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official-weasley · 3 years

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Dealing with Everything - (The Irreplaceable Charlie Weasley AU)

Warnings: grief with a wholesome ending 💙

Word count: 3,508

Characters: Charlie Weasley and my OC Nova from TICW which you can find here

Nova

“Mum, I don't know how to thank you enough for staying with us this past month.” I placed two cups on the kitchen table and gestured for my mum to join me.

“No need to thank me. You both lost loved ones in the battle, you need time to process everything and recover.” Mum stood up, careful not to wake Aoede who was peacefully sleeping on the sofa.

“Mhm.” I hummed and sat down as my mum joined me.

“I know I ask you every day but how are you? And please try saying something else than you being fine. Aoede is sleeping so you have no excuse not to talk about your feelings.”

“Honestly, I don't know how to deal with it.” I felt tears gathering in my eyes. “I never thought I would have to attend a funeral of one of my closest friends while we're still in our twenties. And then seeing Charlie so down, not being his cheerful self, sleeping most of the time and eating a meal per day and even that has to be forced. And then there's her,” I nodded to where Aoede was sleeping, “it is so unfair to her for her parents being so absent. She deserves all the love and attention and I know she misses spending time with her dad and I...” I took a deep breath. “...I just force a smile and hug her as much as I can but it's not fair to her. I just...I can't help it, mum, I...”

“Shhh.” Mum pulled me in a hug as tears started running down my face. “It's okay, sweetheart. It's reasonable for you to feel this way and trust me, Aoede is too young to notice that you are hiding your emotions. I have been with you every day since you came back and you are doing great with her.”

“Really?” I sniffed.

“You will have enough time to love her as you think she deserves to be loved and I admire you for being so strong and laughing and having a good time with her.” Mum bestowed me with a small smile.

“She's the only thing that makes me smile every day.”

“Give it time, sweetheart. You will heal.” She brushed her fingers through my hair.

“I know. It's just...it's so hard. I can't even explain what happened to me when I saw Nymphadora like that and then all those thoughts about Teddy losing both his parents and thinking that the same thing could happen to Aoede, it completely destroyed me.” I buried my face in my hands.

“She was one of your best friends, Nova. It's only natural.” Mum tried calming me down.

“And the worst part is is that it wasn't as painful when dad died and I feel so guilty for that.”

I bit my tongue when I said that. I didn't mean to ever say it out loud, especially not in front of mum but it has been eating me alive.

“Nova, you were 14 when you lost your dad. We process death in a different way at that age and you said it yourself that now looking back you would react differently than you did and you didn't lose anyone else close to you until now and you're 25 years old now. You see things differently. You said you cried your eyes out and 5 minutes after that you went to find Harry to see how he was doing while you were falling apart yourself. When your dad died you didn't even know how you got to the Burrow that's how wrapped up in your grief you were.”

“I guess,” I shrugged my shoulders, “we were never close but I had this need to tell him that everything will be okay.”

“You have that after your dad.” Mum smiled at me. “He also put others first no matter how down he was.”

“Well, I have to be strong for my daughter and I have to be there for Charlie. Yes, losing Tonks has been hard and I know I won't be over it any time soon but Charlie lost a brother and I feel so helpless.” A new set of tears ran down my cheeks, me looking at the stairs that lead to the upper floor.

“I know how grateful you were when Charlie was by your side when your dad passed away, just remember what he did back then. You two are so similar and nobody knows him as you do. I am sure you will find a way to comfort him.”

“I will think of something,” I said absentmindedly.

“And while you do, I will be here for you both and help you around the house and with your beautiful baby girl.”

“Thank you, mum.” I sniffed and she pulled me into a tight hug.

“I told you to stop thanking me. Now that the war is over and I can retire, I can finally make up for all the lost time that I couldn't spend with you.” She smiled at me.

“Well, we love having you around and we have more than enough room so you are welcome to stay for as long as you want to.”

“Does Charlie still have nightmares?” Mum whispered after a minute.

“Yeah, he wakes up at least once per night. It's either Fred or Tonks.” I said, not even trying to hide the concern in my voice.

Ever since we came back Charlie has been having nightmares every night about his brother and our friend being killed or in a situation where he couldn't help them. Even if he denies it, I know he is trying to blame himself for what happened. Perhaps not so much for Tonks as for Fred, but the guilt is there.

“Can you watch over Aoede so I can go and check on Charlie? Perhaps I'll have more luck getting him downstairs for lunch for a change.” I said after a few minutes of us both sipping our tea in silence.

“Of course.”

“Char.” I gently knocked on the door of our bedroom.

“I'm awake.” I heard him say in a husky voice.

“Hi.” I smiled at him, happy to see him sit on the bed instead of lay in it. “What are you doing?”

“I am going through the family album.” He tapped on the bed for me to sit next to him.

I sat down and he turned the pages to get back at the beginning.

“Look, it's me and Bill when we were 3 and 5.” Charlie gave out a small chuckle.

“You two had the same haircut?” I giggled.

Arthur gave him the photo album when we moved to Romania and every time Charlie felt homesick we went through these pictures together. I have seen these photos so many times but I was so happy that Charlie was willing to speak and share it with me right now that I pretended I was seeing them for the first time.

“Hey, don't judge. We were adorable.” Charlie nudged me with his elbow.

“And here is us making cookies. And seeing Percy for the first time. And, oh, look! It's Freddie and Georgie's first birthday.” Charlie tilted his head, thinking I wouldn't be able to see that a tear marked his right cheek.

“It's okay to cry, Charlie,” I said in a whisper.

“I just can't stop, Nova. I am trying to get back on my feet. I want to get out of this room and go back to my everyday life. I want to play with our daughter and hear her giggle and I want to help you around the house. I am so useless and I just lay around all day feeling sorry for myself.” He closed the album and buried his head in my shoulder, sobbing.

“Hey, hey. First of all, you are not useless. I know you don't see it but I am not doing the best either. I don't know what I would do if my mum wouldn't be here to help us and you don't need to worry about the house. It can be a complete mess for all I care if it meant you would get better. Char, you lost a brother, how else are you supposed to feel?” I pressed him harder against my chest, neither of us wanting to let go.

“I just don't know what to do with all this pain. I have never had to deal with death before. How do you do it?” He loosened the grip around me just a little bit and looked up at me with his eyes red and puffy.

“Well, I have learned that talking about your feelings helps. It also feels good to cry and get a big, tight hug.” I pressed my forehead to his and smiled softly.

“It is also very nice when Aoede tells you one of her adventure stories. Honestly, I have no idea who she got such a vivid imagination from.” I smirked.

“Really?” Charlie chuckled. “I would take a wild guess that it's after us since we're both such daydreamers. But it's probably from her uncle Percy.”

“Yeah, probably.” We laughed together for the first time in a month.

“What time is it?” Charlie asked after us being embraced in silence for 15 minutes.

“It's going to be 2 I think,” I whispered.

“Oh, it's Aoede's nap time.”

“She'll wake up soon and I can bring her upstairs if you want.” I couldn't help but grin at him.

I was so proud of him for being so strong and coping with everything as he is. I was just happy that he was willing to talk about his feelings to me and telling me the truth about how he feels.

“No. I'll come downstairs.” He kissed me before getting up and walking to the closet.

“Do we have any plans for lunch yet?” He asked as he pulled a shirt over his head.

“No. I wanted to ask you if you were craving something just that I could make you eat anything.” I answered truthfully.

“I am sorry I have been so stubborn about it.” He bowed his head, sitting back next to me.

“Stop apologizing, Charles. All your behavior is completely normal for someone who is mourning.” I ran my fingers through his hair.

“Could you pull it up in a bun for me? I love when you do it.” He shook his head a bit, making his curly locks fly everywhere.

“It would be my pleasure.” I smiled and reached with my hand to the nightstand where he had a hair tie.

“So, why did you ask what we are having for lunch? What would you like?” I asked as I was trying to comb his hair with my fingers.

“Pancakes.” I felt his body vibrate in a giggle.

“Want to make them together?” I suggested with the biggest smile on my face.

Pancakes weren't only a tradition in our household on Sundays but they were our favorite comfort food too.

“You read my mind, love.” Charlie turned around and kissed me tenderly.

We both looked at the door when we heard Aoede giggle.

“Right on time.” Charlie clapped his hands together excited to spend some time with his daughter.

“I know you are happy to get out of bed and spend some time with us but just know that you don't have to force it if you feel it would do you better just being wrapped in a blanket and sleep all day. Know that we are not mad, we just want you to be okay.” I helped him get up and we started toward the door.

“I know. Thank you for giving me time and I don't know how I will feel tomorrow but right now I want to spend some time with my family.” He smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back – I missed his smile so much.

He made us stop halfway downstairs.

“Also, I am thinking of going to see George tomorrow or maybe the day after that. We both lost a brother but he lost a twin and I haven't talked to him at all since...you know.”

“Okay, whatever you have to do.” I entwined our fingers and squeezed them together.

“Also, how are you dealing with everything? I am sorry for being such a lousy husband. I didn't ask you once since we came back.” Tears started gathering in his eyes again.

“I told you to stop apologizing and I am doing okay.” I shrugged and gestured for us to continue walking downstairs.

“Which is Nova language for I have to be strong for you and I don't care how I feel.” He raised his eyebrows at me, extending his arm to reach the wall so I couldn't walk past him.

“No, really, I am okay.”

“Stop lying to me, love. We promised to each other to always share our feelings no matter how bad they are, so stop pretending I don't know you better than that.

“I don't want to talk about it right now.” I blinked a few times, trying to hold in the tears, avoiding Charlie's gaze.

“It's a beautiful day outside. We can ask your mum if she would be willing to go for a walk with Aoede and we can have a proper cuddle session on the sofa and talk it out?” Charlie suggested.

“I think that's a brilliant idea.”

We both turned our heads to my mum who was smiling at us at the bottom of the stairs.

“Mum, Charlie suggested we make pancakes for lunch. Is that okay with you?” I brushed the tear that ran down my cheek and started walking downstairs again.

“Pancakes?!” I heard Aoede jump off the sofa and her little feet running toward us.

“What do you say, Pumpkin? Want to help daddy make pancakes?” Charlie's face lit up when he saw her and picked her up at once, placing a kiss on her cheek.

“Yes, please!” Aoede started clapping excitedly and pointed to the kitchen.

I sat down at the kitchen table along with my mum and watched them make a mess out of the place while making pancakes. One egg smashed on the floor and the flour was everywhere but nobody cared because of how much fun those two were having. Aoede was giggling so much that she hardly had the time to breathe and I heard Charlie genuinely laugh for the first time in a month.

After we were all too full to walk as Charlie and Aoede made way too much pancake dough, we all settled down on the sofa where Aoede fell asleep in Charlie's lap within minutes.

When she woke up my mum took her for a walk as we asked her to and as Charlie promised me, we stayed on the sofa, cuddled, and cried our eyes out while talking about how we feel and miss the people we lost.

I felt so much better talking to him and finding out how he is. I was so afraid for him just being in our bedroom all the time but I was patient and I hoped he would get better with time and as he said, we don't know how we will feel tomorrow, but today was a very good day for both of us.

Charlie

I took a deep breath before I knocked on the door of George's apartment. I didn't know what I was going to say to him. I was more mentally preparing myself to see in what state he is.

I have been a mess for the past month and even though Fred was my brother I didn't see him as often as George did and I definitely wasn't as close to him as he was. Those two were inseparable since they were born.

I felt the need as an older brother to see how he was doing and see if I could help him in any regard.

I wrote to Bill this morning, inviting him and Fleur to visit us in Romania and I wrote to my mum that she could expect us next week. I wasn't all there yet – not even close, but I was good enough to see my family and be a proper husband to Nova and a father to Aoede.

“Charlie, what are you doing here?” George's eyes widened when he opened the door.

“I came to visit you if that's okay.” I smiled sheepishly, scratching the back of my neck.

“Of course it is!” He pulled me in a hug so tight that it took my breath away but I didn't care that I couldn't breathe – it warmed my heart that he was so happy to see me. “Come in, come in!”

“Want some tea or something sweet?” He asked the second he closed the door behind us.

“Tea is fine, thank you.”

“Are you visiting mum and dad or Bill?” He gestured for me to sit down.

“I am only here to see you,” I answered honestly.

“Oh.” He let the word escape his mouth.

“I, uh, I haven't been doing well so I wanted to see how you are doing.” I took the cookie he offered me without asking why he has a full basket of them.

“I'm doing as good as someone can when they lose a brother.” He forced a smile. “Have been baking a lot, thus the cookies. Tell me what you think of them.”

“They are actually really good,” I said with my mouth full, “I had no idea you could bake.”

“Yeah, they are? Neither did I to be honest.” He sat down next to me, waiting for the water to boil.

“Are you alone all the time?” I couldn't hide the concern in my voice.

“Have been at the Burrow for a week but honestly being around mum is kind of depressing. I mean I understand, we are all a bit messed up but it's just not the environment I need right now. Bill visits me a lot and so does Ron. Ginny stayed with me for a week a few days ago and Angelina comes to hang out here and there.”

“How are the others? We are going to visit mum and dad soon but I have completely isolated myself.” I shook my head, I wasn't proud of it.

“I think we are all about the same.” George shrugged his shoulders and I saw that he wasn't keen on talking about our family.

“Should I even ask how you are?” I whispered.

“I miss him so much, Charlie. I feel like a part of me is gone. All our hard work, everything we did together, it's just memories now. I know it's going to be better with time but it's just so hard to think that this feeling inside my chest – the emptiness of him no longer being with us – will ever go away, you know. I never had to deal with something like this, especially not...” He stopped talking when his voice broke and stood up to finish making the tea.

“Me neither but I have some experience when Nova's dad passed away. You know how hard it was for her and if I have learned anything from her is that being patient with yourself, giving yourself time, and talking about it when you feel like it, is what makes it better. I wish there was a spell to make the feelings you have go away but despite being wizards, we are still only human and we have to deal with it the natural way.”

“I know. I just wish I could've been there with him, protect him, perhaps take his place or just be able to say goodbye if nothing else.” George released his tears, staring into his teacup.

“I wish the same but know that whatever you wanted to tell him, he knows.” I stood up and lifted his chin for him to look me in the eyes and hugged him.

“Thank you for taking the time and seeing me. It means more than I could ever say.” He returned the hug.

“If you have too much time on your hands, you can come and visit us in Romania. Spend some time with us. Bond with Aoede a little. Her laugh is contagious and honestly the best for mending your heart. And she loves to help and cook so perhaps you two could make a mess out of the kitchen together and make cookies.” I giggled.

“Truth be told, that sounds like exactly what I need.” He sniffed and gently pulled away.

“You are welcome anytime, brother.” I smiled at him and returned to my seat.

“How about you spend the night here and we go tomorrow?” He smiled back. “Oh, you know what never mind, you probably have other plans.” He hurried to say, his ears turning pink.

“Not at all,” I tapped him twice on the back, “you are definitely coming to Romania with me tomorrow.”

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offical-ranter · 2 years

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SPOILERS FOR MS. MARVEL

ok guys i expected this show to be pretty average.. nope. it was great. just 1 episode in and its already one of my favorite marvel shows. heres a bit of my thoughts on it -its so cool to see more representation. im not Muslim or Pakistani so i cant say anything about those aspects (tho im sure u could find stuff about it online from those more knowledgeable) other than its great to see other cultures and languages in a production like this. and like MoonKight they had what i assume to be cultural music, which was also rlly cool -ITS SO RELATABLE! LIKE SKDFJSGS;, i dont have the words. the fact that she daydreams all day about being a superhero, doodles during class, is a literal fangirl, and has parents who doesnt understand what she likes, is. so. relatable. this is the most ive ever seen myself in a marvel character, which is kinda the point of the show. but still. i was watching her talk about making her cosplay and looking at fanart and its just, i do those things. i have marvel shirts and dream about going to cons. the amount of, just feeling, i felt when her mom completely shut down her plan to go to AvengerCon is just, immense. like wow, so many ppls parents judge their kids for the things they like. the scene where Kamala tried to put something around her hips after her mom told her the outfit was too skimpy or tight (without even seeing it i might add) was something i just immediately felt. she didnt even need to monologue about why she felt the need to do it, i could instantly understand based on her action and expression. i cant put into words how this feels like a show that just gets us -her friendship with Bruno (im still not over that song why would u do this to me Disney). its so accurate to how friendship is and its so wholesome to watch. Kamala feeling out of place in school and being quite to meeting with Bruno and talking about the con? thats great, thats the friendships i wanna see. there was no romance, tho there may be based on the look they shared on the roof, but im surprisingly open to it. i usually never like romance in action based shows but they understand each other so well. their struggles and dreams, like even if their love is just platonic its still there. and i love to watch it (not to mention its the literal perfect superhero partner dynamic, the one who fights and the one in the chair) -the directing. ive had a lot of problems with Disney directing as of late (cough cough Boba Fett) but marvel shows have always been fine. WandaVision was rlly unique in its idea, so was Hawkeye, but none have stood out in just plain directing so far. until this. theres no weird shaky camera for no reason, no weird up close face shots (im looking at u The Falcon and the Winter Soldier), nothing like that. just good camera work and going 100% with the theme. the drawings coming to life on the walls and their texts becoming signs and Kamala's planning being animated/drawn. its like spider-verse and i love it. it seems so true to her character and the vibe of the show. reminds me of a movie i think exists where some guy in high school has the ability to make the things he draws real, but im not sure if i just made that up lol -references. some ppl call them easter eggs but either way their great. like me tell u i was screaming whenever i saw something from the greater mcu. even before the show started i noticed how MoonKight is now in the intro logo. there was a lot but some things i remember r the og captain america song at the con, the drawing mentioning his ass, also at the con, the trust a bro truck and original ms. marvel design as art during the end credits. im sure there was more and im kinda disappointed im not remembering them after just watching it -the mysteries. whyd the bracelet (idk if thats what its called but for now bracelet) give her powers? who r the ppl in the end scene (i dont think any other marvel show has had an end scene first ep)? will her old friend refriend her? OMG SHE STILL HAS THE POWER TO EXTEND HER LIMBS?? BUT NOW ITS LIKE CRYSTALS???

#ms. marvel #ms. marvel spoilers #ms marvel series #show review #sorry for the rant #i just have so many feelings #i love this #theres only one episode out #and i already love it #personal opinion #fangirling

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elderdragonblu · 2 years

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For the behind the scenes fic asks: Lacuna - question 6, 7, 12, and 19

Dwjsidhsjsjdjd thank you for asking :D, now I’ll talk your ear off if you don’t mind:

6 - What do you need to write? Is there anything special you need to do/have to help your creative flow?

In general, I use music to help my creative juices flow, mostly because I get so easily distracted with things that I need something that’ll force me to sit down and write. Writing is one of the things I love, and simply need a rope to tether me down. Tones of music can also help me set the right mood for stories, like if I’m writing generally really depressing stuff, my Spotify will be full of really depressing music.

For Lacuna in particular, I used specific songs to help me capture the vibe. Sometimes songs inspire me to write so it was definitely fun. The songs I used for general sad tones or bittersweetness were Ghosts by Trampled by Turtles, Mice On Venus from C418, and Video Games by Lana Del Ray.

There is also an unintentional thing that helps keep my creative juices flowing, too. I have a condition called maladaptive daydreaming disorder, and to put it in short: it’s a disorder where you have a really overactive imagination, it distracts you from everyday life, puts you in vivid daydreams, and makes your life inconvenient as hell. It helps give me ideas and inspiration, but the constant urge to daydream or act out daydreams interferes with my life greatly. Especially considering I have thing to do like basic house chores for example and the urge can get unbearable at times. It sucks mostly because people undermine the severity of this condition a lot and since it’s not even, like, researched enough it’s very much not seen much in society.

Gives a general idea to what I go through for my creative process lmao

7 - What inspired the idea for the plot?

A lot of what I write tends to delve into a characters mind and bringing their thoughts to the forefront. I guess it’s considered character studies, but I tend to only look at trauma and see how certain characters deal with it and whether or not they want to get better. Do they shove their problems down and try to ignore it? Or do they want to face the problem on their own? Etc.

For Lacuna, it was no different. But I also watch animatics on YouTube that can help fire up the process. I can’t recall any atm and idk if I could even find the one that inspired this process. But there’s many images of people just watching rain and waiting for a storm to pass that I genuinely enjoy and get inspired from. Sitting in the rain and contemplating stuff is especially fun to write, even more so with Max’s character considering all the shirt she went through.

Though, Jack Stauber’s rain is actually one thing I can recall that gave me so much inspiration to help me write this story.

12 - Was there a scene you wished you could have included? Why didn't it fit in?

There was going to be a scene where Max stepped out into the rain and would just stand in there. She was just gonna kinda sit there and all those emotions would just barrel towards her. She’d be trying to process all of it when Rachel would find her and get her out of the rain. I would’ve also included Rachel just helping Max take a bath because of her sort of spacey state. Chloe was also going to have more of role too where she’d just hold Max a while after she got out of the bath. Even some wholesome talking while the three of them were in the bathroom with only Rachel and Chloe talking.

Ultimately, though, I didn’t add it in. Of course, I really wish I could, but it was really difficult to try and write someone processing emotions about things while also trying to have a whole side story going on literally right next to them. I’ve done it before, but with Max’s trauma I want to do it justice and at the time I felt like I couldn’t so I just didn’t add it in. And it also just felt like too much? Like the story wouldn’t have fit if I added the scene. Though, honestly I should’ve just tried and heavily edited it and then just send it out there.

19 - Is this one of your personal favorite fics? Why or why not?

With all of my fics ever, I actually hated it for a long time. I get really insecure about my writing and tend to think I’ll never get anywhere with it. I’m extremely pessimistic and when I got such a positive response on my work it really encouraged me. I was like “okay, wow, maybe I don’t suck that much.” And with all my fics again, after a while of not reading it and just focusing on other things, it grew on me. Now it holds a nice place in my heart because I feel like I did fairly well on it. Plus it was the first story that helped kick me off into actually wanting to write more on AO3.

Personal favorite is a little bit of a stretch, but it’s not unreasonable. Definitely a favorite.

Thank you for asking!! Again, I will never shut up so please ask away if you want to, I don’t mind sharing anything about my process!! :)

#life is strange #lis #fanfiction #writing rants #max caulfield #rachel amber #chloe price #amberpricefield #hope this helped!!

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silvermahogany · 3 years

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Talking about a few songs I associate with my favourite aonoex characters bc i enjoy shoving my music taste in people's faces and analysing the shit out of nothing <3

Recent chapter spoiler warning lessgo, also mentions of suicide tw

THE MAIN MANS HIMSELF

Still feel - Half•Alive

"I am not a slave, so pick me from the dark and pull me from the grave"

In my mind, this is his themesong without a doubt. Its reached the point where wherever i hear it it makes me really happy because I associate it with him so strongly :,D might just be because I found it while getting back into the fandom when Ren was kinda transitioning to my favourite so they came up together but either way, absolute banger. The bit at the end when everything drops and the lead singer belts his heart out, I always love to picture Ren doing the same in the illuminati uniform with Yamatanka building around him and I've never wanted to learn how to animate more in my life cause my GOD he's so cool.

My favourite song for my favourite character <3

Preach - Saint Motel

"Oh im down on my knees, mercy"

Its so happy and bouncy?? And the vibes are immaculate?? Matches well with the themes of religion as well, this one definitely shows his flirty loverboy side more, it gives the impression of some lovestruck idiot stumbling over himself every time his crush does anything and honestly, sounds like something he'd do. Good song makes me go :))))

Your Love (Deja Vu) - Glass Animals

"You eat us up, you live like you're on camera"

I feel like this one captures his spy side a little more than the others. The lower notes in the main verses give a secretive feel, like he's halfway through a mission and trying trying stay silent. But it's also flirty in a more smooth way than wholesome crushes like the rest. The lead singer has such a gorgeous voice too i'll praise glass animals until the day i die 🥺🥺 God tier song god tier vibe 1000000/10

Do It All The Time - IDKHOWBUTTHEYFOUNDME

"Now we're so young but we're probably gonna die, it's so fun we're so good at selling lies"

Now THIS is a song for a spy working for a secret deadly organisation, all about world domination and having a great time doing it. Renzou is a free spirit and loves the freedom of his job, and this song really captures that for me. He knows he's in danger, but he's living his best life and he's having a great time doing it baybeeee B)))

Sweet Talk - Saint Motel

"You could yell 'piss off won't you stay away!' And still be sweet talk to my ears"

Ren is a persistent little shit when it comes comes crushes and this song shows it, a song about a guy who's so infatuated he doesn't care if he's hated or laughed at, he just loves hearing their voice. I see this as a bit of a yukishima anthem tbh, I feel like in the early stages of their relationship it would be pretty one sided with Shima trying to win him over and Yukio shutting him down so this matches that pretty well :>

Cant go five minutes without talking about them can i-

Honourable mentions-

Talk too much - COIN - very flirty and cheesy considered it as his themesong for a while

Toxic - Britney Spears - self explanatory :)

Razzmatazz - IDKHBTFM - everything they make shows his spy side imo, good for daydreaming

Van horn - Saint Motel -honestly anything by Saint Motel or Half•Alive reminds me of him, great bands :D

YUKIO MY BELOVED

Yukio was weirdly a lot harder for me to find songs for. For Renzou i have a giant playlist I add to over time, supreme comfort playlist egegegeheh, but Yukio's is a lot shorter for some reason. I guess his vibe is a little difficult to get down but a while scrolling through my main playlist and I think I have a decent few that at least match his character development and plotline.

Stressed Out - Twenty one Pilots

"Out of student loans and treehouse homes we all would take the latter"

Pretty self explanatory really, mans was forced to grow up and mature way faster than he shouldve had to, having a high stress job by the age of 13 studying for two meister all while studying to be a normal doctor as well. Not much of a surprise he has so many mental issues by the beginning of the story. I dont listen to much TOP but the few songs I know seem to fit Yukio pretty nicely :)

Oh Klahoma - Jack Stauber

"Those aren't meant to bend, no those arent meant to bend"

Another song based on depression, but with a much quieter feel, much lower energy. I feel like this one more links to his tendencies of delf destruction, and how alone he feels as he faces his battle. Like he's singing into the void hoping for something to reply, but nothing will. Man :(

The Fall - Half•Alive

"I'd jump off and into your arms but i cant trust the fall"

I feel like this one highlight his story to Rin in a really realistic way. Yukio has a good heart, he's kind and wants to love his brother and open up to him he wants to get better. But he's so deep in his pit of depression and conflicting feelings over his brother that he can't bring himself to, he sees no way out. God I wanna write an analysis on his character so bAD-

Baby Hotline - Jack Stauber

"Numb, I've been burning with haste and I'm realising now it's a terrible waste"

We just keep getting darker huh, didn't pick very pleasant tunes for this boy did I. A bouncy, happy song about a girl calling a suicide hotline, lovely. But i feel like it describes his mental state pretty well, outside he seems ok. Sure Rin picks up that somethings off, but once Yukio assures him he doesnt really persist above asking him a couple times. But below the facade he's really reaching his breaking point, and I love how this song contrasts those two tones in a scarily natural way. Absolute banger

Fireflies - Gorillaz

"And if you say goodbye too many times, the sentinels will find me and switch me off this time"

One of my absolute favourite Gorillaz songs by far. The melody is so gorgeous, melancholic in the best kind of way. For Yukio I feel like it signifies how trapped he feels as Satan's son, he's hit his lowest point and he doesnt know how to start moving back up. But the song also has a hopeful feel to it, as if even though he feels lost, he will get better. In the recent chapters we see a moment of reconciliation between Yukio and the people around him, with Suguro forgiving him and tye two brothers finally getting a chance to to things out. Before everything went to shit lmaoo. But with that i really hope that after all the fighting is done, Yukio will finally get the chance to see how bad things have gotten, and reach out to get better. And this song shows that for me :D

Honourable mentions!!

Creature - Half•Alive - the first song I ever added to his playlist, there for sentimentality tbh

Cane shuga - Glass Animals - the plonky noises make the happy chemical go buckwild, not sure why it reminds me of him it just kinda does really

I Earn My Life - Lemon Demon - mans is overworked give him a break :( ngl i don't associate it with him much but i wanted to edge a lemon demon song in somewhere-

Dead inside - Younger Hunger - whenever I hear this I always imagine a really cool animation of him and it always plays out the same way and MAN I wanna animate so baDD

Absolute wordvomit woohoo, hypervocused on this instead if doing the assignment due this evening I'm a fantastic student. This was kinda fun tho!!! I might do other characters at somepoint, these guys are my favourites but i have a bunch of playlists for other characters like Amaimon and Shura, recommendations are welcome too!!

#blue exorcist #yukio okumura #shima renzou #aonoex #ao no exorcist #seriously i love Still Feel so much im losing my shit over that song #half alive #i put way too mucn effort into this #day 38372974838 of hyperfixating on these boys

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Hello! You mentioned reading Piranesi a few months ago and I finally got around to reading it and I love it so much - thank you for the lovely recommendation <3 If you don't mind can you talk a little about what you loved about the book (I love hearing your thoughts)? Also have you read Jorge Luis Borges' Ficciones (I believe it inspired Piranesi)?

HELLO my friend!! first of all tysm for taking the recommendation, I'm so happy it worked for you! honestly what do I NOT love about this book? it's hard to wrap my thoughts about piranesi because it was such a lovely reading experience which i honestly need to repeat ASAP because the layers to explore in piranesi are so numerous. secondly let me admit that i haven't read any borges yet BUT he's definitely on my radar and I've been looking for his books on my used bookstore runs since i read piranesi, not to much avail unfortunately but i added ficciones to my tbr for reminder!!

anyways I'm gonna stop right here for anyone who has not read piranesi yet because i think you'd benefit from going into it not knowing much except that it's told in vignettes and that it has elements of mystery which become more and more central to the plot as we advance and unravel the world that piranesi lives in. so don't keep reading past this if u haven't read piranesi yet! i did keep it spoiler-free though so no pressure. also putting everything under a read more bc i truly was obnoxiously verbose adlkjglsjk if it didn't work my apologies 4 it

NOW let's talk about what i loved about the book which honestly will probably just be a flimsy overview bc again i think a re-read would make what i love about it more salient and richer but i guess we can already have a start here!

first of all, the character of piranesi. when i first started the book and immersed myself in his inner voice, i was kind of thinking ok there must be a reason as to why he is so incredibly wholesome but also with an extremely sharp mind and immaculate observation skills. the childlike wonder of his perspective was an absolute joy to read from but also provided some tension because i think pretty early on you catch that he might be a bit of an unreliable character and that what he tells you may not match the reality of what his experiences and observations mean to the reader. you're very much the prisoner of his limited perception, his sometimes bizarre but always delightful thought process, and also again the childlike wonder with which he observes the world and which makes everything carry so much more weight w/o resorting to pompous/pretentious gravitas. a statue isn't just a statue to him, it is the Statue, something important in and of itself, with its own story/mythos and it harkens back to a child's point of view which hasn't yet been shaped by the world and therefore isn't as limited as our jaded adults' minds, even though he is an adult himself, which is apparent in his very keen mind.

then we have the form, with the novel being told in vignettes. i personally really like novels such as these because they feel a lot more personal but also propels the story forward. I'm not a fan of huge chapters tbh because my attention span is trash lmao. it was so easy to immerse myself in his world because the writing was so vivid and honestly made me reevaluate a lot about myself adjdjslg. I'm not much of a quote person but "the Beauty of the House is immeasurable; its Kindness infinite" lives rent-free in my mind because 1. it appears at two key points in the novel and both iterations echo the other brilliantly in their respective context and thus add even more meaning to the quote and 2. i think it's a beautiful metaphor for the world we live in, which leads me to the next point

what i mostly clung to during my reading experience was the theme of confinement to a specific physical space, which can feel suffocating and limited. susanna clarke suffers from a chronic illness that has kept her within the confines of her home for many years and this book very much reflects that. from my personal experience with that theme, i was less reminded of how thematically relevant it was in the middle of a pandemic, and more about how much goodness there is still in this world at a time where everything seems so bleak, and unkind. i myself suffer from an ugly case of chronic cynicism which i think is very unappealing lmao but at least I'm self-aware! being reminded that we live in a world where kindness is indeed infinite in the smallest and biggest of ways is the balm that my shriveled soul truly needed. i guess it's my emotional support quote lmao.

then we have the setting of the book which, while limited spatially, is also so full of wonderful things and imaginative configurations that i was just in awe of everything that was being done with it. the plot is closely tied to the setting and i really want to keep this spoiler-free (just in case) so I'm not going to delve too deeply into it but i'd love to visit this place and have piranesi guide me through the labyrinth of the House and the many wonders (and tragedies) that it holds.

finally we have the MYSTERY and omg i love picking up the clues and kind of forming my own theories along the way bc it truly isn't an in-your-face mystery like a thriller would be. we buddy-read this with some ppl from the book club so the experience of sharing our theories made it all the more pleasant. i really loved how clarke presented the many mysteries of the story in such a subtle yet gripping manner that soon i was just obsessed with knowing who was whom and what they wanted from piranesi and who piranesi was and how this all came to be. all the different players felt fully fleshed out and made me feel veeeery strongly (i.e. i wanted to kill some of them like literally daydreaming about choking them to death... not to sound unhinged or anything). they provided such good foils to piranesi's inherent goodness and all that they lacked in terms of decency. their shamelessness and infinite greed and how they see piranesi as a pawn to use set my teeth on edge so i was just biding my time for the karmic retribution that they'd get akjdlkgj also great exploration of how ambition can be the downfall of mankind

then we have all the clever-people-themes of neoclassicism and philosophy and plato's cave and whatnot and it's not what held my attention so i can't speak much on it bc I'm not one of those clever people who picked upon these themes LMAO but I'll for sure spend more time unpacking these layers on my re-read of this book because there are so many smart ideas hidden in the nooks and crannies of this story that i think you could get something different from each read, kind of like i feel about pride & prejudice by jane austen which offers me new delights to enjoy upon each re-read.

honestly i have so much more to say about how religion is handled, the rituals surrounding grief and their importance in the celebration and respect of of life, birds being amazing creatures, identity and how it can create contradictions etc etc but at this point i might as well just write a college essay on literally every theme explored in this book because it was just SO GOOD! thank u piranesi for me life

tl;dr this book made me feel like my brain was buried in a thick coat of dust and let some much-needed air in

#also i read this message at like 6am and thought long and hard about it #and then started crying bc i'd die and kill for piranesi period

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smile-files · 4 years

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melon’s comprehensive kinlist!

including name of character, source, image, short personality description, mbti, and then why i kin them! take your time to read, or don’t. i get it if you don’t want to scroll through an entire page just to psychoanalyze me lmao, have a good time

1. wirt (over the garden wall)

an angsty, socially awkward dweebus who nerds out over interior design and plays the clarinet. fears death. infp.

my first kin! for a month after rewatching otgw i desperately wanted to be him. to be like him. anything!! it eventually wore away but i still feel that urge sometimes - the urge to write r/im14andthisisdeep poetry and to distance one’s self from their siblings... and heck - his tape for sara is indeed just as awkward as he is but let me assure you that his poetry and clarinet are actually pretty cool. 9/10 i need to see him more. give me more otgw comics. ok thanks.

2. snufkin (moomins)

a philosophical vagabond of vague age. acts stoic all the time but can and will leave every social situation whether or not it’s humanly possible. infp.

after watching some 90s moomin (and later on moominvalley) i realized how much i liked him and how much i was like him; i soon daydreamed of myself, as snufkin, venting to someone. it made me very happy. i vibe with his general demeanor and ideals (minus his gripes about rules, i follow those by the book) and i love psychoanalyzing him. so fun. so fun.

3. arnold perlstein (the magic school bus)

overly-anxious jewish kid and certified expert on rocks and panicking. owns a pair of fire-proof pyjamas in a lovely shade of green. isfj.

you all saw this one coming. my early childhood lives in my mind rent free and such i can’t help but revisit arn and his character. i’ve always loved him (even in, and quite possibly especially in, the reboot) and i’ve always loved psychoanalyzing every single little thing he does (remember that one time he said he was traumatized? me too). i soon realized a lot of it was me projecting! so sue me. actually, sue miss frizzle. either one of them. i mean, if arnold really didn’t like the field trips he could’ve just filed a restraining order! ...just saying.

4. fluttershy (my little pony)

anxious pastel butterfly baby child. probably loves animals more than she loves herself. cries upon impact. isfj.

the pony i’d mentally point to and think “me”. i had like 10 fluttershy-related things growing up, like plushies or funko pops or that sdcc guardians of harmony thing. while not shy in the same manner, it was nice having a character i could relate to about so much! i cosplayed as her equestria girls form for my first comic con as well, so that’s pretty cool. in addition, me being a little lepidopterist means i was bound to love her. it was destiny~

5. lammy lamb (um jammer lammy)

socially anxious and generally anxious rock star who thinks literally everything is a guitar. has an emotional support girlfriend. infp.

man!! she embodies the feeling when you have to go to the eye doctor by yourself to get your glasses fixed or when you have to call someone over the phone... that sheer tension. the panic. the feeling of ‘i want to throw my entire being into the trash can’. but lammy has a bunch of friends to support her, so she’s cool. died by slipping on a banana peel! same, sister. and man would i like to shred on my ukulele now...

6. loser (bfb)

humble (screw bfb 21), supportive, well-loved cube dude who’s voice is like that of an angel. has an entire fanclub in his honor. enfj.

okay, no, i was never a cool kid or ‘popular’, really, but in school i was never bullied for whatever reason and was generally well-liked; i hung out with a squad of weirdos and yet the cool kids would often talk to me? and try to engage me?? despite my very apparent self-deprecation and awkwardness??? either way i feel like it’s such a blessing to me, that i have so many friends! i often feel like i don’t deserve it, but hey. it’s nice! and heck, back when i was on scratch i had a little fanclub myself :0

7. fan (inanimate insanity)

nerdy, friendly aspie boyo who subliminally vents via blogging. longs for stability in his life; was best friends with an egg. entp.

ever since i noted his aspergers-like behavior i became super attached to him - whether or not it was intentional, i found it nice having a character i can relate those feelings with. he’s really sweet and dorky and i love how he gets along with test tube, paintbrush, and lightbulb! it makes me really happy to see him whenever i do. it made me really sad when he was eliminated. what the heck. yeah i dunno i don’t kin him super strongly but i love him to bits.

8. spinel (steven universe the movie)

emotionally unstable clown girl who stood in a garden for thousands of years. patience of a saint. edge like an 11-year-old me. esfp.

uhh um uh totally wasn’t completely disturbed by how much i related to spinel after watching steven universe the movie... totally wasn’t reminded about how and why i hated middle school... totally didn’t rethink my life that day... that’s it. this is all i’m saying.

9. molly blyndeff (epithet erased)

innocent child who has a terrible father and a wonderful demeanor. teddy bear who needs a hug and a criminal as her new dad. infp.

epithet erased is adorable okay?? i knew molly was infp in the first few minutes... more precisely, i knew she was me. man!! i don’t relate directly to her angst but i still feel it. i can replicate her voice so accurately it’s scary. also, i coined a new thing - ‘molly cake’! you have a chocolate cake, preferably with chocolate chips inside. use chocolate frosting and add little pastel star sprinkles! on top! my mom would make this cake for us anyway but then i realized it was literally just molly in cake form. and it’s just as sweet!

10. tommy coolatta (hlvrai)

a 30-something-year-old child who rocks a propeller hat. chose his last name off of a dunkin donuts menu despite the fact that he has a father. infp.

everyone loves tommy. he’s so sweet? and funny and loveable?? often times when i say something funny but bizarre, i just remember that tommy has said ‘soda helps you see faster’ and it makes me happy. if i’m going to be a weirdo i want to be the wholesome weirdo who loves soda and has a .png for a dog! also i legally have to kin tommy. i took a test for it (and i’m not complaining! i find it quite flattering).

11. twyla (monster high)

the daughter of the boogeyman; would very much like to boogey out of here, if you know what i mean. avoids people like the plague. infj.

seeing her role in the show and in the movies, i really love twyla? first of all, her voice is my new favorite thing. it’s like... gravelly? and soft? she’s the type of person who would very much like to disappear when in a crowd; thankfully, she literally can. i am drawn to any sarcastic, self-deprecating introvert who takes care of their bonkers extrovert friend (in this case howleen), as i often act as such myself. also the phrase ‘boogey sand’ will never leave my mind now :)

12. lapis lazuli (steven universe)

water gem who wants you to leave. cynical as all heck, sensitive as all hell. is there such thing as a gem therapist? just asking. infp.

in a similar way to twyla, i vibe with lapis’ sarcasm and wit as well as her emotional side. it can be kind of addicting, isolating one’s self. anywho, me and my sister used to do this routine of yelling up to each other this certain dialogue between lapis and peridot when peri was leaving for something (in which lapis replied to everything she said with dry ‘yeah’s); i would always do lapis’ part. i do reply a lot with ‘okay’ or ‘yeah’ or ‘cool’ to things people tell me, as i never really know what to say.

13. brad meltzer (xavier riddle and the secret museum)

shy jewish butterfly kid who absolutely hates time travel. attracted to people who know how to socialize like a normal human being. infp(?).

okay okay so... combine everything from arnold and everything from fluttershy and that’s basically what brad is to me. a jewish socially anxious nerd who loves butterflies and drawing. badabing badaboom, there i am. that’s it.

and boom! all of the kins i can think of, of course not including comfort characters like will byers from stranger things or isabelle from animal crossing. if you have any kins to suggest to me, i would love it! thank you for taking your time to read this, friend! have a fantastic day :)

#melonposting #extreme melonposting #kin #kins #kinlist #i will not tag every character here for the love of god #13. 13 is the number of the kins #good night folks :pensive:

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stayflaminhotmen · 4 years

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My take on the Kataang vs. Zutara

First thing’s first - why I ship Kataang:

The main reason as to why I ship Kataang is because I love how their relationship was built on a strong foundation of friendship. They were really good friends who traveled the world together, got comfortable together, grew together and overall, really connected with each other through their adventure. I just love how throughout the series, it’s so clear how much they care and love each other. It’s a simple kind of love that’s so pure, genuine and wholesome.

Aang was obviously infatuated with her but the more time they spent together, that crush turns into a deeper kind of love. Katara, on the other hand, took a while for her feelings to develop. Her signs were less obvious but in the end, it’s there. I think this is a realistic portrayal of how two people can come together. One person seeing only the best parts of a person to seeing them as they really are and loving and accepting that person. Then the other only sees the other as a friend only to later have her feelings grow to something more when they spend more time together and grow together. It’s no natural how their feelings progress and it’s not built on chemistry but a deep connection.

How I saw the ending- the kiss. I didn’t view it as “hero gets the girl”

I know a lot of people view Katara kissing Aang as the hero gets the girl, but I honestly didn’t see it like that. I saw it as two people who were really good friends, developing feelings for each other but never having the chance to pursue it because of their responsibility to save the world. Once they were able to save the world, they were finally able to freely explore their feelings without the overburdening responsibility on their shoulders.

Besides the fortune teller episode (season 1, episode 14), the show has moments where they’re interrupted time and time again from pursuing anything because of their responsibility to save the world even though they’re just young kids. In the Cave of two lover (season two, episode two) the two share a kiss and Aang showed how he wanted to talk about it, but Katara wanted to make sure they both got out. They couldn’t talk about what just happened because they had to get out to make sure they made it to Omashu. Then in the episode The Earth King (season 2, episode 18) Aang is about to tell Katara how she really feels but Sokka interrupts to remind them all about their situation - how Aang has to go to away to master the Avatar State, and Katara’s situation where she has to stay to help with their invasion plan. In the episode Nightmares and Daydreams (Season 3, Episode 9) Aang has a daydream about Katara. It looks stupid and silly but if you think about it, it’s normal for someone to dream about someone. What’s sad though is that he can’t pursue her because they have to worry about their invasion plan for tomorrow. Aang is shown to want to be nothing more than a normal kid and being a normal kid means being able to fall in love but he be in a relationship.Then there’s The day of Black Sun: Part One (Season three, Episode 10). He is off to fight the big bad villain that he’s been training to fight off. He doesn’t know if he’s going to come back. He kisses her which is super hero cliche but I feel like it adds a dramatic affect to their situation even though I have to admit that scene could have been handled better. However, Aang making a move does make sense and it humanizes him. In the Ember Island Player episode (season 3, episode 17) it’s the first time he confronts his feelings towards Katara out loud which he was never able to do before. For a valid reason, she’s confused because of the war going on. I genuinely believe their situation could have been handled better in Aang’s defense, but I really like how Katara told him no this isn’t right. Aang also acknowledges that he’s an idiot for doing that. I know a lot of people are like how can Katara kiss him next after this. This is my take on it. I’m not saying it’s correct, I’m saying this MIGHT be why. She said she was confused because of the war. When the war was over, her mind wasn’t confused anymore and the weight she felt was lifted. The thing is, she doesn’t kiss him right away, she hugs him first then kisses her. I think that’s important to note because it really solidifies that they were friends above anything. She literally hugs him so many times during the show. This is the first time she is hugging him without the war going on. Then she kisses him which to me was like her saying, “let’s explore these feelings together.” Yes, they wanted to help fix the world, but they’re able to slow down now. They weren’t on a time crunch where they had to defeat the fire lord on a timeline.

This is the way I interpreted it. That is why I love their romance as well, because it adds depth to the characters and their situation if you think of it from that POV. They really pushed aside their love until the war was over! Like, if they were regular kids there’s no doubt that they could have been together already and explored their feelings. Sadly, due to the war, they couldn’t. I think that it also amplifies the characters because it’s clear that Aang wants to be just a normal kid (especially from the headband episode) but can’t because he has to save the world. It also shows how Katara constantly sacrifices her feelings for the greater good like how she sacrificed her childhood basically to be the mother of her tribe.

Speaking of the headband episode (season 3, episode 2), that’s one of my favorite episodes because we see a glimpse of how Aang was probably like when he was a kid traveling the world. He mentions a guy he was friends with named Kuzon and how they would hang out. This episode captures Aang when he’s being his regular and genuine self away from the war currently going on. The dance they shared was a glimpse of how things could have been for them if they were just regular kids. Aang would have been able to sweep Katara off her feet and pursue her. They could have easily been together IF they were just normal kids. However, they’re not those kids because of the war and the responsibility they have in ending the war.

However, seeing as people saw it differently, it goes to show how it wasn’t CLEARLY put out. I understand that. With what was shown, it felt like it was hero gets the girl. The thing about creating with motion pictures is that if it’s not done clearly and executed right, the audience might not notice it. However, in the writer’s defense, there was so much more detail put into other things that it’s impossible for them to create everything perfect. That said I’d like to explore the flaw in Katara and Aang’s relationship that could have made people more satisfied with them being together.

The flaw in their relationship and in Aang’s character:

I have to say this: Katara was definitely giving more of herself to Aang. A lot of people say that Aang liked Katara more, but looking back, Katara definitely liked Aang more. She was always trying to get close with him by reaching out to him A LOT, hugging him A LOT, and giving him cheek kisses three times. Out of all the characters, Katara literally holds Aang the most. I think that was one of the subtle ways that the creators were trying to show the audience that Katara liked Aang too. That said, I genuinely feel like that’s one way that Katara shows her love for people she cares about: physical touch. There are so many moments where we see Katara reaching out and giving someone a hug, or putting her hand out for them. It makes sense for her character because her mom died and her dad went away. She can’t physically hold them anymore. Her holding out to people is a way of comforting someone and also herself by keeping whomever close to her. She’s overprotective because of the trauma she went to as a child losing the people she loved. It comes as motherly, but I think that some people may have a misconception about love being expressed only one way. Katara being caring is her highest form of showing she loves someone.

A lot of people say that their relationship was one-sided. That Aang was the only one who liked her, but I genuinely don’t think that’s entirely true. Aang really liked her but I think the one-sided part was how Katara was the only one who was giving Aang emotional support. That’s the one thing about Aang’s character that I wish was developed more. The thing is, he matures a whole lot from accepting that he’s the avatar. Like he really has matured, but I feel like the writers didn’t make it as obvious as Zuko maturing. It shows how he obviously is able willing to help save someone but he can only help people physically. I don’t see him helping someone emotionally and that’s where his character lacks. That’s where I wish his character could have grown and where his character is overlooked. That is also why I feel like so many people viewed it as a childhood crush - the creators never put a really clear and obvious way of pointing out that Aang matured emotionally as well. It puts Aang’s character down because his way of coping is by being childish and avoiding things - the literal opposite of being mature. I think that people only seeing the childish part of Aang and the overprotective motherly side of Katara is what makes their relationship seem like it doesn’t fit. If they added one or two scenes showing how he cared about her feelings instead of always having Katara only show that, their relationship would have been so much more powerful. That’s the biggest flaw in how their relationship was shown and the most frustrating thing is that it could have been avoided. If they had shown him caring about Katara in an emotional level, their relationship would have been so solid. The thing is, that would be something so in the character of Aang. Like he genuinely is a lot more mature and emotionally intelligent than what meets the eye and I really wish that the creator made an effort to show that.

That said, another thing I feel like that’s important to touch on is how a lot of people say that Aang was too childish. I completely understand why people would say this. However, I think that people don’t really see how much more mature he really is. He is someone who has gone through so much grief and yet is able to be so genuine, loving, and kind to the world and people. I think that shows an insane amount of emotional maturity. He is more emotionally intelligent than people give him credit for. However, I feel like his character was never given the opportunity to show that side of him as much as it could have. I think that the only time I saw it was during The Southern Raiders when he talks to Katara. I think that the advice he gave to her was spot on really good before she left, to let her frustration out but not to get revenge. That was high-level wisdom that I feel like Uncle Iroh would give honestly. If there were more moments like that, I honestly would have ZERO problems with their relationship. His age wouldn’t matter because it would show that he was mature enough debunking that he wasn’t mature enough. On top of that, not a lot of people knew that he was a master at airbending when he was just 12. He was the youngest one to get his arrows. He is literally so smart when he applies himself but he’s just a kid and of course, wants to have fun. I wish they flushed that out of his character more to show that part of him.

That brings to what would I have ADDED (+ small changes) to further develop their relationship:

I would have added in season three moments where Aang was there for Katara emotionally. Season three is where we see Katara’s sides other than her caring motherly side. There are three episodes specifically, The Awakening, The puppetmaster and The Southern Raiders.

The one thing I wish could have been added if I can was in season three, episode one. There is a moment where Aang meets Hakoda, Katara’s father, for the first time. She is obviously upset, and the thing is, HE KNOWS. HE SAW IT AND HE FELT IT. He even asks, “are you mad at your dad or something?” And she goes, “not at all, why would you say that.” Instead of them having a conversation, the Aang literally takes it to face value and shrugs it off. What I would have wanted was for him to say something like, “you sounded upset when you were talking to him.” And then Katara getting defensive because you know she is and then have her say “I wasn’t upset.” Have Aang hold up his arms and be like “I think you are. *pause* If you ever want to talk about it, I’m here to listen.” Like bro, it would show how much more aware he is and flushed out how emotionally mature he actually is. Not to mention, this wouldn’t at all be out of character for him. That would literally be the Aang a lot of people who have evaluated his character deeper than face value see him as. It frustrates me how the creators didn’t make it THAT obvious.

Another thing I would have added in the episode: The Awakening is this scene as the closing credit. In this scene, Aang could be flying Appa alone, Toph and Sokka could be sleeping and Katara is looking staring at the sky. Now just imagine this scene where they finally talk about Katara’s feelings for once. Imagine how powerful this would have been for their relationship and for Aang’s character growth…

Aang: *moves to look at Katara* Katara, are you okay?

Katara: “I yelled at my father.” *looks at Aang*

Aang: “Come sit here with me so we can talk about it and not wake those two up.” *Katara moves to sit next to Aang on Appa’s head.*

Katara: “I was angry at him for leaving my brother and I for all those years.”

Aang: *reaching out to touch her shoulder this time* “I’m sorry Katara, that must have been hard for you to watch him leave after losing your mom.”

*Katara crying and then them two hugging*

Aang: *after they break apart from the hug* “I’m sorry for running away like that too. That must have been triggering for you.”

Katara: “At least it helped me finally confront my dad.”

Aang: “I’m proud of you Katara.”

It would show that it’s not just one-sided. Not to mention, that scene would give more credit to Aang’s character for being more mature. That he’s capable of being mature because I know he is. He has grown so much and having a scene like that with that dialogue shows that. It would be so in character for him too, at least for the people who really understand Aang’s character. On top of that Katara’s feelings are finally being expressed. Like literally NO ONE in the group ever talks about Katara’s feelings which is so sad. Aang could have easily been able to be that person.

Another thing I would have wanted to add was in the runaway. In that episode, I wish that Aang would have asked Katara after Toph and Sokka left and it was just the two of them, “do you want to practice water bending to let it out.” Then they could show them bending water together like they did on the side. I’m serious, it's just the small details of dialogue that were overlooked. This is just a small detail but it would show a parallel to when Aang gets upset with Toph when he couldn’t earth bend. Then, they could have had a moment where Katara talks about how she’s frustrated because she feels like Toph is out of control and Aang’s all like “Katara, I know that you feel like you have to make sure everyone’s alright all the time, but you don’t have to anymore. When all of us were in the desert together, you helped the team survive together but we’re okay now. Please, have some fun too. You’re allowed too.” Then that would help with Katara literally going out of her way to make a scam with Toph. Like imagine that. One thing about this though is that I would have to take away the scene where Toph and Katara are just sitting on opposite sides and they send a message to Toph. Instead, it could have been Sokka and Toph next with that conversation in the following scene. Like I felt like the whole hawk was a waste since it never came back so like the could have been avoided. That’s only a small change though which I feel like wouldn’t have a negative impact on the overall show.

The last thing I would have added was in the southern raiders episode was Aang going to Katara and hugging her, then asking her if she is okay. That way it would show them two hugging THEN Zuko and Katara. That would balance things out with Kataang and Zutara LMAO. Also, I would have wanted him to say that she was strong enough. Forgiving someone makes you stronger, not weaker. Like a way better message than him going full on pacifist on her.

Those are the three scenes I would have ADDED. I think that would have been important to add because it showed how Aang was able to help a friend emotionally which he has never done before. Not to mention, it would have been more clearly shown that Aang was more mature and emotionally intelligent than what people think. That’s so important because if these scenes were added, I’m pretty sure a lot of people would have been able to see the maturity in Aang and not just the childish part of him. The best things about these scenes is that the overall story and plot didn’t have to change. It would just be something that was added.

The thing that upsets me the most is how these changes is literally three episodes in season three. Like Kataang had such a solid foundation in season one and two only for it to not grow in season three. It’s also literally just small little details that were overlooked and could have been avoided, and would have made the show ever better. Like ugh! It’s super frustrating.

Also, I wanted to note that I think that’s what makes people like Zutara. He helped Katara emotionally in a way that no one else in the group did. I have to admit that he was the first one who actually gave her what she needed. You can see that she was usually neglected because she had to take care of everyone. That’s actually why I saw the potential in Zuko and Katara. That’s when I realized furthermore where Katara and Aang could GROW, and then saw how they could have woven that part to strengthen their relationship and Aang’s character. Not to mention, it would give Katara more credit. Like no offense, but Katara was done dirty at times, not going to lie. She literally holds the group together and it’s so unfair how there’s no one holding her. That’s why I would have wanted Aang to be the one to start doing that in season three to show how he truly has grown. Literally that would debunk him not being mature enough/too childish which is literally so valid.

Now there’s one thing I wish I could have changed, but it has nothing to do with Kataang but has to do with Zuko and Mai. Now hear me out on this. I honestly liked Mai and Zuko because what their relationship added to the overall story. Without Mai, we wouldn’t have the iconic line “I love Zuko more than I fear you.” I love that line because it really teaches someone that love is stronger than fear. However, I have to admit their relationship individually wasn’t healthy. There’s no sugar coating it, it was toxic. In my perspective it was because of Mai’s character having NO ARC. She was the same. At first I was okay with this, like okay, no everyone had to have growth, but then, I saw this post saying how the only way Zuko and Mai could work together is if she changed completely. And I couldn’t have agreed more. Mai is 15. She has so much personal growth to go and I think that her acknowledging that would have been a good arc of her character. It would have given her character more depth. The reason why Mai and Zuko’s relationship wouldn't have worked is because Zuko changed so much while Mai stayed the same. I think that’s why people didn’t like them together which makes a lot of sense. BUT, if you think about it, there’s potential for Mai to develop.

This is how I rewrote Zuko and Mai’s last conversation together. If I’m being honest, I thought that Zuko and Mai wouldn’t be together especially since if you look at the scene, Zuko holds his arms out and she dodges it. I was shook when I saw this but, that’s when I thought of a better ending…

Mai: “Need some help with that?”

Zuko: “Mai, you’re ok. They let you out of prison.”

Mai: “My uncle pulled some strings, (this is where things change and she still dodges the hug here) but yeah I was in there for a little while.”

Zuko: “I’m really sorry Mai. I hurt you and you still choose to save me.”

Mai: “I loved you Zuko to the point where I would do anything for you.” *pause* “While I was in prison, I had a lot more time to think. I’m going to travel the world, to find myself. I don’t want to be the girl that loves someone else more than herself.”

Zuko: “I think this would be really good for you Mai.” *pause* “And when you come back and find yourself, come find me. I’ll wait for you.” *they hug*

I feel like this would have been so powerful. She would come back a different person which is exactly what needs to happen to her character so she can grow out of her teenage angst phase like Zuko did and then they could come together as two people who were better than they were when they were in that toxic relationship. Like that would have been such a good message to kids.

On top of that, I feel like one of the only times she expresses an authentic part of herself is when she was mad at Zuko for betraying his country. Other than the beach, we don’t see her expressing herself that passionately. Literally Mai being fire lady makes so much sense because she obviously cares about her country and Zuko. Her dad is known for being governor throughout her whole life. She knows some stuff about all that stuff but I think she doesn’t want to get into all that political thing because of how her dad being part of wanting to be in politics made her have to be silent. Like imagine her literally going out of her way to find herself then stumbling upon politics on the way. The thing is in the comics “Shadow and Smoke” they do that. I genuinely feel like that comic would have been better and more wholesome if it was Mai trying to find herself and then Zuko and her meeting again after spending time apart. Like them bonding over what happens in that comic instead of them being so awkward together LOL.

I honestly don’t want to say this but I genuinely feel like this was the couple that the creators forced so that there was like less of a chance for Zutara to happen which literally back fired. Like I feel like more people would ship them together and have more fan fictions of them finding their way back to each other and I can’t get over the imagination of that being one good comic segment. Like no offense but the creator’s strong suit is not romance, which is okay! They made something wonderful and beautiful and iconic but it’s still imperfect. It’s just super sad how it could have been way better with just a few scenes.

Basically, I think that Katara and Zuko were two people that fans a lot because they were more flushed out carefully than Aang’s blind spot and Mai not changing at all. That brings me to the last part…

The main reason I prefer Kataang over Zutara (+ some other reasons):

The main reason I’ve come to discover why I wouldn’t want Zutara to happen is how it would affect the overall story and the feel of it. If you really think about it, Zutara would have a ripple effect on the overall story. The thing with Avatar the last airbender is that it’s not supposed to be a romance based story and I feel like having Zutara has the potential of overpowering the overall story. It’s mysterious and holy fuck that would be one good enemies to lovers romance story. And it would have been really powerful to show a “bad boy/ good girl trope” that’s done in a way that’s right. Like one thing that would have been so good about their relationship is that Zuko is a bad boy at first. He literally is an asshole, but throughout the series, you see why he was like that and then you see him grow into a better person. The best part is, it wasn’t because of Katara. NO, the girl doesn’t make the bad boy good, it’s a trusting adult guiding the bad boy to be good. It doesn’t burden Katara with that responsibility as a relationship should be. There’s no denying that would be one good trope and side story. However, that would overall overpower the whole story, not to mention it doesn’t flow with the story's vibe. Here are some reasons as to why this would be so problematic TO THE STORY (not as a couple):

1. It would have overpowered and distracted us from the story because there could have been a love triangle. Aang literally loves Katara. He flat out says it and was not going to give up cosmic energy, literally unbelievable power, just so he can love her. To make a love triangle realistic and developed, that love triangle would have to be done well. That would take time. The thing is, with what they were given, there’s no way there would be able to fit a realistic and well-developed love triangle. Literally no way they would right when they’re ending it. Way too messy and distracting when they’re trying to end things. That said, if there were going to be a fourth season, that’s the only way I could see it happening. The thing is I don’t want a fourth season. I think that it would have dragged on too long and I feel like it ended perfectly because it’s literally still a masterpiece to this day.

2. Secondly, love triangles are so messy. The way that the writers already handled romance, I’m sorry but there’s more potential for a love triangle to go terrible for the overall series. That would ruin the masterpiece that is Avatar the Last Airbender because of a side romance. Watching Legends of Korra, we saw how fucking horrible it was to watch THAT love triangle. Literally horrible. I’m sorry but I do not want to see anything like that. I feel like no offense but they showed literally what could have happened if Zutara happened. The worst possible case scenario. Yes, they could have done better but they’re not good romance writers! What makes you think they’ll make a good love triangle and it would be so distracting for that to happen in the end. Like I feel like they’re great writers, but romance is not a strong point for them. It’s literally going to draw everyone’s attention to the ships instead of what’s happening in the amazing world.

3. Let’s say that things do work out for Katara and Zuko. I can’t imagine Aang’s relationship with Katara being tarnished or Aang’s relationship with Zuko falling apart because Zuko and Katara are dating. Those two relationships are strongly built on trusting each other and respecting each other. If anyone’s ever been in a love triangle, there’s that feeling of awkwardness and tension around the room. Love triangles are messy and they can ruin friendships. That is why I truly believe that Zuko never saw Katara as a romantic partner. In the Ember Island Players Zuko’s character says “I thought you were the avatar’s girl?” I really don’t like how they made it seem like Aang was being possessive. I think it also points out how Zuko is loyal to his friends. I think that he might have possibly sensed that Aang liked Katara so he literally never saw her as more than a friend. He wanted Katara to trust him as a friend. Also, Katara was supposed to have a love triangle between Aang and the original boy Toph but they cut that off. Thank goodness they did because love triangles are messy and I’m super glad they avoided it. That helped the relationships each character has with each other have a stronger bond of FRIENDSHIP which is one of the themes in this show. A love triangle wouldn’t be practical for that theme when love triangles literally RUIN friendships.

4. If Katara would be with Zuko, there’s no denying that Aang would feel awkward around either of them because it would break the trust he had with both of them. Anyone who has ever liked someone deeply then have a close friend date that someone breaks trust. That’s why I always believed in the girl’s code, or the bro code because I genuinely believe that strong friendships are more important that a romantic relationship. Especially one that people claim is valid because of the chemistry you have with them. Basically, by having Zutara happen, the creators would have to deal with love triangle topics which they obviously tried to avoid when they changed Toph into a girl. Like I said before, talking about love triangle stuff just doesn’t make sense in a story about genocide, war etc. Like if you look at all the romantic relationships that were made, none of them dealt with a romantic love triangle (Mai, Ty Lee and Azula was a friendship love triangle but it added to the plot in a productive way). Yes there was jealousy but never a love triangle that would be damaging to strong friendships. It just wouldn’t help the overall plot to ending things, but instead, it would add an avoidable problem. In the shoes of the writer, I would have liked to dodge that.

5. Also Zuko and Katara would bring up controversial questions and problems. The love triangle is a big one but another one that’s been brought up is would Katara be comfortable possibly being the fire lady? Would Katara want to get into politics? Would Zuko be willing to make time for her? (In the comics, it clearly shows how Zuko’s responsibility especially since he’s rebuilding the fire nation, takes a lot of time). What would Katara do in her free time? Would Katara really be willing to go as far as loving someone that intimately after he traumatized her? Keep in mind she couldn’t forgive the person who killed her mother. Even though Katara is giving and forgiving, there’s obviously a limit for her. Would Katara be okay with having Ozai as her father in law and Azula as her sister in law? Would she be okay marrying someone with the same bloodline as what caused her heritage to be so small? How would it be like for her to tell her children that it was her husband’s father who sent out fire nation soldiers to kill all the waterbenders in the southern pole and she was the only one who survived because her mother died instead. Would Katara want her bloodline to have the same blood as the people who caused genocide to her tribe? There’s just so many questions that I feel like would be so controversial. That’s why people say it’s “toxic” and “unhealthy.” It’s not that they are bad together, they obviously work well together, have chemistry. However, it’s the outside things that they can’t control or change that make their relationship “unhealthy.” I think that anyone can love someone so much but outside factors like this play a huge role. I think that looking at it from Katara’s POV more than in Zuko’s plays a big role in this. My biggest concern with Katara is how it would make her feel dating someone who hurt her like that. Like I said, there’s no doubt that she’s forgiven him but that doesn’t mean that the trauma isn’t there anymore. It’s like a building. No matter how solid the building comes in the top, the foundation that it was built upon was messy, traumatizing etc. If I were Katara, I would stick with friends.

6. Also, I’m not saying that Aang wouldn’t forgive Katara and Zuko if it were to happen. I’m not saying that he would let go of it. What I am saying is that it would taint the strong friendship they already have over a relationship that’s strong because of chemistry. I’m just saying that if I were any of them, I would rather find someone else to have chemistry with. I genuinely feel like that’s why a lot of people who ship Zutara may not have liked Aang because if he wasn’t in the picture, there wouldn’t have been any complications but he is literally a big part of the story. Taking him out of the show for a ship would ruin the show, but everyone loves the show so it’s easier to demoralize Aang’s character.

7. Overall, it would be problematic to the whole show. I have nothing against Zutara being a side thing that fans like to explore. The fan art that I’ve seen is literally so beautiful and there’s no doubt that people can make one hell of a story for the two of them. However, I feel like it should just be on the side, not canon for the sake of Avatar the last airbender being the amazing masterpiece it is.

From the creator’s POV:

I’ve been looking at their choice of making Kataang canon, and in the creator’s defense, it was the best option. Even though their relationship wasn’t developed as everyone has hoped, it was the best choice. There are people who said how some people from the creator’s team wanted Zutara to happen. However, in the end, it was a collaborative decision. I don’t think they would have pushed through with it if it didn’t make sense. I feel like some of the creators who wanted Zutara to happen couldn’t make it possible to happen.

1. It was too late for Zutara to be canon. Here are the ways it could have happened in the show and how it would have affected the show…

The Crossroads of Destiny. A lot of people say that if Zuko didn’t betray her, then things between them could have developed. Here are some scenarios that could have happened…

Zuko doesn’t betray Katara. This one is one I’m genuinely so glad didn’t happen because then it would have affected Zuko’s iconic redemption arc. It wouldn’t be ATLA without Zuko’s redemption arc. Not to mention, literally so many things about season three would literally be so different. ATLA is not a perfect show but they obviously did something right if it stands the test of them. That’s why I find it concerning when people don’t really look at the affect their ship being canon would have on the overall story.

Zuko’s scar gets healed. This one is another one that I’m glad didn’t happen because as much as Zuko’s scar is horrible, it’s a part of him. It may not define him anymore, but it was a part of him that he can’t change. By accepting that instead of trying to heal it shows how he’s dealt with his trauma. Katara erasing a part of his identity is like her not acknowledging a big part of Zuko.

Someone suggested that Katara and Zuko should have shared a more intimate scene and had more time to talk with each other without Aang and Iroh interrupting. That would mean Katara would consider Zuko as someone she would want to be with instead and that would mean Katara not seeing Aang as someone she would want to be with. My problem with this is, I find it super hard to believe that Katara would literally go from I hate Zuko to I see him in a romantic way in one scene. Like I feel like her showing compassion towards him just shows how she is willing to see the good in people. That’s why I genuinely didn’t see anything romantic because it just feels like unrealistic Wattpad writing a girl’s emotion literally going a full 360.

The Southern Raiders

This is where I believe things were truly too late. There’s no way they would sneak in a love triangle when they’re literally trying to end the show. Like it would add drama and a whole love triangle and it would just distract from the overall show. The only way that it could have happened is if there was a fourth season but I felt like it ended the way it was suppose to. Extending the show for another season would honestly just drag the show and risk ruining the amazing show.

Sozin’s comet they kiss after Katara beats Azula

The only reason I’m against this is because I find it hard to believe that they would kiss each other. They’ve literally only kissed one person in the show. The thing is the other person is the one initiating the kiss so it just feel like it would be strange for them after defeating Azula is to kiss. Like even Katara doesn’t kiss Aang after she has saved him so many times. Not to mention, Katara literally doesn’t do things on impulse. It just didn’t make sense for me for them to kiss. Like, I’m sorry but REALISTICALLY speaking, it would be so out of character to the point where it would have been like fan fiction wattpad shit that I wouldn’t want to see. And it would literally distract from that amazing Agni Kai, like it would literally come out of no where and surprise everyone. Like I mentioned before, it would overpower what’s truly important in the show.

Basically, it would ruin the Zuko’s iconic redemption arc or it would just distract the show by adding a somewhat unrealistic fanfic romantic moment that would be OOC. It has a place where it could be explored because it is interesting. However, I don’t think it should have been explored romantically in the show.

Thoughts on things Zutara fans have said:

It would have been better if Aang got over his crush of Katara to show how some people don’t end up with their first love and to show that coming of age aspect:

I do agree that would be a good message. It’s an amazing message. However, in the writer’s defense, it’s not their responsibility to literally cover every topic and every message. One thing that the writers decided to focus on is friendships, not romance. I think that’s why it was important to show how a friendship could turn into more. I also mentioned above why I felt like Katara and Aang added to the overall show in an important way. That said, yes, there’s no denying that it would have been a good message for the kids to watch. However, I don’t think that it could have fit the overall tone and story of this series. Normal kids go through that. They get over their crush because they’re able to find someone else easily. However, if you think about it, it’s not easy to get over a crush when you're literally with that person every single day. When I was younger and I had crushes, I wouldn’t get over them until I had my distance with them. To abruptly just have his feelings shut off when they literally have some of the most genuine and connection filled scenes just didn’t feel right to me. Not to mention, neither of them did anything that was completely unforgivable. Yes they got mad at each other, but they never hurt each other in a way that would be considered horrible. That said, Aang having his feelings just go away for no reason makes no sense. You’re telling me that you’re going to spend literally every single day with Katara and have that love go away instead of grow? Like bro, come on, the only person that I would understand is Sokka because they’re related. In summary, it’s a good aspect to touch on which they kinda do in the fortune teller, but it shouldn’t be the story’s biggest message when they’ve built it throughout the whole season.

Summary of why I choose Kataang:

Overall, I feel like Katara and Aang’s relationship is literally so tied into the whole story of Avatar that them not ending together and instead having Katara end up with Zuko would complicate things. Personally, the best thing about Zutara (Zuko giving Katara the emotional attention she needed) could have easily been woven into Kataang and Aang’s overall character. However the best thing about Kataang can’t be added into Zutara without messing up a big part of the story and friendships.

Kataang in my perspective has a purpose in the whole series. The writers claim that is it part of the DNA of ATLA and I truly believe it is. I love how it shows how despite there being a war, even the saviors find love in the most natural way. It adds to the sadness of not being able to be together because of the war and not being able to talk about it. Aang wanting to be a normal kid which also includes falling in love, not just being childish. Katara being confused and not wanting to talk about it because of the war adds emphasis to the burden they have to carry. It’s those details that I like that makes me ship Kataang. Zutara would overpower the story and deter from the Avatar story and the impending war. That’s why I felt like it was more fitting for the overall story and has a bigger emotional impact. That’s why it always made sense for me for them to end up and why the creators choose it.

They made the right decision to make Kataang “canon” but honestly, I felt like they still should have added/changed what I put to make it better. I think that Zutara should just be a side romance that fans who are into to, should explore. But the whole Kataang vs. Zutara war is literally annoying. I think what annoys me the most about it is how BOTH sides are equally correct and have valid points. I think that it’s mostly because of bad writing and neglecting the depth of two characters.

I feel like there’s a lot of people anazlying small parts about Kataang and Zuatara looking for clues. Like nit picking the smallest details in every scene, but I never saw someone straight up say hey one doesn’t work with the overall story. ATLA is not a romance story but the romance that’s there fits the story. No matter what people claim certain scenes mean between the two characters, there’s no denying that one fits the STORY better.

One thing I feel like started this “war” is bevause the creators/writers made it seem like their Zutara ship was invalid. There were so many people who were shipping them and when they the creators neglected to see why their ship was valid, Zutara fans literally went full on looking for evidence. Although I have to say some points are reaching a bit too far, it’s clear that Katara and Zuko shared chemistry. It’s clear that Zuko was the first person to ever acknowledge Katara’s feelings and helped her talk about her mom. That’s powerful. However, for the sake of the story, it just could not work out without ruining the show. At the end of it, the writers sadly didn’t develop Aang’s and Mai’d character as well which is really upsetting and frustrating.

Just wanted to point out that these are my thoughts after seeing so many Kataang and Zutara posts. I’m in no way saying that I’m 100% correct, but I genuinely believe that my points are valid. I’m open to discuss about this.

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how does someone who knows little-to-nothing about it get into sanders sides? i saw thomas' vines, and i've been sort of tangentially aware that the facets of his personality that he portrayed in the vines have since become characters, but there's a whole bunch of new ones??? what the fuck is a janus???? HELP. tldr where do i find The Lore? plz obi wan ur my only hope

it’s very simple!!! you hyperfixate on thomas sanders’s content in, like, 2016? and then he uploads a video called ‘my true identity’, which is a bit weird, but you love those vine characters. then he uploads more, and it becomes a trend. apparently people in the comments are shipping the prince guy and anxiety. you rewatch the new year’s video an embarrassing amount of times with your dog

i had a whole paragraph here about why i like the series, and why i dropped it and then picked it up again, but it was just a block of lowercase text and i guess it’s kind of hard to read

anyway, here’s the playlist of every episode, but i’m going to put a summary of the series and individual episodes under the readmore, while also ranking them, because i am Special Interesting and i like being useful. and i guess i’m gonna write using. like. actual grammar. if the readmore doesn’t work, then. have fun reading my infodump

here we go

Sanders Sides: A Summary

Fictional Version Of Thomas Sanders (known as Character!Thomas, and will be simply referred to as ‘Thomas’ henceforth) has ‘Sides’, which are parts of his personality that have been exaggerated and personified. It’s a nice little series set in some kind of semi-urban fantasy world, but mostly in Thomas’s living room. It mostly uses the idea of ‘Sides’ to represent the inner schemata of an individual. In simpler terms, you know when you’re conflicted, and you end up arguing with yourself? Yeah, it’s that.

Also, don’t read the comments, unless you want to disregard the care I’ve taken to not put spoilers in the Season 1 Summaries.

Season 1

I’d like to split this into parts, because there are a lot of things in earlier episodes that conflict with later characterisation. However, it’s also fun to watch them, and then rewatch them after some of the longer episodes, and feel your heart shatter!

This half of Season 1 was made solely by Thomas. It tends to be a bit more scattered, and can be watched out of chronological order, or completely skipped. Yes, I’m telling you that you can skip literally all of this section, if you want to. However, these are also the easiest videos to watch, and offer a taste of Silly Sanders Sides Hijinks without the emotional commitment.

My True Identity (6 min) - Thomas delves into the three aspects of his personality; his Logic (Teacher Guy), his Creativity (the Prince, also called Princey), and his Morality (Dad Guy who is Not Thomas’s Dad). At this point, the characters are far more similar to their Vine counterparts, and the characterisation clashes with later episodes. (3/5 - A nice way to see if you’ll enjoy the humour of this series)

Way Too Adult (5 min) - Thomas is asked by his family to help cook Thanksgiving dinner. Dad Guy pops up and discusses with Thomas how he can better learn to take care of himself. Features a talking stove, which is part of the reason why I classify this series as urban fantasy, and the start of a running joke. (2/5 - A fun, albeit rare, look into Dad Guy being responsible. I actually prefer this to My True Identity, but ranks lower due to conflicting with later S1 characterisation.)

Taking On Anxiety with Lilly Singh (6 min) - Thomas hopes and dreams to get rid of his Anxiety, who is a sassy, snide guy, sitting on the staircase. Princey, as the embodiment of Thomas’s hopes and dreams, is... Usurped by an imaginary version of Lilly Singh, who helps teach Thomas how to cope with feeling anxious. (3/5 - Introduces some secret tools that will help us later. The tools are Thomas being able to travel to various places in his head, and also Anxiety.)

A New Year of Lying to Myself... In Song!! (7 min) - The first video wherein you realise that this is A Thing. Thomas welcomes in the new year, hoping that 2017 will be better than 2016. Logic shows up to help him figure out some New Year’s Resolutions, accompanied by Dad Guy and Princey. Anxiety joins in to point out that Thomas has rarely, if ever, kept to his resolutions before. Through the first musical number of the series, the Core Sides and Thomas figure out simple, achievable resolutions that Thomas can use to improve his wellbeing. (4/5 - Unintentional foreshadowing in the form of a bop.)

The Dark Side of Disney (6 min) - Princey, not for the last time, enthuses about the wonders of Disney. However, Anxiety also appears, insisting that Disney is not as wholesome as it first appears. They argue and bond, despite the fact that Thomas still hasn’t redacted his statement regarding his hopes and dreams to get rid of his Anxiety. (2/5 - I have strong feelings on the meaning of ‘Beauty and the Beast’ and ‘The Little Mermaid’, both of which are shrugged off in favour of the tryhard-edgy ‘blegh stockholm syndrome’ and ‘blegh change yourself to get your man’. Still, it’s a fan-favourite for a reason, and the endcard always makes me smile.)

I’m in a Disney Show!! (6 min) - Princey enthuses about the wonders of Disney, because Thomas is in a Disney show. He talks about what happened, while the Sides (mostly Logic) suggest clickbait titles in order to entice people to watch the video. (2/5 - L*gan P*ul is mentioned, as he was also in the episode.)

The Mind vs. The Heart (6 min) - Thomas finds himself split between following his mind, Logic, or his heart, Morality. Features onesies, and looks further into the characters of Logic and Dad Guy. (3/5 - Pretty calm and peaceful, to be honest. It’s nice.)

Then we move onto the second part of Season 1. This is when Thomas’s friend, Joan, began to offer their input into scriptwriting and directing. They’re most of the reason why Sanders Sides is an actual series, instead of being silly skit characters in short vlogs. From here on in, episodes become more complex, and work on an actual timeline.

Alone on Valentines Day (9 min) - Thomas is rather upset that he will be, as the title says, alone on Valentine’s Day. The Sides try to help him figure out how to get a date with an imaginary version of his friend Valerie, but each of them has a weirder way of going about it than the last. (4/5 - Far more cohesive than previous videos, but Thomas still wasn’t fully out as gay, so his hypothetical date is a woman. Yes, I took points off because of that. Yes, I’m about to erase the 3/5 to make it 4/5 because Valerie is a delight.)

Losing My Motivation (9 min) - When Thomas finds himself procrastinating, Logic takes it upon himself to find out which side is causing it. In order to get into a deductive mindset, Logic dresses up as Sherlock, while Dad Guy joins in as Watson. Once the case is solved, an important piece of information is revealed: the Sides have names. (Logic’s name is revealed) (3/5 - It’s just a fun little video, and I can’t keep giving every video from here on in 4/5, or that’ll ruin the whole thingy.)

Sanders Sides Q&A (9 min) - Exactly what it sounds like. There’s not much else to say. (2/5 - I love it, but it’s not really necessary to understand the whole series. It’s just extra characterisation.)

Am I Original? (12 min) - Thomas finds himself in a creative rut, trying to think of a completely original idea. Princey requests full creative control - “full-on Daydream Mode” - in order to rapidly consider and enact many different concepts, all while trying to make something that has never been seen before. (Princey’s name is revealed) (4/5 - Important characterisation for Princey. I originally rated it lower due to Thomas’s inability to rap, but upon rewatching, i found that the ending dialogue between Princey and Thomas was worth two points, rather than the single one I gave it previously.)

My Negative Thinking (13 min) - When Thomas messes up in an audition, his ego - Princey - is out of commission and being cared for by Dad Guy. Therefore, the only Sides available to aid him in this situation are Logic and Anxiety, neither of whom can help Thomas in the way he wants to. Anxiety is worsening Thomas’s mental state, so Logan proposes a debate in order to combat those cognitive distortions. (4/5 - A fan-favourite episode which offers a lot of insight into Logic and Anxiety as characters. It is useful as a tool for identifying cognitive distortions in real life, which may help with the individual’s mental health. Even though it introduces another running joke, it’s educational and fun, and it develops their relationship in a positive manner, I just don’t particularly enjoy it.)

Growing Up (15 min) - It’s Thomas’s birthday! He’s in his late twenties, and he’s still a kid at heart. He hasn’t done his laundry, he's silly and immature, and he feels like he isn’t at the point that he needs to be in his life. Therefore, all the Sides, except for Dad Guy, who ironically embodies Thomas’s inner child, work on trying to make him more mature. (Morality’s name is revealed) (3/5 - Features the concept of Voltron Shirt. I love this episode, but there is a noticeable change in audio quality at the end which affects how enjoyable it is.)

Making Some Changes (15 min) - Back in Thomas’s living room, and in opposition to his view from the last episode, Anxiety is worried about how life changes in unpredictable ways, and especially about losing contact with Thomas’s friends. Therefore, in order to keep Thomas’s friends permanently by his side, Princey gets them all to shapeshift. (3/5 - It might be skippable, but it’s just really, really fun.)

Becoming A Cartoon (10 min) - Adding to the whole urban fantasy thing, it turns out that animators can literally, physically turn people into cartoons. Thomas wants to be a cartoon. Princey catches Anxiety in his arms and says “everybody loves the villain,” and I think that’s all you need to know. (1/5 - Co-stars B*tch H*rtman, known for Fairly Odd Parents, Danny Phantom, and Being A Bigot, who did the character designs for the Sides, if not the actual animation. And the designs are kind of. Eh. Just watch some fanmade animatics.)

Accepting Anxiety (23 min) - Part 1: Excepting Anxiety (10 min), and Part 2: Can Anxiety Be Good? (14 min) - HOO. If the musical number or the animation didn’t clue you in, this video confirms that Sanders Sides is A Thing. Remember how Thomas hoped and dreamt to get rid of his Anxiety? Remember how he never redacted that statement, or even expressed a bit of remorse? Well, here, his wishes come true, and he doesn’t feel bad about it at all! That’s because he has absolutely no shame, caution, or fear of death. Yeah, he’s a mess. Therefore, the Sides make him take them on a magical quest to Anxiety’s Room, in order to un-mess-ify Thomas. (Anxiety’s name is revealed) (5/5 - The team really went above and beyond with this one. Like. Hoo. That’s it. Just. Hoo. Hoo. I’m an owl.)

And that’s Season 1!!! I’m going to add Season 2 in a reblog, because this has taken roughly three hours and it’s been really difficult to not spoil their names!!! which i did anyway because their names are all easier to type from muscle memory!!!

#helen stfu #asks #sanders sides tag da lee lay da lee loo #Anonymous

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sunkissed-honeycomb · 4 years

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This or That Tropes

I was tagged by @gottaenjoythelittlethingzz thanks for tagging! Ive never been tagged in anything like this, so im excited. I won't answer fully on all, its fine though.

Slow Burn or Love At First Sight

As much as I love the idea of love at first sight, slow burn makes a more interesting story. It also seems more realistic and less shallow in a way.

Fake Dating or Secret Dating

Secreting dating brings out some curiosity in me. Why are they hiding their relationship? Will their relationship forever remain private? Do they both want the relationship to be private? You can just do so much more with secret dating.

Enemies to Lovers or Best Friends to Lovers

Okay I admit it, I'm a sucker for enemies to lovers. Especially hero and villain romances that are full of drama and conflicted emotions on both sides.

“Oh no, there’s only one bed!” or Long-Distance with Correspondence

The long distance trope has more content. Not to say I don't love when there's only one bed, but the long distance could range from fluff, sadness, angst, and more depending on the characters.

Hurt/Comfort or Amnesia

I love love love hurt/comfort. I consider myself apart of the whump community and I have a blog that I use to fully dive into that community. I always thought I was a terrible person in the past because I would have these messed up daydreams about my characters. Seeing that many people write that actually helped me and made me feel less alone.

Fantasy AU or Modern AU

My main world isn't an AU, but for the most part its fantasy themed. I've had so much fun writing it, there aren't really boundaries (unless I put them in place). Im also a sucker for magic.

Mutual Pining or Domestic Bliss

I love both tropes, but I think that domestic bliss is just so wholesome and endearing.

Smut or Fluff

You can't make me choose. I love smut more than fluff, but I want both. Personally I don't write smut, I just read it. But I love fluff, it makes me roll around and giggle to myself like an idiot!

Canon Compliant With Missing Scene or Fix-it Fic

Alternate Universe or Future Fic

Alternate universes bring up so many possibilities.

One Shot or Multi-chapter

I rarely ever feel satisfied with one shots.

Kid Fic or Roadtrip

Reincarnation or Character Death

Everytime I read something with reincarnation, it has been so interesting. Funny I see this I have been working on a couple who is cursed. One with eternal life and the other with reincarnation. It wouldn't be so bad if the one that keeps getting reincarnated didn't die a day or two after regaining their memories and being aware of the curse. Those two are so interesting for me to write.

Arranged Marriage or Accidental Marriage

I actually worked with a few ocs who accidentally got married and I love it. Its so random and who knows if it works out or not.

High School Romance or Middle Aged Romance

I remember back in middle school I thought the high school romance trope was so cute, it still is but its repetitive. Now I find older romances more fun because they can come from anywhere under any circumstances.

Time Travel or Isolated Together

In time travel the smallest thing could cause a huge problem in the world and I don't see the fun in that. Though if it doesn't work like that, then I think it would be interesting, especially for showing the past.

Neighbors or Roommates

Roommates are more common, though neighbors would be cute too.

Sci-fi AU or Magic AU

Have I mentioned how much I love magic? Theres just so much you can do with it!

Bodyswap or Genderbend

Angst or Crack

I love angst to an extent, I feel some authors go too far. Thats just me though.

Apocalyptic or Mundane

I tag @smileyseanbean and literally anyone who wants to do it because I don't know many blogs lmao

#questions #question tag #tag games #writing tropes #a bit of a ramble #writer #if anyone wants to #tag me in things #go ahead #especially oc asks #or world asks #thanks for tagging me!

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The Princess Diaries 8/10

So with this movie there were three main things that my thought fell into: Josh Bryant, The choice, and overall thoughts and feelings.

Josh Bryant

A less important part of the movie, but I just wanted to touch on it because of its mirror image in my life. I was an unpopular kid in elementary up through high school. I’ve had my friend groups who we kind and loved me, but especially in middle school I was not someone popular. I was loud, passionate, and had a poor understanding of inherit social boundaries. For this I was an unpopular kid and I was often deemed annoying, which is understanding, but still hurt. I despised the popular kids because I was convinced that they were all lying about who they were just to fit in, and let the line between movies and my life blur. I can’t speak to what those peoples lives were like, maybe they were lying, or maybe they just got along with lots of people really well. Or maybe that simplicity was who they were, without cutting parts of them off, like I felt I had to. But I didn’t just hate these kids, I still wanted to be friends with them, wanted to date them, even wanted to be popular like them. So I often found them in my daydreams and fantasies. Kids like Josh Bryant were frequent in my dreams. I wanted them to realize that I was someone to love, someone who had value, some to kiss dreamily under the umbrella we were sharing in the rain. The trope displayed in this movie of popular kids being shallow, self centered, heartless barbie dolls is what fed my hate from them, and my shame for wanting their validation. I despise Josh Bryant for what he did to Mia, kissing her when she was obviously uncomfortable just for his 15 minutes in the lime line is gross and lame. He could have been better while Mia still ended up with Michale. I understand and love the idea of Michale noticing her when she was invisible, and that's why they should end up together, but that doesn’t mean Josh has to hurt her for her to figure that out.

The choice

I loved the ending of the movie. I had sat down and figured that Mia would end up renouncing her position as princess in hopes of living a private, simple life like most main characters in these kinds of movies do, but she turned that down for the right reason. If it had been me, to be honest with you, I would have accepted right away. Initially, just so I could make all those preppy cheerleaders kiss the ground I walked on. Eventually as soon as I calmed down, I would have been in it for the same reason Mia chose to stay, for the people. Mia took on the privacy free life of princess and eventual queen so that she could use her influence to help billions of people across the world. I think it was definitely easier for her since she had an out and the freedom to make the right choice for her, as well as assurance that the man she loved loved her for the right reasons and not just to get his claim to fame (looking at you Josh). But truly it's because she had Lily, someone normal to remind her of how much this position could achieve, and the people it could help. I think this can be a wonderful message for people with privilege and power. Stop spending time claiming you’re not as influential as you are, and spend more time using that influence to boost others who need help, and share your platform with those who have none.

Overall

There were a lot of fun little moments in the movie that made it great. The queen having fun in San Francisco, and subsequently tricking those cops into letting Mia go really humanized and made her more lovable. The scene where Mia stands in front of her mirror just making faces, and the next where she slides her hatch open and closed repeatedly had me giggling the whole time. Sandra Oh’s entire time on screen was a masterpiece. I love her so much, she manages to make every role funny and charming even when she's working on something serious and complex like Killing Eve, which by the way is amazing. Do concider watching, especially if you’re a lesbian. Joe was a wonderful character as well. Reminding the queen that she is also Mia’s grandmother, his romantic dancing and comments towards the queen. As well as, his wholesome protection of Mia made my heart sing. I think this movie is wonderful, has a great message, and overall is very fun to watch!

#princessdiaries #the princess diaries #long post

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howdy y’all ! lilac’s the name, writing trashlord character’s the game. i hail from a lil island known as australia... so in essence, i am never gonna be online at the same time as anyone else dkjfghdkfjgd. but !! don’t let this deter you. like a lil ol’ boomerang i’ll eventually find my way into your dms and hopefully we can plot/write with all your incredible muses. <3 a lil info about me though, i’m a tea connoisseur, sims enthusiast, and i talk daily about how i consider the barbie films cinematic masterpieces. if i haven’t scared you off and you’d like to get to know my sweet and memey tough boi, please press that readmore to complete your transaction.

⌠LUKE HEMMINGS, TWENTY ONE, CISMALE, HE/HIM⌡ welcome back to gallagher academy, BLUE HAWTHORNE! according to their records, they’re a THIRD year, specializing in AWARENESS TRAINING, BREATH CONTROL, HAND TO HAND COMBAT + COVERT OPERATIONS (CP); and they DID NOT go to a spy prep high school. when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of (a smiley face traced into the precipitation on a mirror after a long and warm shower, a constellation of bruises strewn across your body, impatient foot tapping in the hallows of detention, chopsticks fashioned into walrus tusks over a meal, climbing higher and higher with no sign of stopping). when it’s the (aquarius)’s birthday on 2/13/1998, they always request their CHEESY NACHOS WITH EXTRA GUAC from the school’s chefs. looks like they’re well on their way to graduation.

( PERSONALITY ! )

( for more details about blue, check out his stats & hcs here ! )

he is playful, jocular, impulsive, and honestly? immature lmao. he is honestly a Soft Jock™

he’s always been looking for the childhood he never got to have, y’know? he does this in the way he’s always cracking jokes, a bit of a class clown, disruptive. a wholesome prank or two.

he gets in trouble in school more than his fair share, simply for daydreaming or sneaking out. he doesn’t let the institution define him, but he can take orders when needed. he can be very loyal tho, and much like eggsy in kingsmen, if someone asked him to choose between his dog or orders ?? he’s always choosing the dog kdjgf

he is secretly very insecure and always has a need to please. if someone doesn’t like him, he’ll tear himself apart to figure out why.

he’s always telling jokes and always laughing. he’s known for his Memes and is always a good time to be around. social butterfly, gregarious. chances are if you don’t know him, you’ve heard him dkfgjdf

he’s also a bit Anti-( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ( sex lmao ) because ya boi has commitment issues so high they’re floating out there in space

he can also be very maternal when the need arises. he is not good at talking about emotions but he’ll give you a meme or a hug to Heal You

he very much reminds me of the human embodiment of a puppy. cannot be alone for very long, has a short attention span, and craves validation lmfao. give him a squeaky toy and he will be Contented

as a soon-to-be spy he can be Tough in the field when he needs to be but he’s also v sensitive. most see him as a macho, just genuinely happy kinda dude but, he truly feels a lot. he won’t let you know that, though.

he struggles academically as he has a short attention span most of the time and thinks too little of himself. however, he’s a lot brighter than most people give him credit for. he’s incredibly creative and a lateral thinker. maths makes him want to die, tho. he does shine in physical trials at least, which is something !

also what’s money? blue does not know. he grew up with hardly anything, and has been working since he could. for this reason he’s quite frugal and struggles to throw things away.

blue’s troubled past ( explained below ) is something he doesn’t acknowledge, and not a lot of people know about. to many, he’s known as the local Meme Dealer. but to a lucky few, he’s known as a friend who would do anything for you.

most just know him as the moron named after a colour tho. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

( HISTORY ! ) - tw: illness/cancer, death, substance ( alcohol / drugs ) & depression.

blue hawthorne, who never goes by his birthname bc he hates it dfkjgdgdf, was born in the town of sparks, nevada !

it was always just blue and his mother, margarette. he never met his father and he was gone long before blue’s mother could even tell him about a pregnancy test. cut off from her family due to having a child out of wedlock, the pair started a life for themselves. all they had was a humble abode in a trailer park. material possessions were lacking, but blue never felt like he went without.

blue’s mother was by very definition blue’s best friend. they both shared a love of music and ballet, and margarette worked as many jobs as she could to allow for her son to take lessons. starting quite young, at the age of four or five, blue was actually quite good. the usually mischievous and erratic child found structure in the discipline, and it was the thing that brought him the most happiness.

as a child blue was often teased for his interest, and the fact that he was so close with his mother. despite being incredibly short and frail at the time, he was also very outspoken and strong-willed, and never let his peers get the best of him. he danced, he laughed, he bruised his knees at any given opportunity. made a lot of mistakes. what he lacked in possessions he gained in the abundance of joy he felt in his heart growing up. his mother and a few of his close friends were his world.

when blue turned fifteen, everything changed.

( illness / cancer tw ) the jubilant, mischievous, but altogether kind-hearted boy was given the heart-breaking news that his mother had been diagnosed with cancer. margarette hawthorne, much like her son, was a fighter - and didn’t let such a diagnosis keep her down. despite their dwindling lack of funds now going towards medical bills, and the fact blue began sacrificing his own childhood as he took to the role of a caretaker of sorts for his mother, he never took his time with her for granted.

things were okay for a while. there was a point where the doctors were convinced that she was going to make it. blue was a fool. blue believed them.

at the age of sixteen, blue lost everything. he lost his place to live, he lost his childhood and lust for life, and he lost the person he loved most in the world. he lost his best friend.

it wasn’t long before the overbearing sympathy from those around him soured blue. he was sick of being bullied, people not liking him, and altogether not being in control of his own life. most of all, he felt so hopeless as his best friend in the entire world was starting to fade. so what did this boy do ? he quit ballet (the thing he’d loved since he was able to stand), he started drinking, he got involved with a very bad crowd and became a frequenter of the local police station. blue became a certified Bad Boy™

blue was sent to live with the grandparents that despised him and never acknowledged his existence before that moment, having met them at his mother’s funeral. righteous and conservative in their views, they had cast aside their daughter when she had blue, and only reached out to her in her final months. for this reason, blue despised these people (he refused to call them family). he tried his best to be appreciative of a house and food ( which was much better than anything he had growing up ). but he was cold. always cold.

( substance tw ) in his latter adolescence, blue fell into a rapid succession of bad decisions. still small, still frail in stature, he found himself at a dissonance with his image and began growing insecure about his looks, the years of torment weighing on him. he found anesthetic in the party scene outside of school, taking to alcohol and drugs as a sedative from the life he felt forced to lead. he couldn’t decide if he hated himself or he hated the world more.

at the age of 17, his rap sheet seemed to grow with each rise and fall of the sun. he was hardly ever ‘home’ and couch surfed. at the age of 17 he’d gotten his own car and lived more out of that than the stuffy house on top of the hill where he was supposed to be. his grades were debris lost in his tumultuous storm, he was always looking for validation from the kids he hung around with and made some very poor decisions in the hopes he’d be liked. in the hopes he’d find a new family.

the partying, the stream of hook ups, his criminal record (mainly with petty theft, a few write ups for public intoxication and fighting), the instability of his living situation and his future all came to boil just before he turned 18. physically he’d started to fill out, and look more like the man people know today. he was no longer frail and no longer weak, and when asked, he used to his fists to forge that path he thought he wanted.

after a dark night, it became apparent to blue that his path of self destruction was hurting no one but himself. things had to change.

through nothing short than a McMiracle (sponsored by Ronald McDonald, bc no one else is rich enough to pull it off lmfao) blue managed to scrape by and complete high school. not well by any means. but he did it.

it was about now that blue had been informed of a small school called blackthorne academy. details were scarce, but what drew the blond’s attention was the tuition ( or lack thereof ). his acceptance cited his physical capabilities as seen through his many years of dance and explained why he was of particular interest to the school. he was suspicious, to say the least. but blue knew he wanted to become something, and to go to this school would not only take him away from a life he wanted to forget, but he would become self sufficient, and be able to leave his toxic family situation on his own terms.

bidding farewell to the grandparents he was only beginning to know, his grandfather saw no reason to extend her kindnesses, and cut blue off. at the age of 18 he was homeless, with nothing but a car and a handful of pokemon cards he’d had as a kid. not worth anything or even particularly sentimental, he just likes pokemon kgfjfd.

living in his car for a while before eventually crashing with a close friend, blue managed to absorb his days in work before eventually starting his tenure at blackthorne. although blue’s wild days are behind him, there are some things locked in his past that still haunt him. there are doors he never hopes to open again. but he got his fresh start, and is determined to live the life a young blue would have wanted for him, and one his mother could be proud of. and who knows, maybe he could go on and save the world.

( WANTED CONNECTIONS ! )

all of these are absolute trash, and i much prefer plotting with specific characters in mind to cater it to our muses and make it unique to them. (~: but i do have a few wanted connections here as a starting off point !! if any of them really call to you though, please let me know as i would adore to have anything listed !! with that in mind, i wanted to include a sample of a few of the connects on the page here to make things a lil easier.

— *. ; ( co-workers ) || this connection is a little up in the air as i understand that students aren’t allowed to leave campus without staff supervision, and tuition isn’t awfully high if you can’t afford it ! however, blue has no money, and if at all possible he would try and get some sort of job whilst at blackthorne/gallaghers. whether that be doing odd jobs as part of his covert ops classes, or even working for the campus doing things like lawn maintenance, working in the stables, or literally anything that was open ! ( his ‘job’ could even be bringing in dkfjgdf some sorts of contraband to sell to other students, lmfao. nothing illegal, just stuff you can’t get on campus ). this connection is meant for any muses that may also be employed, or want them to be, and these two could be co-workers ! with an admin blessing we can figure out what is logistically possible within the plot, and if your muse already has a job i’d be very interested to have blue be a coworker if you were at all interested !! <3

— *. ; ( protector ) || there are two things blue hates most in this world: liars, and bullies. as an older ( and arguably large ) student, he comes to find someone who is going through a rough time assimilating to life at the academy for whatever reason. on the surface neither of them have anything in common, but the pair form a sibling like bond, and blue is willing to do anything to protect their friend.

— *. ; ( aggressor ) || blue is very mild mannered for the most part, save for any jokes he likes to make. however, there is someone on campus who absolutely makes his blood boil. whether this person dislikes blue for his lack of wealth and sophistication, his inherent need to never pick sides, or his immediate abandonment of respect for blackthorne once the truth came to light. or perhaps he made a joke in their early days that rubbed this person the wrong way, and a toxic environment has persisted since then. i imagine this relationship has escalated to violence, and for whoever picks this up i’d really love to delve into their hatred and flesh out their angst !

there are plenty more connects on the page and like i said, i am literally happy to plot anything under the sun. (~:

thank you so much for reading ! if you made it all the way here ?? you’re a h*cking legend lmfao. if there’s anything here that stood out to you please hit me up either on tumblr dms or via discord ( my user is lilac 🍕#1835, or kjgdgdf the person with the crying squidward icon in the gc lmfao ). as there are quite a lot of members here, please like this here intro if you are interesting in plotting/writing with me so i know !! i’ll check out your beautiful intro and Throw (or rather, gently pass you) some ideas your way if you haven’t messaged me first. <3 but thank you so much again for making it to this point, here’s a proverbial cookie for your troubles. it’s double choc chip, enjoy it. (~:

#gallagher:intro #this was... so long aND IM SO SORRY #thank y'all for all being literal angels and making me feel so welcome (':#( ooc ; i have the power of god & anime on my side ! )

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unnaturalequilibrium · 6 years

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five fave Vanity scenes (for now)

#2) “Cheeky Mare”

I love this because I've never seen this before. It's domestic as heel, but a little cheeky. Fluff, wholesome and PG13, but plays at an intimacy that – I haven't really seen before. It is fanfic, I think, and I don't mean the kind that makes you blush from looking at a mango. No, it is soft and has a sexual undertone, but it doesn't come across as titillating or trying too hard. I'm trying to analyse why that is, because I can't seem to simply point at this one thing and go “this is why it's different”. But at the core of it I think it's about how it's not sold off the bat as something hot. It doesn't feel over-sexualised which as these things go seem to be the norm. Lets not pretend any mainstream show does affection between women without having the male gaze front and centre. It's not for us, it never was. So I'm trying to figure out why this feels like it is for me. Is it such a simple thing as a bias? I don't think so, because I can look at a lot of other things that I ship and recognise it for what it is, but still loving it. This though does feel like a fanfic. And if you generalise a bit the one thing that does differentiate a fanfic from canon is its audience. A fanfic, or at least the kind I read, have never felt like it was meant for anyone other than gay and bi women. It doesn't pretend to want to include a mainstream. It knows its audience and writes specifically for it, it writes romance and love in a shape that’s almost always excluded by a mainstream. And that's how this scene feels. I feel like I am at home, like it’s a kind or romance that can rush my heart, like I am the intended audience despite it existing in the middle of straight culture. I don't know. Does any of this make sense? Is it just me?

I'm not just in it for the feel though, because content of this scene is pretty spectacular to. Seeing the domestic side of these two make me happy. Honestly, sometimes all you need is for your ship to fret over their children and share sweet morning kisses while making toast. Especially when you've got other stuff to compare to, the progress from running out on someone in bed or walks of shames to now having breakfast together the next day and happily lingering in each other's presences, that's noticeable. Plus with dialogue where, Charity of all people, bring up the idea of “isn't that what you love about me?”. Like a month earlier this woman balked at and ran away at the potential of being Vanessa's girlfriend and now she's fishing for the l word?! I'm pretty sure that's what they refer to as both character and relationship development.

It's glorious, and that's before you even take into account Charity's subsequent chat with Noah, where she literally says that Vanessa is different. It's straight up canon, no loopholes. Vanessa is different to Charity's previous spouses and lovers. And I mean...like...where do you go from there? That's pretty much it. It's a soap so there are no forevers, there's no til death do us part that will not end in sudden death or cheating. The closest a soap will ever come to a happy ending is through a massage therapy/trafficking storyline. But that line of hers, the “Vanessa's different” sets this damn couple aside from the rest in a way that's...I just don't know what to do with it. But it's managed to paint these two into a corner from which it's going to be very hard for the writers to make whatever comes next feel relevant or real if/when they decide to move on.

Besides that, that line of Charity's though, it's also seriously depressing. Because the full extent of it is, “Vanessa's different – I trust her”. And let that stew in your mind and then have a good cry about Charity's love life. The fact that Vanessa is the first partner and lover whom she trusts is so fucking twisted and dark it gives me nightmares and chest pains. It’s makes my soul want to make like suicidal Humpty Dumpty and take a swan dive off the wall.

Personally I am also a huge fan of Noah not taking a liking to Vanessa and instead being actively rude towards her. To me that adds that perfect kind of drama and angst which I prefer, the kind that's external. The kind where the couple is solid and strong, you never doubt how they feel about each other, instead you have to watch them struggle and deal with external factors. It has an impact on how they have to behave, but it never has an impact on how they feel for one another. It's an obstacle to overcome as a couple and not a wedge between them. And that's the sign of good quality relationship drama. It's something that actually requires a bit of work from the writer, but ultimately when done with care will pack a serious wallop and make sure it's a story that will actually be imprinted in you as an OTP, in the old school meaning. The kind you fifteen years from now will still randomly remember when you zone out on the Monday morning commute, scaring the lady next to you as you mumble, “gaahhh, that was good!”.

Cherry on top though is the same shit that make all of their scenes work, details and chemistry. The chin on shoulder, the little self-conscious gestures they both do when they're “caught” kissing, Vanessa's little interrupted cheek cradle/caress when she checks her affection in front of Noah. The way it flows so effortless with intimacy and flirtatious affection. All those little things they breathe into it that make this fictional relationship come to life. It's a decidedly plump and juicy cherry on top.

All of that put together and this scene is truly spectacular, I still don't get that it's an actual real thing that exists, and not just something I read in a book or daydreamed up during an especially boring Thursday meeting.

#charity x vanessa #vanessa x charity #charity dingle #vanessa woodfield #vanity #emmerdale #five fave vanity #finally had some actual spare time to continue this

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breakmyreddieheart · 6 years

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(Please Don’t) Say Anything - Ch4

++ Accompanying Playlist ++

Summary: It’s the last days of high school and the Losers are soon to be leaving for university, moving to different parts of the country. Richie is trying to figure out how to tell Eddie how he feels about him, but only ends up making things worse and needs to figure out how to apologize. Bev has a cunning plan, and Richie Tozier gets extra…

Setting: Derry, ME - the summer of 1995

Pairings: Reddie (main), Stenborough (on the side) also Bev is dating a girl and Ben and Mike are just wholesome individuals right now

Words: 1.8k

Warnings: dumb fighting? overbearing mother?

A/N: This was a pain to write but I hope it reads okay! I knew I wanted to get from point A to point B with this one, but I hope it was a believable thing? Have a read and let me know!

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Eddie took the long way home; the way that took him around the centre of town, past the barrens and down through the train yard. He needed the fresh air. He needed time to think. He needed to talk to Richie.

The pounding in his head had subsided a little, but every time he tried to think of the words he might say, a fresh wave of tension would flash over his temples. He resolved to sleep on it and figure it all out in the morning. “No problem a good nights sleep won’t fix up some” his father used to say to him. He wished it was that simple.

Walking down the tracks of the train yard he thought back to when he would come here as a boy; before the Losers had started hanging out; before he had gotten so close to Richie. He smiled to himself as he thought of the first time that Richie had come too. Until then it had been his private place - the place he came to daydream and listen to the music from the nearby gospel church - but Richie had followed him home one day, insisting that they read the new Fantastic Four comic together. They had run the tracks pretending to be heroes and villains; Richie had voices for all the characters, but the terrible Eastern-European accent he gave Dr. Doom had Eddie in stitches.

From that day on it had become their place.

They’d hide in train cars and read comics together, throw food out for the seagulls and daydream about hopping a train South and running away together. One day a passing train conductor had waved to them and Richie had flipped him off, causing Eddie to hide and pretend he wasn’t with him.

Good chucks, Eddie thought to himself.

He supposed that if he were a more optimistic person, he would have interpreted Richie’s interest as romantic. But he knew better. Richie was quick-witted and impulsive; if he liked Eddie as anything more than a friend he wouldn’t have been able to keep his mouth shut. Besides, Eddie could have sworn Richie would linger a little too long on the comic book pages where Susan Storm was looking particularly busty.

Walking down Neibolt Street, a chill ran down his spine. His pace quickened as he passed a house on the left which he couldn’t bring himself to look at - the house where he’d broken his arm that summer so long ago. The details were fuzzy now, but the thought of that house made him sick to his stomach.

I’ll blow you for free!

He shook his head at the thought and broke into a light jog despite the tightening in his chest. He just wanted to get home.

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“And what time do you call this?” Sonia’s shrill voice rang from the front room the moment Eddie set foot in the house.

“Sorry mom” he called absently as he made his way directly upstairs, ignoring his mother’s ranting.

“I don’t like this new attitude you’ve gotten, young man, you’ve been spending too much time with that Tozier boy!” she called up the stairs, but Eddie was in his room, door shut before she could finish.

He flopped back on the bed and lay for a second before jumping clean out of his skin at the sound of Richie’s voice.

“Not enough time with that charming young Tozier boy if you ask me” he rang in a shrill imitation of Mrs Kaspbrak.

“FUCKING--” Eddie screamed before Richie put a hand over his mouth.

“Shh! Shhhhh... As much as I like getting Mrs. K hot under the collar, it’s probably best if we don’t alert her to my presence” he smirked, releasing his hand and pinching Eddie’s cheek.

“What the fuck are you doing in my room?” Eddie hissed, batting Richie’s hand away.

“Cinderella left the ball so soon, and I haven’t had my fill of Spaghetti for the evening” Richie grinned, though something in his expression seemed tense.

“Richie, I left cause I’m tired and just want to go to bed” Eddie exhaled, looking at the floor rather than Richie.

“Oh, ok...” Richie said rubbing the back of his head. He was flustered - something Eddie rarely saw. “Can... is it alright if I stay? I don’t really wanna go home yet...”

Eddie looked up to see a glassy expression on Richie’s face. He wanted to ask what was wrong, what was going on at home. He wanted to bury his face in Richie’s chest and hold him. He wanted him to not look at him like that.

“Sure, sure thing Richie,” he said softly, getting up to fetch some spare pajamas and blankets from the closet. This wasn’t the first time Richie had stayed over; sometimes they’d study late and Eddie would make up a blanket bed on the floor. He kept some sweatpants an old shirt that Richie had left one time since his pajamas were too small for Richie, but even those were getting too small for him now.

They got ready for bed in silence, the air thick with unspoken words. Both boys had things they wanted to talk about, but felt constricted by nerves. Lying back in bed, Eddie turned his bedside lamp off, hearing Richie shift uncomfortably on the floor.

“Eds--”

“Richie--” they both spoke in unison.

“No, you first...”

“Oh...I was just gonna ask - and can you please not mention my mother - what are your plans for college? Honestly?”

Richie was silent for a long minute - something that concerned Eddie more than any joke he could make.

“Honestly? I have no idea.” Richie said after a while.

Eddie sat bolt upright and turned his lamp on, leaning over so he could see Richie. He still had his glasses on which meant he wasn’t even trying to get to sleep.

“No idea? How can you not know!? You should have applied places by now, you’ve at least applied, right?” he blustered.

“Nope,” Richie said, matter-of-factly.

Eddie paused in disbelief. He had mentally prepared himself for the idea of Richie moving to New York, but this outcome he was not prepared for.

“Wh...what are you gonna do then?”

“...well I’m not allowed to bring your mom into this, so...”

“Fucks sake, Richie!” Eddie huffed, throwing his hands up in disbelief. “Do you really have to make a joke about everything? I just wanted to have a serious conversation with you for once!”

“Well it’s better than the alternative,” Richie spoke sternly. This was a voice Eddie hadn’t heard before. “Maybe some of us don’t get to leave, Eddie. Maybe some of us don’t have our whole lives mapped out already.” There was a harshness in his tone that Eddie didn’t like. “Maybe some of us don’t have parents who are just gonna throw money at our education, Eds. Did you think about that?”

“Richie...” Eddie spoke but Richie cut him off.

“Can it, Eddie, you don’t get to ignore me all evening and then start grilling me about shit I clearly don’t want to talk about!” Richie was standing now, slipping his boots on.

“So you’re leaving?” Eddie said with a touch of sass.

“Yeah, I can’t do this right now, Eds. There’s too much...it’s too much...I come here to get away from this shit, you know?”

“Richie, talk to me. That’s all I’m asking. Why is that so hard?”

“Yeah? Well, I’m asking you to shut the fuck up, think you could manage that?” Richie spat, regretting it almost instantly. Eddie clenched his jaw in shock at how Richie was speaking to him.

They were both standing now, eyes locked in fuming silence. Angry tears burned in both their eyes as they fumbled for the words they needed to say, finding nothing.

“See ya, Eds,” Richie said, turning towards the open window he came in through.

“Oh, walk away then. That’ll solve everything!” Eddie bit.

“Whatever.”

“No! You don’t get to just come and go from my house whenever you feel like it, Rich!” but he was already out the window. “Fine! Fuck off then, see what I care!”

Eddie slammed the window shut and threw himself on his bed, tears flowing freely now. He felt a wave of nausea come over him, followed by an intense feeling in his chest that he couldn’t place. Panicking, he fumbled in his bedside drawer for his old aspirator. Placing it shakingly in his mouth he pulled the trigger and felt the sensation wash down his throat, easing his breathing some. But it didn’t help like he hoped it would, there’s no medicine for heartache.

Stupid. Stupid stupid stupid! he repeated to himself. Why had it gotten so heated? Why couldn’t they just talk? Why--

His thoughts were interrupted by a sharp knock on his door.

“Eddie, what is going on in there? What’s all that banging?”

His mother entered without waiting for a response.

“Eddie are you--” she paused as she saw the tears on Eddie’s reddened face and the aspirator in his hands. “Eddie is your asthma back!?”

“Mom, no--”

“I’ll have to call Dr. Adams first thing tomorrow and book you an appointment. You should have told me sooner! I know you don’t want me fussing but if you’re not going to look after yourself then I’m not going to just stand back and let you get hurt. You think you know what’s best for you but I’m your mother, and I know what’s best--”

Eddie placed his face in his hands as his mother continued on her rant. This was all he needed.

“Eddie.” Sonia spoke sternly, prompting Eddie to look up. He saw where she was looking and his breath caught in his throat. “Why is there a bed on the floor?”

“I...um...” Eddie fumbled for a lie, something he’d never been very good at with his mother, especially when she stared at him so sharply.

“Was he here? Did you sneak him into my house? Did he do this to you?” Her voice got shriller by the sentence. “I’ve told you time and time again that boy is no good. Honestly, Eddie! I feel like you don’t listen to me at all!”

And he wasn’t listening. Not really. He stared at the window and wished he could take the last day back.

It was going to be a long night.

- End of Chapter 4 -

A/N: Jeeze, Scoob. That was a challenge to write! Especially since I hate confrontation. I know they’re both overreacting and dumb, but hang in there it’ll get better. Maybe not next chapter... but we’ll get there. Also, watch out for Mrs. K, she’s not done being a pain just yet!

Send me a message if you want to be on the tag list for Chapter 5!

#reddie #reddie au #reddie fic #richie x eddie #eddie x richie

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queenieships · 6 years

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Questions 1-14 for the most recent one your reblogged!

Thank you for asking! Sorry it took a while lmao I got super lazy and distracted with it. Gonna put some of it under a readmore because it got particularly long!

1. When did youstart self shipping and why?

I mean I officiallystarted this blog I think… middle of last year? I can’t quiteremember the date off the top of my head but it’s been a while.However, I’ve been selfshipping for a very long time, justmentally! I kind of did that whole “Creating Ocs to ship withcharacters I liked and oh no those Ocs definitely aren’t based onme at all aha nope…”

2. How long have youbeen self shipping?

I think I’ve beenself shipping from a very young age! I remember being in primaryschool and being absolutely in love with Tasuki from Fushigi Yuugiand Axel from Kingdom Hearts (had a thing for red heads and fireapparently?) I genuinely must’ve been as young as 8, give or take ayear or two, so I’ve been self shipping and self inserting most ofmy life!

3. Why do you selfship now?

I mean… it’sfun! And I mean, I fall in love with fictional characters withouteven meaning to. I just become very attached to them to the point Ican’t help but imagine myself with them! It’s also been a thingI’ve done for a very long time, a hobby, a habit, a copingmechanism – as a very creative but also very lonely child I thinkit was a huge way for me to feel like I was getting GOOD attentionfor once. I guess that’s kind of extended to adulthood. In ways aswell it helps me deal with some unhealthy situations I’ve had inthe past and it’s a way for me to explore and take interest intoxic and unhealthy ships in a safe and fictional environment. It’shelped me a lot improving with my art and honestly I officiallyjoined the self ship community because I was very lonely and had…NO FRIENDS.

4. Which of yourself insert characters is the most developed?

Probably myborderlands insert or my Newsies insert! I haven’t been toomassively focused on any other ship to develop my insert in thatuniverse very much and SOME of the universes I self insert in arequite difficult and elaborate when it comes to making characters forit (like in HxH)

5. Are your selfinsert characters 100% you or are they an exaggerated version ofyourself/leaning toward an OC?

I think it dependson the universe. Though I would say they’re exaggerated examples ofmyself, ideal versions or particularly troubled versions – All ofmy self insert characters look like me and have the same name and toa degree share my interests and talents – though I’ve also giventhem talents that I admire and really wish I had (such as singing,baking and sewing.)

6. If your selfinserts are closer to OCs what are some similarities they have withyou? What are some differences?

Lmao whoops guess Ikind of explained this in the one above? I guess something I like todo is depending on the universe I self ship in, I kind of pick a partof my personality that is a focus of that character. (For example, myNewsies insert is mostly centred around my social beliefs, mydepression and toxic relationship with my family and to a degree myfeeling of superiority. I’m actually very working class but you’llnotice most of my inserts are either very well off OR from thenicest, cleanest place in that universe they can be from – mynewsies insert is from a very wealthy family and my borderlandsinsert is from Helios.)

7. Do you have a‘type’ when it comes to f/os?

Yes but my type haschanged and shifted over time. There are definitely things I likethat kind of resonate throughout all of my F/Os. For example, almostall of my F/Os are confident to a fault. Most of them are also verymasculine, with a few exceptions. A character type I LOVE is therough delinquent with a heart of gold! (Seen in characters likeMondo, Metal Bat and Knuckle.) I also like perverted characters orones that show a lot of interest in women during the show/gamethey’re in (Examples being Scooter, Lance and Leorio.) I also seemto like people who have manual labour jobs or jobs that require themto be quite strong and get quite dirty and occassionaly kinda bruisedup (Examples being Scooter, Metal Bat, Scout, Hunk and Ellis who isnot yet on my F/O list but will be soon! A character I used to selfship with is Little Mac because I loved the idea of seeing him allsweaty and bruised up after a figh aha,,,)

8. Your top 3 OTPsamong your own selfships?

1. Me and Scooter!He is the problematic love of my life.

2. Me and Davey –although my focus has shifted dramatically from Davey to Scooter Istill definitely love this boy a lot

3. THIS IS SUCH ADIFFICULT PICK because honestly Scooter and Davey are and almostalways will be my top 2 BUT– my level of interest in my other F/Osshifts around so much? I’m even considering adding new F/Os thatI’ve become interested in recently, like… Mondo and Scout are thecharacters on the list I’ve shipped with for the longest but… Ithink maybe Leorio? I’ve always thought of Leorio and I as a reallygood couple, we’re so physically different and our personalitiesare such a good mix of getting along and clashing and I just!! idk Ithink number 3 is Leorio!!

9. Your top 5 OTPsamong others in the community?

@smoochesforseven and everyone she ships with. I love Moon so much and all of her shipsare wonderful though there is a soft spot for her and Newt!!

@better-than-nothin-kay and Rhys! We’ve spoken so much about borderlands and about her shipand honestly I love the female bodyguard dynamic it’s really cuteand they would physically look so good together!

@millizines andEarnest – I think this is like, the most undisputed OTP in thecommunity. I have never seen someone be so dedicated to their F/O andthey’re so genuinely in love with one another and have such aunique relationship!!

@momomochaccino andSandy (and spongebob!) – Seeing Momo so happy recently has beenamazing and witnessing what a positive impact the spongebob musicaland show has been for her is amazing!!

@peachie-doodles andLeonardo! Honestly seeing TMNT stuff on my dash makes me SO HAPPY andLeonardo has always been the one turtle I never really felt aconnection with BUT seeing someone so in love with him andappreciating him makes me really happy and makes me appreciate himmore as well! (also after speaking with her I realised that, althoughRaphael usually draws my attention because he’s big n buff andrough and tough but a total softy which FITS MY TYPE — Mikey isactually… my fucking boy?? I went around ready some fics andwatching some clips and like, damn. I really love Michaelangelo nowlmao, considering adding him as an F/O!!)

10. Has a roleplayblog for one of your f/os every interacted with you?

Lmao no. Honestly Iwould sob if that ever happened to me and I’ve seen other peoplegetting RP anons regularly in their asks and honestly I… reallywant it aha? I used to RP self ship stuff with a friend, where Iwould write as myself and the character she shipped with, and shewould play herself and the character I shipped with and!! it was!!great!! I would die to find something like that again.

11. Are you anartist or a writer in the community? Or do you do something elseentirely?

Um, both I guess! Iby no means think I’m a good artist but self shipping has reallyhelped me improve in a lot of areas. I highkey hate my style and atsome point I want to dedicate some time into developing it intosomething I can actually enjoy looking at. As for my writing, I’vealways been a talented writer – especially a few years ago. I waswriting frequently and everything I wrote was lowkey incredible.Nowadays, my writing is so few and far between and I am so stronglyout of practice it hurts and I feel almost embarrassed readingthrough any new fic I write. I’m hoping with time I can build myskills and confidence back up again!

12. Name a few ofyour favorite things about self shipping.

Honestly, myfavourite thing about self shipping is that I can feel like I havecompany regardless of how alone I actually am. Countless days spentby myself in my room and during lunchtimes back when I was at schoolcould be spent daydreaming about being loved and having adventureswith characters I enjoy! I always daydream a lot before I fallasleep, usually about cuddling up and spending the evening with oneof my F/Os before I fall alseep. Honestly without selfshipping Idon’t know what I’d do with my time. It’s such a huge thingthat fills up my day to day life and makes me happy, I genuinelydon’t think I’d still be here without it.

13. Talk about apositive experience you’ve had with the community.

Honestly this iskind of hard for me lmao? I wouldn’t say I’ve had many hugelypositive or many hugely negative experiences overall. There arepeople I’ve found I get along with, there are some people that rubme the wrong way, there are some people I just haven’t spoken to! Ihaven’t really received any hate apart from someone being a dickabout my aesthetic commissions but I don’t really receive theattention I would like to either (is that bratty and selfish?Probably! But at least I’m honest about it lmao.)

14. Finally, talkabout a few of your favorite self shippers!! (Honestly, talk about asmany as you would like!)

I don’t reallylike doing this because I’m afraid I’ll miss someone off andthey’ll feel sad about it or something BUT HERE’S A LIST OF PEEPSI SPEAK TO OFTEN AND CARE ABOUT AND TREASURE (note just becauseyou’re not on this list it doesn’t mean I don’t like you ordon’t enjoy your content! Just means this people I am particularlyclose with.)

@smoochesforseven

@better-than-nothin-kay

@millizines

@ckselfinsert

@limey-blue-arty-do

@momomochaccino

#long post////#honestly this took me all day because i'm a lazy piece of shit #also got distracted playing borderlands I'm sorry

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