#I want this semester to be over LMAO

[coldvampire]

oh im gonna hsdgfjk

okay so three+ months ago i discovered I had a Fun Condition called perioral dermatitis. basically, just this Extraordinarily persistent face rash that looks like a bunch of small pustules in a circle around my mouth, but it also went around my nose and eyes. reacts to literally fucking Everything, deeply annoying to treat, even with antibiotics it takes weeks but usually months to clear. causes are ?? can be anything from inhaled steroids, face cream, toothpaste, hormones, etc. basically impossible to pinpoint. i have some guesses about what triggered it but ofc no real way to know for sure.

i go on 90 days of antibiotics. cool, whatever, condition dissipates but doesn't go away entirely. i think nothing of this bc I know even With oral antibiotics, it can still take months.

halfway through this treatment i develop arthritic symptoms. i also think nothing of this bc I have Some sort of illness undiagnosed anyway + family members have it so while I am definitely not happy w this development, I'm resigned.

i finish the pills.

less than 24 hours later, dermatitis has Returned. i know that allowing this to happen makes it worse and last longer. i cannot stress enough how bad it will be for my mental health if this happens. yes this probably sounds overly dramatic but I'm pretty sure watching my face flare up in any way is a legitimate trigger atp after dealing with cystic acne.

anyway. i book an appointment with my gp bc the pharmacist cannot refill the antibiotics. great except the appointment is at the End Of The Month, and I know this is going to be bad in a few days time. like, in the last few hours the inflammation has already accelerated, who knows how bad it'll be then, I'm assuming it'll be like I never even took the pills to start with. i am going to have a nervous breakdown.

mysteriously, the arthritis symptoms have Also started to decrease after stopping the antibiotics. that's weird, I think, that wasn't brought up in the list of side effects when I asked, but the timing is literally exactly when my face started flaring up so I know I definitely don't have those in my system anymore. i look this up, to see if there's a link.

'''acute polyarthritis''' also described as 'drug-induced lupus' are you Fucking Kidding Me

so i am now back as Square Fucking one for this shit, my skin is about to be so goddamn inflamed & I apparently can't even take the drug that was working to clear it up. because it causes inflammation in my joints.

and like i cant really express properly how mad this makes me lmfao because of Course. i spend a solid year on Accutane finally after being deterred for nearly a decade, i get maybe 4 months of enjoying my skin after I'm off of it and then This Shit. can i win?? can i Fucking win??????? no one else in my genepool seems to deal with this shit its just me and ohhh my god i am This close to walking straight into the ocean.

[pettyprocrastination]

just recorded a presentation for class somebody please kiss me on the head and tell me i did a good job 

[whereforartthoumisthios]

Me: Has two final papers to complete for the semester, due in less than two weeks - both no where near finished.

Also Me: You know, right now would be a GREAT time to re-write some of my fanfic(s)...🤔

[aerithisms]

had such a productive day today i went to the gym and did a shop and changed my bedsheets and made super tasty orzo for dinner look at me GO

[lokh]

career wise is there any reason for doing a graduate diploma over a diploma in library sciences. actually who am I supposed to ask about this

[tardis--dreams]

I may have hit an all time low mental health wise but I'm being so chill about it

[jorvikzelda]

today i came to the conclusion for the 2nd time that i probably 100% have an iron deficiency so its. time to go to the doctor about that one i think.

[serdtse]

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[lingeringscars]

My entire brain is probably going to be consumed by yellowjackets this month but I also am drowning just a lil

I have multiple papers I have to write & research to do & stats assignments etc this month. The semester ends 4/27 and then I have a month off before summer classes but have to work on a paper then too. Suffice to say I want to be here but final stretch of the semester so you know. Weeps.

[elftwink]

guess who has a fucking JOB!!!! finally!!!!! 🎉🎉🎊🥳🥳🤩🤩

[kuiinncedes]

.🤩🥳

[mashkaroom]

ok in other news i need to finish what i’ve estimates to be abt 15 hours of work more or less by the end of the day today and i even took an adderall and i even slept, for no apparent reason, 16 hours today??? despite sleeping a normal amount the previous several days??? but despite being well-slept, even obscenely so, and being medicated, both of which do help a lot, the mind still resists focusing on these tasks, instead visciously desiring to learn more and more about singer’s translation process and come up with cool new dictionary features and to share this with as many people as possible. please could this wait until tomorrow

[everiistence]

. i really do not appreciate how stressful school is sometimes ngl

[vydumaj]

my phone is completely giving up now, wow. it’s been unable to charge properly for months, and been easily overheating for a while, but it was fully charged last night and when I woke up (before my alarm) today it was at 1%. I restarted it and it claimed to be at 67% but started crashing down and when I try to plug it in it loses the current so fast when I’m holding it in the right position hnhfhgh

[universalsatan]

the mexican urge to adopt people…

[poisonpercy]

Let it be known that I’ve been going through a crisis over what I should major in these last few days