#I'm saying that I am capable of making you feel good through personal sacrifice but I kind of don't want to cut myself up like that

[teaboot]

You need to make art that nobody else likes. You need to make art that speaks to you alone. You need to cradle a serpent that eats its own tail and you need to love it until it loves you back

[banamine-bananime]

furiously in love, as in i'm furious about it - Chucker fanmix

the playlist itself isn't in chronological but the tracklist below the cut is. yes i did paste in the entire lyrics of night watch. it's because it's them okay the entire song is just deleted chucker dialogue with foreshadowing made to make me specifically cry

Night Watch - Naethan Apollo

Yo bro, I got a question Yeah, what up? Do you think you would die for me? What kind of question is that? I don't know! We're out on this night watch all night - (oh my God) We've gotta pass the time somehow So, spill the beans

Would you die for me? Come on I don't know I don't really like thinking about dying! Wow, after all we've been through together, huh Alright, fine, I'll say this:

I got one too many things I wanna do before I die Way too many friends who didn't make it back alive I got three or more scenarios, I shouldn't have survived But, dying for a friend is a hell of way to die

I'll be okay with dying if I can go my own way While I'm fighting for the people back at homebase I will battle all night If I live to see the morning, good for me I'll still be kicking through the whole day I won't take no for an answer You'll get back home, I am damn sure And if my life is on the line, that's a bet I'll take I hope the devil is a really good dancer

You really mean that, man? I mean yeah, of course What about you? Would you die for me? Oh, hell no! Absolutely not! Wow, okay, well, I pour my heart out to you and - (what?) You're an asshole (what? I'm agreeing with you!) Shut the fuck up - (I'm stronger!) - literally shut up, I don't - (listen, I'm the better fighter!

-no, I don't wanna hear - Oh my god, don't - (if one of us is going to die, it should be you!) Don't - (we're on the same page) Don't talk to me for the rest of the night - (what's the problem) (Bro, you're, it's just smart tactics) - eat your-, eat your fucking rations, leave me alone - You want the strongest person on the team to be alive! Remember when I said, "Shut the fuck up" and then you didn't, you kept talking? I just don't get what you're upset about [sarcastic] I don't know, maybe the fact that my best friend would let me die!

in my brain-amv this is a dream tucker has after s13, in which alpha is the one with the bolded lines and tucker is the one pouring his heart out, back in blood gulch but with dreamlogic making tucker much more of who he is at present (hence "way too many friends who didn't make it back alive, three or more scenarios i shouldn't have survived" and also, you know, being the one that's more capable of emotional sincerity).

then tucker wakes up and remembers this is an altered version of a conversation he did have with alpha when bored as fuck in blood gulch. with roles reversed from what actually happened because he wishes he could go back and say that to alpha rather than having to remember both alpha and epsilon dying by self-sacrifice

👍👍👍 im doing great why do you ask. fucking help me

okay heading back in time to blood gulch to progress chronologically through the rest of the songs:

My Best Friend's Hot - The Dollyrots

My best friend's hot My best friend's hot No matter what I do you love me not Woah oh oh, woah oh oh Na na na na na not You love me not

Na na not, na na not, na na not, na na not Na na not, na na not, na na not, na na not Should I tell you now, Or go oh oh oh

Let's Be Friends - Emily Osment

Don't you wanna Don't you wanna Don't you wanna know What it would feel like?

Let's be friends so we can make out You're so hot, let me show you around

LIFE'S A BIT - NOAHFINANCE

Gotta find another way to make myself confess Moral of the story: I'm a bit of a dickhead If I dive too deep get lost in the deep end Get myself out and try not to regress I hate to say that I don't know But goddamnit I guess I'll say that I don't know Guess I'll find another way to tell you that I suppress Every emotion I'm meant to express

So many ways that I could say it So why can't I even think of one? Just say something And break the silence It's not a love song but you're alright

Can I Say Baby - girli

I'm sorta into you What does that make me? I don't wanna be sloppy But I think you're great Wanna call you babe Hope you feel the same?

We argue, we fight We only do it 'cause it's kind of nice We french kiss, we bitch But it's all gonna be alright We say mean things I snub your friends We're bad for each other But it'll all work out in the end

it'll 🙃 all 🙃 work 🙃 out 🙃 in the end 🙃. im losing my fucking mind. you know those songs you have an exact amv play in your mind every time you listen over and over. yeah this is another one for me.

Five Years - Bo Burnham

You're my best friend, I love you (love you) You know me and I know you (know you) We got problems that we've been through (been through) We got shit that we'll get through, uh You think I'm rude to you You think I am the worst Because I ask when you suck my dick You take out your Invisalign first Come on

Five years, five years Still you, still me, still here Five years, five years, baby Five years, five years

We order Chinese, I'm eating my dumplings You reach over and you take my dumpling You don't even say, "Do you mind?" or nothing Why would you assume that you're entitled to a dumpling? So I look at you, you look back at me, like, "What the fuck did I do?" If you really wanted some dim sum, then You really should've gotten some when we put in the order You say, "You're a psycho and I-I don't wanna fight So, let's just drop this, it's not a big deal" "Okay, but for the record You owe me a dumpling, I mean it, I won't forget You owe me a dumpling or a dumpling equivalent"

Speaking Tongues - Joywave, KOPPS

The palms are down, I'm welcomed back to town Sometimes I feel like they don't understand me I hear their mouths making foreign sounds Sometimes I think they're all just speaking tongues

Tell me all the things I've missed Who's been killed and who's been kissed (Drag me back, collect my thoughts)

They say I'm the only one who can be brave That I am the chosen one But there's no way, I am the only one And there's no one to save If there's nowhere for them to run

meeting epsilon. your boyfriend is dead. you know this. no like actually dead. what? everyone is talking nonsense about ai. actually your boyfriend is alive but not really he's actually a different guy and he doesn't know or like you. also you're still very much the protagonist of an entirely different - and just as annoyingly complicated - story. so have fun with all that 🙃

Doppelganger - Joshua Bassett

I guess I'm not as over you as I thought that I was I saw someone who looked like you at our favorite coffee shop And part of me was hoping we would get the chance to talk I guess I'm not as over you as I thought

Washing Machine Heart - Mitski

Baby, though I've closed my eyes I know who you pretend I am I know who you pretend I am

Merry Happy - Kate Nash

Sitting in restaurants Thought we were so grown up But I know now that we were not the people that we turned out to be

Chatting on the phone can't take back those hours But I won't regret cause you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be

Dancing at discos Eating cheese on toast Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

reminiscing about alpha

ARE WE STILL FRIENDS - Tyler, The Creator

Are we still friends? Are we still friends? Are we still friends? (Friends, friends) I said, are we still friends? (Friends, friends) Are we still friends? (Friends, friends, friends, friends, friends)

Don't get green skin (green skin), keep contact (keep contact) Don't say, "Goodbye, smell you later" (bye, later) Nah, I can't I don't want to end this season on a bad episode

getting to know epsilon, just before crashing on chorus

Can't Get You Out of My Head - Johnny Goth

I just can't get you out of my head Boy, your lovin' is all I think about I just can't get you out of my head Boy, its more than I dare to think about

Every night Every day Just to be there in your arms Won't you stay Won't you lay Stay forever and ever, and ever, and ever

epsilon peaced the fuck out. "All I wanna do is stand around and talk to my friend, but he's gone now and all I've got is you!"

Don't Look at Me - POORSTACY

Every time, I get buried next to me (next to me) I'm not afraid to call, but I don't like it when you look at me Don't look at me Don't look at me Don't look at me

I go where the wind blows, I can't let go Baby, don't let go, don't wanna be alone Girl, let's stay u (stay up) don't wanna go home

babe wake up epsilon pov song just dropped

Our Perfect Disease - The Wombats

It's always a shock when old friends pass by But with you it's no death in the family

We don't admit it but we never seen eye to eye But it's not through a lack of trying

It was the perfect disease we had Something to argue and scream about Who do I see about contracting it back And locking it somewhere it can't get ripped out?

It was the perfect disease we had And its absence lies a painful fact We all need someone to drive us mad

Don't send a helping hand, I need a battering ram To beat the reasons that I miss you so sorely I didn't say it but we never saw eye to eye Now life is care free and equally as boring

It was the perfect disease we had Something to argue and scream about Who do I see about contracting it back And locking it somewhere it can't get ripped out?

i'm losing my fucking mind part ii

Digital Silence - Peter McPoland

This is the way that it is This is the way that it always will be Something you love turns to something you miss Something you say turns to something you mean

This is the way that I know This is the way and it makes me sick I feel it inside me like a pulse It's starting to slow and the meter dips

Digital style, digital hate Digital god, digital pain Digital violence, digital world Digital boy meets digital girl Digital silence, digital yell Digital heaven, digital hell Digital start, digital end Digital birth, digital death

Ghost - Mystery Skulls

'Cause the world might do me in It's all right cause I'm with friends Cause I'm giving up again It doesn't matter

Time for givin' up the ghost Fuck, it's you I hate the most And there is no guarantee It doesn't matter

This time I might just disappear This time I might just dis This time I might just disappear This time I might just dis

uh oh epsilon

death bed (coffee for your head) - Powfu, beabadoobee

I tried to do my best, but you know that I'm not perfect

I been praying for forgiveness, you've been praying for my health When I leave this Earth, hoping you'll find someone else 'Cause, yeah, we still young, there's so much we haven't done Getting married, start a family, watch your husband with his son

I wish it could be me, but I won't make it out this bed I hope I go to Heaven, so I see you once again My life was kinda short, but I got so many blessings Happy you were mine, it sucks that it's all ending

I'm happy that you here with me, I'm sorry if I tear up When me and you were younger, you would always make me cheer up

UH OH EPSILON

Arms Tonite - Mother Mother

I fell in your arms tonight I fell hard in your arms tonight, it was nice I died in your arms tonight I slipped through into the afterlife, it was nice White light in your arms tonight I lost sight in your arms tonight, it was nice

bye bye epsilon

Baby You're a Haunted House - Gerard Way

I'll be the ghost inside your head when we are through Sometimes you scare me, but I come around to you I'll say hello hello hello hello And I'll find a way to scare you too

Baby, you're a haunted house Better find another superstition We're gonna stay in love somehow 'Cause, baby, you're a haunted house now

You Said You'd Grow Old With Me - Michael Schulte

I'd like to say, "I'm okay", but I'm not I try, but I fall, close my mind, turn it off But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep You've got your peace now, but what about me?

Thought we had the time, had our lives Now you'll never get older, older Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time Getting colder, colder

One last word One last moment To ask you why You left me here behind You said you'd grow old with me

We had plans, we had visions, now I can't see ahead We were one, we were golden, forever, you said But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep You've got your peace now, but what about me?

dr google how to get over the anger at your double dead boyfriend for dying inside your brain

Carlo's Song - Noah Kahan

We listen to, "Only The Good Die Young" And we laugh about its statement We walk in the same direction, but we both got lost And you raged in my impatience

Did you find what you were looking for? Some escape from your skin You know that place you were dreaming of Where all light comes in I hope you know I grew my hair out long And your sister's just fine I keep burning my bridges down Just to keep you alive

[cori-bella]

It is the 3rd book, this is different from the others.

Probably if you got to read this, you've been through a lot and I want you to know this: I'm proud of you. You could have given up the fight at any time, but you didn't.(description)

People think that we, the sensitive ones, are fragile. But they don't know that we were strong for too long, and now our strength is leaving us. Some cry or close in on themselves. Well, I can say that I belong to both categories. In this book I will tell you everything I felt when I heard some phrases said by the people around me, but I chose to shut myself up and not say anything. Probably some of you will feel that you have found yourself. Everything I will write in this book is not fiction, it's just words and real feelings faded at the moment, but which return over the years.(prologue)

the first chapter is "don't put so much in your heart"

No one thought even once how I feel, how much I struggle with inner demons. No, they just commented when they saw me crying. That's why everyone is capable, but to observe and help, less so. I understand that I care about you, but that doesn't give you the power to make fun of my feelings. Especially since you don't know what secrets darker than the night I hide under the smile I display daily. So, regardless of whether you are my mother, aunt, friend or lover, you have no right to do this. First, think how you would feel if you were in my place. You can say that I sometimes exaggerate, but for a while, I simply am not me anymore. For example, my concentration has decreased significantly, the nights are mostly white, when I wake up I feel more tired. Regarding the heartbreak, I assure you that because of the trauma and the way I am, I can't handle situations any other way than through the sensitive person, who, when he says what he feels, bursts into tears. No matter how hard I try, they appear unintentionally, but as I said above, I can't control almost anything. Sometimes, I consider the fact that there are still good people and as a punishment after I cherish every moment, I end up alone, abandoned by everyone. Only then do I understand that in this struggle called life, it is only me with my own thoughts and feelings. Maybe it's better that way. I want to say that I don't sacrifice anyone anymore to go through this carousel of emotions every day. Just to get to my heart, which is well protected by a fence full of thorns, so that no one can get access and hurt me. Depending on how well people know me, they can say some things. For example, some say I put too much into my heart, others are a whiner, and in the end there are those special people. Well, they say I'm misunderstood, talented and kind. To be honest with you, I love the last type of people the most. In conclusion, forget a piece of advice from me. Don't change yourself for anyone, no matter who tells you so. Because whoever loves you, accepts you as you are.

[tellywoodtrash]

Hey TT. I have my NEET PG exam coming up in 4 days and underprepared, uninterested, depressed, anxious and a whole lot of other adjectives. It feels like i did a big blunder becoming a doctor and coming into this field. I have zero interest left in this field. But nobody outside will understand if I want to leave this field because doctor bannke kon chod deta hain. Don't even know if i can leave this and do something else because I come from a middle class family and have a single parent.

I'm already 27 and jobless. At this point it feels like I want a PG seat only to get a good rishta and settle in life. I do want it. A good partner. A nice companion ship. I want to be happy. Would it be so bad to take any non clinical seat and be satisfied with a 60k 70k salary for the rest of my life? This move is a career suicide in my field literally. People will look down upon me and I'm already dealing with this immense pressure since childhood to be ultra succesful in life and help my mom. My mom is supportive but I can't help being guilty for all the sacrifices she made for me and my education and I won't even give her the satisfaction of a succesful child. All I want is to be peaceful and happy. Will it ever get better?

Hi friendddd,

First of all big hugs. 🫂🫂🫂 I know perfectly the feeling of putting in the years and effort only to realize that the career isn't working out for whom you are as a person. Been there, done that.

I personally am of the opinion (and you are fully welcome to disagree) that if you are finding it intolerable to trudge through a day in a certain profession, then it's better to leave it. Fuck what people outside or even INSIDE the career think. Medicine is very very hard (in every way; academically, physically - depending on your area, and emotionally) and a soul-grinding kinda job and not everyone is made for it. And if you have zero interest in it anymore...... Well, there's your answer. Patients who come to a doctor deserve to have someone who is invested in making them better. If you feel like you don't have that to give (and that's in no way a bad thing! not everyone is capable of it!) then why put yourself through becoming a doctor? Look up the concept of "sunk cost fallacy". I think that's what you're experiencing right now.

You said your mom is supportive and you want to help her out. So I want you to carefully sit and think about this: Which do you think will work out for both of your happiness long term? Pushing yourself into a big career that you can't sustain long-term, which could lead to burnout and then her having to support you again; or making a side-step into a non-clinical field which may start small and not flashy, but you can successfully commit to long-term, and thus build up a career in eventually? Trust me, any good parent just wants their child to be healthy and happy. All the money in the world cannot buy those things. I would suggest you have an honest talk with your mom and tell her that you're struggling, but also feeling an immense amount of guilt that you may be letting her down. I am sure she will want you to pick the option that makes you feel better in the long run. You have nothing to prove to anyone else. It's just between you and her.

As for the rishta thing, again, you want a life partner who is going to understand when you feel like this (and we go through things like this many a time in life; unfortunately, this is what adulthood is) and be a supportive companion through it. So look for a partner who has compassion and empathy and can understand why you made such a decision, rather than one who just looks at the job title you hold and your take-home package.

It WILL get better. But for it to get better, you will have to make some unconventional choices and not care what other people think or say. Once you are at peace with yourself, you will not care for outside opinions anyway.

I am sending you all the love and strength I have. Hope everything works out for the best of your health and happiness! 🤗🤗🤗

[mlwritingprompts]

Submitted prompt: Universal Chaos

Hi, it's me again, and this time, I got another prompt to add to my "Universal Theater" and "Universal Oblivion" AU prompts.

But this time, it's a prequel to the "Universal Theater". Why didn't I think of this before is a question I am not interested in finding the answers for :)

Contains the beginning of Cosmic Actress (neopronouns: nix/nix/nix/nixself) and nix Amok Natasi (called Time-Clock at first, then changing the name to Natasi soemetimes later. uses the pronouns clo/loc/locs/clockself, used the same as she/her/hers/herself)

TW: character death (Gabriel and Nathalie, also André Bougeois, if you want to add more, do so, ESPECIALLY rich and abusive assholes:) )

Adrien salt (because the events happen in the canonical universe first).

Rjalker here. This is my favorite prompt ever. Here is my reaction throughout the entire thing:

[ID: A screenshot from The Good Place show, showing a demon grinning widely, saying excitedly, while laughing, "This is so exciting!" The rest of the dialoge has been covered with a black line. End ID.]

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"I'm... Tired of... All of this!"

Alya watched in horror as Marinette's expression looked murderous as she spit the words with venom.

The reason was not just because Chloe was the one that started the whole situation by calling her father.

It wasn't just because André basically tried to blacklist Tom and Sabine from ever opening their bakery again and kick them from the city because he felt like it, and because Chloe became more bold since her betrayal.

It also wasn't just because Marinette literally punched André multiple times in a fit of pure rage and knocked him out, as everyone looked with horror as he fell on the ground, a nasty bruise on his face and several broken teeth, Marinette's.

No, what made her terrified was the purple outline on Marinette's face, making it clear that Hawkmoth was corrupting her friend in front of her.

"Yes..." Marinette says, responding to whatever Hawkmoth is saying to her, "Giving people chances is all but useless! If being the good person is such a torment, let's see how things are from the other side!" Marinette states with fury, throwing away her earrings away in anger, no doubt, Hawkmoth's magic twisting her thinking process for his goals.

And Alya hates that she could do nothing to stop it.

The same purple bubbles appear, covering Marinette for a moment, before dispersing.

What stood in her place was a figure with a similar face and a different set of clothes. The eyes of the Akuma cold and uncaring.

Another figure appear alongside the Akuma, looking similar to nix, with a large circle behind loc. The circle had the numbers from one to twelve written in Roman.

"I am Cosmic Actress, and the one... who will teach you what it means to suffer." the Akuma stated with cold rage.

Alya knew at that moment, that her friend is no longer there.

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Rage.

Hatred.

Desire to destroy.

These were the things that Cosmic Actress felt when nix was... born.

Born from Marinette's rage and hatred towards how her life was being destroyed, feeling like she was always going towards self-destruction no matter what she chose. As if her purpose for being born was to suffer.

Cosmic Actress understood that these feelings were Amplified and twisted. Twisted by the misused Butterfly Miraculous.

But nix didn't care about that.

These feelings gave birth to nix. Nix couldn't just abandon these feelings so easily. Not when they burn so painfully in nix heart.

Nix wants to hurt the idiots that harmed Marinette. Nix wanted them to see how it feels when they were the ones who have the choice stripped from them.

Nix felt as Time-Clock came to existence. The amok born of Marinette's lament at the many choices she was forced to make, the many things she had to sacrifice in the name of a responsibility that was never hers to do in the first place. A being capable of resetting and travelling through time and manipulating space as clo wishes.

A being under Cosmic Actress's full control, from what Mayura stated just one second ago.

Nix couldn't hide the repulsed expression showing on nix face.

Nix doesn't want to control another being! It was disgusting!

Even more, that was part of why Marinette had to suffer, because someone will always try to (and often succeed in) decide her choices for her!

Cosmic Actress immediately pointed a hand towards Time-Clock's Amokized object, the red hair ribbon that was now black.

"Shattered Chains." Nix intoned.

Like shattered glass, the black color shattered as the ribbon became red once more.

And nix could no longer feel the connection between nix and loc.

Neither could Mayura, the villain losing the connection to Time-Clock as well.

Clo is truly free from loc binding now.

"Hey! What did you-!" Mayura started to protest, but Cosmic Actress was already pointing nix hand at nixself before Hawkmoth and Mayura started screaming in nix head at what nix did next.

"Shattered Chains."

The voices of the villains were cut short along with their connection to nix.

The butterfly miraculous was no longer shackling Cosmic Actress. Nix power and freedom now truly belong to nix. Hawkmoth won't be able to hurt nix and rob away nix power like he did to the many previous akumas that disobeyed him.

Now that the little nuisance was dealt with for now, Cosmic Actress took a moment to look at the terrified looks of the escaping citizens, before looking towards where André Bourgeois' unconscious body was being lifted by his most-definitely very underpaid employees.

Now that won't do.

"Please leave. You are not my target." Cosmic Actress said to them, then looked at the Amok as loc looked neutrally at nix. "But if you want to stay, just don't get in my way." Nix added.

Clo gave a smile at that, and said, "It's fine. In fact, I would like to help you. Marinette's emotions gave me life. I want to avenge her as well. It's the least I can do for her. Even if I no longer have to obey someone else's orders." Clo answer was sincere, and loc voice was somehow neither high nor low, but somewhere exactly in the middle, perfectly gender-neutral.

Cosmic Actress nodded and accepted this answer, and focused nix attention towards the mayor once more. The underpaid employees had moved him, but that didn't matter, nix could still sense him.

He was not far away, only a few houses separating them.

Cosmic Actress and the Amok moved at the same time, easily jumping high enough to fly and avoid the buildings. And getting a good look at the still-unconscious mayor that was right below them, the underpaid employees having set him down, exhausted from carrying him. They were standing far enough away that they wouldn't be hit, luckily for them.

Nix raised a palm, energy condensing in front of it. "Oblivion Orb."

The orb rapidly hit the mayor and him alone, erasing his body in an instant.

And with that nuisance dealt with, Cosmic Actress pondered on who to select next.

From Marinette's memories, Chloe was a big source of suffering, but Hawkmoth and Mayura are worse because nix can deal with a weak civilian. Supervillains will be much more threatening.

And of course, another major nuisance is that bratty cat guy, Chat Noir. Nix will make sure to eradicate that bastard for his constant sexual harassment of Marinette. Marinette was forced to allow him keep his ring because of things out of her control and because she was guilt-tripped into doing so. But not Cosmic Actress. Nix will destroy him for what he did, and for being a horrible human in general.

There were also lesser sources of rage, like the populations' inability to understand that Ladybug's "NO" means "NO", not "maybe".

"..."

Supervillains and Chat Noir it is then.

Decision made, nix moved to search for the villains.

Clock-Time decided to help by using loc control over space and time to feel search for them.

The miraculouses have a slight effect on space and time around them thanks to them being powered by a concept (as far as nix and clo know for now) and that effect is what clo is searching for.

"... Not there... Close... No that's probably Tikki's Miraculous... Ah, in that direction!"

Nix followed as clo jumped towards the source.

And ending up in front of one large mansion belonging to one Gabriel Agreste.

Nix frowned.

"Agreste? you're sure? I don't doubt you but didn't Marinette investigate him?"

Clo thought for a moment, "But that was before Mayura appeared so..."

The point was clear. Gabriel had Mayura akumatise him to cover his tracks as Hawkmoth.

"After all, he can't be so stupid to akumatise himself without Mayura, right? I mean, that would be monumentally stupid."

Yes, that would be very stupid and nonsensical.

"By the way, before we start, I want to ask you- uhh, do you like the name Clock-Time, or... do you want to change it?"

For the first time in nix short life, nix felt awkward and unsure.

The name Cosmic Actress was in a way fitting for nix, and nix had chosen it nixself, but nix wasn't sure if the same applied to the Amok and wanted to make sure.

Clo blinked for a moment before smiling.

"Oh! Thanks for the concern! And... yeah. I don't like the name very much. So I will call myself... Natasi!"

"Natasi." nix repeated the name.

"Yes! Pronouns are clo/loc/locs/clockself! Used the same way as she/her/hers/herself."

Nix smiled at loc enthusiasm.

"Natasi, nice to be friends with you. I think I will keep naming myself Cosmic Actress, pronouns are nix/nix/nix/nixself."

Both smiled for a moment before focusing on the goal.

Natasi once more used loc power to get the exact position of the villains, then opened a portal directing to them.

Both were met with the sight of the two supervillains inside their lair, shocked out of their minds.

"You!" Hawkmoth yelled furiously as he raised his cane.

No doubt that he was so angry and frustrated at how easily the two broke from his and Mayura's control.

On the other hand, Mayura felt more... subdued. She looked just as angry, but it felt like she was only trying to.

'No doubt because of using a broken and damaging miraculous.' Cosmic Actress pondered.

Not that their anger meant anything. They both were no match for Natasi and Cosmic Actress.

Natasi simply pointed a finger at Mayura, and a portal opened in front of her so she could not escape, and was sucked into the portal.

"What did you-!" Hawkmoth's yell was cut short as nix punched his head with a force that would have exploded a normal human. Only his defensive suit protected him from the worst of the damage and he ended up being dazed for a moment as his body easily shattered right through the walls and he fell to the ground outside the mansion far below, making a crater in the pavement.

"Well, he is not dead yet. His suit is too strong to die from something insignificant like this. By the was, where is Mayura?" Cosmic Actress said as both jumped down on the ground to finish him off.

"Somewhere in the universe, probably dead already. Don't worry, I can get her miraculous back just fine. These things will not be scratched even by a black hole." Natasi told nix.

Reaching the ground as Gabriel was trying to stand, clutching his head from pain, nix raised a palm, ignoring the fleeing and screaming bystanders.

"Oblivion Orb."

The orb hit Gabriel head-on, and he screamed as he was forcefully detransformed, his suit unable to withstand that amount of damage. It did one thing right, though, it let Gabriel survive it.

With a flick of Natasi's hand, the butterfly miraculous was teleported into loc hand.

"Y- you...! How dare-!" Gabriel started to shout, but both ignored his furious screams, and Cosmic Actress just killed him.

"Good riddance." Nix stated as Natasi opened a small portal and extended loc hand, and bringing from it the Peacock miraculous. Nathalie's body was long destroyed by the forces of the cosmos, apparently.

With this, they only need to make a show and wait for the heroes to appear to get their miraculouses.

So both quickly went to the highest point of the Eiffel tower and nix spammed large Oblivion Orbs and with the help of Natasi, guided them towards a few more people.

There was Audrey, that rich abusive woman, Andre the icecream guy because he was a creep who can't take a "NO" from his customers and doesn't let them pick what they want, and most likely a queerphobe as well.

There was also that racist dude who basically went out of his way to cause trouble to Marinette's mother, and so is that cop, Rogers.

In fact, nix decided to just murder all the cops. They literally did nothing but obey a fascist mayor and solidify his rule. Plus, they were racists anyways. They deserved death.

After a minute or so of mass-killing unrepentant racists and jerks with large orbs of energy, the heroes finally appeared.

Well, the only ones Natasi and Cosmic Actress qualified as heroes were Carapace and Viperion along with Pegasus and Ryuko. Cosmic Actress wasn't so sure about the Ladybug-themed hero, but nix can vaguely recall that she is the former Rena Rouge since she was Marinette's confidant. Scarabella was her Ladybug-themed name, right?

Chat Noir is still not here. Not like it's surprising at this point. Nix recalls from Marinette's memories that th riche brat was starting to shirk his duties even more and being only a show for the sake of harassing her and enjoying her tormented look.

Oh wait, he is actually appearing. He jumps alongside the other heroes looking angry.

Did Cosmic Actress trouble him somehow for him to be this annoyed? Or maybe nix killed someone he actually cared about?

Oh no, nothing to worry about. He just started being passive-agressive to Scarabella because his "bugaboo" isn't here. The other heroes were at least paying attention to Cosmic Actress and nix friend even while telling him not to worry about Ladybug for now, because the villains are the real concern, but Chat Noir is not even looking. His is focusing his attention at Scarabella.

"As much as I can enjoy your excellent 'bonding experience'," Cosmic Actress started to call, the sarcasm heavy in nix voice. "I have other things to do right now. So give me your miraculouses and I will leave you alone. Except Chat Noir. We hate you personally." Nix stated in a matter-of-fact tone with the heroes getting even more tense at nix words.

Chat Noir apparently thought it was a great time to joke about the situation as he put his hand on his chest looking like a kicked puppy. "Meowch! This hurt me, Marinette! Am I really this unbearable to a girl like you?"

It took a great deal from both nix and Natasi not to just immediately and violently throw him into the sun.

Nix looked at him coldly.

"First, I am not Marinette. I am Cosmic Actress. I am also not a 'she'. I don't have a gender. I use the pronouns nix/nix/nix/nixself, remember them. I expect you to have at least some memory capacity in your head for things other than Ladybug. As for being unbearable, it's more like hating you for being a sexual predator incel."

It was very satisfying to see how his jaws dropping along with the rest of the group.

"What!?" He screamed angrily with his eyes narrowing.

Natasi just blinked as clo spoke with a smile, but what was coming from loc mouth was anything but gentle or sweet: "But what else can you call a guy who constantly asks for kisses and dates when a girl explicitly tells him to stop and refuses to stop, when he keeps attempting, and even succeeding in violating her boundaries?" Clo asked, "Remember when Gigantitan attacked and Ladybug was busy holding back the akuma, only for you, Mr. Totally-A-Gentleman, to decide to go for a kiss?" Clo pretended to think about it, then added, "Oh wait, that was also when thanks to your great help, Ladybug lost focus and the akuma destroyed Marinette's room and you only laughed at how funny the whole thing was! Who knew that watching someone you called a friend almost dying is so hilarious?

"Or maybe, you want us to talk about the times you were a very understanding partner by refusing to help Ladybug fighting an akuma because she didn't want to date you? You know? Like what happened when Frozer and Glaciator attacked? Oh wait, didn't you also try to guilt-trip Marinette into shipping you and Ladybug in the middle of the night when Glaciator came?

"Yeah, how romantic you are. Especially when Mayura almost stole your ring by using a fake Ladybug who only said that 'she' loves you and was about to kiss you. Such a shame that you were unable to see the trickery. Truly, Sentibug was a master at fake-acting and totally acted like Ladybug and not like your sick and twisted version of her that you want her to be~! So, is there any recent romantic actions Ladybug did for you? I mean, the last thing I can recall is her throwing you in the trash, which I guess was technically very romantic from your perspective, since she didn't just rip away the ring from your hands when she was the literal Guardian and had every right to find your identity or retire you completely."

Natasi and Cosmic Actress were both smiling at the shocked expression of the heroes, all of them horrified.

Because none of them knew of how Chat Noir acted when they weren't there. They never knew what he did when Ladybug, his victim, was the only witness.

Viperion and Scarabella looked horrified the most, and Cosmic Actress didn't know why, and wouldn't care right now.

But Chat Noir? He was also pale, and his body was shaking as he clutched his staff tightly. And nix could feel it.

Rage.

Rage at being called out and insulting his so-called love for Ladybug.

"TAKE THAT BACK!" He rushes with vengeance as his staff extends.

"Chat Noir, don't!" Viperion yells in warning, he tries to move and stop him. He can feel the danger. but it's useless.

Natasi raised loc hand-

And both Chat Noir and Cosmic Actress vanish from the tower.

Natasi looked down at the heroes neutrally.

"You don't need to worry about your... teammate. I am sure he will find himself in good company with Cosmic Actress."

Viperion doesn't hesitate on what to do. He will fix this mess! He'd already set the timer before he got here!

He slid the snake bracelet.

"Second Chance!"

...

Nothing happened.

He couldn't feel himself go back in time.

The rest looked at him in surprise.

"What? Why!?"

He looked in shock at his bracelet.

Natasi just sighed.

"Sorry, Viperion. I like you since you were supportive of Marinette but... I am not letting you interfere with this. So I just stopped time from being rewound by your miraculous. Sorry." Clo shrugged.

"And if you are wondering about where they were sent off, well..."

A sound of a large explosion reached their ears, from the direction where the Agreste mansion is located.

"There they are." Natasi finished.

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"How dare you!?" Chat Noir snarled as Cosmic Actress ducked under another swipe from his staff, which easily destroyed another wall of the Agreste mansion.

Nix opponent looking vengeful.

"I dare, because I have basic decency. And basic decency says that you are a harasser!" Nix stated, anger clear in nix tone before blocking the staff with one arm, taking no damage.

"I love Ladybug! She's my love!" He roars angrily, "Cataclysm!"

Cosmic Actress felt nix blood boiling as Chat Noir kept saying he loves Ladybug, and he is even trying to kill nix most likely.

"Chat Noir. Do you really think yelling that phrase over and over will make me believe it!?" Nix shouted back, avoiding the Cataclysm and giving the so-called hero a kick that threw him to the wall. "If you really loved her, you would have accepted her feelings and stopped asking for kisses and dates! You would have stopped calling her names she didn't like! You would have respected her boundaries that she had made clear a hundred times by now!"

Chat Noir was already standing back up, but Cosmic Actress was already above him.

"It seems that for you, the word 'love'...!" nix yelled as nix fists hit Chat Noir, throwing him away so hard out of the mansion, the same way his father had been thrown earlier.

"Ugh!" He quickly stood up again only to find Cosmic Actress in front of him once more.

"It seems like 'love' is just a valid reason for sexual harassment as far as you are concerned! Right?!"

Nix threw an Oblivion Orb that hit his Cataclysm, and wasted his power as the two spells collided and the Oblivion Orb overpowered and wiped out the Cataclysm.

"Even when Ladybug lost her voice...! Even when Mayura made a fake Ladybug...! It seems that it doesn't matter how much time you spend with your 'beloved', since you only care about your twisted version of her that can only exist to be tormented and mocked by you! But this nonsense ends now!"

The last sentence was accompanied by Cosmic Actress' arms holding Chat Noir as nix looked at him with venom that made his eyes show shock and fear.

Nix hand easily ripped away the Ring, detransforming him.

Cosmic Actress eyes widened in shock as nix recognized the person who was hiding behind the mask.

"Adrien Agreste..." Nix said numbly.

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It felt ridiculous. So ridiculous.

The guy that Marinette fell in love with, because he was nice to her.

The guy that she suffered a lot for his sake. Where she had to allow her own birthday gift for him to be stolen and never tell him the truth because she wanted him to be happy. Where she felt ashamed of celebrating the leaving of her long-time bully because this insensitive brat loved Chloe his childhood friend so much more than he cared for any of her victims, including Marinette, the one who loved him because he was nice to her once...

And he is her harasser.

And Chat Noir... is what he is in the dark. When no one is looking.

Chat Noir is how he really wants to act. When there is no fear of repercussions and responsibilities to negatively impact him.

Cosmic Actress doesn't know what to feel; Horrified? Disgusted? Angry? Numb? Tired?

In the end, pure rage and hatred won.

"YOU...." Nix gnashed nix teeth from wrath. "DIE!"

A blast of energy came to existence, obliterating everything around nix.

Adrien along with the Agreste mansion and the surrounding houses ceased to exist.

All what was left was Cosmic Actress trying so hard to calm nixself back down. Nix body was shaking, and nix expression was still wrathful. Nix wanted to just obliterate the whole world, but barely, nix controlled nixself.

It would be several long minutes later that Cosmic Actress managed to calm down enough, and decided to deal with Scarabella and the rest.

Then nix will see if the Wish can help nix in attaining nix desires.

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The battle with the rest of the heroes was basically a cake-walk.

There was nothing they can do.

Just Cosmic Actress was more than enough, but with the help of Natasi? It was basically like a level 999 monster fighting a newbie in all but name.

No matter how much they tried, it was all useless.

It didn't matter how much they resisted.

Defeat was the only option.

As nix wore both the Ladybug and Black Cat miraculouses along with the Butterfly and the Peacock, Cosmic Actress breathed.

"Natasi. I am going to use the Wish. Do you really want to follow me still? It might be dangerous." Cosmic Actress asked nix friend.

Natasi only smiled. "I'm sure. I want to be with you. Please grant this selfish request of mine."

Cosmic Actress could only shake nix head. Maybe having a friend with you in a rewritten universe will not be so bad.

Nix can only hope.

Nix breathed once more.

"Okay then. Tikki, Plagg, unify! I wish that---------!"

With that, the world turned into a rainbow as reality shuddered...

And changed. ========= END...

For now. ========= Well, this is it. the beginning of my AU.

Chronologically, this is the first one.

The second one is actually another prompt that I did not write yet. Would have written it as part of this prompt but I felt that the tone will be messed up way too much for my liking. Don't worry though, I will write it someday:) I hope.

Then Universal Theater.

And finally Universal Oblivion.

Goodbye! :)

(I literally love everything about this)

[soulprofitis]

TRUTH + A full and unreserved dissection of Emet-Selch.

Truth Serum (Reply continues under the cut)

"When asked a question like this, one has to wonder who might want to know?" He chuckles, the body of a constellation in his smile. "It's entertaining to think the man himself might wonder if he's lost my good opinion. For others to ask, though, I can't be certain why my 'dissection,' a most telling choice of words, would be necessary. I am biased, I must admit. Many others might tell you of a commitment to our Star, good works accomplished through power of will, and his undying loyalty. Or, as I have learned, how these virtues might be capable of harm. In an older world, the one I knew, I would not have conceptualized this as a possibility."

What might he have done in that position, in a place without? A question with no answer. What happens is what happens and Hythlodaeus does not regret his own choice.

"As a sacrifice to Zodiark, I can at least say that the purpose⁠—Saving our world, though temporarily⁠—was accomplished only through the strength of those I once considered friends. The ones I knew, though, are not the same as they once were. Hades⁠— Emet-Selch is no different."

He might frown, like a rushing tide, like a brook falling over rocks in a stream. The Sea is different, so different from Etheirys. Both memory and emotion dictate form.

"I cannot say how I feel about the entirety. Believe it or not, the lifetimes one misses in over twelve thousand years makes it difficult to ascertain truths. There is so much. So much I can easily say that I would not do, not as myself, not how I exist now. So much that I cannot forgive as it is not mine to forgive. It never will be and, no matter how much I wish that I could heal some of the hurts he has inflicted upon the shards of others that I love, upon the reflections of my home, I am still. Useless. Half-dead, fully dead, now, my feelings about his actions will never help those who have suffered."

Hythlodaeus sighs as one who can no longer breathe, long as a song and silent as the grave.

"No, however much I regret what I could not stop, I am forbidden to lie, hm? I will not say that I am unhappy. This existence, if you can call it one, might last an eternity, might go on until the bit of Azem I hold dearest returns and after." A tearful smile. His voice doesn't break like it might when someone cries, but the sound is painful to the ears all the same. "I am beyond grateful he is here. That whatever remains of the person I knew and all that has been created since still... It's awful to say. Still missed me. Selfish, yes? I am dead, though, so who can complain?" He laughs. "I have had very few in my life who I loved as much as Hades. If things will ever be the same, I doubt. But I wouldn't give him up either. It's terribly grey, isn't it? Hardly a clear truth for you, and for that I apologize. There is much I will never understand about this new reality until I see it for myself, if I ever do. Until then, I am prepared to be patient. And to listen. I have a feeling that I will do much of both in the timeless moments to come. Oh—"

He grins bright as a sunbeam.

"He's rather short, isn't he? Small and slouchy. And that awful coat, ugh. He can't possibly prepare for the earful I'm going to give him—"

[lynettethemadscientist]

Ok well I just played Parasite in Love and I'm feeling the urge to write an essay on why I would come back after the ending. I haven't got all the endings yet. I don't even know how many endings there are. But I am just reeling from this and I have to talk about it.

Ok to set the scene, I'm going into this imagining my MC as having a bit more of a grim outlook than Marlowe (the actual MC). Her description of her life is pretty neutral so it's easy to overlay that with my own context. So in this story, I'm nearing 30 and it's starting to look like I may never get married or have children. I have a good job and my life is by no means without enjoyment, and yet it feels meaningless. Like I'm going nowhere. There's nothing to sacrifice for. No one to struggle or suffer for. And I'm looking down the barrel of a long, lonely future that's just a series of chasing down temporary pleasures and coping. So my MC is emotionally desperate.

And then enters Niall. No I'm not going to call him that. That is a silly name. I'm going to name him Luke. I immediately recognize Luke for what he is: a threat. A lethal one at that. And I am obviously hostile to him. For a moment I wonder if his affection and displays of kindness are a cruel game, but no that's not it. And then I think that perhaps he's acting this way in an effort to make my transition to the grave easier for me. But it isn't long before I realize that he truly does not understand the gravity of the situation he has placed on me. He forlornly tries to relate to me by equating our desires to reproduce, misunderstanding that asexual reproduction and sexual reproduction are wildly different. And it occurs to me that he does not know what death means to a human. He does not experience death the way that we do. But of course I cannot flesh out such thoughts in this moment because I am very sick. I can however, reach back out to him, and try to make him understand why I should live, not on a moral or otherwise human level, but on his level. If I die, so will you, and so will our children. Let me go back to the lake so we may all survive. I promise to come back when I've recovered so we can be together again. A big part of me really means it.

And so Luke says his tearful goodbye and I rush to the shore. I am free. I am safe. I'm not going to die. But after the relief is over and as I start to recover, I can begin to parse what we've just been through. Without the oppressive weight of millions of microbes belaboring my mind, I can marvel at how amazing it is that a single-celled organism could even begin to try and equate his experience to my own. Such an admirable feat for something so small. Even if he couldn't fully conceive of it within those few days, what more was he capable of learning? He had already drawn rudimentary parallels between our distinct forms of reproduction. Considering himself a father and I a mother. Even though he is a parasite and I am a host, does the father not provide raw material while the mother is the one who incubates? I wonder if he really could begin to actually understand the difference between us. If he could understand sexual reproduction, then he could understand that a human is not functionally immortal like he is. He makes endless copies of himself. One perishes while many more still exist. So he is always alive. But when a human dies, they no longer exist in the earthly realm. And underpinning all this marveling is the realization that I savored the relief from loneliness that I got when he cared and cried and said soft words to me. And that I yearned to have that again. I know he could never provide a family for me in the way that a human male could. He could never fulfill me in the way I want most. But he's all I have. And perhaps, even if he can't be what I need, I can be what he needs. He may not give me purpose and inspire me to be a better person the way a human husband could. But I watched as Luke, at my behest, made a very human decision. He chose others over himself. He chose his children and his wife over his own desires, risking the chance that I might never return. What is more gloriously human than making a personal sacrifice for those you love? And if something so small as an amoeba can make a choice like that? What else could he do? Maybe he won't be a source of personal growth for me (in fact he'll be eating away at me, albeit slowly), but maybe I can be that for him. And well, that's enough for me. Especially when I consider that what he learns in our journey together, will never perish, because he will always live. And so in some way, so will I.

So I walk back into that lake and welcome my beautiful husband. For a few days each month, we live together. Until death do us part.

[writing-prompt-s]

Hey there! First time anon asker, long time follower. I appreciate all the work you do for this blog. Just want to keep the conversation going about the Edison quote you retweeted, on "giving up" versus "knowing when to stop." Though Edison sucks as some comments pointed out, I happen to agree with the quote to an extent. I'm curious to know more about your experience. First, some background for my opinion: I work as a student tutor for fellow college students. One of the biggest things we learn as tutors is how to encourage students NOT to give up when they face a challenge. Lots of people, especially first-gen college students, give up when they're struggling in class because they assume they're "not smart enough" or something along those lines, when research and my personal experience show that that's not true. They are able to change their school habits and seek out help, but only if they already have a mindset where they believe they can do it. Those who don't believe in themselves are less likely to seek help and thus, more likely to fail. Students might also drop out of college or get bad grades because of things outside of their control, like losing their job or other difficulties that make it hard for them to continue at college. This is also an issue because some (not all) colleges have programs to help students during difficult times, but many students don't even try, they just drop out. I have benefitted from some of these programs personally, so even though they can't cure everything, these programs should be considered when a student is struggling. And sometimes, dropping out of college IS the best decision for a person, whether they intend to return later or go a different path. It's just that for many students, they don't have to give up on their education/career goals because of the hardships they're currently trying to work through, but they believe that there's nothing else they can do. The solution may be out there, but they "give up" because they didn't look for it. As a tutor, that's why phrases like "don't give up!" are so important for the people I work with. Not because college is for everyone or that people should sacrifice their well-being for a degree, but because students (again especially first generation college students, students of color, and low income students) have such low confidence in themselves and their ability to learn and grow through obstacles. The Edison quote wasn't about college, but I'm using my experience as a college student and tutor as a more concrete example of why the Edison quote could be useful. College student or not, I think having a "don't give up" attitude can get you through some hard times. So all of this is to preface my question: in your opinion, how can we know the difference between a healthy, "I will do everything I can to meet my goals" situation and an unhealthy, "I will sacrifice everything" situation? Sorry for this lengthy ask btw, if you don't want to respond I completely understand. Just hoping to hear your insight to the topic more. Thanks for this blog and for sharing your thoughts! -S

Hey S!

Read “The Dip” by Seth Godin. It counts about 80 pages but reads like 30. I highly recommend reading it and using the ideas in guiding your students. When you read it, it’s mostly common sense with a bit of oh damn, nice! But sometimes common sense needs to be conceptualized, made concrete, or put into context, and this little book does just that.

The main idea is to know if you should quit or persevere during ‘a dip’ by forecasting the probability of success and take costs/rewards into account.

However, this might not be everyone’s best skill, so some people might need practice or guidance. As Ray Dalio points out in his book ‘Principles’, everyone is wired differently. Just as our bodies come in different shapes and sizes, so do the compositions of our brains. Some people might have weak bones or naturally have lots of muscle mass. Others might regulate emotions well, or are weak at visualizing the future. (By the way, neuroscience tells us we can shape and improve our brains!)

The different compositions of our brains also affects communication between people. Everyone encodes and decodes information differently, and then also gets filtered through one’s own life experiences. So advice such as ‘first seek to understand, then to be understood’ is paramount before encouraging people to ‘not give up.’ If the other person doesn’t feel that you completely understand their situation, saying that actually might work counter-productive!

In my opinion, in most cases 'don’t give up!’ is a good motto for college students. You know what to expect from college. If you do x you will get x. If you stick through the dip (time spend getting good grades), you will get the reward (degree). However, as you point out, some students might face additional stress outside of college, or society might already have put them at a disadvantage. It might just become too much. You helping and encouraging students who are at a disadvantage is incredibly helpful. As humans, we are naturally wired to be interdependent. We cannot do everything by ourselves, nor should we want to. We thrive on meaningful relationships and social connections.

So where is the line between healthy and unhealthy? That’s actually a very tough question. Most people tend to think of life as a journey, always trying to get somewhere, trying to achieve something. It would mean telling people how to live their life and I have no clue. Of course, if in trying to get to your goal your body shows signs of it being unhealthy, stop or take a break. Stress is good, but not to the point where you break down. Self-management is key. Overall I would say it’s healthy if your values align with the process to achieve the goal, the goal, and the consequences of achieving it. But then again, always be realistic. Quitting frees up time, energy and other resources that can be spend on achieving a different, perhaps more rewarding/meaningful/attainable goal.

An attempt at a more concrete answer would be:

It’s impossible to generalize what is healthy and what is unhealthy as everyone has a different idea of what that is and is living their own complex life. Therefore, on a case-by-case basis, people should be taught to take a step back sometimes, contemplate what they are doing, analyse it, be open-minded, seek help from (qualified) people and ask for feedback and advice, and then make up their minds themselves whether what they are doing is healthy or not.

As @zeadtalost said in the comments: “Man’s gotta know his limitations”. But then I would like to add to it that ‘man’ should not be fool enough never to test what they believe to be their limitations. Because what you say is true. Often limitations are in the mind, and overcoming them is what will make people more confident and capable! So please keep doing what you are doing. I doubt you find this a concrete answer, but I am pretty sure the book by Seth Godin will help you lots! Also, by the length of your ask I can tell you are very dedicated and a compassionate tutor, and it’s your caring attitude that will give your students the best chance of succeeding!

[vdlest]

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Bucky Barnes x ExAvenger!Reader

Summary:

It has been a year since you left the life of being an Avenger. But after a year, someone showed up in your house, telling you that you left something when you left your old life. What could it be?

Warning:

Swearing

Mention of sex/one night stand

Fluff

Bucky being soft (it's a warning, right?)

One of the best years of your life was being an avenger. You were one of the greatest assets of the team, that's why when you left the team, they had a big loss. It wasn't really your intention to leave the life you had, but when Steve disappeared, Tony and Nat died, you were deeply devastated. You and the rest of Avengers like Sam, Bucky, Wanda, Clint, Bruce, Thor, the Guardians, and Spider-man continued what the original six started. However, one heated argument between you and Bucky made you leave the team — after a mission in Norway, you comforted Bucky when you saw him alone in the roof of the compound, you told him that he shouldn't let sadness take over him and his life, but Bucky didn't liked it. He exploded and told you that instead of Steve, Nat, and Tony, it should have been you who died and disappeared.

The very next day after your argument with Bucky, you left the compound and you just left them a letter, telling them how sorry you were for leaving them. You told them that you are not worthy anymore to be part of them, so you made a sacrifice, leaving the old life you had.

Upon leaving the Avengers, you moved to a small city in California. You started your own farm there and live in a peaceful life, but sometimes you miss being on the team, especially when you see them on the news.

But you had to make a sacrifice. After all, you think you're not worthy enough, not like what Tony, Steve, and Nat has always been telling you.

They're gone, and so is your faith in yourself.

•••

You're in the middle of painting your front porch when you heard someone walking towards you. Your back is facing the front yard of your house, so you don't know if someone's coming or not, but because of your super hearing, you heard that someone is walking behind you.

You got up from painting the base of your porch and turned around to see who was walking towards you.

It's the most unexpected guest you ever had in your entire life — it's the man who made you decide to leave your old life, James Buchanan Barnes.

You avoided his gaze and continue whatever you are doing.

"Y/n," you heard him called you, but you just continue with what you're doing.

"What are you doing here, Barnes?" you asked him without looking at him.

"It took us so long before we could finally trace your actions for the past year. Did you really think we wouldn't find you?" he asked you.

You knew it was Wanda who always wanted to find you. She's your friend. It was you, Nat, and Wanda who had always been friends, but after Nat died and after Wanda disappeared, you lost the only friends you had. Eight months ago, you found out from the news that Wanda came back, more powerful and more capable of helping other people. You knew she wouldn't stop until she found you.

But why is Bucky Barnes who came after you and not Wanda?

"Ever since you left, all of us did everything what we could do to find you, but hell, you are good in hiding. Even Dr. Strange and Wanda cannot find you," Bucky continued talking as he walk closer to you.

You chuckled sarcastically, "Can't you just go straight to the point? Why are you really here?" you put down your paintbrush and faced him, "What do you need from me?"

He took one last step closer to you, "I need you to come back to the team."

The moment you heard him said that, you laughed and walked towards your tool shed. He followed you and you could see how confuse he is when he heard you laugh at him.

"What is so funny?" he asked you.

"You are funny, Barnes," you stopped from opening the door of your tool shed and faced him, "You were the one who wanted me to be out of the team, right? You told me that instead of Nat, Steve, and Tony, it should've been just me who died and disappeared. You remember that?" you asked him, fighting the emotion that is stsrting to build inside you.

He did not answer you and you see guilt in his eyes. But it's already too late for him to feel that way — he already caused you so much pain.

"Why don't you just go back to where you came from and leave me alone? You wanted this right? You wanted me to be gone? So here I am, I've been gone for a year. What else do you need from me?" you asked him.

You resumed in opening the door of your tool shed but before you could finally opened it, you heard him spoke again.

"When you left the team, you left something in there," he said.

You have no idea what he was talking about. When you left the compound, you made sure you got all your things and other belongings. So you have no idea what something you left when you left the compound.

"Me."

You rapidly turned around to face him once again.

"What the hell are you saying?" you asked him unbelievably.

"You left me feeling guilty for what I did and say to you. You left me and I wasn't able to ask for forgiveness for what I did. You left me hanging. And most importantly, you left me wanting you," he said continuously. You did not noticed that in every word he says, he is walking closer to you, and in ever step he does, you move back, but you stopped moving the moment you felt the door of the tool shed behind you, "The night you and I had an argument, I was having a rough time. I didn't know how I could live a life without my best friend, Steve. I wasn't ready to move on, but you kept on telling me to move on."

Your eyes remained on his gaze. You didn't even had the guts to move away or push him away. It seems like you were hypnotized by the way he looks at you and how he caged you between his body and the tool shed's door.

"I didn't mean any word I said that night to you. I don't want you to die or be gone as well. I want you to stay with me until the end."

When you heard him say those words to you, you came back to your senses. You pushed him away and walked away from him. It's not a surprise that he followed you.

"Y/n, I am telling the truth," he said while following you. "I thought I was just feeling guilty the whole time you were gone. Everybody is blaming me for your disappearance, and I thought I was just guilty about the fact that it was really my fault why you left. But no, it's not just about the guilt. It's about the longing I felt when you left."

"Longing?!" you growled as you stop from walking. You turned around and faced him, "You long for the person you wished to die and just disappear?" you scoffed and crossed your arms in front of your chest, "Do you have any idea how painful it is for me to hear those words coming from you? You, of all people, Bucky! You, of all people, said those words to me and made me feel like I'm just a nobody in your life! You made me feel I'm just a fucking whore you fucked once, and that was it! You made me believe that there's something special growing between us, but I was God damn wrong!"

Before you left the compound and the Avengers life, you and Bucky shared a beautiful moment together. You were with him when he visited Yori and apologized for the death of his son. After that, he asked you if you could stay with him for a while and he'll cook dinner for both of you. And so he did, soon after your dinner, you found yourself giving in and kissing him back. You thought it was the start of something beautiful and something deep with him, but after a week, he exploded to you and told you harsh things you never thought you could hear from him.

"I thought we're onto something good, Bucky. But it was just all a fucking thought," you wiped your tears away as soon as you felt them on your cheeks.

"I'm sorry for making you feel that way, y/n," he walked towards you and cupped your face. You wanted to avoid his touch but your body did not oblige to your will, "I was just lost at that time. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know if I was ready to give my all to you and just lose you. I thought by pushing you away, it would be less complicated for both of us. I can't afford to lose another person in my life. But I still did lose you."

Your tears continue to run down your cheeks as you listen to his words, his explanation.

You told yourself a million times, the next time you'll see him, you'll break his face, his bones. But you couldn't, especially seeing him now this close.

"Everyday, I hated myself for hurting you and letting you leave just like that. Everyday, I am regretting the words I pierced through you. And everyday, I am killing myself for wasting the beautiful start we had," he uses his thumb to wiped your tears away, "I tried my best to find you, to take you back, to apologize, and to have you again by my side, because without you, I am nothing, y/n. And I am not saying these words just because I've made a mistake to you. I am saying these words because I want to have you back in my life."

You looked down, making him remove his hands on your face, "I...I don't know if...if I could trust you again, Bucky."

You were too scared to trust him again, especially with your heart.

"You're asking me to give you my full trust again, Bucky. And it's a big thing to ask from someone who got scared of trusting people again," you said while looking down.

He uses his hand to hold your chin and make you look up to meet his gaze again, "I am willing to do anything to earn your trust again. I am not forcing you to do it right away, but I will earn your trust in every possible way I can," he seems like he was vowing or promising. "But I did not come all the way here just for your trust, y/n."

Your brows furrowed with what he said.

"I also came here to be worthy of your love."

Before you could say anything, he grabbed one of your hands and placed it against his chest, where his heart is.

"Because when you left, you left this one as well," he said referring to his heart.

You imagined countless times that you want Bucky to suffer and feel the pain you felt when you left everything behind because of him. But after a year of hiding your love for him with anger, you finally realized that it wasn't anger at all, it has always been love. Your heart has always been with him. You thought, why make him suffer when you can make him earn what he lost from the times that you've been away from each other — your trust & your love for him.

You hated him because he hurt you, but after hearing his explanation, it all made sense to you.

You are still in love with Bucky Barnes.

-v.dl

[mulderscully]

you know, i am not someone who moves on from ships i love really quickly. i tend to still think about ships i love for years. which is why i've really been wondering to myself why, even as someone who liked the lucifer finale, i don't care about deckerstar as much anymore.

this is really just me talking to myself but i'm gonna try to put it into words.

i think the first issue i have is that i feel like tom ellis and lauren german didn't have very good chemistry as a canon couple. i know a lot of people disagree, but that's how i feel. in s6, when i see them kiss and cuddle something about it feels kind of wooden and mechanical, like they're going through the motions of being a couple but the natural ebb and flow of it isn't there and i find it really distracting. i think they're both great actors, but for some reason they don't have a spark i needed them to have.

that aside, i think i do have some disappointments in how the show went after s2 that i kept expecting to be addressed and just never were. i loved s2 deckerstar so much because there was so much potential for a truly poetic relationship to happen there. i loved lucifer falling for chloe, and being vulnerable with her and how he grew to love humanity by essentially becoming human with her. i thought that was such an amazing way for him to understand why god loved humans so much, but instead the way this was just taken away in s5 left me feeling really bereft. it's not a secret that ideally i did want lucifer to choose to become mortal in the end, but i'm happy with what they did with him and think it makes sense. what doesn't make sense to me is how they tied all the love and vulnerability into this contrived plot that felt very inorganic in the end.

i feel kinda bummed because i actually don't like lucifer's declaration of love to chloe. when 4x10 ended i felt like that WAS him telling her he loves her, and then in s5 it's like they chose to undo it so he could convince himself "he isn't capable of love." to get him to actually say the words in the end, tying his feelings or worthiness to his ability to love in a frankly strange way.

more than that, i feel very disappointed at how little importance chloe has in their relationship in the end. before s3 i honestly thought her miracle status would be explained as her having a purpose outside of lucifer that made her celestial somehow, but that ended up not being the case. then we also never see the candy situation or sacrifices conversation happen on screen after how we see that him abandoning her before is something that still negativity affects their relationship and how secure she feels in it, which is why it was necessary for them to work through that before getting together.

after s4, chloe becomes so accepting and supportive of lucifer that she almost becomes passive and therefore their ENTIRE dynamic changes and they kind of lost what made them... them. even in s5a her freakout about him not telling her why she was created is given a bit of attention before being completely dropped after she understands. and i don't like that. there should have been more middle ground and more insight to her feelings. this also applies to a lot of other things, but i'm not talking about the finale - just their dynamic. it's like chloe is an extension of lucifer vs being her own person.

i hate that i feel this way because i loved them for so long, thought about them so much and had so many expectations that were never met. i don't mind them being separated until she dies, but i do mind their relationship on earth not hitting the mark before they spend eternity together after.

[wowsoboring]

Deconstructing Baseless Harry Potter Arguments#2 (i) : Harmione Edition

Obviously I once again do not mean to target all Harmione shippers. I know quite a few who're very good human beings and tolerant and accepting above all. However these aren't. In this case, you might sense quite a bit of levelheadedness in the beginning, however you must not be fooled as it goes south and takes a nasty turn very quickly. Don't get your hopes up, this is some of the worst shit I've ever seen, especially the way in which it progresses through its course. Naturally, for this post I have picked my own style of writing which will match that of those redditors. Reddit is the perfect breeding ground for all these weird cults, honestly. I shall be resorting to a formal language and style of conversation, very much like a debater would to sound as pretentious as these do. These posts are found on the instagram handle toxicharmonyshippers who gather such toxic musings and sayings for Harmione shippers while respecting the ones that are nice.

1)

Oh yes, let's use words like 'vehemently' to sound smart, why not? Of course, this little tidbit of the highly stupendous post seems more or less civil at the start. They also have the common decency to say "some Romione shippers" rather than generalizing all of us. Very nice of you, how very saint like. Let's wait till they drop the act and show us their true colors. Harkening back to the argument, I have but one question for you, "where do you find these people?". Where's the proof? Who are these radical Romione shippers who worship Ron and dislike Hermione? I haven't seen any such shippers and I am surrounded by Romione shippers on tumblr, instagram and fan fiction sites as well and haven't met the people you speak of. Some point out her flaws, yes, but no one hates her or dislikes her that much. I have seen two or three Romione shippers across hundreds and thousands who're skeptical of Hermione's perfection. Skeptical. Not hating, disliking, or anything. Of course, unlike this person, I have evidence: find these pi charts for your referral (clickable): https://imgur.com/a/QfPnQbB

you can, through these, see the amount of Hermione bashing across Harry Potter fanfiction and you can see that even in Romione fanfiction there's more Ron bashing. Hermione-bashing is a non-issue. That's what it is. Regarding the "nagging" statement, where's the lie in that? "Annoying" is somewhat subjective, I personally don't find her annoying at all. Who are these people and how often do you find them? "Mary Sue" is only reserved for Movie!Hermione. I have only seen book fans call her that. No one has ever called Book!Hermione Mary Sue. The movie does paint her as a flawless, all-rounder who's also drop-dead gorgeous. Only things she's bad at are flying and divination, all of which she denounces as useless, even though flying is like biking for wizards, divination, sure, not that important. with a teacher like Trelawney, even I would denounce it as hokum.

2)

Remember what I said about waiting for them to show us their true colors, well here they are. Bask in the glory of their senseless arguments. Why, I am from reddit, heck I have 25 thousand karma points on there, I just left because it was too stupid for me but I can argue like them very well. And in this case I would like to say that these people are under the impression that Ron is just there in the story for the sake of existence. And he doesn't work hard. That argument is of course, wrong. Because Ron (in no particular order):

1) fights a troll when he's 11

2) is willing to sacrifice himself when he's 11

3) stands up for his friends

4) makes sure Harry feels like he belongs in the family

5) worries about Harry and rescues him from literal jail

6) stands up against Draco rather than by-standing and enabling his behavior

7) tries his level best to make sure Norbert the dragon is in safe hands and carries it out, albeit not in perfection

8) is with Harry every step of the way in his confronting the basilisk

9) sends Harry and Hermione long letters and calls them often to check up on them

10) stands up on a bitten leg to defend his best friend

11) always apologizes for any of his mistakes and is forgiving when others wrong him

12) works his way to join the Quidditch team unlike Draco who most certainly bought his way in

13) destroys at least 2 horcruxes

14) finds out how to defeat a horcrux

15) has an excellent enough memory and observation to notice Harry speaking parseltongue and also using it to his benefit which proves he's resourceful

now since I have 8 more such pictures to rebut and I do have a life, I will stop. These aren't even a twelfth of the remarkable things Ron has done though, so rest assured.

oh wait what did you say about him just existing and not working for anything? If I recall correctly, he did just as well as Harry did in school and didn't score well only in subjects he didn't care about. Which is true for most people except for Hermione who has an eidetic memory which not everyone has, understandably. Rote memorization is not the best way to get by in life, by the way.

what are the "so many reasons" behind why Harry is the best fit for Hermione? Kindly share so I can rebut those too, I'm rather free nowadays, my finals have been cancelled. You say there are so many reasons but don't even give one, yet you want me to take you seriously. I'm afraid that's impossible.

Romione shipper here, i don't dislike Hermione. I haven't met or seen many people in the book!romione fandom who dislike Hermione (except for Movie!Hermione). The question of someone you like ending up with someone you dislike doesn't particularly make sense. In Friends, Chandler ends up with Monica: now I'm not the biggest Monica fan (I don't hate her but I don't like her very much either) but they are my favorite couple because they make sense. It's about compatibility and character traits, not liking or disliking because that's just a set-up for a ghastly invitation for people to pair up hideousness. "Oh yeah, I like Harry and I also like Hagrid, they should be together. I mean it would be very very disgusting but that's my logic, now, you can't fight it. "- that's how you sound. Please read what you write. Your logic is just...abysmal. That's all I can say without breaking my resolve and berating you with colorful profanities.

3)

This is without the doubt, the easiest one to rebut. It's a delight to see such terrible arguments at my disposal. Come on, dear Harmione shippers, write something that makes me question my choices, not things that make me scoff in disbelief.

In this case, you're essentially providing us with theories. Unproved theories and speculation of what you believe because you'd say anything you like. Where's the proof of your theory, though? Where is that crazy radical Romione shipper who does this? Kindly show me these people. Oh yes, you wanna say we objectify Hermione and disrespect her and view her as a prize. This aches me, that you believe this. No one has ever insinuated this, ever, in the history of anything. What is this winner-loser theory? How do you round off Harry Potter to "an alpha-male ends up with lead-lady" trope and still say you're a fan of the series? Harry Potter doesn't fit in with that format. Ron, Hermione and Harry are co-heroes. Similar to how there's no main character in Friends or the Heroes of Olympus series or the Avengers. We're not living in the 80s anymore. Hermione will be a hero, invariably whether she ends up with Harry, Ron or no one. She ends up with Ron and that's it. Talking about her like this doesn't make you sound any better either. Now you're calling me a misogynist because I don't support the ship of two people who describe themselves as siblings. That's very mature of you. Well here's the thing- I'm not a misogynist. It's as simple as that. I believe that women are capable of anything and everything. I believe Hermione is an amazing person and she is a hero and a different person. I believe the series would be impossible without her. I believe she is no one's prize. There's no requirement of a prize. I just think, similar to canon and the truth and her romantic interest, she will have a great relationship with Ron. There's nothing complex or deep about it, really. No personal weird-thing, no psychological complex, no internalized misogyny. There's nothing deeper than what I said. I am not sexist. I am a feminist. I am all for women empowerment. I love women with the fabric of my being. I love Hermione. I think she's amazing. You only become sexist when you ship people with unstable power dynamics, a bully-victim relation or something of the sort. Neither Romione, nor Harmione are sexist. Heck if you paired Neville with Hermione you wouldn't be sexist. And I hate talking about this so much, I can't even tell you. This talk does make it sound like I treat Hermione like an object and I assure you I respect her and I normally won't talk like this unless someone just outright calls me sexist for something that's not sexist. And this is that situation.

4)

in the case of Romione, no one is too good for anyone. Both are amazing people who're heroes and have done amazing work. That's all I have to say. There's no league, they are romantically interested in each other. I have no intention on sounding lame, but, in love there is no league. As long as you're not putting in any effort and are extremely lazy and leech off of your partner, there is no such concept and no, Hermione is not "too good" for him. Unless of course you're talking about movie Hermione, who is too good for anyone.

5) (halftime!)

oh yes they try to pull this off and wonder why we hate them. Classic. This person likes to sound british, so let's switch up our language, yeah? At least then I won't be out of my element. Let me correct ya, Ron at his best is an amazing, loyal, friendly, brave, strategic hero. There you have it. Ron and 'git' can't be used in the same sentence. Now if you talk about Ron's achievements, I re-iterate you to point two. If it's too much work, here:

1) fights a troll when he's 11

2) is willing to sacrifice himself when he's 11

3) stands up for his friends

4) makes sure Harry feels like he belongs in the family

5) worries about Harry and rescues him from literal jail

6) stands up against Draco rather than by-standing and enabling his behavior

7) tries his level best to make sure Norbert the dragon is in safe hands and carries it out, albeit not in perfection

8) is with Harry every step of the way in his confronting the basilisk

9) sends Harry and Hermione long letters and calls them often to check up on them

10) stands up on a bitten leg to defend his best friend

11) always apologizes for any of his mistakes and is forgiving when others wrong him

12) works his way to join the Quidditch team unlike Draco who most certainly bought his way in

13) destroys at least 2 horcruxes

14) finds out how to defeat a horcrux

15) has an excellent enough memory and observation to notice Harry speaking parseltongue and also using it to his benefit which proves he's resourceful

hey, see, I like Ron and I took the time to copy-paste this instead of asking you to scroll up. And I'm a lot of bad things but I am not lazy. I stick to my deadlines like Hermione. I start my homework in library class and continue it during phys ed the day its given. And I am not exaggerating. Bloody hell, I wish I was. I'm the ceo of deadlines, mate, don't tempt me! So you can see that Ron is much more than just a "nice bloke". And being a "nice bloke" isn't a bad thing either. He's all the things I said: intuitive, strategic, helpful, loyal and on top of that he's also a nice person. Yes, I do see a bit of myself in Ron. I do. I see the insecure side. I waste my time hating myself and criticizing myself and undermining myself, telling me I'm no good. But Ron overcomes that. He inspires me to appreciate myself. Is that a bad thing? Are you going to shame me for having a low self-esteem? Do you want to worsen my low self-esteem and make me feel more like shit?

Now the person who replied to your comment saying, "he isn't a nice bloke most of time.", he is. He is not being nice twice in a span of 7 years. How often do you act rudely or with jealousy? Wasn't Harry yelling at everyone in caps lock in OOTP. Now I don't condemn him for that because he's a fucking hormonal teenager like me and that would make me a hypocrite, but by your logic why don't you condemn him? Or why not condemn Hermione for saying "I only date good Quidditch players" and shoving canaries at Ron's face because someone else kissed him, while she kept using Krum and Cormac to make him jealous. She wasn't being a nice girl, then, was she? Now, once again, i don't dislike her or hold that against her because guess what, mate, I'm a hormonal teenage girl who gets jealous most of the time and would probably react in a similar fashion in the spur of the moment (Not defending her actions here, just putting myself in her shoes.) In short, Ron is a nice bloke MOST OF THE TIME.

6)

It would be misogynistic to think that. The thing is, NO ONE DOES my dear friend! My dear daft friend. I have never heard anyone say that! why are you so hell-bent on portraying us as misogynists when no one ever says that? Stop assuming. Just stop. You are crossing a limit here, aren't you? Yes you are. You cannot say these sort of things. We never said that or believed that, no one ever said this to be a reason to ship Romione. God what is wrong with you? Literally, stop fucking ASSUMING god damn it! Do you want me to assume things about Harmione shippers? Do you want me to go there? Because I will go there! I will go there the moment you tell me to. Just challenge me.

Ron is not a perfect best boi , the reason why so many of us like him is that he's imperfect and tries to become better through the course of time. You are once again assuming and I am once again asking you to stop.

Ron might be an ordinary wizard. He might be poor, sure, but he's a pure-blood and won't face much if he chose not to fight. But he did. He fought. Now I identify with Ron's attitude a fair bit, but I am also likely to spend my day in a library without noticing. People aren't one dimensional. Stop trying to act like you're a psychologist, i know you're not. I don't even think Hermione's overbearing at all! You just insulted someone you're a big fan of. Jesus.

Both Hermione and Ron are strategic, jealous, passionate, feisty, argumentative, intellectual...

that's like 6 similarities. They aren't polar opposites in the slightest. Their differences are just: workaholic, not workaholic. Nerd, not a nerd. Like that's fucking it, man!

8)

being relaxed doesn't make you less independent or driven. A relaxed and levelheaded Hermione will think through things, not be impulsive, not panic etc. She doesn't need Ron. I don't understand your obsession with acting like we ever insinuated that. Then she doesn't need Harry either lol. Stop shipping her with Harry, then or like shut the fuck up. Being a bit relaxed won't stop her or anyone from hitting great strides. Just don't get relaxed to the point you're lazy and casual about everything, that's it.

9)

What do you mean? Ron is balanced. He does finish his work on time. And even if he does procrastinate, she could also help him not and be more driven. Of course, this is an open invitation for you to call me a sexist bitch because I said that she could help him and now you'll think her goal is to help him become better yada yada yada. Fuck off. Defeating the horcrux taught him enough. He respected her. He remembered about the elves when she didn't. He begged to be tortured instead of her. He wouldn't need it because school work and jobs are different and the same person might perceive those differently. Calmness and relaxation doesn't hinder your potential. Not caring and laziness does. You can't function if you work and are stressed 24/7 with zero breaks. Period.

10)

No i do not want (nor does anyone want) Hermione to become Ron. Being slightly calmer doesn't change up your personality. I'm sure many people dislike those sort of fanfics without a doubt. I hate OOC and I don't want Hermione to lose her intellect with Ron because that makes no sense. Ron himself is intellectual and loves arguing with her. They'd boost each other, more like it.

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okay thats it i am exhausted as fuck. thanks for reading, i appreciate it. notes and reblogs are appreciated, this takes work.

[greenhappyseed]

BnHA Chapter 317: Thoughts & comparisons part 2 - THE OLD MAN AND THE KID

As mentioned in Part 1, I'm splitting my thoughts on Chapter 317 into 3 posts: this one about Deku and All Might (part 2), plus separate posts on the hero brain trust and the media (part 1) and the hero killer Stain (part 3).

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This part of the chapter was an emotional sucker punch and gave me strong "Gift of the Magi" vibes. All Might is trying to protect his boy by following him, and Deku is trying to protect his idol by saying goodbye. Unfortunately, there's no guarantee of safety for anyone right now, so their "gifts" of protection are unusable. All Might isn't safe whether All Might follows Deku or stays behind. Same for Deku -- his loved ones aren't safe whether he accepts their help or not. It's the harsh reality of what AFO does. The real thing that All Might and Deku need to focus on isn't giving each other the "gift" of safety, but on how strong their bond is.

The main stumbling block is that Deku STILL idolizes All Might (as All Might recognized a few chapters ago). As the adult, it was on All Might to speak up, but he didn't because he's scared to disappoint his boy. He already knows the pain of disappointing a fanboy, so this would take it to a whole new level. But if he really wants to keep Izuku in his life, he MUST risk it and tell the kid all the things he wishes someone had told him. As I wrote previously (between Ch 315-16) it's maddening because we know All Might is capable of having this kind of frank talk with Izuku -- he did it all the way back in Ch 2. All Might saw Izuku overworking himself and modified the workout plan to moderate Izuku's extreme behavior, which would have prevented Izuku from reaching his ultimate goal if left unchecked. So yeah, All Might knows better, and knows he can’t stand idly by while his kid makes a massive deadly mistake. When a child doesn’t have the capacity to help themselves and the consequences are serious, an adult HAS to step in and help ASAP. Talk to the kid, talk to the kid’s friends/teachers, talk to professionals. Keep going until your kid gets the help they need, because even if a parent/guardian can’t help directly, it’s their responsibility to find that help for their kid. Haven’t we learned anything from the lost children in the League of Villains?

Meanwhile, Deku doesn't see All Might as a human who loves Izuku Midoriya. I think, in part due to his being bullied and his innate tendency to not take himself into account, he sees All Might's devotion to him as part of a predecessor-successor relationship. Deku will struggle as long as he sees "All Might" as an ideal and not the human in front of him. (Admittedly, I thought the HPSC storyline might go here and disclose All Might’s awareness of some “grey” missions, causing Deku to look at his mentor through a different lens.) But even now, Deku is trying to have an "I AM HERE" moment so All Might is proud of his successor, but fails to realize All Might is ALREADY PROUD (in part because All Might hasn't vocalized it in a way that Deku can truly hear it). The "You don't look back at me anymore..." in context is immediately followed up by this glowing Dadmight moment:

It only becomes a sad moment in retrospect as All Might realizes (1) he didn't really tell Deku explicitly how proud he was often enough; and (2) the full weight of what it means to nurture a child towards independence (and that his boy is just like him, and is heading towards the same fate as him....)

While I definitely think Bakugo will knock some sense into Deku, I still think All Might is the only one that can truly “release” Deku from these burdens, especially the ones related to the “Symbol of Peace” and the Shimura family that are tied directly to All Might. We see this in Deku’s callbacks:

Nana in the vestige world sobbing over her mistake in giving up Kotaro, saying she and Gran Torino were wrong, and testing Deku’s resolve to save Shigaraki. Juxtaposed with Gran Torino saying, "I should have made the kill...sorry...don't be so rigid. Killing can be another way to save someone," and Shigaraki screaming in emotional pain, “I don’t care if you understand. That’s what makes us heroes and villains!” It’s not just AFO — it’s the weight of generations and broken families on Deku’s shoulders. It’s All Might’s failure to save Shigaraki earlier that has become Deku’s problem now.

Post-USJ Deku meeting with All Might, talking about the first time he used OFA without breaking himself, and All Might pressuring Deku to become the Symbol of Peace. Even though All Might no longer feels that way, and SO MUCH has happened since then, he never clearly said so to Deku, and Deku keeps that weight on himself. The past never dies.

Deku is overwhelmed and destined for a poor decision that will hurt someone or himself, which would definitely play into the media's (and AFO's) hands. First, note the flashback inception with Deku recalling the post-USJ All Might meeting, which itself contains a flashback to Thirteen lecturing about how uncontrolled quirks can kill.

Second, the image of the defeated assassin is downright ominous, with the way All Might is shown above Deku's shoulder like a conscience [Edit: see @codenamesazanka's post here for a Spinner parallel!!] and the way the villain is tied up with his head hanging back, mouth open, eyes rolled back…. Deku and All Might are in shadow, and the villain is in the light…. no real attempt to talk to or understand the villain, just what he knows of AFO……SO MUCH POWER in a volatile teenager with too much responsibility and too few physical and emotional reserves. This won't end well.

Ok, time to bring the real Dadmight pain. All Might dives to save Midoriya and falls. The only other time he’s fallen flat on the ground like that is when he dove to save the random lady during the Cider House incident (which we got in the anime last week). In that fight, All Might needed a guardian gremlin to save him from falling debris. Hopefully that means he’ll go to UA and find young Bakugo soon, and he won't do something dumb and sacrificial in the meantime. WHO SAVES THE (EX-) HEROES?

All Might is a genuinely good person with good intentions, and he drove himself into the ground to help others, but he’s NOT a god. He’s not infallible or omniscient. He has tunnel vision from pursing the same mission from age 14 to, uh, 50-something, and is learning how to function as a "normal" adult. He never asked for help before, and in fact, considered it shameful (even in Kamino). He needs to follow the advice he was going to give to Deku, and reach out to others to save his little boy and himself. He’s still very much capable of inspiring others, even if he needs to rest sometimes. And with that, we cut to Stain, an extremist who believes in self-sacrifice and idolizes prime All Might. Cue Part 3...

A few other points:

Nobody in this arc (including Deku) seems to be using All Might as a resource based on his decades of experience with the media OR with AFO, and it really bothers me. Why is All Might excluded from the brain trust? They’re acting like All Might is useless because he’s quirkless and no longer a ranked hero, but he's still got his brain and his memories. Are Endeavor, Hawks, and Mt Lady really going to chat with Edgeshot and sort it all out??? Will Jeanist's fiber puns stop AFO??? Ugh. This is why hero society as we know it needs to be radically reworked; these top heroes are misusing resources and NOT TALKING to people who might actually have useful info. Does a "hero" need to wear a costume or hold a license to use their brain?

Will anyone tell Inko???? I posted before about this chapter's reference to All Might promising her that he’ll keep Deku safe. But she generally only appears after Deku gets a big advancement of some sort, so I don't know if she'll pop up soon...although I feel like she might need to? (E.g., my pet theory is that we only get her note in the hospital after the forest raid because Deku saved Kota but failed to save Bakugo.) Who else has "lifted up" All Might except Izuku, Inko, and Aizawa -- and Aizawa is probably not in a place to do heavy emotional labor right now???

Others have noted the outreached hand parallels (PAIN!) so I won’t belabor that. BUT look at All Might’s hand, how it is first outstretched and then starting to curl as he realizes he can’t reach Deku in time. Also, how small and frail All Might's hand looks as it curls up. He's normally drawn with huge hands (as big as Deku’s head) so to see his hands look equal in size to Deku’s shows Deku’s growth. Also, contrast this set of hands moving apart with how we saw hands moving together at Kamino, where All Might’s fighting inspired fearlessness. Hopefully All Might can “fight” here too, and inspire the next generation to to amazing things.

[yuraimi-lee-bunny]

Let's get to the point first and then I'll give the important details:

Because of rude and intolerant comments of directly and indirectly way from LiS fandom here in Tumblr (only intolerant and abusive fans of Pricefield and Chloe) I fell into depression for a year and a half

I met the game on February 6, 2015. I immediately loved the game. I could only watch Gameplays. At the same time I was about to finish my Visual Arts career. I was specializing in Illustration and creation, development and character analysis (theory and practice)

At the beginning (between Ep.1 and Ep.3) Pricefield was causing me some pleasure but I also liked Warren, although I defended Warren from the unjustified hate that dome gave him, but I never saw the Grahamfield as an option. But days before Ep.4 some personal things happened to me, and I began to see the Grahamfield with an option, I started to like it more. Ep.4 arrives and besides being my favorite episode, I was happy and surprised that the Grahamfield was a possible option.

Finish the game and although I don't like at all the choice "Sacrifice Arcadia Bay" I had no problem, in the end: everyone their choices. I started showing my Grahamfield works. Sometimes comments came directly and indirectly offending my work. No problem, I could deal with it. But in 2016 began the problem: The attacks on Grahamfield, Warren and those who liked it increased even worse: they attacked those who chose to Sacrifice Chloe. The offenses were of a lot of variety but here are some of the ones I remember:

"You have no heart" "You're a monster", "You're a horrible person" "Surely you're homophobic" "You're a lesphobic" "You didn't understand the game" "You didn't understand Max" "That disgusts your tastes" "If you like such a ship, then fuck you"

In early 2016 I was dealing with many personal, family, professional problems, go to see things about LiS and other things that I liked helped me to reassure me. But that intolerant posts in LiS tags were so massive and consecutive that ended up making me believe them and thus, fall into depression.

I was weak? Maybe. But I hope you understand that everywhere I was going through difficult times, that when I went to see things about LiS it was my way of being able to entertain myself and I hope you also understand, that these people were not entitled to attack people. In 2015 I could deal with it but that 2016 I couldn't because of my own affairs and because the attacks, seriously, were massive. I was no longer happy with my decisions, nor tastes, with anything. I tried everything: to listen to my favorite music, to watch series that motivated me and remembered me my goals and my own being. Met my friendships, my boyfriend. Nothing worked. Everything was getting worse: although I no longer paid attention and stopped going to tags for a while, the damage was already done to me, the doubts grew more and more in me:

"Why do I like grahamfield?" "Why couldn't you like the Pricefield?" "Why do you like Warren?" "Why can't Chloe be your favorite?"

And worse:

"Why do you always like the weirdest thing?" "Why can't you be like the others?" "Why don't you normal?" "Why do I think as I think?" "Why am I this way?" What was I born for? "Why do I exist?" "Why?" "Why?" "Why?"

My self-esteem went down a lot, I no longer wanted to draw and I didn't want to get out of bed. Everything looked gray and had attacks of crying. Although my problems had turned out. The depression was already in me. I had to go to the psychologist. I was diagnosed with Social Depression. It wasn't serious, but it had to be treated. I kept going to sessions. My psychologist is a love, I could tell her absolutely everything even if it sounded very absurd but she understood and helped me. My mom, my boyfriend, some friends help me too. Some things I discovered also help: Lukas Graham, Keane, Oxenfree, and more.

Throughout 2016 sometimes I suffered attacks of anxiety, doubts, of crying. It was difficult to deal for me, my mom and my boyfriend. But we don't give up. I didn't give up. I almost broke up with my boyfriend for believing it was a nuisance and weak, but I never did. Unfortunately sometimes looking Pricefield made me nervous and feeling of guilt for not liking Pricefield invaded me very hard. I swear that I tried by many means to like it and become my ship. I never could and currently I can't. I only see them as best friends.

So I drew Grahamfield. In fact, in this long road of recovery, Max and Warren accompanied me a lot, they were the characthers and a ship that helped me a lot in accepting myself as I am and with my tastes and choices. Little by little I was recovering. 2016 wasn't a very pleasant year for me, but still there some good memories of that year. 2017 was a better year. At the beginning of that year I could feel improvements, but sometimes the doubts continued and sometimes I woke up with stomachaches. Monstar Calls, Persona 5, Jughead's Comic, new friendships, and improved more. LiS's fandom was quieter and I drew more Grahanfield. But April was where I found that serie that made me try harder to get up.

Orange is the New Black and Bojack Horseman were those series that I watched in 2016 and helped me a lot to accept my depression, to accept myself, to defend myself and to love myself as I am. But that April 12 2017 I started watching 13 Reasons Why and everything was clearer to me. I know, 13RW is a very controversial series, but it helped me realize many, many things: how lucky I'm to have people around me who love and love me. That I want and I must be strong to protect those I want, to defend myself and demonstrate what I'm capable of achieving. Not giving up. It's worth moving forward. I want to live.

And so, with more strength and enthusiasm I began to overcome my low self-esteem, I began to draw more, to work for a while as a waitress and resume my studies to get my degree. There was only one problem: now I saw Pricefield and I got angry. It reminded me of all the pain I went through in 2016 for those rude people who liked Pricefield and kept attacking you just for liking another ship. But my anger is left just in that: Angry. I swear never, but NEVER come to attack or offend someone because they like Pricefield. I never did and never will.

2017 was a good year, although BTS isn't a game that I like very much, I enjoyed it somehow. My psychologist tells me that I'm much better. For me it meant that I had already overcome my depression. The earthquake of September 19 in 2017 was an event that greatly impacted me. I helped as much as I could, and there I realized that in 2018 I wanted to improve myself more as person. And I did it.

2018 was my best year: I participated in a film with rotoscopie technique called "Olimpia" and it's one of my greatest achievements and I'm proud to have participated in making animation. I did many activities that helped me grow as a person. I kept drawing Grahanfield and now I defended Warren and Grahamfield as I had never done, but this time with evidence. My love for the characters had come back and I had studied the subject more. American Vandal, Chilling Adventures of Sabrina, Shape of Water also arrived in 2018 and they helped me a lot.

2019 arrives: Carmen Sandiego and The Umbrella Academy get to inspire me professionally. I started a diploma in February of Graphic Novel to get my Bachelor's degree. I did it. I finished in August and this November they gave it to me. I'm already licensed. I've been calmly reading the LiS comic. Seeing things about Pricefield no longer fill me with anxiety. I absolutely feel good and happy with my tastes within the fandom of LiS.

In these days I have thought about my whole process. OITNB ended this year, next year ends Bojack Horseman and 13 Reasons Why. Those 3 series with their recent seasons have made me see that I must close a cycle. And that's why I count all this.

I tell my story as proof of how much the toxic side of the LiS fandom damaged me. That although everything remains calm sometimes, there are still people like that I managed to get ahead, and I hope that someone inside the fandom hasn't suffered something similar or worse. And still, to those people who damaged me only one thing I can say:

Thank you.

Thank you for your fatal acts, because even they have damaged me and brought me into depression, it caused me to get the best out of myself and show myself that I can be stronger.

I love Grahamfield, Max and Warren separately. These characters and ship aren't only that, they're my recovery symbol and reminder of loving me as I am. They mean to me a lot. They grew and healed with me. I appreciate these two separately and together. I never hated Chloe. She isn't my favorite but I appreciate her a lot, I recognize her flaws, and I still appreciate her. Chloe and me have things in common. But in truth: you don't know how much I identify with Max and Warren, that's how it was since I met the game.

I'm glad to notice my years of progress. But I also want to apologize if at some point I became rude for defending Warren and/or Grahamfield. Now I hope you understand where my courage and my insistence to defend it came from.

I also want to make it clear that I don't blame Pricefield or anyone who likes this ship or Chloe. But I want to prove that attacking someone just because doesn't like your ship isn't fine. You don't know what is happening to that person. Judging someone just for a taste is neither good nor kind. You don't know how much a characther/ship can mean for that person. Notice to what degree can damage their fanaticism that reaches the degree of intolerance. I also want to clarify that it isn't bad that someone doesn't like Warren and Grahamfield. What is wrong is that some don't understand that everyone likes. That understand that not everyone will like the same thing and they will not see it in the same way.

Everyone is a world. Everyone has their own worldview. Not because someone is different from you and doesn't like the same as you, it gives you the right to judge it as trahs and treat it as trahs.

Treat people as you would like to be treated.

I'm glad that in these 4 years that I like LiS I have found people who are still kind to me and others, and who respect each other's tastes and decisions. Both on Twitter, IG and here I have found friendly and fun people and I really appreciate them. They were a great help of my recovery. Really, thank you very much guys. Believe me that sharing the same taste for LiS but each one having different taste, still treating each other well and in a friendly way, helped me a lot and I'm very grateful. I will continue to like everything about LiS and LiS2. I will continue to draw about it and I will love to find friendships that also like LiS. Count on me when you need anything. LiS is still something important in my life, it helped me a lot to grow in several aspects. But I also won't let anyone keep offending/attacking someone else in the fandom if that person isn't hurting anyone. Respect and Tolerance among all please.

If you have read all this, you don't know how much I appreciate it. I hope this helps someone to reflect on our way of living, communicating, understanding and tolerating each other. I'm already very well, more than good.

I love myself.

Please love yourself.

You can do it!

[boorivestnik]

Story/Рассказ:

Remember who you are/Вспомни кто ты есть.

I often thought: what is the meaning of life? What am I living for? A man was born, went to kindergarten, school, college, then work, the absence of friends and a girl, then again work, work, work and death. What's next? Emptiness? Darkness? As I imagine, I remember that I died and that's it, you don't feel anything, you don't feel anything. Emptiness. Darkness. It was getting scary. It can't all be so sad. This whole wonderful world - nature, animals, birds, insects, sky, sun, stars; all this just for a person to be born, suffer for a hundred years and die? Yes, the genius Creator. But some people live even less. Someone, for example, dies at 20, and someone at 5. And what, all this was created only for a person to live for 5 years and die? Are you seriously? But someone believes in it. They even believe that they are descended from monkeys. Poor monkey children, how do you continue to believe in this nonsense as you mature? Although i probably no better. For many years i believed that man was created from the dust of the earth.

At about the age of 20, I started reading the Bible. And then I stopped being afraid of the emptiness that I thought awaited us after death. Reading the Bible, I believed in heaven. I still believe in him. But seven years later, my views on the Bible have changed dramatically. Many people are satisfied with their belief and they do not even try to doubt it. Take the Orthodox for example. If you believe that their faith is true, then it turns out that all those who are not Orthodox will burn in eternal fire, only because they believed a little differently. And what is their fault if the Bible is written in such a way that it can be understood in different ways? Try to understand the words of Jesus: I and the Father are one. Or: he who has seen Me has seen the Father. Either Jesus is the Old Testament God, or, as many believe, He is His Son. Some say that God is one, others that He is triune. Some are baptized in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, others in the name of Jesus Christ. Muslims generally call Jesus not the Son of God, but only a prophet. And someone is just a Buddhist or does not believe in any Gods. And what now, all who do not believe in Christ or do not believe correctly, will they burn in hell? Even if he was good and helped people all his life, did not drink, did not smoke, did not swear and always turned his other cheek, then will he also burn for his disbelief? No, I don't believe in that anymore. Seven years later, I received my sight. He received his sight thanks to one person who said that the Old Testament God is the devil and cited the words of Jesus as an example. And this is what He says: your father is the devil. After these words, I received my sight. All these murders, sacrifices, and curses that we read about in the Old Testament immediately became clear to me. You will even remember the image of this God; this is what is written about him in the seventeenth psalm: smoke rose from his anger, and consuming fire from his mouth; hot coals poured from Him. Well, is this God Who is Light and Love? Of course not. This is the devil. But there is also a real God in the Bible. I will not write in detail about all this, because this is another story.

So. Here I have seen. But only in terms of the Bible. I still haven't seen any sense in life. Since I liked what this person teaches, I continued to listen to him further. And so he started talking about karma and reincarnation. He said that after death, a person is born again in order to correct his sins that he committed in a past life. And thus, living many lives, we must improve and become the same as the Gods, so that later we live with them in eternal paradise and create new worlds.

I think a little background is needed here.

One day this man heard the voice of God. But it was not Father, it was Mother, our heavenly Mother. That is, we have not only the heavenly Father, who is Light, but also our Mother Love. And this is not stupidity, for all living things testify that in order to give birth to children, both a father and a mother are needed.

Since then, he began to receive knowledge from the Heavenly Mother. He learned that from Light and Love came the Gods, that is, Their children; and together with the Father and Mother They created the earth. Then these Gods materialized on earth, that is, they became people. And then, as it is written in the Bible: and the Gods said: let us create man in our image, in our likeness. And so we, people, must reach the level of these Gods, Gods, Who were born of Light and Love, in order to then live with Them in an eternal paradise and create new worlds. By the way, we humans are also gods, not perfect, but still gods.

Another of the revelations of this man is that when we die, we do not go to the judgment of God, but we are judged by our conscience. And after this judgment, we go either to heaven or to hell, but not for long. Having taken a rest in paradise, or having suffered in hell, we again return to earth; some for the correction of sins, others in order to improve in good deeds, in order to become bright and pure Gods. And before being born, a person chooses his own destiny, by whom and where he will be born. His conscience will help him in this choice. For example, if a person in a past life tortured and killed animals, then in the next life this person can be born as some kind of animal and he himself will be tortured and killed. And if a person was good, then he will be born again in order to become more perfect.

There is another amazing revelation. Our interests, hobbies, desires and sins are like a reminder of what we did or who we were in a past life. For example, if you want to kill and rape, it means that in a past life you were a rapist-killer. And in this life, you must overcome your desires and not go the same way. Look, it can be different here; the killer does not have to be the victim himself, as is the case with the animal killer. That is, the killer may become a victim, or may be reborn with the desire to kill. It all depends on what choice a person makes before being born.

As for the meaning of life, I think you understand.

Now, perhaps i can tell about my desires.

From about 14 years old, I started watching horror. The first horror movie I saw was A Nightmare on Elm Street. It was scary, but interesting at the same time. Over the years, my interest in horror has grown. But not only to horror, but also to maniacs. That is, not to those maniacs who are in the movies, but to real people. Now I have all those desires that are inherent in a serial killer, and also a rapist. And here's what I think. Not all people have such desires after watching horror films. This means that horrors only awaken those desires that are in a person. And these desires are a reminder of who this person was in a past life. So I boldly declare that in a past life I was a serial killer; and not by any, but by Ted Bundy himself. Why do I think so? There are many reasons for this. I love that he only killed girls. I love everything he did with them. I feel sorry for him, in the sense that he was executed without giving him the opportunity to reform. Ted Bundy was in jail and escaped a couple of times. I like movies about prison and I have a desire to sit in it in order to escape later. Ted Bundy was electrocuted; electric shocks came through the helmet worn on the head. Over the past three years, I have often had a headache. And three years ago I was 24; 24 is the day of his death. And what is most surprising, I get headaches when I put on a hat. He committed his first reliably known murder at the age of 27. It was at this age that my headaches turned into pressing pain, which was not there before. But thank God it quickly passed. By the way, according to some reports, Ted Bundy committed his first murder at the age of 14; and as I wrote earlier, it was at this age, as far as I remember, that I began to watch horror. But personally, I don't believe he committed the first murder at such an early age. Maybe I just feel like I didn't. He also died in winter, and I was born in winter. The difference between his death and my birth is 3 years and 9 days; 3 is my birthday. Bundy was born on the 24th, died also on the 24th, his age was 42; 42 on the other hand - 24. I started to take an interest in Ted Bundy, if I'm not mistaken, at the age of 24. Believe it or not, now I am writing, looking at these numbers and I wanted to count them. We take the day of his birth, the day of death, age and age per turn. Add up all the numbers and you get 24. Miracles. Is not it? Oh yeah, one more thing. How much I am interested in Ted Bundy, but only at the age of 27 I learned that he committed his first murder at the age of 27. Eh, I would not break. I'm kidding. Of course I won't. I've already dealt with this. And I was helped in this by the realization that I had already done this in a past life. And if I did it, I thought, why should I repeat it again? I've had enough of these murders and violence.

And now, having all this knowledge about how the world works; awareness of who I am, that is, God; when I walk down the street and look at all these people, I see that they absolutely do not understand who they are and how this world works. But they will understand. Not in this life, so in the next. Probably.

I would like to add one more thing, and this is perhaps the most important thing in life, this is what completely helped me to cope with my sins, this is love. Neither the realization that you have already done this in a past life, nor any psychiatrists, nor anything else will help you to completely cope with your sins, but only love is capable of this, only love can truly change a person.

Я часто думал: в чём смысл жизни? Для чего я живу? Вот родился человек, пошол в садик, в школу, колледж, потом работа, отсутствие друзей и девушки, потом снова работа, работа, работа и смерть. А что дальше? Пустота? Тьма? Я как представлю, помню, что умер и всё, ничего не ощущаешь, не чувствуешь. Пустота. Тьма. Аж страшно становилось. Не может же всё быть на столько печально. Весь этот дивный мир - природа, животные, птицы, насекомые, небо, солнце, звёзды; всё это лишь для того, чтобы человек родился, пострадал сотню лет и умер? Да уж, гениальный Создатель. А ведь некоторые люди живут и того меньше. Кто-то например умирает в 20 лет, а кто-то в 5 лет. И что, всё это было создано лишь для того, чтобы человек пожил 5 лет и умер? Вы серьёзно? А ведь кто-то в это верит. Они даже верят, что они произошли от обезьян. Бедные дети обезьян, как же вы повзрослев, продолжаете верить в эту чушь? Хотя и я не лучше наверно. Многие годы верил, что человек был сотворён из праха земного.

Где-то в возрасте 20-ти лет я начал читать библию. И вот тогда я перестал бояться той пустоты, которая как я думал ждёт нас после смерти. Читая библию, я поверил в рай. Я и сейчас в него верю. Но спустя семь лет, мои взгляды на библию кардинально изменились. Многих людей устраивает их вера и они даже не пытаются сомневаться в ней. Возьмём к примеру православных. Если верить что их вера истинная, то получается, что все те, кто не являются православными, будут гореть в вечном огне, только из-за того, что верили немного иначе. А в чём их вина, если библия написана так, что её можно понимать по разному? Вот попробуй пойми слова Иисуса: Я и Отец одно. Или: видевший Меня, видел Отца. То ли Иисус и есть ветхозаветный Бог, то ли, как многие считают, Он Сын Его. Одни говорят, что Бог - един, другие, что Он - триедин. Одни крестятся во имя Отца и Сына и Святого Духа, другие, во имя Иисуса Христа. Мусульмане вообще называют Иисуса не Сыном Божьим, а лишь пророком. А кто-то просто буддист или не верующий не в каких Богов. И что теперь, все кто не верит во Христа или не правильно верит, они что, будут гореть в аду? Даже если был хорошим и всю жизнь помогал людям, не пил, не курил, не ругался и всегда подставлял вторую щёку, то что, он тоже гореть будет за неверие своё? Нет, я в такое больше не верю. Спустя семь лет я прозрел. Прозрел благодаря одному человеку, который сказал, что ветхозаветный Бог это дьявол и привёл в пример слова Иисуса. И вот что Он говорит: ваш отец дьявол. После этих слов я прозрел. Мне тут же стали понятны все эти убийства, жертвы, проклятия, о которых мы читаем в ветхом завете. Вы даже вспомните образ этого Бога; вот что о Нём написано в семнадцатом псалме: поднялся дым от гнева Его и из уст Его огонь поядающий; горячие угли сыпались от Него. Ну разве это Бог, Который есть Свет и Любовь? Конечно же нет. Это дьявол. Но в библии есть и настоящий Бог. Не буду подробно писать обо всём этом, ибо это уже другая история.

И так. Вот я прозрел. Но лишь в плане библии. Смысла же в жизни всё ещё не видел. Так-как мне понравилось чему учит этот человек, я продолжил слушать его дальше. И вот он начал говорить о карме и реинкорнации. Он сказал, что после смерти человек рождается снова для того, чтобы исправить свои грехи, которые он творил в прошлой жизни. И так проживая много жизней, мы должны усовершенствоваться и стать такими же как Боги, чтобы потом вместе с ними жить в вечном раю и создавать новые миры.

Думаю здесь нужна небольшая предыстория.

Однажды этот человек услышал голос Бога. Но это был не Отец, это была Мать, наша небесная Мать. То есть, у нас есть не только небесный Отец, Который есть Свет, но и Мать наша Любовь. И это не глупости, ибо всё живое свидетельствует о том, что для того, чтобы родить детей, нужны и отец и мать.

С тех пор он стал получать знания от Матери небесной. Он узнал, что из Света и Любви изошли Боги, то есть Их дети; и вместе с Отцом и Матерью Они сотворили землю. Потом эти Боги материализовались на земле, то есть стали людьми. А дальше уже как написано в библии: и сказали Боги: сотворим человека по образу Нашему, по подобию Нашему. И вот мы, люди, должны достичь уровня этих Богов, Богов, Которые были рождены от Света и Любви, чтобы потом вместе с Ними жить в вечном раю и создавать новые миры. Кстати, мы люди тоже боги, не совершенные, но всё же боги.

Ещё одним из откровений этого человека является то, что когда мы умираем, мы не идём на суд Божий, но нас судит наша совесть. И после этого суда, мы идём либо в рай, либо в ад, но не на долго. Отдахнув в раю, либо помучавшись в аду, мы опять возвращаемся на землю; одни для исправления грехов, другие для того, чтобы усовершенствоваться в хороших делах, дабы стать светлыми и чистыми Богами. И прежде чем родиться, человек сам выбирает свою судьбу, кем и где он будет рождён. Его совесть поможет ему в этом выборе. Например если человек в прошлой жизни мучал и убивал животных, то в следующей жизни этот человек может родиться каким нибудь животным и его самого будут мучать и убьют. А если человек был хорошим, то таким он и родится вновь дабы стать более совершенным.

Есть ещё одно удивительное откровение. Наши интересы, увлечения, желания и грехи, это как напоминание того, чем мы занимались или кем мы были в прошлой жизни. Например если ты хочешь убивать и насиловать, то это значит, что в прошлой жизни ты был убийцей-насильником. И в этой жизни ты должен побороть свои желания и не пойти тем же путём. Смотрите, здесь может быть по разному; не обязательно убийца сам должен становиться жертвой, как в случае с убийцей животных. То есть убийца может и стать жертвой, а может и вновь родиться с желанием убивать. Тут всё зависит от того, какой выбор человек сделает перед тем как родиться.

На счёт смысла жизни я думаю вы поняли.

Теперь пожалуй можно рассказать о моих желаниях.

Где-то с 14-ти лет я начал смотреть ужасы. Первый ужастик который я посмотрел - это "Кошмар на улице Вязов". Было страшно, но в то же время интересно. С годами мой интерес к ужасам усиливался. Но не только к ужасам, но и к маньякам. То есть не к тем маньякам, которые в кино, а к реальным людям. Сейчас у меня есть все те желания, которые присущи серийному-убийце, да и к тому же насильнику. И вот, что я думаю. Не у всех же людей после просмотров фильмов ужасов появляются такие желания. А значит ужасы лишь пробуждают те желания, которые есть в человеке. А эти желания являются напоминанием того, кем этот человек был в прошлой жизни. Так что я смело заявляю, что в прошлой жизни я был серийным убийцей; и не каким либо, а самим Тедом Банди. Почему я так думаю? На то есть много причин. Мне нравится, что он убивал только девушек. Мне нравится всё, что он с ними делал. Я испытываю к нему жалость, в том плане, что его казнили так и не дав ему возможности исправиться. Тед Банди сидел в тюрьме и пару раз сбегал. Мне же нравятся фильмы про тюрьму и есть желание сесть в неё дабы потом сбежать. Тед Банди был казнён на электрическом стуле; удары тока поступали через шлем надетый на голову. У меня же на протяжении где-то трёх последних лет часто стала болеть голова. А три года назад мне было 24; 24 - это день его смерти. И что самое удивительное, головные боли бывают когда надеваю шапку. Своё первое достоверно известное убийство он совершил в 27 лет. Именно в этом возрасте мои головные боли перешли в давящую боль, которой раньше не было. Но слава Богу это быстро прошло. Кстати, по некоторым данными, своё первое убийство Тед Банди совершил аж в 14 лет; и как я уже писал ранее, именно в этом возрасте, на сколько я помню, я начал смотреть ужасы. Но лично я не верю, что он совершил первое убийство в таком раннем возрасте. Возможно я просто чувствую, что этого я не делал. А ещё он умер зимой, а я родился зимой. Разница между его смертью и моим рождением - 3 года и 9 дней; 3 - это день моего рождения. Банди родился 24-го числа, умер также 24-го числа, его возраст был 42 года; 42 на оборот - 24. Я же начал интересоваться Тедом Банди, если не ошибаюсь именно в 24 года. Не поверите, сейчас пишу, смотрю на эти числа и захотелось их сосчетать. Берём день его ��ождения, день смерти, возраст и возраст на оборот. Складываем все цифры и получается 24. Чудеса. Не правда ли? Ах да, ещё кое что. Сколько я интересуюсь Тедом Банди, но лишь в 27 лет узнал, что своё первое убийство он совершил в 27 лет. Эх, не сорваться бы мне. Да я шучу. Конечно же не сорвусь. Я с этим уже справился. И мне в этом помогло осознание того, что я это уже делал, в прошлой жизни. А если я это делал, подумал я, то зачем мне это сново повторять? Хватит с меня этих убийств и насилий.

И вот сейчас, имея все эти знания о том, как устроен мир; осознание того, кем я являюсь, то есть богом; когда я иду по улице и смотрю на всех этих людей, я вижу, что они абсолютно не понимают кто они и как устроен этот мир. Но они поймут. Не в этой жизни, так в следующей. Наверно.

Я бы хотел добавить ещё кое что, и это пожалуй самое главное в жизни, это то что полностью помогло мне справиться с моими грехами, это любовь. Ни какое осознание того, что ты это уже делал в прошлой жизни, ни какие психиатры, ни что либо ещё не поможет вам полностью справиться со своими грехами, но только любовь способна на это, только любовь способна по настоящему изменить человека.

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“MY FIRST BLOG!! ”

Hi guys welcome to My First Blog HIHIHI!! Before I start this Blog I want to introduce myself to you. I’m KAYELENE M. ZIPAGAN , 17 years old from BAGUTARI STO. TOMAS ISABELA. I’m born on June 17,2003. During my preparatory days I was enrolled at SANTO TOMAS BAPTIST CHRISTIAN SCHOOL After 2 years that I’ve been there, i learned lots and I really enjoyed my staying there knowing that I’ve met new friends.

When I’m entering in my first grade my parents decided to transfer me to BAGUTARI STO. TOMAS ELEMENTARY SCHOOL without asking me, but one thing is for sure for me the school is walking distance from our house, aside from that idea the school is public and of course my parents think it would be better for me. And we can save money from my tuition and allowance compared to my old school. Years past, I’m questioning myself if I stayed at STBCS until my 6 grade I still the same person? knowing that school is Christian school and it is a non-sectarian. I didn’t me that I’m bad person what I’m questioning is the attitude and skills and I should develop years ago.

I finished my Elementary grade with a Latin honor it was a big achievement to me knowing that I’m on top I made my parents, relatives and friends Proud. Another battle to be surpass again, when I’m entering my junior high school at SANTO TOMAS NATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL because one thing is for sure new teachers, new environment, new classmates and new beginning. I might say that junior high is quit thrilling compare to my grade school, I really don’t know how to deal with my classmates and 8 teachers a day. More competitions, quizzes, monthly celebrations to be celebrated but one is for sure I need to survive and pass the subjects because junior high school is just a stepping stones towards to my dreams and triumphs in life. I finished my junior high school with honor I didn’t achieve what I had reached during me grade school. I did my best but I think It wasn’t enough to get a high honor. I promise to myself that I should give my best among the best next time so that in the end I won’t regret and felt sorry for not reaching my main goal.

I always remind myself to follow my dreams and pursue it to uplift my family from poverty to provide their needs and wants, and to give a comfortable life. I hate seeing them suffering from emotional and physical pain. To be honest , when it comes to money we are not financially stable but my parents provide everything for me and siblings too.

At present my Senior high school, I’m currently studying at SAINT PAUL UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES (SPUP) taking up Accountancy business management (ABM) even we experienced world pandemic I won’t stop reaching my dreams, I need to finish it on time. I don’t need to prolong my agony with the things I hated most knowing that I have my main Goal to reach in time. I know I can do it through his guidance and power.

So, that is my introduction may we move now to the given questions of my E-tech Teacher Sir Carlos;

1. Where do I see myself 10 years from now? Is my learning in SPUP vital to where I’m leading to?

• I see myself 10 years from now as a Business Woman having a Cafeteria and Bar.

I also want to build my own Restaurant because I love cooking. I think my learning in SPUP vital is leading me to want I want to pursue in my life. They taught me to be a person who have faith and things that will help me in my future.

2. Was ABM the best choice after all?

• For me it's a yes because I made a best choice in my life to take that strand so when I'm in college I will not suffering so much more. I have a guide/experience in my Senior High that will help me a lot. So when I have a Cafeteria and Bar I can balance,analyze,record and so on.

3. What course will you take in college and why?

• The course will I take in college is between in Custom Ads/HRM. I want that course because I want to save some money to build my Cafeteria and Bar. HRM will help me in my Bar and Cafeteria soon. So I will do my part as a student to finished my course so I will achieved that someday.

4. What topic would you like to learn more in this subject?

The topic that I would like yo learn about this subject was about the technologies we have in this generation and in the past generation, their finctions and most of all their uses

5. What the corona virus has taught you about life?

• Corona virus taught lot of things about my life, just like we should trust God in every circumstance we face. It also taught me that we should help other person even in midst of pandemic. Corona virus taught me that take a good care of our self to maintain our body health. So that we didn't easy to get a virus.

We proceed now to My Second Blog. The title is “ REVIEW TECHNOLOGY ”.

So here we are in my blogpost 2 Guysss! The name is “REVIEW TECHNOLOGY" I will share the technology I picked. Hope you like it guys.

A computer is a machine that can be instructed to carry out sequences of arithmetic or logical operations automatically via computerprogramming. Modern computers have the ability to follow generalized sets of operations, called programs. These programs enable computers to perform an extremely wide range of tasks.

As we all know, education is a crucial on every individual because it is a key to success. This also improve every human personality. The learning system this year became online due to covid19. And by the use of computer/laptop we can access with this learning system. Computer has so much advantage and one of this is that, it improve our technical skill. However, there are also disadvantage of it, just like it can cause radiation, depression, headaches and etc.

Here's the Positive Impact of Computer:

Positive Impact of Computer. It facilitates business process and other activities. It makes the work simple and less time consuming. We can store so many information on computer which makes easy to handle the information for business applications. We can perform multitasking and multiprocessing capabilities of data.

CHARACTERISTICS OF COMPUTER:

MEMORY

AUTOMATION

SPEED

RELIABILITY

VERSATILITY

DILIGENCE

ACCURACY

MY THIRD - FIFTH BLOGPOST is “ FAVORITE MOVIE ”

“ THE HOWS OF US ”

Story of a couple Primo (Daniel Padilla) and George (Kathryn Bernardo) who are in a long term relationship and are already building and planning their future together. Their love will be put to the test as their relationship faces hurdles from misunderstanding to different career paths, among others. How will they save their “US” ?

George and Primo are schoolmates who fall in love to each other. She's preparing to get into Medical school and he's a Musician waiting for his band to hit it big. Together, in a house they inherited from George's aunt, they dream of great success and promise to support each other no matter what. But what happens when the dream of success doesn't come for one of them? Primo doesn't get the big break has been working for and turns into a difficult and arrogant artist who can't even help with the bills. Faithful George stays true to her promise to support Primo through it all. Until she reaches her breaking point and gives up. Dejected, Primo walks out and does not look back.

Years later, he comes back as a changed man. My question is George can still give him a second chance? And yes George gave that a second chance to prove Primo's self to her. After that, George go to her work and Primo go there to visit George. When George feel the presence of Primo she's turning her back to faced the man she's waiting for. George come near to Primo to hug him. Days past, they go to the Amsterdam to find the father of Darren Espanto but his father's died years ago. So after visit the cementery they're go to the Tulips Farm. Few days later, they go back in Philippines and Primo proposed to George.

1. What life lessons can be learned from the movie?

The lesson is relationship needs two person to make it work,in the movie Primo and George are working independently from each other. It's like having a pride that you need to do this and that I need to do this too. And we can see that they're not asking for help to each other especially in time of struggles. Also love isn't always rainbows, roses, puppies and relationship and isn't always a fairytale. If you go through some misunderstanding or fights and having a uncommon thinking or view always remember that it's not a sign that you didn't love each other

2. What part of the story told by the movie was the most powerful? Why?

For me, the most powerful line told by the movie it was Primo's line which is “ I may not found the reason to stay but I found the reason to comeback " because even though he doesn't know what really is his reason to stay, he still comeback without hesitation to his love one. It means that when you love, you don't need to have any reason to, you just need genuine to make the relationship work for the both of you.

3. Who was your favorite character in the movie? Why?

My favorite character is Kathryn Bernardo as George in the movie because she is a stronger woman and have a beauty inside and out. She is the woman who loved, got hurt and sacrifices but never gave up on her loved one and also to herself. Especially the one where she stand in the rain and deliver her powerful lines, “ And what makes that sorry different for all the others sorry before? Pagod na pagod na ako Primo ". I feel the pain when she said that because when you look at her eyes she's so much in pain.

4. Did anything that happened in the movie remind you of something that has occurred in your own life or that you have seen occur to others?

The movie reminds me about my past. You still choose to love that person even if you ses his worst,even when he tells you some painful words that you didn't expect from him. Love doesn't manifest when you're happy together but when you're suffering together. So, if you are in a relationship right now be aware if this lesson be grateful. If you're experiencing a struggles like this in your life it makes you stronger person and it's a test on what kind of person you're trul born in this world.

“ALONE TOGETHER ”

The film begins with Christine "Tin" Lazaro (Liza Soberano), a University of the Philippines Art Studies major and a part-time museum guide, touring high school students in The Philippine National Museum. During one of her tours, she meets Rafael "Raf" Toledo (Enrique Gil), a University of Santo Tomas as Biology student, and an avid fan of The Eraserheads. They first find themselves in a little clash debating the comparison of the museum's famous painting, and Raf's favorite song Spoliarium. First at odds, they soon begin dating and eventually entered a romantic relationship. Raf wants to pursue his dream of becoming a doctor while Tin aspires to be a museum director once they graduate from college, she also dreams to visit The MET and other museums in New York. They started a sweet and adorable relationship but they soon find themselves falling apart when Tin graduates from college. At Tin's first job in a non-government organization, she was accused of allowing her boss, Janice to steal their company's funds. However, she was saved by Gregory "Greg" Fausto (Luis Alandy), a coworker who likes her and believes that she is innocent. Owing to the heated and extremely stressful situation she is currently in, she breaks up with Raf much to her chagrin, when she learns that Raf was not able to graduate again on time, and is still stuck at preparatory medicine school. Raf initially proposes to Tin, to avoid losing her, but Tin refuses the proposal and leaves Raf for good.

Five years later, Tin is now in a relationship with Greg. She accompanies her boyfriend at the PICC for an awarding ceremony. There, she also sees Raf who is now a professional doctor, also receiving an award. Raf see Tin from afar and he meets her at the hallway of the complex and invites her to see each other sometime. As the two meet again at the same place where the two started their past relationship, Tin finally tells him that she broke up with him because of her problems at the company she previously worked in. After much realization, Raf receives a call from the hospital, needing his immediate presence to treat patients there. Tin accompanied him and there sees Raf working diligently and passionately at the hospital, taking notice of his personality change and that Raf is currently living his dream of being a doctor. While in there, Raf introduces Tin to Aly (Jasmine Curtis-Smith), a fellow doctor and his current girlfriend.

Tin is currently working for Greg's company and is well loved by her subordinates. She performs her job very diligently, but still does not feel the respect and recognition she deserves. She is shut by Greg, by not trusting her professional decisions and somehow forced to let a client criticize her working habits, despite having acceptable reasons. In one of their projects, Tin was sent to New York to present to a client. Tin pleads to Greg that she stay a bit longer to enjoy the city, Greg initially refuses, but allows her to go later on. Unbeknownst to Tin, Raf purchased a ticket flight to New York to join her. Both of them meet once again in New York to fulfill their dreams to visit The MET and other museums. With so much happiness in spending her days in New York with Raf, Tin also mustered the courage and realized that it may not be too late for her to start a career in the field she wholeheartedly desires, she get copies of application forms as souvenirs and as well as reminder that it may not really be too late for her after all. While fulfilling their dreams to see New York, Raf reveals that he broke up with Aly and wanted to marry Tin, she sadly rejects his engagement, stating that she would hurt Greg and his daughter Aisha (Xia Vigor) if she marries him which leads them to argue and to Raf's rejection. Upon returning to the Philippines, Tin discovers Raf reconnected with Aly and reveals that she was pregnant with Raf's child. Tin tries to move on and engages Greg in an enthusiastic conversation about her journey to the New York Museums, but Greg show little to no interest. She later expressed her thoughts about going back to the field she once worked for. They later clash in an argument when Greg forces her to be practical, and reminds her of her past mistakes she made in her previous job, stating that no one will accept her because of it. Greg further states that she is not working well enough. Greg entertains Tin's desire half-heartedly and tried to seek assistance from his connections to have Tin easily land a job in a museum, again not trusting Tin's capabilities as an individual professional. Hurt and now enlightened by the fact that Greg will never trust her life decisions, and that he sees her more as an employee more than his girlfriend, breaks up with him and decides to resign her post at the company. After talking and getting advice from her former college professor, Alwyn (Nonie Buencamino), Tin finally left her current industry to start a new life working for the art industry. At first, her past mistakes continued to hinder her applications being accepted, but she eventually found a job when a museum head told her that everyone can learn from their mistakes and change for the better. Tin begins a new job at the museum to chase her dream to become a museum director. She later visits Raf at the hospital and finally apologizes to him for being a coward and selfish while he too also apologizes to her for his rash behavior and being confused. He also reveals that his relationship with Aly did not work out as Tin shows her love to him as Raf happily leaves to get back on duty.

After the awards ceremony, she is visited again by Raf and finally reconciles their relationship. The film ends with Tin and Raf looking at Juan Luna's Spoliarium while he carries his son from Aly during their visit to the National Museum.

The Guide Questions:

1. What life lessons can be learned from the movie?

The life lesson that can be learned in this movie is you need to sacrifice your feelings to that person even he is the reason of.your happiness. It is the way p pursue the dreams you want in your life. All sacrifices you do is worth it because the both of you become professional. They have a people that they don't believe in you because of the mistake you did once in your life. Prove to them that you can do it and you have so much lesson in that mistake. You don't need to regret of meeting him because that person gave you a happiness and he's part of the memories in your life.

2. What part of the story told by the movie was the most powerful? Why?

Liza Soberano line when Enrique Gil propose to her but she rejected that which is “ Mahal kita Raf pero tama na ". She's tired of understanding Raf. Raf didn't pass his exam that time that's why Liza rejected him because Enrique promise to her that he will passed that exam no matter what. She believe in a promises and that promises mean to be broken.

3. Who was your favorite character in the movie? Why?

My favorite character is Liza Soberano as a “Tin” in the movie. She's a strong woman because even in her downs she's still have a faith to herself to continue her life for her family. For me, she's not a selfish person because she did that for the both of them. And now, we can see that Enrique Gil is now a Doctor and Liza Soberano is a Museum Director.

4. Did anything that happened in the movie remind you of something that has occurred in your own life or that you have seen occur to others?

Yes, the movie reminds me to the person that have a value in me. I always understand him but when it comes to the point that I'm tired because of his behavior. He always say that “ you didn't care about me am I right ". I said to myself just one more hurtful words I promise to let him go. I lost myself because pf begging someone to stay by my side. Just what Liza did, he let go Enrique even she love that guy. Enrique find other woman and have a kid. So I ask myself, what will I do if his not happy in my arms again? I let go the perso I don't want to lost and I said to him “ You can find now a better woman than me. I pray for your happiness ".

My Last Favorite Movie:

“ UP ”

Renowned explorer Charles F. Muntz says he has found a new species of giant bird at Paradise Falls, South America. However, archaeologists study the skeleton of the bird and conclude that Muntz fabricated it. Disgraced, Muntz vows to bring back a live specimen and will not return until he does so.

Youngster Carl Fredricksen meets Ellie. Both are aspiring explorers who idolize Muntz, and the two quickly become friends. Ellie reveals her dream to Carl about going to live by Paradise Falls. The two eventually get married and repeatedly save up for a trip to Paradise Falls, but always end up spending the money on more pressing needs. As an elderly man, Carl finally buys tickets for the trip, but Ellie falls ill and dies before they can go.

Carl continues living in the house he and Ellie fixed up, stubbornly holding out while the neighborhood around him is replaced by skyscrapers. When he unintentionally injures a construction worker, the developer trying to buy his place seizes the opportunity. The court deems him a public menace and orders him to move to a retirement home. However, Carl resolves to keep his promise to Ellie. Having worked his entire life as a balloon salesman, he turns his house into a makeshift airship by attaching hundreds of helium balloons to it and flies away.

Russell, a young Wilderness Explorer trying to earn his final merit badge for "Assisting the Elderly", becomes an accidental stowaway. Before Carl can drop Russell off, a cumulonimbus storm drives them all the way to South America. The house lands on a tepui opposite Paradise Falls. Carl and Russell harness themselves to the still-buoyant house and begin to walk it across the mesa, hoping to reach the falls before the balloons deflate. Russell encounters a tall colorful bird whom he names "Kevin", who is trying to gather food for her chicks. They then meet a Golden Retriever named Dug, who wears a special collar that allows him to speak, and who vows to take the bird to his master. The next day, they encounter a pack of aggressive dogs (also with special collars) led by Alpha, a Doberman Pinscher, and are taken to their master, the elderly Muntz.

Muntz invites Carl and Russell aboard his dirigible, where he explains to them that he is still searching for the giant bird he promised to bring back. Russell notes the bird's similarity to Kevin and Muntz becomes hostile, thinking they are attempting to capture the bird for themselves—he implies he has killed other visitors he suspected of doing the same thing. Carl and Russell flee with Kevin and Dug across a gorge, but Kevin is injured when Alpha bites her leg. Using the tracking device on Dug's collar, Muntz finds and captures Kevin, then sets fire to Carl's house, which pops many of the balloons. Carl is forced to decide whether to save his house or Kevin; he chooses his house, upsetting Russell. Carl finally parks the house at Paradise Falls, where Carl sadly looks through Ellie's childhood scrapbook and finds a final note thanking him for their "adventure" and encouraging him to have a new one.

Reinvigorated, Carl goes outside, only to see Russell flying away, using some balloons and a leaf blower, to try to rescue Kevin. Carl lightens the house enough for him and Dug to follow. Muntz captures Russell, but Carl and Dug board the dirigible and free both Russell and Kevin. Muntz pursues them around the airship and corners Kevin, Dug, and Russell inside Carl's house. They escape by jumping back onto the dirigible after Carl lures Kevin with chocolate; Muntz leaps after them, but gets caught on some balloon lines and falls to the ground far below. The house, having lost too many balloons, descends out of sight through the clouds.

Carl and Russell reunite Kevin with her chicks and fly the dirigible back home, taking all of Muntz's dogs with them. Russell receives his "Assisting the Elderly" badge and Carl gives him a bottle cap from a grape soda called "The Ellie Badge", the same one given to him by Ellie during his first encounter with her when they were children. Carl then becomes a grandpa-like figure to Russell. Unbeknownst to Carl, his house lands on the cliff beside Paradise Falls, fulfilling his promise to Ellie.

Guide Questions:

1. A house is a home when it is filled with love, You’re never too old to achieve your dreams, Stay true to yourself and what you believe in and It’s the people that matter in life, not the things.

2.the most powerful part of the movie was when the old man finally achieve their dream. To see the falls but apparently it is only him who it... For me this is the best and powerful part cause achieving something you dreamed of is the best thing to happen in our life.

3. My favorite character was the old man... Cause even if his too old and her wife died he just continue to reach for their dream.

4. The happening in the movie that i encounter was achieving my dreams