#THEY'RE GETTING MY HOPES UP FOR NOTHING
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monica MONICA BABYGIRL OHMYGOD WHAT THE FUCKKK?????? WHAT IS THISSISBAKSGSKEHJSVSND
ACTUAL DEPICTION OF ME HAVING A MENTAL BREAKDOWN IN THE OFFICE BATHROOM FIRST THING IN THE MORNING
IDK WHAT'S HAPPENING IDK HOW TO FEEL IDK IF I WANT IT I ALREADY HAD TO TALK MYSELF DOWN THE LEDGE AFTER THE SHOW ENDED THEY CAN'T DO THIS TO ME AGAIN
#THIS IS A TRAP I KNOW IT IS#THEY'RE GETTING MY HOPES UP FOR NOTHING#AND YET IM STILL SCREAMING SHAKING CRYING THROWING UP SLIDING DOWN A WALL FOAMING AT THE MOUTH CLAWING MY FACE OFF SPINNING COUNTERCLOCKWIS#SEND HELP#last twilight the series#m: ask#ismay 🤍
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I see alttp Zelda, I pick her up and put her in my pocket............
in order -> @clowns0up-felix @casunnart @kokirizeldas and 🧍
#my art#started finally making a dent in my to-do pile last weekend and then was like but what if Zeldas...#not part of my plan but Def part of my dream :)#rly fun though I sketched them last weekend and then when I was too beat to draw during the week I would just chip away at these#THEY'RE SMALL AND SIMPLE SRY I was trying smth but idk about it hdsfuihfds#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#if I post this tonight but get to nothing else I'm sorry I'll try to catch up on stuff tomorrow sdgsadha#ANYWAY I HOPE IT'S OK I BORROWED YOUR GUYS I promise I took good care of them and they're on their way home rn!!#love them very much I baked them cake and fed them overpriced takeout and fruit snacks! :) <3#the colours are so different on my monitor but I already merged a bunch of stuff.. rip....
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delete me
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let's try this again
@jumalanpelko fanart !!!!! suncat!!!!! i hope she is still recognizable after so much rendering w random colors!!
#jumalanpelko#suncat#art#artists on tumblr#jumalanpelkofanart#jumalanpelko fanart#e_e_#everything everything#choice mountain#arc#music art#music#cw dead animal#<- the fish not suncat#starlingfawn's art#2025#cw body horror [maybe??... just to be safe]#HITS YOU WITH THE SALMON MOTIF!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE SALMON BEING USED IN SYMBOLISM#I LOVE SALMON THEY'RE SO COOL AND EPIC AND AWESOME!!!!#i finally read this comic because i'd get updates of it in my dash constantly and i didn't want to have the whole thing spoiled so yeah!!#it was such a fun read!! the characters and world are literally so interesting and the artstyle is so unique and cool....#suncat <3333 i sure hope nothing bad happens to her#i do not know how cat bones work... i tried referencing an image but i still thing i fucked her up i'm so sorry...#this took me like 3 days.#i drew the entire thing [except the fish for whatever reason] on one layer. in the same layer as the sketch.#why? no idea i enjoy suffering and i want to get better at not having three thousand layers which is working actually....
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in due time our love has turned into poison
#flele art#fanart#project moon#limbus company#2025#hong lu#hong lu lcb#jia huan#uhhhhh canto 8 spoilers maybe??? not really#but canto 8 spoilers on the rest of the tags so watch out#ok so that one scene fucked me up. the 'humans die thats what they're born to do :)' one#also I've had honglu and huan mizan in my mind for ages#safe to say the moment i saw that scene i just popped off like#'IM RIGHT IM RIGHT IM ALWAYS RIGHT AND NEVER WRONG AND NEVER PUNISHED#this canto has given me nothing but dread#i hope to god we fight him and we get more info on what the fuck is his issue
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supergiant you can't keep toying with my heart like this re: aro mel
#there's more but these are all i can find on a brief screenshot hunt rn#i really REALLY want mel to be aro#i don't trust that she will be#but like i relate to her as aro so fucking hard and i have done since the game came out#and i know they're probably gonna make romance optional like in the first game so like whether she's aro or bi or both is up to the player#(read: everyone on this site will say she's bi and nothing else is acceptable)#but like now sgg's actually gotten pretty popular since hades came out can you imagine getting an actual aro protag#i don't need her to be ace as well she can fuck who she likes not my business#but im just really hoping it doesn't turn into a 'mel realised she'd never known what romance truly felt like and now she's in love'#/'she was wrong for believing she should put her mission first and it turned out to be the low self esteem talking'#like every even mildly aro fictional character gets pushed into eventually#like do i get my hopes up?#supergiant pls#supergiant games#hades 2#melinoe
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Hello!! I followed you for your absolutely amazing Twisted Wonderland comics (thank you for making them, by the way-) but I saw you posting about something called Ride Kamens? I haven’t heard of it before, what’s it about? Or if that’s a bit much to ask, where could I find more info about it? It seems right up my alley 👀
Thank you!
thank you! :> :> :> (this is also for the other anon who asked about where to find it, I am honored to be infecting the world spreading interest in this silly game)
Ride Kamens is still doing prerelease marketing and isn't out yet; it's set for "early summer 2024", so a bit yet to go! similar to Twst, it's a mobile game about anime boys loosely based on an existing franchise (Kamen Rider), although it seems like it's going to be more standalone/won't require familiarity with Rider going in.
the (very) basic premise is that your player character has just taken over their late father's role as a secret agent, supporting the city's superheroes by running a secret base disguised as a cafe (plus you have a personal butler for some reason) (the reason is because it's amazing). you also have to help the heroes regain their lost memories, and it looks like it'll have a bit of a route/choice aspect there (not romance, just different endings to the character episodes depending on what you do). the details are kinda hard to tell at this point but the characters seem like a really fun bunch; there's definitely big "idiots with emotional problems" energy which I am extremely into.
all the official info is in Japanese only at the moment, but here's the website and the ride_kamens twitter! (though the twitter is sort of overtaken by posts about the AnimeJapan exhibit right now, whoops.) and I believe some people are already planning on doing translations for it too? lots to look forward to! :D
#ride kamens#joseimuke games are serious business#this is why like 99% of my posts about it so far have been just 'hey it's that guy' :')#the characters look like fun i'm just waiting to properly meet them!#i suspect they're doing a bit of a reverse-twst where instead of familiarity with the source drawing you into the game#they're aiming to get people into rider via handsome animes#we have officially reached the zany gambit phase of the franchise#honestly i have no idea what the actual quality of the game is going to be but by god am i gonna play it anyway because C'MON#i do think it looks like fun though! based on the op it looks like the villains might be turning people into monsters?#and the chaostones are from space or something WHY NOT#(also i was SO happy to see that there's a background that looks like our old friend the Wireworks and Explosion Factory)#(you made it in! can't wait for a character to dramatically explode in you ❤️)#(man i hope nijigao city is just full of toku landmarks)#(round up all the boys for a field trip to the local quarry surely nothing will go wrong there)
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BEY LEVAC & JOHN WALKER
you could say it’s mental dancing in your blood but all is fair in war and love || [x]
taglist (ask to be added/removed):
@paralytic-states @stacispratt @just-in-the-nickleback-of-time @perseus-veil
@daydreaming-fanatic @adelaidedrubman @aceghosts @imogenkol @socially-awkward-skeleton
@shellibisshe @leviiackrman@katsigian @lilywatt
#oc:bey#x: i don't wanna feel#hi again. i've fallen victim to a terrible illness (blorbos in my head)#insecure john walker canon btw. “his desperate need for validation” is out there on a promotional piece. we all know#when i say “together for 8 months” what i rlly mean is they're beating each other up as foreplay and then hooking up#and THEN. pretending it meant nothing. and telling each other to die in a bush <3#bey falling first is crazy fr. “wow this guy is an asshole. i sure hope i won't get attached.” then they learn how he likes his coffee#they're both such losers. yea man let's beat the crap out of each other. clearly this isn't an excuse to touch what we can't have#ANYWAY. HI GUYS. SORRY#marvel oc#thunderbolts oc#john walker
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For coloring books Ive used thriftbooks. I look up flip throughs or videos first to see if I like the art n whatnot. The older mythographic books are the ones similar to what youre looking for I believe. Really busy pages with hidden things. Good luck!!
oh those DO look like the kind of thing i'm looking for, thank you!!
#original#every time i see the cover of a johanna basford coloring book i get my hopes up#and every time the actual coloring pages look NOTHING like the cover#literally if the interior pages were just like the cover except filled edge to edge without title space that would be perfect#but NO they're just regular coloring pages!! not fiddly at all!!!#rude imho#i went to a coloring subreddit to see if i could find useful info but all the top posts are people showing off their coloring skills#i appreciate your ability to shade and create light illusions but we are seeking different things here#i think i had a set of colorable postcards. i should start using those again and just mail them to friends apropos of nothing.#hello friends. we are in our thirties. here is some coloring i did to put on your fridge if you would like.
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my thoughts on The Murderbot Show:
idk man
#i pressed play with the same energy you'd get from someone trying to disarm a bomb#it looks fun enough. and the changes are fine. i guess#i think i'm still hung up on the CGI#i dont. like it.#which is nothing new tbh this is why i rarely watch live action stuff#i want to say that i would have liked it if i wasn't so attached to the books already. but idkkkkk#my vision for the scavengers reign style murderbot show seems to hinder my ability to enjoy the show's visuals. rip i guess#the murderbot show#murderbot#mbtv#i think i'll try and write down my proper thoughts once the entire season has released bc#uuuuuugh so far my biggest concern is how they're handling the whole "space hippies PresAux'' thing#like. i wouldn't be surprised if them presenting PresAux in such an unserious manner is so viewers can be surprised once they#get down to proper business or whatever. at least. that's what i'm hoping for#but i also wouldn't be surprised if the adaptation just. dumbed them down a bit. for some reason#same with whatever's going on with Mensah. i feel like i just haven't seen enough of the changes to form a concrete opinion on that#i love how they did Ratthi. he's perfect 10/10 no notes#i enjoy what they're doing with Gurathin (even though i very much preferred 2nd gen immigrant Gurathin whose knowledge of the CorpRim#comes from horror stories passed down by his parents) (that's still my book interpretation of him)#Still torn on Pin-Lee and Arada getting with Ratthi like. yknow what actually i don't care about that one.#i prefer to keep my romances fully in the background + in fanworks but. who gaf#uhhhh what else is there#oh god i fear the day that blond lady comes on screen. i hope to they handle whatever's going on there well#i'll forgive the crime of adding her uncomfortable comments to the show if someone tells her off for all that!!!!!!!#and while i enjoy the visual style of sanctuary moon. i'm still surprised it seems to be some space adventure show?????#i was expecting it to be more of a legal drama or something. with moodier visuals but. whatever i guess that's a small detail#i'll be fine as long as we have the solicitor and her bodyguard#mmm yea i don't have anything else for now. send post#ramblings
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genuinely don't understand how lestat nation is mad about that last episode. we have established.
Louis still thinks of Lestat as the one he trusts, is violently guilty and also horny about him
the final thing that makes him stop circling armand and go for it is confirmation that lestat and armand fucked. like they are clearly attracted to each other on their own merits but they are also appropriating lesbian culture.
lestat has the most magical dick in paris. probably europe. possibly the world. everyone who looks at him falls in love with him a little and no one who fucks him ever gets over it.
armand specifically isn't over it. 200 years later louis by his side he's still like that.
there is a 0% chance there isn't more to the nicki stuff. armand didn't even mention gabrielle and hannah moscovitch has already said gabby is what she's most looking forward to in season three (hard same). also if lestat did tell his creepy boyfriend kidnapping stalker he loved him as a distraction so he could run away the only thing he did wrong was not taking the boyfriend with him. he owes armand less than nothing! i love armand but if lestat wanted to slit his throat and leave him in a swamp he'd be justified in that. he doesn't, which is great for me, but that is the one person besides his dad and i guess the ghost of magnus where he can do whatever he wants forever and it's fine. unholy trinitity of bad men who were bad to him when he was vulnerable and couldn't fight back. if claudia hated him less they could talk about it. however, speaking of bad men who are bad to people. oops.
#press says iwtv#i do get the overall sadness from lestat fans#they took away all my favourite stuff from him in season one and left me with sam reid being a delight#which isn't nothing#but season two?? season two has just been louis and armand being fucked up because a) CLAUDIA my love haunts them as she should hope she#gets literal with it and sets their ugly bed on fire while she's at it#and b) they miss him soooo bad#like they miss him outrageously they're not over it louis is out there asking himself if CLAUDIA is worth it. come on#if anything they are being TOO nice to him this season#iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire
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christ alive I love my parents and I'm glad I got to see them but they are just. so fucking exhausting
#i've identified something about them#which is this#they genuinely do not grasp that other people have Real Experiences that don't map to their view of the world#like it's not that they don't view those experiences as valid or whatever#it's that they genuinely and truly do not grok that other people have experiences they don't approve of#like that the experiences actually happen and aren't made up#“why do you insist on referring to X with they/them pronouns?”#“because they don't identify with a gender”#“well you're either one or the other”#“well they don't feel that way and they don't identify with a gender”#“well you're one or the other”#“okay but literally they do not feel that way and you not liking that doesn't change it like wtf and also sex and gender aren't the same”#etc etc etc ad fucking nauseum#fucks sake#also this is always my mom who drops this shit#my dad just pretends like nothing is happening and ignores the conversation like the wuss he is lol#to be fair i get it because i would not go up against my mom either if i was him because he has to live with her stubborn ass#it's probably obvious but they blithely misgendered me the whole goddamn time they were here#UNLESS THEY WERE IN FRONT OF OTHER PEOPLE IN PUBLIC LOLOLOLOLOLOL#HMMMMMMMMM#FUNNY HOW THAT WORKS#anyway fuck them and i hope they get home safe because they're old as fuck and probably going to die in the next 5-10 years#and when they do it will be terrible and also part of me will be relieved and idk how to feel about that tbh#so like#yeah#:/#covington-shenanigans gets personal#(to be clear they just didn't use pronouns for me at all in public)#(they have never once gendered me correctly and probably never will)
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so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks™ or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently
#ive been running on “two cakes. u aren't BOTHERING people by putting art on their feed they can scroll past it/if they dont they get ”cake“”#and we love “cake”#“cake” is picture on the internet in this case#like okay the contracts and transaction format is a me problem!! i need to get rid of the “utilitarian brain worms” bc they're boring#this is supposed to be a hobby and the “get a good grade in hobby” wolf in the brain is just crying bc that's how they understand the world#the “get a good grade in x” wolf has valid pain but needs to stop controlling my life because they don't need to earn “enough value to live”#ect ect ect#and the life of minmaxxed utility is a life of trying to appeal to a “correct” that doesn't exist yaddi yadda = boring#i love you wolf. also shut up. affectionate. concerned. you get it#ok so we remove tangible purpose from act of experience art because THAT'S not “the point”#because “the point” is the joy killer eccetera ecc#but then what? “here check out this labor of love. i drew this fucker 15 times. no there's no story* there it's just a guy”#*story in this case being an emotional engagement/a situation/a context in which to ponder/other#so it's just a Draw. no further analysis. what do others Get from that?#i know i deeply enjoy art because im a fan of the process of People Making Stuff. i love when there was nothing but now there's something!!!#THAT'S what's it all about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me!!!! right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so it stands to reason that creation is purpose enough?? to be experienced???? to be known????????#idk!!#this is a nothing burger of a thought people have always liked picture on the internet stfu maiora there doesn't need to be a reason#this is just the brainworms talking!!! because god forbid “something not have a purpose”??? blegh!!!!!!!!#sounds like unhealthy rationalizing instead of letting things be out of The Fear™!!sounds like depraving urself from joy bc of BRAINWORMS!!!#so like!!!!! picture on the internet doesn't NEED inherent value. creation is enough!! (plus there's the Attachment to Character. also.)#but then why are YOU *points at you* here? gen q!!#i made an image you like and now you are reading my word babble in some tags!!! what's THAT all about???????????#it's INTERESTING!! do you see what im trying to get at??#is it empathy??? person made something other saw something other made- other2other connection???? intrigue????????#.......all this is probably explained in some book or yt essay somewhere. oh well.#in the meantime thank you for your time! we can pretend we were stuck in an elevator together and then i started rambling#i hope you have a great rest of your day thanks for stopping by!! <3#maiora garrulates
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winston my quant of billions
#''😒''#corned beef#winston billions#& green of all things; drew it in purpley pink & being like whoa hey is this too much deliberately breaking out this Rare Coloring#minty fresh....been funny to be rotating the villainy of; let's say; bsol & xmas & then thinking about billions' whole other world there#& its completely different take where of all things winston is like. treated as a villain in a way its sicko My God central men aren't#(who are also quite different from iconis villains but yknow with the very fundamental differences in general what else is a surprise)#axe? prince? alive & well & billions does mean to be commenting on that like yeah sure#but winston? gotta be humiliated & violated & attacked / killed (if figuratively + just by assumption Oh He's Fiiine)#as well as basically truly dead to everyone but in a Never Existed / Spontaneously Shunned way. nobody thinks about him ever again#including when non wretched central men characters are getting these silver linings Benefits from their sabotaging a central man#not winston though maybe; the writing has forgotten him / sees no worth in bringing him up unless At His Expense; not gain#didn't get background randos telling prince or the like to go fuck himself at any point. open contempt reserved for winston there#better to have Objective Entitlement to power over / access to people & then; hey what the; be an asshole about it???#than to not just Have that entitlement & not expect it & not try to use it & be friendly & minding your own business as much or more than#any other characters like good lord what a Loser. the queerness & disability of this inferiority? just some jokes (at winston's expense)#& we will be killing him like nobody even considers for central men takedowns. those are polite & we all have Some regret it came to this#better to abuse people than. be so unepic (different from Normal white cishet 50some men who love certain media)#& on that note you're never gonna guess what's Good to do to the unepic people who bring it upon themselves....yeah haha. abuse#you're never gonna guess but power difference is a given & also good if an epic person has that power. & on that note#what can they do with it but keep unepic people in their place? what other hope do we have? winston may try to say a pun. or speak at all :#anyway while there's the absolute joys of Any Good Bastard over in a wildly different oeuvre it's like well yknow#while winston is already Ruining Things as more a Wretched Sicko Evil Asshole for seeing himself as a person & others as people#instead of himself as an inferior who has to apologize for existing & initiating any interaction vs only ever doing as he's told#unlike the best heroes who know they're superior & will use others & mess with their lives however they feel is justified; you're welcome#like well if winston's such an exceptional dick(tm) around here that he has to be introduced w/discussion / explanation around this#great let him be even bitchier & more ''difficult''....& billions would never & that's why [sorry to all the characters trapped in there]#the slightest glimpses of like & The Quasirival Weirdo Duos Are Kinda Being Cunts b/w usual parallels riawin & taylip#what comes of that? oh nothing. but as ever these are at least glimpses of a little more liveliness & range for making room for this a sec#anyway imagine getting so niche that your other kinda just as niche thing is like. less niche. but not really. wheee yayyy fr lol My Whimsy
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Zero Day (2002)
#movies film cinema#zero day#ben coccio#I actually talked to the director on Facebook super nice guy and he told#me a lot about the filmmaking process and even helped me with tips on directing non-actors and new actors#I remember him telling me to always be supportive and tell your new actors they're doing a good job even if they aren't in the first take#cause you can instill confidence and still reshape and change their choices and mistakes later#Sometimes I'd message him for advice when I was running into problems on some of my early projects#he told me once ''did ya choose to collaborate with this actor cause you were lonely or you guys had passion and chemistry''#“collaborating is like a relationship” and he was so right#there's nothing worse than working with people you disdain cause there's no communication and no trust.#he told me how he wrote the first couple of drafts of Place Beyond the Pines but his take on the 3rd act wasn't clicking for the director#so he took the script and went and had another writer rewrite the 3rd act but he liked the process cause he learned a lot and still got pai#but I'd still like to see Ben Coccio's take on Place Beyond The Pines he says the 1st and 2nd act are mostly unchanged#Ryan Gosling's scenes are still mostly the same he said but he couldn't tell me too much cause of the NDA he signed#The bloopers of Zero Day are hilarious his tip he gave me about being supportive#“This is actually great but can we-” and Cal interrupts him “He says that no matter what if you're doing good or bad!” and everyone lols#I hope I can make it and ask him to collab with me on a script#He's such a nice dude compared to the harrowing film he made.#I wish there was BTS but he had only one tape to film on and this was made when digital camcorders were infants#I think he had only one 2 hour tape that's how low budget#The bloopers is just Cal or Andre secretly filming and Ben getting annoyed “Is it recording?” and Cal going “Nah..."#Cal is such a funny guy IRL I wanna see him act more cause he's so good. He was so great at playing a sadistic psychopath in this.#the final shooting is so harrowing and disturbing#I told Ben he srsly gut punched me/disturbed me and this is what made him really open up.
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Hey do you remember all those videos of Fernando smelling flowers? Haha yeah....

#posting this both while im asleep and after whatever bee event ends up happening#so who knows what will happen! will we get nothing? will we get eye contact? will we possibly get an interaction? its a surprise!!#anyways this is basically me hearing about seb's bee event and he said the drivers will be there#me deep in my vettonso brainrot: OH MY GOD THEY'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME VICINITY#will be so funny for me if when i wake up i find out fernando didnt even go 😭#but we remain hopeful 🙏#also this is just very funny to me bcs like both seb and fernando have very specifc quirks#and what are two of their specific quirks? seb and his bee thing. fernando and his flower thing from this season#so this fanart is perfect y'know 🥰🥰🥰#also screeching over how this is the first canon au drawing ive ever drawn. ive literally never drawn non-au until now 💀💀💀#okay and now some horrible jokes thay happened during the process of this:#thesis of this drawing: whats Fernando gonna do? Pollinate him? 😏#C. why did you have to make me think of bees that produce sex pollen 😭😭 this is gonna haunt me forever. but also vettonso post-japan fic-#and then also the barry benson thing. im like what do humanized bees look like and then realized 'oh no....oh no.'#fernando to seb at the bee event: 'ya like samurais...?' SORRY 😭#also having to pick the colors from one of my historical au drawings was haunting. just the sheer difference btwn them yknow......#anyways please take my old men yaoi. took a break from historical yaoi to draw this 😭😭😭😭#this is my peak vettonso fanart cannot improve from here. also a fever dream#vettonso#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#catie.art.#*not gonna edit the tags bcs i like the time capsule of it all but like. yeah. we were fed.#*catie from 2 hours prior(atm its 3 am) would be so pleased right now i think
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i understand and appreciate the sentiment behind them but god, as someone in the process of getting an art degree and intending to pursue a career in art, those "don't get a job doing what you love because you'll start to hate it" posts are depressing
#im sure for lots of people monetizing their hobby/passion is not the right choice!!#that's good advice!!#but SOME people are happy with an artistic career?? right??#i know this is not at all the intent but it feels so often like they're telling me 'you should just give up now and get a boring job'#like i wanna do art for a living because there's nothing else i wanna do more!! i care about this!! so i want to do it all the time!!#and i mean who knows i don't know exactly what my plan is after school. having a non artistic day job is still on the table#and i'm aware of what those posts are really trying to say which is to protect your joy#and that will factor into whatever i end up deciding to do#but is it so bad to want to do the thing i love and make other people happy with it and get paid??#stars rambles#vent#i do hope it goes without saying when i vent about a post i saw on my dash but just in case:#if you're my mutual and you reblogged posts like this recently or anything this is not @ you and i am not mad <3
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