#I tried to look and see if this was posted already but couldnt find it

[heartsoftruth]

MIAMI | MAY 2023

[deathbxnny]

hello, jing yuan, aventurine and sunday with a teen!assasin reader who was ordered by their master to kill them but couldnt and [character] took them in due to their young age and frankly them being pitiful

Another similar ask:

hiii, dr ratio aventurine and boothill with an IPC agent/assasin teen!reader?

Reader was practically forced onto assasination, is hardened and doesnt show much emotion due to their past kinda similar to bronya zaychik backstory in the azure waters manga

This post is made in combination with these two asks, so I hope you'll like this!! And thank you to the anons for their request!!<33

Content: Angst, assassination attempts, Reader is a teen assassin that has no direct origin, platonic relationships, father/older brother figures, fluff, some brainwashing on Sundays end, sfw

Characters: Sunday, Aventurine, Boothill

Reader has no set pronouns!!

((Not fully proofread))

》BOOTHILL

He finds your attempt at killing him rather amusing. Maybe a bit too amusing. He laughed hysterically when he finally pinned you down with ease, thinking this was all just a joke... until he realised that you were serious.

Now, Boothill was used to people trying to off him through various ways, his robotic body the perfect proof for that, but he never had a kid try him before. And he had to admit, that you would've gotten him, if he was still fully human! Truly impressive!

He won't bother asking you where you're from or what you lead him to you in the first place. Once he gets you to settle down and hears you telling him that you can't return to your master until you kill him, he just sighs and scratches his head. Well... he doesn't really want a kid to die at the hands of their abusive master... so he supposes that he'll just have to take you in until he finds a hime for you.

He isn't put off by your emotionless behavior and even understands it very well, if anything. He doubts anyone could be happy under the harsh conditions you grew up in, but that doesn't mean that he won't try and teach you how to loosen up a bit. It doesn't occur to him over time that he never really looked out for a home for you as promised. Perhaps you have found it with him already anyway.

》SUNDAY

Sunday found your attempt quite saddening, absolutely pitiful and near pathetic, if he felt cruel that day. He felt no worry or fear, knowing that whoever sent you must've been a fool to think that a child could end him of all people, and yet, he doesn't tease nor punish you for it. It wasn't your fault that you were born to be mistreated at such a young age, after all.

He takes you under his wing as a disciple or student in a way. He wants to teach you the "truth" about life and what it means to be alive in the dreamscape. Your dreams can become true here, so why not teach you how to live on after your palms have been stained red forever?

Your emotionless and apathetic behavior does little to deter or bother him. He sees you as a child he had to save before the shadows of this sinful took over you completely. His tuning ability is not spared on you either, if that's what it takes for you to get better. He eventually starts to view you as a little sibling and is delighted when you get along with Robin.

Deep down, he will, however, always feel a little... worried that you may turn around to betray him the way you betrayed your original master by leaving him, too. But he hopes that all his lessons and the home he gave you makes you stay and be grateful for all the love and mercy he had given you

》AVENTURINE

Similar to Boothill, he finds your attempt amusing at best. Pitiful at worst, as he sees a younger him in your cold gaze. He knows he shouldn't trust you after what you just tried... but he makes a deal with you anyways, after you were forced to take a seat infront of him by some IPC guards. If you beat him in a card game, he'll let you take his life and get away with it. If you lose, then you'll have to allow him to take you in as a little "assistant" of some sort. In reality, he just wants to save you from yourself, this determination even foreign to him yet welcomed bravely.

Unsurprisingly, you lose. He jokes that it must've been due to his unbeatable luck... but he really just rigged the game a little. There was no harm in it, and if anything, he just saved your life through it. Otherwise, the IPC would've just executed you for trying to attack one of their agents. Even if Aventurine doubted, they even cared that much for him... but he won't tell you that either.

He gave you a calming, stress-free life, one far away from all the hurt and death you've been surrounded with since birth. He hears your story and perhaps even shares a part of his own, as he shows you that you are the same in a way. You don't have to kill and hurt anymore under his care, he promises you that and to a younger self he was trying to heal through it.

[irradiatedsnakes]

more reigen is dead and a ghost now sillies ft. mob all grown up. a couple other things under the cut

bonus older (~40s) mob bc im happy w her design. luckily her and reigen's designs just came out of the pen pretty naturally not many iterations necessary. mob's felt like a natural progression from my ~24 y/o design, and i kinda feel like reigen never really changes up his look, he just. ages. he's gonna be wearing a pink tie when he's like 80 (well, i mean not in this au, but, yknow). im kind of dreading designing the others.. i think tome should be pretty easy i have a fairly clear vision of her in my mind but i;m not so sure about serizawa. i know im gonna give him a beard though. others may come into this eventually if i get the ideas for it . i feel like designing older shou would be fun in particular

anyways. this sort of started cus i wanted to make an 'intro' comic to the au besides the post i already have, but i couldnt figure out a good way to get what i had in mind to a comic.. basic 'story so far' is that while off on a job at like.. ive had it as a parking garage in my mind for some reason. anyways, reigen serizawa and tome* out on a job, you know the story from the other post, reigen falls down some concrete stairs REAL badly, bonks his head right on the edge of one, beefs it.

(*tome at this point has her own job stuff going on- Professional Ufologist Babeeey you KNOW she's gotten interviewed for ancient aliens. BUT she still does stuff with s&s when she can.)

he comes to kind of gradually, like, feels like he's been walking for half an hour but onl having just become aware of it. he doesn't realize he's dead for a bit, just kind of feels 'floaty' and not-quite-there, with a vague awareness that Something Has Gone Wrong. he keeps walking, unable to remember what he was just doing, and finds himself drawn to mob's place, and fully realizes Something Is Super Wrong when he tries to knock on the door and his hand goes right through. meanwhile on the other side of town serizawa and tome are having a supremely bad time. things'll settle down when everyone learns reigen's not Entirely Gone but it's Not good at the moment

(also, something im not sure yet how to resolve is that tome wouldnt be able to see reigen?? hes a very weak spirit so hes not visible to your average non-esper and i dont know if he'd even be able to possess anyone either (in the sense that tome could see dimple after being possessed by him).)

also so imprtant to me that mob has a cat that's very important

[emerxshiu]

FORGOTTEN LAND'S SECOND ANNIVERSARY :3

I AM SOOOO BACK

I started this drawing yesterday around afternoon and finished it just a few minutes earlier.

I went with a messier type of drawing instead of more clean like the elfilin one from yesterday, i find it fun doing it like this, mostly cause i dont have to worry about making it perfectly so i dont get as frustrated as normal. Id place this one as my second best digital drawing. im pretty sure i havent posted what i consider my best digital drawing here, tho i do have it in instagram, i might post it here one day, tho these two are way too tied up, i love how this came out, its not exactly like how i imagined it but its really close to it, and also itd say that since i dont tend to play around lighting that much, this was such a joy to draw and i cant help but stare at it a lot, at least until i start hating it because i made quite a lot of errors. i also changed my elfilis gijinka just a tad bit from last time, but its not that big of a difference, mostly.

ofc i had to draw elfilis for forgotten land's anniversary, i tend to deny it in my head but yeah they're my fave of the kirby characters even tho i hate them a bit. I wanted to draw some more doodles, like, elfilis eating cake, kirby car, a bunch of other stuff (not elfilin cuz i already drew him yesterday) but when i tried i couldnt draw anything more, guess this drawing burned me out a lot, huh?

you can definitly tell i spent all the efforts on him cuz if you look a bit closer to the bottom part you'll see its almost barely detailed, but i mean, they're the focus so make sense i guess for me not add that much detail there. um also, maybe because i dunno i had OVER 130 LAYERS jeez no wonder firealpaca was slowing down so much, i need to manage my layers better next time, tho i did do something i keep forgetting, wich is naming them (most of them at least) that was a real life saver

Also, antares (fecto elfilis' spear/cadaceus), as always, was a pain to draw, but this time its probably been draw the most accurate out of every other drawing ive made with it in it, i didnt notice it was like, a little curved when it reached the blade

some close ups since his face is a bit hard to see

silly :3

fun fact! actually, this is technically a redraw, somewhere around between february and march i started a fecto elfilis drawing for the first anniversary, but i couldnt finish it in time, and i never finished it

thats...quite the improvement! (i remember being so proud of it)

also his wings are like that cuz i did not want to draw the pattern, its way too hard, i literally copy pasted it, wait, i was talking about the 2024 version but i looked at the 2023 one and i just noticed it also has the pattern copy pasted, i guess some stuff never changes since i still abuse the ctrl+c ctrl+v to this day

Also i ended up making a huge error there, i was planing to add the phantom spears from orbital pulsar (the attack he does first when you battle them at lab discovera) but theres an innacuracy, when they do the attack, they always close their eyes, i had actually sketched him (well i mean both these drawings are basically the first sketch (2023) or second sketch(2024) with some color, shadows and lighting. i didnt do lineart in the 2024 one cuz i wanted to be a bit like the og i made (too bad i sketched that one with black since the og was sketched with white due to me drawing the bg first)) with his eyes closed but them decided to make them open for a reason i cant remember, maybe i thought itd look nicer? idk

ive had the idea of redrawing this for quite some month now so it was kinda already planned

background cuz i think it came out really pretty

doesnt have the little stars since without elfilis and the structures it looks fucked up. the actual sky in game is more blue, but the clouds have some orange, in the 2023 ver. i made the sky orange, and in the 2024 ver i wanted it more accurate, but i didnt wanna loose the orange sky, so i did a gradient. pretty...

also here's a screenshot i took when i was like halfway trough it, its barely noticeable but i changed his mouth in the final drawing

I really love katfl, like a buncha whole lot, its basically almost my first mainline kirby game. 100% the demo, finished the game in almost one day, i literally play it monthly, like, every month i put the card in my switch, start it up, get morpho sword, and go shred elfilis in lab discovera. i would probably not even be here on tumblr and the kirby fandom if it werent for it. and i love it so much i genuinly cannot express how much i like it and treasure it with words or anything

Thank you for reading my unnecesarily long rambles lol

I hope i'll post tomorrow and dont forget like usual

Jambuhbye!

[youremyheaven]

Girl how do you manage to remain feminine/ sensual while still being immersed (and hopefully progressing) in spirituality?? I found it so hard to balance both as I noticed asceticism comes naturally when practising spirituality. There is nothing wrong with it, though, but I feel like it's more a thing men are comfortable with compared to women.

LOVE THIS QUESTION HEHE

i had struggled with this ever since i began my spiritual journey at the age of 18. granted that at that age i hadnt understood or embodied sensuality or femininity, i felt like being spiritual meant letting go of all desire and going into monk mode and it stressed me out when i couldnt live up to that ascetic image

and let me tell u something, the male spiritual path is the ascetic one that refrains from indulgence and lives like a stoic monk. men live in a world where they're treated like kings, so it makes sense for their spiritual path to be one where they refrain from it and restrict their own enjoyment of things (there are a lot of things you're forbidden to do etc)

however,,, women??? we no longer live in an era of matriarchal cultures and global goddess worship,, this is a man's world that we inhabit. our spiritual path is more so about relaxing into our own energy and forging our path in this world by doing things our way, away from the limitations imposed on us by Yang energy. women already live restricted lives, the female spiritual path is one of immersion and expansion because the universe is Yin (energy of creation and expansion)

its REALLYYY hard to find spiritual wisdom and teachings that are specifically catered to the female path because mainstream understandings of spirituality is male centric like everything else in the world :///

but no you dont have to sever ties with your femininity and sensuality in order to be spiritual,,, women are understood as being innately sexual (men sexualise us for just existing),, since men are tempted by everything they see (be it power, money, glory or women),, they have to detach from all of it to find the peace or whatever

women live highly restricted lives because men/patriarchal society see us as being inherently sexual and therefore a target for abuse. we CANNOT sever ties with our sensuality the way men can with theirs because its not inherent to them because Yang energy is NOT the energy of creation, they just exist, thats all,, they dont have an inwardly expansive quality, thats why they go around conquering things and establishing dominance in other ways (rising up the corporate ladder to seeking control over mother nature etc) they have to externalise this because internally they are empty.

yk those posts about men having no thoughts or only now realising something u and the girlies knew at 12yrs of age???? yeah, that. they are EMPTY in the head.

women have interior lives and a big focus of female centric spirituality is living in harmony with it. i think rn there is a feminine energy renaissance albeit in silly ways ("im just a girl" etc entering the pop lexicon and that being okay??)

this means reclaiming all the things society shames you for being/having. embodying the full spectrum of being a woman and living whole heartedly. if we look at goddesses, there are fierce aggressive Goddesses like Kali, Matangi, Dhumavati etc and more gentle ones like Tripura Sundari, Lakshmi, Bhuvaneshwari etc so being a woman is not just sunshine and rainbows. embodying feminine energy isnt just wearing pink and being a soft girl,,, a woman contains multitudes and society makes us think we have to be one thing or another, when the truth is, we can be ALL.

its the same madonna-whore complex in spiritual form

"u cant be spiritual if ur a woman who feels lust/desire" WRONGGG

how i manage to be feminine/sensual AND spiritual is by focusing only on Yin centric spirituality and understanding that for a woman, sensuality and spirituality are interconnected deeply and profoundly. the world tries to rob us of it bc they want us to be sexual creatures on THEIR terms. but the true power remains in understanding that power is inherent and we can channel it our way without regard for pleasing anybody or giving anyone pleasure.

shakti energy is no joke, once u tap into it, you feel so aligned and connected to everything.

i cant be a man or do what men do 🤮🤢(derogatory) and this Yang rat race and culture is just setting us up for failure. we have to find ways to live our truth in this world without opting for the traditional path. because when we try to be like men, we are disconnected from our true essence and fail every time.

this is a much larger discussion and i dont think i have said everything i wanted to say but these are just some thoughts as of rn

[natsmagi]

sorry for making yet another textpost but i came across that post saying they dislike transfem natsume because he "canonically hates being perceived as a girl and tries to erase all sorts of memories related to that" and also went on to shame genderbends of him aswell. So, as someone who not only draws genderbends of natsume but is myself someone who is nonbinary and hates being perceived as a woman, i thought id offer my two cents

first of all; i think its important to note that natsume does NOT hate his childhood. in fact, hes quite happy that he had such an unusual upbringing!

what natsume hates is being perceived as weak. thats why he was raised as a girl after all, it was his mother trying to protect him from evil spirits. he doesnt hate the whole "-chan" or "wearing dresses" thing because he has a hatred for womanhood, its because due to his upbringing hes now come to associate those things as being weak. he begs tsumugi to forget about it because that means tsumugi remembers natsume being weak, and natsume thinks tsumugi still referring to him as "natsume-chan" means he still sees natsume as weak. (iirc natsume did however once say that he is a little sad that he doesnt really know how to relate to young boys due to this in poltergeist, but i couldnt find the exact quote. either way that just adds to the complexity of natsumes relationship with his childhood, because while he is happy to be "abnormal" in that sense, it has left him lacking in some areas)

i have to ask though, should this conflict of his not be something we hope he overcomes? should we not want him to develop a healthy relationship with various gender expressions? should we not want natsume to overcome his belief that feminine things = weakness? i want natsume to reach a point where he can wear feminine clothing and not feel like some damsel in distress because of it. i want natsumes character to grow. i want him to develop a positive relationship with his gender because natsume DOES enjoy some more typically feminine things, like baking! he used to bake with his mom when he was little! and i want him to feel like he can indulge in that side of him without feeling insecure.....

i LOVE transmasc natsume, my primary hc for him is transmasc nonbinary after all, but with all these things considered, shouldnt people be allowed to headcanon him however they want? if they hear his story and negative relationship with femininity and how that resonates with them and they themselves are transfem, should they not be allowed to hc him as such too?

which brings me to my next point; my own personal relationship with gender and femininity. i was raised as a girl and i fucking DESPISED womanhood. i hated everything about it. i hated how i felt forced into a box i didnt want to be stuck in, and i hated how it felt like my whole life had already been planned out for me due to societal expectations, aswell as me needing to present a certain way. i was peak "tomboy" growing up, constantly wearing super baggy clothes and wouldnt even brush my hair alot of the time. but despite that i remained miserable. i frankly hated how i looked and would constantly dye my hair vibrant colors in an attempt to make me like myself a little more. it wasnt until i realized "wow, im actually not a girl at all" that i finally let go of believing i needed to look a certain way (and thus, defying it) and started to dress for myself. i started to dress in clothes that made me happy and feel pretty! alot of which leans feminine, but clothes doesnt have a gender, and how you dress doesnt define your gender either, but it can still be a bit scary yknow? especially since i dont want people to think of me as a girl, and drawing a bunch of femstars has really made me learn to love myself more in a funny way. i can put these characters in clothes i think are beautiful, i can explore the more feminine parts of me that i adore but dont want to express in public due to how i want others to perceive me, but it has also warmed me up to femininity even more. because femstars to me feels detached from the expectations of society because its not a real thing!! there are no canon femstars designs!!! i can do literally whatever the hell i want with it and its been so liberating to me!!

all this to say; i think it really sucks seeing the way this fandom treats transfem hcs and explicit genderbends, because like ive said before; they can truly be something so personal. you dont know why that person is drawing what theyre drawing, so its a little unwise to make assumptions based on ........ Well, whatever it may be. i know very well that women dressing the way society expects them to SUCKS, esp if you have personal ties to it, but you have to realize the issue isnt femininity, but misogyny.

[renzieluvsvt]

fall in you

pairing: bsf!joshua x reader

genre: angst, fluff

word count: 1K

summary: you have been falling for your childhood best friend!joshua. you are sure that your feelings wont be reciprocated so what turns will it take when you decide to completely avoid and forget him?

warnings: reader losing pet dog, kissing (is that even a warning? lol)

a/n: tysm anon for this request!! i enjoyed coming up with the plot for this;)) but so sorry as it took me so much time to post it.

anw, hope yall enjoy this one too!! will keep on posting as much as i can :))

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

"will you still not talk to me?", joshua asked you aka his best friend with whom he hadn't spoken to for several months because of some reason he wasn't aware of. the two of you had been friends since childhood, grew up knowing each other's secrets, grew up together even during the lowest points of lives but as of now, the both of you were standing in the living room of your dorm. you hadn't spoken to him for six months already. during the first month, he excused you by thinking that you were probably tired with the classes. during the second month, he was hurt that you didn't agree to meet him anywhere else whenever he tried to clear things out. it was the third month where you finally refused to even look at him in the uni. it hurt him to see you avoiding him.

whenever he tried approaching you, you always changed your path. it suprised him how his "best friend" started leaving him on delivered or sometimes on seen in the fourth month. his phone calls were totally ignored by you in the fifth month. and finally, in the sixth month you started treating him as a pure stranger.

he couldn't take this shit anymore. even if he spent hours in a day to reflect and look for some reasons that could have possibly got you upset— he still couldnt find one. that was when he eventually decided to go to your dorm and confront you. he had been refraining himself from visiting your dorm so that he wouldn't get in trouble for getting into a girl's dormitory but he was left with no choice afterall.

"can you fucking look at me atleast?", he said in anger as you tested his patience. you still continued folding your dried laundry. your actions hurt him. alot. being avoided by his bestfriend was already hurting him but the reason that hurt him the most was he couldn't have any sort of explanation about it.

"joshua, im asking you for the last time, can you please leave right now?", you spatted out with not much any emotions but one could surely hear the crack in your voice. you wanted to sink ten feet under the ground as you realised how your voice cracked. you wished that he didn't figure that out but you were wrong. he heard you and knew you were on the verge of breaking down. "please tell me y/n and i'll work on myself to not disappoint you anymore", he pulled you by your arms so that you could turn to his direction but you swatted away your arm from his grip. with anger.

as you finally faced him, he looked deeply into your eyes as if to find the answers you were hiding but all he could see was your tears welling up your eyes. he stared at you worriedly as a tear rolled down your face.

"why do you want me back in your life? just so you can hurt me again by telling me about your new flings?", you spoke out finally. yes, he heard that right. yes, he was understanding it right too. you saw him more than a friend. you wanted your relationship with him to be more than best friends. "yes! i go crazy everytime i hear you blabber about your crushes and dates", you said with tears in your eyes. you simply couldn't bottle it up today. "joshua, i fell for you even before i could know", you continued. "i dont know when it j-just happened. was it when you caressed my hair while appreciating me when i felt insecure about myself after i was cheated on by my boyfriend or was it when you didn't leave me alone when i was left heartbroken after i lost my dog? or was it when you spoke words you probably never meant with the eyes that seemed to be in love with me?", you managed to pour out your feelings in words finally.

"l-listen to m-me y/n....", joshua stuttered. he was speechless. not because of your sudden confession but because he finally knew that his feelings were reciprocated! "josh, im sorry but i cant stay friends with you. it hur-", before you could even complete your sentence he pulled you in for a kiss.

he cupped your cheeks and deepened the kiss with his eyes shut. you couldn't process what had just happened but when he bit your lower lip for a response, you gave in. it felt like heaven to kiss your best friend crush. he parted away from the kiss just to have you chase his lips. he chuckled. but soon he took a look at you as his big hands still kept your cheeks cupped.

"you have no idea how much i've loved you", you stare at him in disbelief. "y/n, i had already fallen for you since our middle school but never had the courage. i always ended up worrying about losing you if i ever got you as my lover. i was worried about not having you in my life if anything would go wrong", he continued. "you dont know how crazy you got me for yourself which had me to date a few times just to move on from you. but here you were, getting jealous of them", he said. "i wasn't jealous",you said as you hit him on his shoulders lightly in protest. the both of you laughed.

"y/n?", he called your name out with his sweet voice. "hmm", you responded while meeting his eyes. "will you be my girlfriend?", he asked you with your cheeks still cupped in his hands. as you heard those words, another tear rolled down your face but this time you had a smile on your face. "sure josh", you said with a smile and another tear rolling down your face in the same time. you were overjoyed.

he kissed you deeply to express the love that he had been hiding from you which had caused you so much pain. "i love you josh", you managed to say in between the kiss. "i love you more", he said while he pulled you closer to him by waist without breaking the kiss. the past six months were hard on you but all you could say was that it led to the best thing that could ever happen to you.

you felt lucky and so did joshua to have realise that you would always be by his side. forever. he promised to never let you go.

꘎♡━━━━━♡꘎

[sunnyfoxsstuff]

Hey sorry couldnt write Yesterday but im writing today the very first chapter! I thought about it way too much lol

Enjoy ;3

Chapter 1:New beginning

After the event at the black water manor and being stripped from his divinity the former wind master has tried his best to get around and survive, xie lian had offered him to stay at puqi shrine 'til he gets back on his feets he had agreed but he only stayed for a day or two he was more fearing hua cheng than living outside, however xie lian adviced him to try and go see at the royal capital knowing there is some beggar's living there he thought that he'll find refuge over there

The former windmaster of course took the advice and went over to the royal capital however he took atleast two good days to get there because of his injuries he was limping and slow

After getting to the capital he found some beggar's just as xie lian had told him they got along pretty well shi qingxuan had always a talent to get along with anyone he'd meet, a day After he started feeling nauseous he tried to ignore it but soon his body made him know that he was gettin too weak to even move, often he would just lay down Somewhere and sleep it was all he could do after all, the beggar's had a kind heart and couldnt bear leaving him on his own so they tried their best at helping them.

It was a morning when shi qingxuan woke up in the halley way he had fallen asleep at he looked around still weak and Saw his beggar friend's still asleep

he looked at the Sky above his head and closed his eyes shut again opening them soon after he somehow felt more..light felt better like as if he wasnt ill anymore

Looking down where his hands are supposed to be he couldnt see them but he could see his beggar friend's waking up,

He ran up to them excited and happy "guy's look! Look! I Can walk! I Can move im feeling better!!" However they walked passed him to where he was sleeping, confused he followed them, soon enough one of them started to cry another pray for some god's and the other one just went on his way to try and find their breakfast,

when the former windmaster took a look at what was going on he gasped almost all of his air out of his lung's and felt nauseous seeing his own body laying there lifeless and gettin more pale.

The now soul of shi qingxuan stood there watching his own body for what felt like minute's but had been atleast 3 hour's

until he'd look at his right side where there was a ominous shadow with what seemed like two golden eyes looking at his body quickly After leaving, it was he xuan.He xuan had came to check on him? But why? Shi qingxuan was more confused by he xuan coming over than his own situation

After some more minute's of standing there he decided that he wanted to make it up to he xuan for what shi wudu had done to him "atleast try" he said to himself determinated,

for the next couple hour's he'd try to manifest his New form but if anybody could see him all they'd see is a little bouncing spirit

"ugh! Why cant i just get my form to manifest already?!" He said pouting 'bout it, even so he still went on his plan and started to move away from where he had died and stayed for the past day's

He decided to make his way to puqi shrine first often stopping to still try and get his New form or to just stare at everything living in the forest the Sun soon started to set down, shi qingxuan isnt used to not sleep at night or even the no breath needed so he setted himself Somewhere and looked at the night Sky with the glowing star's smiling enjoying the cold air and little glowing bugs standing besides him on the grass.

Hey sorry imma stop there for the first chapter i feel like its long enough however i already know what im gonna write in the seccond chapter so do not fear it shouldnt take too long until i post it ;p i rlly Hope u enjoyed it atleast im tryin my best to think this through

[sanjisblackasswife]

🧍🙏😔if requests are (still) open can you write for Rob Lucci or kaku going down on their gf/lover for the first headcanons,please and thank you 🦭🫶💖

𝕂𝕒𝕜𝕦 𝔾𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝔻𝕠𝕨𝕟 𝕠𝕟 𝕐𝕠𝕦

I think i seen ur post about needing more Kaku content, so i gotchu baby.

Black Fem! Reader in Mind

Cw: Reader is called “Honey”, Praise, Shy!Kaku, Oral Sex, Fingering, A bit of joking

He’s so sweet about the entire situation, with blush on his skin.

You have to teach him the ropes of everything in fear that he might hurt you.

He actually timidly came to YOU about the suggestion

“Maybe tonight we try something new.” He asked during dinner between you both.

You knew Kaku always had something up his sleeve when he recommended something “new”. The glint in his eye always gave it away, but the tinge of doubt in his voice made you possibly rethink about it.

You give give give to him. All the time, and he noticed this, you never ask him to go down on you. By the time he tries to reciprocate the feeling you are already straddling him, making him taste himself on your tongue and in turn breaks every thought and intention he had.

But tonight he had to.

“Just…lay back, okay?”

His voice is so soft, his hand are shaky under your touch, your body is warm in contrast to his cold hands making you arch your back into his abs while he roams all over you, squeezing as many parts of fat you have from your breast to your inner thighs.

You sigh in his mouth, you always adorned how he kissed you, especially when you pull away and his eyes are still shut for a moment, basking in how your lips felt against his.

You let him kiss the rest of your body down, giggling at how his rectangular nose taps against u with each peck, “You’re so wet, honey.” Kaku marveled at the shine of arousal on your slit, his index and middle finger rub up and down admiring the sticky mess before stealing the taste, your eyes grew wide.

“Are…you..ganna…? OH!”

Your hands immediately reached to his hair, without realizing he was already pulling apart your lower lips for complete access to your clit, his small lips latched and his tongue poking at it.

You moaned out his name, it was something you never felt before, his tongue was moving in unrecognizable directions, as if he was focusing to find the right spo—

“Ka—! Kaku wait wait wait wait!”

His face got as red as a rose, hearing your broken moans call out to him. You tasted so fantastic to him, and you smelled just as good. If it were up to Kaku he’d stay in between your thighs all night, partially suffocating him.

He slides in two fingers inside you, not letting go of your soft little clit, swirling his head around, eyes closed reaching you closer to orgasm.

You look down at him, a small giggle escapes your throat seeing his cute nose laid atop of your lower half as he was indulging himself to your flavor.

You threw your head back, feeling a familiar knot forming you grind against him. Your whimpers drove him crazy, he couldnt help but to reach inside his own pants to finish himself off with you.

“Cum.” He mumbled against your skin. “Cum for me.”

The vibration of his groans and words pushed you to the edge. Pushing yourself upwards away from his mouth your felt him pop off your clit. “Was…that okay, honey?”

Out of breath you nod, mind a blur as well as his figure than is smiling over you to plant small butterfly kisses over your face, “You’re so beautiful. Thank you for trusting me.”

He lays you on his chest, you hear his heart beat go a mile a minute against his warm skin you pepper his neck in kisses making him giggle, “You did amazing Kaku. Thank you.”

“Of course.” He moves your head to his neck, tracing small shapes on your lower back, “How about..next time….you sit on my face.”

You look at him with a amused look, “Really?”

“Yeah! You…you tasted really good.”

“Kaku!” You playfully slap his chest, slightly embarrassed, especially since you can smell yourself on his breath, “Fine…next time…”

and next time was really just “In the next 5 minutes.”

[cavernofstars]

Unprompted hypotheticals i send my friends part 2

All post-marineford spoilers

1: Do you think a part of why Luffy was so confident he could save Ace was because he was able to save Robin from enies lobby?

Do you think Luffy ever looks at Robin and thinks about enies lobby and how he was able to save her, but then thinks about Ace and doesnt understand why he couldnt save him if he could save her?

He would never trade one person for another, but do you think he ever gets sad when he sees her, thinking of how Ace wanted to live just like she did, but he didnt get to?

2: Luffy coping with Aces death in a opposite way to how he had coped with Sabos, since he tried not to talk about Sabo because it hurt, but now he talks about Ace because it hurts, but it helps.

Luffy pointing out little things the crew does that Ace did, little memories that he can watch live on through his closest friends, feeling like hes still there in all the ways he failed to keep Sabo around in his mind.

And the crew avoiding bringing Ace up at first, but then realizing it helps and frequently purposely doing those things because they knew Luffy likes seeing it?

3: Do you think that Luffy collects things that remind him of Ace or Sabo, and he keeps like any pictures from the newspapers or wanted posters of them?

Like after Ace died he started scrounging around any newspapers looking for images of Ace so that he wouldnt forget his face?

Like he has a whole collage of images up in his room.

4: Do u think that all the people who were the most important to Ace took a bead each of his necklace?

And either Luffy took the extras, and gave one to Yamato in Wano.

OR.

Even though it rlly hurt to do so, he gave his one to Yamato?

Shanks was the one to pick up the beads at the end of the battle, since it was because of him that the remains of Whitebeards crew even got to collect Ace's body.

Ivankov was the one who actually got the bead(s) to Luffy, since Luffy was already scooped up and taken away by Law, Iva would take em to plan to find him later on but then discovered Sanji and was like 'take.'

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Find the words

@asukiess tagged me and gave me the words new, sunrise, and cuddle

New: this is from a story that I'm honestly not sure what direction I'm going with but the idea is that post-strike back/Destruction Chat Noir and Ladybug decide neither of them want to be alone so he takes her to an apartment that his mother owned

“You can look tomorrow,” Tikki said. “Give yourself the space of time and the light of a new day. You can’t go running while still sore from your last run.” Tikki gave her smile and nuzzled into her face. “Why don’t you go see if Chat Noir is done with his phone call.” Marinette nodded and called for her transformation. When Chat Noir brought her here, they agreed to go into seperate rooms so they could make the phone calls they needed to cover for themselves. Stepping into the hallway, she could see the door that Chat Noir had disappeared behind was now open. The bedroom looked to be about the same size as the one she entered, but this one was sparesly furnished with a child’s bed and a toy chest. She briefly imagined a young boy with cat ears sleeping there.

Sunrise: this is from the same story!

Adrien called for his transformation once more and stepped back out into the hallway. The light spilling in was much brighter now. He thought about just going to lay down on one of the beds, but decided to check on Ladybug first. To his suprise, instead of still snoozing away on the couch; he found Ladybug standing up next to the windows watching the sunrise. She startled as he moved to stand next to her. “Sorry for waking you.” He said. Ladybug shook her head. “No, that’s fine, I woke up when I heard the bathroom door close and had too much on my mind to get back to sleep.” “You woke up before then.” He grinned at her. “I did?” “You were like a deadweight on top of me.” He teased. “You sleep like the dead too, I had to roll you off of me to even get up. You woke up then, but I think you fell back asleep pretty quickly.” “Oh god,” Ladybug buried her face in her hands. “I don’t remember that at all. Sorry, I can be a little hard to wake up.”

For this last one I chose one of the reserve words to avoid having everything come from the same story! This one is sobbing and I cheated a little by using sobs instead of sobbing! It's from a ff14 thing I was working on. where I changed a canon scene to fit my canon/oc ship as well as deal with some of the things Amh was feeling at the time

After her initial shock Amh found her head buried in his shoulder. She was no stranger to hugs, she hugged just about everyone, but she couldnt remember the last time Alphinaud initiated a hug. The last bits of her grip on her own sanity seemed to slip away as he held her. She gripped at the fabric of his shirt and began to sob. Stop it. Stop it. STOP IT. She desperately tried to pull herself back together, but each time she thought she could stop crying more tears came. Her stomach was all tied up in knots and she was terrified she might actually throw up on Alphinaud. She could barely even breathe.

I dont know who all has been tagged already so I'll tag @mostmagical and anyone else who wants to do it!

Words: phone, falling, moon

Reserve: safe, window, attempted

[bingusbongu]

♡♡A/n: hey!!! I apologize, i lost the reply because for some reason my post deleted, in really really sorry! But this ask included a Royal Margarine Cookie x Shy but cuddly reader!!! I just had to do this one, cause Royal Margarine is my absolute favorite cookie, i love this silly and his dilly wyvern, hope you enjoy~!♡♡

Royal Margarine Cookie x Shy but Cuddly reader!

- Margarine Cookie has always been one for attention, he craves for it. Its not unusual for fans of his to crowd around him as soon as he makes a grand entrance

- you and him were already a couple, and of course, Margarine tried to show you off as his darling partner, wanting you to receive the same praise he would receive, besides, he liked showing you around, showing you off to other cookies who attempt to flirt with him

- What he didnt understand though is the way you backed up from the crowds, or hid behind him. Sure he liked the feeling that he could protect you, but he was confused on how you got all nervous when cookies would crowd around the two of you, and before he had a chance to show you off to his beloved fans, you were gone

- it would be Buttercream to go and find you. She didnt like the way that Margarine didnt go looking for yoi because he was to into making up fake stories to impress people. Sure she loved his rider, but she also loved you. You were so sweet to her, and even sneaked her extra snacks after supper, and you gave the greatest pets! She really liked you, so believe it or not, she is always the first one to find you

- once Buttercream tracks you down, and find you huddled away in a secure hiding spot, she is quick to make sure youre okay, before nestling her nose into your side to comfort you. She is the most understanding wyvern, she lets you talk to her and rant about how mich you hated being surrounded by people, with so many people talking at once.

- Buttercream understood that feeling, sometimes she gets overwhelmed with the cookies who keep trying to pet her and get her attention

- Royal Margarine Cookie would take a few moments to realize that not only you were gone, but realizing Buttercream was gone when a fan pointed it out. It was really uncommon for Buttercream to leave his side, let alone you.

- he definitely freaked out about it, pushing past the crowed of cookies to try and find the both of you. Calling out for you in hopes to findyou easier, trying to hide the fear in his voice, already imagining the worst

- he was extreamly worried, his two favorite things in the whole world were missing, he couldnt imagine losing you or Buttercream!

- he was about to have a breakdown, until he noticed a familiar looking tail in the corner of his eye, watching it as it disappeared into a hidden spot that he hadnt even thought to look. Instantly pipping his curiosity, why would Buttercream be there of all places? Maybe she was looking for something?

- once he finally trailed over to see what his faitful companion was doing, he was about to call out to her before completing stopping in his tracks

- Buttercream lay wrapped around you, As you nestled into the wyverns dide for warmth and comfort, shutting your eyes as you finally calmed down. Buttercreams head in your lap as you pet her, and she happily purring at the gentle affection

- Royal Margarine at the sight, feeling relieved that the both of you were okay. But still confused on why you and Buttercream were cuddled together in this little hiding space, where no one could find you.

- once you realized Royal Margarine Cookie was there finally, you invited him over to join the two of you, opening your arms as Buttcream looked up at her rider expectantly, for him to come over and join the little pile of affection going on.

- He was hesitant at first, but sighed and quickly gave in, how could he ignore his two favorite things in all of earthbread inviting him over to cuddle?

- he crawled in besides you, at first complaining that a room would be much better for this, more comfortable for the pile, but ignoring his blabbering, Buttercream dropped her tail into his lap, making him huff in protest.

- before he could make another comment, you had instantly cuddled into his side, making the words forming in his mouth come to a close as he looked down at you. His face seeming to warm up at how you nestled your head into his neck, making a small noise asif searching for comfort from him. And Royal Margarine Cookie was very happy to oblige. Wrapping his arm around you and pulling you close to him, shoving down his internal screaming to ask you what was wrong

- You finally ended up opening your mind to him, explaning how you hated crowds and being shoved into them for attention, how it made you nearly crumble on the spot just having so many eyes looking at you. Also, expressing how you weren't really a fan of being there and listening to the ladies fawn all over him.

- Royal Margarine Cookie listened intently, nodding his head, while on the inside he felt extreamly guilty. He hadnt ment to push you into that situation, he didnt know any better! He decided from then on to make it up to you

- after that, Royal Margarine Cookie was open to your feelings, constantly msking sure you were comfortable, abd if you werent, he would take you away somewhere else for you to feel better

- oftentimes, when he is busy, he would nake sure Buttercream would stay with you to make sure you were okay

- when his fans approach him, he wouldnt throw you into the mix. Instead, he would chat with them, before clearing his throat, and pushing past them

- "excuse me, i have a date with my wonderful partner, and i will not be late for it"

- after that, the both of you hook arms and walk to the nearest tavern, him having the biggest smug look on his face, before going to chat abd flirt with you like nothing happened

- always is touching you in some form of ways, whether it be holding your hand to wrapping his arm around your waist, he likes to keep you close to him

- when you are uncomfortable, he bring you to the side and lets you hold onto him as he tries his best to comfort you. (Usually cracking stupid jokes to make you laugh)

- especially loves after a long day, when you open your arms for him to fall into, and him grumbling about his day as you listen and play with his hair

- Royal Margarine Cookie can be full of himself, sure, but in all honesty, he really really cares about you. You are his greatest treasure, and he would do anything to make you happy! Even go on a dangerous quest if you asked him to.

- Buttercream may keep him in line, but i assure you, he is trying his best to make you happy ♡

[samarecharm]

Bouncing off my bi ryuji awakening post, im gonna add these tags from it: (separated to make it easier to read)

[#anyway. akira is the guy ever. and ryuji is exploding#‘i have died. badly’#i like thinking of akira like this; hes ryujis first exposure to nb ppl and gnc adjacent stuff#even if akira is p masc by most standards hes still got a bit of. aloofness. about his gender stuffs#ryuji is just really into the way akira carries himself#and it takes him a while to go oh. oh i think its cause i like this dude#um.#😳.

#also i wanted to clarify#but ryujis mom just doesnt know Who akira is in that picture#and in my head hes like. looking down at mona and petting him (while sitting)#(AND hes with ann and theyre both kind of a distance away from the camera)#so at a quick glance; hes just Some Girl#and even though shes wrong; it kicks off the mental chaos olympics in ryujis head#‘what hes not a girl’ to ‘where would she even get that from’ to ‘well akira said himself he didnt rlly care what ppl thought about it’#to ‘well. where DID she get that from?’ to lookin at what his homie does a little closer to ‘aw fuck. man.’#but i love that for him

#ALSO. RYU/GORO IN TAGS…..#but ryuji going oh my GOD oh my godddd 😨😓😓😓 when something clicks in his head about goro#his voice is so practiced and naturally softspoken and his public facing persona is very demure#and once he gets past the initial anger over goro being a pompous prick who shittalks about the thieves. hes like. god fucking dammit.#There Is A Pattern and A Type He Has and Its Killing Him To Realize it.#hes literally sitting in his room w his head in his hands]

Ryuji definitely finds Conventionally Attractive Girls pretty, but he realizes around postgame that he genuinely formed crushes on THREE people; Akira, Makoto, and Goro. And all three of them are people who carry themselves as a bit Soft and Delicate (akira and makoto w their personality and mannerisms, goro w his appearance) while also being deceptively strong. Yusuke WOULD fit into this but hes only strong in the metaverse. Also if u tried to argue that he still finds yusuke pretty, Ryuji would just say ‘yeah duh? Of course???’ and would not elaborate further.

I just think. Its cute 👉🏾👈🏾 Ryuji loves someone whos pretty and capable of knocking him flat on his ass lmao He LOVES a challenge and he likes that they can all challenge him in different ways.

Akira is way stronger than he looks; hes very toned and he used to be quite active before being shipped off to tokyo. And after fighting in the metaverse, hes gotten way better at using an enemies mass and momentum against them. Yeah he can properly knock someone down, but its way easier to let Ryuji charge him and use that momentum to sweep and pin. Which Ryuji remembers vividly for Weeks. Akira is not allowed to spar w him and Makoto for awhile after that.

Makoto is just strong as hell. But shes very defensive, and extremely patient. ‘Ill wait and see before I decide What to do’. Shes got good reaction timing and its hard to catch her offguard. Its very difficult to disorient her so oftentimes, his spars w her are more about endurance. And if he ASKS her to do so, she’ll actually fight him back. He never wins 😭 but she is very patient w him and she doesnt treat him like an idiot. She likes to give him tips and redirect his strengths to make up for his weaknesses and it makes him a bit warm in this chest

Spars w Goro are just fun. Theyre fun! Goro is way more aggressive and reckless than Makoto and Akira. He is looking for openings near constantly and Ryuji has to either keep up or tank hits. Its very. Engaging. For him. Sometimes he loses and Goro is giving him a look so smug, Ryuji wishes he could kick him in his fucking teeth (something he clearly couldnt do bc hes already been knocked flat on his ass). And sometimes he wins, and hes so shocked and HAPPY about it; he doesnt miss the way Goro looks away from him pouting like a brat (‘no fucking way are u POUTING man, what a sore loser 😭’). Goro and his uptight personality is thrown out the window completely and its so fun and refreshing to see. Hes tall and imposing w broad shoulders and toned arms and if Ryuji is staring, he finds himself immediately distracted when Goros cheerful, softspoken voice asks if hes willing to go another round.

I love it 👉🏾👈🏾 Ryujis got a complicated relationship w violence but it helps to have people he trusts engage with it in a way that doesnt make him feel like some brute. Theyre all kind of itching to beat the shit out of things for multiple reasons, but instead of taking that out on each other, they spend time training one another so that they can beat the shit out of OTHER things better. Its an efficient system 😊

[sumbreon]

more book thoughts

the shops back up you can now buy these books

ive not read anymore yet, using it to bribe myself into doing laundry but ive been stewing on things. this will be even less coherent cause im just gonna throw my thoughts out here as they come to me unlike before where we had a mild focus

what is machas plan here? turning up as félix to fuck with islin about cypress like what was the intent there because i doubt it had the intended effect with islin going 'it should be me courting you félix!' which also islin my man... ya coulda!!! oh no i just remembered hesper signed the fuckin courting card or whatever with a little paw print really good! the whole thing with cypress is really good too honestly. the pacing for after félix gives bowman (françois) the ultimatum was so good it felt like so long not being in félixs pov and seeing it from bowmans i was absolutely losing it like let me into that little bastards head again what the fuck is going on??? to then finally get his pov again and just... i dont think that could have been done any better it fuckin killed me. anyway macha clearly still wanting to fuck with félixs boys but tamer than in the first book but what for? im also both dreading and looking forward to whenever they and félix meet like its your bosses new little guy vs its the fucker who tried to kill your friends (maybe? dont know for sure that macha intended for anyone to die but they definitely could have/almost did!) so fucking with islin by being félix and fucking with bowman by attacking rangers as a viper tbh even less clear on how that ones meant to a work out whats gained from turning the rangers against the viper? whats esks relationship with the rangers? cain made a comment to bowman after the whole graveyard incident and what did you mean by that man? whats your damn deal macha?

also every bowman chapter is accompanied by the mild apprehension of 'there was a warning for intentional misgendering its probably gonna be against bowman' who the fucks gonna do that to my boy? and i love that esks general response to bowman having to avoid saying hes the supposedly dead mercier girl is why is this even an issue. esk continues to not be helpful! but i am delighted by bowman and esk throughout this book so far me everytime its bowman time:

to be clear im having a good time, bowman less so. still makes me laugh that esk referred to félix as 'the pony'. and i loved that little scene on the train with félix and esk about félixs body and i think esk was maybe already aware? when the supposed viper attacked the rangers esk says a powerful black horse could maybe do that and says félix couldnt do that being so young a black horse? wonder just how much of esk not being helpful is being a bit of an ass and if any of its lingering effects from being stuck in that trophy room? god that was a horrifying scene and from what we see of tua it affected the weapons badly, esk wasnt there as long but it was still there

senca... girl whats your angle here? what sort of game is this to you? what are you getting out of it? i believe her when she tells esk that shes on the boys's side but im still not 100% trusting her

just how many times has léa threatened to cut bowmans dick off? enough that félix didnt let her finish the suggestion. and i keep thinking about léa telling félix about bowman not counting it as cheating with félix specifically like could you boys make this any more complicated? how the hell is félix meant to deal with that info? also made me think of that post where a girl had been having gay sex with her friend for like a decade and was like sex with her doesnt count and it ended with her saying to her boyfriend if it was cheating shes cheating on her friend with him then and not the other way around (i might try and find that post again. ill probably fail)

okay laundry done i might come back and add more or i might not

[pastanest]

if you’re wondering why I’m having to repost this, or why you were perhaps previously following me but no longer are, please refer to this post. I was able to retrieve this thanks to @rosieathena - thanks so much!! ♡

Spencer Reid x gender neutral!reader

Bubble Bath

The moment he stumbled into your shared home, with his clothes and hair disheveled and a forlorn expression on his face, you knew that the casual evening you had planned was not going to come to fruition. You ran to him, and all thoughts of the stack of comedy films you had prepared escaped your mind. He fell into your open arms, his own pulling your body as close to his as possible in an effort to protect him, with the hope of you being able to prevent him from witnessing what he had already been forced to see while on yet another case that would haunt him for a time that was impossible for you to gage.

“You dont have to talk about it, Im right here.” Your words reached his ears that were so desperate to hear nothing but your voice, and he felt a wave of relief wash through him. To Spencer, your voice was that of a siren, but with the antithesis of you luring him to a paradise like no other, rather than the fate that sirens traditionally led their victims to.

Parting from his close embrace, you took ahold of his hand and led him to your shared bedroom, turning so that you could lightly push him to sit down on the bed.

“Take some deep breaths for a minute, Im going to run us a bath, I’ll be right around the corner if you need me.” You spoke, and Spencer nodded in understanding.

Placing a soft kiss on his forehead, you left the bedroom, making sure the door was open just in case Spencer needed to get to you. The panicked state he was in was clear to see, and it made your heart ache. While you turned your attention to the empty bath tub, Spencer stared at the wall. He removed his tie and began to unbutton his shirt with tired hands, then kicked off his suit trousers and laid back on the bed, the soft sheets feeling unnatural against the tense skin of his back. His eyes gazed up at the ceiling, and felt himself being pulled from reality, forcefully dragged into a spiral of memories from the horrific day he had just escaped.

But then, he felt your hand holding his again. So gentle, so kind as you interlaced your fingers with his and led him back to reality, a reality that was now safe, because you were there. He sat up and leant his forehead against your chest, breathing in your scent as you combed your fingers through his hair with your free hand. He didnt have the strength to wrap his arm around you, but he didnt need to, he knew you would stay. You always did.

You helped him to his feet again, your strength transferring to him like the grace of an angel as you took the few steps to the bathroom. There, Spencer was greeted by the sight of a bubble bath, but he couldnt focus on it for very long, because you were in front of him again. Your lips met his in a soft, slow kiss, breathing life back into him, his heart skipping a beat when you smiled at him as you broke the kiss. Taking a step away from him, you turned, and began to strip free of your clothes. Spencer had always been entranced by your body, it affected him like nothing else in existence, but in this moment, he found himself admiring you in a way that he hadnt before. This was not a sexual stare, it was something different, something that Spencer tried very hard to decipher, but despite his extensive knowledge of anything and everything, he could not find an explanation. But he didnt need to find one, he knew that, his heart was just afraid to admit such a truth. It was love. Pure and simple, but not pure and simple at all.

You lowered yourself into the bath and looked over your shoulder at Spencer, giving him a smile that was so unburdened, so unbothered by the state of the man you gifted your heart to. His distress upset you, he was aware of that, but he was not a burden to you. His sadness was a weight you felt honoured to bear, and that was yet another thing that Spencer struggled to understand.

He followed your lead, stripping free of his last item of clothing, his boxers pooling on the floor as he stepped into the hot water and sat down in front of you, lifting his knees up so that his tall form could fold into the bath comfortably with the back of his head on your chest.

Your hands found his body again, and a sigh escaped his lips as you brought water droplets trickling down his shoulders. The tension in his body eased at your touch, and he relaxed into you, finally allowing himself to start letting go of the weight of the day. He absentmindedly reached for the shampoo, but you stopped him.

“No, let me.” You whispered, your overwhelming care for Spencer laced into those three simple words.

Without any further dispute, you washed your lover’s hair, his head falling back against you and his eyes closing as euphoria took ahold of him. Never in his life had he dreamed of this, being loved like this. Prior to meeting you, he could not imagine being so emotionally vulnerable to someone and not feeling a sense of terror. With you, everything was safe, you were the safest place for Spencer to be, because he knew you would do anything for him, though he would be damned if he let you take that notion to any sort of extreme. You rinsed the suds from his hair, your hands so careful with him, like he was fragile, which he was, but only ever with you. Raw emotion tore through his heart in the most beautiful way as he opened his eyes and turned to face you, he felt as though he could cry, but he blinked away those tears because he didnt want the vision of you to distort in any way.

All words lost their meaning as he stared at you, in awe of how such a beautiful creature came to exist, and wondering what he had done to deserve such pure love from you. The droplets from his hair hit the water, and in the silence, they echoed. His lips parted, and his voice - which had become hoarse given how little he had used it since the case ended - sent goosebumps rippling across your skin, and you were reminded exactly who your heart beat for.

“I love you, so much.”

[toxic-aries]

found you

paring: eddie munson x gn!reader

summary: post-season 4 episode 9, you discovered a familiar person hiding out in the trailer park.

a/n: I haven't written in so long so bare with me, also it's not proofread so apologies for any mistakes. also, I'll continue with a pt 2 maybe if anyone likes.

feedback & criticism is very appreciated. please let me know if you have any thoughts on how I can approve. thank you :)

You never expected to be put in a situation like this, this isn't what you signed up for. But when you discovered Eddie was accused of murder and all the horrid things the people of Hawkins tried to say about him, you knew it wasn't true. Dustin Henderson was the first to come to you to see if Eddie was with you, and obviously he wasn't so you demanded answers. The next thing you knew, your whole life had been turned upside down…literally.

Finding out about a whole alternate dimension right under Hawkins was the last thing you expected to find out. The whole week felt like a blur…finding Eddie, finding more information about this whole Vecna/Henry/001 person, coming up with a plan to losing Eddie again. Last thing you remember from the upside down was hearing Dustin’s gut wrenching scream for Eddie, then seeing him. His lifeless body. Just laying there. Fighting to bring him with you all, then Steve saying ‘we don't have enough time’. You all left him there.

Left him down there. All alone.

Now here you are, driving the familiar road towards the trailer park. You missed him…so much. It didn't seem fair, he didn't deserve it. You couldnt help but think about seeing all of Eddie’s missing posters being vandalized, putting those stupid devil horns on them, writing ‘freak’ all over it, calling him a monster. It made your blood boil just thinking about the awful things they're saying about him on the news and on the streets. They didn't know the truth, they didn't know Eddie.

“What was that? You muttered to yourself as you passed the trailer park. There was a figure standing in front of Munson's trailer. No it couldn't be. It’s probably just your mind playing tricks on you. The trailer park is cleared out, no one can get in to it. You tried so hard to convince yourself that you were just seeing things. In an effort to sound reasonable, you said to yourself, "It wouldn't hurt to check it out."

Arriving at the trailer park entrance already triggers enough memories. The little things about Eddie…like how terrible of a driver he was, he nearly gave you a heart attack every time you rode with him. When you stepped out of the car, you noticed the figure was still there, just now on its knees. Right in front of the trailer, you considered your second home.

Step by step, the figure became clearer and clearer. You could make out the silhouette of a puffy jacket and long curly hair. It couldn't be him. You saw his body. You remember the last moment you saw him lying there, motionless. The hope that it was him made your pace quicken. Until you were within a few feet of him.

“E-Eddie? you asked, reaching out a hand for his shoulder with a shaky breath. His sudden movement caught you off guard, knocking you flat on your back. He stood over you, his now paler skin reflecting the moonlight. Eddie’s neck had a huge gash on it last that you saw, but now it looks like it healed slightly. It doesn't make sense.

The intense feeling of him standing over you makes your chest feel tighter and tighter. “Eddie. How?” You could barely get out a word. A hand reaches out to you, offering to assist you. You accepted. Eddie's hands were different from normal. His nails were long and pointed, the skin felt rougher. Your hand quickly pulls away from his own, his appearance startled you. It scared you.

It was obvious to him. His eyes met yours…his eyes were so different. You couldn't see those big brown doe eyes anymore. Dark, red-tinted eyes are all that remain. As you searched for the person you once loved, your eyes filled with tears. Where did he go? Where did the Eddie you once loved go? What happened to him? As your hand slowly cupped his face, he softened into your embrace. As if he was craving it. “ What happened to me?” He choked as he spoke, holding back tears, refusing to cry.

With your free hand, you pushed his hair out of his face and then cupped his other cheek. "I don't know," you replied, not really knowing what to say. Tears dripped down his cheeks, his eyes looked so lost…you hated to see him like this. “But, I know we can figure it out.” you reassured him, “I found you Eddie, I won't lose you again.”

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