#I know some things may not fit q!Phil

[star-ra]

Thinking about q!Phil's apology to Chayanne and Lullah again

Thinking about how he originally wanted to talk to each of them separately, one-on-one, but didn't even suggest that idea again once he saw Lullah on the complete opposite side of the room as him and Chayanne wielding his sword

How badly do you think that could have shattered his confidence? He mentioned that he had been putting off that talk for some time, so he must've been trying to build up the courage to say what he wanted and NEEDED to say to his kids about everything that happened with the Ender King's possession, and to find the right time for it

Do you think there's an alternate timeline where Phil immediately backed down from that conversation? Distanced himself to try to make his kids feel even a little safer? Decided it was a bad idea, or bad approach, or bad timing, just BAD all around?

How could he continue with his original plan when his daughter's looking at him with fear again? When his son is pointing a sword at him again?

Maybe he just writes and leaves them a letter instead, trying to do literally anything to make his kids feel even slightly more comfortable in what's supposed to be their happy little home

What else can Phil do for his kids when they can still imagine the evil king that took their dad so easily?

[molluskmirage]

the boogeyman effect following Bbh from purgatory 1 has been a very fascinating phenomenon.

there is alot of residual and lingering opinions of Bad from both characters and fans and its been interesting because having watched Bads pov he really didnt do anything more then what others did in purgatory. Q!Phil is mad because Bad terrorized his team but bad had far less kills then Tubbo, and plenty other teams were around terrorizing others Fit slaughtered Tina and soulfires farmers (most of which then never returned)

Q!Tubbo is mad for ‘day 12’ for a poor decision Bad made, but Bad was carrying the team mostly alone for many many hours the whole 2 weeks (the most out of anyone on the team) I think he could be forgiven for not having the clearest decision making skills running ragged and getting killed.

Q!Bagi feels betrayed by bad and has been more comfortable around tubbo since p1 but tubbo murdered her before she could say a word in p1 and Bad asked for her consent first before doing so.

Q!Etoiles is salty about the 2v1 but he and Fit started it by attacking tubbo alone who then had to run to bad and it was a 2v2 before then becoming a 2v1 as Fit backed away injured

Q!Phil has also mentioned that bad has not taken responsibility for his actions and this is echoed a lot in fan spaces but Bad is constantly taking on blame for things he may have only been adjacent too. He’s said he’s killed a lot of people, he jokes that he’d do it again. He doesnt often show remorse for his actions which I think is more what some are after but he does acknowledge things he doesn’t pretend it never happened. He told Pepito he was a monster. And anytime some express anger towards bad he respects their feelings (that doesn’t mean he’d chose to act differently or feel remorse in such actions but he doesn’t tell anyone theyre not allowed to feel that way)

its a fascinating subject to me because this effect has carried over so strongly within the space despite the fact Bad didn’t even have the highest kills in p1 for soulfire (it was Tubbo by quite a margin) yet Tubbo is often unnamed as the wrongdoer. Bagi set up Bad for death, while it didn’t come to fruition she still did that to Bad. Bad could not do anything but run when red team took on the bounty system which was excruciating to watch. Red also showed no mercy when the boats arrived and killed Bad the sole player for blue leaving his body in a zone that would kill a naked player.

Bad did do wrong he spawn killed Jaiden. However his stalking home bases and killing others in general was no different then all of the other skilled players repertoire. Bad had to play offensively for his team the majority of the time as he was one of the few that could, yet the boogeyman effect holds onto him and warps even his own members perceptions after the fact. Q!Tina as an example very enthusiastic about letting Bad loose in p1 too then scolding him for actions he took under her instruction.

The fan narrative has been the most acutely difficult to manage as the effect is almost to mystic proportions and finding disdain for even mundane actions Bad takes and reading into those as disingenuously as possible always set on more then retribution but truly an end to his character. Which again having watched Bads POV I havent been able to discern anything remarkable that any other character hasnt also partook in.

The difference I have noted is that Bad will always consider himself in the wrong regardless if his actions had justifiable reason behind it. Dapper told Bad to win in purgatory. After purgatory Bad put himself and Dapper down as ‘oh thats just something Dapper would say hes just bloodthirsty, but narratively Dapper has committed self harm in order to protect his siblings and other islanders ((an issue Dapper unfortunately sees in his father and perpetuates himself)) believing he is nothing more then a tool to help those he loves, he would not risk his siblings lives for bloodthirsty humor. Bad knows this but when faced with the hate others saw in him he waves off both his and his sons merit buckling down. Bad and Dapper have dark humor but are always making gifts and finding ways to help others. There is nothing on the island Bad is more set to protect then the eggs and this thought with Dappers message, Q!Bad really thought he needed to go all out to protect them, even still he held back a lot and would 2nd guess because he wanted to be absolutely certain of the egg’s safety.

He wasnt without reason yet with the boogeyman effect looming over his reasons never seem to be able to hold a candle to the more popular characters, and he often concedes a lot to it. He says it with a laugh, tease, and is sassy with it but still he concedes to others perceptions of him as he doesnt want to override others feelings. It can be a bit exhausting as things are blown out of proportion to what they were in originality but on a social breakdown of how things and information travels its very very interesting and I have been enjoying the dive even if it stings sometimes with reflective thoughts.

[youphoriaot7]

just saw a heart-wrenching edit on tiktok (sad music and all) about q!cellbit and the way he interacts with the eggs and i just...

i remember when i was still getting into the qsmp (which i did from cellbit's pov) and was scrolling the wiki on the daily, trying to figure out past lore and relationships and everything

and every single time i clicked on an egg's page i would end up seeing cellbit's face somewhere in the relationship box. and it always made me grin so wide because it was just...cute. and then i realized a lot of them had even mentioned things like him being one of their favorite tios or whatever and i'm just so. fucking. soft. about the idea of just-

this guy. comes to this island. in the middle of nowhere—doesn't really know how he ended up there, doesn't remember much about where he came from, nothing. and, like, it's natural to be a bit skittish or at least defensive, especially when there's already so many people here, because you don't know what they will do to you, how they'll react to anything: they are essentially unknown entities.

and if you really think about it, that completely includes the eggs. because although they're just kids, q!cellbit was canonically in a war at, like, age 15. he's definitely not one to underestimate someone because of their age—he is damn well aware of how scary people can be, regardless of what their age is.

but then they start interacting, and, like—tallulah gives him flowers, and ramon picks him for a partner in the boat race, and he's able to joke and play around with chayanne and bobby, and...in a way, it's like seeing himself, or rather, what he could have been.

because he never got that; he never got to do that. he can see the relationships they have with their parents—tallulah and chayanne with phil, ramon with fit, dapper with bbh, bobby with roier and jaiden—and he sort of comes to realize, like, "these kids don't know." they don't know what it's like to be at war. they don't know what it's like to end up in jail. they don't know what it's like to not be able to live because you're too focused on surviving. whether it's been that way in the past and they don't remember or not, they don't know.

and, inwardly, he decides he's going to make damn fucking sure it stays that way.

so he starts collecting flowers, to give some to tallulah the next time they meet, and the way she beams assures him he'll continue. and when ramon makes a mistake in the boat race and starts beating himself up about it, he empathizes and reassures him. (practically makes the poor kid cry.)

he sees the way chayanne takes the lead around the younger eggs and takes note, making sure to joke around and play with him whenever he can—because he may be the oldest, and the most responsible, but he deserves to have fun, too.

all of this includes richas, of course. in fact, it's even more exaggerated, to the extent that (in some ways similarly to fit) he mostly lets richas do what he wants, only growing concerned or stern if the kid's life is in danger. (because he saw what happened to bobby, and he's not going to let it happen on his watch.)

because there's enough pain in the world. chaos runs rampant on the island, from the federation to the codes, from the kidnappings to the tasks, from the bombs to the capybaras. there is death at every turn, and this island can be deceiving, because it doesn't seem like it. it seems perfectly fine.

but he knows.

he's been in this position before, where everyone and everything is trying to kill him. he's familiar with the concept of survival. and this island is survival.

but these are kids. they don't need that. hell, he had that as a kid, and look how he turned out. no, if he has anything to say about it, nothing will seem out of the ordinary. as much as he can help it. he will gives flowers to tallulah, he will make jokes with chayanne, he will explore with richas, he will spend time with ramon and dapper—all to offer even a semblance of normalcy.

so uh the fluff part of this train of thought is over so click off now if you don't want the hurt <3

but then things start to change. bobby dies, and the federation teases them about it, dangling the child above their heads. the codes ramp up their attacks. the kidnappings start to increase. people die and respawn more frequently. and the more he tries to get free, to get away from the island, the worse things get for the current inhabitants.

he meets pomme. this terrified egg that's been trapped behind a wall since before he even got there. and he realizes that he won't be able to shelter them forever.

things are going to happen, one way or another, to shatter the fragile illusion of reality the islanders are trying to create for these kids. in some way, the curtain is going to fall, and it is going to hurt. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when he was thrown into battle. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when he ended up in a top-security prison when he was barely an adult. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when the wool was yanked away from his own eyes by that white bear not a week after his arrival on the island.

so whatever you do, don't think about what it must've felt like to find that book. don't think about what he must've been thinking as he flipped through those old, yellowed journal pages. don't think about him reading that lost egg's words, and just thinking, "god, this could've been me."

because it very well could've been.

the book literally talks about not wanting to survive, but wanting to live, and all he can think about for the rest of the day is how it was abandoned. same as him—only one was on a battlefield, and one was in this tiny-ass room. and there was no warrior in shining armor, no police officer taking pity to pull this egg out of there. he had someone. this egg had no one.

so of course he switches out the keychain on his backpack. because carrying that egg with him is like carrying a piece of himself, in just the same way that all the eggs feel like a piece of himself.

he can't protect the eggs forever. he knows that. but that doesn't mean he can't try.

[isa-ghost]

Would go crazy over any q!phil hc's, but may I request some about phil's harem I mean qsmp server polycule?

OHOHOHOHO YOU'RE INDULGING MY STUPID SILLY HAREM. YESSS.

Previous qPhil Headcanons

SO ANYWAY. QPHIL AND HIS INNATE TALENT FOR PULLING BAD BITCHES ON ACCIDENT.

Reiterating initial mentions of this for context:

--He's married to the Goddess of Death (Kristin) and Missa (a reaper). He's also fuckbuddies with Fit (no one can look at their interactions & tell me there's no homo there) and Etoiles. Strictly fuckbuddies; Fit has something blooming with Pac, and Etoiles is aromantic. --Everyone who Knows(tm) about the polycule has turned calling it a harem into an inside joke they only reference when Phil either isn't around or isn't paying attention enough to be like WHAT. --In fact, it's unfolded into a sort of joke folklore around Phil made up by the islanders closest to him that he has this inexplicable charm to him that makes any man-attracted person weak in the knees. (Baghera totally started it. Cellbit, Foolish, & Fit perpetuated it & it spread from there) --All this fruity silliness in mind, I have no fucking clue what queer label I'd slap on Phil, if one at all. Part of me wants to claim him as pansexual bc I'm Pansexual So Therefore So Is My Cubito + the way he'd explain how he experiences romantic & sexual attraction is exactly what I described *my* exp as in high school and my friend was like "yeah that's pansexual." But I also feel like Phil's the kind of guy to purposely not define his sexuality & remain an enigma both as a "mind your business" & a "It's Funny To Not Elaborate" thing. (As of rn I'm rolling with "he's pansexual but in a font you've never seen before")

S O

Obv Mrs. Goddess of Death Kristin came first, she's been with him since long before Quesadilla Island. Strangely enough, she can't recall too much prior to the island just like Phil, but there's no way the Feds know she exists let alone know how to fuck up the memory of a deity. But yeah, she was his first & is his ONLY romantic dynamic within his weird polycule

She's an avid fan of Phil being his best unintentional whore self with them nice ass shoulders on display all the time and that accidental man magnet charm. Loves watching him pull bitches nonstop without even realizing. And loves watching him be a total fruity dork with his besties. She knows if Phil was forced to choose ONE person out of the polycule to be monogamous with forever, he'd pick her. She's not worried at all about his yaoi island adventures

Next came Fit. Hough, what a man. They WERE, until recently, strictly fwb. They fucked nasty behind that gym and I'll die on that hill. The way they talk to each other sometimes? Big boy?? FitMC people are watching?? They fucked behind that gym. Their fwb was called off as soon as Fit got serious with Pac though. Phil was totally chill with it & actively encouraged it. He loves seeing Fit so invested in the romance he's got blooming. They're still more than friends, not lovers, but a secret third thing, the sexual aspect was just removed from the equation. Truly the most QPR of the polycule

Then came Missa. Oh Missa. Their dynamic IS platonic like Phil has stated & restated countless times, but Missa has a (not yet brought to Phil's attention) massive romantic crush on him. He hasn't spoken up yet to keep their relationship from getting rocky at all. But tbh that prob won't happen. They're platonic in the Kiss The Homies way. So what if they make out sometimes and are husbands? So what if they go on adventures that could be considered dates by some? They aren't a romantic relationship, even if Missa secretly kinda wants to be.

And finally, aromantic king Etoiles joined the fray. He and Phil started out as friends and that has Barely changed if at all, but sparring matches get a little too homoerotic sometimes and neither of them can resist the other when they're popping off extra hard. Things have. Escalated a few times. If yknow what I mean. Of all Phil's harem members polycule partners, he & Etoiles have absolutely ZERO emotional investment in the Spicy(tm) things they do together. It's simply a very intimate way of showing each other their respect & admiration for the other. What they have going on is a "*spanks you* good game, let's hit the showers team" kinda deal. They're the type of mfs to finish in bed then shake hands like "gg." Casual sex is >>>> to these two, but it happens waaay less between them than it did Phil & Fit, Fitza was habitual. Codebreakers is a once in a while thing

Btw once Fitpac gets more stable together and whatnot, Fitza could potentially reignite with Pac's consent. That's the key to healthy poly, all parties are informed & consenting. Pac would be like. An honorary harem member. He & Phil would have absolutely 0 intimate relations, they're strictly friends in the most basic sense of the word. They just also fuck the same guy (& would totally talk about it together if alone)

Phil sometimes tries to gauge if Missa only likes men or if he likes women too. If he does, he's going to ask if he'd like to hear about his lord & savior, Big Woman(tm).

Etoiles has 100% asked Phil who fucks the best out of the polycule bc like everything else, it's a competition & he Must win, he Must have the best dick game. This amuses Phil very much

*incoherent but clearly passionate noises about how Phil hasn't done anything spicy with any of the polycule in a hot second because of Ender King Situation stress*

GOD he wants to open up to them about it so bad. Like yeah he did w Fit that one time but he didn't go into detail and hasn't said anything since and bc Phil is an idiot that feels guilty easily, he doesn't want to tell Fit more atm bc he doesn't want to dampen Fit's high spirits or take away his time with Pac

OK BUT CONSIDER: POLYCULE GROUP EFFORT TO GET THROUGH TO ENDER KING POSSESSED PHIL AND HELP HIM FIGHT OFF EK'S INFLUENCE. OUGH.

Phil attracted all four partners with his raw skill and talent btw. If you even care. Literally was just going about his business being himself and it bagged him three dudes in addition to the literal goddess he already had

Although his feelings are platonic, Phil is attracted to Missa because Missa is a) the other father of his children and b) such a genuine and sweet person. And funny, even if a lot of the times the reason he's funny is bc he's like 2 seconds from having a stroke over whatever shit he missed hitting the fan this time

Phil is attracted to Fit bc. Well. That's FitMC of 2b2t, baby. Raw skill and talent sees raw skill and talent. Fellow anarchist. Also muscles. And that razor sharp stare. Fit's just dreamy as hell ok, let a man drool a little

Phil is attracted to Etoiles the same way he's attracted to Fit, HOWEVER, the reasoning is different. Etoiles has raw skill and talent, but it's the way he wields it and demonstrates it that makes Phil wanna act up. Also Etoiles is fucking hilarious. Who can resist a good sense of humor? Those dramatics make Phil swoon

[raguerel]

Something about Chayanne telling q!Philza to protect Tallulah

Not because Chay is self sacrifice

This is him telling Phil directly at him that He is going to be okay and Phil needed to trust him and prioritize Lullah and Chay need Phil to trust him that he will also be alright

Chayanne loves his family his siblings and some may say he is a bit self-sacrifice I don’t think that this is the case

The conflict that Chay always have with Phil Is that Phil is worrisome ( and for good reason ) about his safety

Phil have been more relaxing with him when Tallulah said to him that

‘Phil needed to trusted Chayanne more’

And so he did but in his words that even if he trusted Chay he will always be worried about them

And This is the huge part that will make Philza have to trust his son

Not because that Chayanne need to sacrifice himself

Not because that Chay need to protect his siblings by giving his life

This is Chayanne needed Phil to trust him that they will meet each others again

And Phil will have to trust Chayanne’s word for it and go saved his sister his siblings, to prioritize the other that needed his help first

To place trust in each other

To understanding where each other comes from

And to believe in each other capability

People calling Chayanne a warrior and he is! but the important part about him being warriors

And all I feels like people forget the whole arc of him becoming little chef because Phil refuse to take him near any danger/dungeon for a long time!

qPhil even get called a ‘too strict father’ at that time because he simply doesn’t want his son to die! Because he doesn’t have much resources like other parents did!

And Phil did talk to his kid about this! He opening up to them telling him heart to heart of where he comes from

Why he cares so much about their safety! There a reason why Phil’s kid very well behave and always listen to his words but still being themselves and doesn’t afraid to express for who they are!

Chayanne and Philza is one of the parents and kid that have great relationship with each others

Chayanne is not one with many words and Phil said that he noticed this and he adjusted his parenting style to fit his son more

Giving his attention to how Chay mannerisms is, Knowing that Chay will express himself toward body language and act of service

Take a notes on how Phil never force Chayanne to speak about his feelings and Phil have been with Tallulah who expresses herself a lots by word

Yet Phil still knowing what Chayanne need and what he wanted to do and Phil been nothing but supportive to Chay too

My take is that

Chayanne asked Phil to trusted him and to protect others who needed Phil first.

As Their bound wouldn’t be broken that easily since they had always been there for each other

and now him and Phil needed each other support the most this time

And for why Chayanne doesn’t mentioned himself in the message for Phil because he doesn’t express himself through word! but there are one thing clear and that is him vocaling his want to Phil!

And He needed Phil to trust him and help him during the most crucial time

[alchemicaladarna]

Little tangent about my journey with the QSMP fandom <3

First, I'm going to preface this post by saying, I wouldn't have been interested in the server, been introduced to so many communities, languages, and cultures, if not for the eggs and the admins. So, I initially gained interest when I saw a lot of people posting about Tallulah and.... Misclick duo (lmao) so I decided to check out what everybody was talking about mid-April 2023.

I watched Philza's April 29 VOD- "last" day of the eggs. Absolutely loved Chayanne and Phil planting potatoes because of Phil telling stories about Techno. Cried like a baby after. So now I'm invested.

I downloaded Twitch the next day, in time for the Brazilians' arrival. My main pov continued to be Philza, so I was a Crow for quite a while, mostly into the summer. I started watching Cellbit when the mystery really started to ramp up by the end of May.

Then Bobby died and everyone's reactions made me sob for like, a week.

Summer was probably the most time I've had fun watching QSMP. I don't know why, but it was such a good era, despite the discourse about elections lmao. I began to gravitate more towards watching Foolish's pov and when Jaiden began streaming every day, I had her as my main pov as well. Shoutout to the doozers and Jaiden mains <33

Then, Tina and Bagi arrived and I began religiously watching them as well for, uh. Reasons 🏳️‍🌈 XD. Got invested in Bagi's lore and then everybody became really busy during October so Bad and Bagi were pretty much the only ones consistently on the server XD.

Then, and only then, did I hear little whispers about q!Badboyhalo's soul vultures and possible death? And I got really really interested then. And that's where the Ghostie era started lmao. Up to now, Bad is the only person I'd watch consistently and keep up to date on his lore because well, after the soul vultures arc and especially Sweet Despair, you can't really go back to anything else after that you know?

Of course, without the QSMP, I don't think I would've discovered/re-discovered so many wonderful streamers like Fit, Tubbo, Étoiles, Mouse, or Baghera to name a few.

The past few weeks have probably been the shittiest and most anxiety-ridden weeks for me ever. But, I don't want all the negativity and anxiety to overshadow what was, for me, THE most special and unique fandom experience I've ever had. The QSMP is such a special project, there's no doubt about that. I want that to continue.

So, if this post can offer any sort of positivity and relieve some of the dread we've all been feeling, to any person from any community, that would mean so much to me already.

Send love to and the utmost kindness and care to any and all ex admins, and continue to show your support for the current admins too please. It will take a long time for this to be resolved, and it's terrifying I know, but all we can do is support each other and wait.

Remember to always take care of yourselves and no matter what happens, it always rains before you can see a rainbow right? So, in other words, things will become worse before they can get better. Idk what will happen with the QSMP, but know that life becomes better eventually. No matter the outcome, you'll be ok. We'll all be ok. <333

Edit: oh my god I just realized qsmp 1st anniversary isn't tomorrow. Today is the 20th djrjtbrbebd

There's still 2 days but um everything else I said is still true XDDDD

[bonesandthebees]

This conversation really is flipping back and forth between me feeling bad for Niki and me feeling bad for Wilbur.

[“We’re here now,” Wilbur agreed.] such a loaded statement. Niki knows shit is up. But the problem with Wilbur lying is that once she figures (figured) it out she’ll never know how much he lied to her (and thus can always assume it’s more than it actually is.

[Niki clenched her jaw, turning to look at a rose bush beside her.] she could just be upset about Tomys, but it almost feels like she was testing to see if Wilbur was going to tell her that he already knew and he failed. Like she’s smart enough to assume that Phil knew and Wilbur getting to tour him is very suspicious if she did not see his facial reaction (if he even had one).

And I am so weak for Wilbur breaking his vow to not talk about what happens during the meetings to tell Niki that she’s still in the running. Like that could lose him his position if it got out. Phil would be so mad. But I love how he justifies it by saying he never made that promise to his father. Like my man really only cares for his father opinion. He straight up does not respect Sam enough to keep it (which fair after that dumpster fire of a meeting).

Yet, he still makes sure that no one is there. I swear he will get so paranoid that anything will get back to his father. In trying to assure Niki that she’s still in the running, he spills more than he means to aka the fact that no one knows what Sam is doing, least of all Sam (this is screaming “there’s a horse on the loose in the hospital”). He just gave her so much info she would have no other way of knowing.

In a way that’s a far greater show of loyalty than passing whatever test Niki may or may not have given him. He’s breaking the rules for him. Also this is some proper gossip (as my mind now supplies fofoca). Not only does he share that Niki and q are still in the running. He also straight up says that Sam isn’t thinking things through. Like everything Phil wanted him to shut up about during the meeting is coming out to play.

It’s also very funny to see how outspoken Wilbur gets with Niki vs how reserved she still is. Her words are still careful. She gives no strong opinions aside from thinking Tomys isn:t fit (yet).

(2/?)

-🎄

that is the problem with lying... once you get caught once then the person you've lied to can never be sure when you're being honest or not

oh yeah since no one really knew that phil was kept in the dark about tommy's appearance, it's pretty much assumed that wilbur should've known too. especially with the touring thing. that didn't help.

he literally does not give a shit about his promise to sam or the kingdom as a whole he just wants his dad's respect lmaoooo. it doesn't matter because it's niki. his best friend. he wasn't able to tell her about tommy ahead of time, but he can tell her this. he can make up for it (he can't) with this (she would've found out anyway).

good to know all of us qsmp enjoyers have now been infected with calling it fofoca. it's just so fun to say. I almost said it to my mom the other day and had to stop myself because she would have no clue wtf that meant and then I'd have to awkwardly be like "oh yeah it's portuguese don't question why I randomly used this portuguese word in our conversation"

yeah in a way wilbur spilling so much was definitely a show of loyalty. but again, it depends on whose trust he's breaking with that info spill. phil never told him not to share that stuff so he goes for it. it's all stuff niki mostly knew about anyway. everyone in the palace is vaguely aware of sam's incompetence. but if phil had told him not to share it, he wouldn't have said a word. it's his father's word above the king's.

niki has been raised to be a proper lady of the court. she is extremely careful with her words because she knows propriety is a big part of getting ahead in a social circle like this. so even when she's alone with wilbur, she refrains from being too rude when talking about tommy. not because she thinks wilbur would tell anyone or care, but because she's just used to filtering her words like that.

[commaclear]

Htid brain rot time.

I know damn well Slime is gonna spill something to Karl at some point. Probably a week after Karl gets released from the hospital, he’s hanging out at home with Slime while Quackity’s at work. Quackity wanted to tell Karl about what happened and that he has been seeing someone else, but doctors told him to hold off on delivering big news and try to find a counselor to help get him up to date on things.

Karl couldn’t go back to work for a while, so he was watching Slime who’d caught a cold. He may have forgotten some things, but he still knows how to parent a child. He was sitting on the bed him and Quackity usually shared with Slime next to him, both of them drawing on top of a lap desk since it’s the kid’s favorite thing to do.

“Karl!”

Karl looked up from what he’d been drawing as soon as his name was called. “Whatcha need lil dude?”

“I want to see.” Slime gestured at Karl’s section on the small surface where some doodles of his were.

Karl smiled and handed them over. “Can I look at yours?”

Slime nodded and handed over the sketch book that was full of drawings. He flipped to a random page that had a blob figure with black and white hair, it reminded him of the guy who was sitting with Slime when he woke up. Quackity told him it was his babysitter. He flipped through a few more pages, some more understandable than others , before he came across a more recent one. Karl frowned at the unfamiliar people in this one since it had a lot of new scribbles.

“Can you tell me about this one?” Karl asked gently.

Slime eagerly nodded. “That’s when Quackity took me to dinner.” He pointed at some. “That’s Phil and Tommy and Fundy and Wilbur, and Quackity and me!”

“Who’s Phil?”

“Wilbur’s dad.”

“And Tommy?”

“Wilbur’s brother!”

“Fundy?”

“Wilbur’s kid! We played legos!”

“Who’s Wilbur?” Karl asked, still confused. This was beginning to sound like a family dinner, which wouldn’t make sense. Quackity once said there was a guy named Wil who was his coworker, but you don’t go to a coworker’s house for family dinner.

“He’s Wilbur!” The kid exclaimed, bouncing a little when he spoke. “He super cool! He gives me candy even when Quackity tells me no! One time we went to a Zoo with him.”

Karl hummed, flipping yo another drawing. “What’s this one about?”

“That was when Wilbur made us breakfast! Quackity called the pancakes stupid, but I think they were hearts. Stupid isn’t a shape.” Slime innocently started scribbling with a green crayon on the wooden surface.

“Why did Wilbur make breakfast?” Worry lined his voice more than anything.

Slime shrugged, “he always does when he has grownup sleepovers with Quackity. They are best friends! Like me and Ranboo!”

“Do they- Uh, do they sleep in here?”

“Where else would they sleep? When you have sleepovers you sleep in your friends room.” It was now slimes turn to sound confused, even if he wasn’t.

“Dunno.” He handed back the sketch book and excused himself to go get a glass of water.

—

Karl was sitting at the kitchen table with an untouched glass of now lukewarm water. Things made sense now. The pair of sweatpants that fit neither of them, the three in one shampoo that no resident there would dare touch, there had even been two dirty wine glasses left in the sink the day he came home. Those wine glasses were gifts from his parents when they moved in together. That bed was theirs. He slept there too. This house was his and Quackity’s, not whoever this honking Wilbur guy was.

The sound of the doorbell snapped him out of his thoughts. He took a deep breath and pushed himself up off the chair. When he looked through the peep hole, there was some lanky guy wearing some aesthetic glasses. He wanted to brush it off as a salesman and go back to thinking, but this man looked too disheveled to be a salesman.

“Hello?” Karl greeted, cracking the door open.

“Hi, my names Wilbur. Uh, Q has been helping me out with some legal documents and all that Jazz and I left them along with my reading glasses here. He said it’s be fine if I, uh, came by and got them.” The man, Wilbur apparently, seemed anxious and was picking the sleeves of his sweater.

Karl opened up the door more, even though he wanted to slam the door in his face. “Come on in, Wilbur.”

He grimaced and cautiously entered the house. He seemed to be kept to himself, but had no problem walking straight into their living room and grabbing a stack of papers that had been stopped in a drawer under their coffee table.

“Why don’t you sit down? I can get you something to drink. Yea, Water, wine.” Karl tacked on bitterly.

Wilbur gave him a confused and uneasy look. “No thank you. I don’t want to intrude on your afternoon, and I’ve got to go pick my son up from school in less than an hour.”

“No, no. You’re a friend of Quackity’s, and I’m pretty sure the school isn’t far from here.” He insisted, not even sure what his own intent was.

“Isn’t Slime sick? I bet you’re busy.” Wilbur pushed his fake glasses on top of his head and put the real ones on his face, making it his goal to avoid eye contact.

Karl gave a forced smiled and sat down on the loveseat that was adjacent to the longer couch. “You drove all the way out here and gas is too expensive to waste it, yeah?”

He stiffened, but sat down anyways. He skimmed over the stack of paper in his hand.

“Divorce papers?” He asked coldly, hoping he wasn’t the only one feeling fucked over at this point in time.

Wilbur shook his head. “Custody. I got divorced a while ago. Ex-wife just wanted to go through court again I guess.” He let out an awkward laugh that was paired with tense shoulders.

“That sucks.” Karl commented, a sharp inhale following. “So how do you know my fiancé?”

“He is my sons math teacher and then we started talking when we ran into each other at a bar once.”

Karl felt a bit of jealousy at that. Quackity never liked going to bars with him, so why was this guy an exception. “You two go out to bars a lot?”

Wilbur’s eyebrows furrowed. “Not really? We just both happened to be at a bar near the hospital.”

“Y’know,” he looked at his nails, trying to act nonchalant as possible. “Slime told me a lot about you.”

“Like what?” Wilbur was very noticeable tense now.

“Small things. Like how you build legos with him and went places with him and made heart shaped pancakes at breakfast.” He pushed out the last one through gritted teeth.

“I, uh- yeah. I did that? Mhm.”

Karl brought his legs up in his chair, now sitting cris cross on the chair. “It’s kinda like you filled in for me while I was gone, huh? Slime needed that.” He looked up and into Wilbur’s eyes, “and apparently so did Quackity.”

“Yeah.” He stated weakly, frantically searching the walls. “Looks like it’s almost pickup time! Tell Q that I got my stuff and I’ll be out of your hair.” He shot up off the couch and hastily made his way to the door. Cringing a little with each step. “Not that I was in your hair or anyones hair. Not my thing. Did I mention I’m straight? I think that’s important here. Not that it’s important. I’m not homophobic. Your relationship is beautiful. You two are beautiful. Platonically. It’s not like that. you get what I mean. I’ve got to go now. Hope Slime feels better soon!”

Karl though that was weird but didn’t stop him as he left. He’d definitely be talking to Quackity later. This was definitely the reason he’d been acting so strange since he woke up.

Ooohhh Wilbur and Karl confrontation 👀

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You Gotta Lose? Hell, Some Of Us Ain’t Dead Yet by Mary Leary

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0fz3FVBlOE

NRBQ has done so many amazing songs. I never thought much about “Roll Call,” from Tiddlywinks - for one thing, it has a lighter, almost Billy Joel sound that’s more about latter day Terry Adams style than what I think of as the classic Q. Yet just as Adams’ work has grown on me, this track has made its way into my consciousness. The lyrics speak to me more in 2020 than they did when Tiddlywinks was released in 1980, before the D.C.-area music scene had lost Robert Goldstein (Urban Verbs), Kevin MacDonald (brilliant visual artist and scene stalwart who helped me design and layout [The] Infiltrator), Danny Gatton disciple/guitar maverick Evan Johns, bassist Michael Maye from the original H-Bombs, Rick Dreyfuss (Half Japanese/Chumps/Shakemore), Libby Hatch and Michael Mariotte  (Tru Fax and the Insaniacs), Sally Be/Berg - REM/Egoslavia/SHE/Robert Palmer), Nurses member Marc Halpern (heroin, 1982), Lorenzo (Pee- Wee) Jones (Tiny Desk Unit) and hybrid rocker Jim Altman (HIV, 1990s).  Goldstein, Dreyfuss, Maye and MacDonald succumbed to cancer, while Evan Johns’ deterioration followed years of touring, hard drinking and pushing himself past the limit.

(Top to bottom: Tommy Keene, Kevin MacDonald, Susan Mumford)

Those named above have been joined by Tommy Keene (the Rage/the Razz/solo/Paul Westerberg/Matthew Sweet - cardiac arrest at the age of 59; 2017), TDU’s Susan Mumford (cancer, 2018), David Byers (Psychotics/H.R./Bad Brains), and Skip Groff (Yesterday and Today/ Limp Records/Dischord - seizure, 2019).  This is just an imperfect/incomplete naming of D.C.-area losses - I’m sure journalists from other cities could make lists. A horde of New Wave and early alternative musicians have died within the past few years. Whether through the stress of hard living/poverty, substance abuse, cancer or Covid-19, we’re seeing artists pass much earlier than I, anyway, expected them to.

(Top to bottom: Fred "Freak” Smith, Michael Maye with Evan Johns, Tru Fax and the Insaniacs)

We’re already past the loss of all the original Ramones. All the Cramps less Poison Ivy. Joe Strummer. Robert Quine. Hilly Kristal. Lou Reed. As of July, 2020, since 2018 we’ve also lost Andy Gill, Ivan Kral, Genesis P-Orridge, Adam Schlesinger, Danny Mihm, Ric Ocasek, Daniel Johnston, Kim Shattuck, Lorna Doom, Mark Hollis, Keith Flint, Ranking Roger, Mark E. Smith, Glenn Branca, Randy Rampage, Hardy Fox, Pete Shelley, Matthew Seligman, Bill Rieflin, Dave Greenfield, Florian Schneider,  Ian Dury, Benjamin Orr, Kirsty McColl and David Roback.

(Top to bottom: Sally Be/Berg, Ranking Roger, Danny Mihm)

Talking about the deaths of talented, gifted creatives is a helluva way to start a column. But here we are. Older performers don’t always get the attention afforded newer, so the rest of this piece shares and celebrates artists from the original New Wave/punk scenes who are still around and active. Many are from the D.C.-area cornucopia I know best, while others have just come to my attention, or seem especially noteworthy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MED9_XK_JVQ

The Zeros’ Javier Escovedo has been steadily emitting tasty Americana-ish rock while occasionally dropping some Zeros sturm-’n’-drang - most recently with Munster Records single “In The Spotlight” and a track on Burger Records’ Quarantunes compilation. Quarantunes is a seven-album affair featuring 140 alternative/punk performers old and new, all of whom wrote songs between March-April 2020. A cursory listen to Volume 2 reveals the recorded version of a good night at a very wild bar, with Zeros still handily kicking ass of all ages.

https://velvetmonkeys.bandcamp.com/album/legacy-of-success?fbclid=IwAR0lJyS0YDE4e3o7LJiITEtw1lhBWMkUX47Vuag1Lf9fs2QozJJKD1lwkes

Velvet Monkeys/B.A.L.L. player and Sonic Youth/Teenage Fanclub producer Don Fleming reports, “We’ve put out new tracks ‘Theories of Rummanetics’ and ‘Legacy of Success.’ Jay has written a few ‘modules’ and Malcolm and I are having fun doing the music,” adding, “I play some electric six string on the new Rob Moss album - it’s fun to be on, with lots of guitar slingers from the DC daze.”

Yup, Rob Moss of Skin-Tight Skin has solicited contributions from Fleming and from Marshall Keith (Slickee Boys), along with a pile of talent including Stuart Casson (Psychotics/Dove/Meatmen), Franz Stahl (Foo Fighters/Scream), Billy Loosigian (Nervous Eaters, the Boom-Boom Band), Nels Cline (Wilco) and Saul Koll (the guy who made guitars for Henry Kaiser and Lee Ranaldo). The set is called We’ve Come Back To Rock ‘n’ Roll.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdIB8a_0Q4c

Chumps/Workdogs/Jam Messengers player Rob Kennedy apparently has too much energy to throw in the towel - he’s kept recording, performing and making various sorts of lo-fi, DIY mischief that never loses that fresh, ‘70s feeling. Jam Messengers released Night And Day on vinyl in 2017. One of my fave Kennedy tracks, “A Low Down Dirty Shame” speaks to this moment as well as any.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e-CRBEGVLE4

Former Tiny Desk Unit/Fuji’s Navy/Rhoda & the Bad Seeds members Bob Boilen, Kevin Lay, Michael Barron and Bob Harvey have released a new Danger Painters joint, Thank Speak Love This Record. Lay joked, “I have a voice made for Morse Code” before revealing his recent work with Rhoda and the Bad Seeds material, released June 30 as Live at Nightclub 9:30. Boilen continues to introduce artists both vital and obscure via Tiny Desk Concerts and All Songs Considered/NPR.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejQ1GajwfB0

I’ve seen David Arnson play recently and can attest to his proclivity for unfettered growth via Insect Surfers, the instrumental group that originally had some trouble establishing cred. with younger D.C. punks. The Surfers’ most recent release was Living Fossils (2019). Arnson celebrated the band’s 40 years of existence with a European tour in 2019.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5SkIuWIZVkM

Jad Fair says, “Half Japanese will have a new album released in November on Fire Records.” Jad’s art was recently featured at the Hiromart Gallery/Tokyo, while David has created a Facebook page where fans can pick up his colorful images for, well, mere bags o’ shells, as far as we can see -  https://www.facebook.com/David-Fair-Painting-107055447700859/

Despite health issues for several members, Bad Brains has collaborated with Element to make BB themed skate wear https://www.elementbrand.com/mens-collection-bad-brains/ and added some killer live tracks to its YouTube channel.  

Former WGTB programmers John Paige and Steve Lorber have been presenting Rock Continuum on WOWD-LP FM 94.3 since 2017.

Mike Stax continues to give excellent motivation for hunting down a pair of Beatle boots - Munster released the Loons’ 7” EP, A Dream In Jade Green, last year. The latest issue of Ugly Things, said by Stax to be heavily focused on the Pretty Things’ Phil May, was reported in early July to be nearing publication.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6jSc7gEAv0

Razz (the) Documentary will tell the story of how an uncommonly combustible rock band - especially with the Bill Craig/Abaad Behram line-up - helped spread the Flamin’ Groovies gospel while throwing down oddly compelling originals and taking the two-guitar thing up several notches - the producers are purportedly seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Whether anyone can ever recreate the experience of being in an altered state via obsessive, sometimes conversational repetition of certain chords, anchored by Ted Nicely rethinking just what can be done with a bass guitar, given girth by Doug Tull’s intuitive drumming; with Mike Reidy the heat-seeking missile somewhere near the center... well, I doubt it. ‘Cause at this point you’re feeling no pain and it’s not about drinking; there is no room for anything but water - the beer will be knocked over when you’re this busy matching David Arnson’s other-side-of-the-front-line’s leaps into joydum while PCP’d out yahoos from the sticks learn the hard way that hugging Marshall amps can lead to lifelong repercussions. There (in case nothing I want to say about [the] Razz makes it into the film) - I’ve said it.

Discussions among old friends have confirmed that I’m not alone in being happily surprised at this development - we never expected our actions - which led to the hardcore explosion that’s received a lot more attention... would ever make it into any history book. Yet coverage of many of the D.C.-area musicians featured in this piece also comes with Punk The Capitol, A History of D.C. Punk and Hardcore, 1976-1983. Spring 2021 is the projected date for streaming/DVD release.

Ivan Julian came back from a scary 2015 bout with cancer to do a show in New York in 2016. The cancer has returned. Friends have organized a GoFundMe to raise money for surgery and basic needs.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDB_3by-xkI

The Shakemore fest also refuses to fade, promising “eight hours of streaming steaming video” on August 1. Sounds will be provided by R. Stevie Moore, Velvet Monkeys, Tav Falco’s Panther Burns, Half Japanese, Johnny Spampinato, Weird Paul and the Chumps, among many, many others.

Despite having played at CBGB and other alternative venues in 1979, at the height of the New Wave, Gary Wilson’s work is so distinctive, he’s rarely been included with any musical genre other than the oft-vague “experimental” category. Folks were too unmoored by his visceral performances to get behind him. Wilson’s 14th album, Tormented, was released by Cleopatra in February.

Paul Collins recently published a book that he wrote with Chuck Nolan; I Don’t Fit In: My Wild Ride Through the Punk and Power Pop Trenches with the Nerves and the Beat (Hozac Books).

As “Heath,” Michael Layne Heath, a journalist who contributed to (the) Infiltrator and many other ‘zines, published My Week Beats Your Year: Encounters with Lou Reed in May (Hat & Beard Press).

In April, X released its first album in 35 years; Alphabetland.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZ1I-laItPI

As exciting for me as any of the above is Richard Hell with the Heartbreakers’ 2019 release of Yonkers Demo 1976. Hell’s “You Gotta Lose” is one of my picks for best punk/new wave singles of all time. The Heartbreakers version is, predictably, messier than the Robert Quine guitar-spiked classic. Its more excessive charms are growing on me...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48QnsysCN_A

This piece could go on and on - compiling it has been exhausting. The best part has been the response to my social media call for any info I didn’t have re: the D.C.-centric scene I left for New York in 1983. Musicians anxious to keep their compadres’ names alive have hammered that post with 138 comments to date. Urban Verbs percussionist Danny Frankel, who’s played with a colorful spread of artists including Beck, Marianne Faithful, Lou Reed, John Cale and k.d. Lang, made a point of being sure I knew about the passing of Marc Halpern, a source of obvious pain. People were worried I wouldn’t mention John Stabb (Government Issue - 2016), rockabilly player Billy Hancock (2018), Fred “Freak” Smith (Strange Boutique/Beefeater - murdered in Los Angeles, 2017), John Hansen (Slickee Boys - 2010), record store owner/Wasp Records starter/music supporter Bill Asp, Jimmy Barnett of The Killer Bees, and David Byers.

One of the hardest for me to write about is Chris Morse, whose 1984 passing from a drug overdose wrenched so many - I managed to get an obituary into, I think, The New York Rocker (that physical trek was part of a long-ago blur; a very hot day of traipsing over steaming concrete in a narrow-skirted dress to deliver the copy). Chris popped up in my dreams for years - one “visitation” pushed me to write a poem about it in the ‘90s. Morse, who played in Rhoda & The Bad Seeds and worked as a doorman at The Pyramid after moving to NYC in the early ‘80s, was on one of the Urban Verbs’ early flyers. I’m on another.

(Top to bottom: Me in an early Verbs flyer/photo shot at the Atlantis; Chris Morse on another Verbs flyer)

I ended up getting so burnt out on the responsibility of populating this sad roll call, I’ve started a memorial page for them all on Facebook. The nature of truly alternative music is such that many of its lights still fail to fill the pages of major publications. Many of these lights gave a great deal of their lives, if not everything, for the art they believed in. It’s good to remember them, and those heady early days. It’s good to enjoy what we still can.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cA3IfK76mmI

[hilariousandunappreciated]

One of Nature’s Masterpieces Pt.1

Hi, all! I worked really hard on this one so I hope you enjoy it!! Big thank you to @infinitylester for editing, @gracie-the-gay-yeet for helping me with most of the concepts in this, and I’m still using @radical-flaar-queen ‘s method of titling so thank you, dear <3 *author’s note at the end!!* 

ao3 | quotev

Title: One of Nature’s Masterpieces

word count: 2.6k 

warnings: none, except like maybe 2 curse words, it’s v fluffy :)

summary:  Dan has been busy all day. Phil is exhausted. And it’s finally time for bed.

“The family is one of nature’s masterpieces” -George Santayana

9:16pm

    Phil's eyes fluttered open. Without moving his head, he quickly surveyed the shadowed room, head foggy and eyelids lead-heavy. A light still illuminated most of the lounge, puzzle pieces were strewn across the oak floor, legos covered the coffee table, and stuffed animals rested in the corner and at the base of the couch. Wow. Suzie completely exhausted him today. In his attempt at keeping her out of Dan's way while he worked in the office all afternoon, Phil had let her pick whatever game she wanted (provided it was relatively quiet). Phil underestimated just how draining it would be to become a single parent for a day.

    Suzie laid practically sprawled across his chest, feathered breaths tickling his bare arm, head nestled in the crook of his shoulder and clavicle, a tiny hand gripping the front of his red plaid shirt. As tenderly as possible, Phil ran a soft, pale hand down her back and cautiously began sitting up. Suzie’s eyelids shifted and she hummed in question. Phil's baritone voice whispered,

    “Time for bed, sweetheart. Let's get you tucked in.”

Suzie relaxed into Phil's lithe arms as he gathered her delicate frame into him and made his way to her bedroom door. Her silky curls brushed his neck as he hesitated for a moment in front of the office door. He peered in, watching the back of Dan's brunet head and his broad, slumped shoulders as they hunched over the obsidian desk, clearly still in a state of intense concentration. Phil continued, making a mental note to check on Dan as soon as Suzie was in bed. He finally reached the threshold of Suzan’s bedroom, lavender walls homely and inviting. She had stuffed animals and toys everywhere, her five-year-old attention span often moving from one thing to the next with no regard for tidiness. She was a lover of any and all animals, and Dan was usually too easily convinced to say no, so animals of all shapes and sizes were sat next to her bed, in the corner of the room, on the shelf. Phil thought it was a bit much, but he never told Dan or Suzie that. She was too delighted with all of it. They didn’t always spoil her, but sometimes they just couldn’t help it. She was always going to be their baby girl. As cliché as that was, it was true.

    He carried her to the bed pushed against the wall, tossing back the blankets before gently setting her down. Phil made sure to cover Suzie with all the blankets she wanted, tugging at the sheets to pull them up to her chin. He knew she wouldn't sleep without her stuffed dog so he turned to grab it from the end of the mattress, and she eagerly stretched her arms out to receive it, cuddling it as close as possible. Phil kneeled down next to the bed and leaned down to brush her forehead with his lips. She looked so cozy, eyes drooping slightly as she kept a strong grip on her dog. Phil hoped she would fall asleep soon; he desperately needed rest. He moved his hand onto hers and squeezed three times (I love you). She squeezed back four times with her delicate hand (I love you, too).

    “Goodnight, Suzie Q. You know I love you, right?”

She smiled lazily,

     “I know! Goodnight Papa.”

     “Goodnight, sweetheart. Sweet dreams.”

Phil stood, but before he made it to the door he heard her tiny voice,

    “Wait! I want Daddy to read me a story. Please will Daddy read me a story?”

Phil looked down and met her round, sapphire puppy-dog eyes. Dan was most likely exhausted. But he may be able to take some time away. He needed a break anyway.

Phil nodded,

    “I'll see what I can do, Suzie Q.”

He winked at her and she smiled as wide as she could in response.

    Phil made his way back to the office door and knocked softly to get Dan’s attention. Dan turned in the office chair slowly, rubbing his eyes and blinking sleep away.

     In a tender voice Phil asked, “Hey, Dan?”

     “Hmm?” he questioned, tone soft and low.

Phil crossed the room, standing behind Dan and leaning into the back of his chair, hands resting on Dan’s shoulders. He bent down languidly to kiss the top of Dan’s head.

     “Do you think you could take a break, love? Suzie wants you to read to her. It might be good for you to look at something besides a screen.”

     Dan considered shaking his head. He really needed to finish this. Although, he had nearly been dozing off for the past thirty minutes and maybe he should just go to bed soon. He had hardly spent any time with Suzan the entire day. A pang of guilt spread in his abdomen and he tilted his head back to look at Phil and nodded.

     “Sure. I was nearly falling asleep, anyway.”

Dan attempted to smile, but the corners of his mouth hardly lifted. Every motion felt like work at this state of exhaustion. Phil ran his thumbs along the muscles lining Dan’s shoulder blades and added a gentle pressure. Dan easily leaned into the touch, humming contently before tilting his head back once again to glance at Phil. Phil seemed to get the hint and leaned his head down to place a gentle kiss on Dan’s lips. Pulling back sooner than he wanted to, Dan stood reluctantly then, turning to Phil and taking his hand, squeezing three times before letting go and walking down the hall to Suzie’s bedroom.

    As soon as Dan entered, Suzie looked up and her eyes lit up with excitement and expectation.   

    “Hi, Daddy!” she greeted gleefully.

    “Hey, Suze,”  he responded, smiling genuinely for the first time all day.

Dan glanced to her bookshelf, moving a couple toys out of the way before finding what he was looking for. He grinned fondly as he read the simple cover,  Winnie the Pooh, A.A. Milne. He had countless pleasant memories reading the tales of Pooh Bear and his friends when he was much younger and he couldn’t have been more elated that his daughter enjoyed the same stories. 

      Dan lowered himself onto the twin bed, weight dipping the mattress down the center. He settled next to Suzie and his lengthy body barely fit into the space. Book in his right hand, he lifted his left to brush curls away from her forehead.

    “I heard someone wants to be read to,” he began, smile shining through his voice. Suzie snuggled further into the butterfly comforter and answered,

    “Yes! Please, Daddy! I wanna read about Pooh Bear!”

Dan opened the novel then, flipping past a few pages before pointing to the page he wanted.

    “Alright, I suppose I can read for a little while.”

    Suzie cuddled further and further down, content noises muffled by fluffy blankets. Dan read aloud in the clearest voice he could muster,

    “Once upon a time, a very long time ago now, about last Friday, Winnie-the-Pooh lived in a forest all by himself under the name of Sanders…”

He continued reading as animatedly as he could through his fatigued voice. Just a few sentences in, Suzie’s brows crossed and she whined,

    “Daddy, no! You're not doing it right! You have to do the voices!”

Dan rolled his eyes perhaps too dramatically. Some nights he was so tired he wished Suzie would just go to sleep and let him rest. But he looked into her begging eyes then, vibrant as ever, sparkling grey and blue, and knew he was going to have to do all the voices. She was too cute and this moment was too precious. So he read again, this time voice fluctuating and changing for each character: high frequencies and lethargic, low voices along with posh, energetic tones. Suzie just smiled and giggled intermittently, delighted at the superb storytelling. Dan loved to see her so enthusiastic and content. If she was happy, he was happy.

    Phil stood in the master bathroom washing his face when he heard the peculiar voices coming from the room next door. He patted his face dry with a fluffy towel and wandered into the bedroom again, pulling on a pair of warm pajama pants and prudently stepping out of his bedroom to peer into Suzie’s doorway. When he saw Dan recounting the tales of The 100 Acre Wood to a warm, content, and gradually sleepier Suzie, his heart melted.

    When he had first considered having kids with Dan, this was just the sort of thing he could imagine. Bedtime stories, cuddles and kisses and holding tiny hands, Dan being loving and open and caring. He was already all of those things, of course. But being those things as a father was different. Phil had often thought of how wonderful of a dad Dan would become before they even talked about having kids. And now, watching their daughter falling asleep to Dan’s reading voice as Dan leaned down and kissed her head, he realized Dan had become an even better dad than Phil could have imagined.

    Suzie's eyes were finally shut completely and miniature snores escaped from her pink lips. Dan watched her for a minute or two before closing the book quietly and setting it on the shelf next to the bed. He turned around to find Phil staring, shoulder pressing into the door frame, eyes shining and a smile playing at his lips. He didn't expect Phil to be there, jumping a little before clutching his shirt and harshly whispering,

    “Jesus, Phil! You scared me!” He stood to meet Phil, leaving less than a foot between them.

    “How long have you been standing there?!”

Phil just smiled slowly, eyes trained on Dan's face as he responded,

    “Just a few minutes. It was sweet.”

Dan opened his mouth to retort, but was immediately caught off guard by Phil gripping his hand and lacing his long fingers into Dan’s, diminishing his thoughts with a gentle kiss to his slightly ajar mouth. How it was that he could still distract him so easily after years of marriage was a complete mystery to Dan.  He sank his weight into Phil’s sturdy frame and Phil leaned back slightly to speak,

    “C’mon. Time for you to get tucked in now”

Dan pulled away and rolled his eyes a little and Phil just smirked back at him. Still firmly holding Dan’s hand, Phil dragged Dan next door into their bedroom. They undressed in comfortable silence, Phil sliding his pajama bottoms off and crawling into bed as Dan tugged his shirt off and shrugged his jeans down and off of his tall legs.

    Dan sighed as he settled into the mattress, rubbing his bloodshot eyes and turning his weary frame to Phil who had already nestled under the inviting covers and was facing him. As his head sunk into the feathery pillow he muttered,

    “Thank you for watching Suzie today.”

Phil pecked Dan's temple,

    “Anything for you, dear,” a teasing tone bubbling from his voice.

Dan wrinkled his nose and shook his head, feigning disgust,

    “Okay, that was just gross.”

Phil laughed then, head fully tilting back and tongue teasing the back of his teeth, crows feet peeking from the corners of his eyes.

Dan laughed in response. He couldn't help it. Phil was contagious. The sound reverberated through the room and as their giggles died down Dan attempted to shush Phil so as not to wake up a dozing Suzie on the other side of the wall. Then silence swallowed the room. Phil was still grinning, eyes practically boring into Dan’s, unspoken affection filling what limited space they had between them. Phil relaxed then, sighing nearly inaudibly as he shuffled closer.

    Phil suddenly leaned in, their noses nearly touching, and the traces of an oncoming smile lurked in his eyes and at the corners of his soft lips. Dan just stared back at him, too exhausted to do anything and eagerly waiting to see what his husband was planning on doing. Phil reached his index finger up to Dan’s face, smiling, then as lightly as possible, traced his finger down Dan's nose, feeling the warm skin beneath his fingertip, eyes examining the freckles that were only visible when they were this close. Dan’s cheeks instantly flushed and a smile tugged at his lips. Phil was so strange sometimes. Before he could finish his thoughts, he felt a pair of supple lips on the tip of his nose, then his forehead, then his cheek. His smile broadened. How was Phil so damn cute and endearing after all these years? Oh well; he wasn't complaining.

    Phil released a feathery breath and finally leaned in to press a sweet kiss to Dan's lips. They smiled against each other at the silliness of it all, still getting butterflies and still blushing when they were this intimate. Dan snaked his hand behind Phil's neck, fingers brushing the short black hairs at the nape, pulling him closer and kissing him deeper. For a minute they both got lost in this exhausted, foggy state of mind, kissing lazily while cuddled in bed.

    Phil finally pulled back a little, once again searching Dan's face, eyes tracing the slope of his nose, the freckles dusting the bridge, his captivating, rich eyes. He was the luckiest man alive.

    “I love you,” he mumbled, breath tickling Dan's lips.

    “I love you, too,” he whispered back, enclosing his arms around Phil's waist, squeezing gently and pressing their lips together once again, only this time Dan pushed intensely and passionately.

Phil hummed with a low rumble in his voice and leaned all the weight he could into Dan, sliding a chilled hand along his torso.

“Suzie’s fast asleep,” he whispered against Dan's lips in a dark voice, then adding, “We could...” He trailed off, leaving it to Dan to make assumptions about what he was implying.

Dan wanted to, he really did, but at the same time his eyelids were growing heavy and it was becoming strenuous to keep them open at all. Besides, there was always morning.

    “Mmm actually,” Dan laid a broad hand on Phil's chest, “I'm so fucking tired. I don't think I have the energy.”

Phil just nodded gently. Of course, he didn't mind, it was just a passing thought. He didn't care what they did as long as they could do it together. He was exhausted as well.

Dan spoke in a hushed tone,

    “Just hold me, I'm about to pass out,” a chuckled breath let out as he said it, clearly aware of how ridiculous he could sound sometimes.

    Phil never responded, instead just used his pale, toned arms to hug Dan as close as possible, his head resting on Phil's chest, hair tangled and eyes fluttering shut as his breathing gradually slowed. Phil kissed his dark curls and shut his eyes soon after, allowing Dan's warmth to overwhelm him and immerse him into a satisfying slumber.

    The morning was anything but satisfying. A sharp ring startled Dan awake. He fumbled around for his phone, eyes still half shut and groaning in disgust and annoyance. It was Friday morning and confusion wracked his brain. He never set an alarm for Friday. So why was his phone going off? His hand finally made contact with the source of his confusion and he brought the blinding screen to his face, squinting before seeing that it was actually a phone call. Who the hell would be calling him now? He took a second more to comprehend the caller ID. His stomach sank. It was from the adoption agency. They hadn’t called in years. What was so important at nine in the morning on a Friday? He answered before his thoughts would distract him and he would miss the call.

    “Hello?” his voice squeaked.

A serious female voice responded,

     “Good morning, is this Daniel Howell-Lester, legal guardian of Suzan Marie Howell-Lester?”

Dan cleared his throat to recover.

    “Yes, this is him,” and then, tentatively,

     “Is there something wrong?”

A/N: Hopefully you enjoyed that!! How about that cheeky little cliff hanger ;)  Pt. 2 should be out next week! I’ll make sure to update you :) Let me know what you thought of this!! <333

[buddaimond]

By Phil de Semlyen. on November 10 2017                                      

Q&A (Rob’s quotes in bold)

Q: The film’s directed by the Safdie brothers. I heard you spotted a picture from one of their other films online and basically cold-called them, then they wrote this film for you. Is that true?

‘It’s weird, Josh [Safdie] talked about this earlier: “I looked at the photo you were talking about and it was just a photo of an actress’s face!” It was from their film “Heaven Knows What” and I just had this feeling about it, so I sent them a couple of emails saying I was down to do anything.’

‘Good Time’ is set in a very specific New York world. Did you dive deep into that?

‘I spent a whole day in character. I’d never done anything like that before. Benny [Safdie, who plays his brother] and I spent a day in Yonkers, hanging out in Dunkin’ Donuts and meeting people he knew. We went to a couple of prisons too.’

Were there any ‘Twilight’ fans among the inmates?

‘There was one. We’d been there for five or six hours and no one had any idea who I was, but as we were leaving via this elevator full of inmates, 
I could feel this guy staring at me. I went, “What?” and he just looks at me and goes, [puts on a broad Queens accent] “Fuckin’ ‘Twilight’!” [laughs]. Suddenly everyone in this elevator is staring at me. I’m literally going: “I don’t know what he’s talking about.” It was terrifying.’

There must have been some weird on-set moments, too. There’s a scene where a dye pack explodes in your car, for instance.

‘I had really bad bronchitis – it was freezing in New York at the time – and I basically breathed in an enormous amount of red paint. What I was spitting out for about three weeks afterwards was just insane.’

The feel of the film reminds me of those ’70s classics like ‘The French Connection’ – filming out on the city streets but not necessarily with all the relevant paperwork…

‘We filmed a robbery scene but we didn’t have permission to shoot outside the bank, only inside. We had masks on and there were cops everywhere. It looked like we were actually robbing a bank. I sent Josh this video a few days ago of a guy who’d been filming a scene like the one in “Good Time” and the police had shot at him.’

What made you want to get into acting in the first place?

‘I joined this little amateur theatre company in Barnes, I think specifically because I fancied this girl. I’d had no interest in acting until then but one audition broke the seal. It was so scary: I hadn’t sung, danced or acted in front of anyone, and suddenly I was doing all three in this audition for “Guys and Dolls”. I wanted the Frank Sinatra part. I think I got cast as a Cuban dancer [laughs].’

Was that a formative experience?

‘A lot of people there took it extraordinarily seriously and I wasn’t really accepted into that group, so that was massively formative. [Puts on petulant voice] “I’m a fucking outsider!” I went to America before quite a few of my peers for the same reason: I didn’t feel like I fitted in with the English theatre crowd. Also, I got fired from a play and got pissed off with everybody.’

Your career kicked off with two huge franchises, ‘Harry Potter’ and ‘Twilight’, but you haven’t gone back down the blockbuster route. If there was a part in, say, ‘Star Wars’, would you take it?

‘Sure, yes. I love those movies and everyone wants those parts. I feel like it’s quite a helpful thing for a career to be consistent. If you go: I’m going to do something really crazy, but then do something really conservative, I don’t think it really works. It’s taken a long time but now people are going, “Oh, you do quite oddball things.”’

Has your relationship with ‘Twilight’ changed 
over the years?

‘I mean, kind of. I feel like I’ve always had the 
same answer. It was fun and it’s not like I signed up on an eight-picture deal, I knew it was finite. 
I had to be 17, there were only four books and there weren’t going to be any more. The only time it felt negative was when people were waiting outside my house a few years ago.’

Do you still get ‘R-Patz’ shouted at you?

‘That’s the one thing: why some people end up with a moniker and some don’t. It’s really unfair that I ended up with a moniker [laughs].’

‘Harry Potter and the Cursed Child’ is on at the moment in London. Have you seen it?

‘I haven’t yet, but I really want to. It is strange for me because that feels like a lifetime ago.’

Your old character plays a big part in it. 
Do you feel at all possessive of Cedric Diggory?

‘Not really. Even with “Twilight”, I’d be curious if someone else played it. It was so nice to be a part of it. That, more than anything, changed my life. It’s the reason I didn’t go to university.’

‘Harry Potter’ stopped you from going to uni?

‘It went so far over schedule, I couldn’t go. It was supposed to be four months, but it ended up being ten or 11. I’d turn up to set every day but not work for weeks at a time [because he wasn’t needed for filming]. I was 17 and I was the only person who wasn’t in school. I’d just hang about.’

Does London still feel like home to you?

‘I split my time between here and LA, but London is still my favourite city. I don’t think I could stay in the same place for more than six months, though. I don’t have any nesting instinct.’

Can you walk around town easily?

‘I’m always walking around everywhere – although I walk like a maniac. I cycle everywhere in London, which I really miss when I’m in LA.’

What are your cultural haunts?

‘I’m completely out of touch, it’s terrible. I used to get so panicky in public areas, and I’m only just starting to get over it. I went to Tate Modern for the first time three months ago – the Giacometti exhibition, which was incredible.

Do you find it hard to take holidays?

‘That’s the other weird thing about acting: you’re constantly worried about being unemployed.’

Hollywood knows how to throw a party. 
Do you enjoy that side of the job?

‘It’s fun. Performers get nervous about people seeing their true selves, so they either hide away or perform at all times. It’s fascinating to go to a party with people who’ve all decided to be “on”. The Met Ball… oh my God! Everything is dialled up to 15.’

Doesn’t part of you fancy sitting in the corner 
and having a quiet pint?

‘You just have to commit to it. That one's tough, though.’

‘Good Time’ has got some Oscar buzz, so there may be a few more big bashes ahead…

‘Even when we were doing this movie, I had no idea what was going to happen with it – it was so tiny. It’s been one of the craziest journeys.’

[isa-ghost]

q!phil and q!pac hcs peepoShy :3

YESSS I really need to watch more Pac, translator be damned. >:0

qPhil headcanons masterlist

Pac is, like many others, in the I Want Phil To Take Me On A Flight club. He thinks it's so fucking cool

He doesn't have the ability to clock Phil as well as Fit can. But Fit confides in him on a lot, esp to do with things he's worried about, so Pac actually knows some of Phil's "something is wrong" tells, even if they're the more obvious ones.

And then he promptly goes to Fit like "Phil needs an emotional support ass kicking 👍🏻"

Phil is the #2 Fitpac shipper (Ramon is #1). And Phil knows Fit intimately in many ways. He passes All his secrets onto Pac gladly. He's like "go get him m8. Give him Brazilian Boyfriend Brainrot"

You'd think there'd be a little jealousy or something because of the fact that Phil has been With Fit consistently prior to him and Pac dating, but nah. They love conspiring against him together and Fit knows they do. Also Phil backed off right away when they got serious, so Pac knows everything's chill

Phil can Tell there's more to Pac than meets the eye. This is Mike's best friend. Survivor of Cellbit cannibalism. Known for having a danger boner for fucked up dudes. Pac seems super nice and well-mannered at first glance but Phil can TELL he saves the true extent of how unhinged he can be for the people closest to him. He wants to see Pac go apeshit someday.

I really really want to see these two allied in a fight bc I genuinely don't know what they'd be like. Just the two of them, or at least paired up while whoever else they're teamed with is paired up elsewhere. But something tells me Pac has a side that would get along Very well with the Angel of Death,,,,

Pac is one of the people Phil considers closest to himself. There's nothing he won't do for him and anything he needs, Phil will bend over backwards to get it if that's what Pac wants.

Phil loves being a test monkey for Tazercraft fuckery. It's always so weird and fun. Occasionally he'll ask Pac if they have any new wild or silly shit for him to see.

Tbh I wouldn't put it past Pac (& perhaps Mike) to be extremely interested in hybrids and asking Phil a million questions about it

Phil can NOT talk shit abt the danger boner btw. Motherfucker's type is literally "death entity." A Goddess of Death and a grim reaper holding either of his hands. Bitch can't say ANYTHING. (I want these two to talk abt their types I think it would be extremely funny)

Pac knows very little about Phil getting possessed, but he DOES know something happened to him. Fit kept things extremely vague out of respect for Phil.

Phil may be the #2 Fitpac shipper, but he'd be lying if he said he didn't envy that they get to see each other often. But Phil is Phil, so instead of getting weird about it, he just commits to doing whatever he can to support them. At least there's one happy healthy mlm couple on the island.

Btw if Pac came to Phil about whatever the fuck is going on with Fit and his past, Phil's ready to kill a bitch with Pac immediately, and he'd let Pac do most of the actual ass kicking as he deserves. (oooo the ccs want to give me this soooo baadddd)

Controversial (/silly) take: Phil and Pac are both slutty, bubbly drunks.

[airoasis]

The 1 Bitcoin Show- Peter Schiff 60 minutes conspiracy theory, Bank bans, Future of BSV, Q&A

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The 1 Bitcoin Show- Peter Schiff 60 minutes conspiracy theory, Bank bans, Future of BSV, Q&A

Hiya every body ah this is adam meister the bitcoinmeister the disrupt meister welcome to the one bitcoin exhibit at present is may the 23rd 2019 robust hand offended via selling be a targeted beast worth your wealth and bitcoin uncompensated all private duties new counterculture conviction and in these days is all about conviction YouTube Google was once giving me all varieties of issues however we getting this exhibit off reside baby a new show here day-to-day even when it goes entirely wack on the YouTube facet pound that like button all you guys have been ready the chat this one’s for you brothers and sisters and yeah I will probably be speakme in long beach at 7 p.M.And that is at about 7 hours getting picked up for it II quickly I gotta take a bathe earlier than then i am getting i’m pumped to talk to all of the humans down in lengthy seaside and hang around with some cool dudes as i’m really energized correct now’s I I was once now not definite this show was gonna get off that you could ask questions I have no idea if we’re gonna have time for questions form in bitcoinmeister in there i do know this chat my god you guys have been yelping it up on this chat I don’t know if folks already asked questions ok good let’s simply get it let’s get into the show adequate sorry this is simply mighty the exhibit even bought the following day at noon japanese Time at midday Baltimore time this week in Bitcoin Alex can be on from lolly and be be gold Edie will likely be on and cash Triggs will probably be on and very well let’s begin with simply pound that like button each girl need to be alive i’ll inform you that so Michael malice used to be on the Dave Rubin show recently I imply like two days ago I watched it and he is talking and that is some thing i have brought up in many instances how these figures in social media and YouTube are warning everybody they are just like the banks are already banning individuals PayPal is already banning persons then Michael malice is lovely calm about this he wasn’t to do about he he used to be just like good there will probably be competitors to the banks in order to take skills of those bannings and the whole lot will likely be first-rate and they will provide you with the solution well let me inform you some thing Michael malice you did not mention Bitcoin at least partially one the solution is already right here the answer is Bitcoin so so every body before all of your fellow 20 percenters percenters work out this predicament that banks will ban persons PayPal is banning folks okay earlier than every person else figures out this difficulty and it can be handiest gonna be 20 percenters you figure it out i don’t believe 80% of may also comprehend this however few realize this I imply there are such a large amount of sensible individuals staying low is the what are we to do what are we to do you get the coin earlier than every body figures out that we have already got a solution to the financial institution bans we have already got a solution so do not go up in arms do not go loopy don’t go doom don’t think the arena is about to end it can be fine you will have obtained huge coin which you can installed your entire system any means you want it with Bitcoin with a purpose to create content material and earn and and so forth etc and have your own bank account precisely be your possess mattress you do not want these banks at all correct now if you are in Bitcoin okay so yeah all of them ban you satisfactory you’ve gotten bought Bitcoin my glory that you would be able to travel far and wide on the planet with it relocating on this is a tweet from Mike boo Sela it’s concerning the CME staff i am who i am hoping known as no longer skipping whatever right here can’t false CME crew quantity see any Bitcoin future stats many strongest month ever q2 adv 164 percentage better than q1 over 2500 accounts have traded Bitcoin futures that’s just right news and on that Institute and that i I imply this is whatever we knew was gonna occur of direction it’s going to this eme the long run is all that nonsense and i’ll i would not ever participate in increasingly folks had been collaborating in it but right here we go from to Shar Jane he says all the colossal OTC desks appear to be having pink volumes to that is amazingly bullish for the enterprise clear signs of institutional money getting into the distance so yeah these are two clear indicators proper there now hey everyone knows what’s gonna happen that we that it’ll occur that uh institutional money is getting into the space generally purchasing Bitcoin as gbtc folks stated that the merchandise that they that almost all people are fascinated about our big coin even though Barry Silbert has all types of different product tasks so whilst you say the space most of these people are pondering Bitcoin when they’re speaking an institutional funding now of course they they out they will die they are going to diversify for the sake of diversification ultimately which I something that’s if they wish to mess with with that then they could try this in view that they don’t recognize that bitcoin is the subsequent Bitcoin one Bitcoin equals one Bitcoin do not follow on all coins now so with thinking of the future of institutional investors coming in and usual traders coming in persons who are used to looking at enterprises and looking at their CEOs and seeing if there is an argument if they’re run safely it’s taking the account I mean that’s how common economic firms are judged spike via very sounds back how sound is that this school how sound is this manufacturer how sound is this product good let’s suppose about bsv for a second consider about tuition a natural totally wealthy institution they usually’re they’re inspecting bsv or a tricked-out or warren buffett if he is watching at the I Warren Buffett sort of character looking watching at the SV they are gonna appear at who’s in cost okay so I mean feel rationally here people I particularly want you to think about the future of BS V when some humans that they make colossal claims about it or they are involved about it or something that’s gonna do anything to Bitcoin suppose about suppose about when when someone appears at that trouble national man or woman how can any rational institution that listens to some thing that comes out of that outfit are not able to even recall shopping that ok day to begin with it going beyond the fake Toshi stuff the other spokesperson is a guy who made all his cash in an unregulated gambling k so traditional associations are they gonna need to have whatever to do apart from disregard concerning the sociopath part of it with the man unregulated playing and lives within the Caribbean okay that’s now not some thing that usual traders in most cases get into k that enormous associations need to be part of so easily put the persons that are buying bsv are crypto children or crypto men and women are on this space are persons who like oh yeah certain he would say something you wish to have and certain he can say some thing he wants to say but there are expenditures to it k and there suppose logically humans consider like a grown-up or any tuition is gonna wish to touch that and all are it any and then feel in regards to the university money that is flowing into the distance in the Bitcoin and as a way to be trickled into some of the high-tier altcoins they are going to look at a few of these top-tier they are going to seem on the theorem particularly we will be able to get the fellow in charge there he is a genius so you know and he would not I imply there may be there isn’t any cursing and screaming and drama and claims and fits and this mat and the other um and he’s okay you know he is long past the fellow accountable for aetherium is is you understand the figurehead behind it here he’s gonna add his option to be friendly with the tuition’s he is very latest he believes in whatever that when radical markets all these commute to all these things which can be so he’s so good for the atmosphere in cetera cetera so again just just giving you guys a little style at some point for you uh so I mean you must feel like an tuition in the case of to that at least do not be a crypto kitty and say well oh maybe probably that’s a out hazard one way or the other gamble over there it is you die you’re welcome Bitcoin learned like button so that there is my take I mean take a couple of secs again when when you hear this bsv stuff and relatively feel after which think in regards to the institutional money that’s coming within the cryptocurrency and see how they fairly do not they’re not going within the identical direction okay so uh this is a funny tweet from jeet he video of the famous track video video killed the radio star video killed the radio began then jeeps line is bitcoin killed the real-estate artwork and liquid investment celebrity i admire that and gold famous person how about that there is my addition to that that’s fascinated by gold peter ship has a new video that is out and on the 40-minute mark or the forty five-minute mark and it towards the top here forty minute mark he started heat one factor that he says he talks about this he starts to speak in regards to the sixty minutes show about bitcoin and he talks about how he had a debate a gold versus bitcoin debate in all this and he has some intriguing world phrase he says nations will buy gold in instruction of a greenback give way and once more this is the same factor that individuals like peter schiff have been announcing considering 1981 i mean which you can go watch doug casey in 1981 on the Phil Donahue exhibit announcing announcing these matters that your country nations are gonna purchase gold and all set into da greenback cave in this buck crumple that’s in nineteen eighty one style of stuff right here but anyway shift still says it and men and women nonetheless buy into it and that i say it’s less difficult for the crucial bank’s to purchase Bitcoin or to make their possess cryptocurrency in fact instead of purchasing gold and he says important financial institution’s will under no circumstances purchase Bitcoin okay those are worse to consider he in reality says these phrases that principal banks will under no circumstances purchase Bitcoin and we in the Bitcoin we just dreamed that k um however once more he thinks the central banks that they they’re gonna buy gold they may be gonna purchase they may be gonna that is that’s the course they will go in to prepare for the battle they the legendary financial type from 1981 that is what he thinks they’re gonna buy he doesn’t consider you already know that he does not consider it is easy it’s simply simple for primary Bucks to purchase to purchase Bitcoin or to even create their possess crypto over buying gold ok so um that that is missing so he felt the 60 Minutes had the giant folks within the area on which is hilarious if he thinks charlie SRAM is a gigantic person or that indian girl is a enormous PerR he says it used to be so biased for bitcoin and at the 45 minute mark he quite starts analyzing this 60 minute hindrance to a point where it can be like a conspiracy theory he comes up with a 60 Minutes conspiracy conception for bitcoin he’s like all of the insiders knew this was once gonna happen so that’s why the pump the fee pumped and yeah pizza man was once interviewed on their it pizza guys one of the significant big avid gamers within the Bitcoin house i want the he is coming up he’s he is very desperate you understand the the reasons that he comes up with commencing on the 45 minute mark it sets on a targeted level it is sad considering that it’s seeing that he comes up with a conspiracy theories about 60 minutes why bitcoin was on 60 minutes and he says the piece was very very confident it used to be a very confident for those who could not ask for any significant coin persons could not ask for something more it can be ridiculous once more my grandmother watched it show she was scared when she was once she’s due to the fact that I mean they’re bringing out medications they’re citing all these matters that scare normies ok so i wouldn’t say it was once tremendous pop I wasn’t tremendous optimistic but that’s besides the factor watch on the go watch Peter cooks video at the forty five minute mark and notice that if he relatively does provide you with in actual fact a conspiracy thought about 60 minutes and Bitcoin now again I I convey this up I mean simply to show you uh that with the historical-university appear with that variety of golden holder he’s acquired some conviction that he’s developing with some wild and wacky stuff there however we should recall that he says that uh he says vital financial institution’s will under no circumstances purchase a large coin k he says that I say it they will they’ll they’re going to Penny Ling that however again I brought this up typically that was once one of the inspirational ideas that Vinnie came up with that encouraged me to get more Bitcoin and whilst you believe of it it makes sense there are quite a few central banks or there are lot of crucial banks to give an explanation for there are numerous international locations on this planet ok that had matters just like critical banks that they that they may be low leading international locations they may be gonna recognize eventually you recognize that is anything to prop us up just a little all correct panel edit button Oh God Almighty i’m so completely satisfied to exhibit his lifestyles here is a tweet from Jay from Kyle bass he has a piece of writing called quiet panic in Hong Kong at present i’m releasing air views on the monetary political and legal plight of Hong Kong I think buyers that have belongings invested there should immediately move them to united states of americaDollars before it can be too late now i am now not saying that i have bringing that up on the grounds that quite high panic the chinese are there a cost of Hong Kong but they’ve had a fingers-off approach however it’s getting more and more and more arms-on so folks who want to guard themselves they’re he’s saying you realize getting to the buck you liquefy your property there before the chinese take your belongings i assume is what he is saying I say they may be gonna peep they are going to be men and women who understand there is a quiet panic in Hong Kong and they’re not gonna purchase US dollar they’re gonna get in the Bitcoin so this if this and i do not need to sit down in a main issue in Hana kinda worsen i need the chinese language to have a fingers-off procedure i’ve been to Hong Kong before they it is it is rocking over there they’ve bought various good matters he it is it used to be big the chinese language didn’t construct that Hong Kong Kane was once underneath below British rule but he did that he succeeded and underneath underneath the Western manner of trade and free markets etcetera etcetera so i am adding love to look it continue that method but if if the chinese get more difficult their force you recognize have a strong hand and begin squeezing Hong Kong then yeah it’ll be just right for Bitcoin it this is just and matters like this this is what in other international locations that identical matters can occur govt becomes extra tyrannical folks are going to silently panic into Bitcoin so I I did I again some individuals will purchase it you liquefy their belongings into you the us bucks they are able to try this if they want to but it possibly less difficult for the k the in that a part of the world they recognize that Bitcoin they without doubt learn about Bitcoin all proper I keep in mind go to disrupt meister calm you could watch 1300 of my over 1300 my shows there the day prior to this after I used to be speaking about the bitcoin having I forgot to say the famous Chris Gilliard line the biggest supply shock within the history of monetary markets BAM i am pumped about that it can be in a year it’s going to it will be in a yr the most important provide shock in the historical past of monetary markets all correct relocating on coin desk article and the only purpose i am bringing it up is due to the fact that it’s it says that you could now make investments that is Robin Hood currently that you would be able to put money into seven cryptocurrencies on Robin Hood crypto Bitcoin be cash be SV a concept of a theorem classic litecoin and dogecoin which you can additionally track price movements and news from 10 additional crypto currencies once more how huge of a participant in the house is is Robin Hood I have no idea they they’ll have some say in what’s a top to your all coin again they acknowledged one of the ones we’re already aware of Bitcoin P cashed aetherium a fair in traditional like coin so dogecoin most folks do not feel that’s and of direction bsv they are evidently including due to the fact good it used to be convenient to include i guess they’re not good they be aware of that the crypto kids are going to use the 19 year olds are gonna use their app to buy so it why no longer promote something that’s wholly insane like bsv once more they are now not they’re not like an tuition now some of the giant institutions or something like that but once more whats up so that is a whats up i am gonna say that i’m gonna i am gonna say it find it irresistible is that may be a confident for bsv if if an app like this desires to include it too in view that they believe they can become profitable off of it to signal it to the crypto kitties then yeah that does raise bsv a little bit but no then is not it BSP isn’t any prime to your offline i’ll let you know but they are able to they may be able to grep that’s an exact real factor if the BSP people you realize they may be into proceedings and all these things as an alternative of that they must drop it and say you know what Eddie we’re cool these are Robin Hood individuals are clearly carrying us you understand that’s simply an actual constructive factor for them however they they are now not too much into that they are into tons of wild and wacky experiences over there within the BSP lamp but anyway Robin Hood yeah you’re doing all of your part to variety of try to solidify what a prime-tier all coin is moot and eventually us store this for the future what is that this Adam oh oh no that is me telling myself to inform all you guys that this Matt Odell tweet he is a it is a very it is a just right definition a Bitcoin if you want to inform your you’re beginner associates what bitcoin is is and he says bitcoin is a new form of cash that is digital and unbiased of world governments or businesses it is hard to seize block or inflate and easy to send all over the world it is the exceptional cash we now have ever had as extra people appreciate this the cost will have to upward thrust in order that was an extraordinarily high-quality to the factor definition that everyone can understand no hard terminologies in there and that i believe that is whatever you should share with your newby newby associates and neighbors if you happen to ever need in the event that they ever requested you what bitcoin is okay well i am checking the chat correct now see if there were any questions excellent i’m pleased no person requested me any questions considering as which you can tell i am i am relatively in a rush now however I bought a gigantic smile on my face due to the fact that I did have that conviction at present and i knew I you i would get to show off Google and YouTube bag you guys you guys will also be so wacky sometimes with how matters work and the way they don’t work well again hopefully day after today at midday jap Time which you could all flip in and there can be no technical difficulties when I’m seeking to get three other guys online with me so i am also going over my notes correct right here as I talk to you to ensure i didn’t fail to remember whatever and i did not so i’ll see a few of you and beach in seven hours i am adam meister the bitcoinmeister the disrupt meister don’t forget to subscribe this channel like this video share this video investigate out the links beneath bang that bow button and you can see the giant smile on my face that is what existence is about men and women stay in optimistic figuring out that you realize should you preserve attempting you’re going to get that show off and whoa and lifestyles goes on someone simply asked me where do you see yourself in five years I still do journey round it’s visiting around i don’t see myself to settle down I see myself nonetheless making these shows nonetheless making these suggests and rather interested by the 2024 happening that is proper that’s where I see myself in 5 years all right all right i’ll see you guys tomorrow and some of you tonight bye bye

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The 1 Bitcoin Show- Peter Schiff 60 minutes conspiracy theory, Bank bans, Future of BSV, Q&A

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The 1 Bitcoin Show- Peter Schiff 60 minutes conspiracy theory, Bank bans, Future of BSV, Q&A

Hiya every body ah this is adam meister the bitcoinmeister the disrupt meister welcome to the one bitcoin exhibit at present is may the 23rd 2019 robust hand offended via selling be a targeted beast worth your wealth and bitcoin uncompensated all private duties new counterculture conviction and in these days is all about conviction YouTube Google was once giving me all varieties of issues however we getting this exhibit off reside baby a new show here day-to-day even when it goes entirely wack on the YouTube facet pound that like button all you guys have been ready the chat this one’s for you brothers and sisters and yeah I will probably be speakme in long beach at 7 p.M.And that is at about 7 hours getting picked up for it II quickly I gotta take a bathe earlier than then i am getting i’m pumped to talk to all of the humans down in lengthy seaside and hang around with some cool dudes as i’m really energized correct now’s I I was once now not definite this show was gonna get off that you could ask questions I have no idea if we’re gonna have time for questions form in bitcoinmeister in there i do know this chat my god you guys have been yelping it up on this chat I don’t know if folks already asked questions ok good let’s simply get it let’s get into the show adequate sorry this is simply mighty the exhibit even bought the following day at noon japanese Time at midday Baltimore time this week in Bitcoin Alex can be on from lolly and be be gold Edie will likely be on and cash Triggs will probably be on and very well let’s begin with simply pound that like button each girl need to be alive i’ll inform you that so Michael malice used to be on the Dave Rubin show recently I imply like two days ago I watched it and he is talking and that is some thing i have brought up in many instances how these figures in social media and YouTube are warning everybody they are just like the banks are already banning individuals PayPal is already banning persons then Michael malice is lovely calm about this he wasn’t to do about he he used to be just like good there will probably be competitors to the banks in order to take skills of those bannings and the whole lot will likely be first-rate and they will provide you with the solution well let me inform you some thing Michael malice you did not mention Bitcoin at least partially one the solution is already right here the answer is Bitcoin so so every body before all of your fellow 20 percenters percenters work out this predicament that banks will ban persons PayPal is banning folks okay earlier than every person else figures out this difficulty and it can be handiest gonna be 20 percenters you figure it out i don’t believe 80% of may also comprehend this however few realize this I imply there are such a large amount of sensible individuals staying low is the what are we to do what are we to do you get the coin earlier than every body figures out that we have already got a solution to the financial institution bans we have already got a solution so do not go up in arms do not go loopy don’t go doom don’t think the arena is about to end it can be fine you will have obtained huge coin which you can installed your entire system any means you want it with Bitcoin with a purpose to create content material and earn and and so forth etc and have your own bank account precisely be your possess mattress you do not want these banks at all correct now if you are in Bitcoin okay so yeah all of them ban you satisfactory you’ve gotten bought Bitcoin my glory that you would be able to travel far and wide on the planet with it relocating on this is a tweet from Mike boo Sela it’s concerning the CME staff i am who i am hoping known as no longer skipping whatever right here can’t false CME crew quantity see any Bitcoin future stats many strongest month ever q2 adv 164 percentage better than q1 over 2500 accounts have traded Bitcoin futures that’s just right news and on that Institute and that i I imply this is whatever we knew was gonna occur of direction it’s going to this eme the long run is all that nonsense and i’ll i would not ever participate in increasingly folks had been collaborating in it but right here we go from to Shar Jane he says all the colossal OTC desks appear to be having pink volumes to that is amazingly bullish for the enterprise clear signs of institutional money getting into the distance so yeah these are two clear indicators proper there now hey everyone knows what’s gonna happen that we that it’ll occur that uh institutional money is getting into the space generally purchasing Bitcoin as gbtc folks stated that the merchandise that they that almost all people are fascinated about our big coin even though Barry Silbert has all types of different product tasks so whilst you say the space most of these people are pondering Bitcoin when they’re speaking an institutional funding now of course they they out they will die they are going to diversify for the sake of diversification ultimately which I something that’s if they wish to mess with with that then they could try this in view that they don’t recognize that bitcoin is the subsequent Bitcoin one Bitcoin equals one Bitcoin do not follow on all coins now so with thinking of the future of institutional investors coming in and usual traders coming in persons who are used to looking at enterprises and looking at their CEOs and seeing if there is an argument if they’re run safely it’s taking the account I mean that’s how common economic firms are judged spike via very sounds back how sound is that this school how sound is this manufacturer how sound is this product good let’s suppose about bsv for a second consider about tuition a natural totally wealthy institution they usually’re they’re inspecting bsv or a tricked-out or warren buffett if he is watching at the I Warren Buffett sort of character looking watching at the SV they are gonna appear at who’s in cost okay so I mean feel rationally here people I particularly want you to think about the future of BS V when some humans that they make colossal claims about it or they are involved about it or something that’s gonna do anything to Bitcoin suppose about suppose about when when someone appears at that trouble national man or woman how can any rational institution that listens to some thing that comes out of that outfit are not able to even recall shopping that ok day to begin with it going beyond the fake Toshi stuff the other spokesperson is a guy who made all his cash in an unregulated gambling k so traditional associations are they gonna need to have whatever to do apart from disregard concerning the sociopath part of it with the man unregulated playing and lives within the Caribbean okay that’s now not some thing that usual traders in most cases get into k that enormous associations need to be part of so easily put the persons that are buying bsv are crypto children or crypto men and women are on this space are persons who like oh yeah certain he would say something you wish to have and certain he can say some thing he wants to say but there are expenditures to it k and there suppose logically humans consider like a grown-up or any tuition is gonna wish to touch that and all are it any and then feel in regards to the university money that is flowing into the distance in the Bitcoin and as a way to be trickled into some of the high-tier altcoins they are going to look at a few of these top-tier they are going to seem on the theorem particularly we will be able to get the fellow in charge there he is a genius so you know and he would not I imply there may be there isn’t any cursing and screaming and drama and claims and fits and this mat and the other um and he’s okay you know he is long past the fellow accountable for aetherium is is you understand the figurehead behind it here he’s gonna add his option to be friendly with the tuition’s he is very latest he believes in whatever that when radical markets all these commute to all these things which can be so he’s so good for the atmosphere in cetera cetera so again just just giving you guys a little style at some point for you uh so I mean you must feel like an tuition in the case of to that at least do not be a crypto kitty and say well oh maybe probably that’s a out hazard one way or the other gamble over there it is you die you’re welcome Bitcoin learned like button so that there is my take I mean take a couple of secs again when when you hear this bsv stuff and relatively feel after which think in regards to the institutional money that’s coming within the cryptocurrency and see how they fairly do not they’re not going within the identical direction okay so uh this is a funny tweet from jeet he video of the famous track video video killed the radio star video killed the radio began then jeeps line is bitcoin killed the real-estate artwork and liquid investment celebrity i admire that and gold famous person how about that there is my addition to that that’s fascinated by gold peter ship has a new video that is out and on the 40-minute mark or the forty five-minute mark and it towards the top here forty minute mark he started heat one factor that he says he talks about this he starts to speak in regards to the sixty minutes show about bitcoin and he talks about how he had a debate a gold versus bitcoin debate in all this and he has some intriguing world phrase he says nations will buy gold in instruction of a greenback give way and once more this is the same factor that individuals like peter schiff have been announcing considering 1981 i mean which you can go watch doug casey in 1981 on the Phil Donahue exhibit announcing announcing these matters that your country nations are gonna purchase gold and all set into da greenback cave in this buck crumple that’s in nineteen eighty one style of stuff right here but anyway shift still says it and men and women nonetheless buy into it and that i say it’s less difficult for the crucial bank’s to purchase Bitcoin or to make their possess cryptocurrency in fact instead of purchasing gold and he says important financial institution’s will under no circumstances purchase Bitcoin okay those are worse to consider he in reality says these phrases that principal banks will under no circumstances purchase Bitcoin and we in the Bitcoin we just dreamed that k um however once more he thinks the central banks that they they’re gonna buy gold they may be gonna purchase they may be gonna that is that’s the course they will go in to prepare for the battle they the legendary financial type from 1981 that is what he thinks they’re gonna buy he doesn’t consider you already know that he does not consider it is easy it’s simply simple for primary Bucks to purchase to purchase Bitcoin or to even create their possess crypto over buying gold ok so um that that is missing so he felt the 60 Minutes had the giant folks within the area on which is hilarious if he thinks charlie SRAM is a gigantic person or that indian girl is a enormous PerR he says it used to be so biased for bitcoin and at the 45 minute mark he quite starts analyzing this 60 minute hindrance to a point where it can be like a conspiracy theory he comes up with a 60 Minutes conspiracy conception for bitcoin he’s like all of the insiders knew this was once gonna happen so that’s why the pump the fee pumped and yeah pizza man was once interviewed on their it pizza guys one of the significant big avid gamers within the Bitcoin house i want the he is coming up he’s he is very desperate you understand the the reasons that he comes up with commencing on the 45 minute mark it sets on a targeted level it is sad considering that it’s seeing that he comes up with a conspiracy theories about 60 minutes why bitcoin was on 60 minutes and he says the piece was very very confident it used to be a very confident for those who could not ask for any significant coin persons could not ask for something more it can be ridiculous once more my grandmother watched it show she was scared when she was once she’s due to the fact that I mean they’re bringing out medications they’re citing all these matters that scare normies ok so i wouldn’t say it was once tremendous pop I wasn’t tremendous optimistic but that’s besides the factor watch on the go watch Peter cooks video at the forty five minute mark and notice that if he relatively does provide you with in actual fact a conspiracy thought about 60 minutes and Bitcoin now again I I convey this up I mean simply to show you uh that with the historical-university appear with that variety of golden holder he’s acquired some conviction that he’s developing with some wild and wacky stuff there however we should recall that he says that uh he says vital financial institution’s will under no circumstances purchase a large coin k he says that I say it they will they’ll they’re going to Penny Ling that however again I brought this up typically that was once one of the inspirational ideas that Vinnie came up with that encouraged me to get more Bitcoin and whilst you believe of it it makes sense there are quite a few central banks or there are lot of crucial banks to give an explanation for there are numerous international locations on this planet ok that had matters just like critical banks that they that they may be low leading international locations they may be gonna recognize eventually you recognize that is anything to prop us up just a little all correct panel edit button Oh God Almighty i’m so completely satisfied to exhibit his lifestyles here is a tweet from Jay from Kyle bass he has a piece of writing called quiet panic in Hong Kong at present i’m releasing air views on the monetary political and legal plight of Hong Kong I think buyers that have belongings invested there should immediately move them to united states of americaDollars before it can be too late now i am now not saying that i have bringing that up on the grounds that quite high panic the chinese are there a cost of Hong Kong but they’ve had a fingers-off approach however it’s getting more and more and more arms-on so folks who want to guard themselves they’re he’s saying you realize getting to the buck you liquefy your property there before the chinese take your belongings i assume is what he is saying I say they may be gonna peep they are going to be men and women who understand there is a quiet panic in Hong Kong and they’re not gonna purchase US dollar they’re gonna get in the Bitcoin so this if this and i do not need to sit down in a main issue in Hana kinda worsen i need the chinese language to have a fingers-off procedure i’ve been to Hong Kong before they it is it is rocking over there they’ve bought various good matters he it is it used to be big the chinese language didn’t construct that Hong Kong Kane was once underneath below British rule but he did that he succeeded and underneath underneath the Western manner of trade and free markets etcetera etcetera so i am adding love to look it continue that method but if if the chinese get more difficult their force you recognize have a strong hand and begin squeezing Hong Kong then yeah it’ll be just right for Bitcoin it this is just and matters like this this is what in other international locations that identical matters can occur govt becomes extra tyrannical folks are going to silently panic into Bitcoin so I I did I again some individuals will purchase it you liquefy their belongings into you the us bucks they are able to try this if they want to but it possibly less difficult for the k the in that a part of the world they recognize that Bitcoin they without doubt learn about Bitcoin all proper I keep in mind go to disrupt meister calm you could watch 1300 of my over 1300 my shows there the day prior to this after I used to be speaking about the bitcoin having I forgot to say the famous Chris Gilliard line the biggest supply shock within the history of monetary markets BAM i am pumped about that it can be in a year it’s going to it will be in a yr the most important provide shock in the historical past of monetary markets all correct relocating on coin desk article and the only purpose i am bringing it up is due to the fact that it’s it says that you could now make investments that is Robin Hood currently that you would be able to put money into seven cryptocurrencies on Robin Hood crypto Bitcoin be cash be SV a concept of a theorem classic litecoin and dogecoin which you can additionally track price movements and news from 10 additional crypto currencies once more how huge of a participant in the house is is Robin Hood I have no idea they they’ll have some say in what’s a top to your all coin again they acknowledged one of the ones we’re already aware of Bitcoin P cashed aetherium a fair in traditional like coin so dogecoin most folks do not feel that’s and of direction bsv they are evidently including due to the fact good it used to be convenient to include i guess they’re not good they be aware of that the crypto kids are going to use the 19 year olds are gonna use their app to buy so it why no longer promote something that’s wholly insane like bsv once more they are now not they’re not like an tuition now some of the giant institutions or something like that but once more whats up so that is a whats up i am gonna say that i’m gonna i am gonna say it find it irresistible is that may be a confident for bsv if if an app like this desires to include it too in view that they believe they can become profitable off of it to signal it to the crypto kitties then yeah that does raise bsv a little bit but no then is not it BSP isn’t any prime to your offline i’ll let you know but they are able to they may be able to grep that’s an exact real factor if the BSP people you realize they may be into proceedings and all these things as an alternative of that they must drop it and say you know what Eddie we’re cool these are Robin Hood individuals are clearly carrying us you understand that’s simply an actual constructive factor for them however they they are now not too much into that they are into tons of wild and wacky experiences over there within the BSP lamp but anyway Robin Hood yeah you’re doing all of your part to variety of try to solidify what a prime-tier all coin is moot and eventually us store this for the future what is that this Adam oh oh no that is me telling myself to inform all you guys that this Matt Odell tweet he is a it is a very it is a just right definition a Bitcoin if you want to inform your you’re beginner associates what bitcoin is is and he says bitcoin is a new form of cash that is digital and unbiased of world governments or businesses it is hard to seize block or inflate and easy to send all over the world it is the exceptional cash we now have ever had as extra people appreciate this the cost will have to upward thrust in order that was an extraordinarily high-quality to the factor definition that everyone can understand no hard terminologies in there and that i believe that is whatever you should share with your newby newby associates and neighbors if you happen to ever need in the event that they ever requested you what bitcoin is okay well i am checking the chat correct now see if there were any questions excellent i’m pleased no person requested me any questions considering as which you can tell i am i am relatively in a rush now however I bought a gigantic smile on my face due to the fact that I did have that conviction at present and i knew I you i would get to show off Google and YouTube bag you guys you guys will also be so wacky sometimes with how matters work and the way they don’t work well again hopefully day after today at midday jap Time which you could all flip in and there can be no technical difficulties when I’m seeking to get three other guys online with me so i am also going over my notes correct right here as I talk to you to ensure i didn’t fail to remember whatever and i did not so i’ll see a few of you and beach in seven hours i am adam meister the bitcoinmeister the disrupt meister don’t forget to subscribe this channel like this video share this video investigate out the links beneath bang that bow button and you can see the giant smile on my face that is what existence is about men and women stay in optimistic figuring out that you realize should you preserve attempting you’re going to get that show off and whoa and lifestyles goes on someone simply asked me where do you see yourself in five years I still do journey round it’s visiting around i don’t see myself to settle down I see myself nonetheless making these shows nonetheless making these suggests and rather interested by the 2024 happening that is proper that’s where I see myself in 5 years all right all right i’ll see you guys tomorrow and some of you tonight bye bye

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(via A step-by-step guide on how to choose, make, and keep New Year’s resolutions – Harvard Gazette)

Moving forward, even slowly, puts your goals within reach.

A 12-step guide to keeping those resolutions

As the holiday music fades and the time to pay the resolutions piper comes due, let Harvard experts make the transition a little easier. Don’t know where to start? You can try the 1 percent performance improvement method. Stressed at the prospect of a lifestyle change? Practice mindfulness and find out how meditation can lead to a “better brain” in just eight weeks. Want to extend that? Learn what 80 years of Harvard research has to say about living a longer and happier life.

Still not sure what will suit you best? Pick a topic from the Harvard T.H. Chan School of Public Health’s Nutrition Source, where you’ll find advice that goes far beyond your plate and that first cup of coffee in the morning.

The key is to choose your New Year’s resolution, and make it happen. MacKenzie Kassab, a former contributor to the Division of Continuing Education’s Professional Development website, put together a 12-month plan for making — and keeping — resolutions filled with the advice of experts from Harvard and beyond.

Let’s take a look.

January: Ready, set, goal

This is it: the time to think ahead about where — and who — you want to be this year.

“I don’t think there’s such a thing as a goal too big,” says Margaret Andrews, president of Mind and Hand Associates consulting firm and an instructor for the Harvard Division of Continuing Education.

So reach for the stars! But remember, even astronauts have to contend with bad weather. “You have to think about your ecosystem,” Andrews says. What external factors could prevent you from reaching your goal?

You might resolve to eat healthy foods and lose five pounds around your midsection. That’s reasonable enough. But how will you cope with those 3 o’clock sugar cravings? What will you do when your oblivious spouse stocks the cabinet with cookies and chips? Is there something beyond your control that could be a barrier to success? Keep it in mind, but don’t get discouraged.

“Consider what you need to start doing or stop doing, and anticipate obstacles,” Andrews says. “If you don’t think about it now, then you’ll have no willpower in that moment.” Have a strategy in place, and you’ll be on your way to reaching that goal in no time.

February: Commit to a process

You’ve set your sights on a goal. Now, devise a plan.

Entrepreneur and author of “Atomic Habits” James Clear recently told Inc. magazine that simply setting a goal is the first step on the road to unhappiness.

“You’re essentially saying, ‘I’m not good enough yet, but I will be when I reach my goal.’ The problem with this mindset is that you’re teaching yourself to always put off happiness and success until the next milestone is achieved,” Clear says.

Instead, he suggests focusing on a process, not the end result. Deconstruct your goal into productive, workable actions.

Finding a new job is a common resolution. But the hunt can be daunting. To make it more manageable, establish a schedule: send out two résumés a week, or attend one networking event a month.

By celebrating small victories, the journey becomes as meaningful as the destination.

March: Find your motivation

“There’s no one-size-fits-all solution when it comes to motivation,” Andrews says. “Some people go whole hog, and others ease themselves in. You really have to know yourself and what works for you.”

This is the time to explore what lights your fire. If your goal is to run a marathon, you might find the most encouragement in rewarding small wins. Reach 10 miles, book yourself a massage.

If that doesn’t work for you, see if a picture of Usain Bolt on the refrigerator is enough to keep you moving. Explore tactics until you find one that fits, and don’t be afraid to get creative.

April: Shout your intentions

If your ambition is waning, proclaim your intentions from the rooftops. Text friends, email close colleagues, or call your mom.

“When we advertise our desire to change, we are openly risking failure, putting our reputation and self-respect on the line,” says Marshall Goldsmith, executive coach and author of “Triggers.” “It’s the difference between betting on ourselves with hard-earned cash and settling for a friendly no-money wager.”

Encouragement is a positive byproduct — most people will want to see you succeed, and some may even offer support or guidance.

A Harvard study, almost 80 years old, has proved that embracing community helps us live longer, and be happier.

May: Question everything you’re doing

One of Goldsmith’s “magic moves” for changing behavior is daily self-questioning. He suggests composing a list of queries that encourage reflection.

Someone aiming to gain three new clients this year might ask, “Did I do my best to generate leads today?” Meanwhile, someone who wants a heftier savings account could inquire, “Did I do my best to avoid unnecessary spending today?”

There are no rules, other than tracking progress with the same questions each day, and just one suggestion: starting each question with “Did I do my best to …”

“This phrase injects personal ownership and responsibility into the Q&A process,” he says.

June: Reassess your goals

You’re halfway through the year, and your goal is in sight! Or perhaps not. If things aren’t going as planned, reconsider your strategy and be honest about what your resolution is worth to you.

“Someone I know was trying to lose weight, and she was told she’d need to cut out her nightly glass of wine,” Andrews says. “She knew herself well enough to say, ‘That’s a pleasant part of my life, and I’m not willing to give it up.’ She found other ways to compensate.” Look at which tactics have been less effective to this point, and explore other ways of reaching your goal. Maybe you add 15 minutes to your workout but keep the pinot noir.

Tweaking your expectations might also be acceptable. “You may want to be the weight you were at 18, but are you really willing to do everything required to get there?” asks Andrews. Fitting into a snug pair of jeans from last year might be a reasonable compromise, especially once you’ve seen what success demands.

July: Find support

There’s a reason support groups exist for everything from addiction to breastfeeding: There’s power in numbers. Social support can be instrumental to accomplishing goals.

“Hang with the right crowd and their success can inspire us to think, ‘If they can do it, I can too!’” says Piers Steel, the researcher behind “The Procrastination Equation.”

Find an organization whose mission aligns with yours, whether it’s Weight Watchers, Habitat for Humanity, or the Society of Women Engineers. A gap in the market is a great excuse to create your own goal-oriented group, which might be just a handful of colleagues sharing professional growth strategies over dinner. “Giving up or continuing to strive — both are contagious,” Steel says.

August: Get energized

All goals, personal or professional, require adequate energy. Unfortunately, things like stress, caffeine, alcohol, and late nights can sap stamina. Willpower and motivation are often the next to go.

A lifestyle overhaul is extreme, but minor changes add up. First, purge your living or workspace of distractions, whether that means clearing clutter from your desk or uninstalling the Facebook app from your phone. Steel advises “strategically allocating” limited energy reserves. Less mess, literal or figurative, equals more mental focus.

Next, determine when you’re most efficient, and dedicate part of that time to meeting your goal. Are you a morning person striving to become fluent in French? Put on Radio France Internationale while getting ready for work. Is your head clearest in the afternoon? Pull out les leçons on your lunch break.

And don’t neglect your mental and physical health. “Your energy stores are a limited resource, so actively replenish them,” Steel says. That means nurturing your well-being — and getting a good night’s sleep.

September: See results

Close your eyes. Now, imagine meeting your goal. Are you holding a gold medal? A bigger paycheck? A jaw-dropping baked Alaska? According to Steel, “The detailed mental re-creation of a performance engages mirror neurons that engrave the act in your brain almost as deeply as if you were actually practicing it.”

The next — and most important — step is called mental contrasting: visualizing where you are today, with an empty trophy case, bank account, or oven. “The result will be that your present situation becomes framed as an obstacle standing in the way of your dreams,” says Steel.

Contrasting where you are and where you want to be sparks exactly the motivation most people need to spring into action.

October: Get inspired

Bill Gates reads a reported 50 books a year. In fact, the Microsoft co-founder is so passionate about reading that he started the GatesNotes blog to post reviews of his favorite titles. “Shoe Dog,” by Nike’s Phil Knight, is at the top of the list. “Knight opens up in a way few CEOs are willing to do,” writes Gates. “He tells his story as honestly as he can. It’s an amazing tale.” And an inspiring one, even for one of the world’s most powerful men.

Books and movies can provide the encouragement we can’t always get from people around us. “Rocky” gives hope to the underdog. “The Pursuit of Happyness” suggests that anything’s possible. Search for plots that strike a chord. “The most effective [biographies] will resonate with your own background,” Steel says.

Not everyone can plow through a book a week, but motivational speeches and podcasts stream from all corners of the internet. “Great athletes, heroes, and entrepreneurs regularly speak about their experiences,” says Steel. “Seek them out.”

Get inspired on your morning commute, and you’ll be surprised what you can accomplish throughout the day.

November: Ask for help

Another of Goldsmith’s magic moves is asking for help. “Few people will refuse your sincere plea,” he says. “Asking for help sustains the change process, keeps it moving forward.”

When you hit a stumbling block, call on friends who’ve accomplished similar goals or on your professional mentor. Most people will be honored you came to them for support.

And when you’re ready to wave the white flag, call in the experts. There are resources to support just about every ambition, from amateur cooking classes to professional development programs. Even Beyoncé worked with a vocal coach to reach her goal of world domination.

December: Applaud success — or lessons learned

The end of the year is a time to reflect on progress toward your goal or to pat yourself on the back for achieving it.

Is there any shame in not fulfilling a resolution? “It depends on the goal,” says Andrews. “If it’s to stop doing something abusive to yourself or someone else, it’s probably not a good one to give up on. Or it might turn out your goal wasn’t really what you were going after. You know what? It’s your life, and you get to decide that. Failure isn’t failure if you learn something from it. It’s just a way station on the way to success.”

Contemplate this year’s obstacles and processes, and rework your strategy for next year. There’s rarely a deadline for prosperity.

Ready to start?

Develop your personal plan for meeting your resolutions with a 12-month worksheet you can download here.

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summary: Dan Howell is a regular teenager. He goes to high school, he hangs out with his best friends (PJ, Chris, and Phil), and he hates doing homework. He's fairly attractive, enough so to attract the attention of a few girls and secretly Phil. What people don't know about this average teen, is that he isn't so average. Dan Howell is in a popular alternative band. He sings and plays keyboard for this band, known to many as 'Ripping Ivory'. He wears a mask onstage as he sings and is known by his fanbase as Q, even though they know this isn't his true identity.

warnings: panic attack type situation, worry, some sexual references. but all warnings are small this book is overall very nice i just need to warn bc warnings

words: 4100

a/n: this is my first fic so i edited this and read it over many times. please tell me if i have any grammar mistakes or anything. also, im really proud of this so please don't let it flop!!

p.s.s: ik this is a bad title. i write i don’t come up with this crap.

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"Dude did you guys hear about how Ripping Ivory is coming here in 2 weeks??" Chris asks as he sits down at the lunch table. Dan doesn't even flinch at the name because of how much his friends talk about the band, but his heart does speed up and he is afraid that they may ask him something and Dan will end up telling them, that he is Q and that's him behind the mask.

Phil nods, "I already got tickets! Are you guys going??" PJ and Chris both exclaim a form of 'yes!' but Dan shakes his head and looks down. "Why can't you go? I could probably get tickets for you if it has anything to do with money"

'Nope, definitely not money' Dan thinks to himself, 'Just the fact that I'll be the one singing at that concert.' "I'm visiting my grandma the day of the concert" This wasn't technically a lie, except for the fact that his grandma was coming to the concert to see him perform. As long as they never see her there then there will be no problems. Dan tries to make sure his family members come to the concerts at different times so no one will ever suspect it. All of his close relatives and his co-workers are the only people who know his secret.

"Oh man, that sucks" PJ whispers. They had all wanted to go together, and Dan had made sure to act excited with them about it weeks prior to get them pumped. Dan is actually very glad that they will be able to come to his band's concert, only part of him wishes he could be in the crowd with them.

The thought of Ripping Ivory without Dan, or Q, makes Dan giggle. It would be David on the bass and Todd on the drums but only David's back up vocals, or any vocals for that matter. Dan did most of the singing.

"We'll take videos and pictures for you." Phil comforts him and gives him a small hug before pulling away.

"Lester's going to have /a lot/ of pictures and videos. We all know how much he loves Q," Chris says and then makes his voice higher and clasps his hands together as he talks again, "Oh my Q! He's so beautiful and his hair looks so soft! I'm going to marry him one day!" Phil shoves Chris from across the table.

"No, Phil talks more about his ass in those tight ass jeans. I wonder how that boy can even breathe in them," PJ chuckles and dodges any attacks from a angry looking Phil. Phil can't look angry so Dan would describe him as looking like an angry goldfish.

'Easy,' Dan thinks, 'You get used to wearing them after a while. They've just shaped to fit my body perfectly.'

Dan then realizes what Phil has been thinking about Q. Q has the same body as Dan, so does Phil like Dan's body too????? Dan's cheeks heat up and his heart rate speeds up at the indirect compliment. Phil was definitely someone that he may or may not have a /tiny/ crush on. I mean, who wouldn't fall for him?

"I mean, maybe you could come to another concert with us another time..." Chris says, trying to lighten the situation. "It's okay, I will. I heard panic! is coming in November," Dan says and smiles, suddenly changing the topic to that.

/

Dan and Phil both walk to Phil's house together. Phil walks up the sidewalk to the front door and opens it up. "Thanks for coming over, I really needed someone to hang out with. My parents have been gone for 2 days and it's lonely."

"Not that I don't want to be here, because I do, but why couldn't Chris or PJ come??" Dan asks curiously.

"They're probably having sex."

"That's true. Not a mental picture I needed though"

"Sorry.. but now I have it too so we're even"

Dan's phone buzzes in his pocket and he picks it up, checking the new message. It's in his band's group chat from their manager, Sara, to the band group chat. 'BAND STUFF' was too obvious so they settled for the next best option.

FROM SARA (to BNDSTF)

meet at arena, they're letting us go up early to practice / get some things done before the concert.

Dan sighs, "Phil, I'm really sorry but I have to go.."

"What, why?"

"Family emergency."

Phil has been getting suspicious of a lot of these random having to leave things and family emergencies, but he doesn't say anything because what if his mum was really in the hospital or dying?? Then Phil would be a terrible friend.

Phil just nods, "Go ahead. Text me if you can? Anything is better than being alone."

Dan nods back, "Of course"

FROM DAN (BNDSTF):

omw

/

Dan slides on his mask, a plain black covering that went around his eyes and the top of his nose. Dan also pushes his hair up into a quiff for shows so no one will be able to tell him from his fringe.

Ripping Ivory's shows are what Dan calls 'Literally the best thing you'll ever go to'. There's lights, smoke, audience participation (consensual of course), and wardrobe changes for different parts of the concert.

Dan wears his black skinny jeans most of the concert and changes his shirts mostly. Unless it's an outdoor concert and halfway through the concert he may change into basketball shorts.

Dan and the rest of the members quickly skim through their songs and then all of them sneak off to decode the entire arena to find the best spots to stay and check out dressing rooms. It is a pre-concert tradition for them to memorize every corridor and backstage thing they can. They may or may not play hide and seek up until they literally call them to go onstage.

FROM PHIL (to Dan):

everything going good with your family??

FROM DAN (to Phil):

yeah sorry about having to leave..

FROM PHIL (to Dan):

it's totally understandable.

/

"I'm not counting, that round was unfair!" Todd complains and crosses his arms.

Dan laughs and rolls his eyes, "I found you fair and square."

"You didn't tell us you were coming."

"Fine! I'll just count! We have 45 seconds so I'm giving you 15 seconds to run to a spot," David says and puts his hands over his eyes, starting to count (rather quickly too). Dan runs as fast as he can into a closet and slams the door shut and he suddenly hears a small click.

Dan goes into panic mode when he finds the door locked. He starts banging on the door for someone to come open it. "HELP!!!!!" he screams and he waits for a good at least 30 seconds before David opens the door. "Dan we're supposed to be out there! Hurry!"

Dan, Todd, and David all sprint to their spots when entering the stage.

Dan is lifted onto the stage from a middle spot. He runs his fingers through his already pushed up hair and fixes his mask. "Hello London!" he says happily and the crowd starts shouting. Dan walks up and starts high-fiving people from the front of the pit. "Sorry for starting so late" Dan giggles a bit, "I got trapped in a closet" He widens his eyes a bit and smiles.

"But no one here came to hear me complain about my life so lets start out with some 'Focus on her'!" The crowd shouts loudly and Dan smiles a very happy smile.

Dan walks forward to the front of the stage as he sings. For this song and the next two songs after he will be wearing this white button-up that is short sleeve and has small black dots on it. Most of his wardrobe is monochrome because of his mask and jeans but some parts he has more bright clothes.

Smoke rises up on both sides of Dan and around the rest of the band and lights flash in all directions.

The next three songs finish way faster than anyone wanted. Dan and the other members run backstage as they play a video for the crowd that is enough to keep them on their toes for the next song.

Dan runs out after the video just ends. He is now wearing a Kanye West 'Yeezus' shirt that he just threw on because he'll be doing the 'It Game' after the next song.

The It Game is whenever he has one of his security guards pick a random girl or guy from the audience. Then he sings them one of their more lovey songs (as much as Dan doesn't want to admit it, he wrote the song while thinking of him and Phil). He then asks them a few questions to entertain the audience and give the 'It' a good experience to remember. The 'It' is able to leave the stage with backstage passes for whoever they came with and a kiss on the cheek from Q.

Soon enough, Dan is waiting for the spotlight to land on whoever his main guard, Bob, chose to go on stage. "Okay guys, we're now going to play a little game. One of my security guards, and good friends, will be choosing a person from the audience to come up here. If you're asked and don't want to, just say no because I know how bad that can be for someone. Like 'OMG Q why did you force me on stage and make me say my name in front of like a ton of people?!', it's okay because I won't. So Bob, go and find the 'It'."

The crowd cheers and several people jump and hold up signs to try and get onstage. Suddenly a spotlight stops in the middle. Dan can't tell what the person looks like because of how bright everything is but he will whenever they get up on the stage.

Footsteps, the spotlight is put not only on Dan, but his guest. Dan looks up into the eyes and is filled with familiarity. Blue eyes that he could recognize in a sea of people. Out of everyone here, Bob chose Phil Lester. That bastard knew who he was to Dan and chose him on purpose.

Dan smiles and grabs a stool from the side of the stage for him to sit down. He grabs a microphone and hands it to Phil because Dan has a headset mic. "What's your name?" Dan asks with a smile and suddenly /really/ hopes Phil won't be able to recognize him even through a mask.

"Phil."

"Beautiful name for a beautiful man, huh?"

Phil's cheeks go a dark shade of red, "Thank you" he almost whispers.

"I would compliment you more, but I guess singing you a song will work too" Dan smiles at him and Phil's eyes crinkle up into that beautiful smile that Dan loves seeing. "Adorable" Dan says and starts with the song.

Dan finishes the song by walking up to Phil and swiftly pushing the little hairs that had fallen out of his fringe back with the others, giving him a small smile. "So, Phil, where are you from?"

"Here. Me and my friends got so excited whenever we found out you guys were coming, although one of them couldn't make it, but there's always next time"

"Of course, I'm glad you could make it though. Or else you'd never get to be sat on a bright stage with Q."

"My one true dream, finally come true."

Dan laughs and smiles, "Glad I could make it happen. Tell me Phil, is there anyone special in your life right now?"

Phil smiles a bit and looks down, "I would say you but I haven't even taken you to dinner yet" Phil laughs and shakes his head, "No, but in all seriousness, there's this guy I may or may not be on the verge of asking out."

Both Dan and the crowd collectively go 'ooooo' at the same time. Dan props his elbows on his legs and rests his head on his hands, watching Phil. "Tell me more, we have time"

"Well I'm not going to say anything specific because he always seems to know everything about this band but he's really cute and bisexual, and I'm pretty sure that even if I wasn't gay that I still would've fallen in love with him."

"Awwww!! I wish you and your man, good luck" Dan says and he means it because 'oh my shithole, Phil just indirectly told him that he likes/loves Dan???!??!?!

"Thank you" Phil blushes more and smiles.

"Okay, before I so rudely kick you off my stage, how many people did you come here with?"

"Two of my friends and myself."

"Would two of your friends and yourself like to come backstage after the show to hang out??"

"Yes please"

"Aw, such a gentleman. Okay so go see Bob when you exit the stage and he'll get you those passes. See you later!" Dan smiles to himself and walks up to Phil, kissing his cheek.

/

"These are literally my best friends so don't do stupid things okay?? I'll be hearing all about this tomorrow at school," Dan warns his band members. Todd laughs, "So don't reveal you, show your dick pi-" "I don't take dick pics!" Dan shouts and throws a bottle of water at him, causing it to spill all over Tom and the ground. At this same moment, PJ, Chris, and Phil are all ushered into the room.

David laughs loudly at the situation, "Looks like you have already failed your mission not to embarrass yourself." "At least I don't look like I pissed myself" Dan says and eyes Todd. Todd puts his middle finger up at Dan, "At least I'm not talking about my dick"

"I'll have you know I have a very nice dick"

"No you don't"

"You've seen me naked before you don't have to lie"

"Nah mate, I say that /because/ I've seen you naked"

Dan throws another bottle of water at him and then turns to their guests. "I'm Q, this is David and Todd. Welcome to our humble abode.... er I mean my dressing room."

Chris smiles and steps forward, shaking Dan's hand, "Big fan of your music. Glad to be able to meet you in person."

PJ smiles, "Same for me. I bet it's even better for Phil to meet you, he likes you almost as much as he loves 'Daaaaannn'" Dan hopes no one can see the blush on his cheeks.

Todd walks up and pats Dan on the back, "You've always been popular with the ladies.. and guys too. We have a big LGBT+ audience. I'd say it's a very good thing though, spreading gayness one song at a time."

/

PJ, Chris, and Phil all leave after about 30 minutes because that's the most amount of time that the guards would let them stay. As they leave, they spot Dan's grandma walking around backstage and talking to Bob.

All three of them walk over to her. Chris decides to talk for them, "Mrs. April?? What are you doing here?" She turns around and smiles at the boys, "Oh boys! It's so nice to see all of you! I just came to see the wonderful show!"

"I thought Dan was going to visit you today? He said that's why he couldn't make it to the concert.." Phil says, suddenly confused. PJ then steps up, "Also.. how did you get back here without a backstage pass?"

Mrs. April smiles at them without it wavering at all, "I have to go" she says and walks away, towards the dressing rooms where they can see Q step out and hug her. Just as he goes inside, he slips off his mask, and leaves the other boys at an angle where they couldn't see his face"

/

They all sit in the car, left silent with their thoughts as PJ drives them back to Chris' house. "What if Q is Dan?" Phil asks quietly and Chris laughs. Phil shakes his head at him, "It sounds idiotic but it's possible. Dan's grandma came and hugged Q, Dan told us he couldn't come to see us because he was going to see his grandma, and we already know he can sing and play piano. I'm not reaching very far to conclude this- oh my god I admitted to Dan himself that I'm practically in love with him"

PJ smiles sympathetically, "It's okay Phil. We'll find out- plus anytime you said something about it Q got flustered so if it's true maybe Dan likes you back. I think the best way to find out will be to not ask him about it and let it unfold. I have a plan."

/

That night, the boys went over several plans until they got down the best one that they could think of that should trap Dan into telling them the truth. They decided to go with the plan at lunchtime.

"How was the concert?" Dan asks and Phil smiles. His experience at the concert could be put in the top 3 moments of his life. "Amazing! I got on stage and Q was so hot and cute and he kissed my cheek and I swear it's still burning a hole where his lips touched and we got to go backstage to meet the band!" Phil says excitedly and sits down next to Dan.

PJ and Chris sit down after Phil. "What about you, how was your grandma?" PJ asks and Dan had already guessed that they would ask about her so he was prepared. "She was great actually. Her and my mum talked all night basically and I contributed to about 30% of their conversations. We left her house really late, like 1 or 2."

Chris contorts his face a bit, "So that's why she was at your concert last night? We got to speak to her."

Dan's heart suddenly starts racing really fast, worse than other times. His breathing quickens and the room starts getting smaller. The people talking around him is louder than usual. "I-I've go-tta go-o" he whispers and stands up. The room starts spinning, making it hard for Dan to move. Dan tries to grab onto Phil to break his fall but he completely misses and trips, banging his head against the ground. The last thing Dan remembers before everything going black is the sound of his own sobbing (he doesn't remember crying but he knows it was himself crying), Phil quickly getting on the floor with him, and PJ yelling for a nurse.

/

Dan barely squints his eyes open. He has a cold washcloth on his forehead and he is in his bedroom. Phil is sitting at the end of his bed and Chris and PJ are on the love seat across from his bed. They haven't noticed Dan woke up yet so he decides to listen to their conversation like the sneaky fuck he is, he shuts his eyes once more.

"Gotta say, that guy is really good at what he does. He's gotten this entire thing past us for 3 years and we only just found out because we went to a concert." The voice is definitely PJ.

"I can understand why he would keep it from us, this is a big deal. He obviously just wants to keep his identity a secret so he can live normally. This crossed a big barrier for him, bringing famous life into his normal life. That episode he had was understandable" Phil says and places his hand on Dan's leg.

"I just want him to know that he can trust us, we've known him since we were all in our moms' wombs. This isn't something I would just go and tell someone," Chris adds to the conversation.

Before anyone else speaks, Dan decides to make his way in. "That's good to know" he whispers and sits up a bit in bed and opens his eyes. All three of the boys all snap their heads to look at Dan. "Don't talk, I want to do this myself." They nod and Dan rubs his hands over his face before starting.

"Hello, my name is Daniel James Howell. I am in my last year of schooling before I go to university, if I even do, and I'm also in a band. I am known as Q, the guy with the mask, or the guy with extremely tight jeans in the alternative band, Ripping Ivory. I sing songs and and play piano with my other best friends, Todd Harris and David York. Now, I may be best friends with them, but I have some even closer friends that I go to school with. I didn't tell them about being in a band because I was scared of judgement or them turning on me. I now realize that I can tell them several things that should be told. Also including the fact that I'm in love with my best friend, who I have even written songs about. Which includes the song that I sang for him last night, in front of an arena of people."

They're quiet for a painful amount of time. Dan decides to add onto his speech, "Our first ever concert- it was in Reading at a small diner. Back then my mask was bright red and had black paint marks on it- I still have that one actually. But anyways, at that concert I had only known Todd and David for 2 weeks. Enough time to learn the songs I had made. At the beginning of the first song we song, I had the worst panic attack I've ever had. The diner was packed to the brim and everyone was watching us. Todd and I sat outside for 20 minutes before I could go back inside and we fucking rocked that show! That show was what bonded me and Todd closer and I still think of the things he told me then whenever I get nervous doing a show or even right now. I shouldn't be scared of talking to you guys about anything, so there goes most of my secrets."

"Most?" PJ asks curiously.

"Well do you want a full list of every person I've ever wanked to?"

PJ then shakes his head at the same time as Phil.

Chris smirks, "It'd only be two people. 1. Evan Peters 2. Phil Lester"

Phil shoots Chris a glare. PJ stands up, "Chris, lets give Dan and Phil some time to talk things out. We can go talk to Dan's mum" Chris nods and him and PJ race out of the room and Chris shuts the door behind him.

"D-Did you really write that song about me?" Phil asks with a pink tint to his cheeks. Dan nods and smiles, sitting up all the way and letting Phil come sit next to him. "Who else would I write about having eyes you could swim in? And making my heart do that little flippy over thing" Phil smiles, "Well now you'll have a new song to write about, about taking chances and finding love, a cliche song about the real life Hannah Montana who meets the love of his life. Dannah Montana." They're both silent for a moment, enjoying each other's company.

Dan smiles at Phil and Phil smiles back, "I'm really proud of you Dan" Phil whispers, cuddling into Dan. "I wouldn't of done it without my 3 best friends being the sneakiest shits ever. Now, lets get to the real stuff. You calling Q hot, and 'oh the things you would do if his jeans were off'." Phil blushes and kisses Dan's cheek, "You'll find out those things in a matter of time, just a matter of time dear"