#ONE MORE FOR THE OL’ [REDACTED] LIST

[redactedgender]

songs i associate with redacted audio characters - speaker edition

!! CW FOR MENTIONS OF ADDICTION, UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS, AND AARON & ELLIOTT'S BACKSTORY !!

this is gonna be exactly what it says on the tin. there'll be some explanations under the cut for what im doing w this!

to keep it brief, im giving each of the characters under the cut three songs from my playlists of them, and go into a little detail on why i chose them/have them in their playlists. sounds simple, right? i'll also be including links to the songs if you want to add them to your own playlists!

with that, let me explain what the fuck is up shjdkfdsh

so a bit of context: i grew up writing karaoke fanfics on wattpad, which if you don't know, were reader-submitted requests for specific characters to sing songs within a short story, mainly in a group setting at karaoke. this has made me extremely specific with music and assigning them to characters, along with finding "singing voice-claims" for characters. so, i have some credentials when it comes to this stuff fjdhsgshjgd

with that explanation out of the way, onto the fun! one of the songs listed for each of them will be their svc (singing voice-claim), except for gavin, because i'm still working on finding his svc (i am leaning towards dpr ian for him though because... don't go insane. yeah)

if that all makes sense...

let's go!

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gavin

horns - bryce fox

; so this is the song i used as the title for my big ol' gaviant smut i wrote (shameless plug shhhhh). this song is just so gavin, especially season one gavin. the sex appeal that oozes from it, the way the singer wants the subject so badly even if he knows she's bad for him. like, s1!gavin wasn't a bad guy, but he was kind of morally ambiguous in a way that could be read as toxic. however, as freelancer's relationship with him deepened, we learn that he values consent and being authentic, something other concubi don't. what can i say, i like good character growth.

human - dodie

; this was one of the first songs i put on his playlist, and for good reason. this song, to me, is freelancer singing this about and to gavin. it's about connection, it's about wanting to see what the other person is like under the persona they've created. this song is what happened when freelancer began learning about gavin past the "sex daemon" persona, but its also what happened when gavin learned about freelancer and how they were more than a "jack-of-a-trades mess of a human". listen i love the two of them so much.

sweet tooth - scott helman

; a more recent addition to my playlist, this one also makes a lot of sense to me. this song is about addiction, and while gavin like, literally needs feelings of desire to live, it also can be said that he probably has had an unhealthy relationship with sex in the past. i also just really like this song. but i think gavin has healed a lot of his attitudes towards his fellow concubi, with freelancer's help and of his own personal efforts.

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elliott

dream boy - waterparks

; we have reached our first official svc! awsten knight of waterparks is my elliott svc. does this is really match my face claim for him? kinda? i had this svc waaay before i had josh hutcherson as elliott actually. but, to talk abt the song itself, i mean. c'mon now. it's literally elliott to sunshine. the vision in my brain is that elliott sings this at karaoke before he and sunshine get together, but are definitely both pining hardcore for each other. there's something about the playful flirty energy of this song that reminds me of elliott in the best way imaginable. he's just a little dorky, what can i say!

wasted summers - juju

; i like some angst! im not all fluff and humor and smut. i appreciate a good angst now and then. my brand of angst is just kind of specific. you'll see that in a sec. but this song just reminds me of elliott and aaron for obvious reasons. how aaron grew up too fast cuz of their parents, how aaron felt jealous and angry over elliott telling him and their mom about magic, how elliott told sunshine he's the protective type because of how he grew up (side note i have many thoughts abt elliott & blake and protection vs possession if anyone would be interested lmao). their relationship just makes me go a bit insane /pos.

still got it - troye sivan

; ALRIGHT THIS REQUIRES A BIT OF AN EXPLANATION. so i basically have a whole mv planned in my big ol' brain around this song, and around the concept of: what if scorpius' memory erasing worked for longer? what if elliott genuinely thought, for a bit, that he and sunshine had a bad breakup, but that he still loved them? and still "wanted them back"? only to then have the memories, the real ones, come back in a flood of sensory overload and horrible realizations? see? i like angst. :]

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porter

brutus - the buttress

; first things first, i dont support this band due to their transphobic comments. that being said, this song is incredibly porter-coded. "my whole life you were a teacher and friend to me / please know my actions are not motivated only by envy" - like this is just about will and vincent. i don't have to explain further.

we don’t have to dance - andy black

; porter's svc! i liked this song for him cuz i imagine treasure is the first person in a loooong time that porter has actually wanted to stay around, even though he's so used to these one night stands and passionate scenes. and even though he really likes treasure, he still goes back to the old him: offering just to dance, just to fuck, just for this to be casual.

car lights - james marriott

; so i have a little headcanon that porter's maker was someone that porter was dating in secret because he (maker) was the kind of guy who would say homophobic things in front of others, but would end the night with his tongue down porter's throat (or something like that). this song is about that kind of experience: worried you're about to be caught despite it feeling so fucking good. also, this song just kinda slaps.

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lasko

stutter - marianas trench

; this song just makes sense, not just in the fact that lasko stammers and stutters a lot when talking (especially when he's excited, god hes adorable) but also in that lasko is basically a hyperverbal autistic/auDHD person who constantly talks even when they don't have the energy to do so (totally not projecting what) and i think that's representation we don't always see. also, imagine him finding this song and dancing to it? yeah.

eraser - ricky montgomery

; lasko's svc! does this surprise anyone? actually it might. i love ricky montgomery so much, his debut album is one of my favorite pieces of music out there and i think he's such a talented artist. his range and subject matter in his songs always screamed lasko to me, and ricky's vocals just match lasko so much. this song is about being socially awkward, which like. yeah. i have like four or five ricky songs on my lasko playlist which is really funny actually hgjkfdhsdh!

my mother wants me dead - carolesdaughter

; lasko "mommy issues" moore anyone? yeah this song is that. i know i could have gone for the mitski mommy issues, but something about lasko tells me his mommy issues are like rage. like, as much rage as lasko can have towards a person. the damn fam and their mommy issues. this song also plays into my hc that lasko used to smoke before starting at D.A.M.N., picking it up after the inversion, and then quitting again once he started healing and met coworker.

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guy

fallin’ for you - r5

; as you all know by now, ross lynch is my guy faceclaim. and while i love the driver era (a kiss is also on my guy playlist, it is in fact the best tde song), ross' voice during the r5 era actually suits guy a little more to me if im being honest. also, its a hc of mine that guy's family did music, but guy had a really bad falling out with his parents and it kinds ruined things for a while. r5!ross's vocals are higher than now, since this was during the disney era, but this song is just too perfect to me not to use for guy.

30/90 from tick…tick…BOOM!

; i mentioned this in my face claim post, but i had andrew garfield as my guy face claim because of this song from the movie. it's just like literally guy tho. we know guy's a writer, we know how writers are. as a writer myself (not professionally), "30/90" is more than just representation of someone wanting to peak before their past "the right age"; this is about creatives wanting to make something that will last longer than their life, and that just screams guy to me. i don't think he wants to be famous, but i think he wants to have a legacy of media he creates last longer than himself.

honey - troye sivan

; listen. "something to give each other" is my favorite album from 2023, and most of those songs remind me of one redacted character or another, so if there's a lot of songs in my playlists from this album, shush. anyways, this song is an obvious choice for guy since it's titled "honey", but if you listen to it, it actually is a pretty sweet (eh? eh??) song. it's about falling for someone and wanting to be with them, and since its a fandom wide hc that guy probably fell in love with honey upon first meeting them, this plays into that idea. look i just love how much of a simp guy is for honey, what can i say?

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if i have any more energy to do more of these i will, but my spring break ends soon so we'll see. also, i managed to make height charts for redacted audio characters & listeners if anyone would wanna see those (they would include my listener oc's). also, if you have any songs you think fit the bois, i may open my asks again if you want to send those to me :0

[veggiefritters]

eh, whatever, ill cut this one off. for mine and everyone elses sanity

nothings for my benifit and im starting to realise that. i should have picked up on it sooner, but i just trust people a bit too easy i think.

e dot g dot you need to come up and visit for your sisters benefit. hello yeah hi so uh i get that and all but how about my benifit

now not to sound like a dick because yes im worried and shit its my own sister but also shes been unconscious for a week. i have not and have witnessed every part of her "healing journey" (wild. why dont i get one...)

another e dot g dot is welcome to [REDACTED] we are here to help you work through your issues with [REDACTED 2] and then, funny this. so funny. the having to engage with this makes it all worse. i dont wanna think about that shit, ok. dont make me :( big ol sad and sobbing at that

totes unrelated actually but erm some of the shit ive been subjected to would have anyone who didnt use 7 vpns tor browser and a stolen laptop on a government watch list. have you heard of run the gauntlet. do not google it. do not engage with it. ive been made to see (most of?) that shit (and similar) and fuckin hell man it aint fun! i would rather taste my own piss. slash ess are ess.

this was also. ummmmm hang on mathsing. 3 years and maybe 2ish months ago so youd think it could stop being a parasite but nope apparently it doesnt work like that i. hm. weird!

i may have ptsd

not self diagnosing the doctor did say that perhaps a year and a half ago perhaps more recently i cant fucking remember!

is it still ptsd if its multiple somewhat related things or is that cptsd. im genuinely curious how do i google this

how the fuck do i get off topic im talking to myself

this is a soliloquy yall im shakespearing the shit outta myself its great

lady macbeth /hj

i think i will shut the fuck up now. sorry to anyone and everyone ive hurt cause of this sheeat sincirely i think about it a lot

[nicos-robin]

tagged by @eriklehnsherrr, my true valentine <3 one of these days you'll bake me something for my bday <3

list 3 ships you like - chex will always be THE otp of all otps for me, but rn i've been really feeling saboala, namivivi and yamace or deuace from one piece. i get that's more than 3 but ssshhhh.

first ship ever - mamouso or sailor moon/tuxedo mask, it's the first ship i can remember being really into

last song you heard - uHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH probably either just communication from one of the gundam animes or assu from one piece. i listened to them on my way home from work last night

favorite childhood book - the his dark materials trilogy !!!!!!! lyra silvertongue you will always be legendary to me <3

currently reading - i'm wrapping up my reread of egghead and then i'm back to reading all of one piece physically instead of digitally since..... i own basically every volume thats out in the west rn.

currently watching - just finished the first episode of abbott elementary (thank god its back ;-;) and now i'm watching some good ol fashioned inuyasha

currently consuming - buttered popcorn and some orange mio flavored water cause im a basic ass bitch B)

currently craving - i just ate and i am fucking full so what i was craving earlier was spicy tonkotsu ramen with extra bamboo shoots and that is what i got for dinner and it was fucking delicious.

lets tag...... @iam-jacks-redacted-information @nebulazenithstorm @fern-pajamabrain @latinokokonoi and @luffys-holy-chanclas

[frenchiefitzhere]

💕💕 self-love time! talk about which ones of YOUR creations (edits, artworks, fanfics) you like the most then send to other creators to do the same 💕💕

This has been sitting in my ask box for a week now and I was having a hard time deciding between all my individual works, so today I'm going to talk about... ✨a collection✨ In terms of songs, I was pretty happy with this, making 7 songs (plus a few bonuses, with one still to be released...oop) for Winter Solstice Week based on a prompt list from a friend. Meeting deadlines is very satisfying. (Don't tell that to my unfinished virtual choir project that I meant to have done before the channelversary 😅) There was a prompt for each day of the week, but you could choose which Redacted characters went with each day. So I did... 1) "Avior's Winter Dreamscape" (Prompt: Wonderland). I think this one turned out sooooo pretty. 2) "Hearth Song" for Damien and Huxley (Prompt: Hearth) **P.S. I would LOVE for someone(s) to cover this so it doesn't just sound like me pretending to be two dudes. Like, I can kinda do voices but it's harder when you're singing lol. Seriously, though, if you want the backing track, I'll send it.**

3) "This Winter's Gonna Bite" for Vega (Prompt: Snow). This might be one of my favorite songs I've ever done. The instrumentation tickles me. Big ol' Christmas bells while Vega sings about what a dick he is and how happy that makes him. 4) "Cookies for My Empathy Daemon" (Prompt: Holiday). In the style of 'I want a hippopotamus for Christmas' and 'Dominic the Donkey', this was a silly song and one of the first I finished. The idea is that Santa doesn't actually eat the cookies left out for him; somebody else does. 5) "As Long As I Share It With You" (Prompt: Dinner). Something soft and romantic for the vampire cowboy and his culinarily-inept werewolf lover.

6) "A Healer's New Year" (Prompt: Family). Okay, so I had to do one song as Marie. And 'Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas' is one of my favorites (I love a little bitter with my sweet, what can I say?) 7) "Frenchie's Christmas Wish" (Free space on the prompt list!). This is a meta-song about my little journey through making creative content and sharing it online. And it's a love letter to the fandom. 😘 BONUS TRACKS: "Baby, Mind If I Move in Closer?" inspired by the surprise return of Ivan. This is more a vignette than a full song. A little moment. All the lyrics, except for one, I either ripped (with credit) from 'Baby It's Cold Outside' or the actual script for the audio. It's meant to be a bit dark. Like Ivan. "There's Snow Way I'm Gonna Let You Go" for Regulus. Around the same time of the WSW prompt list, I signed up for a fic/gift exchange, and a jazzy little yandere number is what I came up with for that. STILL TO COME: I have a 'Blake and Bestie snuggling with hot cocoa' song finished, but I'm very blocked in terms of production. It'll happen.

[bgfashkii]

Info/Инфо (blog)

ENGLISH:

Half-personal, half-public collection of idiotic statements. The purpose of this blog is to create an archive of transphobic BG statements.

The blog will be ran as bilingual, however, there will rarely be translations of the screenshots (unless I have the time).

The blog will collect materials from reddit, facebook and other soc medias, from everywhere basically.

I am not going anywhere near the online news websites unless I'm feeling particularly suicidal that day (jk).

There might be some things from bgmama for dessert.

I will censor the names of the people being posted.

I won't be tagging every post with #transphobia to not clutter the tag

Sometimes I'll write comments under the photos, they are entirely my personal opinion.

#non archive posts - self explanatory

IMPORTANT! I don't know how often I'll update the blog. I have material to work with for now, but when it dries up I might not touch this blog with months.

Blog Birthday: 10.03.2024

БЪЛГАРСКИ:

Полу-лична, полу-публична колекция от идиотски изказвания. Целта на този блог е да се създаде архив от трансфобски БГ изказвания.

Блогът ще е дву-езичен, но рядко ще има преводи на екранните снимки (освен ако имам време).

Блогът ще събира материали от редит, фейсбук и други соц медии, абе от всякъде.

Няма да припаря да онлайн вестниците освен ако не ми се самоубива този ден (шегичка).

Може да има нещо от бгмама за десерт.

Ще цензорирам имената на хората от постовете.

Няма да тагвам всеки пост с #трансфобия за да не задръствам тага

Понякога ще пиша коментари под снимките, те са изцяло лично мнение.

#non archive posts - всичко, което не е част от архива

ВАЖНО! Не знам колко често ще обновявам блога. За сега имам материал, но като свърши може да не пипна блога с месеци.

Рожден ден на блога: 10.03.2024

Info/Инфо (OP)

A student majoring in [REDACTED] from [REDACTED], Bulgaria. 20 something year old. That's all for now.

Студент по [РЕДАКТИРАНО] от [РЕДАКТИРАНО], България. На 20 и нещо. За сега толкоз.

Important info about Bulgaria to the non-Bulgarian speaking people who might see this:

The word gender is used as a slur in my country, on the same level as fag and tranny. Any time someone says abolish genders/no gender(s)/gender propaganda, swap gender with the other two words. There won't be any difference. The Bulgarian language doesn't have a differentiation between gender and sex, the closest thing to the English gender is rod/род which mean grammatical gender (as well as lineage/family, depends on context) so that one is not used outside of grammar. The term social/societal sex has been introduced as a possible translation and might be the most common translation for gender.

The lack of a word for gender in the language makes conversations about trans rights extremely difficult because the Bulgarian people do not (more like refuse to understand) the concept behind gender. We understand gender roles and how different the woman-man roles are as a somewhat religious country that loves "the good ol' days", we have gender in that sense, but not on paper. So any trans related conversation starts with explaining the bastardisation of the word gender, how it should be translated into Bulgarian, the difference between sex and gender and examples of gender roles.

TLDR (but pls read it): gender = genderist = hardcore slur in BG🇧🇬

Favs/Любими:

List of terminology used instead of *trans people*/Лист от термини използвани вместо *транс хора*:

азбучни хора,  движението,  дегенерати,  джендъри,  косплей,  незнайно-полови,  организация,  организирани екстремни активистки групички,  педали, педерасти,  педрази,  полово объркани и неопределени индивиди, провалили се мъже/жени,  същества,  траверси,  травестити,  трансове, трансови, транссексуалните,  турбинирани дизелови еднорози,  хомосексуалисти, LGOLEDHDTV, TQWERTY+, 

[squeiky]

Apparently Shadow the hedgehog and Amy Rose are.. swifites? which, was a throwback ( my memory bang ) I was not expecting.

I'm going to my good ol' favorite songs now. I literally just searched up the top songs for Katy Perry and Taylor Swift and broke out into song just reading the titles. Though I've never been big enough on the musical genre have an identifier like "Swiftie"- (I've moved on to more hard metal and rock, haha) THE THROWBACK MUST BEGIN!!

hohoho, I'm about to take out the ol' portables, if I still have em lying around. (Probably threw them out after awhile, but maybe we still have some left.)

To be honest, I'm actually really glad these two characters are getting along. They're actually the two characters that I relate to the most (I've even grouped them up together in my au's and writings) and in a strange way, kind of warms my heart up a bit.

Hearing "you're a swiftie" though was one of those "WTF AMY" moments (I just sat there, flabbergasted), but god she is so cute.

She went "Strawberry shortcake" and I was just like "yeah, strawberry shortcake" with her. (though strawberry shortcake is really good! I had some, and too be honest it's not as good as dark chocolate, mocha or coffee flavored cakes, e.c.t. (yes, specifically those listed I make no exceptions.) though who doesn't like strawberries?)

I'm going to stop chatting here, before I start saying stupid things I'll regret.

Also- WHO HAS 12 FUCKING SKIN-CARE ROUTINES?!?! WHAT KIND OF PRODUCTS IS THIS MAN (shadow) USING?!?!? I CAN AGREE ON HIS LIST OF CONDITIONS ON THE MARRIAGE PART-(though I'm not a fan of marriage, at least his list is shorter than mine. Actually, thanks to him I might've added a few things.) -BUT SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHAT KIND OF PRODUCTS THIS MAN IS USING-

now I can't speak for myself because I don't have the best self-care routine (as of right now, I have plans.. many plans.) but I swear to god if this man has bottles, masks, scrubs-FUCKING WHATEVER- OF EXPENSIVE SHIT- IF THAT SHIT IS UNUSED I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL-

well, he's a fictional character, and it's not like venting about proper skin-care routines is up my alley. So I might as well stop here in-case I don't actually know my shit- and my memory fucked up whatever adolescent years I spent learning about self-care routines and rituals, and therapy- so I'm just going off of what I can remember.

but still, this pisses me off. Those (possibly fictional) products better be doing wonders making him look younger than [redacted] age, or I and going to a have a fit by sitting him down and commanding him to explain to me in FULL detail how each and every one of those products are working, and if there are better lest costly alternatives so. help. me. god.

I do NOT know what ancient being has erupted from inside the depths of my cranium, but this FUCKING CHARACTER keeps on making me discover more and more weird ass fucking things about myself, and I am conflicted, confused, angry, and utterly flabbergasted. I feel like an angry mom on facebook talking about how their child should've gotten a gold star for their kinder-garden assignment.

On that note, 100% agree with whom ever wrote this. We have a common enemy and that makes us allies.

[hollypastl]

the disappearance of [REDACTED] ch.1

miya atsumu/reader

Summary: "MISSING: MIYA Y/N" It reads. Underneath is a picture of yourself. Age, height, weight. Everything important is listed. How embarrassing.

Genre: angst/mystery

Warnings: missing persons, time skip spoilers

Notes: crossposted on ao3 https://archiveofourown.org/works/28726002/chapters/70432233 

chapter one: love is so short. forgetting is so long

He wakes up painfully aware that your weight is missing from his arms. It’s a little unusual. Most mornings, you two end up dragging each other out of bed. He’s not a morning person and you’re more than content to occupy him with your entire body weight. The flutter of your breath on his face and the gentle, but firm way you play with his fingers is soothing. Eventually, responsible thought wins out and one of you will bribe the other with a hot shower or an omelette. Usually.

But not today. His feet land on the floor after a good horizontal stretch and Atsumu yawns. He squints at the clock. 10:24 AM. “Hey, babe? Didja screw with my phone?” He calls, getting up from bed and heading towards the kitchen.

There’s a muffin and a bottle of iced coffee sitting on the kitchen counter, which he hungrily digs into. A part of him is resigned and ready to get caught red handed, scarfing down something which you were saving , but the second the banana flavor hits his tongue he knows it’s intended for him. Your distaste for the flavor is something even ‘Samu hasn’t been able to sway.

His eyes wander around the messy apartment you two share while he lazily munches away on his muffin and throws back the drink. Even through the mess, his gaze lands on a neatly folded slip of paper that’s stuck to the fridge with a Hello Kitty magnet. (And as much as he insisted to everyone ever invited over that it was yours, you both knew it was his. A leftover remnant of his childhood collection of random festival prizes.)

It’s a reach from his seat at the counter to the fridge, but he makes it without standing up or tipping over his chair. The coffee still slips from his grip and shatters on the floor.

“Fuckin’ hell.”

The safety hazard is ignored as he forces himself to reread it slower.

You’ve signed your name at the bottom, but the ink is blurred. It’s just a single drop, and he’s always known you to shed tears at the drop of a hat. He wonders what could’ve restrained you to not have wet stains all over the page.

It’s a joke.

It has to be.

The wedding ring on his finger suddenly feels tighter, like his blood flow is being constricted.

Your phone number is his first call.

He doesn’t know what he expects, but the vibrations of your phone on the table by the front door isn’t it. Whatever. Move on. He calls your parents house, but they haven’t heard from you. And you’re not at work either. In fact, when the boss gets on the phone, he explains he got a text early this morning that you quit out of the blue.

A myriadic list of other people to question is filling up in his head but he can’t quite bring himself to call.

The Jackal’s manager is buzzing him next. It’s rude, but he sends him straight to voicemail. Who cares that he’s late to practice?

He’s much too busy wondering where you’ve disappeared to.

Which is how he ends up nervously twiddling his thumbs in a police precinct.

The officer is rude. Actually, he’s not. He just thinks the guy is being a jackass because he’s not being particularly helpful.

“We’ll be happy to search for signs she was taken against her will, but judging by the note she left and that you found no signs of a break-in, it sounds like she left of her own volition.” And the absolute gut punch of, “Miya-san… Are you sure she didn’t run off with another man?”

He can’t wrap his head around it. The detective recognizing him barely makes him feel better. “Miya… MiyA-SENSHU? We’ll have our best investigators on this, I promise you! Can I get you a cup of coffee? Did you walk here? Someone will drive you home.”

He watches absently as the officer who drove him back pokes around the apartment. Pictures are snapped and locks are inspected. Your hairbrush is bagged as DNA evidence and Atsumu silently notices your sneakers and his favorite hoodie gone from the closet.

It doesn’t seem real. You should be on your lunch break right now, sending him a text or even calling to ask if he wants to go visit his parents next week.

When the man finally leaves, Atsumu’s pocket starts buzzing once again.

His breath catches when it turns out to be your phone and not his. The number isn’t listed and he stops breathing entirely at that. A desperate part of him hopes you’re on the other end of the line as he brings the phone up to his ear.

“Hello?”

“This is Kitano Medical Imaging Center, I have information regarding scans for Miya Y/N.”

“She’s-” He chokes from the lack of air. Isn’t breathing supposed to be something he doesn’t have to think about anymore? “She’s not available at the moment. M’her husband though, I can pass it along.”

They’re silent for a moment. “I’m sorry, but I’m unable to release medical information to anyone but the patient at this time. Thank you and good day, sir.”

He chews on his bottom lip at that. The hell did that mean? What name had they given? Kitano? Osaka General was closer.

And what about these scans you had gotten done?

Knocking at his door busts him out of his head. What was it now? He considers ignoring it but, “C’mon, open up ‘Tsum-tsum!” Bokuto isn’t one to be easily discouraged.

But the shattered glass still lying on his kitchen floor steals his attention and mutes the shouting, if only slightly. Bokuto will have questions that Atsumu doesn’t care to or just doesn’t have the answers to. Instead, he lets his teammate tire himself out while he sits at the kitchen counter, staring blankly at the hazard he has yet to clean up.

He shows up to training half an hour early the next morning, getting a headstart on lat pull-downs before anyone else has even arrived. The team trickles in slowly and it would be a lie to say he didn’t notice the little glances they keep giving him. Everyone is on edge and the scowl marring his face probably doesn’t help the mood.

“Whaddya’ mean it’s written all over m’face?” He frowned, shouldering his bag.

“Atsumu.” Even though your back was to him, he could tell you were rolling your eyes as you locked up the gym. “You’re chronically easy to read.”

“Am not!”

You rested a hand on your hip, narrowing your eyes. “C’mon, I think it’s cute how you wear your heart on your sleeve,” The door clicked shut and you swung around, keys and lanyard in hand. “If you want, I’ll let you in on the secret of how I mastered my poker face.” You offered, elbowing him.

“Hah! Yeah, right! Last week ya cried when Kita-senpai said ya weren’t good at cleanin’ water bottles.”

It was true, you had burst into tears. “Please. Fake crying is a much more advanced skill. I’m talkin’ about a good ‘ole blank and neutral expression—”

“Wait, ya mean ya did that on purpose?” He threw an incredulous look your way.

You rolled your eyes once more. He was so naive. “Senpai did end up washing the whole crate for me, didn’t he?”

Atsumu stared at you, jaw slack.

“Atsumu?” You waved a hand in front of your face.

“Atsumu, you good?”

“Huh?”

“I asked why you went AWOL yesterday.” Meian’s brow furrowed and Atsumu forced out an answer he had decided hours ago.

“Just a family issue, sorry I didn’t get the chance to call, man.”

He could almost hear your voice now, congratulating him on keeping cool. He feels sick. Like a kid who’s eaten too much for their lil’ stomach to handle and is about to vomit all over the floor. That exact thing had happened to ‘Samu once. It was someone’s birthday in their middle school class —he couldn’t remember who— and the idiot had eaten five pieces of cake while nobody was looking.

It wouldn’t have been a problem on it’s own. The glutton wouldn’t dare waste food by throwing it up. The problem came when he washed it all down with spiked punch.

The class had gotten in so much trouble for that.

Nobody had seen it happen and the culprit wouldn’t come forward. The entire class was forced to endure cleaning duty for a month and they were banned from participating in the sports festival. He had been so pissed.

Now it’s just a bad memory in the bad of his mind. Thoughts absentmindedly trailing back to you, (like they always seem to) he wonders where you had been during that incident. You hadn’t been friends with him yet. He didn’t even know your first name at that point. But you had been in his class. He distinctly remembers arbitrarily voting you for class rep because you were pretty.

And, now that he really thinks about it, he remembers seeing your arm slowly rise.

“It was me. I did it. It was a really bad joke and I’m sorry.”

He’d been sitting a couple rows behind you, so he couldn’t see the look on your face, but he knew it must’ve been painted with shame.

Nobody believed you. Without missing a beat, the assistant principal had kindly told you it was noble to try and take the fall. Your friend had tugged on the edge of your skirt, beckoning for you to sit down. Just like that, it was over. He’s surprised he can recall it. The whole thing, start to finish, must’ve been less than fifteen seconds. He doubts anyone else remembers but you.

He considers your words from back then. How you had said it was just a bad joke.

His immature ass, having stomach pains from laughing so hard, would beg to differ. Your jokes never fall flat.

He finishes his set and moves to the leg press.

Desperately, he needs to believe the past twenty four hours have been a joke. That you just left to visit a friend, or needed some space. But the items on the list keep adding up.

His eyes start tearing up and he wipes the sweat from his forehead.

[thirstaidkitpodcast]

THIRST AID KIT | S4E04 | MARK-PAUL GOSSELAAR CAN CATCH IT

Look, we claim no superiority when we say we never fancied Zack Morris. But grown up Mark-Paul Gosselaar? Yeah, we have lots of thoughts on what he can do these days and also how he can go about that business... 👀

LOOK AT THIS SHIT 👇🏾

From NYPD Blue to Franklin and Bash via Pitch (MORE ON THIS LATER) to The Passage, we explore what makes MPG the MVP... Hint: the thick, shapely beard he sometimes sports is a big part of it. (Nichole once did the necessary investigative journalism and sought answers. 🙏🏿)

Also part of it? Dem thighs. It gives his whole vibe a strong whiff of what we called “big ol’ turkey leg” appeal. We know we’re not wrong, okay? LOOK AT HIM.

Which brings us neatly to Pitch (RIP). In the annals of ‘gone too soon’ television, there is a special place for Pitch, because it was a veritable unicorn: black woman lead, with actual present black family members and friends, good writing, and of course, stunning chemistry with the co-lead, Mark-Paul Gosselaar, playing a veteran baseball catcher. If you don’t know about Mike Lawson, YOU BETTER ASK SOMEBODY (it’s us. we have the answers in this episode, and the whole season is on Hulu, US thirst-buckets). 

And here’s another thirst-inducer for us: MPG has lowkey been playing opposite black women and girls his whole career (Saved By The Bell, F&B, The Passage, Pitch, and now Mixed-ish) and while that means 🗣nothing in the Grand Scheme (after all, it’s not like he’s the casting director), it still means... Something™.

Plus! We had the usual [REDACTED] and a nicely varied Fanfic Wars. Basically, we watered our thirst, exposed it to sunlight, and then it grew into something that became this episode — don’t you just love when thirst flowers and blooms? Bless you, MPG. The real thirst MVP.

You can listen to the whole episode RIGHT HERE (more ways to listen are listed below).

SOME STUFF TO WATCH AND READ, IF YOU LIKE!

A REAL TREAT FOR YA: Sweet, Sweet Fantasy, an M-rated fic written by writer extraordinaire @lovedmoviesb (read her Richonne fics!) with stunning art from the superlatively talented @mdgart (Bim has a Michonne print of hers in her apartment!). YOU’RE WELCOME.

MPG on Fallon, talking about his mother

Shoutout to homoerotic subtext in Franklin & Bash!

Look at our double dutch KING.

Here’s a truly arousing clip from Weeds that we discussed that didn’t make it to the final edit.

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[seoultraveller]

You’re the sweetest!!😭💕 But same here I love reading what you’re writing and it’s just fun having these conversations 🥰 Ahh, I see :( See it as a learning process maybe? But life is tricky :// (Smh, recess time must be even more annoying🥱)

Omg yes absolutely!! Don’t worry didn’t sound creepy😆 I can understand that though 😂 My hair started getting curly a couple of years ago so it’s been a long learning process ! I’m still learning though because my hair does not want to listen to me lolll it’s the hair who’s in charge 😅 and thank you !! Exactly, I wasn’t too scared once I was in school so that was a relief :)) YESS ITS THE BEST SLEEPING IN !!!!

Yesss go ahead marry him he’s good looking and he seems like a good dude😌✨ Though looking at others charts is so fun omggg it can really tell a lot about a person 👀

And omg thank you for always reading what I publish, it really means a lot🥺 AGH YOURE THE BESSTTT ;((💕💕

OMG BTWWW DID YOU SEE THE PERFORMANCE PREVIEW ??? IM STUNNED LIKEEE WOOOOW

💖 💗 💝

No~ you are!! 🥺 Sorry it took me so long to get back to you. I’m falling. ... (either in love 🥰 or in obsession 🙃 with the soccer player & SAN! 😬) Yes, yes; I’ll do my best to see it as a learning process. Anything could pretty much be a learning process. How was your week overall though?

Play by Play of My Week: I arrive at the wrong side of the school and have to walk all the way across campus to the office. Once there, I tell them that I have been re-assigned to work there. One of the two ladies in the office says, “Oh, that’s funny. You’re not on our list.” In my head I am screaming 😡 NOT ON YOUR LIST! SO WHERE THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO BE EXACTLY!!! 🤬 They give me a map, because I was such a lost little one on the first day 🥺, and told me where to go. I arrive at the classroom and the teacher asks if I am set to be a one-on-one. I PROMPTLY say NO. NEVER WILL I EVER AGREE TO BE A ONE-ON-ONE. Too stressful. I’ve seen what it’s like first-hand, and some of these students beat up and hit their one-on-one aides. Listen I ain’t the mothafuckin’ one, two, or three FUCK THAT! The first day was easy. I just sat on my laptop, because although we are in-person, COVID restrictions still have to be in place. This whole entire thing is stupid. The second day I noticed that there are 7 aides (adults) in the class. Only three out of 12 students (in the class overall) signed up for in-person instruction but only two showed up all week. The ratio is soooo~ fucking off! Wednesday comes and I’m just chilling at that point because we are in a hybrid system. Wednesdays we are at home, online all day. Thursday, one of the aides struggles with the use of electronics and had an emotional meltdown on top of personal problems at home. I felt really bad for her. But only bad enough to WANT to go to the administration office and tell them all to FUCK OFF! (Would never do that because I have car payments to make 😉) On Thursday, the teacher actually bought us all lunch and it was pretty delicious!! Friday, we got to go home early and didn’t have to attend afternoon collaboration so 🙌 🙌 🙌. Over the course of the week I am less upset with the team that I immediately work with and more upset with administration in the district office. Anyway... ☺️

Okay good. I know that it can come across that way sometimes, not necessarily creepy, but weird... That’s interesting 🤔 So was your hair always straight up until recently? 🧐 It makes me wonder if that’s genetic. 😂😂 Yeah~ the hair is always in charge!! 😂😂

LOL 😂 I believe anything’s possible because we’re both human (🤞🏾if you ever see a black girl losing her shit over Son Heung Min... it’s me), but he’s dated Miss Korea and a few other k-pop idols. Little Ole’ Me ... can’t compete. 🥺 like... 🥺🥺 Yeah it can!! Looking at someone’s chart and thinking hmmm... 🤔 you could see how that works in someone’s life. It’s really interesting. His Cancer Venus ✨real fucking cute✨ but I think I like him more for his dedication and character. 😉 ☀️ ☺️

Of course!!! 🥺 ❤️ 🥰 💕

SAN NEEDS TO.............. [redacted] !!! TONIGHT!!! His part was so~ smooth. FIX ON! 🥺 bro~ stop! 😭 Yunho went on full-attack! I had to close my eyes. Black-haired Yeosang needs to stay. FOREVER!

[palbabor-writes]

Shota’s Cool Times Summer Jamz Mix

But for real, this is a Class 1-A Character Analysis, but with their music choices! 

So it’s editing day, and @albinoburrito​ and I got a little off track. It started with, what do you think Bakugo would listen to? And then it just spiraled out of control. 

So, here it is. Shota’s Cool Times Summer Jamz Mix

Izuku: Indie music, general pop, his dad’s old classic rock albums - was especially excited when he found out that All Might also listens to classic rock and uses it for his workouts. He prolly made like 20 new playlists after that and always tries to play them on the down low when All Might is training with him. He fucking loves it when All Might is like, “oh! I love this song”. Or, asks for him to turn the volume up. Has done some low fi for studies, but that’s really the only time he does it. He likes Young the Giant, MGMT, Alt-J, Strfkr and bands like The Rolling Stones and Van Morrison fill out most of his workout playlists.

Bakugo: Honestly, he doesn’t have any hard and fast preferences. If he likes things he SoundHounds them and moves on. He can cultivate playlists, but it’s not like he’s Kaminari level, having playlists for any and all activities. I do feel like he would lean more toward rap & hip hop titles. As well alt and alt rock. No fucking scream-o, or Eminem, please and thank you. Artists like: Childish Gambino, Travis Scott, Drake, blackbear, Missio, NCT 127, and Jaden’s Icon. However, he does have one low key, wind down playlist with sad, sappy songs that he had to immediately lock when the others found his Spotify. Shit like Band of Horses, Lord Huron, and Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish.

Sero: Indie and indie bops: i.e. Loud Pipes by Ratatat. Some rap & hip hop. Maybe upbeat alternative jams. He strikes me as a Gorillaz fan. He’s good at making playlists, he’s better at the low key ones. Things that you can comfortably listen to and don’t mind them. He doesn’t overthink this. If you hand him the aux you’re never upset. You’ll get bands like: Two Door Cinema Club, Passion Pit, St. Lucia, COIN and Coast Modern.

Kaminari: The KING of cultivated playlists. Like, has one for every occasion. Need something for a party that your parents will also attend? Cross generational? He’s got you. Pump up jams for specific people? He made them like a week ago and has choices. Makes playlists for certain people, but won’t give them out unless you actually want them, or ask him. Yes, he made one for Shinso after that training battle. No, he hasn’t worked up the courage to show him yet. Personal preference: he’s into all the latest pop & he keeps up with artists and tends. For upbeat playlists he goes for: Lady Gaga, Bruno Mars, Rihanna, Maroon 5 and Major Lazer. For low key playlists his go to are: NIKI, Khalid, KALEO, Transviolet, Noah Cyrus, and Bea Miller. His favorite artists waffle. They change rapidly. He loves them one week, but next week he’s got a new fav. He also likes the Jpop scene.

Mina: Hip Hop QUEEN. If it’s got a good beat she is all over it. MUST be a banger. She has mood banger playlists. Like, Kamanari, she’s got some good playlist cultivation skills. She’s also who you want to go to for road trip & sing along playlists. My girl loves a good upbeat “friendship,” playlist. She has a soft spot for some indie bands, i.e, MisterWives, Lorde & Billie Eilish. For her everyday listening needs she is all about: Run the Jewels, Lil Nas X, Quinn XCII, Logic, Calvin Harris, Nicki Minaj and Bhad Bhabie.

Jiro: She listens to all most everything. Massive, massive music pallet. Her family was always big on diversifying her musical tastes. Never let yourself be limited or judgmental because it’s not what you usually listen to. That said, she super big into rock and alt rock. She really like to follow bands. Like Paramour, Panic at the Disco. Bands that have shifted and changed over time. She admires that skill. Jiro cultivates playlists that are super specific and poetic. You know, those concept playlists that are like: enchanting, serene. You are laying in an abandoned castle and you’ve never felt this content and at peace. You are one with the universe, never in your life... Like that shit that’s like a paragraph long and you don’t even understand why, like, why is it so long? And so, specific? She’s got that shit locked down on Spotify. Mina found hers once, ONCE, and she tightened that security seconds later. She loves to listen to: Fleetwood Mac, The Zombies, Joni Mitchell, Terror Jr, Woodkid, Foo Fighters and David Bowie. Literally, she likes everything. Equal opportunity music listener. If it feels good it’s going in a playlist and that playlist is turning into a poem.

Tokoyami: 100% listens to GOTH rock - POST PUNK jams. Don’t @ him. It’s just his vibe k? Siouxsie and the Banshees shit, The Cured, The Smiths, and some good ole’ Evanescence. The darker the better, Revelry in Dark y’all. He’s a sucker for rock opera, that epic extra shit, but it’s also low key embarrassing. He wants no one to know of this. Like if you find it, go away and leaf him alone. Also, never speak of this again. He’s redacted, he’s not even on this list. You didn’t see this.

Iida: Oh my king, he likes some of that Bastille, Coldplay, Imagine Dragons, One Republic in his playlists. Low key, alt rock. Good ole’ safe, alt rock. But, he does like some pop songs. Not that he will talk to you about that. When he’s with his folks he likes to masquerade as a classic rock buff. But he’s bluffing pretty hard. He’s working on that with Izuku. He’ll get there you guys. He knows his brother loves it so he’s trying his BEST. For his pump up work outs he does go for that DAFT PUNK techno.

Aoyama: Oh. My. God. He loves flashy bands. Fucking Glam rock all the way. He’s also super, super up to date on the French hip hop and pop scene. Into people like Yelle, Phoenix, Soprano, Ayama Kamura, Stromae. Loves ELO just for the sheer operatic value. ABBA all the way baby. Anything exciting and anything that makes him feel invigorated. His playlists are a little scattered. He really just tosses whatever he’s vibing on in them.

Kirishima: You already know, why are you even looking here? He’s got the manliest playlists. When he was younger it was like, all alt rock, edgy stuff. Once he got to UA he cleansed that pallet. Not that he don’t go back to those playlists sometimes, but he’s also wanting to move on from those feelings. Now? He’s all about that positive rock babyyy. Anything that has a good, upbeat feeling he’s down for. He’s really looking for those VIBES. Things that get him pumped up and ready to go. Bands like: The Bleachers, The Mowgli’s, Banners, Jukebox The Ghost. Just real positive stuff, man. He also dips into classic rock for his workouts. If he feels like that rap song works with his workout jams it’s going in and he’s cranking it up. He totally found Bakugo’s sadboi playlist and immediately told him, hey, man, I have one of those too, emotions amiright? This is why Bakugo private locked his entire account HARD. Look what you did, Kirishima, you can’t see ANY of it now.

Uraraka: My girl likes pop. That bubble gum shit. But, she’s also has a superrrr hardcore rap playlist for her workouts, like, it’s kinda confusing. Mina found that playlist first and was like ????? I-Is this you? Like this playlist has DMX, Jedi Mind Tricks, Kanye, LL Cool Jay, A$ap Rocky, like, some tunes that get her GOING. But, she loves that cute Jpop and Kpop. She’s got tons of road jam playlists. Those you can put on and everyone is like, ooooooh, this song!!! She’s also has like 3 Disney playlists, for different moods. She also loves Girl in Red, Louis the Child, Hailee Steinfeld, and Mitski.

Todoroki: He...doesn’t have much experience with music cultivation. Like, he knows some songs, he didn’t live under a rock, but he also kinda did...so, that stunted him, in more ways than one. Thanks Endeavor. But, thanks to his classmates, he is starting to get the hang of this. He over thinks this stuff. Like, this music must speak to him. From Iida he likes Bastille, from Uraraka he likes King Princess, From Izuku he’s learned to love Grizzly Bear, and he really, really likes the playlist that Kaminari made for him. He’s leaning heavily on it to find some more tunes for his own small collection. He also learned that he loves anything that is hard rap as well. Especially if he can play it in front of Endeavor. You know, the ones are like, you didn’t fucking pay your child support, you ass. That aggressive, angry rap: Kendrick Lamar, Wiz Khalifa, J. Cole, 21 Savage and Montana of 300. It’s to make his father as uncomfortable as he possibly can be.

Tsuyu: Fucking rainforest and ambient noises. Not really, but also actually. She likes calming sounds, ok? Everyone was like, this is a joke, don’t be ridiculous and then she showed them her playlist of rain sounds. I mean, you go girl. But really, her collection is mostly pop songs, she likes them easy going. Much like her fighting and hero style, she is the glue that holds things together with the class in terms of music selection. Kinda of the bridging gap. Music that you just can’t complain about. Besides, why would you? What’s wrong with you? It’s Froppy. She and Uraraka often find themselves overlapping on their upbeat indie pop playlists, stuff like: Sara Bareilles, Oh Wonder, Kygo, Kero Kero Bonito, Taylor Swift, MARINA, and Regina Spektor. She did find Uraraka’s rap playlist and didn’t....approve. Did not want to use it for their joint workout. No, thank you.

Ojiro: Oh, you don’t get enough screen time son. You really don’t. He’s very low key. Into some indie stuff, like: Lumineers, Local Natives, Morningsiders, Manchester Orchestra, Vampire Weekend. He likes acoustic sounds, really down to earth. Once again, you cannot complain whenever he gets to select the music. Izuku especially approves when he plays his music because he always finds something new. For his workouts he prefers some heavy, heavy rock. You know, when you get to wail the shit out of stuff with your tail. He’s playing that Five Finger Death Punch in his MIND.

Koda: Nature sounds. Honestly. Full. Stop. Dead-ass he is living for artists like Corrine Bailey Rae, Hozier, Alesia Cara, Adele, and Maggie Rogers. He’s also got that Kacey Musgraves and Florence + The Machine on LOCK. Anything that feels ethereal and light is right up his alley. He likes it a little spooky sometimes. He does have a killer Halloween playlist, but he hasn’t ever quite worked up the courage to play it for his classmates. Oh. Also, listens to Enya un-ironically. He also might have a repeat problem with Imogen Heap’s Hide and Seek.  

Sato: He’s into new bands that I don’t even fucking listen to. He loves him some alt rock too. But, he’s not above that classic rock. He just likes stuff that he can head bang to. Not a metal head, but low key IS a metal head. Stuff like: Arctic Monkeys, Bring Me The Horizon, Highly Suspect, Royal Blood, The Smashing Pumpkins. He also has a wonderful baking playlist. Like 1950’s crooners. Think Dorris Day, The Ink Spots, Billie Holiday, Nat King Cole, and Frankie Valli.

Momo: Classical. Moving on. But really, she loves a good brain playlist with musicians, cuz they aren’t artists to her, they have a specific name for the work that they do: Bach, Debussy, Beethoven, Strauss, and some Tchaikovsky...some of his stuff is too much, even for her. She is starting to broaden her tastes. She really loves Sato’s baking playlist, those 50’s and 60’s beats are right up her alley. Jiro is slowly getting her to try out some pop and low key alt rock bands too. She’s growing and learning, y’all.

Toru: POP. That Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera MOUSE CLUB STUFF. She likes sing-alongs. Like has 20 Disney playlists and is always, always down to do a Grease playlist. You honestly feel attacked by how upbeat and peppy her playlists are, ATTACKED BY A GOOD TIME. It’s teen bop pop all the way here folks, no need to dig too deeply into it. She likes: Lizzo, Beyoncé, T. Swift, but like, leans into her hard, she is a swifter head, or whatever it’s called...Arizona, Carly Rae Jepson, Ariana Grande, Selena Gomez, Harry Styles, Katy Perry, and Kesha among the millions of others.

Shoji: This guy. He loves him some alt rock. He, like Ojiro, needs more screen time. He likely listens to lofi playlists fully. Like, not in the way Izuku just listens to them when he’s studying, but like, for fun. Like he actually GETS them, you know? He likes bands like: Cage the Elephant, Beck, Broken Bells, Modest Mouse, The Killers, Neon Trees and Grouplove. For real tho, he needs more screen time.

Aaaaaaaand Mineta: He needs less screen time. Thank you your honor, I rest my case. Um, but like, he’s down for that dirty rap. Like, the slimier the better. If it’s ass, money, pussy, he’s on it. Big Sean is his hero. He thinks the Weekend is the best singer known to man. If this upsets you, I am sorry. I love him too, but sometimes we gotta face the truth. Mineta loves, loves, loves the Weekend. He’s also super down on the Megan Thee Stallion train. Oh, and Cardi B too. He also likes Tyga and Sage the Gemini. These are his top pics. His current ringtone is WAP and Aizawa nearly snapped his phone in half when he heard that go off in his classroom.

Bonus: 

- Aizawa: Yes, he has heard WAP. He’s literally attached at the hip to a dj and you know Midnight and Present Mic were all over that song when it was released. Those two tried to do that tiktok choral rendition of it. It didn’t go well. But seriously, this man likes a little bit of everything. He’s a no-fuss, low key guy and his music tastes are the same. He likes alternative and indie the most. Some of that: Sylvan Esso, Silversun Pickups, The Black Keys, The Flaming Lips, The Strokes, Cake, Incubus, and the Deftones. While he has no time to cultivate playlists, he does have a grading playlist that he quickly threw together. It helps him to zone in and work. Yes, Present Mic likes to add funky shit to it, just to ruffle his feathers. In the worst universe, slash in THIS universe, Aizawa was too lazy to get his own Spotify and he shares one with Present Mic. That poor algorithm has no idea what to recommend. He’s just waiting for that cease and desist letter from Spotify’s fraud department. Any day now.

Alright! Hope ya’ll liked it. Lemme know if you want more. We kinda started on one for the LOV, but it’s not finished just yet. In other news, we WILL edit the new chapter of “Look Upon the Light” tonight, don’t worry, we’ll be good. It should be out in the next few days. 

[ask-sakky-bear]

Journal Entry #2: Ghosts

The second installment for my podcast idea - this is a much longer read!

Also, I don’t recall if I mentioned this in my first post about it, but this is set in a Naruto Alternate Universe - modern setting, no ninjas, but supernatural things exist. That sort of things.

[Sooo, I lied, it’s 4:39 in the morning and I can’t sleep, so might as well do something useful. Without further ado:

Date: July 15th..er, 16th, 2015

Time: now 4:40 am

Subject: Ghosts.

I figured the best way to approach this was to start with the subject I know most about. Or, have had the most experience with, at least. I guess we should start with what a ghost actually is.

According to a quick internet search, a ghost, as it is commonly thought of has...surprisingly many definitions. That definition seems to include the concept of a disembodied spirit. Merriam-Webster, the world’s leading authority on all things needing to be defined, lists seven definitions for the noun “ghost” - only four of them I believe are actually relevant to this discussion:

 The seat of life or intelligence - the soul;

Spirit or demon;

A disembodied soul: especially, the soul of a dead person believed to be an inhabitant of the “unseen world”, who appears to the living in bodily likeness; and

A faint, shadowy trace

Now, I also looked at a few other online and physical definitions, so no one can accuse me of not being thorough here, and they all say much the same thing. The soul of a dead person, a disembodied spirit, a “vague, shadowy, or evanescent form”, a spirit that haunts the living, etc, etc. So, everyone seems to agree with what they think a ghost is. They’re mostly right. Let’s unpack good ol’ MW’s definitions, first, to get a better picture of what a ghost is.

A soul.

...

Okay, to be completely honest with you, I really don’t want to unpack that one. There’s a lot of religious implications, philosophical debates, and shaky science wrapped up in that one word to include in this one entry. I might make a different entry in regards to that later, but for the sake of expediency and to stave off the migraine it’ll give me, I’ll just state this: One could consider the soul to be our consciousness, that...something, which makes us who we are individually. I think this is the simplest way to describe what I’ve encountered with ghosts. Anyway, I'm going to leave this bit for now and come back to it, as I believe it is important for our definition.

Second definition: I’m going to go ahead and explicitly state this on record that ghosts, spirits, and demons are not the same thing. Some might try to argue that a ghost is a type of spirit, but let me tell you, in my experience, they are very different entities and will get offended if you insist otherwise. 

You do not want to offend a spirit. 

Trust me. 

I’ll make further entries to explain myself later, but for now, that’s all I have to say. Back to the subject.

I believe the third definition is important to look at in defining ghosts, because it is the closest to the truth. Particularly in the aspects of “disembodied” and “unseen”.

Typically, a ghost does not have a physical body. This may confuse some people, if you take into account how many ghosts are able to interact with the physical world. I guess what I mean to say is that the body and ghost are generally two separate things, as a ghost can exist in cases where a body does not, be it cremated, or in various stages of decay. (Note: attention should be drawn to some instances where this is not the case; see for instance the entry on ju-on. End note). I am not quite sure what mechanism allows ghosts to physically affect the world around them, but perhaps future entries and study will shed some light.

I particularly believe that the lack of a physical body is what makes ghosts “unseen”. The limits of human physicality make it so that anything nonphysical is almost impossible to perceive. I say almost, because there have been several individuals I have met who exhibit the unnatural ability to see ghosts - myself included. So, to summarize here two aspects of ghosts that are important in its definition: a ghost is typically some disembodied entity that is unseen by most, but has the ability to affect the physical world.

Definition number four, and honestly, the most accurate depiction of a ghost: “A shadowy trace”. At the heart of it, a ghost is really just that. A trace. Or, to give a better word for it, an imprint. 

This is where I want to bring back in the early definition of a soul. Throughout our lives, we exist and experience the world. Our experiences shape who we are, how we think, and how we experience our experiences. I can’t say what exactly a “soul” as a single entity is or what happens to it after we kick the bucket, but I do know that occasionally a soul doesn’t disappear from this world. Like I said earlier: it makes an imprint.

How is an imprint made, you might wonder? Well, that’s where the whole thing with experiences comes into play. If you’ve lived a decently normal life and die without complaint, you don’t typically make a substantial imprint. Sure, I’ve come across the odd imprint of love for a place or person, but it’s usually not something pleasant that causes a ghost to form. Think murders, rights left unperformed, hating one's circumstances in life, that sort of thing.

As you can imagine, this tends to cause a lot of problems for the living. Oh sure, you usually come across the haunted house or temple, where you may get a whiff of cigar smoke or hear disembodied laughter in the room over. Those hauntings are pretty easy to get rid of - either you learn to ignore them or just have your local priest come round and say a few blessings. But sometimes, people die violently and suddenly and the emotions they feel at death are enough to make a stronger imprint. 

Those are your more..cookie cutter hauntings. And usually where I, or you know, an actual exorcist comes in. 

Like I mentioned before, I have no idea what allows these stronger imprints to actually interact with the living, but they can, and usually it’s not very pleasant.

I guess I should talk about how ghosts typically interact with the living, while I’m thinking about it. That’s a little tough to explain, from my experience. Actually, that’s a good way to explain it - an experience.

 Most people think that ghosts talk to people like how I’m talking right now. You know, straight, linear conversations. But that’s not the case. See, a ghost is just a memory the person leaves behind, hence an imprint, yadda yadda. Our only way to interact with them is to experience them. This usually takes the form of memories cropping up in dreams, unexplained scents/sounds, or a physical manifestation of the life or death of that individual. Above all, there’s the emotions that caused the ghost to manifest. Those are typically the worst, since they tend to cause personality shifts, paranoia, and the like.

Umm, maybe if I explain it like this, it’ll make a little more sense:

About 3 or 4 months ago, (Redacted) and I - sorry, my partner and I, came across a haunting. It was your typical set up - a family of four moves into a new house for surprisingly cheap and everything seems to be going okay. The neighbors are nice enough but a bit dodgy and uncomfortable with the house, like they know something unpleasant about it, but you write it off cuz this is a new leaf for you guys. 

Anyway, things are going fine for the first few weeks, when the weird things start happening. Footsteps from the second floor when no one’s there, feeling like something is in the room with you, an odd whiff of cologne that doesn’t belong to the husband, that sort of thing. They do the normal thing, find out that there had been a death in the house years prior and get a monk to come say a few blessings. Life goes on. Only, things start to get worse.

The most notable change was with the family’s youngest, a boy around 12. He was described to us as your typical introverted boy, shy but sweet and considerate. It’s usually like this, for some reason. Perhaps it’s the tendency to be on your own that draws ghosts to you like flies. Or maybe it’s something in your makeup that allows you to see ghosts and that in itself makes you introverted. I dunno. In any case, there’s a big enough shift in the kid’s personality to warrant alarm. The part that alarmed the mother the most, however, was the sudden...marks that showed up on the boy. Bruises that had no explanation and, the worst part, circular burns popping up in places under sleeves and pant legs. 

At first, the husband was suspected. Pretty logical conclusion, really, given all the signs. A husband in a stressful job, the boy suddenly becoming withdrawn, flinching from sudden contact, drawing images of a “monster” that supposedly came in at night to hurt him. Most of the child psychologists came to the same conclusion. A case would have been made, I think, if it wasn’t for two unexplained facts: first, the boy mentioned that there was an older figure who tried to protect him, though his older sister claimed she had no knowledge of anything bad happening, and second, the boy kept insisting that it wasn’t his father hurting him.

Most officers kept trying to explain these things away, but thankfully, the mother was introduced to me before any real litigation could happen and I was able to help. I do, however, want to take a moment to make something clear. I do not want to undermine the importance of social workers and the severity of child abuse. Not every instance of child abuse turns out to be a haunting, and I find these usually tend to be isolated incidents. The conclusions of the officers and social workers would have been correct in any other circumstance. The only reason litigation was withheld in this instance was because of the testimony of the young boy and my ability to sense the ghost in question.

Ah, crap, this is starting to get away from me. Um, alright. Long story short, there was in fact a ghost haunting the house, but only one, and that particular ghost was not the one harming the small boy, not intentionally at least. What had happened, apparently, was that the death in question had happened roughly ten years prior - a 15 year old boy was found hanging in his upstairs room. Ruled a suicide. The autopsy revealed what looked to be signs of abuse, but because the boy's father was some high ranking public figure, it was ruled as self harm in court. There was a lot of back and forth, but eventually, the father managed to get off on some minor charge. He paid a fine, got put on some watch list, was supposed to serve community service but got out of that, too. The suicide ruling stayed in place, however, and for the neighbors, that was the case.

Plot twist: that was absolutely not the case. Unsurprisingly, if I’m honest.

The real story, I was able to find out, was that the father had strangled his son in a drunken rage and then set the body to avoid guilt. While he was still incarcerated, he got away with murder, basically. From what I could tell, the teenager had been subjected to heavy abuse for most of his life, never really speaking up but also not being noticed, even though it was relatively obvious from the outside. His last moments...the boy really just wanted someone to notice what was happening, really. To notice and to hold his father accountable. I know this because I got to relive his last moments.

That’s what I’m trying to get at when I say you “experience” a ghost. I didn’t sit down and have a conversation with the ghost, asking for his backstory. I literally experienced it. I felt his memories as if they were my own, the pain and suffering that stood out to him the most, and of course, his final moments. That’s probably the scariest part about ghosts, if I’m honest. When you experience them, you often find yourself subjected to their final moments. Most people don’t survive them, actually. It’s hard to explain, actually, but sometimes when a ghost is formed, they pull in a manifestation of whatever killed them or caused their deaths. That’s what happened in this case - the boy’s father was such a huge part of the abuse and neglect in his life that the imprint included that terrible memory of his father, even though his father wasn’t actually dead. 

Well, it’s not like I have any other evidence to support what I’m saying. All I have is my word. That’s unfortunately the case with a lot of supernatural entities, sadly. You can’t really prove they exist unless you experience or meet them, so a lot of my work is carried out in secret. Or just because someone knows me and nothing else was working and...well, you get the idea.

Anyway, this is starting to get away from me again. And it’s really late. Early. Whatever, I’m tired in any case. This is probably not making any sense at this point. Then again, these are really just for me, so I guess it’s okay that they don’t make that much sense to anyone else. So let’s wrap this up; to summarize:

A “ghost” can be constituted as simply the imprint of a soul; the ghost is usually the imprint of a deceased individual, a memory so to speak that is formed by some fiercely felt emotion that occurred at death. They lack a physical body, which makes them generally “unseen” by most individuals, however, there are some that are able to see/interact more effectively with ghosts. 

How physical interaction is achieved and why some individuals are more susceptible to ghost encounters are questions I hope to answer in the future. My current theory is that in the “experiencing” of a ghost, the trauma is somehow transferred to the living individual - it is perhaps the strength of the negative emotion that has some affect on the living world. In any case, experiencing a ghost can range from something small and innocuous, such as disembodied sounds, smells, or emotions, to...fatal encounters...

Hopefully, recounting my previous missions that have involved ghosts will be more enlightening.

That’s really all I have on the subject at the moment, between my scattered notes, personal anecdotes, and...admittedly sparse book research. In the future, I’ll try to find better ways to actually test my theories and collect physical evidence of the things I come across. Definitely categorize the types of ghosts. I would also like to be able to incorporate anatomical drawings of some of the things I deal with, though many of the spirits tend to be...secretive. Well, that can wait for future entries. In the meantime, I’ll try to dig up actual physical books on these subjects. That is, if I can dig them up at all...]

[taveic]

If it’s not too much

1,2,3,4,7,8,13,14,18+ teneri

Because I can’t get enough of him

1. Their physical weak spots

physically, he just isn’t really a strength type of guy at all- when his jobs involve assassination he’ll generally just poison them and be done with it. When he does have to fight he relies more on agility than anything else.

2. Their emotional/moral weak spots

well his moral compass is a pocket watch that's missing a hand, so that’s not great-  emotionally he’s not great with anything that brings up his past- but he deals with this uncomfortable bit by simply avoiding it.

3. Scars or painful spots

he has a big ol’ scar on his right shin reaching up past his knee that he got from [REDACTED] he doesn't like to look at it, great reason to ware thigh highs though

rest under read more so the post doesn't get too long 

4. Best places to kiss on their body

Teneri is not picky with kisses, but he thinks its cute when people kiss him on his cheek spots.

7.Their tickle spots

not all that ticklish actually, but if you pet his head he purrs

8.Bad memories/experiences

his whole childhood is one very long, very bad memory; which is why he refuses to think, talk, or let anyone know about it

13.What gets them flustered

Pretty hard to get him flustered , but being gentle with him- or making him angry will usually do the trick

14.Ingrained habits/forces of habit

he sleeps curled in on himself to protect his belly, even if he’s at his own house and he’s 100% not in any sort of danger

18.Things they’ll never admit

This is a long list- but the big check points are: he’ll never admit to anything about his past, actually caring about anything, being afraid, or to having any sort of regrets or wishes. He rather just be generic pretty cat boy then deal with that sort of thing.

[prorevenge]

Hey politician/boss! No IT system for you. Have a good start of year.

Really long, but it's worth it.

First the background. I used to work as an IT assistant for the government (not United States, not saying more) in education, I worked in the coordination of a subsystem for highscool level education focused in creating and administrating new schools in small rural towns, so each school could not have more than 100 students (otherwise, the school was passed to another subsystem). This administration system was new for my state and was only 5 years old, yet it was still not fully recognized (think of it being in betha mode). Also because of that, most of its work and methods were improvised and adapted to fit the way things were.

My state is big and a lot of it has mountains, this means that the furthest school was 20hrs away from the state's capital and the fastest way (which took 5hrs) was taking a light aircraft, (which is expensive considering the low salaries of the teachers). That also means that a lot of the communities didn't have access to internet, some didn't even have light, so my Immediate boss (the supervisor of the IT department) who is a cool and easygoing lady with a degree in software development, made an entire software system from zero to make the job easy for everyone. This way, teachers on remote communities only had to travel to the nearest town with internet and only go to the coordination. Everything ran smooth.

However, the state was too cheap to pay for the hosting and the domain name, so she paid for all of it. Also, since it was not really recognized as a full subsystem our contracts said we were just teachers, so software development was not listed as part of the job (These two details are important later).

Since it is a government system, elections changed everything. The old boss got replaced by a politician who didn't knew how things worked. He immediately started to question how things worked. The flexibility and decentralization were the things that he didn't liked the most since it escaped his control. He started to change things his way but the senior staff are not push-overs and tell him how some of his ideas are bad in a very gentle and well-explained way... he doesn't care and act likes an asshole. Then, as a good ol' politician, he begins to hire "recommended workers" (family and friends of other politicians), which are more malleable. Once they are established, the boss then fires my supervisor and replace it with a recommended worker. He also fires the supervisor of Human resources... who was the husband of my supervisor ... and does this at the end of the year.

Now, being education-related, the start of the year is really busy, so everyone (but the recommended) adviced against it. But boss is a politician, he has experience in administration and he trusts that this new blood will be able to pull it off.

Until the bad news arrived: my supervisor blocked the software so no one could use it unless she is paid for it. The boss is outraged and starts to work in a sue. He starts being an asshole with the old guard for "being complicit", so they quit (around 45% of all the staff) ... including the layer (the only worker in the legal department). He then takes it on my and asks me to rebuild the system, and gives me a week to do so... my speciality is design and front-end so I tell him I can't. A long angry sermon later, I quit.

He sues her, but the demand is really badly redacted and does not proceeds because all of the software was at her name. She only gives back a raw SQL database and that's it.

So the year starts and the teachers are furious that the system is not working, and that they have to handle everything through the institutional mail (which is awful to use in slow internet connections) and had to do several trips to the coordination. The parents are not happy at all either, and we are talking about country folk and indigenous people, not precisely the kind of people you like to mess with.

Chaos followed. The state's secretary of education wasn't happy at all.

tl;dr new boss is asshole fires two very important employees including the developer of the internal system. She blocked the system and the demand of the boss fails. 45% of the most experienced employees quit too. Chaos

(source) story by (/u/KetzerMX)

[queenofbaws]

You write outlines for your chapters? What is your writing process?

I do! I’m huge on outlining just because I know my brain and if I don’t give myself parameters then I’ll absolutely end up waxing poetic about nothing in particular for six pages, haha!!

And I’ve done that. (Sorry KH fandom, I purpled all your prose :\ )

HOW I outline chapters really sort of varies depending on the project I’m working on…so for things like my ghost hunting AU and the Dragon Age stuff I have underway, usually I just list the key points I want to hit.

But then, like. There’s The (Almost)s, and just…I’m gonna put the rest under the cut so I’m not clogging dashboards, but HEY! If you want to know more about my writing process and see some EXTREMELY redacted notes for upcoming chapters of TA, click away!!

Much like with my older, beefier multichaps (Book of Retribution, Soft Reset), the thing about The (Almost)s is that, uh…there are a great many things that I need to (1) keep track of so that they can pay off, (2) seeds I need to sow at particular times, and (3) shape in the right way so that they fit together with previous and future chapters.

Maybe that reads like word salad to you guys, maybe it makes sense, but I REALLY don’t want to spoil too much, so until this beast of a story is done and I have that big ol’ COMPLETED checkmark on AO3, it’s just gonna have to do for now XD

I have roughly a million documents that I use to help me do all these things, but the biggest ones are…

I labeled junk just for the sake of FYI, but the biggest three documents I tend to use are the ones smackdab in the middle.

I ALWAYS recommend to writing friends that you keep a “scrap” doc, whether it be for a particular project or just for your writing in general! You never know when a scene or even just a particular line of description/dialogue might be useful down the line! In my case, my scraps doc is full of scenes that for whatever reason didn’t fit into the chapters I had initially put them in (uh huh, TA could be LONGER than it already is, I know - that’s the REAL horror here). If I find a spot where they can be repurposed/fit into future chapters? Fantastic! If I can’t, then hey, I sure have a lot of inbox prompts and oneshot ideas where they could work out!

The doc just labeled “almosts” is a creature in and of itself - unlike the scrap doc, the scenes I have in there are 100% going into the fic, usually because they’re major, unavoidable pieces of the plot that CANNOT be skipped. I’m someone who writes out of order (God help me, I couldn’t write a story chronologically if my life depended on it), so when I know what I want a scene to look like, or what a conversation should be like, or anything like that, I write it down before I lose it and POP! I throw it in there for safekeeping. Usually this is because I have NO IDEA which specific chapter it’ll end up in. I know where in the STORY it’s going to be, but the specific chapter number, who can say.

Then there’s the timeline. For TA, the timeline is so basic and bare bones I don’t want to get too deep into it, but essentially it’s a month-by-month list of all the MAJOR events (i.e., Josh’s hospitalization, Ashley’s grad party, college move-in, return to Blackwood…) and therefore only the most MAJOR plot points that I need to cover. It’s SUPER basic, SUPER generic, and is just mostly a reminder to me that like, hey, XYZ needs to happen here, so at some point mention ABC details. Basic!!!

The chapters themselves, though.

Oh, the chapters themselves.

I’m sure that a bunch of you have read my stuff and thought “This bitch is flying by the seat of her pants, what the fuck,” and while I agree that some choices have seemed, um, sporadic…they’re not. I outline…probably more than any human being should, honestly, but like I mentioned above, I’m trying to keep track of a LOT OF THINGS with this monster, so…typically here’s how it goes.

1. A super secret method of mine is that I never, ever, ever work on just one chapter at a time. Ever. Part of this is that whole “writing chronologically sucks” thing I mentioned before, but part of it is ALSO that I want to be sure I’m coming at each chapter from a similar headspace as I was in with the one before it. I want to remember the groove I was in, I want all the chapters to flow together as one cohesive piece, so typically I outline/plan out chapters in batches of (drumroll) three. “Hey Queenie, that’s a lot!” you might be thinking. And you’re right. I’m a fool in human’s clothes. MOVING ON!

2. I open each chapter’s doc with its own outline - It starts off VERY basic, and then I fill in each section with more specific notes of what I want to happen. So for example, here are the HIGHLY REDACTED outlines for chapters 24 and 25!!!

HOO that’s a lot of text, huh??

As you can see by the unpixelated piece at the beginning, each point starts out INCREDIBLY basic. Usually it’s me figuring out whose POV I’m going to use for a particular scene. Underneath that is where it gets more detailed - these are usually snippets of dialogue that I KNOW I’m going to end up using, descriptions/exposition I know I need to use, and more often than not, something devious that’s either going to hurt lot right then OR that’s going to hurt somewhere farther down the line ;P

(Notice the mention of the dead pigs - I TOLD you guys they’re fuckin haunting me this time around!)

Sometimes, though, outlines are shorter than that!

Now, in the case of chapter 25 here, that’s because…well, most of 25 has been written for a long, long time already hahaha. I’ve had a VERY solid idea of what 25 will be since…uh, well since I started writing the fic a year and a half ago. I don’t NEED to tell myself as much about how I want it to be shaped, or whose POVs I’ll be using, or what details I need to use, because mmmMMMM I know that shit by heart lol.

3. Fill that shit in! Giving myself an outline/scaffold/skeleton really makes writing the chapter that much easier. Once you have a solid idea of what you want it to look like, I really do think you’ll be surprised to see how much easier it is to get the words down!

That’s…really about it! Other than the usual writer stuff (screaming a lot, staring at a finished doc like a spider you want to squish, worrying that it’s crap, etc., etc., etc.), that’s how I write!

Usually I drink something caffeinated and listen to weird music (with no lyrics!!!), and sometimes I pull up playthrus of the game just to double check details or to get myself in the right headspace, but that’s the Queenie process, haha!

Method? Madness??? Probably a healthy dose of both.

[davidmann95]

Now that it’s been confirmed, thoughts, fears, hopes for 5G? Having Jurgens laying the foundation all but guarantees mediocrity imo. DC doesn’t really have the talent to pull this off imo, far too many mediocre writers running the show there right now, especially with Snyder stepping back.

No starting gun tepid quip to kick us off this time. This is a real shitshow, folks.

The timeline - albeit still heavily redacted - properly leaked recently too, and it’s about as weird and bad as could be expected. Nothing matches up with its actual year of publication (half the reason you’d want to do this in the first place, were you to for some reason think it necessary) and is sometimes out of order even beyond what’s demanded by the still very dumb conceit of there being pre-Superman public superheroes, Billy Batson should be in at least his late 20s and definitely joins the Justice League twice, Final Crisis is of course the one obvious major thing that’s dropped, and cruelest of all, Superman got his dumb Jim Lee armor the year I was born. At least the fact that everything happening ‘now’ seems to indeed be in 1997 as rumored - not that they’ll explore any of the potential implications of that - means they can redo Armageddon 2001 like everyone’s been clamoring for, but this is pure dumb nerd bookkeeping for bookkeeping’s sake. And not the fun kind like The Multiversity Guidebook, where it mashes existing concepts up against each other alongside whole new ideas to generate something original, this is so the kind of people who think that sort of thing matters can have a big ‘ol circlejerk over at long last knowing with certainty exactly what year Damian Wayne was born, at least until the inexorable march of time obviously renders the whole thing null and void. Nothing of substance is gained, much of the thematic underpinning and a chunk of the detachment necessary for proper suspension of disbelief is lost, and they can’t even do their dumb idea competently.

As for today’s more formal announcement, paired with Generation Zero, DC really does seem to have spent the lead time this clearly had compared to the New 52 or Rebirth to calculate how to botch this as horrifically as possible while still maintaining some thin veneer of professionalism. After Lobdell tees them up, they’re kicking off their big new official history with a guy who’s written 15 single issues lifelong, the last of which was a decade ago? And of the uninspired, uninspiring list of creators, in spite of trying to maintain some myyyysterryyyyy of who’s doing what, it’s painfully transparent what the creative teams are and where they’re going. Generation Two: Age of the Metahuman (such a perfectly dumb, unevocative name, which is also untrue because there were definitely superpeople around in the JSA, that’s kind of the point) is going to be Jurgens and Reis, because Jurgens is the boring ‘retro’ guy so they’ll put him on the Silver Age chunk where he can be trusted to not dare invite any questions like “hey wait if Superman debuted the year after Kennedy died, what’s the impact on the American psyche?” and Reis is classic in a way that fits. Generation Three: Age of Crisis is going to be Williamson and Marquez, because they’ve worked together and Williamson is a Flash/continuity guy. Generation Four: Age of Rebirth is Vendetti and Hitch because they’ve worked together and that’s the period where Vendetti became a name of note. And Generation Five: Age of Tomorrow is Bendis and Janin, because Bendis is other than maybe Tynion their headman with Snyder stepping down and Johns irrelevant - plus this’ll be about new kids, his jam - and Janin has a Bendis Legion issue coming up and has made clear he’ll have something big in 5G, I expect also with Bendis.

This has neither the consistency to be a detached historical overview, nor the talent to be a proper prestige showcase. Forget nabbing Orlando, or Taylor, or Visaggio, or Bennett, or Tynion, or Yang, or anyone else who could have taken this setup and maybe dragged something clever or charming out of it: we’ve got two journeymen, Bendis when he’s mostly turned in pedestrian work lately other than his lightning-in-a-bottle work on Superman, a guy who doesn’t seem to have written a comic in a decade and almost nothing back then, and Dan Jurgens. At least the art’ll slap, but if I didn’t know better I’d almost think the intended message here is “if you’re not the kind of junkie lifer who slurps this nonsense up or the folks who stick it out through the junk to reach the gems, jump off now”; more plausibly this is DC’s equivalent to Marvel panicking post-Secret Wars with the Image creator exodus, reverting to type, and rapidly blowing all their Marvel NOW! goodwill. The circumstances are certainly ripe, with the aforementioned absences of Snyder and Johns, Orlando somewhat divesting himself, King ending his time on regular monthly books for the foreseeable future, Black Label’s launch not going as likely hoped, and Way presumably stepping back from Young Animal for the MCR tour.

5G itself? I’ll get Bendis’s Superman and/or Justice League, I’ll try that rumored John Ridley Batman, I’ll pick up whatever looks interesting as usual. But while I think that in spite of recent losses they do in fact have the talent pool and the potential new hires waiting in the wings to put out a lot of good books in spite of the setup this has gotten, do I think they will recruit and deploy said talent properly? Absolutely nothing I have seen has given me reason to believe them capable of it right now. Why should I when once again Doomsday Clock, which as a DC book had reason to act optimistic about it, assumed this would last all of 5 years? Underneath all the circumstances surrounding it this kind of bold leap forward is a daring, fascinating idea, and I’m gonna be so disappointed when it plays out as catastrophically as it looks to.

[schweeeppess]

so a projects list, why not? (the order means nothing, im just remembering as i go (green means it's finished, blue means it's a multi-chap that's in progress))

these bruise colored skies: set after dick and tim fight (one of the Red Robin comics (i think it's issue 1 or 2)), tim's taking a road trip and thinking back on his arguments with dick about damian and his being robin. angst

sing when you're in the mud: dick and jason after dick's (second, more well known) rape by catalina flores. they go to a bar, have some drinks, and shit hits the fan. hopefully hurt/comfort

the man i am: jason and dick (seperately) and how they feel about the men theyve grown up to become. angst(?)

catch (me): [redacted]

all the time: jason and dick (again (look i love them okay)) with some great ol' hurt/comfort. (a gift for onipilot but shh)

listen to my aching heart: for ANOTHER au ive created, dick is back in town and he gets some burgers with jason.

can't you see the ashes?: a fic on bruce being forced to realize just how bad he's made his relationships with his sons. he's forced to realize the consequences of his actions. and he hates them. but... maybe it's too late to fix it. angst.

a dad thing to do: for the batfam lantern au! Baby Jay brings home baby Timmy and Bruce is there too! Much fluff, and i am Excite for this fic.

Helical Thunder: pacific rim au! (i bet y'all thought i forgot about this >:)) jason gets his co-pilot :D found family (ish?)

seeing with color: jaykyle! who doesn't love a good soulmate au? (Fluff)

we are human after all: lantern au, babey. we got babies jason and tim, and big bro Dickie. little brothers go to visit big bro at his waitress job, and Dick's co-workers, and his manager, and everyone loves them.

no im not including any prompts i have, because theyre prompts and not projects im actually working on just yet (im gonna get to them i swear!), and nor am i including any wips (because they've already been started).

Please feel free to ask about any of my projects! I'm so thrilled to discuss these anytime.