Might be blasphemy within the Danny Phantom fandom but I just cannot see Danny x Sam being an actual ship regardless of it being canon in the actual show and now book.
Even as a kid I thought it was weird and couldnāt figure out why that bothered me, and I think now itās because I never saw any indication of Sam or Danny ever being actually romantically attracted with each other. To be fair I saw that show when I was little, and maybe Iāll see those romantic moments that the show was building to if I can find actual length videos of the episodes.
But at this moment, I canāt recall ever having seen it.
And it baffles me, because I kinda donāt feel like Sam really loved Danny, even as a friend. And I think that really showed in the episode with her wish that changed the structure of time and space so that Danny never died and she was never friends with Danny and Tucker.
If she loved Danny, regardless if it was as a potential lover or friend, she would never have allowed him to die. Not once, but twice.
The first, okay, it was an accident. Kids do dumb things all the time, the more potentially dangerous it is the better ā but the second time? The second time was deliberate.
She put him into that suit, without explanation, and without assurance. Nothing but a change of his hero signature.
She didnāt hesitate to let him die again, instead of asking herself if she could stomach watching him go through that again.
What person who loved you could do that to you? Could stand to see you go through that pain?
I feel a good example of love as well, especially in the show, is Jazz. She loves Danny, as a sibling, as a friend, and with all that love she would choose to walk herself into that portal then to let Danny do it instead.
She shows that deep love for Danny to the audience by choosing to protect him from their parents so they would never know he is the ghost boy that they want to rip apart molecule by molecule because she doesnāt want to take the chance of loosing him twice.
last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.
Imagine being 9 years old and asking your dad about the things you're interested in doing when you grow up and he's like "No ā¤ļø! But you can get married, have babies, and then maybe your sons can do those things āŗļøš«¶ "
Etoiles: But yesterday when he [Forever] talked to me, he was so frightened, basically he was like, āBut one day wonāt you lose your shit and want to kill the Eggs with the Code, and everything?ā Though I was telling him, āBut the fact is, I know the Code very wellāā
Baghera: Oh, so you told him you joinedā?
Etoiles: No, no, no, not at all. Itās just that he has these assumptions that Iām really allied to the Code becauseā
Baghera: I think itās due to your Code tattoo, also, it gives off the impression youāre in the process of transforming into a Code, Etoiles, letās not lie.
Etoiles: Thatās it, thatās it. But, basically I told him that Iāve had it sinceā
Baghera: But you donāt give a shit? Youāre taking it well?
Etoiles: Well, yeah, I donāt give a shit because I know heāll never beat me. Basically Iā
Baghera: But you donāt give a shit about the code literally popping up over your body?
Etoiles: Well, yeah, because itās a part of me now. Itās normal.
Baghera: How?
Etoiles: Well, afterā after fighting someone 17 times, you startā you start creating links. But those linksā
Baghera: Butā you know thatās not how things work. Likeā look, we cross paths. Right now weāre crossing paths. You see? Weāre crossing paths. I kick your ass. Like, for free. You see? I see you, Iām like, āBro, I donāt like his face,ā so I kick your ass.
Etoiles: But no! Because if you tell me āGood fightā at the endā
Baghera: I see you againā wait, Iām not finished. I see you again like 12 times, and I tell myself, āHey, Iāll do it again,ā I kick your ass again. After a while, Rayou, I wonāt get diabetes!
Etoiles: Well, maybe you will, huh.
Baghera: Yes, but itās notā it doesnāt work, likeā thereās no correlation, you see!
Etoiles: You know you wonāt have those cells anymore, you know, itās possible.
Baghera: Butā noā what I mean isā Etoiles! Thatās now how it works! Itās worrisome! Itās normal for us to worry!
Etoiles: Well, yeah, but, uhhh. Basically, youāre all used to talking with me on the island. And you understand very well that thereās nothing able to corrupt me.
Baghera: That we donāt know, Etoiles! Becauseā if itāsā I know that your morality, and your enormous brain, and your big body, wonāt get corrupted. But if thereās suddenlyā well, what I mean is that we donāt know what all the possible systems of manipulation on the island are.
Etoiles: Itās true. No, itās true. But for the moment Iām doing well.
Baghera: Yeah, well, so much the better. Butā
Etoiles: For the moment Iām doing well!
Baghera: If you feel any change, Etoiles, mention it, okay?
Etoiles: Oh, Iāll talk about it. But for the time being Iām doing very well.
Baghera: So I can understand peoplesā fear upon seeing you LITERALLY transform into a Code and who tell themselves, āOh, strange, maybe thereās a thing with the Codes.ā
Etoiles: Itās true but who can better know the dangers of the Code than someone whoās confronted it his whole life? Instead of someone whoā
Baghera: Iām well aware.
Etoiles: No but itāsā itāsā itās for that reason that I told Forever. I totally understand the fear and everything, itās normal. You see a dude turning into a Code, you ask yourself, āWhatās the guy who sent him doing?ā
Baghera: Well, yeah, there you go.
Etoiles: Like, āWho sent him?ā
Baghera: But you donāt feel any different? Nothing?
Etoiles: Absolutely not, no. Everything is going well. I still hate the Code whenever I see him, I still want to kick his ass. Everythingās fine. Even if right now I want himā
Baghera: But you join up with them when he suggests it, yeah. Well, itās to get the shield back.
Etoiles: It was just for the shield, believe me. Believe me, if I run into them again- if I run into them again and they donāt offer me things to save the Eggs and everything, itās goodbye. And considering what Iāve preparedā considering what Iāve prepared, I objectively think that 5 Codes wonāt be enough to kill me. Thereāll need to be 10 of them.
Baghera: They might bring 10, huh.
Etoiles: Yeah, well, then again, we have time.
Baghera: Well, in any case, they donāt want to kill you anymore since youāre working with them.
Etoiles: Well, in fact, weāre not reallyā actuallyā I donāt really know what heās thinking. Because the last time we talked I told them, āBut if you lay even a finger on the Eggs, Iāll kick your fucking asses, you sacks of shit.ā And they left, and they didnāt answer me.
Baghera: Then again, theyāre a bit cryptic, the Codes, you know.
Etoiles: Yeah, but normally theyā I managed to talk with them a bit, soā so I donāt know. Personally, Iām telling youā
Baghera: Okay, no, what I mean is that I understand why when people see you they think, āMaybe itās possible heās getting a little bit corrupted by the Codes.ā
Etoiles: No but yeah, yeah, I totally get it. But honestly, never. Never in a million years.
Baghera: I believe you! I trust you. But if thereāsā if once you feel any difference or something of the sort, you mention it, okay? To whomever you want, but you mention it.
Etoiles: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (10000x)
Baghera: You know youāre not very reassuring when you say that, as an answer.
Etoiles: Thatās true. But Iām telling you thereās no problem. Andā actually. The moment I start feeling strange, Iāll put numbers. And so youāll have to come get me.
Baghera: Okay, okay. Iāll remember that.
Etoiles: Just that. But Iā Iā yeah. I whisper in the Codeās ear.
Baghera: The day you start talking to me in binary, thereāll be an issue, basically.
Etoiles: The day I say, ā10001ā, thatās it. But actually, Iām telling you, I could never be corrupted because I have AVAST, my wool block which blocks viruses.
Does this imply that Kim Dokja also tried to write a questionnaire for her to fill in since she wouldnāt speak to him, that either he 1) never gave her in the end (especially if he couldnāt find her after she was released) or 2) gave it to her and she STILL refused to answer?
Because that is so so so so awful. It was already bad but if he tried so many ways to get her to speak and she still gave him no response, regardless of her reasoningā¦ isnāt that still directly choosing to cut herself fully out of his life? Why in the hell did she lie for his sake and allow him to visit her if she wanted to never speak to him again?
I know everyone claims Kim Dokja is just like her in sacrificing himself for loved ones, but at least he tries his best to stay with them and to keep them in his life. He still chooses sacrifice, but itās not because he intends to never return. He always returns (even if much later than planned).
The only time this differs is with 51%, when he STILL tried his best to stay with them - at least as much as he could.
I sometimes like Lee Sookyung, but I am mostly still SO mad at her for completely ignoring her child since he was 8 years old. Especially when he must have looked like shit any number of times from being mistreated and bullied by family, friends, army, employers.
But maybe thatās just the fragment in me being eternally pissed with her. She DOES love him, but like he says in the webtoon in this chapter - maybe such truths are painful enough to be false anyways, because theyāre just SUCH bullshit. Thatās not how affection should work, if you actually care about someone and want them to be happy.