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inga-don-studio · 2 years

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Oh, so we’re at that mid-tier stage of the sleep deprivation loopiness, eh? The ‘Do All the Things’ stage because I think I suddenly feel great, when All the Things involve using power tools my drunk-tired butt shouldn’t even look at right now.

#I was too nervous about today’s apartment inspection to sleep last night #Not that I had anything to worry about since I take good care of the apartment #It was more because I know how shaken I get when strangers compromise my little personal space- and my anxiety was having a field day #Jokes on my anxiety though-#both the maintenance guy & the apartment manager spent more time geeking out over my weird shit than inspecting #It was actually really sweet though?! The manager started going on about how much she loves the Haunted Mansion too & the maintenance guy-#-wanted to know what all my bootlegs were? And then the manager said she didn’t want to leave? Like bro? 🥹#So this was the first time I haven’t felt violated or gone into flight mode despite having unfamiliar people in my space?#Probably won’t happen again but it was genuinely nice #But uh now that that’s over and the lack of sleep is catching up my brain’s starting to play it’s little tricks #Worse than the mild hallucinations is the impulse to do All The Things to stay awake when I know All The Things involve tools I shouldn’t-#-use when this tired #But I want to get working on the Moon mask & try out the idea I have for making his face spin #And I’m starting to feel the pressure of having the headcrab mask done in time for Midsummer Scream in a month #Too many stabby burny potentially toxic things that my drunk-tired butt can’t be trusted with rn #I’ve never handled a total lack of sleep well so I just need to choose something simple & safe & go to bed early #And maybe order some Pandas because I can tell my energy crash is going to be a doozy & fixing dinner won’t be in the cards #Oh gawd this is long sorry #🎃 cryptid sighting

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daddymikeyway · 1 year

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bruh

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jankwritten · 4 months

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yall wanna know how fucked up my anxiety is about some shit

i scroll past a post that's about a topic i don't like. whatever, it's fine. i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't care about. that's normal.

i scroll past a video that's a topic i don't like or care about but the person presenting it is a person of color? i IMMEDIATELY feel immensely guilty and need to "compensate" by "proving" it wasn't because of race by also skipping other random posts, JUST IN CASE someone thinks I'm racist because I didn't want to watch a video on a topic I didn't like or care about, that happened to be presented by a person of color.

this just in on: the police in my brain are loud and i'm scared of them

#this is also because i grew up in a racist area and in that culture and my own ignorance i also Was Kinda Racist #but like in that way where you don't realize it's racism until you're out of it and now feel so ashamed that you forcefully block all #those memories just so you don't ever have to associate yourself with them ever again?#(mind you I was like. 15-16 and closeted and scared scared scared all the time so I acted like the Crowd and that was awful of me to do)#BUT NOW that i've grown and am learning and have taken classes on anthropology and all kinds of stuff I just feel like I notice my own shit #like TENFOLD now #it's my anxiety overthinking thing plus if anybody ever knows I could have done anything SLIGHTLY problematic the world will explode #plus my constant paranoia that someone is always watching me and just Knows that I'm Secretly a Bad Person (even though I don't think I am?#also I feel like I need to clarify that the kind of racism in my town wasn't like. klan shit. it was like very hidden racism?#it was like. kids casually doing black accents and making jokes with racist undertones. the kind of racism where race was always #the butt of the joke instead of an outright HATED thing. and I think that's why it was so hard to unlearn #it's like that thing where in order to stop wanting to kill yourself you have to stop joking about wanting to kill yourself #this has become a vent post accidentally i'm so sorry #this is just. one of my Major anxieties that engulfs me every day because of 1) anxiety 2) potential OCD 3) being a bad person in my past #this is another reason I fucking hate florida #because I just know if I had grown up in my home town in MI I would not have been raised in that environment #and it's my own fucking fault for falling into the crowd like that.#all this to say i traumatized myself and likely some people around me by being A Fucking Idiot when I was a kid #and now adult me is doing everything in their power to not ever be that person ever fucking again #tw vent post #tw racism #tw past racism #but im better now and I know my mistakes and I refuse to make them again #fuck florida for every fucking reason under the sun

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the-ocean-is-scary · 2 months

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A tornado touched down in my town last night :))

And the sirens didn't go off at all (and i don't know if there even was a tornado warning...) because it was a Tuesday and as soon as I heard that my anxiety went 📈📈📈📈📈📈 because

There's a chance that if there was a tornado we could all die because the sirens won't tell us to go hide

We can get tornadoes on Tuesdays

I'm leaving this state bye

#illinois aprils make my storm anxiety skyrocket because this is peak tornado month and theres tons of storms that could be one #mmmfmfmgmmgmbba #if you don't get the tuesday joke that's the siren test day every first tuesday of the month #so basically...the sirens only go off for TESTING that day apparently #even though they test at 10am not 10pm????#girlies if you already tested the sirens we KNOW IT'S NOT A FAKE TORNADO #THIS IS WHAT WORRIES ME!!!!!#I FUCKING HATE LIVING IN THE MIDWEST #illinois #tornado #midwest

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adhdandcomics · 2 years

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don’t worry guys i’ve been preparing for this

#u really do wear a mask and do everything huh. and sometimes were going down down in an earlier round #turns out setting yourseld up for dissapointment makes the anxiety dissapear #also like. i feel fine. so im not too too worried #and you know what it isnt halloween #all things considered its alright #text #covid #covid 19 #yes yes i know strangers on the internet shouldnt know my personal health info. have we considered though:#its funny #i like making jokes about it more than i care about if people know i have covid. thats kinda the thing about pandemics #also i run an adhd comic blog…

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dori-iguess · 5 months

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HOLY SHIT THEY ARE HERE

HWAAAAAAA

AHHHHHHHH

FFISKLDGJRNCIFJWKALFJCMALWORHTJCN

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I NEVER THOUGHT ID SEE HORMONES IN MY POSSESSION FOR ME TO TAKE I AM GOING TO FUCKING CRY

#still things to sort out before i start them though but holy shit they’re right there waiting for me wow what #now if only i could fix my social anxiety again 😅#sorry i have no not online friends and hardly any online friends to tell and release the excitement #near two decades questioning myself and i finally have the answer within reach #i can feel tons of weight shifting off my shoulders #sorry about sad posting recently it’s been really hard to think clearly #this ruins a joke i was going to make here but frankly i need some sort of distraction from how bad a week i had

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sailor-aviator · 8 months

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

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vole-mon-amour · 1 year

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Me falling asleep in my bed after Brendan's AMA, knowing I can safely ignore anything I didn't like, knowing that everything that felt weird WAS actually weird and OOC (hi to Roy being a complete and unethical dumbass most of s3), and that my ship is basically endgame because I want it that way:

And with that, RoyJamie endgame canon. Keeley can be her own person just like they wanted <3 (because, according to Brendan, "she's Keeley fucking Jones." Well, good for her! Good for me, too! Stay single, bestie! My boys are dating though, especially after 6 months of spending every day together.)

Also? Trent deserved fucking better. Won't even elaborate on that. He fucking did & they did him and James Lance dirty. But I guess the part of that AMA is also "ignore it", knowing what a wonderful story James created for Trent in his mind.

#brendan hunt #roy x jamie #ted lasso #oh so it was a joke to you the entire time?#well it wasn't for me :) therefore they're real :)#you gave it to me and you're not having it back. ever.#you don't deserve them.#now i can safely write my fanfiction #you gonna queerbait me? f/ck off :)#now i want to have a chat with phil and brendan #with phil especially though #brendan got me so mad i forgot about my anxiety about it being 2 years since my mom died #now i can peacefully sleep #roy kent #ted x trent #james lance

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50stressballs · 3 months

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Me @ my therapist in 10th grade:

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miercolaes · 8 months

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fancy tags are making me sad so as of rn, everything will be simpler. i just want to write and for some reason i always create smth that just's sucking the enjoyment with a biodegradable straw. until i find smth easier to tag that doesn't make the brain juice sad, i'll only tag the user.

#♱ vero stfu.#brain juice is now happy and thinking thoughts enough for me to respond to some stuff #also TRIGGER WARNING RANT AHEAD #irl i am always first to approach guys to talk about classes and whatnot #and today i was reminded why #the two girls i asked if the seat was taken said that it was (even though the seats ended up not occupied)#and there's this girl who has some health issues whom i offered to sit beside me since i was in front row #it's safe to say she walked away took a chair and stood like in the middle of the room #just so she wouldn't sit beside me #and whenever i try to talk to someone they look at me weird and dont say a word until i go away #at first i thought it was just inside my head the chronic anxiety and whatnot #but boy oh boy am i beginning to think i wasn't imagining things #a guy did sit with me and i could share my bad jokes so it wasn't exactly one of those days i dont say a word to anyone #but idk it just makes me second guess maybe smth is wrong with me #is this normal adult behavior im learning only after two decades???

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lordcoolington · 4 months

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everyday i fight so hard to not ghost the people i love for 3 whole years 🫡 shoutout to me for fighting the battles you don’t see. i am stronger than any us army soldier

#personal #this is kinda satirical but genuinely i don’t know why but my social anxiety gets so bad sometimes 😭😭😭#i’ve been getting better though. way better than years ago at least bahajaja #been trying to force myself to be brave. overall i’m just so lucky to have the friends i have #they’re all really patient and understanding with me and i love them so much #i kinda hope they never see this but. 2 my friends i love u so much u mean the whole entire world to me #anyways shoutout to my fellow avoidant attachment style bitches. i’d give y’all some love but if i did that y’all would leave 🫡#thats mostly a joke. im getting into therapy soon #i hope #OH also to my fellow avoidant attachment style bitches. it helps to send memes. they’re a real low commitment way of interacting/showing ur #thinking of ur loved ones

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amberpriceenthusiast · 2 years

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Maybe I wouldn’t be depressed if Emma and Abi kissed

#supermassive games #the quarry #emma mountebank #abi blyg #abigail blyg #blygbank #emmagail #emmabi #emma/abi #abi x emma #emma x abi #jokes aside my medicine is actually really helping with the depression #anxiety is a different story though!!!

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cryptidafter · 3 months

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told my mom I couldn’t afford to replace the fridge and she’d have to put it on her credit card and that was the most nerve wracking part of my morning

time to lie on the couch for the rest of the day lol

#cryptid’s thoughts #partially joking but my anxiety has been so high since yesterday #telling my mom no even though it’s reasonable is still a challenge for me #that guilt is deep-rooted 😮‍💨#like I bought her a brand new washer and dryer when I moved in because hers had been broken for at least two months #cleaned up the rooms we’re using and repainted (didn’t ask her to help)#pay rent every month!#and yet my mom still doesn’t have money or pay the bills on time #and whenever anything goes wrong she expects me or my sister (who doesn’t live here anymore!) to pay for it #like I’m thankful for my job but I’m not rich lol - I can’t just drop thousands of dollars at a moment’s notice #and my mom likes to make us feel terrible and guilt us and it’s not easy but I’ve been working on standing firm #our relationship has been so strained since I moved in #same thing happened with my sister #like we love her but my mom is unwell and she’s done us a lot of harm 😞#dealing with trauma is hard lol

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theclosetedskeleton · 8 months

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WHIMSY POSTING PAUSED the day I finally stop my compulsive skin picking habits is the day its OVER for all of my enemies

#stares at my family #why the FUCK do they have to point out everytime I go back to picking my skin #“are you scratching your forehe--” YES!!!!!!! BITCH YOU HAVE EYES #it gets so bad sometimes #i'd go into detail but i dont think anybody wants to know this because. its slightly disturbing like tmi #its not an anxitey related thing 100% though it goes on and off #not correlating with my anxiety #i looked up compulsive skin picking or smth and fucking OCD shows up #which OCD wouldnt be too far fetched the more i think abt it #back on the point with my family #MULTIPLE times my sisters have made some sort of “fun” with my scars/wounds #like theyre “jokes” but theyre not too funny #like you do realize i CANT control when i start/stop. When it starts I cant just say “stop!!!!” and its over #istg some days ill look in a mirror and all of a sudden im entranced #15 minutes go by and BOOM now i have to make sure i cover my forehead w/my bangs properly or else ill get comments from my family #wait. was this a vent #falls to my knees IM SO SORRY #oh my god me when tumblr is one of the only places i vent #i doubt thats good though bc yknow digital footprint but then again ive seen way WORSE on a digital footprint #closet rambles again on tumblr

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monzabee · 6 months

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my goal for the new year was to get out of therapy, but guess who just upgraded to a psychiatrist and ended up doubling their sessions for each week again

#xoxobee #me #i did #i love having anxiety and crippling depression #not being able to get out of bed is the higlight of my day #(sarcasm)#no joke though please do seek help if you feel like you're in a similar situation

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pepsi-maxwell · 1 year

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#for legal purposes this is a joke #i can't even drink alcohol or smoke weed without my anxiety flaring up #man it'd be nice to get things done though #cw drugs #drug mention

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