Wildcats (Part XXX)
XXX. Out in the cold
MASTERLIST
Summary: Your family sets on a warpath you know you will not survive.
Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Fem!Reader
Warnings: Zombie apocalypse AU, living dead, zombies, guts, blood, guns, cursing, talks about imprisonment, talks about burning with iron, re-burning with iron, injuries, talks about a beating, SMUT, unprotected sex (which I don’t encourage), cum eating, oral sex (F receiving), might miss some important warnings, but you know what this is about
+18, MINORS DNI
Notes: Uffff… I think this is an intense chapter, poor guys can’t catch a break jeje
You don’t remember what you were dreaming, because you took a couple of seconds to regain your bearings. What you did notice, is that you were awake, and still, when you opened your eyes there was a couple of seconds in which you couldn’t see anything.
Just like at night in that cell
So you jumped, with a scared whimper escaping from your lips.
Where you back there? had you dreamed it all? the rescue?
“Hey, hey”, Daryl’s voice, and arms came quickly, soothing you instantly.
“Oh, I’m sorry, for a second I thought… I was still in that box”, you whimpered
“Yer’ home, yer’ safe”, he said gently, you looked outside, and it was still dark, you didn’t even know what woke you up
It was one thing to want to get over what happened to you, the other, was to actually be able to do it.
“I’m sorry”, you whispered
“Aint nothin’ to be sorry for”, he said, his hand caressing your arm, your back, softly. Your body shook a bit, sometimes, involuntarily, it did, and Daryl didn’t know what to do, it was impossible for you to be closer than you were right now, but you felt like you wanted to crawl inside of him, being impossibly closer.
“What can I do?”, he asked, and you whimpered because of how bad you felt, you felt weak, you felt like a liability, you didn’t kill those men, you let them took you so they tortured you and now your entire family and community saw you as this broken thing, and in some degree, you knew you were that broken little thing they saw you as now.
“Nothing”, you said gently, caressing his face in the dark, “you are the best man I could have asked for, thank you”, you said, you pulled his shirt a bit up, and sneaked a hand underneath, you wanted to feel him, the warmth of his skin.
“You don’t need to thank me”, he said carefully
“Yes I do”, you said, “yes I do”, you echoed. You leaned in and kissed him on his chest, making him took a sharp breath, you caressed his sides as you accommodate more on top of him
“Hey”, he called gently, you could tell that he was in between fighting it, or letting you have it.
“I just want to feel you”, you whispered, this time, you went upwards, against his neck
“R ya’ sure?”, he mumbled, his voice thicker than usual
“Yes”, you said shakily, that made him put his hands on your shoulders, to stop you. “Are you?”
“Yer hurt”, he said gently
“I want to feel your hands on me”, you said, “I want to forget the way they grabbed me… I don’t want to feel anything but you”, you said. You didn't need anything else, no more prep time, you could feel how hard he was underneath you, so you just got rid of your pants, ignoring the pain in your body and you straddled him. You got rid of his shirt, and he was playing along with you.
You lowered his pants just enough to free his hard cock, you pumped it a couple of times with your hand, making him whimper. He did as you wanted him to, he caressed every inch he could, with his rough hands, but in a way so gentle, it made you almost purr.
You both moaned when you lowered yourself over him, it was a stretch, but it felt so fucking good. You stayed like that for long, delightful seconds, with him all the way inside of you.
“Fuck”, you moaned.
“Yer gonna kill me woman”, he mumbled, lost in bliss. You started moving, slowly but sensually, making sure to feel each detail, each veins and ridge of his cock inside of you. Soon he was trembling underneath you, his hand on your hips, on your ribcage, on your breasts, on your thighs, waist, everywhere, as you rode him, each second more sloppily, you were already losing it.
You cummed shortly after, and he was about to. He made you release him, you did so with a whimper. You looked down and you saw him cumming, white ropes of cum spurting into his belly.
“Let me clean you up”, you muttered
“Ya’ dun’ have to”, he whimpered, you loved him like this, while you were having sex, sometimes it gave you the impression that he was so vulnerable.
“I want to”, you kneeled by his side on your bed, leaned in, and without even thinking about it, you licked his cum off of his skin. You moaned, when you felt his taste, licking even more until there was nothing left. He was a bit of a shaking mess when you were done, he dragged you to kiss him intensely, while he had you in his grasp, he wrapped his arms around you making you turn, he adjusted his pants and spooned you, kissing the side of your face.
“I love ya”, he whispered
“I love you too”, Alexander was right, you needed to regain control of your body, and with that in mind you went back to a dreamless sleep.
You woke up with wet kisses on the side of your face, the sun barely peeking, pinkish-orangey light coming in.
“My turn to service you, darlin”, you giggled as you heard his rough voice in your ear, making your skin prickle.
“Good mornin”, you whispered. He made you lay down on the bed, so he could accommodate himself between your legs
“Can’t decide if I want ya’ on yer back or sittin’ on my face”
“You’ll suffocate”, you warned.
“Nah”, he said, “But I wanna see your beautiful face”, you moaned in protest, trying to close your legs, “what’s the matter woman?”, he chuckled,
“I’ve never felt comfortable…”, you confessed, “when they went down on me”
“But ya like it?”, he asked
“Yeah”, you admitted
“Then lemme do it”, he said then, his hands spread your legs gently, caressing your thighs making them tremble. Who hasn't been a bit… self-conscious? Is everything alright? groomed? smell?, you whimpered, but everything, absolutely everything went to second or third place in your list of priorities when you felt his wet tongue in your folds
“Fuck”, you whimpered, it was messy, wet, and completely enjoyable, he was slurping, eating you out like you were the last meal on the planet and he was starving. “Daryl”, you moaned, you couldn’t resist and grabbed onto his locks, keeping him there.
You came undone in minutes, all over his face, for you it was embarrassing but for him, was a prideful moment, you could see it in his wide… wet.. smile
“Fuck darlin”, he purred, kissing the inside of your thighs. “Never dun that’ before, wanted to for a while now”
“WHAT?”, you asked, impressed, he kept dropping kisses in your skin
“Now I want ya to be a good gurl and stay in bed”, he whispered, kissing your belly, then covering it with your shirt.
“Only if you stay here with me”, you begged, he kissed you then, making you taste yourself on his tongue.
“I got a couple f’things I need to do”, he said with a soft smile. “Need ta talk ta Rick”
Another big no no in apocalypse times? Lazy days in bed.
You were survivors not… vivors?
“Then I make no promises”, you said with a cheeky smile, he gave you one last kiss before he left the room and you pouted.
He might be a morning bird, but you were not.
You took the pills but before they kicked in, you really needed to asset the damage, the bruises barely hurt when somebody touched you, so you could move freely as the wound in your shoulder was pretty much healed, but there was a particularly nasty bruise in your ribs that bothered you, when you moved and when you laughed or took a long breath.
Denise discarded a broken rib, so that’s that. And your arm, your arm still burned.
So… ribs and arm, that’s it.
So when the pills started to kick in, you slipped a couple of more hours to sleep.
When you finally resurfaced, the house was empty, of course all of them were doing important things out there, patrolling, farming, trading, you even felt guilty.
You haven’t even gotten to the porch when you saw Smith coming into the house, you immediately got into alert mode. Looking everywhere, but you were alone.
When he saw you he smiled, and opened the door coming straight for you.
“Hey darlin”, he greeted with a toothy smile, “how are you?”
“Hey”, you said, taking a step back. You didn’t even knew why you were acting like this, before you wouldn't have even blinked, and now being with an unknown man made you feel like you're drowning, and you needed to hold onto something to keep afloat, something… or someone familiar
“Are you alright?”, he asked
“I’m fine”, you assured him
“You… went through some heavy shit”, he said, and he was one of those people who you didn’t know if he was being serious or not.
“Who hasn’t? In this fucked up world?”, you offered, not wanting to share.
“What did they do to you?”, he asked, he seemed impatient, but not towards you, but towards the answer. He took a step towards you, you took a step back. What they did wasn’t public knowledge, you only had told Rick, Daryl of course, Michonne heard, and Alexander. It wasn’t a secret, but… you were getting tired of saying
“They wanted to know the location of our community…”, you said gently, he seemed so concerned, angry, more like it, he seemed to want to know, like Daryl would like to know, for vengeance purposes, so that made you relax into his presence. You needed to get to know him, he was part of this place now. “... and when I didn’t give it, they stuffed me into a cell, fed me dogfood sandwiches, I tried to fight back, had knives on me, so they came in stronger, beat me up”, you said simply, by this point it was like a tape on repeat, “I knew one of them, back from the beginning, so, he tried to convinced me to join them, when I wouldn’t, he made Negan’s right hand burn me, two letters on my forearm”, he seemed to be getting angrier each word I said, but again, not at you.
“May I…?”, he asked, and he seemed so determined to know, you let him, when he saw it, you were pretty sure he was about to punch something or someone. He seemed to calm himself down a bit, and then raised his eyes to look at you, “I’m so sorry darlin”, he said, and he looked like he meant it
“It’ll heal”, you said, “and I managed to keep that info to myself, for how short that might be”, you said with a soft smile.
“Did you see this Negan guy?”, he asked, more interested
“Nope, but, he wasn’t there. I think he was away from the main compound, giving directions from afar, you know? I think they were running a bit wild because he wasn’t there”
“Is that what you think?”, he asked, more entertained
“Yeah, he runs a huge operation, he doesn’t struck me as the guy who would so stuff like this just because”, you muttered, “but I don’t know this guy, so…”, you smiled weirdly at him, and he looked at you, amused, “I’m sorry if I haven’t been welcoming”, you changed the subject brutally, “I was into something else when you guys showed up and then… this”, you offered, “I trust Deanna’s judgment, and I hope you can make yourselves feel at home here… is us against the dead, right? we living people need to stay together”, you offered.
You had been judgemental, and you could only imagine what those three lived out there, well, just like you, you wouldn’t want to feel like an outsider on the only island in the middle of a sea of death, right?
He looked at you, so into your eyes, like he was trying to figure out if you meant it, and a few seconds later, he felt content with your honesty
“Thank you darlin, you are so sweet”, he said gently, “despite everything you still… keep that… hospitality”, he said, you smiled
“Have you seen my… Daryl… have you seen Daryl?”, he didn’t react very positively to the word boyfriend, you were more than that… and honestly? you also found it a bit weird, to call him that. Smith chuckled right in front of you
“Your Daryl is out there, hadn’t seen him recently though”, he said, entertained. “Which reminds me, I came to get you because the big boss wants us in the church”
“The big boss?”, you asked him
“Rick”, he said, “seemed serious”
“Alright, let’s do it”, you said with a soft smile. You went there together, there were already people there, Daryl, for example, he frowned when he saw you coming in with Smith by your side, he walked towards you like he was in a hurry, and then he placed his hand on your hip and walked you away from him.
“Hey”, you greeted happily, not really understanding why he acted so rushed
“What are ya doin’ with that guy?”, he asked, a bit harshly if you had to put a word to it
“He game to grab me for this meeting”, you explained, “where have you been?”
“Rick wannas’ on the front”, he murmured
“What’s this about?”, you asked him softly
“It’s finally happenin”, he said, almost excitedly, “we are gonna get this fuckers”
“What fuckers?”, you sat front row, and got interrupted as Rick took the alter, with Deanna
“We need to talk about a hostile group…”, Rick commenced the reunion, “The Saviors”, he continued, you got serious all of a sudden, “we have been having encounters with them, first they met Daryl, (y/n), Rosita, Abraham and Eugene on their way back from DC, they were going to kill them for the things they had”, he said, you saw the scared faces of the Alexandrians, “then back again when we were out there last week, they took (y/n)”, he said, and you felt all his eyes on you, “they kept her and tortured her for a week, did you know what they wanted? they wanted to know the location to this place, so they could come here, beat one of us to death in front of us, and intimidate us into giving them everything we have and than half of what we’re able to scavenge, or make”, you heard gasps and frightened whispers, Daryl’s eyes were on you, “we know where one of their outposts is, we have an idea where their main base is, we need to do something before it's too late”
“You say we should attack them?”, asked Aaron
“It’s us, or it's gonna be them”, said Rick, “it's a matter of time”, Deanna seemed concerned, truly concerned.
“Rick, is too risky”, she said finally, “we are not killers, were are not military men”
“The leader of the bike gang said that they had been looking into us for a while”, you said out loud, “I remember it”, more frightened wipers followed your statement
“But the men in the base didn’t know?”, asked someone
“They didn’t seem to connect the dots, maybe the communication between them is a bit flawed”, you offered
“Like I said… it’s a matter of time”, said Rick, “now we are not alone in this, thanks to Jesus we know that a fellow community, the Hilltop, also deals with the saviors… and they also might be interesting in joining us against the,”
“And attack them?”, asked Glenn, which surprised you. “We don’t have the numbers, we don’t have the guns!”, said Glenn, “you saw that outpost”
“Is all about the element of surprise”, said Rick, “we cannot sit here, and do nothing”, Deanna looked hauntingly to the back of the church, you tried to follow her gaze but there was just too many people
A discussion ensued, voices raised, for those who support Rick, and others who didn’t
“(y/n) has seen them!”, someone said, “why don’t we ask her what she thinks?”, Daryl’s gaze was on you, you didn’t know what he expected. Suddenly everyone was quiet, and looking at you, especially Rick and Deanna. You hated being put in the spotlight right now, especially since you heard Rick’s idea, what he wanted to do.
You could feel your heart in your throat
“Rick got a good point”, you said out loud, you grabbed onto Daryl’s hand tightly, “it's only a matter of time until they find us…”, more whispers ensued, “but… there is not possible way in which we attack them, a war ensues, and we survive it”, now the voices raised in the room
“We should negotiate”, said Tyresse
“That’s what we should do?”, asked Maggie, but she seemed to be sarcastic
“He is right, If we don’t want a war in our hands, we should try to negotiate with them, set the rules before they can”, said Glenn
“You are saying we should try to negotiate?”, Rick asked, and you could tell that it was not what he expected at all
Yes, you thought, Is that or we pack it up and leave, and now you could hear enraged voices. Daryl huffed beside you, releasing your hand, you looked at him and saw he was angry
“And what deal will we be able to make?”, asked Rick again, looking all around
“We need to figure it out”, said Tyresse this time, “offer them something so they leave us alone”
“Nah, we kill those son’bitches”, muttered Daryl by your side.
“Making a deal with them, is not something we are going to be able to live with”, he said, “you know what happened in Hilltop, they will ask more, and more, and if one of us looks at them the wrong way, they will kill one of us, or more of us”
“Rick if we go to war we all might die!”, Glenn said, exasperated, and everyone got quiet. Rick came for you, grabbed you gently and went with him.
“If we negotiate with them… we will lose the element of surprise and in this case, this is everything”, he said, “If you think they are ever going to treat us fairly, you’re wrong”, he said. He grabbed your arm then, showed it to all those people in the church, you just let him, like you were a rag doll, but you felt tears spring to your eyes. People gasped, as they saw the still raw letters, as Rick used you for propaganda, “NS… Negan’s Saviors”, said Rick outloud, “they want to own us, make us bend, for us to work for them, provide for them, without getting nothing in return but death”, he said then, “we can beat them, we can”, he then looked at you, how you began to tremble, bitter tears running down your cheeks
You wanted to say something, you wanted to scream, that you were not going to be able to fight them, that many were going to die, and the rest will become some sort of slaves, you remembered the fear you felt, while they locked you up in that small dark broom closet, you remembered what kept you going, the idea that if you kept quiet, if you resisted, you were going to save your family, and now your family wanted to go to war, Rick was convincing them to.
You needed to say something, to give arguments, to scare them, like you were, but nothing came to life, you didn’t twist the air to carry your words, nothing came out, just tears.
You only came to your senses again when Rick called your name, you looked at him, and realized everyone was still looking at you
“We’re all gonna die”, you managed to whimper, only Rick and Deanna heard you. Rick and Daryl, potentially the most important men in your life, were on a warpath, you were one of the only people who can stop them, and the only thing you wanted to do was curl up and cry.
You couldn’t take it anymore, and you walked hastily out of there.
You never thought you’d be here again, but… here you were. You hugged your legs as you intently counted the corrugated metal, as you had climbed onto the roof, looking back at the tall metal wall.
They had called for you, but you didn’t stop.
You weren’t angry at Rick for grabbing you, you were angry because he wanted to fight, he wanted to go to war, he didn’t want to get rid of a quarry full of walkers, that were still looming over you, and yet, he wanted to kill -or try- hundreds of people
“They're looking for you”, said Carl, slipping through the window to sit by your side
“How did you know where to find me?”, you asked with a soft smile
“Hunch”, he said simply, “why don’t you want to go to war?”, he asked
“You were there?”, you asked him, he shrugged, “it's not something we can win”, you said, “I just want us to be safe, you know? alive”
“Those guys really scared you”, he wasn’t asking
“Yes they did”, you assured him, “the hate they have, the entitlement, to bend us to their will… is frightening”
“Why didn’t you say anything?”, he asked
“I don’t know”, you said, “the words wouldn’t come out”
“I think we should go and kill them all”, he said, you looked back at him
“Carl...”
“Yeah I know that we might die”, he said, “but after everything we went through… I think they will all prefer to fight”, he assured you. “everything we got, we got it fighting, do you really think we are just going to let them take it?”, he had a good point, “besides, if they do go to war… wouldn’t you want to be by their side?”
“Of course I would”, you whispered, “but…”, you sighed, “we should be worrying about the dead, not about the fucking living trying to kill us”, you whispered, hugging yourself tighter. You knew what Daryl wanted to do, he wanted to kill them all, go to war, go in guns blazing. And the very thought scared you to death.
They had held him in gun point and stole the only possessions he had
They had grabbed you and kept you for a week.
He wanted them gone, he wanted to kill them himself.
You still didn’t know what to do, well… except for one thing… one thing you had to do
“Thank you dude”, you said, slapping his hat playfully. You left him there and went to find her.
You found her easily, in her house, which was weirdly empty. She seemed surprised when she opened the door for you, and extremely nervous, but she let you in with a smile. She wasn’t at the meeting either, and you wondered why.
“Sorry for not stopping by yesterday”, she offered, pretending you were just one of the ladies of Alexandria, “I was just about to go and give you these…”, she said, offering you a tupperware filled with cookies, you smiled at it, but then you looked at her
“I’ll have one after”, you said, she frowned
“After what?”
“I need you to help me with something”, you said. And you showed her your brand, she swallowed hard when she saw it, but you didn’t come here for her pity. “Help me fix this”, she looked at you, almost scared. But then she hardened her stare. Dropping the ALexandrian facade.
“Fine”, she said
You lit up one of the burners of the stove and you placed a metal piece that was a small “line”
“Why did you come to me?”, she asked you, you looked back at her with a look that could only say “are you kidding me?”
“C’mon Carol, you are the only option for this, besides, you kinda owe me”, you accused. She nodded, accepting your answer.
You folded a leather belt and placed it in your mouth, so you could bite into it as Carol burned you with metal again.
She managed to turn the N into a warped A with a 1, and the S into an 8.
A18, The Alexandria 18, or at least that is what you wanted to mean.
You looked at the symbol embedded into your skin and your eyes filled with tears because of the pain, but it was worth it, if you delayed it more, it would heal weird. You released your mouth from the leather belt, trying to wipe your tears.
“Hey, look at me”, said Carol, you raised your eyes to meet hers, she grabbed your head gently, to make you focus on her, “you will get through this”, she said firmly, “you survived it, and one day soon, the bastards will be dead, and you, you will still be here”, you nodded, “because that’s what we do, we survive, we are the ones to make it”
“Thank you”, you whispered, she nodded, very determined, “I don’t want to be on your bad side Carol”, you said, a little choked, “I love him, like I never thought I was going to love somebody, and you are one of the most important people to him”.
“We’ll work it out”, she offered, you nodded, she still was cradling your face with her hands, she made you lean in and kissed you on your forehead. She then pulled you for a hug, and you hugged her back, tightly.
“Hey what’s goin’ on?”, it wasn’t recriminatory, you separated and saw Daryl there looking at the both of you with a little smile
“Girl talk”, said Carol with a smile, an honest smile
“What does it smell like burning meat?”, he asked, you shared looks with Carol, and then shook your head
“No idea”, you both said at the same time.
“The usual package won’t work with these people”, muttered Negan, looking at the darkened street, “I can see it”
“We know what their plans are going to be, we could easily end them”, said Gary
“Yeah, I know”, he whispered, “those idiots back at the Sanctuary jumped the gun, they might as well ruined everything”, he said, grunting
“There are not… the kind of people we deal with”, said Laura, “Rick’s group is dangerous…”
“Are you having second thoughts Laura?”, asked Negan, entertained
“Deanna clearly can’t control them”, she said, “like she said she would”
“Yeah, she can’t”, he said, “And I do know the easiest thing would be to kill them all, but I might find some use for them yet… I have an idea…”
“Boss, I want to go home already”, growled Gary, already tired of his games, and Negan often thought about the fact he should have brought someone else with him… someone more approachable
“And we will my impatient friend”, Negan chuckled, “soon, and we might even take some very special new friends back with us”, he said with a cheeky smile
PCN: I feel so sinful, writing smut with Daryl, I hope I’m not disappointing you, because each time I write the word “cock” I cringe so bad, I love Daryl so much and I want to do right by him. You won’t believe the dirty sh*t I have written for my darker fics (HOTD, Marvel), and yet with Daryl I feel almost bad no matter how vanilla it is.
Anyways… Do you think it's time for him to pop the question? I already want to refer to Daryl as her husband, and us his wife, I’ve been hinting at it, I refuse to use the words “girlfriend” and “boyfriend” haha
I’m chatty today… Negan’s plan is about to be discovered… and also, I got the idea of the branding and re-branding (pun intended) of a scene out of Orange is the New Black
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