personal observations made by a new cane user:
you do not need to be in constant pain to own a cane.
folding canes have a clasp or band to keep them folded. losing the band is a pain in the ass.
you will get dirty looks
it does not matter what age you are. you will get dirty looks.
you have to hold it in the opposite hand as the disabled leg. this is fortunate, as I am right handed, so i hold it in my left hand to support my right leg.
people will try to steal your cane from you.
when standing still, I hold it in my right hand unless i need to do something right handedly. this does not work as well as i thought it would.
being visibly physically disabled is difficult. having a mobility aid will help with pain and movement, but some people don't get them because visible disability is treated with disgust.
if someone meets you for the first time, and you don't have your cane, then they will like you more, but they will not believe you are actually disabled.
if someone meets you for the first time, and you have your cane, they will not treat you the same.
the majority of other cane and mobility aid users I have met are homeless. I live close to a big city.
People do not want to see you being disabled.
you will not hear of the benefits of using a cane from anyone who does not use a cane.
no one will prepare you for the world of being visibly physically disabled. however bad you think we have it is usually not from the disability at all. I can deal with pain and I can deal with an indisposed left hand.
the hardest part of being disabled is the fact that no one will care until you make them care.
the disabled seats on trains are a suggestion
the disabled seats on buses are a suggestion.
you will have a different experience with using a cane than I have had.
your hand will become tired. you are using it as a leg.
your cane is legally a part of your body. this will not stop some people.
you are not your disability. but it will affect you.
i love you
theres always an invisible someone who has it worse. that person will not be affected or offended by your use of a cane. take the damn ibuprofen. put the folded cane in your bag. ask your friends for help. gd knows they need help sometimes too.
you will have to learn that things will be impossible to you. you may not run as fast anymore. you may not become a skater, like you always wanted to be. you may be left behind when everyone else runs ahead.
you deserve better.
your cane handle gets dirty. wash it.
some days pain is worse. some days you will feel it the moment you wake up.
no one deserves pain. the human condition is not to suffer. we deserve better. we deserve to be loved and not tolerated. we deserve to be seen better than from the corners of eyes. we deserve to be heard better than an afterthought at a meeting.
be quick to care for yourself. I love you.
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I wanted to ask what art programs you use! Do you use custom brushes as well? Your art is so soft and delicate, it reminds me of Renaissance era paintings like these
THATS THE NICEST THING ANYONE HAS EVER SAID ABOUT MY ART?????????,, ILL CRY RN DONT TEST ME
I use clip studio paint! Although im very bad with tech so I had my friend help me set it up so the interface basically looks just like firealpaca (which is a free drawing software!! that i believe is supposed to be a very good paint tool sai dupe & I used Exclusively for years until i switched to ipad last year, cant recommend it enough if anyone wants a good free option!)
I dont use any custom brushes although iv debated trying some out so maybe i will some day!! until then its me & round mixing brush 4 life <333
its what i use for all of my line art, highlights, etc. then just the regular pen & airbrush tools for coloring
i hope this was helpful(?)!!!
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The last of us has just reminded me of how much I miss the days when shows used to air episodes weekly. Like binge watching is fun and all but I miss the excitement of sitting down to watch the episode every week around the same time as everyone else, counting down the days to the next episode as the suspense builds and suddenly you’re like “ooh my show is on tomorrow! It’s that time of the week already?”, discussing the episode and your theories about what will happen next, actually being able to read others opinions and look at their edits without having to worry about spoilers from people who watched the entire season in one sitting. Tv and Fandom was an entirely different experience before streaming and entire seasons being dropped in one day and I just miss it
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share ur thoughts on ghouls.or just anything that uve thought about/noticed etc :o)
Omg ghouls are so fascinating and sad.
They generally make me sad because of how miserable they are in modern games. They are basically walking cadavers who are at various points of deterioration. In early games, they shared similar sentiments about humans as Super Mutants but it has completely flipped where a lot of them despise being ghouls now. They want cures and long for what they lost in being a smooth skin. It's sad a lot of them live with the inevitable fear of becoming feral and are discriminated against so aggressively. Some places have shoot-on-sight orders, and others treat them like second-class citizens who need to be accompanied by a human.
Canonically we don't really know what allows a ghoul to become a ghoul. We know it's caused by excessive exposure to radiation but it's not constant. We have ghouls like John Handcock who got ghoulified through drugs which was never really mentioned before in the series. Some people ghoulfied on purpose but their methods are not universally sustainable. There's no real reason that a ghoul becomes a ghoul, though, some in-universe theorist believe there is a gene that causes ghoulification, ergo, allows one to become a ghoul instead of dying when exposed.
It's sad because a lot of these ghouls could shed a lot of light on issues in the wastes. A lot of ghouls are pre-war and if not, very very old and knowledgeable. They are also one of the few groups that can go into radioactive zones which would help in clean-up operations. Like I can understand the unease in seeing something so similar and yet terrifying but non-feral ghouls just want to be left alone or allowed to integrate in the reforming societies.
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