evan buckley is gonna love making bisexual jokes, he's gonna love calling himself queer and gay and bi and making jokes about coming out of the closet and swinging both ways and how he doesn't discriminate, he's gonna love discovering songs that are bisexual anthems like make me feel by janelle monáe, he's gonna love watching queer movies and crying a little at coming out scenes that remind him of him, and he's gonna love watching any movie and arguing the main character is bisexual, he's gonna love talking about boys with maddie, he's gonna love being loud about his bisexuality, he's gonna love telling people has a boyfriend and flirting with men and kissing them and having gay sex and going to gay clubs because he belongs there and knows that now, he's gonna love making up for lost time
There’s something about Eddie saying he’s a nester yet being completely incapable of doing such nesting with any of the women we’ve ever seen him with. Shannon was not only his wife, but Chris’ mother, and yet he didn’t feel ready to let her see their son once she came back… I’d even be willing to say he convinced himself into redoing his life with her because it made sense, and not because he was in love with her (again). Ana, however lovely she was, was also very clearly the product of Eddie putting Chris first. We see this when he has The Conversation with Buck: “Chris loves her”, “is that enough?” and soon we find out it isn’t. “We became a ready made family, and I’m not ready for that”. Finally we have Marisol, who he shoved inside his house only to kick out a few days later. But then… cut to Buck and Chris playing video games together, and doing some sort of scrapbook thing for Christmas, and visiting Santa, and going to the zoo. Cut to Buck picking Chris up from school, and being the first person Chris calls when Eddie breaks down (and goes to when he’s mad at his dad). Cut to homemade meals and difficult talks at any of their kitchens, and carrying each other physically and emotionally through the worse possible times. Cut to “there’s no one I trust with my son more than you,” and “this changes nothing between us.” Yeah,,, Eddie can’t nest with the women we’ve seen him with, because he already nested with Buck.
eddie, who made buck his son’s legal guardian, who allowed himself to be vulnerable in front of buck in ways he’s never been in front of anyone else, who gave buck a place, a home for the first time in his life (“it’s eddie’s house, i’m not really a guest”), who coparents his child with buck, who loves buck unconditionally, with everything in him, despite it all, because of it all: i’m a nester. i want to build a life with someone i love. a slow burn. i don’t want a ready made family. i want it with my best friend.
buck: :((( he’s gonna raise a family with tommy in the sky in their helicopter house :(((
watching castiel’s impact on queer media feels like when jesus died and his disciples were devastated but they still saw all the good his death did for the world