#Thalia deserved more screen time in the books

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There are people who think Annabeth is very powerful because she is the leader of the seven. What do you think about this? Is Annabeth really the leader of the seven and she is very powerful because she has "the control"?

I haven’t read much of the books of the heroes of Olympus series, but I think Annabeth as a character has always stayed the same in the fact that she has always had a superiority complex, to the point where it’s her fatal flaw, and I don’t think it’s discussed enough.

I suppose I think about it the same way I think about people saying that Annabeth was the leader between her, Percy and Grover. What it really was, was that Annabeth couldn’t be wrong and as you said, ‘have control’. Something I am familiar with from HOO is the scene between P*rcabeth and Akhlys, and I think it’s a very clear representation of Annabeths character, particularly her reaction to the events of the scene. She is scared because she doesn’t have control. It’s all but confirmed when she says “some things aren’t meant to be controlled” which then leads to a Percy spiral and him passively thinking about suicide, which, is its own entire thing but I think it’s very relevant when talking about Annabeth. Particularly because it all comes back to control.

I truly believe Annabeth is only viewed as a leader because she likes to have control, and her superiority complex that she’s automatically better because she’s a daughter of Athena, which again, is shown entirely from her introduction in the first book, and is pretty central to her character as a whole. I think Percy and Jason probably acted the most like the leader, and I kinda feel like Annabeths role is pretty interchangeable. Personally, I think bringing Thalia back to be part of the seven would’ve been more impactful. Especially because when you look at the quests the OG trio went on, Annabeth doesn’t really do anything in particular that means they would’ve failed had she not been there. Which is why I also don’t think Percy gets enough credit for the role he played in his own quests.

Every single member of the seven had better, more interesting and are factually more powerful than Annabeth. They did not need Annabeth there to do that quest, and I think that really Jason and Percy acted more like leaders, both of which have also been leaders in the past and have more experience (Jason through the legion and Percy through TLO, since he led all of camp halfblood against the titan army. Percy did, not Annabeth, Percy did but that’s besides the point). I think Annabeth is simply elevated because she’s a fan favourite, not because she is a leader or anything. And I don’t mind Annabeths character, if her flaws are addressed.

So no I don’t think Annabeth is overly powerful, and I think the only reason she’s seen as the leader of the seven is because she’s the only one who cares about being seen as leader, in comparison to the others to an extent. I really think it was more that nobody had the energy to fight her on it, then her being the true leader.

I hope this answers your question! Also feel free to ask more I love getting these, it’s exciting!!

[supernaturallyliterate]

PJO SEASON FINALE AHHHH

THOUGHTS. YES THOSE.

Spoilers. Duh. Book and show

Annabeth being there to witness the moment Luke tried to kill Percy is a FUCKING GAME CHANGER. To me, it says that Annabeth suspected Luke & made a plan to make both Percy and Luke think that she would be with Clarisse. When she intended to follow them and protect Percy if need be.

I’m not mad about it. It’s a big change. But it makes sense for her character. It will make her and Luke’s dynamic later in the series a little different. Maybe instead of Annabeth blindly wanting to believe that Luke is good and couldn’t possibly do evil things, it will be more nuanced. She knows he’s done horrible things. She’s seen it. But she still can’t help but remember who he used to be. She hesitates in key moments. Let’s him get away. He takes advantage of those moments and escapes. Not intentional on Annabeth’s part. She tries to be calculated. But her emotions get the better of her. I can see this working out quite nicely.

And it still allows her to be the one at the end, in heroes of Olympus, to be there, advocating for Luke. Telling Percy to give him the knife. OH THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD.

Okay but Walker Scobell is such a good fucking Percy Jackson

Leah Jeffry Savies is such. Good fucking Annabeth Chase.

And aryan is such a good fucking Grover Underwood.

Okay but the searchers license being a literal flower?? How are you gonna convince me that Grover wouldn’t anxiously eat it like he does tin cans??

OKAY BUT ALSO I ACCIDENTALLY STARTED REWATCHING EPISODE ONE instead of episode eight and LUKE DOES THE VOICEOVER. THE ICONIC SO YOURE A HALFBLOOD SPEECH. BUT CHANGED. AND OHHH ITS SO FUCKING GOOD. THE PARALLELS ARE PARALLELING

I am so so fucking glad that we got the sword fight training scenes. We really needed them. The scene shifts of Percy fighting Ares and Percy training with Luke are spot on. And it sets up the friendship and mentorship with Luke & Percy even more. Making the betrayal so much worse. It build up perfectly.

Gods I wish we had a longer season.

Again with things being directly told to Percy. “You’re a leader among the halfbloods now,” Chiron tells him.

The bead at the end of the season when he’s leaving camp

THE PACT THE TRIO MAKES

And the fact that next year, all FOUR of them will return to that spot. Percy, Annabeth, Grover… and Thalia.

Annabeth’s hairstyle in the final scene was supers cute

The scene of Percy seeing his mom after she returns from the Underworld WAS SO CUTE AND PRECIOUS AND THEN KRONOS FUCKED IT UP. I love it. Chefs kiss.

Clarrise looked so fucking badass in her pan shot with her arms crossed. Like yeah she totally could’ve fucked some shit up with the gods

I love the beach scene with Percy v. Ares and how confused Annabeth is about the helm situation cuz she wasn’t there lmao

I kinda liked that Ares got cocky and kicked his opponent, the SoN of the FuCKinG SeA GOD into the OCEAN. Percy rolled through that little puddle and I screamed OH ITS OVER FOR YOU.

Walker’s micro expressions are fucking ICONIC AND I CANT WAIT FOR THE SCREEN RECORDS

Your honor I love them. Yes this post has devolved. No I won’t stop.

I gasped when Alecto was there at Montauk instead of Sally. But yeah. She showed up. I just forgot.

I love how Percy has just started calling people out on their shit. “You were always after the helm, weren’t you?” And telling Zeus he’s a shitty dad

OKAY BUT POSEIDON SHOWING UP TO PROTECT PERCY. I GASPED. I LOVE THIS CHANGE SO MUCH. it shows so much more compassion and gentleness of Poseidon. Yes in the books we get some glimpses. But the show isn’t holding back his favoritism.

THE PERCABETH HUG PT TWO

okay but we were robbed of more Seaweed Brain and Wise Girl quips.

I’m sure I’ll have more thoughts later on. But overall. I AM SO HAPPY WITH THIS SERIES I JUST WISH IT HAD MORE EPISODES TO GIVE THE STORY THE TIME AND DEVELOPMENT IT DESERVES.

[3gremlins]

obviously it's early yet and there have only been 2 episodes but so far i am underwhelmed by the percy jackson tv show. thoughts behind cut (i guess very mild spoilers but nothing big)

mostly b/c every time it uses cgi fx the lighting gets DULL AF and terrible and i am begging disney etc to just pay for lighting people and practical effects/mixture of cgi and practical so it can be lit properly and not rely on making everything dark to hide shitty looking composition with weird flattening color grading (the actual models don't look that bad, they're just badly composited. like let a dramatic rim light enter your life, fam, i am begging you).

The props also look a little cheap? Esp in the capture the flag war scene, they all look/sound like plastic with little to make it seem like they're not (also the fit on the helmets was kinda meh, but i realize this is nitpicky).

it just added to making the show look cheap in a way it def shouldn't be b/c the mouse has so much freaking money. idk, it feels like they got a meager budget for a thing that deserves a GoT or at least a Mandalorian/SW budget tbh (orrrrrr i wish they'd just done a cool animated show in the style of the opening/closing credits but obviously that would be more expensive and the house of mouse are cowards T.T)

also the writing has been a lot of "tell instead of show" exposition so far which makes for not so great tv (it would have been much cooler to see the luke/thalia/anabeth bg stuff as a flashback instead of just having luke explain it on screen- stuff like that. Which is probably a budget/direction issue and less of a writing issue tbf). More characterization in general- like it just feels a little rushed like they were trying to hit major plot points faster (esp with the inter god house relations).

It also feels like someone told Jason Mantzoukas to dial it back and so he feels weirdly restrained as mr.d (a very strange choice imho). Like you hire him to be loud and a little obnoxious and i'm not sure about this directing choice for this character (this is sort of minor but it contributed to the first 2 eps feeling overall kinda muted?)

Book 1 is the weakest book by far tho so probably season 1 will be the weakest since it's an adaptation of that but I thought maybe they'd be able to fix some of the issues since Riordan has more direct control over that with this adaptation. Like move some plot points around/character narratives to make it a little more dynamic and make us care about more of the main characters sooner.

it also feels like it's missing a little bit of that rick riordan is a huge classics/mythology nerd DEEP CUT references that are in the books (we got a little with that one kid talking about the goddess of failure but not really enough)

the casting is great tho and maybe it will get rolling as the season goes on, i will keep watching for sure. I'm just sad it wasn't better b/c now I'm not going to be able to convince my partner to read the books lol. He already read the Magnus Chase books which he liked, but he's afraid of the PJ books b/c the first few aren't as good/were written earlier

[couldnt-think-of-a-funny-name]

how would you do a percy jackson adaptaion?

okay, so I know this is a controversial opinion right off the bat: I really don’t think it should be an animated series.

A large part of the appeal of the series is that it’s a fantasy series set very very firmly in reality. Literally, apart from the camps, you could go to every location hit in the books. Riordan mentions specific streets, buildings and landmarks, and that was cool when I first read them. I remember being a kid and waiting for him to set a scene in a place near where I lived! I remember trips to New York and being able to envision an epic war happening in the streets. So I think any adaption needs to be live action just to keep that same feeling alive, while I’m not knocking on animation, I just feel like taking the story out of real life would make it loose a little of the charm. Like, the scene where Manhattan is completely frozen in time? It would be haunting to see that in real life, but I feel like it would be less impactful if it didn’t…you know…look real? The series should be done in a way that makes you truly feel like you could just turn a corner and walk straight into a snake woman going about her day. 

Now: another large part of the appeal of the series is how funny it is, but a lot of that…is Percy’s inner monologue. He doesn’t actually voice most of it, there was even a book where Annabeth described him as being quiet. So, I think the best way to work around this: make it Interview With A Demigod. 

Imagine it’s got an interview with a vampire-esque setup- and this even works because within the riordanverse, the books canonically exist because Percy sat down with a ‘camp scribe’ and had his quests recorded. So, like, this isn’t even entirely out of left field. But just imagine, a college-aged, maybe a little older Percy, I can see it so clearly in my head, he’s wearing a sweatshirt that at first glance looks like it says NYU but a trained eye will see it actually says NRU for a camp jupiter easter egg, he’s sitting in some dinky little diner (maybe it can even be a monster donut or something with a clever greek myth related name) with a guy who’s recording the conversation on some old-ass tape recorder that keeps acting up but they can’t record on a phone because of the whole technology thing. Every now and then it’ll cut back to them to get some great Percy thoughts out there. They open with older Percy saying the ‘look, I didn’t wanna be a halfblood’ and then explaining where he was when the whole mess started. Once he get’s to “was I a troubled kid?” the screen fades from older Percy to 12 year old Percy getting in a fight with Nancy and her gang, and the voice over says the ‘Yeah, you could say that’ part as we see him get threatened by the principal to behave on the field trip. Boom, we’ve got an opening. Lowkey….I’m seeing Jordan Fisher as older Percy, but I’m not 100% married to the idea. 

And before anyone tries to argue that showing an older Percy would spoil he’s not gonna die in last olympian- like, reading the books, we all knew he wasn’t going to die. It was a first person narrative and he was consistently speaking in past tense lmao like we Knew he was gonna make it. We still enjoyed the series. It won’t ruin anything.

I want part of the score of the adaptation to be instrumental versions of songs from the musical, I think that could be a sweet nod to that team. 

They really need to nail camp halfblood. I know that goes without saying, but in order to keep the pacing of the story decent we can’t spend as much time falling in love with it like we got to with the book. The book is like, 24 chapters and the quest starts at chapter 12- for a movie or tv show, that’s just gonna feel like it’s dragging. So, the insanity of the camp needs to smack you in the face right away, and then it needs to endear itself to the viewers quickly after that. Don’t try to ease the viewers (or Percy) into the mythology is real thing, rip it off like a bandaid. He’s on his way to meet Chiron and Mr. D for the first time and even if he’s not comprehending what he’s seeing, there’s nature spirits and harpies all around going about their day. Hestia waves at him and then disappears into the flames. Hecate kids can be seen casting a spell on the porch of the Hermes cabin. The Stolls are seen pranking some Aphrodite kids. He sees someone surely die on the climbing wall but then you hear a faint ‘I’m okay!’. The Apollo kids put a rhyming curse on another cabin. Pure chaos all before he gets the ‘so, gods are real’ speech. And then after that…show how warm Luke is to him at the cabin and at dinner. Show the kids all goofing off at the campfire and really make it clear that they’re children. Show the strawberry fields rolling in the wind and Percy sitting on the beach. The whole couple weeks where he’s searching for powers and learning greek and latin with Annabeth can be a montage. Make it clear how hurt and scared he is when he finds out he needs to leave.

It needs to really get you feeling how Percy’s feeling, every laugh, every tear, every moment of fear or confusion needs to shine clear through. Like…think of Spider-Man Homecoming, the Washington monument scene. All things considered, it’s not the most high-stakes scene we’ve ever seen in that franchise, and when it cuts to the kids in the elevator, they’re worried but not quite freaking out, but that scene feels very high stress to watch because the movie is good at getting the viewers to feel what Peter feels. A Percy Jackson adaptation needs a touch like that, because Percy’s a very emotional kid and that’s what a lot of the scenes hinge on.

Lowkey- I’d love it if the casts of both the previous movies and the musical had cameos or bit parts (the movie cast did Nothing Wrong, it was the rest of that team). It’d be hilarious to see, like, Jake Abel as the owner of the poodle, or Logan Lerman as Older Percy and the reporter’s waiter that keeps trying to get in on the conversation, or Brandon T. Jackson as a satyr who’s still stuck grooving out in the Lotus Hotel and Casino. Kristen Stokes as a nature spirit, Chris as one of the ghosts stuck in the waiting room of DOA Records, just like any of those casts having small parts would be fun and sweet. 

There should be a lot of easter eggs for the bigger riordanverse. Promotions in the background for the new Tristan McLean movie. Gabe’s got a true crime documentary about the missing Grace children playing during his poker game. Mr. D is reading a paper about Rachel Dare’s father’s newest project. At some point while they’re still in New York they pass the Kane family’s mansion or whatever it was called. Annabeth keeps a picture of little her and Magnus on her nightstand. The barest of hints about the Triumvirate. Seeing kids in camp jupiter gear in some background shots, just out of notice of our main characters but implying the camps are going through similar problems (BITCH….if we got a titan’s curse adaptation…and we had a shot of Thalia in the foreground….but in the background we saw a blond boy in purple with a golden sword….well I would simply loose my Goddamn mind).

And show us how easily the mist lets things blend in, too- like, everyone thinks ‘Monster Donuts’ is just a normal chain, it’s just on an average street block, but if Percy looks through the window he can see who’s behind the counter. Show someone swindling some guys in a park and you have to look twice to realize he’s a gegeines. Like…how people are still trying to find all the background ghosts in haunting of hill house. I would LOVE to see a bunch of background monsters and mythical beings just going about their day as much as the mortals are while the gang’s questing. 

The effects need to be fun. The whole story needs to be fun, but one weird thing about the past movies are that like…in their attempt to make it gritty, none of the fantastical things happening on screen actually felt that exciting. We need bright colors and interesting choices, consistently cool action shots, a liveliness that makes you feel like you’re in the center of the action. I have absolutely no doubt Disney easily has enough funds to pull off great effects.

The characters need to be….in character lmao. Annabeth needs to be cocky and bratty with the skill set to justify it. Percy needs to be a sweetheart who pretends to be hardened because that’s what people assume he’s like. Grover needs to have dry humor and a Too Old For This Shit attitude whenever percabeth start bickering. Luke needs to be nice and friendly but in a specific way that you can look back after the betrayal and see he was trying to groom everyone. Sally needs to be loving, protective and strong. Chiron needs to feel defeated and determined at the same time. Mr. D needs to….be Stanley Tucci lmao

Also, I’d love if the adaptation could expand more on things that got brushed along in the books- Percy and Beckendorf’s friendship, Silena and Clarisse’s dynamic, make Nico’s crush on Percy a little more obvious, give Rachel some more development. One thing that haunts me about the books is Sally never found out that Gabe hit Percy. Absolutely they don’t need to make the abuse explicit, but I also personally feel like a lot of Percy’s mindsets throughout the series are somewhat a result of Gabe, and I’d like if that got, you know, acknowledged. Maybe in the scene where he figures out Gabe abuses Sally he could say ‘does he hit you too?’ or something to that effect. They could also go more into detail about Annabeth’s family, give Zoe some more depth….like the possibilities I’m screaming.

Okay this is already long and I’m getting tired but I can so clearly see a great adaptation in my mind….Disney please come through….It’s what we deserve…. 

[voidstilesplease]

Demigods and Magicians on the way!

I know it's going to take a while for the Percy Jackson live-action TV series to come out, but I'm rooting for it. I'd probably be 25 or approaching 30 when it comes out, but I'd sit my ass down and watch my favorite book series get the adaptation it deserved right from day one. Also, the fact that Uncle Rick is writing/helping with the script this time is just golden 👌 There will be changes from the book -that's inevitable, I guess- but I'm not so worried that they'd suck balls so bad, I'd scream myself hoarse as I watch. (Yes, I meant the movies. But who doesn't know that lmao)

Percy means so much to my middle-grade heart, and I just really want to see him grow as he did in the books. I want all the sass, the way he deals with his dyslexia and ADHD before realizing that he's not the only one in the world with it, and that like Annabeth, he can learn to overcome. I want to see that moment when he becomes one with the water, his power, and shape himself with experiences.

I also want Annabeth -smart-ass, kick-ass, clever daughter of Athena Annabeth- rebuke that "dumb blonde" stereotype in the most f-you way possible. And then Grover. The movies not only destroyed Percy and Annabeth, they completely veered from Grover's character. I want that Grover who starts as an insecure, scared satyr who dreams to partake in a sacred duty, and lives to see that fulfilled in honor of the others who couldn't.

And Thalia, and Nico -especially Nico- and the Greek gods and goddesses (not you Hera), and Sally "best mom" Jackson, and many more!

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And, apparently, not only PJO! The Kane Chronicles are also getting an adaptation *squeals in teenager*. This will probably come out quicker than PJO, and I'm thrilled. Not many talk about this trilogy, but they deserve the praises, as well. I cannot wait to see Sadie & Carter Kane on-screen 🖤 and the entire Egyptian Mythology concept.

Omg, Bast and Bes, I'm ready for you guys!

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Overall, I'm just glad that the book authors are now able to participate in the live-action process of their works, because they only serve to make a better outcome.

Also, this is too far ahead, but we might get to see Heroes of Olympus, too!

(Oh no, I can feel a re-read thundering up ahead 👀)

(and these are beautiful gifs that aren't mine)

[danielviza]

July 27th, 2017

I handed over this book to a friend. We exchanged gifts (bracelet and scarf) and stories. It’s a trusting bond of safety. I feel at home, at peace and happier with myself. I am still taking myself far too seriously and need to stop and enjoy the roses.

        It’s funny when you meet a person - and time stops.

        Everything around them drops, and the chords have ended, and there you are - bare bones with nothing to hide. Spending your time focused on exponentially growing your powers of communication.

        A great piece of knowledge shared today was that memories are stored differently to each perception

July 31st, 2017

She wants to learn how to record. A better perspective never hurt anyone. I believe in a better me, that will change the world and help the people around me.

        Antigenic drift

August 6th 2017

        “Semiamputated finger? Don’t worry, it builds character”

        Why worry about something that is no longer in your control? A double shift feels proper on this Sunday Morning. Joann, OJ and Sonia at the router. “The portrait of Dorian Grey”, “Family of Shadows, creating theatre and the playwrights guidebook. Sunday always feels good at work. I really hope I can stay on this positive track where the people around me are sharing the same positive energy. Staying silent has been a playful way

August 2nd, 2017

The summer has disappeared. I have made a new exotic friend. Emergency medical tech will be my Saturday adventure and chemistry on Tuesday and Thursday morning. I find myself writing more, and becoming more amused with myself. I will try not to spread myself too them AND be patient and wise with my mode of thoughts. If I can only make one person smile in the day, I've done my good duty. I will keep an intense rhythm from sun up to sunset.

I want to find better people to share my day with, that give me a genuine effort to bond. I need to not be so obsessive when I find new friends. I get overly excited and far too clingy.

Good rewards have blessed me this week, and I hope to keep working hard, in a good direction, giving meaning to the relationships around me. Staying focused, and giving thanks for the fortunes that walk into and out of my life. I want my body to  match the speed of my  mind. I appreciate a smiling face, especially one that sends you good vibes. If you're kind to the Universe - it will be kind right back

August 5th, 2017 2:57pm

Life keep getting better and beautiful and prosperous people and objects keep coming into my life. Please do not stop this positive stream of energy, everything seems to be going my way. Even with a paycheck half the size than usual, I am very happy.

Today I received a beautiful brand new desk from Big jeff, and the neighbor Marc, who was forced to move away due to remodeling, has blessed me with his leather couch and coffee table. I am desperate for cash as I see I need to put myself more out there in the world so that I may prosper economically.

My relations are starting to become more mature I sense. Now when I open my mouth I ten to try to do so with a purpose.

I love making up stories and entertaining eager ears. I wish to better my craft and go to a playwirhgting class this Tuesday.

August 10th, 2017 – 11:41pm

I’m going into another cycle of delusions and I think I like it this time. I feel the compelete grasp of the Universe underneath my finger tips. I will put my energy into the earth and prosper from it the best way I know how. A prosperous is always what I’m searching for, today for example, going home during my lunch break to deice my freezer and make myself a healthy smoothie. A gym session in the morning with Thalia was

August 15th, 2017 – 3:19 am

I’m going into another cycle of delusions and I think I like it this time. I feel the compelete grasp of the Universe underneath my finger tips. I will put my energy into the earth and prosper from it the best way I know how. A prosperous is always what I’m searching for, today for example, going home during my lunch break to deice my freezer and make myself a healthy smoothie. A gym session in the morning with Thalia was

August 16th, 2017 – 12:31am

Set your priorities straight

The people that matter first

Yourself

Get money

Go get the money you deserve

DOn’t stop the hustle

Keep making gold

Keep mining for more

Make your social circles exquisite

Take every day by force

August 16th, 2017 – 12:51am

Midnight secrets; psychic sounds blackened. Sonic depths sleeping - alluring sine waves; oscillated. Distorted imperfections. Tastefully brittle, screaming twists of obscurities. Losing human touch, as moonlight scorched by sunrise. The motif to our fire; the pleasure of our silence.

August 17th, 2017 – 11:33am

Ill refresh these windows

Hoping for a message

Stare at these classic pictures

In hopes to serenade your screen

Fill you with lines

You’ve only dreamt of

Keep you in suspense

Wanting more

Move swiftly

Believing

Black and white lines

Define us

Dilute us

Into one beautiful

Melody.

The power of not responding tends to leave other ostracized.

An imaginary play thing for your convenience.

Some people require brevity.

Others require silence.

Is this your attempt

At being exotic?

I deserve more respect

Than whimsical thoughts

Captivate her with an image

Questions of the symbols

That float in her mind

Leave your cynicism

at the door

She’s giving space

Afraid of everything possible

What a fool

To ever think this person

was sincere

or ever cared

or knew how to love another person

She is selfish

All she knows is herself

And her own life

Unpleasant to the lives of others

Your other relations are much more important

They know you

They impress upon you

They do not “get” anything

Nothing is worth their wild with

August 19th, 2017 – 8:23pm

Making money has become a habit

It all depends on the language you speak

The people making money around you

August 21st, 2017 – 5:10am

Premise - His love for a sheltered girl has him commit a crime which ultimately destroys their friendship.

Love crimes hold a social standard. You may do a wrong thing, but ultimately it felt right.

Characters are in constant change.

He learns that his wrong way isn’t always right.

She learns that the rules are meant to be broken

Premise - Love should be pursued, no matter the conditions.

Her growth - she learns that pain and the unknown is the true teacher and master of life.

He sees that his decision will hurt her, but will make her grow

His growth - He sees an innocent person crushed, just as he was crushed as a child.

August 2nd, 2017

I can’t relate to any off these over achieving perfect life mother fuckers where nothing has gone wrong for them.

SO much has gone wrong for me and here I am trying to change my mode of thinking, my mode of survival, my thoughts, the spirits that haunt me and the actions that I am trying to hold myself form giving back to the world. I am a part of a beautiful organization, but I am in the wrong position.

Although I want to see and learn, and be a part of medicine, I want to redefine the status quo. I do not want to be around a bunch of eggheaded nurses that do not know anything about reality. Why do I envy these people so much? Why must I transfer these ugly feelings? Why do I yearn to climb these social ladders so much. I want my soul to connect with someone, not my damn paycheck. Stop looking at my wallet and the temporary happiness it can buy you. The real tricks is in the details of your art. The reality is the human body and keeping it in motion constantly, moving to your next goal and desire.

Write up the diagnosis to your situation

August 22nd, 2017 – 9:13pm

You crave for her

To validate you

Give you reassurance in the world

That you are loved

Adored

Beyond most in her realm

Stop messaging these people

August 24th, 2017 – 12:09pm

You’ll out grow all your teachers and push the boundaries.

Trust no one

What is the point?

They end up turning on you

Showing you a mask you’ve never seen before

Something you would have never fathomed

Why be around corrupted people?

With there corrupted thoughts?

Always trying to have a power over you

Always trying to be better

Always trying to come up

Always wanting more

Never Being satisfied

You already learned all their moves

You have all they’re magic up your sleeve

You got exactly what you needed from them

What else do you want?

You can’t ask for more

Learn their moves

There manner

They’re style

See what you can be

They can know longer teach you what you already know

Make a safe and creative environment

For yourself

Not others

They are far too self interested

You have emotional problems Daniel

Face them

Know that it is your strength

You achilles heal

Although people may fall in love with you

They will learn to despise you

To know

That a negative vortex such as yourself

Is not good for anyone

You are far too sensitive

Realize that

Harness your power

Your sensitivity will be your great ally

You biggest foe

Realize the defeat of your sentiments

You will die alone

Do not be around

Or hand around

Social Climbers

They are detrimental

The people you meet at school

Are children

As you are one

Become knowledgable

Become a teacher

DO not be a know it all

Know that you know nothing

Is everybody lying?

Or am I the biggest one?

Am I the king

August 27th, 2017 12:58am

Grace and beauty

In every moment

Honoring your community

Giving praise

To the good beings in the world

Today

The lady behind The bakery counter

Gave me the biggest smile

A warm feeling of happiness

1:36am

Positive patience is death defying and relentless. (Great Love)

Negative patience has no resilience, no inner strength to endure hardship.

(To withstand hunger, torture, physical and mental suffering - This negative strength is very aggressive in the sense that it provokes counter-action)

A pivotal character is necessarily aggressive, uncompromising, even ruthless - and must not merely desire something.

They must want it so badly they will destroy or be destroyed to attain their goal.

Not everyone can be a pivotal character.

One whose fear is greater than their desire; has no great, all-consuming passion cannot be a pivotal character.

They are forced out of sheer necessity;not because it is willed.

Poverty encourages crime - a ruthless social force making poverty possible.

If the pivotal character matches emotional intensities of their adversaries, they have a much smaller compass of development - a lack of growth

In life, we as people are attacked, and through this, also the social forces which make us what we are.

If the pivotal character weakens, another representative is needed whom can faithfully serve the forces behind them.

These forces behind us created us.

Never become a static character.

August 28th, 2017 1:37am

I need the attention

What a bitch

As I type

To regulate my feelings

Figuring out

What are my needs and wants

Psychotic

Those episodes

Are maddening

They are all consuming

Light up the sky

Put out your energy

Burn these mother fuckers

Like they burned you

Put them back in the ground

Give them all the energy you got

Make it intense

Tell them what you really feel

August 31st, 2017 – 3:28am

In my bunker, all by myself. A 2 am late night Jack in the Box run for $9.54 will keep me alive tonight. I regret not having a stock refrigerator with a plethora of healthy goodies and eats. I look forward to Tomorrow’s chemistry class and hope to really focus

September 2nd 2017 – 8:28 am

What an amazing campus. Pasadena City College has blown me away once again. I love this school - they keep fascinating. Smile, be confident. show people you care and have a genuine interest. Do not be a general person - be phenomenal. Get through this material as most voraciously as you can. Get on the fast lane - punch it. No regrets. Burning rubber will be another pass time. Move faster.

Be better.

Focus on putting your energy into the world.

Last night was a working night on Colorado; networking and

September 5th, 2017 – 12:21am

Kill the Crickets, let them die -

G9

FMaj7

Where you trying to go?

Who you trying to be girl?

I love you anyways

You gotta change

Why you gotta fake all that stupid shit

I know you love me

Stop being a bitch

You’re talking to yourself

Stop being a bitch

You’re talking to yourself no

Making Gold records

Thinking about you

I always want to be about you

I remember the time I saw your face

The feeling I would get

When I saw it again

Till me one more time

You don’t love me

I get

I Get it

I don’t love me anyways

Ill drink to all the shit I did

I’ll love you anyways

Let me tell you a little secret about my life

The best part about my life

Is that I control the reigns to my life

No one’s ever told me what to do

No one’s ever going to tell me how to do it

It’s always been up to me

Now tell me

What’s your biggest strengths?

Well sometimes I feel that I can follow my own instincts

Wrong

What do you know about insticts

Look into yourself and tell me what you think about instincts?

Do you really love your own instinct?

What’s your instinct telling you right now?

Take everything too serious

fuck these stupid people

bringing you down

with their negative signs

fuck them

be alone

you are a gift to others

don’t give them

your precious time

they deserve none of it

stay alone

you are 2 years young

you need nothing from these people

you are the world

create and build

be the example

they just want the attention

fuck their intentions

you were nothing to them

from the start

why do they even care

why do you even bother?

fuck their approval

they are rotten to the care

they have no backbone

or self respect

they ride on the securities of others

they do not sincerely think of you

the way you think of them

it will always be one sided

that is your curse

September 8th, 2017 – 12:54am

I dream of you often

Lost in a fervor

Of broken people

Always coming through my door

In hopes of someday seeing you

Those dreams are dead

Forever gone

The storm

The calm before the storm

We’re grown

Alone

Without another being

Peter Pan

He doesn’t believe in psychologist

Therapies

You must close cycles

This happened

It is over

Stop searching

Stop opening and remembering

Opening and remembering is fine

Once

But not over and over

The cycle is closed

Move on

Move Forward

Don’t let the emotions overcome you

The head of psychiatrist

Would close him

In music

Morning

Morenitos

The racism

The white skin, the blue eyes

Grandma would chose favorites

The injustice

The lack of love

With the highest regard

too such poor and lonely students

Crying like a child with an oxygen tank

It already passed

Pautas

Guidelines

Making the best

Carrying the heaviest weight on my shoulders

Search for your honor

Through the generations

The indépendance

Who will lay you down to rest?

When you are ready to leave

Don’t let your emotions win

Analyze

This your life

Your time

We’ll always live good

We will be gone soon

Will you stay miserable?

What will you do?

Analyze your situation

Well

September 9th, 2017

I enjoy these minutes in my day - they are full of intensity. I have a problem slowing down; I like that. Will I stay hypertensive, or will I thrive in the environment of pressure? I had an hour lung conversation with my Tia Ruth yesterday in the morning after not being accepted into my Chemistry Lab. She told me stories that tI will never forget, memories of her brothers and the final moments of Rene. She enlightened me on the mental capacity of our family; my fate.

        Do I burn the bridges behind me and start fresh? As now, my mind is realigned into my destiny - into my dramatic need. How I can carry the shadows of my family on my back.

The disease of normal functioning - overcoming my weakness. Am I slow to show my emotion? Is being reserved killing the animal I was born as? Do I look for a more ferocious sense of life everyday?

Meet people that you’re going to learn with and from; reciprocate the feeling.

The words “We all remember things the way we remember them. Like pulling a book out of a shelf, experiencing the words, closing the covers together and sliding it back into your memory. Move swifter throughout the day. Use all the strength in your body, mind and soul. Find a balance in all the things you do, but above all focus and do not steer from your pathway to success. DO not torture your mind

September 10th, 2017 5:23pm  

Will I ever know life

Outside of you?

You keep playing on

Who you playing on?

Didn’t want to know much

‘Till I met you

What’s going on?

Can you be strong?

How can you e so cold?

How can you be so cold?

Guess your happy now

Never really cared much

‘Till you came along

I sleep

Dreaming of you

Everyday

Didn’t really know to much

Till you sang

You went away

You went away

September 20, 2017 12:56pm

I dream of you often

Your life

Your Well Being

A glorious friend of mine

A near extinction

My most delicate of friends

A beautiful rarity

I wish most for

September 21, 2017  7:43am

Will you remember all this danger?

The cunning in your words

Living life on a tightrope

Searching for your next victim

She longed for a kiss

She yearned to be embraced

Ravished

In a manner unexplained

September 23rd, 2017

What’s the point of your life if all the moments in between are a blur? What are you?

Do not anticipate for something to happen

Make it happen

Put yourself out there

Don’t be afraid of rejection

It happens constantly

Bounce back

Find a reason

October 8th, 2017

He attempts to speak

she whispers out loud

He fights

To

open the universe

devour

her gasoline fire

that melts flesh

finding beauty

in a tarnished

subcut

Have you seen a supernova burn?

With gases

Infusing

burning oxygen

consuming all

Burning the eyes

Leading your desire

Of scorching your name on the earth

In the hopes

That her eyes will lay upon you

I’ll mumble these thoughts

As I sleep

As I dream about a peace

I’ve lost since parting

Tools strictly for departing

October 8th, 2017

Last night I nearly cracked.

Today I will make better decisions.

I refuse base things.

I shall realign myself

October 8th, 2017 – 3:02pm

Maybe in a dream.

I felt you

The passion in your bones

The quiver of your lip

Let our death

Become our immortality

In the loss of reticence

October 25th, 2017

Colloquially are shared amongst the finest; cheers.

October 27th, 2017 – 9am

Chemistry Laboratory kicked my ass once again. I am not taking the information given to me and truly giving meaning and analysis towards my final product. My paper game has become weak; I have yet to impress myself once again. My scientific writing style is not adequate enough and I hope to boost my levels of understanding as a scientist. Bonds, and the strength of bonds have become

Not all bonds are equal. This is not an easy process, going ab

Born-Haver cycle. An alternative approach to the same answer.

December 2nd, 2017 1:16pm

My twenty ninth birthday is in 8 days. I find myself alone, once again. I begin to wonder if it is me or the way I conduct my relations.

Friday December 9th, 2017 10:37am

Pasadena Hilton was a lovely venue to perform for my immediate coworkers. I had the chance of showing my good friend David a cool place to be with the people he works with. Catching up with Andrew Le was very nice as we hope to spend some time together hopefully before the new year commences. I was happy to make the party organizers feel more confident about their occasion.

Relations have soured as my father begins to learn his place in the world.

December 12th, 2017 10:01am

War is over now

The battlefield has settled

Limb for limb

We lanced

Limb for limb we fell apart

Put your weapons away

They don’t work anymore

The battle is over

No one has won

Let these moments

Sink into your dreams

December 18, 2017 2:57pm

The blood, guts, tears, vomit.

The sounds and smells of desperation.

The need for another human being to take care of those fallen.

Ill, lost, hopeless, in fear of everything out of there control.

Wake up every day, to the sounds of medical machines that never stop working.

When will these folks get a break?

Janurary 2nd, 2018

Don’t become these drones that are stuck on their phones all day. Be a person that can have a sincere conversation and can actually reach out to people. Develop your communication skills. Apologize for your verbal slip ups. Do not be afraid of showing genuine expression. What’s the point of hiding your true self? They’re going to find out who you are anyway, so don’t give them a reason to point fingers.

Janurary 3rd, 2018 7:59am

Seven thirty in the morning starting off with nutrition class - starting off with getting some respect by the professor for the mohawk. I hope that this becomes one of the classes that changes my life. How is there a way to find the right information and use it for better? This professor seems to be brilliant from the start, a harness I hope I can harness.