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devils-little-sista · 2 years

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#I think I’m almost ready to go #I just have to write a goodbye letter to my old best friend and maybe my dad and mom #and then write the actual note on paper I’ve got most of it written in the notes app on my phone #then I have to figure out how to do it #I kinda found something online but I don’t know how to get it #so I’ve got a few more big steps to go but I’m starting to get things in order #I’m not leaving tonight cause I don’t have it all together yet #but soon I will #within the next week or so #I don’t think I have the mental capacity to write those letters tonight #I’ll save that for when I’m in the right headspace #I also have to clean my room before I go I’d hate to leave a mess for my grandma to clean up #I should add that to the list of things I need to do #I think I’m done for tonight #I’ll plan out the rest within the next week #now I’m gonna chill and listen to music and maybe go to bed soon or maybe eat something

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whereismyhat5678 · 8 months

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I don’t remember.

I don’t know what exactly happened.

I heard loud noises I think.

I don’t know what they were but they hurt my ears.

But then I heard a voice. I liked it. It was calmer. My ears felt like they were ringing, and he softened them for me. I don’t remember his face though…. But I think I remember what he said?….

Tw: There is no blood but I want to put it here anyways if anyone doesn’t like to see characters with a shit ton of bandages. (Just to be safe 🩶)

My body hurts…

#Pizza Tower #Are you guys ready for some angst?#I know it’s out of the blue but it sprung in my mind and I couldn’t help but almost cry #I know I sound like a cry baby but I think of these things when I’m feeling sad #I think it hurts a little more #I’m again saying this. This is all made up backstory. This isn’t canon in anyway I just thought it’d be fun to make up a backstory for Gus #He hurts so much #He also doesn’t know what the *wires* are on him for #(Peppino was allowed to go visit Gus on some accessions since he did rescue him. He wanted to make sure he was doing okay.#He was pretty scared himself. Obviously #Peppino #Gustavo

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itspileofgoodthings · 14 days

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Taylor returning over and over to the falling through the ice accident in the Bolter—everything to me

#like. just. the shock of it all #there’s something about Taylor where her experience of life is so ….. brutal #like I don’t know how else to say it but it just is. life is not easy on her it is always ready to CLOBBER her #and in a way she’s not easy on life. there’s some kind of magnets/opposite poles stuff where she’s just always drawn to the worst things #to feeling them and experiencing them and almost ??? creating them #like I don’t mean to overstate it. and I know she has a family who loves her (thank GOD)#and also she’s very practical and industrious about creating this very Instagram worthy life full of Fine Things and a Fun Time #and of course all the resources in the world at her disposal to create all the trappings of it #whether it’s a celebrity Fourth of July party or the eras tour #and she’ll do it and love it. but as all the best critics know and point out the most fascinating thing about Taylor is always the music #and it’s where all the weirdness and stubbornness and difficulties of her life. her a c t u a l longings her actual fears #her actual terrible awful experiences that she charges headlong down the paths of #is set free! and it’s breathtaking in the most shocking way #like falling through the ice! I always say the first thing that always hits me about a Taylor album is the bitterness #just this blast in the face. and her music is so gentle! in so many ways #and the packaging is so appealing and her voice is so soft and expressive and there is none of that weird experimentation #even musically (remember when she shut down imogen heap for putting a minor chord in clean she was like absolutely not. I’m obsessed)#(with that moment forever)#but like. so much of Taylor’s packaging and life and HER really does SEEM so basic or ordinary or just rich girl ordinary I guess #she likes basic things and wants basic things. but also she is so hungry so restless so angry so wounded the rich internal life is CHURNING #all the time. every second. and it’s spectacular to watch and also I will worry about her until the day I die #or just—-I don’t know. it’s going to be spectacular and it is sometimes going to be awful #but she will keep furiously writing her way through it!!#there IS such a woundedness to her. and it makes me love her so much because it’s packaged in such a way people think it must just be #whining or privilege. but it’s not! it’s just. the human condition and Taylor’s own flaws #okay I’ve lost the plot here a bit in my ramblings but yeah the ice metaphor. insanely perfect

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ethereal-bumble-bee · 1 month

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it’s me and my Tupperware container full of cucumber slices against the world

#lol it’s almost the end of the school year #I am surviving #So much has been going on (mostly positive things) and I am chronically eepy #Actually I don’t think there’s ever been a time where I’m not eepy #But I’m just ready for summer #Anyway cucumbers are delicious #Yum

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eddis-not-eeddis · 11 months

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I don’t feel hunger properly anymore. I broke my body, so I constantly teeter between “nothing” and “desperately, insanely, unimaginably ravenous” when my sugar crashes. The problem being, if my sugar isn’t actively crashing I just. Don’t think about food. At all. It never crosses my mind, so I don’t do any kind of meal prep and suddenly I Must Consume and there is nothing ready to hand, so I end up eating three boxes of dry cereal and an ice cream bar, and this isn’t working at all.

#I used to be so good about getting things ready and prepping food ahead of time #But I fell out of the habit and now I constantly feel like I’m on the verge of dying #Because I have to eat four to five times a day at least and there’s never anything ready to eat #most things require 10+ minutes of cooking and doing that while I’m actively dying (or so my body thinks) is almost enough to make me crazy #I JUST WANT MY BODY TO REMIND ME TO EAT BEFORE IT STARTS GOING INTO PANIC MODE #IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK????????

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xyztrio721 · 1 year

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NINTENDO IT’S 11:13 P.M. IN MY TIME ZONE YOU CAN’T JUST DROP A TRAILER FOR WAVE 4 OF THE XENOBLADE 3 DLC LIKE THAT.

#xenoblade #xenoblade chronicles 3 #xenoblade chronicles 3 future redeemed #SHULK AND REX MY BOYS #THEY’RE BACK #and HOLY FUCK is Shulk’s hair LONG #also are we going to get an explanation as to why Shulk lost his right arm and Rex lost his left eye?#I don’t think I’m ready for that explanation…!#Also WHY IS Z WORKING WITH THEM TO TAKE ON ALVIS?!#AND WHY DID Z REFER TO ALVIS AS HIS GOD?!#A makes me nervous because she has Alvis’s Core Crystal on her earrings and she’s dressed like a Consul #Is she Moebius A?!#dude if it wasn’t almost midnight I WOULD BE FUCKING SCREAMING #IT’S COMING IN A WEEK WHAT THE FJALIDGHAEI;AG

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pepprs · 1 year

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currently.

#purrs #what if i was experiencing ordeals so mortifying and horrors so horrible i could not talk about them to anyone in full honesty and truth and #transparency not even the dearest people in my life who love me and actively want to support me and listen to me or my tumblr mutuals who #are literally my bestest friends who live in my phone and in some cases outside of it so instead i locked myself in my rapunzel tower and pr #proceeded to cut off my hair and then cut off my dress and then cut off my brain so it could stop perceiving stimuli and reacting to it #despite wanting to get better and thinking it’s getting better and i couldn’t even tell my therapist because he doesn’t get me but it takes #too long to find a new one and i don’t have time and also my tower was getting renovated and also i was a little bug who was getting.#crushed by giant rain drops falling on my shell and bending my antennae so im dizzy and also it’s as almost midnight and i had to be up at a #work awake in 6 hours and ready to fscilitwtbeblike 3 things but i was screaming and howling and pounding on the floor over the dumbest most #normal sjit in the entire world that i couldn’t tell anybody i was struggling over because it would make everybody in the world blow up and #die and explode. what if i had to communicate the horrors through memes and vague posts every single day and that was all that was truly at #my disposal and everyone thougut i was being weird and standoffish and mean but really i was pulsing hurt like a strobe light every second o #of every day. becaus ei think if all of that was true i would simply go to sleep without doing the dishes and redacted redacted redacted red #redacted. and i wish i could. but i can’t. I’m just a little beetle and the rain drops are so huge. lol #delete later #puslng INCOMMUNICABLE hurt *. like morse code. like fire flies. Because literally… 💡💡💡💡💡#<- girl who has had separation anxiety since the day she was born. but also girl who never texts anyone back. girl who is a hypocrite 🥰

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avatardoggo · 1 year

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soooo i was right 🫠😐🫥 the Friend like likes me and it seems e v e r y o n e around me has known sINCE FEBRUARY

#SO 👏🏾 let’s just let it be known that i’m an Obviously Silly Clown so no one needs to tel me that ik already so i already told y’all how he #said he needed to Talk to me and i was planning on avoiding him but my friends said not to bc it’s not the Adult Thing To Do and he is my #friend and i care about him so it wouldn’t be nice so i didn’t me and my roommate went to dairy queen with him after i finished braiding her #hair so we were getting out the car to go get ready for bible study at church but then he’s all like ‘VK i need to talk to you can you pleas #stay?’ and i was like KAJDJDJFJFJJD NO but on the outside i was such a Normal Girl and was like sure :)) so we’re in the parking lot and i l #left the door open bc i didn’t want to feel claustrophobic but i lied 🤥 and said it was hot so he starts out all like sorry i made you anxio #us by prolonging this talk and i was like lol no it’s fine i was busy with exams and stuff and he just kinda gets quiet and he was like sooo #i like you and i’m like #🤔😃🫠😶🫥😧 processing #and then i was like ok elaborate and he’s like i have feelings for you so i’m SHOOK BC WOWIE ppl aren’t cowards like me cause i could never #and i say well thanks for telling me and i think you’re really brave for that but i’m sorry i don’t feel the same way but i still want to be #friends but if you need space then it’s fine as well and he’s like ya i didn’t expect anything from you i just didn’t want to regret not #saying anything so i was ABOUT TO CRY BC I HAD TO REJECT HIM BC I REALLY DONT HAVE THOSE FEELJNGS FOR HIM so i left and went home and my <3 #almost exploded from my chest i was on the verge of a panic attack and i told my roommate and she was LAUGHING BC SHES SUSPECTED HES LIKED #ME SINCE FEBRUARY when he paid for my pizza and aPpArEnTlY hOw He LoOkS aT mE 🙄 WHATEVER #AND THEN I TOLD MY SECOND ROOMMATE AND SHES LIKE O YA IM NOT SURPRISED #so i’m just an oblivious silly goose who doesn’t USE HER BRAIN like kajdjdjhddjd and and now i’m thinking of the things i’ve done that made #him think i like him too like i baker him a pie for his birthday and i just feel silly and need advice if anyone has any but if not it’s fin #just an update on my life if you’re interested #vk overshares in the tags

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salsflore · 8 months

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#its always the fucking chemistry projects that ruin my life #not ready to go back to school ... getting home late & eating the same food everyday & having less free time & hanging out with the same few #people i honestly! don’t even like that much.. zzz i don’t wanna receive my test results either – esp not for math #and i KNOW it gets 100x worse in a college/uni/work environment i think i’m just being a bit of a crybaby but i can’t bring myself to #look forward to anything at all. pass my exams & graduate yay ^__^ -> immediately go back and study some more #then i’ll have to get a job and afhjdkf... maybe i’m thinking too far ahead but it all feels inevitable anyways so does it matter if i am?#i don’t know why i’m struggling so much compared to my peers who don’t see any of this as an issue at all #was i cursed to be sad since primary school #i can’t even talk to anyone about it because my dad [ though he has good intentions ] almost always ends up feeding me a variant of #think about your future Or thats just how student life is. meanwhile my mom will begin a competition of Who Has It Worse?!#my sister has her own stuff going on and my religious aunt will say something along the lines of [ have faith & go with the flow ]#i wish i had someone to confide in but i only ever really have myself i think. it sucks cuz no one seems to get it at all #i know objectively thats probably not true but. ahh i feel so disconnected from everyone #cw negative #cw vent #i didnt intend for this to become a whole thing but i got carried away #💭

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stockholmgf · 1 year

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is it too early in the semester for me to be having my abduction fantasies again

#one hard assignment and i am ready to turn off my computer and go be a pet #i think i’m pretty take careable right?#i’m good and i’ll do almost anything for praise #anyway my address is [REDACTED]

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rosicheeks · 2 years

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😂

#so does anyone else randomly get the urge to put on makeup and lingerie and take content #and then once you’re dressed up and ready #you’re like…….#why the fuck did I do this?#cause uh same #it’s almost 2am and I’m all dressed up #and don’t get me wrong I look cute as fuck #(or at least I think I do 🙈)#but all I want to do is sit on my ass and munch #lol #but #here we are #and I’m not wasting this cute look #so we are going to push through guys #and take some fucking pictures 😤😤#shut up rosie

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possumsinatrenchcoat · 2 years

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I think ironically the most adult I’ve ever felt was at 17

#i can’t stop thinking about how ready I felt then and now I’m almost 30 and am like pfff I don’t know what the fuck is going on

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akkivee · 1 year

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someone on my feed has been talking about kuukou’s unwillingness?? i suppose is the word, to be in the spotlight, especially in regards to this fpmtr➕ chapter

like kuukou functions as if this isn’t his story, he’s not the protagonist of it; moving behind the scenes to ensure jyushi gets his chance to shine on stage and affirm himself, pushing hitoya out of the way to take an attack because he probably could sense hitoya needed to be on that stage facing jakurai, following ichiro’s lead and helping when he asks and it’s interesting to see it reinforced so often

#this is vee speaking #shout out to the bat stans on my feed crying and professing their love for kuukou lmao btch me too holy shit #the brain is making this akin to ‘the buddha guides us all’ that was brought up the other day #and the person on my feed had brought up kuukou’s a hero on the fringes of the story almost like the gojos or all mights in shounen stories #the person who moves stories forward but the outcome is largely based on the protagonist #(lol i’m filling in blanks on what this person I THINK was trying to say lol so if that doesn’t quite make sense my bad 🙇‍♀️)#the op went on cry that kuukou can be a protagonist too and man i feel that lol #like kuukou is a support character but now i wanna know how much of that is self imposed or instinctual lol #if it’s self imposed why???? because he knows he’s not ready for something???? did someone make him think that way????#but on that vein kuukou’s silently working towards his end goal so i think we just aren’t privy to his story yet #(hence why bb vs bat should happen lol what better way to put kuukou in the spotlight than making him go up against the poster boy lol)#and speaking of hella awesome banquet the martyrdom imagery that had been put on him also came into play with this chapter #the mv is a chock full of mixed catholic buddhism aesthetics #but you could piece together sacrifices made for the betterment of humanity from both religions and it’s been placed primarily on kuukou #pretty neat stuff and still kinda concerned if it’ll go any further than just this chapter lol #c: kuukou👑

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theolddivorcedzukka · 2 years

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fellas are captivated by my ability to stare blankly in front of me and think about nothing but zukka for seven hours straights (true story!!)

#spent that whole flight going back and forth between listening to music and thinking omg soooo zukkacore and reading this one fic #the fic is so good i’m almost ready to forgive zukka fics #the fic was pretty old i think i saw it way back when atla got popular again but never had the time to read #but still so good cause it actually got their personalities well in my opinion but it did have some silly miscommunication #and i mean silly because wtf ?? he doesn’t have any other friends the friend he likes is literally YOU #anyway still very good i love it so much i can’t wait to get on this two hour plane ride again *bites fist* and read it #ok sorry i’ll shut up now hi hi #vee keep talking

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tirednotflirting · 2 years

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night went from so good to the absolute worst so fucking fast last night and i have yet to rlly cry about it

#spent like half of the party with my almost but never actually sick roommate #while i was also wasted so had to sober up for that #walked through downtown to find another friend #chatted w them for a bit #go to leave to head home and i’ve LOST MY KEYS at some point #we walk back to the first bar but it’s saturday night before halloween so obviously i don’t find them #a beautiful wonderful friend let’s us uber to their place to crash #uber was 90 fucking dollars #this whole time i’m panicking so much i’m shaking #we think we find a reasonably priced locksmith at like 2am #he says he can’t show up until the morning #come back to friends place #crash immediately on a blow up mattress #have to get up to throw up an hour later #but hey #at least i didn’t lose the wallet that has everyone’s IDs and credit cards #i want to be in my bed eating bread so bad #it’s gonna cost like 200 for the locksmith and another 300 to replace the keys #so yeah free night out turned into a like $700 night that i totally can barely afford this is the worst #after an already awful week i’m just really ready to catch a break somehow #would take off tomorrow but i was given work w a deadline of tomorrow on friday so i can’t #AND I STILL HAVENT CRIED

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hellfireeddiemunson · 1 year

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i was gonna say someday in my life i will wake up before work and not feel like throwing up but then i remembered it’s an anxiety thing and it most likely will not stop so long as i have a job

#oh well it was worth the thought !#i’ve been working for five straight years at this job and everyday i still wake up gagging and trying not to get sick bc i’m so anxious abt #leaving my house and walking to work bc i always always think someone’s going to jump or kill me no matter how hard i’ve tried to work on it #i have like. actual agoraphobia i think like it’s genuinely sooooo debilitating and i Have to work i can’t not work i can’t have no money i #already have barely enough to keep up with bills and not having money for bills makes me so anxious it’s crazy too like i literally Can’t Wi #win*#anyway i am going to hit my bong a lil bit before i get ready to go bc i have forty mins before i leave #or roughly forty anyways……#weed is the only thing that gets me calm enough in the morning to stop Literally gagging every ten minutes bc i’m so anxious #so shout out to weed babeeeeey #oh also sleeping fixed my headache and nausea from last night!!!!! so that’s good !!!!#also me almost throwing up every morning isn’t even a nausea feeling it’s literally like i’m fine but i just kEEP GAGGING SO AGGRESSIVELY #ITS HONESTLY KIND OF FUNNY HOW DRAMATIC IT IS SOME MORNINGS #IM JUST LIKE O K A Y WE GET IT BITCH!!!!!

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