#I’m worthy

[vizthedatum]

I know I can have friends and relationships despite my disabilities and stage in my healing journey. I don’t need to be perfect or completely healed to love or be loved.

[val-daily]

Tuesday, 28 March 2023

Well Done:

Today I managed to focus on sunny weather, shining melting ice on the river and beautiful songs (instead of usual upsetting politics). I felt sentimental and beautiful, as if the world even with rubbish is a nice airy place.

I asked my college mate to meet up.

To better:

While I was sitting at the cafe I felt uneasiness. It was some itching to find imperfections or downright harmfulness of such a nice place. I couldn’t just sit and enjoy, as if it’s too good for me or anyone. I shall try to relax and remind myself that it’s not beautiful places that harm the world but violence.

Delights:

The river was gradually melting away from white to deep blue grey. Quietness of nature and the city not so far away.

“Evermore” album by Taylor Swift.

Touching finale of “Cranford”. Choice for progress no matter what.

Making pillows cases and watching series.

Human value:

In the “Cranford” series, a man knows full well how unjust and terrifying the world is, but nonetheless he choose to do what he can to make it better. He helps a boy to learn reading and writing, gives him a job. Another character carve her own life by making business in hats, she believes that women can do all, but at the moment she could only that, so she did it. 👏

I’m worthy of spending time at the nice cafes. It’s not a question of worth but more of budgeting.

[itsdenai]

“How codependent I’ve been. Someone else’s pain, anger, or instability- I’d make it my responsibility. The pleaser, the rescuer and martyr. Even though I knew, I was always smarter. But always felt guilty . And didn’t know how to be me. And everything was always fine.. when it wasn’t. It’s the shame that does it. So when I made my first boundary, it felt selfish and crazy. And when I found the courage to respond with my real needs, I discovered my humanity. And realized that helping others doesn’t begin with them, it starts by healing me. With the words: I’m worthy” -Tanya Markul

[pjo-hoo-toa-freakazoid]

Can you draw Percy in a shark onesie and Annabeth in an owl onesie? I need it for a fanfic. Happy birthday by the way, I love your art.

They dance 🎶

[trvlytylar]

i feel like i write the “i’m ready” thing out at every life benchmark or evolution of my life and i never know if im telling the truth or not until later. i guess it’s true that hindsight really is 20/20.

but i really did just have a great convo with a few friends and i kinda gave myself the permission to say that i’m open to this and so this time it’s not a question about if i’m ready or not(i am😊) but it was more about if i’m worthy or not. and even tho i may not be in a place where EYEEEE think i’m deserving of this, i now understand that God says i’m worthy and im not gonna get in his way.(:

[reinalunaestrella]

One Word Say Everything in This Life .

[chloesimaginationthings]

your scooped Michael makes me so insane I wanna make shitty tiktok edits of him to toxic by Brittney Spears /pos

I think I’d explode if someone made an edit with him/pos

[pollyanna-nana]

One of the most tragic and compelling aspects of Dunmeshi, to me, is that we’ll probably never know (unless Kui tells us lol) how Delgal actually felt about Thistle. I’ve seen people say that he genuinely cared for him as a brother and his journey to the surface was to save him from his madness as much as it was his people. I’ve seen people say that he saw Thistle as nothing more than a fancy accessory or tool that ended up going astray. Others I’ve seen (and personally agree with) say that the truth lies somewhere in the middle. But honestly, I think any one of these interpretations has the potential to be correct… and that’s just heartbreaking.

After all, Delgal is dead. Like, dead-dead. The very first chapter of the manga starts with his spirit leaving this mortal coil, taking that answer with him. And…

How he talks about Thistle here… it’s interesting. He does not ask for him to be talked down, or captured or imprisoned, but instead “defeated”. Which Mithrun interprets as asking for his death… which is reasonable, because that’s likely how the vast majority of adventurers interpreted his words, too. Obviously as he was crumbling to dust he probably didn’t have the capacity to be particularly verbose or explain the complex backstory to how the kingdom ended up this way, but the effect is the same no matter how he may have felt with it. He asked for Thistle to be killed.

But… even in situations where he wasn’t under any such time limit to explain what was going on, he still seemed not to. Most glaringly:

Yaad seemingly has no idea that it was Delgal’s fault that Thistle sought the demon’s power. Obviously he couldn’t talk to him about it because Thistle was, uh, a little out there by that point, but why didn’t Delgal explain? Was he embarrassed? Mournful? Couldn’t find the words?

Delgal was scared of dying. He wanted prosperity at any cost, and how could Thistle possibly refuse? Did he even realize that what he was the one who pushed his own brother— One who basically helped raise him despite being a child himself, and in many ways is still a child— down this path? Or was it like watching an overzealous employee misinterpret directions?

The way Yaad describes things here makes it sound like Thistle simply dug too deep in his studies and fell into madness, but we know that’s not true. Delgal didn’t “suggest” he learn magic, he wanted a mage who could help himself and his people defy death, which he admits to Thistle openly:

So, why? Why not tell his grandson, at least, the truth of the matter? Did he worry it might make the remaining residents more likely to upset Thistle, and therefore suffer the consequences? Did he just not care? For what it’s worth though, Yaad does suspect the truth from Delgal’s behavior.

He “always blamed himself” for his descent into the dark arts. This is just Yaad’s observation, and that’s without knowing that it was quite literally Delgal’s fault Thistle went down this path. So, why? Why was it all kept a secret?

Of course, this made things ripe for the winged lion to manipulate to its advantage. Clearly despite knowing he’d pushed him into using it, Delgal still thought the lion was a force of good that was misused by Thistle as a result of his madness. His face in that last panel is particularly haunting. He looks terrible, gaunt and pale with overgrown hair and missing teeth. Had he gone mad, with grief and sorrow, as well?

Could he no longer see Thistle the way he did when they were younger? No one can ask him, because he died long before the story even began.

To go back to the original question, well, how did Delgal see Thistle? None of the previous points make a definitive answer any clearer, and I think that’s just brilliant. And so, so tragic.

[mr-shimurka]

It’s VASH THE STAMPEDE B-DAY🍩

- 21 july -

[tgcfsketches]

[caononn]

child of dawn

[hufflepotato-18]

“If Gilbert had been asked to describe his ideal woman the description would have answered point for point to Anne, even to those seven tiny freckles whose obnoxious presence still continued to vex her soul. Gilbert was as yet little more than a boy; but a boy has his dreams as have others, and in Gilbert's future there was always a girl with big, limpid grey eyes, and a face as fine and delicate as a flower. He had made up his mind, also, that his future must be worthy of its goddess.”

- Anne of Avonlea, L. M. Montgomery

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

We can’t keep doing this.

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[aeriona]

They Ded on my f1sh till i Acht

I’ve already made one of these before in the past but I couldn’t help myself i’m sorry-

[stuckinapril]

choice feminism is not actual feminism and will do nothing to help push women out of the shackles we have been subjected to

No I understand this. It’s completely duplicitous to pretend that women choose things in vacuum, when in reality a lot of their decisions are influenced by the patriarchal system we were born into—makeup being a byproduct of it. I’m all for women going against the grain and existing in public without feeling the need to put makeup on.

There does need to be a push against rigid beauty standards, but putting a woman down for adhering to them just isn’t the way to me. It doesn’t mean I think every choice is inherently feminist and shouldn’t be questioned. It just means I’m mindful of not infringing on other women’s autonomy w my opinions. Besides, experiences w makeup are so different… one woman could just be wearing it bc she’s artsy and just likes the way it looks, whereas another could be wearing it bc she understands that it could help her up the corporate ladder. I wouldn’t dream of calling either of them anti feminist for doing it.

Is that ideal? No. Should it should be questioned, analyzed, changed for the better? Again, bc I don’t want my words to be twisted—yes, it should be. I was never trying to say it shouldn’t. All I was stating was that I don’t think policing women on whether or not they should wear makeup is the answer. I rly don’t. I’m not prepared to call a woman who wears makeup anti-feminist. I’m not prepared to shame a woman for wearing makeup or getting plastic surgery. I’m just not. That is not the same thing as promoting choice feminism. Like I know this isn’t the critical thinking website but being accused of being pro choice feminism for simply supporting other women being happy is crazy

[grandpasauce]

Oh beloved irony something something the very people solas is trying to destroy accepted him more than the ones he’s trying to bring back ever did ,,,