#On a less negative note

[kiwisandpearls]

feels a little depressing how unwelcoming the selfshipping community has become to proshippers and profic people. Like, i don’t even wanna go into the selfship tag anymore because I know a good chunk of the selfship posts are gonna have a dni at the bottom insulting me and wishing death or harm on me in someway just because I’m profiction. And don’t get me wrong, I know the proselfship and proship selfship tags exist but still, it just kinda sucks the fun out of selfshipping for me.

[mxystan]

taiwan travelogue by yang shuangzi tr. lin king is indeed an award-winning banger and perhaps the first time in my life i've ever felt vindicated for dual-wielding a novel with its english translation because the act of translation itself is such a big theme in the novel. big win for metafiction-obsessed himejin everywhere!!

[cinnabar-circus]

2023 | 99

[tired-demonspawn]

The morning after and the mornings after that chapter 2!

this time Stone's pov of the situation :)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65457025/chapters/168656947

i would say halfway there but unfortunately that metric only applies in terms of the release schedule.

in terms of wordcount we are, give or take, 1/3 done.

[bumblingbabooshka]

Patreon Request: Spock [Patreon | Ko-fi]

[quatregats]

I've been thinking about how to push Hornblower to his breaking point recently and I think the best way to do it would be to put his compassion and his duty in conflict in a way where he could either be a good person and put his naval career in jeopardy, or be a tyrant but maintain his position. I think that these often come into conflict in the narrative, but he always finds some sort of loophole and manages to worm through without having to sacrifice either ideal. I think that it would be really fun to push him into a corner and make him choose, though. I can see both scenarios leading to interesting results.

[liyazaki]

perks of being a LAL (long-awaited lesbian), 1 of ?

1. grade-A communicators. four words: we can comprehend Chads. when the bar’s been set at the bottom of the barrel, imagine how much a LAL is going to appreciate- if not dissolve into tears at your feet- over what you think are your just-OK communication skills.

2. planning skills. we (read: I) plan for every possible outcome because we're used to being the ones left dealing with it. no idea what to get your mom? we started a list months ago. forgot about that doctor's appointment? it's already on the Google calendar; sending you an invite now.

3. near-endless patience. I could wax poetic but, again: Chads.

4. affinity for and/or ability to use power tools. a unique skill most common among LALs who have lived with straight men. there's no better motivation to learn how to do shit yourself than living in what feels like a never-ending construction zone of unfinished projects.

please RB w/ your own additions!

**disclaimer: not all straight men; all in good fun, etc., etc.**

[seilon]

certainly feeling some things about the fact that simon. bullied edwin, yes, because he clocked him being gay. but not out out of hatred for him because of it. instead it was because he thought edwin was cute and felt sad and confused by edwin not paying attention to him. because simon is also gay. that is some beautiful and tragic storytelling and such a good way to come back around and give edwin some amount of closure on that chapter of his life wow

[meat-loving-meat]

I just found out that M*rcedes Lackey has a semi-active tumblr where she sometimes reblogs fanworks, which means she looks in the tags occasionally. It’s joever

[fictive-culture]

Was gonna make this a fictive culture is post to queue but then decided I wanted to make a long thing tw: anti endo mention

Sometimes fictive culture or even just Introject culture is something negative happening related to the source and headmates not showing up till after the bad feeling subside by time

By this I mean that and I don't talk about this often but when we first realized we were a system we were eventually presented with telling our friends, sure there is always the option of not telling they aren't owed that information but for better or worse we hate being friends with people that don't know? We hate hiding ourselves and not being able to be friends with people as individuals rather than a collective. We were horrified and while it went well for the most part, the system I already knew was thankfully supportive of endos and another friend even shot back with a same! There was one friend that wasn't supportive a singlet that was firmly anti endo and one of my best friends at the time. We met on a kin server both being tf2 kin though after realizing we were a system those tf2 kins were for sure not kins. We were both huge fans and would create things for each other fanart, writing. It hurt a lot losing them and even if we didn't have solid proof we knew we had tf2 headmates could feel them even if we couldn't interact with them. It's been nearly two years since then, and they fronted for the first time since learning we were a system in September of last year just a few months ago and we were ecstatic. Just felt like a sign we were healing and we were getting truly comfortable in our shared reality and it felt so nice knowing they weren't trapped any longer we have names and faces to people we couldn't reach for so long and it makes us genuinely so happy to see them on our sp and see their chat messages we can also look at tf2 content without being sad anymore? We can enjoy something we lost for a really long time and I don't know I just wanted to share that with y'all? Things hurt but it lessens over time, if you lost a joy you may be able to enjoy it again one day, if you are worried about a headmate they may return to you one day, if you are that headmate from a source the body has bad memories of know that you will still be missed that you are still wanted and your sysmates will smile and cry and hug you if you returned from disappearing. Sometimes we still miss them, especially one of our tf2 crewmates but we are all much happier knowing they aren't in our life and we aren't trying to fit into their box of what is and isn't okay. Even if we did end up being mostly traumagenic traumaendo the endo part is still so important to us and we and all of you deserve people that accept and love those parts of you too.

[cabeswaterdrowned]

There’s something about Adam defending Gansey to Blue while also kind of defending him from himself, but also he’s probably glad to have Blue there partly because she’s like him enough to share some of his criticisms of Gansey and Ronan but because she’s less encumbered by performance she’ll just say these things and he gets to kind of play the opposite role while taking satisfaction that someone is saying them if that makes sense. Kind of goes along with him relishing Ronan’s shock when he invited her, yes he wants to go on a date with her regardless but like I said he could choose to do something else with her, but as someone hyper aware of power dynamics he wants her here to sort of be a barrier that keeps him from giving into being ‘one of Gansey’s things’ (him tightening his grip on her hand when Gansey’s looking is so. interesting) while also making himself seem more similar to / equal to them by comparison to her. There are posts I’ve seen mostly in older fandom that took Blue to task for kind of using Adam as an in to the group while also a barrier between her and Gansey / the fate she’s resisting and they aren’t incorrect that it’s unfair of her but I never find the sentiment of ‘pwoor Adam being used by Blue’ sympathetic because like, they’re pretty equal in that regard consistently. For reasons that make perfect sense for two inexperienced teens with a lot of baggage in their first relationship + … unconventional complications lol. 

[no-brand-gays]

it is always a good day to find out that the character you’ve liked the most so far in your watch of love live superstar is a descendent of the samurai who founded the city you live in

[apotelesmaa]

A while back I saw sm1 saying tsukasa expresses emotions like it’s his first time experiencing them & while it’s very funny and true I think it’s also worth noting that unlike tv/movie actors, stage actors have to really exaggerate their body language/expressions so that their emotions are readable for everyone in the theatre. On screen you can easily pick up the micro expressions on an actor’s face because you’re like 5 ft away at most and the camera often zooms in on their face. From the back of the theatre you can’t read subtle expressions so the actors need to over emphasize and use their whole body. All this to say: given that u cannot take the theatre kid out of tsukasa I feel like his acting just bled into how he expresses his emotions.

Emu also does the body language thing but it’s harder to tell as she’s normally expressing a smaller range of emotions than tsukasa (she’s naturally joyous and whimsical creature & tsukasa is usually given ample reasons to express annoyance). I think that’s more of a result of her exaggerating her happiness so that other people are also happy rather than an acting thing though. Gestures at her refusing to show negative emotions. Entertainer/clown (actual clowns, not the insult) vs stage actor. Really good examples of them doing this is the clip of rui imitating tsukasa & the clip of nene imitating emu.

[swirlingyouintomypoems]

Ok you fucking know what i am SO TIRED of having my interests constantly shit on i am so fucking over it!!!!! Yes i like basic white bitch music who fuckings CARES like god fucking damn i genuinely don’t understand ppl who hate on artists just bc they don’t like their style like PLEASE explain it to me!!!! I don’t get it!!!! Why do you enjoy bashing things people enjoy?? I don’t care if you think it’s shallow or cringy life is too fucking short to not like smthing bc it’s a little silly some times. If you’re going to hate on someone by all means do it but stop going for the fucking fans, and don’t bash them for their art, bash them bc they’re a shitty person who dated a NAZI!!!!!! But even then i honestly don’t get it that much like I’ve been told to kill myself bc i like Taylor. Multiple times. I’m so over it. Especially bc ik for a FACT it’s just bc she’s a women. There are so many men who make shitty music and have shitty politics and insane carbon emissions but y’all don’t say SHIT about them!!! Please be so fucking for real bc I’m over this shit!!!!!!!!!!!!

[endlessnightarts]

"Reactive"

She's so pretentious.

Your dog isn't 'reactive' its aggressive :P

[arolesbianism]

Alright now that I've had more time to chew on new oni stuff, I will briefly share my thoughts on the current new lore additions. I actually rly like most of it even tho it's small stuff, as I in fact really like it when oni gives us small stuff, but I am Not a fan of the meteor mini plot. Im hoping they at least reword one of the logs abt it, as I worry it'll cause more confusion around the current timeline than necessary, and there's already So much confusion around the timeline within the oni community