#I WOULD BE SO AFRAID OF THE SPIDER

[daftpatience]

guys if i got a pet jumping spider would yall be okay if i posted pictures with the appropriate tags for those squeamish about spiders

[despair-tea]

I think I'm growing up alright. I'm gonna keep at it.

[sciderman]

ok I know it was like a day or two ago but whoever sent in that ask about Bojack has me rewatching it, I'm on season 4 which is my personal favourite, which seasons your favourite? Any specific episode you like?

man! i really, really need to rewatch it to tell you which seasons i liked best, but i remember i kind of really consistently liked it. i even love the first few episodes of the first season, even though i know public consensus says they're not the best - i kind of just, immediately liked the show. i like that maybe the first episodes were a little lighter and goofier so it eased you into the heavier stuff. and that - characters that seemed light and goofy get extra dimensionality and flaws and baggage and damage as the show progresses. i think just - start to finish, it was really strong, and some select episodes were complete masterpieces. complete masterpieces.

i think i especially love the more experimental episodes - i did a reanimate project for the underwater episode, which is just - a delight of visual storytelling. i love when animation forgoes dialogue and completely leans into visuals. just - i love it. i love it. not that the dialogue isn't brilliant in bojack, because it really is. but even when they don't have dialogue, it's still brilliant.

i think the episode that leapt to mind immediately though is – the stupid piece of shit episode. i just - i think about it all the time. i just - i love being in bojack's head, i love the different animation style, i love the frantic, brutal nature of it. there's just this honesty in bojack that i just - i haven't seen anywhere else. when you see mental health being tackled in other media it's so often so - so sensationalised or demonised or simplified into some evil that needs to be overcome, but bojack just - i don't know. it's so honest about the brain. and that it's not - it's not just one guy who's suffering. it's everyone. it's you, it's me. i just. man. i really loved this show and what it did. i think it's something special.

i think i love media where mental health isn't just a problem exclusive to one bad egg, but like, it's normal. we all have that voice.

[sereniv]

I saved a daddy long legs!

i was scared and (i know dont @ me) was considering spraying him because I still fear spiders and spider-look-a-likes

up until past few years ive been working really hard on figuring out how to save them rather than kill bc ofc, it doesnt align with my views to kill them

normally i let my dog eat them to justify it- ironically, bc "im not killing them, my dog is"

but he was in one place, not moving and i was on the toilet, so i took the time to read up about him.

i named him, forced myself to, and to call him cute, so that it would make it harder for me to go through with killing him

i tried to imagine him being curious, or scared, or relaxing. Though i know most likely they arent capable of it in a way we can understand, it still helped me see him as no different than my dog or cat or me, rather than "just a bug' or some type of 'scary thing'

and in the end i saved him! container and a folder.

i still was scared, but seeing the (idk another word) humanity in him, the value he has and that he has for himself as a living being, helped make it possible to save him

its still really hard, and on occasion i do end up killing spiders or having my dog eat them when its quick scenarios where i dont have time to think it through

but compared to years ago ive gone from saving 0 to maybe 80%

and this is one of those moments where, its not exactly possible for me to push myself because it can undo all the work ive done. and thats ok.

this is the best i can do right now and im proud of myself.

my best, is not how i imagine my best being. in my mind, i could push myself harder but thats not practical.

doing your best is strategic.

im just so glad i didnt kill him. reading about him, learning about him, appreciating his role, and labeling him cute and giving him a name helped a lot

and sometimes, anthropomorphizing animals can be beneficial. i know he doesnt feel fear and curiosity like i do, but if it means not unnecessarily taking a life, then he does to me in that moment

[steakout-05]

i was so brave a couple days ago. there was a baby huntsman spider in my room and i totally didn't fumble trying to catch it 3 entire times while trying to lure it in and out of a box all while screaming and going "whAT THE FUCJ WHAT" whenever it moved even a little bit. in which the reason i was trying to catch it was because it randomly appeared on a box right next to my bed and i knew if i didn't catch it i wouldn't be able to sleep. nope. totally wasn't genuinely frightened by a tiny itty bitty little guy that could literally fit in the palm of my hand 15 times. whaaaat me? scared by a tiny little spider??? psh no wayyyyy man no way

(after i did this i was slightly shaken up and extremely worried there was another much bigger one in my bed and i felt like there were bugs crawling on me until i fell asleep)

[sunshinequeer]

I don't want to be afraid of bugs anymore :/ I want to cohabitate with them calmly and I would like the ability to ask them not to surprise me inside my clothing and shoes in a way where they will understand and respect that boundary

[piplupod]

ALSO i am really feeling rrgrgrgrhh (idk what emotion LOL) about people thinking just bc i say i have arachnophobia that must mean i hate bugs or smth 😭😭 i was telling one of the centre leaders that i'm always on the lookout for bug-themed jewelry and stuff, mainly beetles (ITS SO HARD TO FIND ANYTHING THOUGH, its all butterflies and dragonflies and occasionally bees and ladybugs like... can i get a scarabaeidae beetle perhaps,,,,) and then later on i mentioned my arachnophobia bc smth abt spiders came up in a convo w her and she looked visibly confused and was like "so you only like specific bugs then? or you don't like bugs but just like them on earrings?" and i was just feeling very AUGHHH about it trying to explain to her fdsjkl

i LIKE bugs. and honestly i like spiders too. i am just so fucking scared of spiders at the same time fsdhgjkl. in theory, they are absolutely fascinating little critters and i know they are super integral to the environment and do a lot of really amazing stuff, but in practice i am so so so scared of them LOL. but also spiders are not reallyyyy bugs,,, theyre arachnids, not insects! ofc thats getting into semantics fhsdjkl

but i just wish it wasn't automatically assumed that if ppl have a phobia of smth it means they dislike the thing sdjkl, like i also have a phobia of deep water/not being able to see the bottom of water when i'm near it but i don't hate oceans or lakes fdjskl i am just irrationally afraid of when i have to be near water that i cannot see into to the bottom!! i find deep-sea ecology absolutely fascinating though! i love learning about it and i love that i share the earth with these things!

fear does not mean hatred/dislike!! it is simply a fear! i feel afraid, but it doesnt mean that i do not respect the thing that i am afraid of!

[joshus-lobster]

Okay important question for the sake of fanfiction-

[xcziel]

got a bunch of little baby plants and am doing some repotting but damn i have a hard time remembering which ones can't have direct light

all but a few of them are low light types because i don't like window or overhead light (i am a cave gremlin)

but some of them need at least indirect light and i'm trying to get those situated well to the french doors (also i bought another seasonal fern bc i am weak and it's hogging a bunch of the space)

some of the tiny ones are barely hanging on and idk what to do else besides sun+ water

i thiiiink it's the tiny peperomia, the mini spider plant, and the aglaonema that really need out of the direct sunbeams and the couple of little succulents that need moved in more

the one snake plant that i haven't watered for six months needed a bigger pot so i upgraded it and i hope it takes it well. the bitty pearl pothos doesn't need a bigger pot but less sun and more drainage i think, so it got a new pot too

why do i get tempted by plants when i hate natural light so much? i did buy a *little* grow light for the corner though

i need plants that are ok with just ambient low light - the sansevieria is out of the window reach entirely but has been putting up fresh green shoots? the big peace lily keeps unfurling new leaves in the dark corner as long as it gets plenty of water?

but the other peace lily that was by the window is crunchy now and idk how to rehab it (still green? and not wilted but the leaves are crunkly so)

also i seeded some rosemary and sage and they are sprouting but the mint did not come up at all ://

[gorillaxyz]

if i was spider man i would tell my sister immediately

[everyone-calm-down]

Alright, I’ll admit that Neytiri does have good reasons to dislike Spider and want to separate her family from him. Counterpoint, an ADULT will never have a good reason for a CHILD to know that they are unloved. Spider is very aware of how Neytiri feels about him and that is so unfair to him.

Like yes, I know sky people killed your family and burned your home. That’s horrific. But the minor who is primarily in your care DID NOT DO THOSE THINGS. You are a goddamn adult, act like it. That kid is deserving of love and your whole family would gladly give it to him if they weren’t tiptoeing around your feelings about him.

[void-imp]

Who’s your favorite Pokémon owo

right now it's joltik!

[highlifeboat]

No thoughts only under appreciated OC Elizabeta

[anidealistatbestburntoutatworst]

nikolai: “what’s your biggest fear?”

sigma: “arachnophobia”

nikolai: *concerned* “what…. why wouldn’t you want spiders to get married?!?!”

sigma: *facepalm*

[microwavepopcorn]