#I feel like I let Yuma down...it was his birthday and I made that.

[pixelatedraindrops]

And now I feel like my art isn't good enough...

I should've went with something more simple for his birthday...

ORZ

[animeyanderelover]

Could I please have some Hc's for how would romantic yanderes reaction to celebrating their f!darling, birthday (post-kidnapping, f!darling still kinda iffy about being kidnapped but is getting used to it) with Azusa [Diabolik Lovers] Ken Kaneki, Shuu Tsukiyama [Tokyo Ghoul] Oikawa, Kagayama, Tendou [Haikyuu] Aomine, Midorima [Kuroko No Basket] please and thank you 💕🥰

🥰.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessiveness, obsessiveness, delusions, paranoia, stalking, clinginess, overprotectiveness, manipulation, mentions of kidnapping

Happy Birthday, my dear! (Kidnapped Ver.)

Azusa Mukami

🔪This man can’t live for too long without his darling forgiving him and accepting him, he didn’t even really wanted to kidnap her to begin with. His brothers had to do so for him because Azusa became a mourning and zombie-like being without her directly with him, unable to function properly. The first few months after are hard and not easy for every single person in the household. You are terrified of discovering that you were taken by vampires because one of them apparently can not live without you and constantly wants to be cut, Azusa because it hurts worse than being burned alive whenever you reject him and his brothers because Azusa completely shuts himself down. Your birthday is for Yuma, Ruki and Kou a hopeful event as they have come to notice that you’re slowly getting used to all of them. Azusa definitely hasn’t forgotten either. How could he? He’s just beyond afraid that you do not wish to celebrate your birthday with a monster like him.

🔪It became still relatively easy for his brothers to convince him into letting them help him. Constantly chews nervously on his bottom lip and thumb as all of them start preparing and buying whatever they might need for a surprise party at home. All whilst keeping it a secret from you which is not that hard considering you still tend to avoid all of them. Another launch at Azusa’s feelings yet he has to hold back for now. He’d die just to see his darling happy again, his sunshine. All happens in the earliest morning hours and to everyone’s luck you didn’t wake up or left your room. You’ll be woken up from your sleep from Azusa’s shaky hands as he carefully asks how your sleep was and if you can follow him. A few cautious moments to think for you before you follow him with narrowed eyes. What awaits you downstairs has you still genuinely surprised, the desk adorned and piled with your favorite food, gifts wrapped in colorful wrapping papers and a huge birthday cake in the middle. Standing there a few seconds baffled before for the first time in a long time a sincere smile made it’s way up to you, a sight that had Azusa’s dead heart beating.

Ken Kaneki

🔲It really was only a question of time since Kaneki is one of those Yandere who harbor tons of paranoia within their minds, the worst nightmares hunting him. He can not help, but feel like one day he might find his darling dead, attacked by a ghoul and dying an agonizing death before being devoured. What more horrible thing can there be besides this? He has lost already too much and his darling is Kaneki’s one person in life that makes it worth still being here. Both him and his darling struggle after he’s abducted her because Kaneki terrified her. He doesn’t mean to do so but going on with life with her crying and looking at him with horrified eyes is a thing impossible to achieve. The boy is too desperate for that and cries and sobs harshly, writhing due to the aching in his heart, every time he’s put through this. Has his outbursts of emotions because of it, though never inside the house. He wouldn’t want to make you even more scared than he already does.

🔲To be frank, Kaneki is so busy with trying to gain his darling’s love that he by now has snapped long ago and acts unhinged with all people around him. His darling is the only thing on his mind so he obviously knows that her birthday is coming up and all he can really hope for is that she’ll finally be able to give him a bit of love if he does good. Touka might be the one to give him a few advices about what Kaneki could do since she knows, Tsukiyama probably joins the fun as well. The first thing you see when you wake up on your birthday is him, standing silently in your room with a tablet of prepared breakfast in his hands. It becomes quiet for a while after whilst his s/o enjoys what he has prepared what he has cooked before he silently asks his darling what she wants to do. His darling most likely dropped her fork out of shock since his paranoia is known to her. And let you be told right now that as soon as he senses any potential danger, he’ll rush back. But just for today he wants to take you out and let you decide what you want to do. When his darling ended up hugging him at the end of the day out of joy and gratitude, he couldn’t help but cry.

Shuu Tsukiyama

🍷Kidnapping can be seen as your curse and blessing at the same time since his father changes quite a few things. Shuu used to be quite sadistic before his father got to know that he was utterly obsessed with someone and even if you only are a human, he couldn’t stand it to see how his son treated you. And if Shuu ends up lamenting and crying after that his darling despises him and freezes in horror, his father is the one to remind him that he shouldn’t be surprised after all the things he has done to his darling. Mirumo turns out to be the first person in the household to gain his darling’s trust since he is calm and patient. He will help his son after he’s noted that Shuu sincerely regrets what he has done and has changed. All the servants try to help you and Master Shuu to get closer as well, understanding very well how much the man suffers from your distant and refusing behavior.

🍷Beyond happy as soon as he notices that you slowly start getting comfortable with him, thus starting to grow more touchy. The whole mansion will celebrate the birthday of his darling and no one is more thrilled for this than Shuu is. After knowing that you slowly start to feel better around him, letting him allow to be more and more smothering has him in the highest mood and he can positively anticipate your bday. Even you might notice the exciting and awaiting energy that starts growling inside the house, might catch a few servants sometimes whispering thrilled about something and note that all of them seem more busy than usual. It’s early in the next morning, a while after you’ve already woken up when the door to your room is suddenly opened and Shuu, his father and a few of the servants walk in and start singing the birthday song for you, one of them carrying a birthday cake. Pretty much the whole day will be made party in the house, all rooms are adored and you’ll receive from everyone who lives in the mansion something. Most gifts are without a doubt from Shuu who smothers you with especially more love.

Tobio Kageyama

🌧Despite being a paranoid guy himself, Kageyama wouldn’t kidnap his darling unless something would cause him to snap, possibly her wanting to leave him. He’s at the end of the day still horrified that his s/o will drop him for someone else, he’s had made bad experiences in his life already. Whilst in front of his darling, he tries in the beginning to put up a string face and to comfort her somehow only to have his hand slapped away when he tried to touch her. If you are silent enough though you’ll hear him not long after he has made sure that your needs are taken care off his soft weeping and sobbing in his room. Tobio suffers from all of this even if he tries to act strong. That really only works for a short while though until he bursts out in tears in front of you as well. Each and every word you spit at him cuts deeper than a knife could ever do and at one point he is just begging you, asking with a pained voice what he can do to make you love him again.

🌧Looks much forward to his darling’s birthday, he’s beaming on the inside with excitement. Kageyama’s mood becomes much more better after he was able to have conversations with you again, even able to get closer to you without you kicking and hissing at him. Looking on how he had a normal relationship with her before, he has been told a few stories of how you celebrated your last bdays before and knows a lot of your likings. Unsure whether or not he can take his darling out just yet though, worrying she’ll try to run away from him. The thing is that he is extremely easy to manipulate since he is a desperate guy and you know that better than anyone else. Especially on such an important day so when Kageyama greeted you on your birthday shyly with a cake and breakfast for which he had stood up for at an unnaturally early time, he crumbled pretty much when you pleaded him to let you out. Be assured that he held a tight grip on her hand for the whole day out of paranoia though, even if his darling was able to drag him anywhere she wanted to go and the boy ended up buying lots of cute things that reminded him of her, more than he had already.

Tōru Oikawa

👑Oikawa will be most of the time in denial over the fact that he has forcefully taken you against your will in his loving embrace to take care of you. He’s a highly delusional Yandere so he thinks that he is best suited for you and that no one else could love and pamper you like he can. He tends to stick with all his night to this belief of his so even if his darling will definitely express her terror and anxiety about this all, he will always tell himself that she is only confused and maybe not used to being loved that deeply from someone like him. With that being said he has his weak moments as well where he reacts far more vulnerable and his confidence is down. These are moments where he can not help himself from taking everything personal and breaking down in tears and ugly cries in front of his s/o. Insecurities still sleep deeply inside of him after all and the toll of seeing you so unhappy even if he thought that he could make you happy is a burning stinging in his heart.

👑The first time he actually managed to be able to cling on his s/o without her pushing him away he couldn’t resist crying a bit as well since he was so happy about it and his whole confidence and mood got a positive huge boost afterwards. Now, Oikawa doesn’t even try in the tiniest bit to hide that he can’t wait for his darling’s birthday, she knows why he always looks in his highest moods and he himself said multiple times that he can not wait for your birthday to arrive. Oikawa will also end up taking his darling outside despite some other Yandere in his place would be agree. But you having learned to deal better with him is already good enough for him to believe that you love him again. Honestly, his darling has to hold in a laugh when he walks into her room in the morning with a party hat on his head. Has littered the whole way to the kitchen with confetti, the table stuffed with yummy food and all the presents he got her. This guy is just more extra than he is even normally, beyond giddy over his darling’s bday.

Satori Tendou

❤️He just got desperate, the incredible fear of his paradise leaving him for good after having witnessed how she spent less and less time with him. Under normal circumstances Tendou really wouldn’t abduct his darling yet when he feels like he is tossed away, his desperate side will get the better of him. He takes a bit of a different turn than those above him since he kind of avoids his darling. He looks every once in a while after her, guarantee that she eats her share of food and doesn’t neglect her hygiene, but for the biggest part of the day he stays away. Tendou finds himself simply too terrified of gazing into your hateful and scared eyes, he wouldn’t be able to bear seeing the one person he cherishes more than life itself looking at him like this. He’s heard you yelling at him through the door sometimes, words cutting through his heart like daggers could never and he as well could not keep his tears hidden when exposed to such overwhelming pain.

❤️Satori’s confidence just keeps on getting worse until on one day his darling sudden grabs him by the sleeve and asks him to stay, a first after so far having always never shown him any sign of affection. Definitely teared up a bit over this as well, though he quickly used the chance to be with you for a bit. Going slowly back to his cheerful attitude after repairing your relationship bit by bit, Satori really only is feeling all giddy thinking about your bday. Strives obviously to do something that will make his s/o overflowing with happiness after she hasn’t looked too happy in months. Probably ended up baking various small treats and a huge cake on her birthday since he literally couldn’t settle on only one or two pastries, filling the whole house with the delicious smell of chocolate and vanilla and various small love letters being folded in small origami figures which decorate the table additionally. After thinking it through, Tendou has also decided to take his darling outside again, it’s her birthday after all and today more than on any other days he wants to see her smile. You two had later on a movie marathon where he dared do cling on you than he had been able to do those past few months, but you decided to allow it.

Shintarō Midorima

⭐️Counting as someone who is superstitious, Midorima has already a very livid image in his head about his darling and him, what he wants to achieve with her. It makes him quite interesting because he does possess some awareness that his feelings are wrong yet this belief of his is in his way. Prefers a normal relationship over anything so something definitely went wrong in your relationship with him for him to forcefully take you away from anyone else. Midorima tries to deal with everything after as mature as he can, with all his darling’s cries, pleas and her newly awakened hatred for him. Obviously it has it’s toll on him as well because he only overplays his hurt and pain better, in reality this hostility of his love stresses him out beyond everything else and he has much more of a harder time to focus on things around him. Takao notices this as well since something about his friend feels off, not to mention that the guy looks like he hadn’t had a proper sleep in a while.

⭐️Shintarō continues getting lucky charms for his s/o the entire time though, even if he knows at the beginning you probably try destroying them. Visibly relaxes as soon as the worst seems to be over and you can even talk begrudgingly to him without him having to worry that you’ll throw something at him. You definitely won’t see it since he appears to be his usual logical self, but as soon as Shintarō comes to realize that your birthday is in a month, he starts panicking a little bit. Even with all the advices from his horoscope, he wants to do something really special for you, especially now that you two have started to get along. Eventually he asks Takao after his friend has noticed the man’s slight distress, though he won’t tell for whom he specifically plans something. Without a doubt Midorima still can’t keep himself from looking a bit after the horoscopes though and you’ll get especially much lucky items and charms on your birthday. Takes you out to a fancy dinner in the evening in something nifty he has bought for your birthday.

Daiki Aomine

💙Aomine as a Yandere is possessive and obsessive and he can swiftly switch over to being overprotective. Those are traits than can lead someone to bring more ready to kidnap their darling and in the end this might happen to Aomine just as good. There are really only few people he really trusts you around with and the perfect example is Momoi who becomes his advisor in regards of relationships and might just be one of the very few to know exactly how Aomine truly feels. Chances are that she might even be able to find out that her friend was the one to kidnap you and my god, she’ll be possessive beyond belief and scold him thoroughly. Daiki on the other hand currently suffers from the sudden coldness and harshness you constantly show him, even if he knows that you have every reason to do so. Momoi, initially refusing to help and even thinking whether she should tell the police or not, at the end can’t bring herself to do so and begrudgingly agrees to help.

💙Time slowly helps a little bit, also because Satsuki comes over to comfort you and you tend to trust her more since you notice that she seems to hold a grudge against Daiki for what he did as well. So both of you have to somehow progress with your mixed emotions for him before you slowly start gaining trust in him again, though Momoi still can interact with him better than you can. She is a big help and Daiki has to thank her for from the bottom of his heart later on. Momoi kind of watches over his actions though the whole time. Anxious and thrilled about your birthday, he plans on doing something amazing for you and for the biggest part he’ll try to organize everything by himself. Momoi respects that, even if she will be there if he needs help with anything. Wanted to get his darling out of the house for a while so he literally just took them on a small trip to a nice smaller village nearby where he stayed with you overnight, buying you a bunch of cute gifts there before you two met up with his pink-haired friend later on as well. The three of you ended up visiting smaller coffee shops and doing a taste tests with the sweets and drinks they had to offer before Momoi dragged you in a bathhouse with her.

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Twitter ー Subaru Sakamaki [2021 Compilation]

–> This post includes all tweets posted on the official Rejet Twitter account for Subaru Sakamaki (@DialoverSubaruS) in 2021.

Shuu l Reiji l Ayato l Kanato l Laito l Ruki l Kou l Yuma l Azusa l Carla l Shin l Kino

January 22, 2021

> Haah!? I can’t believe this!

> Shuu is snoozin’ over here in my coffin!

> Fuck...He won’t wake up at all either

> He can just sleep in his own damn room, right!? Fuck this!

February 14, 2021 (Valentine’s Day)

> Chocolates, huh? You better not be handin’ these out to a bunch of dudes. You belong to me…In other words, the chocolates you’ve made are mine as well. So you’re obviously obligated to eat them together with me too. Hurry up and sit down.

March 14, 2021 (White Day)

> O-Oi! I brought you a thank-you gift today. You wanna know what it is? After non-stop frettin’ over it for a whole damn mo…Nevermind. It’s just some sweets…! Hurry up and accept it!

April 1, 2021 (April Fools)

> You are my bias.

T/N: The original expression used is すきぴ which is also a cutesy/high school girl-esque expression to refer to someone you like.

June 16, 2021

> Do you like fairytales? 

> Hehe, I figured you’d say that. I think it’s fine, since it suits you.

> Even though in real life ーー There’s no ‘and they lived happily ever after forever’. 

> Still, right now I’m so terribly afraid of losin’ you...I end up relyin’ on such delusional fantasies. 

June 23, 2021

> Oi, where have you been!? 

> Ah, sorry for suddenly lashin’ out at you. I guess you could say I was worried.

> Just don’t leave my side, okay? Who knows what might happen!? 

> Anyway...Stay with me. Forever...okay?

June 28, 2021

> My head feels strangely heavy today...

> Tell me that sooner!

> Fuck, no way I’m goin’ to school with my hair lookin’ like this...

July 7, 2021 (Tanabata)

> Alone time #TanabataWishes

July 31, 2021 (Vampire Café)

> Don’t make it sound so damn creepy! If you dare try to do anythin’ to her, you’re dead!

November 4, 2021 (His birthday)

> Oi, you. Aren’t you tired from running around all day for my birthday? I’m not upset or anythin’. If anything, I’m kind of happy you’re willin’ to go that far to celebrate for me...Ahー No, nevermind! Anyway, let’s sit back and relax now. I’ll make sure to stay here by your side as you rest.

November 21, 2021

> O-Oi, come here for a sec. 

> Here. You can tell it’s a present, right? You were makin’ a big deal ‘bout this anniversary after all... Ahー Just hurry up and accept it already! I’d say that ribbon fits your style pretty well?

December 9, 2021 

> Kou’s really on my case tonight, it’s drivin’ me inside.

> I’m tired from having to constantly try and lose him. What is his fuckin’ problem!?

> Are you stalker or somethin’!?

> Haah...Kou’s bein’ a pain in the ass, so I’ll get goin’ now.

December 23, 2021

> Fuck. I can’t tell her that I was so nervous about handin’ over this present, I didn’t sleep at all last night.

December 24, 2021

> I doubt I would have ever bothered with Christmas and such if it weren’t for you. Guess that goes without saying though. ...Oh well, as long as you want to, I’ll continue to celebrate with you.

[mukami-rukis-puzzle]

✿ - laugh

✪ - favourite food/eating habits

❈ - ideal birthday

(( I'm a little greedy, sorry :'D But... It's Ruki 🛐💙

((I get it, me too... 🤭))

He always has that intimidating smirk on his face (you know the one...) but that's not a real laugh. It's more of a mask to trick the people around him.

I think Ruki actually laughs very little because he never really learned to laugh freely in his youth and if he did, it had to be very proper.

To this day his usual laugh is a very polite, small sound. Most of the time he hides it behind his hand to be a gentleman while closing his eyes.

However I also think Ruki has a lot of stored up emotions and really needs a person he can trust. If you are that person and you have managed to gain his trust (a wonder, I tell you. You must be an angel...) that might actually let him melt down his walls of icy surface to let out a real laugh.

His real laugh is almost like the feeling of sighing in relief after a long period of stress or lifting a heavy rock from his chest. It's like he can't stop after you made that hilarious remark about Kou's hair. Oh god, he can't stop and it's just pouring out of him but it feels so good to finally let go.

After that he still laughs politely most of the time but the initial hesitation is finally lifted.

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As we know, Ruki was raised in a family of aristocrats and because of this he is very well mannered. He likes when things are in order and done in an efficient way.

Since living with the three other Mukami he has learned to cook and actually started enjoying it. Don't tease him about it tho because he will deny it till his last day on earth.

The feeling of doing things after a recipe and knowing exactly what to do when gives him a feeling of control and safety and he always enjoys the results.

10/10 would like to try his cooking.

His favourite food is blood various types of soup because he is very talented in making them.

He also tries to use Yuma's vegetables in his cooking as often as he can because Yuma feels appreciated and because he feels like it tastes better that way. Azusa claims he can tell it tastes more fresh as well.

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I don't think Ruki is a person who likes making a big thing of his birthday because it's just not as important to him. Birthdays remind him of his past and that wasn't exactly a great time so I don't think he really does anything different for the day.

After the other three started accepting some human traditions they agreed to 'celebrate' together in some way because it means that they all survived. They like having a meal together on these evenings.

The rest of the day he will tend to his own hobbies, drink tea and read. He likes relaxed activities so that's what I imagine him doing on a day that's supposedly all about him.

If he's in a relationship he might become a bit 'spoiled' and ask for birthday sex. It's totally not because he wants you or something. How could you even think that... He just heard from Kou that that's something humans do on their birthdays and he is being generous by offering it to you. (Fr just kiss him, maybe he'll stop this denial...🙄)

[uwuthatshit]

What Azusa Would Look Like IRL!  (Part One?)

IMPORTANT NOTE!!!! 

I give a LOT of Credit to @pettyval for inspiring this series! They do a similar series about Kanato, and I thought, “WHy NoT AzUsA?!” So I asked for permission and they said yes!!

 Go Support @pettyval because they’re amazing and I love them. Go see what they do with Kanato!!! Very accurate, from a kanto kinnie :) 

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Okay, HERE WE GO! I am SO excited to start this series and include my own head cannons about Azusa in the mix! I have recently been reading the actual game play plot (I’ve read through Ayato in HDB and I’m working on Azusa in the Second Game, thanks to @dialovers-lover-xoxo​ for sending me the translations!!!!) AND OH BOOOOOOOY LMAO THIS IS A TRIP!  SO GOOD. SO SCARY. I LOVE IT. 

TW, duh, because this is DL and all the boys got trauma. SH mentions. yea  

SO LETS GET STARTED~! 

Azusa in real life would be a cutie pie. 

 I checked all the fandom websites and made SURE that I had most of his Zodiac, Height, ect. 

CANNON FACTS: His birthday is October 28th. He’s a Scorpio, 170 cm (5'7"), and he’s in his 3rd year of high-school (night school, whatever). 

So to start off with, I’m gonna be describing his Face features and some of his personality. 

So without further ado, lets begin! 

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Face:

His facial features would not be overly masculine, but also not overly feminine. He is very alike to Kanato in the sense that he has some female attributes to his character- But with the correct balance of masculinity. In my opinion, Kanato looks more like a feminine child. He uses his vulnerable appearance (along with having Teddy) to manipulate other humans and vampires to get what he needs. 

Azusa does not use the way he presents himself as a way to manipulate other people, but does use it to attract his prey. He’s not insecure about how he looks, but he also doesn't boast about it.  He’s a Scorpio, he’s just kinda... there. He marches the beat to his own drum and doesn't care about anyone else. 

~Side Note: I 100% believe that all of the Sakamaki’s and Mukami’s are physically attractive for the sole purpose of finding prey. Why else are they all hot??? Have you ever met a ugly vampire?? No??????????????? YEAH THAT’S WHAT I THOUGHT. 

As a vampire, there’s some sexual attributes to how they consume their prey (Fangs “thrusting” in and out of a woman, the neck being an extremely sensitive place to bite people, tongue, UGH ya know, that sort of thing... @papuru666 ​ talks enough about this sorta shit all the time if you wanna read their head cannons which, again, sinfully accurate, from a kanto kinnie’s perspective @~@). 

This is shown also with Azusa’s eyes WHICH ARE CAPTIVATING and his body features which will be addressed later~ 

(Okay get back to business Sage-)  

SO, his face. Honestly, a LOT like a k-pop star. Face shape is similar to Sota Fukushi. 

Azusa would LOVE to get piercings. He would go in for the rush of pain getting something pierces into his skin. I feel like he’d have his nose done at the very least. maybe his tongue~ and his ears imagine the chains dangling down UWU

Eyes: 

Azusa has Asian- inspired eyes with short eyelashes. His eyes are HEAVILY hooded. His eyebrows are rather light. He doesn't have to take care of them, nor does he plan to. (explanation later)   

 Azusa has trouble sleeping because of his avid nightmares, and it’s a form of self harm. Like... It’s not that surprising. He’s into pain. Staying awake for long periods of time gives him a rush of Adrenalin and makes him feel oddly proud of himself. He’s the type of person to have streaks of how long he can stay awake and keeps track. He’d use spicy food to keep him awake, and energy drinks like Bangs/Monsters. 

Kou would laugh and encourage it like the little bitch he is, while Yuma and Ruki would have a freak out and get SUPER worried about his health if they were to find out about it. They’d force him to go to bed, and Azusa would go to sleep... But then he’d do it all over again ;) 

 This man knows no limits. What’s self care? Sleep? We don’t know her. If he can’t get pain from other people, HIS idea of self love (from a base-character-form perspective) is self harm. 

 I’LL SAY IT AGAIN. Let it sink in. His idea of self love/self care, is self harm. Treating himself to a bit of pain after a hard day, staying awake and reading as a treat. Eating spicy food after getting a B on a math test.(fuck math)

Although, since he had an addiction, he wouldn't be able to day no to those urges. It's just giving him an excuse. 

So, because of his lack of sleep, he’d have AVID red/purple/yellow bags under his eyes that stay no matter what, even if he was to get some sleep. This man needs to go to bed-   

Although I feel like if he WAS to actually sleep, he’d sleep for 12 hours straight, dead-ass. 

NOW HEAR ME OUT- He’d totally do a little bit of makeup to mess around, break gender norms, and/or to start a fight so the homophobes would beat him up (sad but true). He’d let his SO do his makeup around his eyes.  

Something like this- a little bit of red on the corners- would be his go-to. Not a lot though, just a little. It would make him look more tired and it would match Justin and Christina. (His SH scars). BOOM. makes the man a little happy. 

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Hair 

Azusa’s hair is not well kept... By himself. I feel like Azusa, at best, only takes showers, really. Other than that, he struggles to take care of his base needs. He barely eats, as seen in the Anime. He knows how to wrap a bandage, but doesn't disinfect the wound, as seen in the Games and one of the DL CD’s. 

And, most likely, he doesn’t know how to pick out a good outfit. He doesn't really want to spend a lot of time taking care of his Hair, makeup, appearance, whatever. It’s not that he want’s to be bad, but he wants to focus more on Self Harm and, eventually, his Eve. 

But... As much as a little shit he is, I feel Like Kou would definitely take some time out of his day to dress him up and cut his hair and play dress up with him from time to time. Kou isn’t the best brother in the world, but he hates seeing Azusa in awful outfits. It would bring his PHYSICAL pain. He gives him outfits to put on, and tells him what goes good with what.

 and Azusa would listen and copy him with open arms.  (the baby, we love to see it @~@) 

Azusa, after his base-character form, would grow out and be able to be put into a man-bun. It would be like a mullet, black, dark, messy.  Nobody can get him to get it cut. He won’t let anyone touch his hair, he’d cut it himself with his knives. 

He loves chains. He likes plain clothes, silver, and is mostly plain when it comes to his appearance. He’s a docile boy, we love to see it. 

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SO yeah! That’s pretty much all for now, just the basics about his face. Lemme know If you wanna see it more? 

(I spent a whole week on this please give it some love this is way harder than I thought it would be @~@) 

[nikki-romero]

The Wild Flower (Tomoki Matsuba x OC) Chapter 1

I turned around to look at them. My eyes stopped on the man known as Tomoki Matsuba.

"Alright, I pick you, Tomoki Matsuba." Tomoki's expression was still and emotionless; he seemed like the most serious out of all of them.

"Very well," he answered. Still without a hint of life in his expression, he pressed a hand to his heart and bowed.

"Aw, too bad. You and I would have had fun together," Itsuki said.

"I have no use for a butler who isn't serious." I waved a dismissive hand at him.

"Geez, you're mean. I was just kidding."

"Itsuki." Tomoki rested his eyes on Itsuki. Although his expression didn't change, I could hear the warning in his voice.

"Tomo, come on. Don't look at me like that," Itsuki said, a carefree smile on his face.

"Looks like we're done. We'll be returning to the Ichijo residence. Tomoki, I'll leave the rest to you," Yuma said.

"Tomoki will be living in the apartment next door. He'll be taking care of you," Aoi added.

"I'm well aware of what a butler's job is, thanks. If you're done, please leave," I said coldly, turning my back on them once more.

"As you wish. You must be tired. Today was a busy day. You should get some rest," Aoi said.

"Good luck, Miss Ichinomiya," Yuma said with a smirk on his.

"Great, thanks. Don't come back, 'kay?"

"See ya," Itsuki smiled.

"... Goodbye," Kyo said.

I took my tea and walked to my room. I put the cup on my bedside table as I opened my closet to get some PJs.

"Miss Ichinomiya," Tomoki said.

"I tossed the pyjamas on the bed and stood on the threshold, my hand on the door.

"What." It didn't come out as a question.

"So, let's get started." Tomoki, somehow having hidden them up until now, showed me a fat pile of textbooks. "I need you to master what's written in these books over the course of this month."

I sighed. "Put them down on the coffee table. I'll take a look." I sat down on my knees on the carpet in front of the coffee table.

"A lady shouldn't..."

"Shut up," I cut him off. "This is my house. I will act as I please." I looked down at the covers of the books. "I've read this one... This one, too... I've read all of these." English conversation, etiquette, table manners, flower arrangement, dance, cooking... Each volume was thicker than a dictionary. And I've read every single one of them.

"You have?"

"You've never seen me at a party, have you? Of course you haven't. I avoided the Ichijos like the plague," I muttered. Tomoki raised an eyebrow at me. I sighed. "If you had seen me at a party, you'd know I already know all of this. I kind of have to? You know, as the vice president of the Ichinomiya Group? You do know about that, don't you?"

"That doesn't mean anything."

"Of course not. You're just one of a long line of people who believe I have the position for show. Because I'm some princess who has everything just fall into her lap." I rolled my eyes.

"What about these?" Tomoki piled on a bunch of additional volumes. I looked at the titles.

"I've read this one, this one, this one..." I picked them out one by one.

"Very well. But I will still need to test you personally to make sure."

I scoffed. "Do what you want." I waved dismissively, a sour look on my face.

"First, I'll test you in table manners from 8:00 to 8:59 pm. Etiquette will be from 9."

"Yes, fine, whatever."

"Also, from now on, please call me Mr Matsuba." This made me cock my eyebrow.

"Why?"

"With all due respect, you and I aren't buddies. I'm a butler who serves you. I'm not your family or your friend. I don't see any need for you to call me by my given name."

"Oh, okay. Shall I call you Tomo, then? Like your brother?"

He glared at me. "I just told you..."

"No? Okay, how about Mr Four Eyes?" His glare turned more severe. "Don't like that name either? Then quit your whining. I called my dad's butler by his first name, and he never said a word."

"You mean Mr Ichinomiya," Tomoki said. My head shot to him.

I glared. "I mean my dad. The one who raised me." I walked to him until there was no space between us. "I'll only say this once. Kazuma Ichijo means nothing to me." I took a step back. "So, Tomoki or some nickname. Which do you hate more? Take your pick." The smile I flashed him was as sickeningly sweet as my voice sounded. "Anything else?"

"So, next on the schedule, beginning at 10 pm is—"

I sighed. "Look, are you going to be much longer? You can test me tomorrow. I'd like to get some rest now."

"Very well. I will retire for the day. Oh, and one more thing. Here." Tomoki handed me a tablet with a calendar displayed on the screen. "This is your schedule, starting tomorrow. An alarm will go off when there's an event."

I begrudging snatched it from his hand.

"Goodbye." Tomoki left.

I checked the calendar. Every day was jam-packed with things I was supposedly going to do. I tossed it onto the sofa and went to my room, but I didn't sleep. I worked.

The following morning, I woke up early and got ready for school. It was almost strange how my routine hadn't changed, even though I just moved. But then again, I'd always had my own rigid schedule. After showering, eating a light breakfast and drinking my coffee, I started to head out when I heard a loud beeping sound. The light from the tablet I'd dumped on the sofa the previous night was flashing. No sooner did I stop the annoying alarm, my door opened and Tomoki walked in.

"Good morning. It's 7:52 and 40 seconds. Time for you to leave for school. Get ready immediately."

"I'm aware." I pushed past him when he called out to me.

"Wait. Here you are." When I turned around, Tomoki handed me a small bag.

"What is it?" I warily looked inside.

"Your lunch."

"Thanks..." Great. Now I feel bad for being bitchy.

"It's not a problem. I am your butler. Your lessons-"

"Sorry, can't talk. Gotta go, bye!" I made a show of rushing down the stairs.

I sat at my desk in homeroom with my chin in my hand, staring out the window.

"Good morning!" A cheerful voice said from nearby. Ayame was standing in front of my desk.

"Morning," I said grumpily.

She cocked her head to the side, trying to figure out if something was wrong or if I was just being me. Before she could say anything else, the bell rang and she had to go to her own desk.

During lunch, Ayame and I sat on the roof to eat lunch. I opened the bento that Tomoki gave me. It was packed to the brim with food.

"Hey, where did you get that?" Ayame looked curiously at my lunch.

"My butler gave it to me," I answered.

"I thought Geo went with your dad?"

"I got a new one."

"You don't seem to be happy about it."

I shrugged. "I don't care either way." At least the food was good.

After school, I met up with Yukino at a café we frequented. I absentmindedly stirred the frappe in front of me, barely listening to what my best friend was saying.

"Hotaru. Hey, Hotaru!"

"Huh? What?" I was suddenly snapped out of my reverie.

"You've been giving me totally vague answers. Were you even listening?" she asked.

"I'm sorry, Yukino. I just have a lot on my mind."

Yukino sighed. "You always do that." She frowned.

"Do what?" I knew she wasn't talking about me not listening to her.

"You bottle everything up until you're ready to explode from it. Or collapse." I took a sip of my frappe. "See? You haven't touched that drink, and now that I ask you what's wrong, you want to drink it."

I gave a self-deprecating chuckle. "I guess you're right..." I told her everything.

Yukino was silent for a few moments. "This is... I don't even know what to say."

I ran my hand through my hair. "I mean just what gives him the right to force himself into my life after all this time. And then he has the audacity to send his butlers to do his dirty work?" A cold laugh escaped me.

"Yes. I mean I wouldn't even know what to think if my father did something like that. Yours wrote you letters, didn't he?"

"Yes. Because that makes up for everything," I said sarcastically.

"You should tell him," Yukino said.

At first, I wasn't sure what she was getting at. "What?"

"Look, I'm with you. Everything he's done and is doing is completely unfair. He isn't even taking your feelings into account at all. But you're also not the kind of person to take this kind of thing lying down. You're going to meet him at this birthday party, right? Take the chance to tell him everything you couldn't before. Give him a piece of your mind. You're not just some possession for him to screw over time and time again. It's about time he realises that. You don't play by anyone's rules but your own."

I chuckled. "You sound like my dad."

"Akira?"

"Who else?"

As we moved on to lighter topics, I couldn't help recounting my past. My mom had told me that my father was a sailor. There was no way she wouldn't have known that he wasn't. Which means she lied. Even as she lay on her deathbed, she never bothered telling me the truth. I was mad when I found out, but it's been a long time since then, and I've forgiven her. Not that it mattered. She wasn't in this world to answer for it anymore, anyway.

My mom had died when I was still in Elementary School. Akira was a good friend of hers. Unlike Eisuke's father, my mother never made him promise to take care of me. But he did. I had no one; no relatives. I would have ended up in the system if it weren't for him. Who knows what kind of life I would have had?

Akira was the CEO of the Ichinomiya Group before my brother took over. Eisuke and I didn't really have much of a bond. He wasn't that kind of person. Our relationship resembled that of business partners more than anything else. Our ways of thinking were always so different. We bumped heads a lot of the time, but as far as the Ichinomiya Group goes, we worked well together.

Then there was Kazuma Ichijo, my estranged, not to mention, deadbeat, father. He developed the Ichijo Group into one of the biggest corporations in Japan. But nothing about that impressed me. I spent the majority of my life hating him. I never wanted to meet him, and every time Eisuke told me to go to a meeting with another corporation, my stomach churned at the possibility of it being the Ichijo Group.

Yukino and I finished our lunch. It felt like we spoke for hours, and I felt so much lighter leaving the café.

By the time I went home from meetings, it was past 10. Tomoki was waiting for me in the foyer when I got home.

"Welcome home, Miss Ichinomiya. You are two hours, 10 minutes and 26 seconds late."

"I had meetings," I replied as I pushed past him.

"What happens at your job is not my concern."

"Right. Just like I don't give a shit about your little schedule either."

"It is my job to teach you what you must learn from 9 pm to midnight."

"And what's that? How to be a micro-managing freak?" I noticed Tomoki's eyebrow twitch. "Oh, wow. A reaction."

"So, let's begin with etiquette."

"Yeah, Yeah. Just gimme a minute to change."

"I can allow you 2 minutes. Not a second longer."

"Oh, yes. Here." I handed him the bento box in the paper bag he gave me this morning. "It was good. Thanks."

"No need to thank me. I was simply doing my job. You do yours. Show me you have what it takes to be a society lady. I don't have much time."

"I don't "have what it takes". I already am one," I said and disappeared into my room. "Why do you care so much, anyway?" I called to him through the closed door.

"I consider making sure you're a presentable lady my way of repaying your father."

"How wonderful for you..." I replied sarcastically. I finished changing into more casual clothes and joined Tomoki in the living room.

"Expect to make up for yesterday's lack of practice and today's tardiness."

"Can't you just get on with it without leaving your 2 cents about everything I do?"

"Very well. Let's begin with basic greetings. We're behind schedule so we have five minutes to finish this." The things he was going over was, in fact, pretty basic. After almost two hours, the tablet started to beep loudly. "It's midnight," Tomoki said. "That will be all for today. Good job."

I sighed. This man resembled a robot more than anything else. I wouldn't be surprised if he did end up as some cyborg.

Previous Chapter

[crowdvscritic]

round up // MARCH + APRIL 21

March and April were a whirlwind of vaccines and awards shows! A full year after we starting staying at home, the end of this weird chapter in recent history seems like it might finally be coming to a close, and this pop culture awards season—typically a time full of fun and glamour—captured our moment weirdly well. (Emphasis on the weird.) This month’s recommendations is filled with more Critic Picks than usual, so without further delay, let’s dive right in...

March + April Crowd-Pleasers

Double Feature — 2018 Action Thrillers: Bad Times at the El Royale + Den of Thieves

In Bad Times at the El Royale (Crowd: 9/10, // Critic: 8/10), Jeff Bridges, Cynthia Erivo, Jon Hamm, Chris Hemsworth, and Dakota Johnson are staying at a motel on the California-Nevada state line full of money, murder, and mystery. In Den of Thieves (Crowd: 9/10 // Critic: 6.5/10), Gerard Butler takes on some of the best bank robbers in the world. Whether you like your action with a dose of mystery or the thrills of plot twists, these will fit the bill.

Double Feature — ‘80s Comedies: Caddyshack (1980) + Splash (1984)

In the mood for pure silliness? Take your pick between a mermaid and a gopher! Five years before The Little Mermaid, Tom Hanks fell for Daryl Hannah’s blonde hair and scaly tail, and John Candy was his goofy brother in Splash (Crowd: 8.5/10 // Critic: 7/10). And four years before Ghostbusters, Bill Murray was the goof on a golf course full of funny people like Chevy Chase, Rodney Dangerfield, and Ted Knight in Caddyshack (Crowd: 8.5/10 // Critic: 6.5/10).

Double Feature — 1980s Coming-of-Age Films Starring Corey Feldman, Kiefer Sutherland, and Challenging Brother Relationships That Influenced Stranger Things: Stand by Me (1986) + The Lost Boys (1987)

Believe it or not, I had no idea these two ‘80s classics had so much in common when I chose to watch them back-to-back. In Rob Reiner’s adaptation of Stephen King’s Stand by Me (Crowd: 9/10 // Critic: 9/10), four kids (Feldman, Jerry O’Connell, River Phoenix, and Wil Wheaton) are following train tracks to find a missing body. In The Lost Boys (Crowd: 8.5/10 // Critic: 7/10), Corey Haim and Jason Patric move to a small California town and discover it’s full of ‘80s movie star cameos and…vampires? One is a thoughtful coming-of-age story and one is just bonkers, but both are a great time.

Spaceman by Nick Jonas (2021)

My love for the Jonas Brothers is well-documented, so instead of going down the rabbit hole I started digging at 15, I’ll talk about how Nick Jonas’s latest solo album will likely appeal to a wider audience than just the fans of the brothers’ bombastic pop records. It’s full of catchy tunes you’ll play on repeat and an R&B-influenced album experience about the loneliness we’ve experienced in the last year and how we try to make long-term relationships work.

Ted Lasso (2020- )

I love stories about nice people crushing cruelty and cynicism with relentless kindness, and Ted Lasso (Jason Sudeikis) is the warmest, most dedicated leader this side of Leslie Knope. Be sure to catch up on these witty and sweet 10 episodes before season 2 drops later this summer.

Double Feature — Tony Scott Action Flicks: Enemy of the State (1998) + The Taking of Pelham 123 (2009)

Tony Scott’s movies have got explosions and excitement in spades. I love a good man-on-the-run movie, and in Enemy of the State (Crowd: 9/10 // Critic: 8/10), Will Smith is running through the streets of D.C. after getting evidence of a politician’s (Jon Voight) part in a murder. I also love a tense story set in a confined space, which is what Denzel Washington is dealing with in The Taking of Pelham 123 (Crowd: 9.5/10 // Critic: 7/10) after a hammy John Travolta takes a New York subway train hostage.

Double Feature — Baseball Movies: The Natural (1984) + Trouble With the Curve (2012)

Sue me—I love baseball movies. Robert Redford plays a fictional all-time great in the early days of the MLB in The Natural (Crowd: 8.5/10 // Critic: 9/10), and Clint Eastwood plays a fictional all-time great scout in his late career in Trouble With the Curve (Crowd: 8/10 // Critic: 7.5/10). If you love baseball or actors like Amy Adams, Glenn Close, Robert Duvall, and Justin Timberlake, these movies are just right here waiting for you.

Nate Bargatze: The Greatest Average American (2021)

Sue me—I enjoy Netflix standup comedy specials that are safe enough to watch with your whole family. That’s exactly the crowd I laughed with over Easter weekend, and while the trailer captures Bargatze’s relaxed vibe, it doesn’t capture how funny he really is.

The Mighty Ducks (1992)

I thought somewhere in my childhood I’d seen at least one of The Mighty Ducks movies, but after watching all three, I think my memories must’ve come from previews on the VHS tapes for other Disney movies I watched over and over again. The original still holds up as an grown-ups, which is why even my parents got sucked in to this family movie while just passing through the living room. Bonus for ‘80s movies lovers: Emilio Estevez is basically continuing Andrew Clark’s story from The Breakfast Club as an adult. Crowd: 8.5/10 // Critic: 6.5/10

Double Feature — New, Dumb Action on Streaming: Godzilla vs. Kong + Thunder Force (2021)

If you want something intelligent, go ahead and skip to the next recommendation, but if you’re looking for something stupid fun, these are ready for you on HBO Max and Netflix. Thunder Force (Crowd: 8.5/10 // Critic: 6/10) follows Melissa McCarthy and Octavia Spencer as they train to become superheroes who take on superhuman sociopaths wreaking havoc on Chicago, and alongside Jason Bateman, they do it with a lot of laughs. Godzilla vs. Kong (Crowd: 9.5/10 // Critic: 5/10) is, um, exactly what it sounds like, so I’ll skip a plot summary and just say it’s exactly what you want from this kind of movie. #TeamKong

3:10 to Yuma (2007)

All you need to know is Russell Crowe is an outlaw, and Christian Bale is the guy who’s got to get him on the train to prison. I also watched the 1957 version, which is also a solid watch if you love classic Westerns. Crowd: 9/10 // Critic: 8/10

Falcon and the Winter Soldier (2021)

Marvel’s newest series isn’t nearly as inventive as WandaVision, and it may not land every beat, but it’s worth a watch for the fun new gadgets, Sebastian Stan’s dry joke delivery, and its exploration into themes of what makes a hero and what governments owe their citizens. It’s a pretty satisfying entry in the MCU canon, but I’d also recommend re-watching Captain America: Winter Soldier and Civil War—the canon is getting expansive, and it’s getting trickier every year to keep up with all the backstory.

March + April Critic Picks

Best of 2020 Picks

As per usual, the months leading up to the Oscars becomes a binge period for potential Oscar nominees. In March and April, I watched many of the films that made my Top 20 of 2020, including Boys State, The Father, Judas and the Black Messiah, Let Them All Talk, Minari, Nomadland, On the Rocks, One Night in Miami…, Promising Young Woman, Soul, and Sound of Metal. You can read how I ranked them on my list for ZekeFilm, plus reviews of The Father, Minari, Promising Young Woman, and Soul.

Bonus: If you loved On the Rocks, don’t miss this feature and beautiful photography starring Sofia Coppola, Kirsten Dunst, Elle Fanning, and Rashida Jones for W Magazine. 

Stranger Than Fiction (2006)

What would you do if you started hearing a voice who narrated your every thought and move? If you’re Will Ferrell, you’ll seek out a literary professor (Dustin Hoffman), fall in love (with Maggie Gyllenhaal), and track down the voice (Emma Thompson) who’s making ominous predictions about your future. Stranger Than Fiction is funny thought-provoking, and an unusual but welcome role for Ferrell. Crowd: 9.5/10 // Critic: 9/10

All the Royal Family News

Speaking of stranger than fiction, it’s been a busy few months for the Royal Family. We’ve celebrated 95th birthday of Queen Elizabeth, the 3rd birthday of Prince Louis, and the 10th anniversary of Will and Kate’s marriage. We also lost Prince Philip, and we watched the drama of Harry and Meaghan’s interview with Oprah. No matter what happens to their Crown, I don’t think we’ll ever get over our fascination with the Windsor family. A few pieces worth reading from the last few months:

“In Meghan and Harry’s Interview, Two TV Worlds Collided,” Vulture.com

“The Queen’s Man: Philip, Duke of Edinburgh, Dies,” TIME.com

“Obituary: HRH The Prince Philip, Duke of Edinburgh,” BBC.com

Goodfellas (1990)

One of my film opinions that makes me feel like a phony is that Martin Scorsese just isn’t my cup of tea. He’s brilliant, but his films tend to be long and dark, two qualities that are never my first choice…and somehow Goodfellas still worked for me? Maybe it was the TV edit graciously toning down the violence or maybe it was that Ray Liotta and Joe Pesci were firing on all cylinders, but for some reason this ‘90s classic didn’t suck the joy out of my evening like Scorsese often does. (Bonus: For a Martin Scorsese/Robert De Niro I don’t really recommend, head to the last section of this Round Up.)

Fearless (Taylor’s Version) (2021)

Her voice has only matured, so Taylor Swift revisiting her old albums is like upgrading a blast to the past. Plus, the six new tracks make me feel like 15 crushing on that boy in Spanish class again, and her Grammys performance (just before her third Album of the Year win) was magical and folklore-tastic.

Double Feature — ‘60s Action Classics: The Guns of Navarone (1961) + Planet of the Apes (1968)

The Guns of Navarone (Crowd: 8/10 // Critic: 8.5/10) follows Gregory Peck and David Niven as they destroy Nazi weapons in the Mediterranean. Planet of the Apes (Crowd: 8/10 // Critic: 8.5/10) follows Charlton Heston as he attempts to escape from, well, a planet full of apes. The pacing of ‘60s films doesn’t always hold up, but that’s not the case with this pair. Both are still full of suspense, and you can’t go wrong hanging with casts like these.

Let Him Go (2020)

Kevin Costner and Diane Lane play a farming couple who unexpectedly help raise a boy who lost his biological father—sound familiar? But instead of a superhero origin story, they’re part of a thrilling Western with performances nuanced (Costner and Lane) and showy (Lesley Manville). If I’d watched this before completing my Best of 2020 piece, it likely would’ve been on my list. Crowd: 8/10 // Critic: 8.5/10

The Oscars

I’m a ride-or-die fan of the Academy Awards, but I’ll admit even I found this year’s ceremony odd. Instead of focusing on what wasn’t so hot, I’ll recommend a few moments you don’t want to miss:

Emerald Fennell giving a shout-out to Saved by the Bell

Daniel Kaluuya acknowledging his parents’ sex life during his acceptance speech (??)

Yuh-Jung Yoon flirting with Brad Pitt and acknowledging she’s just “luckier” than her fellow nominees

Glenn Close dancing to…”Da Butt”?

You can also read about the historic wins and nominations from this year’s Oscar class and why the Golden Globes were an even stranger production weeks earlier.

Trailer-palooza!

Movies are on their way back, y’all! I’m counting down the days until I can get back to a theatre, and even if some of these movies are duds, I’m planning to see all of them on a big screen if possible:

Those Who Wish Me Dead (May 14)

Cruella (May 28)

In the Heights (June 11)

Space Jam 2 (July 16)

Shang-Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings (September 3)

West Side Story (December 10)

Also in March + April…

To add to the Oscars love, you can listen to a conversation about what we learn about family, community, and society in some of the year’s biggest nominees on the Uncommon Voices podcast. I join regular hosts Michael and Kenneth in this episode, and I recommend all of their thoughtful discussions on their “What’s Streaming” episodes.

I’ve previously recommended the Do You Like Apples weekly newsletter, so I’m proud to share I contributed twice in March! I wrote about Love and Basketball, directed by Gina Prince-Bythewood, and one of my all-time favorite Julia Roberts rom-coms, Notting Hill. (I also tied to win their Oscars pool, but I suppose that’s less exciting for you than me.)

It was a busy couple of months on SO IT’S A SHOW! New logo, new email list, new Instagram, and a host of new episodes about a flop of a Madonna flick, a Swedish children’s TV show, an urban legend turned into a horror movie, one of the best films about journalism ever, and a Martin Scorsese movie about a real boxer.

Most of what I wrote for ZekeFilm in March and April was mentioned in Best of 2020 recommendations…except for The Nest, a film that couldn’t figure out what genre it wanted to be.

Photo credits: Nick Jonas, Royal Family. All others IMDb.com.

[dear-yandere]

“Torture is the only gift you’re getting today.” for Ruki Mukami, please? I don't see much DL here so I will be glad xD

Ruki Mukami

You didn’t particularly expect special treatment from him, but seeing Ruki ignore you today of all days was none the less unpleasant. He didn’t so much as cast a glance your way, eyes far more enamored with a novel he’d already read a dozen times over.

You’d be lying if you said it didn’t hurt and you’re certain he knew that much. Even as you aimlessly scurried around the foyer, led by any one of his brothers at a time, your gaze always lingered far too long, far too frequently, on the vampire lounging on the couch. Quite frankly, it was starting to get on his nerves, but he didn’t care to comment on it since it was far more amusing seeing Yuma or Azusa drag you back and forth, Kou occasionally hopping into the mix from time to time.

The Mukami brothers had gone all out considering it was your first birthday at the estate, though you knew they were simply concerned for your well-being. You had no friends or family to celebrate with; they were all you had, the least they could do was not be complete assholes for a day. Yuma had the decency of baking and sharing an extra-sugary sweet with you in celebration, whereas Kou’s gift consisted of being marginally nicer to you today, opting not to grope and harass you when you were off-guard; unsurprisingly, Azusa even offered to let you hurt him as long as you’d like. 

And despite it all, you still felt empty. You should be grateful they were going out of their way to make your birthday a special occasion, especially considering you were their hostage at the behest of Ruki.

And it still wasn’t enough.

Ruki was hardly surprised when you stubbornly broke off from his brothers and planted yourself in front of the settee. It was only a matter of time considering the glares and lip-biting you’d thrown at him throughout the day. He was a bit jealous to be honest, and even though he’d brought it upon himself by ignoring you without a word, he couldn’t help the slight annoyance in his tone when he broke the silence that had settled over you both.

“What is it you want, kachiku?” Sky-grey eyes flitted across your form, taking note of the sultry maid outfit Kou had dressed you in. “Is there a reason you’re dressed like that?”

A slight tremble of your lips caught his eyes. You felt needlessly self-conscious under his scrutinizing gaze, but you’d had enough of being ignored.

“It’s my birthday.”

The brevity of your statement hardly sounded urgent nor intimidating when you were clutching your skirt with nearly palpable fear. Ruki let another silence fall over the conversation just to see the discomfort grow on your face, his smile growing larger with each second that passed. You narrowed your eyes, almost glaring down at him, and held your ground.

“It’s my birthday, Ruki-san.”

“I heard you the first time, kachiku. You say it as if I should care.” He chastised and sharply exhaled, book now haphazardly strewn across the cushions. Lips still curled into a knowing smile, he simply pat the empty seat beside him.“Were you expecting something from me?”

You struggled to respond, not when there didn’t exist a way to say yes without sounding like a bratty child; though, like always, he didn’t seem to care for anything you had to say in the first place.

“...And what if I was?”

His eyes would have narrowed in annoyance if your voice didn’t sound so small and frail. It almost made him feel bad about ignoring you. 

“How hopeless.” He digressed, eyes flitting across your intoxicating get-up as if trying to restrain himself. Had Kou dressed you in this with something in mind? Judging by that wounded and longing look on your face, you’d let him. “And despite everything, you still possess that childish naivete.” He finally sighed, allowing his haughty demeanor to drop. Ice cold fingers curled around your wrist to pull you between his legs, your neck easy prey for his fangs. 

“W-what are you doing?!”

“Isn’t this what you wanted, darling? You even spent all day with my brothers, like the slutty livestock you are.” Despite the cold hands still wrapped around your wrist, his breath was hot enough to set your nerves on fire. You squirmed under his touch, regretting the way you’d all but outright begged for his attention. “Are you that desperate for me, pet? Because darling, torture is the only gift you’re getting today.”

[ryuukia]

[Translation] Tsukihana Kagura Message Cards

If you’re one of the lucky people who got to buy this pamphlet, you probably got some message cards with it. I only got Hajime and Arata, but with Ruby’s help I managed to gather all the messages (thanks again).

I translated Tsukiuta, SQ and Alive, Ryota translated the Vazzrock and infinit0 messages. Enjoy~

Please don’t repost/retranslate/reuse my translations. Likes and reblogs are appreciated.

Six Gravity

Shiwasu Kakeru:

“Kou-kun’s refreshments are so, so, so delicious……. I’m always the first one to take my share! I-it’s not like I’m waiting in front of the desk!“

Mutsuki Hajime: 

“I ended up taking a nap while waiting, and when I woke up in front of my eyes was Issa-san’s sleeping face. I was ready to get up due to astonishment, but then I realized Shun was glued to my back in his sleep. I had to ask Haru to help me out. Stop laughing.”

Kisaragi Koi:

“The costumes are once again so cool! They’re so cool I can’t help but get excited! When I’m so excited I feel the strongest! Tsukihana Kagura, Kisaragi Koi, ready to dance!“

Yayoi Haru:

“Random Tsukipro miscellaneous knowledge: Among all our idols, those who can memorize the script fast are Hajime, Tsubasa-san from SolidS, Ryo-san from Growth, Takaaki-san from VAZZY and Ruka from ROCK DOWN. I guess I should get to work too.“

Uduki Arata:

“Why can we have team muscle training, but we can’t have team strawberry milk? Because it’ll make us more thirsty? That’s not true. Would you like to have some, Ouka-san?“

Satsuki Aoi:

“Rikka-san and I engaged in this blissful discussion about herbariums while we were waiting. We promised to go to a course about it together as soon as we’re done with Tsukihana Kagura. I can’t wait.“

Procellarum

Minaduki Rui:

“I made Russian pudding for the first time in a long while. Roa got the ‘bullet’ and I got a nice reaction from him. Rei laughed.”

Fuduki Kai:

“Kensuke and I got so pumped up after talking about ramen that we started visiting shop after shop together! The others told us to stop because we’ve already eaten too much! All these rehearsals are making me hungry!”

Haduki You:

“This scent coming from ROCK DOWN’s Reiji…… is it, by any chance…… First Love & Rose?“

Nagatsuki Yoru:

“Eichi from QUELL taught me the recipe for his Horimiya-style dry curry. I’m looking forward to giving it a try after we’re done with this.”

Kannaduki Iku:

“When I talked to Ren-kun about how Rui's been teaching me to play the piano, he said "Let's perform together someday!"... I gotta practice more!”

Shimotsuki Shun:

“Each dance reflects its unit’s personality and charm, I guess that goes without saying. …...But among them! Hajime’s! Kagura is!! Bewitching!! Amazing!!! The best OF the best!!!! That sleeve you see waving in the air is mine!!!!“

SOARA

Ohara Sora:

“Who’s been waiting for it? The day when this guy will be performing the ‘kagura’ is coming……!! I’ll dance!! With elegance! And beauty! Achoo!“

Arihara Morihito:

“Hearing Sou during the reading practice reminded me of our school days. When we talk to each other across the desk, it feels like nothing has changed since then. “

Kagurazaka Soshi:

“While we were practicing the kagura, Sora sent his folding fan flying. “Nice catch!’ my hat. From now on we’re under intensive training. Look at Ayumu-san and Haruto-san, that’s the kind of dancing posture you should have.”

Munakata Ren:

“Talking with Sou-nii and Eichi-san about training clothes got me really excited. With their build, they’d really look good in that. I wish my shoulders were as broad as theirs. “ 

Nanase Nozomu:

“It seems in this play we have traditional Japanese instruments! I want to try playing the shamisen too~! The charismatic shamisen player (?) is here!“

Growth

Etou Kouki:

“It's really fun talking to the other units’ members whenever the refreshments I bring catch their attention. The first one to notice when I bring refreshments is…… I’ll keep that a secret (laughs).“

Yaegashi Kensuke:

“This odd group consisting of Kakeru, Koi, Iku, Naosuke, Takaaki-san and I went yesterday to a shop that sells Sichuanese food~! It was so spicy I think it made me sweat more than the rehearsals did (laughs)?“

Sakuraba Ryota:

“It’s better for you to stretch properly, Mamoru. If your body is not warmed up enough, you might end up injuring yourself.“

Fujimura Mamoru:

“Ryo-kun is a demon when it comes to stretching! But I think he’s so strict with me because he cares about me! In other words, all I have to do is give my best!”

SolidS

Takamura Shiki:

“With my other jobs’ deadlines and the stage play rehearsals overlapping each other, I’m slowly starting to feel like I’m caught on a battlefield. After I get past this mountain, I think I’ll be able to dance naturally.“

Okui Tsubasa:

“Whenever we have to wait, Dai-chan and Kai from Procella always work on their muscles, but at one point the number of members increased so much that now it feels more like a club activity~ (laughs). Kai is the head and Dai-chan is his assistant!“

Sera Rikka:

“Lately, Shiki’s been in high spirits. But considering his current work situation, that excitement came to surface because this play gives him the chance to escape from reality. Whenever he’s in a tight spot during rehearsals, he ends up resorting to ad-libs.  Right now he’s in need of a lot of attention (smiles bitterly).”

Murase Dai:

“The number of people joining us in muscle training during rehearsals has been increasing. Futaba from VAZZY and Gaku from ROCK DOWN are in really good shape.  Seeing them makes me want to practice sports.“

QUELL

Izumi Shu:

“Seeing familiar faces in the training hall made it very fun. I guess it was also a good boost for Issei and Ichiru.“

Horimiya Eichi:

“The apple pie I baked together with Aoi-kun from Gravi was a delicacy! The stewed refreshments brought by Yoru-kun from Procella were also really tasty, so…… won’t you tell me the recipe after this?“

Kuga Issei:

“Since Haru-san and Morihito-san were reading something during break, I asked them to recommend some books. I want to give them a try after this. Both of them are thirsty for knowledge.“

Kuga Ichiru:

“With You, Nozomu, Issa and me part of the red team, our colour team’s dance skills level is high! I have to keep up with them!  Alright! I’ll do my best“

VAZZY

Mamiya Takaaki:

“I went out to drink with a few of my old colleagues ♪ We talked a lot about so many interesting things like what parts of us have changed and what parts haven’t.“

Kira Ouka:

“I’m still in the middle of learning how to be an actor, so I observe a lot of things in the practice hall. Arata and Aoi seem to have stage experience, so I consult with them about how to conduct myself on stage.“

Kiduku Issa:

“I’m looking for a place to sleep in, y’know? They’re practically people I’m already familiar with. Sho, Hajime, Arata, etc. They won’t mind even if I sleep next to them.“

Kiduku Futaba:

“I’m training extra hard with Nao-kun and Yuma-kun for the kagura! It’s pretty difficult dancing in a kimono, isn’t it? I’m trying hard to make sure not to have my sleeves hit me in the face… (bitter smile) “

Oyama Naosuke:

“It’s so fun talking with the other units during the joint stage! I was talking about cats with Procella’s Rui-san the other day! Yay!“

Shirase Yuma:

“I’ve gotten along with Issei-kun and Ichiru-kun after we went out to eat one day. I managed to give them their birthday present, too!“

ROCK DOWN

Onoda Sho:

“What I was looking forward to during rehearsals was tea time with Shun. We’ve been told that the ‘atmosphere feels weirdly white’ when we talk, you know?“

Kujikawa Haruto:

“Since the traditional costumes are very heavy, it can become taxing both physically and mentally. But since the back is not tied up, it feels a bit more loose. I'll try to do this with dignity.“

Amaha Reiji:

“Just watching the other units in their costume is fun. Koi and You and… Oh, Tsubasa, too. It seems like they were interested in other units too, because they ended up approaching me the other day (laughs).“

Tachibana Ayumu:

“The Japanese sweets I was given yesterday were so delicious they moved me. Like that one I got from Growth’s Kouki-kun. I’ll ask him where he bought that next time.“

Oguro Gaku:

“I stretch and do muscle training at our rehearsal hall. I’m next to Procella’s Ikkun a lot, so we’ve become friends ♪“

Nadumi Ruka:

“Signing the promo posters turned into a competition against Gravi’s Arata! I won’t lose~ ☆“

infinit0

Sukigawa Rei

“I was expecting the design of Mamoru’s costume to be a pachira, but I was wrong. Guess that’s obvious (laughs). I was really interested in hearing about your song-writing, so let’s talk more next time, okay?“

Mikaze Roa

“This is my first time putting on a costume like this! I’m so excited ☆ But Taka-chan, please stop tickling my sides~! If you do it to me, I’ll fight back! There!”

If you want to support Ryota and her work, you can buy her a ko-fi right [here]. I also have my own [ko-fi] page and [commission page] linked here.

[manjuhitorie]

Hitorie’s unreleased concert recordings, are coming out on wowaka’s birthday

https://www.hitorie.jp/Loveless_IKI/

Hitorie’s full length DVDs of 2 concerts: The Loveless tour final and the IKI tour final in their full glory! It's region free and the release date is November, NOVEMBER, 4th. wowaka’s birthday.

The cover art has been unveiled, and the details of the bonus items have been divulged! 

The standard edition cover feautures wowaka in ai/SOlate T-shirt twanging his guitar! 

It comes with both concerts and an envelope with a lottery ticket for a chance to win a framed photo. It's cheaper and only comes with the 2 DVDs, the perfect piece! Regular edition DVD: via cdjapan

The limited edition cover features all members basked in laser lights! 

The complete special package comes with both concerts, a new special photobook of unreleased photos by cameraman Nishimaki Taichi, sticker replicas of the staff passes used for both tours, and an envelope with a lottery ticket for a chance to win a framed photo.  It’s also separated into Blu-ray and DVD, so make sure you buy the right one for your gear! DVD limited complete edition: via cdjapan   Blu-ray limited complete edition: via cdjapan Bonus pre-order items!!!

If you preorder from select stores you’ll receive a A2 size poster of the wowaka photo (Tower Records and CDJapan are sure to have it)!

Amazon preorders will include a 5 piece set of concert photo post cards! (Amazon hasn’t prepared a page yet though, I'll link it ASAP).

And preorders from the concert venue booths will nab you a Hitorie-chan themed ticket case. 

The track list is as follows

From Hitorie’s UNKNOWN-TOUR 2018 "Loveless" at EX THEATER ROPPONGI March 25th 2018 01. NAI. 02. Shinya 0-ji 03. Inperfection 04. One Me Two Hearts 05. Nichijou to Chikyuu no Gakubuchi 06. Bathtub and Sleepwalk 07. Eve Stepper 08. Loveless 09. Monocolor 10. Glare 11. Senseless Wonder 12. Unhappy Refrain 13. Social Clock 14. Namid[A]me 15. Talkie Dance 16. Unknown Mother Goose 17. Absolute Encore 1. Dancing Mannequin, Singing Fool Encore 2. Little Cry Baby

AND

From Hitorie’s National Solo Tour 2017 "IKI" at STUDIO COAST May 7th 2017 01. Heart Breath 02. One Me Two Hearts 03. Inperfection 04. Daydreamer(s) 05. Eve Stepper 06. Rularula 07. doppel 08. Lights in the Polar Night 09. Saihate 10. KOTONOHA 11. Hagure no Color 12. 5 Count Hello 13. Dancing Mannequin, Singing Fool 14. Shutter Doll 15. Little Cry Baby 16. Glare Encore 1. Kara no Waremono Encore 2. Senseless Wonder Encore 3. SisterJudy Encore 4. Montage Girl

"The full crowd bouncing around today was the best, I wish I could've shown everybody how crazy you guys looked. Please stick with us through future endeavors to come." After the IKI show in the DVD, ygarshy had said this.

And now.... that chance to see that day's craziness and follow their future is upon us, please do consider purchasing and dancing!!! And thank you for looking... 

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⚠️~~~⚠️~~~⚠️The rest of this post is unnecessary bonus manju material⚠️~~~⚠️~~~⚠️

I had report on the Loveless final compiled together from way back on March 28th 2019, so I’ll post it here again to give a small taste....!

●The stage lighting for Namid[A]me was apparently breathtaking, they made it look like it was actually raining, ●Yumao used a real gong for Social Clock. ●During Senseless Wonder yg went all the way over to snd’s side of the stage, stuck his body against his, and they played it out together. Then came the encore MC break.

●Yu started cheering himself on, while making flamboyant poses: "Yumaooooo!!  Oooh~!  WOooooOOah *rough voice* !!💪( ＞ω ＜💪)” Crowd: “You’re so cool~!” Yu: “Thank goo~ *Goes to a cutesy voice*” “You’re so cute~!” “Thank goo. Thank you!” SND: “Hey dude, they’re all callin’ ya cute and cool y’know.” Yu: “…(short pause) Thank goooo~~~”

wowaka: (laughing) We’re done, that's all we need for MC ahahaa.

●Leaving members stuck on what to ramble about, they’ve already talked so much throughout the whole tour, what’s left? So wo suggested that they do a re-cap on all those fun boring discussions they’ve had. Omnibus time. 

●Back when the Japan was collectively swept off their feet by the Olympic ice skater Yuzuru Hanyu-kun and his performance, wo had also praised him during MC.  Yet just thinking about him puts pressure on Yumao, it inspired Yumao to do his best. And as the next song on Rie’s set list was the inspirational Memai, he concentrated so hard, poured himself in and played super neatly, “Oh shit oh no oh shit, Hanyu-kun makes me nervous.” Yumao explained. 

●During the span of the tour SND fell off the stage way more then once... SND: “The skin on my back peeled off once too.” Yu “Eeeh?!” SND “Saying it peeeled all the way off is an overstatement but..” ”Well then the scab ripped off.” “Seriously?!” “But it healed nicely.” “Ahh” “After that, in Niigata, when I went to brandish my guitar up with a “pwooosh” towards the roof, it went bonking into my forehead.” ●SND’s middle finger had also stopped moving, (nerve palsy maybe??) During Talkie Dance there’s the “piropiropiro” where a “pero, pero” bit comes in between (Queue SND and Yuma singing the riff together), which is very straining. He has to press his fingers against the strings one by one to play it, he was scared but nonetheless. So Yuma watched him at the piropero part wondering “Oh no oh no is it gonna move? Is it moving today??””

When it came down to it his middle finger moved for him so thank goodness... (Manju comment: SND is this karma for all the times you gave the crowd the middle finger when they cheered your name,,, or flipped off girls who waved at you, or giving wo the middle finger a lot? God I love you)

●Yumao “Also ygarshy laughed ONCE!” “There was the one time I was talking nonstop (queue SND and Yumao making “blaghblergh” noises together to imitate him). When yga let out a chuckle, which made me super proud in front of everyone… I went Wahooo!!! but turns out it wasn’t because my story was funny or anything.  It was because yga was off on his own! Testing how many candies he could eat before we would shut up!” SND: “Did you chuckle because you finished the third candy?” yg: “Uhhh” SND: “Well tell us about it.” wowaka: “Is this the first time he’s talking?” yga: “See, I always think our encore MCs are… long. So I feel like having some candy. I was originally worried I wouldn’t be able to finish eating one in time, the song would start and turn into a problem, but.... it turned out that day’s had become the longest MC yet. I lost my inner bet, damn it, I thought. You guys really can talk. Three whole candies worth of talk! So I laughed, and Yumao thought I was laughing at hims story”

Yu: “Yeah yeah!! Honestly the story I had been telling didn’t have a punchline, so I just used your laugh as an escape.”

SND “Foolish” Yu “Yep” wowaka “Well that day the most” Crowd “laughing” Yumao “...Thank goo~ (laughing)” (Yumao you never have a punchline I swear to God I love you too)

●wowaka talked about the story from back when he used to be so so scared of standing in front of people. In middle school his teacher chose him to represent his class in the English speaking competition, yet he was so afraid that he just, went out to the podium crying hysterically. “I can’t talk English in front of everyone waghhh....”

But now he’s able to do >this<. He’s become such an adult. 

SND “I bet there wasn’t even as many people at the competition as there is people here today, haha and you’re able to even talk naturally here, eh, look at you.”

Yu: “Ahh even SND’s such a big boy now~.” SND: “Well we all have.” ●They announced the next nexUs tour at the Loveless tour final. “We just love doing shows” 

●Also Pre- Little Cry Baby emotional speech from wowaka.   “In living we find cool things and sparkling things, yet there’s moments when we betray those things, we worry if ahhh was I wrong with that, there’s so much of this, in actuality that’s all I do, yet still we’re made out of things we can’t throw away, that’s what I think, what is it! Like those sorta texture that have a paint dried over them, like things that are just superficial just… Those are things that I have NO FUCKING  interest in! Like it’s that, c’mON, with music, people are just humans!! trying to be, they’re trying to do what they can do! I have interest in things that only humans can do, some things that can even surpass human, and that’s what fuels me to do music. As long as you follow me, I feel like ,, I could go anywhere!!!!! thank you always, thank you for making me!! Thank you for being here!!!”

This was also the showing they used during the Memorial Service on June 1st… STAFF WE ARE GOING TO CRY “Thank you we were Hitorie, let’s definitely! *through deep breaths* definitely! Meet again!”

Also some from IKI

●wowaka’s mother came to this show.... As divulged in this interview. THE ORAL CIGARETTES had sent Rie flowers in celebration of the event, which were on display at the venue.... Shiohigari SND’s good friend went, also the Synth player of the band “the telephones” who took the picture that’s featured on this blog) went also! ●Before Shutter Doll Yumao did his signature, Yumao! Yumao! Yumao! cheer on rhythm with the familiar intro, but with “Final! Final! instead. Along with We’re ●Hagure no Color had snazzy band introductions molded in between it. ●wowaka had actually cried during Little Cry Baby..... It really is a song that’s so important to him.... I’m anxious to see the video... ●MC: One was wowaka talking about how thankful he is for everyone and everything about this IKI tour. wowaka “I don’t want it to to enddd!” SND “We’re been on this tour for 4 months, it’s been a long time though, it’s amazing, it’s a new record for us.” wowaka “Now what am I going to do with myself tomorrow.“ SND “Go back to our dark dark life...” wo “Why”

SND “You guys had been waiting outside all this time, how was it, was it cold, are you okay? Further crowd: “We were okay-! Closer crowed “(less voices) We were okay.” SND “So you guys were okay and you were cold, okay (laughing). Well if you were cold, then see this sweatshirt Leader is wearing.. please wear one too That thing is perf.  Crowd: “Woooah!!” SND: “Why the fuck ‘Woah.’ Even if you said you’re okay then still go buy one alright. Thanks..”

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Twitter ー Kanato Sakamaki [2021 Compilation]

–> This post includes all tweets posted on the official Rejet Twitter account for Kanato Sakamaki (@DiaLoverKanatoS) in 2021.

Shuu l Reiji l Ayato l Laito l Subaru l Ruki l Kou l Yuma l Azusa l Carla l Shin l Kino

February 14, 2021 (Valentine’s Day)

> Today’s Valentine’s Day. You’ve obviously prepared chocolates for me, right? You must feel so blessed to prepare these every year while thinking of me, and eventually have me eat them, don’t you? Fufu, I’m happy too.

March 14, 2021 (White Day)

> White Day? There sure are a lot of events related to sweets during this time of year. I bought a lot of sugary treats, so I shall make an exception and share them with you. If you want some, then please come to my room and bring a cup of tea along, will you?

March 21, 2021 (His birthday)

> It’s my birthday, remember? Don’t you believe that you should only be thinking of me until the very end? ...Oh well, I suppose I shall forgive you today. I happy to be in a very good mood right now, surrounded by lots of sweets and with the girl I love sitting next to me. I shall allow you to remain by my side in the future. You belong to me, so that shouldn’t be a surprise, right?

April 1, 2021 (April fools)

> Who are you calling a Yandere? #AprilFools

June 28, 2021

> Your head is even more than a joke than usual today. (@Subaru)

> ☁️☁️☁️☁️☁️☁️☁️☁️

July 7, 2021 (Tanabata)

> All of my homework should just go up in flames. #TanabataWishes

July 21, 2021

> Hey, do you know what I want from you right now?

> If you do, hurry up and slow me your nape. Come on, make haste. 

> Are you trying to , perhaps? Aah, right. You’ve always preferred for it to be painful, haven’t you?

> Now just shut up and let me suck your blood. Show to me that you’re mine and mine along.

July 28, 2021

> Hey. I’m here to pick you up. 

> Aren’t you happy? Come on, be a little more grateful. 

> Now, grab my hold. Follow me, please. 

> Let us hold a tea party. One with just the two of us, where nobody gets in our way, okay?

July 31, 2021

> This juice is lacking in sweetness, don’t you hink? I’ll pour in some chocolate syrup as well.

October 5, 2021

> A freshly made mont blanc cake.

> I heard it’s a real delight.

> I’m very interested. 

November 21, 2021

> Why couldn’t you be a little easier to track down?

> Anyway, I’m here for a reason. A special day is drawing near, right? So here’s a present for you. It’s a lovely ribbon. You’re obviously pleased with this gift of mine, correct?

December 20, 2021

> I’m sure it’s because you were sleeping while hanging off your bed, no? I could see you through the crack of the door. It was quite the hilarious sight. (@Ayato)

December 23, 2021

> Hey. My gift makes you happier than anything else, right?

December 24, 2021(Christmas)

> It was a lovely Christmas with many delicious treats...However, we still have some time until the day ends. I’m in an excellent mood so only for tonight, I don’t mind doing as you like?

[the-blind-assassin-12]

Ryan: P: (3, 6, 14, 24), P/F: (10, 16), L: (4, 5), C: (3), F: (1, 4, 8), P: (6), V: (1, 3), DL: (1, 9)

I had a lot to say here… 

Ryan always makes me ramble.

Personality

3-Are they more optimistic or pessimistic?

Ryan is extremely optimistic. He’s not naive. He’s seen his fair share of hardship and struggle. But he looks on the bright side of every situation he finds himself in. He knows that life is short- unexpectedly so sometimes- and he knows that it’s better to have a positive outlook than a negative one because it makes that short time more enjoyable. He trusts his gut and usually things work out for him, so he doesn’t see a reason to change to a more negative outlook. He keeps his expectations reasonable and his baggage light, and the majority of the time, Ryan is a truly happy person down to his bones. 

6-What bad habits do they have?

Aside from smoking, which he’s told himself that he’d try to quit a few times now, the only other “bad habit” he has is that he can’t take a compliment well. He tries to deflect, claim that its the song that’s great, not his playing, or that the sound is only as good as it is because of who he’s playing with, all the while the skin between his beard and his eyes is blushing a rosy pink hue. It’s not a bad habit in that it hurts anyone, but he has to work on receiving praise, because he absolutely deserves it. 

14-What is their greatest fear?

Ryan’s not afraid of much. He doesn’t love heights, but that won’t stop him from climbing a roof that needs patching or looking out over the ledge of a bridge or balcony. He’s not the biggest fan of elevators, but he rarely ever has to use one so that’s not much of an issue, either. But there is one thing that will make his eyes go wide and the hair on the back of his neck stand straight up: Scorpions.

He’d run into them for the first time in Yuma, AZ, camping with Cowboy and Virginia. Sure, there were scorpions in Georgia, but not in the Southeast where he grew up, and certainly not poisonous ones. But a bark scorpion found its way into Ryan’s boot one night, and he almost shoved his foot right on top of it in the morning had Virginia not grabbed his arm and yanked the boot out of his hand. At first he was confused, but his mouth dropped open and an “oh, shit!” slipped out as she upended his shoe and a little yellow armored creature plunked out onto the stony, sandy ground, pincers raised and tail poised to strike.

“Always check your boots, Brenner,” Cowboy slapped him on the back as he came back to the campsite, a smirk on his face as he threw his friend a wink and kissed his girl on the cheek.

From that moment on, Ryan has never once put his shoes on without checking them.

Aside from scorpions he has another fear that really only started developing as he got older and the invincibility of his twenties started to fade, and that fear is of dying alone. His father, Oz, Cowboy… they were all alone in their last moments, and he couldn’t help but wonder: were they cold? In pain? Suffering? How long until someone found them? What was that like, those last few seconds of life with no one there as you entered the abyss? The thought gave him chills so he tried to push it from his mind whenever it cropped up, would call a friend or one of his cousins to distract from the fear. He also knew what the other side of that coin was like; remembered as clearly as if it were yesterday both calls from Robin and Virginia, and the guilt that he felt when he heard the news. He didn’t want Georgie or Louie or anyone else to get that call about him, to feel that guilt of “I shoulda met him in Tupelo or Jacksonville or Cheyenne.” He was careful, always trying his best to stay out of any dangerous situations- something that he knew Oz and Cowboy weren’t keen on, and something that he’d been told his father hadn’t been the best at either. He enjoyed traveling alone for the most part and didn’t let this newfound fear get in his way of that enjoyment, but it was particularly bad in the winter months when rails froze and black ice made for dicey footing when getting on or off of a moving train, when falling asleep when the temperature fell could mean not waking up.

24-What are their idiosyncrasies?

Ryan ties his shoes in a very specific way, double knotting with every pass of the looped lace, and tucking the loose ends into the third crossed lace along the tongue of his boots. If the lace comes loose, he undoes the whole knot and starts over. 

He isn’t comfortable if he can’t see the sky. He hates basements and rooms without windows, and he almost never picks a train car that doesn’t have an open top or at least one open side. 

He can’t stand still when he brushes his teeth. He paces around, not nervously, just casually, until it’s time to spit and rinse. 

 Past & Future

10- What smells remind him of his childhood?

Pine from his grandfather’s carving, salt air from time spent at the beach with his cousins, peaches bubbling and caramelizing in the oven from Aunt Holly’s cobbler, wood smoke from the bonfires the Brenner’s were known for, the earthy smell of skunks from that one time he, Jimmy, Patrick and Zach tried to domesticate one of the monochromatic mammals living under Uncle Max’s tool shed and ended up getting sprayed and subsequently laughed at by all the “told ya so” cousin’s watching from the porch.  

16- What past act is he most ashamed of?

Once, when Ryan was still new to the road and still learning how to get by on his own (just a few months after his 17th birthday), he found himself with no cash, no food, and no one to lean on for another two days until Cowboy and Virginia got into town. He held out as long as he could, but the fact was that at 17 he wasn’t nearly a good enough musician to make any real money on his own, and it had already been a full day on an empty stomach. So he did what he had to do, and grabbed a wrapped deli sandwich from the refrigerator case, stuffing it in his pocket and leaving the store before he could be seen. 

He’s been back through those parts a handful of times, and he always makes it a point to stop in that deli and leave a few extra dollars in the tip jar on the counter. 

 Love

4- When was the last time he had sex?

Well, it was with Jackie, so roughly a year ago. And before that, even longer. Falling into bed with Jackie as quickly as he did was very out of character for Ryan. Getting attached to people who are attached to where they live isn’t a good habit for someone like him- someone who goes where the roads and rails take him, when they take him, and has no need for a rear view mirror. Did he genuinely want to help Jackie when she got hit by that pickup? Yes, of course. Ryan is nearly incapable of walking away from someone who needs help, because he believes in karma and that when good goes around it comes around. Not that he only helps people if he thinks something good will come for him, he just firmly believes that the world would be a better place if we judged less and helped more. Did he really want much more to do with Jackie after that? Not really, but she offered to repay his kindness with dinner, and Ryan’s not really in a position to turn down a meal or a warm place to eat it. Staying the night? Okay, it was snowing, what did you want him to do? Freeze his poor little face off trying to hitch a ride? Like he said, who’s stopping for a stranger in a snowstorm? No one, so the kindness was extended to a bed for the night. Understandable.

Then the morning comes and he sees the poor condition that the roof is in, and two things happened at once: 1) having done so much repair work, roofing, and odd jobs in the carpentry field, he couldn’t walk away from that leak knowing that in a month or so the whole thing would collapse, and 2) that desire to help someone in need kicked in again. Should he have left it at the roof? Of course he should have, but Jackie just kept needing, and Ryan just kept giving. Support, comfort, help, kindness. And after so long on his own, a few days with someone who seemed to need and appreciate him was a big change…one that proved to be confusing for Ryan; nothing felt wrong, necessarily, it just didn’t feel right, and when Jackie asked if Southbound was “about her” when they were in bed together, that’s when Ryan first thought that he’d made a mistake: how could it be about her? I only just met her.

It was about someone, that’s for sure, but that someone wasn’t Jackie Laurel.

About a year and three or four months before Jackie, Ryan’s last real intimate encounter was with a girl named Chloe. Chloe was a year younger than Ryan, an artist that he met while he was out in Montana at Georgie’s uncle’s buddy’s ranch. They clicked instantly and before that 4 week period was up, Ryan was hypnotized by the girl with the feather earring and Chloe was goo for the boy with the guitar. They never labeled anything because to them, labels felt like limitations- not on what they could do, but on how they chose to be together. Chloe lived in Montana most of the year, but would spend months at a time traveling wherever the wind blew in search of inspiration for her next big project- she’s a sculpture artist specializing in naturally inspired pieces- and the semi-permanent living arrangement was really only so that she had a place to come back to work when she was ready to start slinging clay. But whenever she was “home” she’d let Ryan know, and usually he would make his way to Livingston if it was feasible. They’d even met up on the road a few times, and their relationship was easy and light regardless of whether it had been three months or three weeks since last they saw one another. For the first entire year, all anyone had to do was mention the other’s name and they’d both bloom bright red roses on their cheeks.

Heading into their second year of unlabeled bliss, Chloe started to get real recognition for her work, earning commissions for universities, libraries and other large organizations. Ryan was over the moon thrilled for her, and her excitement was palpable even over the phone. When she called to tell him that she’d be in Livingston, he couldn’t wait to get her in his arms, to kiss the corner of her smile, right where her dimples would form. He split off from Cowboy, Virginia and Georgie and hopped the first train headed west. They spent two whole days holed up in bed, tangled in Chloe’s crisp white sheets with golden summer light streaming in through the sun catcher in the window and painting their entwined bodies with blues and oranges and reds. Ryan realized then that he’d fallen in love with her, and he could tell that she had come to the same realization about him by the way she held him or by how her soft lips lingered against his bristly cheeks, or from the way her dark obsidian eyes would shine when she smiled at him. He realized then, that she was the first woman he’d ever really been in love with, and even though they hadn’t had one another constantly, they’d been constants in one another’s lives and he wanted that to continue. He wanted that to continue forever.

Chloe did, too, but then something happened.

Ryan stayed in Livingston with her for two weeks before circling back up with Georgie (Cowboy and Ginny had gone south to Utah to visit her folks for a while) but about two months later he was back after her tearful phone call letting him know that she was pregnant, but that she wasn’t sure if she wanted to keep the baby. Ryan couldn’t breathe or think or keep his heartbeat steady, so he told Georgie what was going on and dizzily hopped a train from neighboring South Dakota back to Montana and the forever that had suddenly started slipping through his fingers.

Chloe was a mess when he got there- couldn’t speak for the tears that were pouring from her eyes, couldn’t stop trembling from the fear that she was struck with, even as Ryan’s strong arms circled her small frame. Ryan never saw himself as a father, but he never saw himself falling in love, either, and in that moment he decided that he’d do whatever he had to to be the man that Chloe and their child needed. If that meant that he had to travel less, he was prepared to make that change. He’d always heard people say that love makes you do crazy things, and he finally understood what that meant. But it seemed that Chloe had been doing some crazy things of her own- she hadn’t waited for Ryan to get there after she called him. She’d gone to a clinic and made the decision already. That’s why she was racked with fear, because she’d made their choice without asking him, without considering what he’d want or think, part of her knowing how he’d feel. No, Ryan never saw himself as a dad or as a husband, but he never saw himself having his heart broken by the first woman he fell in love with, either. He tried to forgive her for making the choice without him, even though he was hurting, but she couldn’t forgive herself even though she didn’t regret her choice. Suddenly there was a chasm between them while they were standing in the same room, and the last time Ryan left Livingston was the last time he’d be back.

A few months before meeting Jackie, Ryan was traveling in Macy, Nebraska and he stumbled on one of the works she’d been commissioned to sculpt at a community college. He’d called her, just to congratulate her and to tell her how beautiful it was, and they’d caught up on each other’s lives: Ryan was still jumping trains and making music, she was still sculpting… and she’d met someone… someone who she hadn’t hurt like she’d hurt Ryan, someone who’d asked her to marry him, and someone she’d said yes to. She’d again expressed how completely sorry she was for how things had gone, and she finally accepted his forgiveness. Now, from time to time, Ryan will see one of her sculptures and a sad smile will cross his face for the life he almost had with her, but then the sadness fades and he’s happy for the life she has now, and for the possibilities still out there for himself.

Someone (ahem @its-my-little-dumpster-fire) asked if Ryan ever slept with Robin…and the answer is… yes, but it was a while back, before Chloe, and it was weird for both of them. Yes, there was always chemistry between them, even while Oz was alive (which was tricky but Ryan chalked it up to friendship and kindred spirits and the amount of time spent harmonizing) but they never acted on it. Robin loved Oz and was extremely loyal to him, and Ryan respected that. His death was hard on both of them, and when they saw one another afterwards, it just sort of…happened. But it was a one and done and never again type of thing- neither is embarrassed or has any sort of regret over it, and it didn’t change their friendship which is still very strong. And if you want more details on that… I have them but this is already long enough.

  5- What kind of sex does he have?

Hands covering every inch of you, but starting in the least likely of places- your shoulder, the crook of your elbow, or maybe your calf. Lips caressing your skin which is practically vibrating with need, but gently and slowly, deliberately. He brings your hand to his mouth to plant a kiss there, but not to your knuckles; right to the center of your palm where your lifeline stretches from your wrist to your fingers. He’ll leave one on your ankle bone as he helps free you from your jeans. He wants you naked, doesn’t need the theatrics of a strip tease or a high end lace bra. He wants you bare before him so he can appreciate every detail, each freckle, all the veins in your arms, the little scars that tell the story of you, the sum of your “imperfections” that set you aside from the rest of the world. When he looks at you it’s with hunger like you’ve never seen. He starts devouring you with his eyes but he doesn’t stop there, mouth finding every sweet spot on your body, not stopping until you’re nearly incoherent, finally entering you and basking in the feel of you surrounding him, in the look of awe on your face and the strained sighs escaping your lips…

That’s what it’s like to be loved by Ryan Brenner.

Ryan is an intense, sensual partner who thrives on a deep connection with those he chooses to be intimate with- this is why it was out of character for him to end up sleeping with Jackie, because they hadn’t known one another long enough to build the kind of connection that he usually looks for. He’s a little bit old fashioned in the thought that intimacy should go hand in hand with emotion, that it’s a language with which to communicate what can’t be said with words. That’s why his number isn’t very high- only 5- and why he doesn’t have a different girl in every city he’s visited. Ryan is extremely and acutely in tune with his partner, and is able to put the most raw, pure feeling into every touch and movement.

 Conflict

3- What is his kryptonite?

It’s always been the people that he cares about. Ryan doesn’t have a lot to his name, so in terms of material things he doesn’t have much to lose and there aren’t a lot of situations that he couldn’t recover from. He’s been robbed twice, went a week without making a buck once, even broke his guitar once on a bumpy dismount, but he bounced back from all of those situations. But the people he cares about- his cousins and Chase, his friends from coast to coast, even the new additions like you, Junebug- they mean more to him than he can put into words, and he’d do anything he could for any of them. 

  Favorites

1-What is their favourite animal?

Ryan has always liked birds. From small finches and jays to hawks, eagles and cranes, they’ve always fascinated him. To him they represent freedom and independence. They sing songs unique to themselves, they get to look at the world from a different perspective, they get to go wherever they want, whenever they want, and to Ryan it always seems like they’re having fun, swooping and diving, riding the wind, splashing in puddles or sand. 

4-What is their favourite song?

You cannot know how long I agonized over this answer. 

I finally landed on Into the Mystic by Van Morrison, because it reminds him of happy times with his parents before his father died and his mother remarried. Carolyn and Luke Brenner were very much in love, and there was always music playing in their home whether it was Luke strumming a guitar or banjo, or Carolyn singing along to the small radio on the kitchen counter. Ryan had a lot of memories of his parents singing and dancing, smiles on their faces and laughter in their eyes. He even remembers times when his father was away, and his mother would take his small hands and dance him through the living room with this song playing. When he hears it now (or plays it, which only happens occasionally when he has the right accompaniment- it’s a pretty piano heavy song…maybe Junebug can help him out with this one…) he feels light and happy, and hopeful that someday he might find something like what his parents had.   

8- What is his favorite food? 

Ryan’s favorite food is shrimp and grits, but not just from anywhere, specifically his Aunt Holly’s version of the dish. When Ryan came to live permanently among the Brenners a few years after His mother married his stepfather, he spent most of his time with his Gram and Granddaddy, and his father’s sister Holly, Jimmy’s mom and his Uncle Alan, though the whole family had a hand in raising him from 12-16. But most of that time was under Holly and Alan’s roof, and Holly was the best damn cook in town. Alan worked on a shrimping boat and was able to come home with freshly caught prawns at a fraction of the price that they’d run in seafood markets. At first, Ryan was skeptical of the shrimp because he’d never eaten something with so many legs or antennas, pushing them aside to devour the delicious, creamy corn grits that they sat atop. But eventually he gave in, seeing how much everyone else liked the funny looking sea creatures, and since that first sweet bite he’s been hooked. Holly always makes them when he’s home. He’s tried them a few times elsewhere, but there’s really no comparison to the family recipe. 

 Possessions 

6- What is in his pockets? 

I answered this one separately because it got lengthy: 

Turn ‘Em Out 

Values

1- What does he think is the worst thing that can happen to someone?

The worst thing in the world as far as Ryan is concerned, is feeling like you’re stuck; like you can’t control the speed or direction of your own life. He’s seen it grind people down until they break, and he’s seen it many times through his life.

He saw it first with his mother, when she married his stepfather. Their relationship was fine, but even Ryan at 10 could tell that they weren’t in love the same way his mom was in love with his dad. While he was mostly apathetic towards Ryan, his mother’s new husband treated her well enough, but Ryan never caught them dancing in the kitchen at 2am when he wandered out for water like he’d caught his father twirling his mother, a small radio playing on the counter. He never saw his mother jump into her new husband’s arms when he got home from work like she used to greet Ryan’s dad when he’d come home from his travels. Miles cared for and respected Ryan’s mother, but he didn’t go out of his way to do so, and Ryan had the sneaking suspicion that she only married him because she’d already had his child (Ryan’s half brother Chase was unexpectedly born 2 years before their wedding, and Ryan was thrilled about being a big brother having seen how much fun Tommy and Zach had growing up together. He didn’t care about the 8 year age gap.) and she felt like her chances of finding a second true love like Ryan’s father (especially with two kids) were running out. Miles was there, and even though things weren’t as great as they might have been with someone else, she wasn’t alone. But she wasn’t happy, either, and Ryan saw her smiles dwindle through the years.

He saw it with Chloe, when she found out that she was pregnant and the fear of being stuck was so great that she threw the choice away before even talking to Ryan about it. He saw the way that decision broke her down until it ruined whatever the two of them could have salvaged from that relationship.

He saw it happen to Cowboy when he and Virginia started on the same page with their son and ended up in separate books. Ginny was smitten with that kid the second he popped out, and Cowboy loved him, too, but staying put proved to be much tougher than he thought it would be. It turned him bitter at times and made him angry, and Ryan answered more than one shaky, tear filled call from Virginia after Cowboy’d taken his “stuck” feelings out on her. He’d tried his best to alleviate some of that burden, dropping by to visit the three of them as often as he could, trying to make it feel like old times, he and Cowboy playing together while Virginia rocked the baby in the corner. But eventually even that wasn’t enough, and Cowboy realized that he couldn’t stick it out, not for as long as Virginia needed him to, so at her urging, he unstuck himself. And then Ryan saw it happen to Ginny after he died- that boy means the world to her, and she doesn’t regret having to give up her lifestyle, she wasn’t so attached to having no attachments as Cowboy was, but Ryan knows that she feels stuck just like his mother did. A single mother with limited avenues for change.

He sees it when you’re sitting in your empty apartment and you tell him straight and honest that you’re stuck without direction. 

Ryan doesn’t judge people or pity them when they feel stuck in their lives. He simply hopes that they’ll be able to unstick themselves soon because he knows that life is too short to feel like you have no options, to feel stuck, to not take the wheel for yourself. 

3- When did he last lie?

 Ryan doesn’t lie often, and when he does it’s usually only to protect someone’s feelings. Like the time he told Taylor that the lemon squares she made were “really good” before turning and spitting the dry, tasteless clump into a napkin, Fitz and Jimmy snorting into their drinks.

But when he told himself that he could have the sort of thing with Jackie that he had with Chloe, that was a lie, and he knew it as soon as his boots were back on her porch and her arms were around his neck. Coming back to Jackie felt like obligation once he was there, something he never felt towards Chloe. Just give it some time… But the more time he gave it, the more clear it became- Jackie could never fully accept his part-time presence, and Ryan wasn’t ready to change his lifestyle for her. Within an hour of his arrival she’d asked him how long he was staying, expecting certain answers and showing real disappointment when he shrugged and answered with “a week, maybe?” She just wants more time… But he realized it would never be enough time unless it was all the time. He realized he’d never find something quite like what he and Chloe had, and that he’d never be able to have anything even close to that with Jackie. He realized that the real lie wasn’t even that he was telling himself that he and Jackie could work; the real lie was that he was lonely but he’d been telling himself that he wasn’t. 

  Daily Life

1-What are his eating habits?

Ryan is a messy eater and always has been. He doesn’t leave a mess behind, but if there’s sauce in what he’s eating it’s going to end up on his face and all over his hands. If it’s something that can create crumbs, they’re going to get trapped in his beard until he wipes his hand over his face. He has a set of silverware in his pack along with a can opener, half-used sterno, and a camp coffee filter, but he rarely uses the silverware because if he does then he has to find some place to clean them and he doesn’t always have access to water like that. He just digs in with his fingers most of the time, especially when he’s alone. He carries some food items with him- ground coffee, nuts, jerky, and a couple cans of tuna, beans or corn. He also has a jug of water that he can tie onto one of the straps of his pack. Space is limited, but he always makes sure that he has food for a day or two in case something happens and he either can’t afford or can’t get to a deli, convenience store, café or grocery store. Most days he eats two meals- breakfast and a late lunch/ early dinner. Ryan’s really good at only eating when he’s actually hungry, and he’ll eat a third or even fourth meal on days when he burns a lot of energy, like if he gets some side work in construction or agriculture. Along those same lines, he doesn’t overeat, only eating until he’s full. He always has to be ready to move, and quickly, so being weighed down by an overfull stomach isn’t a great idea.

When he’s home though? With all those family recipes and no need to worry about hightailing it to or from anywhere? He goes full on food coma, especially when he stops in to see his Aunt Holly. She’s never not had a peach cobbler cooling on her kitchen table for as long as Ryan can remember, and there’s always at least one pot going on the stove and something else in the oven.

Typical Ryan fare on the day to day is usually something that he can eat quickly, is easy to eat on the move, and has a lot of protein. He’ll stop in to a deli for a sandwich, grab a burrito from a food truck, or hit the “ready to eat” section at a grocery or convenience store.

8-What is their soft drink of choice?

Ryan usually sticks to water, coffee and tea when it comes to non-alcoholic beverages, but every now and then if he sees a root beer- a good one- he caves and goes for it. His favorite happens to be Jones Soda Co. and he first tried that brand out in Oregon with Robin. Aside from the flavor, which is just sassafras-y enough and not too sweet, he was initially drawn to the bottle because the label caught his eye. Each one has a different black and white photo, most of them showcasing little glimpses of Americana. The one that caught his eye at the Sweet Street Deli (he and Robin had gone in to grab lunch and drinks for the group. They’d been playing together around the corner in front of the Tioga building, locals gathering around and dropping change and crumpled bills into the open instrument cases and walking away with smiles that they spread all over town.) had a photo of a rail crossing signal and Ryan laughed to himself as he wrapped his fingers around the cool neck of the bottle. He grabbed an orange soda for Georgie, a classic cola for Cowboy, and for Virginia, who had more of an adventurous palate than her partner, he picked green apple. Whenever Ryan sees Jones root beer, it reminds him of that first trip out to Oregon, of carefree summer days and easy, laughter filled nights.

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Eye of the Beholder: Subayui oneshot

Commission for @s-e-kwan, happy birthday ^^

Summary: Alternate plotline for Kou’s More Blood Manservant Ending, wherein after being ignored for so long by Kou, Yui stumbles into Subaru. 

Rated T for language 

Angst/romance

Is love ugly or beautiful?

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The late hour drenched everything in shadow, the moon and street-lamps banishing them to the corners of Yui’s vision. She wiped at her cold, damp cheeks, but more tears rolled down to replace the old ones.

She knew it was dangerous to be out so late alone. The good church girl never would have thought she’d become so reckless in her heartbreak, but Kou’s flair for the dramatic must have rubbed off on her.  

Kou.

That’s right. If he couldn’t see her anymore, maybe she was invisible? Perhaps she’d died a long time ago within the vampire’s clutches and now walked as a ghost. Then there’d be no reason to be afraid of walking the city streets at night.

“Ah, Kou-kun. Good morning. What happened yesterday?”

Nothing but silence had answered, the blonde vampire passing by without a glance. Perhaps he simply hadn’t heard?

“Kou-kun?”

“Oh, hey hey Yuma-kun. Did you do yesterday’s homework?”

“Ah? That thing’s too annoying to do!”

The beautiful boy she’d come to love laughed, the sound carefree and amiable. “I know right. That’s why I asked.”

His taller brother had glanced down at her uncertainly. “You do know that she’s calling out to you. You’re okay with that?”

“Eh? She?”

“Sow. Right in front of you, she’s calling out to you!”

Ice had shot into her heart the moment his red and blue eyes had glanced around, purposely passing over her. “Yuma, are you tired?  …Isn’t there no one else here but us?”

She stumbled a little, walking with no destination in mind. Since Kou’s silent rejection, Ruki had told her there was no need to stay at the Mukami mansion. But she’d been stubborn and clung to her love. She’d tried so hard to make him see her for months on end, following him like a spectre.

But then he’d slung his arms around those girl’s at school and laughed so heartily with them. She’d seen him sink his fangs into their delicate throats in hidden corners. The message was clear; Yui Komori wasn’t needed anymore.

After yearning, crying, praying for nothing but freedom for so long, it now felt hollow. The breeze didn’t feel soothing on her skin. Nothing satisfied. She realised she didn’t want it. She hadn’t wanted to cage door to open when she’d grown so accustomed to the bars.

Should I…call Father?

Nothing was stopping her now, but what if he couldn’t hear her over the phone?

What if-

“Ach, watch where you’re going!”

Blinking, Yui held her sore shoulder that had been roughly bumped. Glancing up, rose-pink eyes met blazing red.

Subaru’s expression changed, hard features softening only slightly. “…It’s you. What the hell are you doin’ out so late, hah?”

“Y-you can see me?” She breathed.

“Tch, the fuck you talking about, of course I-“

Yui grabbed his hand tight, tears collecting in her eyes. “Can you touch me?”

Subaru’s eyes flew wide, face shuttering. He stared at her as she curled her free hand in his torn shirt. “Please, do anything. I don’t mind if you bite. I just need to feel something, please!”

“…The fuck did he do to you?” He muttered quietly, voice thinning a little as a woman with features like his, adorned in pure white flashed in his vision.

Staring up at him beseechingly and easing forward, she rested her head against his chest, tears rolling down pale cheeks once more. Subaru remained still, as though carved from stone.

“I saw you around school, following after him like a lost puppy. You finally left his side, huh?” He rasped.

“I’m sorry-“

Life finally entered his tone. “Don’t fucking start apologising. You always do that, and it doesn’t mean shit.”

Pulling back a little and glancing away, shame filled her. “I just…I was being selfish.”

“Yeah, well. I’ll grant your wish, if you want my fangs so bad.” His large, calloused hands were suddenly pulling her back in, tangling in the dulled blonde strands of her hair. “…You’re mine now. I better not hear you talk about him again. I won’t have you become my Mother, always waiting for a Bastard. Wanting him and all that shit-“

Yui’s breath hitched. Gladness filled her heart. Someone was holding her, and it felt so…different to before. “I can only see Subaru.”

Red eyes blazed, looking regretful even while he leaned closer, not stopping. “You’re gonna regret this. My hands will dirty you.”

Her soft, pale hand covered his. “They feel wonderful. Please, more…”

Hey…Subaru, is love real? Is it something beautiful or ugly?

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He’d noticed it eventually, a few hours into her absence. Kou blinked, looking behind him and expecting a shadow, but there was none.

“I saw her.”

Kou whipped his head forward, starting upon seeing Yuma in the hallway. “Where? Heh, did she get lost? Dumb girl…”

“Nah, she was with one of the Sakamaki’s in the city. Should think they’re at his mansion now-“ the front of his shirt was suddenly yanked- Kou glaring up at him. A dark, wild look of fear passed over his face.

“Y-you’re lying! She wouldn’t do that!”

Yuma growled, ripping his hands off and shoving him back. “I ain’t fucking lying! Saw it plain as day, she was cuddling up with that Sakamaki hermit. Look, Ruki said to leave them alone. That other guy will probably become Adam- Oi! Where are you going! Kou!” He exclaimed as Kou disappeared with a burst of speed.

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She’d only experienced his embrace for a day, but Yui had slept soundly with the vampire, enclosed in his arms and coffin.

Subaru didn’t talk much. When he did, he often cursed or tsked spitefully, but his eyes always found hers, straightforward. His hands on her body were rough, like he didn’t know how to handle things with care, but she liked them all the same. They felt like a sure thing on her body.

Of course, her peaceful Eden didn’t last long.

They’d been in the rose garden, taking a walk together under the pale moon and talking quietly, when a form burst out from the bushes. Subaru had raised his arms, snarling and meeting the blonde head on.

Yui stared, heart thundering in her ears.

“Y-yui!” Kou shouted, landing heavily on his feet and looking at her imploringly. “Are you okay? H-hey…we should go back together. I didn’t mean that thing before- I was just confused. Heh, you know I don’t handle love very well, right M neko-chan?” He breathed, mismatched eyes a little crazed.

Quickly dodging Subaru’s fist, he leaped. “Let’s go back. Things can be like they were before!”

Yui’s eyes hardened, pain filling her chest while her gaze averted. “…Subaru…you’re acting strange. Why are you fighting by yourself?”

Kou jumped down, staring at her, aghast. “Don’t start doing that shit!” He pleaded, feeling a rush of desperation. He blurred through the air, heading towards her with his fingers out-stretched, before a fist slammed into his cheek.

“Back off!” Subaru snarled, lips peeling back to reveal fangs. “She’ll do whatever she fucking wants! She ain’t yours anymore. You think if ya ignore her forever she’d be fine with it? Idiot!”

“That’s rich! You’re always pushing or pulling her away too!” A fist pummelled Subaru in the face, making him spit blood.

“Fuck off!”

“…There’s no need to get upset, Subaru. We’re the only ones here,” Yui mumbled, holding her arms and folding in on herself.

Kou snarled at the youngest prince, before the two descended into an all out brawl.

Bone’s cracked, ribs shattered, skin clawed and ripped.

Yui watched everything, trembling alone in the moonlight. Was this love? Fighting, scrapping, killing each other?

The ground was split open as bodies thudded into it. Dirt was sent flying. Blood rained out. Subaru lost his grip.

Flying free, Kou extended his hand once more, speeding towards Yui. “If you can’t see me, I’ll make you!” Manic tones snarled.

Rose-pink eyes widened, before her back landed hard against the earth, knocking the air from startled lungs the same moment her skull met the ground.

Colours drained away as darkness claimed her sight with a blaze of pain. Something sharp stabbed into her eye, ripping a cry from her mouth just as she lost consciousness, retreating from the horror.

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A rhythmic beeping noise was the first ting she became aware of. Cracking her eyes open, Yui blinked slowly, moving her hand and stilling when it hurt. An IV was attached.

Movement on her left made her turn her head. Coarse palms slid into her hair, stroking slightly. “Damn it…” he breathed.

“Subaru?”

He exhaled shakily. “I told you I’d dirty you.”

“I’m okay. You look sad, what’s wrong?”

She didn’t want to ask but she wondered what had become of Kou. The vampire above her had blood-shot, tired eyes. She felt as though she’d been hit by a truck, groggy and weak. Something hurt on the right side of her face. Raising her hand, she felt raised, bumpy, sore skin around her eye.

“Ah, I see you’re awake miss Komori.”

Yui shifted, looking up at Dr. Reinhart. He walked gracefully into what appeared to be a private room. She couldn’t be sure if they were in a hospital, but she had the strangest feeling she was back at school in the nurse’s office.

“How are you feeling?” He asked, “it’s been a few weeks since you were injured.”

“I-injured?”

“Oh yes, didn’t Subaru tell you? That Mukami boy certainly did a number on you. I think he got a little carried away,” he chuckled as though the thought was amusing. “Luckily your knight in shining armour was there. He brought you here and I treated your wounds. Unfortunately you needed surgery to remove the damaged eye, it was…”

Yui wasn’t listening anymore. Forcing herself to sit up from the pillows, she gripped the IV and tore it out, much as the muffled sounds around her seemed to grow in volume. Climbing unsteadily from the bed, she felt those same calloused hands steadying her waist and wrapping around her fragile fingers.

Easing to the mirror set upon the wall, Yui flinched and stilled at the sight. Her eyes grew wide, skin draining to a ghostly pallor.

One rose-pink eye stared back.

The other was glassy red, pupil slit.

“I took the liberty of putting the fake-eye in already. It was my only condition when agreeing to help you, because admittedly I was curious about its effects on you. Do you like it? I can always find one that matches your natural colour but-“

“Doctor,” Yui cut in, trembling. “Whose eye was this?”

Subaru gathered her close then, muttering that it didn’t matter into her hair. The guy was gone, dead and buried. Who cared where they’d gotten it?

“There’s no need to worry my dear. You wanted to know if love was real, correct?” The Doctor purred in silken tones. “Now you’ll know. That eye never lies, it sees the truth in all hearts. Hopefully you’ll use it better than the previous owner,” Dr. Reinhart smiled, assessing the new Adam and Eve.

Yui trembled in the arms that held her, gripping his torn clothes tighter. Looking up at him and blinking through her tears, she choked on a sob.

Kou, I-I understand now. Like this, I can see everyone’s emotions. It’s overwhelming, but…love. Why did you think love was ugly?

Subaru raised her bleeding hand to his lips, sucking the blood away and licking over the wound. His bloodied lips then sought hers.

It’s so beautiful.

She accepted Subaru’s desperate kiss, sliding her hand carefully into his bangs and brushing it away from his face. Reverent, solemn, frightened emotion stared back at her, but she handled his love delicately like a newborn.

She wouldn’t doubt love like Kou. She’d try to understand it. Nourish it. Both Subaru’s emotions, and Kou’s old ones contained in the eye she wept from.

I’ll show you the blue sky you wanted to see so badly, Kou.

[city-writes]

How about tomos and 'knowledge'

I finally finished it! Im sorry this took a while, I was going one route with it, but then half way through realized i didn’t like how it was turning out and did a 180 with it! To make up for it being so late, its def a lttle longer than a few sentences so! Ta-da! Also happy belated birthday!

Send me a ship or characters and a one word prompt!

Read it here on AO3!

Durbe hummed angrily and ripped a page with freshly scribbled notes out of his journal, crumpling it in his hands and tossing it lamely to the wastebasket at his desk’s side. He raked the hand not holding his pencil through his hair, scratching at his scalp in irritation. Why wasn’t this information sticking? His final was in two days. Maybe if he tried a different study method…

Pushing his journal to the side, Durbe pulled some texts he checked out from his university’s library to look at as he alternated between it and his laptop. He poured through archive after archive, resource after resource, and while his back and rear end were pleading for him to just get up and stretch or move, the ex-knight stayed put, stubbornly ignoring his body’s requests.

The gentle clinking of ceramic against the desk made him jump slightly, pulling him out of his work and headspace. An all too familiar and welcome hand on his shoulder comforted him, and Durbe exhaled slowly.

“Sorry.” Ryoga gave a half-hearted smile when Durbe turned to look at him, “You haven’t moved since this morning. I figured you needed something to keep you going.” It was only then that the scent of his favorite coffee blend invaded Durbe’s senses and he couldn’t help but smile.

Shaking his head at Ryoga’s apology, he spoke. “It’s fine, you’re fine. Thank you,” He reached for his mug, blowing gently across it to cool it down before taking a sip. His mind replayed Ryoga’s words however, finding something off. “It’s still morning though, isn’t it?”

Ryoga scoffed, out of amusement rather than scorn. “Try 4:30.”

Durbe tensed, his brows raising at Ryoga’s statement. “4:30?” Durbe took his glasses off with one hand, and rubbed at his face with the other. “God, I didn’t mean..–  I didn’t realize–”

“It’s cool.” Ryoga assured, exhaling as he took his hand off Durbe’s shoulder. “I was half convinced you’d passed out or something but Rio refused to let anyone check. She just left with Kotori and Cathy somewhere though. I think she was hoping you actually had passed out so you’d get some sleep.”

A sigh escaped the bespectacled male, noting to himself that he actually was rather drained after sitting through what was essentially an non-stop 6 and a half hour research session. “Sleep does sound nice,” he muttered as he sipped his gifted coffee, “too bad I’m drinking this.”

“Durbe.”

Ryoga’s only answer was Durbe looking up to him as he spitefully took another drink.

Frowning, Ryoga retaliated by closing Durbe’s laptop. “Come downstairs then. Take a break, sit in The Good Seat, and we’ll put on a movie or something.”

The “Good Seat”, as it had been communitively deemed by all those who lived in the mansion, was the last fully functioning seat in the living room’s set of twin sectional sofas. It was the only seat out of eight total spots that still had an intact recliner, cup holder, and massage function.

Durbe chuckled at that, and shook his head. “Even with Rio out of the house, you can’t just give me The Good Seat. Vector’s probably already claimed it as his until she comes home.”

“Nah.” Ryoga waved a hand at him dismissively. “He’s off somewhere with Yuma. And before you say anything, Mizael’s in his room, and probably won’t be down until dinner. So unless Alit and Gilag are planning to surprise us by flying in, The Good Seat is yours.”

At the mention of dinner, Durbe’s stomach gave an audible growl, and it occured to him then that he hadn’t eaten since about 10am. “Thanks, but no thank you. I’ll probably just lay in bed for a few minutes then get back to work until dinner.” Again, his stomach growled as the word dinner left his lips, and he wished it wouldn’t betray him like this.

“Durbe, come on. Give yourself a single moment to relax. You’ve been cooped up in here all day, staying cooped up won’t help. You’re going to burn yourself out studying, and then the day of that exam, you’re going to crash.” Ryoga grabbed Durbe’s hand then and tugged, the older male reluctantly getting up from his desk with a sigh. “We’ll make popcorn or something, pop in one of those nerd movies you like, and watch it until Rio gets home.”

“First off,” Durbe began with a genuine smirk - the first Ryoga had seen since coming to check on him, “how dare you call Star Wars a ‘nerd movie’ when you and I both know how you feel about Luke Skywalker. Secondly,” the smirk began to fade from Durbe’s lips then into something softer, and he gently squeezed Ryoga’s hand, “…I want white chedder popcorn seasoning. And extra butter.”

“…White chedder, fine; normal butter.”

“Deal.”

When she came home, Rio said nothing when she found the two of them smushed together as best they could on The Good Seat under a blanket with an empty popcorn bowl in their hands and the credits to a Star Wars movie rolling. She did, however, whip out her cellphone, and take a picture.

[blue-rose-89]

RWBY Volume 5 Chapter 8 (Alone, Together)

So we are back to Blake’s story, but don’t worry! We’re finally getting somewhere.

What did we learn......

1. RWY have some down time but when Blake’s absence is brought is up, Yang gets upset enough for her eyes to go red and her arm to tremble. After what Blake did at the end of Vol 3 it is no surprise that Yang would still be angry for what she did.

2. Blake’s actions on that night reminded Yang about how much she’s been alone and abandoned for most of her life. Raven abandoned her, Summer died on a mission, Tai was busy with his job, and Ruby couldn’t talk at the time. As angry as she with Blake, it seems like there’s a part of Yang that wants Blake to be there for her (”What if I needed her for me?”).

3. Weiss acts as a mediator for Yang and the absent Blake (Vol 1 Weiss wouldn’t have defended a Faunus) by sharing her experience of loneliness within the Schnee Family. Her story confirmed two things about her parents:

-Jacques did marry her mother for the family name. He revealed this to Mrs Schnee on Weiss’s tenth birthday party when she got mad at him for missing it. Mrs Schnee had a feeling that he did but the fight was enough for her to turn to alcohol and being emotionally absent from her children. Once again, Jacques Schnee is a scumbag.

4. Blake meets up with Illia only to get ambushed by Yuma and a Spider Faunus named Trifa. Had it not been for Blake telling Sun ahead of time about the ambush she would’ve been taken away to see Adam. Nice to see that Blake is letting friends help her.

5. The reason Illia is conflicted with hurting Blake is because she’s in love with her. This makes Illia Chamelia (in case you ask, this is just a fun nickname for her. I know what her last name is) the first RWBY character confirmed to be gay. More on this later.....

6. Ghira literally bears his claws out and goes Wolverine on the Albain twins. Hopefully he lives.

Now this is the part where I usually make predictions for the next episode but due to the debates I’ve seen that surround a certain Faunus girl, I feel like this needs to be said.

Warning

Long post beneath.......

My thoughts about the Illia debate. 

For those of you who are upset about Illia being not only LGBT but also an antagonist, I get it.  Nobody wants to see a character you can relate to be an antagonist, especially if there’s chance that they can die. But there are three things I hope you can keep in mind when watching the series and dealing with real life.

1. We are all capable of being good or bad regardless of who we are.

2. Illia’s sexuality isn’t what defines her, it’s her actions and  the choices she makes with her life. The reason we’ve been given a backstory of her is because the writers wanted us to get to know her and understand her reasons why she joined the White Fang. Illia joined the White Fang because humans hurt her and Adam’s influence is turning her into another version of himself, something that Blake does not want to see happen to her former friend. Illia’s feelings for Blake gives us a reason why she’s conflicted to hurt her but that side is only secondary when compared to Adam turning her into a nothing but hate and spite. If Illia chooses to spare the Belladonnas out of love for Blake then great! Blake may have a new ally. If not then becoming “Adam Jr” will be a defining trait that outshines her crush on Blake.

3. I believe Miles and Kerry mentioned that “We’ve already seen the LGBT character”  before Ilia made her debut. This means that there might be other characters that haven’t revealed themselves to LGBT because Miles and Kerry want us to see their characters as characters and not just “The gay one”. 

In conclusion, have faith in the writers. The story is not over yet. I believe we have 9 volumes confirmed at this point so there’s plenty of time to learn more about the characters.

[noviceaoiryusei]

Dance Square (vol. 18) - Snow Man, Hayashi Shota, Muro Ryuta short talk

Credits: yoshiko_mama

Originally translated by: asadajunya

"There are lots of things that you gain if you seriously deal with it. "

Stories and reflections about Takizawa Kabuki 2017

There are lots of things that you gain if you seriously deal with it. 『 Takizawa Kabuki 』

Spring dance performance in Shinbashi, the 『Takizawa Kabuki 2017』 8 Johnny’s Jr. Members had gathered! Snow Man and Hayashi Shota who have appeared many times in the past have appeared to the chairman, Hideaki Takizawa and a lot of loving advice given out to Muro Ryuta who had his first appearance.

Hikaru Iwamoto

The funniest story recently

I went to a gym with a friend. My friend who is yearning for my body called me (laughs), he said「I want you to keep track of it」 that's why he called me to ask for an assistance. When I was raising the barbell (I went) 「uhm . . . !」 and he said 「oy! do your best and keep up! raise it up higher!」 and I said 「wait ... I have no problem ...! 」 that’s what I thought, I had reached

the limits of the weights and I think that I can’t laugh while raising it. (laughs)

2016 「 Takizawa Kabuki 」 reflection

At the end of the second curtain, we are having a lots of water at the end, but I did not participate in that "water splashing" too much. (laughs) There were quite a few days when (Miyake) Ken-kun was fully aiming at me, but I had Abe as a shield. I think that position is made up to be useful, but it would be a nuisance to Abe. (laughs) If there is such a scene this year, I think that I am willing to go on the water on my own.

Daisuke Sakuma

The funniest story recently

I love the scariness of roller coasters (or jet coasters) and it makes me laugh a lot when I get on it, it’s funny. (laughs) During this time as well, I and Miyata (Toshiya)-kun went for a ride with Yamamoto Ryota, Miyachika (Kaito), Nakamura Kaito and Inaba (Hikaru)-kun, but because I was laughing with 「Yeah!」 and I had already hit my hands. (laughs) And Miyata-kun who’s next to me thinks that I am really noisy. (laughs) Also, when I got my license, Miyachika and I went for a drive to a safari park and I said 「hora, a lion!」, Miyachika was laughing even though he thought I was concentrating on driving, I said 「I’m sorry I am not so loud」. (laughs)

2016 「Takizawa Kabuki」 reflection

So, we say it is as a reflection point but, because we had a lot of things to do, there were too many performances to do. . . I am not satisfied; I want to go on more! I want to raise the quality, but since it is overall, it is difficult to concretely list all those things that I want to improve~. (Abe: 「Let’s do our best properly this year」) Yes, I will reflect on not being able to say my points of reflection!

Ryohei Abe

2016 「Takizawa Kabuki」 reflection

It is during the second part/curtain, I had left without a microphone. A female dancer, who serves at a tea house, got me a microphone on the way in the middle of the tray, so I could receive it with and I gestured 「Thank you, this should be my work〜」 and I will never detach it ever again . . . ! By the way my mother came to see me that day. 「I heard the words properly」 and having to say that I thought that families are generous too. (laughs)

The funniest story recently

Recently I often spend time with Sanada (Yuma) of Love-tune and Sakuma, I’m laughing a lot with mistakes of these two and also hearing their mistakes really makes me laugh a lot. During the rehearsal of 「JOHNNY’S ALL STARS ISLAND」 the drum teacher said 「better than before」, 「you became better than before」 and Sakuma said 「e? mirabakesso?」 and I made a mistake. (laughs) Meanwhile, Sanada-kun wanted to talk about the movie 「Kirishima, Bukatsu Yamerutteyo」 but what he said is 「Kirishima, Bukatsu Yamerundatte」. Sanada-kun has a lot of inputs, but it seems that he usually doesn’t remember. (laughs)

Ryuta Muro

Thoughts when you see the 2016 「Takizawa Kabuki」

I originally liked a stage with a sword, and it was my second time last year to see “Takizawa Kabuki”, I thought that I wanted to get in there from the first time I saw it. From the last year’s play, it was clearly visible that everyone was responsible for their selves and then I’ve got a feeling that I wanted to go out there and became stronger. And just as I’ve thought, Fukka (Fukasawa) got a female role? I can’t loose with the laughter because I’m from Kansai.

The funniest story recently

Meccha gera. Why are we laughing even if it is not a big deal? Recently, my friend who went to the party club together, and then he suddenly jumped into a pool that is used only in summer. It’s pretty dirty and what I did is put up some ice and sent it to him. Then, when I was in the midst of grilling some meat, he said 「 tobima—su 」in the pan. (laughs) After that, he went to take a bath while saying 「samui~ samui~ 」 (laughs)

[meccha gera = really doesn’t stop laughing] 

[tobimasu = it’s grilling]

[samui = cold]

Tatsuya Fukasawa

The funniest story recently

Being able to keep a dog! Although I always wanted to keep a dog, I still can’t get my family’s permission. I even remodeled my room so that I can secure it to a place. There’s a house nearby that has three dogs and whenever I pass by, I see heads popping out of the fence and goes 「 wanwan！ 」 and I have always responded 「nani nani？」 out loud. Although I have not kept it yet, I go to a pet shop, search for gauges and pet foods, etc. and I laugh whenever I’m doing it. (laughs)

2016 「Takizawa Kabuki」 reflection

I played the role of a girl, but when I got accustomed, Takizawa (Hideaki)-kun told me that “Isn’t it a like a man today” and I was told that looseness came out. Besides, I wonder if I can have more inner thighs, and besides that there are many things to think about like “You should have been able to respond more ad lib”. I guess the parent has something to do with the ignorance, do not be afraid to be hit in the face! I thought that I was real, professional consciousness was missing and I am reflecting!

Shota Watanabe

The funniest story recently

During “JOHNNY’S ALL STARS ISLAND” (’16 ~’17), (Morimoto) Shintaro announced that “SixTONES and Snow Man, let's do New Year's present games". 12 people gave presents and gathered at SixTONES' dressing room. I had laughed a lot anyway whether Shintaro thought about making arrangements on how to entertaining everyone or not. First of all, I pulled a number but that number isn’t for the present; it looks like it is the turn to the next one to turn the roulette. (laughs) We all laughed and I’ve become relaxed.

2016 「Takizawa Kabuki」 reflection

The second act has changed from tragedy to comedy; there are things that have been done differently than usual following the mellowness of the scene. It is necessary to listen to the dialogue of the person who is talking even in the scenes without lines although that would be unnecessary for the eyes of the audience. As I added it day by day, I don’t even remember having it negatively this year. Yes, I sad very cold yet nice things! (laughs)

Ryota Miyadate

2016 「Takizawa Kabuki」 reflection

There are some people who say that it hurts my throat, although there are some people that says「it is a proof that you’re doing your best」, I think that I should refrain from doing it after all that I put it out on the stage. The kabuki performance; from around 2 years ago, I thought that maybe I could become a bridge between Japan’s traditional arts and the present age in the future. Specifically, I haven’t reconsidered it but, I want to be more particular in manners and the forms.

The funniest story recently

Because I rarely smile (laughs), it’s difficult. I went to a meal together with Kawai (Fumito)-kun and Nozawa (Yuki) I felt like I laughed a lot but I don’t remember why. (laughs) Ah, I walked down the street two days ago and I have encountered Inoo (Kei)-kun at a location shooting laughing and I laughed when I heard him go 「 fufu 」 , he was laughing silently. Although it’s all about it (laughs) and even though I think it is funny, I think it has nothing to do with laughter. Although I often laugh even after seeing a comedy program, it’s about laughter after all (laughs)

[fufu = sound of laughter]

Shota Hayashi

2016 「Takizawa Kabuki」 reflection

When I’ve read again the script for the scene 「 Kaidan Yuki Onna 」 which I’ve done least year, I’ve found a line that says “I wish I could have done this here a little more”. I’ve thought of the feelings of the snow woman and I guess there’s a pattern of different expressions on the script. I don’t know yet if there’ll be a scene like that this year but, I want to make use of the reflections that I have now.

[Yuki Onna (Snow woman) = a spirit in a Japanese folklore.]

The funniest story recently

When Satsuki (Fukazawa) suddenly called me「 Hayashi 」by chance. (laughs) It has been the usual 「 Hayashi-kun 」 for a very long time, but now it has become 「 Hayashi 」. But today, it was 「 Hayashi 」 so I didn’t say anything; it was a「 good job 」 that’s what I’ve thought in my mind. (laughs) Now, I have been called 「 Hayashi 」by my kouhai Fukka, it looks like that he is a senpai and he is a nice guy that gives e-mail on a birthday. (laughs)