an apartment over a Residential Apartments in Mumbai is affordability. The real estate market in Mumbai is known for its skyrocketing property prices, and apartments tend to be more cost-effective compared to standalone houses. Apartments allow you to make the most of your budget, getting you more bangs for your buck in terms of location, amenities, and modern facilities.
2. Lower Maintenance and Upkeep
Apartment living often translates to lower maintenance and upkeep. 1 BHK Flats & 2 BHK Flats in Mumbai, where time is of the essence, the convenience of having maintenance staff take care of the building, common areas, and external repairs can't be overstated. This not only saves you time but also minimizes the stress of managing these aspects yourself, which is common when residing in a house.
3. Access to Amenities and Facilities
Many residential apartments come with a plethora of amenities such as gyms, swimming pools, security services, and even community spaces. These facilities provide a convenient and enriching lifestyle, fostering a sense of community and enhancing your overall quality of life. In a city as fast-paced as Mumbai, having access to these amenities within your living space can significantly enhance your work-life balance.
4. Enhanced Security
Security is a paramount concern in any metropolitan area. Apartments often offer enhanced security features like gated entrances, surveillance systems, and security personnel. This adds an extra layer of protection for you and your family, offering peace of mind and allowing you to focus on other aspects of your life without constantly worrying about safety.
5. Prime Locations
Apartments are frequently situated in prime locations, allowing you to be closer to major hubs, commercial areas, and public transportation. In a sprawling city like Mumbai, where commuting can be a challenge, living in an apartment that offers easy access to your workplace, educational institutions, and entertainment options can be a game-changer.
6. Community and Networking
Living in an apartment complex provides ample opportunities to connect and network with your neighbors. The sense of community fosters social interactions, allowing you to build relationships and friendships that can be beneficial in both personal and professional spheres. This can be particularly helpful in a city like Mumbai, where expanding your network can open doors to various opportunities.
8. Flexibility and Mobility
In a dynamic city like Mumbai, where job opportunities and lifestyle preferences can change rapidly, apartments offer a higher degree of flexibility. Renting an apartment provides the advantage of easy relocation without the cumbersome process of selling a property. This flexibility can be particularly advantageous for individuals who are unsure about their long-term plans in the city.
ConclusionEmbracing the apartment lifestyle in Mumbai comes with a multitude of benefits that cater to the fast-paced urban living. From affordability and convenience to enhanced security and community interactions, the advantages of choosing an apartment over a house are numerous. As Mumbai continues to evolve, apartments stand as a smart and pragmatic choice for those seeking a harmonious blend of comfort, convenience, and modernity.
Read More: https://pranavconstruction.blogspot.com/2023/08/benefits-of-moving-to-the-apartment-instead-of-a-house-in-mumbai.html
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kirby-the-gorb · 6 months
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dunmertwink · 1 month
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#so im gonna be a lil bitch on main for a minute#ive been offline for a while#pretty much absent from all my socials#im in a pickle financially like i have no money anywhere#my credit cards are maxxed#my bank account is negative 400 dollars#im getting 20 dollars less in disability benefits a month without a clear reason for the witholding#granted its only 20 bucks less but that still makes a huge difference when thats my ONLY source of income#AND i am moving into a new apartment which should be an exciting experience finally moving out of my parents house and on my own and all BUT#even with the voucher program i would need an additional 600 to be able to afford my rent share and utilities#on top of being negative 400 dollars a month so now thats -1000#WHICH end result and the crux of this whole rant#i can no longer help#like i am fucking useless right now and people are literally dying#i have many unanswered asks from gazans right now that I cannot even help bc im so broke#it feels really bad bruv like reallybad#feels like absolute shit#and it ust feels so wrong to ask for help when others need it more#like i dont think i could do that#wtf man#is it me upset that my entire disability check goes to bills to the point where i overdraft every month? yeah sure#my art does not sell and ive tried everything! like it just DOES NOT sell#and it all kinda boils down to me not having any sort of following online#i just breached 200 followers here after 13 years on this website#most are inactive blogs from years ago so i maybe have like... 10 active followers?#whiny usamerican rant over for now#delete later
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mutalune · 3 months
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hey siri how do I stop feeling gutwrenchingly anxious in the guilt way for using the treatment methods available to me to not be in constant misery
#starlight personal#it’s very bizarre to have my life going objectively well - work is good! personal life is good! family is good!#and still be very mentally ill and feel like I’m faking it even though I know damn well I ain’t scream-sobbing every couple of days alone in#my apartment for attention because What Attention??? my cat????? Bug is never moved by my tears she cares only for string and wires#like I know that cannabis has been immensely helpful to getting me to fucking sleep on a regular schedule and that’s integral to -#my functioning and I know that having emergency klonopin in the event of a total breakout is helpful#and I KNOW that my PMDD and depression and anxiety are very treatment resistant and ketamine is the only thing that’s provided any -#meaningful relief and logically I know I’m not abusing any of these#I’m getting a promotion at work I still go out to see friends regularly I have hobbies I have a girlfriend (??? Wild right)#like clearly these things are working because i’m better now than i was for years leading up to now#SO LIKE. DON’T STOP USING THE THINGS THAT HELP. LOGICALLY THIS MEANS THESE ARE GOOD FOR ME#I always roll my eyes when ppl go off their meds b/c they’re feeling better like babes that’s what the meds are meant to do#if you stop taking them you stop feeling better - but it’s REALLY HARD to get past the cultural conditioning#the feeling that ‘but I can white knuckle my way through this I can force myself to live without’ like WHY BITCH#WE DON’T HAVE TO LIVE WITHOUT#AND ALSO. WE’RE STILL GENERALLY MISERABLE BRO. EVEN WITH OUR LIFE IN A BETTER PLACE!!!#DO YOU NOT THINK THIS MEANS THAT WE SHOULD USE WHAT WE KNOW WORKS TO BE LESS MISERABLE#basically it’s really hard to not feel like a loser when the only things that help are ‘fun’ drugs like weed and psychedelics#I feel like I’m being a hedonistic reprobate which 1) is actually kinda cool now that I wrote it out#2) @ myself were not a good enough liar-faker that every medical professional we see wouldn’t pick up on that if that was our motivation#time to remind myself that it’s arrogant to think I could trick many trained professionals without actively trying tbh#that generally helps me get out of my self-pitying ‘ohhhhh I’m awful and lazy and bad and abusing substances’ spiral#to be very mentally ill on main it is weirdly reassuring to be like ‘just as my fanon interpretation of obi wan kinda hates himself but is -#practical enough to take care of himself even when it makes him cringe and want to scratch his face off; I too am aware that self-care is -#radical and punk and In Fact Necessary to beat back the dark and live in the light with hope so yes even though I doubt and -#feel squiggly and guilty about it I’m not going to NOT prioritize my health and well-being b/c self-hatred and self-denial benefits no one’#thank you inner obi wan i love projecting my issues onto you mwah mwah mwah smooches for my favorite boy!!!!!#and smooches for me I’m going to be proud of myself gosh darn it even if I have to fake it at first#see I wouldn’t be able to be nice to myself like this if I hadn’t been doing ketamine treatment for a year IT WORKS BRO KEEP IT UP#SCHEDULE THE DAMN APPOINTMENT AND CLEAN YOUR BONG
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nerdyqueerr · 3 months
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Really upsetting to me that i don't realistically have time in my life to be a successful poet and rugby player and society for creative anachronism member and ttrpg maker/gm/player and rock climber
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localbabygirl · 4 months
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at this point the one (1) thing i'm working towards is having enough money at the end of the day to afford someone who cleans my apartment for me like two times a week ngl. like that's the one goal.
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bunnihearted · 9 months
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#how and where i live is slowly driving me insane#at home i can never rest or relax. the situation w my sisters is rlly affecting me and im too sensitive for it#plus... i cant concemtrate bc my sistyers sound like deranged monkeys. they are SO loud#when im in my room and they sit in the living room their digusting voices and laughter and yells make me so fkn angry#even when i have headphones on i can hear them. and it's for long stretches of time and also in the evenings/nights#i just wanna be able to concentrate on things but i cant when i have to fkn listen to them all the time. so noisy#also i hate this city. it's gotten wayyyyyy worse in the past few years. there are sm things wrong w it so i dont need to rant abt all of it#but mainly it's so noisy. construction work everywhere 24/7!!!! theyre building a subway which takes so long bc they actually cant afford it#theres nowhere to go where i get some peace nd quiet. the forest is full of drill sounds and explosions and just awful noise#basically i just HATE how i live. i hate this city#i hate my apartment bc of my family and neighbors and how ugly it is#i've lived in the same place for 25 years im just sick of it#i've put myself on a couple of apartment waiting lists but that can take years :((#also i cant move while im on benefits/wellfare (yes im a burden on the state stfu KYS)#i could get a job but how where???? the most realistic for ME nd the useless stupid incapable person i am is to move ad a student#but in order for that i need to finish upper secondary school and get my 'diploma' so i can apply for some programs and move to another city#getting student housing is not easy but it's easier and more straightforward then finding a job and move (in the position im in)#and for some reason..... actually doing my schoolwork is so so hard and i dont wanna! :((#even if i know i HAVE to bc i dont have any otherq options :/#i cant stand living in this town and i cant stand living w my family i need a new place by myself#genuinely i hate myself bc why can i not just DO things??? other ppl get shit done. why cant i? i just dont know how and its frustrating#also other ppl dont understand. they just think im lazy and incompetent and think like omg just do it#i've asked therapists for help but it's like they dont know anything bc i have never gotten help#fuckkkkk i wanna move away i wanna be an adult i wanna get an education and pay rent and be normal
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pepprs · 1 year
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lol
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sparklingchim · 2 years
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I kinda agree with this anon.
And I feel that making a child independent is gradual process not just kicking them out (i mean not literally) as soon as they turn 18 😭
And what do a 18 year even know? This is why kids think that they know everything.I also feel that the kids who move out suppress their feelings, trying to figure everything on their own because they think they have responsibilities since they live on their own, and hide things from people who might actually help them!
Also, if can't afford a child, why procreate? (Ik not everyone have choices) Parents should atleast pay for the education imo 🖐️
it's an individual experience. independence is of course a gradual process, but moving out improves it along w other aspects. but i also know of ppl who didn't have a good experience moving out after high school, so i'd say there's no specific age or timing for moving out just do it if u feel ready n are financially secure !
i mean u can't expect parents to pay for everything? i agree that u shouldn't have children if u can't afford them, but i don't think u can generalise abt what parents have to pay for. its different for everyone !!
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wildermouse · 2 years
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vent iii.
#yeah i could just make a 'read more' post but tags are better for me#more hiding#anyway#i have this problem where my sister is probably moving out next year but she can't rly do that without me bc her dog has issues#and i would have to take him out and feed all the animals while she's at work during the day bc nobody else can#but even with that being taken into account she would still charge me over double what i'm paying now for rent and i cannot afford that#and she says i'd have to get a job too but excuse me how am i supposed to work when i also have to be home to look after your animals??#barn job would be nice bc short hours but it also wouldn't be enough to pay what she'd charge me#so i'm screwed there#anyway i WISH i could make enough money to live on my own but i CAN'T#ik i probably sound very lazy and spoiled and i get that i am definitely priviliged to get to live at home for cheap rent#but it also fucks with my mental health so bad living here. and i want to live on my own but it's just not an option rn#i have dreams and they're such basic sad dreams that i still don't think i'll ever accomplish#like i want to live in my own small travel trailer. that's all. my own space. or a tiny falling apart cabin that i can fix up#that's all i want and it seems impossible for me#i'm not built to live in this world. my body and mind cannot take it. i have tried. i've tried so hard#honestly if i had to work full time again i don't think i'd actually be able to stay alive to benefit from it. it would burn me out too bad#there's no win for me#i'm still trying to figure something out but i'm honestly not hopefull at all
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an-aura-about-you · 2 years
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I am having feelings, and those feelings are frustration.
#rant in the tags ahead#so I like my house#I REALLY like my house#and not just because my house is paid off which means I don't have a mortgage anymore#(I know I'm in a very lucky position with that)#BUT the house is on a steep hill#not high but steep#and if I have to use any sort of wheeled mobility aid I am basically stuck in my house#every single exit in my house has at least one big step down#It's Not Great#so I've been thinking about moving#try to find a place that's NOT on a bonkers steep hill#and I know if I do that then I can sell THIS house and use the money I get from that to pay off most of the NEW place#but it is hard to find anything worth a damn#and I've thought about moving into an apartment again but then I'd have to pay rent and be at the mercy of a landlord#Don't Like That#but at the same time if I live in an apartment or condo then I don't have to do my own yardwork or maintenance#but any of the financial benefits I might get from the smaller space of an apartment are lost in the rent!!!#so I've been thinking about if it's possible to make the house I have more accessible#some ideas seem better than others#it's really hard to know what to do#maybe I should talk to a professional and see what they have to say about my situation#maybe I should actually apply for disability? idk#I feel like that will also be trouble but if it can get me access to info I need it might be worth it#but it seems like I should be able to access that info somehow under the guise of 'helping a disabled family member'#I've got enough of those that I could do that ruse
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aceyanaheim · 5 days
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"So what did you guys do to figure out the shelf space?"
"well we all actually love each other so we kinda just went 'can I put my stuff here? Yeah okay' so like that"
Anyways at least my sister has good house mates.
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the-kipsabian · 5 months
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i am this 🤏 close to a complete fucking mental breakdown how are we doing today
#they are snipping my benefits if i dont find a cheaper apartment. they have changed the game on me about this again#it wasnt like this last month. theres no available cheaper apartments in this city but they dont accept that as an explanation anymore#i cant find a fucking job and im pretty sure the gallery ghosted me and/or im not getting it and im so fucking out of options i dont#know what to do anymore. nothing fucking works out and ive just been sitting here crying for like two hours now#i have people trying to walk me through this and rationalize this but its so fucking useless when nothing i try works out#and then the fucking government throws more wrenches into my already fucking miserable existence and i just#im just so done. i just want to lay on the floor and rot like i get it im useless and you dont want to support me gg this country sucks ass#fuck the mentally ill fuck the poor fuck the jobless how about we try to make you homeless as well like#if i have tried to avoid wanting to feel like dying lately wow this surely set me back like two months worth of progress on that. fun#im just. out of options. i cant even fill this fucking apartment application without feeling shitty and hopeless about it#moving is the last thing i wanna do and theres no places here but what the fuck can i do. i dont know#sorry im just. i dont know. everything just fucking sucks. i just want to stay here and have a steady job and just#i just wanna live. but they are making it so fucking impossible i dont... i dont know#i dont fucking know#night is an absolute mess on main
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raviniaraven · 6 months
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SSA: So if you have more than $2000 in your bank account or get any kind of job, you immediately lose your benefits, regardless of how stable that income is
Every US Employer: No one wants to work anymore, they just wanna collect disability benefits :(
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lyrefromthesea · 3 months
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Please can I request pre-relationship hashira x hashira!reader, where they are sparing together and it becomes a bit suggestive 💙💙
Male pillars x reader - Sparing with benefits
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pairing: Tengen x reader, Obanai x reader, Rengoku x reader, Sanemi x reader, Giyuu , reader, Gyomei x reader
content warning: suggestiveness
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Tengen:
"you could just give up, there's no chance you could win against my flamboyant self!" he taunted, running around the courtyard with you.
you had been fighting for ten minutes and there was still no end in sight. you weren't a bad fighter, you've been promoted as a hashira some time ago, but Tengen was at advantage right now.
he was faster than you. he had been saving himself from your attacks by avoiding them every time. the smirk on his face only spurred you on more, wanting to win this fight and show him that you were a good fighter.
however, when you raised your bamboo sword for an attack and he turned around to dodge it, you felt yourself trip on a root. it had been sticking out of the ground, making you fall over.
surprised by what has happened, Tengen lost his own halt and fell backwards, landing in a sitting position. you felt yourself fall onto him, at least partly.
when you checked your surroundings, you found your head on his lap. your cheek pressed against his groin. meeting his gaze, you could see his cocky smirk.
"it was an accident! i didn't mean to.." you said, wanting to stand up instantly. this would definitely look wrong from an outsider's perspective.
when you tried to stand up, you felt his hand tangle in your hair, pressing your cheek a bit more against his groin, only satisfied when you felt the bulge against your skin.
"just so you know, my wives had always found you cute enough for this.." he teased, his eyes staying on your widened eyes.
you pushed away, running away from his grip and off the training field.
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Obanai:
he was proud of you for becoming a hashira. when he took you in as his tsuguko, he wasn't sure if he made the right decision, but he was sure now.
you were able to follow his movements, dodge his attacks and even make some of your own. your elegance captivated him and he found himself admiring your fighting style.
perhaps he had been diving in his thoughts too much, because when his attention was finally back on you, he was already on the ground.
your legs were on either side of him, straddling his body. heterochromic eyes were staring deeply into yours, surprised by the sudden turn of events.
"i win, Obanai." you said, looking down at the man. your hands were resting on his chest, leaning forward slightly.
his heartbeat was increasing under your hands, cheeks flushing. it wasn't the first time he noticed how beautiful you were, but your allure only increased like this.
"you.. you do.." he muttered, not being able to turn his eyes away from you. yet again, neither were you. you leaned down further, remaining with your faces only a few inches apart.
it would've been so easy to kiss him right now. however, feeling your hips rub against his groin, he couldn't stop his body from reacting, his hands gripping your waist.
"[name], g- get down.."
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Rengoku:
"flame breathing. third form: blazing universe!" he called out, his bamboo sword coming at you with immense speed. you barely managed to block his attack - meaning you didn't do it.
your body flew a few feet away, landing on the ground. with a quiet grunt, you turned onto your back. "i give up.." you sighed.
however, there was no audible reaction from Rengoku. turning your head towards him, you wanted to know what's wrong, only to see his wide eyes staring.
he shook his head, running towards you and kneeling down. "are.. are you okay?" he asked, seeing you nod. he didn't respond, as if he knew something you didn't.
"just tell me, Rengoku!" you pleaded, feeling yourself enter a state of panic. did you lose a leg? it wasn't like him to behave this way.
he moved his hand closer, placing his hand against the side of your stomach. your eyes widened, looking down at yourself, staring at your torn uniform.
not only the right side of your shirt, but also the entirety of your right pant leg was missing. you instantly sat up, trying to cover up.
"i didn't know, i will-" you tried excusing yourself, but fell silent when he squeezed your waist slightly, attention moving back to him.
"i'll bring you back." he answered, taking off his haori and pulling it over your form. it didn't help covering your leg, but at least your upper body looked a bit more presentable.
he scooped you into his arms, both your legs around his waist. you rested your chin on his shoulder, wishing to disappear. the whole situation was embarrassing, and even worse, you had felt warm when he touched your skin unhindered.
his hand held you up by your thighs, his grip on your right thigh a bit stronger. you could feel his fingers dig into the soft flesh of your leg, glancing up at him.
"you.. you're really soft." he quietly said, not able to hide his red face from you.
perhaps the whole situations had it's advantages.
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Sanemi:
"stop running! just admit defeat!" he shouted after you, determined to get this fight over with. the only problem: you were extremely fast. you managed to dodge his attacks every time.
"never!" you answered, seeing him try to attack again. you were ready to dodge his bamboo sword, but were shocked to see him drop it mid-attack.
his hand shot towards you instead, quite literally knocking you down with his harsh hit. your back made contact with the ground, Sanemi tackling you down immediately.
"i win." he said, smirking at your defeated form. you tried freeing yourself, not able to push up with his hand on your neck.
"i didn't give up yet." you huffed out, feeling him squeezing your throat lightly - he was warning you. only that his warning didn't work as intended.
a quiet whimper escaped your lips, your cheeks flushing in embarrassment. he had heard the sound, you knew it.
"oh? didn't know you were into the rough treatment." he smirked - teased. your reaction was immediate, pressing your knee up and right against his crotch.
he groaned, letting go of you. he clearly hadn't expected you to do that, especially not after you pushed him away and freed yourself.
"didn't know you were into that, Shinazugawa."
"you-"
naturally, another fight started right after.
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Giyuu:
how did this happen? thirty minutes of fighting just for your bamboo sword to be kicked to the side by him. he had been too fast for you, leaving you unable to react.
your back was pressed against the wall, wide eyes staring into his. he had caged you between the wall and his body, his form towering over you.
ocean eyes were deeply staring into yours, his hand pressing against the wall behind you. he couldn't tear his gaze away from your body, not when you were presented right in front of him.
"you lost." he stated, as if it wasn't obvious to the both of you. his eyes narrowed, his other hand moving towards you.
"if this had been a fight with a demon, you would've died." he said, making you feel like prey under his eyes. he placed his hand on your chin, thumb nearly grazing your lips.
"don't lose focus." he uttered, but his eyes had long broken their contact with yours. he was watching your lips instead, as if he was debating on a kiss.
"i wont." you answered breathlessly, getting his attention back on you. he let go of your chin, stepping away and picking up your sword.
"let's try it out." he taunted, neither of you really focusing on winning or losing now.
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Gyomei:
this fight was unfair to begin with. without a doubt, you were one of the strongest swordsman in the corps. you've served as a hashira for three years now, but no one could win against Gyomei.
naturally, you admitted defeat when he threw you over half the lake, immediately asking whether you're fine or not.
your head broke through the water, gasping for air. the water was freezing cold, but you told him you're fine.
he still made the effort to help you out of the water, drenching his own clothes in the freezing liquid.
"are you sure you're okay?" he asked, big tears already rolling down his face again. you avoided your eyes from his form, not trying to appear inappropriate.
"i'm fine." you answered, looking at your own body. both of your clothes were quite see-through, giving you a greedy sight of his muscles and abs.
looking down at yourself, your clothes weren't any better. you thought of yourself as lucky, not wanting to live with the shame of letting him see so much of your body.
"come, it's freezing in here." he told you, pulling you into his arms and out of the water as he made his way out of it.
what you didn't know, was how his fingers could feel everything that you were seeing. your clothes stuck to your skin, not leaving much room for imagination.
he stepped out of the water, but instead of letting you down, his head tilted towards yours, foreheads nearly touching.
his hands squeezed your body, millions of thoughts running through his head. "you're.." he said, but he stopped, not wanting to do something he might regret later.
"you're still wet, we should get some dry clothes.." he told you instead, putting you down again, his hand sliding against your curves for a moment.
you watched him walk forward, your lips parted. was it wrong that you had hoped for him to continue?
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yanderenightmare · 3 months
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TW: nsfw, yandere, toxic relationship, friends with benefits, guns, threats of harm and death, name-calling
gn reader
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When you open your heart to your fuck-friend, he sighs with rust.
You still have his cum inside your hole as he tears you a new one—telling you he doesn’t have the fucking time or the fucking energy to deal with lovey-dovey confessions right now—he has enough bullshit on his goddamn plate already without having to consider you and your fucking feelings as well.
If you’re not going to shut up and fuck him, you might as well shut up and fuck off.
So you do. The latter, that is.
Part of you knew it was going to end up this way. You with your heart broken and him with the blood on his hands. But part of you had hoped as well—hoped he felt the same way—hoped your words would soften his edges and wash away all the muck in his head enough to let you in.
You’d read a little too much into those gentle touches he sometimes bestowed upon you in his weaker moments—that soft way he cried when holding onto you during the night, wordless and clingy and begging you not to go.
But the more you think about it, the less you understand why your heart aches. It doesn’t really make much sense after all…
In truth, he’s an asshole. Always been. And you deserve better.
He’s always so angry. Always on something mudding up his blood. Never with anything nice to say. It doesn’t really matter how you’d held him in his nightmares or patched him up when he’d stumbled through your door drunk and bloody. 
Scarred boys in need of fixing aren’t good for your health—especially when all they have to offer you in return are callous words of rejection.
He’d always been secretive. He wasn’t a very good lover—but you're not entirely sure if he was ever even a good man. The wounds he’d dreg to your apartment in the middle of the night always left blood on your sheets. He never agreed to go to the hospital—always insisted your first-aid kit was enough, even when he'd come to you with bullets you’d have to dig out with a pair of tweezers.
You realize he’d been using you. You were convenient and stopped being convenient the minute you wanted more—and upon the realization, you move on.
And then he comes crawling back…
Shivering in the rain like a beaten street mutt—looking starved and sick like one, too. There’s blood on his shirt and a grim darkness in his eyes. He tells you to let him in, and you only barely have the guts to tell him to go away. 
He has this tortured look on his face—as though something’s your fault, as though you’ve wronged him in some way, as though you’re the reason he’s out in the cold with nowhere to go.
Barging in and slamming the door behind him—he locks it and pockets the key—ignoring your questions as you ask him what the fuck’s gotten into him. He looks deranged—water dripping from his matted bangs, eyes reddened, and cheeks streaked. You only now notice it isn't because of the rain.
“You said you wanted me, didn’t you?” he huffs. “Here I am.”
You’re tense. You hadn’t felt like that with him before, it takes you a minute to realize it’s because you’re scared. After all, you’d wanted him all those other times—rough or otherwise. And now you didn’t want him at all. 
“You should leave. You’ve been drinking.”
“What? You changed your mind already?” he accused, then scoffed with a not-so-unamused laugh. “I’m not surprised. People like you, who like danger and bad men, are always so fickle-hearted.” He approaches you too fast for you to back away, his scarred hands curling into your sweater—split skin from recent beatings bleed onto the fabric. “Flighty little slut, you’ve probably already found the next guy who gives you a rush. Isn’t that right?” He’s seething as he pulls you forward, looking like a hostile hound.
You lay your hands on his chest to keep him at a distance—feeling his entire body shake like static beneath your touch. You wonder if he’s taken drugs tonight, but looking into his eyes, you don’t think so. They aren’t fidgety but deadset. Actually, upon closer look, you don’t even think he’s drunk.
But anyway, it doesn’t really matter. You still don’t want him here. “I’m serious. Get out, or I’m calling the police.”
“Oh? Are we slinging threats now?” he jeers, showing no signs of letting go or leaving—he only pulls you in closer, so close you could kiss. “What? Don’t tell me you’re scared now.” He breathes out another short excuse for a laugh as you veer away, putting his lips to your ear instead. “You should have been from the start—but no—grinding up on me at the club as though you’d die without my attention. Crying pretty tears when you saw me all beaten and bruised—acting as though you want to save me. Tch—”
He throws you down on the carpeted floor. You wince from the impact, and when you look up again, you see he has a gun pointed at you.
You stop breathing. A dark sinkhole in your gut seems to want to swallow you from the inside, and you think you might just want it to if it means escaping the threat before you.
“I shouldn't have come here…” he mutters—finger resting on the trigger all too calmy. “But I just couldn’t get your face out of my head. Looking up at me with those doe-eyes, wearing my shirt even though it’s got blood on it after I fuck you silly, saying such sweet little nothings as if I’d paid you to.”
He sighs—heavily—as though he’s expelling spirits. His hand remains holding the gun poised and pointed straight down at you even as the other drags down his face, pulling his maw before sliding through his wet locks, raking them away from his face.
“I gotta kill you, you know?” he says, shoulders slumping with the statement. He sniffs—it's almost soft enough to be a sniffle. “That’s the only way to solve this. That’s the only way to get you out of my fucking head.”
He cocks the safety with a click that makes your life flash before your eyes. Faces of your family and friends, people you haven't seen in years, childhood pets long dead, a job interview, the holiday you felt true happiness, the night you went out dancing and met him.
The tears stream silently down your face, and you still don’t breathe. Every part of you, every nerve and muscle, has gone completely still. Unmoving, unblinking as you stare up through the barrel of the gun and wait for the bullet to come through.
His finger curls tighter around the trigger, and you close your eyes with a furl between your brows. And then…
Nothing. There’s a large exhale.
“I can’t do it…” 
You open your eyes to see the gun lowered. The sight brings a fresh rush of air back to your lungs, making you all but wheeze as it fills you, breathing in far too much and much too quickly. You regain some semblance worth of motoric, too—able to scramble backward until there’s no more room to be gained, sitting with your back against the wall. Eyes peeled at him where he’s taken to crouch, holding his head with his free hand and the one still with the gun in it.
He fists his hair and tugs on it frustratedly, muttering to himself. “Dozens of lives on my hands, and I can't kill this one single-” he stopped short.
This time, when he looks at you, there’s something else in his eyes. No malice or scorn, but something sad—pity almost.
“Well… seems like you got what you wanted...”
The pity’s for you.
“This is what having my heart feels like.”
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