#RAIN PLEASE COME DOWN
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I forgot how rain feels like 😔
#I'm sweating like crazy#and Jakarta's air quality is so fucked up no cloud on sight just plain gray sky from pollution#got ranked second city for the worst air quality in the world and EQUALS TO SMOKING 117 CIGARETTES 💀💀?????#RAIN PLEASE COME DOWN#sleepy's thoughts
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coco tohruies deadbeat mutual era ends tonight.
#coucou coco!#🥺🥺🥺 MY FRIENDS WHOM I LOVE SO DEARLY I AM SO SO SORRY TATATATATATAT#i haven’t properly sat down to reblog any of your adorable posts or answer asks in a few days please don’t think any less of me :c#or even scroll through dash properly and send asks to check on everyone THIS WILL CHANGE TONIGHT I PROMMIE 🥹#today is the last of my super busy days and then my supervisor told me to take tomorrow and friday off so I WILL BE ALL OVER YOU 🥺💝 IF YOU#DON’T MIND!!!! oh my gosh 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#i need to eat something and take a nap but I WILL BE BACK… i’m coming for you… ominous… looks around in a dodgy manner… hehe…#i am making miso soup for us all to enjoy amidst the unexpected freezing rain owo. hugging you all so gently I LOVE YOU FOREVER ):#are you taking care of yourselves. are you. are you. you better!!!!!!!#or else.#/jaws theme
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Me: I think I was misdiagnosed with POTS, I think I actually have HI/MCAS
Dr: what is your biggest concern? What symptoms?
Me: I feel like I’m going to die everytime I get an episode, food sensitivities, skin sensitivities, smell sensitivities, weather sensitivities, skin issues, high hr when standing, low BP, blurred vision, dizziness, weakness, lightheadedness, tingling, numbness, digestive issues, I have to eat every 4 hours or I feel like I will literally die, etc.
Dr: you know what this sounds like?!
Me:….. (hopeful for an actual answer)
Dr: ✨Anxiety✨
#true story#literally happened this morning#like damn bro how come I didn’t think of that#I’ve never heard of someone being anxious over a fucking tomato#or anxious about the rain to the point they feel like death#damn didn’t know my skin was anxious about ✨scented lotions✨#like bro really ??????#I shut that down real quick though#I’ve had whatever chronic illness this is for years and have had doctors tell me it’s anxiety until they see an episode#and then very quickly determine its not anxiety#chronic illness#zebra#mcas#histamine intolerance#pots syndrome#potsie#pots#please just listen to your patients dawg
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i think it'd be cool to like. let other select plurals know we're plural without letting everyone know we're plural. like some kind of secret passphrase in our bio on main that only plurals used. limp wristing at the gays yknow.
#its just cuz we're only plural on sideblog but a lot of systems interact with our main blog and we wanna say HEY. HI. ALSO US!!!#without y'know. saying all that or letting them see our sideblog. idk. the specifics of what we're allowed to share are nebulous.#dont know how to link our sideblog to our mainblog BUT ONLY THE PEOPLE WE CHOOSE CAN CLICK IT NO ONE ELSE LOOK hkjgh#and what. we can't just dm people "hey heres our sys blog'' theyre gonna think we're trying to get them to follow us and we DON'T NEED THAT#wejust wanted u to know we're plural please don't feel forced to follow us our stupid blog isn't even done hgkjhg#AND WHY WOULD WE DM PEOPLE ANYWAY LMAO. FUCKED UP. RAIN-SOAKED SHIVERING LITTLE MEOW MEOW IN YOUR DMS. IGNORED.#💨#honestly with the way we type? the way we're way too invested in the skills? the fact that our emojis are on main? not entirely subtle.#🍂#hey fffffuck you. ''the way we type'' I'M A GOOD MASKER WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT OKAY /dramatic /silly#👥#i mean apparently people already suspected us before. ...faucet doesnt like thinking about it. faucet doesnt like anyyyyy of this tbh#[ ] doesn't even like that the people on /here/ know about us. the follower scare months back is still something [ ]'d do again#if it were up to [ ] we would have never come out to anyone and faked being a singlet forever :') like. we get it girl. but still...#regardless. our original plan was to get our sysblog in order by our syscovery date. which is today. so. uh. folds my hands together.#idk back to topic. i just wish there was a subtle way of saying ''hey! we're like you! solidarity! we're in the same community!!''#also wish we could post art and have it be found by the community. making pluraI comics and stuff. but we can't get too popular.#it'd be scary. people would find us. old connections. we get faucet's reasoning and it's important. this is how we have to live to be safe.#...i dont know. some of us want to be part of community. some of us don't. it's just something we'll always understand but disagree on.#unfulfilling compromises as always for the scabbards but hey what else is new? we roll with it. c'est la vie~
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Rain Code x Monster Prom AU anyone??? Yeah I'm thinkin', cookin' even.
#i played monster roadtrip with my buds two months ago but it's come back to taunt me#i've already written down what stats you'd gain and lose from choosin who in the nda ya hung out with#and my brain has been sittin on who'd be what monster for far too long#some are obvious (lookin at you viv) but others are surprisingly difficult#if anyone's got ideas PLEASE do dump them on me#i'd be ecstatic to know i'm not just goin crazy on my own about yet another odd rain code crossover#first lethal company now this
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complaining post u can scroll
#can i just like. say something#i don’t want to be That Guy who rains on ppl’s parades but at some point idk how to be like. ‘‘don’t do that it’s dangerous’’#like OBVIOUSLY weed is bad for your lungs but at least it has some positive effects#but like. sigh. cigarettes#i want to tell my friends Please Don’t and I do mean it in the ‘‘don’t become addicted’’ way but#also#this is going to sound fucking stupid#it’s a trigger? that word has been watered down so much but the smell of cigarette smoke#genuinely makes me sick to my stomach and on edge and want to cough my lungs out#which i used to chalk up to being autistic and being sensitive to the 5 senses. but i’m fine with most bad smelling things. weed idec#now i’ve come to terms with it and it sounds like i’m making shit up bc. boo hoo your grandmother smoked cigarettes and thats why#you’ll feel like you’re going to die if anyone within a block of you is smoking one. get fucking real#sorry guys those stop smoking campaigns were designed for my comfort specifically <3#the last time i was around a cigarette and didn’t notice was bc i was in a concert and there were 50 billion other things to pay attention 2#i don’t wanna come off as puritanical and stuff#i’m always at least a little afraid of that#my ramblings
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yay yippee yay :3 🎉
#just me hi#making things i will never ever show to anybody: 💫💫💥����💫 pfshvbh#you know when you personal-art so hard it could literally be nuclear if anybody saw it. Yeagh kfhsvhjgs#:3 ehehehe [<- pleased]#i love you writing + art combo. i Am giving you a very deep grave though i won't lie <3#//anyway thought i was gonna get flamed today cuz i wouldn't let my mom look at some doobles i had in my sketchbook lmfsvhghs#gay 😔#but we just went out for snacks and she was just talking about a lot of random stuff lol :) chilling comes out on top yet again 👍💥#//anyway i gotta do some studies ᴗ.ᴗ [<- the urge to do it and the desire to Never Ever]#wanna get better at anatomy :/ and shading lmao :/ [<- does not want to do it so bad]#and also backgrounds :// but one step at a time man i don't know what a lighting is lfmvshj#shaking myself by the shoulders like you are GOING to enjoy it at some point it's not the end of enjoyment forever !!#me n mine are going to argue back and forth about it until i finally get it done so [tosses hands in the air]#hopefully i get to it today :) i haven't been trying to do timelapses this past year but maybe i'll do that when i get around to it :>#getting the funk out of the Lagoons means i realized i have been dropping a lot of things i thought were neat over time and i'm tryna pick#them back up lol :3#downside is that where i was dropping things i was picking up anxiety which is Really Cool and Epic#the Most counterintuitive function of the brain i think. doing their best but man it's like putting a rat in a room made of cheese while#it's pouring rain outside and expecting it not to start chowing down lmaoo#//anyway yea!! my things :33#kinda Do want to do studies now Yippee !!! i win yet again ehe >:3#so toodles ciao pop toodles >wó
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Sometimes I think I need to be tranquilized
Like someone hit me upside the head with a rock I need to be put down
It is nap time
#not saying this in a embarrassing myself way#I need to calm down sometimes and when I can’t come down I just wanna crash#like please relax already I can’t deal w you anymore rahhh#also it’s fucking humid rn I hate it here I gotta move somewhere where it either rains too much#like storm shit so I have something to look at#or summer is mild with an insane winter#I’ll take snow anyday please#im missing out
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UPDATE: *NEW* NEW LINK!
Yahya and his family were displaced by the IOF, and are currently residing in Deir al-Balah, south-central Gaza.
Life as displaced Gazans was already extremely difficult for them. Food is very scarce, and their living conditions leave them exposed to the elements. Here is the frequent condition of their tent now that the winter rains have come:

Then, Yahya’s father was injured. Some cartilage was damaged in his neck, and doctors say he requires IMMEDIATE surgery to avoid permanent paralysis.
Yahya and his family previously had another campaign, but it was suddenly shut down by GFM with no explanation. They have created a new one, but it has EXTREMELY LOW FUNDS.
The surgery is a stifling $16,000 USD. Yahya and his family have no hope of paying for it without your help.
I am currently watching an elderly loved one lose their mobility, and it is an extremely heartbreaking and isolating situation. I cannot imagine what Yahya and his family are going through, having no social or financial support and only minimal medical care.
Please give what you can to this family. You are their only hope to save their beloved father’s mobility!
#yahya al habil#gaza#gaza genocide#gaza strip#gaza under attack#free gaza#from the river to the sea palestine will be free#palestinian genocide#stop genocide#stop the genocide#stop gazan genocide#stop gaza genocide#end israel's genocide#gaza aid#gaza action#gaza resources#gaza relief#gaza refugees#disability rights#disability#eldercare#gazan families#gazan genocide#gaza gfm#gaza gofundme#ngu*#aid for gaza#palestine aid#mutual aid#people helping people
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having a job where i don't get sick days and can't call out because of, say, a flat tire, is really garbage. to quote a semi-famous internet personality, it's garbolium
#aiden's monologuing#essentially the answer is 'figure it out' or 'call your coworker and wake him up knowing that waking this early will make him feel sick'#anyway. trying uber out. we'll see how it goes. goodbye over an hour's worth of wages#andddd i've got an 8-hour shift today. in the rain. in the later thunderstorms. and i'll mostly be on my own.#and there's a guy i have to watch out for now because he's banned from the store#assistant manager of spencers. come back. i turned you down too soon. if you give me enough hours i can make it work Please#hot topic and spencers are my home... funny t-shirts... toys... pins no one buys........#hire me........#i need to get a bike. and figure out how to jury rig an umbrella-bike hybrid#one of my coworkers is even off today like she could've come in... come on....
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sometimes i surf through any current "controversial" tag (because i hate myself) and i see the things people genuinely think it's okay to say and i take a step back like: are u ok. do you need a hug. i have an armful of grass would u like some. also a bottle of water and a snickers.
#like please take a deep breath#calm down#go look at the ocean or the rain or something and come back to me#inky rambles
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google: how to ask out coworker when ive essentially called myself a loser in just about every situation ive been in with him?
#my.txt#IF U HAVE TIPS PLEASE LET ME KNOW#im gonna be bad and ask him out - granted if he comes in office today (or tomorrow) because when he rejects me i wont see him for 2 weeks:3#how did i ask out my ex? oh yeah horribly he rejected me and texted me a week later saying actually lets go out AND I AGREED? i was down ba#anyways!#wish me luck#because it is 4:33am and ive been awake since 1:57am because the rain was LOUD#j***
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miss cocobei… your karaageposting and that jellycat haul you posted in your old blog remind me of this idea i thought would suit you (his good girl ;3): of how karasu would react to you growing a little shy in the bedroom and perhaps… using a plushie to hide yourself from him 🤔 ahh it just paints such a cute image in my mind mewheheheh 🤭💓 him tilting his head when you snatched a plushie, a little confused by the sudden move before mirth begins to swirl in his eyes and his cock twitches in his pants at the innocence of it all.
“you know you don’t have to cover yourself” he shifted slightly to try and make the boner less obvious. despite his teasing, karasu is gentle when he holds your chocolate locks to kiss, then tuck behind your ear—they smell sweet, enough to fuel his desires to devour you.
oh and i’m thinking of how he would use your good girl card against you in this situation… “will you let me see your face now? you are my good girl, aren’t you?” and when you complied, placing the stuffed animal aside, he would reward this pliable attitude with a tender kiss to your forehead (and a complimentary roll of his hips against yours :3)



#coco after dark#bisous!#chérir!#tabico ⊹ ˚ ✦#my recent jellycat purchase reminded me of this absolutely. Heinous gift you left with me kai... oh my gosh.... oh my GOSH?! (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄)#PHAINON... COME LEASH YOUR GIRLFRIEND BECAUSE... WHAT IS THIIIIIIS 🙈🙈🙈🙈 imagine me face down in a muddy puddle as it freezing rains and#then a block of ice crystallises around my body and i am suspended in time with nothing but the thoughts and emotions. This ask made me#feel. imagine that. imagine THAT!! 🥹 OH MY GOODNESS KAI AOPIDSJKHA I WAS HOLDING OFF ON ANSWERING THIS ASK... BECAUSE I TAKE TOO MUCH DMG#READING THIS /POS. i don't recall giving you the keys to my mind... HOW DID YOU KNOWWWW!! ( ˃ ⌑ ˂ഃ ) HOW DID YOU VERBALISE MY THOUGHTS#mirth swirling in his eyes... his cock twitching AT THE INNOCENCE OF IT ALL... GOD I'M COMING UP...... WHEN HE... WHEN I... WHEN WE... WHE#KAI... AAUUUHGGHH THIS NEXT PARAGRAPH JUST. COMPLETELY OBLITERATED ME. COCO DEAD. despite his teasing... he's gentle when he holds your#chocolate locks to kiss... TO KISS..... 🥺🥺💞🥺💕💘💗💖🥺💘💝💓🥺💕💞🥺🥺💞🥺💓🥺💝💖💘🥺💝💖💗💗💖🥺🥺🥺💝💞💕🥺#'will you let me see your face now? you are my good girl aren’t you?' oh!!!! 🥹#that is soo vile... so wicked. wow... wow!!!!!! i feel so bad for whoever this was targeted at 💔💔💔 definitely not me bc i am sooo normal#SO NORMAL KAI!!! I AM SO NORMAL AND UNAFFECTED!!!! 🥹👍#orz (keeled over dry heaving and clutching at chest)#<o> (ripping hair out)#o-(-( (deceased)#USING THE GOOD GIRL CARD AGAINST ME NOOOOO NOOOFDJKLHKAJSAAJ THE FOREHEAD KISS WHAT THE FREAK. OH MY GOD IM DIZZY IM DIZZY IM DIZZY IM DIZZ#the complimentary roll of his hips WOW THAT'S INSANE... 🤯🤯🤯😲😮🤯😳😱😵😵😱🤯😱😱😵😮😮🥹😳🤯🤯😳😲👍😮😮😵😱😲😵#KAIIIIIIII.... hi kai!!!!! 🥹🥹🥹 i hope you're having a good day so far kai!!!!!! 🥹🥹🥹 please stay warm kai!!!!!! 🥹🥹🥹#<- i'm sure phainon will be able to help with that!!! 🥹🥹🥹 right kai!!! 🥹🥹🥹#will you let me see your face now you are my good girl aren’t you AAAUAUUUHUHGH. and then. coco blew up. big bang 2.0. KAI I WILL GET YOU.#(THREAT)
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#havent really sat down in a few#few days. moving shit. so much moving#my work is exhausting bc our internal system is having issues and is soooo slow so i come home feeling tired#but i can't rest bc i still need to pack and move shit#i just wanna play risk of rain in my new place please just let me live
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- BUCKY BARNES FIC RECS 4 -


i’m so obsessed with catws!bucky you have no idea | note: please be aware of the authors’ warnings before reading. fics include canon tw’s like: violence, death, grief. torture and ptsd. some fics have 18+ content so minors please DNI.
part one | part two | part three | main masterlist | also check my latest list: matt murdock pt 2
SERIES - MULTI-CHAPTERS
the blade and the crown • knight!bucky barnes x queen!reader
↳ by @fandoms-writings (smut, angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, secret relationship)
avoidance | chaos | strangers | power • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @ultralightpoe (angst, hurt/comfort, tw: ptsd)
illicit affairs • biker!bucky barnes x stark!reader
↳ by @auroralwriting (enemies to lovers, age gap, angst, gangs)
between a dream | part two | part three • tws!bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @bcksbarnes (angst, comfort, fluff)
before i could say it • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @fawniswriting (angst, fluff, insecure!bucky)
lessons in lovemaking • bucky barnes x blackwidow!reader
↳ by @artficlly (smut, touch starved!bucky, fluff, angst, bickering, tw: trauma, sa)
foundations • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @vunblr (dad!bucky, fluff, a little angsty, smut)
not in that way • bucky barnes x fwb!gn!reader
↳ by @jaggedamethyst (smut, mutual pining, miscommunication, angst, fluff)
say don’t go • college!hockey!bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @the-winter-spider (angst, mean!bucky, pining, smut)
wake up | part two | part three • avenger!bucky barnes x avenger!reader
↳ by @marvelstoriesepic (very angsty)
the falcon, the winter soldier and static • bucky barnes x stark!reader
↳ by @theconstantsidekick
quiet down | stay quiet • roommate!bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @adrinktostopyourthirst (smut)
the soldier’s keeper • bucky barnes x doctor!reader | soldat (part of the universe)
by @pome-seed (angst, kidnapping)
ONE-SHOTS - BLURBS - HC’S
be(tter) in reality with me • bucky barnes x pregnant!fem!reader
↳ by @t-lostinworlds (angst, hurt/comfort, fluff)
dear lover • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @johnkrrasinski (very fluffy, slight angst)
my girl • domestic!bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @bucky-bucket-barnes (very fluffy)
the cure • bucky barnes x avenger!reader
↳ by @/bucky-bucket-barnes (very angsty, hurt/comfort, slowburn, fluff)
fast track • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @sidmakestuff (angst with happy ending, hurt/comfort, insecure!bucky, little explicit)
the rain is always gonna come if you’re standing with me • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @bucky-bucky-bucky-bucky (angst, tw: harassment)
for as long as you need me • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @whatthetumblfck (fluff, hurt/comfort)
worthy • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @duuhrayliegh (fluff)
softened by time • bucky barnes x gn!reader
↳ by @heyitsme1040 (domestic fluff)
his girl • bucky barnes x enchanced!reader
↳ by @roguerogerss (fluff)
enemies • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @ro-is-struggling (angst, hurt/comfort, enemies to friends, tw: trauma)
the same thing • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @appocalipse (angst with happy ending)
rest had seemed the sweetest thing • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @violentdelightsandviolentends (sooo fluffy)
i know you • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @oneofstarkskids (angst, fluff)
road trip • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @munsster (fluff, a little angst)
come find me • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @bucky-bucky-bucky-bucky (angst, hurt/comfort)
mercy kill • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @bucky-bucky-bucky-bucky (very angsty)
unspoken • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @maevedoodle (comfort, nightmares, fluff)
sweet like plums • cw!bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @mandoalorian (smut)
summer breeze • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @orithyia-eriphyle (very fluffy, hurt/comfort)
safe space • avenger!bucky barnes x avenger!reader
↳ by @helaintoloki (angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, tw: ptsd, trauma, torture)
echos • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @brokenbarnes (very angsty but fluffy end, hurt/comfort)
trouble • bucky barnes x fem!reader /
↳ by @marvelwitchergilmore (enemies to lovers, fluff, fake dating)
a place to land • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @cheekybarnes (angst, comfort, tw: sexual violence, ptsd)
lost for words • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @daxisyzz (fluff)
his girls • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @artficlly (very fluffy, secret dating)
lovesick • bucky barnes x maximoff!reader
↳ by @ang3ltine (fluff, little angsty, tw: torture)
sparing you • beefy!bucky barnes x avenger!fem!reader
↳ by @sergeantbarnessdoll (fluff, slight angst)
love bruises • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @multiversediaries (very soft, fluffy, domestic!buck, a little smutty)
hole in the earth• bucky barnes x mutant!fem!reader
↳ by @em1i2a3 (smut, angst, age gap, hurt/comfort, tw: panic attacks)
only you, doll • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @billionairebratenergy (fluff, kind of possessive!bucky)
home with you • roommate!bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @marvelstoriesepic (oh so fluffy, lots of pining)
creamy or crunchy • avenger!bucky barnes x avenger!reader
↳ by @marvelstoriesepic (so so so fluffy, protective!bucky)
mission mishap • avenger!bucky barnes x avenger!fem!reader
↳ by @mugglebornmarvelite (hurt/comfort, fluff)
bruised shadows • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @happy74827 (slight angst, hurt/comfort, grumpy x sunshine)
what you do to him • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @xxthelovelyopossumiixx (domestic, smut)
scars to your beautiful • bucky barnes x reader
↳ by @buckybarnesandmarvel (insecure!bucky, comfort)
blurred lines • bucky barnes x fem!reader
↳ by @ellemj (smut, angst, enemies to lovers, jealous,possessive!bucky, one bed trope)
#bucky barnes x reader#bucky barnes x fem!reader#bucky barnes x reader fluff#bucky barnes x y/n#bucky barnes x#bucky barnes x you#bucky barnes x female reader#bucky barnes x gender neutral reader#bucky barnes x gn!reader#bucky barnes angst#bucky barnes x reader angst#bucky barnes x reader smut#bucky barnes smut#marvel#fic recs#fic recommendation#the winter soldier#winter soldier#thunderbolts#bucky barnes#sebastian stan#tfatws#caws#avengers
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Part 3 of fuck buddies with Simon
You didn’t wear anything fancy. Just jeans, a sweater you didn’t have to think too hard about, and your hair pulled back because you didn’t have the energy to fight with it.
You weren’t even sure why you texted him. It was impulsive, sort of. A moment of weakness, maybe. Or maybe it wasn’t weak at all—maybe it was brave, letting him back in even just a little. You told yourself it was just coffee. Just a talk. Just two people who used to mean something meeting up like civil adults.
But your hands were shaking a little on the steering wheel the whole way there.
You parked down the block from the coffee shop, needing the walk to settle your nerves. It didn’t help. Your stomach was twisting up like it always used to when he’d come over—when you didn’t know if he was going to be gentle or cold, if he’d stay the night or leave without a word. You hated that the nerves felt the same now, even after everything.
When you pushed open the door to the café, the little bell overhead jingled like something out of a movie. And there he was—already sitting at a table near the window, back straight, fingers wrapped around a cup. He looked up as soon as you walked in, like he’d been watching for you, like he hadn’t taken his eyes off the door since he sat down.
And he smiled.
But something about it made your chest tighten. Your legs felt suddenly heavy, and you paused just inside the door, your fingers curling in the sleeves of your sweater like you needed something to hold onto. You stood there for maybe three seconds—maybe four—and then you turned around.
You couldn’t do this. You thought you could, but you couldn’t. Not when your heart felt like it was ready to give itself away again, not when your head was screaming that he could still break you with a single word.
Your phone was already in your hand as you pushed back out into the street, your fingers moving fast.
I’m sorry. I can’t do this.
You hit send, and at the exact moment, it started to rain.
Of course it did.
It wasn’t even dramatic rain—just that soaking kind that gets into your clothes and hair and makes your shoes squish with every step. You didn’t have an umbrella, nor have the presence of mind to pull your hood up. You just walked fast. Like if you could get far enough away, none of this would feel so raw.
And then you felt it—arms wrapping around you from behind, firm but not forceful. Strong, familiar, and warm, even through the wet fabric of your jacket.
“Don’t go,” Simon said, his voice low and right against your ear. “Please, just… don’t walk away again. Not like this.”
You didn’t say anything at first. You couldn’t. Your whole body was tense, like you were stuck between wanting to lean back into him and wanting to shove him off.
“I get why you left,” he said, and his voice was a little shaky now. “I deserved it. I didn’t give you anything to hold onto. I made you feel like you were just... convenient. And I fucking hate that I did that to you.”
The rain kept coming, dripping down your face and clinging to your lashes, and still, he didn’t let go.
“I don’t want anything from you right now,” he said. “I’m not trying to push. I just wanted to see you. Talk to you. I miss hearing your voice. I miss the way you laugh when you’re annoyed and the way you go quiet when you're thinking too hard. I miss knowing that you were somewhere in the world thinking about me, even if I didn’t deserve it.”
You let out a breath you hadn’t realized you were holding.
“I’m scared,” you said, finally, voice soft and small in the rain.
“I know, love,” he whispered, arms still around you. “I’m scared too. Scared I already lost the best thing I ever had. But I’d rather take a thousand chances to show you I’ve changed than go back to pretending I don’t care.”
You didn’t answer; you didn’t have the words. But you turned slowly in his arms, your hands resting lightly on his chest, and he looked down at you like you were something fragile, something he was terrified of breaking again.
“Come on,” you said after a long moment. “Let’s get out of the rain.”
You brought him back to your place, not because everything was fixed, not because you’d forgiven him, but because you wanted to be warm and dry and maybe not alone tonight. You gave him a towel and made coffee the way you always used to—strong, with just a little bit of sugar because he never took milk.
You didn’t sit on opposite ends of the couch. You sat beside him. Close, but not touching. You talked for a while. About small things. Big things. He told you he started seeing a therapist. You told him about work. You both avoided talking about what would happen next.
For the next few weeks, it was like that. Texts. Calls. The occasional late night spent watching old movies without touching. He didn’t try to kiss you. Didn’t push. He just... showed up. And stayed.
And then one night, you were both laughing about something—some dumb story from years ago—and you turned to him, and he was already looking at you. Not with hunger or desperation, but with a much softer look.
You leaned in first.
Just a little.
And he met you halfway.
And when he kissed you, it wasn’t rushed. It wasn’t like before. It was slow, and warm, and full of everything he hadn’t said and everything you hadn’t asked for. Like a promise he didn’t know how to make out loud, but was trying to anyway.
And for the first time in a long time, you let yourself kiss him back.
He pulled back just a little, like he was giving you the space to change your mind, like he was scared you’d vanish if he touched you for too long. But you didn’t move. You just looked at him—really looked at him—and felt your heart beat so hard it hurt a little.
“You okay?” he asked, voice low and rough around the edges.
You nodded, even though everything inside you felt scrambled and upside-down. “Yeah. I think I am.”
He smiled—barely—and brushed a thumb across your cheek like he was memorizing the feel of your skin. Then he sat back, but not far, not like he was pulling away completely. Just enough to give you space again. And you knew right then he wasn’t going to ruin this by rushing. He was trying, really trying, and you felt it in your chest like a weight slowly lifting.
You both stayed on the couch for a while after that, talking about nothing and everything, voices soft and close.
Eventually, it got late. You stood up to stretch, and he watched you, his gaze lingering on your face, not your body. Like he was trying to read your mood before he made a move.
“I should head out,” he said, standing slowly.
You bit the inside of your cheek. “You don’t have to.”
He looked at you, eyes flickering with surprise. “You sure?”
You nodded. “Yeah. Just… don’t make it weird.”
He let out a breath, something between a laugh and a sigh. “Wouldn’t dream of it.”
So he stayed.
You handed him an old T-shirt and a pair of sweats you forgot he left behind once, and he changed in the bathroom while you got into bed. And when he climbed in beside you, he didn’t touch you right away. He laid on his side, just close enough that you could feel the warmth of him under the covers.
“Do you want me to—” he started.
You reached for his hand under the blanket. “No talking now. Just stay.”
And he did.
You fell asleep to the sound of his breathing. Not tangled up like you used to be, not desperate for skin or heat. Just… close. Like two people learning how to be near each other again without breaking apart.
In the morning, you woke up before him.
For a moment, you just watched him sleep—his brow still furrowed a little, like even in rest he was carrying something heavy. You could see the edge of an old scar near his temple, one you never asked about, and you wondered how many more there were now. On his skin, in his mind.
You weren’t sure what would happen next. But for the first time in what felt like forever, you didn’t feel like you were waiting for the other shoe to drop.
He shifted a little, eyes fluttering open, and when he saw you, he smiled. That same small, quiet smile.
“Morning,” he said.
“Morning.”
And when his lips found yours, it didn’t feel like a beginning or an ending—it just felt like finally coming home.
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