#LOOK I'M DRAWING MY OLD OTP AGAIN!!!!

[justrandomgrill]

I think Maki found a way to talk to tall people

Submission for @momoharuevents  Day 3: Height Difference

Commission status is in my pinned post!  

[minamorsart]

What , And how did you start pairing lotura, And Plance .?

Ooooh boy am I excited to answer this!!! This is going to be a long answer, hope you don't mind! Because I have some specific memories about these two ships, particularly lotura, that I would absolutely love to share with you!

Prepare for a long read! Hehe

Starting with lotura, when season 3 came out and Lotor made his debut, of course I was all 👀👀👀 Because that day something awoke in 19 year old me that I didn't realize could ever be awoken lol. And I wish I could remember exactly what my reaction was to his cat-and-mouse chase with Allura in the episode "The Hunted", but at the time I must not have considered the idea of them ever going in the direction of a romance. Looking back now though, how could I have been so blind??! That chase scene is HOT. I mean just look at them!!! Look at Lotor especially woah mama 😳

Season 4 was mediocre to me at the time, I will confess, for a lot of different reasons. But then season 5, man... SEASON 5!!!! I remember it was March 3rd, 2018. I wasn't keeping up with the show anymore, but I just so happened to see an article online that said season 5 had been released the day before on Netflix. I told my sister and we decided, "eh, let's watch at least the first episode."

And we watched the first episode, alright. And then another, and then another and another until we watched all six episodes in one sitting. We were both blown away! Lotor... Allura... together???? 😲

Their adventures, their chemistry, their clear attraction to one another... I was OBSESSED!!! I shipped them hardcore after that. They were and are still my #1 OTP, and it's because of them that I really tried to work hard and improve my art! I wanted to draw them all the time, making mini comics and AUs, and while their tragic ending actually left me in tears and I was upset for a really long time, I can now say that I have been able to heal and move on from it--eh, mostly anyway, haha.

It still hurts, but 5 years later I feel that I've matured and come to a greater understanding and acceptance. I have come to really appreciate how perfect they are for each other, both aesthetically of course (cuz lookit that sexual dimorphism babeyyy) as well as the many, many things they have in common. I have also come to appreciate their flaws, their imperfections, and the mistakes they made regarding each other and their relationship. They may have gotten a sad ending, but they were still truly equals in every way. It's just beautiful, and my love for them now is stronger than ever :')

For Lance and Pidge on the other hand, it's not quite as clear as when I started shipping them! I remember rolling my eyes at Lance and Allura's first meeting, like "okay Lance is one of THESE guys, here we go 🙄"

Other than that I didn't really ship Lance or Pidge with anyone! If I'm recalling correctly, I don't think it wasn't until after season 6 that I started shipping them together. I remember reading metas and analyses of their relationship that people were making in anticipation for season 7's release, and the more I thought about it, the more I started to really like the idea of Lance and Pidge getting together! And there are definitely subtle hints throughout the earlier seasons of Pidge's feelings for Lance, as well as their fun chemistry with one another, like the episode "Space Mall"!

The hints are not so subtle to me now, but back then it wasn't until I watched season 7 that I actually became hopeful that they could be a couple! I especially loved the moments when Pidge indirectly called Lance "cute, in a creepy, hideous sort of way" lol, and when Lance become very protective over Pidge in such a way that I don't think we ever saw him react before! I was honestly taken aback by that moment!

And again, their ending was definitely less than satisfactory, particularly Lance's ending (still hate it with a passion), but just like with Lotura's relationship, I have also come to appreciate many things about Plance's relationship today. While Lotor and Allura have so much in common and are able to reach an understanding with each other that they can't with anyone else, it would seem at first that Pidge and Lance are far too different to be compatible. And it is true that they are very different, but for one, that can be a good thing! The foundations of some relationships are built off of their differences. It can make someone more compassionate and more open-minded when they have a willingness to accept and appreciate the differences they have with their partner, and a willingness to take a genuine interest in the things that their partner is passionate about, even if they don't completely understand.

And two, at the same time, Pidge and Lance DO have things in common! They both love their families, both have a stronger connection to Earth compared to the other paladins, and they are able to bond with one another over fun pastimes such as video games! How cute is that??!

And just like with Lotor and Allura, I also love Pidge and Lance for their flaws. It did take me a while to come around to Lance, because while he has his funny moments and one-liners, I also found him very annoying at times lol. But I think the fact that he can be really annoying honestly makes him the most realistic character in Voltron. Not necessarily the most relatable, at least not for me, but definitely the most human! Because there are people in our real lives that we love and cherish deeply, but they absolutely have their moments where you go, "ugh, you're so annoying and it really frustrates me when you act this way" but we still wouldn't trade them for the world 🥰

And just to draw one last comparison between Lotura and Plance, I especially LOVE how incredibly different the two pairings are even from each other! To me, Lotor and Allura are sexy and passionate, while Pidge and Lance are pure and fun! They're all so unique and special in their own ways, and they bring so much to the table, both for their characters and for their relationships.

I can't help but write essays every time I get asks, I'm so sorry lol 😭 There's so much more I could say about these guys, but I think I'd better stop here haha! I had a lot of fun writing about Lotura and Plance, and I hope you had just as much fun reading this! I really love these characters a lot. I'm so incredibly grateful that they exist, even if in the form of fiction, and I'm even MORE grateful that my love for them has continued to grow over the years. Thank you so much for the ask!!!! 💖💜💙💚

Oh and one last thing: we were robbed of a lot of different potential interactions with a lot of different characters, but I have to say it would have been fun to see more of Lotor and Lance interacting with each other! Lance was always acting out due to his jealousy, while Lotor on the other hand mostly just ignored him lol.

[helena-thessaloniki]

Just dropping in to say that Silent Night has me in a chokehold I will likely never recover from and that you are awe-spiringly talented!! (new chapter is *chef's kiss*) I believe I speak for the damirae fandom when I say the wait for your updates is sweet torture and reading is an absoLUTE delight 🩷

If you don't mind questions ofc, I am super curious as to how you found damirae and got inspired to write for it! The DCAMU community size has nothing on popular anime fandoms, so I'd love to hear how it started 🥰 Your grasp on their deep and compelling characters is so immaculate (+ the heartwrenchingly articulate writing style??🩷) 😍😍 ugh love it to the moon and back!!

ahhh hi !! Thank you so much. It's pretty much terrifying posting a new story in a new fandom, so I really appreciate this. 🖤

yes! Always open to questions. :] the various algothirms must have targeted me, because I've always seen such great art for damirae, I didn't realize it was a smaller fandom and something of a rare pair on Ao3. Silent Night definitely draws inspiration from gorgeous artwork by @kasieli.

Looking back, there's a chance that damirae was my first childhood OTP? I grew up watching the early 2000s Teen Titans and shipped Raven and Robin before my little kid brain could properly understand anything about romance. I have not rewatched the show as an adult, but this is such a fantastic edit by @unlikely-alliance. I mean, it's a cartoon but their chemistry and closeness is out of this world.

Then sometime last year I got hit hard with the Marvel fatigue. (DC too, but admittedly, I didn't give the Titans live-action show a chance, too afraid they botched Raven.) The comics, movies, and animated shows were such a quintessential part of my childhood, so it was kind of upsetting to realize I was so tired and uninspired by it all. Trying to reclaim some of that old joy, I guess, led me to start rewatching Justice League and working through the DC catalogue on HBO/Max. Instead of watching in order, though, I went straight for the Teen Titans movies, knowing ahead of time from tumblr that Robin/Raven would be canon this time. 😏

Probably my writing of them is more inspired by the old cartoon, but we only get the complexity of Robin-Damian Wayne because of the DCAMU and I am so grateful for it. The way it makes them make so much sense as the only two people who could properly understand and deeply care for the other creates such a dream pairing.

Thank you again 🥰🖤 this is the most absolutely self-indulgent fic I have ever written and posted, I'm so surprised and grateful for such a positive response.

[parasitoidism]

sending you walter after u sent me jonathan #dialectics

waoh its like cause like law and chaos are the same woawwwwwwwww

favorite thing about them

I do really like that he's such a little asshole sometimes like he just talks shit about people and demons right in front of them its really funny LOL but aside from that I just really like how .. clear his line of thinking is? Like it just makes so much fucking sense exactly how his life experiences and the structure of mikado's society led him from point a to point b in the course of the story because its like soooo fucked up. And it's just like this thing with him and jonathan where it's like he IS being manipulated and the .. conclusion he reaches is really not sound but the way Jonathan just can't understand that he's not just being corrupted by a demon and actually has reasons for feeling the way he does which like in turn drives them apart even more is like ooh its so good

least favorite thing about them

Oh walter i understand where your feelings are coming from but trying to create a world where the strongest survive isn't very based of you

favorite line

I have been thinking about the way he brings up Issachar to Flynn a lot recently and I think it's like... It is ultimately manipulative right. Like he is at the end of the day bringing up Flynn's dead friend whenever he's trying to get Flynn on his side like yeah he's using that tragedy to appeal to his emotions and especially in the YPR scene he's just flat out saying "If my worldview is fulfilled, what happened to Issachar will never happen to anyone else". But I don't think it's just like "Oh I'm just going to say whatever I have to in order to get this guy on my side" I think he really does believe it like he always has this sense of camaraderie with Flynn because they're both casualries throughout the whole game and I think he probably saw himself in Issachar in his last moments which is why this one at shen duque has been sticking with me because he's directly repeating Issachar's last words about "changing this rotten world". Like I think that did genuinely affect him and him invoking Issachar and his fate the way he does is his way of being like, his way of trying to get Flynn to understand what he believes to be true, that his world will never result in that kind of injustice again. IN MY CUTE LITTLE OPINION AS THEY SAY

brOTP

I THINK HE AND ISABEAU SHOULD HANG OUT MORE for the parallels bro the parallels does anyone else see the parallels Walter and Isabeau both have the thing of like being raised with a singular expectation for what the rest of their lives will look like (fisher for walter monk/monastery work for isabeau) and then being chosen as samurai instead like I think IDK i just think. i think about things sometimes.

OTP

Jonathan and Walter are really good like notice how although they do get along with and respect each other they can never fundamentally understand each other. notice how it was always fated to end before it could even begin

nOTP

uhhh Idk. I can't really think of any ships that I hate in smtiv because nobody really gives af about this game like that it's just me and my mind palace and like a few other people's mind palaces

random headcanon

Second oldest child with an older sister and 2 younger brothers idk when this popped into my head but it just did one day and now it's just like. i believe it.

unpopular opinion

People focus on the Hoy thing but that's just like a way that all the casualries talk in this game like Hope also says it a lot but I think the funniest thing about the way he talks is that he says shit like HELLS BELLS all the time like he's an old woman

song i associate with them

I DONT HAAVE ONE again like theres only a few characters I have Songs For

favorite picture of them

I only read like 2 chapters of it but the artist of demonic gene draws him very cutely

[iloveyouemanuelmarco]

Hey, my name is Emanuel or Marco and thank you for stopping by to visit my official Tumblr Blog or something like that. Lmfao currently I am a 16 year old[mostly-digital]artist and animator who is multifandom but mostly draws fictional gay thick or big-booty buff men in a 2000s anime/manga inspired artstyle which sometimes leans on the "kawaii" or moe side and other times is somewhat based off of edgy amature art stuff from the older side of the internet[Think of the super cringeworthy stuff you'd find on NewGrounds, YouTube or DeviantArt back somewhere around 2007]. When I draw different stuff related to my interests, it may get on the side of edgelord content such as gore/blood/guts/violence/weapons[Fictional NSFL btw], creepy/horror related content, suggestive or NSFW[Not really]self-indulgent stuff, maybe venting if I feel ready to be open like that sometimes I guess it depends and OTPs along with OCxCanon content and crackshipping. If you're uncomfortable with any of that then please for your own saftey leave my page and take care of yourself thank you♡. I don't know what other stuff to put here other than I've recently started working on my idea for a Five Night's At Freddy's self-insert alternate universe fanmade-webcomic and a Saga Of The Dead/Road Of The Dead fanmade comic game continuation due to it being an on and off hyperfixation and special interest of mine roflmao.

To get more into about who I am as a person without accidentally violating my own privacy and saftey, I am a somewhat gender-nonconforming or genderfluid/bigender??(Idfk, man)bisexual aceflux FtM/transgender man who uses both he/she pronouns but please don't use they on me thx. While I am apart of the LGBTQIA+ communtiy on the interwebs I am also a professionally dxed autistic and ADHDer who may get distracted irl and go afk somewhat so if I suddenly disappear for a couple days or something on other social media platforms I hopefully haven't been murdered/j(Please use tone tags with me if asked since I do have a hard time reading social norms irl okay thank you). I want to try a polyamrous or queerplatonic relationship with other people in the future but not now obviously since I still need to work on being better when it comes to the mental health department lol xD(I am stone faced as I am typing lol). I am a white-latine person who is making an attempt to learn more about his culture and to understand more of the language but sometimes I may struggle due to cognitive difficulties so please keep that in mind and be patient with me...My DMs are open 24/7 in looking for new mutuals on here but I may be somewhat vulgar or off putting under my overly-cautious mom-friend nature once you get to know me. That being said don't be afraid to tell me if I am making you uncomfortable in any sort of way due to that or if I'm accidentally supporting someone or something problematic in nature ok? Good.

To keep in mind of what I am gonna post on here, it's probably very stereotypically fanboyish or some sort of dumbassery depending on the context but then again it's my page so Idfc :]. Main fandoms are mostly hyperfixations or special interests of some sort such as Undertale/Deltarue including AUs, Five Night's At Freddy's(Both the canon and sometimes the OG 2014 Rebornica nightguards au) and the Saga Of The Dead or specifically for me the Road Of The Dead 2010 Newgrounds flash games by EvilDogGames and SickDeathFiend(one of my more obscure??obsessions). Other things related to cartoons and videogames I really find comfort in are My Little Pony:Friendship Is Magic, Minecraft? Roblox, YouTubers, Vocaloid/Utaloid related content, Spider-Man: Across The Spiderverse, EddsWorld, Invader Zim, Pokémon, Postal, Hatred, Team Fortress 2 and admittedly some Friday Night Funkin'(I know it's dumb sorry about that). There's definitely more but I can't really list them all rn so yeah that's about it for this section...

When it comes to music, my taste is pretty diverse though I do have some obviously favourite genres but I am always looking to expand my horizons and more. Bands such as Green Day, Three Days Grace, SlipKnot, Korn, My Chemical Romance, System Of A Down, Linkin Park, Falling In Reverse(I am a Ronnie Radke hater though, so far he seems like another douchebag asshole), Asking Alexandria, Sleeping With Sirens, Sum-41, Pierce The Veil,, Black Veil Brides, Falling In Reverse, Set It Off, Get Scared and Bring Me The Horizon just to name a few. Though if you want my preferred genres when picking stuff I guess that would include stuff like Nightcore(not technically a genre but shut up please/lh), Rock, Pop-Punk, Trace, Emo, Techno, Happy Hardcore, Classical, maybe Lofi and I wanna get more into Rap or Hip Hop but specifically Drill. 80s and 90s stuff is cool too, it really just depends on what I find on the internet :D.

General hobbies include reading, writing which includes imaginative stories and poetry, drawing(duh), singing, dancing, helping to bake with others, cosplay or just dressing up in cute outfits at tbh, watching anime, reading manga, playing videogames, collecting figurines sometimes, roleplaying, cleaning/organization, studying earth and animal science related topics, watching cute animal videos on the interwebs, memes that suit my broken sense of humor, spending time with relatives and caring for irls who I hang out with, listening to music(who doesn't??), visual novels, robotics in fiction and irl, subcultures that were prevalent in the 2000s such as the type of fashion style you'd find on Myspace scene or emo kids, anything kawaii/cute or edgy and dark, taking naps, snuggling with my stuffed animals, learning instruments and just enjoying nature scenery on days when I am more avaliable irl. I also want to travel the world or something similar when I finally can and to learn how to code so I can program my own videogame ideas but baby steps T-T.

Do not follow or interact with me in a free-form and casual manner if you are a proshitter/profiction/comshipper, fujoshit/fudanshit or himejoshi/himedanshi, are a lolicon/shotacon of any sort, are a transmedicalist/radfem, anti-neopronouns/anti-xenogenders/anti-therian/anti-furry/anti-alterhuman/anti-fictionkin/anti-otherkin or anti objectum(I don't understand or identify with these things but as long as they're not hurting anyone I support and don't find any problems with it), are a radinclus/"radqueer"/"TransID"/support trans racial idiots or mspec "lesbians", support AI Generated "Art" and NFTs or CryptoCurrency, is bodily under 13, are pro-para, are in pro-£D or pro-$H spaces, are a MAP/P£do, Z0o or Necro(Please go to jail:3), support DreamWasTaken or the Dream Team, support endogenic "systems" or fakeclaim random people without proof because they're cringe(Genuine mental illness fakers dni you suck and I pray no one with actual tourettes, DID/OSDD or autism cross paths with you for their sake. Lmfao stfu and gtfo). Also it should be obvious but anyone who's LGBTQIA-phobic, racist, xenophobic, ableist, misogynistic, islamaphobic, antisemetic, ableist, fatphobic or supports hateful and degenerate shit or problematic creators get out now before I block you<3.

Random thing that's not as important but Jeremy/Scout, John Creaseman, Postal Dude, William Afton/Dave Miller/Springtrap, Micheal Afton, Henry Emily, Vincent Bishop and me are in a complex polyam relationship so haters dni uwu(Please help me I wanted to die writing that emoticon *barf*). But seriously I know it's weird but they all are sort of comfort characters to me in some way shape or form so it's ok if you don't like some of them but please don't complain if you dislike them. I'll respect your opinion and you'll respect mine like civilized "adults"☆.

[bougiebutchbitch]

hello! i really like your art and your writing (kakagai is one of my otps) and i think your art style is really pretty, but i do have one question. please don't take this offensively, i'm just curious since i see a lot of mlm artists doing the same, specifically in the kakagai/kakaobi fandom.

why do you always depict kakashi as sort of smaller, weaker, skinnier... almost more feminine than gai or obito in your art? we've seen them standing side-by-side multiple times and there's practically no difference in size between them.

maybe it's simply your art style, but i'm only asking as i see a lot of artists feminize kakashi and i wonder about the reasoning behind that. i'm not accusing you of feminizing him, but sometimes that's what it seems like from an outsider's perspective, especially when it's commonly seen among mlm artists.

again, i don't intend to offend you or your art in any way, so please take this lightly. :)

.....my dude this is such obvious bait, even if you say you don't intend to offend. However, this is a serious issue so I will be answering seriously.

I suspect you have been looking at my old art.

I absolutely used to do this - to cut a very long story short, I got back into this fandom way before I watched the show again. Meaning I got back in through fanart. Meaning I was looking at a lot of other people's fanart that did this, and just kinda assumed that was how it was in the show. Then watched the show, went '......huh that's not right actually', and in my more recent stuff, they're a lot closer in size and skin tone.

It absolutely is an Issue, less with feminization (feminize Kakashi all you want!!! go for it!!!!!!) but more with racism and colourism, especially when Gai is drawn super dark and super masc and super buff and Kakashi is drawn super skinny and super pale.

I'm not really in this fandom anymore, so please don't bother trying to drag me into old discourse. Buuuuut basically, look at my new art. You'll see that Kakashi and Gai are much closer in size, and they either have the same or very similar skin tones, like they do in the show. This is a conscious change, because I was unthinkingly feeding into some Very Problematic StereotypesTM before.

However, I feel like I should say... none of that has anything to do with feminization? Feminize whatever characters you like! Be free and wild!

And like... I mostly interpret & draw Kakashi and Gai as gaay trans men, so uh. I'm really not feminizing them lol.

[sleepychaika]

so. ive been thinking a lot. about omori and about what might ensue post-SUNNY route ending. [omori spoilers ahead]

one thing about me is that if i join a fandom, it usually--with some exceptions--means that i mainly enjoy a piece of media as a form of escapism. so like. feel-good stories. or maybe excruciatingly painful stories but they have a good ending that leaves you happy, hopeful, whatever. good friends, best friends, an OTP or two--you know the drill i guess. not saying i only enjoy light stories, it's just that i'm always finding a way to sneak in something happy in there, or finding fandoms that know how to do that.

omori. might be my first hyperfixation (= a story which forever and ever will be among my most favorites even when the obsession dies down) which i can't enjoy in the same way i've been enjoying other stories (don't get me wrong i'm still enjoying it immensely)

because

there is no happy ending i think. as in, that's just not possible? my opinion on that is not set in stone, but for now that's how i feel about it

and my deal is that i Love the characters, i Love the potential in ships like sunflower- ok. grips your, whoever's reading this, shoulders. i love love LOVE the dynamic those two had before things went south. these silly kids were so cute together. But what i love even more (not because it makes me feel fuzzy anymore but because good storytelling) is how it makes perfect sense (to me) that it would be incredibly heckin unhealthy for them to start any sort of relationship. ultimately, i doubt they're even capable of becoming friends again, not just after what happened with mari, but also after what sunny has put himself and basil through

which is nuts. when you're used to, like, thinking about characters (either on their own or OTPs) and twirling your hair and kicking your feet giddily, when you'd actually like to go ^__^ and draw them being sweet together, and then you're faced with the sheer tragedy of the whole gang in OMORI, it's. let's just say oughhhggfggghhgggggbbbh.

it happened and, snap, everything fell apart. FOUR years of nothing, despite all of them living In The Same Town. they have already grown apart tremendously. i can see it, they graduate from high school and that's it—moving from faraway town, maybe not keeping in touch at all. why would they want to, if the memories are so painful, and if the memories that are good not just seem, but really are so distant now? it's healthy to find new friends, to continue living this new life away from the old one.

it makes sense, it all makes perfect sense!!!!!, and yet it's so damn hard to accept the likelihood of that outcome when you've been looking so long through the eyes of sunny/omori who's been abusing escapism biggg time. it's the contrast between how his dream world is and how the real world is that gets me the most, i think!

like, i have another favorite story, evangelion. it's also very tragic but... there is no contrast, the atmosphere in the world of eva has always been kind of hopeless, you just calmly watched things fall apart. OMORI, on the other hand, has that added contrast, and the SUNNY route ending is more bittersweet than utterly hopeless, and maybe that's what makes me wanna crawl up the wall haha!!!!! :'D :'D :'D

so i see all of these post-ending headcanons about how the gang would hang out together, all the ships, and like. 👍👍👍!!! but i can never fully, idk, buy it? it all seems...just a tad too good to be true? like an AU or something :(

i'm not complaining at all though. i enjoy the optimistic fancontent tremendously as well; this just is how the storyline of OMORI makes me feel, and i love it for what it is (to me). long ass speech is over, entering my silly mode again

[aurumjank]

Sooo... It's going to be kind of a "Thank you" post. With some prehistory and explanations. A really, really long ones 😂

You see, I'm a gleek (or rather Glee-addict) and a huuuuge Kurt Hummel (Chris Colfer) fan. I watched this show for the first time two years ago. I rewatched it again almost instantly (told you, addict!). And when I rewatched Glee for the third time and realised that things in it are not gonna change, at some point I started reading fanfiction. And this stories helped a lot with different things - some small and big ones.

First of all, english is not my first language (and not even the second, to be honest), but I couldn't read stories about this characters in any other. I tried, but since I watched the show in original language, I couldn't hear their voices in my head while reading in, for example: Russian or Polish. And then I risked it and looked up stories in English and... Well, let's just say that I'm a lot more confident about my level after two years of reading fanfiction then after years and years of learning it in school 😅

English wasn't the only school subject I learned (or learned better) while reading. For example, as a person from Europe I wasn't really good at American geography. Now, though, I'm a lot better 😄

Thanks to Glee I found out how much of a musical fan I am. And thanks to this show (but, mostly, to Glee fanfiction) I also expanded my playlist on Spotify. I mean, before it consisted of few pop songs and a lot of old rock, but now... When I put it on shuffle it jumps from pop, to musicals, to some rock ballad, to country, to more heavy rock, to pop again, then to classical music and even some rap (and I'm not very fond of this last style of music, but I found out there are some exceptions). It helps in conversations sometimes, to know so many different types. It helps me, as an introvert, to calm down and be a little more confident when I can use music to keep the conversation going.

As I already mentioned, I'm a Kurt Hummel fan (my OTP is Kurt Hummel/Happiness), so of course I mostly read stories about him. And sometimes authors do such an amazing job of describing all the details and doing this huge researches to make story more real. Thanks to this I started baking more (@elledelajoie, you mentioned Kurt making a banana bread in some stories and here I am today - made a banana bread for the first time! It's actually as easy as you made it look in your stories).

I also researched work in fields I'm more interested then my educational field because I got inspired by all this stories and some things that authors tell about their own lifes. I looked up some online courses as well. And in my free time I'm trying to do more things that I enjoy (for example: weaving bracelets, drawing, molding small things from plasticine and cross stitching). I even started writing a little bit myself (I don't have any finished things, but I'm not afraid anymore to write down my ideas and try to expand them to actual stories).

Thanks to some angst and hurt/comfort stories I learned about health problems and mental illnesses. It helped me notice some more things in people around me. It pushed me to research this more and find ways to help, to support.

But the biggest thing I learned is, probably, all the information I found on LGBTQIA+ community thanks to the stories that encouraged me to do the research. And while looking up information out of curiosity, I actually found out that I'm not "a late bloomer", "just didn't find the one", "concentrating on my studies right now". There's a different reason why I'm a 22 year old girl who didn't have her first kiss, because she didn't even have the real urge to do this. For a long time there were this fears and doubts and questions "He's handsome and she's gorgeous, but is it an attraction?", "How does love suppose to feel like?", "What's wrong with me?". And there's nothing. Nothing is wrong. I'm still coming to terms with this and I'm still looking for the exact label, but now I now that it's normal. It's okay, I'm just somewhere on the ace and aro spectrums. And it's such a relief... 😌

So, now let's get to the "thank you"s. Thank you Glee creators, crew and cast for this show. None of you will probably ever see this, but it doesn't matter. Special thank you to Chris Colfer (though he's probably not going to ever see this as well) for being such an amazing guy that creators wrote a role for him and for making Kurt the way he is (also for his wonderful voice, because it got me hooked and I was listening to his songs on repeat until I finally snapped and found my first fanfic). And huge thank you for all the writers. No matter what you write, how small or long it is - you'll find your reader and your story will change something for them. Maybe it'll encourage them, inspire or teach them something new. Maybe it'll make them smile or laugh during hard times or give them a reason to cry when they have too much bottled up. All I know for sure is that every single story I read did something for me. And for that I thank you 💜

@jwmelmoth @elledelajoie @simplysebastian @vcg73 @pixiealtaira @kurtbastianarchive @backslashdelta @cristalknife

[desultory-novice]

マルマホorマホマル?

The vibes are different.

Can I just say I'm so amused (/pos) to get this ask? Thank you for sending it in, Anon! And yes, the vibes ARE different between Marx/Magolor and Magolor/Marx!

Which do I choose? I think it depends on the verse I'm writing in?

"Marionettes' Pavane" is probably more MahoMaru, with Magolor's need for control making him emotionally the "seme" of the pairing. (And he's taller! Well, pre-accident...) Marx, with his androgynous good looks (MariPav Marx is agender with masc pronouns and non-binary presentation) seems to fulfill the pretty boy "uke" role. At least according to the old (dated…?) shipping roles.

(Note: I used those terms above ONLY as a shorthand - since this is essentially asking who “tops.” While I actually ship them asexually.)

Of course, real life is more complicated than doujinshi tropes (...I say, while writing a doujinshi) but Marx, who has a desperate need to possess something, ANYTHING of his own, receives fulfillment from knowing he is the object of Magolor's desires. He now "possesses" Magolor's intense affection. (That Magolor gives freely.) 

That affection/desire reaction goes both ways, as Marx - who is less “restricted” in his pick of partners,* since his planet is flourishing - actively chooses Magolor above anyone else. Together, they create a nearly unbreakable bond where their emotional need of the other one binds the two of them together strongly.

(*At first, it may seem Magolor is attracted to Marx due to lack of options, but as time goes on, it is clear he would still be drawn to Marx, even having his pick of people. Marx shares a commonality of thought with him that no one else does)

Talking about need, it’s not that they're dysfunctionally co-dependent on each other, as, after they find each other, they’re capable of operating independent knowing that they have each other there waiting. However, the threat of losing the other one again would be enough to bring them to the breaking point.

Then again, after all they've been through (post-Nova, post-Crown) they are the only ones who understand each other's deep pain and the tremendous cost of their shattered wishes. They’re the ones capable of bringing each other back from the brink of despair that hovers so close in the shadows. (That and their friendship with Kirby, but that’s because Kirby is kind of everyone’s miracle.) 

It’s hard for them because they each almost lost everything. The one undeniable upshot to their experiences was to find each other. To lose each other now? It would be worse than having their souls (...heheh :cough cough: ...) torn in two.

It's also more MahoMaru because Magolor is the first one to admit his love. And he does a large percentage of the "chasing" too. (Something something Master Crown…)

In little round blorbo form, it's more up in the air who takes the lead in their relationship. And I like to switch it up more often.

It can be a lot of fun when you let Marx take the lead in making these grand, unhinged, romantic gestures (like supergluing himself to Magolor*) and have him drive Magolor ever so slightly insane.

(*Tbh, I dislike that pic for being so rushed and so bad, but it’s an excellent example of the kind of hijinks only they can get away with.)

In direct opposition to that, but still very MaruMaho, I also enjoy variations on the two of them where an emotionally insecure Magolor is too stubborn/shielded to admit he could ever possibly LIKE the jester, and its the more emotionally in tune with himself (!!!) Marx who is prodding Magolor to confront his feelings.

:reminds myself to draw a thing I have on this topic:

Now, as a fan? I really like seeing both! 

Again, I do ship them; they’re my Kirby OTP (and probably my only “active” pairing) but I also just like seeing them together in any form. Goofball friends who bond over pranking the residents of Dreamland? Awesome! Fighting each other and destroying whole city blocks over something petty? Still fun! Bitter villains forced to work together to get what they want? Gimme!

I simply love these two.

[lilacs-in-space]

1. How many works do you have on AO3?:

9

2. What's your total AO3 word count?:

87,894

3. What fandoms do you write for?

I only write for Star Trek these days. I muddle between all of them as I tend to write for small background characters I've developed unhealthy obsessions with.

Back in my fanfiction.net days I predominantly wrote Star Trek Enterprise and Stargate Atlantis but I took a 20 year hiatus (more or less) in writing fanfic. I only really started writing again about 6 months ago because Star Trek Picard made me simultaneously so happy and so angry that my creativity just exploded back to life.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Not Your Typical Disaster Scenario (Discworld - Terry Pratchett) 

Eight Down. Yellow Bird Who Goes 'Quack!' (Discworld) 

A Way With Wordes (Discworld) 

Come freely. Go safely; and leave something of the happiness you bring. (Star Trek: Picard, Star Trek) 

Where the falling angel meets the rising ape (12 Monkeys (TV))

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Absolutely! Nothing makes my day like receiving a comment on a fic. I always make sure to leave them on fic I enjoy too.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I think my fav kinds of endings are bittersweet rather than angsty. A lot of the time they end with lovers parting, willingly or not. Love me a 'doomed by the narrative' type.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

A Way With Wordes - it ends with a wedding announcement!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No, which given that I've written for an insanely unpopular ship once or twice, is actually a little surprising.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

My good man/woman/rogue, I only write smut these days. I used to live for fluffy friendship fics, and I like to think I still inject a lot of tenderness into my work, but I am more motivated by the idea of becoming a good erotica writer than anything else these days.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I don't. I thought about writing a 12 Monkeys/Picard crossover but never went through with it.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes. I had a bunch of Spock/McCoy poems I wrote back in 2002 reappear over a decade later on AO3 under someone else's name. Not an archive, just some guy pretending he wrote them. I honestly didn't care. They were exactly the kind of mawkish tripe you'd expect a 12 year old to write.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Back in my day, sonny, we wrote fics round robin style through hotmail.com or on the yahoo message boards. (So yes, but we're talking like 20 years ago. I don't do it anymore because I'm in too weird of a niche these days!)

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Nebula class. Looks like a frog. I have a Nebula model on my desk that I replaced the decal of to make it the T'Kumbra!

OH, you mean like...OTP? Uh... I don't think I have one anymore? Back in the day I used to read a tremendous amount of McKay/Weir(SGA), Archer/T'Pol (Ent), and Jack/Sam (SG1) but these days I really enjoy reading about niche characters and ocs. Some of the best fics I've read this year have been oc/oc fics or obscure character(OC) and original character(oc) fics.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

You got me in between the devil and the deep blue sea - I was so taken with this idea when I started, then I got super sick and now whenever I think of working on it, I just feel tired again and don't. We'll see if I return to it.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I feel like I'm really good at setting a mood and drawing a person in with all their senses. I get a lot of comments about that.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I don't use one word where many will do. My chapters are way. too. freakin'. long.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I do this a lot, but I always put in the translations. If it's a sentence, I will place the translation after the sentence. If it's just a word, I'll put in a glossary.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Ever? Star Trek TOS and it was a Spones fic. On AO3? Discworld and it was Vimes & Vetinari.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

I am obsessed with A Perfect Match. I love delving into Romulan and Vulcan culture and exposing the similarities and dichotomies of two arrogant characters like Letant and Solok.

However, I am also very proud of Not Your Typical Disaster Scenario which I wrote based on a piece of art I found super inspiring.

If you’re reading this and want to play, I hereby tag you with no pressure. 🥳

[pose-a-day]

Tag collection post

Disregard if you find this in a tag search please, it's here to make tags easier to click and find on this blog.

Pose-a-Day rundown

I was taking more photos of my fancy SHFiguarts art models than I ever expect to use so I figured I'd share them for people to redraw. Use these poses for your blorbos, use them for your OTPs, use them for your OCs and your fanworks.

If it takes off I'll add the tip feature and buy accessories for more poses.

If it REALLY takes off I'll buy more models.

Current Notable Accessory Lineup

The 30 year old gazebo. I don't know where this came from but suspect it was a doll line similar to Strawberry Shortcake.

This Harley Davidson motorcycle is a 1:12 scale model from Maisto and was purchased to model for the boss of pose-a-day's webcomic, which makes it the second model motorcycle purchased for the same particular fictional man.

This couch is from Keenso and was bought for pose-a-day. Once again is specifically 1:12 scale. I liked it because it looks like an ordinary modern three seater couch, unlike 90% of collector's dollhouse sofas.

Submission Guidelines

Nothing more suggestive than pinups and cuddles, which is to say don't send me pictures of Body-chan with her face in Body-kun's crotch and expect me to post it.

I expect photos to be clean enough to tell what's going on but otherwise I'm not fussy about picture quality because these are drawing memes.

You have to be cool with random assholes using these as reference because I can't control that.

[scover-va]

Generally when you reblog things I feel like I ask for ???/Carla/Chandrelle a lot. So I’m going to switch it up and say Rust for the ask meme

My favourite old man!!! And my favourite, dare I say, babygirl

Favourite thing about them:

His fucking CHAPTER oguhgguughggugh i could talk about him and his experiences for HOURS OGUGHGUGUH. Hi. I am NOT normal about him. Tho genuine, less vague answer is probably just. Like. His personality? Like he is SUCH a good dad and i just wanna see him and Weasel Kid bond post-game yknow??? But also like. His entire life is the wastes, people wanting to kill him and his son around every corner, yet he still tries and avoid violence whenever possible?? I dont know if it's more of a genuine pacifist thing or if he doesnt want his son to experience all this death, but like. I kinda wanna lean towards the second option considering how quickly he resorted to killing and shooting on sight when Rocky wasnt there. And I know thats mainly bc of trauma and determination to get to his kid but. I mean. Shooting Jeremiah in the chest was NOT necessary. Anyways also hes silly and goofy and I love him <3

Least favourite thing about him:

Maybe not about HIM specifically but like. I wish the mind control serum was explored more?? Like it kinda feels like a useless plot. Yes it triggered Carla's hardcore mod, but unless she or Sado were in contact with Reggie and Jeremiah somehow, then that mod could've just...been triggered differently. And like. It's mostly Sado's actions that drive him to that brink of insanity. I cant remember if Jeremiah told him to go to the inn, but the ONLY reason i can see the MC Serum being important is just to get him to the inn. other than that. He joins in on the ritual because he thinks it'll get Rocky back. He's already a player character, he doesnt NEED to be controlled by the player. And also I think the potential of him being the dead body up during Junior's lil assistance section of VG2 is unexplored

Favourite Line:

Not even the full line, but. Mayhap. I quote it all the time. (Full line is something like "Can't fit in there. Someone smaller, mayhap" idk I'm not pulling up the game to find it) Mayhap mayhap mayhap. Hes so silly I love him <3333

brOTP:

Again, I think he and Weasel Kid should have a father-son dynamic, as seen in one of my fics. They both lost what the other is, and I just mmmmm!!!!

OTP:

My number of Rust ships is. Low. Admittedly. But him with Bryce and/or Lazarus <3

nOTP:

Obviously The Hex has like 10 fans, and the number of Rust ships is. Low. But I'm just gonna say the obvious notps; Weasel Kid, Sado, or Rocky. Thank fucking god this fandom is small because weirdos would use Lionel's voice line about never figuring out Rust and Rockys exact bond as an excuse for proshitting. So. Yay small fandom moment <3

Random Headcanon:

I dont know how random BUT while in the Wastes, he's fairly thin and doesn't eat much, only eating up to half of their food rations, often less, saving the rest for Rocky. But he had slight muscle to make up for it, because I'm sure carrying around supplies and a bigass shot gun all day every day + walking all day every day at least builds up SOME muscle. Once he gets to the inn, however, he loses his gun and doesn't walk around too much. After all, the inn is MUCH smaller than the wastes. So, he ends up losing muscle. Not to mention he's probably eating less (especially after the possibility of fully coming to terms with what happened to his son), so. He grows thinner. Though he DOES go down a road of recovery (probably with Bryce's help tbh, knowing how Bryce is) and ends up regaining some body fat! He eventually gets healthy enough that he slowly develops a bit of a dad bod :-) I wanted to draw out this hc but couldn't get the anatomy to look right so I forgot about it, but I am VERY happy I get to ramble about it now <3

Unpopular Opinion:

There are like 2 or 3 other people who talk about Rust enough for ANY sort of 'popular' opinion to form. So. That sucks. Does him being the skeleton in the GameWorks base count? Can I say he's smart just not conventionally smart? Like he can hotwire a car and picked up some German thanks to a certain nuclear sandworm and can aim with perfect accuracy despite having poor vision, but he can't read or do math or write or-

Song I associate with them:

I. Have an entire playlist for him. Whoopsies. ANYWAYS. Grief from The Devil's Carnival (ive never listened to the musical i just found it in a playlist a while back) and Still Here by Digital Daggers. Mostly Grief tho. But like. It's from Sado's perspective about Rust. If that makes sense

Favourite Picture of them:

His steam emoji <33333

It looks even goofier on my phone bc of how blurred it is

[crispn-n]

February 🎁💙💛

hey! I might start to write a monthly post where i post a recap of comms/freebies/whatever i got where people draw or write for my ocs!!! Not gonna include all of them, probably just some highlights with selected themes or topic.

I need to yap my thoughts somewhere and hopefully could appeal to you considering to support the creators if u like their work🥰

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It was valentine month.... it was supposed to be a month full of LOVE!! (of my otp)

Let's make this post adorable fureren comms I got/send around that month that fits the occassion back then 🥺💗

[ Artist, from left to right : Arutaego, Yachichan, Chokore_4 ]

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The last one was requested on february, but only got finished around April. It was a very worthy wait for furerenchwan summer-flavoured full course meal!!!!!!! AAH working with Reci is always a pleasant experience ;; v ;;

On this opportunity I tried to propose an idea "fureren sociolla date" for the sketchpage !! 💅💄 I have been wanting to draw a date inspired by the viral sociolla date videos. It fits them well, Frey is totally a boyfriend who will tag along inside the shop with Allen--Willingly learn and observe like a gentleman he is! (Pluus, also stepping in to stop her shopping haul lol)

Here're some sketches that is related to my sociolla date delulu. I hope to draw them out too myself in the future! hehe

During the progress; Reci suggested an idea where Frey is (sloppily) trying to apply a liptint on Allen for the first time ever. And I immediately agree with the idea!!!!! I like that in this piece, it seems Frey trying his best to get into Allen's interests as well.

By the way, while we're at it, I also want to show you this complete set of decorated icons comms from Reci as well. I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!! look at thems!!!!!

I'm thinking of getting another of these with my other ocs... maybe darlene and george...?🥺🥺? o-or wouldn't the whole six PABear family be great addition as well🧸..?! Gosh seeing the customized decoration around the character that resemble their character and personality ...!! Its so addicting....the artist always so good making them and put their own spin to the color palette!

Will reci accept this workload however... TT v TT let's just see in the future..!

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For the 2nd picture : When I received the sketch for the first time I literally jumped and very normal about it like WAH!!!!!!!! kak yachi's art is always so rich in expression and i love it!!! first thing i think when i saw frey on each picture is like, oh my god... they are so silly.... stupid... and in love.......(????) i LOVE it, they depicted their personalities perfectly. Allen's super cheerful and Frey.... frey's silliness beneath his serious composure is so real......

Additionally ; it is super amazing to be able commissioning yachi to draw fureren again.

The left one was comm'ed around 2021. When i haven't really started shipping them and yet working on their lore. CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE IT.... (note that it also consist allen's old design) When Yachi drew them like that, i was awakened.......Oh... i really like seeing frey and allen having this kind of interaction......

So this piece meant so much to me. Its great that in 2024 I could have them draw these two again with new designs (And i appreciate kak yachi heartwarmingly remembers them and said they enjoyed drawing fureren ; v ;! Its a honor ...!)

Oh oh oh! Additionally, since February also Frey's month. I managed to commission a frey-birthday-ish fic from Matheo (a writer). It was SO GREAT Q Q I havent got time to publish it on my toyhouse bc i want to draw a thing or a two thats related to the fic. maybe i will just publish it next year on his birthday bc i tend to share my fic stock like much very much later

oop and the first picture was a lovely cookie box commission! I fell in love at the first sight, i really hope i could find more interesting and cute ych like that~!!

Anyways, thats all for this post!

[my-pleasant-good-morning]

May I request A, J, N, T, and Y for that fandom ask? If that's too many please just pick 1 or 2 from these letters.

A - Your current OTP(s)/OT3(s)/OTX(s)?

Oh man. Lets go by fandom. This is going to be a long post from the shipping alone.

Warcraft: Renathal/The Maw Walker. Most of all MY Maw Walker Gadreel. They are just so in love. Like Morticia and Gomez Addams levels of into each other.

And I'm so happy for my DH about that. He needed someone who loves him back like he loves when he really falls.

But I also like other Maw Walkers with Ren. He so clearly liked the PC, you know?

Ok next. The Magnus Archives: LonelyEyes, give me the evli old men who have been divorced at least 5 times.

I also ship The Magnus Harem. Jonah had a club of intellectual men that all wanted him bad. And I want to read about it.

SCP: Yes I am one of those uncouth people who dares to ship in this fandom. But if you follow my blog you may have already known that.

I ship Grand Karcist Ion's polycule. Saying it that way is much faster than listing them. Meat jesus and his lovers. At the moment I have a craving to see him and Orok together in something. The best would be if that something was NSFW. But all I have is some art that is like "they sure are standing together". Small sub-fandoms make me wish I could draw people worth a shit. Or had the money to pay people.

J - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr

FNAF. And then it went in the "I should look into that some time" queue. And then months later I was board on the youTubes and there it was. A FNAF vid. And now I know for damn sure I am in fact a furry.

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)

Porn. I miss being able to find the porn I want. Twitter is a minefield and I take my wellbeing in hand if I go there. Reddit is full of het guys so want to stick big tits on things that have no tits at all. That is all fine I guess but it's not what I want. And if I have to see Mal0 nude again I will scream.

I want what tumblr had in the old days.

Oh that says three. My answer remains the same but I shall say it as Dick, Balls and Ass.

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending, about anything at all (gender identity, sexual or romantic orientation, extended family, sexual preferences like top/bottom/switch, relationship with poetry, seriously anything)

Way too many. I would like to say that no headcanon is worth dyeing over. I would like to. But I am not a reasonable person at times and nothing fucks my brain up more than someone telling me I'm bad for liking something. And I'm a perv when it comes to fiction. The anits want my head on a platter. They just don't know it because I don't talk about it if I can't add anything of value. I just lurk.

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)

Ace Attorneys. I know there are others but I can't remember names at the moment.

[mysticdragon3md3]

Maybe it's just today's general sadness talking, but…

I don't know whether to be thankful to Fire Emblem for getting me out of regular fandom interaction, or if I should feel sad about it.

I looked back on some old LONG posts from one of my "very active fandom" phases, and---wow, was I ever heated about possibly brash conclusions. But I remember loving feeling that much care about something, and feeling part of a community, and just everyone feeding each other's enthusiasm for something. It made every day feel more alive and gave me reasons to be spontaneously happy.

But Fire Emblem made me more aware, than any other fandom I've been in before, how constant discourse can be so exhausting. I've been in fandoms where people made horrible assumptions and misperceptions of me, I ditched, never interacted with those fandoms again, and even though those moments were HORRIBLE, they were just individual moments. Fire Emblem fandom has been a continuous series of discourse, then thinking everything was going to be fine, then running into both bite sized negativity and long-form arguing, all MIXED in between the good, positive content. I've never been in a fandom with so much beautiful fanart, alongside the in-depth fangirling, and positivity. But there's also so much muck, and that muck is so interspersed with the good stuff, that it's impossible to completely separate and avoid. So I distanced myself from Fire Emblem fandom participation. I mean, I still draw my OTP and browse positive analyses, but I'm so careful to keep everything at surface level, arm's length, and hardly search tags on Tumblr anymore. I used to search Tumblr tags for new content everyday. Now, I let it pass me by, because I don't have the emotional stamina to deal with possibly running into something really negative on a given day. So many other fandoms I've been in previously, were much better about not putting character-hate into the tags of the character's name and not constantly having negative things to say. I don't know why this is a problem with Fire Emblem. Twitter may have the most concentrated vitriol against favorite characters, but at least it's limited to short Tweets and there are more frequent posts of beautiful fanart. But I feel kind of bad for now avoiding Tumblr tags, when it used to be a source of so much joy for me.

But I dunno… Back in the day, I used to enjoy ALL the series I loved, alone, in a bubble. It was kind of impossible otherwise, back then. Back before the internet, the only interaction with fandom would be in-person, maybe once or twice a year at conventions. And I am kind of thankful to rediscover the value of the bubble, enjoying a series without outside influences. I do like outside input and other's analyses catching readings that I didn't. But there is value in forming my own opinions without getting lost in others'.

So maybe I should be grateful to Fire Emblem…for making me…"hate fandom"? What?!? That can't be right! I've just had some bad experiences in this fandom. Nothing as traumatic as my experiences in the Bleach fandom or Yuri on Ice fandom. But semi-daily doses of negativity that chipped away at me, until I avoided the habits that used to make me so happy. And I should probably mourn that. Maybe this is just a lesson in not participating so deeply in fandom anymore, but I can still mourn that.

[be-side-my-self]

Just need to rant a bit, everyone feel free to ignore it, I‘m basically answering the anon from another blog how I actually want to answer them.

Hey, I'm sorry you searched for your OTP and found my blog with some points against your ship.

But congratulation on shitting into my inbox.

You come into my inbox and throw into my face that I like tweets against your ship? Congratulations for being obsessed like that? Would you prefer I retweeted them? I don‘t do that FOR A REASON. Because I don‘t want my followers to see „ship xy sucks and ship yz is so much better!“ but I want to show OP „hey! Here is a twitter for your ship! Maybe follow?“ and if they do, maybe they see next time I write:

„DON‘T ENGAGE! DON‘T GO TO WAR! STOP THE WANK!“

Because believe it or not, I don‘t fucking control the fandom. Everyone is a fucking individual. Fuck, I‘m not even the most popular twitter account for my ship!

No matter how many events I organise, how many tweets I retweet, how many facts and pictures I post, I only reach a fracture of the shippers.

But at least I try!

Because dude I‘m in this fandom for more than 15 years, and more than ten with the ship. I've written hundred thousands of words about them. I've written essays and fanfictions and headcanons.

Meanwhile I've seen ships come and go. I have seen fans come and go. I have seen people trying to attack my ship and all they got was getting fucking ripped a new one!

I stayed.

I continued to organise to be there, to interact to write and draw...

And still after all these years I fucking try to be better.

I started with the usual „what?! Why would you ship two guys?! They aren‘t gay!! They hate each other!!“ and now I‘m at „You want ro headcanon my otp as T4T and gay? Sure. Go for it! As long as you have fun who am I to judge?“

I went from „ugh, my NoTP is so fucking annoying and I want to tell everyone who ships it that they are wrong!“ to „ship and let ship.“

And still not once did I come to someones in-box and told them annoying shit.

I AM SUPPOSED TO STAY IN MY LINE?!

GET A FUCKING GRIP, KID!

You say you like the ship? Then go and enjoy it without the „toxic fans“. Because that is possible, smarty!!!

NO ONE IS MAKING YOU GO THROUGH OTHER PEOPLES LIKES.

Just look for fanart just look for fanfiction and don't fucking engage. It's that simple!

And if you don't like that than you obviously don't like the ship so just own up to your opinion and say as it is!

AND DON'T COME AT ME WITH OLD NEWS! Jesus christ, you want to fight toe to toe?! Come to my level first, you fucking beginner.

I have better arguments against my ship than any of you little wankers. And you know why? I have reread the fucking source material multiple times! Reread it every single time I had to figure something out!

You hate us fans? WELL NEWSFLASH: Trolls are invading our ranks, your ranks and everyones ranks! Do you know how often I asked someone to stop to be assholes under NoTP posts and then they outright said they aren't even in support of ANY SHIP?!

TOO OFTEN.

GO OUT AND LEARN FIRST! You want to argue against a fucking professor with your fist class education?!

Dude you can only wish for my fucking dedication.

And then I hope you never get it because I put too much time into this bullshit. Into lines and colours and pixels. Holy fuck it's not real.

You see something you don't like? Take a fucking breather and move on. Don't try to swim with the sharks you baby.

god damn it.

And then probably the same person comes into my in box again and goes "hey, you think the author though lol those stupid xyz shippers again"

NO! I DON'T THINK THAT. THE AUTHOR DOES NOT FUCKING CARE ABOUT THE SHIPPERS! THERE ARE TOO MANY!

THERE ARE HUNDRED OF CHARACTERS. EVERYONE IS SHIPPED WITH EVERYONE!

The author does not give a rats ass!!!

And I won't answer your troll attempt I won't let someone call the shippers of the other ship idiots on my blog when I try to keep peace.

FUCKER.

Call me "sanctimonious" all you want. I know what and why I am doing it.

God damn fandom kids. Get out! Touch grass! Enjoy the wind and calm the fuck down.

Jesus christ.