#I still feel like everything I draw looks like trash tho

[emile-hides]

More Fursona stuff. I'm a bear now because my boyfriend says so

[denny-artsss]

Could we perhaps see a Gangle jealous of Camilla and Jax having to reassure her that Gangle is the one he loves?

Oh Boy *rubs hands together*

Tw: ANGST

Long ahh story

.........

Jax: *drawing something on a piece of paper and showing Camilla, as she imidietly starts praising him*

Camilla: Wow, Jax! That is so beautiful you're quite good at drawing! *shows her drawing to him*

Jax: that is actually not bad. Tho mine is better.

Camilla: *giggles* obviously.

Gangle: *crumbles her piece of paper and throws it at Jax's head* Sorry, was trying to reach the trash can.

Jax: *rubs his head looking at her annoyed*

Camilla: *rubs his head* did it hurt?

Gangle: *sighs* it's a piece of paper, Camilla. He'll live. *grabs her hand and pushes it away from Jax, as she starts rubbing his head instead*

Camilla: *stares confused*

Jax: Geez Gangle, what's up with you, latley?

Camilla: Maybe she's insecure

Gangle: *glares at her* why would I be insecure?

Camilla: oh! *smiles, trying to provide her with helpful information* cause your friends were very openly accepting of your replacement!

Jax: *stares at her and gets in between them two* lets continue drawing-

Gangle: *grabs a pencil and sharpens it staring at Camilla*

Camilla: *smiles at her* what are you doing with that?

Gangle: *lifts it up in the air*

Jax: *tackles her and drags her away* OKAYYY- we'll be right back! *drags her into her room*

Gangle: *crosses her arms and sits on her bed*

Jax: Come on, Gangs. Stop acting like that. Stabbing people you don't like is my thing, you copycat.

Gangle: oh. You seem to like her a lot.

Jax: What? Dude, she's an AI. an NPC. You sound so ridiculous right now. *sits next to her in bed*

Gangle: Then why is everyone all over her?

Jax: pfft. Because she says everything the others want to hear. It's what she does.

Gangle: I don't recall wanting to hear how I am insecure about her replacing me.

Jax: she is not replacing you. She has been created for that, but she's still not doing it because no one can replace you.

Gangle: *sits in silence and begans to tear up*

Jax: aw Gangs- you know I'm not good at all that comforting cheesy stuff...

Gangle: *wipes her tears and sniffles* maybe it'll be better if I actually abstracted.

Jax: *pulls her into a tight hug* no- don't ever say that again. *sighs* I hate to admit it, but I missed you so much when you were gone. I cried every day, hugging, kissing your masks, and looking at your drawings, and I just missed you.

Gangle: *looks at him*

Jax: And when Camilla was supposed to replace you, I threw a huge tantrum because I didn't want that. I like her because she boosts my already over the top ego. But she isn't you. And I want Gangle, not Camilla. *looks away, feeling awkward that he opened up*

Gangle: I guess I overreacted...

Jax: *kisses her mouth and pulls her tighter into the hug* it's okay- I would've probably reacted 10 times worse in your place. *they both laugh*

Gangle: *stands up, feeling better, and smiles* wanna go get some ice cream?

Jax: sure, just don't go all Yandere on the icecream man too.

Gangle: *shoves him gently* Don't call me that!

Jax: *laughs and holds her hand*

Gangle: What were you two even drawing earlier?

Jax: i drew a picture of you throwing gang signs and wrote "ganglester" on top, and she drew a chicken nugget.

Gangle: what is wrong with you two?

[le-trash-prince]

OF Episode 6 Thoughts: Top/Mew

I finally got to watch this week’s ep and there is SO MUCH TO UNPACK. I have too many thoughts so I’m splitting them between posts.

First of all: What a fucking episode. I was either laughing or screaming the entire time. I love this shit so much. Everyone in this group sucks!

Mew's bi momma! 🙌

When Mew said “I want you to meet my parents at the end of the year” and then “But don’t count on us still being together” I was like “What the fuck Mew?” LOL. Like Mew, I know you will probably never understand this, but just because you are not seeing anyone else doesn't mean that you are emotionally committed to this relationship. You keep pulling back and giving mixed signals!

“I think the reason I was fine without a relationship was because I got enough love from family and friends” Mew how about you recognize that you’re demi instead of psychoanalyzing your slutty friends!

Tbh tho, I know it's really hard to come to terms with your own sexuality, especially when it's so different from everyone around you. We try to come up with reasons as to why people are different, rather than being able to accept that these differences can be inherent to who we are as people.

I think this episode showed more than any other just how genuine Top’s feelings for Mew really are. And of course this had to be the episode it all came crashing down.

Like the notebook of drawings he gave him? That was super sweet and thoughtful as a gift—ppl prob expect someone like Top to just throw money at his lovers but instead he put time and effort into his gift. You can’t draw someone like that without really looking at them. There wasn’t anything in that gift that said "fuckboy" or “I’m doing this just so you will sleep with me.”

Felt like there was an intentional parallel between Top kissing Mew’s forehead while he was asleep and Ray kissing Mew on the mouth.

I feel like I need to rewatch to process “Mew and Ray get in a fight” and “Ray gave Mew the audio file and Mew believed him”

When Mew and Top got home, I loved how the change and tension felt tangible. Like something about Mew going into the bedroom by himself and leaving Top in the living room spoke to a barrier between them

Mew pinning Top to the bed did a lot of things for me thanks 👍

“I love the way you sound in bed” honestly some cinematic poetry, I was hollering.

As much as I feel like Top was coerced into sleeping with Boston, what can he even say to defend himself with? “I didn’t want to sleep with him?” Well it sure sounded like you did. “I did it because I thought you lied to me?” Yeah that’s not gonna make Mew understand. Lol. Again, I don't know if Top even knows if he's allowed to not want to have sex with someone.

It’s a hard situation with a lot of grey area! And even tho we kind of knew this was how Mew was gonna find out, it's the worst way for him to find out.

Of course Mew is going to be hurt. This is like the worst outcome for him, and it revealed a lot of his insecurities around his lack of sexual experience. Especially after talking big at the beginning "My senses are always correct and I know everything there is to know about love."

I wonder if he even blamed himself for being bad at sex as to why he didn’t enjoy his first time with Top all that much, rather than it simply being that he might not really get much out of sex at all. It's okay if you don't want sex, Mew, or if you don't enjoy it, or even if it takes time for you to enjoy it!

“I’m not worth enough for you to love only me.” Mew. Mew. *shakes him* First of all, Top thinks Boston is a pile of burnable trash. He does not love that man! Second of all, please don’t tie self worth to romantic love or to ideals of monogamy. It is never going to end well.

Again, "I think the reason I was fine without a relationship is because I got so much love from family and friends." Mew are you being honest with yourself? You even said yourself that the reason you slept with Top was because you were worried about him getting bored with you.

I may have mentioned this before, but I think the reason that "mastermind Mew" was so popular with the fandom at the beginning of the series is because people wanted it to be true, because if Mew had seen this coming, he wouldn't have gotten hurt. I don't think it came from "we think Mew is evil or manipulative or whatever," I think we just didn't want to watch a person as naive as Mew get hurt. Because that's what happens the majority of the time in real life. People get hurt.

Sad lonely himbo Top in the bathtub 👍

Overall, I really enjoy watching their relationship. It's very complicated; it's nowhere near as straightforward as a "fuckboy cheats on his virgin boyfriend" plotline could easily be. I don't think they had a solid foundation for their relationship. They enjoy their dates, but there hasn't been a lot of great communication between them, which as I mentioned on a previous post, is very normal, especially for a first or second relationship. And for both of them, I think this is their first real attempt at a relationship, and neither of them know what they're doing.

In the preview, we see a clip of Mew in the bathtub where his expression changes, and it really looks like a symbolic transformation to me. Whether we get revenge era Mew or "let's try this again with more emotional transparency" Mew, I'm here for it.

[brb-on-a-quest]

For the writer asks: 4, 15, 27, and 30 <3

HI IGGY!! :) :) :) tysm; i haven't actually looked through most of these yet so I should do that first XD. Numbers are from here

4- (story idea I haven't written yet)

Ok so I have started this one but then decided I hated it so it's mulling on the back burner until I have more energy to rehash it out for better stuff is part of The Doctor and The Butler storyarc(?world?) at this point, but basically the robins all take the Doc on a Proper Road Trip and it All Goes To Chaos(tm) because the Doctor Does Not Do RoadTrips in the slightest because he just pops in and out of time on a whim and doesn't seem to do great in small spaces for more than 15 minutes (basing this on the cube episode in the Matt Smith Era). It'd be good but it needs a certain... vibe yk? haven't gotten there.

15- (favorite weather for writing). Not a weather, but I can only write when it's dark outside bc then I don't feel about about not doing homework/other things. Rain is also good tho.

27- (Favorite part of writing process). The part in Brainstorming where it all starts coming together and you're just squealing like your twelve and some cool people just invited you to hangout with them, and then you start writing and everything goes smoothly.

30- (Share a fic you're proud of)

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm I don't have any full-length WIP done for you to look at but I think I have some assignments (checks through old google documents) lmao no what assignments (shoves them all into the fireplace). Let me give you the beginning of one of my current WIPS that im really proud of currently even if I've been writing and rewriting it so many times.

It wasn’t even close to the moonset when hands and voices raised them from sleep. “Misha, Rose. On your feet. It’s your turn now.”  “Ugh, just kill me now,” Rose muttered as she and Misha both sat up blearily. “Be quicker and easier.” “That’s the coward’s way out. Also, way too expensive.” Misha stood up and rubbed her eyes. “How much fest prep do we gotta do still, Dani?” She watched as the freckled elf started climbing to the top bunk.  Daeneryl flopped down on her mattress, clutching a fat feather pillow, with a yawn. “Just drinks, but those are last minute.”  “Oh, and be careful how you tread around the old man today.” Fayley peeled off her slippers from her feet as Misha and Rose got dressed into their outfits for the day. “Got a new run of trash gryphons. Damn pests.” “Thought Sammy took care of all that?” Rose sighed as she pulled a brush from the vanity table to untangle a sea of unruly curly hair. Starting from the bottom, she winced every time she had to pull it through to the end.  “He was supposed to. Says he did his whole ‘pied piper act’ which he did, but apparently these are a different breed.” Dani sighed. “Nick’s looking into wizard enchantments.”  Eventually, Rose gave it up and threw it all up in a slicked-back ponytail, held in place with an assortment of ribbons and pins. “One day, I swear, I’m just going to take a knife to this and hack it off.” “You’ve been saying that for five years,” Dani laughed. “I’ll believe it when I see it.” “Watch me.” Rose grimaced. Misha shook her head silently as she braided the front sections of her hair and tied it back with a bright orange ribbon that matched her flowing skirt. It was one of her favorites because it made her stand out in a crowd that mostly wore shades of brown and black for practicality. She slipped into her boots and crouched down, waiting for Rose.

Rose caught sight of her and rolled her eyes. “You’re asking for it. Fayley, your count.”  There was a muffled “Go” and fingers interweaved the laces with their corresponding hooks. They looked up when they were finished, approximately the exact same time. “Call that one a draw, I suppose.” Rose shrugged. “Come on, let’s get some food before we have to deal with life.”

[theendofuno]

okay….haii tl;dr: i want to throw myself from a reactor nuclear and besides loving this page dearly keeping it daily isnt helping me with these kinda of thought so ill start a god-knows-who-long hiatus

now *puts a music box version of meltdown by iroha for dramatic purposes* *cleans throat* pretending im talking to an audience its easier for me okay dont judge me :(

i dont know how to write texts but ill try my best to explain everything without going into too much annoying stuff but the text may have a few suicide mentions here and there

okay

i created this page in a very dark period of my life that never went away, it actually worsened everyday. it was supposed just to be fun and games, "oh this character didnt got released this month, maybe drawing him everyday for a month until he gets here will be very funny!!!" *stares at 2 years*

as you can see, i didnt had ANY prepare to keep going for the long we did, but this is 100% not a complain

i really love this page, i really do love everyone i've met, i love having this project with my best friend, but i cant and wont lie: it made me VERY worse than i already was. it made me feel good, it made me feel loved, it made me feel human again, and at the same time it absolutely killed me

having to keep this consistence everyday, having to do good drawings, not allowing myself to do what it was better for my own health just because i didnt wanted to disappoint people with silly drawings when the first week was all cool drawings full colored with a bunch of details, references and etc

i really lost my count of how many times i had a terrible breakdown or even an attempt and my first thought was just "yeah that sucked. anyway i have to work so people will have some art tomorrow!"

and to be honest i dont think starting this page with my friend was…..that of a good idea. i know youre here just for their art. you dont need to lie i know theyre better than i am and you would prefer to see their art everyday other than mine. dont worry the feeling its mutual

but well theyre a slow artist and i wont be the one forcing them to draw everyday, i am the one that can do it and thats what i did for 300 days until now!

but that was something that kinda broke my feelings also cuz im very harsh on myself and keeping comparing their drawings to mine, not only the quality but also the different attention it all got (and sometimes it was almost a 20 likes difference so..sucks to be me ig) isnt doing good for my little damaged brain. its 100% not their fault tho and im not saying it is KJGDKFDK but if im going to be honest then i will

i dont know how to keep going the text tbh,, so,, my point is that im havent felt well since i started the page, and i love it with my whole heart, and these feelings have nothing to do with uno, grand chase itself, or the community (maybe a 2% fault go for annoying people from twitter /hj), im just being a little egoistic and doing this for myself or otherwise i can go completely insane and well. psych wards dont look funny :(

i really feel nasty, an HORRIBLE human being, absolute egoistic trash by abandoning the page, i feel SO FUCKING BAD for not drawing my son, by not updating here everyday and allowing people to see the silly stuff i do, but i guess i got to my breaking point where i just cant keep ignoring my suicide attempts by drawing and keeping my mouth shut (really, my last attempt was so scary i didnt fully recovered from)

yeahhhhhhh

i guess that was it

i pinky-promise i'll try my best to keep drawing and posting everytime i can, but it wont be daily, and it may not be weekly also, but i didnt gave up and i WONT gave up, this page is my absolute pride and joy and i cant just let it go away for a bad mental day. i still love and forever will love uno and drawing him, and i'll be forever happy for everyone i've met and helped me even without they knowing, just by liking or commenting on my stuff

i hope you guys can forgive me for abandoning stuff right now and i hope y'all dont forget me. i wont be mad if you forget me. i'll just be a little sad. maybe cry a little *stares at you like that ( ◕_◕)* but dont worry. its okay.

i'll be trying my best to get back posting daily at least around day 330, but dont put high hopes. please. dont expect much. bigs chances i'll be just dropping a stick man with a heart ahoge saying haiiiii and go back to posting silly ugly art

[syrinq]

sy's Fun Reflective Post On Idk 90s Toys And Shit Or Whatever

glass deco

the shit you'd draw on some plastic, peel off and then put on a window. fucking awesome. 90s kid version of forbidden edible tidepod or whatever. the minus is that it'd eventually dry up and fall off and be utterly useless. I Wish I Could Have It Forever

-

2. the water ring things

especially if they had a little landscape like with idk dolphins and glitter. this shit was fucking lit. the gentle SWOOSH of the water and the rings going uppity and blah blah blah. awesome. fucking lit. a child's cocaine supply or something

-

3. wooden snake

whirling this around and getting your fingers stuck in it and it hurt a little but then you do it again because it feels funny. and also shaking it for the wooden snake noise. this hsit is aweosme

-

4. barbie/generic doll shoes

see video. seriously i don't even care about barbies i just wanted the shoes for that reason. (also reason i loved bugles besides eating them because they were like witch nails)

-

5. mega bloks dragon

PEEL THE EGG PLACENTA OFF AND MAKE YOUR NEW DRAGON!!!!!!! POSE HIM!!! FLAP HIS WINGS!!!!! FUCKING AWESOME

-

6. water dinosaurs

PUT AN EGG IN A GLASS OF WATER WAIT FOR 3 DAYS OR WHATEVER AND GET YOUR NEW STUPID WRINKLY SON THAT FEELS WET AND FUCKING WEIRD TO THE TOUCH! SO WEIRD THAT YOU DO THIS MULTIPLE TIMES & THEN TEAR OFF ITS LIMBS AND DUMP IT IN THE TRASH! COOL AND UTTERLY AWFUL!

-

7. the plastic puzzle shit that's really just a predecessor to lego

WHY WAS THIS ONLY FOR 4-6 YEAR OLDS. THIS SHIT WAS LIT. I MADE SO MANY TOWERS OF JUST CUBES IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME

-

8. rush hour

THE FEELING OF MOVING THE SILLAY LITTLE PLASTIC VEHICLES OVER THE BOARD AND GETTING IT OUT WAS SO AWESOME. YOU DON'T GET THIS ON A STUPID MOBILE APP WHATSOEVER.

-

9. play sand

COLOURFUL. MIXING COLOURS. THE FEELING OF SAND BUT IT DOESN'T GET STUCK TO YOUR STUPID ASS FINGERS! AWESOME

-

10. play dough

enjoying + hating the smell of these things at the same time. KNEADING FUN. MIXING COLOURS FUN BUT THEN IT RESULTS INTO POOP BROWN AND TODDLER-YOU IS KIND OF UPSET AS TO WHY IT'S POOP NOW

-

11. predecessor to tennis idk

the colours were nice. other than that these things kinda fucking sucked ass

-

12. marbles but they have a playground

fuck playing marbles with other kids during lunch like you're playing fucking billiards. THIS IS WHERE IT'S AT. ROLLERCOASTER FUN PLAYGROUND PARK ETC. FOR MARBLES. FUCKING AWESOME. FUCKING LIT. I LOVE THIS

-

13. the sketch thing

everything you draw on it looks horrible and if you draw enough there'll always be remnants of pen strokes. but it was cool.

-

14. stinky rubber bouncy balls

you bounce them around you accidentally hit your head with it and then you also scratch or possibly chew off parts of it because. i don't know. candy ball.

-

15. apparently called rubber poppers

annoying ass cunts

-

16. squishy water anything

bonus points if it has animals or wiggly things or whatever in it. awesome. fucking lit.

-

17. groan tube

also known as the kid's equivalent of an evil trumpet light saber weapon. why is it called a groan tube. that's the stupidest name i've ever heard of. anyway these things were awesome

-

18. those rubber things that you make things with

why is it called scoubidou and why did everyone make helicopters

-

19. the empty doll books that you could draw clothes on

very cool very swag. i sucked at it tho

-

20. apparently they're called jelly sandals???

utterly fucking AWFUL. a tool to not slip in swimming pools or just general shoe usage. DISGUSTING. poking in your skin 24/7. disgusting. awful texture. hate these.

-

21. anything webkinz but it's not webkinz

plush... online pet...... the best fucking wombo combo shit you could ever have as a kid. fucking awesome. and then all those virtual pet sites had to go die off or whatever and i'm still incredibly salty about that as an adult. look at that lamb..... my pathetic wet sad summer child i had when i was idk 7

-

22. magnetix

fucking killer things these. unless you drop a stick and it's lost forever and then it's Good Bye My Friend

alright i'm done my brain has lost thinking capacity on this topic goodbye

[bright-and-burning]

top 5 days of the year!

1. NYE!!! my extended family usually does our big winter holiday gathering on NYE, with competitions and a themed food thing (that is also usually competitive bc we are freaks) and so on (although as my and my siblings and cousins get older i’m reaaaally pushing for us to move the big night to like. the 29th or 30th. bc i looooove a party i love getting dressed up and going out with friends and doing like. normal people NYE. and i’ve only ever done nye w friends as opposed to family once, and it was 2020-2021 so mega covid lol)

2. friendsgiving/thanksgiving. thankgiving’s a like fucked up holiday in origin, but i am a big fan of hosting and gathering and a believer in food as love so you know i was out here in college baking 9 pies for a 60 person friendsgiving. also apple pie is my favorite thing Ever so its just the perfect excuse to have too much, and at my family’s like brunch (we dont do dinner, and brunch is Perfect. eat wayyyy too much food, go home for a nap, wake up and eat leftovers) we always end up talking abt awful things LOL. not in the way the memes are abt racist relatives, like as in we always end up on like. true crime type topics. like why are we discussing that unsolved string of murders in the area over bread rolls and cranberry relish.

3. some day in early may, like . may 5th. when you can lay out in the sunshine and everything feels amazing and the flowers have bloomed but you’re not quite at the sweltering heat of summer, so you can lay out on a blanket in the grass and read or draw or work on stuff without feeling stinky or sticky by the end of the day

4. st patrick’s day. the thing i miss most about college (aside from. the community. my friends. lol) is the wildly themed house parties, where you’d scramble to put together an outfit that combined like, the mafia and disney (an actual theme. i shit you not. we called it mickey mouse mafia house and it went sooo hard. i dressed as silvermist the like tinker bell fairy if she was also a mob wife. i had a friend dress as belle from beauty and the beast except she then strapped a nerf gun on). and st patrick’s day in america especially in college towns and ESPECIALLY where i live has a similar vibe of like. let’s put on themed clothes and get trashed. not as weird w the theme unfortunately but still

5. max fewtrell’s birthday. jk jk, i guess rewind a day and go w my birthday. i’ve had pretty uh universally horrific birthdays since i was like 11? but it’s one of my favorite times of year, the weather is lovely, and everyone’s looking for any excuse to go to the beach, so if it wasn’t associated w my birthday it would be brilliant (hence me saying max’s). i’m trying reeeeaally hard to just will power my way into good ones in the future tho

[vyibunni]

one of sashas rare smiles~ ft. little hades

[emohee]

hii! Can I ask some reaction about rich yandere kinda bully niki with a childhood friend reader ? ( why do I see him literally seeing the maid’s daughter and he is like “she is mine” yet he is always a bully but nobody can even look at his little bride or else… and by the years its just getting out of hand ) btw I love your works even tho you just started I wish you good luck and lots of love ✨weee✨

rich!bully!yandere!niki x reader

- ,, pairing : yandere!niki x fem!reader

- ,, genre : yandere

- ,, tw : yandere themes

- ,, word count : 647

- ,, yuri's note : THIS IDEA IS 😩💯, i had so much fun writing this lol

西村 力

backstory of your relationship<3

as a child he would steal your candies and hide them around the villa where you lived

you always knew it was him and so one day went to argue with him but he denied it all and ended up making you cry

you really didn't want to be next to him, because he always made fun of you, but your mother forced you to play with him, so as not to create any kind of conflict and not to be eventually fired

then you got to the age where you started going to school

he always forgot the books at home and so he took yours from your backpack, to make it seem that you forgot the books instead.

when you drew at school, he always tore up your drawings :(

in elementary school niki was bearable but in middle school he became your nightmare

once you fell in love with your classmate and niki noticed it so during a speech niki was giving to the class (with everyone present) he told everyone that you liked your crush, and everyone started teasing you & laughing at you, not much after your crush started to avoid you and at that point you just wanted to disappear.

luckily that happened in the last year of middle school, so you didn't have to suffer for long

in high school, you fell in love with your best friend, you often invited him to your house, and when you, your friend and niki met, niki always said some horrible things to your friend so much that he no longer wanted to come to your house

but obviously that didn't change anything in your relationship, you still remained best friends

one day you decided to confess and your best friend was about to accept the confession, but by chance niki came up with his group of "friends" and started teasing you heavily.

in a week the whole school knew about you and your bestfriend.

your best friend decided to change school and told you he never wanted to see you again because your love confession had ruined his reputation

and you were left alone once again

a short time later niki began to come to your room more and more often to talk to you, but of course you didn't answer him and did everything to ignore him

"answer me, talks to me or I'll tell my parents to fire your mother, and you don't want that, do you?"

you told your mom about this, and she begged you to talk to niki cause she couldn't lose her job like that

so you started hanging out with him just for the sake of your mother's job

your relationship now<3

always wants to hold your hand

wants to go out with you almost every day

"you are the maid's daughter, your mother is my parents' maid, while you are my maid so do your job and go out with me"

used to say stuff like

"hahaha! the loser likes me! pathetic" "don't touch me ew"

now says stuff like

"y/n you don't want to hug me? are you afraid of blushing? aw how cute! y/n got a crush for me!" "hold my hand or i'll fire your mother<3"

loves to tease you

feels bad and tries to be softer with you if you get offended

tries to make you blush

"y/n your hoodies are trash, wear mine instead"

often calls you "shawty" or "bunny"

takes a lot of pictures with you

tells his friends you're secretely his girlfriend

he wants to be the only one in your life, in fact he's your only friend

is actually planning marriage and children

"nishimura y/n sounds really good-"

"excuse me what the f-"

he has saved you in his phone as "未来の花嫁💗" (future bride💗)

he has a picture of you as a baby as his wallpaper

your daily texts <3

[dolce-peach]

Hiiii I'm pretty new to your blog so I'm not sure if this is okay but I was wondering if u could write this really angsty whump of Anakin where the reader and he have been together for a really really long time and unconsciously he's neglected them and he comes home and sees that he's forgotten that it's their birthday and he feels horrible and he promises himself to be a better husband and it ends in fluff cause i can't take angst (its loosely based on the song Birthday Cake by Dylan Conrique ) thank you so much and no pressure <3

Also i LOVEEEEEE YOUR WORK VHDJDHGIJRHDU

as we go along

pairing: anakin skywalker x reader

warnings: angst

a/n: ahhh i’ve never written for anakin before, so i hope i did this wholesome request justice 🥺 thank you so much for your love and support, anon!! 🥰❤️ i kinda threw in some personal experience in there (even tho the guy i had dealings with was a real shitbag in the end -- men are trash sometimes) tried my best to make it floofy at the end there 🥲 hope you like it!!

permanent taglist: @kaitlynmalikisnotonfire @just-another-loki-fangirl

** TO MAKE A REQUEST -- please check the status in my bio **

masterlist

----

Normally you would’ve been pacing around the sitting room of your Coruscant apartment.

Anakin was late, later than usual. You figured that he must’ve been in a sticky situation to not have sent any communication. Still, while you were waiting in the comfort of your home, you couldn’t help but worry.

Everyone knew he was reckless and never thought twice about his decisions. That’s strangely what you loved about him. He always spoke his mind, and he didn’t hesitate before throwing himself in between you and harm’s way. There was always this silent look in his eyes, behind all the arrogance and subtle bravado.

You sighed as you sat in the tiny window seat of your home, overlooking the city. You looked for a sign in the sky, drawing your legs closer. Who were you kidding? He was probably halfway across the galaxy still, in the heat of battle. You were sure he wasn’t thinking about you.

Because those days, he never was.

You guiltily missed when you consumed his thoughts. You knew it went against everything Anakin stood for as a Jedi, but you missed the days where he’d skip Council meetings and training to come spend time with you. Now in the heat of the war, that all seemed like a forgotten dream.

It’s fine, you told yourself. As long as he’s alive.

You turned as you heard the door of your apartment slide open and closed with a soft click.

He looked tired and worn, and you could’ve sworn he smelled like grime, oil, and sweat, but it was him. Dark circles hung from his eyes as he began peeling off his robes as he made his way to the shower, one article at a time.

“Hey,” you called.

Your face was flushed as you stood up. He didn’t even acknowledge you before sliding the curtain closed.

Your mouth was dry as you flattened your hands against your robes. Swallowing hard, you decided to brew some tea.

It was something you’d always done whenever he came home. He never liked the taste of alcohol, especially when he was grumpy after a long day. He was almost like a child that way. You had your tea, and he had his steamed milk with a small spoonful of honey. It put him straight to sleep.

Your heart skipped a beat when you heard the shower shut off.

“Anakin?” you called. Hearing no answer, your shoulders deflated. “Ani?”

You still put your tea and his cup of steaming milk on a small tray before carrying it to your room.

Sure enough, he had fallen asleep on his side of your bed, barely in the robes he slept in. His curly dark locks were wet with some still dripping on his face. You set your tray down and grabbed a spare towel. Sitting at the edge of the bed, you began gently drying his hair.

He occasionally stirred in his deep sleep from your movements. You couldn’t help but admire his relaxed features, running a finger along the scar near his eye, trailing down to his jaw.

You drew your hand back when he hummed. “Ani...”

“Hm?”

You opened your mouth but closed it, pursing your lips as you sighed. “Nevermind. Sweet dreams.”

When you changed and settled in your bed beside him, you turned your back away. The faint but sweet scent of your tea hung in the air. As you buried your head in your pillow, you closed your eyes, trying to fall asleep as fast as possible.

You wanted to cry, to say the least. It wasn’t just that night. You felt alone every single night, even when he was home with you. He was always worried about other things, things you couldn’t possibly understand simply because you weren’t a Jedi. No matter how many times you said you were there for him and dropped everything you were doing to help, you still felt like he kept things from you.

It scared you.

You barely slept, and when you did finally fall into a light slumber, you felt his arms wrap around your waist.

The soft morning sun seeped through the blinds. He buried his nose in your neck, breathing your scent in as his lips brushed over your skin. He murmured your name as you ran your hand down his arm to weave your fingers through his.

“Sorry I dozed off early last night,” he said, his voice low and scratchy with sleep.

“You were tired,” you said patiently. “I’d do the same.”

His thumb drew circles into your waist before sighing heavily. “No rest for the weary,” he joked bitterly. “I heard from Obi-Wan that we’re supposed to head to another system today. Cleaning up another mess...”

“Today?”

“I know, I’m sorry...”

You shook your head before turning to look at him.

He really didn’t remember anything the two of you had planned months in advance. He was going to take a temporary leave of absence for a few days and take you to celebrate your birthday on your home planet. You weren’t even surprised that he had forgotten, but it still didn’t change the fact that you were disappointed. As you told yourself numerous times before, you were sure he was preoccupied with other things.

Playing the potential argument out in your head, you decided to bite your tongue.

You cupped his cheek and mustered your best smile. “No, it’s your duty.”

He furrowed his brow deeply. “Duty...” he echoed, preoccupied with brushing your hair from your face. “Did I do something wrong?”

Your eyes widened. “No, of course not!” you nearly exclaimed.

“Then why do I get the feeling that you’re keeping something from me?” came the question softly. “You know you can tell me anything, right?”

“You too,” you said. “I’m here for you. Always.”

“Don’t dodge the question,” he said, his brow deeply furrowed. “What’s going on in that head of yours?”

You shook your head. “It’s silly.”

The backs of his fingers stroked your cheek, catching you off guard. You couldn’t help but savor his touch you were deprived from for so long. Even his unforgiving metallic prosthetic gave you comfort. Combined with his whisper, “Tell me.”

You tried to avert your gaze, but he kept his hand cradling your face. His lips were so close to yours that your breath hitched in your throat.

“I’ve missed you,” you started with hesitation. “I’ve missed this -- just you holding me while the rest of the world continues to turn outside. You’re never here, Ani, and when you are, your mind is out there in the stars, in the war. It’s like...it’s like I don’t exist. Not really, anyway. I’m just a warm body for you to hold.”

You didn’t mean to say that much, but something about the gentleness in his usually fierce gaze made your tongue loose. You couldn’t help but tremble when you realized you had finally spoken your mind after months of crying alone.

He was thinking behind those eyes. His mind was spinning in a whirlpool of guilt.

But then he kissed you. Your eyes were wide, half expecting him to make a verbal response, but instead, he only tightened his grip around your waist and molded his lips into yours. You couldn’t help but be breathless. His taste was just as intoxicating as it always was, drawing you in deeper.

Stars, what you would give to freeze that moment so you could live in it forever.

His breath was warm against your lips when he pulled back, but instead of saying something, anything, he leaned over you, pressing kisses into your neck before trailing to your throat. Exhaling shakily, you gripped the sheets that covered you.

He pulled back slowly. “I’m so sorry,” he murmured. “I didn’t mean to leave you alone like this. I can’t imagine what it’s been like for you here.”

“I’ve been so lonely, Ani.”

“I know.”

“I know you have duties, and I have mine, but...” You left out the inevitable.

He shook his head. “I love you.”

He had only said those words maybe once. The two of you had gotten used to keeping your relationship discreet that you never noticed how much you never really craved to hear those words. Anakin showed how much he cared, and that was enough.

“I love you,” he said again. “And I promise you, I will be better.”

Your eyes grew blurry with tears. “Anakin...”

“And you were never just a warm body,” he said. “You’re the only person in this entire galaxy who understands me.”

“Do...do you mean that?” you couldn’t help but ask.

He gave a small smile. “Of course.” He couldn't hide his growing grin. “I mean, apart from Obi-Wan. He seems to know me better than I know myself.”

When you laughed, the edges of his eyes crinkled. There were only a few times when Anakin smiled -- really smiled. He was always so serious, trying to be level-headed. It was like he never got to grow up and be a boy. You knew his shoulders sagged with the weight of responsibility.

Cold metal from his robotic fingers traced your lips. “There’s that pretty smile.”

His longer hair tickled your skin as he leaned down and kissed you again. Your hands hesitantly rose to his chest, smoothing their way around his ribcage. You felt the grooves of his ribs, his muscles, as his lips were soft against yours.

“Do you have to go?” you whispered when he pulled back.

“Well...” he trailed off. “I can’t leave you alone on your birthday, can I?”

Your eyes widened. “You remembered?”

Humming, his lips brushed against your cheek. “Check the nightstand.”

You flashed him a look before blindly reaching over. Eventually you felt the cold marble of the nightstand before your fingers landed on a small box.

“What’s this?” you mused. “Ani...”

“Just open it,” he laughed.

You sat up in bed as you lifted the small lid. A pearl on a silver chain lay in its bed of navy velvet. Your hand shot up to your mouth in shock. The pearl was cold in your fingers, but stunning as it gave an iridescent shimmer in the soft morning light.

You looked up at him, biting your lip. “Can you help me put it on?”

He smiled, gently moving your hair from your neck as he lay the chain on your skin. With the clasp fastened, the necklace fell against your collarbones, the pearl resting in the center of your chest.

“Happy birthday,” he said, his voice warm. “Sorry, I can’t take you to your home planet today, but I promise I’ll make it up to you.”

You sighed happily, your fingers brushing against the chain. The thought of not seeing him again for at least a few weeks was unbearable, but it was easier with him there at that moment. It was almost like he gifted you strength.

But seeing him shirtless gave you other ideas.

“Well...” you trailed off. You shifted, the strap of your nightgown falling off your shoulder. “You could make it up to me now...?”

It only took a moment before it dawned in his eyes and he pulled you close.

“Stars, you’re gonna be the end of me.”

[fixielixie]

someone on twitter brought up the idea that lwj is actually the hoarder in the relationship and instead wwx would be the extreme opposite and it got me thinking on why exactly wwx is like that and i gave me Sad Thoughts

the only things wwx feels like he owns are the clothes on his back and whatever trash he has shoved up lwjs sleeves.

it's clear wwx holds no attachment to possessions and a lot of it probably comes from constantly having everything taken away from him multiple times throughout his life. how many times has wwx had to rebuild his life from the ground up just to have it destroyed again. from living on the streets, to lotus pier being taken by the wens, fleeing to the burial mounds, the first siege, waking up as mxy, Jiang Cheng completely changing LP and getting rid of any evidence of him being there. has wwx actually ever been allowed to /keep/ anything. does wwx even have the luxury of being upset every time this happens to him when hes so used to it?

i mean, wwx loses both chenqing and suibian, both being spiritual weapons that are known for being highly personal and connected to the owner, hell he was so connected to suibian that it sealed itself after he died. but after he loses them he never makes it known that he even misses them or cares that theyre no longer in his possession. he just brushes it off and continues on, bc to him even if they /did/ mean something to him they could be replaced so theres no point in being upset over it. which brings me to post canon wangxian where wwx doesn't really look after the things he's given/gets for himself and lwj quietly collecting it all and storing it in their bedroom in the places lwj left for wwx to fill. lwj specifically clearing out places for wwxs and wwxs being too scared to use them because if theres evidence of him being there then it can be taken away. all of this being subconscious, he doesnt even notice he's doing it.

wwx choosing a select few things given to him to obsessively latch onto, either always having them on his person or lwjs and deciding that he doesnt need anything else other than that, its safer to keep the things he's attached to low anyway. cue wwx being caught off guard and genuinely moved to see lwj take care of all the little trinkets and half finished drawings he leaves laying around. wwx realising that maybe he has something that's finally permanent, that can't be taken away from him. thoughts of lwj carefully carving out a place for wwx in his life + wwx seeing this and realising that he may have a place he'll always be able to call his own. bc even tho wwx knows he doesn't /need/ material things as long as he has lwj, it's still nice to be given the option.

[im-actually-ok]

Fangs

Chapter Seven

First, Previous, Next

Fandom: Sanders Sides

Ships: They’re one big happy fahm

Word Count: 1574

Genre: Some fluff, some forebodingness

Warnings: Fangs, very slight body horror(the fangs), wild animal, wolf, swearing? Wine (Lo’s a wine mom this time) (i think that’s it but if I missed anything please let me know so I can add it, thank you!!!)

-----

Logan was beginning to regret his life choices. After trying very hard to get rid of the fangs, trying very hard to figure out why they stuck around, he found that the best use of his time was sitting silently crosslegged on the floor, staring into the eyes of an animal who is unwilling to relinquish its secrets.

“You know, wolf, I think I’ve begun to grow weary of thith room.” Logan sighed, placing his face into the palm of his hand. The wolf, of course, does not respond, so Logan responds for it. “Well, then why don’t you tell the otherth? Well, it’th because I’m a child with teeth issueth who cannot figure out this thimple thing. Thomething even Patton could figure out.”

The wolf in front of him simply cocked its head to the side, Logan mirroring the action, furrowing his brows while he looked at the creature before waving his hand and watching the imagined creature disappear with a huff. “I’m getting nowhere, and now, I’m talking to mythelf.”

To be fair, Roman had been busy. Thomas’s channel had been getting more attention than normal so Roman had been working nonstop to ensure everything was perfect. Logan wanted to be present for everything but he couldn’t let go of the feeling, he wasn’t quite sure what it was, but the closest he could guess had to be inadequacy. He wasn’t sure if it was exactly what he was feeling, though he’d never admit he was feeling anything, at least out loud. Though, that hadn’t been the only thing. Anger was a creeping, lingering fly that continued to bash into the side of Logan’s mind, but he figured if it was left alone for long enough, maybe it would simply fly away.

With a breath he flopped back onto the floor, staring up at the small stars pasted on the ceiling of his bedroom. Virgil had helped him put them up a while ago, Logan had been overworking himself and Virgil said it they were a reward, that Logan deserved something for working so hard. Logan hardly thought he had done enough to earn any sort of reward, but Virgil insisted. Only later did Logan realize it was also a ruse to get him to take a break, but he didn’t mind, he still enjoyed the view.

Logan hadn’t really noticed the isolation for a while, but it was starting to catch up with him. Sure, he had Roman, but there was only so much of him that he could take, and now even Roman couldn’t be around, though he couldn’t blame him.

“This thucks.” He mumbled to himself but sighed and made his way to his feet, “But laying around won’t get me anywhere. I’m thtuck, right, tho let’s think clearly. I’m… admittedly frustrated and it’th clogging my mind… What would they advise…?” Logan thought for a moment before sucking in a breath and puffing his chest out, drawing his arms up in Roman’s signature pose, long bangs falling into his eyes.

“Roman would thay something foolish like ‘Just take a breath, Erlenmeyer trash’, but it would be coming from a good place. Patton would tell me that I’m trying to rush through my feelingth, that I thhoud thop and feel them, but I’m not going to do that. Remuth would… No. Januth would get the wine… not a bad idea. Virgil would thay thomething like ‘well, if that’s out of your control, why not work on thomething in your control?’, though I doubt there’th thomething I could…” He would have dismissed that idea but looking around his room, his eyes widened a tad in the realization of how bad it had gotten. Logan was always harping on Thomas for maintaining a clean work environment but failed to demonstrate this himself.

A touch of red crept over his cheeks as he sighed and ran a hand through his hair, pushing his glasses up to hold it out of his eyes, “I thuppose I could benefit from a… more organized area…” Logan waved a hand and a glass of wine appeared in his hand. With a small sip, he sighed, “Alright. Let’s get this over with.”

---

After a long day of working out video ideas with old Tommy boy, Roman finally collapsed on the couch next to Virgil, who had been inputting his opinion for half of the suggestions and for the other half, had simply been roasting all hell out of Roman, but Roman knew he was just joking around… hopefully.

“Good googly-moogly, I’m beat.” Roman huffed and leaned his head back, chin tilted to the ceiling.

Virgil chuckled and jabbed Roman with his elbow, eliciting a choked surprised noise from Roman, “Yeah, well maybe it wouldn’t have taken so long if you took a few of my suggestions.”

Roman rolled his eyes with a small smirk, “Yeah, as if. I’d barely call them suggestions. You’re the main reason we ran so late, you one-eyed one-horned flyin’ purple idea eater.”

“What was that?”

“What? I’m tired and my nickname supply is running low. What time is it anyway?”

“Movie time! That’s what!” Patton cheered, entering the room with an armful of popcorn bowls, soda, and hot chocolate packets with Janus in tow, carrying the blankets and plushies.

“Woah, is it Friday already?” Virgil checked his phone to be sure, “I completely forgot about movie night. Is Remus coming this time or is he just watching adult stuff in his room?”

Patton hummed and plopped down on the couch next to Virgil, “He’s joining us this week, I convinced him because I said he could help pick, but that it had to be rated PG or under,” He smiled and set out everything on the coffee table while Janus dumped the stuffed stuff on top of him.

“Then it’ll be everyone this week, right?” Janus said with a grin, “Great, I’m /so excited/ to share my leg space with everyone.”

“Well… not everyone..”

This comment was made by Virgil, who was rubbing a hand over the back of his neck. The room went a bit quiet, the elephant in the room getting larger by the moment.

“I’ll go ask him.” Patton said, standing up, “I-I won’t push or anything, I’ll just ask and leave him be if that’s what he wants.”

Roman shifted a bit in his seat before standing up as well, “I can go talk to him if you want, padre?”

Something in Patton’s expression shifted a little bit but he put on a smile, “No, that’s ok, Roman, I got this.” Patton nodded and began to make his way up the stairs, leaving Roman to sigh and sit down again, fidgeting with his hands for a moment before moving to stand up again, only to be stopped by Virgil.

“Hey, Romano, take a deep breath, ok? Logan wouldn’t want you freaking out about him. If he wants to join us, he will. He’s not gonna bite Pat’s head off for asking.” Virgil reassured, but Roman wasn’t all too sure about that fact either.

After a few more minutes Patton came down alone again, telling them how his knocks were met with a polite decline. Patton wouldn’t admit it but they could all tell he was upset by this fact. The movie they then decided on, with Remus’s help was The Corpse Bride, in which Roman and Virgil fell asleep halfway through due to their long day of brainstorming. They then turned on Aristocats, a favorite of Patton’s (Cuz of the cats). Midway through was when Roman began to wake again, blinking his eyes open a bit to see that Remus had also fallen asleep once the movie he chose ended, seeing only Patton and Janus were left up.

“Jeez, everyone was tired, huh?” Roman chuckled, rubbing his eyes, “What time is it, anyway?”

Patton looked over and checked his phone, “It’s… oh, about 1:15, I guess we did stay up fairly late, huh?” He chuckled and tucked his phone away.

Roman nodded and yawned again, content to go back to sleep, but his eyes opened again upon realizing he hadn’t checked on Nerdy Wolf-erine all day. “Oh geez, I- uh, forgot to check on my.. Uh. I gotta head up to bed, night guys!” Roman said, trying to swiftly untangle himself from the sleeping emo and making his way upstairs.

Janus watched him climb the stairs quickly and sighed, looking over at Patton and watching his expression shift with the pang of sorrow, knowing where Roman was going and not knowing if Logan was ok. “Hey, you alright, Frogger?”

Patton took a moment to respond, blinking and looking over after a second, putting on a smile. “Oh, me? Yeah, I’m- I’m fine, you don’t have to worry about Lil ol me.”

Janus sighed and moved a hand to rub his eye, “Kant almighty, fine, I’ll do it.”

Patton blinked and his eyes lit up, “Wait, really? You really will?”

“Yes. If it’ll help end this,” He gestured between Patton and the stairs, “As soon as possible.”

Patton let you a small squeal and hugged Janus tight, “Thank you thank you thank you!! I promise I won’t make you do anything like this ever again, just this once, thank you!”

Janus rolled his eyes and smiled, “Yeah whatever, but if I get in trouble it’s on you.”

Patton smiled, “Alright, deal. This’ll make things easier, I just know it.”

---

Woah! Well we’ll have to wait and see what’s in store for our dear friend Logan. It’s been a good while since I uploaded one of these because I honestly forgot about them!! Hope people are still interested!

Taglist:

@did-he-just-hiss-at-me @aegis-the-ace @occasional-fander @thefivecalls @wishthefish916 @osdd1b-partner-system-dynamics @somewhatvacant @a-soul-among-stars @superweebside @ravenwashere1776

[fauxridium]

a couple more things about the ndlink au that i wanna mention:

zelda is still alive, though wasn’t able to take on nd on her own, she now resides in kakariko with impa, protecting the village from any monsters that wander in as well as trying to formulate a plan to take hyrule back, though nothing they’ve tried has been successful

zelda does not know that link is “alive” and in the castle, and does not find out until much later

people start to suspect that there is Someone else in the castle besides nd rather quickly though, because while nd was alone he would barely ever eat, though with link now there, they need food, and nd likes to get Things for link as well, mostly to wear, and he’ll send monsters to get those things from villages, so the influx of monsters taking food as well as things that are definitely Not for nd makes people realize Something is up (the beat getting faster at random times throught the day also makes people suspicious)((the beat gets faster whenever nd and link spend Quality Time together))

link doesn’t actively Try to change nd or reform him or anything, hes fine with nd just the way he is, he just inadvertently ends up doing that, which link is also fine with

link also takes up gardening, because he needs Some hobby he can do when he and nd aren’t being rabbits, gardening is also something he had always been interested in but was never allowed to do because of his father, so he finally decides to try it out, because seeing the castle courtyard in such a dilapidated state makes him sad, he ends up being pretty good at it and grows a bunch of sunflowers

the rest of the castle is also in a state of disrepair, both due to the monsters that are constantly lurking the halls and nd himself trashing the place in fits of rage, the only place thats gone entirely untouched is link’s old room from when he was zelda’s knight, nd never allows any monsters in there, and before link showed up he would only occasionally go in there to sit and grieve 

the reason the pillows on their bed are all mismatched is because before link showed up nd tore apart the pillows that went with the bedding, so he had to go around to random rooms through the castle to find pillows to throw on the bed (the dark green one is one he took from link’s old room, its also the only one that doesn’t have a single hole in it)

one time before link shows up nd attempts to make a shadow link as a way to fill the void of the real link being dead, but quickly realizes that that was a mistake because while it Looks like link, its nothing like him, it does whatever its told sure, but its eyes are lifeless, its expressionless, its Not link, and nd furiously destroys it, he never tries to make another shadow link again

link also has an immunity to monsters now, he can roam the halls as much as he likes, with or without nd, and the monsters dont ever dare to touch him, they Know he belongs to nd, he Smells like him, if any of them even attempt to get close nd will make sure they regret it, and they are all very aware of this

it would be the same circumstance with the other monsters around hyrule if link ever left the castle, he doesn’t though, he knows that people think hes dead and doesn’t want to freak anyone out or have to explain to them everything if someone saw him, nd also never leaves the castle so he doesn’t see the point of going anywhere else

thats about all i can think of atm, i do have plans to draw zelda and impa’s designs in this au at some point, i have ideas, i just need to actually draw them, i also need to draw more content for link and nd that i can actually share here without getting my tumblr nuked lmao, this au does absolutely live in my brain rent free tho so rest assured i am thinking about it constantly, i am also More than happy to talk about it if anyone has questions or whatever, please feel free ghdfg

also idk if anyone would be interested but my bf and i actually have a 7 hour long playlist that we pretty consistently add songs to, if anyone wants to check it out to get a feel of nd and link’s Vibe its here, though pls dont add stuff to it at all dfhdfh its collaborative but only for us to add to, feel free to listen all you want tho lmao

[itsclydebitches]

I kinda wonder, what could bakugou do (hori write bakugou to do) to make him less popular with the "anti" crowd. Like He was a horrid child no doubt and people who try to put blame on Deku or lessen the terrible shit bakugou did aren't great. But as we don't rly see it, we have to assume bakugous behaviour wasn't stopped, we only ever saw his mum "punishing" him when he was being rude after getting kiddnapped. Nothing will excuse what bakugou did, but he has stopped? He's overall a harsh person but he's not harrassing and bullying people anymore, specifically not deku, he's trying to attone for what he did to deku and has now apologised for it. His behaviour was never viewed as justified or good in the series, he's a scary figure in middle school, we're not meant to like his behaviour, so the series itself hasn't justified his actions.

As someone who relate to both bakugou and deku more than I'd like to admit (never told someone to jump tho, that's fucked lol) so I can 100% understand not liking or even hating bakugou but as someone who's not 15 anymore, looking back I also made a lot of really shitty decisions and like bakugou have tried to make up for it, and like deku I was 'friends' with people who hurt me.

Is there anything he can do for the "antis" to just dislike him rather that be "anti"?

(I'm very sorry if you've talked about this somewhere, you can just tell me to look for it if you have, I'll continue to look for your posts on the subject)

Hey there, anon! I think I’ve spoken about this only tangentially and/or in my main Bakugo meta, which is too big for anyone sane to read. So yeah, let’s chat here!

For me personally—and that’s all I can ever do: speak personally. I think it’s important to keep in mind that there is no single solution to please the “anti” crowd. Each fan will be looking for something slightly different in Bakugo’s character, much of which might contradict what a “stan” is currently enjoying. Given how charged a character he is, I'm not sure it's possible to get the entire fandom to like him—what I’m looking for hinges on having a different reading of the story than you seem to. Meaning, I think the series does justify his behavior. Not in any overt, super obvious way like having all the characters go, “Wow, Bakugo! I sure do love how you threaten people all the time. That’s super cool and heroic!” Things are rarely that straightforward. Rather, it’s in a more subtle, but consistent manner that paints a rather conclusive picture across hundreds of chapters.

Simply put, Bakugo is continually rewarded for his actions. Or, if not outright rewarded, his actions are ignored in a way that implies silent acceptance. Characters may not always like what he does... but they're willing to let it slide because Bakugo's heroism was always treated as a given, not something he had to earn and prove.

With the ever necessary disclaimer that I’m not fully caught up yet, here’s a list of some of the things that stood out to me in the first half of the series:

Bakugo’s bullying made him the most popular kid in school.

Bakugo’s bullying was ignored by/outright supported by the teachers.

Bakugo’s bullying did not hinder him from getting into U.A., one of the most prestigious hero schools around.

Despite acting horribly throughout his time at U.A. too, this behavior was continually ignored by the teachers and other authority figures around him.

Bakugo’s struggle to realize that other people aren’t “trash” doesn’t hurt his achievements in any way. He still gets top scores, still wins the tournament, etc.

Bakugo’s behavior gets him special attention from All Might, the greatest hero and Bakugo’s personal idol.

His behavior doesn’t make others dislike him in any manner that’s taken seriously. Everybody is still willing to not just put up with Bakugo, but—in time—start treating his behavior as a quirk (no pun intended lol) that they’re secretly fond of, rather than something he should legitimately be striving to change. Kirishima is the most overt example of this.

This is compounded by his behavior constantly being framed as humorous. Much like with Mineta’s perverted actions, characters might superficially go, “No, that’s bad!” but the story never demands any significant development because then we’d lose the “joke” of Bakugo screaming in rage at the slightest inconvenience, threatening to murder someone over nothing, constantly belittling everyone around him in a “funny” manner, etc. When fans talk about development of a manga character as archetypal and extreme as Bakugo, most don’t really want to see significant change to his base personality. Because then that would result in someone who doesn’t look like the “real” Bakugo: someone nicer, more even-tempered, more mature, etc. But for those of us who were never drawn to that personality in the first place, the continued acceptance of his rude, egotistical, and violent behavior is discomforting. The easiest comparison I can draw is between this and Bakugo’s mother slapping him. That slap is meant to be another “joke”—we see it constantly in shonen anime, something "humorous" you shouldn’t take too seriously because haha, it's just an overprotective mother—but many fans do take it seriously, using it as the basis for a whole “Bakugo was abused and this explains his behavior” reading. Well, I take the “joke” of Bakugo’s threats and insults seriously, especially in a story that starts with something like telling Izuku to jump off the roof. In the same way that many fans want others to treat Bakugo’s mother as a serious topic that has had a negative influence on his development, I want the series to take Bakugo’s everyday actions seriously as a negative influence on… well, everyone around him. But it doesn’t. His base personality is grudgingly adored.

The above two points are seen most overtly in Izuku, who never wavers in his respect for Bakugo despite how Bakugo treats him. Not just prior to U.A., but during their training too. Izuku, as the protagonist, is the emotional heart of this tale, so when he talks about how inspiring Bakugo is, it encourages the reader to see his behavior as inspiring too. Rather than, as said, something that needs to change. Izuku's continued friendship with Bakugo, his adoration of him, and his acceptance of the way he's treated has severely warped how the entire story sees Bakugo's actions. After all, if #pure Izuku can see the good in Bakugo, why can't everyone else? He must not be that bad after all.

I could get into detailed analyses of all the above—like how Bakugo was the one comforted after attacking Izuku outside the dorms at night and how the messed up relationship he has with Izuku is upheld as something to nurture; how the remedial courses he had to take were made to be rather silly, thereby undermining their supposed importance to his development; how Bakugo’s kidnapping had nothing to do with his flaws, but much of the fandom uses it as a way to dismiss any appropriate consequences because, “Hasn’t he suffered enough?” etc.—but in the interest of keeping this within a readable length, I’ll leave it at that. The point is that Bakugo has always been privileged when it comes to his behavior, resulting in others either outright praising it, ignoring it, or demanding that he change a miniscule bit, which always keeps him far below the standards of both his peers and the expectations of a hero. Everyone in 1-A must learn to be even better than the good people they already are... Bakugo needs to learn that other people aren't dirt at the bottom of his shoes. It's never been a particularly impressive development when pit against the rest of the class. All of which can make something like an apology feel pretty hollow. Yes, he’s apologized and I say with all seriousness that that’s great! But how does that apology stack up against 300+ chapters of content? As Bakugo’s words highlight, he's been a really awful person up "until now": he was consumed by Izuku being “miles ahead of [him],” he “looked down on [him]” because he didn’t have a quirk, he “didn’t want to recognize that,” he “hated that,” “grew distant,” “tried to beat you down,” “opposed you and tried to show my superiority over you,” and ends it all with, “it probably doesn’t mean anything telling you all this” before finally getting to the “I’m sorry.” This is basically a laundry list of how horrible a person Bakugo has been for the entire series, with an acknowledgement that this apology is coming really, really late. This is the moment where I could START to like Bakugo, depending on how he acts form here on out, but that pivotal moment arrived after six years of content and in the final arc of the story. It’s too late. Bakugo needed this kind of self-reflection and positive action 250+ chapters ago so he could (hopefully) grow into a better person across the story, not at the story's end. What we got instead is 322 chapters of him being a really horrible person, but the story going out of its way to excuse or even praise that behavior the majority of the time.

As a quick comparison to end on, I think what Bakugo needed was what Soo Jin got in True Beauty. You don’t need to have seen the drama to follow along. The tl;dr is that she has a lot of the core qualities of Bakugo: an all-consuming drive to win that was created due to abusive parents with high expectations, resulting in her bullying a peer to a pretty horrific extent. The difference between them is how the story frames their actions. When Soo Jin becomes the bully she loses everything. Rather than succeeding academically, her grades plummet, making it clear that this anxiety and self-doubt (things the fandom keeps insisting Bakugo is struggling with, but that rarely ever show up in the text) is actually impacting her day-to-day life. Her best friend drops her because she’s not going to support her choices. The boy she likes rejects her. She’s eventually forced to start over somewhere new - which importantly separates her from the girl she was bullying - and get some distance from her parents, resulting in the growth needed to become a healthier, happier, good person again. So when Soo Jin apologizes to the girl she hurt, it feels earned. The story continually recognized how horrific her actions were and put her into a place where she either had to change, or continue losing at everything else that was important to her. Bakugo? Bakugo doesn’t lose. Oh, he claims he does because he’s comparing himself to Izuku constantly, but that’s just him thinking in extremes. He still wins academically. Still wins many battles. Still wins at having friends. Still wins by maintaining the prestige of being a U.A. student. Still wins by getting All Might’s attention. Still wins by receiving Izuku’s respect and an agreement to maintain this rivalry that Bakugo is so obsessed with. Bakugo comes out well 99% of the time, he just thinks he's "lost" because he can't stand not being the absolute best.

For me, the story needed to have Bakugo face consequences for his behavior, not receive rewards and/or have others ignore it, and that revelation/apology needed to come way, way sooner. For me the issue is not a specific action that Horikoshi can have Bakugo do in the next chapter and them bam, I like him now. The problem is Bakugo’s entire concept, how he’s received by the entire cast, and his run across this entire series. "Entire" is the key word there. Which is why the “But he’s apologized. What more do you antis want?” reactions don’t sit well. What we wanted is a better written redemption arc across those 300+ chapters, not a single scene that’s meant to have us forget all the other problems inherent in the story. At this point it’s a far more complicated situation than, “Bakugo just needs to do X, Y, and Z and then we’re golden.” At the end of the day, Horikoshi failed to make me like him as a person and I’m pretty sure he isn’t going to change Bakugo enough to make him likable to me. Bakugo was never the sort of character I’d be inclined towards without a serious, nuanced redemption arc, but sadly, a core, crucial part of that redemption arc took six years to arrive. At this point there’s no way to change the problems in Bakugo’s writing for that huge chunk of the series and not enough time left in the series, it seems, to do the work we should have seen across the entire run. Honestly, idk if the Bakugo we'll get going forward is someone I can just dislike as opposed to being really uncomfortable with, but my money is on there being too little story left and too much investment in upholding Bakugo's base personality for that to happen. I could absolutely be proven wrong! But I think the problems are structural and needed to be better dealt with from page one, not hastily patched over in the final hour.

[sunlightandsuffering]

I DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE THAT DIKEODJRKRK LIKE SHES EVEN NICE TO REINER

😂😂😂 bro Its kinda funny tho Eren would lose his fucking mind.

She likes Reiner... fucking Reiner.

She keeps sending him flirtatious glances and cute little winks every time she drops off a scone or a water refill and Eren simultaneously wants to pull his hair out and stick his fork through Reiner's eyeball. And the blonde man sitting across from him knows it. He keeps giving Eren nervous looks and he's grabbed at the collar of his shirt too many times now just to be readjusting it.

Does she not SEE him or something. He doesn't want to be vain but Eren knows regardless of Mikasa's long lost love for him, he's a good-looking guy, he can wheel girls and it's easy. Objectively Reiner is also good-looking, but they're just not the same, Reiner is built like a wall and Eren is a bit more lithe and his face more chiselled. He personally thinks he's a bit better-looking than Reiner but still what the fuck Mikasa?

Well time to turn on the charm, he's usually okay at seducing waitresses, it's been a hot minute though.

Turns out he's not so great at it or maybe Mikasa just hates him he's not entirely sure. At every turn she stonewalls him.

Flirty wink: ignored.

Writing his number down on a napkin and slyly handing it to her: balled up and thrown into the trash. Coincidentally running into her after coming from the bathroom: IGNORED

Flirtatious banter: she takes the opportunity to smile and laugh at Reiner.

He's on the worst losing streak of his life and he doesn't understand.

"Hey, Mikasa is it? That's a really pretty name, does it have any meaning or anything." The line is a last resort and he only does it because he can't think of anything else. He just knows he needs to make some kind of impression on her.

She gives him an unimpressed look, "No, I'm surprised a guy like you said it correctly though, usually everyone gets it wrong." His jaw drops, a guy like him?? A GUY LIKE HIM?? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN??

He can't believe the love of his life hates him because he's been stereotyped as a douchebag. How tragic.

He tries to rebound from her epic destruction of his character, "Well I'm sure you haven't met a lot of guys like me I'm a bit different than what you'd expect." She looks at him in disbelief, but hey at least she's not trying to flash Reiner her epic rack through her low-cut shirt anymore. Now she's just irritated. "Guys like you are a dime a dozen. I bet your name is Kyle, you're probably in business school and president of your fraternity. You do stand-up paddle board yoga on the weekend with your dog at your parent's beach house and you flirt with anything that walks because you can. I've got news for you Kyle, not interested."

All of their friends are just kind of staring in horror at the epic takedown they've just witnessed but Eren shrugs it off he can take the verbal abuse, there's just one thing he can't get over.

KYLE?? SHE THOUGHT HIS NAME WAS KYLE?? Why is he being stereotyped like this, why isn't Reiner, he looks like way more of an asshole than he does.

His face downturns and his mood sours, he doesn't even want to flirt with her anymore, she's just being mean now.

Well might as well stick it to her today, give her a memorable story for her friends, he'll come back another time without a man bun and maybe she'll change her tune. "My name is actually Eren. I'm in pre-med, definitely not involved in a fraternity but Reiner over there is," he points at his blonde friend, he needs her to know he's a douche, SHE CAN'T like Reiner more than him.

He leaves a wad of cash on the table with a generous tip for his meal, "I do actually enjoy stand-up paddle boarding but I don't have a dog and on the weekends I usually volunteer at my dad's clinic. I don't usually flirt with a lot of girls, only ones with dark hair and bad attitudes but since you're so obviously not interested Mi-Ka-Sa," he draws out her name as he stands, towering over her a small grin on his face, "I'll take it as my loss for today but I'll be sure to see you next time."

He leaves her with a wink and he doesn't bother to look back as he leaves the restaurant, waving at Levi who is busy cleaning up behind the cafe counter where they sell pastries.

Mikasa feels AWFUL. That's the meanest she'd ever been in her life but in her defence she's having an awful day and she'd thought the blonde guy, Reiner was cute. He's just her type, blond, tall and with pretty eyes. Of course she'd noticed that the other boy was equally attractive if not more so but she'd written him off as an asshole almost immediately. So to say she's shocked by his response to her is a bit of an understatement. She's a terrible human being and she almost considers running after him, but she still needs to help his friends pay their bill. She gives the debit machine a mournful look as her guilt kicks in. She'd taken all of the stress of her day out on him, it wasn't his fault her car had broke down this morning and that almost every consecutive customer she'd had today had been a dick in one way or another.

She's about to awkwardly ask who wants to pay their bill next when a curly haired girl pipes up from her spot in the corner of the booth. "Hey I know you have absolutely no reason too, but can you do us a favour and run after him. I can almost guarantee it'll be the best decision of your life."

Everyone else around the table is nodding seriously and she doesn't understand at all but well if they all agree, who is she to say no. She leaves the debit machine and speed-walks out of the restaurant, picking up to a quick jog when she spots him well into the parking lot and almost to a silver car.

"Hey!" She yells but he doesn't hear her, he's fiddling around on his phone. She breaks into a sprint just to catch up and she curses how wide their parking lot is.

"Hey you! Eren!" She yells again when she gets close enough and he finally stops, turning to look at her. She stops in front of him, wheezing a bit to catch her breath, god she's out of shape these days.

"What can I do for you Mikasa?" He asks, as if she didn't just insult him.

"Give me-" She wheezes again, "a minute." "Got it." He says and she takes a few more deep breaths before she finally speaks. "I'm really sorry about everything that just happened, I um-I've been having a bad day and I took it out on you. I didn't mean it, I was just being a dick."

She looks up to observe his reaction, preparing to be reamed out for her rudeness but he just grins, green eyes twinkling. "What time are you off?"

"Ugh-six?"

"Good. I'll pick you up at six."

He turns and starts walking towards his car again.

She is dumbfounded. What the hell is she supposed to do, did he just ask her out. "Wait are you asking me out, like on a date." "Do you want it to be a date Mikasa?" "Yes?" "Then it's a date." He gives her one last wink and she's left staring after him unsure how to deal with the entire interaction. Apparently now she has a date.

[butmakeitgayblog]

I watched the clexamovie recently b/c I was too tired to use my brain and read fic but I needed my daily dose of clexa before bed…and it kinda sucked. You are 110% correct when you say the rich history, lore, and everything that we LOVE about Clexa was created from breadcrumbs by fans(by you! And other fabulous creators) The show; writing and character development, the acting, was sorely lacking. The imagination and commitment of this fandom and its creators is amazing.

You’re amazing!

I mean you're not wrong, but I do have to say I disagree a bit on the acting. Was it like,,, oscar worthy throughout? No obvs not. But I do think with the material that was given, a lot of them turned literal trash into something that has resonated with people for years. I thought Lindsey did great, Marie was good even tho I,,, cannot fucking stand Octavia (don't @ me I'm just speaking my truth), Richard is a goon and I love him, muh baby Ricky!!! Jessica Harmon is also great, props to playing Lexa's sexual stand in for like 5 seasons 🥴 girl legit had to have sex with Clarke while Clarke had to stare at a drawing of Lexa on her wall just to come. Oof, tuff break ol' girl.

Plus, I mean the depth and emotion that Alycia and Eliza brought to their scenes? When playing off of each other? Their chemistry was just insane. Especially when you consider that the character of Lexa could very easily have been a flat and cold one. But ADC brought so much flavor and nuance to it.

I've always said Alycia's main strength is her micro expressions. That bitch can convey an emotion with the twitch of an eyebrow and have it look natural, whereas with others it can feel almost caricature-ish. She emotes so well and just has this presence on screen, especially in that role. And Eliza, well... I think in general she's a bit of an over-actor as is, but when playing off Alycia she always seemed to pull that shit back enough that it felt really genuine. And again, their chemistry was just 🤯

Idk I agree with you about pretty much everything else tho. It was like the quintessential CW fuckery. Bad overall plots, shitty jumping from season to season, ridiculous inconsistencies that magically allow fuck all to happen just because 🤷‍♀️ and just poor planning and execution. But regardless, fuck yeah this fandom is wholeheartedly why clexa still remains as captivating as it is