#I'm tired and it's been a rough day

[brenninthetaylorverse]

it's so tiring being the friend that's peacemaker. I never see anybody talk about the peacemaker friend. i'm the one in friend group making sure everybody's happy and not tearing each other's head off.

i'm also the therapist friend, tell me everything that's on your mind. and i'm bothering you or you want to be left alone, that's okay, I can always give space and time.

and sorry if I'm being annoying or too mad or too loud or too anything you don't like, apparently i'm not a good friend. i'm sorry that you did something wrong and I said something about it so now you're giving me the silent treatment. that's okay, I know I'm the worst friend ever.

[astriiformes]

Someone put a curse on my family this year for real I am holding my head in my hands I have no idea how to fix any of this anymore

[morkofday]

sigh these days it really is just like: i want to create but unfortunately i have the eepy little creature disease

[eilooxara]

bleh

I know useless yearning is my brand™ but it would be nice if I fell for someone who's actually interested for once

[artsie-rosie]

okay, you know when you make a discovery about yourself and then you go through somewhat of a "mourning" period right after? like I have no idea if there's a name for this or not --

like when I came to terms with the fact that I was not neurotypical, it was a bit of a mindblow initially, and then I spent the next few days and weeks after having "Oh that explains this aspect of my childhood" moments 3x a day, and I remember I also had to process a deep sadness cus of what my life could have been if I had gotten the help I needed earlier in life, and all of the times I was yelled at for being "lazy", or a "weirdo", or abandoned for being a bad friend, and perhaps I could have achieved things if I wasn't left to paddle and drown by myself? And then I learned about MASKING and oh my god I had to basically rediscover who I was when I stopped trying to perform in certain ways only to please other people or fit in, and once I did that it was basically torture to mask again because I was now so aware of it?

Y'know?...

So... I think I'm going through the same thing now, but with my chronic pain instead.

[flame-shadow]

I haven't done many fully illustrated pieces in, uh, a while. But I've done a couple more than I've shared, because they're for large projects not yet complete (a zine and a massive art telephone). ngl, it does drive me a little crazy that some of my higher effort works are gonna be collecting dust until the projects conclude. I'm patient in that I will wait, but I'm impatient in that I don't want to haha

Drawing has required a lot more effort from me lately, and at this point, I'm just happy when I manage to make sketches. So it is a (short term) frustration that I can't yet share the better non-sketches that I've managed to make.

[sisterdragonwithfeathers]

Ok, I could use prayers.

[hyaciiintho]

🌸｡*ﾟ+. If anyone has a nice version of ph*t*sh*p (cracked or not) they're willing to share with me, I would be forever grateful. I got hit with the "You're using an unlicensed version--" message and I can't use mine anymore c': and I can't remember where I had gotten mine and will need to filter through a bunch of... questionable links to find it again online.

So if anyone has a link to a trusted downloaded, I would appreciate it a ton!

[somegrumpynerd]

Thinking about doing drawings for a dadmare truce au

[imwritesometimes]

ok. Just to show I'm not a complete asshole all the time. I am gonna fill out a polite little ~feedback~ form but. you all have got to understand. I've been dealing with agencies and companies and state departments almost my entire goddamn life. you almost never ever ever get anywhere when you go through the polite and established channels. but the second you get even a little upset in public down at the welfare office, well, they sure can find paperwork and documents and are able to remember rules a lot better.....

[tardytothepardy]

I made some doodles of Mikan being sick because I am sick

[goldenworldsabound]

I'm really not a fan of the recent influx of jokingly (I assume jokingly) rude posts. I don't like being called a "dipshit". I don't like posts that insult the reader. I don't like polls that encourage being assholes to people with a specific hair color (the comments on that post are insane... it's not funny to call back to the time when everyone treated blonde people like they were stupid just for being blonde). Sorry I'm not any fun anymore but damn I really feel like the old person yelling at the kids to get off my fucking lawn. But ffs be nice to each other??? Be nice by default! Calling people rude names doesn't make you funny it turns out (it just makes you rude).

[ilostyou]

lallaaalalala just some things on my mind

[certified-pretty-boy]

hi this is incredibly off topic and none of you need to read this i just needed to Vent for a sec

[sanstropfremir]

As a fan, the members def also feel this break was long overdue. They announced it casually in a dinner & drinks video for their anniversary. They were planning this back in 2019 since they felt burned out but covid & they implied that they wish they had gone on break back then. I do think we are going to see them in like 3-4 years and they're still are doing their variety content show. They were pretty insightful about how they feel they've lost sight of why they're doing this and who they are.

tbh i think it's likely going to be closer to the outset of four years because they all still have to enlist. it's not probable that they'll release any music with members missing so they'll have to wait until they're all back, so unless they all go for active duty all at the same time literally right now, the shortest plausible time frame is at least three years. exo is in their third year of military era and there's still two of them that have to go, so its going to be another two years at least before they're all back. and that's with exo still having incomplete comebacks every year and change. if all the members want to put out solo projects they either have to have them all planned and executed already so they can fire off all seven of them in six months, or they'll stagger them out slowly with enlistment and everyone will be back in around four to five years.

[evermorecountsastherapy]

y'all I just procrastinated an assignment for the past 2 hours that literally took me 7 minutes to complete and hand in... like what... what is so wrong in my brain chemistry that I am like this...