@strangersteddierthings this is for you. (There will be more, but I have stuff to do for Environmental Science homework, and need to post something about it, so that I can’t decide to give up abandon this—so I guess this is part 1/???)
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Honestly, Eddie wasn’t sure where he went wrong. One minute, he was sitting with Steve, watching some movie that Steve had been far too excited to show him, and then next minute he was walking home. Alone.
It had been his fault, really, and he knew it.
He had kissed Steve Harrington. He had kissed Steve Harrington. What the actual fuck had he done?
There was something in him that jumped at the chance to make a real move once Steve had said he also liked men, and something in him that wanted to curl up and die on the spot because that just made this whole situation worse. Because he liked guys, but he didn’t like Eddie, and that was all too apparent when Steve’s face went from nervous to startled, frozen in place as Eddie instantly regretted everything.
“Is this a joke to you?” Steve had whispered, his voice sounding broken, tears in his eyes as he stood up and looked over at Eddie, arms crossed over chest like he was trying to hide himself—slumped over like he wanted to disappear.
“Steve—“
“I—I’m being serious! I mean it, Eddie…do—do you know how hard this is to say? How much it hurts to admit?” Steve shook his head slightly, his eyebrows pinched together, and Eddie wanted to explain everything, but he couldn’t. He was stuck, frozen in place on the couch, wanting so badly to tell Steve what he meant—what he wanted.
But he was walking home alone. The air was cold, and it felt even colder since he had left in a hurry, excusing himself before Steve would’ve started crying, because it hurt to see him like that, so scared and devastated—like he thought Eddie was going to tell everyone. And he wasn’t. Of course he wasn’t! He would never do that—but Steve didn’t know that.
So he had left his coat, only in a t-shirt and jeans.
He was going to have to go back and get it eventually. He knew that. But he didn’t want to face Steve—to have to admit why he did what he had, and how it wasn’t a joke to him—it was never a joke. It was just easier to ignore him than to face the truth and have to tell him.
The one thing nobody ever talked about enough was how painful feelings could be.
EDIT: there are more parts, and it is finished (maybe I don’t know if I’ll expand on this in the future)!
part 2, part 3, part 4
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O great librarian please bestow your wisdom upon me.
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Mutual left this tag on one of my Fuuta analyses and yeah...
Part two of "Fuuta’s central theme is invasion of privacy and he has extreme anxiety over being watched, so it's interesting that we get to pick him apart and see all his worst, most private thoughts" :(
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Megamind and Roxanne dynamic but it's Raphaella and Lyfrassir. Raphaella la Cognizi, the dumb-smart mad scientist, and Lyfrassir Edda, the cute reporter/journalist she's always kidnapping. Obviously they fall in love bonus points for any of the following: Marius as Minion, if you can figure out how Ivy would fit into the dynamic because this feels so so so wrong without her she's my wife I love her (maybe Bernard somehow? or just a new character placement period), and BONUS bonus points for a polycule between the four of them.
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Dustin: jellyfish have been living for 600000 years without brains.
Max: a ray of hope for Mike
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fic idea, "The Adventures of a Drunk Queen Bee" chapter one, " what will happen if we tape buttered bread to Adrien's back and he jumps off a building? Will he land on his feet or on his back?"
There was laughing in the background as she adjusted the camera. Giving her signature smirk, Queen Bee wobbly stood up and gestured to the other heroes at the back.
"Hello, citizens of Paris! Today you will witness one of the greatest discovery to human and Kwami kind. An experiment worth your commoners attention span at 3 A.M. on a Monday." There was some shuffling and a red clad hand wrapped around her shoulder, the owner looking both amused and annoyed, "Bee, you're drunk."
"Citizens of Paris, this isn't the experiment I meant. Although, Ladybug and I have already tried various positions for better -"
"Oh my god, Bee!" A blushing Ladybug tackled her to the floor. There was some more giggling and a yelp as Rena appeared on the screen. Smiling mischievously, she grabbed the camera and not so gracefully walked over the two bugs, "The lovebirds are tied in a battle on who's going to come on top, but personally I think it's always Ladybug."
"Excuse me?!" Queen Bee's shriek made her laugh, "I am an amazing les-bee-an!"
"Not with those stupid puns."
A scoff, "You love my puns. You love anything that comes out of my mouth, darling."
"You being drunk should be a crime."
"You being an unsupportive girlfriend is a threat to humanity!"
Ladybug sighed as Queen Bee tried to wrestle her way out, "Why am I dating you?"
Silence. Then, "You wanna show the audience why? I wouldn't mind- ow, hey! You fucking brat!"
Rena shrugged as she turned the camera towards her, "They'll be fine. If I hear some non kiddy friendly sounds I'm kicking them off the roof."
Having reached her destination, she gave a bow as she showed their audience the 'experiment' Queen Bee had mentioned.
"Behold, cat on buttered bread. Will he land on his toes, back, or therapy?"
Chat Noir grinned and twirled, showing off the massive piece of bread drenched in butter at his back, "I don't mind either one. Father, are you seeing this? I can land on my own now!"
Carapace looked at the two, then at the camera, "I hope it's therapy."
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i nEed to get my life together
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mc clones themselves and the ol boys are either like "omg which is the real one" or "omg two of them!!!! This is awesome!!!"
MC, you have cloned yourself! How have you done it?! I have no idea, I am not a Science Person. Maybe you are a Science Person, or maybe it was magic. Maybe you got struck by lightning or had a fortune cookie with Jamie Lee Curtis and the universe got confused on what it should do, I don't know. But here you are, both of you, and now your favorite boys have some feelings.
-- Whatever you did, it's not a surprise for Cove. He doesn't need to talk about the details, but instead he's like "Challenge accepted."
-- He knows you so well, he's going to get to the bottom of which one is the real you.
Cove: What happened in fourth grade at recess on December 11th?
You: Wait, do you know?
Cove: *furiously takes notes*
-- Derek, as always, needs to know if you're ok. Is your clone dangerous? Does it make you sad? How can he help? Please for the love of god let that boy help you.
-- He is going to be up all night trying to figure out how to get things back to normal. He has no idea what's going on, but he has to try.
-- Baxter, meanwhile, is a little weirdo about it.
Baxter: Well well, what an interesting turn of events.
Both MCs: Oh no.
Cove shouting from the corner: WHAT WAS THE MERMAID NAME I USED FOR A WEEK BEFORE I DECIDED IT WAS TOO FLASHY?
The real you: Cove, nobody remembers that stuff but you!
Cove: AHA!
-- But for real, if this was some kind of science thing gone wrong, like "Honey I Shrunk the Kids" except "Honey I Made Two of Me," then Derek is going to be so serious. He will become an expert in whatever it is that made this happen so he can help.
-- Baxter will comfort you if this was a mistake, but if it was something you did on purpose ... well, what a treat.
-- After Cove is done make sure the real you is the real you, he will be fine taking out the clone version for a test ride. It won't be as good as the real thing, but if he can have this version of you while you have to go to work or go to an appointment or do things without him, then that's better than nothing.
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Hello there 👋
Can you talk about why you feel the way you do about the female bsd characters? (including the female characters you like) and while I don't think the author doesn't know how to write female characters I think the biggest problem with the female characters is that they're underutilized and barely have much screentime ( the most one we saw recently having screentime currently in the manga is teruko)
Hi!! I love you all SO much but seriously I don't have the mental stability to talk about why the bsd female characters are badly written ahah. Here's my best attempt at it:
I hope it's enough for me to say there's a female / male characters proportion of like 1:10, and no female character has any real repercussion on the plot– literally. Besides from Kyouka and Lucy and maybe Yosano? you could hypothetically erease every other female character and... Realistically, nothing would change. That's just how much irrelevant all but three female characters are, and there's already very few compared to the rest of the male cast. The four main / most popular characters are all males. Dazai is openly sexist and it's just kind of there never to be addressed. Akutagawa is repetedly violent with his female coworker and it's treated as a gag (like you DO realize how repulsive it is to write a character who is obsessed with her abuser and never be intentioned to elaborate on that because I guess that's what women are supposed to do according to author? Like. okay). But honestly the main issue for me is how each of them literally gravitates around another male character. God, it's SO annoying. And I mean every single of them!!! Every. single. Every single!!!! I struggle to come up with even one exception to the pattern. Kyouka has Atsushi as her savior, Lucy has Atsushi as her savior, Higuchi is obsessed with Akutagawa, Naomi is obsessed with Jun'ichirou, Gin literally exists because of Akutagawa, Alcott is just there to aid Fitzgerald, Margaret's only role in the story is to save Hawthorne, Elise is just expression of Mori. Teruko is a person in the body of a child who literally drools over her 50-something superior, like we hadn't as a society come to the common agreement that the “not as old as she looks” trope was disgusting pedophilia apologism like ten years ago (but it's okay though, because pedophilia was established to be okay in this manga at like, chapter 15 or something) (is this the good time to bring up that time Aya asked Kunikida out? No? Okay let's just collectively pretend that never happened). Do I need to go on? I haven't read Gaiden, but do I really need to read it to know Tsujimura gravitates around Ayatsuji? Oh wait, I was just remembered about Gaiden's full title: Bungou Stray Dogs Gaiden: Ayatsuji Yukito VS. Kyougoku Natsuhiko, and if that doesn't speak of the consideration author gives their female characters, I don't know what does. It's just– no female character is ever going to have their own novel. No female character is ever going to be protagonist. They'll just keep being treated as they've always been so far, like flat and personality-less disposable plot devices.
Now. I love Yosano's backstory, I really do- I think it was the best executed arc of the manga, reading those two chapter still gives me chills. But you do have to acknowledge, Yosano herself has no agency in the entire arc development. It's okay, she was eleven, it's natural; but she is just tossed one way to the other by other characters. That, and I can't stretch it enough, is not a bad thing on its own; not all stories have to scream #womanpower to be good stories. It's a good story. But you need to acknowledge it does nothing to empower female characters' role in this manga; it just speaks once again of it being a systematic problem, how author can't write female characters like they were masters of their fate if their life depended on it. And it's not that just because there's one (1) mini arc that happens to have a female character as its protagonist, author knows how to write female characters with depth, or agenda, or an objective, or personality, because... They clearly don't.
Like. I probably became annoying by now but like. When was the last time you found any bsd fan whose favorite character was a woman? When was the last time you found people describing themselves as a Lucy kinnie? If you ask me, it's not a matter of fans' fault for overlooking female characters; the female characters in this franchise are meant to be overlooked, because they're abysmally less stretched out and complex compared to their male counterparts– because male characters are distinctive and unique, while author can't go outside the range of one-dimensional femme fatale, letal woman (Yosano, Kouyou, Teruko, Christie, Gin / Lucy / Elise too to an extent) and woman who's just there to obsess over a male character (Alcott, Higuchi). But do not fret, because author will sometimes go outside that scheme by making a letal femme fatale who also obsesses over a male character! (Naomi). Also this
(Have you ever wondered why I never talk about Beast Gin? Yeah.)
Okay but you see the problem here? You see how it's impossible to make the same kind of argument for the male characters, because they're all diverse and various and multilayered as much as their little screentime allows? Higuchi doesn't exist outside Akutagawa, Lucy doesn't exist outside Atsushi; but it's not like you can say the same goes the other way round. That is, crossing out the various parallels drawn between male characters, but that only speaks more of how precisely curated male characters are, while all female characters... I'll be honest, aren't written as people. Author really sounds like your average Washington Post best selling psychological thriller author of the week that writes women like an alien species from another planet. It would have spared me having been writing this whole post for an hour (two hours? Which is definitely not the time I wanted to spend on this, man) if only author would have formed the thought, at the start of the serialization: “perhaps! Perhaps I should write women as people instead of writing them as female characters (whatever that means)”. Alas, we ended up with the infamous Naomi description from Untold Origins (what the fuck. who in their right mind would ever think of writing something like that. what the fuck.)
Now, I know if you're here reading this you most definitely like bsd. It's okay, really. Unpopular opinion, but people are perfectly allowed to like things that are flawed (and this is a big flaw). What's extremely important, seriously, I'm on my knees begging you, is to be critical of the media you consume. All kinds of media. Even if you end up disagreeing with me on this matter, really!! Just be able to tell apart the things that make appealing a series for you from whatever kind of agenda / worldview the author is pushing through, and peacefully acknowledge you can like something despite it having issues (because bsd has issues). I don't know who needs to hear this, but someone definitely does: “I love s/kk!!” “the bsd storytelling has many compelling aspects!!” and “I recognize the bsd writing has flaws some of which actively harm an already disadvantaged part of society” are statements that can and should coexist, and if anything - and I know you hate to hear this, I'm sorry, I'm sorry - it should be kept in mind when deciding to support the franchise by buying its products.
One final note is that like... I'm sorry if this comes off as pretentious but I seriously feel like people have NO idea what media with well written female characters look like, because for people to even question bsd being sexist is just insane to me (in the way: do we really need to to talk about it, isn't it obvious like ten seconds in the show??). And this is probably the least good place to advertise things, but please do yourself a favor and read The Promised Neverland and learn what well written female characters read like.
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being super normal about White calling Billy "a dreamer"after the events of Maybe No Go
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hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo
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i really really want to be home and sleep in my own bed and do my little edmonton things and stuff but also tabling for work is starting up again and im like myyyrrrhhgh the idea of going to the science centre for the adult night within a week of my return just makes me So Tired in my SOUL
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thinking about my oc Jack and about how he went from having amazing success and happiness to world-shattering failure, then to a terrible, corrupt triumph. but ever since then he slowly, slowly fell to this strange flatline of being somewhere between life and death and feeling everything and yet nothing at all. people who know him from years ago got to see him at the peak of his terrible, corrupt triumph, but he's morphed into a much different man and it's strange to see this little character in my head go through this kind of metamorphosis over the years like wow character development in real time
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