I keep thinking it's later than it is because I was up at 9 and already finished two major tasks--laundry is folded and I finished a chapter of Crime and Punishment. Happy to say I'm enjoying it a bit more, now!! I think the whole murder and "vision" Rodion had just really shook me at first.
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Does ingo from the subway boss Irida timeline get deja vu from meeting Irida during her original time? Does modernday!Irida attempt to help ingo for his time in hisui by training him in how to deal with poisons or something? Plz feed us more of this Au
There's THIS ask with a drawing that answers the first question. As for the second, not really? Like, she tried to prepare him physically. It would be difficult to just try and poison the guy, explaining the reasons behind it or not. The main thing Irida was concerned with was how much of a struggle the wilderness of Hisui would be for such a city guy like Ingo.
I mean, it didn't turn out as badly as she feared since he's still around and kicking after everything, but it was a valid concern nonetheless.
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man i've really gotten to this point of unemployment where i don't want to do what i've been doing for years because i never wanted to do what i was doing. but now i have absolutely no idea what i want to do. at all. and honestly zero motivation to figure it out. which is scary but also i think my depression has just really settled in at this point. yay. i don't know it just really fucking sucks. and i want to use this as an opportunity to move in a completely different direction but like ... how. and with what resources because i'm totally broke.
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the probably cis-privileged wonderment of how people know that they're trans or nonbinary or genderfluid or generally anything other that what they were assigned at birth
the following lowkey panic of how do people know they are exactly what they were assigned at birth
like what does gender feel like? how do people know? is my years-old "call me whatever pronouns you wish, i don't care" actually more than just me not giving a fuck?
the somewhat natural (?) next step of "wtf even is womanhood" like what is it? if we dismantle the traditional gender roles, on the basis that those are a cage designed to oppress everyone, what does it mean to be a woman, or a man, so that you can judge whether you're either or neither or both?
like if we exclude the societal negative effects of being a woman, on the basis that the goal is absolute equality between all genders and suffering is not a fun or healthy identifier, then gender-wise, what's left to being a woman that is excluded from being a man?
because it's not the things you do. it's also not the things you like. it's not what you're good at. it's not your job, it's not who you fancy, it's not how you dress, it's not how you behave, it's not how you carry yourself, and it's not how you think. i know what all it was, traditionally, but as we dismantle toxic masculinity, do we not dismantle everything else?
and so finally, if gender is none of those things, then, according to my logic, it must only be how you feel - so again, what on earth does gender feel like?????????
basically, is my cis-brain overthinking this whilst being incapable of empathising (if yes, a horror, how do i learn?), or is this a sign of a budding identity crisis (and can i just skip it then?) ?
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