#I'm fine with introducing myself and getting to know people- it's just difficult to make the jump to hanging out outside of class

[vamptastic]

homeschool kids have a reputation for being poorly specialized but ngl, i think that'd make it easier to form and maintain adult friendships. it's hard making new friends without the public high school schedule in which you're forced to hang out with the same people for at least a half hour a day 5 days a week

[racew1nn3rs]

─ 𝘴𝘤𝘦𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘪𝘪. (𝘯𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘮𝘶𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳) ⛵️

⤷ summary: miami and monaco. just lando being horribly down bad and y/n being at her wits end. poor oscar just can't escape the train wreck that is two losers with feelings and zero (0) emotional competency .

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mclaren sorry to report that the only good thing about miami was the weather! (and the celebrities)

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user1 it's okay admin, you can say the car was shit

mclaren yeah the car was shit

user2 mclaren team is cursed i fear

mclaren alr where my witch baddies at? please unhex us pls pls pls

user3 uhm!!!????

mclaren desperate times desperate measures and all that jazz

user4 normal people: oh no the car is bad. yn: we're cursed for generations to come ☹️

landonorris i didn't get to meet shakira, what's the point of going on living

mclaren there is none! kys

landonorris oh wow

user5 nahhhh she gettin fired 💀

user6 not a single photo with lando's face 😭

user7 boohoo ☺️ OSCAR FANS, THEY BROKE BUT WE UP ‼️‼️‼️

user6 ok enough

landonorris post me challenge (difficult)

mclaren uh no (: go talk to hr bro we do not careeeeeee

user8 this beef is crazy, yall havent made up yet

user9 DOES ANYONE EVEN KNOW WHY THEYRE BEEFING 😭

oscarpiastri yeah

mclaren hey oscar! great race

oscarpiastri don't ever lie to my face like that again

maxfewtrell gonna build the car myself at this point

user10 i see a podium in our future everyone say thank you max

user11 y/n livestream when 😔

ynusername (;

user11 WHAT DOES THIS MEAN

user12 lando and admin flirting again, who could've guessed

user13 ... she told him to kill himself

user14 the enemies to lovers is enemying 🤩

user13 yeah, it's giving enemies to lovers but no lovers only murder

mclaren truth.

user12 ARIANA WHAT ARE YOU DOING HWRE

user15 mclaren, fire everyone and hire y/n as the engineer/ strategist/ driver/ pit crew/ pr

mclaren we winning 🥱

oscarpiastri you'd be the only one finishing cause everyone else would die ☝🏻

mclaren shut the fuck up oscar 🙄

user16 flying cars they said 😔

mclaren how the mighty have fallen

user17 WE THE BEST TEAM ON THE GRIDDDD YUHHH

mclaren i'm gonna hold your hand while i say this

user18 it's been 20 years since i've seen my husband 😞 (admin won't post pictures of lando anymore)

mclaren your husband is ugly as fuck

landonorris what the fuck!

mclaren get off your phone loser

user19 full oscar picture when (i'mbeg ging you please i needg it nowe)

mclaren BAD DOG DOWN OMFG

lilyzneimer i would argue you were the best part of miami

mclaren YOU ARE SO FINE YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH BEAUTIFUL GIRL 🤭

oscarpiastri GET AWAY FROM HER YOU FREAK 🤺

user20 y/n being unprofessional on the team page, who's shocked

mclaren and the world kept spinning

user21 we all know who was really shit here (looking at you lando)

mclaren it's not funny when you do it.

landonorris when she defends you 🥴

mclaren i'm telling a trusted adult danielricciardo

danielricciardo what the fuck makes you think i can be trusted

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The image flickered onto the screen as the broadcast began. Lando, clothed comfortably in sweats, a cap, and his streaming headphones, looked briefly off camera to where his guests sat waiting to be introduced.

He glanced up at Streamlabs and was shocked to see he had upwards of 30,000 viewers. He had only just started the stream and many people had likely not even gotten the Twitch notification yet. He shook off his shock and plastered on his usual smirk.

Everything is fine. I am totally and completely fine.

"Welcome, welcome. How are you all doing today? There's a lot of people here already. What's the special occasion guys?" He joked, being met with a scoff from the girl to his left.

Everything is not fine at all.

Lando almost never felt nervous when he would stream. After all, he was just playing game with his friends, the chat comments streaming through at a speed he could barely read. Even then, being in Formula One for so long meant he was used to being watched, his every little move being observed nearly constantly since his debut in 2019.

And yet all it took was her presence and suddenly he was nervous. His palms were sweaty, his heart was beating at a mile a minute- honestly you would think he were racing. How could he be expected to be funny and charming when she was here. She never seemed to struggle much in the department. It was almost entirely natural for her. Being perfect was like breathing air to Y/n he suspected.

As he watched the chat messages stream past even quicker on his monitor, he finally caught Oscar's gaze out of the corner of his eye. The younger man quirked a brow at him. What's your problem? His teammate seemed to say. He ignored him. Stupid Oscar and his stupid opinions and his stupid, uncomplicated love life. Lando envied the Australian most days, but now he just wanted to punch him straight in the jaw.

"Alright, it seems like most people are here already, so I'll just get started. I'm sure you're all wondering who my special guests are. The suspense must be killing you surely," He teased his audience. He ignored the completely accurate guesses in his chat.

Was he so predictable that it could be assumed it was either his teammate, Y/n, or Max were his special guests? Or was this a more unfortunate warning sign that he was just plain old boring.

"Seems like most people in chat were smart enough to figure it out! Please give a warm welcome to my guests! The lovely, stunning, awe-inspiring Y/n!" He cheered as the girl groaned, rolling her chair forward so she was behind him and within the frame of the camera.

"Oh and also Oscar's here," Lando added boredly, voice almost entirely monotone. Oscar scoffed loudly and he shot into frame kicking Lando's chair roughly, almost knocking him over and startling a laugh out of the girl behind them.

"Your an asshole mate," Oscar scoffed. Lando didn't hear him. The melodic laughing in his ear from Y/n was quite frankly the only sound his brain could process.

Who knew a laugh could sound so beautiful.

Who knew I could be so god damn embarrassing, Lando thought miserably.

"Guys do you see what I have to put up with!? How I get any shit done around here is a wonder," Y/n scoffed, "Anyways, welcome everybody, this is my stream now." Lando squawked indignantly.

"Excuse you, your in my home!"

"Yeah, unfortunately," she muttered with an eye roll and Oscar laughed.

"You should be grateful! Although these aren't the circumstances I was hoping to have you here under for the first time," Lando said with a completely unsubtle wink.

Y/n grimaced and Oscar doubled over with the force of his laughter.

"Viewers I am so sorry, please leave now, I have no way to muzzle him and apparently I can't sensor him," Y/n scowled.

"I fear he might enjoy that," Oscar muttered with a shake of his head.

Oh you motherfucker, Lando thought. Talk about subtle.

"If it was you, I probably would," Lando said to the girl and she planted her palm into the center of his face and shoved him lightly.

"Oh gross, cooties or STDs or whatever it is you men carry," Y/n shook her hands off and fake gagged.

"EXCUSE ME!" Lando shouted as Oscar nearly fell out of his chair.

"You're excused!"

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Y/n was holding on to her sanity by a thread. Or whatever was smaller than a thread... a hair or something. They had been answering fan questions for nearly 15 minutes already and Lando had decided today would be the day he would do nothing but flirt with her incessantly. He was like a child with a question or dog with a bone; He wouldn't let it the fuck go.

The sound of text-to-speech beginning dragged Y/n out of her thought spiral.

"Lando, what is your favorite video you've ever filmed?" The question asked.

Oh brother, Y/n thought. She looked at Oscar and he only laughed. How helpful.

"Probably the water TikTok challenge," Oscar hummed in agreeance.

"Why?" Y/n asked in confusion. She realized belatedly that asking Lando anything right now was probably a bad idea. She had set herself up this time.

"I don't know, I'm just a personal fan of anything that involves your hands in my hair," He smirked and she rolled her eyes. Her stomach flipped as she looked at his eyes. How could such a stupid, stupid man have such nice eyes (and lips, and teeth, and-).

"Well that's interesting," She smirked back, leaning her body toward him, ignoring the way she was blushing down to her chest. Her ears felt hot. It was hard to focus when she felt like she was burning alive, an unfortunate side effect that seemed to come with the irritating Brit in front of her.

"That was my favorite too," she added and Lando's eyes widened. Oscar looked at her in confusion over Lando's head.

"Really?" Lando asked, suprise clear in his voice. His smirk fell away for only a moment, but it was long enough for Y/n to notice.

Poor little Lando Norris, she thought. A bit too easy to read, this one.

"Yep," she grinned, before letting her face fall. "I'm a big fan of anything that means I can drown you." She responded in a monotone voice. Oscar cackled. The poor guy had hardly been asked any questions. Y/n found she didn't feel too bad anyway. The asshole was enjoying her suffering far too much.

Y/n knew the chat was going wild at their interactions, but she didn't really find herself caring. Maybe this was a bad look from a PR stand point, but then again didn't they always say "any press is good press."

Y/n wondered if the idiots who said that had ever had an inappropriate attraction to their asshole of a coworker, who just so happened to be public figure with fans who were becoming more aware of the tension with every day that interacted.

Probably fucking not.

Y/n watched as Lando's faux upset face cracked into a smile as he began to laugh heartily. She couldn't help but smile. Y/n was finding it hard to hold onto whatever grudge she had before. Maybe Lando Norris and his perfect smile, and his stupid jokes and his charming attitude weren't all that bad. Maybe, just maybe.

But they had absolutely no affect on her. None at all.

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ynusername monaco post-gp (help me this guy is stalking me i can't get rid of him help hel

11,209 comments

user22 damn he took out my girl mid-sentence 😔

user23 Y/N POSTED LANDO?? AM I DREAMING?? AM I HAVING A STROKE??? OH GOD AM I DEAD

user24 girl calm the fuck down

user25 DOES THIS MEAN THE BEEF IS OVER

ynusername yes! (he has a gun to my head)

user26 LANY/N SHIPPERS WE RISE ONCE MORE

user27 get it together, they've posted together ONCE

user28 is lany/n in the room with us

user29 "lando and y/n getting along isn't real, it can't hurt you!" OH REALLY

landonorris i had other plans but i cancelled them to be your tour guide, you're welcome

ynusername me when i fucking lie

oscarpiastri do my eyes decieve me

ynusername shut up oscar

landonorris yeah shut up oscar

user30 couples that fight their friend together, stay together

ynusername i can and will block you 😃

user30 oh.

oscarpiastri no it's fine i didn't want to be invited

oscarpiastri i totally hate the ocean, it's not like i surf or anything

oscarpiastri looks boring, would've hated to go on a boat

landonorris other than the fact that i lost my flip flop in the ocean, it was fun i guess

user31 good job lando this came off exactly as nonchalant as you hoped king

ynusername HAHA LOSER YOU LOST YOUR SHOE

oscarpiastri I LOST SOMETHING ONCE 😞

user32 close enough, welcome back brocedes

ynusername literally what is the correlation here

user32 idk leave me alone

user33 um so this is actually insane

user34 i screamed so loud my neighbors called the cops because they thought i was being murdered

user35 can you be normal

user36 this might be the first original experience

user35 no, not original, just embarrassing

user37 i want to be excited about this but it feels so sinister

ynusername good, it should be

maxfewtrell never in my 23 years of living could i have expected this (lando messaged me to tell me what he was doing today)

user38 posting a comment is optional

maxfewtrell i have fomo, can i live

user39 lany/n shippers all around the world cheered

user40 oh you different friend!

user41 onto something ❌ on something ✅

user42 and the crowd is... the crowd is leaving??

user43 my crew lets go

user44 "war is over" we all say in unison

oscarpiastri not likely 💀

user23 HELLO OMFHADFSLJ

danielricciardo oh so you can hang out with him in monaco but not with me

ynusername sorry babygirl 😔 i didn't mean to abandon you

danielricciardo ew never fucking mind

maxverstappen1 i live in monaco too! hope this helps

ynusername i knew that already! hope this helps

maxverstappen1 oh.

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I AM SOOOOO SORRY THIS TOOK 5 MILLION YEARS TO BE UPDATED!! i am hoping to be more consistent moving forward, but my schedule is a bit of a mess with school. hopefully i'll be able to get some requests fulfilled soon as well though!

most importantly, thank you so much for all the love and support on this fic!! the amount of comments, asks, and dms asking about updates was staggering and it makes me so happy that you all like to so much (: receiving such positive feedback for this fic has honestly rejuvenated my love for writing so much, and i can't express how much the support means to me.

please keep leaving comments and dms with your thoughts, i love reading them <3 hope u enjoyed!

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[stardustbuck]

I feel like atp even if there were plans to make bvddie canon theyre gone now. if tim minear is even half as petty as I am he would see that reaction and go u know what fuck you u actually don't get what you want now cause ur acting so goddamn entitled. like when tarlos fans got mad about the deleted scenes instead of appreciating them being released and his reaction was to say "okay fine then I just won't release deleted scenes anymore" (like I'm sure it was mostly a marketing decision but part of me thinks they intentionally released a scene about bucktommy just to prove a point.) idk man it's just really upsetting as a bi man to see the absolutely vile shit bvddie stans are saying and even tho I love the ship I now never want it to go canon cause they've fuckin ruined it

hey anon, at first let me agree with the fact that i do in fact also love bvddie a lot and i still love reading fics for them, the edits of them are fantastic and the fanart is S tier. it’s a great pairing with a lot of potential there IF the writers decided to ever go there but…

huge answer below

yeah, i agree. i honestly think before tommy was introduced again in 7x03 and the kiss in 7x04 that in my brain, bvddie was the most logical endgame for buck until it wasn’t.

i came into the show shipping bvddie much like a lot of new fans to the show but instead of hopping onto the tommy anti express hate train i found myself falling in love with buck and tommy together. at first i was still on board with bvddie still being endgame but as each episode aired after 7x04 i became faced with the reality of the situation (at least the way i see it) that bvddie might always be fanon and that’s ok because fandom keeps ships alive whether they’re canon or not. some of the biggest ships EVER are non-canon (i mean, cmon spirk? one of the OG MM ships?) so it didn’t really deter me from enjoying bvddie to this day. what HAS deterred me from interacting with bvddie content is toxic bvddies. i don’t like using the lil nicknames, idc if other ppl do, whatever, but i prefer just referring to certain kinds as just toxic plain and simple.

toxic shippers have made it difficult for anyone who multiships to interact with bvddie content. while there are incredibly nice & welcoming bvddie endgamers out there, it doesn’t overshadow the hateful ones in my online experience at least. i’ve blocked so many ppl over this ship discourse, which ive never had to do with any other fandom before the extent i have with 911. everyday i still find new ppl to block, you go under almost any comment section on the 911 insta and its filled with nasty comments abt tommy and only caring abt whether bvddie will be canon in s8. people projecting their hatred of tommy/lou onto the cast/crew of the show when it’s be said and proven time and time again that it’s quite the opposite. now im certain there’s bad apples in the bucktommy side as well, but from what ive seen online so far it is not nearly to the caliber of the bvddie side. ive blocked maybe a handful of bucktommy’s for being hateful towards eddie or being toxic overall, but ive probably blocked over 100+ toxic bvddies. i can only imagine it’d be worse if i was active on 911 twt which i’m not (thank god) but i have ventured into the tags before on there and let me tell you, it’s fucking horrifying how gross ppl are over there. twt is a cesspool for fandom anyways tho, the fucking asshole of fandom, it’s a septic tank really.

now im my own opinion which could be completely untrue of course, but just basing my thoughts on what i’ve seen online and interviews and such, tim seems to be really happy about bucktommy and idk how ppl believe otherwise. tim has expressed he loves LFJ and wanted him back on the show. tim showed up on set for the kiss scene. tim posting an entire youtube vibe abt bucktommy being soulmates that touches on the invisible string theory and explains how they accidentally found buck’s perfect match. tim sharing the deleted tommy scene is also huge but im waiting to see if he releases more (because i remember seen somewhere that he said there’d be more?) and if he does then great but it’s also still pretty telling to me after the whole karaoke fiasco.

oliver has said nothing but praises towards buck’s queer storyline. he quite literally said if you dont like it then watch something else. despite ppl saying he’s never interacted with bucktommy content online, that’s a lie because he has liked fanart of them.

aisha, kenneth & tracie have all expressed how they like tommy/lou and love working with him.

jlh said she loved bvddie before but is excited to see where buck and tommy go and then on an insta live said she doesn’t think bvddie is happening and was bombarded by toxic fans to the point of ending the live early.

ppl think it’s all some ruse to make it seem like bvddie is never happening so when it does happen it’s a “surprise” ……..

the nasty hate comments are doing nothing but exposing these types of ppl for who they are and that honestly to them, 911 is just the bvddie show to them. the people who run these social media accs for 911 are looking at these comments and cringing, they aren’t running to tim and abc being like “we must give these crazies what they want!” they’re mostly likely being ignored or honestly, as you said, being looked at and just reinforcing their decision to most likely make tommy buck’s endgame so as long as his schedule is open for filming.

what gets me the most about the hate these types of shippers spew online is how they aren’t embarrassed because they are so sooo convinced they will be right one day and therefore their insane, nasty behavior online will be justified. oliver stark literally left twt because of fans like this, people act like he was joking around, that he was shooting the shit probably because “he’s british and british people just have that kind of humor” which yes to a certain extent but let me just add these posts to set an example to why if oliver were still on twt he absolutely would not be happy with the way toxic bvddies are acting right now.

oliver (and ryan&other cast too) being positive abt bvddie never meant it was going to be canon of become canon one day. they do not decide these things, whether they believe it should or not. a lot of bvddie shippers come from previous fandoms where queerbaiting was there, where they were made fun of by actors of their ships, by the creators of the show! so i understand the frustration but oliver is not queerbaiting and buck is not a queerbait character when he quite literally is now confirmed bisexual and in a relationship with a man.

he’s just not the “correct” queer to these people. despite headcanons (hell even i hc eddie as queer!!) eddie so far, in canon, is not queer. by the end s7 he is still shown to not be over shannon and ruins his relationship with his son over this. ryan has stated in interviews he sees eddie as heterosexual, possibly pushing this because of the influx of ship discourse, and he’s glad to see a vulnerable and deep friendship that buck and eddie can have as a straight man and a queer man and how important he thinks it is.

every single thing that points to bvddie never going canon is like they’re being shot point blank in the chest. i get it, your ship not becoming canon sucks, but again, that is what fandom is for! shipping has never been about how canon smth is, there is 20k fics out there for bvddie and they aren’t canon. they can turn that into 40k, 100k, 1M if they really wanted to! instead they use their time and energy posting death threats, wishing death upon a gay character, bullying ppl online for enjoying a ship.

meanwhile from what ive seen bucktommys are rolling with goofy ass spy tommy theories created by antis and making jokes for our own fun.

so yes, i agree overall. they truly don’t deserve what they think they do. we didn’t whine and scream for a deleted scene. they did. we got ours without even expecting it and are having fun.

maybe if they behaved better i wouldn’t be so petty abt it. it’s a shame because of how much potential it has, unfortunately it is just not going that way atm. and even if it does one day, it is not because they paraded online with hate, it is because that’s the story tim and the others wanted to write and abc approved it.

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eng voice drama beginning of creation

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Ai: Here you go. Tsuguha. Tsuguha:Oh, Administrator! Oh…uh…okay! It's okay. Tsuguha was so nervous that she came too early. We tend to arrive at our destination well before the appointment. Well, hello again, isn't it…? Ai: Yes. Hello. Well, yes… for the time being. My job is to get to know everyone, so can you give us a brief introduction? Tsuguha: Well…I'm Tsuguha. The rest is…um… Ai:……… Tsuguha:I don't really have anything to introduce…sorry. Ummm…oh! Well…perhaps it would be better to answer the Administrator's question. Ai: Questions, questions. I can't think of anything… should have come up with a better story… Tsuguha:Haha, I understand. I understand that feeling. Ai: What should I talk about with someone I just met for the first time? I have no idea. I wonder if it's because of my memory deficit. Tsuguha: …I think you will learn a lot from now on. So you will be fine. I don't think you need to worry. Ai: Hmm, can you say the same thing if I try to solve the problem with violence? Tsuguha: Then I would cry and call someone else. Ai: That's good to know. Until I learn to communicate with someone other than force, your safety is not guaranteed. Tsuguha:At least I will learn how to protect myself.

Ai: Let's get back to the question. Well, let's see… How is life here? Tsuguha:It's not bad, it's different from where I've been, but it's not a bad environment. Ai: Yes. What kind of places have you been before? Tsuguha:It's normal, I guess. I haven't really thought about it. I think it's more normal than solitary confinement. Ai:That's true. So what is your relationship with the other prisoners? Tsuguha: I'm not sure. It's difficult to verbalize. I think everyone is at least kind to me. Ai: You look like you mean something. Is something wrong? Tsuguha:No, I'm sorry if I worried you. There is no problem. I mean, there's nothing too much going on. Ai: I think it's fine if it's peaceful… Tsuguha:I think this is a sign. Administrator. It's the calm before the storm, isn't it? Ai: Are you saying that something is going to happen? Tsuguha:I can't say for sure. Everyone who was so insistent at the beginning has suddenly become quiet. And yet the group is complete. I think this situation is a bit strange. Ai: I see. It's my fault for taking so much time to prepare and not monitoring the group properly. If they form a gang, I'm sure I won't be able to win, so I should at least keep an eye on them. Tsuguha: It won't be like a gang, but the nuance is correct. That's all for now. I don't think it's something for Tsuguha to worry about, so I'll leave the rest to the Administrator. Ai: Thanks for all the input. You are very observant. And you are polite, and your phrasing seems wise. Tsuguha:I am honored by your compliments. Is it because of the environment? I think I am good at observing situations. It is natural to be good at politeness, too. Ai: Well, I guess there are only older people around me now. It might be natural for you to be so. Tsuguha:Yes, it is true that I am good at it now. But it is not limited to now. I was born and raised in a place where there are many adults, so maybe I am mature in my own way. I think I am still a child, though.

Ai: I think it's time to move on to something else. Tsuguha:Yes. But there's nothing we can really talk about… Ai:Okay. Then can I ask you something else that's on your mind? Tsuguha:Yes. I said it would be helpful if you asked me a question first. Ai:Have you been asking me how I'm doing? Tsuguha:What? Ai: I'm sure he doesn't mean to hurt you. You seem to be watching me to see what I will say. I guess you are good at observing. I think she was sympathizing with me when I was having a hard time making conversation with you. Tsuguha:……Yes. I really don't like to be rude to my superiors. So I'm trying to figure out in my head what to speak and I'm trying desperately to capture what the Administrator said. I only said I understand earlier, but I'm doing my best to cut conversation cards in my head. Ai: You read the atmosphere too much. Tsuguha:I think so myself. First of all, I think you adapt too much. A normal child would probably scream and cry if brought to a place like this and interrogated. But that doesn't make it any less painful, even if the conversation with the Administrator is tasteless. It's rather helpful. Ai: Looks like you saved me this time too. I'll have to think about our conversation before next time. I found something to reflect on. Tsuguha: I'm glad to hear that. I'll try to prepare a script next time so that I can tell more about myself. Huh, even so. It would have been nice to be more, well, rebellious. Ai: If you feel that way, it would be a good thing to change. I don't want to be so rebellious as to add to my duties, but you are certainly too accepting of the situation. I mean, I could say that about all prisoners. At least you can still change, right? You are still young and full of hope for the future. Tsuguha: Hmmm… Ai: Did I say something funny? Tsuguha:No, sorry. Hope for the future, right? It's interesting. From my point of view, I think the Administrator is also full of hope for the future. You are young, aren't you, Administrator? Ai: I hope so. It's going to be a long time from now. Ai: I hope so, it would be nice to know if there is hope or not. Tsuguha:I'm glad I could talk to the Administrator like this. Tsuguha: Have you become at least as good as you can hope to be? Ai: You don't have to be so down on yourself. I think I gained a lot of knowledge from talking with you. Even if it's only a little, it's a good thing. I wish I could have been an adult who could have been a role model for you.

[bell tolling]

Tsuguha: What's this? Ai: I think it's time to go. Sigh. I wish I had a better handle on this. Not being familiar is no excuse for not doing my job. Tsuguha:Tsuguha doesn't mind that much. Others may complain about your laziness at work. Please do your best. Ai: Yeah, I'll do it. If other prisoners complain, what should I do then? Tsuguha:Administrator, at least violence is not good. It doesn't sound like a joke when you say it… Ai: Thanks for the lesson. I'm going to have to go learn how to communicate… Oh, before we finish, do you have any questions? Tsuguha: Questions, questions… ah! I forgot to tell you something important. Ai: What? It's not too late. Tsuguha:I thought it was a strange verdict. It's a good option to absolve me of my crime. Ai. No matter what happens, please consider me as evil. Otherwise, you will be hurt.

[dailyrimuru]

Day 18 - Oops.. (Rambling time about the Tensura game that released yesterday. If you didn't know Tensura had a new game, it wouldn't surprise me) Anyways, been playing the new Tensura game, it's good for what it is. There are many aspects of the game that are VERY similar to parts of the mobile game (not in bad ways, mind you) such as the city-building (which is slightly less customizable but since construction is instant its a bearable tradeoff), the skill upgrades (which have an actual tree this time rather than a weird circle), and the party system with 3 people going out with a supporter giving buffs and whatnot. I'm sure very few of this is original to just Tensura's games, but you can tell that they either took heavy inspiration from the elements of Isekai Memories, or Isekai Memories was a proto version of this game. Don't worry though, there are no gacha elements and no in-game purchases besides the future DLCs. At least not that I'm aware of. As for the story of the game, a lot of it follows canon but it does seem to spend more time in its own original story than Isekai Memories often did. However since I have yet to get to the Orc Lord yet (played it for 4+ hours, the added unique story is long) I don't know much of the full story. I don't even know how far into the game I am and I don't really wanna spoil myself either. While it does sometimes copy/paste screenshots from the anime like the mobile game does (c'mon guys), it does also sometimes reanimate some of the more important scenes which can actually look quite nice. BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WHY DID YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE OUT-OF-CUTSCENE TALKING SPRITES LOOK LIKE THAT. I WOULD'VE PREFERRED IT IF YOU JUST MADE THEM STILL IMAGES, WHY DID YOU MAKE THEIR MOUTHS MOVE LIKE ITS AN AI-LIPSYNCH?! HELL, IT MIGHT EVEN BE AI, I GENUINELY CAN'T TELL. I spam caps, but it's not that big of an issue once you learn to ignore it. It's just... why? Why did you even bother? Just make it still sprites at that point. As for the original characters, I do not care for this goblin, please stop making me fight him 5 times in a row I wanna learn about the otherworlder and build my McRimuru's. The game's unique otherworlder (or at least one of them as there seems to be two, in this case I'm talking about the girl) seems to have some interesting things going on, though it seems she's only now beginning to get her attention in the story, so I'm interested to see where it goes. The goblin, or bugbear as he technically is, is fine... I guess? His reasoning is kind of annoying... "To get revenge on the direwolves for killing goblins, I will kill everyone in this town... Which is made up of mostly goblins." Eventually it starts to make more sense as his goal becomes less getting revenge and more to just actually beat Rimuru after he gets his ass handed to him 5 times in a row (I'm not joking, you fight him like around five times with only one or two quests between each fight. To give the fights some credit, they've been some of the harder fights of the game, so I do appreciate the challenge. Just wish it was more spread out so I came to dread those infrequent but difficult fights instead of being like "Am I fighting him again? I'm fighting him again... alright, here we go."). Still though, I'm more interested in this otherworlder and this new nation they introduced than this goblin, though so far in the story the goblin has gotten most of the attention. Ofc the story is far from over, I've not finished the game yet, and from what I've seen before I got off for the night it seems the story is heading into an arc more focused on the Otherworlder and MAYBE this other nation, so I'm excited to see where they go with it.

[gothhabiba]

Im reeeeeally stupid and also white so I'm really sorry if this comes off as disrespectful, I mean this totally respectfully.

What do you mean "racist about my name" like... that they mispronounce it? Or is it intentionally? Or like ???????? Like can I have an example? Not doubting that this happens I'm just trying to understand the phrasing sorry if I'm annoying you

it's fine, that post didn't actually contain an example or explanation of racism regarding names (or language more broadly)

mispronouncing someone's name on accident, or not immediately being able to pronounce it because the sounds or phonotactics (the way sounds are put next to each other) are not present in your native language, or not knowing how it's pronounced just from the way it's spelled, or not immediately remembering how it's spelled when it's not right in front of you, are not racist actions—that doesn't make any sense, and I've never seen anyone try to claim that.

being racist about people's name is more like

not trying to learn how to pronounce it and not giving a shit if you mispronounce it, though white people's names (even when they are not immediately familiar to the speaker) generally inspire more effort, more respect, and more apologies when they are mispronounced or mispelled

not giving a shit if you misspell someone's name, not taking two seconds to check the spelling and not apologising when corrected

not taking the time to learn someone's name when they tell you what it is (I have had people turn and walk away from me as I was explaining how to pronounce my name... even though I was an invited speaker and they were going to have to introduce me...)

racialising someone based on their appearance and immediately tensing up or getting stressed or annoyed because you expect that their name is going to be annoying, difficult, not worth the effort, &c.

racialising someone based on their appearance and immediately assuming that their name will contain sounds that you associate with the language you associate with that race, even when their name does not contain those sounds, and repeatedly mispronouncing their name for that reason

relatedly: people of colour who do have Anglo [or whatever language is applicable] names report having people struggling to pronounce that name... even though they do not struggle to pronounce the name when white people have it... as though refusing to believe that that could really be their name

making fun of names that derive from racialised languages, acting like they are a burden on the people that bear them (right after introducing myself to someone and having him struggle with the Anglicized pronunciation of my name, he said "why would your parents do that to you" ...?)

alternately, squeeing over non-European names ("that's so exotic" "what language is that from" "where are you from" "what does your name mean" "why did your parents give you that name?"—no one asks random white people with Anglo names what their names "mean" and what deeper significance they have...)

as a teacher—not calling on your students of colour because you don't want to have to pronounce their names; audibly lamenting the existence of certain names as you do roll call

asking if someone has an "English [or whatever language] name" you can use for them instead

Check out my tag "what's in a name," I used to talk about this a lot more

[tellthemeerkatsitsfine]

So, you know how I know a guy in London who goes to comedy shows all the time and gets to see all the cool comedians who perform in London and it's so cool? And you know how this afternoon, a bunch of comedians including Sam Campbell and Nish Kumar got on the roof of the Bill Murray pub to do a comedy gig where they shout at the crowd below like fucking Beatles? Well guess what? Guess what, guys? That guy got Sam's entire set on video. And because that shit happened in the open air and was free to anyone in the area, that was fair game to film and it's fair game to share. Anything a comedian doesn't want posted on public social media, they shouldn't shout from the rooftop of a building in an urban area at 2 in the afternoon.

It's so fucking cool. Up there with the most jealous I've been in the last few years, of people who live in London and can see this shit all the time. But then I got to see it anyway, because it's on video.

Watching this made me realize that Sam Campbell is sort of an exception to the rule that we want to see musicians do old stuff but comedians do new stuff. So much of Sam Campbell being funny comes from the delivery, so no matter how well I already know his material (which is fairly well by now), I'll still find it funny to hear it said again in his voice. I found myself excited when he introduced my favourite bits, which is not how it normally is with a comedian doing a new set, where you hope they'll have stuff you haven't heard. Nope, Sam is just as funny as the first time I heard it. Do the one about the wet guy in the hotel again! Do the tennis joke!

This set also made me realize that Sam Campbell shouting from a rooftop is the same auditory volume as Sam Campell doing a normal comedy set inside a theatre. The primary difference seems to be the lack of weird animations behind him, which I think is fine, as I'm not particularly into weird animations. He doesn't need them.

I did feel pretty cut up by the crowd work that consisted of "You look like the kind of guy who's really good at downloading a YouTube video. I bet you use Y2mate or Converto." Given that I heard him say that on a video I had just downloaded off YouTube with Y2mate. And I recommend that others do the same. Always save the media you like! Picture me shouting that from a rooftop in a Sam Campbell voice. It's very important. Anyway, to misquote Pierre Novellie, comedian destroys audience member who's 5,000 km away with accurate assessment of what she does on computers.

I enjoyed this so much. On purely how physically hard they make me laugh, Sam Campbell might get to me more than any other comedians. There might be other comedians I rate higher than him overall, for various reasons, but I don't think there are any other comedians who are so difficult for me to listen to on the bus. Something about what he does makes me laugh out loud, really loudly, every time. It's nearly a problem. I think he was the only comedian to make me laugh so hard I had tears in my eyes during 2023.

It's cool as fuck, getting to experience, even vicariously and just through a screen, a London comedy rooftop concert like they're fucking Beatles. In this particular video, Sam Campbell does a bunch of stuff I'd heard before but it still killed me again, a few bits I hadn't heard before, some left-field crowd work, and talks some shit about Nish Kumar. It's very much worth a watch, and worth a download with Y2mate.

[garthofshayeris]

MY OFFICIAL THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS ON AQUAMAN AND THE LOST KINGDOM. Spoilers ahead.

OKAY. I was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked it. It was very fun and it did not have the problem of too many villains that I was expecting based on everything I read. If that was the result of the rewrites and reshoots, I am happy for them.

A lot of the visuals and smaller adventures felt very Silver Age! There were certain creatures that were directly from the 60s, which I appreciated. Topo was lovely. If you know me, you know one of my major gripes with some of the recent Aquaman comics is that they do not lean into the animal sidekick thing anymore. And the group of whales straight up killing all those people? THAT is the Aquaman content I like to see.

The horror elements were just enough to balance out the sillier parts. Although I knew Arthur Jr was never in any actual danger, this is the closest DC has come since the 70s to making it even somewhat realistic that they would kill a baby. Like, I knew they wouldn't. But for once I said to myself, "they've established this enough that I believe this threat." You know my stance on DC trying to bait another Death of a Prince...

The cursed Trident possessing Manta was giving such Preboot Orm vibes. I liked it, I appreciate a slow possession arc. Manta was scary and felt like a real threat, which is difficult to achieve when he's a human and he's fighting people so much stronger than him. Shin was also SO good, you knew he was going to redeem himself but it still felt very natural for him to do so. Idk why Manta trusted him with the baby duffel bag tho, after all the times Shin clearly was snooping and giving Manta disapproving looks. Also why did they put that baby in a duffel bag lmao

Overall, it was a pretty straightforward story that felt easy to follow. This isn't always the case for superhero films, so it was refreshing. And a good end to the franchise. This actually felt like it would have been a great end to a TRILOGY, and that we were missing a middle story...

HOWEVER.

Not to make this about me and my blorbo but.......this would have made a lot more sense as a story about Arthur and Garth. I'm sorry, but it's true. Every time I saw a Silver Age reference, I just said to myself "oh yeah, that's a story with Aqualad in it, but now it's Orm." I KNOW that Orm needed his lil redemption arc, but if Patrick Wilson was not besties with James Wan, I don't think he would have gotten one.

Because Kordax was Slizzath. He just was. They took Slizzath's story and renamed him Kordax. So many parts of the movie I was like "this is adapted from Tempest (1996)" BUT IF THEY HAD USED SLIZZATH WITHOUT GARTH I WOULD HAVE BEEN PISSED so I get it but I don't get it, you know? But Kordax was just Slizzath.

I posted a few years ago about my ideal Aquaman trilogy, and tbh this felt like my ideal third movie, plot-wise and tone-wise......except my vision was about Garth, not Orm. Orm could be there, I guess, but imo he should have had a sequel redemption and then the third movie should have introduced the evil sorcerer thing. It would have made perfect sense to need Atlan's blood, thinking they're fine because they saved the baby but then Garth accidentally bleeds on the altar and unlocking his powers, and releasing Slizzath. PLUS then he could freeze the ice caps again with his new found powers lmao I'm worried about the implications.........nobody in this universe has ice powers.....

I get that it would have been hard to introduce a new character for a sequel with absolutely no chance at a third movie, so I do understand that Garth was never an option....but holy shit, Garth would have been a perfect fit for this movie.

AGAIN, not to make it about my blorbo .......

also I cannot believe they killed Vulko via plague?? I almost laughed out loud. It's absolutely because they could not reconcile that if Vulko was alive, Arthur would not need Orm's help lmao RIP Vulko I choose to believe you were hanging around as a ghost like in Vol 5

One last gripe but omg Atlan's trident looked so BAD in some scenes??? It looked very prop-like, and not metal at all??? did anyone else notice it? It's really bad on the iceberg scene. The costumes were actually great but omg that trident prop lmao

OVERALL, it was a really fun movie. I'm happy to say that I liked it. I think it will get bad critic reviews and really good audience reviews. It just felt very fun and heartfelt. The action scenes were also well lit and easy to follow, and that alone should convince people to see it

I'm going to see it again tomorrow and I want to make a list of the other random things that I noticed. I know I'm missing a lot. How did ya'll feel about it??

[saysike-skedoodles]

Corruption Coyote

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You thought I forgot about the other 2? NAH- I'M BACK WITH MORE! Continuing with the MLP:FiM nostalgia, I got to drawing Silly as an MLP villain, that being King Sombra! I actually found Bex to be more difficult to think up of an option for than Silly and Stacy, I think it's cuz though that Bex wouldn't exactly be the type to like villains a majority of the time. ANYWAYS- this was actually more fun than I thought it was going to be which was nice :]. I found doing the eye glowing magic effect things (I dunno the names) was a lot of fun to draw, but I like drawing stuff like that as it is so it's not surprise. I was gonna try and not go too into the effects and whatnot cuz then it would just be "TMM AU no. 870681348619386583164", but this is me making these drawings soooooooooo. It's an AU. I'M SORRY I HAD TO IF I WANTED TO INCLUDE THE COOL EFFECTS- anyways. So now an AU exists of Bex as Discord and Silly as King Sombra (I'll get to revealing who Stacy will be soon don't worry), this is fine.... totally fine....

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I kinda did my own thing with this while still trying to keep it Sombra esc if you get me, cuz Silly wouldn't wear much royalty stuff so I kinda mixed the vibes of a "spooky shadow pony capable of showing people their worst nightmares" into her main style being alt/punk style. Also don't worry this AU isn't meant to be directly what happens in MLP, just a fun little "what if" kinda idea where it's the 3 as MLP villains. Nothing too serious or deep hehe. Honestly I just KNOW if Silly was introduced to MLP when she was probably 12 or so she'd DEFINITELY love the more edgy and spooky aspects to the show like Sombra, Tirek and all them. That probably would've been her edgy awakening if it weren't for emo and pop-punk music. I know this art isn't as I guess chaotic as Bex's one but that was the point of Bex's one was to be chaotic. Silly's is more simplistic cuz I wanted to emphasise the corrupted crystals and all that, I tried to do a background effect with spikes and crystals but it made everything look cluttered

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also the amount of edginess on this coyote when it came to thinking up of this outfit is something else. I feel I might accidentally cut myself from the amount of edge she has.

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[suddencolds]

very long ~musings on friendships~ under the cut

(mostly for me to sort through my thoughts - this might be very boring to read)

i'm at the point in my life where everyone's starting to go their separate ways (friends starting work halfway across the country for work, friends going to grad/law school, etc)

on friendship styles:

it's difficult bc i favor analytical/thorough conversations, and i gravitate towards friendships where that kind of conversation is the norm, but often those kinds of friendships end up turning into an infrequent back-and-forth / 'pen pal letter style' (because in order to maintain that level of thoroughness, having both parties respond at their own leisure is the only real sustainable option)

and in large part that works well for me; i enjoy being filled in on those people's lives when they have time. and i think a lot of adult friendships tend to ebb and flow according to like, how caught up both parties are in their individual lives in any point in time. but that's more a consequence of everyone leading stressful and separate lives, rather than indicative of any lack of closeness

at the same time, it's hard to gauge how much i want - or need - synchronous conversation (as in a voice call, meetup in person, real time back-and-forth over text, etc.), because i know the amount that i need is not zero. i think it's also difficult to try to introduce a new conversation style without necessarily knowing if it'd incur a burden on the other party; there's inherent risk to like, trying to deepen (or just adjust) a friendship that's functioned well on a certain level for a long time

sometimes the space in between responses is a lonely void, too, where the friendship feels almost suspended but inaccessible

i think that so much about adult friendships is just about making time. i also think that due to certain things i've been through, it's difficult for me to be the one to push for more closeness, because while i like to initiate, it doesn't come naturally to me. one of my closest friends is quite fickle and views friendships through a clinical framework of usefulness and give and take, which means that when i'm not directly useful to her, she sometimes drops off the grid for months at a time. it's been difficult adjusting my expectations around that - wanting closeness but also knowing that closeness is something periodic/inconsistent, or something that can be revoked at any time

when i take initiative, i can get easily discouraged if that effort is not met with similar enthusiasm. i don't have a solution for this (and haven't really formulated a question either); it's just something i've been thinking about.

on certainty / my personal expectations:

sometimes i want certainty where no such certainty exists. analysis serves me well in enough parts of my life that i struggle a lot when certainty is impossible to establish (e.g. 'will this person be there for me if i try to reach them'). i dislike the thought of investing myself into a friendship that the other party is not enthusiastic about, because my time and energy are limited, and the thought of being the one always vying for the other party's attention - the thought of my enthusiasm and engagement being seen as an annoyance - is something that terrifies me

i think i want to have the kind of closeness (and in some ways, consistency) where i would not have to worry about those things. that kind of hurt particularly sticks with me

i also hate guesswork; i want to be told things upfront. i hate passive aggression and i hate the idea that people have to 'take the hint'/'figure it out'. i like direct communication and i don't want to be friends with people who will hold resentment/harbor negative feelings without ever confronting me about them, though i know i am also guilty of swallowing my own discomfort at times; it's something i'm trying to be better at. i learned that ultimately, it's just more sustainable if i assume that everything is fine as a default, and that if something is ever wrong, the other party will tell me honestly. it is peaceful to be able to trust the other party intrinsically, and i don't want to entertain endless guesswork and doubt

(ultimately)

it's just a strange point for me right now. i'm learning that a friend group i considered myself extremely close to for so long is actually very different from me, and that the more i become more certain of myself and what i want from my friendships, the more the distance between us seems to widen. there are people i want to be closer to, but there's uncertainty as to whether that desire for closeness would be reciprocated, because i view initiative as an investment, and the only way i can deal with that is by overextending myself + reaching out to them first (and dealing with the possible hurt/discouragement that might come with it). and now that i am working full time and have more of a say on what i choose to do with my (limited) free time, i'm still in the process of figuring out what kinds of irl activities tire me out and which activities i'm most interested in sustaining.

despite all of this, i'm happy. i think i'm surrounded by a group of close friends that mean a lot to me, and i'm generally very content with my current friendships :'). there is just much to figure out

[anon-unofficial]

I dunno about you guys but for me there's just something super appealing to reading your favorite blorbos react to their own source media (AS WELL AS FAN CONTENT MAYBE??) and actually give interesting and fun commentary and reactions, because, well, I love them–

just. if someone wrote a reaction fic where the A Hero is Born timeline in lmk gets to see the

(sparkles)

✨FUUTUUUREEE✨

I'd probably shake in my boots and never be able to shut up about it because like???? IT'S??? PERFECT????

All I can imagine is the Eldritch Being of Whom Brought The Cast Here™ bringing in Wukong (who promptly panics and ends up transforming into that bird form he had while watching Mk eavesdrop on the demon bull family) and everybody else into the Magical Theater™

MK mmmight recognize the bird??? maybe???? and maybe he could have these one-sided conversations with it (while not knowing that he's literally talking to his idol and soon-to-be mentor) anD in the reveal that the animals watching him this whole time was Wukong, everybody could just comically snap their necks to his bird form while he basically just goes

"(⁠; • - •)" (crap crap crap crap)

"(• - • ;;)" (just look away wukong just loooook away it's fiNe–)

and and and and and and and and

sorry what was I talking about again

but just. ideas. people can get creative with the interactions and I can't help but want to know how each character would develop as their future is revealed more and more and secrets are no longer covered?? I'm. I might be a tiny bit obsessed with the trope but can you really blame me tho I just can't help it 😞

The most difficult thing for an author to make, and it's the most enjoyable thing for readers like me to read

I might make the reaction fic myself actually. ahem. (@an-t-hiho hey so–)

I also can't stop thinking about the LMK cast finding out about their fanbase

them to reacting and finding out about fan content as well, like how we think abt them (the majority of us going feral over Macaque and/or Wukong)

and, most importantly, our FANART.

just imagine that in their perspective; transported to a realm beyond their comprehension, not really knowing what to expect now that the access they had to their powers were gone... only to then be introduced to a whole other reality where they are nothing more than just a kid's show.

they'd be infuriated, no doubt. confused. maybe even a bit depressed and discouraged, but then the Eldritch Being who brought them there shows them that they're actually loved? that people from this universe want to... hug them? be with them? meet them? help them? all while knowing everything about them; from their mistakes, to their faults, to their vulnerabilities, to their weaknesses. they still love them. even if they might not deserve it. even if they don't deserve it. they still do. those people still do.

a universe apart, and yet, we're still willing to give them the love they deserve. just imagine:

Wukong and Macaque. seeing how many people find them so tragic. seeing how many people have analyzed their argument and have deduced that neither of them are at fault. seeing how much these people would do just to help them communicate better. they love them.

Red Son. seeing how many people absolutely ADORE him for who he is. seeing how many people would love to just be with him and hang around. seeing how much people have drawn him. him and his ridiculousness. they love him.

MK. seeing how many people love him. seeing how many people love drawing him. seeing how many people want to comfort him through what he had to go through. seeing how much these people from a whole other dimension would give just to give him a well-deserved hug. they love him.

and of course, last and most definitely least, LBD, seeing how many people want to end her. such a wholesome idea, don't you think?

[thatoneguy031]

At this point, we had all made our way to Castelia, and it wasn't too difficult to make it back... After a while, getting from one end of Unova to the other stops being such an exhausting task.

Bars.

But anyway, yeah, we made it to the dock, and I was scared about how many humans were there. I could tell Mx. Suicune was too, but probably for different reasons. To sort of calm their nerves, I gave them my sunglasses, y'know? They were really concerned with how they looked for some reason. It's not really something I think I should ask about yet.

I, personally, had one of my seamitars out, just in case someone decided to get too personal. You can call it force of habit or even dangerous, I call it being prepared.

Imagine my surprise when I heard a familiar voice shout "Yo! Mido-Rott-a!"

I turn around, and I see someone practically swimming through the crowd of people and Pokemon alike to get to where me and the others were.

...Blair?! What is HE doing here?!

He was saying, "Yo, dude! It's so awesome seeing you here! And you brought your friends, too!", and he had reached back into the crowd to yank someone else from inside. Another human, of course, wearing a blue coat and red glasses. Oh, and he had black hair too.

"I'm telling you, Blair, this better be worth fighting through so many people," he said to him. "Heavens, the foot traffic here is worse than the streets!" He was upset, and I was too. Why ARE there so many people here?!

"Trust me, Cheren, these dudes are really cool!" Blair gestured to us, like we were some kind of blender or vacuum or something from one of those infomercials. "These are the Pokemon I was talking about, from the party! They learned how to write, and helped me out with Team Plasma some time ago!" He held out his hand, probably for me to shake it.

I stared at him. I mean, I'm fine with him, I guess. He doesn't mean any harm. But like... I don't even know him like that.

Of course, I still shook his hand, but I was still wary of him, reaching for my notebook with my other paw. <What are you doing here?>

"They can communicate," the other boy, presumably Cheren, said. He looked fascinated. "I can see why you were so interested in them. And- Wait, is that a Suicune?!" He yelped, leaping back a little.

Mx. Suicune didn't like that very much, and they chose to stand behind me They looked like they were snarling, but no sound came from his mouth. I have no clue why he did all that. I don't mean any disrespect, but what was I gonna do if they couldn't do squat? <Don't say that so loud!!!> I told Cheren.

Cheren had to take some time to readjust his glasses. "I need to get some contacts in the future... Anyways. We had decided to come here because Blair had said that you, a Flygon, and a Suicune would be here, although he wasn't sure on the latter. Why are you here? I'm sure the boat would interfere with your swimming, no?"

<That's why I'm even in Castelia,> I wrote. <I plan on taking that thing to Sinnoh.>

"Did any of you partner with a Trainer?" Cheren asked, and I obviously shook my head. Why would I? Stupid question, next.

"You do recognize that you have to be with a Trainer to even ride this, right?"

"And that's where I come in!" Blair declared. He reached into his pocket, and out came a sort of plastic card with his name on it. "Here's a ticket to ride the ferry! I got one, so you dudes would get off scott-free! Just show this thing if folks get suspicious!" He gave it to me, and I nearly expected a "psyche" kind of thing. But... No tricks? No cost? Nothing? He's just... giving this to me?

I took the ticket. Maybe... Maybe he really WAS just being nice.

And then I remembered that I never really introduced myself properly. I thought this would be the best time to do that.

<My name is Guy, and I'm trying to travel the world. That's my life goal.>

I hesitated after that. It wasn't like I'd be lying, but I still felt slightly dishonest in saying that. Blair really wasn't a bad person, not compared to other humans, but... I don't know. Something was still making me uneasy.

...<I'm glad to have met you, Blare.>

He laughed a little. Did I spell his name wrong? It didn't last long, though, as we all heard the horn of the ferry going off.

"Oh, shoot! Sorry, but we gotta go!" I grabbed Cherry's paw, and we made a mad dash towards the entrance. "And one of my friends said hi!" and Blair nearly broke into a sprint in the opposite direction, saying his goodbyes as Cheren struggled to keep up with him, saying something like "It's been nice seeing you, but it looks like we both have to get going, see ya!" But, he dropped something as he ran off.

His hat.

I rushed back to the ground to get it, and I was going to tell him that he dropped it, but he was already out of earshot, even for how loud my species can be. I didn't have any time to chase him down and give it back, so I just... stuffed it in my bag.

I had to run in order to get back to the boat in time, and even then, Cherry had to yank me partway through the doors before I got stuck.

But haaaahh, we're on the boat.

...It's fine now.

[dogfags]

I <3 my like 2 friends but I don't feel connected or integrated into my general community at all. I kinda came to the conclusion that I dislike someone I considered a pretty good friend bc they clearly have some problem with me / their personality just rubs me the wrong way. It's hard bc I've always had a difficult time making friends. My bf has 0 trouble making friends and he's closer to some of my friends than I am now when I'm the one who introduced them. It just sucks. I wish I could start over somewhere.

The gay scene in my city is also just full of tenderqueers and ppl I don't relate to at all so it's hard to date/find friends and I lucked out w Craig bc we share a lot of the same ideals but even with him I feel like an alien sometimes. I don't feel like I fit in with other trans ppl and only ever felt any sort of community when I thought I was a lesbian. Giving up that community to transition was hard but necessary. But now I just feel completely alien to other trans and gay ppl. It's easier to relate to others when I'm stealth like at school bc they don't already know me / have any preconceived ideas about me and they're not gunna put me in a box except maybe that I'm gay which is fine.

I just miss having a sense of community like I used to. Like when I'd go to punk shows I felt that there or when I was in college living on campus. I like my coworkers but they never invite me to hang out outside of work like they do with each other. And idk how to just invite myself along when I don't even know or hear about what they're doing. The girls at cos school are rly nice and I'd like to befriend at least the girl who's been my partner for most of the time there but I'm just ?? So socially awkward and anxious idk how to be like haha pls be my friend. She doesn't use any social media so I can't rly use that as a way in. Idkkk

I got lucky with Sonya bc I got randomly assigned her and Chloe as roommates and we just became good friends. But even the ppl Sonya hangs out with don't seem to want to get to know me or become friends. Craig and Sonya are always going and hanging out with people and it makes me sad being home alone but I also don't rly know anybody like that nor do I have much time now to hang out with others since I'm either in school or at work constantly. Even my online friends don't rly text me anymore and idk I'm just getting lonely.

Part of me wants to just withdraw into myself and isolate even further. I wish I could leave Indy and move somewhere better and start over. But there's so much keeping me here. Craig doesn't want to leave any time soon and I can't imagine doing anything on my own like that when I'm this broke. I just hate it here I want to pack up and leave but I can't. In a fantasy land I'd go live in Seattle or somewhere close in Washington. Make all new friends who didn't know me during my unmedicated undiagnosed in denial about being trans era. I'd love it if I could just change my legal sex and go stealth for the rest of my life and never have to deal with shit like that again. I'm returning to the insane loneliness I felt growing up in grade school bc we lived on a farm in the middle of fucking nowhere and I had no friends bc I cried constantly at school and was a weird kid.

[dreamii-yume]

Yume, college got me on chokehold and I didn't realize time just went on zoom (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠)

Literally got me excited when you released the chapters! (Rip Kei, you shall be missed) I noticed you change her name into something feminine lol

I'm pretty bad at remembering names, so I hope I get used to them soon lol. And are the characters similar to their counterparts? (I mean like their appearance, I would love to see them jdjeidish prob might draw/reimagine them if I have time (⁠-⁠_⁠-⁠;⁠)⁠・⁠・⁠・)

Also the family drama?! Like damn, Neru is a gossip bitch lol shameless for bringing up that topic

And also, Rin?! He was like so strong almost breaking Neru's arm thooo, considering Neru is physically fit, so I imagine just how strong Rin is (⁠⌐⁠■⁠-⁠■⁠) damn hot big bro (and neru couldn't take his arm back lmao)

I'm a bit confused of Neru, if he's a friend to Rei or he's just built different 💀 (he's like a sly fox) curious how he managed to get that family drama, cuz I can't imagine anything at all lmao

Rin too, he was like "so what if I fucked my sister? Watchu gon do?" Didn't even tried to deny it or anything. "Not like we're blood related so it's fine. Plus it's none of yo business" then proceeds to almost break his arm lmao (yeah, I'm biased to the big brother trope \⁠(⁠ϋ⁠)⁠/⁠♩)

What I'm more excited is the teacher! ヾ⁠(⁠ ͝⁠°⁠ ͜⁠ʖ͡⁠°⁠)⁠ノ⁠♪ like the gentle exterior and "kind sensei" he gives off just give me REALLY sadistic vibes (I mean I'm pretty sure they're all gonna be a sadist) also you changed the scene where the teacher gave CPR to Rei(?) (⁠ ⁠ꈨຶ⁠ ⁠˙̫̮⁠ ⁠ꈨຶ⁠ ⁠) Rip sensei's lips

Kaede taking Rei's virginity thoo, (I honestly thought Rin was the first to hit tho, but I guess not (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`); ) it'd be nice if Kaede kissed Rei too but I guess no lovey dovey kisses here (want it to be like nasty kisses tho)

-euphoria anon (lol dunno how to feel about being know as that HAHAHA)

It’s okay Euphoria Anon~ (Lmao, you’re stuck with name now 🤓) You go get on your IRL grind ✨👏 No need to prioritize this fic lol But thank you for taking time in your schedule to read ♥︎

I tend to delete my mistakes because I couldn’t handle the second-hand embarrassment, and to think that there’s people like you who remembers them ☠️ It makes me want to jump into a ditch 😭 I’m sorry you have to re-organize your past knowledge about this fic, I’ll try to do better this time🧎‍♀️

I included character profiles because I know it would be difficult for readers to remember my character’s name if I introduced them at the same time, but I hope that could help you 🥹 and YES. I based the characters on the actual characters of the game!! I even gave my characters the game characters’ official surnames so it would be much more obvious to people that this fic is fanfiction lol You’re free to draw them whenever you can! ♥︎ I’d really appreciate that~

I guess I wanted to add more personality to my characters, because I didn’t just want them to knock-offs of the actual game’s characters lol That would explain why there’s some scenes that I added, and some scenes that I deleted because it’s too much—For example, the CPR scene ☠️ God, I hated that scene, it felt like I wanted to slip in something there for the teacher because he doesn’t have much scenes to prove himself as a worthy interest, but it felt so out of place?? I hate how you remember it too 😭 I don’t even remember posting that?? I thought it was forever a draft lmao

I really immersed myself into the characters sometimes, and try to maneuver my way into thinking like the characters. Obviously, if your stepsister is there, things will be awkward and if you’re a gossip bitch like Neru, you’d want to keep talking as much as possible lol Just for the drama~

Kaede was always been the first choice in my mind ☠️ I could not imagine how the game or plot will function further if it wasn’t Kaede lol

Anyway, I really appreciate your service as always!! 🧎‍♀️ I love receiving questions, and feedbacks of my fic because I can see what I’m doing right and what I’m doing wrong lol

[misteria247]

https://at.tumblr.com/fabuloustrash05/696457589016363008/49a53bu4mp9z

I feel like I'm being called out here... Of course I was never one of those people that like to bash the show or make those accusations. But still, I feel like I'm being called out and I don't like it. 😤 (jk)

The 2012 TMNT was my favourite iteration of the franchise growing up and is still my favourite to this day~ ^_^

(Okay fine- It was actually the first series I ever watched that introduced me to the franchise as a whole before I discovered all of the others before it (and the fact that they're all based on a comic book series) when I finally first had access to the internet when I was young.)

That being said though, I will have to admit, it does make me feel sad and a bit uncomfortable when I think back on how mean (and a bit unfair) the other 3 often were to Mikey, more specifically in the early seasons (1 & maybe 2 I can't remember well). But.. Idk. 🤷🏿‍♀️ Maybe it is because I'm an only child like OP said, so maybe I'm just not used to the bickering/rough and tumble "tough love" relationships most siblings seem to have.

I just have no choice but to take people's word for it when they say "it's just what siblings do", 'cuz I don't think I would ever truly understand what it's like.

(It honestly makes me glad that I never have to deal with it myself, no offense. 😅)

I don't know why I decided to ramble on about that, I'm sorry. 🙇‍♀️

First off please don't apologize for the ramble I love hearing people's thoughts on things! Second off I will admit that seeing sibling dynamics such as the boys no matter the variation (which they all have moments like this in the other variants of the franchise) when you don't have siblings yourself or experienced it can be a bit jarring to witness. And I can agree that the older boys had their moments where they were rather mean towards Mikey but also there are moments where Mikey can be rather mean towards them as well. It's a dynamic that while it appears to be mean and full of nothing but hitting it's actually much more than that.

Whenever the boys do their jabs or rough house with one another if you watch you can see that the boys never really take it too far with one another. Raph rough housing with Mikey is a pretty normal thing between siblings (my own little sister who's the middle child like Raph used to rough house with my little brother who's the youngest out of the three of us constantly). It's pretty common amongst middle siblings and the youngest siblings of a family. And the only reason why Raph rough houses with Mikey so much is because he knows that Mikey can handle it. Plus a lot of the instances occur when Mikey in typical baby sibling behavior presses Raph's buttons till he snaps. And it's the same way with the other two boys when it comes to this type of thing. Donnie's more quick to snap at Mikey because he and his little brother are the closest age wise. And with such a close age gap between them they're guaranteed to get rough and snippy with one another.

It's the same with Leo and Raph who argue and bicker constantly with one another, because they're closer in the age range and are the two oldest children of the boys. It's also one of the reasons why it takes a lot more for Leo to get snippy with Donnie and Mikey and rough house with them because of that age gap.

But I can promise you my friend that even though they have their moments of being mean to one another they care very deeply for each other and if they do overstep a boundary and hurt one of their brothers they're very quick to try and make amends with one another and fix the issue. It's rather difficult to explain a siblings bond because it's just so complicated in a way.

Like me for example I'm the oldest of three children, and there was moments in my childhood where me and my siblings would bicker and rough house like it was nobody's business lol. But as we got older we grew out of it and got along better with one another. Plus the boys are teenagers and like many teenage boys they're gonna be rough and somewhat rude at times because that's just how boys are lol.

But I completely understand why it's a bit unsettling to see them argue and get rough with one another and why it'd somewhat sadden you and others to see. Also you should totally check out the other variations of the Tmnt franchise because they're also hella good and you'd have a fun time watching them!!!!!

[stargazer-sims]

Journal Entry #48 (part one)

previously - Journal Entry #47 (part two)

Victor

It's Tuesday.

People tend to think Tuesday is the most uninteresting day of the week, 'cause nothing important ever seems to happen on Tuesdays. Well, that's not true for our household. Not today, at least. On this particular Tuesday, all hell broke loose around here.

Okay, to be more accurate, all hell started breaking loose yesterday afternoon, when Mr. Okamoto came back from the airport with not only his wife but also his brother-in-law. Nobody had any idea Uncle Kaz was coming, not even Mr. Okamoto, and needless to say we were all shocked when he strolled through the door, larger than life.

Julian had what I can only describe as a fanboy moment when Mr. Okamoto introduced him and Uncle Kaz. To his credit, though, he recovered his composure pretty quickly when he realized his celebrity man crush is really a regular guy and also just as much of a nerd as he is. Yuki, on the other hand, didn't calm down until it was almost time for bed. It was hard to say who she wanted to cling to more, her mother or her beloved uncle.

On a side note, at the suggestion of Uncle Kaz, Yuki has started addressing Julian as "Uncle Julian" instead of "Dr. Britt". He's tickled pink over it.

Anyway, in case you weren’t aware, Uncle Kaz brings the party with him wherever he goes. In the midst of all the madness, a boys' night somehow got planned for when things settle down, so Mr. Okamoto, Julian and Uncle Kaz can further their newfound three-way bromance. It was implied that Yuri and I are not invited, which is actually fine with me. I'm not sure either of us could handle it.

Yesterday evening was chaotic. I was grateful that I'd been able to excuse myself from it for a while and spend some time by myself, recording my journal entry. Usually, I don't mind lots of activity, but I'm still not feeling the best, and the constant noise and motion all around me were getting to be too much. The house is a little quieter tonight, by virtue of the fact that Mom, Julian and I are the only ones here, so I'm taking the opportunity to rest and tell you how things have been unfolding since yesterday.

The latest development, which I guess you may already know, is that I'm able to go up and down stairs now if someone helps me. Since stairs are back in my repertoire, I decided I'd spend last night with Yuri in his room so Uncle Kaz could take my spot in the dining room.

Uncle Kaz made jokes about not being able to sleep in his own bedroom in his own house — Yuri's room, as it happens — but his humour was good-natured and no one took it personally. I think he was happy to have his house so full. Meanwhile, Mrs. Okamoto claimed her spot in the laundry room with her husband and Yuki. I don't think this place was ever intended to accommodate eight people, but there we were.

I probably don't need to tell you that Yuri and I had a difficult night. He was in so much pain that no position was comfortable for him, and neither his parents nor I could do anything to ease his discomfort.

I managed to sleep a bit while his mother sat with him, but she woke me up when she was starting to fall asleep herself and said she needed to go to bed. Mr. Okamoto came in after that. He read to us, which I would've enjoyed if it hadn't been for the fact that I was too stressed to concentrate on it. I think he was reading out loud to distract himself more than to occupy us, but far be it from me to complain, in any case. The thought was still there, and that's what mattered.

Toward dawn, Yuri started throwing up, whether from the infection running wild inside him or simply from the amount of pain he was in, I didn’t know.

It was pretty traumatic, hovering uselessly by the bathroom door and hearing him cry for me between bouts of violent retching. There was nothing I wished for more in that moment than to have some magical power where I could hold him and make all his suffering go away. I wanted to be able to fix everything. Knowing I couldn't was like trying to rescue somebody I couldn't reach, just barely touching their hand and then having to watch them fall when I failed to hang on.

"Yuri, Victor's there in the doorway," Mr. Okamoto tried to assure him for about the fourth or fifth time. "There isn't room in here for all of us, but I promise he hasn't left you. He's right there."

Yuri's reply was practically unintelligible, but I made out my name and that he was scared. I couldn't tell what he was saying he was scared about, but in his condition, he certainly had plenty of reasons.

"It's gonna be all right, Yuri," I said, hoping I sounded convincing. "Your dad's taking care of you, and I'm not going anywhere. When you're all done in here, we can go back to bed, okay?"

"Okay," was the barely audible reply.

However, Yuri and I didn't end up back in bed together. He was so weak from pain and fever and the effort of his stomach forcibly emptying itself that he actually passed out in his father's arms.

I'm not ashamed to say I lost any sense of composure I might've had at that point. I'd already pretty much reached the threshold at which I stopped taking no for an answer, but that sealed it for me. Yuri was going to the hospital, whether he wanted to or not. I'd never seen him faint before, and if I'm being completely honest, I was terrified. There was no way we could cope with this at home any more.

Mr. Okamoto was in one hundred percent agreement with me about taking Yuri to the hospital. Like me, he'd been willing to let him stay home for a while, but the situation had escalated from serious to urgent, and nobody was interested in taking any more risks.

"We should call emergency services," I said. The way my voice was shaking might've embarrassed me under other circumstances, but just then I didn't really care what anyone might’ve thought of me.

Fortunately, Mr. Okamoto was the cool head we needed in the midst of our crisis. He addressed me in English, and it startled me enough to snap me out of my panic. "Victor, are you able to get dressed by yourself?"

"What?" I stammered.

I'll never get used to hearing my father-in-law speaking English. He sounds so unequivocally British that it's obvious he learned it in the UK, and it catches me by surprise every time. I don't know why it does, especially since Yuri's accent in English is that stereotypical posh British one too, but anyway... maybe it's because Mr. Okamoto doesn’t speak English to me very often, and in between times I sort of forget.

I took a breath and answered him before he had to repeat himself. "I, uh... I'm not sure if I can. Not completely. I might need some help."

"Very well," he said. "I'll help you. I'm not keen on waiting for emergency services take their time finding their way up the mountain. We'll take Yuri to the hospital ourselves. I'll drive."

"Okay," I said, because there was really no other answer.

"Could you go and wake Rei?" he asked, and then as if he thought I might not know who he meant, he amended, "Mrs. Okamoto. She can write a note for Kazuya and your parents. I don't think it's necessary to wake the entire household, do you?"

I thought about it, and concluded he was right. Mom and Julian would certainly want to know what was happening with Yuri, and I was sure Uncle Kaz would as well, but there was nothing they could do just then. It made sense to let them get as much sleep as possible. I could call my mom from the hospital later, once I was satisfied that Yuri was in safe hands and that he'd be all right.

"I'll be right back," I said.

"Be careful," said my father-in-law.

Mrs. Okamoto was already awake, as it turned out. She was sliding the laundry room door open before I even finished knocking. Despite having claimed she was exhausted, I assumed she hadn't gone back to sleep at all after Mr. Okamoto came to trade places with her in taking care of Yuri. I couldn't say I blamed her. She was probably too worried to sleep.

She asked me what was going on, and I quickly explained everything. I even awkwardly blurted out that Mr. Okamoto was going to help me with my clothes so that we could get going sooner.

"I'm already dressed. I'll help you, if you don't mind," she said. "Kenji will have his hands full enough."

Any other time, I would've said no, but this was not the moment to turn down well-intentioned assistance.

"That'd be good," I said. "Thank you. And would you mind writing a note for my mom, please? I don't want to get her out of bed, but I also don't want to just leave without telling her anything. I'd do it myself, but.. you know.”

"Of course," she replied. "I understand."

"Thanks."

We'd just turned to head back to Yuri's room when Mr. Okamoto emerged from the bathroom with Yuri in his arms. I caught the scent of Yuri's favourite strawberry soap. His father must've been trying to clean him up as best as possible, which I know from experience is not easy when the person you’re washing has absolutely no strength to participate in the task.

Even though I couldn't make out any details, I could tell Yuri was awake again. It looked like he was clutching his father's shirt. He was making small whimpering noises; not quite crying, but rather making the sound of someone who's too weak and exhausted to cry.

"I'm sorry, Papa," I heard him say. "I'm sorry."

I felt like my heart might shatter into a thousand pieces at that. The idea that Yuri thought he had to say he was sorry tore at me, and I wanted to tell him he had nothing to apologize for, especially not to his father. It wasn't his fault that he was sick. It wasn't anyone's fault, and he wasn't letting anyone down because of being unwell.

I had the irrational urge to yell at my father-in-law, This is what you've done to him! But of course I didn't. That would've been the worst possible thing.

I reminded myself that it was evident Mr. Okamoto was trying, and even though his current efforts were nowhere near enough to undo the years of emotional harm he'd caused, it was still progress. Maybe he was moving in the right direction to repair the damage he'd done, and if that was the case, I didn't want to be the one to break that fragile new thread between him and Yuri.

I wondered how Mr. Okamoto would respond, or if he'd even respond at all. I caught myself holding my breath. Forcing myself to exhale, I took a shaky step forward, my mother-in-law guiding me with her hand in the crook of my elbow.

What happened in the following seconds was unexpected and absolutely extraordinary.

Mr. Okamoto, who was still moving steadily toward Yuri's room, said quietly, "You have nothing to be sorry for."

"You… you shouldn't have to do this."

"You're my son," Mr. Okamoto said. "It's not about whether or not I have to. Do you remember what I promised you a long time ago?"

"No," Yuri admitted.

"I promised I'd always take care of you. That you'd always be my treasure. Even if you don't remember, I do."

"I… I'm sorry.” Yuri’s voice broke on the last syllable, and he made a sound that might’ve been a sob if it’d had any energy behind it.

"Shh… it’s all right, Yuri. Everything’s going to be all right.”

"It... it isn't. I promised myself... I wouldn't..."

The tail end of whatever Yuri was saying was mumbled, and they were passing through the bedroom doorway too, so I didn't understand it, Obviously his father did, though. Mrs. Okamoto and I had just reached the doorway ourselves when he said, "You're not a failure. Being who you are is all I ever expected from you."

"But, you don't like it," Yuri said miserably. "Who I am."

"I don't always agree with your choices, but that doesn't mean I don’t like who you are,” Mr. Okamoto said. “You haven’t failed at anything in my eyes. Even if you had, I wouldn't try to justify breaking my promise because of it.”

“But… you stopped loving me. I thought… Why…?”

As Mr. Okamoto carefully laid Yuri on the bed, he replied so softly that I wouldn’t have heard it if I’d been more than a couple meters away. "No, my treasure, I’ve never stopped loving you. I’m sorry if you believed I did. No matter what, I will never stop loving you.”