#PLS TELL ME IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS THIS

[satoruluvies]

first angst drabble!! i cannot write angst without tryna cryy :(

okk here it goes HELP srry this took while say i had go school to catch up works i miss when sick

imagine nanami sending you texts every time when he goes out for mission it start with "hey how are you?" and at night he give you heads up "mhm comin home late." it's always was a routine, one mission was going be his very last he text you sweet messages how he Forgot kiss the kids good Moring since he went early but he promise to you when he comes back he give them a sweetest night kiss, you guys texted back and fought before he had to go, he sent you a message d before he had to go, you were to focus on the Kids you didn't see it pop up, minutes went hours you were so worried you texted your husband wondering where he is, you saw a text that you missed "if anything happens, I love you." you reply back "promise?" why reply to someone who not on earth anymore?

WHHE2321MNEWD

(this was a diff idea i wanted when everyone was using reader and when she finds a boyfriend, Gojo he just like the same and uses her too tell me if u want this drabble to i thought it was bit mean!!)

-🐱 anon

honestly could go a little something like-

the day starts with the lovely morning text from your husband as usual, smiling to yourself at the endearment he called you and the apology saying he forgot to kiss your lovely daughter before he left. he'd make up for it when he arrive though, you had no doubt.

checking your phone right after you wake up to read your husband's text was your daily routine even before kento became your husband. it just didn't feel like your morning was complete without doing so.

this particular morning however, you find yourself crying for a reason you can't find yourself to pinpoint.

you: i think my period is coming, im getting emotional for no reason. come kiss me better when you arrive!

✓ 6.54 am

you set your phone down and take a moment to bask in the small rays of light falling from your windows into your room and sigh, wiping your tears away. you could really use morning kiss right now.

"mama!" your daughter scurried over to your bed and threw her tiny body over yours earning a giggle from both your mouths. you place a chaste kiss on her forehead and a second one, for kento. it was a charming moment until your daughter's smile disappeared.

"mama are you crying again?" you find your hands rubbing away the tears that happened to run down your cheeks. what is up with that?

"momma's fine, baby. how about we surprise papa with his lunch today? he forgot to give you your morning kiss hm?" you tuck her hair behind her ears, her own eyes slowly turning teary.

"you're doing it again" she pulls away from your hold, a frown now found itself on her adorable face.

"doing what baby?"

"talking like ... like papa is still here. i don't like it."

that's when it hit you. her papa, your husband wasn't here anymore. you knew it, you do but somehow it does not make sense. how could nanami be dead when you've just received your morning text like you always used to when he was here?

you scrambled among your sheets desperately searching for your phone to prove to yourself, more than anyone, that nanami was alive and well. of course he has to be.

however you were only met with disappointment and that nauseating feeling of jumping off somewhere high when you opened your chats to his number.

you: i think my period is coming, im getting emotional for no reason. come kiss me better when you arrive!

[message not sent. this number is no longer in use.]

! 6.54 am

ah. it wasn't for no reason that you were emotional first thing in the morning. it was your body mourning for the love of your life that your mind forced itself to forget about his death.

omg this concept of reader imagining/hallucinating beloved used to be one of my favourite tropes!! pls the way my world paused when i read your drabble because i knew it was angst but i didn't know it was about THIS topic crying crying

also im so glad to know you're better now, enough to go to school hehe i hope the workload isn't too heavy to catch up on <3

[his-kiss-the-riot-starts]

Say what you will, but there is NO cis explanation to “Noel’s Lament”

[ovaryacted]

I don’t know if it’s just me and my personal thought process when it comes to envisioning Leon in a relationship, but I always like to make him corny and a bit of a jokester regardless of his age. (Because again, he’s a loser and I like to stick to it in a way that’s endearing).

Like I just think when he’s in a safe space, like actually safe and not cracking jokes on missions as a way to cope with his crumbling reality, he’s actually kinda funny. And when he’s going to engage in sex, sometimes he doesn’t take it as seriously so he likes to lighten the mood by saying funny shit and bantering. He does it as a way to make his partner feel comfortable, at least that’s how I see it in a domestic dynamic anyway. In a way, I think it’s just an aspect of him that is sort of like letting his inner child be free, just embracing his sense of humor versus using it as a way to cover for his anxiety.

But then again, I reserve this thought process for mostly RE2 & DI! Leon because I see both versions of him doing this, which is ironic because they’re on two opposite sides of the Leon Kennedy trauma spectrum and goes back to my point that after all of the trauma he’s endured, parts of him will remind you of his RE2 self. He’s just more rough around the edges, but that bright eyed rookie never really left him, along with his corniness.

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

[hozaloza]

Um

Why does Ben have Aiden's last name, isn't his mom related to Aiden's mom??

Like, we all know how surnames work in America; Wife typically takes the husband's last name, or they take both (or she doesn't take it at all, idk). Aiden's dad is obviously the one who had Clark as his surname. However, Ben also has this surname, but the dads aren't related, the moms are, how'd he get Daniel's surname??

Note that the Clark moms are sisters, because Niaomi literally said "I think what my sister is trying to say..."

So... how did Ben get the surname Clark? Either Red wasn't thinking about the parents (sorry no offense 😭), or he changed his last name...? Idk, I just realized that while thinking about a possible Thomas Aiden duet with 'Stayed Gone' (Rainbow factory au real??)

alr ty for joining my ted talk

bye bye for now

[gaydexvocaloid]

ngl this one is a “target audience? me..”

[willlmesh]

i love the first handful of songs from a idol project where some of the vas haven't completely decided what voice they're doing for their character yet. or just when you listen to a character's first song then their most recent one and they have a completely different vibe. idk where i was going with this

[barbedwirebats]

steddie fan art community!! i have an IDEA and i CANNOT DRAW and i think it should exist if anyone wants to try it out

i’m imagining the scene from Legally Blonde after Elle and Warner break up and he’s driving next to her telling her to get in the car, except it’s Eddie yelling from the van that Steve needs to get in (except maybe instead of a break up, they just had a dumb fight):

Steve is just walking down the sidewalk, huffing and crying.

“Steve, just get in the van!”

“…No.”

“The wind’ll mess up your hair!”

“..ok.”

I linked the original scene for reference.

[milkbreadtoast]

ough guys... i got to ep 38 in the twsb webtoon... and i'm so dissatisfied and frustrated with how it was adapted that i can barely even look at it... 🫠... i cant even appreciate the drawings... this hurts

[cottoncandysprite]

I'm finding myself becoming invested in Midge and Susie from Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and I think it's because it's just nandermo but make them sapphics in the 50s/60s and dial down the toxicity to like 2%

[apompkwrites]

“genuinly any time you walked off, we never noticed until we wanted to walk to new stores and wanted to grab you” tf?

[fac-romam-iterum-magna]

if i had one nickel everytime i saw in a japanese media a brown haired with red glasses and purple palleted guy with a strange relation to sea creatures, i would have two nickels, which isnt a lot, but is weird happened twice

[inkybinkyboink]

a casual essay on breaking bad as a piece of queer media

word count: 2280

spoiler warning for breaking bad, better call saul and el camino!

essay is under the cut!

its safe to say that the breaking bad cinematic universe is one of the most successful pieces of storytelling in film we have ever come across. all three parts of the story, breaking bad, better call saul and el camino are well known to have all gotten very successful ratings and have been well received by the majority of its viewers. something incredibly fascinating about all three of these pieces of media is the theme of love, and how love doesn't take a place as a B plot, but is rather tightly woven in to the main idea. on top of that, it's execution on screen diverts from the typical imagery we frequently see in film and tv. love and affection is tailored to the characters themselves, and sex is not included unless it's absolutely necessary, or if it furthers the plot. none of the love and affection is gratuitous which makes it all the more meaningful when it does happen, because you know theres an inherent intention behind it.

more specifically, the writing team of the breaking bad cinematic universe don't approach their story with a heteronormative perspective, and not limiting their ideas on gender expression when it comes to the characters. by observing specific instances of this occurring (in no particular order), a greater understanding of not only the characters, but their relationships with others can be obtained.

something that can easily be observed occurring in all breaking bad, better call saul and el camino is the sheer amount of homoeroticism the respective stories contain. homoeroticism is portrayed differently depending on who's doing the writing and filming. for example, kathryn bigelow is well known for her portrayal of homoeroticism typically shot in tandem with violence, with men fighting each other, but very intimately. vince gilligan and co take a different approach, including homoerotic, or same sex affection that is really quite gentle in many occasions. el camino is a good guide for this. over and over we get instances of men being gentle and close with one another, adjusting the action to fit the tone, regardless of if it deviates from the gender stereotype. jesse leaning his nose against the back of casey's head, panicked, allows the viewer to gather just how desperate jesse is, opposed to something heteronormative and stereotypical, like jesse fighting his way out of the situation. and it's not just that instance we see that intimacy between men. other notable scenes include todd lifting jesse's chin up, or neil staring casey down mere inches from his face. in the case of el camino, gentle and quiet intimacy is used as a vessel for control, contrasted to the modern mainstream stereotype that men have to be strong, loud and rather angry all of the time. badger and skinny pete provide a good example as well. they live together in a house and they just vibe. there's a trampoline outside in their yard, and they're clearly happy being around each other all the time. the idea that "boys don't cry" is almost non-existent in the breaking bad universe.

if we look at better call saul, we see this idea of homoeroticism being perpetuated. we see it a little bit, albeit in a slightly different light with amber, nikki and jo. what's interesting about the three girls is that it's never verbally confirmed the state of their relationship both with each other and with nacho. for all we know, they could just be friends, and it's the open endedness of their relationship that reinforces the representation of gender stereotypes and homoeroticism in the story. by that logic, you could assume badger and skinny pete were together too, because there's no qualifiers that inherently say for certain that they are or aren't together romantically. even in the light that the girls and nacho are dating, the point still stands, because it makes it representation for polyamory. the beautiful thing about nacho and his two to three weed smoking girlfriends is the gentility that accompanies them. falling back onto the point of sex not being a gratuitous device, we never see nacho or the girls doing anything remotely sexual. they are simply together in the most literal sense possible.

perhaps the most biting example of homoeroticism being prevalent though, has to do with lalo salamanca and howard hamlin. these two characters, who meet exactly once, and who have little to nothing in common, upon being murdered are lowered into a pit where they will spend eternity together. the thing is, the characters who cleaned up after the murders arguably didnt have to do this. they didn't have to bury lalo and howard together, but they did. the concept is almost laughable because of how absurd it is in nature, but i think that's what makes it so good. not only are they buried together, but their positions mimic real photos of male skeletons being found together holding one another, leading the public to theorize that they may have been gay lovers. it's both beautiful and sad, but also funny because conceivably, the skeletons of howard hamlin and lalo salamanca could be found and assumed to be gay lovers. if that doesn't scream "homoeroticism" i don't know what does.

sifting through all this gay talk, we actually find a real gay in the mix. owner of the cock brothers- i mean los pollos hermanos- gustavo fring. gustavo fring, in my opinion, is one of the best examples of queer rep that exists. though him being gay wasnt something that came out until after the show, gus being gay wasn't an afterthought. it wasn't something tacked on like j. k. r/wl/ng saying dumbledore was gay. you can tell this was a character written to be queer, the subtext is absolutely there, and it's covertness is what makes it all the more beautiful, and makes gus such a strong character. what's fascinating about gus is that his relationship with max is one of the few established and prioritized relationships in breaking bad and better call saul. gus is strongly motivated by max's death, or for the sake of keeping all our ducks in a row, motivated by his lover. the only other people to do this are jimmy and kim, and walter and skyler.

this is where the idea of the theme of love not taking a backseat really gets kicked into high gear. because the theme of love is so closely woven in with the main plot, the actions a character makes are going to, at least in part, be made because of their loved ones. if we look at gus, this is arguably all we see. he's a man born into poverty, who built himself up from nothing, only to continue to be held back by societies views on something you literally have no way of controlling. it's the one thing you cant "fix" or "work around". especially in the 80′s. despite that hindrance, he still finds someone who loves him unconditionally, who he clicks with, he can work with no matter what, and then that's ripped away from him. it's ripped away from him in the most traumatic way possible. the thing is, gus cant tell anyone about it. he can't even say "i lost my partner" and disguise it as something its not because that would mean outing himself as a gay man in the 80′s.

this is only reinforced in better call saul near the end of season 6, when we see gus go to a restaurant to drink some wine. he runs into an old friend called dave and dave decided to sit down and chat for a little bit. and the thing is, gus is this kind of quiet, very professional, almost superficial guy, but when talking to dave, he's interested and smiling, and it could be inferred he likes this guy a lot, maybe he's even flirting a little bit. it's so different from the gus we're familiar with. and yet, when dave leaves for a moment, we get this incredible close up of gus and i swear to god you can see the cogs moving in his mind. you can see him thinking about what it would mean to pursue a relationship. like clockwork you see him want, realize, hurt, and decide. you see gus decide he doesn't want to keep talking to dave despite his clear interest. whether that's because he doesn't want dave to get caught in the crossfire, or something to do with max is something only the actor would know, but the actions and verbs giancarlo esposito plays come across loud and clear. along with the cinematography, it makes one of the most heartbreaking and well done scenes my amateur ass has seen in a while.

almost all of what we learn about gus' true feelings and past is learned through subtext, or nonverbal communication. not only does this highlight the writing quality of this show, but esposito's acting skill, and ability to shape and build a character. gus is outwardly a villain, but has motivations based in good, something that's universal among many breaking bad characters. all of them do shitty things, but with good intentions, because they think what they're doing is justifiable. no character is purely good or purely bad, they're all just human.

gus' love for max is highlighted most in the fact that gus built a village for him. and not just a village, god no, that would be too easy, but a village dedicated to healing, peace and pure love. not only that but the entire scene between mike and gus has a big fucking highlighted flag on it that says "im literally telling you gus thinks he's in the right doing these things". gus thinks he's in the right to hurt the salamancas and take revenge because they killed max. and he explains this. next to a pond. dedicated to max.

the desire to get justice for a loved one is a pretty universally relatable concept. the want for someone you truly love to live a long, happy life is understandable, so when they don't get that in one way or another, it's upsetting. this idea is shared by gus and mike. gus who wants revenge for max, and mike who understands the will for revenge because of his son, matty. mike is never told explicitly that the village is for gus' dead boyfriend, but he doesn't need to be told. all he needs to be told is "you understand preserving the love you have for someone, and you understand the thirst for revenge".

the theme of love in the breaking bad universe is such a universally understood thing that it wouldn't make sense to confine it to one cookie cutter figure in the first place. it's a good show because none of the characters rely on explicit gender norms to back up their personalities. except for jesse, none of them are hesitant to do things that may make them appear as more or less masculine or feminine. and even though jesse starts off the show as that exception, by the end he comes out the most open-minded out of all of them.

this openminded-ness is stretched across most characters, from saul saying things like "bring your boyfriend or girlfriend to court with you", to lalo referring to max as gus' "boyfriend" even though hector had previously explicitly referred to max using derogatory slurs. breaking bad, better call saul, and el camino aren't love stories. theyre not of the romance genre, but the idea of love is painfully present in all three. love that is romantic, like in the case of max and gus, and jesse and jane is soft and precious. love that is anything but is still just as heart wrenching. jesse hugging walter after jane dies, nacho gently taking the remote from jo, jimmy taking care of chuck, lalo faking his death and only telling hector he's still alive, they're all the product of love, regardless of how fucked up it is conceptually.

the breaking bad cinematic universe has recently had a sort of comeback in the fandom. this could very well be because better call saul ended less than a year ago as of writing this, but i would argue it also has to do with all of the aforementioned points. re: the point about characters not needing to fall back on stereotypes- it's something that is frequently seen in specifically queer circles. a lot of folks who participate in what i guess could be considered fandom culture identify with the queer community as well, because of the large part of fandom culture that is open and accepting of the queer community. breaking bad fits right in by design because of its lack of gender stereotypes.

breaking bad and it's companion are incredible pieces of storytelling, and that doesn't need to be said. obviously, theres more than one answer as to why they are actually so well done and successful. the plot extends far, far beyond just the theme of love, and there's so much more to the story than love. however, you can't look at those other themes and messages without considering the influence of the themes of love, care and affection. part of the reason breaking bad is so good, is because the fundamental concepts are conceptual and relatable. it's people doing what they think is right in order to provide or give to those they care about. as long as you can get one foot in the door, you can weasel your way into understanding everything else. i think that starts with the theme of love. because what is not more relatable than giving to those you truly care about?

[daydadahlias]

what are you getting us for ashton’s birthday

some respect for fanfic authors as people will be first on the list <3

[bidoofenergy]

AND ANOTHER THING

when helen is smashing statues and the other's cheer her on and then join in but then try to stop her when she pulls out the lighter: people love a black woman's anger when it's palatable and relatable and you can participate but the second it puts your comfort in danger, the second it's truly "disruptive", that's when she's "going too far" that's when she "needs to call down"

[sophiethewitch1]

Get yourself some soup and blankets girl!

a) any soap thats got a thick consistency actually hates me personally and b) i have another fever lmfaooooo