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Company Mandated Fancy Fits on the Tulpar 😏
Also had to include the REAL star of the show (and a bonus)


Based off of this and this. Thank you very much joetastic for being inspirational 👍
The REAL reason this is late

#just pretend I posted this like 6 days ago 😁👍#<-got distracted#sorry I’m Afflicted with The Curse and everything just takes me a long time#also right now I’m just kind of being experimental with my workflow and style right now so stuff is just naturally taking a bit longer#mouthwashing#mouthwashing fanart#anya mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#nurse anya#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing curly#swansea mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#myart#anyway my new years resolution is to put more WOMEN in SUITS and MEN in DRESSES#had fun drawing this but still not too sure about the rendering style just yet. probably just gonna keep playing around with shit#IM DOING IT SCARED but im DOING IT#im also still trying to figure out how to Social Media#am i doing it right#GRAAAHHHHHHH I NEED TO BETTER UNDERSTAND FORMATTING POSTS#i have a more serious mouthwashing piece in the works but wanted to get this done first lol#honestly I have a buncha sketches I should post too#i like them but they’re not really composited very well if you catch my drift. been having trouble with sketch page layout recently#which is kind of antithetical to the idea of a sketch page but you know how it is with spaghetti#i doodled the others on the side and liked how they looked so i just put some color and basic shading on them#edit: realized i forgot to change the color of the ‘lapel’ on jims shirt lol
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The real nightmare of Nightmare Time is that there's so little of it
#ethan green#joey richter#starkid#nightmare time#hatchetfield#fanart#my art#sketches#doodles#joey playing ethan is an absolute hit with my brain#cant draw him for the life of me but THIS HAIRSTYLE WITH THAT JACKET??? i'll keep trying until i get it right love this look#soooo#im not usually the person who needs to consume ALL of the media for whatever im into#it just so happened that i kinda have to draw stuff for school anyway and nightmare time makes for a very fun background show#i got used to the format and it gets better with every episode to the point that now that i just finished it i miss it??? already??#its so very nice to have a hyperfixation again especially one that can play in the background as i fight with school stuff and comissions#thanks BD! Its all your fault buddy! ;P#500
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[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]
saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS#REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT#NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS#THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS.#ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of#another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY..#i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her#idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had#when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them.#but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore.#but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think#i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow.#ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that#AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE#I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME#THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE#WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL#in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad#this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks-#-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl-#-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi#gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show#i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!!#anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM
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Write the autitic c!dream essay🙏🙏
Why I think c!Dream is Autistic - Part 1
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[Part 1] - [Part 2] - [Part 3]
Welp… I guess while on the topic of neurodivergence now is as good as time as any to do this. So, at long last…
Since every version of this essay ended up way too long I’m going to break it into 3 parts, and I'm going to make more generalized statements for the sake of brevity. So, if there are things about this or autism in general you would like more clarification on or know more about, my asks are always open (though I do ask that you please wait to flood my inbox until after you’ve read all parts). I would also like to add that for the same reason of length, I am not going to go in depth on all of the facets of autism and diagnosing it. I am not a psychologist, and this essay is not about defining autism and going into full depth about what it is, but about the specific aspects of Dream and the dsmp that I think point to autism, based on what I know and more importantly my experiences as an autistic person. Having said that, just so we are on the same page - Autism means that our brains are literally structured differently (also known as neurodivergent), which means we think differently and process the world differently, it does not make us inferior or broken or less than larger society (neurotypicals), it only means we are human beings who are wired differently.
Now, for part 1 I’m going to briefly go into the traits Dream has that I think point to autism, keeping in mind that this is not necessarily all inclusive, these are not necessarily autism exclusive, and some of these can be effected with masking and personal growth.
Highly obsessive - in general and for specific interest, to the point of not taking care of oneself, like forgetting to sleep, eat, shower, or just not caring enough to do so.
Strong willed, determined and dedicated - not going to give up easily, willing to stay up training or farming for long hours or put in the work especially for our obsession. Our priorities aren’t always productive, but we are not ones for laziness.
Isolated - outcast, odd ball out, set apart, on the outskirts, loner, alone even if surrounded by people.
Highly intelligent - smart, clever, big brained, skilled, knowledgeable to the point of ground breaking (ex: Einstein, Elon Musk, Michelangelo, Beethoven, Leonardo da Vinci…etc)
Trouble with emotions and feelings - from recognizing them, processing them, letting ourselves experience them, understanding them, leading us to often then lash out, explode, or have a meltdown.
All about the facts and truth - sometimes to an abrasive and candid point where it can become more important than how people feel or the main point.
Logical mindset - making decisions based on logic and strategy rather than on emotions to the point of struggling to understand others when they follow no such logic
“Black and White” thinking - right and wrong, good or bad, yes or no, on or off, love it or hate it, friend or foe. Everything is in extremes.
Rule follower, one to fight for justice and for others - we are stubborn and in our strong conviction we are out against injustice and misinformation, fairness and what is right and true is imperative.
Unable to forgive and forget - hard to let things go. Often have good memories and are able to remember things with the same detail as if it were happening again and not years ago. It doesn’t really fade with time and that makes us easily hold grudges, and hold things and behavior against people.
Resistant to change - doesn’t matter how big or small nor whether it’s good or bad, we are enemies of change. We like to understand so uncertainty and new things are often disagreeable.
Able to recognize patterns - able to see the full picture, see history repeating itself and people’s behavioral tendencies, which makes us good at scheming and masterminding. We hate change so we want to predict things to avoid being surprised.
Trouble articulating our point - stuttering and stumbling over our words, because our brains are moving too fast for our mouth to keep up and it’s hard to explain ourselves because our brain works differently. (we’ll talk about this more in part 2)
Struggle with body language? - I mean it’s hard to say given the Minecraft format, but to me wearing a mask could be to avoid having to make eye contact (which I hate) and appropriate facial expressions and stuff like that, which are pretty important in diagnosis. So while some headcanon that Dream wears a mask because he's too expressive and doesn't like being exposed I actually think it might be the opposite and saves him a lot of effort and brain power to not have to worry about his facial expression. :)
Stimming - (yes an ADHD thing but also an autistic thing and it's very common for someone to be both - like me ;D) vocally and physically often when more stressed, again hard to say for a Minecraft man, but I see him constantly moving like pacing the cell or jumping around and stuff as stimming and he does vocally stim on occasion as well.
Or in other words - Reasons I think c!Dream is autistic:
C!Dream = me, me = autistic -> c!Dream = autistic… boom, shortest essay ever XD lol jk
But seriously it is a major reason. I read a tumblr c!Dream character analysis (don't remember who's) back before I even joined tumblr and related soo much, which is pretty concerning when you relate to a villain - because like wait does that make me a psychopath? but I have empathy and I care and I'm not out to hurt people so why would I relate so much? And that's when I realized I think it is because he’s autistic like me so we think a like... I mean seriously the similarities are scarily uncanny down to things that have happened to me in real life…
Anyways, thank you for reading. I hope I made sense and got the idea across even by not going into super detail on all the points.
#well I better post now at 1am before I waste my gumption…#welp for part 1 we ditched essay format for list and it's still long lol...oof XD#did someone order an essay?#yea I hope this counts... it's just part 1 to be fair... and like I doubt yall wanna read the oneshot length ones I wrote... it's ridiculou#besides I suspect strongly that yall are gonna destroy my inbox so I figured I'll probably cover more things in other essays lol XD#autistic c!dream#dsmp#dsmpblr#c!dream#dreblr#let me cook#this is fine#dream smp#autism#guys when I tell you I've been nervous about this it is an understatement but look I made it out of the innitors pretty unscathed so it fin#dsmp dream#gonna be honest I’m not happy with it but also I may never be and this is 8 times the charm lol…#may need to add part 4 of just personal life events that are like similar and stuff ��. hmm
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After many years, guess who decided to try their hand at bookbinding again?

That's right, me! And of course I chose I giant of a fic, because I am nothing if not ambitious XD. I think it's 3 inches or more thick, and came to a whopping 1088 pages! The fic is Count Your Blessings by @madmothmadame , a Founders Era Tobirama centric fic and I cannot recommend it enough <3 <3 <3

My cover fabric and end paper are pretty simple, one part because I thought it suited the story, one part because I had them on hand, and one part because I'm a raw beginner and that's about as good as I could manage XD



It took a lot of waffling on my part (graphic design is NOT a great skill of mine) but overall I ended up really happy with how the title page came out - if I had the artistic skill to paint/draw it or the supplies to transfer it, this would have gone on the cover as well. Alas, for now it shall remain inside only.

A little detail that gave me some grief, as I waffled on font style and size a bit, but ultimately I'm really pleased with it - I used a plum blossom branch as the scene break throughout the book. If you've read the fic, you probably know why I picked that particular image for this and the title page ;)

I realized after printing that some of my paper had gotten a bit aged, even though it was stored in the printer. I wasn't about to waste the paper, ink and time for a reprint though, so I left it. Since the book is for me, little things like that are no bother. I was just glad I didn't fuck up in the printing or signature sewing order X'D

I included the authors notes from the end of each chapter as a bonus section at the end, so they'd be preserved with the story but not breaking up the flow of reading the book ^_^

Final view, this time from the spine - think I left the gap a little to wide between the cover boards and spine but eh, again this is just for me and only my third binding ever (and certainly the largest! XD) so I'm still really pleased overall.
A very fun experience, and I'm looking forward to my next re-read of the story, where I'll be doing it with my very own chonky boi version held in my hands :3
#viv18art#bookbinding#naruto#tobirama#count your blessings#really glad I decided to bind this fic#it was just as fun as I remembered#except better because I have a good printer now#so I could do that at home and not have it buggered up like it was for ayem#also had the bonus of a binder kicking the bucket at work last week#so I had the opportunity to scavenge the boards#made the cover part easier for me for sure#I've kinda got the binding bug now#this project went so well imperfections and all#and SO much faster than I thought#like it took me... I dunno three weekends and a bit?#I spent more time figuring out the formatting than anything#once I was on to the physical portion the project just flew#it was great#very looking forward to the next one#and I have so many fics I'd love to bind <3#best part is even if it takes me a bit to get stuff for the cover#I can make the text blocks whenever and just have them ready#I mean of course I like to do it all at once#but sometimes needs must#and the text block part is my fave part anyways soooo#yeah#new hobby unlocked methinks
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ah, but it can't be! ah, but it is!
#redacted asmr#redacted audio#redactedverse#art#illustration#redacted sam#redacted alexis#redacted darlin#comic#shitpost#brooklyn nine nine#b99#this was all i was thinking when darlin' ran into alexis at the summit and ive been sitting on it for weeks#in other news i think ive finally nailed down my sam design#and i really need more practice drawing women bc i dont do it often which is on me#his hair is more of a straw colour as opposed to blake's platinum blond#im getting better at drawing comic format stuff bc i used to be TERRIBLE at keeping characters on model#and i would lose interest super quickly lmao
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SAY IT WITH ME:
FEMALE CHARACTERS CAN BE WARRIORS AND FEMININE
MALE CHARACTERS CAN BE SMART AND MASCULINE
BEING BOTH IS NOT A "FLAW" WHERE ONE NEEDS TO BE REMOVED
IT'S CALLED "COMPLEXITY"
#i won't tag it#but#HECK if i wanted to chuck episode 5 out my window and then run it over with a car#i mean these issues have definitely been hinted at before ep 5 but that one just went ALL IN#i knew from 3 and 4 what they would probably do with hakoda but GOSH am i bitter about it#i swear if they don't walk this back somehow and make hakoda a bad overbearing dad or whatever i'm gonna riot#and katara's whole 'you know i'm not good at this [womanly] type of stuff' NO SCREW YOU WHOEVER INCLUDED THAT#WHY#if you want a female character that rejects the stereotypes of femininity you'll get one in season 2 gosh DANG IT#you don't need to try and force katara into that role#sokka wanting to use his brain AND fight well is not a flaw#katara wanting to use her waterbending to fight AND knowing how to sew is not a flaw#OH i hate this#i hate this so much#i can understand the need to change story elements to work better in a different format#i don't think they're always doing that WELL but i can understand the need for it#but i will never understand why they felt the need to butcher characters' personalities#again some things won't transfer well i get it i really REALLY do#it's like with sanji in opla how he had to be toned down - that makes sense for a live action adaptation#just removing things simply for the sake of removing them? no just no#'updated for modern audiences' has become a curse to my ears i swear because it always means the same thing#'we're going to remove all complexity and make it as one note as possible so we don't offend anyone'#there was nothing wrong with katara or sokka or aang or anyone else that they needed 'updating' yall are just close-minded#ok rant over just REALLY needed to get that out...
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I dont think I can find 2500 more words to write 😫
#also we're at 64 pages and like yeah a handful of them are tables but still this is wow#anyway girlie still hasnt seen the message ...#and i don't know if she has written anything more#i mean she better has cause ive done literally almost all the work#okay you know what#im gonna do some of the formatting and adding citations etc and give her some time to send me what she has hopefully written#which will also hopefully be what we need to finish#i am gonna die and the thesis will still not be finished#also ankles has become my new listen on repeat until youre calm song#jo says stuff#university update
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so, except for that one painting i still wanna finish im gonna tone down the OC stuff again, zelda work resumes now (°ー°〃)
#ganondoodles talks#if i was skilled enough to just do eintire sketch pages and half comics#im sure it would be more liked#but man am i not able to do that#i feel like i need to rethink every design too bc i just feel im missing something crucial#and writing lore out like i did feels so much more “cringe”#like idk drawing a comic or writing a full story about the tragic past of a character with all context youd have at that point#works alot better than talking about it in bullet point format#thats what i mean#the rough draft is gonna take a bit still .. and all the rewrite stuff is still in my head#its all there but getting it all out is hard especially with time#feeling like im constantly letting people down and losing a race over and over bc im never that articulated or organized as mayn others#everything is chaos about my works no matter how well working it is in my head
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Sometimes i think im not capable enough of writing stories but then i receive a comment on ao3
#HELP#tbh people's words of encouragement really spark a light in me#i would be writing regardless (i've always been doing it going as far as i can remember.. wrote a whole lil screenplay at 9 years old LMAO)#but seeing people actually enjoying my stuff is on a whole other level. its indescribable#i can only strive to get better and better‼️#i think ln really pushed me to explore writing choices i never would have touched otherwise...#the fnty format is something i would have never thought of trying before. same thing goes for beauty in the eye of the beholder#NEED to write something else about RCG and pretender#been a year. i miss them#carols.txt
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lmao andie is a way better dm than i am. well at least i can always be the weird indie game guy
#literally why did one of my friends go 'crow you need to up your game' when andie started putting out their battlemap#well like. it is perhaps true#im inclined to bitch and be like well MY campaign this summer was a logistical nightmare etc etc#which it was admittedly#but also i think andie has a willingness to fully commit that i never had#they do a lot more in-character dialog and world description stuff that like#ropes everyone else into rping more seriously#i just felt lije i could never get ppl invested in my game but its also bc i was always afraid to invest myself in my game yk?#even the sessions i really loved and my fave npcs i couldn't bring myself to more than just passively third person narrate#i will say im enjoying playing at this table SO MUCH tho like. it doesnt rly matter#its just weighing on me a bit rn. man.#again i suppose i rly couldnt pull this kinda shit off with the format id imposed on myself in my game but like. maybe i couldve.#if i did better#anyways at least i will be the bitch who introduces this table to most trusted advisors 🙏 one day#my shit
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hate hate hate how you have to make a twitter account to see ppls tweets now. like I deleted mine for a reason (rancid bad vibes + more ads and bots than posts) but some artists I like are ONLY on twt and :( man... I get how annoying having 23434 social medias to post stuff on is. im not really annoyed at the artists who do that (just having 1 place for their art) but im annoyed at the websites that do this -_- let me innn
#i know theres ways to get around it with 3rd party stuff but im rly not interested in doing all that. tbh#cant say tumblr or ig are much better at this#insta is mostly functional on mobile only if u have the app and an account (can be accessed thru firefox but-#if u dont have an account u can only see so many posts from someone and i think#tumblr is the same both on and off mobile if u dont have an account? last time i checked)#nd all the other art specific apps are too unknown like. cara just hasnt gained enough traction for me to be interested in joining yet#bluesky just looks like a twt clone to me and i was not interested in being on twt or its format anymore#devarts rebranding/reskinning drove me off entirely its SO bad now . ugly#the problem with a lot of those 'for artists by artists!' websites is uhh#artists NEED nonartists on a website to make money#most ppl looking for commissions are NOT artists in my experience so being on sites like insta or tumblr#where a lot of the ppl can just blog or post their own cute pics or whatever and stumble across artists?#way way better than sites that are ~artists only~. is this a hot take#lol#this got way off topic basically websites should let u browse whether or not u have an account. that is All#sanchoyorambles
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Everything day
#Had an Extremely long Game Day with smol today and I think it fixed my brain so that's great news#Past week has been rough!!!! Got hit with a semi-minor anxiety episode and a pretty serious depression episode to bookend last week#I'm all good it's just - took a bit out of me lol#Any number of things really too many to list so I'll just sum up as blegh - feeling better now#Started a new printing project!! Looking forward to that hopefully gonna do some test printing tomorrow#It Should work out well but pfbtl I can't count on my formatting skills for nonsense - shapes wtf are those#Been drawing <3 Been writing <3#Thinking quite very seriously about returning to doodle roots something awful#I tend to spend a Long Long time editing my stuff down by three different phases#Makes them very pretty! But I think I've had enough of that for the moment#New! Novelty! Needed and necessary and I'd rather Write about these than fuss more about how Pretty Or Not they are#They're pretty enough! I've made shapes on paper that previously didn't exist and now I can think about them as they are! Magic!#So that's the current plan - do still have One more step of editing to do before that lol but smol had offered me videos to listen to during#Good to have longer videos so I'm not constantly start-and-stopped#Oh and Pepper went into molt Again and just came out and he's genuinely gigantic now#And so dark! Handsome boy was a nice soft brown when we picked him up and so tiny small and now he's nearly black and huge#And so furry now he's definitely at least twice as fuzzy#Got him to eat - he was definitely hungry but he seems to be pacing himself still#Everything everything
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Personal art struggles.
#ramblings#doodles#I know my feelings about art and stuff are slightly more nuanced than this but I just wanted to make a little vent thing#and I know my friends are always nice about my art but like my friends are just very nice#I know that deep down no one needs any of my stupid drawings to get out of my head onto a page#but like… maybe I just need it I guess.#also before anyone says anything YES I know the tablet pen looks like a joint I don’t know why but it does#sorry this is so long format it worked better in a scroll
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What do you think Siegbert’s relationship with Laslow and Soleil’s relationship with Xander are like particularly as they get older/teenagers.
anon you're enabling me i LOVE their parent/child relationships as they get older!!! read more cause this got looooong
for laslow and siegbert--well first off, i think laslow always can provide a particular brand of emotionally-based support that develops more as siegbert gets older. siegbert has his Anxiety Issues, and where laslow and xander both struggle w sociality as well, i think laslow can relate in a more... empathetic way? dealing with some of the emotional aftermath and letting feelings be feelings (this isn't to say siegbert doesn't go to xander or that xander doesn't help, i just think they're good at different things). on a more lighthearted note, i think laslow's really good at getting a giggle out of siegbert, and good at finding ways to alleviate pressure. he's been doing this for years with xander. and yes, xander and siegbert need different things, but laslow's good at pinpointing those things
something i rly like abt their relationship is that i think that where siegbert more openly shows his idolization of xander (like we see in-game), he still does something really similar with laslow. looking up to him, taking inspiration from him. it just comes out in different ways. for example, siegbert probably trusts laslow's opinions... a lot. considers his sometimes more than his own. and he's just fascinated by the stories he tells. even after laslow's married to xander, i like to think he still travels (and drags xander with him as often as he can--and also drags their kids along as often as he can hahaha), and those stories in particular really entrap siegbert. which is good for a budding prince, i think something laslow (and eventually siegbert and soleil) has that xander lacks is some open mindedness, and not being so narrowly nohr-centric in his perspective--esp in upbringing, if that makes sense. this is also why i like laslow taking xander traveling, cause ultimately i think it would do him good.
ONTO!!! soleil and xander!! ive mentioned before how much i like the grumpy-dad and peppy-daughter dynamic, but. to reiterate: i really really like it gjsjfjsnf soleil, similarly to laslow but probably even more, tends to go to xander and ramble about her girl successes and failures. just barging into his office like i hope you're not busy cause i have things to SAY!! and i don't think xander dismisses her, but he does make her wait sometimes, hahaha. i also think xander will often tell soleil what she needs to hear, rather than what she wants, and ultimately for her that's better than the alternative. he's not entirely harsh (though he can be and that's something to work on), but honest. he also dotes on her more than he should by a xander-standard LOL
i think soleil provides to xander a lot of brightness--it is NOT lost on me that they named her soleil, sun, in a place like nohr. i think surrounding xander with bright people is a fantastic idea. and just like laslow's doing with the traveling thing, soleil probably gets xander to socialize a little more, haha. he isn't a brick wall that can't talk to anybody, but--he does strike me as the kind of guy who has coworkers, but not friends, ya feel me. soleil's confident and full of energy, and tbh i think she's the type to really want attention from her parents, so asking xander to come along with her is a frequent request. and that eventually, naturally, leads to xander getting out more. she doesn't have the same setback as laslow that if he gets shy enough he'll retreat entirely while they're out, hahaha
and one final note to round this off: i like to think!! that xander and soleil are both cat people (xander = cabbit, and soleil has lines about owning kitten posters), where laslow and siegbert are dog people (i have many aus where laslow has a pet dog so this is more of a 'because i said so' kinda thing) (also you might be inclined to think cat for siegbert also but i need you to look inward. deeper. i think he'd like the enthusiasm...!!! i have more i could say but i'll leave it at that)
there you go!! :D
#GAWD this was long. i was writing the second part of the siegbert one and i was like shit#i still have soleil's to go. ghsjfjsb#i rly do have more to say. but.....#my next longfic after my current one is LITERALLY all about this. especially as the story goes on#and im rattling the bars of my cage like. i wanna explore this in the fic rather than here#cause i can do it BETTER in the fic i know i can#so. eventually there will be more on this topic. if you're still interested in (checks scheduling notes) a year? gjsjgjsjfjsdn#that fic is easily why i have so much to say NOW. i think abt it a lot#and honestly i just really really love parent/child dynamics of all sorts#especially from both of their perspectives. you know!!!#anyway thank u anon for giving me the chance to ramble. this is seriously some of my fave stuff#ahhh this reminded me i have a fan parent-child support for xander and soleil i still need to write out#i have the synopsis but it's not really properly *written*#part of that is bc im indecisive on the formatting tho#comically i think the mother-son support for siegbert works very well to just slide laslow into#but tbh id like to eventually make one for them too#just for fun hehe#okay i will stop now because tags are getting long too#(<- girl who can't shut up abt her ships)#dots answers asks#anonymous#dots's xnlw tag
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also for smt v replay i went with the version of newgame plus that carries over less because like. i just replayed p4g (ng+), p4a and p4au (i do not enjoy gameplay so i let the game autoplay), and pq2 (ng+). and while its fun to minmax and focus on completing like, more challenge-level content, for the love of god i need to do something more challenging
#shitpost#i love like 100%-ing and completing difficult stuff that you pretty much need to be new game plus to do#but like.#i DO also like these games for the difficulty. i LIKE to get good at the systems and party formatting etc#so like playing 4 games in a row where it was easy (and in terms of p4a and p4au i treated it as a visual novel)#i like feel like im dying a bit lol#the only game im playing for challenge is my usual swtor nightmare raiding#and like. i need a little more in my life#i dont ALWAYS need challenge in games but. i wasn't going to play a FIFTH game with no challenge#im also still doing like maybe 2 hours a week in arkham knight combat to get stars + keep my skills up#and like i spent months there perfecting all the arkham games so. recently especially ive been enjoying challenges moreso than usual#and like again thats not the only reason i play games but. it is A reason#and rn im like. i havent gotten a break in terms of Busy Life#so really focusing on games and such is... a good way for me to feel better
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